#good morning btw and a happy new year ig. did you know that it's new year's eve today. lol

[daz4i]

giving myself brain damage by waking up and immediately checking news sites to see if anything new happened when i was asleep (the answer is obviously yes but this time not anywhere where me or my loved ones are directly affected at least)

[1whimsicalgal]

Shooting Daniel Pearl’s Infamous Dolly Shot (From Pam’s POV) Or How I Got Lucky In Spite Of Myself.

When I came on the set that morning in Quick Hill, Texas, our make-up artist Dottie was repairing my make-up. I looked out of the corner of my left eye, over at the swing where I knew I was supposed to sit for our next scene of Pam approaching the house. Perplexed, I noticed Daniel Pearl, our cinematographer, lying down on his stomach, hunched over his camera, UNDER the swing, and exactly where I was soon to park my posterior. I noticed Danny wasn’t moving. He was settled in. I asked Dottie as she was powdering my face, “Hey, Dottie, what’s Daniel doing under the swing?” She mumbled something similar to “Idunno…”, and quickly walked away.

They told me they were ready and where I was to sit. Huh?? No way. Yes, the stories are true. I freaked out, 😱 Pam and Tobe began to argue, me refusing to do the shot. Meanwhile, and totally Unbeknownst to me, this was immediately following a giant argument he’d just had with the money dudes, the investors, who didn’t want him to do this new shot that Daniel had come up with the night before, at all. They were ranting at him, telling him that they HAD to stick to the storyboard. .. or else (btw, dpearldp tells that delicious story on his IG - link below). Well, I had No Clue what it was either. I was protecting my cheeks… if you read me. Chewing on his cigar stub, and none too happy with his troublesome actress playing ��Pam’, Tobe had had enough and said, “Aw, goddamnit, Teri, we’re gonna shoot all around it!!!” Hmmmm, I’m thinkin’, ‘shoot-all-around-it’? Just what the hell does that mean? Anyway, I shut up and sat down, however, remaining highly, highly suspicious. I later learned that everyone, except me, was in on the tracking shot.

All I could think of was my mother 😲 O.M.G. (who was unsupportive at best of my chosen career) and my Aunt Gerry, who were both super-duper religious. I could literally picture them coming unglued when they saw it. Before it was released a year later, I dreaded watching myself on screen and THAT scene, having never seen dailies, I was haunted by the thought of watching it.

When it was released in October ’74, I was living in Dallas and drove with a friend to see it at a Saturday matinee in Tomball, TX, along with 300 screaming kids. When the scene started, my eyes were covered 🫣 I watched through my fingers, scared to death, and NOT of Leatherface. There, up on the screen, in CinemaScope and vivid Technicolor, were my cheeks in those red shorts… O.M.G. 🥶🥵

They certainly did "shoot all around it"!!! The irony of all my worry, neither one of them ever saw it. 😂

That scene has been taught in directing classes across the world for decades, and the 1974 film is held in the film archives of MoMA, The Smithsonian, and The Academy /Oscars.org.

MoMA recently announced a weeklong celebration the 50th anniversary of The Texas Chainsaw Massacre August 8-14, when members of the film’s creative team will join to discuss The Texas Chainsaw Massacre’s production and legacy.

How fortunate we are.

As many of you know, I didn’t come out of anonymity as 'Pam for ’35 years, till March 2008, when, Bill ‘Kirk’ Vail and I both first appeared at a humongous Cherryhill, NJ, Monster-Mania Convention.

Cut to 2008 when my sweet Aunt Gerry was in her 90's, I went to visit her in Arkansas at her apartment in Peachtree Village for a few days, and I told her, "Aunt Gerry, did you know I'm famous?" She said, "You are??" I said, "I certainly am." 😎 I got out my Mac, opened it to FB and showed her the shot above. She giggled and smiled. She loved it! We enjoyed a really good laugh together.💞😂

Tobe and Kim had apparently seen my picture in the Austin American Statesman for a play I was doing with Frank Sutton (Gomer Pyle's Sargent) at @Mary Moody Northern Theater. Somehow for many years, I always remembered my eyes were closed in the Statesman picture. When I recently looked at the picture, my eyes were open and it was Frank Sutton's and the corpse of the dead priest that were closed. 😂 Kim Henkel had called the theater and our director, Ed Mangum, gave me the message when I came in for rehearsals that afternoon. I was to return their call.

WHO KNEW??? Certainly, none of us!

🎥 Follow our amazing cinematographer, Daniel Pearl's 50-year career in his posts and stories and get his POV on filming TCSM '74 scenes

Instagram: @dpearldp https://www.instagram.com/p/CvtejukgJIP/ DP's website: danielpearldp.com/

[jeonsblackgf-writes]

ONE PLUS ONE || 1 ||

✨Summary: Trials and Tribulations of vinnie and his gf.

✨pairing: Vinnie Hacker x black!OC

✨genre: fluff ig

✨word count: 1.7k

Both characters are like 22 in this btw.

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"Come on Rhey, it's not funny." Vin groaned, already embarrassed at the outcome of his recent tiktok. He had posted a thirst trap on tiktok with boxers on. He thought the video looked okay, until he read the comments where people were talking about his dick size.

Ignoring him, Rhey continued to laugh, her box braid up-do coming down in the process. She scrolled through the comments to read more as her boyfriend glared at her, "Look at this one someone said Your dick looks so small I bet your girlfriend uses it as a toothpick.' I AM SCREAMING"

"Ha ha ha." He grumbled, crossing his arms as he kept his eyes on her. The comments weren't even all that funny, she just wanted something to laugh at.

"Awwww is the wittle baby upset his weewee is small." Rhey playfully cooed at him, grabbing his face in her hands. His cheeks went red as he felt her warm hands move his face fro side to side in a cooing manner, as if she were his grandmother.

"Baby stop it's not funny. Someone said my dick looks like a pebble. My dick is literally 11 inches. What fucking pebble are they talking about." He complained as he stood up from the couch and went into their room. The second he closed the door, the rest of their friends came inside of her LA villa with confused faces. She completely forgot she gave them keys.

"He's mad his fans are calling his dick small." She responded before walking into their room to see him lying down, stomach on the bed with his phone in his hand scrolling through social media. She walked over to him and laid on top of him, putting her head on his shoulder so that she could whisper in his ear.

"You know I was only joking right. You have a whole girlfriend, your thirst trapping days are over." She stated her breathe fanning his ear, causing chills to run down his arms. He sighed and shrugged his shoulders. He only posted it because half his tiktok was now filled with his girlfriend. People were tired of him expressing how long they were together. It's been 8 years, them getting together at 14.

"Everyone knows you radiate big dick energy." She exclaimed, trying to cheer him up but it didn't work. He was still upset about a bunch of 12 year old calling his dick small.

Not knowing what to do, Rhey started to get up to see the rest of their friends but Vinnie quickly grabbed her and turned her around to where she was on the bed and he was on top of her.

"I was fine a long time ago. I just wanted your attention." He admitted, laying his head on her chest, their typical position. She snorted and smacked the back of his head. He laughed and kissed her cheek

"What time do you have to head back to the studio?" Vinnie asked, momentarily breaking the silence. Rhey checked her phone.

"In about an hour. I have one more song that needs to be done. I just have I finish the last verse and record it." She replied.

Of course she wasn't going to tell him that the entire song was about him...and that she named it after him. What he won't know won't hurt him. She never told him about the other songs or the album cover either, hence why she made him do a photo shoot with her a few months ago.

"Great so that gives me enough time to cuddle you and post you again." He replied, as he went onto his phone and pulled up instagram. Rhey sighed. Every time he posted her his fans went crazy for no reason. They hated the fact that he was with someone who had a much larger platform than him.

He stuck his tongue out while she puckered her lips while grabbing his face.

"Well my phone is gonna blow up. Thanks for that Vincent." Rhey sighed as she awaited the thousands of notifications from IG.

"No problem princess." He replied cheekily, giving his girlfriend a huge smile. She playfully rolled her eyes at him.

The two sat in a comfortable silence for the next 20 to 30 minutes. No we're we're spoken, just the soft sounds of breathing could be heard from both partners. They were well aware that their friends were still in their house but they didn't care.

"Wanna know what I always found funny?" Rhey asked, playing with her boyfriends fingers. Vinnie perked his head up lightly, waiting for an answer.

"When we were 18, and I was just getting started with my career and you were getting hella famous on tiktok like you are now. I was always told that you and I would never work because of our race and two completely different personalities despite them not knowing we've been together since 2012. I don't know why I think it's funny but it just is." She explained, not looking at Vinnie. She knew he had always felt some type of way when people mentioned our relationship in a negative way. He was still getting over his anger issues at the time so of course when your at the peak of your influencer career, you're gonna make some rash decisions.

"I mean i've made some bad decisions I admit, but I knew the second I met you all of that had to change. I don't know why, but there was always something about you that I had to get to know on a more personal level when we were 14. You really are a light in my life, and I wouldn't change it for anything. Even with me being 18 at that time and so blind to new found fame, I knew what I wanted and it was you." Vinnie explained himself.

There was a period of time where he knew his feelings for Rhey were real but he knew that if he wanted to be the guy she wanted him to be he had to change, so they remained friends until he got his shit together and then he finally did he built up enough courage to ask her out, and it they're still together years later.

"Oh shit! I have to go!" Rhey shrieked after checking the time on her phone, jumping up from the bed. She hurriedly grabbed her nike slides and wallet, before rushing over to Vinnie to give him a kiss, which he happily returned, but before she turned around to leave he grabbed her hand causing her to look back at him.

"Am I gonna get a little snippet of the album?" He asked sneakily, making his girlfriend laugh.

"Theres 22 songs on the album. That's the only hint you're getting." She laughed before running out of the room to head to the studio.

Fortunately she made it in time, seeing her manager standing in front of the main studio door, waiting for her. She walked up to her and smiled wearily, not wanting to be scolded for being the second one to arrive.

"It's about time!" She exaggerated, grabbing the key and opening the door. Rhey hurriedly facetimed Vinnie who answered on the second ring. His face was deadly nonchalant as he looked at her. That's when she knew he was upset that she had left him so she tried to cheer him up by posing but it didn't work.

"I'm getting a studio built in the house. I hate leaving," She sighed, making a smile to quickly etch on his face. She rolled her eyes at his childish antics.

"I'm going to a meeting. Apparently some modelling company wants to meet up with me but my agent won't tell me who so we'll see how it goes." Vinnie explained through the phone. His nerves were shot with anxiousness.

"Well let me know how it goes."

"I will, I love you."

"I love you more,"

She hung up the phone and walked into the studio to begin her session, her producer, Pierce already working on some new beats for her last verse in her last song. After that gets perfected, the album is complete.

"You ready to get this masterpiece completed?"

Rhey smiled nervously. "Let's do it!"

"I know you said your boyfriend was your main focus behind the album. Is all the songs about him?" Pierce asked as he messed with a few buttons while Rhey got her lyric book out.

"Yes each and every song is about either him or our relationship." She replied mindlessly, flipping through pages, after finding the page with her recent song on it. She started to write words down that had came to her in the morning when she woke up. She smiled once she realized she had just finished her last verse for her last song on the album.

"Listen to this and tell me what you think about it. I added some small guitar riffs on the beginning to give it more of a natural groove." Pierce stated, turning the volume up. All of her songs were a little upbeat and happy and the last song was slow and smooth. A great way to end an album.

"It's amazing Pierce." She whispered, trying to get herself not to cry. She had been trying to find a way to express her love for Vinnie for MONTHS, and this album just might've done it.

Pierce smiled, "Then get yo ass in the booth and let's record it." He pushed her into the booth and got the music ready as she started to  get herself together to sing.

A few minutes later she stopped singing and sighed in happiness. Her album was finally finished.

>1 hour later<

"BABY! VINNIE WHERE ARE YOU?" Rhey yelled as she walks through the house, rapidly throwing her things all over the place, excited to tell her boyfriend about the news.

"Bedroom." He replied.

Rhey ran inside with a smile on her face, only for it drop once she saw the long look on her boyfriends face. He sighed and grabbed her hand, making her sit beside him. His face showed distress so she news couldn't have been good.

"The surprise meeting that I was had with vogue...they wanna sign me." He sighed, clearly not happy about the offer.

"Are you kidding me? This is huge! It means we'll be under the same company! How are you not happy about this?" She exclaimed with a large smile on her face.

"It's for Vogue Paris...not L.A."

Her smile dropped...

[bunny-banana]

For the director's cut thing, the story where Fabri asks Ermal out on a date but Ermal doesn't realize that? 👀

YO SO WE GONNA DO THAT OR WHAT

Its this fic btw if anyones curious.  

Chap 1

Even with closed eyes, he sensed the man lying next to him turn towards him but Fabrizio did not spoke immediately. No, he just stayed silent for a bit, Ermal wasn’t quite sure what he was observing but before Ermal could ask, Fabrizio broke the silence.

its u. he’s gazing at u, u idiot.

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’You didn’t exactly give off the vibe that you’d say yes’

“What the fuck does that even mean? I don’t give off the vibe?!”

mr no-homo meta has NO right to be surprised at that. boy went into a panic attack every time someone as much as breathed the suggestion ofc fab was Anxious

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A certain Roman showing up at his doorstep looking like he’d belong to the Milan Fashion Week.A tight grey shirt whose top three buttons almost begged to be opened (yet remained miraculously, in Fabris case, closed!) clung nicely to the body underneath it. A very fine silver chain hung around his neck that perfectly fit with the rings and the watch on his hand.Instead of ripped denim, now tight & shiny dark jeans were worn and to round this look up, an impeccably tailored black, suit jacket was thrown over him.

so not to be Hoe on main but we all just love Sexy Fab.  but more so, i really thought Fabrizio would have put a lot of effort into dressing nicely this time around. Probably called a few friends, crying to help him. He just wanted Ermal to like his look. Which he did.   A lot.  again, outstanding heterosexual of the year, ermal meta is completely mesmerised by that look.

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“Well, well, Fab. Gotta say, this place is on a whole different level“ The curly haired man commented as he flipped through the menu.“You like it?”“How could I not?”

again, Fabrizio intentionally looking up a fancy place for their Date, something he actually felt a little bit uncomfortable about himself and wouldnt normally chose for himself. But then again, he was greatly relieved when Ermal actually did say he liked it.

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*It felt.. nice. The whole evening was quite nice, Ermal had to admit, even with the unusual ambient.

Ermal is just honestly iconic in this fic. man enjoys fabrizios appearance, enjoys talking with him,  eating out with him, just spending time with him in general sooo much……and yet.

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Fabrizio tilted his head and was it the candle light or something else, but a intriguing shine filled his eyes.“I’d know something sweeter than this.” In the next moment, everything turned upside down when Fabrizio suddenly took his hand and intertwined their fingers, his thumb gently brushing over the back of the younger man’s hand.

THE COURAGE THIS TOOK. THE NERVES WHICH WERE WRECKED.  Fab really just went “ok here we go balls to the wall now or never”

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Chap2

“So, Fabrizio….Fabrizio likes me. Apparently.” It felt interesting to say it out loud. Ermal got a tingly feeling at the thought. So ..it was him who made Fabrizio blush earlier? Who made him nervous? And smiley?  Christ, he actually really wanted Ermal to like his outfit, didn’t he? A small smirk found its way on Ermal’s face. Who would have thought that he’d have Fabrizio Moro of all people wrapped around his finger.

erm: so im het

also erm: wow i really really like the fact that fabrizio is into me. its actually super exciting. kinda makes me happy in a way.

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“Wait, what?! I should ask him out?!”“Yeah? Isn’t that something you want?”Is that something he- But that would imply that he’d want to pursue Fabrizio, his very male, masculine, manly friend Fabrizio who was definitely not by any chance a woman. To have a relationship with guy that was …..romantic… and oh sweet Mother of God, sexual?!“I- I- I don’t know.”

so yeah, to get to the bottom of this, when you’re in the process of realising your own …..non-heterosexuality, its just A Lot to take in.  I thought, realistically, that would just be a bit too much for Ermal to take in at that moment. He had to process the mere thought of “yes, you could have a romantic relationship with this guy, since he’s into you. Its absolutely a possibility”. When you’re conditioned to think “i can only ever date people of the opposite sex” all your life, it takes a bit of time to get accustomed to new possibilities.

And then theres the sexual aspect which is like, on Jupiter, for Ermal’s current state of mind.

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Chap3

The video he currently was immersed in showed a slow-mo fight between a mongoose and a cobra that in all its intensity outdid any action movie in a heartbeat.

i remember watching that vid before writing that chapter and being mesmerised by it. u fucking go lil mongoose!

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[Bizio]: sorry i cant this weekend

First, i just love the thought of him being saved as Bizio on Ermals phone. Second, the reason why he replied so late was because he was wrecking his mind about it. Should he go? should he not? god, the thought of seeing ermal excited him and yet scared him. nonononno. he’s trying to get Over Ermal. He needs space. he is not ready yet.

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[Ermal]:Fabri!! Heard you’re coming up North! 😁 I have this excellent bottle of wine that a fan gave me the other day (don’t ask) so how about we open it at my place? I know you love a good wine 😉🍷

He couldn’t even slide the phone back into his pocket before it started buzzing. Surprisingly, the reply came almost instantly this time.[Bizio]:sorry no the schedule is pretty tight for me at the moment i dont think ill have much time in milan

i just image him getting the weirdest fucking fan gifts. also lmao the lightning speed with which fab replied. homeboy saw that wine would be involved and imemdiately thought “nononononono. worst case, my drunk ass might kiss him, god forbid. we are absolutely not gonna do that”

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[Ermal]:So I’m flipping through the channels at home and there comes a baking show and I wouldn’t normally stop to watch but you know what they’re baking? Those creamy pastry things we had in Lisbon!

Now the idea about the Pasteis de Nata stemms from a real life event! During ESC 2018 i slept at a friends house and since the contest was held in Portugal we decided to cook something portuguese. Thats what we did. They fucking slap. Also, one of the best weekends ive ever had

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However, this is how things continued as to all of Ermal’s messages, he’d receive rather uncharacteristically short replies. When he sent him photos he’d often not reply at all and even when he called Fabri didn’t pick.

Okay we have to image in WHAT kinda mental state Fabrizio is in that time. Boy is EMBARASSED to death. Then obviously, he is trying his hardest to get rid of this crush.  So he just isnt talking to Ermal at all. Which in turn makes him lonely and sad.  So then Ermal shoots him a message, sends him a picture and Fabrizio is immediately head over heels again. Which he shouldnt be. Bad Fabri. And the circle repeats itself.

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Fabrizio who smiled sweetly at the host, who hugged her tightly, who joked with her and oh, whose eyes didn’t stick to her face but wandered more and more south.

Dude honestly, Fab was not flirting with anyone. He was just being nice as he usually is. And we all know he a lil bit sleazy so yeah, he might have looked down once or twice. but he really was not flirting. It was just Ermals affection-deprived mind going berserk.

Also that was the first time Ermal witnessed Fabrizio being affectionate with someone else. And the contrast to that cold shoulder he received was just the last straw for him.

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“Why is he all smiley and lovey-dovey with her while he treats me as if I’m a war criminal?!” Ermal shouted the second the other line got picked up.“Uhm, hello? Maybe a ‘Good morning’ first of all? A simple ‘how are you doing, Sabina?’ would have been appreciated too.”

Damn bitch can ya greet ur sister first before going off smh

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And would it have been really that bad if Ermal had just held on to his hand? Let Fabrizio gently stroke him with his thumb, maybe even squeeze back while Ermal’s finger draws circles over letters that covered the older man’s knuckles.It would have been nice and Ermal would have liked it.

I think he just needed to see what he was missing out to realise what he really has always wanted. If things were to go back to normal, he would have never made any realisations.

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“Am I- Do I like Fabrizio?”

No, we dont ask what he is. Because thats for another time, a calmer time. Or maybe not at all. He doesnt know the answer to that question and its not important right now. All he knows is that despite it all, he likes Fabrizio.

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The fact he was a guy was new, but those feelings involved weren’t.

I feel like this is just a very bisexual experience. At least to me it was. Its very confusing when u are genuinely attracted to the opposite sex, so you make the conclusion: you are obviously straight. Its not possibly that you are not-straight.  

Then u start feeling attraction to someone of ur own gender and its like “hmmm. Obviously this must be fake since we have established that Im genuinely attracted to the opposite sex ”

But the thing is..it aint going away. And then u think how you’d perhaps be down for sex, and perhaps be down for something more, and perhaps do all those nice things you would be doing with someone of the opposite sex.  

So yeah, its ..its really confusing and complicated to figure it out. And if you actually do have a feelings for someone it only makes matters more complicated ig

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“Jesus, I really do like him. Me. Liking a guy.”

Again, once u made That Realisation, its just the WILDEST thing in the beginning. a complete NEW concept being applied to yourself.

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“LISTEN CUT THE BULLSHIT I KNOW EXACTLY THAT YOU’RE HOME! OPEN UP OR I WILL STAND HERE ALL NIGHT I’M NOT FUCKING AROUND!” In addition to the knocking he now also started ringing the doorbell. He sure as hell wouldn’t move here until that door wasn’t opened.“I DONT GIVE A FUCK, I WON’T EVEN SLEEP AND NEITHER WILL YOU. I CAN GO ON FOREVER YOU HEAR ME, FABRIZIO MOBRICI?!”

Ermal is just unhinged in all my fics.

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Epilogue

[Ermal💛]: You ready?

Fabrizio added that heart right immediately after Ermal left his house a week prior.

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Ermal looked….cuddly.

So yeah we all know Fab isnt the keenest on fashion and shit. And i just though Ermal would want him to be as comfortable as possible on their date, so he was like “ay come casual” . and also, its sort of cute that Ermal lets Fabri see him so casual too, its sort of more private in that sense.

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And those were still the mild surprises, let’s not start with the downright shock he felt when his brain started providing words like kissable, attractive, sexy and hot during lonelier nights.

i have a fic for those kinda nights too

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“It’s not that far and God knows men your age need the exercise anyway.”

ermal just cant show affection like a normal person, he has to roast u even when he’s madly in love with u

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What followed behind the colourful door was a small chaos. Literally. People constantly coming and going, with buzzing voices chatting in every corner. They made their way half through the rather crowded establishment, got greeted by a waiter who rushed past them, before they finally spotted a couple leaving, liberating two chairs for them.

SO YEAH. the restaurant. it is loosely based on a place here in Vienna. Its pakistani food too, its a buffet, its kinda chaotic like described in the fic. also u can pay as much as u want.

i just thought, yknow, its home made cooking and its kinda relaxed and chill and casual and has a certain liberal flair to it. and i thought yeah that has fabri energy we gonna use that. also their mango rice puddings fucking slap

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Languages were not his forte, those belonged to Ermal, but Fabrizio ran through his options. It surely wasn’t French or Spanish, that he would at least recognise. German looked different too; they had those dots over their U’s and those curly B’s which allegedly weren’t B’s at all. Swedish? Danish? No. He’s been to Ikea often enough to know that his wardrobe wouldn’t be called Qershor. And Russian had different letters but maybe it was something similar to Russian?

Okay, so I’m a known Slut for Languages.  Fabrizio is not. I can pretty much recognise most European languages in written form at some point in a text. Fabrizio can not. Therefore writing this from the perspective of someone who really isnt into languages was kind of interesting and a bit challenging. I was just thinking ‘how would he recognise them when he isnt into them?’  And i think, in the end, i did it realistically.

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“Is it like..Serbian? Croatian? Or something?” He mumbled while putting a piece of eggplant in his mouth but quickly realised the answer when Ermal almost spit out his water from laughing.“No, definitely not. I can guarantee you, it’s very much not Serbian or Croatian ‘or something’.” Ermal chuckled with a bright smile, obviously enjoying their little guessing game. “But you’re close. In a way.”

This is SO embarrassing but this whole language guessing game was just a setup to an inside joke I have with myself.  So, for those who don’t know, I speak Serbo-Croatian. And I study Slavic studies. The first things they tell you in the first lesson of the Slavic Linguistics course is “Please, for the love of God, PLEASE, dont say Albanian/Hungarian/Romanian is a slavic language”. Apparently many europeans assume these languages are because theyre surrounded by slavic countries. BUT TO AN ACTUAL SLAVIC NATIVE SPEAKER, the difference is immediately obvious and so its quite comical when people assume theyre related languages.   So i thought the reverse would be kinda funny to Ermal too.

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“I can be anything the teacher wants me to be. A good student, a naughty student, whatever floats his boat…” He asked sultrily before winking at the man across of him whose higher brain functions seemed to have ceased at once and just gaped at him like a fish.

boys whole brain got fried when the sexiest man in italy started flirting with him. issokay, he was just shocked. fabrizio has never been flirty with him before, he’ll get used to it.

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“I was just trying to give you the best date that I could.“At those words, the Roman frowned however."Wait, this was a date?!”

im just an asshole honestly

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They giggled as they finally closed the gap between them going for a slow and deep kiss.

i just love them being all SOFT and in LOVE

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“Erm, I- I have an instore tomorrow, I better be well rested.”His counterpart just huffed and raised an eyebrow.“So were you planning on staying up all night, huh?”

Fabs horn dog brain definitively went HmmmmMmm this is nice:) ..could get even nicer:)  but no fuck, i have work to do tomorrow

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“Love how you immediately forget about a good night’s sleep once you have a tongue in your mouth.”“Fuck off.”

He just got carried away as if u were complaining ermal smh

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"I bet on everything I have that your password is 'liberoanita1’ so yes, I actually can.”

Parents culture is just using ur children’s names as all your passwords and we all know Fabri is that kinda parent.

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All in All, i also wanna talk about how the epilogue mirrors the first chapter, but in a more successful light.

Fabrizio dresses for Ermal - Ermal dresses for Fabrizio

fancy place - more casual place

They take the car - they walk

Fabrizio takes Ermals hand on the open for everyone to see - Ermal takes Fabrizios hand under the table, in private

They eat their dessert seperately - they eat theri dessert together

they fall out - they become closer, kiss

they dont talk - they plan the next date

anyway thanks for reading and thank uuuuuu for this ask julchen

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #246

(song lyrics here idc)

What is the most you’ve ever eaten in one sitting? I don't know. Probably too many slices of pizza back when I could kill pizza if I was hungry enough. How often do you skip breakfast? Rarely. What’s the longest you’ve gone without leaving the house? A couple+ weeks, probably. Where are you going the next time you go out? School. What kinds of things are likely to make you cry? Reunions of like any type, seeing things (esp. animals) in pain, if my feelings are deeply hurt, deaths... stuff like that. Really nothing unusual. What are some things that make others cry that don’t make you cry at all? Hm. I dunno. I'm sure there's something, but I'm unsure. If you drink/smoke, how often do you do these things? I don't smoke, and I'll ever only have like a drink or two on some holidays or for my birthday. What website do you spend the most time on and why? YouTube because it essentially replaces television for me. What’s the most amount of time you’ve spent online? Is this usual for you? Oh my god don't ask me this. What is one belief you used to have, but no longer do? In what ways are you influenced by the opinions of others, if ever? The one I disdain the most was being homophobic up to my late teenage years. I wanna curb stomp that ignorant fucking kid. I wouldn't say I'm influenced by other's opinions on things very much. What was the last thing to make you feel good about yourself? Drinking water lmao. How would you describe your overall (or preferred) personal aesthetic? My friend recently described me as a "gothic lolita" and y'know he's onta something. What kinds of small judgments are you likely to make about others? *Small* judgments? Uhhhh... God why am I blanking on surveys so much lately. What was the last thing you did mostly because society expected you to? Shower, 'cuz I seriously wasn't feeling it but needed to anyway. When was the last time you felt out of place? I had to babysit my nephew on my own early last month and I felt like I was in a different universe. I felt so, so unfit in the position and just all-around uncomfortable. I love that boy to death but babysitting is noooooot my thing. Do you believe in aliens, spirits, or angels of any sort? Yeah. Well, not "angels" by true definition, no. In what ways are you superstitious? I'm not. Where was the last place you went walking and how far? Would you rather exercise alone or with other people? Like, for fun? Not since I was at Sara's. I DO NOT like exercising in front of other people at all. What kinds of nail polish colors do you prefer to wear? How about makeup? Black is the entirely superior makeup color. How would you describe your own relationship with makeup? It's just for fun for me when I actually feel like it, and even that's rare. I usually only put makeup on for some pictures. Who has been in your life the longest amount of time? What about the shortest? My mom the longest, and my school teachers the shortest, I guess? Who was the last person to leave your life? How about return to it? My fucking therapist that deserves my fist through her face. Return, uhhhh yeah I dunno. It might be Sara, and that was yearsss ago. When it comes to travel, what kinds of places intrigue you most? Wildernesses, especially with mountains, rivers, waterfalls... that kind of stuff. Do you think humans colonizing Mars is a good idea? Would you go, if you could? No. Focus on the goddamn planet we're already on. If it was a life or death situation, I'd go, but otherwise, I'm staying here and at least trying to patch it up. What is the farthest you’ve walked in one day and what made you do it? Oh, many miles, I'm sure. I used to walk for literally hours out in my yard at night with my iPod. That was so common for me. Funny how now I'm recovering from muscle atrophy in my legs. Do you have a chore/housecleaning routine or anything like that? A "routine," no. How organized would you say your living space is? The house is currently a travesty. What is something important that’s often on your mind lately? Success in school. Do you find it easier to forgive yourself or others? Others. Have you ever had to call 911? For who/what reason? Yes; Mom thought she might've been having a heart attack. Thank fuck she wasn't. Do you like oatmeal? If so, what kinds of things do you like in it? Oh yeah. It's like a regular for me now that I'm big time trying to lose weight. I like the apple cinnamon one. What was going on the last time you felt nostalgic? Thinking about that walking question. How much attention do you pay to the movements of the stars and planets, and do you believe they influence anything? The most non-Pagan belief I have is being void of this one. No. When was the last time you were afraid to tell someone something? Heh, speaking of being (mostly, ig) Neo-Pagan. Classmate and I were doing an assignment getting to know each other and she asked my religion. She was a serious Christian and was clearly SO uncomfortable when I awkwardly answered lmao. When was the last time something didn’t go the way you expected it would? My disability case hearing just a week back. I expected to be way, way more terrified, shaking even, and was prepared for an intimidating judge. Just in general I was afraid of it being "court-like" and with a lot of people, but it was okay. I think having my attorney there was crucial to my (relative) calmness, though, because I was comfortable with and liked him. What is the most difficult or involved video game you’ve ever played? Most difficult that I ever tried, Dark Souls. Quit that waaaay early. Hardest that I've beaten, I honestly think The Legend of Spyro: The Eternal Night. Don't even @ me w/o trying it yourself 'cuz that game was so fucking hard to where I rage-quit for years until beating it. I did play it a second time for fun, though. Still hard. Most involved, oh, easily World of Warcraft. Years of effort put into too many characters la;ksdjfawoei Have you ever taken lessons for anything? Yeah; dance for a very long time as well as guitar. What’s your favorite band’s name? Well Ozzy goes solo. Btw I nearly died when I heard the Parkinson's news wtf life how dare why him- Who is your last sent text to? My mom. What’s your favorite flavor of Gatorade? I do noooot like Gatorade. What does your bikini look like? Oh hunny I'm barely comfortable in a one-piece. Do you drink the milk after you finish cereal or just leave it in the bowl? I can almost never drink it. The taste is just changed and is usually gross. Have you ever worn glitter eyeliner? No, yikes. Imagine that getting in your eye. Has anyone ever called you a hippie? I don't think so. Did you have any unread texts this morning? No. Have you ever been involved in strength training? No. Who is the last person you kissed? Sara. Have you ever been to a pottery painting store? No. Are bonfires common with you and your friends? Not at all. I don't think I've ever done that with friends. If you’re really quiet, what is probably the reason? I'm thinking about something intently. What does your boyfriend/girlfriend call you? N/A How much does the last person you kissed mean to you? A whole lot. Do you use lotion? If my skin is particularly dry. Have you ever used a sewing machine? No. Is hairspray a staple in your morning routine? I've never regularly used it. Do you believe in teenage love? Fuck yes I do, I can promise you that. When is your favorite TV show on regularly? It's discontinued. Who is your favorite person to waste time with? Sara. What has been the most significant thing to happen to you this year? Well, it's the first day of February, so I'll imagine you're asking about the past year, in which case I went back to school. What kind of kid were you when you were seven? Happy, weird, kinda hyper, outgoing and goofy. Do you always eat those mints you get at some restaurants? Yeah, if they're not the semi-soft ones that kinda melt in your mouth. Ew. Is there a subject you know so much about that you’d be able to teach it? Sure, but nothing like seriously important. Do you believe that being ‘cultured’ is important? Why or why not? I mean, probably if you travel. It's definitely wise to try to act at least semi-"appropriately" in another country. Where did you purchase the computer you’re using right now? Best Buy or Office Depot, idr. Do you think it’s fair to compare Family Guy to The Simpsons? I don't care? Will you miss CDs if they end up going obsolete? Why or why not? Not really, I just don't care. If you could relive one hour of your life so far, what would you choose? I don't have a clue. Do you think animals have a sense of humor? Probably. Animals can definitely act silly. Are you proud of your hometown, or do you try to distance yourself from it? That place is shit. Has your idea of the perfect romantic partner changed with age? Oh yeah, to a degree at least. I had such a fairy-tale ideology on love back then. How many cars have you ever owned? Myself, zero. Can you do math in your head well? I almost can't at all. What’s your favorite flavor of potato chip? Oh man, that's hard. Maybe salt and vinegar. Do you ever read the weather forecast? I mean I'll check the app on my phone occasionally. Do amusement park rides make you sick? Thus far in my life, no, but I'm too afraid to try some out of fear of that. Who is your favorite Star Wars character? Don't even like SW. What kind of cheese do you put on your sandwiches? American. What radio station do you listen to the most? None. Who was the last person to give you a gift? A family friend for Christmas. How old were you when you got your driver’s license? I'm about to be 24 and still don't have it. What was the first thing you ever learned how to cook? Scrambled eggs. Did you ever collect beanie babies? Maybe? I know I had one big one (me and my sisters had a matching set of different colors; mine was pink, what a shocker), but idk if I actually collected them. When was the last time you got a haircut? Early last month. Have you ever been to a bachelor/bachelorette party? No. How many people can you say you TRULY love? Romantically? Two. Platonically, a whole lot. Where are you most ticklish on your body? My feet jfc. Have you ever bailed anyone out of jail? Nope. What’s the last board game you played? Shit, what's it called. Something with my nephew. It's the one with the popping dice in the middle and four different colors to move around the board. "Sorry!" or something? Have you ever given someone a fake phone number? Might've when stupid kid me made prank calls. Do you have any bumper stickers on your car? No. Do you leave good tips when you eat out at restaurants? I've never been the one paying. Do you still own any VHS tapes? I'm sure Mom has home videos stored somewhere. If there was a real Jurassic Park, would you visit it? Oh fuck yeah 'cuz I'm dumb and love dinos. Have you ever gone golfing? Not legit golfing. Do you know any sign language? No. How many friends do you have that are married? Close friends, like people I still regularly talk to, none. Do you still have your wisdom teeth? Yes. Did you have a swing set in your yard when you were a child? Yes. Do you eat your mac & cheese with a fork or a spoon? I don't really care so I haven't noticed which I usually use. Where did you have your first kiss? His bed. When you were a kid, were you ever afraid of cooties? Lol no. Do you ever go Christmas caroling in December? No, I could never omg. Which overrated tattoo are you sick of seeing? I don’t care. Get what you want. What was the last thing you taught a younger kid? Apparently to say "aw shucks" at everything lmao. Are the clocks in your house mostly digital or analog? Digital. We have on analog in the living room. How long have you had your television(s)? God, years. A loooong time, but it's a fine TV. Do you like watching movies made with CGI or do you prefer hand-drawn ones? I tend to enjoy CGI more. I like realism in what I watch. Where did your parents buy their car(s)? Dad, idk. Mom got hers for free; a dance friend ran into a deer, so the front bumper got fucked up, and she wanted a new vehicle. Mom took it because shit, it was drivable, and she DIY fixed up the bumper to make sure it stays in place. Literally with zip ties and duct tape lmfao but HEY it WORKS. Do you know why your grandparents chose your mother’s name? No. Do you think you’d do well at teaching the English language to a foreigner? I think I'd be at least decent. What is a store you like that is exclusive to your country? Idk what's only exclusive to the country. If you attend school, what time do you usually get home after? Like, 4:35 or so. Mom finishes her field work at 4, and afterwards we go home. Have you written a resume before, either for yourself or someone else? Yes. What is your favorite thing about snow? IT'S PRETTY. What do you usually do when you have trouble sleeping? Try to go back to sleep at first, and if I really can't, I get back up on the laptop for a while. Are you satisfied with your social life (or lack thereof)? NONONONONONONONO. What TV show do you just assume you wouldn’t like? 13 Reasons Why. Do your friends have more money than you? lol duh I make none. Who always has the power to make you feel intimidated? Pretty much men as a whole...

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TharnType The Series Ep. 9 Review

#TharnTypeEp9 #TharnType #TharnTypeS #TharnTypetheseries #MewGulf

Why it is supposed to be Tharn who got hit? I don't understand, is it because of the promise he made about never forget what they were said last night or what? If that so, it means Type don't believe Tharn yet, meung maeng... (usually in the book there will be any explanation about his emotion, yet I don't read them yet) Type, you saw it clearly that the one who tried to kiss first was P'San, you just got the bite from P'San.

P'San.... He is such a drama king. What do you want? Tharn still defending Type... (Proud of the hubby)

YESSSSS, FINALLY HE SAID IT. YESSS HE IS YOUR. SAID IT SO HE CAN MOVE AWAY... 3 TIMES CLRAFICATION, STILL NOT ENOUGH P'SAN? What? What is this? Tharn... What did you two plan for Type? Bad..... "Yes, I belong to you" Tharn. That smile for something you hide or the smile of satisfaction, Ai Tharn?

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Damn..... A PLOT TWIST. You such a helper.... I'm sorry P'San but your attitude in the previous episode show us bad feeling about you. Phom khot khot na... Yes everything that P'San said was right but he doesn't know Type, right? We understand that Type won't declare his relationship, yet P'San force him to do it, good also bad thing. You played with others' feeling. P'San care so much about Tharn and we knew that Tharn always cover everything for Type. But do you know that P'San actually very satisfy with Type? You can see it when P'San smiles after went out from the room. A thing he found is Type's possessiveness prove his feeling toward Tharn and will never break up with him. And it is added by Type himself when he said anything about what he got from this situation.

"I hate it when he won't just leave you alone." P'Sarn care so much at him na, he is worried for Tharn happiness.

"I hate when he acts as if he knows everything about you." He knew almost everything Type, they already knew each other for years moreover he is his brother best friend, P'Thorn might be explained everything about Tharn to him already.

"Hate that you are his first love." It cannot be changed, and yes it is deeply hurt but no one can change the past.

He such adorable big baby... This scene makes me cry for happiness, proud and love to both of them. Look at Type's madness face and look at Tharn's happiness and satisfy smile. Those are getting cuter...

Now he considers about Tharn's feeling and more concern to declare his relationship. Tharn still doesn't want to force him. Why is Tharn so perfect? Too perfect to be real in a person. Tharn's smiles are really precious to me, you give everyone happiness ja....

I got some fact about P'San from the original subber account JayBL on Twitter. We and Tharn knew that P'Sarn love Tharn so much but it didn't work because Tharn doesn't have any feeling toward P'Sarn since the beginning. The reason why Tharn gave him in was because his curiosity about his sexual interest and to prove it, he agreed to have S with P'Sarn to make sure his feeling toward man. Besides, Tharn said he likes the role between Him and Type which mean as a Top. This is also another reason for Tharn to refuse P'Sarn who is also a Top. Top with Top, may be they only will do a sword fight (?) Sorry....

Another fact, P'Sarn said "Tharn has suffered enough heartbreak, don't make him experience it again". Tharn actually had a lot of ex-es, yet Tharn was the one who never say break up. So yes he suffered enough in relationship. Sacrificing his own feeling to let his lover go. Once again, I'll say we are the same. So glad that you found the one now.

Yes, last time he was crying all night long at the Bar Ai Type. You such a j*rk back then. "Friend who is more just a friend. I just want to let people know that you're mine" Type. I'm proud na Type. Lucky you Ai Tharn.

"BTW, the toilet is pretty empty. You can get busy in there." P'Jeed. LMAO don't read someone's mind P'Jeed. That expression Tharn make. How cute he is...

So, she is the girl who always give Tharn drink after his performance. P'Gea, don't be so aggressive by giving Type your number. Ai Type what's that mean with "is talking all you want to do?". Talking like this at the front of Tharn's face, well better than behind. It is not funny Ai Type to get him Jealous, your game isn't fun at all.

Oh my god, not in public bro... No.... I don't understand this situation. What's the perpose of it, what's the point? Yes, you provoking him Ai Type so what do you want? Ohh my.... It just about cheating. You had talk right? How can one of you do such a thing. If you want to make sure, don't be like this. Just talk again in a good way. WHAT THE, WHAT ARE YOU DOING? Do you need to kick him like that? He is your bf, do you need to always hurt him? Man.... (Sigh)

Tharn: possesive?

Type: wanna die?

Hahahahahaha...... Both of you are ridiculous. Sad, Champ lose his friendship with those girl. May I blame at you, Type? So innocence, it was one of your fault too. Yes, I hate this kind of person too Champ, someone who never show up in class but can be so smart beside we had tried so hard to be smart. Is Type has B or AB blood type? These people can't be predicted how smart they are. "because right now, that person is already falling head over heels for me" Type, fact is true but surely you full of yourself.

Stop by to switch the car, what is the purpose of it? Can't you just use your regular car? Not acceptable reason. Sawaddi khrap P'Thorn, yes you look intimidating. Lolaen... P'Thorn following Type's IG? How come Type doesn't know? And he is such a real stalker, unbelievable with that look of him. Thanya.... Hahahah you guys can't do talking freely. Yes YOU DID A GOOD JOB! HAHAHA my god she is cute for calling their parents. Such an innocence girl. Welcome trouble, man... Behave. You'll meet your father & mother in laws. No, khun dad, Tharn always comfort him every day and night, regularly please him. Lmao. Yes, family trip to Pang-an so you guys can get married sooner. Lol. Poor P'Thorn, I can feel that pain. Jebb at the feet also at the heart. Wrong target for kicking Ai Type. Hahaha such a supportive big bro, I feel more bad for Thorn. Yes of course khun mom, Type KNEW P'SARN who always play games with P'Thorn and Play other "thing" with Tharn back then. Thanya such a little angel, they can't refuse you na... Type's face always show his emotions, being so much fooled in a day. HAHAHA

Morning kiss, "you said you wanted it" Type. You should ask for morning S, Ai Tharn. You can have his morning b*ner right now. Lol

Chai.... You know him a lot now, Ai Type. Euuu, Techno needs to find any information about you two by himself because you never tell him any small clues. He changed a lot Techno, he care and more care to his hubby. Always be a third-wheel, you will get used to it even I never used to it since the 1st episode. Lol. Ai Lhong, bad impression at the frist meeting. The newbie Nong Song is kind of cute, his way of speaking, those tones, adorable....

Okay, Tharn, we see your charismatic aura. Yup, such a cool guy playing a drum like that, everyone always fall to people who can play instruments especially in a band. Don't sing by yourself like that Ai Tharn, you give me a goosebump. Euuu that is for Type but you send the effect to us as well. Again, such a perfect man.

They letting No to sleep over? Seriously? I hope there will be nothing happen. I can't imagine if No see something he shouldn't see. Wify.... Okay Tharn.... Texhno is sleep talking, how cute. Lol. "Tharn, I'm curious, your face when you were playing is looked so goddamn sexy" Type, I never thought Type would say such a thing but yup he was hot. "For me music is like sex that gives me a climatic pleasure" Tharn, bro it is kind of deep but still can't imagine the climatic pleasure when playing a music, different point of view, may be I can't understand it because I'm not a musician but sometime when hearing a song I can get the climatic part of the emotions but not the same as the sex you were talking about. "You are my most cherished instrument" Tharn, Type as an instrument what kind of sound he can make? Owhhhh......... I know, don't say that it is "THE SCREAM" hahahahaha they didn't use "moaning", I think it is more sensual so they never use this word. Lol. WOW, I NEVER EXPECT IT WILL COME LIKE THIS AND NEVER THINK THAT TYPE WILL LOOK SO HORNY LIKE THAT. NO... DON'T... I'M NOT READY BROO.... Those moaning give me more goosebumps. NOOOO THEY TAKE OFF THE CLOTHES.... F*CK I FORGET THAT TECHNO IS THERE, BLESS HIS EYES, EARS AND PLEASE STRENGTHEN HIS HEART TO FACE THIS SITUATION (No, do you want to switch? I would like to see them. Lol) Now someone's know how dose the scream sound like. Feel bad for him.

"I can't wake up, I feel like my head is going to explode" Texhno, his brain stop working since last night Ai Type, he tried to refuse anything, any sound, any picture he got, he just tired to his limit. Poor him..... Remember Ai No, this time you will absolutely die if you spill this special tea. Lol.

Why suddenly Tum skip a class to pick up Tar? They are cute together.

Tharn trying to make a permission to tell Long about their relationship. Well, Type more reasonable now. This strange feeling come out from Long. What is this? I already felt it since I saw him at the first time. Those eyes, that look, I feel a mixing emotions. I suspect him that he likes Tharn or something like possessing him. The feeling of disappointed, being untrusted and unbelieving. There are two speculations I have here, first he likes Tharn and thought that he was single all the time so he can clingy at him. Second, he disappointed because as a best friend Tharn never tell him anything recently so he feels like being untrusted. Well, losing strength until he falls the glass, it is kind of strange attitude for hearing the news. That is why I accuse him to like Tharn. (Private property bro, you need to pay for the glass. Lmao) Sorry it's just my speculation. Then he went like he can't accept what he heard before. This guy keeps something.

Nong Song, if you want to have a faen so much, I don't mind to try it since you're cute. lol. Oww they finally meet and Tar missing Tharn, it will be an open case since their story keep untold.

"Hurry up and be my pillow" Type. I need my pillow too. There is a call from the unknown number. What is this? What will happen? Please don't give us more trial. My God. This series always end every episode with something that cannot be waited. (Sigh)

That is the review for TharnType Ep. 9. How is your opinion? There are so much to discuss, start from P'Sarn, change character of Type, Techno, Lhong and so much more. You can leave a comment below. So, see you next time.

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Some quick letters

This is to my friends, personalized, in case they find this blog.

Also for my exes cause im salty

I really hope ya'll don't find it tho cause this is my diary sooooo

But if you do, this is for you, circa Feb 16,'19

So if you don't find yourself I'm either not close enough with you or i just don't know you yet♡

Btw this is in the order that yall come to mind (except the second to last one, ive been thinking about you nonstop for WEEKS)

Order:

Chloe, Ahlim, Seonmin, Chongwoo, Baron, Ella, Dale, Hannah L., Olivia S., Liv L., Marit, Maddy X., John, Abigail, Caitlyn, Terry, Harry, Ava, Adrian, Sanjana, Eliza, Juri, Lily M., Braeden, Dean, Ryan N., Chris P., Tyler, Ties

Chloe

Hey, what's up

Nothing here is new for you so I don't have much to tell you. Thank you for your friendship through all these years♡

Ahlim

I miss you.

Also, I've been congratulating you on your birthday every year till 2018. Yet you haven't congratulated me once.

But I hope you are well.

Remember how we said we'd meet up at Harvard?

I fully intend on holding up my side of the deal.

Seonmin

I'm sorry for being such a catastrophe whilst we were close. I hope I'm living up to what you think I am now.

Say hi to harabeoji for me♡

Chongwoo

Dude im sorry for how i tried to get with you but you didnt have to be so rude yknow like damn ok

another mothafuckin scorpio

Baron

I liked you for a longass time

Remember my letter you threw out in 4th grade? That shit still haunts me to this day.

I heard you really went downhill.

Sucks to be you ig

Ella

I love you so much

We need to talk more

I know you're seeing this rn, so hmu cause i miss you but im too awkward to say so properly

Also, feel free to show people that you're friends with their respective sections in this post.

Dale

S Q U I S H

You deserve many love you adorable being and i love you very much

I miss you if it isnt obvious

Hannah L.

I really hope you're doing well. Are you still swimming? I bet your English is amazing now♡ I hope you get into an Ivy League like you've wanted to.

Olivia S.

How've you been? We need to talk.

I'm sorry I don't have much to say, we didn't spend all that much time together.

But I haven't forgotten you.

Liv L.

I'm still not really certain what I did the winter of '17 that cast us apart. However, I do know that I hurt you, so I'm sorry. I really did cherish the bond we had and I hope to rekindle that because I miss you.

If you see this, please tell me♡

Marit

You always kind of confused me, but in a good way. What I remember is your mother's lentil soup, the moose tracks ice cream, and our trip to Daiso.

I got a samsung phone so I can't use the case but I still have it in my memories drawer.

It's amazing how you didn't get sick of all the rambling about oowooppa that I did.

I miss you too♡

Maddy X.

I do genuinely want to see you again, so I'm sorry I couldn't come to Moraga in the summer of '18.

However, you hurt me pretty badly when we were in 8th grade.

I would support you, even abandoning all my plans to take you to the hill to rant and yell and sob, but I would get nothing back.

I spent 50 hours on your birthday presents that year and got nothing back.

I wouldn't expect you to do the same, but at least a liiiitle bit of efforr would have been nice.

I'm still hurt. Sorry. I wish you success with your family, volleyball, and academics♡

John

You already know this but boy we needa fuck asap

Anyways your friendship is great and even though we float apart a little, you're president here.

I love how you're so happy to help me in my amoral schemes

♡love you boo

Abigail

How the hell did you get here?!

I'm impressed.

Caitlyn

I'm sorry I've been neglecting our friendship but we have too divergent interests and I have other things to focus on

You're a sweet girl though and a great person

Plus I'm allergic to eyeshadow now so

Terry

OKAY LISTEN HERE YOU LITTLE SHIT

i will fucking murder you you hear me

You thought i wasnt pissed after you cheated on me?

You thought you got away with it?

I know everything, aidan.

Everything.

Don't try to hide from me.

I will always win.

Why?

Because almost everyone hates you, knows you're a liar, and much less people are antagonistic towards me.

Harry

Here's the truth:

I only dated you to sour the friendship with Terry. Why? Because he's a shithead. You deserve better than him.

I'm sorry, but I never actually liked you.

Ava

Your overly energetic moods annoy the hell out of me im sorry

Please shut up once in a while

Please remember what i tell you at least sometimes

Please talk about something aside from yourself

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

Adrian

Surprise surprise, i wanna fuck

Hmu youre hot

Also funny so like

👍👌

Sanjana

Please learn to keep your mouth shut goddammit

you didnt have to tell everyone about my plot involving dean!

Eliza

You're gonna date a druggie in the near future.

But you know what, you're great.

Sorry i hit you that one time it was a joke

Juri

I'm almost certain you won't see this

I understand youre evangelical but please stop preaching to me

You're a really nice girl but youre kind of hollow and a prude

Not too horribly fun to be around, sorry

Lily M.

I love you so much oh my god

You always light up my mornings and its amazing

Keep doin you boo

Braeden

That one time, i wasnt just asking to hang

I was asking you out

Is your skull really that thick?

I liked you, you know.

Dean

You shouldn't even be on this list cause you're too insignificant

But like lowkey i wanna fuck

Your girlfriend can do much better than you but i on the other hand cannot so like

🙃

Ryan N.

Again, like with a lot of other people, I wanna fuck.

That is all.

Chris P.

Please stop whining

Otherwise youre a great guy

Tyler

Oh, you're the hard hitter here

Mothafucka ive been writing about you to shit on this blog

Get in me right now

Just take me

In more ways than one

Also sorry im so awkward when we kiss or you pick me up im just taken aback by you yknow

♡

Ties

I still intend on fucking with you.

I will haunt you for a longass time bitch

You made a fuckin mistake crossing me

The end

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TTD and Other Outside-the Show Stuff

Okay, so this is mostly for anyone who wasn't able to watch The Talking Dead on Sunday night. I know it's difficult for some people outside the states as it isn't always shown or accessible. The did a 2-hour show and then there was the red carpet stuff. We caught a lot of suspicious things throughout.

On the red carpet, Tom Payne made an interesting comment. When asked which deceased character he might bring back, he said, "someone might be back."  

Then, when the TTD part actually started, Chris Hardwick said they would be bringing on deceased characters who "might not be on the show anymore." Okay, I get that they can always do flashbacks, but even when/if they do, the character really isn't "on the show" anymore. So shouldn't he just have said "characters who aren't on the show anymore" ?

Then there were the number (or lack thereof) of deceased characters who appeared. There was SO much hype about them bringing on practically every deceased character who was ever on the show. They made it sound like there would be 20 deceased characters. No, there were like four. The only deceased characters who were actually brought out on stage were Sonequa Martin-Green (Sasha), Michael Rooker (Merle), Scott Wilson (Hershel) and Emily Kinney (Beth).  

Granted, both Sarah Wayne Callies and Steven Yeun did videos because they had other commitments and couldn't appear. And I could MAYBE accept that this is just the way it worked out, except for one thing: there were other deceased characters in attendance that weren't brought out on stage. Like Kyla Kennedy, who was briefly interviewed on the red carpet, and Brighton Sharbino. Why weren't they brought out?  

So we couldn't help but notice that the only deceased characters actually brought out on stage were directly linked to Daryl and Beth in some way. Sasha because of the Sasha/Tyreese Theory. Merle both because of the brother angle and because he was left behind, disappeared, then reappeared several seasons later. Beth/Hershel because...obviously.

It was also suspicious that before they came out, Chris asked Lauren how the memories of Glenn and Hershel affect Maggie going forward. Beth wasn’t mentioned. Because she’s not a memory like the other two are?

M-Nonny also pointed out that the Skybound Account (Official TWD) went out of their way to get a picture of Emily on the red carpet. She's the only one among the deceased characters that they took a picture of. And again, it's totally possible that it simply worked out that way, but she's the only one they went out of their way to take a pic of and then posted it on the account.  

We also noticed that her outfit REALLY stood out among the others. Most of the actors wore shades of black and white, while she wore fuscia. Again, no way to know if it was on purpose or not, but her outfit really drew the eye. At the end, everyone stood on stage together, and my eye just went to her because of the way her colors stood out. I couldn't help it. I felt like that might have been purposeful. (Apologies for the bad quality; my internet was on the fritz when I was trying to get this screenshot.)

And then there was the music stuff.

1. When asked to name a favorite episode, she named 3x01 when she and Maggie sang by the campfire.

2. Chris Hardwick mentioned her music and that she's releasing a new single soon.  

3. When asked what we should expect for this season, Gimple said it would be a "joyful rebellion of life, of death, of MUSIC..." Have they ever said that about a season before?

3. The Weird Al, "Another One Rides the Bus" was mentioned at least twice. (School Bus Predictions) Lots of emphasis there.

So yeah, lots of emphasis on music. "I still sing."

Stuff that has to do with the show:

About the only thing ABOUT the show that caught my attention was when Austin Amelio was asked about what was going through Dwight's head. He said Dwight was working out his hate for Negan and the love for his wife. He said, "It's a powerful potion." It just caught my attention because, once again, it's obvious that Dwight/Sherry mirror Daryl/Beth.

For the Quiz, they emphasized the following:

1. That Daryl caused six explosions

2. That Carol staring at the flowers was a callback to Lizzie/Mica/the Grove (again, why wouldn't they bring the girls out if they were there?)

3. That the RV was blown up using a garage door opener from 7x16. (I don't know if that's important, since the only other garage I can think of is Jessie's in 5b, but I think the emphasis was on the RV exploding. They also included the RV in the "In Memoriam" part.)

4. The colored arm bands, with Orange being for the Kingdom, Green for the Hilltop, and White for Alexandria.

Okay, I think that's it for TTD. It made me happy.  

Next, I'm going to mention Emily's other show, Ten Days in the Valley. 

I know this has already been circulating, but for anyone who hasn't seen it, I’m about to give spoilers for the show. So if you're watching it, but not caught up, and don't want to be spoiled, stop reading now!

…

So on Sunday night's episode, Emily's character Casey was killed off. With a gunshot wound. To the head.  

Seriously? Even if these things aren't being officially coordinated, Emily has to be choosing these roles purposely. I also noticed that Michael Traynor (Nicholas from TWD) played a very small role in Ten Days. So there really may be some crossover there.  

Here are some reactions from the FB group:

@katkhaos: And look: Ten Days can show her dead face while TWD, literally a show about flesh-eating monsters, didn’t.

@sparklepoodles: OMFG LIKE REALLY WHY NOT JUST BETWEEN THE EYES? Can’t believe I’m seeing this--but it’s a sing for Beth coming back?!

@Jabbobo (IG): This is all so weird...

@bluesandbeth: Killing this latest character of hers this way only reminds the audience the way Beth died three years ago, once TWD is back on screen. Come on, they’re refreshing the GA’s minds and bringin EK front and center with all this publicity...

@PC (Group only): So much promotion for only four episodes [of Ten Days]. Emily changed her bio, Casey is shot in the head. Scott Gimple is a producer on TDITV?

(Btw she changed her Twitter bio to no longer reflect Casey from Ten Days, but it still says Beth from TWD.)

I think you all get the idea.

Not to mention, @emily_whitneck_99 (IG) sent this to me this morning. It's from a yahoo interview with Nicotero:

Now, on the one hand, I'm not sure I think Nicotero would actually spoil Beth's return that way. There's a good chance this will be Heath or Sherry. But the excellent point was also made that no one really thinks either of them is dead. I mean, sure, there are people who have theorized that, but the GA doesn't think they're dead in the way they think Beth is. Those two characters are missing, but we didn't see them "die." So why would Nicotero say someone was coming who everyone thinks is dead?

Very suspicious.  

So while overall I kinda think it'll be Heath or Sherry, we can cross our fingers and hope it's Beth.  

And it would be kind of poetic to have her killed off of Ten Days the week before she returns to TWD. If it pans out that way, no way it wasn't planned. If not, better luck next episode.  

As @thegloriouscollectorlady pointed out, there are several specific deceased characters now fresh in the audience’s mind after that TTD special. Which of them is most likely to be alive, hmmm?

So that's where we are on outside-the-show stuff. SUPER excited for episode 2! Thoughts?

[goldenkiva]

unfiltered rambling (this is a (long) vent post; cw for some irl death mentions, sui and self harm mention (nothing in reality), bad mental health time, all that jazz

well it’s 7:30 am and ive been awake since 4 am. which is an improvement really. i slept at 12:30am ish, in contrast to constantly sleeping at 8 am or later the past month or so. and it’s been taking a very bad toll on me lately mentally. everything has been building up and probably toyin’s death (yes the one who was found dead, we were classmates in middle/high school...) was my breaking point as i had a very bad panic attack a few days after. that lasted a good 22 hours before i fully calmed down. it always takes me 5-9 hours to calm down from anxiety or trauma related bad times as i have no real coping mechanisms and i will just literally do nothing but stay huddled up in bed until the unbearable feeling goes away. but that one. was just really bad. i think i also accidentally upset one of my best friends before that which also attributed to it (we’re fine now.) it’s been a bit since i had that panic attack but i still feel so bad all the time. sometimes i joke about wataru giving me chest pain bc i love him so much but i feel like i havent experienced physical emotion in so long i just want to feel it even if it’s painful. i dont self harm so dw about that btw. but i rarely shed even a single tear anymore when ive always been a total cry baby. i only cry full on tears and sobs now when im being over stimulated during a conversation. i just genuinely want to feel physically excited or happy or sad or whatever. i want to feel physical emotion again and not just numbness with an occasional laff or on the verge of getting watery eyes but not even real crying or whatever. 

i also had to get a new phone bc my dumb clumsy self dropped my phone flat on the screen a second time and it was unrepairable which makes me sad bc i only had this phone for two years and it still ran perfectly well. i wanted to keep it for 3-4 years at least...i got a new one ordered yesterday and im splitting price with my dad n i just feel bad i had to get a new one at all bc because of covid and shit my parents are only getting half the usual business and we already dont make a ton. thankfully my parents and sister are the type to not spend recklessly in general (i am prob the biggest spender...) but that wont stop my dumb of ass generalized anxiety disorder from making me worry about bankruptcy or poverty or some other extreme. i hate it bc i cant do anything about these thoughts except just what feels like sitting in mud and i slowly sink in. i wish i was an artist with more clout because i desperately want to be have consistent (or any) income. even before covid i always feel bad about not having a job. ik it’s hard to balance school and work anyway so it’s fine if im not working but it sucks. american college is a scam. at least i didnt go to an art school. (well. i am in art program in college. but not going to an arts dedicated school like ringling. which is significantly more expensive. if i went to art school id be significantly more likely to end up in very heavy debt) but i hate having gad. i hate not having any real coping mechanisms. i feel frustrated and a little annoyed when i asked about coping mechanisms for my anxiety with my therapist she just told me breathing exercises. which ig can be valuable but ik in my heart this wont help me at all. perhaps it’s un-dx’d adhd with rsd making me feel that way that makes me refuse to even want to do them. all my medical and health issues are also a contribution to my gad and financial terrors. sometimes it makes me wanna die but i wont do that. bc my friends and family would genuinely be very heartbroken if i were to suddenly be gone especially if by my own hand. i wouldnt want anyone to blame themselves either...

the only things genuinely making me feel anything lately is wataru and buck tick. it almost makes me a little upset how little amount of things make me happy or even feel anything rn. im reading a tragedy visual novel rn (which is very good and well written and i generally like tragedies and i find them indulgent) that i am enjoying very much yet i feel barley anything while reading it. i immensely miss the buck tick concert streams so bad. watching them over the month and half they streamed every saturday morning really put how much they love making music and performing in a brand new light to me, and watching that last concert bestias locus solus was just. so amazing. i dont know how to talk about it other than i was genuinely touched. they went all out playing at that concert stage bc it was their first time performing there (at the time in their 31 year career, 33 this year) and the unplugged performances and sakura especially got me so hard. im not good with words so im not doing a good job at all expressing how much that concert (along with the day in question 2017) made me feel. i miss it. i want to buy the dvds so bad but theyre so expensive and now is not a time for reckless spending. but one day i will attain them and experience the happiness they bring me again. im sad my friends arent rly into them the same degree i am but ig it really is such a personalized feeling. i was already in a state of dread and depression when i got into the band. but im still glad my other friends enjoy them and tell me they enjoy their music. their stuff slaps. theyre just an amazing band. a band not restricted by genre. a band who makes music because they love it and love performing and love their fans and dont get warped in the ideas of fame or fortune, and are fully okay with being normal people...a band with the same line up since their pro debut in 1989 because the members all love and care about each other so much. theyre still going strong in their mid to late 50s as they were in their late teens. they make me so happy...

well it’s 8 am now and if youve read this whole thing, thanks i guess? that sounds rude, but im just kinda sittin in the mud. im still in the midst of cleaning my room. i am not someone to recklessly hurt myself or anything like that so dont worry about that. i’ll be fine. probably. if you wanna listen to buck tick heres their spotify :) i recommend their albums atom miraiha no. 09, no.0 (especially the live performance version), kuratta taiyo, darker than darkness style 1993, aku no hana, and their kemonotachi no yoru/rondo double single. they slap so good. also spotify is missing literally like 15 years worth of their music from the 00s-10s. you can find downloads online though. theyre also releasing a new single in august im very excited for it. also, the singer of the band (atsushi sakurai) did a collab with sheena ringo where he sung the bg vocals of her song elopers, which was also made in sakurai’s image and she got it really dead set on tbqh. sheena ringo loves bt so yall should too :)

[hamiltontrashaccount]

Homesick ( Platonic Phillipa Soo x Reader)

A/N: Hey everyone! I am so sorry I haven’t posted a fic in a while! This is a super shitty excuse but I just really hate typing on my parents computer and its the only way I can write fics so I have to force myself to type on this computer to write fics and I just really hate typing on here. But I will try harder to get my fics done quicker! Also, quick note: I’ve never actually really felt homesickness so I hope that I did described how it feels to feel homesick! Please feel free to send some constructive criticism if you have any! Enjoy guys!

Request:  Can you please write a platonic Pippa x fem!reader, where the reader is homesick, and Pippa makes her feel better? I loved your Anthony x reader btw!!

Word Count: 1431

Warnings: not really anything, just some homesickness

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New York was great. You’d never been to any place better. It was so freeing to live there; the people were so diverse and no one there judged you for anything you did.

But no matter how great New York could be, Libertyville, Illinois would always be home. 

You hadn’t gone back home for almost a year. Your schedule was so busy all the time. You worked as a theater director in Hamilton: An American Musical. You loved the job; but it kept you busy. Too busy to even call your parents.

During a show on Friday night, your mom had called you. Since you were busy working to get everyone to their places, you couldn’t answer, and when you finally found time to call back, it was way too late and you knew your mother would be asleep. The next morning you’d tried calling her but she didn’t pick up.

“Damn it. She’s probably at work.” You mumbled.You’d tried to remember to call her when you knew she had lunch, but you got busy again and forgot to call.

It wasn’t until a week later when you finally had an extra hour to yourself that you checked FaceBook to see what was going on back home.

Your mom got a new promotion at work. Your dad won some contest and got a giftcard to Starbucks. Your sister went to a party with all your old friends. Your cousin just had a baby shower. One that she didn’t invite you to. You two had always been close.

You tried to stop the tears from coming; you really did. But you couldn’t help it.

When had everyone decided to shut you out?

Sure, it was all tiny, insignificant events in their life. But you were missing out on it all. You and your family had all been close, and now because you were in a different state, you were missing out on all the good things. You threw your phone on the sofa and covered your face with your hands. You pushed the heels of your hands against your eyes to try to stop your tears but it didn’t help. The tears flowed anyway. You cried until you fell asleep.

You woke up late the next morning, so you didn't have time to put makeup on before going to work. Your eyes were puffy and red from the night before, and you almost cried at how unprofessional and just plain disgusting you looked.

When you got to work, everyone was laughing and talking about their plans for the weekend. You heard Anthony mention how he was going to take Jasmine to meet his parents. Jasmine gushed about how the previous weekend, she’d gotten the chance to go back home and show of her boyfriend.

You quickly ran to the bathroom, not bearing to hear another minute of their conversation. You wished you could go back home this weekend, but your job didn’t allow you to take a vacation.

In the bathroom, you tried to calm yourself down, but no matter how hard you tried, the tears still fell.

You heard the bathroom door open and a voice called out.

“Y/N? Are you in here?” Your best friend since high school called out.

“I’m in the last stall Pippa.” You answered.

You saw her feet move from underneath your stall.

“Y/N, are you okay?”

You sniffed before answering. “No.”

“Open the stall door, please.” Phillipa asked, pushing lightly against the door. You obeyed and opened the door.

Phillipa held tissues out to you, but you raised the tissues that were already in your hand. “I’m in a bathroom. I already got some.” You chuckled.

Phillipa laughed with you and walked into the stall, closing and locking the door once she was inside.

“Tell me what’s going on.”

“I miss home.” You said, your voice cracking. “Everyone’s so happy but I’m not a part of it.”

Phillipa sighs before moving to hug you. “Hey, it’s okay.”

You shook your head. “No. I want to go back home, just for a little while. But I can’t because work, and I can’t leave everyone here and-”

“Y/N, everyone will be fine without you for a weekend.”

“I’ve shown up five minutes late before and everyone was in a rush and unorganized and-”

“We’re adults, we can figure things out. And that time you’re talking about, happened on the first preview we ever had. We had no idea what to do, but now we do.”

You shook your head again, but didn’t say anything.

Phillipa sighed, but didn’t say anything else. She stayed silent as she held you. You cried for another couple minutes before taking a big sigh and breaking away from Phillipa’s embrace.

“I’m okay now.” You said. Phillipa gives your shoulder one last rub and takes your hand. You both walk out of the bathroom.

Everyone gave you sympathetic smiles as you passed all of them, but thankfully, no one mentioned anything.

The show that day went well, but that didn’t bring your mood up.

Later that night, Phillipa goes home with you.

“Are you still feeling homesick?” she asked once you two settled on the couch.

You sighed. “Yeah, a little bit.”

“Well then,” Phillipa said as she smiled. “Looks like we’re gonna have to order us some pizza and order a Postmates to bring us some Rocky Road and Cookie Dough ice cream.”

You smiled.

“Yes, there’s the smile!” Phillipa cheered. “Oh, and I’m still behind on Orphan Black, so we’re going to watch some of that.”

“Mmm, I love me some Tatiana Maslany.” You giggled.

When your pizza and Postmates arrive, you and Phillipa stayed up for the next three hours watching Orphan Black.

“Thanks Pippa. I really needed this.” You looked to her. “Just some quality time with my best friend in the whole world.”

“Anything for you.” She responded, laying her head on your shoulder. After going through two more episodes, the both of you fell asleep on the couch.

Even after quality girl time with Phillipa, you still couldn’t cure your homesickness. Every time you checked FaceBook, something new was happening with everyone in your family. The next two days were just as miserable as the last.

No matter how hard you tried to hide your sadness from Phillipa, she could still see it. She’d known you for almost 10 years; at this point, there was nothing you could hide from her.

There was only one solution to fixing your homesickness. Phillipa worked fast to get everything set up and soon her plan was ready to be set in motion.

Two days after girl’s night, Phillipa showed up to your apartment early in the morning.

You sat up groggily from your bed and looked at the time. 5:30 a.m.

You got out of your bed and grabbed the bat next to your nightstand.

You checked the peephole of your front door and sighed out in relief when you realized it was just Philipa at the front door.

“Pippa Soo, what the hell are you doing here so early in the morning?”

“Our flight leaves in three hours. Pack up quickly so we can get to the airport on time.”

“I, uh, huh?” You stammered.

She raises up two plane tickets to your face. “We’re going to Illinois.”

“But.. how? Work and-”

“No. I talked to them and they’re giving us the next two days off. So that’s three days we get to go visit our family.”

“Pippa, you’re really doing this? Taking a vacation just for me?”

“Well, I mean, it’s not much of a vacation. I have to babysit you.” She joked. You shook your head but laughed with her.

“How much do I have to pack?” You asked.

“Enough for two days. Now chop chop. We only have like an hour to get there.”

Phillipa helped you to pack up whatever you needed and 20 minutes later you both were in a taxi heading for the airport.

While waiting for your flight, you and Phillipa ate at one of the restaurants there.

“Thank you again, Phillipa. You really didn’t have to do this.”

“I know I didn’t. But I couldn’t stand to see you sad anymore.” she said, reaching across the table to squeeze your hand affectionately.

“Well, now I have to set up my own spontaneous vacation. Maybe we’ll go somewhere funner this time. Like Vegas!”

Phillipa giggled. “Yeah, definitely Vegas.”

That weekend was probably one of the best of your life. And you owed it all to Phillipa.

[drfowlercooper-blog]

The reason why.

Heey guys. I wrote a new fanfiction. This time it is about Shamy and Leonard 😂 please tell me when you like it btw i really hope you do 😂💞 and a special thank you to gald8 (on IG) for your help with the grammer bc english isn’t my first language 😂

While Leonard was awake a little earlier than usual, Sheldon had woken up at the same time as he always did, he looked a bit tired as he walked out of his bedroom into the living room, but his big smile was not to be missed.

“Good morning,” said Leonard without looking at Sheldon, he was much too absorbed in his book.

“It is a good morning.”

Now Leonard raised his eyes to Sheldon. Sheldon is in a good mood? What happened last night? It has something to do with Amy sleeping here.

Pasadena caught a strong storm last night, and Sheldon did not want Amy to go home in this heavy rain, so Sheldon decided she’d sleep with him. In the same bed. Leonard’s smile grew as he looked at Sheldon. “So you had a great night”

“Stop grinning, nothing happened.” Sheldon’s voice was soft, and Leonard could feel that he was a little embarrassed. “I’m confused if nothing has happened, then why are you so happy?”

“Oh Leonard, oh Leonard Leonard, not everything is about sex. Can’t I just be happy? “ Sheldon said. 

"But you’re never happy, okay, okay, what happened last night?” Leonard said as if he were a three-year-old child, and the answer would be his birthday present.“We talked” Sheldon said and his smile was getting bigger. 

“But you hate to talk after your bedtime. You wanted to let me sleep in the hall once, because I asked you five minutes after your bedtime, if you were already asleep and now you want to tell me that you talked in the bed."Leonard was even more confused now.

"With Amy, it’s just different” Sheldon’s smile grew bigger and bigger each time he said her name.

“But what is so different with her?” everything seems easier to you when she is around.“Sheldon, she changed you very much”, said Leonard, his voice was very low, Sheldon almost seemed as if he were afraid his words could hurt him.

“Oh Leonard, please not this topic again. You really want to know why I am so happy with Amy? ”

“Yes, please let me know what’s going on in your head.” Leonard heard Sauer now.“Of course." Sheldon thought he is mad at me because he does not understand me, it’s just as always.

"With Amy, everything is easier for me because she understands me, she understands it when I need time to get used to new things, she understands why I have a regular schedule, she understands it if I don’t want to be touched. She knows that it is not easy for me to recognize or show emotions. She just is the only one who understands me. You all, have always tried to change me because you don’t like the way I am. While Amy gave me time and she waits until I’m ready. she never forced me into something I didn’t wanted to do. She gave me time and  never got angry if I did not want to do something. She just takes me the way I am and that is why it is so easy for me to be with Amy. With her, I can be like I am because she takes me as I am. Do not get me wrong, I know you are all my friends and I like you but I often feel you are annoyed by me and that hurts even if I can not show it. With Amy everything is so much easier. She loves me the way I am  and even if I hate changes, I take this change because it is not so easy to me. Amy takes me the way I am and supports everything I do and that’s why it’s so easy for me. I love her.”

“Oh my god, Sheldon!” Said a soft, sleepy voice behind Leonard and Sheldon. It was Amy and she got every single word from Sheldon.

“Amy, how long have you been standing there?” Sheldon said a bit confused

“Long enough to hear every word. talking silently has never been your strength,” Amy said in a quiet voice. Leonard and Sheldon looked at each other briefly, then turned their eyes back to Amy, hoping that she would say something to take the silence out of the apartment.

“Is it true? Everything you said? Amy said as softly as if she was afraid to hear the answer.

” Every word “

"Oh Sheldon,” Amy said, falling around Sheldon’s neck. He pressed her close to him. He did not plan to let go of her so quickly. 

“I love you too !!” was Amy still said.

“Good,” Sheldon said, kissing Amy’s head lightly.

“And I’m going back to bed, good night, and Sheldon, you deserve luck, and I’m sorry if I ever stood in your way. You’re my best friend and I like you the way you are, "Leonard said before walking down the narrow hallway leading to his room

"Thank you Leonard,” Sheldon said, but never let Amy out of his arms.

He does not know if it was seconds, minutes, or hours before he let Amy go, but Sheldon knew. He was happy.

Thank you for reading 💞

[thingsandtrichotillomania]

Should Be All Good Now

So I’ve let some time pass before I made another original post. There were some ups and downs the past two weeks or so but I think it’s okay now. 

EDIT: Important info- After I had posted that I had in fact gone home and I can’t remember if Eric had come over or not. Regardless, I do know that I had text him on 6/28 and we were playing 20 questions and he eventually asked me like “hypotheically if someone were to ask you out when would be a good time’’ or something like that. And in that moment in time (I still do) I didn’t care about Eddie anymore because I was done with his bullshit. And so I said anytime and boom. Eric called me at like 12 something am (next day but like same convo) on the 29th and asked me if I would be his “more than friend” and I replied with “no thanks, I’m good” before laughing and saying “I accept the invitation” I thought it was funny but cute. ANYWAYS BACK TO THE MAIN POINT.

At one point about a week ago Eddie asked if he could stay here for a few days because his mom and him got in an argument and kicked him out. Long story short he ended up going home at like 8 pm that day because his friend from FL was leaving the next day and wanted to spend a bit more time with him. I’m glad he didn’t stay because things were awkward and got depressing real quick.

And from what I remember I hadn’t talked to him again till last night. I never wanted to speak to him again and he was doing really well with not texting me and his Instagram was no longer posting depressing pictures.

So like two days ago or so I saw on Instagram that he finally got himself a girlfriend. I mentally rejoiced because that meant that he was finally moving on. (I understand he wasn’t fully you know, okay after all this shit but still, it was a step). 

 Then this morning at like 1 am GEANNA (the 1st girl I was worried about Eddie replacing me with) messaged me on IG and I replied at like 3 am because I had woken up. Basically it was her telling me that Eddie still loved me and that he’s scared he’s going to lose me etc. Same shit I’ve been hearing from him. And telling me not to listen to the rumors people say about him (I haven’t heard of any) and he’s a great guy. 

She assumed that I was Eddie’s GF and I said I was taken. I guess she misunderstood and thought that Eddie was talking about a girlfriend or something. I explained that I never was his GF and how he took a year and all that shit and she said he explained it differently. Sounds exactly like him.

THEN I found out that her and Eddie dated last summer. The SAME summer I started to like him and started to do things with him. And they were LONG DISTANCE. Eddie told me several times that he didn’t like LD relationships yet he was in one just last year...

Geanna sent me the occasional screenshot between her and Eddie and he was like “I never said she was gf she’s the one who replaced me and left me for dead.” So fucking dramatic. I told him I would still be there for him as a friend but he just got to be too much. He was being way over dramatic and over depressed and shit. 

AND GUESS WHO HIS NEW GIRLFRIEND IS BTW. ALYSSA. That bitch I probably talked about not long ago. Shes the new girl who they were trying to get to come over and go to the movies and shit. The one who he sent heart eyes and shit WHILE I WAS STILL THERE. Sure I was on the very edge at that point but still. But guess what. She’s fucking like 14 or 15. And GEANNA is 15 RIGHT NOW. Meaning she was like 14 when they dated. EDDIE IS A WHOLE ALMOST 19 RIGHT NOW.

I was talking to Eric about all this since he was already up for work and he said he’s doing that because they’re easy people to manipulate. I’m starting to think he’s right. Both of those girls are extremely under age as of right now. Now if they were in college or something, fine. Barely in High school though when he’s already graduated? Not okay. Not in my opinion. 

Anyways towards the end (it was 5 in the morning at this point) Eric told me to give him Eddie’s number and I did. He sent a very warning like text basically saying to never talk to me again. He told me I wasn’t allowed to talk to Eddie (I completely understand why he said this, Edward has had a very bad tole on my mental health) so it’s not like he’s saying it just because

I blocked him on IG and Kik. I don’t even have him on Snap anymore either. All I have now is his number. Even then I don’t ever use my texting much anyways unless I don’t have access to Wi-Fi.

I’m going to try and not speak to him again. I have no reason to at this point. He’s lost me as a potential partner and he’s definitely lost me as a friend. I tried to be there for him but it just wasn’t working.

Hopefully this is my last post with Edward’s name in it. Me and Eric are really happy when things like this don’t happen. Hopefully this morning was the last of it. Forever. 

I just did some quick math and we’ve already been together for almost 3 weeks. I mean that’s nothing big but I can’t believe how quickly time has flown since then. I’m just hoping that this is all over with. 

In the end,  I’m not proud that I fucked up, but at least I finally dropped Eddie. He was a toxic person and people told me that for months but I could never drop him. In the end I hurt him and myself. Now time has to heal and hope it goes well.

July 21st, 2018