I find it so interesting that Verna took them in the order that she did. You'd think that she take them from oldest to youngest, and give the younger ones a few more days of life, she expected them to all live to 50 after all. But she takes Perry, the youngest and most childlike, first. Maybe because Perry's death affects the rest, without Perry, Frederick wouldn't have died the way he did… and maybe Tammy wouldn't have been so wound up. Maybe Verna expected more of a reaction? Like if she killed the youngest so brutally and horrifically that it would pull the family together and the rest would die peacefully. But no one gave a fuck, Perrys dead, that’s that. it's more of an inconvenience than anything. Idk just food for thought
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Ok I've been dealing with a medical-ish thing and I'm fine and it's fine like it is objectively not harmful and whatever but it's absolutely tanked my mental health, like I want to fucking die. My OCD has kicked into high gear and it's been 2 months, 24/7 "is it worse? Should I be doing something? What if it's worse? What do I do?"
Which has sent my depression into overdrive with, "Yeah, like we said, life is ever increasing misery, your body fails one step at a time, and then you die! And you are such a freak show you don't even get to have any of the parts that supposedly make it worth it anyway! Congrats, fuck up!"
And I've been trying really hard to explain to the providers I've been seeing that I'm sorry, I know I'm crazy, I hate it too, but I can't turn my brain off and I'm scared all the time. I'm trying. I'm really, really trying, but I am scared and stressed and worrying all. the. time.
The problem is that everyone at that office has decided I'm crazy and to just ignore what I'm telling them instead of actually listening to me and honestly they're not wrong and I just feel trapped and defeated and like garbage all the time now.
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you know i've got it bad when i come back to tumblr to rant about my fucking stupid baka life. i am just. i'm chewing and munching and crunching on my own limbs. i had therapy where i talked about [redacted] and that seemed to help it a bit. but i feel like a big stupid idiot that talks too much and lets too much info slip. i feel so vulnerable and i don't even get to be held and loved. i'm getting nearly all the anxiety and pain of being vulnerable and honest in love WITHOUT THE LOVE. i literally want to fucking choke myself out. i want to run into the woods and bite trees like a fucking beaver. i hate how much bigger he is than me because every time i think about it i feel like i'm going to die because i KNOW. i know. how good it would feel to be his little spoon. his hugs are already insanely good. they already make me feel small and held. i just lay here every single day. every single night. and just fucking Yearn bro. i just. imagine. being spooned. and i feel like crawling out of this 3rd story window so i land head first on the concrete. then i might be put out of my gay misery. i shouldn't have to suffer like this, during PRIDE MONTH. catching feelings is homophobic
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Fanart sketches :]] I’m so attached to Kronos,,,,, I’m glad he at least gets to help Corvus heal even after dying. Their relationship is so important to me <3333
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hey you want to know another fun fact? Kronos knew he couldn’t look after a child so his options were to abandon them or give them to Oulixes, the only vaguely responsible seeming adult he knew, and Kronos knew the child would be safer just abandoned outside. yet he still called ares insane for calling oulixes a bad parent, even though he thought somewhere with no shelter, no promise of anyone to find them, no food etc, would be safer. much to consider‼️
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