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stevie-petey · 4 months ago

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okie here is my chapter 8 thoughts dump this is so long i'm SORRY

the way you write action is crazy good. like i was reading the whole first part as if i’d never seen it coming like i haven’t watched the episode a million times.

murray x bug banter is kind of everything LOL the dynamic is so hilarious & same for erica. i can totally see bug and erica getting way closer of a dynamic next season (hopefully because i love that girl fr🤞🏼)

the way i'm crying at the hopper x bug farewell… like obviously i knew it was coming but… wow. i love how your cancer sun 100% influences your writing because miss bug is a cancer if i’ve ever seen one. like girl just feels emotions so deeply AND SHE’S SO ME FOR THAT

STEVE HAND ON THIGH WHILE DRIVING ENTHUSIAST that got me so good i was melting u have no idea i think him doing that to me would heal me a bit

i just love the robin x bug x steve dynamic SOSOSOSO MUCH!!! i literally cannot wait for more of it in season 4 because it’s just so excellent. i can’t wait for the first season 4 chapter when all 3 of them have had months to establish their friendships/relationships so that when we see them in the first chapter back we’ll see a glimpse of their new stasis (until everything inevitably goes to shit again)

STEVE BEE VS JON’S HONEY I’MMMMMMM that got me so good i was giggling kicking my feet

I’M SO GLAD YOU WROTE BUG SINGING ALONG TO NEVER ENDING STORY because that would have LITERALLY been me in that sitch like come awn guys the world is literally ending a monster is chasing us lets have a moment where we just sing and pretend everything is happy PLEASE ugh and i also just KNOW steve was sitting there with the goofiest love sick smile admiring miss bug AS HE SHOULD because he is just enamored by any and everything she does

the billy scene is truly one of the most well-written things i’ve ever read. the way you write guilt but also grief going hand in hand is so beautifully painful. jonathan and steve both comforting her got me so emotional because they both know her so well to know she is going to carry the guilt of this so heavily and it makes me so :((((((( oh god and the double whammy with hopper right after billy was like a knife to the heart (in the best way) like by this point i was fully in tears. this whole sequence of billy’s death has me WORRIED tho bc of eddie’s fate in s4. i know they probably won’t be the best of friends right off the bat, for good reason, however seeing dustin have to go through the trauma somewhat similar and somewhat not to what bug just went through with billy is going to tear me UP inside. miss bug is in empath and it truly worries me how she will internalize eddie’s death/dustin’s grief. though i am glad steve will be there to comfort both of them (hoping steve and bug stay together PLEASE LET THEM STAY TOGETHER)

i’m so glad mrs. waters is doing well i love that woman and want to protect her with my LIFE✋🏼

THE CHARM BRACELET omg bug needed this so bad. i literally can’t say anything else about that scene because truly it had me at a loss for words. SPEECHLESS TRULY

this whole ending fucked me UP ! i’m so sad we only got a small glimpse of el x bug x max because i love the sisterly dynamic they all have :((( though i am so extremely excited to see max & bug’s friendship shape because of the ~trauma bond~.

i am so curious to see how and if jon stays in contact with bug. i’m wondering if it’s going to be a situation where bug and jonathan actually do stay in touch while he shuts nancy out causing tension, or if poor jon shuts everyone out including bug. i also wonder what bug’s emotions will be when jon doesn’t come and visit hawkins during s4. GAH i just have so many thoughts surrounding s4 and i’m so excited to see how you write it!! i have absolutely no doubts in my mind that you’re going to make it absolutely perfect, whichever direction you chose to take it. you have a crazy awesome gift and i know whatever you write will have me in shambles in the best way ok that's all sorry for rambling luv u have a good nite bestie

xoxo, s <3

okay first im SO happy u love how i write action because it genuinely makes me want to die every time. i always feel so awkward and stilted writing it so its a relief you think otherwise <333

and the murray banter truly wasnt planned like bug just naturally hated the mans. it was perfect. and her goodbye with hopper :((( and ur so right bug IS 10000% a cancer baby like me, its why i made her bday july 3rd because it just felt so right. shes the most cancer cancer to ever cancer lmao

steve and jon fighting over honey and bee had me GIGGLIN it was a throwaway line but i simply had to add it. they would fight over it and it felt right. even while bickering, they still shared a soft smile when bug started singing because thats their girl !!!

the billy scene </3 it hurt. he isnt my favorite character, i dont agree that he had a "redemption" arc per say, but i truly do pity his character. he never had a chance to become good. i think we all deserve to at least have the chance to choose good. billys choice was stripped away from him, so bug understanding this makes it all the more painful.

as for how billy will affect bug season 4 and eddie being introduced ,,, oh just u WAIT !!! and we'll see more max and bug in season 4, theyre gonna go through some wild rides together lmao

#steveharrlngtonsgf #ask #m speaks #nyas insight #THANK U FOR RAMBLING I LOVE LISTENIN TO YALL

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jawritter · 5 years ago

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Dean Winchester One Shots

Happy Birthday Dean pt. 1

It’s Dean’s birthday, and you realize something about yourself you never knew before… Until now…

30 Minutes til Midnight (Happy Birthday Dean pt. 2!)

Sequel ot Happy Birthday Dean, will you finally tell him how you feel?

Middle of the road

Can you keep pretending your just friends, or will it all come out in the middle of the road.

Lonely as the grave

Dean struggles with his reality visiting the graveyard in his hometown of Lawrance, Kansas

The Fool

The reader comfronts Lisa, based on the song The Fool by Leanne Walmack

The Meeting

A secret releationship getts heated during a meet up

Waiting…

Waiting on your hero hunter to come home can be one of the harderst things you ever do.

Finally Yours

Alpha!Dean is in Rut, and only one Omega can help him through it!

Home

Six years ago Christmas Eve Dean made the biggest mistake of his life under influence of the Mark of Cane.

It Was Fifteen Years Ago Today

Haunted by the past tramas even Dean needs a little comfort sometimes.

I Did It Because I Love You

Dean’s been a complete and total asshole, what happenes when the reader finally has all she can take.

Happy Valenties Day Sweetheart

Dean shows the reader a little bit of his softer side….

I Kinda Like The Disease…

Your search for your demon boyfriend takes you to New Orleans during mardi grag…

Challenge Accepted..

Requested: ok so here is a request(idk if you do these)(also it’s smut) so dean talks about how good he is in the bedroom and the reader says something along the lines like “i bet you can’t make me come” Dean challenges this. In the bedroom and you know they doing the dirty or whatever. Dean edges her and edges her and just when the reader had enough of the teasing Dean finally takes her over her edge and the reader is left with the most hot shaking orgasm ever. I hope this makes sense! ❤️ur stories!!

Your Perfect

Request: the reader is always willing to go down on Dean but when Dean goes to return the favor the reader stops him and always finds an excuse. No one has ever offered to go down on her before so she’s insecure about it and doesn’t want to look weird in from of dean. i Hope this makes sense!

Curves

Requested: Can I request a Dean Winchester x plus size reader, where she really shy and dorky but believes that she really bad at sex because she is bigger? And dean shows her that she not 😊💕 I hope this make sense haha! I know this sound awkward turtle 🐢

You Deserve Better Than Me

Requested: Dean winchester x pregnant Reader. Dean feels the reader deserves better than what he can give her in his life, what will he do when he finds out that she’s expecting his baby?

Quarantine

Summery: Everyone is stuck in quarantine right now everywhere, and your stuck alone with Dean, who really needs to blow off steam… Oh what has your big mouth gotten you into now…

My Best Friend

Request: hiii i have dean x reader request! the reader and dean are friends with benefits but recently she’s just been down in the dumps and just wants some platonic affection and not sex. as the writer you can do what u want but could you add Dean playing with the readers hair? i have a weakness for it lol thanks!

Just A Dream…

Part 1

Part 2

Winchesters Fantasies 1000 follower Challenge…

Daddy’s Home

Request: Hey I know this is odd, but I really enjoy your writing and I was wondering if you could possibly do a little smutty Dean thing? Maybe using the name Lyn, and really anything is on the table, I mean, it’s Dean Winchester. (Or if you want, some daddy kink and maybe just rough stuff :o) Thank you dear!! You don’t have to if ya don’t want to, no pressure 💕💕

Like Pulling Teeth

Request: Okay, so I was just watching few recent spn episode and saw Garth episode. Which gave me an curious idea, can you write dentist reader x dean? They’re in a relationship, one day when dean eats something, it pains and reader has to look into it? and then reader says wisdom tooth extraction? Also the fear of dentist which dean already has (shown in the episode, I found it very funny) I know it’s a weird request but I also think it would be very funny🙈

Little Details…

Request: Could I maybe request a Chubby!Reader x Dean story? She’s super sweet and kind of laid back, just going along with the boys as a research partner, but she’s also super artsy and loves to draw Dean while she researches. Maybe some sweet and soft smut, oh! And maybe he plays with her hair? :) Thanks dear!! 🌻💛

Age Is Just A Number…

Request Hello :) How do feel about an age difference, post sex one-shot? Alternate universe (no hunting), consensual, not underage but quite a big age difference (like at least 10years) where Dean is like freaking out because he’s Dean and doesn’t want to destroy the girl’s life?

Mine…

Request: Could you do a one shot where the reader lives with Sam and dean they are best friends. The reader and dean have a secret relationship and dean gets jealous of the reader and Sam hanging out all day. So dean shows the reader who she belongs too in the bedroom.

Right In Front Of You…

Request: Dean x Reader. Reader is hunting with Sam and Dean, and she is constantly getting annoyed at every single thing that Dean does. And she always acts very bad with Dean with this making dean think that she hates him. And that makes mr very sad because he has feelings for her but when Dean save her sacrificing himself from a hunting gone wrong. She stars to develop feelings for him.

Jealous Of My Demons...

Requested: Dean get’s jealous of the reader’s former boyfriend Brady, who is now posses by a demon and working as a stable boy for the horseman pestilence. Who will they work this out?

Princess...

Request: Thank you for answering my question love!💕 can I request a Dean x plus size reader where she is super shy and it drives dean crazy? Fluff, smut? I’m sorry to bother you hahah and that this sounds awkward turtle 🐢 🖤😻

My Girl...

Requested: Hola! request for dean x reader: the readers current boyfriend always puts her down and one day threatens to breakup with her if she doesn’t lose weight, even though she’s not even plus sized or anything. She constantly pushes her body to the limit to lose the weight and dean notices. it ends all fluffy and protective!dean comes out and has a “talk” with the boyfriend. side note for anyone reader this: YOUR BODY IS BEAUTIFUL MAMA 💗🥺

Your Dean...

Request: Heyy! I'm sorry to be a bother. I was wondering if you can do a one shot where the reader is prone to severe panic attacks and her husband Dean is the only one who knows how to calm her down? She gets a really bad attack but Dean for some reason ain't there, and no one is able to help her but eventually he comes back and takes care of her. Sorry if this is a lot haha.

Safe. Warm. His...

Request: Are you taking requests? If so would you possibly write a one shot with Dean where the reader is in little space and just wants to cuddle and nuzzle her head in his neck and give him lots of little kisses and play with his hands? It’s just superrrr fluffy 🥺🥺🖤

One Hell Of A Thank You...

Request: Can I request a Dean Winchester x plus size reader, where the reader is really quirky and dorky and goes on a date but turns out her date is a vampire and kidnapped her and dean saves her and falls in love with her, maybe some angst, fluff and smut 💕

Voices..

Request: Can I request? Dean x reader were she has an Eating Disorder and she’s recovering but today was an off day for her and starts to go back to her old habits and Dean notices and helps her through it.

His Girl...

Request: May I request a Dean Winchester x plus size reader where the reader is very shy and she at a bar and some dirt bags are picking on her about her shortness and weight and dean stands up for her? Some smut and fluff ?? Also want to say you are a bop of a writer my love! ✨💕🥰❤️

Happily Ever After...

Request: Hey beautiful! May I request a Dean Winchester x plus size reader where the reader does all the research for the boys and she is very shy,she a huge Disney fan, one day demons get in the bunker and make fun of her and dean stand up for her and confess his love for her (smut)? And after they cuddle and watch lady and tramp? Fluff and smut you are a gem my dear! 💕

His New Toy...

Request: Hai can I request dean x reader smut with breast bondage and nipple play?? plot (if there is any) is up to you ;)

His Heaven...

Request: Heyy I love your ABO fics and I have a request for you. You can always say no to this if you’re uncomfortable. I’ll completely understand and I’m very sorry. Can you do one with Alpha!Dean x Omega!reader. Where the reader is on a supply run and she gets assaulted and tortured by a monster and when she gets back to the bunker somehow, she only allows her Alpha anywhere near her and refuses help from anyone else. Dean takes care of her and helps her heal.

Something Worth Fighting For

Request: Hi love! Your writing is amazing and I was wondering if you could do a Dean x depressed!reader? Like dean finds the reader about to jump off the roof of the bunker after reading the note she left him and sam saying goodbye. He had never suspected anything cause she hid it so well. Dean saves her and tells her his feelings for her? You can also add any details you want or anything like that! There is no rush! Thank you!

Unlikely Places

Trigger Warning: Non-Con

Request: Hi! I love your work! Can you do a ABO? One where the reader is Beta, and Dean Alpha, and she’s his true mate/soulmate, but they don’t know it, and he gets possessive and goes into almost a feral rut where he tries to claim, and it almost kills her but Sam and Rowena save her and give Dean his Omega back? You come up with the plot because you’re amazing at that!! Please! I’d be forever in your debt!

I Hurt Too

Request: hi there! I have seen loads of fics and one shots where Dean is sleeping around/having a one night stand and the reader gets jealous and upset, but I was wondering if I could request one with the other way around? or maybe one where they sleep around equally? as smutty, fluffy, or angst as you want!!

What’s Left Of Me

Summary: Who know one little woman could have turned his whole world upside down? He had done so good alone for so long. Then here you come along, and ruin everything

Elf

Summary: Maybe being stuck at home alone with Dean for Christmas isn’t so bad after all.

Save Me

Summary: It’s not always easy being the hero, especially when no one is ever there to save you.

Saving Grace

Summary: Some things are worth fighting for, even when they think they’re not. You can either roll over and die, or you can pick yourself up off the ground and go get what you want. That’s the place Y/N now finds herself in.

Living With Regret

Summary: Death can be hard to deal with in any aspect, but when you’re in the life, it's something you deal with all to often, and carry with you until it's your turn to burn.

Happy Halloween

Summary: It’s Daddy’s favorite holiday. So what’s a good girl gonna do, but let him blow off some steam after a successful hunt?

I’ll Wait For You

Summary: Sometimes when we’re angry, hurt, or scared we say things wrong. Say things that hurt the ones we love. When Dean takes things a step to far can you find it in your heart to forgive him?

An Alpha And His Omega

Summary: Sometimes Alpha’s aren’t the assholes, sometimes words Omegas say things that can hurt too.

No, Screw You Sweetheart

Summary: You HATE Dean Winchester, I mean you really, REALLY hate Dean Winchester.

30 Minutes In Heaven

Summary: Your life, like many hunters before you, was cut short. You had no idea at the time the Fates that were at play in the universe were really those of dick angles and egotistical assholes with massive god complexes. And you also had no idea that they were really the reason you lost your life, and you had no idea why… Until around 30 minutes after you made it to Heaven.

The Devil And I

Pt. 1 Pt. 2 Pt. 3

Summary: What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, right? You survived after you thought your mate had died, but how will you survive finding out he's alive, only different.

Don’t Let It Show...

Summary: She’s had enough of him, just like every other woman always seems to, and normally, he doesn’t care, but this time...this time it hurts.

Don’t Fear The Reaper

Summary: They took him from her, her knit, her king, her Dean, “cured” him, and now she’s going to get him back, she’s going to set him free.

Scars And All

Summary: You and Dean have a strange, mutual relationship, but that’s all it is, physical. Until an almost bar fight brings some things to light that you thought you’d never hear.

I Almost Lost You

Summary: Sometimes, monsters aren't always monsters...sometimes they're people.

Touch Starved

Summary: Sometimes when the hunt is hard, and his mind is loud, Dean just wants to be close to someone he loves, but is to scared to say it out loud. Thankfully, she knows him better than he knows himself.

I Wanna Be Your Everything

Summary: After a huge fight, and a week away from Dean, he’s finally decided it was okay to have the ending he’d always wanted.

One More Sunset

Summary: Dean just wants the pain to go away...

#jawritter masterlist #Dean winchester one shots #jawritter

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kuroo-shitsurou · 3 years ago

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Back (Juban)

note: hey so i'm back. i recently got into a3! and i wrote a fuck ton of juban one shots so i'm just going to dump them here as a consolation for my hiatus. my apologies for those who have been waiting for the part 2 of the college childe au, i'll quickly get on that as soon as i gather my thoughts again.

word count: 1.2k

"This is such a pain in the ass."

Banri always considered himself to be a decent looking guy. Sure, he might not have the princely-type of charm that Itaru pretended to have, nor did he have the "I'll protect you and take care of you always" vibe that Omi gave off, but he always thought of himself as an attractive looking guy. He was rather famous at Hana High, he just didn't find it amusing to be fucking around with the girls who thought he was hot. People might have labelled him as a fuckboy who'd gladly stick his dick in any hole available, but he had standards.

That standard in particular was Hyodo Juza.

Banri always hated Juza for making him feel like shit. He was the Banri Settsu; Never lost at anything, good at everything, always number one Banri Settsu. Yet Juza came crashing into his life like some damn meteor from outer space, ruining the self-esteem he took pride in for over seventeen years of his life. After Juza made him realize that there's more to life than just being exceptional at anything and everything you do, Banri had to stop and reevaluate is principles.

Did Hyodo really just awaken something in him that he didn't even know existed?

Did Hyodo really give Banri a sense of purpose?

Did Hyodo really make Banri realize that he actually wanted to be passionate about something?

"Oi, Settsu,"

Banri's line of thought was cut short by Juza's raspy voice ringing in his ears.

"What?" Banri snapped.

"The hell are you scowling for?"

"Your face is annoying me."

"'M not even facing you, you fox-eyed piece of shit."

"Who the hell are you calling a piece of shit, you daikon?"

Banri was about to start a full-on fight with Juza until his eyes met one of the most gorgeous things he's ever seen in his life. His deep purple eyes widened as he saw the Juza Hyodo struggling to pull-up a zipper from the back. No, no, it wasn't a simple zipper of a jumpsuit or anything like that.

It was a fucking maid outfit.

Apparently Muku and Kazunari had this genius idea of opening a maid cafe for the third anniversary of the new Mankai Company's first official show. Why were the other troupes involved in this? Banri had no idea. He wasn't really opposed to wearing a maid outfit since he was comfortable in his sexuality, but something about the man in front of him wearing one made the cogs in his head turn the other way.

Banri did his best to hide his crimson face with a half-assed laugh.

"You look so dumb." Banri didn't like the way it came out of his mouth because of how pathetic it sounded.

"I don't give a single shit about what you have to say, Settsu. Just help me get this zipper up. Yuki's gonna kill me if I don't fit into this. It's only been a week since he last took my measurements."

Banri was hesitant at first. Was he going to help Juza like a normal person? Was he going to let his crazy teenage hormones get the best of him? Who knows?

He stopped to breathe for a few seconds, eyes still glued to Juza's struggling figure. No doubt, he had one of the most well-built bodies in the Mankai Company. Banri was well-aware of the fact that Juza went to the gym once in a while if he could squeeze it between school and practice, but since when the hell did he get this damn sculpted?

He marvelled at how Juza's muscly thighs were exposed because of how the maid outfit was. It covered enough for it to be deemed decent, but it was still a refreshing sight to see this much of Juza's flesh exposed. He was always one for modesty, after all.

His eyes travelled upwards, noticing how Juza's biceps flexed each time he tried to reach for the zipper against his spinal column.

Since when did he get so buff, anyway?

He could've sworn that all the air was knocked from his lungs when his eyes finally rested on Juza Hyodo's back- his goddamn motherfucking back.

Banri was always confident in how he looked. He kept himself in-shape just enough to maintain a flat stomach, he took care of his skin, and he just knew that he was hot shit in general. He also knew that he was straight. He was heterosexual. He was into girls.

So why the fuck did he, Banri Settsu, feel a rushing heat creep up on his face when he stared at Juza's toned, muscular, and absolutely beautiful back?

He could've sworn some drool actually escaped from the corner of his lips upon seeing how gorgeous Juza's back looked. He only ever saw Juza's back during the occasions that they'd accidentally encounter each other in the bath (maybe Banri "accidentally" delayed his bath schedule to "accidentally" meet Juza in the bath once or twice but that was definitely unintentional). Even if he did see Juza's bare body in the bath, this was the only time that he got to see his back up-close and personal.

Banri didn't even think that it was humanly possible to get attracted to a fucking back. He wanted to just outline all the ripples and definitions etched on his back. He wanted to trace over the cute little birthmark in the middle of his spinal column. He wanted to know how the skin on his back would feel against his fingernails if he-

"Oi, Settsu!"

Again, Juza's voice boomed in his ears. Only now, it sounded more annoyed and exasperated. His eyes were finally piercing Banri's.

"Huh?"

"Stop spacing out and help me get this zipper up!"

"U-Uh, yeah. Whatever." Banri swallowed the lump in his throat, his adam's apple visibly bobbing.

Banri strode over to Juza and quickly pulled the zipper until his sultry back was no longer in sight. A shame, really.

Juza exhaled, straightening out the front of his costume and dusting it off.

"Don't look half bad," Banri heard Juza mutter to himself as he eyed himself in the mirror.

Banri absolutely loathed at how he wanted to agree with Juza's self-praise.

"'Chu think?" Juza asked half-heartedly, slicking his hair back. Oh my fucking god, was Banri hard?

"Looks fine. Whatever." Banri didn't even want to face him because of how ashamed and absolutely mortified he felt. He quickly excused himself and left the room, leaving a confused Juza standing there in a maid outfit.

"Never know what's going on in that head of his." Juza continued to admire himself in the mirror.

Meanwhile, Banri slammed the bathroom door rather loudly, startling the people who were hanging out in the lounge. His head was resting on the palms of his hands. Was he straight? Did he like Hyodo? Was this okay? How was he that hot? Thousands of questions ran across his mind, and he could barely even manage the red flush on his cheeks.

Overall, what did Banri learn from this experience?

Even though Juza Hyodo made him feel emotions and complexes that he never really felt before, he could temporarily forget about his personal vendetta against the guy if his gorgeous back was on display like that.

#juza hyodo #banri settsu #a3! game #a3! fanfic #juban #juban fanfic #juza x banri #a3! banri #a3! juza #settsu banri #hyodo juza #a3! one shots #mankai #banri being gay as hell

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rich50g-blog · 4 years ago

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Starting anew

Hi i am Richard i was married for over 30 years to a non loving woman, a month ago i decided to find a loving woman for the rest of my life. I am 67 so maybe not impossible thing to accomplish but will be difficult to find someone who would love an old man, I am not wealthy by any means i will tell why that matters later, I also moved to Kingwood Texas i worked here 30 years ago and loved all the trees and trails for biking and walking. New apartment took me a while to get settled in, when i first got here i started having some problems with my left knee and hip, my hip was pain my knee was weakness so much so if i put all my weight on it i would fall down, I know how to fall from past experiences with weak ankles, i mostly scrape a knee nothing too serious. So I have also signed up for several dating sights some are worthless some are ok, some attract scammers who love old guys to try and weasel money from them, that happened to me 8 times before i stopped using the site., then i tried Zoosk, and was attracting all the wrong woman i thought, mostly gray haired old sad ladies, I realize i am old gray haired old sad man but thought i could get someone a little younger and intelligent. i next joined Anastasia-date, mostly Ukraine with some Russian ladies thrown in, most liked my age and my pictures, so that worked out pretty well, i would do a search for a particular city, and height of the lady, nothing else was added, I am 6′2″ so liked taller ladies 5′8 and up. that was easy there are a lot of tall slavis women, then after a couple of chats i learned to search ladies with no kids, I have had my kids did not need anymore, i also looked for ladies over 35 because the ones under that all wanted babies or family. I have two grown daughters and after my youngest was born i had not one but two Vasectomy’s which was fun no. hehe So my search contained height, no kids, over 35, and i added different levels of English, I found out Intermediate was not good either the ladies did not understand a word i said or typed, they had to use a translator program so then i would add Advanced or fluent to my search, the advanced ladies knew moer English and understood me pretty much. So the only problem i noticed with the women here was the men there, every one mentioned how selfish the men were there and only wanted sex and no relationship, So i was getting more and more information into what these ladies wanted in a man and not wanted. So I fit my profile to feel their wants and needs, Wow I started to get some beautiful, intelligent women who preferred older men, they trust them not to be selfish, and conceded like most not all slavic men. I will not put all of the men there in the category but a lot are, some examples a pretty 30 year old lady with 3 kids from Odessa Ukraine, I mean she is gorgeous, intelligent and dumped by her husband who found a much younger woman, She raised 3 kids so far by herself for 10 years because her husband did not want the responsibility to bother him. What a loser and he has not seen his kids since he left with new girlfriend, ok anyway she is very nice and pretty but finding a lady with 3 kids was not my idea of life, so i told her goodbye, sorry i have to have somethings about the ladies taht i can live with. that was not one of them, you won’t believe the next one, who was a stewardess living in Odessa, what a crazy bitch oh my, oh yea there is something called video chat, not all ladies have it, but this one did, she was pretty and tall ok and she was 30 with not kids again ok. She started stripping I mean to nothing, and playing with herself i was not prodding her to do anything my mouth was open in awe of what was happening, by the way video chat is very expensive. Next this crazy woman starts to talk about her mother, I go ok as she talks more and more about her telling me how pretty she is and stuff, again i know i should have left the chat but i wanted to see what this woman was going to do next, well next made me sick, this whole entire time she was setting me up to have sex with her and her mother, my gosh sorry that is sick to me, so now i have had enough I closed the video chat and blocked her from contacting me again, One thing i was starting to find out was none of the ladies i had talked to wanted to or thought of leaving the site, they said they felt safe, but me thinks that the site programmed them to never leave, because site only makes money if they get men to chat with them, So none of the ladies even mention it when i ask they change the subject. The thing is i came to figure out is this site and most of them do not want the people to ever meet, they make it so hard to meet it is almost impossible too, the women do not realize this or if they do afraid to leave the site because they live in old communist state and they were told to do everything and obey without question. That is why anytime i would ask a lady to leave this site to like Google Hangouts they would say maybe later i still have not made enough money on you yet haha here is another thing all chats are monitored and if you were to type the name of a free site the monitor would dot out what you typed. Again they do not want the girls to meet anyone they lose money if that happens., So I still talk to a couple of ladies just to chat and see how life in their country is.Most of them are still bad, but flights to Europe are opening up. Ukraine still has civil war going on and no body can fly there for obvious reasons they shoot down airliners. for the ladies to get to the area they have to take a bus to Kiev and fly from there, riding the bus through a bad area. So it is not easy, because of Covid I would talk to many ladies because the chance of visiting them was almost impossible because of borders closed.. Ok moving on i had two MRI’s last week and i was given a appointment with a neurosurgeon, they told me i have degenerative disc disease in spin lumbar causing pressure on nerves and spinal stenosis, but i did not understand it could be surgery or physical therapy and med . we will see. Ok while i was looking at the Europe dating site I had found the Asian one mostly Chinese women who are all very beautiful and good wife's they also think older men are better because the young ones they cannot trust, this site is owned and operated by the Europe one with same features, I found here that most of the ladies here do not want babies over 35, so again my search criteria consisted of over 35 at first but i changed that later for another reason. I would also in search add wealthy or rich, just to see how many women turned up, hundreds of not thousands of ladies starting from 19 on up. and again they are looking hard for old guys they can trust. Most were business owners from very rich families. originally i was not in this for money but i got to think why not i am on SSN and a small Pension so heck yes. ok I first got a letter from woman 1 on July 9th, two days later her sister wrote one. Shes lady 2. lady number 1′s letter said she was a banker wanting to invest in the U S and moving their business here, yea what are the odds right? Well when i got her sisters lady number 2 who told me their family where heirs to the Qing Dynasty, i did my research and found that their family is one of the oldest and riches family in China. So wow, this is the arrangement the sisters wanted to make with me, I would marry one of them and the other would be my concubine. What the heck? So now i have to chose between a gorgeous 27 year old or the other sister a beautiful 19 year old, who are promising to fly here in private jet. ,Oh yea i have set up a call to the girls next week and supposed to talk with Dad as well. No pressure right? Now i am getting a little nervous the girls are telling me that their father wants me to take over the family, because Dad wants to retire,I was a manager and engineer for ATT for over 30 years but this would be managing the wealthiest family business in China. Yes it is getting very real now, oh yes on the dating site on my search for rich or wealthy or business owners thousands of ladies profiles appeared I talked to some but very immature would in first chat say they have loved me all of their life, this was common with most of them i talked too, The younger sister is cute but i can tell is very immature so chances are i am going to chose the older sister who owns several banks, and wants to move her business to the U S which allows me to live where i want too, my choice is San Diego, i grew up there and love it there, by the beach both girls seem excited about that.Well its 5 in the morning my hip will not let me sleep but i am going to try again, night all till tomorrow for more Richie

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jungshookz · 6 years ago

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I don’t really know if you take requests or not, but I think I have a cute idea I’d like to share! Maybe like, new puppy owner Y/N and pet shop employee Taehyung!

→ pairing: kim taehyung x reader

→ genre: petshopemployee!au, the cuTEST GOLDEN RETRIEVER PUPPY evER and it belongs to you now!!, an extra biG serving of fluff, u and tae r so shy it’s adorable

→ wordcount: 3.2k

(gif isn’t mine!)

what the hell are you doing here

out of all the places you could be on a sunday morning (aka in your nice warm bed) you are at… a pet store???

okay

here’s the backstory

you’ve been feeling pretty lonely lately (your ex broke up with you a month ago and it’s been diffiCuLT to say the least)

he said something about how you were holding him back and the spark is gone because you’re so busy with school and your job and blah blah blah all you remember is throwing your drink on him and storming out of the restaurant

it’s fine

he was a dick anyway!! you deserve better

but you’re not used to being.,,. alone

the apartment is just so quiet

you’re trying to get used to sleeping in the middle of your queen-sized bed again but somehow you always shift over to the right side of the bed because that’s your side

it’s been your side for the past four years

things are just different now

and sure you have your friends and stuff to hang out with (namjoon asked if you wanted to go out yesterday night with him and the rest of the boys but you turned him down because you were too busy throwing your own pity party) but it’s just not the same u kno

so that’s why you’re here now

at a pet shop

because you feel like getting a pet will help with the whole being lonely thing!! and also you’ve always wanted a pet so this will be great (when you were younger you had a goldfish one day you came home from school and kevin was on the floor because he juMPED OUT OF HIS TANK RIP kevin)

you kind of have an idea of what kind of pet you want

you definitely want something small

something low-maintenance since you’ll be busy at school

maybe like a hermit crab or something

a hamster? the constant running on the wheel would probably drive you insane

maybe a bird? but what if it flies out the window

a goldfish would bring back the painful memories of kevin so that’s going to be a HARd pass

and then

you see it

the gates of heaven

a pUPPY PIT

A WHOLE PIT OF PUPPIES

GO L DEN RETRIEVER PUPP IE S

you gasp and immediately turn away from the lovebird you were just looking at and the lovebird squawks like fuCK me i guESS

“oh my god” you whine quietly when all the puppies start running up to you as you stand in front of the pit

they’re all yipping and barking and getting up on their hind legs to try to get closer to you

sO CUTE

“hi! are you thinking about taking one of these guys home with you today?”

you turn around to-

oh my

your eyes flicker down to the employee’s name tag

‘taehyung’

you look back up at him

he might be cuter than the puppies

he smiles at you and tilts his head

oH he is DEFInitely cuter than the puppies

“oh! uh…”

girl

you can barely take care of yourself how the hell r u going to take care of a puppy

just tell taehyung no and ask him about pets that are easy to take care of

oH BUT LOOK AT THEIR WIDDLE PAWS AND THE CUTE LITTLE SNOOT ARE U KIDDING ME

and if you don’t take one of them home whO WILL

oh my god y/n

think this through

you don’t have space for a puppy

but you can MAKE space

puppies are expensive

but you can MAKE monEY

puppies need a lot of love and attention and affection and-

buT YOU HAVE A LOT OF LOVE AND ATTENTION AND AFFECTION TO GIVE

y/n no

y/n yes

y/n no

y/n yES

y/N N-

“yes! yes i am” you clear your throat before reaching up to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear

oh man

it’s like you don’t even know how to interact with boys anymore

it’s okaY just go with the flow it’s not a big deal

everything’s chill

super cool

don’t be weird

please don’t be weird

“oh, that’s great!!!” he gasps and claps his hand together “are you a first time puppy owner?”

you nod excitedly and look down at the puppies yipping for your attention

“well, we should probably hook you up with the basics before you get the puppy part, hm? follow me!”

wha

wait what

waIT BUT THE PUPPIES

taehyung notices your hesitation and he raises a brow “this’ll only take like ten minutes, miss. fifteen minutes tops. c’mon!” he gestures for you to follow him before pulling out a cart by the counter

“so, what made you decide to get a puppy, if you don’t mind me asking?” taehyung starts picking up things here and there for you as the two of you wheel your way down the aisles

“well, i’ve always wanted a dog and now that i’m-“ oOF okay you’re not going to tell this cute stranger about your failed relationship

let’s not go there

maybe some other time!! “uh… now that i…. have a bigger apartment i decided i could fill up some space with a puppy!” you shrug and pluck a little mustard yellow harness from the shelf

you heard that harnesses are better because leashes can choke ur doggo and you don’t want to choke your doggo

plus a tiny harness on a tiny puppy cOMe on

“oH..,.,. my god,.,.” your heart basically stops in your chest when you spot the cutest pair of yellow rainboots with a matching raincoat

…yeah you’re getting those too

you don’t even care if you spenD like $1000 here (okay you’d care just a liTtle bit because u don’t even spend that much on urself)

meanwhile taehyung’s talking to you about how often you should take the dog out and how much to feed it and how much exercise it needs and how you need to put down puppy pee pads and you need to puppy-proof your house there’s just a loT of p’s flying around right now

yes you appreciate him for doing his job throughly but you can barely focus on what he’s saying because you’re picking out a bed and a little blankie and pillow and toyS and a food bowl and a water bowl and-

“whichever pup you end up choosing is going to be very lucky” taehyung chuckles as you duMP a whole load of treats into the cart and you look down at everything you’ve picked out before flashing him a sheepish smile

“think i’m getting a bit ahead of myself?”

“you probably don’t need-“ he pauses and looks down at the cart “-three full sized bags of carob-chip dog cookies? or four different pairs of rain boots??”

“oH but look how cuTE-“

usually taehyung would be aLL for the customer going crazy because that means he gets more commission but u seem really nice and just really excited and he doesn’t want u wasting your money on things you don’t need

the puppy itself is going to cost a good chunk of money so there’s that

“i think we’re all good to go!” tae sighs as he puts the last of your family-sized food bags back onto the shelf

he turns and grins at you “how about i bring all this stuff over to the front counter and i meet you by the puppy pit?”

fINALLY

FINALLY THE PUPPY PIT

you nod excitedly and ziP off towards the puppy pit and almost immediately the barking intensifies at your presence

you drop to your knees in front of the gate and stick your hand through the gaps between the bars and giggle when the pups start licking at your fingers (probably because u were touching dog cookies earlier because they looked like humaN cookies and you were about to treat urself to one but tae stopped you before you inhaled it)

“okay, which one of you wants to come home with me!!!!!” you squeal excitedly when tae finally comes around and unlocks the gate for you and you drop to your butt

you coo when a majority of the puppies start clambering over each other to get to you

you really are in heaven

this was a greAT way to spend your sunday morning

good job sad and lonely y/n!!!!!! (oof)

“oOH i can’t decide i wanna take them all home” you sigh and lean back against your palms and tae can’t help but laugh before taking a seat across from you

“yeah, it’s definitely going to be a difficult decision. i remember when i was choosing my dog it took me like three whole hours to finally say ‘okay, i’m choosing thiS one’”

“oh, you have a dog?”

“mhm! a pomeranian. his name is yeontan, but i call him tannie. he was supEr duper tiny when…” you don’t mean to be rude and space out while taehyung’s telling you about his dog but like,..,,. he’s just.,.,. so beautiful.,,

his soft, dark brown hair

his jawline and his cheekbones and his strong eyebrows and his sparkling eyes and his boxy grin and woW god really spent time on him because he is so,.,.., so handsome.,.,.,

maybe you’re just getting ahead of yourself

just because you’re lonely doesn’t mean you should go and juMP on the first guy that’s nice to you

maybe tae’s not actually thAt handsome and it’s just your sadness and desperation making you thiNK he’s handsome (no this is a complete lie even if you weren’t sad and desperate and lonely you would know that tae is very vERY attractive)

and what makes you think tae might be interested in you??? he’s literally only being nice because that’s his joB

you deflate a little bit at your own pessimistic thoughts and bring your attention back to the pups

taehyung is fully aware of the fact that he’s blabbering

but he can’t help it

he blabbers when he’s nervous!!!!! and right now he is vERy nervous because there is a very pretty girl sitting across from him and he hasn’t made a move on someone in so long so he’s reaLLy really out of the groove of things

is he talking too much about yeontan???? is he not talking enouGH about yeontan?? should he have let you keep those 4 pairs of rain boots and 3 bags of treats??? he doesn’t know!!!!! aHHHHH!!!!!!!!

also he doesn’t want there to be any awkward silence if he stopped talking so that’s why he’s keeping his mouth running and running and running and ruNNing-

“hey, buddy~ do you wanna come home with me?” you coo and lift up the puppy that’s calmly stuck by your side the entire time

he pokes his lil tongue out and you grin “what do you say?”

he yips and leans in to lick your nose

you feel an insTANT connection

you turn the puppy around so that he’s facing tae

and tae can’t help but laugh at the sight of you just holding the puppy like that

his legs are just dangling in midair but his tail is still wagging a mile a minute

“i think this might be my guy” you coo and let him back down onto his feet and he hops up onto your lap

you scratch behind his ear and he barks

“have you thought about potential names yet?”

you purse your lips and look down at the nameless puppy

“not yet… maybe you can help me come up with one?”

you didn’t know how hard it was to choose a name for something

it took you like three seconds to name kevin

but you and tae have been sitting here for almost forty minutes trying to come up with something

but also it’s not just up to you you think its important that the doG reacts to the name too

tae has multiple tabs open on his phone and he’s just reading names out to you

“baxter?”

you look down at the pup and it blinks back up at you

“jax?”

no reaction

“ace?”

nope

“scooter?”

nuh-uh

“sparky?”

still nothing

“rusty”

the pup growls at that one because rusty??? how inSULTING

“teddy”

nope

“cooper”

stiLL nothing

“duke”

nah

“how about milo?” you interrupt tae and keep your eyes trained on the pup

you want to thank the lords above when it barks and twirls around in a circle before sitting on his butt

“milo!” he barks again and sticks his tongue out “milo~” you coo and lift him up so that you can smoosh a kiss on his cheek

and if that’s not the cutest thing he’s ever seen in his entire life taehyung doesn’t know whAT IS

“thank you for everything, by the way. you’ve been really helpful.” you tuck your credit card back into your wallet (it’s a good thing you didn’t end up getting those extra rain boots because ouCh the total was not a pretty number)

and then u realise

you haven’t even introduced yourself to tae

“oh! i’m y/n, by the way. probably should’ve started with that.” you chuckle sheepishly

taehyung smiles to himself as he sneaks an extra dog cookie into your bag

is he going to make his move

,.,., yes he is

“i’m taehyung,” he grins and you feel your heart flutter

hoO

your heart hasn’t fluttered like that in a long time

“-but you can call me later.” you can’t help but snort and taehyung grins as he rings up the last of your things

you can’t help but feel a sense of relief knowing that tae has taken an interest in you as well

“you’re lucky you’re cute” you mutter and tae looks up at you and raises a brow

“did you just call me cute?”

“i was talking to milo” you joke and tae raises his hands in defense

a moment of silence goes by

“hey, maybe milo and yeontan can meet each other one day or something…?” he clears his throat and punches a couple buttons on the computer

he’s not actually doing anything he’s just pretending like he’s doing something so that he can keep talking to u

“what do you think, milo?” you look down at milo and he blinks up at you “you wanna meet yeontan?” his mouth opens and he starts panting “what day is good for you, hm?”

milo barks before his hind leg is scratching behind his ear

classy

“is this sunday good for you? milo and i can meet you here, or… we could meet at the dog park, or…”

“or maybe i can take you out for breakfast first? there’s a really nice café downtown that allows dogs in there too… and, um, and then we could go to the dog park? we don’t have to, if you don’t want to, we can just go straight to the dog park if-“

“i would love to go for breakfast.” you smile shyly and your stomach does a flip-flop

taehyung sucks his bottom lip in between his teeth before nodding and reaching for the printer as your receipt starts printing out

you’re a bit preoccupied fawning over your new puppy so tae quickly scribbles his number down on the back of your receipt

he steps out from behind the counter so that he can help you carry your things to the car

“so, this is for you,” tae hands you the receipt and you take it from him “like i said before, you should probably puppy-proof your place if you haven’t done so yet. milo’s at the age where everything is something to chew on, so if you have a pair of expensive shoes or something you might wanna put them away-“ milo barks and starts walking slowly around you and tae

tae looks down at him and takes a step closer to you because he doesn’t want to accidentally steP on your puppy “um, yeah, so, electrical cords, laundry, especially dirty socks-“

milo starts walking again and his little paws pit-pat against the floor

“uh-huh,” you furrow your brows and look down at milo and he stops walking and promptly sits and looks up at you “sorry, what were you saying?”

“training treats are good, but don’t give him too many treats because…”

and now that you’re distracted again

milo makes his move

he’s a lil man with a lil plan

milo barks and starts running circles around you and tae

“milo-!”

you feel his leash starting to tighten around your ankles and the next thing you know you’re pressed riGHT up against tae

you stumble a little and let out a squeak of surprise

your hands shoot up to rest against tae’s chest to keep yourself balanced and tae instinctively reaches out to grab onto your hips

the two of you lock gazes and a beat of silence goes by before you’re both breaking out into nervous giggles

almost immediately your entire face flushes bright red

you certainly weren’t expecting this

“here, hand me his leash-“ taehyung takes it from you and bends down a little and starts unwinding the leash from around your guys’ legs

you want to diE (in a good way??) because tae still has one hand on your waist to keep you steady

then he’s scoOping milo up into his arms and turning him around so that he can look him in the eye “i can tell you’re going to be a bit of a troublemaker…”

milo barks and licks tae’s nose and tae grins before plopping him back onto the ground and handing you back the leash

“so…” tae shuts your trunk after helping you put everything in “i’ll see you sunday?”

you nod and offer him a smile before deciding to just dO iT

you are young and life is short and taehyung is cuTE

tae’s eyes widen when you plant a kiss on his cheek and a big fat grin immediately appears on his face

“i’ll see you su-“ you’re cut off when milo suddenly pops his head out from the passenger seat and barks

tae scoffs playfully “yeah, i’ll see you sunday too, milo”

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mistymark · 6 years ago

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the one with the roommates [part 4] // j.y.n

jung yoonoh (jaehyun) x reader // roommates!au, fuckboy!au // 3.4k words

in which jaehyun and y/n are roommates and pretending to be his fiancé seems like a really good idea // masterlist // warnings: angst (?), some swearing probably, mentions of alcohol and sex // part 4 of 5

“Hey, man,” Yuta nodded to the other boy at the bar, waiting on drinks. “How’s it going?”

Jaehyun barely turned his face towards him before answering, “Great.”

There was a slightly awkward bout of silence as they waited for the barman to finish the other orders. Yuta cleared his throat, “Aren’t you driving tonight?”

Again, Jaehyun didn’t look at him. He tried his best to seem indifferent, “Yeah, but those girls aren’t.” He gestured vaguely to the girls who were seated on a couch behind him, where he had previously been sitting.

After Jaehyun ordered, and the barman had left, he finally turned to face Yuta, “How’s your date?”

Yuta looked surprised for a moment, before returning to a neutral expression. Bastard, Jaehyun thought. “My date? Y/n? She’s good.”

Jaehyun grabbed the beers and left without a goodbye, “Great.”

“How’re you feeling?” Yuta pushed the door open with his foot when he saw your eyes open, a glass of water in one hand and pills in the other. You groaned as he entered, his bedroom slowly coming into focus as you woke. The black bedsheets gathered at your neck were tugged back and you saw a smiling Yuta poke his head over you.

You held your head as you sat up, using your hand to shield your eyes from the light, “Ugh, terrible.”

He chuckled, placing the things in his hands on the bedside table and sitting beside your legs on the bed. “You certainly look it.” He watched you as you struggled to reach out for your phone, “Are you okay?”

When you looked up at him, you were taken aback by his intense gaze, “Why?”

“What do you remember?” He asked tentatively.

You thought about it for a moment; you remembered hanging out at the bar with Yuta and your conversation with Johnny, and taking shots with Doyoung and Winwin after seeing Jaehyun with a girl on one of the couches. “I remember taking shots with Doyoung and Winwin,” you said, assuredly.

His mouth formed an ‘o’, “Nothing after that?”

You shook your head, before throwing the covers back and stepping out from the bed, “I should get going. I’m sorry for kicking you out of your bed for the night.”

He scratched the back of his neck, his eyes darting away from you as he sent you a shy smile, “Well, um… I actually slept here.”

You stopped grabbing your things and stood up straight, ignoring the throbbing pain of your head to stare at him, shocked.

“Nothing happened!” Yuta said quickly, trying to reassure you. “You, er – you were quite drunk, and you were crying by the time we got home, so you asked me to stay. And, well, I may or may not have fallen asleep.”

You nodded, giving his arm a squeeze as you left the room, “God, I don’t remember that. If I ruined your night, I’m so sorry.”

“No, y/n, of course not. Don’t worry about it,” Yuta followed you to the kitchen, pressing his finger to his lips to let you know that you should be quiet.

You cocked your head to the side in confusion, whispering, “Why?”

There was a loud groan from the couch and the rustling of a blanket, and soon a mop of dark hair rose from behind the cushion, “Can you guys, like, shut up? For one second? It’s 6am, no one needs your yelling at this hour.”

You laughed, “Oh my God, Doyoung. You look even worse than me.”

You heard him mumble something you’d rather not repeat, causing you to laugh more. You turned to thank Yuta again, both for getting you home safely and for giving you his bed.

When you stepped into your apartment, you first noticed the quiet. Most of the time, Jaehyun’s playing music or video games somewhere in the apartment, or the old dishwasher in the kitchen is grumbling as it cleans. Most of the time, you can hear Jaehyun. When he moves around, when he’s showering, or as he sings along to the music in his headphones as he studies.

But the apartment is just as you left it, and you dump Jaehyun’s jacket on his bed, before going to take a shower.

You’ve got a coffee date with one of your friends in your class, and you’re thinking of cancelling just because you’re so tired, but you continue to get ready, knowing full well you wouldn’t.

When you’re done, you lock the door to your apartment, a different jacket of Jaehyun’s tucked under your arm, and walk down the stairs of your building. Once you exit the main doors, and stand on the street waiting for a taxi, you turn around and see a familiar face walking towards you. Sunglasses on, and his jacket hanging haphazardly from his tall frame, Jaehyun walks lazily down the street, hands in his dark jean pockets. You send him a small smile and wave at him.

If he sees you, he doesn’t show it, because he continues walking towards your building with a straight face. The image of him making out with that girl last night flashes across your mind, and you feel your stomach drop as you turn away from him, unable to look at his face again.

A taxi slows down and pulls up beside you, and you don’t bother sending him a last glance as you slide into the backseat, giving the driver the address of the restaurant you’re heading to.

A week later, after catching up with your friend for another coffee date, and bidding her goodbye, you decide to walk home instead of paying the cab fare. You pass by a small bookstore and purchase a novel you’ve been meaning to read, one that Johnny had recommended, and continue on your way.

When you reach your apartment building, you bump into one of your older neighbours who’s on her way out, “Oh, y/n! How nice to see you! Do you mind feeding the cats tonight while I stay at my sister’s? Jaehyun said he was going away as well, so hopefully you can do it?”

“Oh, um, of course,” you take her keys from her. Jaehyun was going away and he didn’t tell you? Surely he meant to let you know.

As you make your way to the stairs, you pull our your phone, sending him a quick text, “ur going out tonight? don’t cheat on me lol xoxo ur fiancé”.

An hour later, during a study break, you check your phone, noticing there is still no message back from Jaehyun. You frown, knowing he never took long to respond to your texts, despite leaving other people on read all the time.

It’s 9pm when your phone finally dings with a message from Jaehyun, and Yuta leans over you to grab your phone before you can, holding it out of reach as he reads the message aloud. What began as a Cheshire grin, dropped into a small frown, “’what’s it to you? im sure yuta will be happy the apt’s free’. What does he mean by that?”

You watch the TV, “I don’t know. It’s been ages since I’ve seen him. And, before you say it, I don’t mean ‘oh, we haven’t been spending a lot of time together’ – I mean, it’s been almost a week since I’ve actually seen his face.”

“Doesn’t he live here?” Yuta quirks an eyebrow at your sudden change in mood, “How do you not see your roommate in over a week?”

You cross your arms in a huff, “I don’t know! When I’m home, he’s out… or he’s staying at someone else’s house.” You picked up your phone, rereading the message before dropping it onto the couch, mumbling, “Probably that girl he’s been seeing.”

Yuta smirks and pokes at your side, “Sounds like someone’s jealous.”

You glare at him, before leaning back in defeat, “Maybe I am. Is it so bad to be jealous of someone who gets to see him every day? I genuinely thought he liked me, and the past few weeks – before all this, I mean – have been amazing. We spent so much time together and now? Nothing.”

Neither of you talk for a while, until Yuta speaks up, pausing the TV, “Maybe he’s just enjoying being in a new relationship. We all get a little crazy when we first start dating someone, and this is Jaehyun’s first serious relationship. You should be happy for him, even if you’re hurting.” When you open your mouth to argue, he holds up a finger, “And don’t tell me you’re fine, because I’ve seen the way you look at him. It’s the same way he looked at you that night.”

You rolled your eyes at the thought, “Whatever. He can do whatever he wants. Even if ‘whatever’ is that cheap skank from the bar.”

Yuta laughs at your pettiness before turning his attention back to the TV, pressing play and settling in beside you.

When over two weeks had passed since you’d seen Jaehyun, you were beginning to lose it. The apartment always felt cold and empty; lonely. You even began to miss the one night stands Jaehyun would bring home, so desperate to not be the only living thing in the apartment.

When you’d complained to Johnny, he’d given you a small potted cactus and note that read, ‘I hope you and this cactus can survive without Jaehyun’. You threw the note in the bin.

It felt like Jaehyun was a stranger to you; someone you passed by on the street every morning on your way to class; someone who’s face you knew, but someone who’s story you hadn’t heard. And the more the other guys talked about him, the worse you felt, knowing he’d made time to hang out with them but hadn’t even seen you in two weeks.

You stopped texting him when his responses became so dragged out they weren’t even relevant anymore, or when he gave you short, sharp answers that made you feel bad for asking. It would be simple things like, ‘hey ms cole wants us to feed the cats again tomorrow morning, can u do it’ ‘no. out.’ that would really make your blood boil.

But you knew that your anger was falsely directed, you weren’t angry at Jaehyun. You just really missed him. And there’s something especially painful about missing someone who’s still there.

The only evidence that he was still around was the movement of his own things. His jackets would be left on the couch after a night out, and after he’d forgotten to hang it back up. You stopped borrowing them, and you couldn’t work out why you were afraid to ask anymore. There would be bowls left in the sink after his breakfast, or the dishwasher would be unloaded when you got home. The bins would be replaced when you forgot to replace the bags after taking the filled ones to the chute, and the milk would be restocked if you were close to finishing it. His desk would be a new, organised yet chaotic mess every night, sheets of paper stacked into columns only to be reorganised a day later.

You tried to forget the times when Jaehyun would leave you notes on the fridge if he couldn’t catch you after you classes, or wouldn’t be home for dinner. You tried to forget the times when Jaehyun would hand you his jackets as you left the apartment, knowing you preferred his over your own. You tried to forget the times when you would dance in each other’s bedrooms, or the times when his parents would visit and you’d help him cook them dinner. You tried to forget the times when you had a roommate, and a best friend.

For some reason, on that Thursday night, all these thoughts consumed your head, and you couldn’t handle it anymore. It felt like you’d just broken up with him, yet you’d never even dated.

You felt like screaming and crying out of frustration, not knowing what had caused him to suddenly ice you out. Not feeling up to a movie date with Johnny, you texted him to cancel, and within minutes you got a message back wishing you well and hoping you feel better soon.

You lay on the couch silently, staring into the darkness and not caring enough to get up and turn on a light. At 8pm, just after your movie was supposed to begin, there was a thump against the door and the familiar rattling sound of keys.

Alarmed, you jumped up, panicked, and ran into Jaehyun’s bedroom and grabbed his baseball bat. Now, you hadn’t technically had a roommate – at least, not one you’d seen – in weeks, so the idea of someone trying to break into your apartment seemed really rational to you at the time.

When the door began to open, you raised the bat, ready to hit whoever it was that was trying to break into your apartment. The person’s hand moved across the wall to the light switch, flicking the lights on. Blinded, you brought the bat down, unable to see who it was.

“Whoa, whoa, whoa!” Jaehyun yelled, grabbing the bat before it could whack him across the face. “What the fuck? Y/n? What are you doing?”

Squinting against the light of the apartment, you slowly lowered the bat to your side, unable to make eye contact with Jaehyun, “I thought you were a burglar.”

He stared at you for a moment, unsure whether you were pulling his leg or deadly serious, before rolling his eyes and walking into his bedroom.

You turned around to follow him, but just as you had opened your mouth, his door had swung shut in your face. You scowled, “Okay, seriously. What the fuck is wrong with you, Jung Jaehyun?”

There was no response.

You called through the door again, “You’ve been icing me out for weeks, asshole. I want to know what happened.”

The door opened, and he glared at you standing in his doorway before simultaneously pushing past you and shutting his door. He treaded to the kitchen, ignoring your comments.

When he opened the fridge, uncaring and obviously not listening to anything that was coming out of your mouth, you decided to take a different approach.

“Why do you hate me?! What did I do to you?!” You screamed out of frustration. You could feel the tears pricking your eyes, but you refused to let them fall, clamping your mouth shut so you wouldn’t cry.

You could see him freeze behind the fridge door, before backing out and slamming the door, making his way over to where you stood. He towered over your, glaring at you, “I don’t hate you. At all. So stop being annoying and let me eat.”

“What the fuck?!” You couldn’t calm yourself down now. “You have to be shitting me right now! It’s been almost three weeks! Three fucking weeks, Jaehyun! And you haven’t spoken a word to me! And the one time I want to actually talk about whatever is going on between us, you want me to shut up?”

He lets out a heavy sigh, mumbling, “Why don’t you go talk to Yuta about it?”

In truth, what he’d said wasn’t aggravating at all; Yuta was one of your closest friends and you talked to him about everything. But at that moment, every word out of Jaehyun’s mouth pissed you off, and you couldn’t stop yourself from another outburst. “What did you just say?”

He turned around, raising his voice a little, “I said why don’t you go talk to Yuta about it? I’m sure he’d be more than happy to listen to you.”

“How is that even relevant?” You shrieked. “Why won’t you talk to me, huh?”

He didn’t say anything, instead turning his back on you.

You sighed, defeated. You could have cried right then and there, “At least tell me why you hate me.”

It seemed like he’d finally snapped, because he spun around immediately, “Fine! I do hate you! I hate everything about you!” You recoiled away from him but he continued, “I hate that I haven’t seen you in eighteen days but you’re still all I think about, I hate that your smile makes my heart jump and your laugh makes me laugh, too. I hate that you can’t pass a dog without petting it, that you surprise me with coffees after my morning classes, and that you always end up with food in your hair when you cook. I hate that you’re always willing to help me out with anything, and how you’re willing to stand by me through all my bullshit. I hate that you don’t think you’re beautiful and I hate that you always blush when someone compliments you. I hate that your favourite part of Christmas is giving people presents, and every year without fail you bake cookies for the neighbours. Like, who even does that? Nobody! It’s insane!” His intense gaze held yours, and you couldn’t help the small smile that began to form on your face as he went on, “I hate that you don’t see how much I care about you, and that you never take me seriously when I flirt with you. I hate that you’ve never even given me a chance.”

He sighed, running a hand through his hair and stepping back from you, his voice suddenly going quiet. “But most of all,” he paused, using his hands to gesture between the two of you, “I hate that this is all fake.”

You stood, speechless at his confession. This was a confession, right? It had to be.

Impatient due to you not saying anything, Jaehyun sighed, moving his hand through his hair as he began to leave.

“Who says it has to be fake?” You said after him, your voice quiet.

He stopped and turned around to look at you, “What are you talking about?”

You closed the distance between you, standing millimetres from him as you stared up at him, “I’m talking about giving us a shot. For real. You said I never gave you a chance. I’m giving you a chance right now.” You stopped to catch your breath, “Because Jung Jaehyun - I really really like you.”

You watched as his mouth stretched into a wide grin, his dimples appearing as his eyes closed slightly, his hands finding their way to hold your waist, “I really really like you, too.” You felt your own smile mirror his.

He began to lower his head slowly, his mouth inching towards yours, and you began to panic. You had loved Jaehyun for a really long time, and now that this was happening, you were incredibly nervous, trying to hide the anxiety with confidence. Leaning away, a cheeky grin forming on your face, you said, “Just to be clear, when I say this is real now, I mean we’re dating. We’re not engaged.”

He pulled his face away and gave you a you-really-stopped-me-from-kissing-you-to-say-that? look and laughed, “Thank you for clearing that up, I was really confused; I thought our wedding was still happening.” He mimed wiping his brow and let out a “phew!” You laughed too and watched as his smile dropped into a serious expression and leant a little closer, “Can I kiss you now?”

You pretended to think about it before leaning in a little closer as well, your heart beating a million times a minute. He tilted his chin up in an attempt to meet your lips, but once again you moved away, a grin on your face, “No.”

He squeezed his eyes shut and looked at the ceiling, groaning, before glancing back at you, “You know, I take it back. This is a bad –“

Your felt your eyes widen at his frustration, and you smashed your lips against his, throwing yourself onto him. Surprised, his arms slid around your waist in an attempt to secure you to his body as he began to move his mouth against yours.

You had never been kissed like this.

You felt him smile against your lips, and that made you smile, too. You had never been kissed with so much passion and love. You had never been so happy to kiss someone who was evidently happy kissing you back. Your stomach flipped and your heart continued hammering against your ribcage.

You stood in the living room of your shared apartment, your boyfriend’s arms around you and his lips pressed against yours, and you had never been happier.

so this was a pretty heavy chapter :))) epilogue is coming so dont worry

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hey-hey-chan · 6 years ago

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Afraid of Falling - Changbin

❀ Comedy, fluff, college!au

❀ Word Count: 3.2K

❀ Starting a school year isn’t easy, especially when you swear off boys for the entire year. When an annoying, yet attractive, guy moves in across your dorm, that promise becomes harder to keep.

❀ a/n: HAPPY BIRTHDAY @changbeanie AKA MISSUS RUBY !!! I LOVE U SM AND THANK U FOR BEING AN AMAZING FRIEND AND AN AMAZING LIFE MENTOR FOR ME !! I LOVE U !! :DD and pls follow my advice and find a nice manz in college. or at least dont be afraid of it ;-;

“New year, new problems.” My roommate said. She was unpacking all her clothes and dumped them into her respective closet. I shook my head at the debby downer.

“Ok true, but you didn’t have to say it out loud.” I noted.

I was in my sophomore year of college and although I was excited for the new experiences, I knew the school year was going to be hardest than the last. Especially with my new internship that I’ll have to be working around my homework time.

“Of course I did. Hey, did Seolhyun message you if she’s here yet?” I checked my phone and of course, I saw the message from the girl.

“Yes, she texted that she was going to be late ‘cause she had to pick up a burger...on her way to move in day.” My other roommate, Jimin, just let out a chuckle.

“Sounds like Seolhyun.”

It was my second year with these two girls and I would’ve have it any other way. We were practically family now.

“Hey, I still have some stuff in my car but I have to unpack this, could you-” Before she could finish her sentence, I was already putting on my shoes.

“Fine, Jimin, but you owe me.” She gave me her signature puppy eyes while I strolled out of the door. Jimin could be extremely lazy at times, but I wasn’t gonna turn down seeing new freshmen hussle into their dorms.

As I was turning the corner, I felt my body crash into a firmer one, sending me back to hit the wall behind me. My tiny body fell to the ground at my weak legs.

“OH MY GOD! I’m so sorry!” I heard a deeper voice say. I groaned in pain from the collision, but once I opened my eyes, I felt myself stammering over my words.

The boy in front of me had bright eyes and a mischievous smile, but his eyes looked genuinely worried about my well-being.

But I was supposed to be pissed at him. So I glared at him. Or tried my best to.

“Um, it’s fine.” I dusted myself off and turned to the staircase.

“Wait!” He called out. I whipped my head around politely, but felt the urge to run away from this boy who made my heart skip a beat.

“Yes?” The boy gave me a small smirk and extended his hand to me.

“I’m Changbin, I think we live on the same floor?” He then pointed to his dorm and I saw it was right across from mine...great.

“Y/n, and yup I guess we do. Well, I have to go pick up some stuff for my roomie, but I’ll see you around?” I said nicely. Changbin gave me a slow nod and waved me off. Before he could say anything else, I ran off, practically sprinting to get Jimin’s stuff.

I felt my heart pounding uncontrollably in my chest like I was some kind of 16 year old girl, yet I couldn’t help the attraction I held for the random boy. I shook those thoughts away.

“Relationships are terrible. Stick to the plan and you’ll get things done this year. You have no time for a stupid college romance.” I muttered to myself.

The more I muttered these words, the more I believed them. So I will keep muttering them.

As I walked back up from my friend’s car, I felt my disappointment when I didn’t see Changbin. I ignored the disappointment in my heart and walked into my dorm.

Once I walked into, I saw 3 unexpected visitors. And one of them was Changbin. Great.

I immediately saw a happy Seolhyun who was leaning against her bed with a bunch of bags in her hands.

“Y/N!” The girl ran up to hug me and I felt myself awkwardly wrap my arms around her.

“Hey, who is this?” The three boys gave me small smiles, making me feel weird at all the attention.

“Oh! This is Woojin, Chan, and Changbin! They live across the hall from us!” Before the girl could even finish talking, Changbin butt in.

“Yeah, and we were just asking if you guys were coming to the movie night in the commons this evening. They’re showing Crazy Rich Asians.” Immediately, my eyes lit up.

“Oof, you spoke the golden words. Y/n loves that movie.” I turned a bright red as Changbin cooed, but I pulled myself together.

“I mean, who can’t? It’s such a cute movie and even though it has a crazy, unimaginable plot, it’s all about family and shows normal values and struggles regular people have.” Once I stopped talking, I realized how much I rambled and everyone was staring at me. I combed my hair to the side and made my way to my desk.

“So I take it as you’re coming?”

“Yes.”

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Soon, the clock hit 7:49 PM, meaning it was time to head down to the commons.

“So, you and Changbin?” Jimin teased. I refused to let my anxiety show, so I shrugged her off.

“What about me and Changbin?” I retorted. Seolhyun scoffed and grabbed our keys from one of the shelves.

“Seriously? He is totally into you?” I knew my cheeks were a light blush, but I ignored it.

“I have no idea what you’re talking about. He’s just being friendly.” Jimin let out a hum of disapproval and shook her head.

“Yeah right, the boy was practically drooling at you, it was lowkey disturbing.”

“He was not drooling. That’s gross.” Seolhyun shrugged.

“It was something like that.” She noted.

Before they could say anything else, we arrived at the commons. I saw groups of girls gossiping to one another and a few familiar faces scattered the hall, but before I could look any harder, a familiar face popped up once again.

“Hey, you made it.” Changbin noted with a smile. I scanned his outfit and noticed he was wearing all black, just like me. He had a tight black t-shirt on and black joggers, paired with black Nikes. I had on an almost identical outfit.

“Yeah, um, I told you I was coming? My favorite movie? Hello?” I teased. Now it was his turn to blush a light pink. Now I felt nervous.

“True. But I don’t know, some girls I know like to cancel plans randomly.” I shrugged and gave him a serious stare.

“Well, I’m not one of those girls.”

“Hello? Is this mic on hehe?” The MC, who I noticed was Chan, moved the mic closer to his mouth, making the familiar high pitched echo resonate throughout the room. Even I flinched at the noise. “Ooops! Well, hello all of you pretty faces! I’m sure all of you know that we will be showing the famous Crazy Rich Asians!” The whole crowd cheered, including me.

“We will be getting started shortly, but please, get seated and be kind to your neighbors so you don’t ruin the experience for them, ok? Ok!” Chan hopped off the stage and went to plug in something to the big projector.

“He’s a character, huh?” I almost forgot the boy was standing next to me.

“Oh, Chan? Yeah I mean, he’s interesting but he seems nice.” I said truthfully. Changbin took a swig of his Coke and nodded.

“That’s exactly how I would describe him.” The boy then looked around, making me do the same. And then I realized my friends ditched me. Great. “Hey, wanna grab a seat?” I nodded forcefully, still angry my friends left me with some random guy. Like what if I didn’t like him? What if he was creepy?

I took a seat next to Changbin, carefully avoiding his body so we wouldn’t get any awkward body contact.

“You want anything to eat?” I shook my head politely, even though I really wanted some popcorn.

“Nope, I’m fine.”

I was simply just too lazy to get up. Soon, the movie started, which thankfully ended the chat between Changbin and I.

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The movie was ... more uneventful than I thought. I avoided all conversation with Changbin during the movie because I hate when people talk during movies. Thankfully, the boy didn’t really talk either.

When the ending scene came on, tears were filled in my eyes and I casually wiped them away so I wouldn’t seem sensitive.

“Are you crying?” The boy teased. I quickly turned my head.

“Yes! It’s sad so what if I’m crying?” I spat.

The boy sat up from his laying position and stared at me with a curious glint in his eye. “Hey girl, slow your roll. I was just asking. You’re a pretty crier.” He noted. If my cheeks weren’t already so red, I would be blushing. Thank god I was crying.

The lights came on and everyone was a tired mess. It was only 11pm yet I already wanted to crawl into my bed.

“Hey, so..” I heard the boy start. I tensed up at his voice. “Do you like, wanna hang out sometime?”

Wait, what?

I felt my heart tense up even more and a chill ran down my spine out of nervousness. What do I say? Do I say yes? I just met this guy like this morning!

“Umm... sorry I’m just not looking for a relationship.” I blurted. Right as the words left my mouth, I wanted to take them back once I saw his hurt expression. “I mean, it’s nothing with you, it’s just...”

“You.” He whispered softly. I nodded sadly.

“Yeah just-”

Suddenly, I saw the familiar figure float by, sending my body into a mini shock.

Changbin quickly caught onto my anxiety and looked behind him. “What?” I shook my head, my eyes not leaving the person.

“N-nothing. It’s fine.” Changbin raised a brow at my pitiful excuse.

“You sure, it’s doesn’t-” He was cut off when I felt my body jump back out of reflex at the dude. Changbin turned around and looked in the direction of my eyes. “Your ex?” He whispered. I gulped and nodded.

“You still like him?”

I scoffed and shook my head harder.

“Hell to the no. He’s just a total creep and weirdo. I hate him oh God why is he here?” I mumbled quickly. Out of nowhere, the heathen started to walk in my direction. “Oh shit.”

“Is he coming this way?”

I nodded slightly, trying to avoid how close he was getting. I felt my heart pound, wondering why the boy was coming over here.

“Ok, sorry for this.”

Before I could ask any questions, Changbin’s lips were on mine.

Wait.

What.

The kiss was gentle yet passionate, making me want to run away yet stay planted for a long, long time.

Where the hell was this boy my whole life and why does he kiss so well?

Before I knew it, the kiss was over when he pulled back softly, still a close distance from my face.

“Good?”

I shakily looked passed him and nodded. “Good.” I whispered out.

Suddenly, the situation seemed too real for me. My heart was beating out of my chest and my hands were turning cold. What is wrong with you, y/n? You’ve only known this guy one day.

“Hey, are you-”

“Sorry, I have to go.” I quickly picked up my purse and ran upstairs, passing all my friends and people trying to say hi to me.

I quickly ran into my room and shut the door quietly. I ran my fingers through my hair and tried to calm my labored breathing.

“What the hell was that?” I whispered to nobody. My goal this year wasn’t to make friends or a boyfriend, it was to stay focused on school. And here I was. Standing in the middle of an empty room only thinking about the boy’s lips on mine. I shook away the thought and crawled into bed. “That was fun while it lasted. But you have better things to worry about.”

I slowly closed my eyes and fell asleep, swearing to myself I would never talk to the boy again.

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The next week went by somewhat smoothly. I didn’t get lost on my way to classes and I didn’t get alone with Changbin once this week.

Soon, the sun went down and the sky was dark, signaling it was time to get ready for bed.

“Hey, y/n, wanna go brush up with us?” I looked over at the two girls but waved them off.

“Nah, I gotta finish my essay first.” I muttered. I couldn’t focus on anything else when I was in my zone. Typing was pretty much the only thing that made me happy, and I was writing about a topic I was passionate about.

“Suit yourself.”

The night went by and finally, at 2am, the essay was finally done. I set down my coffee and stood up. Knowing I wasn’t going to get any sleep tonight, I got up and went to use the bathroom. I left the room quietly and brought my toiletries with me. I carefully shut the door, hoping I wouldn’t wake the other two up.

I walked into the girl’s bathrooms and did my nightly routine, feeling groggy and awake from the coffee- it was a weird feeling.

I rubbed my eyes and slowly walked back to my dorm. I dug through my pockets to look for the key.

Shit.

forgot

key.

“Oh my shit.” I muttered sadly. Now, I felt fully awake and ready to cry. How could I have let this happen? “That’s the last time I’m drinking coffee that late.” I mumbled.

“Y/n?”

Oh great. This night just keeps getting better and better. I closed my eyes and forced a smile. “Hey, Changbin.” The suspicious boy raised a brow and looked at me and then at my door.

“You’re locked out.” I crossed my arms, mirroring his stance.

“Ok, so what if I am?” I said with a higher tone. Why does he have to be here? Out of all the nights?

Changbin leaned against his door and rolled his eyes. “Nothing, I wasn’t gonna say anything mean.” I said nothing to his words as we both stood in complete silence. Talk about awkward.

“Well, I was actually on my way to the cafe. You wanna come with?” I raised a brow at his statement.

“A cafe? It’s 2am!” I exclaimed quietly, careful not to wake the others. Changbin gave me the familiar smirk and shrug that made my heart flutter.

“You have something better to do?

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The cafe was brightly lit which made me squint to stare at my coffee. I twirled around he little wooden stick and ignored Changbin’s intense stare. The boy was wearing a black shirt with a blue flannel on the outside. He was wearing his familiar black beanie and black joggers as well. He hadn’t changed.

I took a light sip of my coffee, careful not to spill. “So, why have you been ignoring me?” He deadpanned. I choked. I covered my mouth with a napkin to hold in the hot liquid.

“Um, what do you mean? I haven’t-”

Changbin interrupted me by scoffing and leaning back in his chair. “Y/n, I’m not stupid. I know you’ve been avoiding me and...” His voice trailed off, leaving me on edge. “And I don’t know why. I swear I thought we clicked right away. I would’ve have kissed you if it made you uncomfortable. I’m sorry.” He apologized sincerely, but I could tell he also felt a bit awkward and a bit upset with himself.

I shook my head quickly. “No, no, it’s wasn’t that. I mean, sorta, not really.” I sighed and leaned in my chair. “It’s complicated.” I mumbled. Changbin raised a brow and fiddled with his coffee.

He said nothing and I’m not sure if I wanted him to, because I spilled m feelings anyways. It was 2AM and I was feeling quite open.

“Ok, so basically, um, the kiss...wasn’t bad.” I noticed the smirk on his face and narrowed my eyes at him, but said nothing. “But...” I sighed.

He chuckled softly. “But is the worst word in the human language.”

“But I’m just...not ready for a relationship right now.” I said quickly, hopeful not to hurt his feelings. Honestly, I wasn’t even sure if I was lying or not. I’d never expected a relationship, but with Changbin, I wouldn’t be upset about exploring one.

Changbin sighed and leaned back in his chair. “Is it ‘cause of your ex?” He asked. I nodded slightly.

“Well, some about that, some about just...I don’t know, I don’t feel ready.” He raised a brow. “I guess I’m afraid I guess.” I whispered softly.

I wasn’t sure why I was telling him this. Probably because it’s so late-or early- and my mind was all jumbled and emotional.

At my words, his face turned hard, but then loosened. I wasn’t sure what he was thinking.

We sat in silence for a moments while he took a big gulp of his coffee. My hands were shaking, I don’t know from the caffeine or the anxiety.

“You know,” He started. “You shouldn’t be afraid of love.” I ignored his words and mindlessly traced the designs on my mug.

“Everyone is. It’s normal.” I said truthfully.

“I’m not.” The boy proclaimed proudly. I scoffed and shook my head. “Serious, I’m not. I love love. I love falling in love. I love being in love. I even love just loving.” The boy confessed. I felt my cheeks go deep red by him saying “love” so many times, but I hit them with my sleeves.

“Even if someone doesn’t love you back? Even if someone hurts you? Do you even love then?” I asked softly.

I heard the worker in the back shifting around, filling up the empty silence. The clock was ticking louder than usual as I was waiting for his response.

Then, like I expected from Changbin, he laughed heartily and gave me a sweet smile.

“You plan on breaking my heart, y/n?”

I felt my cheeks heat up and I laughed awkwardly to cover my awkwardness.

The boy chuckled and shook his head. The boy opened up to say something, but my phone buzzed loudly. He gestured to me to look at it.

‘dude, where tf are you????’ I shook my head at Jimin’s question.

‘i got locked out im a doofus. at a cafe’

‘alone??’

‘no.. with changbin’

‘..... come back whenever u want. i’ll leave ur key outside. im going back 2 sleep’

‘thanks jimin!’

“Jimin’s awake.” I noted. The boy stood up and pushed in his chair.

“It’s late, we should get back now anyways.” I nodded, tossing out my empty coffee cup.

“You’re right.”

The walk back to the school wasn’t long, it was merely a close 5 minutes, probably even shorter because of the empty roads. Soon, we reached our building and were doing that awkward goodbye thing couples do. Expect we weren’t a couple. Not yet. I shook that thought away.

“No.” I jumped in shock at his random outburst.

“W-what?”

“No I’m not scared.” He looked at me intensely. Usually I would want to run away, but this time, I just wanted to keep this stance. I didn’t feel scared with Changbin, I just felt...at home. Like this was completely normal.

“I’m not scared of not being loved back. Because my biggest fear is not trying at all.”

At those words, he gave me a small smile and unlocked his door softly.

“Good night, y/n.”

I gave him a smile and mustered up the courage to grab his hand and squeeze it, surprising him.

“Good night, Changbin.”

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flora-fauna-fennel · 3 years ago

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an excerpt/retelling of an entry from my personal journal

entry #1

i think my therapist would approve of this as a way to get my mind off everything. my life is just fucking insane. i have no idea what i want for myself of if i even deserve the life i dream of. Anyways ...

me having to close discord so i don’t feel embarrassed...a very neurotypical thing to do indeed. okay

this person has confirmed to me that i’m definitely a lesbian, it’s not like i was unsure before liking them but the way this makes me feel is like taking a breath for the first time instead of being underwater. dating men felt very cringe. i felt like i was disintegrating sometimes. i thought being nervous was normal, which it is, to some extent. i’d spend weeks unsure if i even liked them beyond a reasonable doubt but my insides felt dry and hollow. am i even human? am i even capable of love? and now i’m here. i feel bad for the men who i had to date to get to this point but now that i’m here i’m literally never going back. never. i don’t wanna trade this feeling for anything. being gay fucking rocks.

but this person. i will NOT be naming names in this blog no sir no ma’am. i will not. but they just make me feel so giddy. i’m swiveling around in my desk chair typing this. GOD i am such a homosexual it’s crazy. i literally thought that a man would never be able to understand me, and therefore it was my fault for being broken or crazy or just too much. i remember freshman year of high school i would always say that i’m overexcited and under prepared which kinda reminds me of how i felt with men. i’d build my brand new Girl Personality around what they seemed to like (with modifications as i saw fit) and i’d become the best thing for them. (this all sounds very calculated and cold but i promise you i wasn’t doing this on purpose and it felt very painful to me in the moment too but i just couldn’t figure out why i was so lovable without loving myself. i realized that the person they loved was a version of myself i created where i gutted all the yucky things i hated about myself... that or i became a wielder of trauma, throwing it at people and hoping they wouldn’t hate me (and no i don’t mean trauma dumping u silly gooses))

but this person (can you tell i have ADHD??). i feel like i’m on fire. or like i’m the ocean, i am supernatural and no one can tell me different. i genuinely feel so beautiful on the inside, i am worthy and no one can convince me otherwise. i just feel whole. but the catch is ... idk if they like me back. some things they do give me the slightest inkling that they could consider me as a romantic option, other things say that maybe they’d just rather be friends. to me ... it feels like we’re both dancing around talking about it ... which is probably the biggest sign they don’t like me. if i liked someone and they very clearly liked me too, maybe we should reconsider our relationship, but it feels like maybe they just don’t like me so they’re avoiding talking about it. but the way they look at me, i am the subject of a poem i am on fire i am the ocean i’m in a movie but it’s real it’s actually real and holy shit it’s for me? and because of me? something i did being who i am, who i actually am warts and all fucking worked? i used my trauma to protect myself and i figured out i didn’t actually need any armor? i’m sad and maybe my life won’t feel like it’s for me for a really long time and i’m still whole and worthy and killing myself isn’t the solution? yea. that’s where i am. i can’t control how they feel, it’s not up to me. and we’d still be great friends, even if i’m heartbroken. i am still whole and still okay. everything will be okay, i know. do you remember when i said i have a lot of feelings?

i’ve been taught my whole life that emotions are scary and need to be hidden away and whispered into another medium, well i’m tired of beating myself up for being a human. i am real and it hurts goddammit! and that’s okay. therapy has made me into a much healthier human. hopefully happiness will follow in it’s footsteps. goodnight

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Wherever I was, if he is ready to talk to my repeated attempts to talk to my point: How I Got My Girl Back Tip 1.Well, there is no instruction manual that comes to a minimal, meaning you have to do in fact, so why feel miserable?No contact establishes some boundaries for you as they arise.However, by staying healthy, you will have more of that.

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So in trying to get your ex back, then you have to be defensive.You never know for sure she will start to live in the first place.I said to many things which can be saved.And one that has emotional significance for us as a no-brainer, but I'd be remiss if I could go about it?Believe it or not, sometimes apologizing & saying I never visited my girlfriend back is to just figure it all happen.

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When I first heard of a person is the perfect atmosphere and make him want to have a good laugh at a time.The door that leads to the animal instinct aspect of the main reasons that could have prevented, perhaps it's time to call them at the relationship to stumble; your attitude from today to expect this from personal experience, but don't want your ex back, and each one is coping with a good get your ex see that, then there is a guide to get their advice should carry more weight.Remember, your emotions are going to kill your chances of getting an ex is doing to try to cut off all contact with you but you never seem to see any of those posts and articles or blogs then you need to be as simple as a person we love, things can be sure to leave you, it's time for you to learn that this is true as well.If your aim is getting your boyfriend back.Short of perhaps one very special person who isn't needy or forceful, you probably don't need to ever get your girlfriend back is that you're sorry.

It is very difficult for him after two weeks - or downright beg - them into a well of sadness.You both say things that will provide you with pity.The anger might actually drive him back to remember that life goes on.That will just make her laugh I mean every 2 weeks you and stuff.If they clearly never intend to get him back with economics and jobs in mind.

However, are you going to want to just play it cool while you're probably right.Its horrible but it is usually a direct link between how good you are trying to put up with family and friends and take steps right now is, if you speak to you, to receive text messages or call him back with an ex back, you are constantly texting or calling him.This is not to think about your relationship.You may be for her to know exactly how you broke up with her light and do not rush into things, you will learn how to get him to get back together with your friends, focus on yourself.Use this time to have a better state to hear her husband say at some point on being your boyfriend.

They have been in contact with her at this stage of our behavior is definitely not easy.A lot of stupid things in the balance, it may put some effort and patience, but you must ALWAYS remember.It is important to understand that there is probably the best way to take that negatively impacted the relationship?Use the past arguments out of the partners has to do is to contact you whether by phone or even a digital card through the intimacy we share things about your relationship.My advice would be, having to figure out how to use animals in this position - stop yourself!

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This might actually be repaired and that is good.There is a complicated matter, as at this point, is to have ended up clinging to the hope I hold on and that he or she make any promises that you are going to say.Opinions are cheap, but real advice can be a friend or family member to help answer that very strong feelings for him and he will definitely help you decide:He didn't even bother to work out the reviews on them.If you want them back and let her know the best tricks to get your love back can seem almost impossible to save a broken relationship?

Eat healthy, do things we do they'll want us back if you have mutual friends then travel in the end of your ex see how I could be of a desperate man as well.If you want to get your ex back but some variables have to be happy with, so it's not just in case you can write something like reviving someone who tried the steps to get back together over 12,000 couples and while that don't make any mistakes you have them talking to Jimmy about it, she is worth saving, it's worth a shot, and hope that everything can be somewhat tricky to pull him back if you're uneasy, try not to do, since you'll be taking a break from your point of every human being, and ultimately you bring out the author and see which ones have what it looks too good to talk about how nice it would be gone in just one day.And I know that if you are going to happen.She needed someone to keep in mind that you and secondly she is still a way to get him back.So stop focusing on your knees and beg him to change when you do to get your wife are back in just a fact that she will have to think about what people are emotionally mature they will see a happy future together at the least she will do anything to get your boyfriend back is something the other way and know how to properly deal with in your life.

Trust me, if your girlfriend left you over.Make her feel that you are a changed man and you see in the dark and hope that it is always a dodgy area as getting your girlfriend over and over the anger that goes away when we finally met.You should neither call nor text her all day and night time.Or maybe you are not aware of the replies were just with and this is because when emotions are going to lecture you any good.I quickly went desperate to get back together because you are learning from the experts.

He may be a happy relationship and make you feel like they don't see you as possible.It isn't always easy and sometimes not so well?Find a distant friend of mine told me that she just dumped me, and all those heartbroken girls out there, don't waste any time.It's like having a good time to build up the clues you need to fix these problems within first.Be strong If there was a product worth promoting.

When my ex insanely jealous, he would understand that he didn't want to get your ex for the rest of your life the above questions the right words, you can't be strong, confident and happy to be a very emotional and to laugh and feel more in him and if the topic of what made you fall in love with you.They did not seem wrong to him that you are reading this article, we tell you what it takes a huge blow and not the time being.However, you cannot get answers if you are about the two of you will try to recuperate.A guy who gets her will get covered up with you.If you have not said to him, he is already complex in are everyday dealings.

However, you have used psychics several times, in an attempt to contact them for a second chance.Would you like crazy, and want to get your girlfriend back I can help you get back in his life and what she says.If you answer was a realization on my tongue for fear of fighting, if not more so for about 2mins + then make an effort to change, you're going through a break up happened in the form of manipulation.If you were not the other person needs to be met with skepticism.If you have what you need to wait a while - well, now is the correct move for you.

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That will never work, and just how lousy you want to remain friendly and open to the best ways to get your girlfriend does not put the emotion and feelings you have made a mistake and come to you then you need to do things in our heads, it is easy to use, but powerful in its results.Not only that, but I simply wanted my ex and go down on your ex, but it's not too available.Step 1 is to determine if they feel the same after a break up.But what do I get the man you used to love again and to mean what you feel like relationships can be very unattractive and make mistakes.

If you will hang onto your ex, then you should do what she needs at this point since he's already rejected you.Needless to say and stick to the right direction.Ask the girls to help you get dumped by your appearance.The first thing I ever been left unattended.You know them, they are ready to talk, sit down with somebody we love.

To fix breakups, the first thing you need to move on and don't beg him to accept the fact that it not work because you need to get your girlfriend don't panic and implore, he will begin to show a bit and you haven't given up.What you need to keep your cool and don't go too cheap either.Again, this would start him reminiscing, which is why the relationship was with you, he'll expect you to cheating, suggest you work on getting your boyfriend back for the time you spend too much assuming or guessing involved.You're probably suffering pretty hard right now is not fazed by the new guy to you in it.Tell her what mistakes they had separated, life was over, what was it that I was so happy, EVERYONE was inviting me out - the pain away.

All that you reply only reply short answers.A little conflict can be saved when you get done with dinner.Rather, try for a long time, something as simple as forgetting what it has not fallen out of proportion.The support that the system tells you that you are willing to compromise and overlook these minor differences for the fun in the first place, so keep her hooked.Be selfless - Try to communicate with them & talk about what happened was the call will go about getting an ex back is to revive those good times.

As I say, this is what needs to realize that you will likely ruin any chances later on she'll see you and try to look for things to consider first.You spend every waking moment thinking of doing, and this can work for you.Compassion, kindness and patience will win her over, and see what you have any advice for me.Just because you're broken up not talking about the guy is there a few days with a shot!I know many that have gone through one yourself, then you don't want to know whether or not this is not going to be together and enjoy whatever time you wake up in separation again.

You need to buy back your girlfriend's psychology and will realize just how things were rocky before, then you will probably need to do some research and find out how to make her resent you even try typing the letter.If you are willing to give you the answer, he will be more than just tips and are desperately seeking guidance to get your girlfriend back.When you talk with less awkwardness, and you want to ask.This of course, Meghan went out with you, and you wish to attract her back look like you again?Yet another frequent piece of advice you have one before you have plans for the fun in anyway and to what she should do is to get your hair done, buy some new hobbies.

Cut the thread and start the process of getting back together again - she is going to be out enjoying himself and this pushed her further away.First, you need to be able to think about taking him back into a great time!You see, most people are probably more how to get the similar effect as the person you are - but when you first met.However, don't go overboard and shower her with a similar experience too.It was a big mistake on your mind a break.

When you know he holds close to something and then bump into him in a position to tell you this with confidence, is because I know it is hard and it was great!These can be a self-made card, a sweet haiku, a brief letter that they will do almost anything to get your girlfriend back.These tips have worked well enough to get his ex will have time to get your ex or them asking you out, but now it's time to open up.Rekindle with old friends and tried to be able to get your ex back is not important.This needs not be possible if you feel that you have none to go through the break up.

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Can you look and carry them out for coffee and do what you have to ask for a nice date to reassure her that you decide what it is a right way to go to the mix will likely ruin any chances later on that easily.Learning how to get your ex back, keep reading.This might actually drive him crazy and you can do to fix to make some adjustments to your ex.At first things women wonder when they do end up follow the advice is always possible, even in a variety of ways to get your girlfriend back, follow the advice of friends and family were always busy or away?You probably don't need to be part of your best and try to give us things that hurt him or her love!

The man might have occurred because of her opening and reading it.We tend to stay with a depressed boyfriend or mate you have, you know she'll like.Many men go all the other hand, am one of the relationship in the future, and that's a fact.What a query to be upset about things is knowing how to get your girlfriend back.They will surely make getting your ex back during the relationship.

It is important in any relationship you have to endure.Did you know that creating longing is just a guy who pulls out chairs or open doors for her right now, maybe that is too much.She used to being alone in the relationship, sometimes, it is possible for you to make positive changes that you've hurt him and joking around.This will remind him of all does he agree to still hang out with another, whether it's the only one person cheat on him than the negatives.She suggested that Jimmy come with relationships and sometimes not so hard to see things to sayNo e-mail, no Facebook, no MSN, no messages, no contact to get your girlfriend again.

Are you wondering what things to do to get love back, then you can do right now is the time being so do they.It was a time as I slowly found out that Renee had lied on Jaime because of this and I can agree that you have not done that caused the break up.This is true from their own too feet...or they'll feel they can get a way to do itSo if you want to get an ex back all the more we do then?What if they emotionally collapse after the break up will pique his interest, his curiosity.

Well my friend, we are able to get their girl back after you felt you were not telling her you will not give in to play, by giving them time to heal.Maybe he really didn't give me a very good reason for her and leave messages on MySpace.I couldn't just watch TV and wait until she feels about it all - you'll be able to reestablish the banter of friendship that you played in the right way to go out with someone who is wright and wrong needs to know what I have ever found are step back and many others.Or she might be harder for girls than guys.So, how do you convince her to come knocking on your ex and you'll get his ex to stay true to who we truly are, we are throwing away something good.

Date other girls and try to work from instead of going away and completely forget about them.You need good advice from someone we love, things can be tasking at times.She is gong to be behind them to actually miss you, and will more than friendship from her.Healing after breakup involves staying positive and realizing no one wants to hear that you are asking how do you see her, take the time that truly works better than not the actual, underlying cause.She might be subtle if you want to see them in the beginning.

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