#god this song is so beautiful

[atomicradiogirl]

loki perfect shots: solitude by m83

an edit by me

[yoursistheonlyocean]

'Fell in love as a lone disciple

His altar at the root of my fate

Fell in love on a lonely night

Could predict every word he'd never convey"

Alexandra Savior, The Phantom

[asinnersloveblog]

I know this has nothing to do with this blog but I just couldn’t get this song out my head and I wanted to share my thoughts on it so here it is

Fable - Gigi Perez

“Fable and truth

Direct me to someone who gives me the juice and new rules”

It’s almost comical how frightening it is to leave something so constricting. Not being able to tell what is reality or fiction the older you get and the more you read and search. It’s hard not to laugh at people when they tell you that you're questioning god because you haven’t read or done your research yet, when in fact doing that is what made you question and question and question. It’s what made you begin to ask yourself if this is in fact what you want. I used to cry till my throat gave out begging for someone to just answer all my questions, to tell me what’s right and wrong, fable and truth.

“Someone to tell me we’re not born to be mules in this

Everything it contradicts”

Everything that I have learned in christianity is that god had blessed us with free will, that we are free to make all our decisions, that if we saw the “light and revelation” that is the bible and god and still turned from it that not only would it be hundred percent our decision but that it would be the highest treason under his kingdom. Yet, what I have also learned is that everything that we do, everything that will and has happened, even what every human will and has thought has been predestined by god. He has written all this in a book before he created the heavens and the earth. The way my mother described to me as a child was “We are all just actors in His movie, He is the author and we are His creations.” It was clear to me even as a child that we could have free will and also be actors in a movie.

“Hedges of prayers

Cause you believe doesn’t mean that's it there it's so rare

It's so rare that somebody looks out for you

(Look out for you, look out for you)

Thoughts and prayers was they’d do

(They’d do, they’d do, they’d do, they’d do)”

In almost every church people are fed a sense of familiarity and comfort knowing that they “are among family and friends” These people will likely know everything about you from the moment you are born if you're unlucky. They’ll whisper about every new event or terrible thing that has happened to you behind closed doors. You’ll never know what has been said about you until you are much older. You’ll never know the sins of your parents until you are much older. They’ll be told by the same people you thought were your “family and friends.” But they never were, were they? You’ll stare at them as you beg them for help, your sobs stain your face, but they’ll keep that face that all christians have, the look of pity. “I’ll keep you in my prayers.” They said as they closed the door to you and went to tell everyone else of what the newest development of your life was. I never was in your prayers was I?

“When I lifted her urn

Divinity said that destiny can’t be earned or returned”

I can’t even begin to explain how upset it makes me when something bad happens to a believer it’s just “god has another plan for them” or “god is testing you, seeing if you’ll stick by him no matter what” but if something bad happens to a non believer its “god is punishing them.” Good people die everyday, children starve every single day. Rape and incest have been things that have existed since the dawn of time. Sickness and addiction plague our human minds and bodies. Countries and empires built on the blood of innocents. Greed leading to slavery and murder. How on earth can that be what a “just and merciful god” had planned for his children. We came from his hands, he made each and everyone of us, yet he tortures us by allowing us to live among evil. If god truly could control everything he could’ve stopped Lucifer from falling. He could’ve stopped Eve from damning humanity. He could’ve stopped Cain from killing his own brother. He could’ve stopped the countless pharaohs enslaving his people, and murdering all the male babies when looking for Moses. He could’ve stopped the Romans from crucifying Jesus, his own son. How was any of that merciful, how was any of that just.

“I feel when I question my skin starts to burn

Why does my skin start to burn”

Something I’ve realized is that religious leaders preach that intelligence and education are a waste of time if you do not prioritize your education on scripture. One that I followed once said “The stupidest man to exist is someone with all the degrees and education in the modern world with no connection or knowledge to god. A man who may not be the best reader or writer but understands scripture and has a connection to the bible, that man is smarter than any scientist or any doctor.” They will instill it so deep into your brain that if you do not believe every word that leaves their mouth that it's a problem within you. When you start questioning you feel disgusted in yourself, you’ll reprimand the thoughts in your head. You’ll cry yourself to sleep begging to your creator to fix your unholy thoughts, to make you normal again. But that’ll never come, because once that seed plants in your head, the thought that maybe it doesn’t seem what you think it is, that thought will blossom into the vines that break you from the shackles you were born into, it will be the like your first drop of water in a barren desert.

“Capital loss

Love was the law and religion was taught

I’m not bought

I feel when we argue our skin starts to rot

Our skin starts to rot”

Something so human and pure like love is really the basis of hating someone in this world. I once read about an article where swans, beautiful creatures that mate for life, engage in same sex relationships, and that scare off opposite sex relationships and foster their eggs like their own, the article even said the male same sex relationships with swans are even better at raising their offspring since they are better at protecting them being the stronger animal in their species. After reading this article I cried till my head hurt. I cried because I felt seen in those swans. I felt normal in those swans. In retrospect it sounds stupid putting it on paper like this but it just finalized all doubts I had in myself about who I am. Homosexualty is something that existed in cultures long before this one, it was accepted and even praised till christianity was taught. It exists all around the animal kingdom, same sex animals loving each other, clown fishes being able to switch their sex. These things that animals have and can do even though they don’t have the capability and knowledge that humans do yet we are the ones that hate, the ones that kill out of hate. I would love for someone to explain how the animal kingdom is doing better than humanity yet we sit at the top of the food chain.

“So share me your plan

If I implore you could I be your lamb

Understand

I look for the truth in the back of your hand and I

Look into the open sky

Stars blink back like my sister's eyes

Stars blink like my sister's eyes

Stars blink like her eyes

Like her eyes

I dream of eternal life

I dream of eternal life”

These last few paragraphs of this song are truly beautiful. I’ve sat here staring at my computer trying to put into words what my thoughts are with these last paragraphs but I simply couldn’t. This song has truly fixed something in me knowing that people think like me, and have lived like me. I will think of these words and the pain in her voice for years to come.

[nofuckingbody]

looking backwards might be the only way to move forward

[some-pers0n]

Whenever I see people call ICIMI boring or the worst album this image flashes in my mind

[pearlore]

SHARING CONTACTS????

[dayurno]

it’s fucked up that some of kevin’s descriptors in-book by aftg narrators include words like unparalleled, brilliant, beautiful, disorienting and that riko thought kevin was smart and sharp-tongued and could see potential from a mile away and that every conversation at the winter banquet stopped as soon as kevin day walked into them. my brother you are a force of nature

[miss-sternennacht]

[destiny-islanders]

a beginning (comic version!)

animatic version here!

[oldfashioned-lovergirl]

I’m just like Lewis because I too wouldn’t be able to get over him.

[accio-victuuri]

wang yibo - performance of “somebody else’s arms” @ yh family 15th anniversary concert

[spaciebabie]

Where did we go? What did we do? I think we made something...entirely new....

some closeups under cut :)

and here's the first image w/out text :)

im normal. su makes me feel so normal

[lizzybeeee]

Solas addressing current day Thedas about his plans to bring down the Veil:

[ilovemesomevincentprice]

Vincent Price -

The Song of Bernadette (1943)

[vulpinesaint]

Venom + Kissing Death by MOTHICA

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

The time I spent spinning on the merry-go-round of emotion…was all an illusion

Illusion PV