i got to have a totally organic moment of insanity this morning. my desk mate was humming a song and said, “i’ve hand that song stuck in my head all week.” i said, “what song?” she said, “steal away.” i said, “oh, by enya?” and she said, “no, i don’t know who…” and i said, “oh shit! i was thinking of sail away. that’s that robbie dupree song! i know it! in fact, it was in this movie…” and then i got to make my pitch for the passenger (2023) dir. carter smith for maybe the 70th time in the past 3 months. the universe delivers!
my current favourite youtube channel is this guy that just gets high as fuck and loses his goddamn mind reacting to various divas for the first time. he understands.
i do think it’s essential to their relationship that benson really does “fix” randy, at least in the way he wants to, which is to rid him of his shame/self-hatred so he can live life on his own terms. when they're in the diner at the end and randy looks at benson saying “i called the cops” he does it with such an insane expression of gratitude on his face, like he can’t believe it’s possible he did that, and he knows it's only thanks to benson. like he’s saying “benson, we did it” and he’s completely bought in to benson’s plan to fix him, and it just so happens that the natural conclusion of that plan was for randy to betray him, because the way benson made it all possible was by doing something unforgivable. but that’s the central tension of benson’s character for me… this tension between him being capable of doing these really horrific unforgivable things and then simultaneously capable of facilitating a truly profound and beautiful, permanent change within randy. and having the beautiful change only be possible because of the unforgivable things. in interviews johnny and kyle talk about “benson there were other ways to do this!!” but i think the story is the most interesting if you approach it with the premise that there actually were no other ways to do this. the only thing that could have possibly convinced randy to change is something this extreme. and randy realizes that and so develops this genuine gratitude toward benson. and so im sure randy has an inexplicable and difficult grief that haunts him now but he no longer believes in his own inherent unworthiness and he considers that a gift benson gave him and will never disrespect himself again because it would be equivalent to disrespecting benson's sacrifice. so he is able to live a good life
reading this makes Benson beating up sheppard sooo much rawer(? idk if that's even close to the right word)- no wonder the acting on that scene felt sooo real, especially the "LETS GO. RANDY" screams and the pacing as he thinks about whether or not to shoot sheppard...
I don't want to think about the implications of what would qualify as pulp for eggnog and in what ways definitions would have to be bended to create an answer to that. What is pulp? How is it processed? What makes something a juice versus another type of beverage? Do definitions have any meaning? Or is connotation and subjective understanding of the world the only reality we live in and can share? Here, take my hand, let's walk into the beautiful world of what qualifies as a sandwich