#goddammit I'm tired
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#actually autistic#neurodivergent#autistic#autistic things#neurotypicals#goddammit I'm tired#every freaking time#just. answer. the. question.#open to all non-NT neurotypes#because I'm sure it's not just autistics that hate this BS#as queue like it#adhd#schizospec
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Okay, but what if there was a show about the Ministry, like Keeping Up with The Kardashians style, and the staff needed to get to know Papas and Sister better.
Staff: So... Can you tell us a little bit more about yourselves, we didn't get a chance to, you know, talk to y'all much.
Nihil: I can play sax.
Sister: I can fuck up a limitless number of cars.
Staff, bewildered: Well that's... Impressive. You... You have a lot in common, that's sweet.
Secondo: I can harvest crops of fields that others have plowed.
Staff: Oh so you're a farmer? Terrific!
Secondo, winking: Well... If you wanna call it that...
Copia: I can ride a tricycle.
Staff: Oh, lovely! How old are you?
Copia: 54!
Staff, under their breath, looking away awkwardly: The fuck kinda thing we've just got into...
Terzo, smirking: I-
Nihil, interrupting him instantly, staring into his soul: Don't you dare.
Terzo: Fuck off, didn't even say anything yet! I can play kazoo.
Staff: Great! This show needs more music!
Nihil, visibly relaxed: Thank Satan...
Terzo: Did you really think that's all? Jokes on you, I can also take my head off.
Nihil: Shit!
Staff, shocked: Wh... As in... Like metaphorically speaking?
Terzo: Wanna see and decide for yourselves?
Staff: Is that a challenge?
Terzo: Is it accepted?
Staff: W... well...
Primo, barging in: Guys, is that a fucking talent show or?.. I didn't get the memo, sorry.
Staff, still shocked: Oh fuck is that a mask???
Primo: Well hello to you too, I guess! That's my face, what do you mean?
Staff: *faints*
Nihil: We nailed it, guys! The show is gonna be a success!
#ghost band#the band ghost#ghost#ghost the band#papa nihil#papa 0#papa zero#sister imperator#primo emeritus#secondo emeritus#terzo#papa emeritus iii#cardinal copia#cardi c#papa emeritus iv#goddammit there are too many people#I'm tired of tagging
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We must not let go of hope.
#i'm so tired and so scared but goddammit i'm going to have hope#we have to take care of one another
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random kaveh hc he pretends to be annoyed when animals follow him around/follow him home but deep down he loves them and tries his best to nurse the worse-off ones back to health before trying to put them back where they came from
#( ( kaveh ;; headcanon#maybe if haitham didn't#yuck his yum#and tell him no animals allowed#he wouldn't have to pretend#but he's a disney princess goddammit#and i'm tired of pretending he isn't
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fuck fuck fuck fuck everything hurts so much
ii. i need help i don't know how or why from who but i can't keep this up im in so much pain i can hardly think i can't move i can't pick anything up i can't hardly walk or. fuck
i don't know why I'm posting this please just ignore it
#i can't think hard enough to remember how to. Disable share i#ugh i hate this so much i hate it i hate it#i hate dealing with this so fucking much i can't do it#i can't take this anymore goddammit i can't do it im all alone here and i don't know how to ask for help i don't know how to tell when#someone is sick of me needing help i don't know#ffuck it hurts#It hurts so much i don't know what to do#hhhhhh#all i can do is chug medication that isn't effective and lay down and cry#i can't seem to stop crying anymore#i feel so weak and defeated and I'm so. Sso tired#Im so tired#.....pplease someone help#mmake it stop
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When your heart wants to write, but your brain screams: "Go to fucking sleep bitch!"
Most of the time I have the exact opposite problem and I honestly can't tell which one is more annoying.
#writing#my writing#I'm too tired for words and it's breaking my heart#just let me write goddammit 〒▽〒
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I'm being really fucking tsundere over Jacob outwardly but inwardly I'm like "I need this kind and patient dilf to give me a fucking break from it all, please hold me in your big strong arms and crush me against your booba"
#also update! i'm in even WORSE pain! :D#yesterday i ended up walking a couple miles at least because it was like 'oh here's a parking spot. the boardwalk doesn't look THAT far'#and we fucked around on the beach a bit and then walked to the boardwalk. walked around a bit on it. got on the ferris wheel.#then it was like 'okay idiot now walk back to the car i cast super mega ultra fibro on your ass'#once i got into bed last night i was death rattling from the pain#and now i'm all achey and tired and cranky#I NEED TO BE -HELD- GODDAMMIT
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gabriel being able to just fuck off with beelzebub bc neither of them actually gave a shit about the world beyond their own self-interests makes complete and total sense as to why ineffable bureaucracy became So canon So quickly, but fuck does it make me even angrier that they got that happy ending while aziraphale and crowley were left in shambles. motherfucking gabriel and beelzebub are two of the REASONS that aziraphale and crowley CAN'T FUCKING COMMUNICATE and they just swan off into the sunset???? they tried to KILL them last season, then aziraphale & crowley spent this entire season helping them survive to get back to each other, and neither gabriel nor beelzebub acknowledged it in a meaningful, more-than-one-off way?????? hand me a brick i will take care of this myself
#good omens spoilers#go2 spoilers#i am a supporter of jim rights but gabriel i would like to fastball special with the front bumper of the bentley#yeah yes fine everyone deserves the chance to love and be loved in return good for them whatever#aziraphale spent that whole season helping his number one bully without ever demanding an apology#and gabriel didn't learn a fucking thing from it#not even a goddamn thank you. piece of shit#i get that it probably wouldn't have been very in character for either of them since as aforementioned: they don't give a shit#but i can dream goddammit#don't mind this rant i'm gabriel's number one hater and also very tired#oxly hollers
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(probably gonna delete this later idk)
So this isn't Q S M P related but I need to scream into some uncaring void about this so
But I just spent MUCH longer on a project than I really should have (because life is a bitch and chooses the worst times to decide to kick you in the nonexistent dick) and WAY too much of said project was some very tedious nonsense
Like not difficult, but irritating and time-consuming. Basically arranging things in a way to look more coherent in a project file
And of course, I finish it, I get it all done, but decide to add one last part, and subsequently place it where it needs to go
Only to accidentally click on the wrong button
And find out
That there's been a shortcut to this thing I've been doing
This entire goddamn time
LITERALLY mere moments after finishing the project
If anyone needs me,
Don't
#not QSMP#Just cause#I had joked with my cat a few hours before because I was tired and my back was hurting#“Just kill me Nolan you can do it I believe in you aim for the jugular”#And when this happened I actually looked at him and said#“Why didn't you kill me when I asked you son of a bitch”#“This could have all been avoided”#But cats simply aren't beholden to your silly little jokes#Nor are they beholden to mine#I have worked for 7 hours straight#Fueled on nothing but Dr Pepper#roasted potatoes#ritalin#and apathy#I'm lucky I even remembered to eat#And I still have to finish up one last thing on it tomorrow#After a doctor's appointment#And an apartment viewing#If my cat doesn't kill me in my sleep then goddammit what was even the point in getting a cat#I'm gonna go fist-fight a raccoon or something now#I just can't think of anything else to do#delete later#maybe#Idk man it's 5 in the morning for me
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let. trans women be happy with themselves. stop telling amab people that they can't be whatever gender they want to be. gender stereotypes and traditional gender roles can fuck themselves. trans women are real and lovely and deserve all the love and happiness in the world. stop hurting them.
#vent#tez talks#it's been an interesting night#ranting because I'm so tired of the hurt that's going around in the world towards trans people#today I'm mad about the negative stigmas of trans women and amab people#STOP IT#LOVE THEM#LET THEM LOVE THEMSELVES#goddammit people can be whatever and whoever they feel happiest as gender is a spectrum#let us#BE HAPPY#god#random#lgbt#lgbtqia#trans#trans women#amab#pride
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I feel like my writer's block is getting worse.
#i'm at the point where i don't even want to write#my muse can come back anytime now okay thanks#nothing is coming out the way i want it to#and that's just making things worse#posting the cocat things made me feel significantly worse too so idk if it's good for me to keep up with them#i don't even know if anyone's reading them#i'd hoped that giving myself deadlines to get things done would boost my productivity#but all i do is stare at my wips like -w-#i'm just so tired.#i don't need a break. i took a break for like. a fucking month. what i need is to fucking WRITE goddammit
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it’s the worst in the world when you’ve got a billion ideas for a reply but you have work in a little bit, so you’re just frantically jotting down ideas and details to focus on and chunks of dialogue like “JUST STAY HERE, HANG IN THERE CREATIVITY, I’LL BE BACK FOR YOU I PROMISE, DON’T LEAVE ME. I’LL BE BACK TO PROPERLY WRITE YOU BEFORE YOU KNOW IT, PLEASE.”
#(OOC.) ''The kind of tired regular sleep can't fix.''#((and then after i get home from work; i'll be doing cpr on my motivation to write like ''I'M NOT GONNA LOSE ANOTHER ONE GODDAMMIT''))
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okay WOW did this “break” come at a good time. I’m actually struggling to even string together a hundred words when I was writing 1k+ a day at the start of the week. 😱
#teruyo talk#it's just a natural ebb i'm sure#my mood's pretty solid honestly so for all i know i'll bounce back in a few days#but yeah gosh i was aware i was tired but not that i was quite this exhausted??#and yes i will hit 300 words today goddammit!
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typing away at my vtmb fanfic and i think hmm should i give my Nos a ghoul?? and the next thing i know my bitchy no nonsense Nos has adopted a 19 year old homeless girl
#her name is Lyric and Misery 'inherits' her from another Nos who dies#bc Misery sees this scarred up tired young woman with an addiction and goes Goddammit is Anyone Gonna Deal With That?#and then not wait for an answer#its very much a If Anything Happens To Lyric I'm Killing Everyone In This Room situation#op oc#text#vtmb#vampire the masquerade bloodlines
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Luke's song Diamonds is hitting me a little too hard and close tonight.
#really hoping things will finally start to turn around again soon#I've been so depressed this year it's probably the worst I've been in a long time#the worst part is finding a job has been next to impossible and I have no driver's license so I can't leave my house#my bedroom is the attic of my house and I have windows so all I've been able to do for literal months is sit up there in my cave#and just stew in my misery and try and fail to find a way out of it#I've just stopped taking care of myself as the months have gone by too#at least I haven't been doing as well as I was. I never really did a very good job to begin with#I just sit around and try to look at jobs and cry all day and I have to fight myself to drink water or brush my teeth at night or even eat#unless it's breakfast or dinner. that or I actually do eat but tell myself I've been eating too much and stop eating for the day again.#I harsly talk to anyone In real life anymore I just feel like I'm inconveniencing people by being around#I can't sleep without taking melatonin and even then it's hard to sleep and I'm just tired all the time#'Is this the way it will always be' indeed Luke#I'm serious when I say I think I have several undiagnosed mental illnesses only making things worse for me#but who needs therapy when we've got Luke's solo album and Taylor Swift right?#it's me. I know I do. when I can actually manage to find a job (soon please I really need/want 🤞) and can afford it I'll look into it#abby's just rambling don't mind her#abby's having a crisis#goddammit I don't have windows in my room that's what I meant how could I miss the word no 😭
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Not me crying over the ice nine kills cover of can't help falling in love :'D
#i'm trying to relax while owen gets ready for bed with me and I'm deliriously tired and emotional#i hate how much the stupid white woman wedding song affects me#goddammit i'm so in love
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