I got a (kind) rejection email from the rabbi I contacted but it really cements something I adore about the jewish community
Even though it wasn't meant to be that I'd work with that rabbi, he still said he thought it was so special that I'm attending shul and going through with the class, that he hopes I continue doing it. There's so much kindness that I've been met with and it's nice because I feel like I'm at a vulnerable point. It's nice to know how I've been as fully included in everything as possible.
The jewish community is a special place to be. I feel home.
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OOT/FF7 ART FINALLY.......
this is specifically supposed to show off a main thing that'd frequently happen in it where sephiroth and ganondorf sneak off at night just to talk to eachother (sephiroth isnt supposed to do that. bc of rules for soldiers ill explain soldier stuff another time) but yeah. hope u guys enjoy this vague post bc its all youll be getting of this au for the next few weeks probably. sorry..
and bonus drawing of genesis, angeal and sephiroth playing some card game Smile
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idk im glad they didn't give us any actual details about caleb and evelyn beyond belos's memories and like. fifty-sixth-hand information from masha's story so audience members not paying attention would at least know who they are.
whatever nitty gritty details the audience comes up with on their own for what happened to these two would be infinitely more satisfying to them than what the show would have been able to depict in a flashback. especially working within what's appropriate for children's television.
caleb the person isn't important to the story anymore. the MEMORY of caleb, which belos has never let himself get over in 400 years, is the important thing. and you don't need to know much about caleb for that to work. and while i loved the parallels between the wittebanes and hunter and luz, as well as the clawthornes being a descendent of evelyn, i'm glad they never confirmed it, and it remains situational irony purely for the audience.
hunter's only connection with caleb is his DNA, which also ties back to belos's feelings. him befriending luz is something they did of their own volition. it's not because hunter is fated to play out every beat of caleb's life by virtue of being his clone. similarly, while i love a good hunter clawthorne, dell taking hunter as an apprentice and eda showing care towards him in s2 are because eda is kind to children and hunter independently had passion for palisman carving. it's not because they found out they were related, because the whole show is about found family.
having flashbacks to the real caleb and evelyn wouldn't have contributed anything to the story aside from fanservice. what matters is how belos feels about them. belos's ego and the desperation to be acknowledged by his puritan community and God aside, the idea of caleb haunts his every action. not the actual ghost of caleb-i've already discussed here why the idea of caleb's ghost literally haunting belos would be a poor writing decision. belos knew the person his brother actually was, killed him, and imagined a perfect version of him that he chased after for the next 350 years.
the tragedy is that the perfect version of caleb is unattainable, and now belos can never get the real caleb back. he refuses to acknowledge that caleb may have been flawed before the influence of evelyn. to phillip, everything he thinks is wrong about caleb is because he was corrupted by the boiling isles, and that's part of the reason he starts on a quest to kill all the witches. it's also why he makes so many grimwalkers. he desperately misses that ideal version of caleb, so he makes copies of caleb and plays family with them.
and belos loathes the grimwalkers. he kills them because he hates the magic they were made with. because he hates being reminded of his brother and what happened to him. and of course, he hates the grimwalkers for not meeting his expectations of what his "ideal" caleb would have been like. it's a fluid expectation that belos, subconsciously or not, changes as he goes, all in order to take out his anger on innocent children. he seems to recognize his enjoyment of harming the grimwalkers, though it's unknown if he understands the reason-which is that the "perfect" caleb will never exist, and likely never did. phillip's brother is gone forever, and it's all his fault.
and idk maybe in the writers minds caleb was a perfect brother and baby phillip was just a possessive little shit. or maybe it's the opposite and caleb messed up a lot in communicating with phillip on his relationship with evelyn. maybe evelyn was a perfectly nice girl who was perfectly supportive of caleb and phillip's choices or maybe she hated phillip and the other humans and did convince caleb to leave it all behind. it's a fascinating piece of backstory and i love seeing fanworks that talk about it! but anything more about caleb and evelyn that the creators add in canon would give actual context to their situation that we don't need! their story has been over for 350 years and dont affect any of the other characters beyond how it affects phillip!
nothing more about these two can be said that will contribute more to belos's character that isn't already conveyed with the barebones material we got in the show. this story isn't about "forbidden love," this is about how phillip was confronted with the fact that his brother found happiness outside of him, and that someone he's been taught since childhood to hate may not be all bad. it's about how he plugged his fingers in his ears in response to this and went on a 350 year long killing spree to prove to himself that he can never be in the wrong.
basically, i wouldn't go so far as to call caleb and evelyn's backstory "purposefully unexplained," but i definitely think the story is a lot stronger as it is than it would be if they did explain it all. not every detail of a story needs to have a word of god answer as to how it all went down. sometimes adding in unnecessary detail for completionism's sake just distracts from the point you're actually trying to convey. while there are a lot of things that i wished the show could have explored in more detail had it not been shortened, caleb and evelyn's story is not one of them.
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As a follow up from yesterday: making friends as an adult is truly so difficult. I wonder if I’ll ever find someone I can fall in and out of discussions with the way I can with my oldest friend. It feels like the frustration people who come out of long term relationships describe. That feeling of “do I really want to start from zero and explain the bare bones of my soul to another person? Is it really worth the effort? Shouldn’t I just stay alone?”
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@drjxng // starter based on this plot!
Cass wasn't sure about all this. In fact, she was feeling antsy, arms crossed low, the index finger of her left hand tapping rapidly against her right forearm. The anxiety she felt about all this was festering some. Then again, it'd been festering for almost 3 months already- ever since Eric announced that he wanted to leave the band and focus on life out of the spotlight. Sure, he said he'd still be happy to show up on a few tracks if the band kept going without him, and someday he might come back...
But, for now, the band was kind of left floundering.
They'd keep getting royalties from their old stuff, sure, but they didn't have a lot of old stuff to fall back on yet- two albums and an EP. A few music videos. Some band t-shirts and such selling online.
Cass knew she would be fine- she lived pretty simply, anyway, and if, on the off chance, she ran into financial issues, her dad was well off enough to help her out. But the boys weren't so lucky. James, especially. He'd taken to the high life of his new found fame quickly and, if they stopped making music or lost too much of their popularity without Eric, Cass was pretty sure that it would only be a couple years at most before James was struggling.
But this... this proposed situation might just help them out. Yes, they'd lost their lead vocalist, and yes, that left Cass fronting the band (something she'd never wanted and now felt stuck with), but that didn't have to mean they were doomed. Some old fans would leave because they'd stuck around for Eric's vocals or his image, that couldn't be helped. But maybe they could hold onto some of their longtime fan base with new music. In which case, it would then just be about getting new fans to make up for the ones that were already trickling out. They just needed a way to get eyes back on them.... and this might just be a way to do it.
Cass had never been seen in a relationship, after all. Her focus had always been on the music. That didn't mean that she hadn't had a lover or two in the past, but she tended to keep that aspect of her personal life well under wraps. So "dating" someone as popular as Mikoto... well, it was bound to get people talking. And if people were talking, that would put attention on her and, by extension, the band. Which meant keeping, at least, a steady popularity long enough for a new album to be produced (they already had plenty of songs written up, after all some would just need to be changed to suit her voice better).
God, she hoped this would work...
"Six months..." She repeated. That's what had been suggested. Half a year of their lives dedicated to a fake relationship. It sounded like a lot... and yet, in the grand scheme of things, it wasn't really that much to ask. It's not like she was in an actual relationship or anything, anyway. Nor did she intend to be. And all they had to do was fake it. No strings attached. Just... showing up in public together sometimes, attending events together, acting like a couple of lovebirds. Right? It wouldn't be that difficult, and it would serve her well to actually be out in the public eye a bit more.
She paused in her pacing and her fingers stilled against her arm for the first time since this conversation had started.
"You really think this could work?" She had her doubts, but they were few and far between. She could help with his image and he could help with her career. It seemed like a win-win situation.
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