#genuinely what is even going on with him. was it the meat diet. did that do it.

[todorokistheories]

Why I'll Never Forgive Endeavor - An Analysis

tw: abuse, domestic violence, dehumanization, and everything you expect to come with talking about the todorokis

Endeavor was right in calling Shouto a masterpiece, because that's all he ever was to him. Just a canvas to imprint whatever beliefs he had onto. Shouto was never made to be a person. He was made to be an object, an immovable force, something Endeavor can sculpt to his desire.

We see this through Shouto's demeanor. His inability to show emotions the way others do to that extreme of a level is usually a trauma response. He's purposefully blank, lest he face the wrath of Endeavor noticing the stain on his perfect painting.

Dabi even mentions this.

Endeavor wasn't the only one who saw Shouto as a means to an end. Dabi did too. He calls Shouto a puppet and trophy son throughout the series genuinely does not seem to consider that he has feelings at all. He wants to break him, because Shouto was given the life he was promised, but he can't see past what Endeavor told him to be like class 1a did.

Dabi's plotline was never about reconciling with Shouto, it was about destroying everything Endeavor thought made him great.

Endeavor controlled every moment of Shouto's life from the day he was born. Training, probably diet, every single second of every day was planned to expect max power and effort. He wanted a machine that he could show off, like fucking Tony Stark or some shit.

This is why when Midoriya says "it's your power," it's so impactful. He essentially told Shouto "you don't have to be what he made you to be." He was finally given permission to choose, something no one in his life (not even his mother) gave him. When you're a kid like that, you don't have the perspective that you can change. Midoriya believed that he could, so Shouto did.

Shouto wanted his father to see him as valuable outside of what he could do for him. But he never gets that. That is why the ending is so important for Shouto.

Shouto's arc is, at a base level, finding purpose outside of what his father expected.

You know who was given the freedom to do that from the get go?

Touya.

Let's get into the meat of the issue. Endeavor genuinely cared about Touya. In his eyes, he gave him permission to be great and expected that of him. This lasted until Endeavor eventually told Touya that there is more to his life than being Endeavor's 'mini me' and refused to compromise for Touya's sake.

He didn't do this with Fuyumi or Natsuo, but I think at this point he would've been willing to care about them if they offered something he thought was valuable. Because at the end of the day, even if Touya wasn't going to be a hero, Endeavor believed he'd still do great things. That he would bring honor to their name.

Endeavor only started caring about how he treated his family once he saw what it did to Dabi. His wife's mental breakdown didn't do it. The disfiguration of his youngest didn't do it. Breaking his child down until all he was was just another puddle of vomit on the floor at the age of five didn't do it. Not even the death of his beloved child did it.

But seeing how he ruined Touya's potential did.

Endeavor's change only came from the knowledge that he was his own ruin. His apologies come from a place of selfishness and it destroyed his family.

The thing that both Shouto and Dabi had in common is that they both just wanted to be enough for Endeavor. And at the end of the day, and the manga, I truly don't think that was ever achieved.

And that is why I can never forgive Endeavor.

[franki-lew-yo]

Chicken Run 2 things I did really like:

It's a fun and small nod to irl chicken farming, but I like that the pen the chickens are kept in in Funtime Farms is an indoor pen. That's how modern poultry gets by on the "free range" excuse.

Genuinely appreciate how much and how well this movie states Ginger's awesomeness through Rocky or other people. It's not too distracting and it's earned. She is the iron chicken and it's a good way to hype up the character without telling you rather than showing you. God. I love Ginger.

Nick and Fetcher needed more scenes with Molly because them being attached and joining in just to save their "niece" is adorable and a great expanse on their characters. Good.

Rocky was a great dad and way better written than the original but still very much Rocky. That's how you do a 'wrote a potentially problematic love interest 20 years ago now here's them updated for modern ''wokeness' standards,' PIXAR. I liked him being both a hinderence and an accessory to Ginger. Shows why and what I like about them as a couple. I especially like how, without even showing you, that Rocky was the one to tell Molly what she needed to know but did not expand on just how traumatized Ginger really is from her ordeal. That's both in character and a believable thing a parent would do when their kid is simply prodding about their past, rather than directly asking their parent. Also, given it's Rocky and he already didn't have a perfect sitch going on as a circus animal, he probably didn't hype it up as perfect but more or less leaned into how adventurous he and Ginger were.

Ginger and Molly and their whole plot of not understanding each other was fine. Ginger being an overprotective parent who never wants to leave the island now and is enforcing her flock never to leave works better here than in contrived direct to video movies like Lion King 2 or Little Mermaid 2. The annoying thing about these kinds of stories is, simply put, the audience is screaming at the parent to just better communicate with their kids, especially when it's not like Ginger is too haunted to talk about the farm to other characters. What was needed, I think, was real establishment that Molly knows her mom escaped from a farm but doesn't truly know what a farm is and what would happen to her on one. Maybe also have it clear that Ginger is so set on being a "free chicken" she refuses to even talk about her past with Molly- somehow thinking that her old life before was beneath what she is now, even though she was the one who escaped from it and was always worth the lifestyle she deserves. Would be a great call forward to Ginger's slight (understandable) apathy for chickens outside her flock that would come full circle to her being the character she always is and is best at. Over all I liked her, Rocky and Molly a lot. I just wished I could have heard Julia Sawahla instead.

Pacing actually moved decently for once for a modern animated kids film. That's impressive, especially for a sequel.

Mrs. Tweedy saying she "gave Ginger everything a hen could ask for" was really illuminating for her character. Really, much as I wish this wasn't the same character, I love Mrs. Tweedy wanting revenge on Ginger. On a chicken. Her dialogue revealing that she thought the life she gave the chickens on her old farm was "good" for them tells you so much about her and how she sees herself as a good farmer only if she's a successful farmer.

Haha the ending shot is perfect.

Okay one thing about this movie- this may be actually be a bad thing depending on your diet choices -this movie makes me actually really hungry for chicken and chicken nuggets. This whole franchise isn't inherently vegetarian or trying to be anti meat, granted, but that is the take away from the character's perspective given that they are the chickens. To put this a different way: the first movie makes eating chicken really unappetizing from the beginning with the "roll call" scene and the pies the chickens would potentially turn into, over the top as it is, also unpleasant. You definitely don't get anything close to the "roll call" scene in this film. A chicken does die but it's all so offscreen it has no impact, so when she's cartoonishly instantly turned into nuggets that Mrs. Tweedy eats, you don't feel anything...you kind of wanna eat the nuggets. Apologies to any chickens reading that. Here, have some happy chickens to counteract the pain:

[shmowder]

This is such a random thought, but I've been wondering what some of the characters would eat on a daily basis

I love you artemy but he gives me the vibe of someone that makes a big batch of something and then eats it for a week straight with no complaints (im sorry Mr burakh I don't want to eat porridge every morning and stew every evening)

Daniil seems like the opposite, he makes an overly elaborate breakfast like jam spreads and eggs (you can't tell me this guy didn't down like three cups of coffee every morning during his stay at the town and head out the door though)

Mark immortell does not eat he feeds on my tears of pain whenever i die in this game i hate this guy 🤬

Artemy needed to make food stretch out while travelling throughout the country + the army tends to serve a cycling menu, so those two habits might take months or years for him to break out of.

Maybe if Sticky and Murky complain enough about his cooking and having to reheat the same pot of stew for supper each day, Artemy would get the needed push to actually put thought and variety into what he makes, instead of the run-of-the-mill easy, filling, and nutritious goopy liquid of the day.

If this was the modern world, Artemy would be the guy whose fridge's filled with nutrition bars, absurd amounts of raw meat, and frozen soup divided into plastic containers.

Isidor must have been a better cook and actually fed Artemy more than the same 3 dishes in different fonts. Stakh might have picked up the recipes and cooking skills, but he just... never uses them.

Until on day while babysitting Sticky and Murky, he makes the mistake of preparing what he thought was a simple dish, only to watch these two kids almost burst into tears at the first taste of actual spices and fresh non-stewed vegetables in so long.

Que Artemy pleading with Stakh to share those recipes the next day after sampling the leftovers his kids brought home, because damn, this tastes exactly like his dad's cooking. When did Stakh become so handy in the kitchen? Artemy remembers him not even knowing how to boil eggs when they were kids.

Dankovsky, on the other hand, had a steady life and began his independence in college. Now, from the bits of lore drops during his p1 route, they paint a picture of a very... chaotic gremlin university Daniil. Like that one time, he mentions breaking the law and stealing tissue from a dead body while he was a student, or the fact not only did he attend the same bars as Andrey, but always carried a loaded pistol on him, even when he knew he was going to end up batshit drunk.

His diet during those days probably consistent of:

But that was the young and callow Danil. The man standing in front of us today is a few months short off entering his 30s. Yet on the other hand... old habits die hard.

So we have two options when it comes to theorising on this shortie's daily munches.

Option One: Danil is negligent with food

He worked at Thanatica deep hours into the night. He had press conferences, presentations, shareholders meetings, and social events to attend.

If someone is so willing to sacrifice sleep when it comes to his busy schedule, it's not far-fetched for food to be next.

When he does get the opportunity to eat, it's never homecooked. Hell, l'm willing to bet my arm on the fact he hasn't tasted a genuine homecooked meal in years.

Business dinners at fancy restaurants are more his style, an open buffet with eccentric dishes at conferences, the stale office coffee which he ignores until it's cold and then sourly downs it in one go. Whatever his co-worker at Thanatica decided to buy for the team lunch break today while doing a coffee run.

Does he know how to cook? Maybe. Daniil cares about how he presents himself, much like he memorised Latin phrases to show off, teaching himself after moving to his first apartment must have been deemed vital for his whole "I'm a grown capable adult now" aesthetic.

It's been a while; he's rusty, and all the recipes he knows came from a french cooking book that focuses more on presentation rather than taste or nutritions. He might not be able to make you any chicken soup while you're down with a fever, but you can be reassured that an Eggs en Meurette will come to the rescue... or so he claims.

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Option Two: Daniil is obnoxiously punctual with having three meals a day

Okay, he was irresponsible with food before, so what? The past is the past. Not to mention, as a doctor specialising in death and its prevention, it's an oxymoron for him to neglect his own health.

He needs energy, a ton of it. So he makes sure to get the whole 8 hours of necessary sleep a day and eat 3 fullfilling meals on the dot. He's not that reckless 20-something boy anymore throwing his life away. He has a purpose, and he will make sure to live long to achieve it.

I'm not saying he fantasises about dedicating a whole chapter to these healthy habits in the autobiography—which he'll eventually write after earning all the deserved fame that comes from besting death—And l'm definitely not saying that he'll be the most smug about it as he describes how he never skips a meal, never stays up past bedtime, and rarely has more than one glass of wine per week. How a lot of his current healthy and responsible acts do root from wanting to feel a certain level of superiority over your average chum.

But it is—kind of—what I'm saying

The town was the exception, not the rule, on a normal Dankovsky day, he starts it with breakfast. Fruits are optimal, some toast to get his carbs in, tea with milk for the calcium, and of course he can't forget the water.

Can he cook? hmm, I'd say yes. This Danil is a decent cook. His personal pallet is still a bit fancy shmancy, but he's got the basics pinned down. He even still goes out of his way to practice a new recipe or two during the weekends. Constant variety is key.

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Now, surprisingly, these two options can not only co-exist, but also be frankensteined into the same timeline. A Daniil that starts with neglect from his youth, then becomes a responsible adult, only to fall back into these bad habits when the stress of work and funding Thanatica becomes too much.

So he tries his best to have the necessary meals, but sometimes time slips between his fingers like fine sand while toiling away in the labs, and his only options are an empty stomach or two cups of coffee and crackers from the vending machine.

On a related note, I don't think Eva can cook, nor does she want to. Mostly surviving on fruits, wine... so much wine, plus the occasional sweets.

And clearly, Peter doesn't cook either.

Which means Andrey had to learn cooking at some point to feed his twin before they became the famous rich architects they are. Even now, he's still the one arranging and paying for the food deliveries to Peter's house, It goes with his whole renaissance-man shtick, but he wouldn't cook for just anyone. Even if you happen to be a guest at his house (whatever the fuck that means since the man spends 24/7 in his own pub rather than actually go back to wherever his home is) He'd still expect you to bring your own food or be satisfied with alcohol. Now, his eating habits? 100% like Eva, if not worse.

Peter is the closest thing a human has ever come to surviving soley off of alcohol. Lucky for him, twyrine actually has good nutritions in it, courtesy of the plucked herbs.

I'm pretty sure Mark Immortell likes to eat crying infants, the blood of goats, widows' tears, and these fists because oNE OF THOSE DEATHS IN MY P2 RUN WAS UNJUST AND UNFAIR MARK! I haven't fucking forgotten, MARK! you dropped a robber ON ME, MARK. You spawned him ATOP MY HEAD, MARK! I WAS PICKING HERBS IN PEACE MARK. I WAS AT FULL HEALTH HOW WAS IT POSSIBLE FOR HIS THICK ASS TO INSTA KILL ME, MARK!?

[hexbimbo]

Dbd Hc’s | Killers Least Fav Food.

(TW: Eating Disorders)

Evan MacMillan

Chicken a la King.

Looks like baby spit up.

His father LOVED it so was sadly served most nights.

Too much going on for his palette.

Philip Ojomo

Rueben Sandwich

Gives me very bad breath.

Also has a hard time thinking sandwich’s can he hot.

Overall, too messy and stinky.

Max Thompson Jr.

Bacon.

Hates crispy bacon especially.

Eating farm animals he watched grow up put a bad taste in his mouth.

The grease left on the pan makes his skin crawl.

Sally Smithson

Porridge.

Hand fed a lot of unruly patients.

Most of it ended up spit back into her face or smeared on her.

The warm, wet texture disgusts her.

Micheal Myers

Mashed Potatoes

They always taste grainy to him

Especially despises the runny kind.

While he was locked up, it’s probably what he was served as a staple.

Lisa Sherwood

New England Style Clam Chowder.

Cannot fathom seafood and dairy together.

Physically unable to swallow it.

It will always taste rotten.

Herman Carter

Punch

The ones with sherbet blobs and marshmallows make his teeth hurt and feel chalky.

Probably hates it because he associates it with large, happy parties

Also assumes everyone dips their cup instead of a ladle.

Anna

Human meat.

Probably only did it ONCE out of desperation.

Quickly realized it was nothing special and felt weird.

Hunting humans is more about getting a trophy rather than nourishment.

Bubba Sawyer

Northern Cooking

In rural Texas, they didn’t eat much fresh seafood.

Thinks Northerns eat lobster 24/7 (I wish)

Tried canned lobster. Hated it because it was too sweet and chewy.

Freddy Krueger

Pepperoni.

“It’s too spicy.”

Thin gets too crispy and thick is gross.

Amanda Young

Peanut butter

Doesn’t like the closed throat feeling it gives her.

Gets genuinely upset when people “ruin” desserts with the spread.

Chocolate chip cookie-! “😍” -with Reese’s! “😐”

Jeffery Hawk

Vegtables

I am convinced he ate deep fried butter as a staple.

Will legit throw a tantrum if you offer him some.

MIGHT eat very flavorful veggies (collard greens with bacon.) but even then you’re asking a lot.

Rin Yamaoka

Bell Peppers

Cannot tolerate spice.

Always feels undercooked.

Hates the crunch. Thinks all veggies should be soft.

Frank, Julie, Susie, Joey

Salads

Only the lame, preppy kids eat salads with zero dressing 🤢🤮

They can’t understand why anyone would choose a gross, flavorless salad over pizza.

I think Susie would’ve enjoyed a good Caeser but the gang kinda guilted her into stopping.

Adiris

Hates the smell of Myrrh

Puts off her appetite immediately.

I’m not sure if you can eat Myrrh ( Nvm google says it’s toxic ☝️)

Was kept on a rather strict diet as a priestess so I don’t think she deviated much in terms of food.

Danny Johnson

Pizza

A lot of his victims were having a chill night in with a nice warm pie.

His mind did that weird thing when it associates one thing with another.

Don’t get him wrong, he lives for thrill and gore but trying to enjoy a greasy slice of pizza while picturing guts on the floor isn’t that appetizing.

Demogorgon

Human Hair

It clogs its mouth and makes it produces these weird hissing and gurgling sounds.

Constantly spits up hairballs.

Sometimes borks out a Survivors hat.

Kazan Yamaoka

Sake.

Believes in keeping a clear head, always.

Especially dislikes drinking games.

Drunk people in general make him aggravated.

Caleb Quinn

Peach Cobbler

Prefers apples over peaches

The texture and taste feels off.

Overall, doesn’t have much of a sweet tooth but begrudgingly picks at it with a cup of coffee.

Pyramid Head

Can’t really eat.

I’ll go with dust.

The general smell and feel is a bore.

Talbot Grimes

Curry.

Smelling spices alone makes his tummy turn.

His poor Scottish palette is sensitive to flavor 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿😤😤

I think Curry in general puts him off because he’s not used to eating with his bare hands. (You use the naan to scoop it up I believe).

Charlotte and Victor Deshayes

Rotten food

Eats it anyway because it’s what they got

Mentioned before the Charlotte has a Hoarding disorder. Keeps said rotten food until it physically can not be eaten.

Charlotte definitely developed a ED. Refuses to eat until her brother has been fed.

Cry’s when her brother insists she eats. Why can’t he understand that she’s not hungry?

Ji-Woon Hak

Deep fried anything.

Not joking, a lot of K-Pop stars have eating disorders. Some even collapse on stage because of a lack of nourishment.

I think during his training, he developed an intense fear of carbs.

Genuinely believes eating one French fry will make him break out.

Got emotional when he did a ad for pasta.

Nemesis T-Type

Doesn’t eat???

I think it would’ve gotten its nourishment from medical tubes and injections when it was created

I’ll go with a IV drip.

It’s just….there.

Elliot Spencer

Too eat something he hates would make him miserable. But he likes being miserable which technically-

This is certainly a conundrum

Let’s think before he became a cenobite

Maybe…fish?

Has severe trust issues with not properly prepared fish. (Bones, scales, parasites 🤮🤮🤮.)

Carmina Mora

Pigs feet.

Thinks it’s inhumane.

Also Foie Gras

Would never eat food that’s made from devious means.

Sadako Yamamura

Mmmm

I’m not too sure

I think she’d be a meek person who eats anything if offered out of politeness.

Sea salt. Doesn’t think it tastes that different but the smells makes her brain feel smooth.

Dredge

Hay

The soft yet stale texture 🤮

Always reminds it of manure

Hates it because Maurice enjoys it ( because it hates happiness 🗿)

Albert Wesker

Potato Chips.

CANNOT stand the crumbs they leave. Feeling them especially in his sheets is a no-no.

Y’know the slightly greasing film they leave on your fingers? Hates it.

He’s very proper. Always uses utensils. Yes, even for pizza.

Tarhos Kovács

Fancy wines and cheeses

Despises the foods of cowardly princes

Doesn’t believe in spending money on high quality food when the regular stuff does the job.

Adriana Imai

Natto.

Her dad brought some over from Japan to try.

Didn’t think mixing in the soy sauce and spicy mustard packets would be that big a deal for her.

Had her gagged.

HUX-A7-13

General Human food.

Despises that humans haven’t figured out a way to nourish themselves without food.

Hates the sound of chewing, gulping, or slurping.

Told a few crew stragglers that certain plants were indeed edible. (Spoiler: No.)

Xenomorph

Petrol/Gasoline.

Associates the smell with fire.

Which then assumes pain is coming.

Charles Lee Ray.

Tuna Melts

Hates dry and moist texture canned tuna has.

The salad always being cold and the rest being hot 👹👹👹

They never seem to “melt”

Unknown

Cockroaches.

Likes the crunch, dislikes the taste

The way they crawl over its skin is displeasing

Does enjoy crawling on all fours and pretending it’s a cockroach.

Vecna

Shit IDK

Looks like he hates fun

Probably hates birthday cake.

Especially with the sprinkles mixed in.

[grahamkennedy]

I talk so much about Graham Kennedy's experiences as a gay man and all the ways that influenced his life and work but I'm not the only person who's ever talked about that, it's well trodden ground, even if people don't go into as much depth as I'd like to see.

But the thing I don't see people talking about AT ALL (and granted I also don't talk about it a lot either), is that the nation watched him get fat and got really fucking weird about it. And they watched him become disabled and got really fucking weird about it.

It's something Blundell is particularly guilty of in his biography, the insinuation that GK wasn't exercising enough and that he could've avoided getting fat if he did more is just insane like mans couldn't walk around his garden without wheezing I don't think going to the gym would help.

And it's not as if his diet was particularly unhealthy either, he was an avid cook with a varied (albeit meat heavy. Dude loved his steak.) diet, and when his eating habits were unhealthy, it's because he wasn't eating enough (Korsakoff's Syndrome, which he eventually got, is more prevalent in people who don't eat, or don't eat enough, while they drink, it was documented that when he was most depressed, he ate far less and binge drank more).

The press would spend so much energy commenting on the fact he had gotten fat, often in an incredibly derogatory way, and I wonder if that also fed into his weird inferiority superiority complex and his distrust of the media, in much the same way that his experience as a closeted gay man did.

It's interesting to note that one of my favourite photos of him is post retirement, when he's old and fat and disabled, all the things the press were incredibly strange about, and yet he seems genuinely happy.

I dunno where I was actually fucking going with this post and what thesis statement I wanted to make other than The Australian Press Sucks Majorly which I think we already knew but yeah. Man. Why were people so fucking weird about this guy (and not in the way I'm weird about this guy)

[coldslaws-gear-station]

My brain keeps forcefully rotating my AU's Alder, it's giving brain rot rn

Like, in my mind you could feel Alder's spine through his skin, it sticks out oddly from being starved for a while. Makes him feel self conscious. Don't get me wrong, he's certainly not lean nor skinny, he's certainly got muscle but he's definitely got some love handles from the sheer amount of eating he did when he left Floccesy. He did manage to burn off a good chunk of his weight with how active he is, plus time, but he'll always have those love handles and that slight pudge

Did you know he eats sweeter packets? He's not a fan of sweety stuff, preferring spicy stuff over anything, but he really can't complain. He'll take anything he gets his hands on, even if it means raiding Ghetsis' fridge on his first night there. Actually when he found out that everybody including Ghetsis lives on a vegetarian diet that he'll also have to adhere to, he had a genuine panic attack

Not because he's picky or didn't like the fact that he'd have to be vegetarian. But his mind is so convinced that if he doesn't eat meat, he'll starve again, he has a panic disorder and he can't grasp the concept of being filled up with anything but meat. So Ghetsis went against his judgement and started to cook meat meals for him, don't get Ghetsis wrong he certainly has a lot of raw meat on his hands. He owns a Hydreigon for heaven's sake, they rely on a carnivorous diet, but he genuinely hates the smell of it. The smell of raw meat makes him gag and the sight of cooked meat leaking grease and juices makes him want to throw up. But he puts up with it, because he knows Alder needs it.

Sadly however, Benga doesn't exist in this AU. It's tragic because I love Benga, but unfortunately Alder is infertile. Starvation has some extreme long term effects, one of those is effecting your fertility. So when he had the five day period where he was forcibly starved for hoarding food, it costed him his fertility.

It's also sad in another way. He has the stomach of a moth, he can eat a little as possible and go hours and even days without feeling hungry as his body preserves the energy from it. Although Atlas and Alder Moths emerge from their cocoons mouthless, having only the energy from their eating when they were a caterpillar to keep them going for at least a week, their only purpose is to lay as many eggs as possible before they perish. So what even is the point to a moth when they can't even lay their own young?

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suffering from brain worms are we. it's ok me too

GOD THANK YOU i love muscular fat alder. he's not as beefy as drayden in canon but we can see pretty plainly in pokespe that the dude is strong as hell. at the same time though i couldn't imagine him ever being jacked, he has to have a softness to him alongside all the muscle. so give him the best of both worlds

sorry what. you're telling me this dude eats sweetner packets. honestly can't blame him. being put in a starvation situation can also be a major factor for pica (personally i hc that n struggled with pica because ghetsis would use food restriction punishment, so she'd resort to chewing on plastic or bits of carpet as a kid, not to mention just eating random shit in the forest. i go back and forth on whether or not this is still a struggle for him though)

but also yeah if someone has a panic disorder especially surrounding food, any kind of dietary restriction including vegetarianism would absolutely be a cause for panic. poor guy and thank you peepaw for being understanding

NOOOOO BENGAR :( my little guy! makes sense but OUHHHH

[weebsinstash]

All I can say is that if Batman reader ever tried to commit “sewerslide” after being trapped, they better hope they’re successful because the after effects from the family would be insane

I mean, hypothetically, even IF Reader did die, Bruce could always idk infiltrate or cut a deal of some sort with Ra's al Ghul to dip your corpse into his magic McDonald's sprite and bring you back

But I imagine you'd basically lose every last bit of privacy. Someone would be with you at all times, even in the bathroom and when bathing, like being on suicide watch. Certain materials and media you're allowed to consume become heavily restricted based on the contents (for example if you cut yourself, suddenly Bruce doesn't think it's appropriate for you to play video games where they use blades and swords, or maybe even things like pokemon "hey, what did that move just say?" "Uhhh leaf cutter?" "Absolutely not") because "oh no what if that makes them think bad thoughts and they wanna hurt themselves again" and tv can be equally as unpredictable so they probably only let you watch certain things on streaming services that have clear ratings, or maybe they even look up spoilers and "research" before letting you watch anything. ("Oh sorry we WERE gonna let you watch that critically acclaimed movie about the deaf girl and the bully, but apparently there's attempted suicide so, let's watch Ponyo instead")

Your diet would probably drastically change in the sense that they suddenly won't let you use knives and forks. If you want meat it will usually be in a stew so you can use a spoon or a soft meatloaf (you know Alfred got that bomb cooking), Dick will spoil you with your favorite ice cream and soft pastries constantly like he's trying to buy your love with it, for some reason they don't like it when you use chopsticks either. What, do they think you're going to stab your eye out or something 🙄 or maybe you casually make that joke once when they let you use the chopsticks and they all look deadly serious and suddenly you never use chopsticks ever again 💀

They'd be extremely clingy and all manifesting their trauma in different ways. Maybe Bruce is constantly not around because he's basically being Batman 24/7 so he can "clean up the streets and make this city a safer place for you" (especially if your mental break was connected to a villain in any way, like the concussion idea I discussed) but he makes sure to be at dinner with you or check on you at least once a day. If you were going to school with Dick and Barbara like in the age regression idea, maybe one or even both of them start doing classes from home so you aren't as lonely and excluded because, obviously you are not really allowed to leave the manor, let alone the property anymore. Maybe Bruce straight up pulls you out of school and says to focus in your health and you can just collect all those credits and such and finish it later and it's like sorta helping but also making you feel like a failure

Also tons of cuddles and hugs and platonic kisses and you probably aren't allowed to sleep alone. Maybe in the rare instances Bruce actually sleeps he comes into your room to male sure you're sleeping soundly and he'll fall asleep in a chair in the corner (because he doesn't want to wake you 🥺)

For that idea and also the next one, I've also thought of the potential use of J'onn or M'gann as Martians, or even Zatanna, if Bruce is ever like, intent on getting into your head, accessing your memories, accessing your thoughts. Maybe when you have your mental break Martian Manhunter is there as a good friend to Bruce to let him know how you genuinely didn't want to hurt anyone 🥺 if you go mute or even catatonic, there's Miss Martian to maybe see that traumatic memory permanantly plastered in the forefront of you mind replaying over an over, something that absolutely broke you, maybe even something Bruce doesn't even know about

(Actually this isn't the "next idea" I was mentioning before but I've also thought of "Reader is actually good friends with Bruce/the League/basically an extended Batfam member but you bounce to another universe one day and come back a wounded traumatized mess and it turns out you were with Owlman or something and Bruce kind of terrifies you now because they look and sound the exact same, and also, universal constants so 'your' Batman is also crazy for you and now he wants to "rescue" you")

And for real though, I have actually also sat down and thought about Reader/OCs who were sidekicks or Batfam member who had to be sent to Arkham 👀 I dunno it's something about the drama and possession but idk also helplessness of them "caring" but helping you in such an extreme way (even if maybe it's what you need)

Like, say you're a Batfamily member or fellow Justice Leaguer and Bruce can tell you're starting down a mental decline. More stressed, more depressed, isolating yourself more, but you keep pushing yourself to do hero work. You start doing things he doesn't agree with, getting too rough, almost going way too far and being caught and stopped by him more than once. He's actually worried about you, but you won't confide in him, especially if you're just another superhero and not exactly "under his care". you're more independent and don't want THE Batman being disappointed in you. You don't want to have to be rescued

But eventually there's some sort of horrible breaking point, whether something awful is done to you and you completely snap or you've suffered a terrible lose or failure (like say you failed to save someone and they died, or you failed to save a LOT of someones) or you're exposed to Joker venom or Scarecrow's fear gas (I actually have some ideas for that gas ngl 👀) and you're just straight up hallucinating. You were already starting to act out and become aggressive and with your skill and depending on preference, superpowers, you could start causing real damage. You're hallucinating being attacked, and send out a force of energy to blast whoever that attacker is away, and you just tear up a city block with people still on it. Bruce or Clark or someone tries to come up and talk to you, but all your brain interprets is someone is chasing you, you have to get away, they're going to hurt you, you have to run, you have to fight back, you have to PANIC--

Arkham IS an asylum, and it's used for housing the dangerous and powerful. What else can they do? A hospital wouldn't have the security or facilities to contain you, unless they had members of the Justice League with you on standby to literally restrain you if needed, and, they've got important duties of their own. Bruce tries to visit you constantly as Batman, as the one who brought you in, but you usually refuse to speak with him or cower at the sight of him. You're kept isolated from the other patients who would absolutely tear you apart if you were allowed to walk amongst them, but you're treated well besides perhaps being forcibly medicated which is only as violent as you make it. But it's a hospital, not a prison. The asylum staff feel horrible you're even there, sympathetic. I mean, after what happened to their coworker Doctor Quinzel they would know about good people succumbing to their mental illness

You're finally showing signs of improvement and they go to release you and you've requested to be put in a halfway house or some sort of program to be independent on your own rather than be released into anyone's custody and who is there waiting outside the asylum for you? Batman. And you're either one of two ways: you're humiliated to see him and kind of want to be left alone but reluctantly go with him bc you dont have a choice, OR youre filled with absolute terror and ready to go back into the hospital because you don't want him to "get you" (which unbeknownst to everyone is true, he's totally there to take you "back home", not escort you to your next destination like they all are fooled to believe)

It's genuinely a lose-win no matter what. I mean, you can't escape, but, at least he's more than just a little dedicated to taking care of you 😅

[dreaming-marchling]

Director's cut around anything in The Warlock's Cat? I absolutely adore the story.

The Warlock's Cat Tidbits :)

Also, hopefully cats weren’t deathly allergic to romaine lettuce, carrots and what tasted like balsamic vinaigrette. All Alec knew was that cats hunted mice, what their diets were like after that was a mystery. Nobody could actually be allergic to a carrot, right?

Just in case anyone out there is unclear, cats totally can't survive on a vegan diet, they have to have meat. So nice try with this salad, Alec, but this did absolutely nothing for you lol

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He braced himself, flexed his claws but didn’t attack. He didn’t want to attack. Alec was just resting up, he’d get out of here as soon as he could but he had no way of communicating that so the cat probably…

It licked him.

Aside from the kindness from Chairman here, cats groom each other to bond but often the groomer is asserting dominance over the groomee. So in cat speak, Chairman is also saying "this is my house but I like you" while he grooms Alec. Further enforcing Magnus' thought later that Chairman and Alec are friends and that Chairman is the alpha in the friendship lol (and that they're both aware and okay with that)

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To his great surprise, she turned to him and nodded her head as well, “I am the Sirin. It is a pleasure to meet you as well.”

The initial outline didn't have the Sirin. I just wanted some various Downworlders to show Alec how similar their people were and that Magnus was nothing like what Maryse had said. I decided it'd be fun to have a non-humanoid being come to Magnus so I started researching. When I discovered the Sirin from Russian folklore I fell in love and had to include her.

This is a picture of her and her counterpart Alkonost (the Sirin is on the left)

[By Viktor Vasnetsov, Birds of Joy and Sorrow (1896)]

This is my favorite artwork of them but there are many other great ones (plus plenty that stick a pair of featherless tits in the center of their bird chests, if that does anything for you lol).

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The spell carried Alec all the way to his bed in Magnus’ bedroom where there was some green stuff – oregano? – scattered around. Alec didn’t stick around to figure it out, he just rushed back out to the living room but Magnus was gone.

I've said before that I was heartily tempted to include an "Alec on catnip" scene but didn't because the technically un-aware and un-consenting drug use on Alec's part would change the overall lighthearted tone of the story too much but please know that after the story eventually Magnus manages to convince Alec to give the catnip a try and he gets some potent zoomies and really enjoys himself rolling around on the floor over and over again lol. He likes it better than alcohol.

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Once more, the conga line departed the loft via portal.

Listen, if I was rich and could pay the cast to act out scenes from my stories, I'd obviously totally pick the really major romantic moments or big revelation moments or hurt/comfort moments, like I've got a list I could choose from happily. This one though... I would be genuinely tempted even though it's not major in any way. It's so dumb at a certain point, like it forever cracks me up. I was cackling writing this. I don't really do funny confidently but like, I was genuinely laughing at how ridiculous this had gotten.

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Under no circumstance was he telling them about the litter box situation. If they loved him they wouldn’t even ask.

This occurred to Izzy and Jace both but they do love him so they didn't ask.

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He was small. He was furry.

He was a cat.

Again.

Shit.

Originally the story was meant to end with Alec going to talk to Magnus and them realizing they're in wuv and kissing. I was having too much fun though so I added the whole cat shifter thing.

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“The next person who finds you and thinks you’re a stray might be a more modern and responsible cat owner.” Cat said, glancing at Magnus before she turned and smirked at Alec, “I was encouraging Magnus to neuter you. Sorry about that.”

After the story ends, Magnus casts a few spells on Alec to ensure that any catting doesn't get him in a bad situation like a tracking spell and, discretely and importantly, a notice-me-not spell on his balls. I didn't know how to weave that in but like, it's important lmao.

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“Sorry if this is rude but is your cat a cat?” Alec asked in one rush.

I added this shortly before posting because readers had been commenting about Chairman's perceptiveness. Give me a hint of an excuse to talk about Chairman Meow the familiar or the old forest god or literally all the many headcanons and thoughts I have about this cat, seriously. Any excuse.

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Then came something glowing red. Alec picked it up gingerly and was surprised to read Kīlauea Lava from January 22, 1884 Eruption.

This is a real eruption of a real volcano. I researched this. Why? Are any of you vulcanologists? I don't know why I was so intent on accuracy here but good opportunity to tell people now: this is a real volcano eruption.

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Magnus laughed, “Shall you tell your mother or would you like the High Warlock to do so?”

Maryse listens to the explanation of this and literally stares at them silently for like a full minute before turning and walking away. It's like long after Valentine that Maryse again acknowledges that her son is a cat shifter.

Thank you for asking!!

[ladoddsy]

i think this post also underplays how many times we worked out what caused scurvy and then just didn't do that now, it is obviously important to note that everytime someone worked out citrus fruits help scurvy they genuinely have no understanding why. so basically the experiments were never actually all that good, and when they were they still did it in a completely ludacris way that made it even more confusing. only focusing on European history because I am not well informed on other parts of the world, and also because the story is about how a group of people kept forgetting we solved this problem by 1500 the Portugese had observed cirtus solved scurvy, but frequently added it alongside 'fresh food and meat' which were also considered a part of the cure. in the mid 1500s French colonists in America learnt from the Iriquois that boiling a certain pine needle solved scurvy, but it was not super scalable and they didn't realise it was vitamin C in the late 1500s the Spanish Navy commented on citrus fruits as if it was a solved problem, but a generation later they had moved to wine with certain herbs. they had literally solved it, and unsolved it. further, they even commented that Dutch sailors were drinking lime juice to solve the problem. in 1600 a British naval captain specifically stopped by Madagascar to get citrus fruits to solve scurvy, and also did an experiment where a quarter of the crew were given lemon juice, and the rest not. only the quarter given lemon juice didn't get scurvy. this experiment killed people. not good.

10 years later another British ship doctor did the same experiment, came to the same conclusion. and basically no one listened to him

100 years later ANOTHER British ship doctor did what many people consider the first controlled experiment on scurvy. he fed people whack shit and basically determined that fresh food and citrus cured scurvy. BUT, he didn't think scurvy had a single cause, and also blamed hard work and eating meat stored in areas damp with saltwater. so even after finding the solution, in a more rigid experiment, he made basically a single line note of this.

BUT, he fucked it up. Again, no one here knew what Vitamin C was, just that citrus seemed to solve it. So, he suggested producing a lemon concentrate by boiling lemons. this destroys the vitamin C. basically underdid his own work by boiling it, and being weird and British about why sailors got sick.

at this point, Britain is now basically a fucking roaming band of warcrime sailors, and like two-thirds are dying from scurvy whenever they do anything. like, the Brits would go to war and come home with like a tenth of the people and most would have died to scurvy.

and while this was going on, ship doctors, naval captains, and sailors were basically all saying "limes cure scurvy" but the doctors in Britain had a model of disease that scurvy was a sort of internal putrification based on the diet and lifestyle of living at sea, and based just constantly dismissed citrus as a solution. and if these doctors would not change their position, the policies wouldn't change and therefore widespread use of citrus fruits wouldn't be adopted

then a new thoery came about that scurvy was a lack of 'fixed air', so the suggestion was to eat something that would ferment in the stomach to fix this. malt and wort was the solution proposed. capn Cook want off to fuck up Australia, and brought this as the solution to scurvy. no sailor on his voyage fell to scurvy. greater evidence for the malt and wort solution, right? no, he brought a bollock load of sauerkraut too which happens to have a good amount of Vitamin C. but as far as the doctors were concerned, malt and wort was now the solution

at the same time, the Spanish were having a similar refusal to acknowledge that citrus solved the problem, but due to the span of their empire and the way many voyages worked, they stopped frequently enough for fresh fruit and food that scurvy was often reduced on many voyages.

by the late 1700s things were getting more frought for British leadership. basically the doctors were losing faith in the fixed air and going back to the putrification, but the sailors actually out at sea were basically just like 'fuck off it is lemons'. at this point is basically existed as an established truth among those actually sailing, and the promotion of naval leadership from within the ranks of sailors (due to the immense scale of the British Navy) meant that people who had served as sailors and seen citrus work were now in charge of ships and crews.

at this point the Brits were also getting ready to go to war with France (again, it is a thing we do) and the top brass of the navy were basically in the mind of 'we need to fucking solve scurvy immediately'. a British crew to India had a admiral that demanded fresh lemon juice (and sugar) to prevent scurvy. the crew arrived in India not only free of scurvy but also pretty healthy.

at this point the news spread like wildfire and the British were mandating lemon consumption among its sailors. alongside quinine, it is one of the plants and discoveries that can be tied to how effective a monster the British empire was.

Brits were called limeys because at a later point, West Indian Limes took over from Spanish Lemons as the source of vitman C, and there was a whole goddamn law that British sailors had to drink a portion of lime juice every single day. but guess what, this makes it stop working

i'm not even joking, lime juice is just not as good at solving the problem. as it was more acidic they thought it was better, but they made a juice, that was exposed to the air, and ran through copper pipes, all of which damaged the Vitamin C content.

we solved scurvy, and then FUCKING UNSOLVED IT

but, people didn't realise that we had fucked it up. basically because of two things, it had some Vitamin C, people still supplemented with fresh food, and we got faster at moving around the world, so the time at sea was reduced meaning less time for scurvy to occur.

And then we went to the arctic. And while the whalers and explorers kept the old lore about how to hold off scurvy, the Royal Navy didn't, and basically people got scurvy again.

when we got to the arctic, we basically unlearnt everything we thought we knew about how to prevent scurvy. the explorers that embedded with the indegenous populations realised that despite no citrus in their diets, they didn't have scurvy. they began to guess it related to the seal meat they ate, but basically had no idea why.

a whole bunch of British Navy people thought scurvy was related to boat hygiene, exercise, and crew morale, and often prevented sailors from eating seal meat.

in the 1920s Hungarian chemists isolated vitamin C, and basically discovered how to create a pill that solved scurvy no matter what, and to an extent ended the widespread prevelance of scurvy.

but it took us a long fucking time to work out what the fuck was going when being away from land made your body start emitting a demon that wanted to hollow you out

scurvy has got to have one of the biggest disease/treatment coolness gaps of all time. like yeah too much time at sea will afflict you with a curse where your body starts unraveling and old wounds come back to haunt you like vengeful ghosts. unless☝️you eat a lemon

[sqiddybabiggie]

my parents are genuinely a parody of themselves I am going to rip my own skin off

me: Hey dad can you tell me when I achieved these basic milestones as a baby (walking, talking etc). I need to tell this information to a doctor, I don't want to go into the reason because it's private

(the autism testing doctor but I don't want to tell him that because my mum refused to get my brother tested as a child)

dad: Hmm no idea I'll ask your mother...

(did you know my oldest brother could walk at 9 months? I do. I know this because my mum tells everyone this constantly every chance she gets. I don't even know my first words but I know my brother could walk at 9 months, isn't that incredible?)

dad: We don't want to tell you this information unless you tell us what it's being used for. Also we want to meet you to talk about it me: It's for a psychiatrist appointment, I don't want to go into it more than that because it's personal. I don't want to see mum.

(I have told him many times I don't want to see her because she is abusive)

dad: I will answer them but she doesn't take no for an answer. What time can you meet us today?

("your mother demands to know why you want to talk to a psychiatrist! and she won't take no for an answer!" with no hint of irony or self awareness)

dad: Also you should try to answer these questions for yourself based on what you remember and not what others have said

(implying I think I am insane because my EVIL EASTERN-EUROPEAN boyfriend must be gaslighting me into thinking it because I am too stupid to think for myself and not because I have genunine social / behavioural / emotional / mental health issues that they have ignored my entire life)

Every time I tell my dad any information about myself it backfires. It feels so good and comforting to talk to him and so I start feeling safe enough to share snippits about my life but he makes me regret it every single time.

in other news my mum went on an all meat diet and had to get her galbladder removed............................. I told my dad he needs to watch out for her more because she's going to keep doing stupid stuff like that and he tells me "na I don't think she'll do anything like this again" he's going to kill her

[raitrolling]

anyway uhhhhh. scattered thoughts about Spanner In The Works time

the whole idea for this plot started out because when celise last met epsilo he was very close to just straight-up killing them, and while that crisis was avoided i liked the idea of celise dying and getting resurrected due to vernrot's eldritch influence so i decided to roll with that for my own plot

lucy being the culprit just made sense to me given how it is established that he does kill tourists whenever the various entities at vernrot require a troll sacrifice, and then i was thinking Hey What If That Had Consequences

... and also i had that scene where vallis figures out that lucy is drunk because he's listening to his bodily functions using his eldritch senses stuck in my head and wanted to write that. i love vallis' lowkey freak shit

that was. about the extent of of pre-planning i did before writing those five drabbles LMAO most of the stuff came to me while i was writing, or i was thinking about the next drabble while writing the one i was currently working on

lucy wasn't originally going to call upon the horrorterrors to save celise, but something about that moment of being so delirious from blood loss and regret/grief that you call out to anyone who would hear for some sort of solace was really evocative to me that i just had to include it. and it helped tie vallis into the plot for Part 4 even if he was mostly used as exposition

as an aside, i thought it was really funny how vallis talks about being disappointed that celise wants nothing to do with him, only for it to be revealed in the next drabble that they were so out of it they dont even remember him being there

celise is a frog zombie for multiple reasons 1. they are a frog troll and making them more froglike sounded fun; 2. vernrot's horrorterrors tend to warp people by giving them more aquatic qualities so amphibious bullshit made sense to me; 3. i like frogs; and 4. celise fucking hates weird zombies so this was such an ironic and mean fate to give them. id actually been debating for years if celise should have an inexplicable frog tongue mutation because i thought itd be funny if they could just. eat flies out of the air with it, but i always worried it mightve been Too Weird And Gross that i didnt go ahead with it... Until now. if anyone gets weird about it im beating you to death

i genuinely forgot that celise was a vegetarian too, so i had to pivot hard towards them having to deal with the horror of eating meat in After Pain so that ended up a lot more visceral than i initially intended. though i did have to rewrite one part because i got so into writing a contrast between celise's disgust between eating meat and how their new instincts desperately crave it and it tastes irresistible to them now that started sounding a bit vaguely erotic and i went FUCK OH NO GO BACK LMFAOOO. dungeon meshi changed me as a person

but yeah unfortunately for them their diet has completely flipped and they can only eat meat now! they can stomach animal meats fine but it doesn't sate them nearly as much as troll meat does, and for those who skipped the emeto scene the main thing worth noting is that ordinary food tastes rotten to them now. big rip

also the timeline is just vague enough that its ambiguous who left the offering at the end. was it the horrorterrors looking after their newest creation? or was it lucy trying to repent for what he had done to them? vote now on your phones

and i think i made it clear enough, but the thing that the horrorterrors took away from them was their ability to feel intense amounts of anger, which now when they get angry they start feeling really hungry instead. funny how they constantly denied their ability to feel negative emotions and anger to the point where they dissociated themself from the emotion entirely, and once they finally acknowledged it, it was taken away from them and the absence is so much worse. on the bright side, theyll be a little less insufferable to deal with now, so lucy did one thing right by killing them :)

[meimeiblogaustralia]

Empowering transformation: My health and fitness Journey as a Women

To start on a journey to health and fitness wasn't just about shedding fat for me, it was about creating a better future for myself and my potential family. At one stage in my life not long ago I was overweight 86 kg and felt disconnected from my well-being from:

Stress eating

Binge eating

Not enough sleep

No exercising

 At a critical moment in my life, my boyfriend told me “I need to lose weight”. This comment hurt my ego so I felt attacked but now I realise he was genuinely concerned about my wellbeing and just wanted me to live a long happy life with him. My boyfriend’s mum told me “Obesity can reduce your rate of pregnancy and increase the chance of miscarriage.” This scared me because I want to have children in the future so I was determined to change my lifestyle and unhealthy habits. I have found a balanced and positive approach to health and fitness.

If I continued eating the way I did and did not exercise, I would experience many health complications which I did at the time. At the time I experience:

Really bad migraines

Depression

Lack of self-esteem

Unpredictable mood swings

Back pain.

This fueled my desire to change for the better by having a healthy diet, exercising daily and changing my mindset. This journey had a trial and error. I have tried many exercises that work and don’t work for me for example I tried doing the LE SSERAFIM workout with a Kpop girl group.. The first week was intense but the second week I stopped doing the workout because it has too many jumps causing shin splints. 

 I’m currently 65 kg and I’m happy I was able to achieve to lose 21 kg in less than a year! This process was not easy, I struggles with:

Overeating

saying no to some family events

relapsing to my bad habits. 

I have managed my healthy lifestyle by doing:

pilates and yoga every morning to improve my flexibility and mobility

eating fruits, vegetables and lean meats 

watching youtube videos to improve my healthy lifestyle.

Being consistent is key to improving my health and well-being. I struggled with being confident in my own body because of body ideals from the media and comparing myself with KPOP girl groups but I learned that seeing how strong your body is more empowering than its physical appearance.

Overcoming Stereotypes and stigma of girls participating in sports

From a young age back in Primary school I had a passion for sports. I always participated in school sports carnivals such as swimming, athletics and cross country. I enjoyed just giving it a go and didn’t care what others would think. I performed well at my school swimming carnival because I did swimming squad training after school. At the end of Primary school end-of-year ceremony awards, I received the all-rounder sports award because I gained the most points in participating in school sports and achievements.

 I received a negative response from a parent and they said to me “Asians and girls aren’t good at sports how did you even get the award?”. I felt frozen and didn’t know how to respond so I cried and walked away. This hurt me a lot at the time but I realised their opinions don’t matter to me because I can choose how I react to the situation. At the time I didn’t know they were being racist, stereotyping and discriminating against me. I think the parent asked me that question because her son didn't get the award.

Some classmates at school would call me a “tomboy” because I enjoyed and played a variety of sports. I don’t consider myself a tomboy even now I enjoy playing video games and skateboarding because I love using makeup and wearing cute clothes. No matter what your gender, ethnicity, or nationality, never give up on what your passion is even if there is hate from other people. I embrace my diverse interests so should you!

I have dealt with body image issues from a young age. A classmate said to me “I wish I had those toned-shaped calves as you have”. At the time I thought that was weird because I wanted skinny slim legs like hers. I now realise I love the way how natural body looks because everyone has their own body shape. 

 The girls in my swim squad were really skinny and I wish I had that body type so I didn’t want to eat dinner after my swim sessions. I had unrealistic body standards for myself. My parents were very worried, so they help and encourage me to eat. Since I didn’t eat dinner I felt weak and slow at swim training so I quit swimming. This helped me a lot because it’s important to eat after training so your muscles can recover. I value body positivity in my life now because I accept and love my unique body.

Transformation process

My boyfriend helped me get back into exercising, it was nice because he was like my own personal trainer. At first, he told me to do sit-ups, planks, and star jumps basically at home, this workout was similar to the LE SSERAFIM workout. I quit exercising after 1 week because I didn’t like the workout and I thought at the time “Why is my boyfriend dissing my weight? I don't need to exercise I’m fit and should love my body as it is…”.

 This leads me to gain up to 86kg in a few months. I’m glad my boyfriend encouraged me to exercise and change my lifestyle because I would not have without his support. I started to do at-home workout videos from “Grow with Jo” on YouTube. I loved her workout videos at the time but now I got sick of it because it’s HITT, it felt too intense for me.

Exercising when it’s the time of the month, you can feel unmotivated, weak and sore. I pushed through and did light exercises because it’s important to have blood flow and body movement when on your period. I found that if I didn't exercise I would have bad migraines.

I invested in a deadlift bar with a total weight of 50kg because my boyfriend encouraged me to deadlift weights. I preferred to workout at home than a gym because it saves me time and money. I have no experience deadlifting weights so it was intimidating and scary at first. I didn't want to look bulky like Hulk. My goal was to get lean and strong. For my first deadlift, my boyfriend was there to support and guide me because I had no clue what I  was doing. He told me “Always keep your back straight, you don't want a back injury”. My first deadlift was 25kg, it was challenging at the time I could feel my legs shake.

I gained more confidence in squatting 50kg now! I set small goals such as

Making a workout plan

Build up (from small weights to heavier)

Be consistent every day

Take breaks so you can recover

Focus on form

I wanted to take a break from weight training, so I discovered Pilates and yoga. I never got into Pilates because I always felt like I needed to be skinny like the other girls on social media who do it, but it doesn't matter because I do my own workouts at home no one cares. Pilates and yoga are more calming compared to the other exercise activities I tried. I use free yoga YouTube videos which are so helpful and engaging for my fitness journey. I discovered affirmation and meditation from my favourite yoga YouTuber called “Yoga with Kassandra”. She has helped me have a positive day by having gratitude. Meditation has helped me in controlling my emotions and being present at the moment. I have discovered which workouts work best for me. You can experiment with which workouts work best for you!

My Journey has overcome racial biases, breaking gender stereotypes and silence in self-doubt thoughts. In sharing my story, I hope to ignite the spark of transformation in others, fostering self-empowerment, self-love, and a holistic approach to health and fitness. By advocating for the dismantling of gender stereotypes in fitness, my aim is to motivate others to take back control of their health journeys. I hope that this can help motivate your health and fitness Journey.

[arreish]

As much as I loved my OB, if I ever have another kid I will be getting a midwife. And I will be thinking way harder about not doing an epidural bc of how my back is still messed up. Everyone is sharing their stories so I'll share mine too:

I got pregnant relatively easily once my husband and I started trying. I was overjoyed but also terrified because of my mother's history (two miscarriages, an emergency c-section with my older brother, pre-eclampsia, and high risk pregnancies with myself and my two younger siblings). My aunt had 7 children and her own complications (the last two were twins, she was on bed rest for months, and she is now a doula!)

I had really bad morning sickness, though not as bad as some (I was never hospitalized), and the sheer exhaustion of the first trimester bowled me over. I was WHOLLY unprepared for that and that is one of the most minor things that can happen in pregnancy.

I also had gestational diabetes. I had to take medication for it (metformin and later insulin), and I had to limit my diet a ton. I was basically surviving on meat and vegetables, and I craving fruit constantly. I was constantly hungry and I couldn't do anything about it because I couldn't risk my sugar getting out of hand because it was that bad. Keep in mind, I have no personal history of diabetes or pre-diabetes.

It was also bc of the gestational diabetes that I had to be induced. I didn't get a choice on that, and I still don't know if I should have fought on that point. So I was induced 1 week early. Induction started at 3am and I did not birth my son until 9:38pm. That's 18 hours of labor. Because the pitocin was negatively affecting my labor progression (his heart rate would slow with every contraction, I had both external and internal heart monitors for him). And I was miserable the whole time. I wasn't allowed to move during my whole labor. Even rolling to my other side had to be done with permission and nurses helping me adjust. It wasn't until the evening that I was allowed to sit, they turned off the pitocin and had me in stirrups and sat way up (which helped me actually labor down and that's when things progressed, and very quickly).

And my epidural. I would have given anything for pain relief at that moment and I'm glad I asked when I did because I had to wait another hour (and another full bag of fluids) to receive the epidural. The anesthesiologist who placed my epidural was kind, talked me through everything, and the nurse i had to lean on during the procedure was my favorite of the whole time in the hospital. He placed my epidural, it sucked. Then he says "you know what.. I'm going to move it down one." And I had to go through the process of being stabbed between my vertebrae AGAIN. I don't know how "normal" my experience was but I'd never heard of an epidural being moved because it's in the spine and can be somewhat dangerous. I lost the ability to cough while I had the epidural (stomach muscles were dead numb) and the nurses were concerned my lungs would be affected because of how high it was reaching. And to this day, 18 months after I gave birth, my spine is still tender to the touch (and sorry to hubby, but I can't arch anymore without excruciating pain), my sciatic pain ebbs and flows worse than before pregnancy, and I'm just now feeling like my hormones are reaching "normal" levels.

I love my kid and I wouldn't have opted not to have him (for me personally) because of my poor experiences. However, I will absolutely be so much more prepared if I have another kid. Especially for postpartum.. my god that was genuinely scary for my personal experience. I look back and I'm so glad I found my way out of that. Looking back makes me want to cry bc of how far gone I was.

the thing is like. i get that it's scary and makes people who do desire to get pregnant uncomfortable when we talk about the brutality and violence of pregnancy and the damage that pregnancy can do to your body

but you deserve to give informed consent to that process.

the lies around pregnancy - that it's inherently safe, that it doesn't do you permanent damage, that it's only extremely rare for people to die of pregnancy complications, etc like

all of these are lies constructed so that more people will get pregnant w/o knowing all that

there needs to be more talk about the impact of miscarriages and how common they are, how different abortion processes are and how accessible they are

but also like. talking about how pregnancy fucks your body up should not be taboo

this is a process that permanently changes most people's bodies, and that's even if the pregnancy doesn't do them like. severe illness or injury

and i just think everybody should have a right to KNOW that

bc to live in a society that intentionally obscures and hides facts about a completely optional and dangerous process does so for a reason, and that reason is based in a very sinister ideology that does not value bodily autonomy or informed consent

[theaveragepsychoticbitch]

I'm considering making a sideblog for thirsts and the like, also considering making it male/gn reader only. Idk, idk.

Anyways, Bunny Hybrid anon, I've lost your ask but I remember the base of it! So hopefully this makes up for the false post and lost time🙃

GN!Bunny Hybrid Reader x Buddha || SFW || Headcanons || Warnings: Some cursing, but this is otherwise pretty fluffy!

You've got these fluffy, giant, soft floppy ears on the top of your head that twitch and turn and bend and are just overall TOO adorable-

And you thought he wouldn't touch them?

The first time you guys meet you're shrieking in surprise, because you were simply chilling with friends when you feel two hands just GRIPPING your ears! What the hell man?!

Slightly intimidated once you realize the perpetrator is an absolute beef cake of a man, you direct him on how to gently handle your ears. You've been stuck with him ever since.

Genuinely though, he'll come up behind you whenever, wherever, and just have his fun. You've gotten used to it as this point, even enjoy it. It's relaxing.

Fuzzy bunny tail. He didn't even know you had one until you grumbled about "them" not making cute clothes with tail holes. "...Why would you need a tail hole?"

You kinda look at each other stupid until you go "Cuz I have a tail???"

Immediately you are bombarded with questions, "Can I touch it?!" Coming up several notable times. The most notable having teary puppy eyes, a stuck out and quivering bottom lip, and a whole lotta pleases.

At first, he thinks you need a special rabbit diet. He looks up "what do bunnies eat" on Google and makes food centered around that. THEN he sees you eating meat and goes berserk thinking you're gonna die or something. Very cute seeing the way he visibly calms down when you tell him otherwise.

You're... fast. Like, really fast. Not as fast as a literal god obviously, but he does enjoy racing you around open fields. You've never played tag so much in your damn life. Sometimes, you'll snatch candy out of his mouth and run off with it, bursting into giggles and accelerating when you see how serious he is about catching you.

The little nose wiggles bunnies do? Yeah, you do that. And he's absolutely in love with it. He'll boop your nose to make it happen, purposely say something confusing, waft a certain scent throughout the house, anything he thinks will get him to see it. You've done it out of confusion, hunger, pleasure, anger even. Do it during an argument and all of a sudden you're right and he was a fool to question you.

BONUS lmao

Binkies. When rabbits are happy, they'll jump and do little tricks in the air. The first time he saw you do it was after he gave you flowers and candy (probably as an apology for not just asking about your diet lmao) You jumped rather high and did a full flip in the air, AND managed to land on your feet. Shocked? Flabbergasted? Intrigued? Deeply pleased? He was all that and more. Really wants to see you do it again lol, will probably brag about it to the other gods.

"Yeah, but does your lover do a midair front flip and land on their feet when they're happy? Didn't think so shut the fuck up."

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A/N: Life's been so fucking busy these past few months, as I'm pretty sure it was months ago I got this. It feels like it got dammit. I'm so energized and free right now though, I've got a few things I wanna try and iron out and get done/started. Hope you enjoy, Odin requester I'm coming for you next<3

[cakeinpants]

Musical Soiree: (1) (2) (3) (4) (5) (6)

So @brassclaws-of-oddworld and I finally finished our Musical Soiree RP thread (the one we started back in August, wow time really does fly) and I wanted to share it along with some sketches. Won't show all of it cause its a lotta words, but I tried to include as much as possible x)

"Read more" to read the thread~

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Roast elume, paramite galantine, scrab pâté, warm salad, cold salad and warm salad that went cold, fruits and cheeses, and just Odd knows what else, all complemented by champoogne, porange wine, liqueur with mudokon tears, and so on. Pat had to help Kyung navigate all this variety by explaining to her which dishes were made of what and how strong certain drinks were. But the female couldn't help but notice that the mudokon wasn't taking anything himself while showing her all the different foods.

While she listened very carefully to Pat’s explanations of the extravagant array of food and drinks, Kyung took note of which ones she’d most likely have a positive reception to, and which ones could be wild cards to her tastes. All of the meat-based ones appealed to her right off the bat… *But, she did need to eat her greens…* The alcohol was out of the question, not if she wanted to keep her head on straight for the entire event. Of course, the fact that Pat wasn’t taking anything– Not even a single sample– was a bit concerning.

“Do you have a favorite out of all these lovely foods, Oddett? They all look exquisite, it’s hard to pick which one to try first!” Kyung inquired, apparently deciding to try and be sneaky and gauge whether the dancer could even eat any of what was being served.

"Oh, well..." Pat paused, running his eye over the table. "Honestly, I'm not picky, so getting to try anything from here would be a big enjoyment." He shrugged, smiling casually. "Well, except the alcohol... I don't handle it very well." He chuckled a bit awkwardly. "But you can feel free to take whatever catches your eye." He added, noticing a bit of hesitancy in her demeanor, but not knowing the real reason for it. While he didn't seem to find Kyung's question strange or suspicious, Pat kept standing with his hands clasped modestly in front of him, not touching any of the food.

Kyung remained thoughtfully staring at the buffet as she listened to Pat’s reply. Nope, he wasn’t taking anything… From the sounds of it, Kyung was starting to piece together the conclusion that her hunch was correct. At least, part of it had to be. That’s when small bits and pieces of logic began to surface, along with a memory of what Pat pointed out during their first encounter.

He was a Mudokon. A Mudokon that had more privilege than many, sure, but still a Mudokon with great amounts of restriction still applied to him. No doubt, he was kept on an extremely strict diet to maintain his physique… Ah, now it made sense to her! For a moment, the concern was finally soothed now that things clicked in her mind, but that assurance gave way to a new issue that manifested itself out of genuine sympathy— She was going to need to enjoy the food while he stood by empty-handed.

“Hmmm… Perhaps just a sample of roast elume and salad for now!~” Kyung eventually decided, forcing herself to not get cold feet about eating. “Such rich delicacies, I doubt I’d need too much in one sitting,” She mused in order to try and compensate for abnormal silence up until that point. Now, it was a matter of willing herself to take small bites of the samples… Odd knows, it was a feat that was made even harder to do while feeling bad about eating in front of the dancer...

[eldritch-spouse]

I'm new here, and I'm having a blast going through your masterlists. I'm smitten with Krulu, and I was thinking about the post about an admin carrying his spawn and eating human flesh. Is human a consistent part of the diet Krulu needs or wants, or is it just something that's required during gestation of his spawn? Either way, how would Krulu react to an admin that expressed open interest in consuming human meat rather than being uncomfortable at the notion?

Side note, thanks for sharing your oc's and content!

[Howdy! 👋

I'm glad you like him! I'm working on something longer that involves him and Belo (it's at 9k words so far), because I don't write for Krulu enough. And thanks for pointing out that post to me, Tumblr formatted it wrong so I went ahead and fixed the structure a little.]

Humans are not required for any higher's healthy diet, in fact, in the time where siadars directly interacted with their creations, human eating was mostly taboo. Krulu may have a genuine liking for the taste of humans, but eating them is something he does out of spite.

To mock other siadar.

They took his creations and crushed them like they were but particles of dust- So Krulu will happily pluck humans off the ground and rend them to pieces. He encourages monsters to do the same, and that's a reason as to why he was very adamant that Morell be convinced to work at The Clergy's Eye- Because he can cook humans well enough that even the most morally benign of monsters would have difficulty turning their nose up.

The reason his spawn craved flesh is because Krulu willingly designed it with the same sort of tastes. Was this a bit evil of him? Possibly.

Having a host that delights in this, although bizarre since you don't really originate from cannibalistic communities, is utterly riveting. He will nurture this interest of yours and assure you that the consumption of other humans is good for you. Not only are you pleasing your lordship by eating thing you know he enjoys, you're also getting rid of inferiors!

What a caring, thoughtful vessel you are! He really did pick the best one of them all. You could probably join the shroom in the kitchen, now that Krulu thinks about it. Tell the chef which ones taste best in the eyes of god. The only god here anyway.