#getting rid of bad friends

[khazadspoon]

The Good The Bad And The Ugly 1966

[anervousmirrorball]

why is it easier for some people to think they're good at what they do and harder for other people to believe they have something of value to offer? im struggling and i don't know why

[saecookie]

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[whynotimtired]

Literally clutching my stomach rn the painting he gave to mike is probably his first painting ever. He's primarily a drawing person bc they can't afford actual paints but then they MOVE and Joyce gets money from the government and a new job and they can finally afford paints and he didn't know what to make but he knew he wanted to make it for the guy he loves, the one who still has his drawings all over his walls, even the ones from kindergarten that have hearts all over them, and if he was gonna paint anything he would want to know it would be appreciated afterwards even if it sucked. Oh god my...my stomach...

[bluegekk0]

Been feeling like a huge disappointment recently but I just Hades II so I think I'm gonna be fine for a bit. Maybe.

Well, the game's awesome so it'll be a nice distraction at least.

[iznjstilldoodles]

got into my childhood neopets account to play with some friends a few months ago now, got two of lil Izzy's dream pets

[quietwingsinthesky]

Hiiiii! So, a few days ago you were talking about the whole thing with Amy, Rory, and River. And when I saw those posts a thought arose in my head and I wish to share it with you.

Since River grew up with Amy and Rory as Mels. And Mels was Amy's best friend do you think that they ever talked about children? Since I know that it can come up when talking with friends, and like... do you think that Amy might've ever expressed whether or not she wanted children?

And if she didn't, that Mels would've had to listen to her mother say that she doesn't want children? The idea is so heartbreaking and sooo interesting.

What do you think about it?

no, no, see, you're so right and this drives me wild.

because, the way i see it, i don't think amy wanted children. she's somewhere on the 'hasn't thought about it' to 'vaguely negative feelings about it happening' range to me, which falls sharply into 'Not Happening Ever Again' post-s6. (specifically, in terms of having a kid herself, even if she could, i really don't think she would. i do love that she and rory end up adopting a kid later, because that does make sense, for amy pond who grew up alone in one universe with her family swallowed by cracks in time before the doctor helped her set it right again, for her to want to make sure another child won't be alone in the world like she was. getting off-track here.)

and that's so. because the first real memory river/mels has of amy is of amy shooting at her. and depending on how well the silence fucked up the rest of her memory, it might be one of the very first memories she has at all. that's how she met her mother, crying for help and getting a bullet instead. her mother tried to kill her, so of course, you have to think. she must have needed to hear that she was wanted, right? even if she was taken away, even if amy shot her, at some point, melody must have been wanted?

river is good at getting people to do what she wants, but she is very, very bad at subtlety. and mels is younger, has less practice, so when she wants to know this, she's just going to ask. blunt and quick, easy enough because amy's used to the way mels will open her mouth and you just have to be ready to roll with what comes out if you want to keep up. it's why they're such good friends (like mother, like daughter.)

they're nine, and mels asks if amy wants kids, and amy wrinkles up her nose and says she won't have time for children, obviously, once her raggedy doctor finally comes back. they're fifteen, and amy and rory dance will they-won't they in a way that makes mels twitchy to watch, and taunting amy about wanting to have rory's babies is a good way to get on her nerves. but amy calls her gross, tells her she's got more life planned than children would leave room for, and besides, imagine her, a mom? it'd be a disaster.

mels does. a lot. she looks at her mother and just sees her best friend instead. she's not even sure what she wishes was there, but. maybe amy's right. and besides. imagine her, a daughter, instead of the ticking time bomb she really is? it'd be a disaster.

they're sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, and on. mels stands on the outside of a love story that births a universe. and her. how do you compete with that? not that she would know, not yet, she hasn't been there. but it doesn't make her feel any less alienated when amy and rory talk in whispers about a half-remembered world that's bled through to this life, about roman soldiers and boxes and the big bang of belief.

all these memories, they never mention children. on amy's wedding day, she's different, not like someone remembering a dream but someone who lived it. rory stands straighter, won't leave her side, and they're both so much older than they were yesterday. maybe now, right? a wedding's as good a time as any to decide you want kids.

mels not being at amy & rory's wedding is such an obvious lazy way of them trying to explain why they totally didn't just throw this plot twist together at the last minute that i'm not even going to acknowledge it. of course she was at their wedding. she's their best friend. there's too many people around the doctor, and she wasn't ready today of all days, so despite this horrible burning need under her skin to strike, she stays her hand. doesn't let him dance with her because she might just tear his throat out if he gets too close. stays with amy and rory as the maid of honor should. she must have been there for the awkward questions that always gets asked, 'so, any plans for a baby?' 'when am i getting grandkids?' 'oh, you two are going to have gorgeous children together.' standing a few feet from amy in her wedding dress and watching her mother tense and grit her teeth and brush off the questions. watching her look nervously at rory but never ask if he means it when his mom asks him if he'd prefer a son or a daughter, and rory answers 'either one, some day, not anytime soon.'

god i'm just going on and on, aren't i. but really, what's it like to know that amy never changed her mind. the next time she sees them, she's already been born and stolen. i don't like let's kill hitler for. so many reasons. but there is something compelling about how recklessly river lashes out at the world, at the doctor. even her sacrifice at the end is almost suicidal, throwing all her regenerations into this man without knowing if that will even work or if it might kill her to do it. but it makes more sense in the context of someone who has reached the end of a long, long wait for some kind of indication, any kind, that her mother wanted to have her. and finally been told, no. she didn't choose melody.

[nonuggetshere]

I keep imagining Lummis and Petunia in different outfits but never Flower, they always stay in their black pants and white shirt getup unless for special occasions, and I think the funniest possible explanation to this is if they have like 20 pairs of identical pants and shirts

Which makes sense if they're the Pure Vessel. Just throw something comfortable and practical but still okay-looking by noble standards on them when not on duty and sew a shitton of these bad boys for them, it's not like they have an opinion or preference or even need to be fashionable. Basic stuff will do.

The side effect of this is the fact post-reveal they still wear the same goddamn thing 7 days a week

And also they're autistic/neurodivegent in general. Having a duplicate or two (or 20) of their favourite comfy outfit is handy, and finding new clothes that don't have Bad Texture or annoying tags is a chore and a half.

[upside-down-sock-drawer]

Today marks the 1 year anniversary of my freedom! (I broke up with my toxic ex)

[bulletsfrank]

me when running away from everyone makes me end up all alone:

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

hi mac….. visiting u in ur inbox with a blorbo upd8….. qcellbit has gone missing and i am totally coping with it in a normal way he has been gone for almost three weeks now and I MISS HIM DEARLY!!! everyone on the qsmp got sent to hell in november and he still hasn’t returned i want him back :( he has people to eat and a husband to kiss and an ex-boyfriend/victim of cannibalism to torment and a son to reunite with but he cannot do that because he was maybe potentially blown up by a nuke. i miss him dearly!!!!

i would like to reiterate that i am absolutely coping with his absence in a totally normal and well adjusted way anyway i am going to pin up this missing poster in ur inbox and try not to froth at the mouth or start eating furniture

I HAVE SEEN UR MISSING QCELLBIT POSTS THEYRE SO FUNNY. IM SO SORRY UR CAT RAN AWAY I HOPE HE COMES BACK SOON...... have u tried leaving out a bowl of water or perhaps his favorite blanket or toy..... do not leave out a bowl of food bc that could attract other animals like raccoons which could potentially scare ur cat away.... i will keep my eyes peeled and give u a call IMMEDIATELY if i see him. i hope he has his rabies shots <3

[magpie-trinkets]

not discord threatening me to change my username or they'll do it themselves

[mydemonsyourangels]

raymew being boyfriends doesn't work for so many reasons but i think the main one is that neither of them know how to take care of each other

[rxbin-iii]

anyway i finally read nightwing: the new order and it made me cry

[wawek]

Was talking with my mom about how stressed about meeting new people at uni I was and she was like "but you used to be so good at making friends!!" "When?" "In kindergarden..." 😭

[quietwingsinthesky]

the amount of time i spend thinking about Even carrying the metacrisis doctor’s fob watch is really quite disproportionate to how much ive fleshed out that part of the story in my head