#god I've missed that

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Actually, the bars aren't so bad anymore.

Think you can fix him? Read about his care instructions over at Tiger Tiger)

[rrat-king]

why do i love ricky matsui? well, a candy dragon is about to explode out of a well cuz a little girl currently in the form of a bald bear is plugging up the entrance, and this is his genuine reaction:

[beaversatemygrandma]

Huh. I have some weird thoughts to get out.

Alright, so I’m 90% sure this evolved into flirting. I’m having a hard time keeping it from turning into that because I’m genuinely enjoying talking to him so much. Like this started off as a shot in the dark thinking that he moved on with his life and forgot about me entirely. Which honestly, i should’ve expected that he didn’t. At all. I’m pretty sure that crush he had on me back then has not faded in the slightest.

Today i decided to bring up that i was curious how much he’d changed since I’ve last seen him. Honestly, it was a shot towards the line of flirting. I just wanted to check if i was attracted to him now. I guess I am. Turns out he’s somehow thinner (already a damn twig then. and the ONLY person I’ve heard have that happen through the pandemic) and all I can think about is that one post saying “when you roll down the window in the car and your skinny bf goes flying out like an old mcdonald’s napkin” because this boy is straight up 15lbs lighter than me. I might lose him when going down the highway. This is fine. Also grew facial hair. It’s cute. Like actually cute. And then he literally goes into explaining some bionicle figure that was caught in the picture. I know it was an anxious “oh fuck, toy in pic” thing. But it was cute. Why was it cute? And why am I feeling things for the guy i found annoying in high school?

Though i do wonder if i really did find him annoying or if it was just the shallow social standards that high schoolers normally have because half the school hated him because he was awkward and geeky. Because it’s really starting to feel like i just used to be that shallow. I used to hang out with him enough to consider him a friend though. But I still told others that he was just the weird guy puppy-dogging along with me and was annoying. When he’s really not. He’s sweet and let’s me talk about things most people won’t. I can be childish and nerdy around him with no judgement and I love it.

Oh my god, send help. I didn’t want this to happen. Now i guess i have to live with what he did in high school.... jeez.

As it turns out though, he has also hit a massive wall due to the pandemic so he’s been sitting at home since he graduated college essentially doing nothing because he’s high risk to covid. Though, he’s been finally able to leave the house recently and has been trying out the job market. (Not going well. But i gave him the info for Randstad and stuff. He does NOT need a retail job. He would not survive a week. He’s fragile. It’d kill him. Probably not literally but my god do i want to protect him from that.) We’re already making little plans for when I’ll be back in town and such too. Apparently he hasn’t done all too much relating to finally being an adult and I flat out want to be the one to show him the world. I want to get this guy to eat sushi for the first time and buy him a beer. Vicariously live through the new stuff he’d be going through.

I also made him listen to Tool and finally broke the barrier that kept him from cursing. That was fun. Also, starting to think that showing music is a form of love language for him because it did absolutely trigger an oddly intimate conversation.

It’s been a long time since I’ve had a crush that wasn’t “I want to fuck this person” but more along the lines of me absolutely wanting to cuddle the shit out of, protect, and show the world to this person. Because that’s exactly what i want to do to him. This is new to me oddly enough... It’s been a while since it was for wholesome reasons.

Huh. I’ve got a lot to think about here tbh. Because it’s quickly evolving and I don’t know what to do with this. Literally just sent a goodnight text that i had to fight against putting in my brash and teasing flirting. I’m to that point. I want to do that. But no. Too soon. It’s been like a week.

Only a week. For the love of god. WHY. Am I really just that lonely nowadays or am I actually feeling something for him? Because this feels like actual feelings. I haven’t seen this boy in person since we were both 17 and here I am at 23 deadass wanting to be there with him right now. This is So Very New. Oh My God. I do Not know what to do here.

[its-a-me-mango]

Bruh look at my hairdressers, I'm so fucked.

[lokimobius]

lokius + elevators

[chocolatecatcupcakecheese]

So apparently people didn't know that if you take long enough to find her, Orin shows up at your camp and pretends to be Gortash... So please enjoy the sultry sounds of Orin!Gortash getting horny about violence.

[sad-leon]

TMayNT Day 5: Best Leo

does sprout count? to me he counts and also i missed drawing him, so he gets drawn for leo day :D

@intotheelliwoods i care about him a normal amount :D

[lucy-moderatz]

[violent138]

Bruce has a habit of randomly worrying about his kids and silently lurking in their room until he's done being insane. This usually happens mid prolonged argument or after an incident on patrol that he thinks could've gone much worse.

It would be sweet, if he hadn't raised his kids to be just as paranoid as he is, making them shoot awake every time to see to their Batdad sleep paralysis demon.

[braisedhoney]

the fundamental problem

[mdverse]

"good game"

[avalonlights]

[laurenkmyers]

[tianlavellan]

If your door is open tonight, I will come to you. If not, I'll know you took my warning at last. /// I love you. I've been holding back from saying that. [...] But I don't ever want to leave you. /// If I pay for that with my life... then I pay. /// I never thought you'd spare my life. [...] But... if you would join me... I'd rather be on the run with you than safe with anyone else.

Anyone else still going insane about Anders slowly beginning to trust that Hawke won't abandon him and starting to understand that he doesn't have to be alone? Warning Hawke away again and again and trying to stop himself from getting too attached (and failing miserably), but Hawke stays with him and stands by him so steadfast and loyal and unwavering until Anders finally dares to believe it and asks Hawke to run away with him??

Can't be just me, right?

Anyway. eating my laptop chewing on glass rattling my cage etc

[lemonadeslice]

oh the armor atreus made himself has red stitching meant to mimic his father’s tattoos? voice cracking that’s kinda cool i guess

[pickleforstony]

"Did you just say-"

"Yes."