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chase is so noise rock I can’t explain it
#I feel like he would hate noise rock#like a love hate relationship y’know#idk why I think this#I just do#I feel like he is more new wave and alternative rock though#what genre is jeff buckley…#google says alternative rock idk#I don’t think he’s that alternative#just like somewhat#I feel like he would be an elitist#like he would listen to an obscure european new wave band and be surprised that people don’t know it#conceited little fella#house md#robert chase#hate crimes md#music
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Agatha All Along deep dive: episode 3 part 3
(Wandavision entries: [1][2][3])
(AAA entries: ep1 [1][2][3][4] ep2 [1][2][3][4] ep3 [1][2][3] ep4 [1][2][3][4][5][6][7][+1] ep5 [1][2][3][4][5] ep6 [1][2][3] ep7 [1][2][3][4][5][6] ep8 [1][2][3][4][5][6][7][8][9] ep9 [1][2][3][4][5][6])
lilia: falling through time, desperately trying to help alice
agatha: bitch I'm trying to save myself!!!!! oh she's so awkward when she thinks lilia's going mad. she's a moment away from grabbing a broom and going there, there like in that 30 rock scene
I know they had a relatively low budget for this show and it was such a blessing in disguise. they invested in great sets and instead of cgi they relied on classic cinema tricks that I find so satisfying?? Idk if it's just nostalgia talking. here they simply move the camera away for a moment, lower the lights and move the actor in position, and it makes for an amazing jumpscare.
baby lilia asking 'vuoi vedere?' do you want to see? because it is a choice for lilia. for a long time she chose not to use her gift- she was simply too powerful, she saw too much, and the knowledge of the future scarred her and made her an outcast among others
alice's smile at seeing a vision of her mom T-T
why inconvenient? what was jen doing? she was an obstetrician and midwife. she was helping women out with herbs and pagan knowledge passed down from mother to daughter. Back in the day midwives were struggling to get their skills recognized in an increasingly male dominated field, they were advocating alternative treatments for women constantly humiliated by condescending modern doctors - from forced bed rest to insane asylums to lobotomy in worst case scenarios. think Charlotte Perkins Gilman's short story, The Yellow Wallpaper. think about everything that happened to Virginia Woolf.
we know that alice was a teenager when lorna died in a fire. she wasn't well, alice says, and we see now that she had a drinking problem. it's equally possible that the demon got to her or that she set herself on fire out of desperation. and if lorna could feel her own mother dying, alice could too.
daang great zombie makeup on the teacher lady
lilia when her incredible abilities made her able to see Death: burdened by knowledge way beyond the scope of humanity she goes into exile
agatha when her incredible abilities made her able to see Death: you know what I'm gonna tap that
I saw people saying that because the Road wasn't real nothing that happened in the show mattered, that they all died for nothing. I disagree completely, and not only because Billy's chaos magic is so astonishingly powerful that he can create a functional Road out of thin air. like, it wasn't a trick, he made it real. But more importantly, what happened to these women, their experiences, their growth on the Road is real. Even if Billy didn't do it on purpose, even if it's fucked up that a teenager can essentially go, you know what would be cool? if they all experienced their deepest trauma! but that's the point, that's the point, that's the whole damn point of the show. life is chaos and nonsense and heartbreak, it's up to you to find a meaning where there isn't any. look at lilia! the lesson is not that you're going to die, but what you choose to do with the cards that you're dealt, with the time that you're given.
while Patti clearly has an american accent, she is speaking correct sicilian, tutti morti su' - they could have had her talk in italian and hardly anyone would have noticed, but they went above and beyond with the details. the latin in the show is also rather impressive, like they actually hired experts rather than relying on google translate
agatha has gotten too used to run leaving a pile of bodies behind. not so easy to consider them just food when you have to live alongside them and witness their feelings, is it?? first wanda and now this!
@perpetualanon pointed out yesterday that agatha also had selfish reasons for wanting to save billy, i.e. she didn't want to risk him being poisoned because who knows what horrors a hallucinating billy could create. Yes! exactly that! it's always worth saying that when agatha has these fleeting moments of compassion and altruism it's in the context of a whole lotta selfishness. i think of her as that drawing of Stitch's badness level, her whole body is almost filled to the brim with awfulness and there's only a thin layer of goodness that she's constantly trying to smother. her actions on the Road are almost entirely selfish, but for the first time in centuries she's surrounded by people, like Lilia here and Jen and Alice and especially Billy, who are accidentally nurturing her almost atrophied good side. and lemme tell you she's pissed about it!
of course these two don't know what a sous vide is, one is dirt poor and the other eats people.
I'm gonna take a stand for zoomers here, he might have never learned what counterclockwise means, but millennials like me would also have hesitated and tried to picture it in our minds. because a lot of us lack spacial intelligence and are generally rather dumb
the shock and terror on her face when she hears nicky crying
another great special effect achieved only with lights and the cast shuffling out of frame
they show the darkhold because they need to mislead viewers and can't give nicky's story away just yet, but doesn't it make sense that agatha would see it? all these centuries blaming rio, and deep down agatha is haunted not by Death, but by her own actions and choices. the way she kept Nicky isolated and unsafe. the way she insulted his memory by going on killing sprees instead of letting herself mourn. the way she used the darkhold to corrupt her soul more and more, because she was never brave enough to confront her guilt.
kathryn hahn really said, do you want Emotional Devastation???? do you wanna see a woman SUFFER? do you want your heart put through a blender??? I can do that in TWO seconds
agatha wants to NOT DIE so badly that she has to drop the clown act and give jen a proper pep talk. because she knows what makes people tick and she can uplift just as well as she can destroy, she can help jen because she knows her so well. there's always that potential there, all of agatha's talent and her intelligence and experience could shape her into a great mother and sister in a coven. a potential that evanora refused to see and that will likely never be fulfilled.
and the irony, the irony of never wanting to hurt jen, to deliberately avoid going after her - because she's a midwife. because nicky was stillborn, because she had to give birth alone in the woods. agatha believes with all her heart that jen's work is fundamentally good and important. and yet she was the one who bound and tortured and violated her. she was so fucking focused on herself that she didn't even realize she was tramping and destroying everything in her path like a mad steamroller. she allied with the enemy, she went against her community's best interests. there's a lot to think about there, I really want to explore it more
patti during that hot ones episode
NOW YOU GUYS REMEMBER HER. and of course it's alice who does
your internalized stereotypes are really testing lilia's patience, billy (and while they consider the oven sharon is writhing and dying on the table)
how it started: jen pushing lilia out of the way
how it ended: "you are my sister in the craft" 🥲
I love you patti lupone
alice is strong! alice is noble! alice is pure of heart!
gee i wonder why
they had to add a goonies poster in billy's room because of this scene, but i guess disney didn't want to buy the copyright so the poster says "the goofballs"
agatha shoving everyone and then kicking jen twice for good measure
my guilty pleasure is watching reactors on youtube (don't judge) and everyone, everyone had my same reaction to sharon's death: she is not really dead. it was too unceremonious, too sudden. you cannot have debra jo rupp unconscious for half an episode and then get rid of her like that, she's too talented, too funny, how can they keep the humor up without her? if sharon is gone they don't want to watch anymore! no, they're gonna bring her back for sure, they're witches, they're going to find a way.
And then Alice dies, and it's unfair, it's too sad, she just had her big victory! that doesn't sit right with you, that the writers would do her so dirty. And then Lilia dies.
Wanda said it from the very beginning: we cannot reverse death, no matter how sad it makes us. Some things are forever. Sharon's death was horrible and uncomfortable and senseless on purpose, because these shows are about the exploration of grief. How can you make peace with the impossible? How can you reconcile yourself with a nice fun lady dying after losing her last shred of agency, scared and alone and forgotten? Didn't she deserve so much more than being just a casualty of witchfolk drama? And how can you reconcile yourself with someone as good and as wonderful as Alice dying in such a cruel way? What about the death of a parent? of a spouse? of a child? What about your own death, as inevitable and inescapable as your birth?
I'm posting this one early cos I didn't sleep last night and I wanna take a nap now 🥲 when I'm tired i ramble, I knew that already. sorry-y!
we get to episode four tomorrow, and y'all know what, or rather WHO, that means!
go to episode 4 part 1
#agatha all along#agatha deep dive#agatha harkness#jennifer kale#alice wu gulliver#sharon davis#character study
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Could you do an alternative version of borrowed time but it's a happy ending? Like they meet again maybe a couple of months or years later and idk it's super fluffy (idk I loved ur Javier fic it made me cry so hard)
Borrowed Time II (.5)
Javier Escuella x F! reader
Spoilers: RDR1-2 events Content: 18+ mdni, high honor Javier, fluff, loyalty, canon typical events & violence, possible spelling mistakes, some google translated Spanish, (slight angst? sry couldn't help myself) Type: second pov (wc - 3195) / pc: my PS5 a/n: here's my mediocre yapping, anon! I believe someone suggested this to me before, so here we are :) (btw I took some writing inspo from my spotify playlist.)
Summary: Javier is left with nothing after the gang's demise. Enticed with returning to Mexico, he finds redemption within his loyalty to you.
After being chased out of Beaver Hollow by the law, Javier found himself alone with Williamson. Somewhere in the sticks of northern Ambarino, where the risk of a grizzly finding them was higher than any lawman.
Laying low and listening to Bill squaller on about Dutch for a month was about all he could stomach, Javier reckoned he liked Bill a lot more when he didn’t talk.
As each day came to a close, one could guess where Javier’s mind wandered too. His bitter thoughts permeated on losing everything. Money, the gang, and you— Hell, the man didn’t know what to do with himself, considering you an extension of himself at this point.
Where were you? Did you make it out okay? Were you hurt?
These were a couple of the many questions that swam in the sea of Javier’s head.
“Are you still thinkin’ ‘bout that woman?”
Bill’s words of disgust were often displaced through his racing thoughts, but he wouldn’t be wrong. You were all Javier had upon entering these foreign lands, now he possessed nothing but the rocks in his boots.
The days would merge and turn into weeks, it didn’t take long for the plan of fleeing south to form in Bill’s lackluster head. Keen on the protection Javier could potentially bargain in Nuevo Paraiso.
Javier knew he was a dead man returning south, under no circumstances was that a can of worms he wanted to open with—Bill Williamson, out of all folk.
Besides, there was no man’s bidding Javier would consider doing to get the leverage Bill desired. But Bill’s ideas soon evolved into frustrated persuasion.
“How do’ya know that woman wasn’t the rat, anyhow?”
Bill would rant about you, the delusions Dutch fed him would resurface, but soon be swallowed back down with the same loyalty Javier once held so close.
“My chica wouldn’t, I’m telling you, cabrón. She’d save your neck just as much mine.”
Perhaps not completely true, Javier’s apathetic statements held no power over Bill, but at least it stopped his ear from being chewed off.
For all Bill was concerned, you were a coward just as much as the rest who left. Especially for plaguing Javier’s mind.
Bill would resort to not just questioning your loyalty to the gang, but your loyalty to Javier all together. The bold claims would make Javier think back to Clemons Point.
After a particularly nasty fight with Dutch, Molly sat on a nearby log as he sharpened his knife. He never knew what to say in situations like that, it was probably best he stayed out of it.
“The way she looks at you…”
The timid words escaped her. Realizing there was no one else around she could have been talking too, he met her stricken gaze which glistened off the moonlight.
“Huh?”
He wondered, caught off guard by the illusive topic. Molly wiped her rosy cheeks before she tenderly spoke.
“I wish I could look at Dutch the same.”
Javier just stared at the tear-stained woman in pity, unsure what to make of her unanticipated words.
That night's shift would give him plenty of time to think about it. Before eventually settling on giving you some extra attention. If it wasn’t obvious enough, he soon learnt that what you two shared was irreplaceable.
There was no doubt to Javier that you loved him, every lead he went on, you’d listen for the horses. Ready to greet him by his hitching post for a kiss, or with small talk that was exclusive to you both.
Javier would often get teased for the love you shared, perhaps some of it branched into jealousy. Not that he minded, the others knew you were off limits.
So it was safe to say that Bill’s claims was one thing Javier didn’t take lightly. With curses spat, and threats thrown, Bill had no other choice but to eat his words.
“Me ‘nd her go way further back than you and I.”
Javier’s irate words would soon remind Bill where he stood— below you.
That was Bill Williamson’s final straw for him to realize their parting was long overdue.
“If you wasn’t a fool, you’d be comin’ with.”
Was the last thing he spat to Javier one cloudy morning, bedroll and guns thrown on his unkempt steed.
You won't be seeing me again.
Javier thought in vain. Watching Bill’s departure in silence, just as he watched yours— except their time was up.
A cruel nightly cycle would leave Javier somewhere beneath the stars. The same night sky you’d lay him down gently in; he wondered if you were looking up at them too— or maybe you don’t think of him much anymore, just to get by.
Dozing off provided no sort of relief, the same thoughts that ate him alive during the day showed no mercy for a night's rest.
The dreams began after Guarma, and have stuck since. Most nights he would wake up confused, drenched in sweat, and frantically reaching for his gun belt only worn hours prior.
Your sweet voice would unknowingly soothe his hurt, all while he dismissed your attempts of rebuilding the bond you once shared. Javier regrets the distance, but he’s not sure if he would ever be ready to talk about Guarma.
Nonetheless, the terrible dreams always persisted, but managed to worsen after you left. They were so convoluted, Javier wasn’t sure which was a worse way to die; a watery grave, or succumbing to torture in a cage.
Other nights, Javier would dream about the day he returned to you at Beaver Hollow, god only knew how long they were gone for.
It was a rather gloomy day, at the end of the camp path was where he found you by your lonesome, as if you’ve been waiting for any sign of the missing men. Javier had seen better days, unshaven, wounded leg, and tattered garments that barely resembled the botched heist clothing he once wore. Javier approached you with a conflicted feeling of dread and relief, unsure of what to expect of you. But to the man’s horror, you crumbled before him.
You were just as much of a mess as he was. A terrible feeling arose from within his ribcage and drifted up, he momentarily thought he was going to black out from the knot building in his throat. An unmanageable feeling in his legs had already begun to brew throughout the day, vibrating and distorting his ears, blocking out your sobs he created. A near breaking point was threatening to consume him— he didn’t even know what day it was, how could he not know?
“You stupid bastard,”
Fallen at his feet, he cradled you soon after his initial shock dissipated.
“I know, I’m here now.”
Javier could barely recognize the hoarseness of his own voice, the words felt foreign to say after being gone for so long. Hopelessness overflowed from within him, and seeped into your frame that he held. All he could do was shield you from the cruel world he created for you both on that barren dirt path.
Your frantic pleas to leave would go unacknowledged, only to be substituted with soft hushes that were swept away in the trees. He couldn’t have just left, he had already sacrificed too much to quit now. Javier always swore Dutch would change your lives for the better.
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In the recent nights of Macfarlane’s Ranch, life was still.
Javier’s dreams would evolve into a vessel of his old possession. Through bittersweet nostalgia, a buck would galavant by a stream, only to eventually stop and stand in triumph before fleeing into the distance. Those dreams offered Javier both temporary comfort and the humbling desolate nights he needed to return to you.
While staring off into the plains, Bill’s idea would occasionally infatuate him. The uncut ties of Mexico were beckoning, it was only a day's worth of digging in. Javier wasn’t sure he was built out for the vaquero life anymore, but those old chains around his feet would pull him back down.
Javier would eventually decide he wouldn’t watch the west die out, with false hopes of one last score followed by a life of freedom— he figured he already lost what made life rich.
At the ranch, Javier would chat up the yokels, describing you to the best of his abilities. Which usually stumped him— you... well, you were just you. He’s never been apart from you to have to worry about your description— Javier was always there.
Days passed without trace of you, it was probably best he left before the law caught wind of his excessive presence.
It was hopeless, yet he prayed on the North wind that it would him to you.
You could run the fool around in circles looking for your whereabouts. Hell, you could be in Timbuktu by now. Just like the day you left, the same hopelessness would creep upon Javier in those rare moments of disparity.
Those moments would eat him from the inside out, that discomforting pit forming in his stomach was always enough to empty it on the ground.
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The aimless paths of New Austin was a place where the souls of saddle tramps go.
Into the horizon of the blazing sun was where you sat, under the only tree seen in miles. Your shire grazed in between you and the lonely road, like a black flag it stood in the orange dirt. Not even it could escape the mourning which life embraced.
You are not sure how much time passed you there, perched up under the tree, you’d watch the road. Studying the little silhouettes of cowpokes slowly growing as they approached periodically, all you thought of was Javier. Hope overturned your grudge until they were near.
Some of these men would simply tip their hat as they passed, others would offer you a ride to town, and a few just stared at you; their forlorn eyes scratched at the walls of your soul. As if they were trying to tell you something.
Just as unfortunate as yourself, the nameless victims would soon be swallowed and spit back out by the blazing desert that awaited them.
It wasn’t until a clear morning for Javier to stumble upon that fork in the road, leading to the tree where you sat; seeking the same retreat you did days ago.
Sickeningly poetic; with no such weight on your shoulders, you seemed to have found the freedom Javier had been chasing all these years. Right front of him this entire time in the devoid lands of New Austin.
Usually well groomed, the man showed a five o'clock shadow, earning a more rugged demeanor his months away from the luxuries of camp.
Lost puppy-dog eyes stared your way, being shielded by his bowler cap. The hair you used to run your fingers through was neatly tied back, and draping over his poncho.
“Javier,”
You greeted solemnly, your tranquil gaze greeting the man from where you sat. The thumping began in his ears as he staggered off Boaz, stiffly trying to shake the sudden feeling that your voice gave him.
“hola amor.”
He uttered awkwardly, approaching your newfound paradise underneath the old shady tree.
“I reckoned you’d be in Tahiti by now.”
You remarked bitterly, eyeing your lover from under the brim of your hat. He gripped the front of his gun belt, knuckles turning white and misshapen after all the years of abuse, the same hands that would be placed around your hips as he guided you through a busy town.
Javier let out a rueful huff as he shifted his weight from foot to foot. It flustered him to be antagonized in such a low moment of his life, especially by you.
But he simply did not possess the words and feelings begging to be shared with you— there were just too many.
Expecting you to continue, there was a deafening silence.
It was more than just the silence that plagued these western lands, but a sadness that often followed Javier everywhere he roamed, you could see it in his smile.
The lands gave Javier a place to duck under his doubts and troubles for a time, like a buck stuck beneath the bottom wire.
“It’s over,”
Javier’s voice came out as a whisper, thumb and finger caressing over the stubble on his chin.
A conclusion which needed no further words, you understood.
He never imagined it not meaning anything, but yet his brothers were reduced to the barrel he pointed.
Small shines of orange bathed through the wilting leaves which provided your gracious shade. As you contemplated his words, a soft breeze accompanied the both of you.
Finally arising to meet his frame, he towered over you slightly— lost along the way but finally found,
you were no longer his partner in crime, nor a part of the Van der Linde gang— but just his chica he met all those years ago in Old Mexico, before the world was big.
Javier knew he couldn’t make up for your lost time together, but for now, being with you would do.
Without a word his arms wrapped around you and trailed down to the small of your back, the smell of rolled tobacco leeched off his poncho, a smell you’ve grown fond of over the years. As his cheek rested on the crown of your head, a different kind of silence was shared.
“Oh Javi,”
Your voice now both sorrowful and tender, it was impossible to hold a grudge against the warm honeypot eyes that yearned for you.
“lo sé,”
Javier murmured softly, giving into the relief that a calmer life brought.
Behind where you rested revealed a testament the tree possessed. A bald spot in the maple-colored wood had bark torn away, faded letters with sap-filled groves were carved by previous visitors of the solitude tree:
‘blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy’
Javier united your lips with a long awaited kiss, your cheeks softly being caressed by his thumbs. To him, it was like falling for you all over again. But this time, he wanted to do everything right.
“Figured the law got you.”
You mumbled one of your many worries after the man pulled away. Javier scrunched up his nose, cringing at your doubts.
“Course not, nunca.”
Eventually bidding your farewell to the tree, you joined Javier at Boaz’s saddlebags for what seemed to be a celebratory smoke.
“They were hangin’ around that ranch, it’s not safe.”
You proclaimed, even the west had reminded you that a quiet cabin life was unrealistic. He hummed against the tobacco in between his lips, considering your words.
“Where does that leave us?”
Javier asked through an exhale. His sharp eyes squinted under the sun, staring at you in devotion.
For the first time in a year, you made that choice together.
With possessions on your shire and the both of you on Boaz, was where Javier liked you best. Feeling your heartbeat on his back always reminded him of Mexico, yet you were his home.
While riding, your hands would instinctively grasp Javier’s gun belt. Marking both the leather and his heart throughout the years you spent together.
Later that day Javier’s buck would graze upon the open fields you crossed, only to scamper off once your horses made way. Its coat bright and shining off the sinking sun, he swore it’s the biggest one he’s ever seen.
Expecting a comment, Javier thought maybe you dozed off, or perhaps he accidentally sipped his flask instead of his canteen.
Aways up north yielded reassurance and prosperity, the man decided that tonight he would sleep instead of keeping watch, an unusual gesture he knew you both needed.
Far away from the lands you once both resided, a comfortable wilderness separated you and any dangers— Maybe tomorrow night he would keep watch, but tonight, he just needed you.
Javier’s shaking hands prepped a small flame, and smoothed out the creases of your bedroll that night. The same hands that would work a revolver effortlessly, and confidently beat in the faces of men in a moment's notice.
but for you? they trembled.
Fingers that had been busted more times than you could count were now fumbling through every button of your shirt, leaving a trail of his lips where his hands once touched.
Nonetheless satisfied with these tasks, the crinkles beside his eyes would reflect off the flame as he flashed you a content smile.
The fire crackled within your cozy makeshift camp, its orange flame lighting up Javier’s torso just enough to highlight the tones and scars on his chest.
Javier was used to catching you staring, never failing to tease you about it. A mere husky chuckle and verbal warning would remind you of his diminutive willpower when it came to you.
Joining you beneath the blankets, his body radiated with the warmth you craved. With a protective arm easing you towards him, your skin colliding with his was enough to wash all his hardships away.
Your lips ghosted down his neck, causing a loose sigh to escape his lips. Javier cooed words of endearment, unsure if he deserved your regained affection.
You felt him tense around you as your lips traveled down to his adam’s apple and the large horizontal scar that covered it.
“lo siento,”
He muttered softly, finally getting the long awaited words out— It was for a lot of things, that scar was just one of them.
His breath hitched and ran down your bare skin, your torso being consumed by his restless large hands. Only you reminded Javier of his scars, usually in a way of gratification, having earned them throughout your time together.
But that healed slit along his throat brought the man waves of embarrassment, Javier was thankful for your love nonetheless, and you for his loyalty.
With belated love and words begging to be said, Javier knew his lips had a lot of catching up to do. But tonight you both needed rest.
As if it was tradition, he ensured you found your peace first, maybe it solaced the man knowing you were safe within his arms.
Gusts of winds whistled through the trees, causing them to sing a song made just for the two of you. His coarse hands ran down your sides before settling at your waist, once again basking in what he could have lost.
Up yonder was where the starry night sky shined just for him to see you. The constellations washed away his most honorable sins, and extended the borrowed time you both had been lent years ago.
The blanket you shared was pulled over your shoulder, ensuring your undisturbed rest. Javier’s gentle lips ghosted over your cheek for just one more kiss goodnight.
You were long asleep, closely tucked within the arms of the man you called home. Yearning to chase the relief your shared nights provided, Javier’s eyes grew heavy. Through a gentle state of somnolent, his prideful buck accompanied him in the meadow it frolicked.
Whispered words slipped into the night and greeted his slumber.
“te amo.”
~
#rdr2 headcanons#javier escuella#x reader#javier escuella x reader#red dead redemption 2 x reader#rdr2 x reader#rdr x reader#high honor#red dead redemption fandom#this was supposed to be longer but i cut it out to make it flow better#not sure if i like it but i had fun writing#javier is my fav to write i think#save me javier save me :(
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I’ve made yet another Hazbin Sinner OC
These are way too much fun to make.
But here’s Somni and his pet paralysis demon (name yet to be determined)
He grew up in the 80s and 90s and died from lack of sleep when he was around 21. (idk if that directly can be the cause of death or if lack of sleep can LEAD to things causing death. Google says it can but I kinda doubt that)
He’s definitely a grunge/emo/alternative kid that went to rock music to cope. (I’ll Sleep when I’m Dead by Set it Off comes to mind 💀)
In terms of personality he’s very paranoid and a clutz which are symptoms of lack of sleep.
✌️
#hazbin#hazbin hotel#hazbin art#hazbin sinner#sinner#my sinner#sinner oc#new character design#digital art#drawing#sketch#original art#my art <3#my art shit#oc design#grunge#emo boy#alternative#90s#90s style#insomnia#residential paralysis demon#paralysis demon#sleep paralysis#poor baby#bro did not die peacefully that’s for sure#I’m liking this way too much#making sinner designs is fun
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I love watching edits of Sam Monroe but something that always annoys me when I consume content about him is that they always call him Emo😭 THAT MAN IS NOT EMO, HE IS A DIFFERENT CATEGORY OF ALTERNATIVE PLEASE LISTEN TO ME 🙏
If you asked that teenage loser if he listens to blink-182, MCR, pierce the veil, or panic at the disco he would look at you the way Anakin reacted to Padmé saying they shouldn’t have kissed (Although that’s not to say he wouldn’t like some of the music, it’s just not the genre he canonically listens to)
But if you asked him about default, Marilyn Manson, Limp bizkit, and On (All bands that he canonically listens to at least some of the songs of in Life as a house 2001)
TL;DR
Sam Monroe listens to rock and metal not traditionally emo songs/artists SO HE ISN’T EMOOOOOOOO, I’d call him more of a punk or metalhead
Also just to mention I’m not a valid source when asking about genres bc idk the differences between metal and rock, half of the time I Google if a song should go into my rock playlist or I go based on how much my ears hurt while listening to the song with earbuds so just to add punk or metalhead may not be the best way for me to describe him but he’s definitely not emo and I hate that people describe him as emo just because he’s alternative and wears eyeliner and dresses more grunge 💔🙏 It causes me physical pain when I see people mischaracterize a character I love, calling him emo gives me the same pain as if someone were to say he calls people kitten whiskers or some shit
#jaxsonschluter#hayden christensen#sam monroe#life as a house#stop spreading the emo misinformation🙏
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Idk how I haven't thought of this already as a huge mitski fan, but "Francis forever" is so totally a song nico would have written about bianca
(And i know its a romance song but it can be interpreted otherwise since its quite vague)
(And i also know its not rock or pop, but i still think it fits!!)
finally got around to listening to it and then i realized ive heard this before and OHMYGOD??? ITS SO GOOD?? idk why ive never gotten into mitski she’s one of those artists that like i feel like i should listen to but never get around to😭 i actually think that it def has some rock and pop elements (and also looked it up online to confirm my suspicions bc tbh genres r wack and don’t rlly make sense a lot - google says it’s a blend of indie rock and alternative pop which is very nico)
i def have to figure out an album to add this to. ahdksjd so much good music, these lyrics also?? the part that i had known (from tiktok, ik, lame) but “on sunny days i go out walking / i end up on a tree-lined street / i look up at the gaps of sunlight / i miss you more than anything” is SO😭😭😭
anyway. absolutely obsessed. thank u so much for recommending this !!!
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"it is IMPERATIVE that you listen to weird niche music of some kind." And what weird niche music do you listen to hmmmmmmm
Oh, you got my ass!
To be upfront, I mostly listen to... the poppiest, most accessible versions of Weird Niche Music and I have been open about that! So, I might be posting more friendly songs from more experimental artists. Or I might be posting Really Popular Artists from more niche spheres--like "The Silver Cord" by King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizards, which lots of people know of by now but the average person might not.
And I'm also rly open about also just... very sincerely loving vapid, formulaic pop music as well. So! Enjoy those caveats, enjoy this list
"Juxtaposition" Silica Gel is the middle point between cerebral and abrasive Korean rock. They just released an album, check out the entire thing.
"Dancing When You're Dead" STAP Sigh Boys. Kinda funky, weird vocals, but also just a nice, retro sound with modern trappings.
"American Psycho" .grouptherapy. Alternative hip hop with guitar on this track but they're great at tackling and morphing many genres (see their collab track "Disco Pantz" vs "FUNKFEST" vs "Thatsmycheck")
"Aladdin" Wednesday Campanella. I suppose if you've been into Japanese EDM, even via anime and video games, this sound isn't that niche but it's still fun. Found via my dashboard.
"The Mad Stone" Everything Everything. Their entire discography, actually but this song is the most... out there in recent times. Starts off with a twee, folksy sound that actually kinda pisses me off btu then really pushes boundaries and transforms into something new.
"Captain" redveil. The entire EP this is from is a lightly experimental landscape. He was featured on a JPEGMAFIA track if that clarifies the playground he's in.
"Calla" Rubio. Actually, a kinda convention sound in that it fits the kinda slow, sweeping synth sound that you'd associate with a time past. I just wanted to highlight Rubio because he's Chilean and it's more difficult to find info on him (in American) than it should be!
Or like, I could recommend "Mephisto" by Queen Bee, which is Japanese Rock, but has near operatic elements but... was an ED for an extremely popular anime.
But that invokes a question, doesn't it? What is NICHE and weird music? I feel like the more you explore and open up your mind to music that isn't just fed to you via Tiktok or Similar Interest Algorithms (where you're confined to 1.5 genres), the harder it is to confidently say your music is niche.
Is something niche if it's popular in a different country/culture than you? Is it just niche if your friends don't know their name but their sound is the same as/nearly adjacent to what's on the radio? Is it still niche if, yes, it's part of a more narrow subculture BUT it's like... baby's first artist in said subculture/subgenre?
Like... before Kpop got bigger in the west, if someone told me Shinee was niche, I'd still be like ??? SHINEE?? But to someone who has never ventured into kpop or even "foreign" music before, yeah, I could see the argument.
I listen to "Sezon Pomidorowy" by Franek Warzywa & Młody Budda and hte sound is definitely weird (Polish musicians bringing an almost hyperpop sensibility to a song structure that is a lot more... acoustic than that?) but I found them via a big music critic and I think they have had big songs on tiktok. (I would not know but google mentioned something about tiktok, so idk.)
The point about encouraging people to listen to more niche music isn't necessarily to have people prove Their Music is Truly Weird (I don't think any of the music on this list is that weird) but more to encourage people to try out music outside of what is fed directly to them.
In part, because I think people have a looot of music that they would LOVE but just do not naturally encounter via following trends, and it would benefit both them and the musicians if they discovered said music.
But, on a selfish note, also because I think it makes it harder for people to hype up truly rote music as Revolutionary because, well, you'll encounter more experimental music that has Already Done the Thing.
I've said before, there is no bad taste in music (outside of VERY rare exceptions) but there is underdeveloped taste in music. And I think not exploring different sounds, musicians, genres, national outputs means not being equipped to truly judge music.
So like I could list dozens of songs I don't think any of my followers would know by musicians they've never even heard of but that kinda... misses the point.
That post isn't a DPS Check for Rare Music but rather a place to say... hey, have you tried new music recently? Clicked a music rec from a mutual that sounds almost scary to you? Have you been scared off a song because it's not in a language you speak? Listen anyways. Does a genre sound startling? Try a song in it anyways.
Maybe you don't like it. That's fine! But you fucking tried it!!! And that counts for something.
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i saw that you quit treatment today and i wanted to reach out to offer another type of help. idk if you've tried groups but i have a full google doc of them that might have some winners in it. i can't vouch for any of the groups on the list (except for the one im in!), but i can say that groups saved my life when it comes to my ed. almost four years ago now i was in a real horrible place and nobody would take me for outpatient and i relied on groups, and like i said, they saved my life. if you want the resource i can send it to you, but i dont wanna pressure you into it. like i said, i only know from my experience in groups, but recovery is worth all the work that goes into it. it's hard and a lot to deal with, but i promise that it's better than living life with an active ed. if you need support i can message you off anon, i just wanted to let you know that there was alternative support out there.
Hey! Thanks for taking the time to message me, you rock. I appreciate your offer but I'm just no longer interested in attempting any groups anymore.
I've tried doing treatment in the past and it just wasn't helpful. And this time around was a higher level of care and still unhelpful. I was meeting with a group three days a week, meeting with a psychiatrist, meeting with a nutritionist, and it just didn't fit me. It was all just wasting my time. I'm too jaded to get anything out of group when all they talk about is shallow surface level topics and the nutritionist treats me like an idiot. I stop caring.
My nutritionist was a bitch. Every time she spoke to me she was rude as hell for no reason. I just wanted to get better.
The groups took HOURS in the middle of the day taking away from my work schedule and taking away from my paychecks. Everyone was younger than me and couldn't relate to their struggles. The activities in group weren't helpful to me ten years ago and weren't helpful to me now. I fully decided to leave after the psychiatrist asked our group if our "eating disorder allows for self compassion" ......
No fucking shit. What are we stupid??? Obviously the answer is fucking NO. God damn. Every group meeting has been that: stupid obvious questions that mean nothing. Hours in group today and all we did was "therapy" for less than an hour and we watched a Ted talk. The rest of the time was a fucking waste of nothingness.
Immediately out of there. I recover better on my own anyways. I have zero interest in doing any groups any more.
HOWEVER
If you're able to send the link I'd love to share it here so others who see it can take a look and see if it helps them!!
#i love you anon#youre a real one#i hope you get everything you want in life#thank you for your time!!#i love you!!!!
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1. What are you doing at this exact moment? (I want details, people!)
Details, okay. Sitting on the floor in the living room and doing a survey on my laptop while half listening to this true crime video my sister is watching. Occasionally checking my phone too.
2. The one song you will never get sick of? Additionally, any song recommendations?
I feel like there are sooo many songs I won’t get sick of. But I’ll go with Blood Sweat & Tears by BTS -- that song is just *chef’s kiss*. Alsooo, Jimin’s whole new album is fantastic, so that’s my recommendation.
3. Name everything you have ever wanted to be (occupations and random things, like animals!)
Oof, I’m pretty sure I won’t even be able to remember it all. But here goes nothing: writer, translator, chocolate factory owner, astronaut, archaeologist, Santa Claus, teacher, wizard in Harry Potter, actor, singer, artist, and ever since I got a cat, I’ve really wanted to switch places with it too.
4. What is the best fanfic you have ever read?
Ahahah so honestly, I only read really bad fanfics since I find them so funny. When I was younger I used to read some good ones too. But at this stage of my life, the more messy they are, the better. My absolute favourite of all time is My Immortal and well, it’s not good per se, but it’s a work of art.
5. Name every fandom you have ever been in!
I’m a fan of many things but I used to avoid fandoms, so it’s only recently that I’ve actually got involved in a few. So I’d say just AoT fandom (a complete mess btw) and Army.
6. What is the saddest movie you have ever watched? Additionally, movie recommendations?
Any films where dogs die or watch their owners die, like, why. I think I cried my soul out watching Hachi and I’m not even much of a crier normally.
As for movie recs, Oldboy. Korean version though. Thank me or curse me later.
7. If you could direct your own TV show/movie, what would it be like?
I’d probably go for psychological horror with some really bizarre twist or so.
8. The cringiest account/fan account you’ve ever made? (oh god)
I didn’t really have any, I think. There was a time I had this weird Google+ account where I followed anime pages and even became an admin of one, but I don’t think there was anything super cringy there.
...I hope.
9. What’s your aesthetic? Describe it to us.
I’m not really sure I even have an aesthetic, but I’m like a mixture of K-pop and rock/alternative/grunge scene with a little dash of Halloween (so, all in all, lots of black clothes).
10. One thing you’ve always wished you could do / be good at?
Dancing or painting.
11. Put a picture of your best (or your worst!) fanart/drawing ever!
I only do little chibi doodles here and there but they’re all pretty horrible lol
12. The best book you have ever read? Additionally, any book recommendations?
Oof, that’s a hard one. I guess one of my all-time favourites is The Trial by Kafka, but I have to mention Convenience Store Woman by Sayaka Murata because I feel like that book both fully understands me and also changed my entire outlook on life. It’s really short too, so everyone can and should read it!
13. Most exotic food you’ve ever had?
Idk, I don’t think I’ve eaten anything too exotic. I guess octopus is kind exotic in these parts, so I’ll go with that.
14. Post a picture of the weirdest/funniest text conversation you’ve ever had!
I don’t really save pictures of my convos with friends and I won’t go looking for anything now.
15. Random fun fact about you!
Last summer at 4 am in the morning, I decided to just chop off my bangs, so I grabbed regular kitchen scissors and did it, no planning, no idea what I’m doing, no nothing. Surprisingly, they turned out okay -- not the best, but acceptable. I shudder to think what could’ve been now that I actually watched some tutorials and know how I'm supposed to do it.
16. What do you think of me?
You’re a real engima.
17. Do you have any fake names? Pseudonyms? Idk, stage names, street names? If not, what would it be?
Nah, and I don’t know what name I would give myself anyway.
18. What is your idea of a perfect life?
Just having the financial freedom to travel the world whenever I want and health to support such adventures for as long as possible.
19. Finish the sentence: “Oh, to be a _____”
Cat.
20. Is there a stranger you would like to meet again?
A sweet old woman I met on the bus once who was telling me about her health problems. She was so grateful because I adjusted something on her phone, and I really hope she’s doing better now.
21. Post a picture of you/someone you know doing something weird. Do it, you won’t. Coward. (Obviously the pic doesn’t have to have a face in it)
Nah, I’m definitely a coward
22. Is there a place you feel homesick for even though you’ve never been there?
So, I wouldn’t really call that homesick, but I desperately want to visit Japan. And sometimes when I watch stuff related to Japan and see the nature and the streets and all, I just go like ;-; take me there already
23. Basic, but what’s your sign?
Leo
24. What sign do you act like? What sign do you wish you were?
Idk for sure, but I always think I act more like my rising sign, Aquarius. And I don’t know which sign I’d like to be, it doesn’t really make a difference to me
25. What is one unusual thing you do?
I’m in the process of making 1000 origami cranes because a legend says you can make a wish once you’re done. I don’t actually know what I’d wish for, but by the time I’m done, I’m sure I’ll figure it out
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Random relationship headcanons for the Decay of Angels boys!!
I love my evil husbands, enjoy this trainwreck
Fyodor Dostoevsky 🐁
Oh God. He smells like…a sewer rat
I'm not even joking like he probably smells unpleasant (not to the point where it's noticeable tho, only if you're really close to him)
If he's feeling fancy he'll throw on some cologne but don't bet on it
Hair is also really greasy
He scarcely eats but he's a big fan of sweet food (think ice cream and baked stuff) and trad. Russian food
Please for the love of God force this man to eat
He'll forget to eat + drink on a daily basis because he gets so caught up in work, how is he even still alive
Did I mention he also doesn't sleep
HOW is he canonically one of the smartest people yet he does stuff like this fr
If he trusts you (Lord knows how you'll achieve that) and he's tired (as per usual) he won't be opposed to the thought of just downright collapsing onto you
You'll rarely see this man anyhow, but when you do he'll just be sleeping
What a great boyfriend am I right (It's okay he needs the rest, plus patting his hair as he sleeps is kinda nice)
I believe his favorite places to have dates at are his or your apartment
Away from the public eye; just the two of you, alone
He can play his cello for you!
He'd encourage you to try it out as well, but you'd be so terror stricken by the thought of what he'd do to you if you broke it somehow that you just...would rather pass
I doubt he'd ever actually hurt you tho; yes, he's extremely distrustful and arguably heartless, but if you haven't done anything to insinuate you want to betray him…he'll be tame
Also, did I MENTION how cold he is
Maybe that's why he wears winter clothes in such warm weather ㅡ cuz otherwise he'd just freeze to death
Warm him up pls
Although he's not used to just casual physical contact so when you start holding his hands to warm them up he'll look at you like "??? Do you want to die??"
Once you explain it to him he's like "Oh"
His giant ego won't let him express it but know that he appreciates it
Also, this is a given, but Fyodor is extremely manipulative so you'll never really be sure if his feelings are sincere or not
Nikolai Gogol 🤡
I had to Google "what do clowns smell like" for this aye-
The answer: apparently cabbages and cotton candy
I really like that idea so I'm sticking with it xhsjhx, Nikolai smells like either cabbages or cotton candy; no in-between
Loves piroshki!!! Any kind!!! For reference; piroshki are small boat-shaped buns which can be both sweet and savory, as it depends on the filling (most common fillings include: ground meat, mashed potato, mushrooms, boiled egg with scallions, or cabbage. Typical sweet fillings are fruit (apple, cherry, apricot, lemon), jam, or quark)
Why did I just give a small piroshki lesson
Anyhow, yes, that's his favorite food so pls buy a lot of them for him (if you make them yourself he'll be so deeply touched, but be careful, he tends to see positive emotions towards someone as brainwashing)
Is he a bad cook??? Is he a good cook??? Does he just simply steal everything via coat and make it seem like he's the one that made it?? We don't know
His favorite places to have dates at are carnivals or theaters
He loves theaters so much omg
I have a feeling that if you told him he'd make a great actor he'd just evaporate out of joy
And he WOULD make a great one tho?? This man got talent
I'd imagine you're pretty much the only person he would ever open up to regarding the insane amount of guilt he feels
(Yet again, be careful, he's very unpredictable when it comes to people he grows fond of)
Do comfort him if he ever breaks down tho, please
Sleeping together? With this man? It's a wild experience
He moves around so much
He's also prone to night terrors (like I said, insane amounts of guilt) so if he ever stops moving you should probably wake him up, cuz that's a nightmare so horrible he just froze in place
Give him hug
Sigma 🎲
Sigma smells nice no cap
It's a mix of lavender and mint
Don't ask how that works it just does
I think he'd be the type to like any kind of food as long as it's lovingly made
He has no standards but at the same time he has extremely strict standards y'know
There's nothing specific he likes but if he likes it then he Likes It
He gets called a rock musician and people say he looks "alternative" when he's literally walking around in a suit but I digress
He'd let you do his makeup
I'd say he'd even encourage it
(Give him a punk rock alternative makeover lmao)
Also, to no one's surprise, his favorite place to have dates at is the Sky Casino
It's his home! He's proud of it!!
Please be proud of him as well it would mean the world to him
He's so cheesy, he'll stay stuff like "I feel most at peace with you, you are my home", and then get super embarrassed
If you smile fondly at him and say you like him just the way he is, cheesy remarks and all, you will be charged with murder because this man will DIE
He's so confused when it comes to a lot of stuff
Like he once asked "is interesting an emotion" and NO ONE answered him (poor bb :() but like be prepared for a lot of questions like that
Take your time and explain it to him, he'll be so grateful
Ngl, out of these 3, he's the best option bc he's not unreachable (cough cough Fyodor) and doesn't strive for emotional freedom so much that he'd kill whoever he grows attached to (cough cough Nikolai)
Soft husband
A little bit clingy but can you really blame him
Just be there for him, it'll be alright
Ivan Goncharov (bonus!) 🤕
He's in the Rat House not the DOA but I wanted to include him
(We stan Ivan in this house)
He's completely devoted to Fyodor
Idk how you'd ever even strike a conversation with him given he's constantly by the rat man's side
I'd imagine you'd have to be either a past friend (which I doubt he'd welcome) or an underling of Fyodor as well
Either way, please be kind to him
I think his devotion to Fyodor is a LITTLE bit unhealthy so if possible just draaag him away from that (will be very difficult to do)
He smells nice, like an expensive brand of shampoo and conditioner
I'd imagine his hair is really soft too, he'll gladly let you play with it
Braid it!! He'll look so pretty!!
BE GENTLE with the wound on his head, Fyodor isn't a professional surgeon, so even though the incision itself was a success he didn't really patch it up correctly
Just be gentle with it, if possible, take him to the hospital to get it checked out
He loves classical music!!
Expect to hear that playing in the background a lot
If you start helping him with the chores (like making tea and cleaning) at first he'll think of it as an insult to his ability, but after a while it'll grow on him
He'll learn to appreciate the little things
If you have any kind of favorite dish; he'll be frequently making just that
Likewise, if you ever request for something different, you'll get it made perfectly, just for you
A good, happy boye, deserves better
#bungou stray dogs#bsd#bsd Fyodor#bsd Nikolai#bsd sigma#bsd ivan#bungou stray dogs Fyodor#bungou stray dogs Nikolai#bungou stray dogs sigma#bungou stray dogs ivan#Fyodor Dostoevsky#Nikolai Gogol#Sigma#Ivan Goncharov#Fyodor x reader#Nikolai x reader#Sigma x reader#Ivan Goncharov x reader
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I think with zukka it’s the exact opposite as soulmates like in every way these two should’ve never even met let alone connect but they did and they do and they balance each other out in so many ways... them being together isnt fulfilling some serious destiny them being together is being able to let their guard down and being who they were never allowed to be: youthful, and playful... essentially when I think of zukka I think of laughter and the heaviness one’s heart feels when they’re nearly overwhelmed with happiness. No fate, no destiny, no titles... just being.
i think that in order to break down what sokka and zuko’s relationship means in relation to soulmates especially interpreting this relationship as romantic, we need to start with the basics. get ready for a long and probably pretty wordy ride.
let's start with the meaning of the word “soulmate” specifically in fandom. the most common perception of a soulmate in fandom is that your soulmate is quite literally the other half of your soul, meaning that without this romantic interest you are somehow incomplete. now, what the hell is a soul? according to my dear friend google, a soul is “the spirit or the essence of a person, and the part of the person that makes them who they are and will be even after death.” is it even possible to split a soul in half? well, in my opinion everyone in fandom is essentially insane, so i’d rather say that no, it is not possible for a soulmate to be the other part of your soul, or for another person fictional or otherwise to complete you as another person, fictional or otherwise (when it's fictional, a soulmate can add depth and nuance, maybe?? but not complete. what the fuck does complete even mean). i have a more interesting interpretation of the meaning of a soulmate at hand, specifically because my first language is spanish: the closest thing to the word “soulmate” in spanish is alma gemela, literally “twin soul.” i believe it is much more interesting to interpret a soulmate as a person whose soul is a mirror to yours, or a reflection. a complement. the notion that someone is perfect and made for you romantically is essentially full of shit and a very lazy mindset, but anyway.
if we’re talking about being destined to meet a person, or being different faces of the same coin, or stuff like that, then of course this is a thing in fiction. aang and zuko and katara are definitely soulmates in terms of being destined to meet and change each other in a meaningful and earth-shattering way. the concepts of destiny and fate are not only an actual thing in atla, but also very prominent and loud in themes and narrative, and in the mindsets and beliefs of the characters themselves; it heavily influences their actions and approach to other characters, especially zuko. from his perspective, zuko’s dynamic with aang throughout the show and in general (meaning before and after he joined the gaang) is in part shaped by his sense of morality, and in part by his belief that his destiny is somehow intertwined with aang’s (he was right, of course), similarly to how katara approached aang (too, as a beacon of hope) or even how she saw zuko as a definitive enemy (in contrast to how sokka saw zuko as pretty much a fool and a recurrent inconvenience) aang, katara, and zuko’s dynamics with each other are all somehow related to destiny, the general concept of soulmates as a mirror of your soul, whether consciously or unconsciously. this is part of what makes them the central thematic trio and the heart of the show.
knowing all this, let’s go back to sokka and zuko. in short, as i’ve said before, to each other they are just… some guys. to elaborate, to sokka, zuko was just 1) some guy in the way, another inconvenience that occasionally got in between him and in his business with the avatar, whom he didn’t respect at all and didn’t think of as an enemy, 2) just some guy to be wary of for all of the aforementioned reasons, and 3) some guy, but cool and nice and a friend, possibly a love interest?? idk we’ll see!! meanwhile to zuko, sokka was 1) some guy in the way, another inconvenience that occasionally got in between him and in his business with the avatar, whom he didn’t respect at all and didn’t think of as an enemy, 2) some guy, who is amazing and cool and he will break into a prison with him because why not?? so we can safely say, while there are direct parallels between them and are definitely connected in some spiritual way (as are all of the gaang, in my opinion!!), sokka and zuko themselves do not know that. the weight of being meant-to-be in their relationship is nonexistent, and i definitely agree that they can relax around each other in that sense, especially zuko (who believes in destiny therefore i mention him a lot, in comparison to sokka who does not believe in destiny therefore doesn’t carry the weight of anf his relationships being shaped by it which. they arguably are, as it is a story that was predefined, but that’s for another day). it’s been talked about that the most compelling thing about sokka and zuko’s relationship revolves around the concept of choice. the boiling rock is the only life-changing field trip that zuko was initially denied, but insisted on going anyway. he decided to go out of pure selflessness, solely to help sokka, in contrast to him being quite literally required to go as aang’s teacher/to prove himself and get katara off his back (as well as other subconsious reasons, that, too, for another day). zuko went with sokka because he thought he was dope, and as we all know zuko cannot do anything half-way so he decided he would die for the guy (valid of him, by the way). their entire relationship is just subversion after subversion after subversion.
it’s also related to sokka being just some guy, not only as he believes himself to be but also how sokka is pretty much the fourth part of the thematic triangle that aang katara and zuko have going on. he balances each of their pure hearts and idealism with a sharp mind and bitchy but useful pessimism. sokka being just some guy to zuko’s deuteragonist is the thematic equivalent of sokka being a main character and suki being a secondary character. it works because the weight of universal forces just isn’t there, and it works better than (in my opinion!!) katara and zuko or (to a lesser degree) aang and katara being romantically involved for the same reasons.
and anyway. when it comes to fandom interpretation, it’s very easy to think of every parallelism/symbolism as a sign of two characters being meant to be together romantically, or whatever. and while it is fun, most parallels (at least among the gaang) are mostly to show how the characters are able to understand and connect with each other whether romantically or platonically (and the destiny in fiction thing i’m too tired to talk about again), so the parallels between sokka and zuko are not entirely irrelevant to their romantic potential — people are also quick to think every parallel/trope/catchy line about their relationship is shallow and stupid and soulmates suck anyway!! and therefore i’m asking you all to calm down and find a middle ground. not every parallel/trope/etc is romantic and not every parallel/trope/etc is dumb and irrelevant. when it comes to the infamous “prince and the fool” for example, some people take it as the ultimate proof of their love and some think it’s utter nonsense and a cheap version of the zvtara’s moon/sun dynamic. and both of them are wrong!! “the prince and the fool” is in fact pretty much like “the wise and the brave” of katara and sokka. it is merely a descriptive of the way they act with each other, the way their differences balance each other, the way they contrast each other, etc etc. they do work as descriptive on their own, but not as well as they work when put together; yes, sokka is wise, but how wise? what is the standard for him to be considered wise, or even the opposite? sokka being wise works in terms of aesthetic, character, dynamic, etc etc, only if katara is being brave right besides him. zuko is a prince, sure, but what else is there? what is the alternative? you can call sokka a fool (and you would be wrong, by the way) but what does that word alone bring to his character?
to conclude, i believe the thing about sokka and zuko’s relationship is that there’s nothing definitive to it by universal order — or rather, while it might exist, it's definitely to a lesser degree than other relationships in their lives, therefore the characters themselves don't notice it and there's no pressure to fulfill any prophecies; they just are, and they just do. you can have a passionate and true love without it being the sole meaning of your existence, or your sole motivation and priority in your life. it’s clear that in case they were romantically involved they wouldn’t even be the person they love the most (as it is very clear the person sokka loves the most is katara (!!!), while zuko’s is probably iroh?? idk). i believe the best part of a romantic relationship between sokka and zuko is that they are just some guys, maybe not to the universe but to each other. if they have to choose each other as they do, if they just get each other as well as they do, who care about each other a shit ton even if not any more than their other friends and family but just a little differently, while they aren’t canonically soulmates the way aang and zuko or aang and katara are (while the potential is there) i’d go as far as to say they are some sort of kindred spirits. i think it all depends on how you define soulmates, really.
#i hope this makes sense#and isn't overly pretentious#bc i'm actually writing a soulmate au for the zukkaweek and i mention these thoughts an awful lot#what does it mean to have a soulmate?? what does it mean to your own identity???#at what point do you stop being your own person and start being part of another person??? idk many ideas much 2 think about#analysis#asks#anon#n#zukka#atla
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Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you want to know better.
1. Name/Nicknames: jackaro, but folks also call me Jack or Jackalope
2. Gender: I don't find the idea of innate gender useful but I present as more or less a (fruity) guy
3. Star Sign: sagittarius! Not what I was assigned at birth but it's the one that fits me
4. Height: I'm like 5'9.5? Around that
5. Time: it's 3:42
6. Birthday: November 20th, 1998
7. Favorite band: that's really hard! I've been listening to Giles, Giles & Fripp a lot lately so let's say them
8. Favorite solo artist: who do you think 😔. my wife david bowie
9. Song stuck in my head: I'm listening to Long Haired Lady rn and that's all I've got in my head
10. Last movie: I honestly don't remember, I don't really watch movies anymone
11. Last show: Seinfeld! I got into it because I co-wrote a ttrpg based on it
12. When I created this blog: late last year, but I've been on tumblr since 2012
13. What I post: music, comics, and jokes :-) I like to goof around on here
14. Last thing I googled: "Dando Shaft", that band julian recommend me
15. Other blogs: none at the moment
16. Do you get asks: infrequently, unless I ask for them. I like getting them tho
17. Why I chose my url: I used to be very into american folk music and it's a kind of folk jam session
18. Following: 166
19. Followers: 282
20. Average hours of sleep: most nights I get about 7, but I often wake up in the night and I don't know how long it takes me to fall back asleep
21. Lucky number: 666 (。•̀ᴗ-)✧
22. Introments: I have a vintage harmonina somewhere that I was going to teach myself how to play before I lost interest (I don't actually like harmonica music that much and it's rusty)
23. What am I wearing: Cotten scarf with a colorful pattern (butterflies) and jacket over a vest over a long sleeve shirt over a tshirt, with blue jeans and missmatched socks. Basically the jackaro uniform lol
24. Dream job: I have no idea what I'd like to do, recently I was daydreaming about being an olympic level figure skater (not something I actually want but I picked up rollerblading again recently so it's fun to think about)
25. Dream trip: peyote seems fun!
26. favorite food: idk, milkshakes?
27. Nationality: american and I hate it here
28. Favorite song: I've been listening to Kiev by Renaissance a bunch lately, it's fantastic. Definitely the band's best song, at least that I've heard recently
29. Last book I read: I've still got frankenstein around here somewhere...
30. Top three fictional universes I'd like to live in: hm well I'm gonna say the metal gear universe for a start, not because it's utopian (it's pretty dogshit, geopolitically) but because I think I could integrate well. Then I'll go with DC's Earth-Twelve, the alternative universe DC put their goofiest stuff in. Lastly I'm going with the fantasy world portrayed in prog rock album covers, partially Yes albums.
Tagging @psygull @steampunkforever @nikcage @glam-master-glammer @boffin-in-training @birdlizard @shiny-good-rock @lrvu @sybilius @girlfriendsofthegalaxy ok I'm not gonna think of 20 people who I haven't already seen tagged I'm sorry. Do this if you'd like to
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I know most people see the blondes and immediately think of the oversaturation and some of the poorly made dolls with blonde hair. I want to take a deep dive into each and give my options, thoughts, and things that couldn't been different. Also this is just my opinion, you don't have to agree! This is all light hearted also, let's get started!
Historicals:
Elizabeth- I know she had some controversy since her book didn't match the doll. Plus the rewrite that followed. I think, especially since her hair is wavy, she'd have been identical to Samantha. Aside from her pin curls. I honestly think the rework was understandable. Plus the doll to me reads similar to her character and personality in the books. While a doll like Samantha doesn't register quite the same. This one I can see both sides though. Other colors, like black could've worked too. I am a bit biased as I think Elizabeth is one of the prettiest AG dolls. However Black hair also would've been gorgeous.
Caroline- imagine she had black hair and the same striking green eyes! I don't think she's a bad doll by any stretch, but there seems to be no reason for her to be blonde. Any color of hair would've suited her. Plus a darker color hair and the same bright clothes and eyes would've been so striking and really drive home the vibes of the sea that she is supposed to embody. I honestly think I might send my Caroline to someone in the community to get her rewigged with a black colored wig instead!
Kirsten- I think a different shade of blonde and more historically accurate hairstyle wouldve suited her wonderfully! I don't have many opinions but I think her as a blonde isn't bad!
Nellie- i think her hair needs to be more strawberry blonde and less blonde blonde but otherwise the look suits her and its quite unique! I honestly wouldn't change her at all.
Kit-while Kits whole look is very iconic I don't think Kit necessarily needs blonde hair, I think a light brown would've also suited them! I think Kits look is pretty awesome, and super noticeable. But I don't think brown hair would dampen that at all. Brown hair, might have actually looked a bit nicer!
Maryellen- I have a few issues with her hair. I think its cute as is. But they should've totally made her a full red head with a more period accurate style! (While doing googling I noticed that a pony tail with bangs was a accurate style but idk it just feels the laziest of the options? If that makes sense) I noticed that most of the styles of the time are quite intricate and may be hard to replicate on a doll meant for kids. I found one that was popular among teens that I think Maryellen could've totaled rocked
Julie- Why did she just have long straight hair? Yes it was a style but it was usually accompanied by layered or feathered look or bangs. A more shag type with long bangs would've looked awesome! Plus brown hair and brown eyes are much needed.
Courtney- I have no option because I don't plan on getting her ever, however if you like her thats great! When I look at her she's not 80s as the history she's 80s as the modern marketing pull. Her looks look like costumes or the modern reruns of the 80s looks. Especially her hair. I don't mean to be saltly on main but E
GOTY:
Kailey- ah! I think this blonde works. I can't remember what time this was; but I know that for a long time when I was a kid living a lifestyle close to the beach, especially in cali, was linked to blonde hair! It makes sense to me why she has blonde hair
Mia St. Claire- I'm unsure what the change should be but she definitely needs a new color. I think with her meet outfit a more alternative style would've been sweet! Maybe raccoon dye and sideswept bangs. I'm not sure her personality or style but the shoes really give me 2000s alternative vibes.
Gwen- She should've had a unique shade of brown! I think it would look best still a light color. A new brown would help her stand out since Sonali and Chrissa are so unique themselves and Gwen is easily confused with #12
Lanie- absolutely no changes, none. At this time being blonde was heavily tied to feminine things, being a "mean girl" or "popular girl" and things like makeup, clothes, traditionally "girly" things. Lanie subverts that perfectly. She loves nature and is a self proclaimed scientist. It's perfect!
McKenna- while I love McKenna a different hair color would've looked just as good! I don't have specific ideas, I think her hair is nice but also other colors would suit her too.
Isabelle- Another blonde that needs no changes. While yes at the time the blonde was starting to get redundant. I think the blonde hair is perfect for her, and her unique part and wig, plus the added colors. Make it definitely a good look.
Lea- Lea,, confuses me in so many ways. Shes a gorgeous doll sure. But why isn't she fully a doc, why is she blonde, etc. I hate to say that I'd want to change her as she is another stunning doll but a dark brown or black would've been super nice too!
Kira- I wish they took the Kira doll and made her a truly me, so we could get more unique truly mes and get another poc GOTY 😩 /lh
Tenney- she should've been a brunette period, it would've been so pretty! Her freckles and eyes with big brown hair, ah *chefs kiss*
#american girl doll#american girl blog#girl of the year#american girl tumblr#american girl historicals#pleasant company#historical dolls#doll ideas
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To those who portray Neil, or anyone really, burying something (yall know what I mean but I dont wanna say it because tumblr might flag me or idk), please remember that Im not a professional and this is from my experience
Writing advice?? So you guys dont need to google search this??? Dont get onto a watch list guys
tw (I think?) for burial and dead pets
For the actual digging :
So from my experience, there are 2 types of shovel best for digging, what I call spear head and flat chest
Spear is good for breaking up hard soil but horrible at actually scooping up the soil
Flat is horrible at breaking up hard soil but it is better for scooping soil to the side of the hole that you are making
Not all soil is like,,, c r u m b l. Some are pretty hard and sometimes a spear head wont be enough and you would need a pick axe to break up those really H A R D pieces
The wide and dull part of the pick axe is great for making an outline of how large you need the hole to be. It does most of the brunt work
The small and sharp part are for those REALLY PESKY ROCKS OH MY GOSH THOSE ROCKS S U C K
So if two people do it, the pairings are either flat chest and spear head or flat chest and pick axe (I use the latter personally)
Spear heads require less force but chip away at hard soil slowly (this is good for characters who dont work out often)
Pick axes are for characters who are like really jacked for it to work properlyThe good kind of pick axes (which I believe are handles made of wood and tips made of stone) are very heavy and has awesome results
With two people, the fastest for me was about 20-30 minutes
With one, the fastest for me was around 30-45 minutes(This all depends on how big the thing is)
(I usually bury dogs, cats, puppies and kittens. May they rest in peace)
For the after math :
Put a stone on top of it to prevent it from being dug up
Or alternatively (for backyard burial)
Put ashes and sticks on top of it so the neighbors wont be 👀
Feel free to add more digging and burial advice!
#aftg#tfc#all for the game#the foxhole court#writing advice#I guess?#so yall wont be on a watch list <3 see? I love yall
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can i get a 🍓 for some r0ck and r0ll? and 🍩 for neville, harry, and draco 0-0 (CONGRATS AGAIN <3333)
🍓 - Oooo rock and roll you say? I feel like these are all gonna be a bit mainstream so if I’m not giving you anything new please send another ask lmao
Have a Nice Day by Bon Jovi
It’s My Life by Bon Jovi
Carryon Wayward Son by Kansas
Verona by Elemeno P
And I think this is more metal than rock (idk music genres) but:
Can I Play With Madness by Iron Maiden
When The Wild Wind Blows by Iron Maiden
This was difficult because all the ‘rock’ songs on my playlist are alternative/indie rock apparently (totally didn’t have to google them)
🍩 - Marry Neville because he is such a sweetheart, I feel like Draco would be an amazing kisser so imma go with kiss Draco and kill Harry 👀
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Thank you for the ask love, always nice to see you in my inbox ☺️💖💛💖
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@no-one-hears-me tagged me to do this!! :D thank u ilu!! ♡♡
1) search your name + core + aesthetic in google and see what images come out.
mosscore aesthetic gave lots of different moss n goblincore n like faecore aesthetics which is v fitting!! :D
2) some questions!
name: moss!! :3c
nickname: aa idk?? i dont think i rlly have any but anyone is welcome to rlly call me anything!! (aa wait there is a rlly specific one but it's like linked to someone so i'm too paranoid to post it here skdjsh)
zodiac: cancer sun, scorpio moon, cancer rising!! :3c
languages: aa i actually speak quite a few languages!! i've hyperfixated on languages since i was rlly young n i grew up multilingual!! i'm a bit paranoid abt sharing all of them but the ones i'm most fluent in are japanese, english, [redacted], german, latin, and french!! (i grew up w the first three since birth) :3c
favorite season: i rlly love autumn and spring!! i used to be more fixated on autumn but i recently started loving spring again!! i rlly like when its not too warm n too sunny n kind of rainy and such!! :3
favorite flower: aa i don't think i rlly have a favourite?? D: the kinds of flowers that r like rlly dark red w black n that r really cool tho!!! i also rlly like plants n when i move (aa thats already in a few weeks thats crazy) i'll be getting a bunch of new plants!! i already have a few succulents and a tiny common ivy :3
favorite scent: oh skdjejd i dont rlly know D: i rlly agree w sera tho abt the smell of like petrichor n that!! generally i rlly like naturey smells!! i also rlly like scents like lavender n rose though!! and i'm not too fond of rlly like sweet smells
favorite color: i rlly like black, warm dark reds, and warm foresty dark greens! oo n i quite like coppery-gold ish colours too :3
favorite animals: aaa i honestly rlly love like all animals!! i can't rlly pick one favourite D: corvids r a hyperfixation of mine tho!!! theyre so cool n clever n intelligent n i lov them!!
favorite fictional characters: aa idrk?? if i could rlly think abt it properly in the moment i'm like focussing on it i'd probably think of a bunch but rn i'm drawing a blank so i'll name my favourites from a current hyperfixation i have!! the hyperfixation is the show legends of tomorrow n my favourites from it are sara lance (aaa real actual sapphic representation??? heLp) n also leonard snart!! :3c
coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: i rlly like coffee but its a trigger food bc of my chronic illnesses n makes me rlly sick so i can't rlly have it all that often anymore D: (plus i kinda overdid coffee in like my v early teens so that might have smth to do w it??) but i also rlly love green teas!! though sometimes those r an mcas trigger for me dhdjdhs ): i'm not too fond of hot chocolate bc most hot chocolates tend to be too sweet for me and i can't have regular milk (also a trigger food shdhs) but when i make it myself i rlly like that too!!
dogs or cats: i rlly love both dogs n cats!! i'm most similar to cats though so like i guess i relate to cats more?? but dogs r so precious n sweet 。゚(゚´ω`゚)゚。 i currently have both a cat and a dog too :3 (though my cat will be staying w my mum for abt a year when i move so then it'll just be my dog and i for a while!)
blankets: aa i rlly love blankets but certain fabrics are mcas triggers for me so i can only do rlly specific ones skdjsjd,, my temperature regulation is rlly bad and i'm nearly always freezing so if theres a blanket available i'll go wild abt it!!
dream trip: i don't think i rlly have a dream trip?? i prefer travelling around times that aren't too like hot temperature wise tho!! n i mostly prefer less warm countries! (high temperatures and sun are both things that trigger different parts of my chronic illnesses) aa and then i mostly prefer like adventure type things in the form of going to nature places n like exploring ruins n that but like in a calm pace?? oh also to preferably stay in like a little cabin type place or a b&b rather than like a big hotel!!
blog established: aa i believe at the end of last september or something??? (september 2019)
followers: I currently have nearly 3k! aa ilu all but i'm rlly sorry so many of u relate to my blog n i rlly wish all the good in the world for all of u guys n that life will treat u all kinder!! ♡
random fact about me: hsjdjs i dont rlly know?? D: every time i'm put on the spot through someone asking me smth (especially less specific stuff) abt myself i just forget all info abt myself n i already dont rlly have any kind of identity to begin with hsjdhsjdb
aa i guess a fun fact cld be that i'm v alternative in style n some weird mix of punk n goth w a little bit of emo?? n that my fav music genres r also alternative!! (mostly rock n punk n metal n that!!) :3c
I’ll tag @sickeda @http-trauma @pozellainsoul @selincr0 @youstillhauuntme and anyone else that wants to do this!! i always feel rlly anxious tagging ppl so yea!! (u r free to say i tagged u bc if u follow me or we're mutuals n u want to do this i'd want to tag u!! i'm just anxious to skdhj) also idk if any of u have already done this n its also of course ok if u don't want to!! ♡
#aa thank u for tagging me sera i rlly love answering these!! (´;ω;`)#aa btw pls check if u follow my dni in my carrd before saying i tagged u!#tagged.txt#i think i'll start using that as a tag for things i'm tagged in and tag games!!#:3#long post
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