#god I'm fuckin stupid
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Someone tell me why I am the stupidest mother fucker on the planet. I have just spent the past few minutes wildly scrolling through my blog trying to get back to at least one of the parts of one of my fanfictions so I can reread it because I'm going to attempt working on it again. No I will not be telling you which one. And somewhere around my Hazbin Hotel fixation and my return FNAF fixation I had thought of why am I doing this? I have fucking document with the links saved!! Why am I just scrolling through my own blog looking for it?! Why did it take me at least five minutes to remember this?! Why am I like this?!
I also feel it important to inform you all that I had to log back into tumblr on my computer to do this. I had to go out of my way and log back into tumblr on my computer because it has been so long since I've been on the damn thing just to spend five, maybe more, minutes scrolling through my blog, for nothing. I... I have no words. I'm going home. This is bullshit.
#I feel so stupid#I#I have no explanation for this#I may delete this later#god I'm fuckin stupid#The worse thing is that#the document with the links#is the third fucking document that shows#up when I open that folder#the bitch was just right there#staring me down the whole time#laughing at me#like the fool I am#damn thing was so close#it could have bit me if it wanted to
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angsty timeskip!octogoblin my beloved
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#otto octavius#doc ock#norman osborn#green goblin#octogoblin#spiderman no way home#artists on tumblr#digital art#fanart#stuff i draw#goD that stupid SMILE in NWH singlehandedly did this#safe to say i'm a big fan of that 'that's my husband!!!' smile#also THOSE FUCKING METAL ARMS i can't draw them for shit so this will have to do#wanna draw more of them so let's hope&pray that i'll see it through despite the metal arms and that fuckin goblin suit bc good fucking lord#I FORGOT IT'S VALENTINE'S DAY WHAT A DAY TO POST THIS
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it's been a year of blondes, boobs, and one piece apparently
#art vs artist#art vs artist 2023#one piece#barbie movie#nimona#something about lemons#live action one piece#zosan#sanami#and my 10 year web comic anniversary#and getting fms#and getting my T dose raised#and moving across the country#and trying to get into and being broken by stupid media industry to the point of changing my whole ass career plan smh#((fuckin hell was that all this year is that why I'm this tired god))#but NO BIG DEAL LOOK AT BIG TIDDY SANJI INSTEAD (available in two whole gender varieties) ye ye ye ye ahahahahaha#guess who had too much one piece art to make up his mind and decided to collage it instead#(there was more this isn't even all of the *renders* let alone the sketchy comics)
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note that i will only ever call mithrun "stupid" jokingly. by "stupid", i only mean "frustrating behavior that i am immensely familar with". seeing him do something that makes me groan aloud, closing my eyes, sighing "stupid (affectionate, mournful)". like when he fucking... his dumbass "i don't want to [use the bathroom] right now, so it's fine." oughh. i know you! i know you! that's not how that works!!! and he's smart!!! he's so smart... but god, god... he's kind of an absent professor. he's kind of a cloudcuckoolander. i love him dearly. he gets called a dummy, a little idiot, and i flick his forehead, a little bonk of hard-heads, like "try again, idiot. that's not how bodies work." and "ooh, 'that's not going to work'. yes it is. shut up, stoopid. stubborn little man, my god." rolling my eyes forever.
#mithrun#i'm not devaluing his intelligence#i feel like both can be true - that someone can be really smart but also take really stupid actions conversely#i fucking KNOW i do all the time#and i don't think there's anything particularly wrong with the word#it's not that his intelligence is compromised in any sense or that i think he's incapable#and it is solely#the fact that he is a stubborn little guy who doesn't listen and just goes 'that won't work' / 'i don't want to' / etc.#like... BUDDY...#buddy BOY#dummy#you are NOT a good judge of this ok?#zip ya lip little man#i know what you are#and i ain't fuckin listening to ya!#god. 'that won't work'. blah blah blah. okay sleepy. see you next panel.#fuckin knew that was going to happen#'i'm not tired' (his body stops working and he doesn't know why)#oh. OH. you're NOT? buddy i KNOW what happened ok? you need some fuckin rest#like - i'm gonna kick your legs out from under you + you're going to fall gently into bed + i tuck you in and smooch you#but i also fucking complain because OF COURSE YOU'RE TIRED ! you bastard ! go sleepy bye#it's his poor decisions and i know why he does them - because he doesn't know - but by god#it's also a little like please... listen to yourself...#on the one hand he doesn't know and never will#on the other hand ... you have been awake for hours and hours without sleep... please get some rest...#but yeah as someone who forgets needs and has little sense of that it is like... objectively a stupid experience#and i don't say that with judgement in my heart but it feels REALLY stupid when your body does something and you don't know why#it's not the disability though that makes me say as much - it is fully the fact that he is SO STUBBORN! SO STUBBORN!!!!#you say you're not tired and fall down? hm? then maybe you are? i know you don't know but whatever. let's get you to bed boy. ok?#caring for him + shaking my head like i get it so much but you gotta sleep! 'this won't work'. ok liar... i already know it will.
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the way how people on here will openly admit to installing fucking spyware on their kids devices and act like that's a normal healthy thing to do lmfao??? if you have such insane control issues you should not be a parent tbh
#ruby rambles#AND THEN TO SPIRAL THAT INTO STUPID FANFIC DISCOURSE OH MY FUCKING GOD WHO CARES#it's not like Ao3 doesn't give you a million warnings before clicking on any fic SHUT UP I'M CHEWING YOUR STUPID CARCASS#like you weren't doing the same fucking shit at 12/13yo. fuckin 'fandom elders' istfg
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Sharing clothes: re: the hospitality uniforms.
"Melanie?" Ruth begins, a little out breath.
None of the passengers she had passed on the way to the hospitality office would have seen anything amiss, a pleasant smile on her face and walking, never running, with purpose. The breathlessness the only sign thst Ruth had been rushing.
"What's the emergency? Tristan said-" she stopped as Melanie turned to face her. "Oh."
Melanie's face was serious as Ruth held back a laugh. Melanie's jacket lay discarded on the desk, evidently removed to assess the full damage of the large dark stain on an otherwise crisp white blouse.
"it's not funny, Ruth. This is my last shirt, laundry are days behind with uniforms and I was minding my own business when that - that - boy barrelled into me and sent my coffee flying! The next thing I know he's running out the door talking about how you'll know how to fix it and I -" Melanie let out a frustrated noise, "- I haven't got time for this!"
"Now Melanie, Tristan is a very nice young man and I'm sure he didn't -"
"Ruth!" Melanie gestured wildly at the still wet shirt that was now sticking to the skin below.
"Okay, okay!" Ruth conceded, marching to the drawers at the back of the room. "Let me think. Coffee... We need to blot it as much as we can. Draw out as much liquid as possible... Aha!"
With a triumphant smile she turned back to Melanie, holding out the large stack of napkins she had been searching for.
"The batch we recalled for the W being upside down. I guess we never got them restitched."
Melanie took one of the proffered pieces of cloth and dabbed at the large damp area on her chest.
"Be easier with it on a flat surface," Ruth mused. "And anyway, we'll need to run it under cold water next."
Melanie just stared in response.
"What? It'll be harder to get out if we leave it," Ruth offered.
"What am I supposed to wear in the meantime? I've got that meeting with the catering team about - oh god, and then Lilah Folger is expecting me to discuss LJ's birthday -"
Melanie's speech was rapid, verging into panicked. Ruth had seen her handle many a crisis, and felt a twinge of discomfort watching the unflappable head of hospitality, well, flapping.
"Oh!" she interjected, cutting off Melanie's to do list. "I've got a - hang on -"
Ruth returned to the drawers, pulling open the one marked 'Misc. Supplies' in perfect script.
"I almost forgot this was here. It's probably a bit creased, but it's clean. I stashed one away for - well for this really. Only for me, obviously. It might come up a little big but I'm sure we can tuck it in..."
Now it was Ruth's turn to ramble, but she stopped as she saw Melanie's eyes widen in surprise at the shirt in her hands.
"Ruth, I could kiss you!" she exclaimed.
Ruth barely had time to register the blush rising to her cheeks before it rose again. She swallowed harshly as Melanie began to pull up her coffee stained shirt.
"I-" she spluttered, quickly turning away.
She fiddled with her W pin as she stared at the wall, her own pulse loud in her ears. She must have really been rushing around, she thought. Just not got her breath back...
"Come help me zip?" she heard Melanie ask over the roar of her heartbeat.
She swallowed again.
Slowly turning back, she saw Melanie unsuccessfully reaching for the zipper halfway down her spine, arms contorted. The shirt was a little big, but Ruth couldn't help but think it looked good. Not that Melanie ever looked bad in anything ever but...
Ruth shook herself back out of her head, stepping forwards as Melanie turned her back towards her.
Carefully reaching for the zipper, she pulled it up slowly, careful not to catch any skin.
She let out a breath she didn't know she was holding, only she must have been too close when she did so, as the skin on Melanie's neck rose up in goosebumps.
"Thanks," Melanie said, uncharacteristically softly, as she turned back to Ruth.
Tucking the shirt tightly into her skirt, her eyes flicked up to the clock.
"I've got to go, is there any chance you could -" she gestured to the discarded shirt on the desk.
"I've got it. Don't worry."
Melanie smiled warmly, and Ruth felt that damn blush again. She handed Melanie her jacket.
"I'll swing by the laundry car too, and see if we can't do something about your uniform being expedited," she offered.
"I owe you one, Ruth," Melanie said genuinely, touching her hand to Ruth's arm for just a second.
And then she was out the door, leaving Ruth with the crumpled up shirt, and the blood rushing in her ears again.
#I've been thinking about this since u sent the ask I only just had time and energy to write it down but#My god I'm so in love with them it makes me fuckin stupid#Also I had to make them fuckin stupid too#Dumbass Mel with no clean clothes (gremlin behaviour) and doesn't know what to do when she spills coffee#Dumbass Ruth just turn the napkins the other way round 😭😭😭😭#Also ur so stupid girl ur in love w ur boss and u don't even know#Lilah Folger 100% notices and just assumes they're fucking. Change my mind
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Ugh I was excited for today until I found out I'd have to spend it with people that actively make me hate being alive hate the future and drain me off all energy physically mentally spiritually like a vampire I can't stand to be around her she is the definition of stupidity and even then that's generous as fuck this bitch has filled her brain with so much garbage I watch her brain cells die at alarming rates every single time she uses her vocal cords her giggles make me want to jam a sewing needle into my ear repeatedly so I can never have to hear it again its a friendly reminder that my parents decisions this time my dad's constantly makes me want to die
#i cant even shes just so dangerously stupid#she thinks energy drinks with natural caffeine are safe to give people who have been told by doctor doing take caffeine with thia meds#ahe thinks of a child is CHOCKING to lie them face down n rub their back#she has the evangelical woman voice worse then women I've met n that cult ahe giggles constantly and behaves like the stereotype lil german#boy just got a lollipop over.... everyone and everything whe acts likw an 11 year old I just got the first boyfriend and all they could talk#is how perfect their boyfriend is and they're so pretty good for that I pulled a boyfriend is and it's like a God thing that they met how#SOOOOOOOOOO in love while constantly nonstop touching ahe has to be touching him her hand on his thigh her atm linked with his her heaf on#his chest she has to be in her lap they make out all over the place IT'S DISGUSTING AND EMBARRASSING STOP SWAPPING SPIT#she started a i. hwr words 'love diary of their love journey' they hadn't been dateing 2 months her kids are spoiled fake Instagram bitches#with such shitty views on politics SHE'S A TRUMP FAN GIRL SHENLOVES TRUMP MY DAD BROUGHT IN A TRUMPIE#there's so much i cant even say because even admitting it on tumblr is too embarrassing i wanted.to.likw her i liked her the first day but#THE MORE I GET TO KNOW GET THE MORE N MORE N MISS RED FKAGS#she threw away all my siblings clothes school books toys uniforms for sports their in toys i bought them that week make up jewelry#in the disguise of helping clean house#while i was at the hospital the kids call me in tears i call her beg her to wait and nope.ahe didn't i found the bags by the curb i brought#my dad sided with hwr because 'she didn't mean any harm she didn't know sje was throwing them away'#my mom hasn't bsen dead a year he started dating right after ahe died#hes talking about marrying this woman this woman who has never had an honest educated thought once in her life#WHO ASLO SPEMDA MONEY LIKE A DRUNKEN SAILOR AHE CAME FROM A WITCH FAMILY HER LAST TWO HUSBANDA WERE TOUCH SHE HAS NO KNOWLEDGE OF THE COMMON#SHE SPENDS LIKE SHE STILL HAS MONEY WHEN SHE DOSE NOT AND IT'S LIKE YOU DID NOT JUST SPEND OVER 180 DOLLARS N PASTRIES GOD#SHES SO FUCKIN STUPID AND EVERY HOLIDAY SINCE MY MOM DIED WVERY FAMILY GWT TOGETHER BECAUSE WE DON'T TALK OR.DO ANYTHING WITH MOM'S SIDE#OF THE FAMILY ANYMORE SHE'S THERE EVERY WINGLE MOTHER FUCKIN WEEKEND SHES HERE I'M EXHAUSTED SHES PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY DRAINING TO BE ARO#OUND SHES LIKE IF SOMEONE TOOK A GOLDEN RETRIEVER ON A DIET OF JUST FUCKIN COCAINE LITTLE GERMAN BOY WITH LOLLY AND CRUELLA DEVILLE AND FUSE#THEN TOOK A STRAW AND DRANK ALL THE SMARTS OUT OF THAT BEING#UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGH MY DADS GOIN TO NARRY RHIA BITCH SHES GOIN TO TRY TO BE A MOTHER TO ME AND MY SIBLINGS AND THEY'RE GOIN TO#be so fucked up because her kids are not ok SHE FUCKED THEM OVER BAD SHE HAS FOUR KIDS ALL ADULTS THEY'RE JUST WOW#I HATE MY LIFE I HATE WHAY FUTURE MY FAMILY IS GOIN TO BE THE GOOD THINGS IS I WON'T HAVE TO STAY I CAN GO N MAKE A NEW ONE WITH MY WIFE#FOR ME BUT MY SIBLINGS ARE FUCKED AND ANYTIME I WANT TO VISIT MY FAMILY YANDERE GOLDEN RETRIEVER BITCH WILL BE THERE WORMING HWR WAY IN#SHES CONSTANTLY CALLING N TEXTING MY DAD NONSTOP OF SHE'S NOT NEXT TO HIM AND IF HE CAN'T RESPOND INSTANT SHE FREAKS OUT N BUGS ME
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you know i had to do it to 'im.
also to publicly immortalize that i've begun reading the viper job shorthand (vpr) as 'veeper' and i cannot be stopped.
#except he's the one laughing in the end because OUUUUUUU TYR DECKARD SIR#CALL ME???!!!! IF UR FREE Y'KNOW...#dot talk#ffxiv benchmark#finally i can get his stupid washed out fuckin blonde right in a video game#i'm gonna fucking BITE HIM this is NOT fair!#dawntrail benchmark#god i'm so mad at him. i'm going to fight him how dare he look this good
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my uncle is the kinda ~leftist~ guy who will say shit like 'DEI is essential to ensuring women are properly recognized and compensated' and 'I'm pro-choice and donate to planned parenthood' and then 30 minutes later will say the most vile, misogynistic shit about his own mother & sister with the ease of someone ordering off the dollar menu at mcdonalds
#kinda guy that says 'i'm a feminist' and then would get outraged if you asked him when the last time he did his own laundry was#man is 65 years old and my asshole would fall out if he's done his own laundry over 10 times in his whole life#he also talks sooooooooooooooo much shit about my other side of the family and how disgusting they are for being from the south#and it's like...... I'm sitting... right here you know. you're saying these things TO ME....#I just sit there with a dead-eyed smile like jfc#cause. for as much as he and my mom (his sister) hate one another and say omg such a dick!#they are the same person! they are NEVER in the wrong. they are always the smartest person in the room#the only difference is I know exactly how to play it with my uncle cause he's very ego driven#just sit and nod and smile and go hmmmmmm wow yeah#and he is happy. he is the grand master. he knows all#they're both of them fuckin stupid. and I feel bad my grandparents' kids turned into...... them#I had to get that all out before the holiday I had to I'm sorry I had to vent god I feel so much better now#delete later
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are you doing ok?
dude I'm sure hanging in there
#anonymous#asks#cycle of my sister gets in a mood -> I keep my distance bc childhood trauma reasons -> time passes -> she's out of the mood#also it's not like I can express to her my feelings on whenever she gets like this bc she pulls the#''oh so it's my fault it's always my fault I'm so stupid'' bullshit card. I don't particularly like or enjoy living here most of the time#but I don't have any other fuckin options#I wake up I go to work I come home I hang out in my room (''my room'') I eat dinner I shower and go to bed. and do it again the next day#certain days have minor variations. but my god it can be so exhausting living w her#anyway I'm drinking a mango drink and playing dragon age so I am persisting ! I love u mango
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My stupid story is 20k now how I do make it stop 😵
#Every time I read through to edit I end up adding another scene this is so fuckin embarrassing#It's not even in chapters it's just one massive thing#The beginning is bad though I have to figure out how to rewrite that but lmao a fixed version with dialogue will be another 2k aha ha ha#There's one long scene I could remove and make that it's own one shot but also god how about I Don't#I'll probably end up deleting it because it's just. Too much. Compared to everything else. But also. What if I didn't? 🤷♀️#I think what's hilarious is that I had Plans. About Themes. And Character Studies. And Comparisons#And idk if it's even really in there and visible and not just 20k of 'what if I just wrote the most indulgent shit for me specifically'#And then ended it with an emotional slap to the face because I love building things up and then tearing it apart#(and it does that really well; I'm giggling into my hands - I'm dancing on my own grave)#I've cried so many times during this stupid fic#*deletes other comment*#Anyway my OTHER fic that I also indulgently love and is way too long and made me cry way too hard every fuckin scene#Does not make me cry anymore and idk if I broke it somehow in the editing or if I'm just immune to its devastation now#Honestly concerned that when I post these I'll be like 'meh; it's just ok' and then anyone who reads it is like ☠️☠️☠️☠️#Hehehehe#Ok I'm done
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idek how to format what i wanna say i'm just gonna ramble in tags b
#chirping#like. god. i just wanna know wht love feels like#i just wanna know. because i've been in love. i've had my heart broken. but that love- to my knowledge- has never been reciprocated#i just fall so easy. and then everything i do is too much too much too much.#so overtime i just get more and more withdrawn. saying too much and not enough at the exact same time#i just. that's why i like shipping so much. i know it's reductive and stereotypical and really overwhelms a fandom#but it lets me experience something i've never had.#and i like to think the way i ship ain't reductive. but i just worry smtimes bc i see ppl complainin abt it so often.#i just wanna know. and i know there's more to life than romance of course i fuckin know that#but i feel like i'm missing a piece of myself. idk. i ain't saying anyone should care abt romance as much as i do and i ain't tryin to#force anyone. this is just. how i feel abt my life. god. whatever#i miss him every fucking day and i wish there was any fucking thing i did differently but there ain't. we just. weren't meant#to be. as stupid as it is.
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a basic human right to privacy and solitude is just as important as being in community and being able to socialize
#I know that american individualism is a plague but My God I literally am so fucking deeply completely utterly goddamn burnt out#From being constantly unendingly forced into close proximity to other human beings every single goddamn moment of every single goddamn day#And holy fuck. God. Please. I fucking beg. Oh my fucking god like I'm legitimately so so desperate for any amount of peace and quiet.#God I beg. On my actual hands and knees. I want away from all these animals that aren't mine. I want away from all these people and noise.#Fuck me I want to be able to afford to live alone. God damn me. I don't need to live lavishly or even eat every day I do not care at all.#I want space. I need it. Prolonged lack of access to actual privacy and space is actively eroding me I can feel it more and more every day#Okay. Vent over. Time to deep clean my room with headphones for as long as my disabled already aching body can tolerate#Also um lmao I fuckin' hate the stupid rhetoric about how humans neeeeed to be social. America neeeeds to be forced out of individualism#Like yeah. But all goddamn offense I'm forced 24/7 to share space with humans and I can stand it but god fucking damn it cannot be constant#And it has been so rare in my experience that anybody I know is actually privileged enough to move away from home or be away from people#Like I'm fucking tired. I'm wore out. I'm over it all. I'm so autistic. I love people. Genuinely. That's the point of life.#But fuck I need time away. I just do. This isn't good and I can't stand it.
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GUYS,, MY BBYGIRL REZ IS BACK,, HOLY SHIT!!! THIS IS NOT A DRILL
I'M CRYINGGG, WHY MUST I WORK,,, I GOT 2 HOURS TIL I GO HOME, I'M GONNA GO FERAL
#mothy rambles#tsams rambles#I'm actually so normal about evil space people#I'm actually so normal about space as a whole#move aside gemini!! I need more of that stupid fuckin space worm!! /silly#guys guys guys i don't understand what he is but he's my favorite little guy#I need him to put Lunar in awful situations#god I need rez to infect someone close to Lunar#And put Lunar through a whole crisis and awful time#please it'd be so so so so so cool
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Love is real btw
Love is real and it gets better
#stupid corny ass post to make esp in the middle of the night#but fuck it I needed to see this before and need to see it still#having a best friend just fuckin TEXT me#saved my morning tomorrow#god idk#i'm not about to wax poetic on a stage#figure it tf out#love is real#it gets better#friends are the literal essence of this#good night#🌇#🌙#☀️#oni says smth#solly stumbles in#kinda cocon
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going to kill myself over the state of my wallet rn
#call me sisyphus the way i am constantly rolling this stupid rock up this hill (having to buy things. which cost money)#this saturday. we will be halving the amount of cats in this house. and it won't be so frequent that we have to get more cat food#this is my saving grace atm.#love the beans and i Will cry when we send them to the shelter but it will be Partially relief-crying. bc my god do they fuckin eat eat eat.#also the apt downstairs is empty again and they're working on it. again. so it smells like weed. Again#so i'm stuffied and constantly turning the fan off and on to get the air flowing so dragon and i don't Both get asthmatic with it#but then turning it back off bc Cold Cold oh my God Cold#ugghhhh#too scared to take anymore ofthose weed candies So i'm fucking Raw Dogging Life right now‼️‼️‼️‼️#i should just make coffee or something. idk. i feel better now from the nightmare weed btw. just took like all of last week to happen#but now i'm getting second-hand weed smoked. and like. power to them but My Lungs. MY CATS' LUNGS.#MY ASTHMATIC CAT'S LUNGS‼️this is supposed to be a smoke-free apt. i'm sorry to sound like a buzzkill but. he wheezes Recreationally#i'm rambly that's how you know i'm doing decent again. just also life actually sucks LFDNGNDDMNF
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