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#i wish it weren't taboo to talk about how 814 are literally just an audhd couple... could discuss this for days. does anyone want to
actually yes i would like nothing more this is lowkey all i think about sometimes
HLSDKFHLH i was about to publish my own post but now i feel enabled to write a Longer Response 𧥠thank u guys
2 me 814 is Girl who is so classically adhd it's comical (overt hyperfixations + poor executive function + basically arfid + time blindness) coexists beautifully with Misunderstood autistic girl (too straightforward for other people + pretended to be a car as a child + sensory issues through the roof + consciously masking in every interview) while everyone loses their minds because they should Hate Each Other and be at each other's throats??! and yet they don't because their neurodivergent swag transcends petty team politics đ
like honestly i think they interact easily because they're both weird & particular in their own ways but their priorities are ultimately the same so why would any of that matter you know? and they try to accommodate each other when they're able to even if it's little things like oscar not eating salmon around lando anymore lol đ (i say this as audhd guy with extreme sensory issues and many other Problems and Issues... that is in fact romanze to me. also little stuff like the No Name Drop? moment because yes it's small in the grand scheme of things but to me it's special because it's like... THEIR inside joke and oscar is proving he does enjoy it and cares about maintaining it :') and then when lando was feeling down post-race in brazil he pulled out landinho all on his own <3)
like this is so random but i was just rewatching the logan sexed bit earlier and it's so funny how oscar is just like ??? WHAT. and somewhat annoyed at being grilled about it because in his head he's thinking "it's literally just a show title why are you Willfully Misunderstanding me idg why that's so funny to you are you 5." but with lando there's so much less... idk laughing At each other as if there's some big joke one person is missing out on and more just giggling together because oscar thinks every little thing lando says is funny and because they're equally charmed by each other's particularities. like oscar doesn't mind that lando is super fidgety and respects that he has Depths (saying that lando is a mix of sarcastic/dry, excitable, and serious) while lando has joked that oscar is somewhat robotic before but obviously still revels in wheedling genuine reactions out of him :') like you can see from how they get caught up in their little world while in parc fermĂŠ or doing their f1 media duties that they're capable of just focusing on Each Other without a care in the world for other people and they aren't talking just to have content for the cameras...
and like again the whole point of f1 is that it's a media circuit that needs overextended drama to survive as a consumable product but in the end neither of them care to sustain these artificial demands because it's just antithetical to their personalities and how their brains operate... their job is literally just car đ
also another thing is how people talk about 814 always twinning but what adds even more dimension to it is basically oscar admitting and being conscious of his mirroring lando's expressions đ and the fact that he's always choosing him for interview questions/copying his answers during games! like i think it's sooo compelling that oscar unintentionally latched onto lando as a young teenager in the uk and never really strayed from that because you have a very expressive, larger-than-life lando who is prone to being misrepresented because people don't really understand the manifestation of adhd and then level-headed oscar who is also poorly read because he doesn't express himself "conventionally" taking one look at lando and being like Hmmm yes. i'll mold myself after that. and lando being so happy and open to that dynamic 𧥠does it not move u
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Radioapple roleplay starter/Beginning Fic
Scene: Club Consent, Pentagram City
The pulsating beat of Club Consent reverberated through the smoky air, mingling with the vibrant neon lights that illuminated the chaos of the dance floor. Pentagram Cityâs most notorious denizens swayed and stumbled, their laughter and chaos perfectly fitting the clubâs decadent ambiance.
At a large round table tucked into one of the clubâs shadowy alcoves, the Hazbin Hotel gang sat with drinks in hand. Charlie, her ever-optimistic smile wide, was chatting animatedly with Vaggie and Niffty about the clubâs decor, while Angel Dust lounged lazily across a plush bench, a martini dangling precariously from his clawed fingers. Husk grumbled quietly into his whiskey glass, keeping one ear on the conversation in case Angel pushed his luck, and Cherri Bomb was already leaning half across the table to swipe a sip from someone elseâs drink.
In the middle of the group, Lucifer Morningstar sat with effortless poise, his devilish grin exuding charisma and dominance. Alastor, seated just beside him, couldnât help but steal glances at the King of Hell, his usual unsettling grin faltering every so often into something far more genuineâand vulnerable.
For Alastor, this evening was both a torment and an opportunity. He would never have set foot in such a raucous establishment if it werenât for Luciferâs presence. After months of trying to show his affection in subtle waysâalways fetching Luciferâs preferred vintage wine, offering to handle troublesome souls, weaving compliments into their conversationsâhe still hadnât managed to make his feelings clear. Tonight, he resolved, would be different.
But so far, the opportunity eluded him.
âSo, Luci!â Angel Dust purred, leaning forward and propping his chin on his hand. âWhatâs a big shot like you doinâ slumminâ it with us lowly sinners tonight, huh?â
Lucifer chuckled, his voice smooth as silk. âWell, Angel, even a King needs his entertainment. And who better to amuse me than such a⌠colorful group?â
The table burst into laughterâexcept for Alastor, whose eyes narrowed briefly.
âYes, colorful indeed!â Alastor interjected, his radio-smooth voice cutting through the noise. âAnd speaking of entertainment, I was just about to askââ
âHonestly,â Charlie interrupted, âI canât believe youâd call this âslumming it,â Angel. This place is great! Look at all the decorations! Arenât they stunning, Dad?â She turned her radiant smile toward Lucifer, cutting off whatever Alastor had been about to say.
Lucifer smirked indulgently. âIt does have its charms, my dear. Though Iâve seen more impressive gatherings in my day.â
Alastorâs fingers tightened slightly around the stem of his drink. He leaned forward, determined to regain the conversational thread. âWell, I imagine few could match the grandeur of your gatherings, Lucifer. Tell me, do youââ
âYeah, but Iâll bet none of âem had Angel on the pole!â Angel cackled, tipping his glass toward Lucifer. âYou ever throw a party where a spider demon steals the spotlight?â
Lucifer laughed, shaking his head. âThatâs certainly a unique image.â
âIâve got a whole routine I can show you later,â Angel teased, ignoring Huskâs groan.
Alastorâs jaw twitched, though his grin remained fixed. âAhem, as I was sayingââ
âAlastor,â Vaggie snapped, cutting him off. âCanât you let someone else talk for two minutes?â
Charlie, ever the peacemaker, gave an awkward laugh. âOh, come on, Vaggie, Alastor doesnât mean anything by it!â
But Alastor didnât respond to her. His eyes were focused entirely on Lucifer, who had shifted his attention to Niffty, currently chattering about the clubâs history.
The deer demon sank back in his chair, his shoulders stiff despite the nonchalant air he projected. His usual confidence felt hollow, his attempts to capture Luciferâs attention crumbling under the weight of the groupâs chatter.
âWell,â Alastor muttered under his breath, his grin faltering again, âthis is proving to be a most invigorating evening.â
He reached for his drink, sipping the rich liquor in silence, his crimson gaze lingering on Lucifer. The King of Hell hadnât even noticed.
For the rest of the group, the night was a blur of drinks, laughter, and chaos. But for Alastor, the evening felt like a radio station stuck on static. All he could do was sit there, pretending he wasnât yearning for a moment alone with the one person in the room who seemed entirely out of reach.
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First Moments: Hug
Pairing: Dean Winchester x Reader Summary: The first time Dean hugs you. A/N: I am going to keep it going! Please let me know if you have any suggestions for "Firsts"! Word Count: 1,143
The dusty Kansas sunset painted the world in streaks of orange and purple as you stood outside the small, dilapidated diner in Lebanon. Youâd been on the road for weeks, chasing a string of supernatural leads that didnât pan out, and your frustration had finally caught up with you. The Winchester brothers were somewhere inside, sharing a rare moment of peace over greasy burgers and fries. Youâd been tagging along with them for a few months now, after a chance encounter during a hunt in South Dakota.
At first, you werenât sure how long the partnership would last. Dean, ever the protective big brother, had been wary of letting a stranger join their team. You were no stranger to the life, thoughâyou had your scars, both physical and emotional, to prove it. Still, earning Deanâs trust felt like climbing an impossibly high mountain. He was guarded, sharp-tongued, and carried the weight of the world on his shoulders, a fact youâd come to realize more deeply as time went on.
It wasnât that he didnât like youâhe just didnât trust easily. Youâd seen glimpses of his softer side: the way heâd check on Sam when he thought no one was looking, the gruff jokes he used to break tension, and the rare moments when his walls came down just enough to reveal the man beneath the hunter. But a hug? That seemed as unlikely as a demon voluntarily taking a salt bath.
You leaned against the Impala, arms crossed, staring out at the quiet stretch of road. Your mind wandered to the hunt youâd botched last weekâa werewolf case in Nebraska. It shouldâve been straightforward, but a moment of hesitation on your part had nearly cost Sam his life. Dean hadnât said much about it afterward, but you could feel the tension radiating from him. Youâd been carrying the guilt ever since, and tonight it felt heavier than ever.
The door to the diner creaked open, and Dean stepped out. His leather jacket was slung over one shoulder, and he had that familiar look of suspicion and curiosity on his face.
âYou gonna stand out here all night, or what?â he asked, his voice rough but not unkind.
You shrugged, not trusting yourself to speak. Dean wasnât the kind of guy you could fool with small talk or half-hearted excuses. He saw through people like glass.
He approached slowly, his boots crunching on the gravel. âYouâve been quiet lately,â he said, leaning against the car next to you. âQuieter than usual, I mean. Whatâs going on?â
You hesitated, debating whether to brush it off or let him in. Finally, you sighed. âJust... thinking.â
âDangerous pastime,â he quipped, though his tone lacked its usual edge. When you didnât laugh, he frowned. âCome on, out with it. Whatâs eating you?â
You glanced at him, surprised by the genuine concern in his eyes. It wasnât often that Dean let himself be openly vulnerable, even in the smallest ways. âItâs that hunt in Nebraska,â you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper. âI screwed up, Dean. If you hadnât been there, Sam mightâveââ
âStop,â he interrupted, his tone firm but not harsh. âSamâs fine. Youâre fine. Thatâs what matters.â
âBut it was my fault,â you insisted, the guilt bubbling to the surface. âI froze up, andââ
âAnd youâre human,â he said, cutting you off again. âIt happens. Trust me, Iâve made more mistakes than I can count. You learn from it and move on.â
You shook your head, unable to meet his gaze. âI just... I donât want to be a liability. You and Sam, youâve been doing this your whole lives. I donât want to be the reason something goes wrong.â
Dean was quiet for a moment, and when he finally spoke, his voice was softer than youâd ever heard it. âListen, this life? Itâs not easy. Hell, itâs damn near impossible sometimes. But youâre part of the team now, and weâve got your back. Youâre not a liability. Youâre family.â
The word hit you like a punch to the gut. Family. It was something you hadnât felt in a long time. Not since youâd lost your parents to a demon when you were a teenager. Not since youâd been hunting alone, keeping people at armâs length because getting close to anyone felt like a risk you couldnât afford to take.
Dean must have noticed the look on your face because he shifted uncomfortably, running a hand through his short-cropped hair. âLook, Iâm not great at this touchy-feely stuff, but... I mean it. Youâre family. And family doesnât bail when things get tough.â
Something in you broke at those words. The tears youâd been holding back for weeks spilled over, and you quickly turned away, embarrassed. âSorry,â you mumbled, wiping at your eyes. âI didnât mean toââ
âHey,â Dean said, his voice gentle now. Before you could protest, he reached out and pulled you into a hug.
It wasnât one of those quick, awkward pats on the back youâd expect from someone like Dean. It was solid, grounding, and full of unspoken emotion. His arms were strong around you, steadying you as you let yourself cry against his chest. You could feel the warmth of his leather jacket, the steady rhythm of his heartbeat, and the faint scent of motor oil and whiskey that clung to him like a second skin.
For a moment, the world stopped. The weight of your guilt, your fears, your lonelinessâit all seemed to fade in the safety of his embrace. Dean didnât say anything, and he didnât need to. The hug said it all: Youâre not alone. Youâre not a failure. Youâre family.
When you finally pulled away, his hands lingered on your shoulders, grounding you. âFeeling better?â he asked, his voice gruff but kind.
You nodded, swallowing hard. âYeah. Thanks, Dean.â
He gave you a small smile, the kind that didnât come around often but lit up his whole face when it did. âDonât mention it. Seriously. Ever.â
That earned a laugh from you, and the tension between you eased. For the first time in weeks, you felt like you could breathe again.
Dean patted the hood of the Impala, his way of signaling that the moment was over. âCome on,â he said, opening the passenger door. âSamâs probably eaten all the fries by now, but maybe we can grab some pie for the road.â
You climbed into the car, feeling lighter than you had in days. As the Impala roared to life and the brothers started bickering over music choices, you found yourself smiling. The road ahead would still be hard, but for the first time in a long time, you didnât feel like you were facing it alone.
Dean didnât hug often, but when he did, it mattered. And in that moment, it was exactly what you needed.
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THIS INTERVIEW IS THE BEST đđđ im now a breeb shipper.
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#breebforever#genuinely laughed the whole way through this#i love them đđđ#ted lasso#toheeb jimoh#cristo fernĂĄndez#kola bokinni#sam obisanya#dani rojas#isaac mcadoo#hell yeah im tagging all the actors and characters đđ#Youtube
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rewatching dil gets spooky and itâs sooo comforting and nostalgic ugh Iâve been rewatching all the spooky gaming and baking videos but just old sims party hosting is so fun
#scrolling through the most recent comments as I do when rewatching old videos#and thereâs one from a year ago (exact date unlikely but probably before the revival)#that says I know Dan is a grown man that is very analytical but I miss his outgoing humour#it really makes me think about how we perceive people going through different stages of life and how they choose to present themselves#like sure in the wad/ywgttn era dan was coming across as more mature or whatever that means#dealing with addressing different subject matter in his creative work ig#but I feel like people kinda like to put him in a box. like that was still the same dan!#even if he intentionally chose to present himself in a certain way through promo etc during that time#idk it is true though that over the past year in gaming videos and genuine introspective conversations like in the pizza mukbang#that he is letting go and allowing himself to just enjoy and be silly and do his little dances#do all the unhinged activities with Phil to promote a dragon iPhone game and laugh at tiktoks#he loves the word camp so Dan Howell is Camp and I love him#and we should let people ride out those different waves of life and self#idk wtf this is these tags are like a whole other post but oh well#dnp#dan and phil#dnpgames#randomthots#the sims
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as of ten minutes ago we are officially Joblessâ˘ď¸. my sign to retire early and devote the remainder of my existence to writing toxic old man yaoi
#pennforyourthoughts#personal#someone rb this with silly tags i feel it deserves some levity#warning: novel-length tags lmfao#THEY TOLD ME TODAY MY LAST DAY IS FRIDAY? that's only two whole workdays for me HELLO??#knew it was coming bc they let my friend go two weeks ago and he had more seniority than me but jfc#at least let me ride out the contract till november. WHY. i JUST went back to uni i need money goddamn it#full disclosure tho i haven't been able to stop laughing bc so much of the surrounding circumstances are insanely funny to me#1) i was LITERALLY at a job fair yesterday and I almost considered not going bc I was so damn tired#surprisingly made some really great connections so ty universe now i have people to poke in the coming months#2) i switched from part time to ft course load at the last second and have been regretting it ever since but if im to be unemployed then#MAYBE now I can actually handle the uni workload :D#3) when my boss called me she asked how ive been and i told her i was sooo sick last week and got into a car accident#that same day omw back from uni (universal karma for skipping class for my health ig)#THE WAY SHE PAUSED ON CALL IS SO FUNNY IN RETROSPECT. was prolly thinking fuck. now i have to add to this#she literally went âomg im so sorry...anyways i have bad newsâ#im not even lying when i say i was GIGGLING through that whole call she was so concerned#love her bc she genuinely tried to fight for me and is the reason i wasn't let go two weeks ago but man. the timing is impeccable#also don't think i get any unemployment benefits bc i was temp contract and my situation as a whole is a bit complicated so YAY :DDD#the way i ran to my bestie to spill the tea & we're over here like đ¤ fired buddies đ¤ time to speed run job interviews while juggling uni
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#close up!! because i firstly Did Not render them with such insanity in order for tumblr's lack of general resolution to make it blur#look at all the lines!!! teehee i still really really like this style of digital painting it's super super fun to do!!! and also secondly#because i went back and added a tag ramble and as i seem to often be doing??? lately?? reached the 30 tag limit and went 'hm ok how else..'#anyway the tag essay on that one is now up and talks about the artwork generally and miscellaneous thoughts!! that said. i need a space to#ramble about beatrix at Length because look you don't draw and paint etc a character for like ten hours without having a lot of thoughts#anyways ! i digress terrifically. tag rambles are more like trains of thoughts masquerading as subways and you get on and it's unfortunately#a rollercoaster track. but this is My Blog and i can do Whatever I Want as long as i don't hurt anyone <- affirmations!! also Harm Principle#lately it's been like *kicks up feet* *opens tumblr tags* *treats it as own personal journal* and tbh Good for me!! anyways back to beatrix#fun fact ! the thing that pushed me over the edge to go watch the musical after looking through the tumblr tag was a very specific poll.#and the fact that the winning option was blue hair and pronouns made me double over laughing so hard i had to go see the source material#mm i feel like lately the academic Context has been tossing me essentially into a blender HAHA ;-; so everyone in adamandi is to some extent#a Mood. but bea-specific (haha be specific)(sorry!)(wow this is the same reaction mechanism of my friend who points out innuendos)(...)#i think it's the wanting to prove herself. like from the whole abuela etc thing there's proof here she's got a Stable Support System of sort#and instead what beatrix continues to do is push themselves. 'i guess u could say i'm married to my work? god that's depressing' // no one#here to enforce that // abuela tells me to rest says i'm constantly stressed and i'll just get depressed like before but i still have to try#like. that shred of desperation that pushes you to the brink to neglect yourself (well i guess physically but also your morals..) and like!!#the whole 'lose half your soul thing' proves she's self aware!! like they know what they're doing is super dubious yknow! but they're still#they're still doing it even if it goes into conflict with their morality system in a way and then they justify it to themselves (see pt 1#of ghostwriter) and the whole wanting to achieve at all costs Despite the self awareness. (i think? this aspect also applied to quincy. but#thoughts on him will come later). more beatrix specific also is the fact that they genuinely adore their work.. 'i just love it here where#you know they'll be printing forever and you are just part of it' because that does kind of resonate with me. also the being behind in the#competition is real!!! i'm maybe talking about Art as a subject because that same drive for it exists on my good days i think. even#even when nothing seems to be going right and you've ended up at the back the intent passion inherent in what you do is still there!!!#the genuine. care she has for reporting. is so !!!!! to me... other beatrix thoughts include 'why reveal yourself at the end' aka vincent's#'u should have stayed silent u had a smart plan' like rip to them but i would not // it feels with bea's complex character i can't imagine h#her Not doing that. like the guilt is real i guess. and i am running out of tags but! smth also about her fervent hope or smth that she'll#eventually get to where she wants. and the resilient determination.. 'i won't let their deaths be pointless there's more good i'm gonna do'#they're so so real for that. i'm not sure if it's a good or bad thing; seeing myself reflected in aspects of characters like this.. but it's#it's there regardless. smth smth just make your peace with the person you are ig!! tldr beatrix campbell my beloved. hehe#adamandi
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nah literally nothing will convince me anyone has had a worse lifetime of birthdays than i have
#que#to start i was born in a drug addicts basement and left unattended for over 24 hours#was bounced around through fostercare till i was adopted by some wackjobs at 2yo#i was screamed at for the cat i was given on my 5th birthday and yelled at about the rabbit i was given on my 6th#both of these animals were given to me with the permission of the woman who adopted me; the exact person screaming at me over them.#my grandmother killed my first dog the day after my 8th birthday#my tenth and twelth birthdays were spent being screamed at; insulted; laughed at.#myy eleventh birthday was spent crying at my cousins wedding out in the cold rain bc my adopter kicked me out of the car to smoke in it.#and then my childhood rapist came up and comforted me. and compared to the situation i was in i genuinely felt safer and happier with him.#my 13th birthday was spent watching everyone eat mounds of animal flesh right after i had gone fully vegan and being forced fed said flesh.#my 14th was just spent crying trying to hide from my abusers as best as i could.#same for my 15th#my 16th i was sat down with the --case manager-- troubled teens program monitor and my abusers#and not threatened---PROMISED by them that they would make me homeless because a teacher was bullying me and i wanted a ged.#my 17th was spent getting gross remarks and glares sent my way whenever i did show my face#my 18th (last one before i went nc with my whole family) was spent crying upstairs in my room#and getting screamed at for not doing chores#because my abuser was throwing herself a party and a birthday party FOR SOMEONE ELSE and i needed to clean the whole house top to bottom an#go get the other persons cake. while being screamed at and insulted.#like fight me on it i dare you#no one has had this many horrible birthdays let alone birthdays that are LITERALLY so horrible#yes i am trauma olympicsing right now and im winning gold in every category except for 'normal family'
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re: the kirby anime: tbh i may have to wait til im totally back on my kirby 100% challenge and im being reassured that kirby is a well loved character who has creators that like him. because ngl, if the kirby creators werenât directly involved in the animeâs production, i would have assumed it was made by people who thought kirby was cringey and weird.
#mayyyybe thats too harsh. there isnt a lot of lowbrow meta humor about the kirby series itself#and the show does take itself seriously it doesnt feel embarassed to be a kirby show#it doesnt feel like the minecraft movie where everyone involved look like theyre sneering at the audience like#ââugh isnt minecraft so stupid?ââ#but. sometimes. the way kirby himself is treated in the showâŚ. really feels like the anime does not like him#or at least they get a lot of humor out of going ââha ha isnt it funny when we beat up kirby and hes weak and dumb and gullible?ââ#like⌠his literal introduction to the other characters is ââERMMM HUH?? THIS THING IS A HERO? BUT ITS PINK AND STUPID???ââ#and then they go ââactually maybe he just fucking sucksââ and yeah theyre proven wrong by the end#but the tone doesnt change#and often the visual humor comes from him getting kicked around and laughed at for being dumb#its genuinely making the show a slog to get through. like no i dont think its funny that this baby is getting bullied constantly#thereâs literally a whole episode thats just kirby getting tortured over and over and over and over again#to the point its genuinely uncomfortable#ââha ha the kirby anime must be wholesome and youre probably a perverted freak if youre not its biggest fan-ââ#the shows humor comes from bullying an infant#echoed voice
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i get so caught up in the emotional arcs of the characters i forget how fucking funny rick and morty is
#genuinely one of the only shows that makes me laugh the whole way through almost every episode#rick and morty
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#cleanwhiteroom#cwr#adding a disclaimer this time: Taka this post is about math spoilers#do NOT read it until you catch up#now thatâs been said:#i was not necessarily planning on spending this evening crying over Daniel Destiny and Vala#AND YET HERE I AM#I donât usually tag with the full username bc the main tag is intimidating but. god. god.#this is main tag material#this whole arc has been. i donât even have words????#what an incredible journey#but the closing!!!!! this chapter!!!!!!#im not being hyperbolic!!!! Iâm genuinely crying!!!!!!#I was clutching a hand to my face as I read!!!!! not even in a cool or chill way there was nothing chill about this#yall Iâm going insane someone PLEASE talk to me about this arc Iâm SPEECHLESS#the shaâre thing????? YOU TAUGHT ME ABOUT LOVE??????#IM SORRY I LEFT YOU IN THE DARK???????#and then the SHELL#the SHELL#I was cry laughing through valaâs summoning but that turned back into pure crying REAL quick#also obsessed with Daniel and his new water sensitivity going to atlantis#Iâm sure that will go really well#augh. i need to stare at the ceiling for two years. incredible.#shout out to tumblr for posting this to the wrong blog#why and also how. tumblr app you never cease to surprise me (derogatory)
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How funny is it on a scale of 1 to 10?
(About the movie Bottoms) Like maybe a 9? Easily one of the funniest movies Iâve seen this year and definitely the funniest of 2023 that Iâve seen. Itâs camp and absurd. It might not hit for everyone but if you can accept it exists in its own teen movie world with problematic hilarious characters and raunchy worldbuilding, itâs great. Like Iâd put it up there with my favorite teen dark comedies like Heathers. Very different though, it does its own thing, which I feel is kinda rare, especially with teen-ish movies. (There actually was a long discussion on my blog a few weeks ago about lack of good teen comediesânot dramatic/dramedy coming of age storiesâand I think this is the first one in a while to fit the bill to a tee.)
I will say, be sure to go in as blind as possible. I saw the trailer but didnât read any reviews and that was perfectly fine. I was genuinely in awe. Again like any comedy or movie for that matter, Iâm sure itâs not for everyone. But I do recommend it, especially if you like dark comedies.
#like to me this is what some people#think booksmart is#booksmart did not hit for me#even tho on paper it should have#this was soooo good#i say 9 but I genuinely was laughing through the whole thing#asks#anonymous#movie talk#edit: looked at my list of movies i watched this year. probably the other funniest i watched were like⌠some like it hot & 50 shades of grey#not including rewatches#barbie was also v funny but not in fhe same way at all and not as consistently as bottoms imho
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no clue what I was expecting but this is infinitely better
i can never face my family again
#i laughed the whole way through#no joke this has genuinely brightened my day considerably#loud volume warning
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#tag talk#vent#wow okay so turns out my psychiatrist didn't ghost me she just put in the med refills without telling me#so I was waiting for her to message me back like a fucking idiot because expecting professional communication is apparently too much#I genuinely think I might cry I'm so fucking... not even mad. just incredibly let down#the autistic realization that you do in fact have to do everything yourself because you can't trust anyone to give you the support you need#you have to put in the extra work constantly just to survive because the environment is so incredibly hostile without even meaning to be#I didn't know I needed to check my prescriptions again. I didn't realize she would just add a refill without telling me.#the thought never crossed my mind. so I accepted my fate and experienced three weeks of hell#and I'm such a fucking doormat that the strongest word I could use to describe it to her was âinterestingâ.#I laughed and brushed it off like it was nothing because I was too afraid to say âI went through hell and you're responsibleâ#and I know my best option is to just suck it up and go back on the meds but I'm so fucking scared to#I'm so fucking scared of going back on. getting it in my system. and then somehow getting cut off again#scared of relying on anything but myself because I know it'll just let me down again#I genuinely felt the worst I've ever felt. not just physically. my brain was on fire.#my brain was burning and all I knew to do was endure the pain without saying anything.#because I didn't know that I should follow up. I didn't know how to navigate the system. and I suffered for it.#self advocacy is so necessary but it's so fucking difficult and scary#and I laugh and joke and pretend to be this confident easy-going careless persona when I'm really not#I'm fucking terrified of bothering people or upsetting them.#I had a whole grand speech in my head about how I would hold her accountable for this mistake#and then the moment came and all I could do was laugh it off out of fear.#and all I can do is cry about it and feel like a fucking failure#I know I should go back on the meds but I'm so fucking scared I don't want to feel like that ever again#I lost who I was. I lost my sense of self. my body stopped working in any of the ways it's supposed to#I've only just now come out of emergency power mode and I'm terrified of it happening to me again#I've been sleeping a ton recently. I'll wake up really early in the morning and then work on going back to sleep#my body is a machine and I've learned the proper input codes to make myself go to sleep#but I'm back to depression napping for 12-16 hours. entering recovery mode and trying to fix the damage I've experienced#I keep having really bad nightmares though. I know I need the sleep so I put up with it but it sucks so fucking much
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i have been in community with profoundly developmentally disabled peers and peers with brain damage my whole life, bc i had a childhood diagnosis. i have also been leftist my whole life; my mother was a marxist and raised me that way, and while their politics were absolute dogshit, they were lefty dogshit.
my entire life, i have seen leftist educators throw mentally disabled people away as "lost causes" because they couldn't engage with the material the way it was being presented. leftist outreach and education does, genuinely, have a massive lack of accessible material. to be blunt, people are not interested in retrofitting their leftist outreach to be accessible to people who learn best through episodes of sesame street.
as in, i have repeatedly faced outright laughter and cruelty over the idea that this could be a priority. or even something that we consider doing at all.
"people who are that mentally disabled don't need to know about these things," the kindest interpretation goes. ("people who are that mentally disabled don't interact with the world, anyway, they're all in institutions or monitored 24/7 by their parents," the uncharitable underlying assumptions go. "they wouldn't be a worker who needs a union. or a library attendee. or a member of the community garden. or a volunteer at the food bank. or or or")
the people i have seen this hurt the worst, over and over again, are profoundly mentally disabled people of color whose lack of access to accessible antiracist education is causing real danger in their lives. institutionalized disabled people of color who have learned racist ideology and behaviors from white authority, whether they were adopted by white families or incarcerated in care institutions run by white staff. who are treated lower than garbage by leftist educators, who view them as "lost causes," as unworthy of time and effort and attention, as deserving of their abuses because they... what... internalized the abuses that make up every aspect of their lives since birth?
i see people saying things in this conversation like "disability isn't an excuse for racism or transphobia or whatever, people have the obligation to improve themselves." oh, believe me, i have seen again and again how many privileged disabled people utilize their disabilities to punch down on others, try to escape accountability for their punching down by citing disability. but individual weaponization of identity is just that: weaponization of identity.
the power structures at play are what they are. it is a noble and admirable goal to want leftist outreach and education to be more accessible to all. if that is truly your goal, you must eventually reckon with the existence of people who do, actually, really need it presented in a picture book. or an episode of bluey. or a conversation where you only use examples of people they know in real life, using things that happened to them personally. the existence of people who cannot grasp forms of abstract reasoning, who need information presented as rules, or as guidelines, or as categories. the idea that yes, fully grown adults who need daniel tiger to explain racism to them are human beings who not only deserve access to that very thing, but who also deserve to be a part of leftist spaces and benefit from leftist organizing. are people for whom it might be INTEGRAL they get to be a part of leftism. are victims of racism themselves and suffering without access to antiracist spaces and community and support.
and you will need to reckon with the abject cruelty of your peers who laugh and mock the very idea of this. you need to reckon with the fact that a lot of people you respect, a lot of leftists doing genuinely good work, will respond to this by making fun of the people you're serving, even outright telling you their violent fantasies about these people. that is the experience of organizing in leftist spaces for profoundly disabled people. that is why so many of us burn out so fast. there IS a structural problem with mentally disabled people being seen as disposable and not a part of community. and it is EXTREMELY present in leftist organizing and outreach efforts.
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Part 4
Soapâs eyebrows lifted with a curious glint in his eye as he looked from you to Adira, a playful grin edging onto his face. He leaned in, never one to miss a chance at a bit of friendly prodding.
âSo⌠youâre married?â he asked, his tone as light as his smirk.
You laughed, the sound warm and genuine. âHaha! No, Iâm not.â You gave Adiraâs tiny hand a gentle squeeze, glancing down at her with a smile that softened every edge on your face.Â
Soap tilted his head, pretending to be shocked. âA bonnie lass like yerself? Unmarried?â he teased, hand on his chest as though it were a crime.
âGuess Iâm a rare breed,â you replied with a grin, chuckling as you shifted Adiraâs hand in yours.
Soapâs face lit up at your response, as if heâd just been given the most interesting bit of news heâd heard all week. He shot Ghost a quick look, but Ghost was still watching Adira, his gaze softened with something unreadable.
Meanwhile, Gaz wasn't fascinated by Soap's ability to make anyone at ease, the man was a cassanova. Roach watched Adira with curiosity, as though piecing together a puzzle he hadnât realized existed until now. Price stood off to the side, arms crossed, silently observing the whole scene.
âIf you arenât married, howâd you get this little one?â Soap pushed, grinning as he wiggled a playful finger in Adiraâs direction.
Adiraâs gaze snapped up from Ghost to the man with the funny hair, her little brow furrowing as she studied Soap with a mix of curiosity and caution. She leaned into your leg, clearly wary, but her attention stayed on the finger waving in front of her.
You chuckled, brushing a hand over Adiraâs head to reassure her. âLong story,â you replied, smiling. âLetâs just say she was an unexpected blessing.â
Soap laughed softly, glancing at Ghost with a gleam in his eye. âAh, aye, lifeâs full of surprises, eh?âÂ
Ghost, who had been studying Adira in silence, clenched his jaw, shifting uncomfortably as Soapâs words hit a little too close to home.
âI used to be really wild back in the day,â you admitted with a sheepish grin, a hint of nostalgia coloring your tone as you thought back to those not-so-distant years.
Soap wasnât quite done yet, though. âDoes the father know?â he threw a quick glance at Ghost, who had just risen from his crouched position. A new tension ran through Ghostâs frame, his stance rigid, as if the question had struck something heâd rather not confront.
You hesitated, a shadow crossing your expression before you shook your head. âNo, he doesnât⌠He, uh, probably has no idea.â
Ghostâs jaw tightened, his gaze flickering from you to Adira, who was absorbed in her drink, unaware of the intensity surrounding her. His shoulders stiffened, and for a split second, he looked as though he wanted to speakâbut whatever words he had caught in his throat, locked behind his silence.
"I see, well. I'm sorry if I took up your time, maâam, you've been a nice chat," Soap said, his voice softening with a touch of politeness, his grin still present but more reserved now.
You nodded, giving Adiraâs hand a gentle tug as you continued on your way, the soft crunch of snow beneath your boots the only sound accompanying your steps. The blue sky stretched above, peaceful, serene. As you walked, Adira turned her head, glancing back at Ghost one final time. She refused to let go of her cup, her small fingers gripping it tightly, but she lifted her other hand in a small, hesitant wave. "Bye-bye," she whispered, her voice soft but sweet.
Ghostâs gaze lingered, but he didnât move. His expression was unreadable, a mixture of things churning behind those eyes.Â
Price let out a heavy sigh, crossing his arms and facing Ghost. âSo... whatâs the plan?â he asked, his tone both blunt and expectant, clearly waiting for some kind of direction. The rest of the team stood in silence, watching the exchange unfold.
Ghost didnât answer immediately. His gaze remained on you and Adira, watching you both disappear further down the street, the distance growing with each step. The soft crunch of snow under your boots was the only sound in the quiet winter air. He didnât even notice Price's voice until the man spoke again, closer now, with a slight edge to his tone.
"Ghost, talk to me. Whatâs the plan here?â
Finally, Ghost shifted, his shoulders tense, his jaw clenched as he turned to face Price. There was a flicker of something in his eyesâsomething caught between anger, confusion, and a deep, gnawing regret.
"I don't know," he muttered, the words barely escaping his lips. "I wasn't expecting this. Hell, I didn't even know she existed." His voice was low, strained, but there was a quiet honesty to it, as if he was trying to process something that didnât make sense.
Soap stepped closer, his expression serious for once. "What now, Ghost? We can help. But you need to tell us what's going on."
Ghost finally looked away, his attention drawn to the ground, his fingers twitching like he was trying to find something to hold onto. "I don't even know where to start," he admitted. "All I know is... I saw her. And it hit me like a fucking truck."
Roach, always one to stay in the background, spoke up. âMaybe itâs time to talk to her, yeah? Figure out where to go from here?â
Priceâs eyes narrowed, his stern gaze shifting to Ghost, assessing him. âAnd what exactly do you want from us? Youâre in this, whether you like it or not.â
Ghost let out a frustrated breath. âI donât know,â he repeated, voice hoarse. âBut I canât just let her slip away.â
A silence stretched between them, heavy and thick, as the weight of the situation settled in. Then, slowly, Ghost nodded. âIâll figure it out. Just⌠not now. Not here.â His eyes flicked toward the street where you had disappeared, and something in his gaze softened, just for a moment, before the mask fell back into place.
Price gave a single nod. "Alright. But we stick together on this. Youâre not doing it alone, Ghost."
The team stood together for a moment longer, the wind howling through the alley, before they slowly began to move, their steps trailing off into the winter evening. The silence that hung between them was thick with uncertainty. No one knew what came next, but they knew one thing for sure: whatever happened, they were in this together.
A month passed, the team giving Ghost the space he needed to process the whirlwind that had hit him. They all knew this was something he had to handle on his own terms, but that didn't mean the questions didn't linger. What did it mean for the future? What did he want? The answers were still unclear, even to Ghost himself.
But Soap, ever the persistent one, wasnât content to let things sit in limbo. He knew Ghost, knew how his mind worked, and that sometimes the best way to breakthrough was to take small steps. And if that meant subtly nudging you into the picture, then so be it. Heâd always been good at thisâat slipping in the background, making things happen without anyone noticing.
So, Soap started to "accidentally" run nto you. At the park, when you were out with Adira, he'd make sure to be in the same place at the same time, offering a casual greeting. It always started simple, harmless, with a nod or a small comment about the weather. Then, of course, there was that coffee shop where you'd gone to get hot chocolate for Adira.
The first time he "bumped" into you there, it was nothing more than a quick exchange. A question about the drink, a comment on the cold weather, just the usual small talk. But Johnny's natural charm and ease made you relax, and made the conversation flow without much effort. Over time, those small moments grew. You'd smile when you'd see him, and he'd greet you with the same friendly energy, always leaving you feeling at ease. No pressure, just casual.
And slowly, ever so slowly, Johnny began to warm you up to the idea of him. It wasn't much at firstâa smile here, a shared laugh thereâbut he knew what he was doing. He wasn't pushing, just letting the connection build at its own pace. The more you saw him, the more comfortable you felt. The more you talked, the more you found yourself enjoying the interactions, even if they were brief.
One evening, Johnny sat beside you on the park bench, casually leaning back as Adira bounced around in the snow, her laughter filling the crisp air. The sound was contagious, and for a moment, you let yourself relax, watching her with a soft smile.
"So, me and a couple friends are meeting up at Leslie's this weekend," Johnny said, his tone light but with a hint of something more. "Would you be interested?"
You snorted, expecting the usual joke or teasing, but when you glanced over at him, his expression was far more serious than you anticipated. For a moment, you considered dismissing it. After all, Leslie's? A pub? That was a far cry from the cozy routine youâd built for yourself with Adira.Â
âSeriously?â you asked, raising an eyebrow. "I don't think I fit the scene."
Johnny shrugged nonchalantly, the corner of his mouth lifting in that playful grin of his. âPlease. It'll just be like old times.â
Your mind immediately wandered, trying to understand what he meant by that. What was it about old times that Johnny thought might appeal to you? You didnât exactly have a wild past to cling to. Sure, youâd had your moments, but those felt long behind you now.Â
Still, something about the invitation lingered. A night out... maybe it wouldnât be so bad. You hadnât done anything for you in a while. And maybe, just maybe, it would be nice to let someone else take care of the night for once. No worrying about Adira, no responsibilities for a few hours. Just some fun, whatever that meant now.
You hesitated, looking down at Adira as she made another snow angel, oblivious to the conversation happening nearby. Sheâd be fine, right? And you could leave if things felt uncomfortable.Â
âAlright,â you finally said, meeting Johnnyâs gaze with a reluctant but genuine smile. "I'll join you. But only if itâs not as crazy as youâre making it sound."Â
Johnnyâs grin widened, and you could tell he was already mentally planning the evening, no doubt with some plan to ease you in without overwhelming you. He stood up, dusting off the snow on his pants as he glanced back at you.
âDeal. Iâll make sure itâs a night to remember.â
You just hoped he wasnât overselling it.
The weekend seemed to arrive so fast, and here you were, standing outside your apartment, nervously adjusting your blue blouse and jeans. It wasnât exactly the type of outfit you thought would fit a night out, but it was the best you could do. Most of your wardrobe these days consisted of comfortable clothes, ones that could be easily changed or wiped clean in case Adira had another of her toddler mishaps. Sexy or flirty clothes were a distant memory, tucked away in a drawer somewhere, gathering dust.
Adira stood in the doorway, clutching her little stuffed bear to her chest, eyes wide and brimming with unshed tears. The sight hit you harder than you expected. You knelt down in front of her, your heart sinking at the sight of her teary eyes. âIâll be back in a couple hours, I promise,â you said, your voice gentle but firm, reaching out to her with a reassuring smile.
Adira sniffled, her tiny hand coming up to rub her eyes, but she didnât break her stare. You held out your pinky, the gesture as familiar as breathing. Slowly, she reached out, her small finger wrapping around yours with the same trust she always had. The connection was brief, but it felt like a promise, one that you hoped would calm her.
"I won't be out long," you said softly to the friend youâd left with her. "And you, be good for Auntie too." The last part was directed at Adira, though the words felt bittersweet on your tongue.
Adira nodded, but her face still held that sadness, that uncertainty of what the night would bring without you.Â
Standing up, you ruffled her hair and offered a small, hopeful smile. âIâll be back before you know it. Just a little fun for Mama, okay?â
Her small nod didnât do much to ease the tightness in your chest, but you turned and gave her one last look before stepping outside. The cool evening air wrapped around you, a contrast to the warmth of the apartment behind you, but you pushed the feeling away. Tonight was for you, however strange that sounded.Â
Locking the door behind you, you felt a flutter of nerves in your stomach. This wasnât just any night out. It was a night with Johnny, with his friends, with the possibility of reconnecting to parts of yourself youâd set aside for so long.
Arriving outside the establishment, the familiar hum of chatter and music filled the night air, but what caught your attention first was Johnny standing outside, leaning against the brick wall, checking his watch. The moment his eyes met yours, they lit up, his expression shifting from casual to something almost... eager.Â
âWell, well, look at you,â he said with that trademark wink of his, his gaze raking over you with a genuine appreciation that made you feel suddenly self-conscious. âYou clean up well.â
You rolled your eyes but couldnât suppress the small smile tugging at your lips. It was hard to resist the easy charm of Johnny.
âLetâs just hope I survive this night,â you muttered, though the words were more for yourself than him. You werenât sure what to expect tonight, but you couldnât shake the feeling that things might not go as smoothly as Johnny seemed to think.
Johnny chuckled, the sound warm and reassuring. âIâm sure you will. Now, letâs get going before I change my mind.â
With that, you fell into step beside him, the weight of your hand at your side suddenly feeling strange in the cool night air. He led you toward the door, and as you entered the dimly lit space of the bar, your eyes scanned the room.Â
It was bustling, a mix of regulars and newcomers, all seeking solace or company for the night. It smelled of beer, whiskey, and the faintest hint of fried food, a familiar and welcoming kind of atmosphere. But as soon as you stepped inside, your nerves shot back up again. You tried not to let the nerves show, but they were there, itching under your skin.
What you didnât notice, as you made your way to the bar, was the group inside. Ghost, Price, Gaz, Roachâquietly observing, waiting for their chance to either speak to you or simply let you slip through their fingers once more. Ghostâs eyes tracked you the moment you stepped inside, and there was a hesitation in his gaze, something raw and almost pained that flickered in and out.Â
For a moment, Ghost didnât move, didnât speak. He simply watched you, aware that the moment heâd been dreadingâhe had finally stumbled into. Your gaze met his across the room, the flicker of recognition passing between you both. But that was it. You didnât remember. You didnât know him. You didnât know what he was to you.
Approaching the bar, you saw that Johnny was already leaning in, chatting with the bartender, exchanging friendly banter. You barely heard the words, only caught up in the feeling that something was different. Something you couldnât quite place. You glanced back at the table where those men sat. They werenât talking, but their eyes were all trained on you, as if waiting for something to happen.
Your heart raced without explanation. Ghostâs eyesâthose eyesâstayed locked on you. He didnât know how to approach, how to change what had already seemingly been set in stone. What was he supposed to say? What was the plan now that you were here, so close? God, why the fuck did johnny do this.
Johnny leaned toward you again, a soft smile curling his lips. âYou good, love?â he asked, his voice pulling you back to the present.
âYeah,â you muttered, your voice barely above a whisper. You forced a smile, trying to ignore the uneasy tension brewing in your chest. âJust... getting used to being out.â
Johnny winked again, oblivious to the chaos of emotions swirling within you. âItâs all good. Letâs have some fun tonight, yeah?â
Ghostâs fist clenched involuntarily under the table. He wasnât sure how much longer he could keep this distance, this silent acknowledgment of his role, or how long he could ignore what it meant to see you here now.Â
âYouâll fit right in,â Johnny said, though there was a hint of something deeper behind his words. âJust a bunch of mates enjoying a drink, nothing crazy.â Johnny leads you over to the table, you expected to be met with⌠well you didn't quite know what. Â
Price leaned back in his seat, cigar in hand, a soft smile on his weathered face as he regarded you with a raised brow. âDidnât think youâd actually show up.â
"Neither did I," you muttered under your breath, forcing a smile and doing your best to ignore the gnawing feeling that lingered when you looked at him. You hadnât quite expected this part of the evening.
âIâm just here for a drink, nothing more,â you said, looking over at Johnny was getting comfortable in his chair.
âWell, pull up a seat, love,â Price said, motioning to the empty spot next to him. âWeâre all friends here.â
You hesitated but made your way over, perching yourself on the seat next to him. The sound of the glass being slid toward you, the clink of ice against glass, broke through the chatter around you. Your nerves buzzed as you focused on the drink in front of you, trying to ignore the sudden realization of just how different this was from the quiet, routine life you had at home with Adira.
âEnjoy yourself,â Price said with an air of casual amusement, leaning back in his chair. âThis is all new for you, isnât it?â
You raised an eyebrow, not wanting to admit just how out of place you felt in the moment. Instead, you took a sip of your drink, the burn of whiskey warming you from the inside out.
You laugh lightly, a bit awkwardly, trying to shake off the nerves that gnawed at you. "Yeah, this all a bit... newish. I haven't been out like this in years honestly," you admit, taking a deep breath and glancing around the bar. The warmth of the space was a welcome contrast to the chill outside, but the sight of the men made you feel more like a fish out of water than ever.
Johnny claps you on the back with an easy grin, clearly trying to make you feel more comfortable. âThese are my mates. Price, Kyle, Gary, and Simon," he introduces with a flourish, motioning to each man in turn.Â
You give them all a polite smile, not quite sure what to make of them just yet. There was something about the way they carried themselves, all standing a little apart from the crowd, that made it clear they were more than just regulars at the pub. But you didnât have time to focus too much on that right now. You were trying to just survive the night.
Price, who looked a bit older than the rest, nods at you, his gaze thoughtful, almost cautious. âNice to meet you,â he says in a tone that is polite but distant, as though heâs waiting for something, some sign.
Kyle, as Johnny had called himâgives you a friendly nod, a playful glint in his eyes, but there's a strange sharpness to his look that you canât quite place. âPleasure," he says, offering you a tight smile.
Gary simply gives you a quick but sincere nod. His eyes linger on you just long enough for you to catch a flicker of interest before he looks away.
And then thereâs Simon. His presence, as always, is quieter, more intense. Heâs sitting in the middle, arms crossed, his gaze fixed directly on you. You can feel the weight of it, though. Itâs impossible not to. There was something you couldn't place with him though you couldnât see too well under the dim light.
You try to shake off the unease creeping up your spine. âNice to meet you all," you reply, your voice warmer than you feel.Â
Johnny, oblivious to the awkwardness in the air, slaps the bar and gives a nod. âAlright, drinks all around, yeah? Letâs get this party started!â he declares, pulling the group into the rhythm of the night.
As the revelry began your stomach churns slightly, a sense of unease still lingering despite the distraction. You knew something was off, something you couldnât quite put into words. It wasnât just the menâit was the way Simonâs gaze lingered on you, the way he looked at you as if he were waiting for something. It unsettled you, but you couldnât figure out why.
Johnny, seemingly oblivious to your tension, slides a drink toward you. âFirst roundâs on me," he grins, the clink of glass against the table snapping you back to the present. "Hereâs to a good night.â.
You took a deep breath, swallowing down the nerves that still clung to you. This was supposed to be a night out, after all. A chance to shake off the past, to let loose just a little. You couldnât let the weight of everything pull you under before you even tried. What would be the point if you didnât at least try and enjoy yourself?
Shaking the tension from your shoulders, you took a sip of your drink, the burn of alcohol easing the knot in your stomach just slightly. The guys were chatting among themselves, Johnnyâs laughter cutting through the low hum of the bar as he joked with Kyle. Price was listening intently, nodding along while Gary seemed content to let the others talk, his eyes occasionally flicking to you, though his gaze didnât linger long.
And then there was Simon.
His presence loomed even when he wasnât speaking, his broad frame leaning against the bar just slightly, face half hidden by the shadows. You caught his eyes for a split second, the intensity of his stare making your pulse hitch. You quickly looked away, focusing on your drink, your nerves creeping back up despite the effort to push them aside.
You could feel his gaze on you, though, like a weight pressing against your back. You tried not to let it show, tried not to acknowledge how his proximity seemed to pull at something inside you, but it was impossible to ignore. There was a pull, something in the air, but you couldnât quite grasp it.
Sighing inwardly, you turned your attention back to the others. Just enjoy yourself, you remind yourself again. Donât think about him. Donât think about any of it.
Johnny clinked his glass against yours, a grin on his face. âHereâs to not letting the night pass us by,â he said with a wink, and you couldnât help but smile back, lifting your glass.
âCheers,â you said, the warmth of the alcohol giving you just the nudge you needed to ease into the evening. For now, youâd ignore the tight feeling in your chest. Youâd enjoy yourself.Â
But the eyes that lingered on you would remain, whether you were ready for them or not.
You pushed your chair back with more force than necessary, the scrape of it against the floor loud in the otherwise quiet bar. The conversation still echoed in your ears, but your focus had been on the man, Simon, for the past half hour. His silence had become suffocating, every glance he cast in your direction feeling like it held some hidden meaning. You couldn't quite place it, but something was off about him. His eyes, cold and intense, had followed you too much, made you second guess every word youâd said.
"Im... gonna go powder my nose," you muttered, more to fill the silence than anything else. You didnât wait for a response, the words barely out of your mouth before you were already making your way across the room, past the low hum of idle chatter and the clink of glasses.
While you were in the bathroom, the entire team turned their attention towards Ghost, each of them sizing him up, starting with Soap.
"What is wrong with you?" Soap asked, his voice a mix of disbelief and amusement.
"What?" Simon blinked, genuinely confused.
"Mate, you've been gawking at her all night," Gaz added, raising an eyebrow, his voice teasing but laced with concern.
"Shit. Are you serious?" Simon muttered, running a hand through his hair, but his gaze didn't stray far from where you had just disappeared.
Roach, leaning back casually with his drink in hand, nodded thoughtfully. "Yeah, it's like youâve been stuck in a staring contest with her since she walked in."
Price, who had been watching quietly, shook his head with a resigned sigh. He snuffed out his cigar in the nearby ashtray, eyes narrowing as he met Simon's gaze. "If you scared her off, I doubt youâll get another chance, lad."
Simonâs jaw clenched. He hadnât realized how obvious it had been, but now that the team was calling him out on it, he felt the heat rise in his chest. He hadnât meant to make you uncomfortable, but the pull to look at you, to remember what had sparked your connection all those years ago had been almost magnetic.
âAlright, alright,â Soap teased, leaning in, a smirk tugging at his lips. âJust don't burn a hole in her head.â
âShut up,â Simon muttered, his mind racing, trying to figure out how to fix this without making things worse.
Price shared a look with the rest of the team, a silent understanding passing between them. While Soap might have been the one to set this whole thing in motion, it didn't mean the others didn't have contingencies in place.Â
Soap got up first, stretching a bit. âGonna make sure no one's tried to get in my car,â he said with a casual tone.
âIâll come with you,â Gaz chimed in, already pushing himself up from his seat and following Soap toward the door.
A minute later, Roach also stood, excusing himself without a word, and then Price followed suit, his movements deliberate. âIâm gonna make sure theyâre not up to anything,â he said with a knowing glance.
With everyone out of the immediate area, the bar suddenly felt quieter, and the tension in the air seemed to thicken. It took Ghost only a second for it all to clickâhe had been set up. Without thinking, he bolted from his seat, rushing outside just in time to catch the taillights of Soap's car disappearing down the street.
He cursed under his breath, but before he could make another move, his phone buzzed in his pocket. Pulling it out, he glanced at the screen. There, in simple words from Price:Â
âGood luck.â
Ghost stood still for a moment, phone in hand, as the weight of the situation hit him. His heart thudded in his chest. This was it. There was no turning back now.
By the time you returned to the table, you felt a bit more at ease. The night out wasnât all that bad⌠it was just that Johnny had some weird taste in friends. Well, mostly the tall one. You couldnât help but notice how everyone seemed to have left, a pit forming in your stomach at the thought of being ditched.
You let out a quiet sigh, about to gather your things and head out when your phone lit up in your purse. Pulling it out, you saw a text from Johnny.Â
"Emergency, looks like one of the beers wasn't that good, poor Kyle threw up."
You paused, reading the message again, a small smile tugging at your lips. Aww⌠nevermind. At least they hadnât forgotten about you after all.Â
"Hope he's okay." You replied quickly, grabbing the straps of your bag when suddenly a hand landed on top of yours.
You looked up, meeting the intense gaze of Simon. Seriously? You couldnât help but think. They took everyone but this guy?
You forced a smile, trying to pull your hand away, but Simonâs grip was firm, not unkind. âLook, I had a decent time, but I have to goââ
âJust a minute,â he interrupted, his voice low, steady, almost pleading. There was something about the way he said it that made you pause, something different than the usual small talk.
"Fine." The word slipped out before you could process it, and you cursed yourself inwardly. Really? You just agreed to stay with the guy who hadnât stopped staring since you met him. You sat back down, and he mirrored you, settling across the table.Â
Silence stretched between you, his intense gaze unwavering. He didnât so much as blink, and you couldnât help but feel more unsettled by the second.
What the hell is his deal?
âLook, if you're just going to be a creep, I don't think I want to meeâ"
âDo you remember Armed Forces Day?â His voice cut through your words, quiet but resolute.
Okay, this took all day, I wanted to give you all something long to read incase I disappear for finals (which I might)
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