#girl help i am unwell

[airenyah]

everybody be warned

[brokenxheart]

[bloodied-serpent]

Abandoned by the man whose legacy you helped build, whose reputation you defended in the face of scrutiny and scorn from everyone you knew, whose dream you believed in even when he himself doubted it, whose family you safeguarded without complaint and with the utmost loyalty. A man you looked up to, a man you held so high he blotted out the stars, your man, your Albrecht.

Not knowing why he left, why he asked you to make sure he never comes back, why he didn't say those simple words, not once.

Why, why, why.

But knowing that he didn't take you with him. He left you behind, alone and burdened by all the responsibilities you've shouldered for him in your long years together, so everlastingly committed to him that you would not dare betray him, even in your bitterness. Waking up to find your entire world gone, and needing, despite everything, to still be in service to him, his plan, his ideals.

Were you ever good enough? Or were you just useful?

But you still fought for him, for what you built together and what he-you believe in, you fought for that one sliver of hope that one day, somehow, he'll come back, and tell you he loves you. You devoted every fibre of your being to upholding that legacy, that dream. His and your dream.

And then you find out he left because of you. Albrecht loved you so much that he chose to sacrifice himself, the one you hold most precious, so he can save you. And it still wasn't enough. You are worlds apart, fighting the same foe, with no certainty that it'll be enough, no guarantee of success. But you still have to try.

[clockwork-carstairs]

thinking about jem and tessa meeting ty and seeing kit with. ty. and getting to know him and how much they would love him if they did…….just fell to my knees I CANT DO THIS

[learntolovetheraynetoo]

“I love you”

My partner and I were friends for years before we got together. He also isn’t a particularly talkative person, and both of us were terrified of “I love you” for a long time.

That said… I still remember every single time he said he loved me before it was commonplace (before we were officially ’together’ long term).

1. The first time was when we were kids. We went camping by a river with some friends and I was like “do you wanna go swimming?” And he was like “in the river? In our clothes? In the cold? With these ppl around?” And instead of responding I jumped in and then I came up and he had the biggest grin and said “oh my fucking god… I love you”

2. ⁠Second time was when I was in a really bad place because of my mental illness and I told him I didn’t see what the point was bc of whatever BS was going on in my head and in my life and he said “I’m the point. You stay for me… because I love you”

3. ⁠The third time was at a mutual friend’s wedding reception after he got in a fight with a drunk guy we went to school with (while he was also drunk) because the guy had been grabbing me (unwanted). I was telling him off but he was too drunk to even absorb the scolding and he said “I’m sorry… I just couldn’t let him keep touching you… you didn’t want him to… I love you”

4. ⁠When I went away to college he helped me move in (bc I couldn’t count on my family) and I walked him back down to his car. He said “Okay. Bye. Have fun.” And then as I watched him walking away he goes “oh… love you” over his shoulder.

5. ⁠When we were watching TV together in my college apartment and I finally decided to go for it, just ask him to stay with me. First thing I said was that I loved him and he said “I love you too… where’d that come from?”

[odairfilm]

'Like if you hold me without hurting me, you'll be the first who ever did'

[pvrple-flvwers]

i am genuinely so scared that he hates everything about me and that i fucked up and it’s always my fault and fucking hell why is it always ME

[fizzlefunk]

I hope i give my friends violent flashbacks every time they walk past the shampoo isle. Because i have physically dragged them into the shampoo isle and show them what my OC’s would smell like.

On numerous occasions.

I cant stop thinking about my characters and i think it’s driving me to the brink of insanity

[airenyah]

need to film myself doing a 1min presentation but all i wanna do is scream

[brokenxheart]

endless cycle

[puppercupboard]

the thought of midas in swiss's lap humping his thigh has been haunting me for days now it's my brain's screensaver now, if i'm idle too long i drift back to the thought of that cute little quintessence ghoul so eager and needy for attention and release that he's desperately humping swiss's thigh and panting against his neck while swiss pets his hair and otherwise ignores him for a conversation that he's having with mountain that midas has long since stopped being able to decipher through the mental haze of his arousal and embarrassment and need :/

[clockwork-carstairs]

jem and tessa’s love story will always hit different to me because it was so sweet when they were young, but so tragic. two kids fighting against time and terrible circumstances. and then it took one hundred and thirty years for them to have a second chance: during which jem feels himself losing the human heart he had, and tessa fights so hard to keep him alive because she can’t lose him too, not after they both lost will. catarina, he cannot die. he cannot die.

in 2008 tessa says — in a way, this is our wedding night. she picks a dress the colour of an orchid, jem’s favourite flower, to remind him of what they were, to remind him of what she wanted to be for him when she thought they’d have a future together. and jem responds with the number of days he’s counted since they last kissed: says you don’t need to remind me, says “you were my first love, and you will be my last one.”

these two characters, two of the kindest and gentlest, who endured for so long. the period between will’s death and before 2008 especially is just devastating…when jem believed he was getting less and less human and both he and tessa could only hold on to the hope of someday, maybe. it kills me all the time

[honeykngdom]

not me ignoring part 3 of the iruka x sarutobi series and jumping straight to fleshing out part 4 which includes hella angst and hella smut.

[lilacerull0]

shout out to mr. netter..... sir, how is it possible that such a person ever existed...... how did you make this.....

[talentforlying]

constantine: ALEC HOLLAND! or — or whatever you're callin' yourself these days. EARTHSHATTERIN' NEWS! JOHN CONSTANTINE NEEDS HELP! fuck. swamp thing: ... these names... john constantine... alec holland... i do not know them...

[yj-98]

updated my comic bookshelf bc i just had some more preorders come in and i think its funny. like. we're not gonna talk about how a majority of my collection came from one (1) singular trip to my very first brick + mortar comic shop (and then their secondary location <3 bc they had two.. their original 1969 location and a warehouse to store the backlog) back in april.

bc i was literally just coming in and looking for anything related to

jason (not much. literally just rh:o and i bought the 4 issues as a very cheap combo because the variants were cool. it was a pity buy because i was like goddamn...)

superboy (WE ARE IGNORING THE SUPERBOY COLLECTION)

young justice (there was only a single issue of the recent 2019 yj)

i was assigned robin fan by the guy who owned it (i had picked up some tim!robin things and was looking at them and i couldnt say no he was so helpful.....) so i ended up leaving with like. complete collection of tims miniseries

majority of this stuff was $1 bin stuff or like.... 30-50% off variants (i literally love buying variants like art prints ok) BUT i still spent. way too much money. FIRST time going to a store. i got into dc comics like. in march.

since then it was mostly shopping on ebay and i frequent like. 3-4 websites of b&m comic shops for preordering. i have no comic place within an hour radius from me because if you set me loose in a comic store ill apparently spend $140 and lose 3 hours of my day. this is what unmedicated audhd looks like

anyways im really proud of my collection<3 i cant wait to flesh it out more. <- is literally holding myself back from purchasing things online lately bc im trying to save money