#gay diary

[vintagesboy]

𝐄𝐜𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐧𝐞'𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦𝐞

Frustração por ser assim.

Odeio gostar tanto de uma forma que vou esperar alguém ser como eu. De fato eu me apaixonei porque vi alguém fazer o que ninguém fez pra estar comigo e ainda faz. Mas de fato eu sou ingrato. Muito ingrato. Um agradecimento a todos os homens que me ensinaram a ser assim.

Por um momento eu achei que teria alguém que fosse como eu em se preocupar, talvez eu sou sensível além do normal. E talvez por motivos que não importa tanto assim. Odeio esse coração fraco que tenho.

Não vou dizer o que aconteceu, estou tentando expor menos sobre minha vida e mais sobre meus pensamentos. Mas me dói que quando achei que alguém que eu gosto poderia ser como eu de se dedicar em preocupação não seja como eu sou. E isso dói. Tô tentando não criar uma barreira por conta disso, mas tom com aquela dor no peito.

Por que eu tenho que ser tão sensível? E ainda ser um babaca de carteira cheia. Sério eu sou horrível como pessoa mas mesmo assim eu não entendo tudo que eu sinto. Já contei as vezes que pensei em ‘riart’ ele por sentir falta de fazer aquilo, e nunca foi tão difícil me controlar porquê quero um futuro com ele.

Mas me dói muito ver que pra ele coisas bobas pra mim significa tanto, e eu não estou me defendo em dizer que meus pensamentos em fazer merda está certo, infelizmente foi um vício que eu tinha pra sofrer menos com quem eu gosto, pra sentir que não estou no prejuízo, mas dessa vez coloquei o peito no jogo e não vou fazer isso. Dessa vez não.

Hoje eu estou triste por uma coisa boba, porque ele não percebe que coisas bobas muda o dia de uma pessoa, mas ele simplesmente me respondeu e eu deixei como tudo bem e ele não me disse mais nada no resto do dia. Então decidi ignorar ele o resto do dia e da noite e só responder ele quando fosse dormir, porquê senão eu ia estragar tudo pois ia deixar toda minha raiva falar por mim e mostrar um lado que eu não sou. Já no fim da noite ele quis me ligar e eu decidi não atender, e eu sei quando ele me chama de amor quando vacila. Mas eu não quero isso, não quero ter que dizer o porque de eu estar triste com uma falta de atitude. Eu não quero ter que cobrar algo e me sentir exigente, eu estou tentando ao máximo não ser tóxico.

Mas talvez e sim, ninguém vai ser como eu sou quando se trata de demonstrar o quanto a pessoa é importante pra mim. Eu evito de dizer da minha depressão pra não me escorar nisso como outro ex fez comigo, e eu tive uma crise horrível que ainda estou nela, mas não falei pra ele pra ele se preocupar com sua formatura. Pois ele estava muito nervoso pra se formar.

Agora sei que ele está se esforçando pra vir, mas nossa, nunca me senti tão sozinho, eu tô do outro lado do mundo eu sei, mas sinto falta dele me ligar pra me dar bom dia, ou falar que está pensando em mim, eu não queria começar a sofrer agora, pois estou dando meu melhor pra ser uma pessoa boa pra estar com ele.

Eu não quero que esse texto seja levado a sério, pois agora estou muito magoado, mas preciso soltar isso pra fora. E eu sei que não sou uma pessoa boa, não confio na minha índole, mas eu me torno assim quando me sinto de lado. E não quero que esse eu apareça de novo.

[yume-holic]

bisexuality and hunger!!! yes they are!

rpg maker games if they were WOKE

The Crooked TRANS MAN

Lisa the PRONOUN

Mad NONBINARY PARENT

BISEXUALITY and Hunger

Your Turn to HAVE GAY SEX

Ib

The Witch's QUEER HOUSING COLLECTIVE

[creepst-crypt]

*sob*

Og^^

[emilyscastlevania]

[squidflavoredsoup]

redraw

they’re so cute i love them😿😿

[kuuwo]

some lifting for a little wizard in need

[dryya-doesnt]

Oh the girls are fighting…🙁🙁

This was supposed to be a warm up but I got really carried away and got locked into rendering and color practice 😭😭😭

[malereadermaniac]

Exploring ~ Rodrick Heffley x Male Reader

Getting it on with the local emo Top!Rodrick x Bottom!Reader word count: 610 Nsfw / MDNI ~ amab m!reader / FDNI

Imagine weekly makeouts with Rodrick

Him coming over to your house to "do homework" and instead spending the whole Saturday with you in his lap, his tongue playing with yours as his hands rest on your hips

The two of you aren't dating or anything! You're just... exploring your sexualitites - it's perfectly natural as 18/19 year olds!

Kissing slowly becoming not enough to satiate the carnal desires Rodrick feels for you, soft grinding starting to come adjacent to the many hour-long, weekly makeout sessions

The rocker just can't get enough if the sounds you make as he rubs his hard dick against yours through his jeans. And you fucking love the low grunts Rodrick makes in your mouth as he kisses you or in your ear, along with a sexy groan of your name

Eventually, the two of you decided to take your sexual affairs to a new level - your parents had left you the house for two days and Rodrick's dick had hardened almost immediately when he found out

Your poor bed could barely fit the two of you, but you made it work

Rodrick above you, his muscles on full display as he slowly fucked into you turned you on to the max - he promised to go slow and he did, but mainly because he didn't want to cum in 5 seconds!

Your moans are what pushed the rocker over the edge. Your sweet and sexy sounds, along with your tight, warm walls, made the man shoot his load instantly

And from the way Rodrick panted and moaned above you, to the way he held onto your waist his his sexy, masculine, nail-painted and ring-adorned hands, jesus christ you came right away!

Over time, the two of you became more experienced; sex would last longer than the 15 minutes it took your first time, and you would both go for multiple rounds

You found out that Rodrick loves to have you suck his dick, look down at you as you cry from how huge his cock is, his pubes stuffing your nose as he softly caresses your cheek

The rocker had also become a huge fan of eating you out, after you taught him exactly how you like it, the man can't get enough of you! And the man has tricks too! He fingers your prostate to high heaven while eating you out and makes you cum within seconds!

All that to say that Rodrick's shape had pretty much indented into not only your ass but your bed - your parents were convinced that you two were dating from how often the man slept at yours!

But that doesn't mean you two don't mess about at Rodrick's house as well!

His Christian parents just make it a little harder to do so, that's why you pretend to be a part of his band

His parents don't know that Rodrick and you do it in his van every Sunday (lol)

Loud rock music playing from a radio to drown out the pornographic sounds that might escape the violently rocking van

It's safe to say the two of you have become addicted to one another; from your scents to your bodies to your voices, you fucking love all of Rodrick and he fucking loves all of you

So it wasn't much of a shocker when Rodrick randomly asked you to be his boyfriend one day, dick balls deep inside of you

You short-circuited and blue-balled him as punishment for making such a special moment so gross!

But later that day, you two made up and out, the night finishing with your typical make-out sesh and as boyfriend and boyfriend!

[desultorydenouement]

murderbot is peak queer rep because it’s about living as an inherently transgressive form of being, it’s about the complexity of passing, or the complexity of hiding, or the nuance of never fitting binaries and not wanting to even when fitting those binaries is seen as “better”, and it’s about making people uncomfortable just by existing, it’s about measuring forms of freedom and having to decide which you’ll save and which you’ll sacrifice. but most importantly it’s peak queer rep because murderbot is free for like five minutes and it immediately attracts the nearest supposedly-rare transgressive-illegal-superbot (ART) in a hundred light year radius to be its best friend, and what’s that if not your classic Queer On Queer Magnetism

[puppppppppy]

so a few things

my brother and i have our rooms facing each other he recently got a mood light installed and he can change the color his favorite color is purple

which would normally be. FINE but every time i walk to my room its just been this

[iilanaslvr]

Me waking up straight to agathario fanfics like it's my daily newspaper

[vintagesboy]

7 de 365

Começo de ano, metas e crises.

Esse é o primeiro texto da era, e espero pelo menos conseguir escrever um por mês, vai depender de como vou me sair no decorrer do ano. Ultimamente anda difícil conseguir me expressar, tanto em textos, e desenho. Estou perdendo minha habilidade de lidar com meus problemas, isso está acabando comigo.

Esses dias, ando tendo muita crise existencial, ansiedade, e talvez até pânico. Sei e não sei o motivo, um é sobre recomeçar e fracassar, outro também tem haver com isso. Meu peito dói e começo tremer toda hora, ainda não é um ataque de pânico mas tô quase lá.

Quero que esse ano seja um ano decisivo na minha vida, mudar muita coisa, muitos hábitos, e me tornar uma pessoa satisfeita comigo, o que me deixa ansioso e com pânico são o tanto de coisas que estou me cobrando pra cumprir, e a falta de capacidade de acreditar em mim.

Já comecei esse ano praticamente ferrado, apesar de daqui uns dias estar indo para um novo país passear um pouco, fiz uma dívida estratosférica pra pagar daqui uns meses, e isso vai tecnicamente me prender por alguns meses, o que de certa forma é bom pra mim, vou ter que correr atrás de quitar minha dívida e evoluir nesse tempo, se eu quiser ter condições de querer viver como eu gostaria.

Apesar de ter sete dias que o ano começou, ainda ando sobrecarregado do ano anterior, 2024 foi um ano muito pesado e difícil, mas pretendo me desintoxicar desse ano caótico, eu preciso.

Comecei fazendo minha limpeza anual, comecei com o material, ainda foi pouca coisa, mas onda terá mais. Peguei coisas que não uso e deixei em caixas, que, quando bater 90 dias e não ter pegado nada de lá, definitivamente não tenho mais desculpas pra manter comigo. E quero cuidar do meu mental, esse de fato é o mais difícil, tô colocando na cabeça que preciso dar um passo de cada vez, a ir com calma, tentando me ensinar que não é de uma hora pra outra, e sim dando pequenos passos para não ficar louco e ansioso. Não sei se está dando certo, mas nada de começo é fácil, tenho que ter paciência e perseverança.

Esse ano também penso em aceitar algum emprego e sair da vida de só fazer freela, não sei se realmente irei fazer isso, mas quero um pouco de “segurança financeira”, mas sei que isso vai acabar com minha “liberdade”, logo esse ano tem algo importante em maio para acontecer, e não posso perder por nada. Eu já até recebi a proposta de emprego, e disse que depois quero conversar sobre isso com calma, no momento não estou em condições para isso. Preciso me organizar direito, mas que estou muito interessado.

Outra coisa que aconteceu ano fim do ano passado foi um “fantasma” que voltou atrás de mim depois de anos, uma pessoa que me machucou muito e me fez parar de confiar nas pessoas quando se trata de dinheiro, e sim, me pego muito pensando sobre o que fazer, se respondo ou não, se perdoo ou não, ou ate se volto a ser amigo dessa pessoa, mas sei que seria muita burrice de mim fazer isso. Mas por agora ignorei a mensagem, mas tô cogitando fazer como o antigo eu fazia e “lavar a roupa suja” e ir embora, nem sempre funciona com todos, mas pelo menos mata uma pessoa dentro de mim pra sempre. Acho que preciso fazer isso.

Nessa leva de cuidado mental, também quero reduzir novamente meu circulo social, dar adeus pra pessoas que não são mais importantes pra mim e que já deixei de ser também, e assim, me desligar virtualmente por um tempo, pra cuidar mais de mim como fiz na pandemia.

Bem, então esse foi o primeiro texto do ano, foi bom escrever isso, comecei tendo uma crise de pânico, agora me sinto melhor, espero manter esse habito e conseguir escrever sobre cada avanço meu desse ano.

[icedcoffeebabyy]

remus and barty writing in their diary: serving cunt and also hating myself is hard and people don’t talk about it enough.

[boypied]

BEST FRIEND'S BROTHER.

pairings: jeremy gilbert x male reader

summary: the male reader goes around elena's house to meet with her, but he runs into jeremy instead, and jeremy's hungry for some boy butt.

requested by: anonymous

word count: 1,604

warnings: smut, spanking, ass eating, fingering, breeding.

ding dong, the doorbell goes off. You stand there waiting for Elena to open the door and greet you into her home. However, you're surprised to see her younger brother Jeremy open the door. "Oh, hey Jeremy," you say in a confused tone, "is Elena home? She told me to come over, " You continue speaking to him before you realise you haven't let him answer. "She went out not long ago with Caroline." He says in his normal kind tone. "You still wanna come in?" He asks as he moves out of the way for you to come in, and you accept his other walking into the Gilbert home.

Jeremy begins to walk ahead of you, and you notice he has been working out. You can try by his rippling back muscles. "he works that vest well," you mumble under your breath as you try to contain composure. He turns around slightly. "Did you say something?" He asks in a soft tone your eyes widen before you answer him."uhm, no, " you replied to him with an awkward chuckle as he walked into the kitchen and you follow after him.

"You want a drink?" Jeremy asks you with a soft smile as he you nod your head, he takes a cup and fills it up with water but as he hands it over to you his hand grazes against your fingers and he winks at you before stepping back and walking around the kitchen island. I try to ignore the wink he just gave me considering that he's my bestfriends brother. I take a sip of the drink before placing it down, "so you've been working out?" You blurt out to fill the awkward silence.

Jeremy chuckles slightly while rubbing his temple slightly embarrassed, "so you noticed" he says with a huge smirk on his face. You nod your head "you look great Jeremy" you say with a smile on your face. Jeremy begins to walk back round to you, "want me to flex for you?" He says as he closes the gap between the both of you. You shyly nod your head as he lifts up his arm and flexes his bicep, "wow" you gasp out as you look at how big it is. "The girls sure are lucky" you say to him as you make eye contact with his beautiful eyes, he looks away slightly "I don't really care about the girls...I like one person and it isn't a...girl" he confesses to you.

Your eyes widen as Jeremy cups your face and caresses your cheek with his thumb, your eyes dart up to meet his when you realise what he is hinting at. "You don't mean-" you begin to say but you get cut off once Jeremy presses his lips against yours. Your eyes slowly flutter shut as Jeremy's tongue makes it's way into your mouth and it begins exploring, his hands leave your cheeks and they slowly travel down to your waist then they gently run circles over your ass.

Jeremy breaks the kiss by pulling away, and you wrap your arms around his neck, "this feels..." You begin to say before he cuts you off ,right...this feels right," Jeremy says, which you agree with. He grips your ass and pulls you up to wrap your legs around his waist, "bedroom?" You blurt out in the heat of the moment, and he nods his head eagerly as he takes you upstairs without breaking the kiss. You both fell down multiple times. Jeremy drops you down on his bed, and you both begin stripping off naked, Jeremy reveals his perfectly built abs, and you reveal your sexy red jockstrap.

Jeremy leans down and gently places a kiss on one of your juicy cheeks, "mhm" he lets out. He leans up again and slaps his thick cock against your ass, "you feel so big" you say seductively as he taps his cock on your cheeks. He leans back down and spreads open your cheeks to reveal your tight asshole to him. He pushes his face in and licks a wet strip up your hole as he gently pushes a finger into your hole curling it. He continues licking wet strips up your hole as well as curling his index finger in and out of your hole unil he adds another finger.

Jeremy pulls his tongue away and pulls his fingers out of your hole. He flips you over and straddles your face pushing his cock into your mouth, he grips either side of your head and begins to use your mouth as a fuck toy for his cock. Jeremy's grip tightens as he begins to fuck your throat faster and faster, "m-mhm!" You groan out as the taste of his cock was practically orgasmic. Jeremy moans out in pleasure as your spit coats his entire cock "f-fuck!" He whimpers out, you watch as his abs flex as he nears his release before pulling out of your mouth.

You roll yourself over and arch your back, making sure your ass is exposed for him. Jeremy bites his lip slightly and lines up his cock gently and slowly sliding his cock into you inch by inch until he stops because his phone starts going off, "it's Elena!" You gasp out as you look at his phone, he picks up his phone and answers, "Hello?" Jeremy says in an annoyed tone as he waits for her to answer, "Hey Jeremy.. just wanted to check to see if y/n came by" she asks him curious.

You are tired of cockwarming Jeremy's cock so you begin to fuck yourself on his cock, you slowly bounce back and forth feeling his cock twitches inside of you. "A-ah!" He gasps out slightly "Y-Yeah y/n came by" he says in a soft tone trying to remain normal. Elena continues to babble on and on while you continue to fuck yourself against her brothers cock, Jeremy was about to reply to whatever Elena just said but he was hypnotised by the jiggle of your ass.

Jeremy, with one hand, holds the phone to his ear, and the other hand gripped onto your hip and he begins to fuck into you faster and faster never taking his eyes off the jiggle of your ass, "fuck" he whispers to you so Elena can't pick it up but so you can hear it. You let out a giggle as you bite down on his duvet to keep yourself from screaming his name. "Elena, I gotta go," he says to her and immediately hangs up and throws his phone to the side and grips both sides of your hips.

Jeremy starts piston fucking you into your perfectly gaped asshole, before pulling out and laying back on his bed "ride me" he whispers in your ear as he wiggles his cock. You bite your lip and straddle his lap, and you slide down on his thick member, "J-Jeremy" you whimper out in pleasure as he wraps his hand around your shaft and he begins to pump your cock back and forth as you bounce on his cock "let's cum together" he mumbles out as he throws his head back.

You nod your head, unable to speak from intense pleasure. "3...2...1" he groans out, and once he finally counts down, you both blow your loads. Jeremy's load shooting inside of you, his thick creamy ropes of cum filling you up and painting your insides white and when you shoot your load your cock spurts out ropes of cum onto Jeremy's perfect pecs. You collapse down onto his chest both of you breathing heavily, "fuck" you mumble out softly as you lick up your cum from his chest.

Jeremy gently strokes a strand of hair out of your face, and he caresses your cheeks, "so handsome," he mumbles to you softly. He cups your face and begins to pull your face towards his, your faces inching closer and closer to each other until you hear the front door unlock. "JEREMY IM HOME!" Elena shouts up as she walks inside, "I BROUGHT STEFAN. " She shouts up again. Both you and Jeremy's eyes widen in panick, "oh shit" you say at the exact same time. You climb up off of him and you throw your clothes back on and Jeremy does the same and you both sit on his bed like nothing happened as Elena and Stefan walk in.

"Oh hey Y/N!" Elena says "sorry I wasn't here when I got here" she says with a fake sad tone lingering in her speech towards you, "don't worry, Jeremy kept me company" you say with a small smirk on your face which Stefan catches, "Well me and Stefan are going out in a second again just had to drop something back here...so I can't hang out today...sorry" she says in her sad mocking tone "no worries, I can keep y/n company" Jeremy says also with a small smirk on his face, Elena and Stefan walk out the room but before Stefan leaves he winks at you both.

Jeremy and you both turn to face each other, two huge smirks growing on your faces. "Wanna watch a movie?" He says to you as he wraps his arm around your neck, pulling you closer to him. You lay your head down on his chest "or maybe we could just lay here like this" you say softly and Jeremy smirks "sounds amazing" he says as he lays his head back against a pillow and he gently runs his hand through your hair, you both lay their falling asleep in eachothers warm embrace.

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[finnthehumanboi]

Obsessed with how much I can pack on in a single sitting lately

[mybrainsrottingwithmcd]

Im gunna draw some garrence things :) because i think about those useless gays every day