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[bluepandadraws-log]

As soon as I'm done with commissions (and depression stops being a bitch) I WILL draw more ragapom and make more comics, cuz holy SHIT we need more Sapphics up in this bitch!!!

[ghostly-fulcrum]

If i cant have them together,,,i will take this i need this

[probably-a-plant-thing]

I've only kinda watched the show but I really like his design and I'm a sucker for evil businessmen.

[elle-thereafter]

I loved Anna Ripley as a villain in the campaign but the animated S3 Anna Ripley is just so much hotter and way more interesting. I love me a villainous woman with a demon sidekick.

[nolassolace]

🥵

[nvmbersix]

worlds most weariest teen vs the local fortnite kid WHO WILL WIN !!!

[strawberrymothteeth]

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A shaded commission of their oc pluto @justaduckarts

[fire-lizard-ro]

Lil post about HSR men with religious themes for none have lead me into temptation I found the way myself-

This is for you @pix3lplays <333 (I was screaming at her about it, lol-)

I love???? Religious themed characters and the works that come out of that??? I have an Argenti smut fic in the works with heavy religious themes, but here's a mini ramble about Argenti, Sunday, and Luocha.

CW: blasphemy :))), religious themes, softcore gore almost but not really???, somewhat dark themes/dark romance

Yeah I grew up with church and stuff sorry if some of it does make sense to the general public lololol-

For Argenti (snippets from my fic I'm working on):

"He would sooner rend his mortal form to pieces than ever hurt you. Even a little. He would splay his torn shell across the canvas of stars that blanket the universe that was made for you for whatever other higher powers- whatever fate exists should there ever come a day in which his hands hurt rather than protect. So that they may judge what remains of his soul for his crime."

"At your behest he would present his heart, ripped from his chest, for you to take. You were his heart, anyways… Without you there was only a hollow cage within his chest where never again would the echo of a heartbeat reside. The fire nothing but ash where there was once a blaze of life and passion."

For Sunday:

It's either he makes you his church and his bride (talking about how the church is god's bride) or you make him your elohim your "I am". Perhaps both.

His penchant for control is perfect for this. He will be your only god for you are to have no false idols. Only he must remain in your heart for he is the owner of your soul, your life, your breath. He is the light and the truth. His word is law.

But of course, a god must tend to his flock. He will take good care of you for your devotion.

For Luocha:

The thorns. The almost rosary like item he carries, wrapped around his hand. The words he speaks. "Death is not the end. The dead will return."

Pix brought to my attention the idea that some have about Luocha carrying your body, devoid of breath and life, in his coffin.

And to that I respond:

"So devoted was he that not even the sacred soil of the earth would be allowed to have you. Even in death."

He would search until the ends of the universe to find a way to bring you back to him. Even though his god was made of flesh and blood as he, it mattered not. Only you could possibly be the divine for you were his cornerstone. Without you he would fall apart. God works in the waiting and surely this was his divine burden- His test from you to prove his devotion. He was sure he would one day complete this task for you and bring you back. You, the life beyond death. You the light in the midst of his darkness. His eloah, his elohim, his almighty.

[cute-girls-from-vns-anime-manga]

I love smol female protagonists in historical settings.

Tis best when they are a poison obsessed gremlin girl

[maxthesillyy]

i did a thing💥

note: defining cameo here as someone/thing from the previous games (or comics) being in Double Exposure as anything from ‘being a full-on side character’ to ‘got vaguely mentioned’

[lordoftablecloths]

cooking up another new pathologic au again

basically:

daniil is essentially herbert west from reanimator and i guess he's hunting down the other two while still trying to fix this plague with his death-fixer-upper

artemy has his heart taken away by mark (death punishment) so he loses his ability to love + he has to eat hearts to sustain himself

clara is more makeshift than before as the earth has even less than normal to create an adequate harbinger, and feeds off the disease via infected organs

ive been wanting to make this au for a while, and hey, it's spooky month !!!!

[nathaniel-underwood-is-an-intj]

Post Ptolemy's Gate ramble

So I just finished Ptolemy's Gate, thoughts are a bit all over the place and aside from mentioning the obvious I thought I'd dump some thoughts here.

Piper's apathy certainly shocked me. I know she's stressed running the council and she's got loads of organisation to do but oof she sure did come across as cold in her conversation with Kitty. Kitty has that kind of apathetic resignation of grief but it really felt like Piper had already put it behind her despite it only being two days before. Her boss that she worked for died horribly to save them all and she didn't even seem to share a quiet moment of grief with Kitty idk it just felt a little brutal 😅 I had an impression of her being really sweet so I was a bit taken aback.

One thing that really stood out to me was Nathaniel's apathy to the situation, I found it really interesting. I guess something could be said about it being the magician in him.

Nathaniel really has this duality to him, the obvious being Nat vs John Mandrake and of course Nat + Bartimaeus but in chapter 36 part ii something that caught my attention

'it was the feeling of consummate superiority, the delight of power weilded without peril. He danced beneath the night sky, smiting down his enemies.'

It already seems as if he's being elevated to something other- a martyr perhaps, except martyrs have causes and ideals, they do something because they have a strong belief in their justness. And Nathaniel:

'He felt aloof disconnected and alone. If his hatred for demons he had killed was dull and almost matter-of-fact, so was his sympathy for the people whose lives he saved.'

So he seems almost like an avenging angel, I love the religious imagery, especially because it seems to call back to Bartimaeus comparing his body to a holy mosque. But also divine rage is the driving force for an avenging angel and he's no longer even angry at the destruction caused.

'Pride spurred him on.' this almost makes him seem God-like?? His sole motivator is the pride of a deity, and I love that. But it's also just very true to him as a boy, pride spurred him on against Lovelace and against Duval and Whitwell.

When he's alone with Bartimaeus he's taken on this air of not being entirely human. He feels alone and solitary from everything including humaity. But when he rejoins Kitty, Piper and the rest of the magicians waiting for him he's reinvigorated - 'he felt a surge of joyful impatience - 'he would detroy Nouda, rescue the commoners and return to Kitty.' it seems as though he has to be surrounded by people to remind himself he's one of them. It could be seen as an effect of sharing a mind with Bartimaeus, but of course it could be Nathaniel's own human pride and his memories of being othered even as a child. Just gives the impression of this human / higher entity duality.

But also I partly got the impression that this hints to depression- I'm sure it's hardly out of the realm of possibility for Nat to have it. Though it's never stated I think several moments in the books make a good argument for it, including the above- just the numbness to everything. And I guess the sudden change in demeanor at 'surge of joyful impatience' can be read as hopefulness, but it reminded me of the saying that when people have decided to follow through on their s*icidal ideation they come across as happy and like a weight has been lifted from them. Nathaniel is impressively calm for someone who realises he's gravely injured. And while he can be seen as a martyr or hero for his final actions, the hollowness he felt at that moment gives it a more bitter edge.

I think it's made even more sad when compared to Anthony Lockwood, who has that same sense of pride - because he's trying to make his dead parents proud and because he's trying to hide the fact that he doesn't like himself very much. Nathaniel gives this same impression. And Lockwood at the end had reason to be proud, he uncovered a huge conspiracy, his agency became the most famous in London. And Nathaniel had reason to be proud; he's managing to wield the staff of his childhood hero, something he had dreamed of doing, he's had the bravery to unite with a spirit and he's going to take down the biggest threat to London.

But Lockwood gets something Nathaniel doesn't-

There's this subtle idea seen through Lucy's eyes that Lockwood's biggest achievement was fighting through his s*icidal ideation and discovering he has something to live for, even just seeing his friends again.

And Nathaniel just doesn't get that moment.

He sort of acknowledges that he doesn't have to be a powerful leader, that he doesn't need his colleagues approval, that he doesn't need to erase the fear the commoners have of him and other magicians, but without these things he doesn't know what to do with himself. He has no plan for the future, because even before he's injured the idea of a future doesn't seem to have much appeal to him. He already appears to have given up on trying to uncover who Nathaniel is, depite finally having the opportunity to. Like after everything- being beaten, the fear of his colleagues trying to harm him and burying himself in the John Mandrake persona to protect his sensitive side- he doesn't want to uncover the remnants of that boy because he's worried it'll be too difficult to put himself back together.

Or maybe he feels that he already has discovered who Nathaniel is, a deeply unhappy, hollow shell of a person, whose personality has been pulled in so many directions he no longer has a sense of self. He's been stripped back to the barest version of himself and found he doesn't even have the foundations upon which to rebuild himsef. Like discovering dry rot in your walls and you keep pulling and pulling bits of rotting wood away from the home until you've finally got it all, only to realise the house has come down around you- there's nothing left.

He doesn't get this moment where he works through his trauma, where he realises he has a support system, where he realises he's loved. I don't know if Nathaniel ever really knew what it felt like to be loved. I don't think he did. Ptolemy's death was awful and heartbreaking but his short life was filled with affection. And Lockwood realises people do care about him, depite being told that no one does. It hurts so much that Nat felt isolated and alone his whole life, right up to the last minute. Potential love confessions aside, Nathaniel never got a chance to sit and bathe in the warmness of affection. Like Bartimaeus tells him, it's about 'being not doing.' Nathaniel never got to understand the importance of just being, of simply existing as himself or of being happy. He constantly had to be working on the next goal, the next plan, because if he stops working he'll be forced to sit with his thoughts and realise how unhappy he is. And the thought of that is just too much to bear, it's so much easier to give in.

The ending gave the impression of being very romantic, while sad. Nathaniel gets to be remembered as a hero and never has to confront the consequences of his actions with wars in Europe and America that he had a direct role in. Acknowledging his role and dealing with fallout are two very different mountains to climb. And I think that idea of dying like a hero perfectly appeals to Nathaniel's prideful tendencies, and maybe he views it that way to hide the fact it's a convenient way out of his unhappiness and confronting what he's done. It's quite interesting to see that after he's been stripped back to nothing and can't figure out who or what he wants to be if he gets the chance, he still has that vanity and arrogance to him- despite not really being good character traits, they're so authentically Nathaniel, he's been that way right from the start and it's nice little peak of the real him at the end, being so humanly flawed.

[bulldog-geckorahhhhh]

I am playing TOUYS. Who wanna play with me? 🥺

@luzxii @paperbagirlratlover @xfriki26 @ferfbish

[weirdoinred]

megatron and soundwave angst but worse and with a different tune

soundwave is megatrons son (mayhaps optimus is his sire idk ignore me) so megatron abandons the decepticons and leaves soundwave behind and in the care of shockwave

Because of this soundwave feels a whole range of different kinds of hurt. He feels pain because his dad and the only person he really loved and thought loved him just up and left and switched to the side of their enemies (the same enemies he was raised to hate), he feels like its his fault for megatron leaving, he wasnt good enough and he didnt help the decepticons as much as he thought he did, he feels angry bc now he has to answer to starscream and thats just pure torture

BUT what he doesnt know is that megatron wanted to take him with him when he left but he couldnt. Even more angst bc of miscommunication and gues what!! Starscream AND shockwave lie about megatrons reasons for leaving in order to make soundwave hate him more

soundwaves pain and hurt keep him from seeing past the lies and cloud his mind and judgement

Im so not ok chat

[robotic-bakery]

spoilers for episode 6 & beyond of icebound

the daisy/honey/myelin family makes me ill and distraught, I'm losing my mind

the idea that myelin sees the icebound crew as bad luck and a tear in his plan to free his daughters that's he's worked on for years; meanwhile, both daisy and honey saw see them as a blessing and a lesson that people can still have power and be kind/caring towards others & strive to help them..

and even then, myelin having worked on this plan for years still wouldn't account for both daisy and honey not having the actual experience to survive by themselves paired with myelin likely not having the opportunity/time to teach them which set them both up to be doomed from the start..

(image is /nsrs, to clarify)

[blighted-lights]

Important question what drink would you say reminds you of Ravage

In vibes, or in looks/taste, or just "hey she would like this"

Also if you have any thoughts on a drink that would fit Soundwave you should share them

hi nonnie!! thank u for sending this bc i love thinking about stuff like this. PLEASE send me more questions if you have them, and this goes for anyone to send an ask!!! i'd love to answer <3

uhhh for what drink reminds me of ravage, i'd have to say- and i KNOW this is really specific- barq's cherry bite rootbear. i have no idea why it's this drink or how it relates to ravage, but yeah. it's that, straight black coffee, and black raspberry wine- but nothing fancy, just cheap wine.

for what drinks ravage would drink herself?? i'd say the vibes are there for black coffee and cheap wine, but she's not really someone who indulges very often for stuff outside of just basic energon- which i know goes directly against my "wine aunt ravage" joke, lol. he's got no taste for anything with a very strong taste or smell as it fucks with his sensitive nose, but he can handle bitter/tart drinks better than anything overly sweet or spicy. the only time he drinks something particularly fancy or expensive is when it's a gift from someone else (usually soundwave) or if he's giving himself a (very rare) treat. and if it's something like engex then she only gets the expensive stuff if she wants to feel it's effects quick. whiiich she doesn't do often- if ever.

ravage is more likely to drink something like engex in social situations, though- especially when he wants information! not enough to impair him cognitively but enough to "fit in" while he gathers the information he needs- which is what i think he's doing here;

he's nosy! he wants info, and he wants to at least look a bit natural while he's getting said info.

but other than that and when he's drinking on his own, he usually just sticks to energon, and lower-grade versions of energon at that. he doesn't usually add many additives either as they mess with his nose and tend to linger in his mouth too long. she's the only one out of the main six cassettes who has these preferences, btw, and when they're all together the others do try to push her to try new things. it never ends up working 😔

and hrm,,, 🤔 i don't have as many thoughts about soundwave currently but i DO think he would be a big tea guy. black coffee for him as well but it's less out of preference and more out of practicality. he does like finer wines than ravage but again, rarely indulges for duty reasons. can't be drunk on the job. he IS however high on the job, because if there's anyone who deserves a blunt or a chewie in the tf universe, it's him.

@holographic-mars any thoughts on soundwave drinks, mars??