#god they are everythjng to me

[dreamdripdistance]

i swear to god i really just. i really just wanna tell some people to shut the FUCK UPPPPPPPPP

[29121996]

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[kn11ves]

sometimes i remember that i was in jrotc. jesus fucking christ i hate the army

[starsandrqindrops]

STAR I LOVE YOU!!! OMG <33333

cocoon | k.s.m

pairing... bf!seungmin x gn!reader tags... hurt/comfort, established relationship, angst with a happy ending!!! soft seungmin 💞 cw... crying, reader is tired and burned out, self-indulgent!

co•coon noun | a protective or comforting covering see also: kim seungmin

wc... 948 words a/n... huge credits to heather for getting me out of my writing slump HAHAHA i tried a different writing style here, let me know what you guys think!

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Tears are threatening to spill out of your eyes and your hair is all disheveled from the amount of times you ran your fingers through it out of frustration. Your aching back is slouched and you just want to take a hot shower, bury yourself in the covers, and sleep all your problems away. As soon as you enter your apartment, you make a beeline for the bathroom and take a quick, steaming shower. You let the stinging drops fall from the showerhead and trail down your skin, washing the remnants of your shampoo and soap away.

Hastily, you enter your bedroom and grab Seungmin's biggest hoodie from his side of the dresser. You slip it on, wearing nothing else than your underwear, drowning yourself in a cocoon of his scent. You nestle in the soft fabric, immersing yourself in the smell of the coffee beans and vanilla lotion that you’re all too familiar with. Not long after you lie down under the covers, you hear shuffling in the living room, muffled by the closed door in between. After a short few seconds, the door creaks open and Seungmin enters the bedroom, his hair damp from his after-practice shower. One look at your red, tired, glossy eyes and he knows just how exhausted you are, so he quietly slips into bed beside you, enveloping his arms around your figure as he pulls you flush against his chest. The room falls silent for a moment, then the cork pops loose and your emotions begin to pour out.

He doesn't utter a word as the sobs violently start to escape your mouth, the heart-wrenching echoes bouncing off the walls. He runs his hands up and down your back and arms, silently soothing you as you let it all out. Once your cries gradually get less abrupt, he pulls you back a bit and tips your head up so he can look you in the eye. He holds your gaze as he brings his hands to your face and wipes the tears away with his thumb, gently caressing your cheeks. Softly, he whispers, "You're so strong, my angel. I know you can get through whatever is causing you trouble. You don't have to talk about it right now, but I’ll be right here when you're ready. Just keep pushing through."

He knows how you’ve been struggling. He takes your trembling hands from where they were resting folded in your lap. After brushing his lips against your knuckles, he brings your hands to wrap around his neck, returning his own to rest on your waist as he leans his forehead against yours. The feeling of endless hard work, endless pain, endless difficulties; he’s been there. He knows how tempting it can be to give up, however, he believes you'll persevere. Why? Because you always do, you just need a little reminder.

“You know, butterflies weren’t always beautiful,” he comments softly, causing your brows to furrow. Seungmin smiles softly as he continues, “They start off as caterpillars, which, by the way, I think look really ugly and scary.” You let out a choked giggle. “They’re all fuzzy and have too many legs for my comfort—anyway. They go through a lot of hardships and challenges as a caterpillar. Then they wrap themselves in a tight, silky cocoon, just like you right now; all wrapped up in my hoodie that’s like ten sizes too big on you.” You roll your glassy eyes, letting a few more tears streak down your cheeks. Seungmin wipes them right away. “Right, so, in that cocoon, they transform. They keep with them all their experiences, everything they’ve learned, and then they emerge as beautiful, majestic butterflies.” He presses a soft peck to your lips. “You will be that butterfly, my love. At the end of all the pain you’re facing right now, it will all be worth it. Your hard work will pay off, trust me.”

The sobs you let out are fractured, separated by your deep inhales as you slowly try to catch your breath. Seungmin is firm in consoling you because, in this time of vulnerability and weakness, he is your pillar. He maintains eye contact while he coaxes deep and steady breaths out of you, his warm hands cradling your face. When you manage to croak out a strangled, but coherent, “I’ve always liked butterflies," he pulls you back to his chest as he resumes stroking his hand over your head.

The sweet little nothings Seungmin whispers into your ears are a melodic string of comfort. He kisses your forehead as the last of your cries start to die down and you finally fall asleep in his arms. Gently, he lifts you off his lap, making sure not to break your hold on his neck. He positions your head to rest snugly on top of your pillow and he pulls the duvet tight around the two of you, making a cocoon containing your intertwined bodies.

When you wake up the next morning, Seungmin still has you protected in his grasp, your limbs wrapped together under the blanket. He jokes about how you're a bit gross for sleeping on his chest when his shirt is painted by your tears and snot. You giggle and whisper out a half-sincere apology as he peppers kisses all over your puffy eyelids. Before the two of you officially start your day, you remain nuzzled in each other’s tangled arms as the birds chirp and the sunlight peeks its way through the curtains. You tell him, “I love you, Seungmin. thank you for being here.” And he replies, "I love you, too, dummy. You're always safe with me. Don't ever forget that, please.”

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taglist: @kflixnet @jinnixxn @elllisaaa @captainchrisstan @laylasbunbunny @starsandrqindrops @kittymaryam-thebrowniefairy

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[maipareshaan]

This fandom is insane, how are you mad at Gamble era Dean and his 'Deansel in distress' era, it was so good, don't you want your fave to be a tortured dainty baby. Which he wasn't even besides soulless arc.

[oceandiagonale]

oh my god lmao this is everythjng to me. he's SO FUNNY. biting him biting him biting him <3

BUT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING LMAOOOO..... hidden prices you say, Volo?? almost like some kind of hidden fees...? 😏😏😏

[famouslastwrdz]

i wake, as i do, in agony. 

i turn over for my painkillers and take three too many. tim pretends not to notice. 

it came out of almost nowhere, that month. ive always had trouble with my knees but i couldnt walk. and then i couldnt extend my arms properly, and couldnt grip anything right. and i thought i was faking it, and then i was seizing on the floor of the hallway whilst my brother kept my head elevated and tried to reach his phone whilst still keeping me comforted. 

and then i was losing my balance on flat concrete whilst walking with friends.

and then i was dropping what i was holding.

and then i was vomiting pure alcohol because no otc painkillers worked for the fire behind my kneecaps and in my thighs. 

and then i was still convinced i was faking it. felt like the kid from the old groupchat. convinced i was just a fraud who wanted to be special.

and then i had a stroke.

i cant think about it too long, cant joke too much about it, cant sit with it. i can joke about anything else but the jokes i make about that are hollow and send me silent in the backs of cars and in my head. i have never felt mortal before then. i slash my wrists and swallow bottles of pills and drink mugfuls of vodka and never once thought i could die in any meaningful way, but for that hour i felt like death was a tangible thing with touchable grace. 

im writing this as a soul above the bed watching my body type and my body is sobbing. wasting away from the inside with gerd and the remnants of a regurgitated mcdonalds and unprescribed medication. 

i think my demeanor makes it easy to assume i abuse substances for the hell of it, just for fun and to have a giggle. lifts my mood for sure, but it frees me. 

i am in constant pain. i dont say that lightly because part of me still screams fraud for every pill i take. but i am in pain all the time and it makes me angry and bitter and isolated. it makes me deny friends, lash out at strangers, ignore family. it makes me beg for just one day a month to stop hurting. 

im sat here now waiting for medication to start working so i can go back to sleep and im staring at blue's "hidden" bottle. 

i cant pray anymore, not the way i need to. it hurts to hold my rosary for that long, fingers locking up on the beads, and i hate it. i hate everythjng. i hate this cage of a body and this poor excuse of a life and my friends who love and care too much to let me die quietly. i am full of hatred and i hate that in itself. i sit in an empty call and hate myself and the world around me. 

they made me a cane and i had to go home and sob. its bright orange, handmade, incredible. an incredible gift. there is so much love in it. i keep crying periodically at it because god, to be loved so much someone makes you an aid, to be given something like that. 

i am surrounded by love and yet i leech hatred into the air the three of us breathe. i turn it bitter and resentful without ever meaning to. i am terrible to hang out with and worse to talk to and i despise that the only thing that made me this way is some unknown parasitical fucking pain, its embarrassing. and it hurts. i would give anything for my forgiveness back, for my unfailing empathy back, my understanding, my kindness. 

i have nothing more to say.

[whatiwillsay]

Harries are saying his “people like me” comment was about him being queer and idkkk I might be a bad person, and I know closeting exists, but he always gets this pass. It was so fucked up to say especially in a category with people of color and women who are automatically in a harder position than him. AND side note Renaissance is such an amazing album that celebrates queer people beautifully.

renaissance is a FAR better album than harry’s house oh my damn god. also gay ppl get this award all the time taylor swift got it two years ago. all jokes aside harry can be as queer as he wants but if he won’t claim the community (which he doesn’t have to) he doesn’t get to carry our flag into battle or hang out banners up during victory. he needs to claim us and then he can have all the credit he wants. i quite like harry but i hate everythjng ab this.

[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

Ever keep urself awake at night thinking of what would happen if ur house bruned down and what ud be abke to save and all the things thatd be lost. Like im genuinely getting fucking upset about this hypothetical universe where all my compyter files are gone, all my childhood diaries are gone, every drawing ive ever made is gone, all the clothes asides from what im wearing right now which is my fucking pajamas are gone, and the things id probably save r just my phone n my camera bc theyre light and expensive and hold a lotta shit on them. And maybe my sketchbook if i had time. But like dude ik realistically not everything would be lost but a damn good chunk of it would be and that just makes me so upset 2 thjnk abt bc like. Idk. I think it sucks bc bein a teenager is like. My life is my room. It is the one safe place in the entirety of the world. Everythjng that matters to me is here asides from my cat. So like. Losing my room would be like losing everything because i have nothing else. And because literally like all my worldly possessions are here. Anyways im anxious abt that now bc i was playing it out in my head and my biggest fear would be if i was jn a situation where i was sleeping naked bc it was so hot and i spent too much time trying to find clothes so i didnt run outside naked and couldnt even save my phone. Like id be able to get over losing most other yhings but my phone literally holds my fucking memories and without it i would literally forget so much of my life bc i have such a godawful memory. Like i need its calendar and i need the gallery and i need the messages. And yea. But shit dude. Id lose the diary i wrote when i was 8 and all the pictures ive drawn ever since i moved into this room when i was like 9 and all the books i have and all my sketches and my computer with all my files and my art tablet with the past few years worth of art and my clothes which mean so fuckin much to me like god if i cant dress comfortabky i am just fucking Not A Person and my fucking camera with all mt photos shit dude and if i loet my phone thats so many memories gone and so many ways to remember people i dont talk to anymore and years and years of cat photos gone and shit dude. Ok i think making a post has made me feel a bit better tho bc theres now that little voice in my head goin like What the fuck nobody thinks like this what r u on abt ur fine why would ur house burn down now when it hasnt for the past like fucking idk 18+ years ny parents have owned it

[matryx7728]

dear god

1: medibang, krita, ibispaint

2: i can only draw most things facing right except for the fucking v models from ultrakill i have to draw them at least facing somewhat forward i don’t know

3: i can’t really understand what this question means at the moment my reading comprehension is fucked sorry

4: gabriel ultrakill .. 💔💔💔 cant draw him good for the life of me

5: i show like everything i draw to a very small discord server of very close friends but i hardly post any of my art anywhere else so

6: there’s way too much here for me to list

7: painting. like on a real canvas i love it so much but i just can not do it

8: i was gonna make a thing with my current sona and my old sona ghat j could redraw like every month or something but like i kind of just Didn’t

9: i name my files mostly just the thing i drew. like if i draw my oc v0 i’ll name it like ‘v0 doodle.png’ or something however @cikdik would have a very good answer for this question

10: i hate drawing all clothes i don’t know how to do it

11: music very loudly always my v0 playlist mostly

12: probably arms but when it comes to anything animalistic the face and the legs

13: i don’t really have one of these as far as i can remember

14: body horror, gore, horror in general things like that i also like religious themes a lot but that’s just cause i really really like ultrakill

15: anywhere i have access to my phone or my tablet i guess

16: reference images which is funny cause that’s all i fucking draw half the time it’s either that or whatever character i’m drawing just standing there side profile and it’s kind of frustrating

17: i don’t eat when i draw but i will drink. mostly flavored water, tea or juice

18: not much i draw digitally most of the time for the past like four years

19: uhhhi have no idea unless robots count and i don’t think they do

20: not really any specific thing but i make my sketches very fast apparently like for mostly anything i’ll take at most like maybe 20 minutes for a sketch or doodle i think

21: that kind of like. scraggly roundish art style i have no idea how to describe it better but i love it i just try to draw more angularly you know

22: absolutely none unless you count constantly cracking my knuckles as a habit

23: no i don’t know how they work i’m trying to figure them out though

24: no i hardly ever remember to use references and i think that’s not good for me but hey

25: j can’t remember anything named specifically but it happens often

26: i don’t really have many actuall like. pieces and if i do i haven’t posted them so

27: no my dumbass always goes straight in and then i’m like shit hold on and then doodle a million other things while i’m halfway through and forget what i’m doing

28: artfight if that counts this year will be my third on artfight

29: like uh. mostly everythjng j think the only media that really influences my art has been wings of fire and ultrakill i guess

30: i don’t post most of my finished art like at all i don’t have many pieces to go unappreciated but like. that one time i made that shitpost of gabriel and me and @cikdik ‘s ultrakill angel ocs on the ‘save the turtles. that’s a fucking frog’ video i think that’s my magnum opus /j

@cikdik (i tagged you like twice already in this sorry) @athiav2 @adriaue

Weirdly Specific Artist Ask Game

Didn't see a lot of artist ask games, wanted to make a silly one.

(I wrote this while sick out of my mind last year and it's been collecting dust in my drafts, I might as well let it run free) 1. Art programs you have but don't use

2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)

3. What ideas come from when you were little

4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself

6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously (i.e. this horse wasn't supposed to look like the Last Unicorn but I see it)

7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate

8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in

9. What are your file name conventions

10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what

12. Easiest part of body to draw

13. A creator who you admire but whose work isn't your thing

14. Any favorite motifs

15. *Where* do you draw (don't drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth)

16. Something you are good at but don't really have fun doing

17. Do you eat/drink when drawing? if so, what

18. An estimate of how much art supplies you've broken

19. Favorite inanimate objects to draw (food, nature, etc.)

20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy

21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways

22. What physical exercises do you do before drawing, if any

23. Do you use different layer modes

24. Do your references include stock images

25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by

26. What's a piece that got a wildly different interpretation from what you intended

27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with

28. Any art events you have participated in the past (like zines)

29. Media you love, but doesn't inspire you artistically

30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated

[sporadicarbitergardener]

November 20, 2024

Today while getting off work everythjng was good one of my coworkers was at work instead of being at a candle light ceremony for someone that got shot at almonastar in New Orleans a place where everyone race at so I got him a candle and printed there photo and told him have a moment to deal with things while I was inside . The night shift went good. Cornelius came by with his daughter who recently came to live with him due to her mother throwing her out and her and I met . She’s 13 and already started having sex we had a talk and she said I get her and her father made me her. God mother . Well being home and waiting on Morgan to get off his phone doing applications when he had all night to do so and every time while talking to him I had a delayed response and no acknowledgement of me even speaking to him . Josh comes and tap on the window and when I said I don’t want anyone here he still didn’t care. Idk anymore

[faggydoe]

me: man idk do i actually have ocd or am i just fooling myself into thinking i do

me, eating anything: eugh this is covered with Mold Spores. everythjng is covered with Mold Spores. i am breathing them and eating them god. i am full of fucking Mold. i cannot escape it. i cant eat this because of the Mold but i have to. i feel like i can taste it oh god im gonna throw up. Mold

[brushyourteeth2001]

So i had this big fight with my mom , and it felt like always nothing new like this person never changes so i had to isolate my self and like , thers always this competition, my mom is a whore inside i know it , i think she loves to offend and to make a person weak and get him to a bad point in life but after everythjng shes so dark i aint contacting her ever and her fucking two faced family thank god im away from them , thank god , primitive pices of shit , i have my thoughts concerning how to take revenge but i cant theres something that holds me up , and my ego is huge so , i know i gotta fix these things and work on my self , and im really sick of her , i hope she dies , useless bitch , hurting me and making up stories about me so i would be sad thats it and holding my weak points , well that whore what she is doing in canada anyway like what the fuck she achived , or made or grew up into , and thank god its a sign so i drop these idiots of my life and i dont have to deal with them and thier dirty ass mouth , like my mother and her family they thjnk ur awhore even without doing anything shes a whore , my life would be way better without them

[mycomori]

dejected cause i always watch everythjng my roommate watch to watch w me meanwhile i’ve been practically begging to watch literally jist the first episode of wednesday for like…weeks now. i know it’s nothing personal against me like i get it i do it’s just kinda makes me feel shitty. also i went from im not drinking to i am drinking tonight to i am drinking tonight and tomrorow and liek…well i knwk this is my last chance since i got work thru day and friday and lots of ahit to deal w before i can leave for maine and there’s no way i can drink around my parents so basically next time i’ll be able to drink is at the ten fair end of october. i need tot alk to my psych really bad. thank god she got me in tomrorow last minutes.

[freezethebeez]

cant decide if smoking weed with your mom is cool or lame

with beau? incredibly cool.

[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

If i was god. I would make it so. I had all the time in the world. And so i could talk for like 800 hours without my mouth hurting or getting dry or my mind losing focus or smth else that stops u from speaking for 800 hours straight. And i would gather round anyone who would listen to me talk for 800 hours straight. And infodump so much abt jrwi. Actually probably more than 800 hours. Bc. I would watch each campaign in its entirety twice with these people, and then all the extra content on the patreon like the just rolleds and the what ifs and whatnot. And during the second watch of each campaign. I would pause it like every 10 seconds. To overnaalyse everythjng and go insane about it all. Iw ould also make lists of everything. Id redo my gillion title list to actually include ever title (bc i forgot warrior of rock and roll, and another i think 2 do with wheat?) And also to not juwt include the episodes they were first said, but to include timestamps, amd every episode theyre said in and the timestamps for those. I will also timestanp every moment jay ferin has a moment where im like. So she. Is a trans allegory. And everyone will be so shocked because im definitely the only person to think that ever and im unique and awesome. And i will timestamp every moment like that. And i will count every single roll but especially the nat20s and nat1s and i will ckmvine every roll ever made and categorize them all into a graph showing the number rolled naturally, the final number rolled w any modifiers, any numbers rolled that arent used bc of disadvantage or advantage, what skill the roll is for, who made the roll, what the roll would do, if the roll succeeded or failed EVERYTHING. And i would compile it all. And see who rolls best. Not just of the players, but i would do them as a whole. But also individual characters. Like grizzly might roll better than bizly 4 example, but maybe lizzie on average rolls worse than chip but earl on average rolls better. Or smth. On the natural rolls id say id mainly focus on bc of the pure luck of them but also. All modifiers included. And maybe id make a line graph to show how chips persuasion rolls have a massive increase from the moment he drew that card. And also i might show if gillions -2 on dex actually fucks him over as much as they say or if its an exaggeration. And id also. Document every time anyone goes down. To see the sheer fucking amt of times gillion fucking dies for his crew. And also. Every time anyone makes an attack n lands a hit n whatever. To see just how much of a carry jay is in battle bc she actually does shit. And id also count. Number of jokes and silly gags. In character and out. And. Amt of damage taken. For who wins human(orfish)meat shield award of the year. Or ig. Like. 2 yesrs ?? How longs riptide been going for. I got distracted. I got too autistic over the thought of bejng abke to track all those stats. Id probably never be able to bc im awful at making ACCURATE lists. Anyways. Goodnight.