#genuinely pls. idk what to tag it as.

[rubbercasing]

girl who is cursed to be a gelatin ballistics dummy that gets off by being absolutely positively destroyed and torn to shreds by the end of the day. fortunately a new one of her respawns at midnight

[hoshiina]

pairing: hoshina soushirou x gn!reader (no prns)

summary: in which he realizes you were the one for him

warnings: none i think !

wc: 1100

Hoshina wasn't a player. He wasn't one to say yes to everyone who came his way nor was he one to lightly pursue just about anyone who slightly interested him— not to mention he didn’t fall easily to begin with. He was a busy man in a dangerous line of work so having a relationship simply didn’t make sense most of the time.

However, this is not to say he hasn’t had a few relationships here and there. He loved those he dated, he really did. He did not believe in dating for the fun of it nor did he believe in starting a relationship he knew would end at some point, but subconsciously he tried not to get attached. He kept his distance and locked away his heart to keep from getting hurt. Was it unfair? Well yes, but he was scared. Everyone has something that terrifies them greatly, this just so happened to be Hoshina’s.

Yet, recently he could tell that something was different with you. It had only been a few months since you started dating, but he feared the shift in his feelings. He knew what it was— he knew very well, but as soon as he admitted it, it would be over. There’d be no going back for him. He knew he was being rather irrational, he knew that if he sat down and confronted these emotions he’d realize they weren’t that big of a deal, but he couldn’t. He’s never been able to.

However, while fighting this kaiju, it became plain obvious that he was simply in denial. 

It upset him how important you were to him, but more than that it upset him that he knew he was important to you. You had made it so painfully clear that he meant the absolute world to you and that broke him to pieces every single time.

To him it was easy being alone— he just had to make sure his job was complete before he died. If he could ensure everyone’s safety or at least help Mina out, there was nothing more he wished for. Yet while fighting Kaiju no. 10 today, when he saw his life flash before his eyes, his immediate thought was of you. If he died you’d cry. And that alone was going to get him home alive.

He’d rather die than make you cry. Especially not alone.

As he stood up again, he could see his blood dripping from his wounds and immediately it made him chuckle. You’d cry anyways when you see the state he’s in. 

I’ll have to be around to wipe your tears at least, he said to you in his head.

He was incredibly lucky that you didn’t work on the battlefield, his heart simply would not be able to take it. But he did, and for you he’d have to get home safe. Even if no one else cared that much, not even himself, he knew you would.

All of a sudden, it was easy to admit. He was hopelessly in love with you, in a way he didn't know he was capable of. He wished that he would spend the rest of his life with you and he hoped you would spend the rest of yours with him. Perhaps he was just afraid and a little flustered to admit that he was important to someone, especially someone special to him too. He had seen how painful it was for those left behind, a little too often. 

But there was an easy solution to that, he’d just get back to you safe every time. He just won’t make you worry and he’ll be there for you. This was supposed to be a dilemma, something he thought he'd stress over, but in the moment he felt eerily relaxed, definitely not like he was fighting an identified grade kaiju. The rest of the fight was a blur, he couldn't remember much. His head was clear but the fatigue had taken over at that point, but before he knew it, the kaiju laid in front of him still.

He was faintly conscious as they rushed him into an ambulance and patched him up. Once he was properly treated and awake, they had warned him to stay put and take it easy, but all he wanted to do was see you.

As soon as he left his assigned room, he immediately bumped into you. You had been waiting to be let in to see him. You took one look at the way he was patched up and tears welled into your eyes. He could tell you didn't mean to, you didn't want to worry him.

“Please don't cry,” he said softly, wiping your tears away. He couldn't help but smile at the sight of you. “I'm perfectly fine.”

“I'm not crying,” you said with a scowl on your face, but the way your voice cracked was not very convincing. “I'm so glad you're back.”

“Can't live without me?” he teased. He knew you couldn't live without him, but he couldn't either. Yet, now he even hated the thought of you living without him, let alone with someone else, so here he was. And here he always will be.

“Shut up,” you said. “You know I can't.”

He knew, but hearing you say that still made his heart flutter. He reached out with his right hand to grab your left and held it carefully. He leaned in to kiss you, but it was so much sloppier than the careful ones he usually gave you. Forgive him, he was terribly exhausted.

“I can't either,” he said, snuggling his face into your shoulder.

“You can't?” you asked, a little surprised. It broke his heart that he had possibly made you feel such way.

“Not for a second,” he said, still avoiding eye contact. “I'd rather die than wake up without you next to me, actually.”

You wouldn’t reply, so he brought his head back up to look at you.

“Oh, don't cry,” he said and chuckled a little, wiping your tears away as he kissed you again. “I didn't mean to make you cry.”

He hadn't let go of your hand and although he was gentle, he held it firmly. He didn't say anything, but he vowed to himself that he'd put a ring on it someday. He wasn't letting go of you ever.

You were the one for him.

[raiiny-bay]

some WIPs from the 80s AU i never finished

[ave-immaculata]

fellas we're once again wrestling with imperfect vs. perfect contrition and why imperfect contrition with a firm resolution to not sin again and promptly receive the Sacrament of Reconciliation doesn't save

[tar0star]

me when im a 6'2" immortal stellaron hunter who wants 3 out of 5 people to pay the price with dark cerulean hair which fades into a dusky scarlet with beautiful crimson eyes who's probably a few centuries old angsty emo boy who lowkey wants to die (yum(my))

[iattachtooeasilytocartoons]

Hey I am lowkey begging I need people to fill out this survey for my research project please it'll take two minutes it's on the KOSA bill

If you are under 18 you can reach out to me and I can send you a parental consent form

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

"my education is my highest priority" everything returns to vocaloid

[finex09]

decided to hop on beepbox and make a lil diddy except its in e minor bc im feeling a lil sad and down in the dumps

(i will say the melody isnt all mine, i literally couldnt think of anything for the first couple of bars so i yoinked it from this piano piece. the rest of melody is mine. idk felt the need to say that. hope yall enjoy)

[slythereen]

why is everyone acting like carlos giving lando DRS was some revolutionary and genius tactic previously never seen on this earth… don’t drivers play DRS games all the time??

[bedforddanes75]

okay apologising in advance because ive read over this so many times i cant see so idk if this sucks Actual balls but cowboys here 😞

[cinnamon-grump]

If y’all know me, you know I hate asking for help…. So I’m very sorry to have to now.

I start a new (part time) job next tuesday.. but I gotta get gas to make it there before I’ll get paid. If you can help, anything at all would be so much appreciated!

Paypal

Venmo

Cashapp

It’s totally cool if you can’t/don’t want to.. sharing is of course helpful too

I can do some quick sketches / phone doodles in return, just message me and lmk if you want! I’m open to drawing most things (within reason..) here’s some recent examples, and my art tag

[m-for-now]

Improving in your life is actually kinda hard and sucks, I'm gonna pretend I'm at the beginning of my anime arc now

[theangelcatalogue]

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Erm, little question

Tumblr fellas, does Tumblr send me notifications if I log in to the site and use it on my computer? I share a computer so it's kind of important for me to know before i use it-

And yes, can you mute it or something? Tbh, I don't even know if you can receive notifications on your computer-

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[m-the-ut-and-aus-fan]

So I was playing with my sisters

I was playing "Work" with my sisters like in Bluey, We'll call them.... W and C. So C is a cat and 4, and W is a human and 7. So we were at the interview part, (I'm the boss by the way) And I say:

Me: So are you hard workers?

W: Yes!

C: Meow

Me: What?

W: She's a cat.

Me: I can see that, what did she say?

W: She said yes.

Me: *turns to C* Are you a hard worker? Yes? *Nods head up and down for yes* Or no? *Shakes head side to side for no*

C: *Shakes head side to side*

Me and W: *Laughing*

[pyr0peyt]

Tried installing/updating to the latest version of FL Studio cuz the previous version was crashing only for me to get hit with "This app can't run on your PC" fuck my life dude

[tai-templates]

Also asking this here because the rambling on my newest sheet would've been ten miles thick but

Do any of u guys want links/explanations on how to edit or make assets (images, etc) for sheets?

I mean I'm not the best at it and I'm no pro - but I know a lot of ppl who make sheets for rp and for fun aren't graphic artists either and I know how daunting and overwhelming making sheets can be

So I could maybe help share some of my few resources like where I get transparent image types from, asset libraries and stuff if you want? And maybe make small explanations on how I edit specific stuff using Photoshop or art programs like procreate

Would anyone find this useful at all?