#good luck finding a place where you dont have to pay all that

[ravioliwings]

someone at my work said they want to have $5k in savings so they can move out and i was just sitting there like

does this person not know it costs at least $10k up front to move anywhere here??

[texture32]

Some things, insight.. full of love… it seems.. but what is true of what is happening. To some joy is a pity.. almost lost in the dust of the ashes, burned cashes and stashes for the sake of what we feel is a better future.. the past is always new.. remember that.

Love found again, is like brand new.. swaying the mind in to the beuatiful blue is nothing new.. but that magic can break hearts.. like lost joy. Real joy

That is what some search. I researched as a past time. Some would pay a dime for that, in other places and other times.

And like lemons, same with limes. I dont spit bars, i make lines. For myself.. sad as it seems, blue was always a hint of the dream.. in all senses..

Romanticism is often plagued by the word love. But like a virus.. if true, only corrupts the bad in us… So keeping the dark hidden and what not, i feel i have a step towards true thought.

Purified, process or not, direct indirect, both, indirect direction and vice versa.. my boredum may be a sign to myself that i should do something. I dont know what ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ weakness like luck? Hard to care.. when all is confusion to one. Understanding what pain is.. something ive pondered if i should have knowledge of. Something ive.. thought to sought from time.

Path of pain.. suffering understanding how not to blame…

Stay ignorant. Or not. Enlightenment has a dark or.. soft spot. But like a compass without gauss to gauge and navigate the seas, lost adrift, maybe to find a new breeze. A new scent from shrubs and foliage and trees. Blue fruit.. blue weeds..

They say the Dao flows to the lowest place.. im quite simple.. but i know that means searching low is where you find peace. Be that it, i search deep. Desires euphoria is not what i thought it was. Glad to know. Never knew magic existed. Now i must play the true fool, and be caring of the seeds i sow.. and when they grow.. not take them for granted. Thats human to understand.. but what would an inscect think of such a thing.

Humanity brings forth good things. Maybe i should stay in the know. But keep my darkness for those who need it most. Doping the brain with drugs.. id rather not, however im stuck in this rut. Humanity brings good things. Nature and its creator mapped out something… im just a screw lose. Its somewhere out there stranded. I can hold myself together. But i actually feel unhinged, windows got no outside pane, no ledge.

Of itself.. can you go below the Dao.. maybe the blueprint of life is being rebuilt to something high.

Natural true joy and bliss, no needs to be met.. thats the paradise i imagine in my head. But never a memory to forget.. only grateful we met the goals end and start. Maybe build higher things, dream new dreams. Find a higher place in harmonious strings…. Ionic bonds and spag being old things, i cherish the old teachings, taking them literally.

Intelligence… ive always loved.. but my heart is upside down. And the higher parts not so well. Confusion alone isnt so swell. So i keep to myself. Compassion turning on itself.. purify the truth within..

[akihatohnoofficial]

r/akihaowners

A place for questions and conversations about owning and caring for your Akiha. For photos and videos, check out r/akihas.

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Topic: [Adopting] Where to Boy Akihas

u/throwaway5318008 posted 3 hours ago:

Hey guys i'm looking to buy an Akiha, but i'm a college student so i don't have a lot of money right now. how cheap can i get one for?

EDIT: BUY I MEANT BUY. FUCK I CAN'T CHANGE THE TITLE.

u/charzardass replied 2 hours ago:

Fellow boy-Akiha enjoyer detected ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) A man of culture, I see.

If you want one for cheap and don't mind buying used, check your local Facebook marketplace or Craigslist. I've been lucky enough to get several for under $50 ea. Happy hunting!

u/pm-me-akiha-titties replied 3 hours ago:

If you're a college student, the cost of buying an Akiha isn't your biggest concern. You'll need to pay for routine veterinary care, clothing, a cane (many cheap Akihas won't be sold with a cane), enrichment (Akihas don't like being left alone! What are you going to do when you're in classes?), and, of course, food? The Akiha Care Guide provides an estimate of monthly expenses for Akiha raising.

| u/throwaway5318008 (OP) replied 2 hours ago:

| Yeah i live in a dorm but its a single so i dont have roommates. And i was thinking she could just hang out in my apartment while im in class? And i can bring back food from the dining hall. So i dont think she really needs clothes or whatever if shes in my room the whole time.

|| u/knightyknight replied 1 hour ago:

|| yeah OP you can ignore that simp. some people love to spoil and coddle their akihas and then warn eeeeeeveryone how expensive they are. well of course they're expensive if you treat them like people.

|| anyways I have a buddy who's an akiha breeder so I get mine for dirt cheap. you can always try to find a breeder in your area and offer to buy the dams off them once they stop being fertile -- they'll usually sell them for next to nothing to clear up space for the next young dams. ===

Topic: [Advice] How to make less noisy?

u/SmolTaterTot posted 7 hours ago:

Hi folks. I recently bought an Akiha, and I love him to pieces! The only problem is... I don't think I was prepared for how noisy they can be. Mine's always meowing and moaning and whining all day and night. I've read the FAQs, so I tried hitting him when he wakes me up in the middle of the night, but he hasn't stopped. Any advice?

u/himejooooooshi replied 5 hours ago:

UNGRATEFUL [huffy face][huffy face] being whiny and needy is an Akiha's charm point

u/ArrowToTheNiichan replied 7 hours ago:

You done goofed. You clearly aren't giving him enough attention since he's crying all the time, so hitting him (i.e. giving him attention) when he wakes you up is just encouraging the behavior. Go back and RTFM again, specifically the part about behavioral conditioning.

But it's true that Akihas tend to be pretty loud no matter what. Some vets can remove the vocal cords for you if it really bothers you that much, but insurance won't cover it. Good luck.

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Topic: TIFU by getting a "friendly" pair of akihas

u/sirtwixalot posted 12 hours ago:

I read that akihas need attention and get lonely easily, but they can also be intimidated by unfamiliar akihas, so I decided to buy a pair of akihas from the same breeder so that they could keep each other company.

I got them Friday afternoon, and they spent Saturday and Sunday grooming each other and wrestling together. One of them calls the other "nee-san," and the other calls the first one her "puppy." So they seemed to be getting along really well. I wasn't even having the problems with them refusing to bathe or eat that I hear sometimes happens with akihas. So I thought they seemed like really good companions for each other.

Then on Monday.... I went to work and left them at the house.

When I came back... I think I'd be banned if I described what I saw.

Imagine if a jar of mayo exploded all over a bed.

Sooooooo TIFU.

u/himejooooooshi replied 9 hours ago:

No problem detected... ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

u/SmolTaterTot replied 10 hours ago:

DUDE

u/ArrowToTheNiichan replied 11 hours ago:

Does no one actually read the FAQs before they buy one of these things anymore?

u/charzardass replied 11 hours ago:

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOO

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Topic: [Advice] How to beat an Akiha in a one-on-one basketball game?

u/Point_Me_@_The_Sky posted 2 hours ago:

[etherealspacejelly]

hi! i don't know how to bring up adhd diagnosis to my parents. they're those "you don't need a label" people. and they're very loving and i know the worst they could say is no, but somehow that feels worse than staying undiagnosed

sorry i don't mean to vent but... any advice?

sounds like you need to convince them of the benefits of you getting a diagnosis.

if you havent already, make yourself an adhd evidence document (i have explained this in previous posts so i wont do it again here, if you havent seen it or need a reminder scroll back through the adhd tag on my blog and you should find it). this should help you to convince them that you have adhd in the first place

then make a list of all of the reasons why you want a diagnosis. this could be accessing reasonable accommodations in school, getting medication, understanding yourself better, or something more personal to you.

if you want to take it a step further, write it like a persuasive essay. you've probably written a bunch of them in English class by now! if you haven't, look up the Point Evidence Explain structure and that should help. find some medical or academic sources to cite if you can!

what you need to help them understand is that its not just about the label, its about what that label opens up for you. tell them how you are struggling (adhd evidence doc) and then show them how a diagnosis would alleviate that (meds, accommodations, etc.)

adhd isnt just "ooh im so quirky- oh look a squirrel!" it has actual detrimental impacts on our school lives, our home lives, and our mental health. but most people just dont know that! explaining all of this to them should increase your chances of convincing them that you need a diagnosis.

if this still doesnt work, look up how old you have to be to have medical autonomy where you live. it might be younger than you think! although i think in most places it is 18. once you reach that age you can take yourself to the doctor and get referred (as long as you aren't in the States and have to pay for it, in that case im sorry)

hope this helps! good luck!!

[type1diabetesinfandom]

I'm thinking about writing something with a character who has type 1 diabetes. Where might I find information about what it's like to have it?

That's awesome!

Start with my #how to write t1d tag!

It's got a mix of do's and dont's, infographics and legit how-to-write-this posts, and also will give you some blogs you can browse for daily lives as t1diabetics.

You are ofc welcome to browse this blog as much as you find useful!

Some fic recs for a good look at diabetic perspectives, written by diabetics or people familiar with the disease, are:

My fics When the Warmth Hits You and Lost were written specifically for diabetes awareness and are long enough to cover multiple aspects of it. You should be able to read them both fandom blind, especially if your focus is on the medical stuff.

@rpgwrites's Pathfinder, Truthseeker series and her Diabetes Awareness Day series.

Outnumbered by @heartofcathedrals.

A Painting of One Thousand Voices by WolfieChan12.

Wescott Preparatory Academy by adder574 is a good view at t1d care and life ~20 years ago. Note that the medical information is dated, but useful for stories taking place 20-ish years ago.

(God I can't believe it's been that long 👵)

A New Low by Rosie_Rues.

Anything tagged with Diabetes by Carbon65.

Ditto with witchry9.

Some OG fiction books I recommend borrowing from the library or however you get books:

Let Me List the Ways by Sarah White.

Sal and Gabi Break/Fix the Universe by Carlos Hernandez.

Sweetblood by Pete Hautman.

Sweet Desire by J.M. Cagle. (You can get part 1 for free).

There are lots of bloggers, youtubers, and podcasters who share t1d focused content. I don't really pay attention to these so I'm not going to recommend specific ones, but definitely poke around. You'll find cool stuff.

The JDRF and Beyond Type 1 websites have easily-digestable medical info, but note that anyone can post on BT1 so it's not as accurate as I would like it to be.

Dr. Bernstein is also awesome for medical stuff, but hardcore, and his methods are extreme, although effective.

Now There's a rabbit hole if you want to explore differing medical opinions 🤣

You are always welcome to send me asks or dm me directly if you have specific questions! And if you decide to get seriously into the research, I have a discord server with a specific channel for asking questions about how to represent t1d, that's open to all diabetic peeps in the server.

Hope this helps, and I'm excited to see your character someday! Good luck writing!

[theatrekidstatus]

Gender bent John Laurens

John pov: when im alone in my room somtimes i stare at the wall on this particular night i felt my conscience stall I heard a knock at the door I knew it wasn't my wife that when mr.Alexandera Hamilton walked into my life he said "i know you are a man of honor im so sorry for bothering you at home but i dont know where to go and i came here all alone she said "my husbands doing me wrong BEATING ME CHEATING MISS TREATING SUDDENLY HES UP AND GONE I DONT HAVE THE MEANS TO GO ON" so i offer her a lone i offer to walk her home she said "your too kind ma'am" i gave her 50 bucks i stocked away she lived a block away "this ones mine ma'am" "well i should head back home" she turned red her legs spread and said "stayyyyyy" "hey" "heyy" thats when i begin to pray lord show how to say no to this i dont know how to say no to this there is no where i can go go go when her mouth is on mine i do not say 'no'no no no "i wish i could say that was the last time i said that last time it became a pass time a month into this indever i received a letter from a ms.Schuyler even better it said 'dear Sarah, I hope this letter finds you in good health in in a prosperous position to put wealth in the pockets of people like me down on their luck you see, that was my wife you decided to fuck' uhhhh ' oh, you made the long sucker cock hold so time to pay the priper for the pants you unbuckled and how you can keep seeing that gigolo if not, your husband's gonna know.' I hit the letter, and I raced to her place scream how could you in her face? She said, no, sir have to dress apologetic a mess. She looked pathetic she cried please don't go, sir. " so what's your whole story is set up" " I don't know about any letter" "stop crying goddamn it get up." " I don't know about any letter." "Stop crying god damn it get up" " I didn't know any better" " I am ruined" " please don't leave me I am helpless" " how can I do this?" " just give her what she wants and you can have me." " I don't want you." " whatever you want if you pay you can stay." " lord, show me how to say no I did this I don't know how to say no to this, but the situation  in her body screaming Hell yes"

1 week later! I wake up to a gun shot I try to run out my window but Elijah shot me out the window "don't fuck my girl fag"

[chouchen]

Hey there! You're a very inspirational person to me and one of the reasons why I realized that art is my true passion unlike all of the other professions i convinced myself to like because they're more "profitable". So I'm now seeking to enter an art college once I finish high school, but in my country it's a little hard for me to find anything "eye-catching".

I'm going to apply for a visual arts course next year in a very popular public school here in my country for preparation (the applications are only at the end of the year and i didn't apply for anything last year), but I'm still a little worried about finding a good art college, specially since art is very undervalued in my country (maybe it will change bc of the new president, hopefully), but i was very interested in the weekly schedule you posted of your art school last year, since it's pretty much everything I wanna learn in my art journey, so I'd like to know if you have any tips on finding a good college? There are quite a lot of art colleges here but I find it hard to find something that fits what I want,,,

very long reply

hi ! first of all i'm super glad that i can be such an inspiration to you aa ^_^

second of all, i don't really know how colleges work for you but for me i made sure of 3 things to choose mine.

first is the teaching, art colleges are very different from each other because art is a very vast and each college has a speciality so choose wisely depending on what you want to do.

second is the diploma, idk how it works for you but here some diplomas are certified by the state (means they recognize you has a student etc) here certified diplomas can help you find a job and its easier to change job all that. Honestly in the art industry the school you did isn't that important (ofc it's always better to have a prestigious school on your resume but) your portfolio is really what's gonna show your work and this is what employers are gonna look at !

third is the cost, here we have free or paid colleges, either free or not art studies cost A LOT, all artistic material is expensive traditional or digital (especially digital) if you can't afford everything they are some solutions (second hand material, adobe cracks etc) just please make sure you don't put yourself in too much debt because art is still a job that doesn't pay much at first (especially if you go on freelance)

and lastly, ask your college it's employment rates, in my college for example, big studios directly come to recruit some people, they're the judges for our final exams etc, make sure your college has connections with the working world because as fun as it sounds at the end of the day you're looking for a job !!

bonus, ask old students from the college and ask about their experiences, here we have special conventions where college show what they do and you can meet people (YOU DONT WANT A COLLEGE WITH WEIRD PEOPLE!!! especially if you're a girl and you want to go in video games like me, i got asked my number and to go get a drink by some dumbass and let me tell you i did not choose to go to this college, students reflects what the reputation of their school and you don't want to go to a place full of dumbasses)

i also really recommend you visit the colleges you're interested in !

bonus bonus, art studies takes a lot on your mental health, there's a real difference between drawing as a hobby and doing art for a living, but i think you already thought about that so all i have to say is good luck !

that was long aaa i hope i didnt discouraged you too much, it took me a while to find my college too but once you're in you're good !!

[cupboardgods]

Hi! I was wondering how you became a grants manager? I'm interested in making a career change, but when I looked into it a lot of the advice was just "find a non-profit and do work for free for a while". Thank you!

Tl;dr: I got grants experience doing simple admin work for NIH during the pandemic, and I have an arts degree and a lot of customer service experience.

But ugh literally. Years ago, I met a woman who "coasted on [her] inheritance" for a decade working unpaid jobs and climbing the ranks at her museum until she got a leadership position. Not only was that really insensitive "advice", but I dont know if you can even DO THAT anymore with the current job market. So I know the struggle and unfortunately that's also the stage I'm at now in my career despite my job experience.

I think I was very lucky to land that arts council job, actually. Recruiters keep telling me that grant review/grantmaking is super niche (they're not even clear on what it is a lot of the time...they think I was writing grants or doing accounting...no).

I think it was a combination of right time/right place and the role being difficult to fill.

Basically, I got pulled into contract work at NIH by a friend in summer of 2020. One of those situations where they really needed people and your education/background didn't matter too much. That job involved supporting grant review meetings, recruiting reviewers, etc. Didn't pay well but was reliable and remote and easy.

Eventually, I was fed up with working there and started looking for arts nonprofits that I could volunteer for and hopefully leverage a job I liked. That's how I stumbled upon the arts council job opening, which was full time and paid a competitive salary for the industry.

I was a good fit bc of my arts background, lots of customer service experience, and also because I was coming from NIH, which is like the best of the best in peer review.

Tbh the responsibilities ended up being much more than what was described in the job posting. My arts council was pretty ambitious despite lack of resources, and also wanted me to revamp everything. I had to learn A LOT on the job. God it was so much. It was a big step up from my previous admin role. Also, going from an NIH institute with hundreds of employees and over $100 MILLION in funding to a tiny nonprofit with 9 employees and a couple bucks was a bit of a shock.

I guess I'd say look to larger organizations to get experience? I live in the DC area, so it's all associations and government contracting here. But I do think my NIH role was the main reason I got the Grants Manager job.

And of course, in a career change, really sell yourself. Make sure you are clear about how your previous experience makes you a good fit. It might be as obvious as "I managed this program therefore I can manage yours too," but if you don't say that, the employers aren't going to come up with that themselves. The reality of the current job market is they don't want to train you and they expect you to have already had the same title they're hiring for.

I'm currently trying to pivot to other nonprofit work--program manager roles, preferably in the arts, but I'm not being picky. But lately I haven't had a lot of success.

Best of luck!

[ynwa4eva]

i’m starting uni this autumn after a bit of a crisis (went kind of mental) n i was wondering if u had any advice for first yr at all? if not no worries, also good luck on ur exams🫶

Thanks anon <3 this is gonna be really lame but i truly picked two subjects that interest me (english and archaeology) and i got a lot of people saying what a peculiar combination those are! And igaf! So dont gaf about other peoples stupid comments.... I noticed that here in germany (esp for my subjects) the people are soooo snobby omg.... Like i dont want to get along w these peopleeeeee 😭😭 like dont pressure urself to need to like people.... But i wish you luck in finding a clique 🫡 im kinda hoping theres gonna be nore cool people next semester looooolll...

So like a very big me-issue but dont stress urself if you cant find any friends immediately loool like just.... Idk this is so lame but just enjoy ... Studying 😭 and learing... And independence!!!

Alsooo if you moved away from you parents DONT save money on food, get urself treeeeaats all the time get FRUIT! And have a little medicine cabinet and some easy to eat food if youre hangover/sick... I got really sick a few weeks in and those package soups saveeeed me! And also my best biggest investment was a rice cooker ❤️

Its really overwhelming in the first week because they got all these systems etc but truly just ask!! I went to counselling and like help desks alllllll the time like those people love to help! Ask! (Weve had a new system in place and stuff idk if this applies to you)

Also imo dont stress yourself too much with needing to take notes all the time... Like the first semester classes are truly soooo.. erm easy if you literally just pay attention... Like if people talk about how hard an exam is theres a 75% chance theyre idiots im sorry to say 😭 like if you picked a subject you like you will NOT have any issues!!! Like truly!

My BEST tip would be (if you moved away) is to just walk around ... Like familiarise ourself w your surroundings... It helped me sm knowing where all shops are and atms and ice cream shops ...

[expfcultragreen]

🤔 scouting places for one of my weddings, my gf said she'd do the watermelon/bat one with me and im already getting ahead of myself since we havent even started paying for the first one

Oh but it turns out i have an agent again actually, i just didnt get their email about signing up to some central booking site with them listed as my agent........im two for two now with applying to agents coast to coast, which is good because I cant handle setbacks even slightly (i procrastinate starting things/making progress because i know if i dont luck out immediately and fully complete a task to my own satisfaction very quickly, I'll virtually abandon the task; setting manageable targets and doing things in chunks sort of works......feels like jumping hurdles when id rather just pole vault....if i have to be patient how about i patiently just not do it, right....the amount of motivation i lose by not doing something all at once, even if its writing a novel or building a house, is close to insurmountable on a moment-to-moment basis......so much has to go right snd get done to start with/via the intial effort that it enters sunk cost territory where im like, i cant squander my own prior toilings)

Like: i applied to one (1) place and got discouraged by not getting a call and not seeing an email, and didnt apply anywhere else for two months. Come to find out, they actually did email immediately

One thing ive learned from other wizards, simon the wizard mostly, is to just like, hold out for The Vibe, dont even try when its not hitting.........of course, MY advice for anyone suffering from difficulty with that, is that the proper medication for anxiety during the vibeless times, is weed

I couldve been running around making panic moves, eesh....i dunno, i applied because there was a sign up at the liquor store i go to. If i dont get that maybe I'll try the thrifts with more seriousness......really wanna be a sorter

You and i may not like it but this is normal so if you want to organize labor........maybe optimize laborer living conditions

[merulast]

Planing #4 - The black P .. err ... Sea

(source: Wikipedia)

Since the beginning I wanted to cross the black Sea by using an Ferry. It is just convenient compared to bus journeys with 6 stops. Or trains with no beds. Not to speak of the fact that once you arrived on the ferry everything is just running: You move. You get food. You have a bed. All things that you would need attention otherwise.

No 'if my room booked' or 'does the bus come?' 'am I to late' and other worries. Just check in and leave your worries outside.

I mean. I would not expect and luxury cruise like most would if they think about a ferry. But it still sounds amazing, or not? Bonus is, that you can walk around! And it's still traveling. Like having 2 days 'off'. With some luck you could even watch dolphins!

Hahaha - OOOH how naive. This is the second when reality RKO's you thought a Table!!

(symbolic picture. replace water with lava!)

The Options

From Varna has a big Harbor and of course we could expect that a Ship will travel from there to Georgia. The NavBul offer(ed) this kind of service for decades!

On Burgas, an smal city on the coastline, you also can find a big Harbor with an other company that offers a ride :)

Last but not least. If everything breaks you could travel over Turkey via bus or train. Thanks e-visa and other options this should always be an nice solution.

The price for all options is almost equal at 200€ (with 100€ for hotels). On the time-side it will take 2-3 days to cross the Sea. Taking the Bus or Train wont take much more. In fact, it could be faster. Depends how much time you want to spend on the road.

NavBul

(actuall ferry)

Each ferry company has the same biz: Bring (mostly truckers and trucks) over the Sea. They all try to look like multi million dollar companies to the outside. But an short look to the actual place where you could hop onto the ship will open your eyes:

(google streetview)

They dont ship from the Habor. Oh now. They have a small beton-block far outside of Varna. You cannot reach that point with anything but a taxi. It is really in the middle of nowhere. Its basically a gigant field of old road with a smal house in front of it. Good luck!

But they do have a shedule, dont they? YES they had. But they were not matching the times. Last time I had a look on them, the ship was about 10 day's late. They don't tell you about that - but the international Navigation Satelite map for fessels told me. Imagine, arriving there and nobody is there. Nobody tells you anything. You are just lost.

Never got an reply to any email to them. You could call an Bulgarian cellphone number. Good luck with reaching someone on that!

I found some blog entries from others that had been on that ship. The most awesome line was 'And in the big room where we all had to spend our days was one TV where truckers where watching porn DVD's they had onto them. Too sad, that I had not saved that url :/

To be honest? I loved everything about that! It is so crazy apeshit. I would had loved to cross via Navbul. But too sad: They stopped the service in January 2024 :(

pbm Black Sea Ferry Services

(homepage of PBM - we are professional!)

So basically there is only one last company that offers shipping of private people over the black Sea. Only one. That is so crazy if you keep in mind how big the black Sea is.

PBM has a fixed schedule over the black Sea (each weekend from Burgas to Batumi) and an email adress where you actually can reach someone.

The office is not on the end of the world, but the company is not registered on any bigger selling platform. You want to 'book'? Then write an E-Mail. If you do that, they will reply that you should write again one week before the ship is moving. If you do THAT, they literally just write an Postit with your name one it.

Next step is to go to their office, on the day of departure before 6pm, and pay for the ticket. No cards. Cash. Euros are perfect. If you miss 6pm the reservation is void and you must hope that you still can hop on Board.

Even thought that the ship should leave on Fr Evening - They are ready when they are ready. I heard thats never before 10pm or 11pm. Sometimes even on the next day. Be prepared!

Otherwise. It seems to be okay there. The tickets start with 200€. All cabins are for four people. If you want to be alone PAY for it. They sell Wifi Access on the Burgas Office, but I wont bet, that it really works.

Yeah

I cant put in words how many days I spend collecting Info 'bout the ferries and how trustworthy they are. This is where adventure starts ;)

You could also spend the money on this plastic wall-picture of spiderman!

[jackiedaytona]

So aight boom

the sinclairs own a family restaurant that henry will take over whenever his parents retire. its a real nice ma and pop kinda deal by a waterfront so you can see the boats go by during a sunset, the whole shebang. life’s good and henry is enjoying being with his family til a tornado(??? honestly what goes on in fuckass indiana) comes wipes the whole strip where the restaurant resides gone. people displaced lives ruined. insurance is only getting them so far, they trying to come up with ideas to get back on their feet but with a city of people in distressed its kind of hard. he doesnt want his parents doing too much since theyre older and its just too much on them. so, henry, family honoring man that he is, takes it upon himself to make sure his people get back to their lives from before.

his solution: making a deal with the devil

now on the other side you have steve. formerly rich playboy steve whos kicked out on his ass until his dad (im not sure if i want him to be a prince or would something like charlotte’s position as like a politician’s/business child would be more fitting) decides he’s a respectable enough man. something about not getting his trust fund until he can trust him. til he knows the value of a dollar and all that jazz. steve who knows nothing else but a life of luxury wants to throw the bird at the old man. but yk he has to do things on his own now which requires getting a job and getting his own place. turns out harder than he thought it would be.

he’s out one night at a bar til a real sinister dude finds him. asking him if he’s down on his luck. steve’s not really paying him any mind cus like he’s been hassled a few times since he’s been on his own. yk fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me. but still the guy is not leaving him alone might as well hear him out.

thats when steve takes a job from the devil.

now i haven’t figured out more than that. i also dont know what i want “the devil character” to be honestly it just sounded cool but i thinking that connection of them owing something to him will be what pushes them together (or honestly it could be marcia playing fairy god momma odie) but yeah thats all i got.

anon you’re MIND. i love it!!!! i like the idea of marcia being the devil, but she’s just kind of fucking around and doesn’t necessarily have evil intentions (she’s got a soft spot for the sinclair kid, sue her!), but she sends steve after henry to keep up their end of the bargain and get them back to his family’s former glory, letting them grow closer and closer knowing that eventually she’ll have steve collect on what she’s owed (and hey, she’s pretty steve will kick up a fuss when the time comes, but boy oh boy will it be fun). imagine being steve, helping henry, falling more and more in love, fairly certain he’ll have to watch him get dragged to hell or something terrible. and being henry, trying to get his family back on their feet, knowing his time is likely limited, he can’t be falling in love with someone, especially not the someone who works for the woman who holds his contract. (also idk i think this should end some unholy hell wedding)

[officialkatie]

just putting a long vent under a read more (i hope)

i should have guessed that after a week of sleeping well (bc sick) i wouldn’t be able to sleep. also i hate my monday class. i have 10 left but god at what cost its completely unbearable and the professor is one of the reasons i dont want to teach anymore. how could you say to people going to school to be a teacher “youre gonna be so stressed and good luck bc it sucks”

i know i dont want to be a teacher anymore and im finishing my degree to get the job i DO want. but at the same time i dont want any job. i hate working. how do people do it. how has my high school italian teacher taught in the same place for 51 years and still going? how does he not feel defeated? i havent even started a Real Job yet and i hate it. i havent had a moments peace or a day without something looming over me since ever. since at least before covid. but then that added ANOTHER thing to loom over me that will never go away.

i hate that i have to have a checklist in my mind of all the things i have to do before i graduate. it should be easy!

-finish classes

-student teach

-get certification

but its NOT that easy. bc in order to finish classes thats this semester. thats 10 more sucky mondays with an awful professor in which i also have to observe 15 hours at a school (on top of the 100 required hours i already did, im not currently in a school and i didnt know about this and we were all so pissed and just another reason i hate this professor), 1 more week of incredibly intensive classes which GREAT! more time for the stinky class. 9 more tuesdays bc the schedule is so weird, all while working part time and doing homework and figuring out student teaching and having personal responsibilities and a relationship and maintaining my health. its no wonder im sick. then once the semester is over its work work work. bc i cant work while i student teach. no break for katie. i have to focus on holidays and pretending to care about people who cant even remember my birthday. its not that hard to remember. i remember all of yours so whats up with that. then i go to orientation for student teaching and then i do it. i dont know where yet! bc i have to email the man who’s been screwing me over every step of the way (another thing for the to do list). and once a week while i student teach i go to a seminar class. a new update to the academic schedule means my class could end at 10:40 pm. who does that. i live an hour away from campus. if my class ends at 10:40 im going to fail. then i do that for “75” days (in quotes bc there’s not even 75 school days in the spring semester yet thats my requirement?) and then i graduate. should be easy peasy. then i go to the real word and back to my part time job while i look for real job so i can move out and live with the one person who gets me and doesnt make me feel bad for living. and we’re gonna have a great life together but thats another to do list. find an apartment find a job move pay rent pay utilities try not to kill yourself make friends even though you’re socially inept ever since leaving college and your social life is in shambles. eat healthy.

im literally a mess and im so congested and i hate not sleeping and this is just making it worse. i have james taylor in my head and my stomach hurts so bad bc i ate like shit today. i wish i could turn off my brain and i tried using headspace app and thats another thing. i updated my student status and they sent me a confirmation. yet charged me for full price. and you cant even unsubscribe yourself. you need to email someone and so i did and they sent me back “we got ur email! sorry we’re taking so long:(((“ and charged me with a full smile on their stupid faces. if i can figure out how to rip from that app you bet your asses i will

i really need a break.

i feel so bad getting this degree and its not bc im wasting my own money. my parents are paying and they’re so supportive and dont care that id rather do something education-adjacent and my boss at my part time job says she’d be so happy to have me while i figure my shit out after graduation. all i have to do is drag my lifeless body across the stage at graduation. i have a part time job after that and i wont be tackling things alone after that. i have good references and im qualified for the job i want. all i have to do is get there but its SO HARD and i can’t stop thinking about how much its going to take to get me there. its like looking at a number line. sure YOU see the whole number integers but to me there’s a universe in between 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and 5. im trying so hard to not get caught up in those universes but man does that take brain capacity i do not possess.

if i have to work forever into an endless oblivion im going to hit myself in the face with a brick. i love having days off and going to museums and walking through the park and going around to coffee shops and record stores and just enjoying life. if my quality of life enjoyment is diminishing NOW what will it be like when i have to go to work every day instead of having off two days a week for school and to catch up on life?? am i doomed to be boring and hate life?? how can i live if i cant LIVE? (2 am drama,everyone.) the thought of taking “personal days” seems like hell to me. i just dont want to work on a schedule like that. i can give 10000% at work its been seen its been done but i control the schedule right now. take that away and it’s over

at least my dog barking at 2 am did not wake me up. i am already up sir and i feel like my butt is on fire. and my legs are so restless.

and another thing? he’s barking bc my sister is coming home. ever since she moved back home things are worse for me. she’s so messy and i am so not and it really gets under my skin and overwhelms me. and she is inconsiderate of other people and takes my stuff. why do i have to parent my older sister. doesnt she know she’s building up my resentment for her. i dont want to spend time with her and my mom looooves to guilt me about it bc of her relationship with her sister. but then she and my dad go and mumble under their breath about how they cant wait for her to finish her masters thesis (not gonna happen,im gonna graduate with my masters before her and she’s two years older than me and has been working on thesis for 3+ years now) and leave bc she’s turning our house into a trainwreck. why cant she just live with her boyfriend who is (to me) deadbeat. nice guy but like i dont even know what his job is? is there one? (also not fair to him bc the standards for partners in my family have been set verrry high: see above future roommate. he is universally adored while sister bf? jury is still out. also i maintain that my sister is a homewrecker. i guess both figuratively and literally at this point.)

anyways my tumblr is getting laggy so i guess thats my sign to end this. im sure that i will not sleep.

[audible--silence]

Heard abroad…

Whatever the question, the market is the answer

“Too many white people not enough markets”

“I mean i still didn’t understand any of it but i understood it was nice”

Pedophile and a dead aunt. You love to see it!

I exist to do the dumb thing and subsequently encourage everyone else to also do the dumb thing

“At least it isn’t Kevin”

“Home is the place where you keep ending up and you don’t really know why”

“Home is where you keep going back to your abuser”

Death is good business but without the repeat customers

As long as you have enough to buy linch on your first day, you have enough to figure it out

“Fucking cyrus man…” on cocktails and cacao ceremonies

It feels like im looking at the relic of a golden age that doesn’t know its past its best before date

Lots of people breeds competition in both capitalism and creativity. Capitalism also breeds racism.

Nobody gives one fuck about you here which is both amazing and kinda isolating

Its like if every city ive ever been to merged into one and did a bunch of drugs

I have fewer ideas but i have a lot of resolution so when i want one to work i just throw everything at it till it does

luck favors those who need it/rely on it in good faith

I was busy being sad and shit so I wasn’t in the mood for a heart attack

How lucky we are, to know that as long as we have charge on our phone or an internet connection, we’ll never go without

Going nowhere the long way

“Fuck you”

“What?”

“I was talking to the aircon”

Calories dont work on Mondays

Chicken is made by man, duck is made by god

Thats why i pay the rent

The only case there is is a quesadilla

It’s strangely captivating.

A city of nine million perfect strangers and nine million deranged fucking maniacs.

Everyone fits in. Because theres no such thing as “too different” out here.

Milk that mfer for every lil drop of lactation in it’s scary asymmetrical titty

Everybody be skipping to the calm down phase of life without ever experiencing the youthful fuckaround stage

The lifeline on my hand seems to doing fine.

The other two, I cant quite remember what they’re supposed to mean. Something about happiness or love.

They’re looking a little worse for wear lately.

“Look Ill extend him an olive branch but only so i can whack him over the head with it”

“After all, the universe continues to surprise, bewilder, and enchant, irrespective of our inquiries. As the tale concludes, may it inspire a subtle nod toward the dance of untamed contemplations—a dance best performed with an enigmatic grin.”

Thinking is for Jerry's (2023) - Professor Longwang

I feel glad to have an end date but miserable to end it

Scared of old reality but excited to confirm or deny it

Confused about my choices here and whether my feelings were made from genuine feelings

“How was the quality of your call?” Asks the messenger app.

To which I cannot reply.

Because to reply honestly would not do justice to the quality of the app, and instead be a comment on my experience of it.

The feeling in my gut when she said she met someone.

The thoughts back to all the times where I wanted to tell you i was yours.

All at once.

With a vengeance

Stabbing in the chest

What am i doing here

Accidentally drunk off a Manhattan i didnt want and a quarter pint of Guinness

In New York

In the rain

Trying desperately to find a job

In a field im hardly good at

It seems to me that it boils down.

When you look at the root of it all

What do you want

What do i want

How you utilize the two to make a life that brings you joy

Kill me, im french

Traveling is honestly comparable to hard drugs at this point: intense, euphoric, lands you in sketchy circumstances and often leads to living in very questionable scenarios. It also has a tendency to leave you broke as fuck and wondering where the last six months went

It do be a lil comedic,

A city of 12 million mother fuckers buzzing around packed in like a hive, and I’ve hardly made a friend.

[lostacelonnie]

Thank you! I kinda just. Realized i pay for all my own stuff & have for years so whats stopping me y'know. Oh we love to hear about the fall of far right leadership i hope that turns out well & you can get your eventual hrt as well. Oh yeah i never wear swimsuits to the beach typically. Always been with people i dont like or too many strangers for my liking. But i like to find seashells & stuff. Oh? English is such a weird language having a partner to learn from who's fluent is like. Required almost. So im glad you had one. I appreciate when people are chill as long as you try its nice & leaves room for mistakes that'll happen inevitably. Got confused for a moment & the concept of having a birthname you dont have listed in your bio lost me like. What do ya mean you had any different name what. Both mine are easy so i dont have that as a first name problem. Where is tromso? I wish you luck in that fall/winter trips are so nice. I especially love to go camping in them because less people so more space. Oh she just gets all the counters wow. Gonna have to focus on her a bit for sure. I dont know if i have enough for guaranteed kafka but i will probably try. Just to see what happens. If nothing else i hope bronya or welt come home for you. Fontaine is one of the regions im most interested in so ill stick through for it but i might squeeze a break in towards natlan honestly. Chasm was. A pain anyways i do not blame you for skipping it honestly. Thats an average day in warsaw? Wild. Ohhh that sounds like it was a blast please pass belated birthday wishes to avery for me. Hair dye is such a fun thing to do congrats on the red! I wanna dye mine again soon. Eyeliner is a thing i wanna teach myself to do too ive just been. Forgetting a lot

yeah thats very understandable!!! and thank you!! after a long time i finally feel at least a little hopeful ab this countrys future but well see. yeah i have the exact same thing but at the same time drying a lot of clothes is Annoying [esp on camps since thats the main place i actually go into the water on] so i often just put regular clothes over a swimsuit. win-win situation. seashells ARE fun to find but i always forget to bring sth to carry them sjdjflksjf plus its pretty hard to find actually nice ones, over here at least. YEAH god plus the way english is taught in polish schools does NOT help so honestly if i didnt have additional lessons i probably wouldnt have learned anything despite studying for a looooong time. and yeah its that way with almost anything isnt it. AH I DO THAT EXACT THING SO OFTEN i genuinely forget that people Have birthnames. or even names in general i just treat usernames as first names a lot of the time. tromso is the place in norway i was in!! pretty far up north but very charming. thank you!! ahhh i almost never go camping but perhaps One Day..... yeah clara has been my best friend ever since i got her. shes so fun to use. thankies and good luck to both of us!!! already got 106 pulls ready + the 9 more from the login event + 20 days left to grind so while i defo wont get enough for guarantee i think it might be possible for me to get her. honestly the region im most excited for is snezhnaya and thats gonna be the last one released iirc so. still a while until that happens. but at least when/if i come back im gonna have a lot of stuff to check out so thats fun. i unfortunately suffer from having to see everything thats new Immediately so i often speedrun new versions in 3 days and them im like....... What Now........ until the next update and then the cycle repeats. ah i should play more games that arent released this way. but yeah while the chasm was quite pretty imo and the story was. well. it wasnt STUNNING but it was fun. but the exploration aspect SUCKED good lord i hated how i could never quite tell if im in the region displayed on the map or below it. agh. glad thats over. and well yknow how it is with big cities, at least i live in a fairly peaceful part so we dont really have big stuff like that often. i will!! and thanks!! i agree hair dye IS very fun but unfortunately my hair texture makes it really hard for dye to stick so it washes off quickly :'] but alas. and yeah fair jdjfklg i have the same thing PLUS. its annoying i can never get it even

[tricksterwitchkat]

Ok. I don't mean to be rude, there are *absolutely* scammers out there doing deplorable things to innocent and vulnerable people, but the whole bit about crystals and healing was actually a part of my religion before it became a trend and getting slammed with 'this is fake, anyone telling you otherwise is either stupid or trying to scam you' *really* wears me down

Ok. So. I think a lot of people don't realize that charging stones with intent is actually connected to paganism and wicca.

Like with any religion or belief system, theres going to be people who are overzealous, people who are early in their journeys and still finding their way, people who believe but still aren't good people, and - unfortunately - awful people telling you what you want to hear (or desperately didn't want to hear) in order to manipulate you.

Its unfortunate that so many pagan and old world religious and/or superstitious cultural practices got lumped together when spiritualism/mysticism got popular, and its twice as unfortunate that when it did so many people took the opportunity to use the latest flashy trend to make fast cash while completely ignoring the context of it.

(I'll spare you my long rant about the bastardization of Tarot reading via popular media. the short version being that no, its not for telling the future)

but yeah.

Just like sombody can buy the outfit of a religious offical off Amazon and use it to convince people to pay their sins away is a bad thing being done by a bad person but dosen't make the religion the outfit's from fake, somebody stealing the trappings of paganism and wicca to get people to believe they can buy harry potter style magic dosen't make the actual practice from actual practitioners fake.

The whole 'healing with crystals' thing is a gross retooling of charging stones with intent. Basically, in the case of scammers its the old 'come to my megachurch and ill put my hand on you and you won't be blind anymore!' Bit but hiding behind an aggressively deliberate misunderstanding of wicca.

Im way too tired from work to get way far into it, but i want to say i made at least a bit of an attempt to set the record straight, and one thing i need to make absolutely clear:

In both wicca and paganism, charging different stones with various intent is not a magical cure all. It was never supposed to be.

If i took a bit of garnet and held it in my hand focusing on my intent that my home be safe, and then placed it on the doorframe, i dont expect it to create a forcefeild or make my home impossible to break into any more than a person who put a cross there does.

If im feeling lonely and want to be open to more love into my life, and i wear a ring or necklace with rose quartz in it, i wouldn't expect masses of my preferred gender of admirers to suddenly fall down at my feet confessing their undying love any more that someone who's family member lit a candle for them in hope that they marry soon would.

Like with all beliefs and religions, a solid chunk of any practice is the the emotional reassurance of doing the behavior or having the thing in the first place. Another chunk is the good that can come from calming down and reframing problems in your mind, or accepting that you've done all you could have thought to do.

Theres a million other things that go into why people choose to do any religious practice, but the last is the part where you believe, genuinely, that theres the possibility that what your doing will be heard and nudge the scales of luck and possibility.

That a prayer, a candle, a ring of the bell, an object in the right place at the right time made one bit of difference. Its not going to make everything go however you want it, you aren’t going to wake up with superpowers, but maybe that last little bit helped.

This does not mean that any religious practice of any belief system is a *replacement* for basic necessities such as food, water, oxygen, shelter, or nessisary medical care. The closest thing to an actual medical effect it would have would be if the act itself calmed a person out of distress, eventually lowering their stress levels and potentially reducing purely stress induced side effects.

Thats it. If you're so stressed out you're throwing up and then you become less stressed because of a prayer/lit candle/incense/literally anything else makes you feel like your god/the universe is taking care of you? Thats wonderful. Are They/Is It? I have no idea.

I have no ability to comment on the viability or reliability of your religion or practices and neither does anybody else. But i will absolutely judge the heck out of you if that practice is used as a *replacement* for the necessities you need to live a healthy happy life rather than a supplement to improve your spiritual and emotional well-being.

A good rule of thumb? If a person is pushing you to part with more than you can afford and trying to convince you of major consequences if you dont? They're more interested in the money than helping you. Because the natural route of a good person who believes that their practice can help you is to try to think of what resources are available to you that you can either afford or won't cost you anything.

Another thing?

In most Pagan/Wiccan communities and circles it is actively against our religion to create harm or allow harm to continue when we could have stopped it. If the act of buying something from one would cause you genuine harm? Most of us would refuse to sell it to you.

I haven't been in my mom's old metaphysical store in years, but i can tell you what the response to a desperate and scared person wandering in and asking for help would get.

A hug. A shoulder to cry on. The best advice we could give, to the best of our knowledge. A hand written list whatever we could think of- websites and spell ingredient lists and the phone numbers of whoever might be able to help more.

And yeah, sometimes they'd want $15 in stones and crystals and incense, maybe a book, because they didn't want to dig in thier back yard or local park for The Right Rock and wanted their own copy of relevant information for their own reference. But they always left with the best idea we could give them on what to do in addition to what they were already doing. hell, even if we'd wanted to it was literally *against our religion* to screw them over.

But yeah, tl:dr, shitty manipulative people are terrible because they create and perpetuate harm, not because some religions are fake.

Have fun, be safe, be kind, and DO NOT ABSTAIN FROM IMPORTANT MEDICAL PRACTICES JUST BECAUSE YOU THINK YOUR RELIGION IS MORE THAN ENOUGH.

Let your beliefs be what gives you the emotional strength to face the future, not the thing that makes you too vulnerable to face the present.

good fucking lord we need to demystify minerals. crystals do not have healing or magical powers you guys are just getting scammed