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#plant rant#GOT A DIAGNOSIS. VERY HAPPY ABOUT THIS.#genuinely. i am over the moon#this is the thing i was scared about but the scaredness is over now#i got a private assessment a few months ago but they were like 'no way man you're totally normal'#but i knew they were wrong so i waited until i got an nhs assessment. and they diagnosed me!!!#i love being right. hehe#autism rules
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So, Gushing Over Magical Girls Is The Best Thing To Happen to Magical Girls
Gushing Over Magical Girls get this bad rep. For all the wrong reasons. Iāve seen it be called an insult to Magical Girls, Iāve seen it be called āgooner baitā a term I absolutely despise but thatās a thing for another day. Iāve seen it insulted for everything and anything under the sun.
I first got acquainted with it when I was scrolling through Twitter and I saw someone complain about the PV. However, as an avid Magical Girl Fan, I wasnāt disgusted. I was intrigued.
I decided to read the manga, and oh god.
This is one of the best things Iāve read.
The story follows Utena, a shy girl that loves Magical Girls, tricked to become the evil general that will defeat the Magical Girl team āTres Magiaā.
And itās a delight.
I binged all the episodes available to me in the manga, and had fun in each and every chapter.
The same, however, couldnāt be said by half the people who watched the anime. And I was extremely baffled. As a queer woman, this was the first time in my life, in which I had seen something so deliberately catered towards me. I saw tell-tale signs of someone who genuinely admires the genre, and is simply using it as an outlet for exploring deeper and more interesting topics that a SFW version of it would not be able to.
Yet, I turn around and I see people calling it the most horrendous stuff, and accusing everyone who likes it of being monsters or men.
Genuinely, Iāve had enough.
Gushing Over Magical Girl is not the Devil. In fact, I think itās the best thing to come donāt even like Magical Girls AND IT SHOWS.
PART 1: āMagical girls are for little girls!ā.
The first criticism youāll see aimed at āGushing over Magical girlā is the amount of sexually charged content it has. And it is true. It borders on straight up porn in many instances and it just gets wilder as you go on. By chapter 30, weāre way past PantyShots. Like, Iāve seen some of these girlsā vaginas, and Iām not joking.
Personally, I donāt see anything wrong with it, but thereās people who might disagree.
āMagical Girls are for little girlsā some people say āand youāre corrupting it!ā
Which genuinely makes me laugh.
This is because this type of argument could only be done by someone with no real concept of Magical Girls aside from maybe Sailor Moon and Sakura Card Captor.
out of the Magical Girl genre in a WHILE (Ignoring Precure, because they just gave us a magical boy and thatās my win of the decade).
People are just, you know, stupid. And reactionary. Enough that they see a boob and lose their minds like a Karen at a Christmas Eve Mall.
My point is, I love this manga. And Iām willing to risk my reputation to defend it. Cause genuinely, half the people who are clutching their pearls over this show - Magical Girl Anime havenāt always been PG, or aimed at girls.
Cutie Honey is a great example. Itās one of the most famous Magical Girl Anime you will find - and itās a shonen. With the protagonist, Honey, being constantly naked, groped, put in suggestive situations and have outfits that show her cleavage.
And itās one of the most famous, most popular takes on Magical Girl there is. Yet, I never see any amount of outrage towards it. (Part of me wonders if itās because the fan service is aimed at men, rather than involving yuri).
Thereās also Lyrical Nanoha, one of the most popular serial franchises there is. It spans several seasons and spinoffs, and itās beloved by many.
And itās aimed at older men. Yes, itās a Seinen.
In fact, its origins are far from PG. Itās actually a Spin-off of an erotic game named āTriangle Heartā. It was most definitely not created with little girls in mind, and themes it tackles reflect as much.
Thereās Fate/kaleid liner Prisma Illya too, a spinoff of the Fate/Stay Night VN, very obviously aimed at older men, itās a Seinen. It has a lot of fanservice and scenes where the characters are half naked.
Day Break Illusion is also a Shonen.
And as much as I adora Madoka - Iāve been stating for years now that it isnāt a show meant for little girls. You could argue itās for everyone, regardless of gender, whoās a little older. But it most definitely wasnāt for little girls.
So, no. This was never an āonly girlsā club. Trying to paint it as such, is not only wrong but ignorant.
Magical Girl shows can be for anyone. Men, boys, girls, women and I find it infantilizing to consider it āonly for little girlsā.
No one says āsuper heroes are ONLY for little boysā
Well, some do. But theyāre, you know, bigots. Who donāt want girls playing or adults o have fun.
So no, Gushing Over Magical Girls being a sexually charged anime in the Seinen category isnāt ācorrupting the genreā. In fact, I would argue itās doing exactly what the genre has done in the OVA shadows for a while.
Not to mention, many people have screamed from the rooftop how they want āmore mature Magical Girl showsā referring to the success of Madoka. But as soon as an actually mature take on Magical Girls shows up, tackling issues of sexuality and love, you all donāt want it anymore.
(We all know why, though. Americans, and western culture in general, considers mature themes, only that which involves violence. Anything close to discussing issues of sex is no longer āmatureā but āPornographicā and deserving of being shoved into a corner. With all queer themes, gender studies, and any nuance that could be had regarding these issues).
And speaking of sexually charged, have you watched so called āwholesomeā magical girls? Theyāre still very much sexy. Not in the āon the noseā ecchi way Seinen and Shonen are - but they still are.
Youāll find transformations were the girls are naked, zoom in to their breasts, youāll have panty shots every now and then. Even themes of growing up, having crushes, and innuendos about sex. Inappropriate relationships, taboo romance, and the likes.
Sakura had Rita and a professorās relationship (mutual in the manga), Sailor Moon had Chibiusa and Elliotās romance, Sugar Sugar Rune even having an element for ālustā and other different types of love, and letās not forget Mermaid Melody which has several instances of the girls naked, in compromising positions with other men. And Iām pretty sure Tokyo Mew Mew likely opened a whole bunch of doors for girls to be into CNC.
This is, by the way, normal.
Completely so.
These stories often talk about the girlhood experience. And girls and teenage girls are interested in all of these things. Theyāre interested in sex, romance, their bodies growing up, their own sexuality and the likes. Itās no wonder same-sex relationships and romance get included, theyāre part of what experiencing the world through the eyes of a young girl is like.
And subsequently, it stands to reason that as people who engaged with MG grow up - they find comfort in exploring their sexuality through Magical Girl themselves. Thereās a reason why thereās a growing section of āMagical Girlā in your local hentai site.
āMen get off on corrupting this wholesome girl targeted genreā is actually TERF rhetoric sneaking through the mainstream. It ignores AFAB ppl and gender nonconforming people, who grew up with Magical Girls, simply using a medium that originally started their journey of sexual identity, to explore more āgrown upā aspects of that same identity.
In particular, Iām a Cis AroAce Woman. I wrote a lot of Magical Girl NSFW when I first started writing NSFW Twitter threads. Theyāre bad and theyāre cringey. But it was something I needed.
Magical Girls were a huge part of my childhood and early teens. When I was mentally in the space to want to engage with NSFW content: it was obvious I would turn to what first sparked excitement.
So this idea that āmen are corrupting Magical Girls with their sick fantasiesā is nothing more than TERF-lite propaganda. People, including women and men, have been doing this for ages; for a variety of reasons. And doing so, doesnāt rob children of their spaces - but the gentrification of the internet is a story of another day.
The other argument I have heard is that GOMG is a mockery of the genre. Which is even more laughable in my opinion.
PART 2: Parodies and why I hate Earth Defenderās Club.
Gushing Over Magical Girls loves Magical Girls. Itās a parody, in a way, but it knows very well what it parodies. Itās not surface level in the slightest. And it absolutely is not mean spirited about it.
A lot of the time, shows that reference and parody the Magical Girl genre, do so in ways that feel like they view it as a lesser genre. They take generic images of cute girls in frilly outfits, swap the colors around, and have them chant over-the-top spells. Youāre meant to laugh, not only at how silly they look, but people who would love it. Especially if theyāre grown ups.
I do not like āCute High Earth Defense Club LOVE!ā For this exact reason - even tho many people praise it to all heavens.
Because
1) It feels surface level in its commentary and depiction of Magical Girls and
2) More mocking towards the genre than paying homage or doing anything with it.
The continuous use of the word āLoveā is a very obvious jab at Magical Girls using these words, which feels mean spirited just for the sake of it. Their outfits are almost exactly the same, save for the colors. And they all use the same sticks as weapon, with no thematic link for the shapes of the scepters. The mascot too (a wombat for god knows what reason), I think itās meant to be a joke of some sort for how ridiculous some of the mascots for the girls get, which rubs me the wrong way.
In general, it feels shallow and mean spirited. But no one calls this an insult to Magical Girls. Because people who like it don't actually care about Magical Girls. They see cute boys doing silly things and love it. Which is kinda sad.
Now, Gushing Over Magical girls has sort of that same problem on the Tres Magiasā¦But theyāre not the protagonists. And even then, in later chapters, they get power ups that are different in design, and thematically linked.
The protagonist, and the ones we follow, are Utena and the girls. And they all have very distinct outfits, all with motifs that are tangentially thematically linked, and speak of each characterās personalities in interesting ways.
Utena in particular has THIS outfit. Which a lot of people donāt like, but I actually do.
Itās very obvious itās taking inspo from other iconic Bad Girls in the genre. Namely, Utau, Kraehe and Devil Homura. All āEnemy charactersā that have unhealthy obsessions with other characters. In particular, I think the wings and the feathers resemble Homura - THE character known to have a massive obsession with a Magical Girl (Madoka), to the point of insanity.
Thereās also Magia Azure. Whoās a clear reference to the Mean Tsundere girl that is iconic to the genre. Sheās also a Miko. Which is a callback to Sailor Mars, arguably THE girl who popularized this archetype.
I also love what they do with the mascots. Unlike Earth Defenders, where the mascot is you know, a mockery of the archetype of a mascot - useless, only there to give power ups, and obsessed with food - the mascots of GOMG is taking a book from Madoka.
It considers the mascots both all-too-powerful and yet limited in their reach. Which is exactly what the mascots have always been in Magical Girls. Beings so powerful they can give mythical powers to girls, yet helpless to do anything on their own. So, they use magical girls as a vehicle to achieve their goals. Most Magical girls try to paint this as a good thing, but newer genres shine light on how dangerous that can be too.
Madoka tackles it with Kyubey as the main initial mascot, only later to turn out to be the villain of the series.
And in a Post-Madoka world, trusting the mascots is just the slightest bit more difficult. Thatās why, from the get go, GOMG portrays their mascots as morally corrupt. Heās not a good character, heās malicious and doing more harm than good. But for the majority of the series, heās painted more as a useless harmless evil than anything genuinely terrifying or worthy of concern. The attention is focused on other things.
But I love the way that itās heavily implied that theyāre not good. Itās a very interesting take on the mascot and it helps with the themes of the series. Which yes, by the way. Gushing Over Magical Girls has themes.
Which lead me to-
Part 3: Yeah, uhm, Gushing Over Magical Girl has themes.
Thereās this idea that Sex is an inherently violent act. In which a man humiliates and sodomizes a woman, and therefore the woman is exploited in some way. And 10x worse is any act that involves BDSM. Itās violence; born out of hatred.
This is TERF rhetoric. Iām not joking. This line of thought leads directly to TERF ideas.
Many on the internet have pointed out as much, and BDSM members have gone to be very vocal about it. In particular, people on the role of the submissive (or the bottoms) are loudly trying to explain the contrary. How they like the act of sex, like the idea of being vulnerable, or being humiliated. Thereās also plenty of LGBT+ stories that talk about it, both in western and eastern spaces. Just jump into the section of dom/sub verse at your local manga browsing website, and youāll find something.
That said, the same is not as common for people who like to ādominateā.
I can only think of two pieces of media that argue that, whoever is the dominant or the sadist, is also a human being. That whatever theyāre doing is done, not out of hatred for the submissive or an act of violence, but love.
One, is the husky and the white cat. In which Mo Ran, among other things, has to come to terms that his love isnāt āpureā. That he cannot love someone without the want to have sex, and to completely dominate that someone.
The second one is Gushing Over Magical Girls.
Itās very clear to me that Utenaās sadism isnāt a violent act. Itās an act born out of love. She genuinely loves the Magical Girls, and most girls for that matter, and whenever she is inflicting pain and fighting with them - what she wants is to ultimately help them in some way.
She wants them to ābe the cutest version they can beā and wants them to shine brighter than ever.
Thereās this one scene I love, around chapter 20, in which Baiser (Utena) is fighting Magia Azura. And due to Baiser going a bit too far, Azura ends up being Mind-broken. She crawls towards her, calls her āmistressā and begs to become her servant.
In any normal Hentai youāll find, this is a good thing. This would be the ideal outcome. A character being turned into nothing but a sex slave for the enjoyment of the dominant.
Which is why I found it breathtaking when that didnāt happen.
Baiser is horrified by this. She does not want to break the girls, she wants them to be powerful. She wants them to win. With her, the evil one, being nothing more than a vehicle for them to be even stronger than before.
This is the first time Iāve ever seen dominant or sadist characters being presented both sexually, and in such a positive light. Much less a queer woman in the same position.
It doesnāt treat BDSM sex as a disgusting taboo act, but something born out of genuine love - and a want to see the other person be or feel better.
This is reinforced around chapter 25 where Leberblume and Loco MĆ¹sica are fighting Baiser. For context, Loco Musica wanted to be an Idol, but had terrible singing. She uses her evil power to basically force everyone to listen to her sing (which is so reminiscent of Mermaid Melody btw). When they fight, Baiser wins, and is then set to use her new found power to āpunishā Loco Musica.
Originally, Loco Musica points out how Baiserās sadistic tendencies are āthe sameā as Lord Enorme, who weāve seen uses sadism as a genuine form of punishment. Something to avoid. You behave well, because you donāt want to get hurt or humiliated by her.
However, when Baiser uses her own unique type of sadism on Loco Musica, something happens. Instead of causing her physical pain by beating her or using violence, she forces her to get naked and perform her idol song like that. This causes her to get extremely embarrassed. And in the process, she actually starts to sing really well.
This is important for two reasons
1) Baiser is actually taking into account who Musica is. Itās later revealed that Musica wanted a more frilly idol-like outfit but Lord Enorme shut it down, for the sake of a more āunifiedā aesthetic. Baiser is not just throwing around the same treatment and punishment for all girls - what one might like, the other might hate.
2) At the end of the day, while she did the punishment, it was both embarrassing, but ultimately something that helped Musica and made her feel better.
And thatās really the key here, and why I love the series.
Sadism, sex and kinks in general are not tools of degeneracy. Theyāre treated as part of our experience.
Also, itās just fun?
Part 4: Gushing Over Magical Girls is just extremely fun when you donāt have a dumb bitch yapping abt how unholy it is to see tiddies on a screen
Yeah, GOMG just has one of the most creative depictions of the most insane of kinks youāll see - I could spent hour gushing over Nero Alice.
Seeing all these different kinks being depicted as powers and abilities that these characters have - and seeing how they interact with other people is just interesting.
The sex scenes are both hilarious and kinda sexy. Specially if you do like to see women all hot and bothered. Personally Iām not into girls (or anyone for that matter) but I have to admit the scenes were pretty hot. And there is no shame in admitting as much. No matter what the puritanical Christian on Twitter crying abt āgod honoring lesbian sexā Will tell you.
I cannot begin to explain just how hype and relatable it was to see Magia Baiser defeat Lord Enorme with the power of straight up delusion, we STAN.
So, yeah.
Itās been a while since I last saw a Magical Girl Show so unashamed of being a Magical Girl Show. Unashamed of being weird, of praising the genre and just enjoying it.
My essay is titled, in part, as a joking reference to my much more popular series āMLB is the worst thing to happen to the magical girl seriesā. Which I still think is true.
And while, yeah, maybe GOMG isnāt the best thing to come out of the genreā¦I still think itās good that it came out.
A lot of people say they want a more āmatureā take on Magical Girls but - this proved to me that just isnāt the case.
Gushing over magical girls proves that the Magical Girl Genre Can Be so much more than what people think. More than glitter and sparkles, more than vapid action scenes, or what little girls want.
Much like any other genre, it can be raunchy, it can be messy, it can explore things outside of the status quo. But it can still deeply respect the source material, and the origins of it.
GOMG proves Magical Girls can be fun. Just. Straight up fun. Regardless of your age. They can serve and connect you to parts of yourself you didnāt realize you could connect to.
I hope it proves to more people that the genre can be so much more than ājust for little girlsā that parodies can be more than pointing and laughing, and that it can have themes beyond just, āfriendshipā.
Magical Girls can be so much more. You just, have to have an open mind about it.
#gushing over magical girls#2k magical girl essay#cute high earth defense club love#sailor moon#puella magi madoka magica#shugo chara#I will defend this show with my life itās genuinely so much fun#yes I am willing to tank my reputation for it itās so fucking funny šš
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Hiiii everyone, we are so back.
First up, Valen baby. I recoloured his cyberware! All of that golden hardware he has - his forearms, his neural wiring on his face, his piercings, his wedding ring - finally match. I recoloured them to be the same gold as his eyes and he matches so nicely that I've ascended into heaven. I love matching and symmetry in OC designs š«
I also made Valen more freckle-y. I love freckles, so Valen's got even more on his shoulders and chest. Lastly, lore-accurate love marks; Valen's normally covered in both bitemarks and hickies. Why? Because Valen and his husband are (healthily) possessive of each other + leaving marks is a way for them to bond (they're also just extremely horny for each other). That bond with his husband is essential to his character, so I figured I'd add them in
More ongoing projects under here ā”
Second up, Vesper baby. Yes, my rarely seen second son is getting an awful lot of upgrades and will be reappearing soon because I missed him. He's back to being pink like his OG version! It'll be a little while yet before I've got him done, as I'm making him a new hair from almost scratch in Blender + giving him brand new tattoos. I'm very happy with how he's coming along so far, though.
Lastly, I'm recolouring cyberware for public release on Nexus! I really needed more variety when it comes to OC creation + I haven't seen recolours of these before. So I figured If Not Me, Then Who. There's two ready to go and I'll likely do more if everything goes well.
And that's everything for now!
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āThe Killing of Moon Knight,ā Vengeance of the Moon Knight (Vol. 2/2024), #9.
Writer: Jed MacKay; Penciler and Inker: Devmalya Pramanik; Colorist: Rachelle Rosenberg; Letterer: Cory Petit
#Marvel#Marvel comics#Marvel 616#Vengeance of the Moon Knight#Vengeance of the Moon Knight vol. 2#Vengeance of the Moon Knight 2024#Moon Knight comics#latest release#Moon Knight#Mr. Knight#Marc Spector#Hunterās Moon#Yehya Badr#Max Coleridge#the Ā«Dr. MoonĀ» look is critically underused#that aside#this is one of those cases where even if you see a twist coming I at least am not mad about it because it works so well within the story#I didnāt want to see Marc going back to just killing people because someone told him to#and this loophole fits so nicely where Marcās at now (as perhaps best evidenced in that last panel)#Marcās still the same adrenaline hound but what really gets me is the contrast#Marc saved Maxās life not to lord it over him for the rest Maxās days/demand penance or servitude#but all he requests/ wants is for Max to genuinely get better#(itās strategic in that that means the community wonāt have that brand of vigilante violence going down#but itās also personal in that he believes Max can get better and FEEL better#something Marc believes because if it could happen to him it could happen for just about anyone)#in /direct/ contrast to Khonshuās demands from his servants in exchange for their lives
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Seen at least one (1) person complain about Crocodile losing his "unique faceshape" (now having the same facial structure that 90% of OP men have) after episode 1086 came out and like
To be fair, yes, the shape of his head HAS changed since his first appearance in The Year 2000. The thing is, Toei's latest Crocodile Offering is frankly more in-line with how Oda drew Crocodile during Impel Down and Marineford than ever before. Like yeah he looks different, but this change isn't new
But that comment really did make me think about how FUNNY it is just how different Croc really looks from his first appearance, like. The evolution in how Oda draws the bastard is so facinating to me
These are from chapters 155, 160 and 205 respectively.
No massive changes happening here in the middle of the arc, but you can kinda tell that Oda was definitely still figuring out how this asshole was supposed to look as he got further into the Alabasta (which is perfectly normal), which just makes That First Appearance look even funnier with time because. Who the fuck is that lmaooo
But then we get to see him briefly during Miss Goldenweek's cover story, this being from the cover of chapter 413! All things considdered, bastard hasn't changed that much, still looks pretty much the same as in Alabasta. His head is maybe a little less elongated than before but still, chin is quite pointy still
And now we're in Impel Down at chapter 540. Again, dude looks about the same as he did before...
But it really doesn't take long for Oda to start reshaping this bastard's entire head at this point
Chapters 544, 546, 578, and cover of chapter 584
The chin is easily the most obvious part, but you can tell Oda kind of defaulted to giving him that same ol' evenly square-ish head most his conventionally attractive characters have during these story arcs (instead of the elongated shape he originally had).
And then we have the latest appearances, from 1082 and 1100
I do feel like comparing these to what's come before would be a little unfair considdering his health and eyesight and how those affect the artwork itself, but. They're there, for comparison's sake
But the point is still there. Crocodile's face shape has changed since his first appearance, but it's not like Toei was behind that, the change was (mostly) gradual and from Oda himself. And it mostly happened in 2008, so it's not new by any means either
So really, all Toei did was just update his character model because ā¬ļø is more accurate than ā¬ļø for One Piece right now
Regardless. The sheer difference between the two is hysterical to me
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XERO- XERO- HOW COULD YOU/SILLY?! YOUR LORD LUNAR AND SERVANT ECLIPSE POST HAS BEEN HOGGING MY BRAIN FOR THE PAST SIX HOURS!!
THEY ARE ROTATING IN MY BRAIN-
IT IS SO TRAGIC- IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL-
THERE'S SOMETHING SO EERY AND HAUNTING ABOUT IT-
A BROKEN GOD AND THEIR FAITHUL PRIEST. A BURNT OUT SUN AND A WITHERING EARTH, THAT SEEKS ITS LIGHT, DESPITE KNOWING, IT'LL NEVER BURN AGAIN.
THE WORSHIPPER, WHO HAS NOTHING, AND THUS CENTERS THEIR ENTIRE WORLD AROUND IT'S GOD. A GOD WHO LAYS ON A CRUMBLING PIECE OF LAND, UNABLE TO DO ANYTHING OTHER THAN WAIT FOR THEIR END, YET STILL TRYING TO SOMEHOW REASSURE AND COMFORT THE ONLY ONE LEFT, THE ONLY ONE WHO CARES.
A BROTHER, A COMPANION, WHO BEGS, AND PLEADS, AND YELLS FOR HIS ONLY FRIEND, HIS ONLY REASON TO BE, TO WAKE UP AND DO SOMETHING. IT DOESN'T MATTER, WHAT. EVEN IF THEY TEASE HIM, AND CAUSE HIM TO RAGE, HE WON'T COMPLAIN, AS LONG AS THEY ARE STILL HERE.
A SHELL OF A PERSON, WHO, IN ANOTHER LIFE, WANTED NOTHING MORE THAN TO HEAR THOSE WORDS LEAVE THE OTHER'S MOUTH. WHO NOW CAN'T EVEN RESPOND, AND ONLY WATCH IN FADING DESPERATION, UNABLE TO CRY AND REACH OUT. UNABLE TO TELL HIM "I'm still here."
HE HAS LEFT THEM IN ANY OTHER WORLD, AND IN THIS ONE, THEY ARE GOING TO BE THE ONE TO LEAVE.
I CAN'T TAKE THIS/POS-
What messes me up even more about it is their relationship in canon.
They are not meant to be. They are always meant to be miles apart. They are always meant to hate one another, to bite and tear and rip each other apart. Their siblinghood, from the moment it was created, was doomed, not meant to lastā¦
And yet.
They are still here, and they are together, and they care and love, and they beg for it to last.
In any other universe, Eclipse is meant to flash his teeth and leave.
In any other universe, Lunar is meant to long for something that can never be, until it becomes a part of them.
And yet, this time, this one time, it's different.
In this one universe, this single, crumbling place, they'll be at each other's side until the end.
This one time, Eclipse will stay, and instead of flashing his teeth, he'll cry and scream and embrace.
In this one universe, Lunar won't long for something unreachable, won't become a reflection of what they so despise. Instead, though they are unable to answer, they will know how much they were cherished and loved.
This one time, the spiteful creator, afraid of affection, worships and prays.
This one time, the creation, haunted by what they could never have, is worshipped and loved by the one they longed for.
This will be the first, and last time. This will be the only universe, where they mean everything to each other, where they are each other's worlds.
Had their situation been any different, they would kill one another. But as they are, they lay silently in the grass, waiting for the end, for one cannot fight, and the other sees no worth in a world without their god, the only person to get past their walls and reach for their hand.
And most tragically, no one will ever know them.
No one will ever know of their world.
No one will ever know, that they are capable of simply loving one another.
"Do you think we're brothers in another universe?"
No, They are not. They won't ever be again.
Their fates are intertwined endlessly, but it will always be twisted and cruel.
They are only brothers this one time. But maybe that's enough.
Maybe they are just happy, it was them.
-Stardust
HAJAHSJAHSJS!!!!!!! HAJAHSJAHSJANSJSHJSNDJS!!!!!!!!!!! YESYYEYSYED AHHHHHHH STARDUST YOU GET ME YOU GET MEEEEEEE!!!!!!!
YOU SEE MY VISION YOU UNDERSTAND THE VIBES I WAS GOING FOR YES YES YES!!!!!!
AND AHAHSGSJSBSJSGS DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON EVERYTHING YOU SAID ABOUT HOW THE CONTRAST WITH CANON I DIDN'T EVEN THINK ABOUT THAT I'M GUNNA CRY /POS
THEY'RE A TOTAL OPPOSITE OF CANON..... Eclipse at Lunar's feet begging to hear something, anything, from them and Lunar only being able to watch no matter how hard they try...... They are right in each other's arms. There's nowhere else to go but they wouldn't leave if they could. Other Lunar and Eclipse duos could probably not even begin to fathom such a situation.....
GHBPHBBUEHEUUE AND,,, WHEUUEUE,,, AND AOAUGHH TGEYRE ONLY BROTHERS THIS ONCE,,,, BUT MAYBE THATS ENOUGH . MAYBE THEY ATE JUST HAPPY IT WAS THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#asks#anon#stardust anon#AAAAUAUUUUYGGGGHHHHHHHHHH DIES DIES DIES DIES#YOU GET IT!!!!! SHAKES YOU SHAKES YOU /YOU GET IT!!!!!!!!!/#AND THAT NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW THME AAUAAAAUAUUGGGHH YEAHHEYAHATAHHEUWHEUEHHEUEUEUEU#STARDUST YOU CANT DO THIS TO MEEEEE /OOS#I'M ALREADY SO DEEPLY SAD SBOUT THEM THIS IS GOING TO MAKE ME BRAINROT FOR SO MUCH LONGER BPBPBOPHEKSGWKSGSKSHD#CRIES ALL OVER YOUR BRAND NEW HARDWOOD FLOORS#I WISH I HAD MORE WORDS RO CONVEY JUST HOW HONORED I AM THAT U LIKED MY IDEA SO JUCN + THAT U SAW SO MUCH IN IT IM GENUINELY SO HAPPY AUAGHH#sun and moon show#the sun and moon show#tsams#sams#tlaes#lord lunar#sams lord lunar#servant eclipse#sams servant eclipse#long post#very long post
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Aforementioned Napoleonic AU! Martian !! I said it would just be a wip but then oops, I basically finished it! Ty to everyone who was interested :D
Really really proud of these I'm ngl! I rendered in a really different way than ever before and I'm very satisfied with it :D
Ramble about historical influences(basically me being a nerd about who I consider the F1 drivers of the Napoleonic era):
So I wanted to explain my thought process because I think that the specific context behind the uniforms I drew is very relevant, as I didn't just pick them on a whim.
I drew them in Hussars' uniforms(Austrian Empire = Red Bull, but like obviously not 100% accurate because the uniform colors are based off the RBR racesuits.) Hussars are, in my opinion, the F1 drivers of their time. Let me quote several things that led me to this conclusion:
"During the Napoleonic period, hussars, as in all armies, were employed as scouts, given raiding missions or despatched to harry and pursue a defeated enemy on the run. Mounted on light, nimble horses..."
"...Their flamboyant costume and their reputation for daredevil acts..."
"...developed a romanticized image of being dashing and adventurous.
Okay....so they're dashing and adventurous, riding specifically on fast, light horses, dressed in flamboyant outfits committing daredevil acts...sir that is literally an F1 driver!!! Tell me they aren't the historical predecessor to F1 drivers!!!
I have this big book of Napoleonic uniforms(yea I'm a nerd) and I was paging through it to see what uniforms I wanted to draw(I have a habit of drawing my one oc in the Napoleonic era. So when I started drawing fanart, I'm like of course I must draw them as this!) Austria's normal uniforms in this era are soooo boring compared to France's, so I was really š about drawing them, but then I came across the Hussars, and then started noticing all these similarities and thought it was perfect. Also I need to mention the fact that Austria's royal cipher at the time was literally this:
IT'S "F1", IT IS LITERALLY FUCKING F1, WHAT THE HELLLLL!?!?!?!? I had like a partial mental crisis coming across this, at that point it was destiny for me to draw this
*I forgot to include actual ref images š, so here you go!!
*I wrote most of his around when I started this drawing, which was all the way back in April. And it's really interesting to consider now that I was basically immersed in the history of the Austrian Empire for a month. I apologize to everyone in my life who had to endure my lecture on why Hussars are the F1 drivers of their time. But god I could not hold it back when I saw some of these uniforms in person. And it was cool to pull out this drawing, even if it was just a wip, and be like "oh hey I've drawn these!!" Anyways, I digress.
Obviously the martian drawing is a direct reference to this pic from Malaysia 2010:
My thoughts on this picture:
I almost wanted to draw Seb in the Austrian Kaiser's outfit, but it is nowhere near as slay as the Hussar uniform, so Hussar uniform it is!
I have many thoughts and opinions on the lore of this au so pls ask if you're curious but it's also just a lot.
#me: i will draw anything but their racing suits idk how to draw that :(#also me: then procedes to draw them in the most complicated uniforms ever#like seriously how is this easier to me than fucking race suits????#catie will draw anything but normal f1 fanart#you will only get weird AUs that have even me going 'why did i make this???'#as ive said before i have burnout most of the time but then will be able to draw for hours at a time every once in a while#this was one of those times.#ty to everyone who said theyre interested!! you guys made my brain kick into gear#like the before of what i was gonna post compared to what i actually finished is pretty insane#i drew that seb drawing and discovered a method of rendering that was easier to me#so then i was able to go back and finish that drawing and not go mental over it#i just have a habit of being overly meticulous and then not being able to finish things#so these are great cause it was kinda just 'fuck it'#but god i genuinely actually love drawing napoleonic uniforms its very soothing to me#as if you couldnt tell my weird obsession already when i said that napoleon painting is my fav painting ever#anyways please take my weird obsession fanart !! i am pleased w it :D#i asked if anyone was interested bcs i think i couldn't just post this without preface LOL#martian#sebmark#mark webber#sebastian vettel#f1#formula 1#f1 fanart#formula 1 fanart#catie.art.#<- i use that tag every once in a blue moon fr#hussar au
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the biggest reason why I think byler is endgame (or at the very least that miIeven ISN'T) is pretty damn simple: with the exception of season 1, mike's main plot has always revolved around will, and with the exception of season 1, will's main plot as also always revolved around mike. sure, they both have subplots with other characters and sure mike and el's relationship is given the narrative weight it deserves. but the truth is, mike and will's relationship IS placed above mike and el's within the narrative. and that's all you need to understand to know what relationships the writers are paying more attention to.
el's main plot in s2 was with hopper, in s3 with max, in s4 with brenner and henry. mike's in s2? the writers actively made the choice to separate him from the other boys and include him in will's possession plot. in s3? again, they made the choice to separate him and el early in the season to focus on the growing tension between him and will. s4? AGAIN they made the choice to separate him from el for the entire season. because his main character arc is WITH WILL.
and now we're seeing? byler bts, byler bts, byler bts. there have been multiple byler bts and only one miIeven bts. and sure, we don't really know for sure that mike's plot in s5 is going to center will, but it sure is telling that for the past three seasons mike and el's relationship hasn't been given screentime in favor of mike and will and then we aren't seeing ANY miIeven bts? maybe because yet again, mike's plot for the season centers will? and I can't confirm that means byler is going to be endgame, or even that miIeven are going to break up, but even if none of this happens, byler still got the storylines, byler still got the effort, byler still got the screentime. and I will always count that as more of a win than who mike ends up with
#byler#i genuinely do not care about my ships becoming canon#not saying it wouldn't be nice because it byler was endgame I'd be over the moon#but i am saying#as a byler shipper#i still feel like a winner#because i get more screentime with my ship
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#inspired by some recent film watches#namely#killers of the flower moon#the boy and the heron#my sister and I were talking about this after watching the boy and the heron#bc throughout the whole movie neither of us could quite get over the fact that Mahitoās dad married his motherās sister#and this isnāt really questioned in the film aside from Mahito noting that his aunt looks almost identical to his mother#we both came to the conclusion that we would pull a Conjuring on each other#(not that we would ever do something we consider so dastardly)#anyway I am genuinely interested#I want to know how different cultures view this#maybe some people view it as beautiful because family ties are maintained & new stepmom will also love the children of her sister#polls
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...BIG FEELS AND BIG PLOT DEVELOPMENTS AT THE END OF THAT BOOK, HUH
#Tyto reads WoF#i know it's not the most pressing issue what with the vengeful ex-Queen and the murderous sister and all#but I still want to point out how alarming it is that the new crew are all going to be wearing seemingly radioactive rocks as jewelry now#Turtle please don't pick up strange rocks that give off their own heat for the love of all that's good#ANYWAY yeah what the actual frick is going on with Darkstalker huh. I genuinely do NOT know whether he's trustworthy or not#desperately lonely and unfairly demonized? absolutely. truly cares about Moon as a friend? I think so.#capable of integrating peacefully into modern dragon society without letting his own ego turn him into the monster he denies ever being?#....... š¬ remains to be seen#god and there's Scarlet's mysterious new accomplice(?) with the maddeningly vague physical description and also THE SCROLL(!!!!)#and i just realized we failed to get resolutions in this book for EITHER the vision of Turtle attacking Anemone OR#Flame's unique and frightening ability to sense and/or attack mindreaders????#where the HECK are we going with Flame I am going lowkey INSANE over him#ugh frick and Umber and Sora are both on the run too...!! this book is nearly as cliffhangery as Dark Secret#(though thankfully i prepared for this by checking the next book out ahead of time so i wouldn't have to wait LOL)#uhh buhh final thoughts before i force myself to go to sleep:#I love Moon and everything going on with her but I do feel like on some level it's even more of a slap in the face for poor Starflight#that the only tribe to get multiple POV characters in this first. like. extended arc(?) appears to be the NightWings#and Starflight himself doesn't get any of the tribe's unique defining features or abilities#i mean i guess the same is sort of true of Sunny and yes i know it was the POINT of book 4 that the tribe had no powers#but still idk it just feels like kicking the poor boy when he's already down. in addition to him literally getting beaten up again#(... now watch me be a total fool and the arc actually extends past book 8 or something making this point moot lol)#(I'm only assuming it ends at 8 bc that's where the previews in the back of the previous books have stopped)#EDIT: LOL yep turns out this arc does extend out to book 10 and the other POVs are Turtle and Qibli so I stand corrected.#that's what I get for nightblogging
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i wish to have friends and to enjoy life and to find love and to feel pretty in a dress and to be able to smile without feeling sad for the times when i wonāt be able to and to be invited to parties on holidays and to have somebody to dance with in the rain and to live life free of the expectations of someone else and the required stress of simply existing
#holidays always make me sad#nobody will probably read this#but i hate the feeling of being happy but unable to escape the fear of the happiness fading#iām constantly worried about feeling bad that iām basically never happy#i donāt even have a friend to invite me over to sit on their bedroom floor and watch austin moon edits to#i dont have anybody#and it feels really shitty#and i promised myself i wouldnāt let myself feel this way this year#2025 was not supposed to start mourning the life I can never seem to obtain#but here i am#sad because i went another winter break without an invitation anywhere#alone on my couch#watching bridgett on and crying#because i genuinely donāt think ill ever find happiness and love#i think iām annoying and unloveable#and i can hardly blame people for no wanting to be my friend#or invite me anywhere#because iām positively dreadful#iām too loud and too quiet simultaneously#i want a partner but iām too reserved to attract anyone#iām gonna die alone in my twenties never having dated a soul#because who would ever want me
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A couple weeks ago, on 4/22/23, I purchased my dream car - a Jeep Grand Cherokee!! This has been my dream car for the last 6 years and I have been waiting for this moment for so long! As a new chapter of my life is about to begin as a veterinarian, I felt it was time to gratefully say goodbye to my Honda which carried me through the entire veterinary school journey, from applying to vet school all the way through all 4 years as a vet student. But with graduation right around the corner, I decided it was time to upgrade to a 4x4 and treat myself to the car of my dreams! Welcome to the vet journey, Cocoa (short for Chocolate Chip)! š¤
#sapphire rambles#my dream car#remember when I made the poll a couple weeks ago?#the jeep won the poll#and I knew in my gut the jeep was the car for me#Iām so in love with her#after 6 years I finally have the car of my dreams#sheās absolutely gorgeous and the previous owners kept her in such good condition#she has so many accessories and features that I love#yāall Iām genuinely so so happy#sheās everything I wanted in a car- bigger faster and cooler#I adore my lil chocolate chip#isnāt she stunning?#yāall I have wanted a keep grand Cherokee for so long! and I finally purchased my first car by myself!#i am over the moon#jeep#jeep grand cherokee
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i totally missed that i reached 4k followers!!! iām a little bit in awe right now but i guess that means we gotta have a bit of a celebration <33
#4000 people#thatās so many people i am over the moon grateful for#thank you thank you thank you#i know these posts can come off insincere but for anyone to ever like my writing is genuinely very meaningful to me
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fic writing is going GREAT
#genuinely cant remember the last time i was this consistently able to write this much#i am over the MOON about this ii longfic
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absolutely vibrating with excitement at the possibility of getting to see beloved Tealeaf back in action with the rest of the Nein soon ššš
New Plank King Tealeaf art!! Maybe weāll even get some merch or a little mini of him finally ; ;
Taliesin please tell me how the tief who used to worship the Moonweaver and was comforted by her in every lifeā¦how would he feel about going to the mOONā
#hopping around head full many king tealeaf thoughtsā#there is genuinely a good chance of actually getting to see him again in c3 soon now and I am#over the moon about it!!
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Yeah hello hi I've been falling deep into the Crocodad Rabbithole and my brain is being consumed by small crocodile-shaped worms
So I've done what any reasonable person would do, I went back to rewatch some scenes from Alabasta and Marinford to psychoanalyze Crocodile and try to figure out what the fuck his deal is because genuinely the more I think about it the more questions I have and the more I want answers. And because I'm deranged I need to write all my thoughts down into an incoherent essay and release it into the world
So please, come along with me while and let's be Extremely Normal About Sir Crocodile Together and speculate about his ~Secret Past~
Quick note, my quickest access to some of these episodes is either through unsubbed episodes (not bothering with getting screenshots since there's no subs, also my Japanese is plenty good enough to not need it here) or through Ancient, Questionable Fansubs so don't get too hung up on the phrasing in the subbed screenshots- like they're not entirely inaccurate but y'know
The reason I want to do this is just that... Like I've been a fan of OP since 2008, when I was in middle school. I don't think I ever really tried to think deeper about this series in general at that time, because I was a kid. For a long time to me Crocodile had just been Some Greedy Asshole who tried to take over a country to obtain a tool of mass destruction and IDK destroy the world? Just a very classic Bad Guy McVillianMan, because I had not bothered to think about his character and question anything before.
But now I have brainworms due to the Crocodad Theory, and this is fucking One Piece, you never fucking know how deep a rabbithole can go with this bloody series. So let's go, let's try to figure out what the fuck is Crocodile's deal, because I need to get these brainworms out of my fucking system
I just want to start with this one quick throw-away line because it's kind of a sidenote. Also like. This is such a funny fucking thing for Crocodile to say if he is Luffy's dad. Like.
That's so fucking funny if he's Luffy's dad holy shit
But what really gets me here is that like... Like while I'm like 70% sure Crocodile is trans, there's still a part of me that's like "there's no fucking way Crocodad is real". Let alone, this be some kind of a hint Oda planted to suggest that this early on. Like it sounds absurd. And yet at this point in One Piece, Oda had already started planning out and laying out the groundwork for so many lore and plot-relevant concepts, ranging from shit like everything about Robin, the Poneglyphs, the Ancient Weapons etc. He had already started the "Prince Sanji ARG" (aka dropping the tiniest fucking hints to Sanji's Hidden Backstory that people were able to pick up on and make accurate predictions with about Sanji's backstory). There's fucking Laboon, and about a bajillion other things. And possibly most importantly, by this point Oda had already revealed both Luffy's father and grandfather to the readers, not to mention he even introduced Ace and vaguely hinted at Sabo! It's not like Oda had everything perfectly planned out from the very begining, that is objectively not the case at all. But it also literally would not be unlike Oda to drop hints to a character's backstory like this. He has been doing that for years, and had already started by the time we met Crocodile. Like it feels insane and yet it's perfectly plausible. And if he had Luffy's dad, grandfather and two siblings planned out in his head already at this point, it should not be that much of a stretch to believe that Oda knows and no doubt has known for the past two decades who Luffy's mom is (regardless of if that's Crocodile or not)
All this to say. Crocodile's comment about what Cobra said to Vivi when they reunited is a funny, sarcastic comment. But it would take a whole new meaning if Crocodad was real. Because it really would be perfectly normal if he did/had wondered what he would say to his long lost child if they were ever reunited. And really that just makes his roast turn sad.
Anyways
In Alabasta, we do get a very clear image that Crocodile does not like the World Government, not just because he's a Big Meanie Pirate who wants to conquer the world, but because he does seem to look down on how the Marines + World Government do their "justice" (which, y'know, knowing what we know now about the Government. Fair. That's entirely fair.)
He also dislikes Vivi's "idealism" of wanting to save everyone without bloodshed or anyone losing their lives (especially for her sake)
We learn that he is a broken man with broken dreams. Also he seems to be aware where he (supposedy) belongs in the Grand Line's power hierarchy, as in, he needs Pluton because he knows he's not strong enough in combat that he could take down anyone, let alone the World Government by himself (though he would still make a beeline for Whitebeard's head the second he saw him at Marinford, which, y'know, bold move)
And of course, we learn in Impel Down that Crocodile and Iva-chan have some beef. We can not say for 100% sure what that beef is (like the theory he's trans is very obvious and plausible, but until Oda spills the beans we won't know for a fact what the beef is), but we know that they knew each other. And if Crocodile knew Iva-chan, a high-ranking founding member of the Revolutionary Army, then it is genuinely plausible that Crocodile could also have known Dragon and/or been a member of the Revolutionary Army as well.
Since overthrowing the World Nobles and the Government are the Revolutionary Army's goal, the fact that they're trying to obtain weapons and people for their cause etc, Crocodile's view of the Government and his "Operation Utopia" does kind of align with the Revolutionary Army's
But we did also learn from Iva that "Crocoboy" isn't quite trustworthy. Needless to say, even if Croc used to be a part of the Army, he most certainly left YEARS ago, and clearly not on good terms.
Also, an interesting note, is that at Marineford when Luffy and co finally arrive at the battlefield (episode 466, 17:25 minutes in), when Garp spots the group, he makes a specific comment about Crocodile being there together with the revolutionaries and the prison escapees, believing they can't all be here to fight for the same cause. Which is an interesting thing for him to point out specifically. Like Jinbei was another powerful person who entered that battlefield at the same time, and while Jinbei did clarify to Sengoku that he's quitting being a Shichibukai and was there to save Ace, it's still maybe a little odd Garp didn't think it was worth mentioning that Jinbei had also "allied" with the prison escapees and the revolutionaries to enter the battlefield. Like it was Crocodile only whom he thought needed to be pointed out. I don't think Garp's comment adds at all to Crocodad because it would frankly make little to no sense (like we're all assuming Crocodile didn't know Dragon's lastname, which is why he never realized Luffy was his son (despite knowing Luffy's lastname), but if Crocodile knew Garp was Dragon's father then surely he'd realize Dragon's lastname would be Monkey, right), but it could maybe add to the idea that Crocodile might've been a part of the Revolutionary Army in the past, as Garp could be aware of something like that, thus he'd be puzzled by Crocodile's presencee. Point is, it's an interesting comment, make of it what you will
EDIT 2: Ended up going back to reread parts of Marineford and turns out ^that^ was an anime-only addition from Toei. Like Garp does make a comment about how these people probs aren't at the battlefield for the same reasons but did not specifically point out Crocodile or anything. So. I wasted enough time adding these paragraphs to the post, I ain't deleting 'em. But y'know.
EDIT: Minor addition, because I just remembered how Crocodile really went like out of his way to taunt Vivi about how she "can't stop the rebellion" and save her people. Which, y'know, is a perfectly normal Villian Thing To Do. But we know Crocodile does not think fondly of the World Nobles just like he dislikes the Government. Even if Cobra was a "good monarch" who genuinely cared for his people, he was still a king, and the Nefertari family and the Kingdom of Alabasta were a part of the World Government. The thing Crocodile specifically wanted to destroy. And this is just another one of those "surely that wasn't somekinda foreshadowing" but god fucking dammit what if Crocodile telling a(n unknowing) representative of the World Government that she can't stop "the rebellion", or the revolution if I may, (regardless of if he's allied with them or not) was actually meant to be like foreshadowing. Oda I swear to fucking god---
Anyway, so, Crocodile might've been a part of the Revolutionary Army at one point (the army was formed after the Ohara Incident 22 years ago, and for Crocodad Theorizing, Luffy was born 19 years ago), but if he did he must have left on bad terms for unknown reasons, and we can tell that although his goals in general could vaguely match that of the Revolutionaries, his methods most certainly don't.
Whether or not his methods and his worldview tie to his leaving the Army is unknown. Because we don't really know when and how his worldview was formed.
Like did Crocodile leave the Army because he became a cynical asshole who was willing to make any kind of sacrifice for his goals (thus he no longer fit in with the rest of the Revolutionary Army), realized he was far too weak to ever become Pirate King and thus decided to go looking for Pluton? Or did Crocodile suggest to the Army they should try to obtain an Ancient Weapon to keep casulties to a minimum (still in line with the Army), only ending up getting kicked out (big weapon bad), and soon realizing he had no chance at making a change in the world without "cracking a few eggs"?
Like it doesn't nececarily make a massive difference,, since the end result is still the same, but it does kind of affect the context and how one might view him, right
Of course, there's then the Forbidden Third Option, that Crocodile left due to
Gender issues (internalized shame of being trans and not having it in him to stay around people who had known him)
Postpartum depression
Dragon just divorced Crocodile either due to being straight (in a sad, accepting way) or due to being simply unaccepting and frankly homophobic, regardless, Crocodile leaves with a broken heart
Something else and/or a combo of the above, really, we could speculate endlessly here about what could've happened
(Though I will say that Crocodile's '"trust issues"' and how he views people as disposable could like. I dunno. Be explained if he had gone through some heartbreak and was left permanently unable to open up to people, let alone trust anyone)
I dunno, there's a lot of options, a lot of things to considder.
But there is one more thing that I do want to note on as it could potentially debunk the Crocodad Theory entirely.
It's that Iva-chan didn't know Dragon had a son.
(Episode 441, 9:50 minutes) By which I mean, Iva-chan wasn't shocked to find out Luffy was Dragon's son, rather, they were shocked there was a son to begin with. (To the point they thought Ace was also Dragon's son until Luffy cleared it up for them later) While it's not a massive leap to believe that Crocodile and Dragon knew each other (since Crocodile knew Iva-chan), nor is it a massive leap to believe that Iva-chan transed Crocodile's gender after having Luffy... It does become a bit of a leap to believe Iva-chan didn't know about Dragon having a child with Crocodile before giving Croc the Magic HRT. Like if they had a relationship that resulted in a baby and a divorce, how did Iva not know about any of it, especially when it's more than likely that Iva could not have transitioned Crocodile until after the baby was born (let's not think about how Iva-chan's powers would work on a pregnant person too much)
We do also get this flashback (in episode 441, immidiately after Luffy reveals his dad's identity to Iva) where Iva-chan questions Dragon about how he always stares out towards East Blue when the wind blows, wondering if Dragon has family out there whom he's thinking about (Dragon refusing to comment on it). This does very much confirm that regardless of who Dragon had Luffy with, Iva has no fucking clue who, where and how any of that happened. And althought I personally feel like Iva not knowing would debunk Crocodad, if Crocodile still somehow was Luffy's dad, Iva-chan would canonically not know about it. If Iva didn't know Dragon had a relationship that resulted in a baby, then regardless of if Iva even knew Crocodile got pregnant once, they would not be able to connect those dots.
Now let's be clear, there's many potential scenarios where Crocodad could still be real, scenarios that could explain why and how Iva-chan didn't know about Luffy nor about Dragon and Crocodile having a relationship*. Like it would not be difficult at all to come up with an explanation for it. But in my mind, I feel like the more you have to figure out and explain how the theory could still be plausible, the less plausible it actually feels. Like the more I need to go out of my way to explain it, the more forced it seems.
*(For example, maybe the two kept their relationship a secret, and when Crocodile got pregnant he """left on a mission""" that happened to take like 4-10 months, during the time realizing he was trans. Once the baby had arrived he returned the baby to Dragon in secret for him to deal with, got a divorce for one reason or another*, and sought out Iva-chan to start a new life, Iva thus never found out about anything, just knew that Crocodile left one day after coming out. Like that's one plausible scenario.)
*Hey remember the potential Forbidden Reasons to why Crocodile might've left the Army? What if it was Dragon's and/or Crocodile's idea? Remember how when Jinbei is trying to escape Marinford with the unconcious Luffy, Crocodile tells Jinbei to do better job at "protecting those he wants to protect", a line that felt really sudden and odd coming from Crocodile of all people? What if the two knew their child would be in grave danger if he was ever raised within the army (absolutely not a place for a baby)? What if they knew their baby would become a target for the World Government to hunt, much like Roger's lost child was, if the Government found out Dragon had a baby? What if they wanted to make sure nothing bad ever happened to their baby and were willing to do anything to protect the baby? Even if it meant they'd never see their child grow up? Even if it meant hiding your child from your best friend, pretending to have a horrible fallout with them and transing your gender because Oda doesn't know what gender dysphoria is? Just so nobody would ever find out you had a child?
Mind you. I do not want anybody to think this is an actual argument for Crocodad. Like I could write a dozen different fanfics about how Crocodile could be Luffy's other dad, and they would all be just as much pure speculation with nothing to support them as the above suggestions. It is an example of what could have happened, and a deeply interesting thought, but it is just a theory at best.
In the end, it doesn't really matter though, because until the day Oda reveals Luffy's mom and/or Crocodile's backstory to us, we will truly never know for sure What The Fuck Crocodile's Deal Is
And I'll be just stuck with these brainworms, making myself sad by thinking about sad scenarios where Crocodad could be real, because truly, if it's canon, ain't no way it won't be sad
EDIT 3: Originally I thought it'd be good enough if I just rewatched some parts here and there, but in the end I just fucking absolutely caved the fuck in and went and reread The Good Parts of Marineford. Mainly because I knew I was forgetting things and Toei adding/changing things can affect a character reading. Also it was just going to be easier to go through the manga and literally just all of Crocodile's scenes into an image folder for easier browsing, mainly because there's so much shit that happens between those scattered scenes it can be hard to like focus on one thing (especially if you're trying to specifically FIND those scattered scenes and appearances)
So yeah. Coming back a few days later to add shit to this god forsaken post. I need help
Actually changed my mind and made a separate post to continue this nonsense, enjoy
#Moon posting#One Piece#Sir Crocodile#I am being so very normal about Crocodile#So SO very normal#I'm sorry this is so fucking incoherent I just can not form a coherent thought about this for the life of me#Also sorry I had to use random OP reaction pics. This was a long ass post and I desperately needed to break up the text walls somehow#For the record while I doubt Crocodad is real I am 100000% emotionally invested in it and WANT it to be real#I'm just not convinced Oda can write a trans character this fucking nuanced#And I think I'd prefer Crocodad not being real over Crocodad being real but Stupid and/or Transphobic#Which fucking sucks because genuinely. Crocodad easily has the potential to be the one of the most tragic backstories in the series#But I don't trust Oda. And that's why I'm so doubtful above all else#Anyway yeah Crocodile has made me completely deranged someone please help#My brain needs to be vacuumed or something to get rid of the worms#OP Meta
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