#geez. maybe shepard doesn’t cry but I sure do

[mostmagical]

btw the way femshep sounds when she tells garrus he'll never be alone at the end of ME3... jennifer hale owes me money with how much real estate that specific delivery takes up in my brain

[nothisis-ridiculous]

Take Me Home Now: Chapter Twelve

Chapter Twelve: In Your Head, In Your Head, They are Dyin'

Set after the events of ME3.

A rewrite. Ao3.

FemShepxKaidan

Geez, open my big fucking mouth much? Oh Jane, could you go to the Citadel? But why shouldn't you? You said you had spent time there; you're the one person who knows how to get around. She half-assedly kicked at the locker at the foot of her cot, besides, Rogers is too green. We need someone with experience leading the team. It would be best if you kept busy; civilian life doesn't agree with you.

They couldn't order her around.

Jane craned her head, taking in the entirety of the beam that would catapult her into the Citadel. A frown was the sole betrayal of her panicked nervous system, she would never be ready to go back there. But this was not the time for fear, not when Biotic's Division looked to her guidance. At least she could hide the apprehension- they looked like they could piss themselves at any moment. Jane knew the beam wouldn't lead to death but they were not so confident. It seemed insane, she got it.

Roy and Helen talked amongst the students, leaving Jane some time to collect herself. The last time she had approached the beam the entirety of Hammer had died to get her here, it seemed too easy now that it was a simple jaunt down a hill.

"You sure this thing won't vaporize us?" Roger's question interrupted her solitude.

"I'm not saying it's going to be pleasant, or you'll like what we're going to find-" distress crossed the 2nd lieutenant's face, this was the wrong approach, "if Anderson's team could make it to activate the Crucible, I think we will be fine. Besides, think of the bragging rights- being the one to restore communications with the Citadel, and eventually with the rest of the galaxy. It's not a small thing."

"But I'm not leading the operation," Rogers's hadn't taken the forced deference to the Recruit well.

"Believe me, kid, you'll be glad for all the calls you didn't have to make." She had refused to lead on principle, even after several others had tried to guilt her for refusing the mission. Jane wouldn't have stepped up if not for a series of harsh conversations from Mr. Alenko, most of them implying he would take the mantle if she would not, "get the team into place, we leave in two."

Roy and Helen naturally separated from the group, not away from the mass of students but toward her. Roy led a step ahead and Helen fixing her with the usual judgmental stare from behind her husband.

"I'll be fine," the woman snapped the M-77 into a ready form, "it should be easy."

"Be careful."

How many times had she heard that? To boot, in the same somber tone. The last time, so physically close to where they stood now. It was an odd irony that his father stood closer to the beam than Kaidan had managed to get.

"Thank you," regret was a hell of a thing, so unprompted she grasped his hand unflinching under that whiskey-hued gaze. For a blip of a moment, she looked forward to coming back. Hope returned in a microdose.

The students lined up as ordered, each reaction as individual as the person who stood before the blue light while they wouldn't argue with the mission: it didn't mean they had to trust it. Jane would question flinging herself blindly into the beam, she had at a couple of points. On Illos, she at least had the Mako to give her the illusion of safety, here for the second time only experience made her undaunted besides the emotional toll.

"Alright, the mission is simple. Meet with Bailey or whoever is left in charge. After that, we worry about setting up the long-range commlink," it was better to put this off as a simple run, when things got complicated, they would deal with it then, "on arrival, where exactly we'll end up is a mystery. This functions much like a Mass Relay, so small groups and make sure your ass is out of the way."

Jane nodded to Rogers and the female that stood beside him, "anyone else want to go first?"

She didn't wait for a reaction before sauntering brazenly into the beam.

The Spectre had thought she was used to running into the unexpected. She had made a career of dealing with the strange, but awe of circumstance truly never went away. This time it was far more physical than expected. Pulling herself over the lip and onto the metal path, water violently expelling from her nose and mouth. If she were a little more with it, she would have pulled a gun on the Keeper scuttling by- but she was a little more focused on breathing. The next concern was the two in line behind her; one was lucky and ended up straddled over the railing the next erupted from the water much in the way she had.

Once it was clear all was fine, Jane rolled onto her back. Dark laughter barking from her diaphragm. It was a far cry from the body-lined hallways and corridors she had dreamed up, the relay monument looked down on her. God, she felt nauseous. Her sides didn't stop seizing until all breath left her body, eyes stinging with tears. Rolling to all fours, then finally upright the world swirled into sudden clarity.

This was the Presidium. Behind her, the partially broken statue that honored the krogan. A white spire jutting into the sky, a brave blue flower standing tall, heat speckled metal walkways, and the white-walled building. Her fingers raked through a tangle of wet hair, shook out her pistol, pulled Rogers from the railing, and tightly squeezed her fist until the twang of her muscles bid for release. The relay fired again, splashing followed, and the approach of footsteps came from her right side. The tepid water running down her face made pinpointing smells impossible, but she could sure taste the strange flavor of the unfiltered liquid.

"Holy shit."

"See, you should have never doubted me."

The Lieutenant did not find it quite so humourous.

"Lighten up, Kid," she remarked blithely, turning her attention to the squad that corralled them into the center of the walkway, "it's nice to see C-Sec arrive promptly."

The turian officer scoffed but lowered his weapon, "Bailey will want to see you."

"Good, we're looking for him."

~~~ ~~~ ~~~

"How is it always you?" Bailey hardly looked up at her, "but I've got to admit, nobody else is crazy enough to walk through a beam on foot."

The man was one of the few who could recognize her immediately, even with grown-out and natural hair. He had seen the scarring left behind after the Lazarus Project before they had faded for the first time. It took only a little imagination to see past the more extensive facial scars.

"The first or second time?"

Bailey's head craned up, concern crossing his face, "Com-"

Jane waved a hand, "please, Bailey, that person is gone. Let her die with her crew."

The concern grew behind the glow of his omnitool "if anyone ever asks, you waved your Spectre status in my face. But I don't think you are here to catch up."

"No, I am not."

The team back on Earth had tried to reconnect with the Citadel, but all attempts to reach them had failed. So a mission to the station became necessary. Bailey attempted to skirt the subject, but life on the Citadel was not easy. Slowly some peace was restored but at a snail's pace. Whatever jammed the comms slowed any hope of a unified force on the station. It also explained their failure to find a tech expert who might fix the issue and perhaps the lack of a Spectre or someone of a higher rank to authorize it—security measures as usual were great until they hindered progress.

"I'll need you before you try and disappear again," Bailey warned, swirling the scotch in his lowball glass. He figured this was special occasion enough, even if the hero returned as little more than a ghost.

"I'll consider it my retirement party," she mused, finishing off the bitter liquid, "seems easy compared to a Reaper invasion."

"Nothing with you is ever simple."

"Hell, this could all be a dream... for both of us." It felt a little cold for a dream, but it was all surreal. For now, she put it off as walking old hallways and the memories of the companions that haunted the place.

"The scotch must be hitting you hard."

"I haven't hit the hard stuff since-" the statement crossed into territory painful for both of them, "but I say there is no time like the present. Must be driving my squad nuts waiting."

~~~ ~~~ ~~~

"Shepard before-"

Jane flinched, and Bailey retracted for a moment. Equal parts confusion and frustration with the jumpy woman. Perhaps it was time, untold horrors of war, or the alcohol that made her weird, if not mentioning the other multitude of reasons the Spectre seemed off her game. She went by a different name to the men she led, and it was becoming apparent the problem was far out of his wheelhouse.

"I have to give it to you plain, we found Anderson's body in here. It looked like he was shot."

"I know."

She had shot him after all. For a long time, she had tried reasoning that it was not her fault; after all, the Illusive Man had made her do it. Those strange cybernetic eyes had stared at her in her dreams, one of the thousands of voices taunting her. Those blue eyes had found her again as she walked the hallways to the Council Chambers.

"He must have activated the Crucible before he died, it's funny because we all assumed you had done it."

Jane hadn't activated the Crucible. That was true. Maybe Mary had; it was all a little foggy.

"We gave him the best funeral we could, I can take you there later if you like," Bailey offered, trying to rouse her with a touch.

Jane shook her head, "another time, this is enough."

Too much.

Bailey nodded, falling behind a few paces so she could absorb the room. Mentally, she remarked on little other than it had become a bit overgrown in disuse and that she liked it better without the constant trickle of running water.

"Nothing unusual up here, Ma'am," buzzed the comm.

"Roger, roger."

"It wasn't funny, even when the Major did it."

Fine, "hold position, I want eyes on anything that could go wrong. I'll place the shunt."

Jane moved slowly across the catwalk, the face staring at her accusingly grew clearer as she approached. The simple frame wreathed in upkept foilage, plants, and candles of all sorts making up an altar. She tried to move through littered petals and papers with reverence, but some wound up disturbed fluttering into the pit below. Jane crouched to cradle the picture gently, "Admiral."

Her blue eyes scanned upwards, resting on the bloody handprint covering the virtual interface sensor.

The total weight of another being crashed onto her, attempting to wrestle her from the catwalk. Even after weeks without combat, Jane dislodged the man with ease throwing him over the unprotected edge. The unnatural steel blue eyes, shocked with bright blue patterns, brimming with fury. Quickly as they had entered her vision, the figure went still and dark.

Coldly, empty, she returned the broken frame to its spot. Her complete attention turning to the console that lit up at her presence. The only break from her attention was the dramatic slam of her fists on the sides of the railing behind the console- it wasn't working.

Before she could release her temper upon the undeserving railing again, a keeper nudged her aside. Compiling the necessary commands with ease, the sudden noise of a system erupting in a blastwave. As quickly as the creature arrived, it scuttled back away. Leaving Jane to complete her task.

Bailey looked over the ledge, approaching the woman slowly once he was satisfied.

"Commander Bailey, you should have access to all Citadel systems," her bright blue eyes turned to him with a terrifying hollowness, "don't make me regret it."

"You- but, he," Bailey swallowed, running a hand over his cropped hair, "it's never simple with you."

He grabbed her arm before she slipped by him, "take this."

"I should go."

"Don't worry, you weren't here," he called after the stumbling figure.

Jane didn't recall stumbling back through the relay, or for that matter, picking her way back to the mall. Or the time she had left, or if she had bothered to warn anyone in the meantime. Reality was a persnickety thing at the moment, failing to anchor her securely to the present.

It was dark, the mechs hadn't stopped her, and not even her body was warning her of exhaustion. It was all instinct.

The room she stole into, that was not so much a call of instinct but of desperation. Her world grew colder, and it was beginning to tumble at a speed that she could barely withstand.

"Rahna."

Nothing.

"Rahna."

"Jane?"

[darkzorua100]

I love how episode 73 hasn’t even aired yet and I already know what the main take away of the episode is going to be on Tumblr.

Playmaker vs Bohman? Hell no. No one gives a crap about this duel.

Cyberse Quantum Dragon? Maybe but it quickly got overshadowed.

Yusaku and Ryoken meeting in RL again and Ryoken hopefully asking Yusaku for a hotdog? Yeah that seems like something the Datastormshippers are going to go completely crazy about. Hey just because I love Datastormshipping as much as everyone else, and trust me I’m going to fangirl as hard as the next person if that’s how Ryoken starts that conversation (geez the writers seriously are just writing the fanfiction themselves. If Ryoken actually enrolls in Yusaku’s school next, I’m done) doesn’t mean I won’t bring up the fact that we kinda do go a little overboard on it. Also maybe we should ask for more Playmaker vs Bohman duels because we seem to be getting Datastormshipping moments in these episodes as well. We got Yusaku and Ryoken’s adorable meeting in 58 and now this. 

I’m still in shock that this is how we are more then likely going to get the Yusaku and Ryoken alliance at the end of 73. I was expecting the alliance to form at the end of this duel sure but in Link Vrains, not in the real world, and especially not with Ryoken just causally walking up to Café Nagi and asking Yusaku for his cooperation when he’s working. My god I’m crying from laughing so hard to just how hilarious this scenario is going to be but then I realize just how bad our situation has to be with Lightning if this is how Ryoken is going to ask Yusaku and his team for help. Speaking of which, where the hell are Takeru and Flame in this screenshot? We see them getting attacked by some Bits and Boots in another screenshot so were they actually captured by Lightning or were they just not involved in the meet up? I’m going to guess the later even though I would love the former to happen. 

Also, I don’t think anyone had brought this up but I also just love how that one screenshot of the RL Datastormshipping reunion also might have unintentionally spoiled the winner of the Playmaker vs Bohman duel. In this conversation, Yusaku has his left arm raised like he normally does with his duel disk because of Ai. If he lost this duel, he wouldn’t do that because Ai wouldn’t be in his duel disk anymore. I mean, it isn’t much of a shocker that this duel ends in another Playmaker win, especially considering we know he’s getting a Synchro during this duel, but I just felt like pointing that out for anyone who wasn’t entirely convinced. We also got a screenshot of Playmaker with Cyberse Magician and Bohman, Haru looking happy (my guess because Bohman took the lead by destroying Cyberse Magican), and what appears to be Bohman’s new Link Monster he got from his Storm Access. 

Onto 74′s cast list, I find it interesting that if the end of 73 is when Yusaku and Ryoken are to form their alliance, why wouldn’t Ryoken be on the cast list as well. I mean, we still don’t know if Yusaku is going to agree to this temporary partnership so maybe that’s why? Maybe Ryoken and the rest of his Knights are going to be doing their own thing while Yusaku and Takeru are doing there’s. If Yusaku’s team does agree to this alliance, hopefully Ryoken will start to give us more info about the Hanoi Project and our last two Lost Children. Maybe Ryoken is the one to info Yusaku about Aqua’s imprisonment and suggest that Yusaku and Takeru go and recuse her if they so chose to do so while Ryoken and his Knights try and get into contract with Aqua and Windy’s kids? Again, I think there might be some kind of fail safe built into the Ignises’ program that only their respective Origins are able to activate and that’s why we need to find them and get them involved in the story finally.

Lightning is also an interesting name on here. Windy, Bohman, Haru, or even Jin aren’t speaking, and I don’t think he was the one to capture Aqua, so I wonder if he’s going to be monologuing to himself when he’s fixing up Windy, and my guess Bohman as well, about his future plans with all these obstacles against him now? Or heck, he might have actually captured Soulburner and Flame at the end of 73 and is currently breaking them apart to reprogram the both of them? More then likely the former but again, I can dream. 

Earth, Aqua, and Go we knew about. Akira and Hayami I expected as well but Aoi and Emma are back in the story again. Emma we still don’t know how her standoff with Blood Shepard ended, and probably never will at this rate (but hey she isn’t dead), and Aoi...well it is going to be interesting with her if Akira sent her and Emma to go assist Go with the capture of Aqua and Earth and we get some kind of reaction out of Aqua to Aoi’s presence. If Blue Girl and Aqua do so happen to be in the same room together, and Aqua doesn’t react to Aoi, I think that’s the final nail in the coffin of Aoi’s being Aqua’s Origin theory. The summary of the episode still doesn’t state who exactly captured Aqua and I still don’t think it was either SOL or Lightning but other then Extras, no notable names on the cast list on who actually did until it is revealed next week or in the preview. That preview is really going to be interesting. 

[mocurlyshepard]

I was gonna marry her|Curly Shepard One Shot

Curly is stuck raising a baby on his own.

I was never expecting to see her sister on my front porch. She left me a while ago without telling me why. I never got a call or a letter, I was just left heartbroken and confused. "What're ya doing here?" I asked her.

What me and her shared was something special. I was gonna marry her. Her sister looked at me, and I knew something going on when I saw a baby in her hands.

"Charles can we talk?" her sister never took a liking to me, always calling me by my real name. I nodded and joined her outside the house.

"This is Laura. Laura Shepard, this is your daughter." I looked in disbelief. Couldn't have been my daughter. I couldn't have a kid, I was in my last year of high school. I was about to go to college! I was in a gang.

"Who's to say she's mine?" I asked. I knew she would never cheat on me but I was bitter and it slipped my mouth.

Grace stared at me with anger and disappointment. "I knew you were an asshole but I thought you cared about her!"

"I'm the asshole huh? She's the one who left me, y'know. Where is she? Why couldn't she tell me we had a kid?" I asked getting angry. Man I was wanted a cigarette.

"Curly.." Grace said softly. I turned to look at her and she had tears in her eyes. "Curly, she died. During childbirth."

I felt my stomach drop.

She couldn't be dead. I shook my head and sat down on my porch steps. Grace followed. I put my hands in my head. "No." I said. I repeated over and over and over.

"You're lying. Please Grace tell me you're lying." I said desperately. "I loved her." I had flashbacks of everything we did together. Making out in the backseat of Tims car. Sneaking in her room. Walking around town. Watching movies. Everything. And she was gone just like that.

I didn't want to cry. I didn't cry I was Curly Shepard, but I found myself crying anyway. I pulled my shirt over my face and let out a long sigh.

"I was gonna marry her." I said.

"I know....she was gonna back Charles. She was. You know daddy, he hit the roof when he found out. She didn't even get a chance to tell you before he packed us all up and moved us. She was gonna run away cus she wanted to raise the baby with ya. I swear." she said softly.

I looked up and looked over at the baby. "Charles I know you're young but it's what she wanted. And it's the only thing left of her."

I couldn't deny her, she had my eyes. But everything else looked like her mama. A spitting image. How could I do this? Look at her face every single day.

"Wanna hold her?" Grace asked.

"Sure."

Grace passed her to me, making sure I held her right. I couldn't deny it, it made my kinda happy. I could see her whole life ahead of her. "What do I do with her?" I asked.

Grace laughed. "It ain't that hard when you get the hang of it. She cries when she's hungry, cranky, pooped. Y'know. I got all the stuff you need."

I remember when Angela got pregnant. Tim gave us a huge speech about how we were family and we were all going to make it work.

It was worse when she lost the baby. Her depression kicked in. She was cussing and angry at everything, picking fights with everyone in the house.

"Yeah like I know how to do that Grace." I said. Laura looked at me and she looked just like her, this really was the only thing I had left of her. I wanted to treasure her, keep her close.

"See, you know what you're doin already." Grace said.

I told Tim when he got home. We talked, he was disappointed. We established that I was still going to school and still going to college, even if I stayed local. I couldn't go out anymore. Things I already know. He took a liking to her I could tell. Underneath the tough guy, Tim liked kids and I could see him having a few of his own.

I thought of her when I was alone in my room with Laura. I felt bad because all this time I was angry. I thought she found another guy, ran away or something maybe even got married. I thought, if she came back I'd forgive her. I would marry her. Right after high school.

It wasn't that bad taking care of Laura. Angel told me I was lucky because some kids were worse than that. "You mean they cry more than that?!" I asked.

It made it worse that I couldn't get any sleep thinking about her. How we stayed together late at night, talking about our future. But then Laura woke up and started crying. I couldn't figure out what she wanted. Her diaper was clean, she didn't want any milk. "Geez kid what do ya want?" I groaned.

The crying didn't seem to wake Angel or Tim so that was good. I picked her up and rocked her in my arms. I think I was doing it right. Cus she stopped the crying. Now she was looking up at me with her blue eyes. Her fingers were balled up in tight fists. She was perfect mix of the both of us but she reminded me so much of her.

She finally closed her eyes and went back to sleep. I checked my watch and it read 2:00. It was a good chance that if I went to sleep now, I wouldnt fall asleep at my desk.

Angela and I made a deal, she would watch Laura and I would give her 5 bucks a week. I didn't have a problem with it.

I put her back in the cradle but she cried as soon as I put her down. I didn't want to ring the number Grace gave me because she probably wasn't home. And I needed to figure this out.

I picked her up again and she stopped crying. I think she just wanted to be held. Reminds me of myself. I leaned my head against the headboard, and closed my eyes.

She woke me up again around 4. This time I think she was hungry. I don't know what was worse, being sleep and dreaming about her, or being up sleep deprived. I was just starting to get over her and now it was worse. I was grieving.

I felt a black hole in my chest, an emptiness. Would it ever go away? I snapped out of my thoughts as Laura's cries got louder. This time, she was hungry. I gave her the bottle and remembered that Grace said she can't hold it on her own.

I cleaned everything up and I thought she was gonna go to sleep but she started crying again. "What now?" I questioned.

I checked her diaper and saw the mess. I nearly puked on myself. What the hell? I had to clean that?!

I took a deep breath and took the diaper off. I held my breath so I didn't breath anything in but it wasn't helping much. I put the t shirt of my nose as I rolled the dirty diaper. Laura made noises and stretched her feet. "You think this is funny huh?"

"Yeah yeah." I said while cleaning her up. "Let's make a mess so daddy can clean it up. I put her in a clean one and then back in the crib while I threw everything out. Grace said be sure to not leave her unattended.

Laura cried when i stood by the crib. She wouldn't let me put her down. I picked her up and sat back down, putting my head on my pillow. "Don't get used to this miss lady." I told her.

I looked at her. I wonder if she got to see her before she died. I wish i was there, so she wasn't scared. So she didn't feel alone.

When Laura gets older, I'll tell her everything about her mama. How she smiled, her kind heart, everything. And she'll know that I loved her. And that Laura was the best gift that I could ever ask for. And I loved her already.

Because in the end, it was just me and her. I know I can do it, we're gonna make it. And I knew she was watching us, wherever she went. And she'd watch how Laura and I would do everything together. I promise to love her and watch her grow and take care of her. Just like I told her, that I would.

@pips69 gave me the idea for this one shot, thanks!

Enjoy everyone, once again my requests are open so please send them in 😄 Btw Curly doesn't say his girlfriends name or Y/N because he's grieving and going through heart break and it would make it worse.

BTW this is not edited yet

[alienqueen4]

Kai love story: When the girl of his dreams hides her inner rock and roll

Chapter 7: I Wanna Forget and Move On 

(*Night time during 5 hours in the warehouse it is break time in the lunch room for Skyler to have a 30 minute break*)

Skyler’s POV

Shit I am fucking exhausted. Finally I get a 30 minute break and I feel like a dog having diareha. My stomach has been starving to death it feels like a monster inside my body yelling out for food. I sat down resting my entire body stretching my legs and head. I saw Ruth approaching inside the break room “Looks like somebody is having a good day” he said. I slammed my water bottle when I made a face “Ruth stop I am tired I didn’t get much sleep” I rub my face. Ruth sat down “Well that’s no excuse for boss to hear” he said. I said “Give me a break I woke up late to go to class, my soccer uniform got mudded in Sparky’s favorite mud puddle, my computer got jacked up, Chris won’t even go to the gym to do his daily training, and I’m worried about Kai.” Ruth said “Kai?” I nodded telling him “Yeah Kai, the guy I told you about who just moved in to our neighborhood, I left him voicemails he won’t answer his cell I even follow him on Instagram and his Xbox account, nothing, he got mad with Chris yesterday over something.” This little fight got me worried for Kai. I then smiled a little “Kai is a cute guy, I don’t know why but he has an adorable laugh” I tell Ruth. He then half smiles as I said “Okay what face was that?” I ask. He then leans over resting his legs on the table “Listen uh Sky there’s something I need you to help me out with it is really important you should help me” he puts his hands together then both thumbs circle around as if he was nervous as he reveals “I’m dating Gwen now.” My face just a strong wind of being “What?!?! Ruth, how in the world, wait a minute how did this happen, I thought you and Gwen went out on a first date from the moment you asked her out to dinner?” Ruth says “Well everything was fine dinner was good, I wasn’t a nervous wreck, but geez I felt like peeing my pants again” I smiled telling Ruth “Hey, this is has been a long time for you, and I want you to know that I am very proud of you both” I said. Ruth cracks a smirk while opening his sandwich. I open my mac and cheese box “The sooner the later if you and Gwen have a smooch moment” I said. Ruth tells me “What, you and Kai haven’t kissed.....you guys are dating right?” he ask. Dating....My heart isn’t telling me something I want “...Me and Kai, we only just met because we were neighbors, I like Kai, he is really sweet guy but I just want to get to know him first....there is something I do not know about when he flipped yesterday” I said. Ruth suggest “Maybe he doesn’t like Chris you know how your bro is to piss off dudes like him” I then said “Hey my brother can be a bit noisy but my brother respects others privacy.” If Kai won’t talk to me nor Chris, what’s gotten him frighten all of a sudden then...

(*Saturday*)

...

(*Skyler got dressed up for something wearing her favorite soft over sleeve skull pattern shirt, black leather pants, combat purple velvet boots, scarf, and beanie*)

I walk up front at Kai’s door knocking it. I started to speak “Kai, please open the door it’s me I wanna talk to you....Kai I am not angry at you from what happen just let me talk to you.” I’m about to give him a 5 second head start then if he doesn’t answer he won’t talk to me. From a good end after 5 seconds Kai opens the door at the hour of his presence “Hey you” I said being silly. Kai said “Hi, what happen” he ask. I tell him “Let’s go you and me we are gonna go out for a walk at the park” I offered my hand. He looked at me as if it was some kind of serious thing right now “Skyler look, I’m not really in a mood right now.” I grabbed his hand “Mister Kai, it’s a beautiful sunny day, and you need to get out of this house.” I pull Kai next to my side “...*sighs* Alright fine just at least let me go I wanna grab my jacket.” I chuckled letting go of his hand then poke his cheek bones “Your a whining baby you know that right.” I see a bit of a smile showing on his lip then turns to go get a jacket.

(*10 minutes later at the arrival of the park, Skyler and Kai walk together strolling for a bit seeing a few kids, families out*)

I have a arm locked in Kai’s arm around in a different way not just holding hands “Are you embarrassed? Don’t worry at least the kids won’t know I am your mommy” I joke around then Kai cracks a laugh. Kai tells me “I kinda actually did need this I felt a bit stuck in the house, but it is a beautiful day out here.” I tell him “Kai I have been sending you voicemails, messages, I even tried dm’ing you in Instagram, I know something is bothering you...I am not angry at you from what happen between you guys but I’m just worried about you.” Kai and I then found a bench to sit together so we can talk. I look at him with an expression of something is bugging him or it’s scaring him to talk about. Kai then starts to say “Sky listen...you don’t wanna get in the way of this madness but Chris, he shouldn’t be in the way of my privacy with my family” he said being honest. I then tell him “And I apologize for my noisy brother he is like that” Kai speaks back “I know but it is not his fault it’s mine, I over reacted because I got mad about something...” he said. I got more concern now “Then what’s the problem?” He lets a sigh looking down at his feet locking both hands together. He begins to explain what has been bothering him “...My family has been judging about my Dad all because he was a drunk and I am the only son who cares about my Dad...They see him as a different it’s like they forgot about the man they wanted me to forget the name of my own father it hurts so much that they wanted me to forget my own family who was there for me! I don’t wanna forget about my Dad but what I do wanna forget is he was killed in a car accident also killing an innocent women the driver on that day!....Sky you have no idea the image of this family still haunts me, the husband is stuck behind with 2 boys 2 sons!!! One of them got accepted to a University to study for physcology in the FBI field, the son is gonna grow up to a man without the mother seeing him make goals!....” 

........

Kai is starting to feel like he wants to break down everything from remembering this family “I hear voices in my head from this family they are telling me right now this is my Dad’s fault, he is a murderer, and he deserved to die...” 

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Kai’s father, his name is known to be evil to the family.

But why do they see him as the monster but Kai wants to see his name as his Dad...

I lift a hand up to make his face turn at me “Kai....you have the right to remember your own Dad, but that doesn’t mean you can’t stop loving him just because he suffered the consequence of his actions.” I look at Kai from his eyes tearing a stroll of his cheeks watering in a bit of tears. Me and him hug eachother tightly. A gigantic hug comforting Kai to make him feel better and remember he still loves his own Dad. I heard him cry quietly breaking at the point where he wants to get it out of his chest “...Thank you Skyler” he said breaking his voice while crying more. I even almost felt like crying just from staring at Kai, he feels the same way like I do when my mom was an insane women who was confused about love and life.....

(*20 minutes later*)

(*Kai and Skyler walking together back home from their neighborhood after a trip going to Yogurt Land enjoying a cup of ice cream*)

It’s been a fun day even when I got to spend time with Kai it feels like I am getting to know himself a lot more. He takes a spoonful of creamy mint chocolate chip and then I said “Is it me or does it look like you get your minty fresh scent from this flavor” His cute smirk mouth full of ice cream almost made him laugh and I smiled too joking around with him. Kai tells me “Says the girl who likes cookie dough with the amount of sugar rush your about to have” Wow, he got me there. I rolled me eyes punching him by the shoulder. Kai ask “Do you wanna stay over at my place? We can watch a movie for a bit, I don’t wanna see you home alone since it is a Saturday alot of people go out.” Now that I think about it my Dad does go out to a bar with his friends and my brother is at my cousin’s place for tonight. I smiled “Yeah sure why not, so hey Kai, how come you don’t have a pet of your own? You don’t have something against dogs or cats do ya just like Sparky?” He said “Oh no no of course not, well to tell ya the truth my sister hates dogs cause she is allergic my family never allowed animals in the house.” Dang “Seriously? Ever? Sparky is the best companion you are going to fell in love with, man you need to have a pet in your home being the security guard of this house hold.” Kai says “Hey that’s the thing though I’m kinda scared of dogs I’m scared they might bite me on the arm or leg.” I tell him “Kai, Sparky is a Siberian Husky not a German Shepard police dog.” Uke opens the door then allows me to enter seeing his place looks very casual neat “Wow, for a man who is from Japan your an organize person.” I noticed a photo frame which looked super adorable “Oh my gosh Kai is this you?” I ask. Kai said “Yeah that’s me when I was 7 on Halloween night, a full on costume of Jack Sparrow.” I then noticed the little girl next to him is dressed up as Hello Kitty “And who is this girl?” He said “My sister, she lives around here.” Nice “I’m amazed, you have a cute family back home don’t ya” I put back the photo frame where it was. Something else then caught in my eyes seeing another photo frame up top of his kitchen wall must be Kai’s entire family when that person caught my eye was Sora was also included in there.

This can’t be, is Sora Kai’s sister? “Oh yeah I remember that day like it was yesterday, I visited my entire family and grand parents for Christmas, nice people” Kai said coming out of nowhere. I then ask “So this must be your sister now?” I pointed at Sora. Kai nodded “Ugh she is a drag, she is the boss of me just because she is older then me but you know what I mean.” At the thought of knowing Sora is the sister of a guy I have a crush makes me regret my decision. Kai says “I’m gonna make us some popcorn, feel free to go over in my snack cabinet I got good Japanese snacks even Pocky.” I’m even more scared then ever because if Sora finds out I have been hanging out with Kai, I’m dead. 

(*40 minutes during the film Kai and Skyler are together on the living room couch watching The Avengers Age Of Ultron*)

Kai’s POV

The night feels more relaxed, the dark cold winds are flowing outside. The air makes everything cool down myself. I look at Skyler by my side laying down. I grabbed a soft furry zebra stripe blanket to cover her. She smiles looking back at me “Thank you” she said softly. The moment my heart felt racing because every time I look at Skyler into her eyes she knows what she could to talk to me. I am not sure if I could bring up the whole go out on a date with me type situation. Skyler begins to say something to me “Kai, I just wanna let you know that from the moment you made up to me from damaging my favorite soccer ball must’ve costed you a fortune because it was a gift from my mom.....but my mom is like a ghost because she was murdered by a drug addict disgusting boyfriend.” My hand reaches out to pet her head “I’m sorry about your mother” I said. Skyler begins to explain “...The way I see it, my Dad wanted to break the family but it wasn’t my mom’s fault because she made decisions that confused her about love....my Dad and mom got along very well before but the love connection was loosing it’s power, she comes home being a drunk then the day I remember my Dad kicks out my own mom out in the streets...” 

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Skyler has both hands locked together letting out some deep breath thinking what goes on in her mind “...You know what my Dad worrys about the most, he is a single father with 2 kids, he loves us but he doesn’t want me and Chris to make a mistake when we find love.” Okay Kai can this be it? Are you ready to ask her out now or chicken out? but from the 5 seconds of hesitation I said “...I wanna give you the respect you deserve Skyler, after that talk at the park you showed yourself valuable respect and I wanna do the same thing as well.” Her smile lifts up the spirits getting up then sits criss cross “Uke Yutaka, your an adorable boy that I have ever met, your laugh is cute because I do not want that to stop so that is what it is special about you” she said. I start to blush my face is spiced up a bit. The stupid move I make will never end my idiotic side from the moment we stared from a good few seconds leaning as our lips attached kissing for the first time in my life. I am in deeply in love with Skyler...