#godiloveyou

[sonder-poems]

Please Don’t Leave Me

I just realized I’m in love with you

My name; water or woman of the rain. To move through things and never stay in one place for long, I flow through life, following one steady path only to be a sip of other glasses, never staying to see it all gone. I am evanescent. For years I have caught feelings for others, and they were unrequited. I am here to help them move forward with their lives, until they become bored of me. The filler character role that I have been burdened with has left me with a question for years: Am I burdened to watch the ones I love be happy and move forward while I stay at square one? I stare at my phone as thoughts run through my mind, messaging my one and only best friend. 

I smile as I see his message pop up on my screen. I think about his face, the deep brown eyes, and curly bangs that cover his eyes, his soft jawline and crooked smile with plump lips. Other people who know him call him loud, obnoxious, funny, full of himself. He is the most magnificent enigma I have ever known. His deep voice, 6-foot, horrible back posture self never fails to have me in awe. He’s always struggled with mental health, and I was always there when his world was falling apart. It was the two of us. I was his shoulder, as he was mine. 

A silly smile takes over my face when I see him. We talk for hours and play video games together, conversing on any topic that comes to our minds. I look at him with a glint in my eyes, a sparkle I held whenever he came into view. You always filled me with pain. I continue smiling, ignoring the inappropriate thoughts that race through my head. 

Acknowledgement or ignorance? Sure, I may have been a bit envious but that’s normal for a friend. I think about his bright smile and golden-brown eyes that resemble those of dirt, in which all life comes out of... but in a platonic way of course. Acknowledging anything more would mean complications to our friendship; it could lead to its demise... However, if I continue our friendship as if nothing has changed – which nothing has – then everything can stay the same and he’ll be happier. Acknowledgement means potentially losing him... While I would like to acknowledge there is more to my feelings, at least I have his eyes in my life. My inchoate feelings get the best of me.  

I lay on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I have always been the filler, so I debate whether to disrupt the flow of our relationship. I listen as you talk – another beautiful chorus. Your voice is a melody to a song I could listen to forever... platonically of course. While I could admit there is a small chance my feelings are something more – that I may wish for serendipity, I’m content with the relationship we have. If you are next to me, we’re content with our little world. Even if it means watching you share yours with someone else... I am proud to see it flourish. I stare up at the sky... my name, woman of the rain... except my cheeks are stained and the sun shines.

[untouchable234]

#GodILoveYou

[juscallmetru]

We all have our up's and downs in life but through it all God is always with us, when you need him just pray and he will be there for you he may not come when you want him but he's always on time. Trust in the lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding in all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths 🙏🏾👑😎💙🏁🤞🏾💪🏾

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[nate-the-realtor]

GOD I Love YoU. Thank YoU for Everything 🙏💯💥. #godiloveyou #thankyouforeverything #blessed #thankyougod #withoutyounothingispossible #humbledandgrateful #amen #sundaymotivation #godblessus #inyourname #realtor #realestate #realestateagent #southfloridarealestate #miamirealtor #browardrealtor #onesourcepg #natetoro #natetherealtor #natetororealestate #natesellshomes #eltoroderealestate www.onesourcepg.com (at Plantation, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/CUS3xeElb7E/?utm_medium=tumblr

[dershellelavender]

[tweetiamedia]

Happy Spring Sunday IG Fam!!! 🤗☀️☔️✝️❤️🇺🇸🌎 #SpringSunday #SpringhasSprung #HappySunday #ThankyouJesus #GodILoveYou #Sundayfunnies #dailymemes #memes #dankmemes #politicalmemes #memesdaily #laughterismedicineforthesoul #laughterisgoodforthesoul #dailyinspiration #stimmyhit #stimmyhit2021 #WomensHistoryMonth2021 #March2021 #prayerofsalvation #TeamJesus✝️❤️ (at Church) https://www.instagram.com/p/CMr4gn1BH4A/?igshid=5tmhn37pgb94

[tradethemark]

Just coming up for air today after an epic @finders_keepers over the weekend. What a massive three days. I can’t thank you enough for coming and taking work home with you and for supporting us with our creative businesses. With the terrible bush fires that are ravaging the East Coast at the moment, I’ve been feeling really scared and depressed about the future. Just being out of my studio and talking to so many of you, having that sense of community and connection... it’s really helped. The community, that makes up this market is so incredible. All of my creative comrades who consistently turn up and make the most beautiful, handcrafted, exquisite work, I love you and thanks for your never ending support. To the team that is Finders Keepers, wow that was another amazing event and thank you! 💫 . . #finderskeepersmarket #tradethemark #handmadeceramics #ceramicobjects #madebyhand #ceramicsforthehome #creativecommunity #godiloveyou https://www.instagram.com/p/B533ihDAIpd/?igshid=3c7n5jp86a93

[genocidaltophattedoharo]

“i’m here to collect your tadpoles i mean taxes”

[kenitagonzalez-blog]

Photo of a time ago🔙 • • • • Photography @_kev.tapia_ #likelikelikelikelike #happy #timeback #godiloveyou #jesuschrist #godisgoodallthetime #instagram #instagramers #instaphoto (en El Canelo,quisco) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bt0ui2GHGQj/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1g14z4j72k07c

[figandthewasp]

Happy Birthday, beautiful. Here's to 60 more 🌛🖤🌜#petermurphy #bauhaus #mrmoonlight #goth #postpunk #80s #gothgod #gothrock #gothfather #instagoth #belalugosisdead #undeadundeadundead #godiloveyou

[goreprofonde]

“When I told my father about my boyfriend & his boy, he screamed at me in some seraph-soaked tongue, his teeth live coals, his mouth a furnace firing Babel bricks, his tongue the fourth man in the furnace, the unbound shadow, like a son of the gods—but no flames ever licked my own lukewarm lips. When I was a child, I tried to slip a glimpse of my father’s cock, prayed he’d cast down that staff into a serpent that would swallow up my own. When I was a child, my father stood behind as a man pressed his sweaty shuddering palm to my forehead praying that I be baptized in a blaze of holy oil. Not a syllable of sibylline babble could anoint my cottonmouth tongue. I let my legs go limp, tried to drop, to play slain. My father held me up. The man pressed harder, pressed deeper, his tongue swollen & spewing the language of God—a dead language, resurrected, but come back babbled apart, missing limbs. (Imagine Lazarus, four days dead: a bloat, blood-foam leaking language.) My tongue wanted so much, but not this. The man sighed, spent, & my father lowered my heavy, unhallowed body to the floor. When I told my father I was in love, his throat-throbbed tongue-twitched rising baptized bellows said nothing, said shutupshutupshutup, said notmyson, said godIloveyou. When the Spirit seeped out, leaving him flaccid, bashful, he whispered, “That wasn’t me.” He said, “You have to believe me.” When the Spirit clamps your tongue between its atoning tongs, you can say anything. You can say nothing. You can say exactly what you mean.”

- Brandon Thurman, Charismata.

[kitajovan]

It's the Worship for me!!!🙌 #anotherblessedday #GodIsGood #godsloveisamazing #godsmercy #godiloveyou #ineedthee #godsgraceandmercy #worship #worshippers https://www.instagram.com/p/CPiWZaehYGm/?utm_medium=tumblr

[ildonoprezioso]

#benedizioni #benedire #godblessyoualways #godiloveyou #followgod https://www.instagram.com/p/B_AO1-gAz9n/?igshid=1ahmr8vxriuqi

[oneofgodschildren-blog1]

Dear God, how i love You 😍

https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLsxQpJaDlG853TgLEwlEZ5_0JdD2cmyVg

one of the playlists i’ve been working on!

[riggsmortis-blog]

To burn for someone is to melt in the process~ #icarusandthesun #illmeltforyou #iburnforyou #godiloveyou https://www.instagram.com/p/BpkTSjdFi3t/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=12nstyzo0sdei

[monstaofemotions]

So glad to have this babe back in my life after months of not talking.. what was I ever thinking by cutting you out for some hasbeen.