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tardis--dreams · 1 year

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I should call the doctor's office *calls, in tears* *they don't pick up* oh thank GOD above- i should call the doctor's office *shaking and throwing up while calling* *they don't pick up* oh hell yeah! I should call the doctor's office *calling* please don't pick up please don't pick up please don't pick up ple *they don't pick up* I'm so happy rn! Aw fuck i still need to call the doctor's office though ㅠㅠ *they don't pick up* ah well i tried my best I'll just ask in person on friday when I'm there anyway (((:

My mother: *shakes head disappointedly*

#you know the problem is that i am terrified of calling people but i will get over myself and do it #but if they don't pick up up to 30 times it just doesn't work #i need to ride the wave of initial bravery to avoid further avoidance #but if they don't pick up i have an excuse to avoid more calling because hey it's useless anyway and I WILL be there in person later #this week anyway #it's just that i probably should have called earlier so maybe i could get an appointment this Friday already or they could prepare what i #need and i wouldn't need to come in again #but oh god i hate it so much i want to wither away and die #i need to make a plan on how I'll approach this on Friday though #I'll need to state what i need as soon as i get there when i say why I'm actually there (the vaccination)#so I'll have to say something like 'hi I'm here for the vaccination and also have a question/request that I need to address-#*explain what i need* can you do that or do i need to make another appointment for it?' and then they'll hopefully tell me what to do #god i wish i were dead #i should probably call once more :/#i also need to call the hair dresser which is a lot less stressful but also I'm scared of that bitch(tm) picking up the phone #instead of literally anyone else who works there- she is the worst but oh well i gotta take some risks i guess #void screams #i don't wanna call the doctor's office ㅠㅠ

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thestereotypebuster · 1 year

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hey, who's lovelorn tonight!

#wish I'd never learned that word #i hate that i can't even enjoy romance in fiction when i get like this #cuz I get all bogged down thinking about the sorry state of my love life #and the days are just so long and pointless #god i wish i were dead

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weightlessfairy · 5 months

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i just binged i want to fucking kill myself

#god i wish i were dead #i just want to sleep and never wake up #im so behind on uni work also #ive just been thinking about food all the time #i want to die

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cessababyy · 2 years

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ihatemyself.

#mine #im in a constant state of anxiety.#nothing ever goes right for me.#everyone hates me.#god i wish i were dead

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luck-of-the-drawings · 1 year

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FOR A BEAT OF HEART, THE BREATH IS SHOT. AND WITHIN A BREATH, THE HEART IS CAUGHT. THE PIPES ARE BURSTING, UNDER GREAT STRESS, BOLTS TORN ASUNDER, MAKING A MESS. A FINAL COUGH, A FINAL RETCH, A GOREY SLOUGH, CLAIMED BY WRETCH.

#cw gore #jrwi riptide #jrwi riptide spoilers #chip jrwi #jrwi fanart #jrwi show #I LLOOOVE POETRYYY I LOVE MAKING WORDS RHYME IN STRANGE WAYS AND DESCRIBING VISCERA AND VIOLENCE OR WAHTEVER. YKNOW WHAT ELSE I LOVE #CHHHIIIIIIIBBOOOOO MY BEAUTIFUL MAAANN WWHAT. WHAT HAPPENED. OH MY GOD. IVE BEEN SAYING FOREVER. I NEEED CHIP TO GET SCARIER.#HE HAS THE POTENTIAL! I KNOW HE DOES! HAUNTED BOY WITH THE HAUNTED EYES WHAT TRAUMAS HAVE YOU SEEN? AND WERE THEY YOUR FAULT? THINK ABOUT I #EVERY FAMILY HAS CRUMBLED AROUND HIM. HIS BIRTH FAMILY CRUMBLED BEFORE HE KNEW IT. HIS SECOND FAMILY DROWNED. THIRD BURNED TO THE GROUND #AND SHALL THIS NEXT FAMILY JOIN THEM? CHIIIIP YOU UNFORTUNATE BOY YOU HAVE WITNESSED SO MUCH CALAMITY #YOU ARE CALAMITY BOYYY AHAHAHAHA DONT YOU SEEE!! ZOMBIFIED AND DEAD. TRUELY MORE HAUNTED THAN EVER BEFORE. THIS WILL BE FUN #THE FIRE HURTS WHEN IT BURNS TOO LONG. BUT NOW YOUR NERVES ARE DEAD AND YOUR MIND IS FREE. BURN THIS CORPSE AS YOU WISH TO GET WHAT YOU WAN #CHIP IS NOT THE FIRE HE IS THE MATCH. I LOVE THAT IDEA SO MUCH IM SO PROUD OF IT. OHHH AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE CORRUPTION #bizly mentioned that chip wants to be a good captain. in his most corrupted state however. he would be the BEST captain..#thAT DOESNT MEAn hes gonna just suddenly be all controlling. the BEST captain keeps his crew safe. keeps them together. keeps them alive.#and chip is doing just that! he doesnt need to stop being a good captain just bc of the corruption! he just needs to be the BEST CAPTAIN #AND THATS SUBJECTIVE BABY!! im so excited to see where chips zombie arc goes. neeeed him to get scarier and just a little more fucked up.#neEED HIM TO PERFORM ABHORANT ACTIONS THAT HAVE JAY N GILL GOING ' dude woah what the fuck...'#RIGHT I SHOULD TALK ABT MY ART TOO. this one took TOO LONGGGstarted out witha sketch how did it end up like this...#the heart and the blood KILLED ME. LOOK AT MY RENDERING LIKE HWAAATT #better not see any more mistakes after i post this.... i cant fight withit anymore....STILL RLY PROUD THO..#I WAnted to make it visually LOOK like the grossest vomiting sound possible #i want it to make your throat feel uncomfortable. am i achieving that? i hope i am. thats tubes dude!!! like cmahn!

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shaydh · 6 months

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If the drukhari aren’t at least doing this to you what’s the Point [cw: n/ncon, pr0n, gore, impalement, snuff ??]

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#doodle #nsft #implied ter but I don’t wanna draw him #Silas #I’m not tagging marzipan #god I wish that were m—/dead

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desire-mona · 4 months

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yall its actually ROUGH out here having keating as ur dps blorbo because as far as im aware im the only one. i see a post specifically about him maybe once a month, and its a gamble as to whether he shows up in hc posts. oh mr keating we're really in it now.

#desire mona #HELP PLEASE TALK ABOUT HIM GOD PLEASE PLREEEEEEASE TALK ABOUT HIM GOD PLEASE #HES SO SILLY AND HES SO SAD AND HES SO SMART HES SO FUCKING SMART AND HES PLAYED BY ROBIN WILLIAMS AND ESSENTIALLY *IS* ROBIN WILLIAMS #god i wish the advertisements that paint him as a main character for robin williams reasons were right id kill to see more of him #sometimes i watch the deleted scenes just to see him again #i also like looking up robin photos on pinterest and pretending its keating #god hes just so my dad #sobs cries etc #dead poets society #john keating

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syn0vial · 10 months

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NEW HELLSPAWN PLOT BUNNY JUST DROPPED:

KARLACH TEACHES ASTARION HOW TO RAGE

#just think: astarion sees karlach go on a rampage at the tollhouse and deep down is just like ''gods i wish that were me''#you think he didn't want to scream and break things and light shit on fire after realizing he was finally free?#but he's got an image to uphold. so he squashes the impulse.#then one day after they've grown a little closer he confides about it to karlach #maybe after cazador is dead? and he's trying to process all that emotion he's had pent up for so long #and she's like ''well you've got lungs‚ don't you? functioning limbs?''#''and maybe you can't engulf yourself in flames but you've got the fire bolt cantrip''#''you've just gotta be willing to let it all out''#so one night they sneak out of camp into some absolutist outpost they've already cleared of baddies #and have rage lessons :D #/distant sound of karlach teaching astarion to barbarian roar #bg3 hellspawn #karlach #astarion #baldur's gate 3 #hellspawn

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aechlys · 3 months

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Honestly, I see misty, mossy forest pictures and all I hear now is a desperately sung "私は獣にあなたは妖精に生まれ..."

"I a beast and you a fairy were we born... Just for this one twinkling of a human moment tasting each other, we live..."

"Body like willowy torchlight softly cast The color of the lake shadowy but also rather of a deep lamentation"

"Even breath forgetting... Your voice far away... 'You will know I...am not...here...' "

"If there is writhing agony In your heart's depths... 'I have known that you...are not...here...' "

"I a beast and you a fairy were we born... Just for this one twinkling of a human moment tasting each other, we live..."

"No one even knows..."

"On the b e d of the l a k e..."

"If this is a dream I beg to just remain in it...always...forever..."

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original lyrics by Atsushi Sakurai, music by Masami Tsuchiya, translation by myself, Aechlys. >DO NOT REPOST ANYWHERE or I will send ghosts after you.