#funnily enough this is the real reason i made this blog

[minne-cerbinna]

I think quite often of the optional little dialogue tree that one can get about Yaevinn in TW2 with an imported save if one sides with Iorveth, and particularly of just how Iorveth describes Yaevinn

The dialogue prompt "I once knew another Scoia'tael - Yaevinn." will lead to the following exchange:

GERALT: I once met another Scoia'tael leader.

IORVETH: Yaevinn. I knew him. He had beautiful dreams and desperately wanted me to share them. Asked the same of you, I heard.

GERALT: You know a lot about me.

IORVETH: I try to know as much as I can - about everyone.

They'll elaborate a little further in this dialogue about how they both agree with Yaevinn's reasons and the fact that Yaevinn "saw combat and killing as poetry" which Iorveth deems unrealistic because "war is prose, with no place for beauty" (how poetic).

But the interesting part to me is the statement that Yaevinn had "beautiful dreams" and how he was this grand idealist, because this seems to be in contradiction with Yaevinn's characterisation. In his novel appearance, he argues against Toruviel's idealism as he proposes shooting the unarmed messenger. In TW1, Geralt refers to him in his journal as being "disillusioned", as well as being "a cynic and a pragmatist", neither of which seem to hold with Iorveth's account. While this can be credited to the fact that it's possible that Iorveth's past-tense statement of "I knew him" means that he hasn't seen Yaevinn in some time rather than, or at least in addition to, the implied death. He has perhaps not seen him since the Second Northern War, where they were both in the Vrihedd brigade, and Yaevinn could have grown more cynical since the Scoia'tael were betrayed by Dol Blathanna, his earliest characterisation is that of the novel canon, and he does not present a particular idealism that would reflect the notion that he is a dreamer.

It can be taken as a choice of characterisation, because for all that Yaevinn is disillusioned, he does have his hopes and desires for the future and his plans at Vizima, just as Iorveth has his hopes for Saskia and Vergen. He has these dreams, even if he tenders them close to his chest and puts the practical aspects first before he allows himself to have this hope. And I think that is a really interesting interpretation, to have this juxtaposition, that he can be both disillusioned and a dreamer, and that he chose a scant few, Iorveth, and then Geralt, to share in those precious dreams.

The notion of Yaevinn having these "beautiful dreams" is also very pertinent to his TW1 characterisation, I think, because there are optional dialogues in which Yaevinn tells the accounts of how he once lived among humans and believed in assimilation, that the humans would accept the elves if given enough time, only to be persecuted and harassed at length until he finally accepted that there was no place for him there, that there could be no assimilation, only annihilation. And even though he knows it is a hopeless fight, he still proceeds onward. He knows his people are dying, and he knows that if they do not act quickly, they will be well and truly doomed to extinction, but he is still trying to fight. That is, in and of itself, an expression of a dream for a better future, even if he thinks it hopeless, or, as Iorveth criticises, unrealistic.

Serious character analysis aside, I think that the absolute funniest interpretation of this dialogue is that it is not to be taken literally about Yaevinn's idealism or lack thereof, but rather as a euphemism -- taking "beautiful dreams" as a euphemism for queer romantic interest; hence "he had beautiful dreams and desperately wanted me to share them" is something like "he likes men and asked me to be his lover", "I hear he asked the same of you" thenceforth meaning something like "were you also his lover/do you also like men" (and the response "you know a lot about me" therefore indicating that he is correct in his judgement). There's like a whole rebellion going on but Iorveth is just checking out his options, y'know.

[rhys-ravenfeather]

80s/90s kids' cartoons be like:

-The Leader

-The Jokester

-The Muscle

-The Brains

-And The Girl

[pochipop]

＃HOMICIPHER !! ♡ — DWELLING, ROTTING, SURVIVING (MR CRAWLING X READER).

#. synopsis! — speaking isn't the only way to understand, and he's oh so gentle .

#. characters! — mr crawling .

#. warnings! — canon-typical dark content + setting .

#. word count! — 1.7k .

#. alt accounts! — @ddollipop (nsfw) @hhoneypop (moodboards) .

#. others! — navigation & masterlist .

#. a/n! — hi, i posted, please stop bullying me in my inbox :(( - all jokes aside, thank you guys for all the nice messages and compliments! & happy pride to my lgbt followers! funnily enough, don't think i've ever "come out" on this blog, but if it's not obvious, i'm bisexual lol so there's that!

You found yourself pressed against a cold, damp wall in what you could only assume was a room close to the belly of this labyrinth-like building. Breaths came in shallow, frightened gasps as the lights overhead flickered ominously, like they were trying to warn you of impending danger. . . Danger that you felt sting your chest like needles poking through your skin. The oppressive silence surrounding you was broken only by your intakes of air and the soft, almost imperceptible sound of something —or someone— (or maybe a mixture of the two, in this God-forsaken place) nearby.

Squinting into the gloom, a familiar shape emerged from the dark hallway, slipping into the room with you and pausing in the doorway. You felt relief take hold of you.

Mr Crawling. . .

That, of course, likely wasn’t his real name, but you didn’t speak in the language of clicks, noises, and chirp-like sounds that he did, and he didn’t speak with your tongue either. It was for that reason in particular that you’d bludgeoned his head with a crowbar not long ago, to which he sulked in a corner, bleeding and whining, and you were left to feel terrible for hurting the first entity that had tried to go out of his way to show you true empathy in a way you understood.

Apologizing didn’t even begin to feel like enough. Probably because you were at least ninety percent sure he didn’t understand what you were saying anyway. Helping him with the wound perhaps made it slightly better. . . But also not really, because even now as he skims across the ground to where you are, there’s a sense of guilt that weighs heavy on your heart.

Pale, grey-skinned and moving like any non-human mammal of sorts, his face is mostly obscured by the long, stringy black hair that falls in vine-like, clumped strands all the way to the floor from his hunched position. There’s an unsettling, animalistic grace to the way he approaches, but you don’t flinch this time when he puts the flat of his cold palm against the crown of your head, as if trying to soothe your breathing. All of that initial fear has been replaced by a strange comfort of sorts, and you look up at him, thankful for his presence now more than ever.

He tilts his head, as if listening for something, and you watch him warily with the same crowbar clutched in your fist. A part of you felt bad carrying it around like that with his blood still smeared on it, but here, you knew it was foolish to venture around without a weapon of some sort. Not protecting yourself for the sake of his feelings was, unfortunately, not an option as far as you were concerned, but thankfully he didn’t seem to have any opinion on the matter.

“Mr Crawling,” you whisper softly, reaching out to take his hand into your own.

He seemed to really respond to physical touch, and if language was always going to get in the way, you figured it was best to bridge the gap in another manner. This was the next best thing you could think of.

His head raises, and you suppose he’s trying to meet your gaze, though you can’t see his eyes through the mess of his hair.

“I need to understand you,” you say.

Ironically, that’s a bit of a hopeless endeavor in this sort of environment. It’s not like you have all the time in the world to pick up a new, completely unrelated language to yours while fighting for your life. Still. . . Gesturing had been helpful previously, especially for directions. The hooded figure you ran into first was quick to point around, that severed hand that had guided you for a bit was just as poignant in that area, and the silver-haired entity with a blindfold over his eyes had also tried to communicate with you in that sense as well. So why couldn’t you do it vice-versa?

“Me,” you point to yourself, “you,” you point to him.

He stared blankly for a moment, then seemed to come to an understanding. His had retracted from your head to point at himself, then to you, a clicking noise coming from the back of his throat. You smile. It was a small victory amongst a series of devastating losses, but you were keen on taking it and running with it as far as you could stretch it.

“Okay,” you breathe, talking more to yourself than to him. “Let’s try this then. . .”

Feeling a surge of determination, you touch your stomach and then mime eating.

“Hungry. Eat.”

At this point, you were still too anxious to have an appetite, but you knew you’d need food eventually. You were hoping he’d be able to help you with that somehow. Up until this point, you hadn’t seen any evidence of there being food around here, —no containers, boxes, or wrappings, but he seemed to understand your gestures and mimicked you; sitting back on his knees to rub his stomach through his filthy t-shirt, then nibbling on an imaginary item.

He looks back to you, as if seeking approval. You smile, hoping he understands that to be a sign of good will, then nod your head to drive home the association. Beneath his swath of hair, he smiles too, and you catch a glimpse of his eyes through the curtain of black strands; dark and thoughtful.

“Good,” you murmur, feeling slightly relieved. 

If nothing else, this was progress. You spend a while longer trying to communicate basic needs and warnings: things like yes, no, stop, come, drinking, sleeping, and a thank you in the way of patting his head. You’re not sure he understood the depth of it by any means, but he did seem to enjoy it. . . Like a puppy. The thought made you smile genuinely and absentmindedly, if only for a moment. The clicks and chirps he makes are mostly lost on you, but the noises are comforting nonetheless. This rudimentary bridge of understanding soothes you just a little, and you find yourself feeling very thankful that he’s here in the first place.

He has your face cupped in his hands now, as if he’s inspecting you. . . Or perhaps admiring? That is, until you feel his body tense and all his little sounds abruptly come to a halt. A small growl reverberates from the back of his throat and his wide smile droops into a frown. Suddenly, he’s roughly dragging you along, tugging urgently on your arms, to which you comply and follow along with him, scooting across the floor until you reach a shadowed alcove. You hadn’t even noticed it before, but he seems to know his way around this place like the back of his cold, grey hand.

He covers your mouth for a moment, then shakes his head. You cover your mouth, take your hand away, then shake your head no, just to ensure to him that you’ve understood. He pats your head then crouches in front of you, using his own body as a makeshift shield for yours. His long, spindly arms cage you against the wall. Fear rises inside you once again, though not because of him and his actions. Rather, the faint, rhythmic thuds of footsteps have begun reverberating through the hall just outside, and you recognize the harrowing pattern they click in.

Mr Scarletella.

You encountered him once before and felt every hair on your body stand on end. The way he moved through the halls with a menacing flow that sounded almost eerily melodic, and the strange, unsettling red glow that seemed to exude off him that nearly drew you in like a moth to a flame. The steps echoed off the walls of the building and your heart began to hammer against your ribs. Mr Crawling moved closer as he came into view through the doorway that lacked any actual door to close, his long, black hair tickling your nose ever so softly. Dressed in scarlet and carrying his ever-present umbrella, you decide quite readily that you’ve seen enough, closing your eyes and focusing on the cool feel of Mr Crawling’s skin, on his musky scent (like mildew and a bit of rot, which isn’t necessarily pleasant, but it’s not like he can really help it down here.)

Though you’re no longer watching, the entity dripping in scarlet moves with an unsettling, almost predatory grace, glancing about the corridors as if he’s searching for something. Or someone.

Once again, Mr Crawling presses closer to you. Now, you’re able to feel the way his body trembles with fear, and you realize that he’s just as terrified as you are, though you can’t tell if that fear is for himself, for you, or for both of you at once. And it’s not like you can ask. Still, you open your eyes just long enough to look up at him, Mr Scarletella in your peripheral as you force a smile and touch the crown of Mr Crawling’s head, offering what little comfort you can. He still quivers, but seems to appreciate the gesture, though he doesn’t risk a happy chirp.

The danger passes as the man in scarlet disappears down the hallway, then turns the corner. You let out a silent sigh of relief and Mr Crawling relaxes after several moments of continued tension, finally going limp and releasing you from against the wall. He slumps onto his knees, which seems to be his most comfortable position, and he looks at you clearly through the darkness. In that moment, it feels like you’ve understood one another perfectly. 

“Thank you,” you whisper sincerely, though you know he can’t really understand you.

You’re just hoping the gratitude comes across somehow, but at the risk that it won’t, you touch your chest over top of where your heart’s still beating like a drum, then touch his chest in the same place. It dawns on you that you don’t feel a heartbeat at all, and you almost pull your hand away. . . But something stops you. Something that says even if you’re right and he’s something less (or more) than human, —it doesn’t matter as much as the kindness he’s shown you. So your hand lingers until you softly pull away.

He grabs your cheeks again and holds them delicately.

[konigsblog]

That mlmxreader blog also keeps claiming that you're sending your followers to go attack them and send death threats. They do a lot of arguing that your dark fic is not real dark fic and that you're purposely trying to trigger and retraumatise them - is what I gathered looking at a couple posts...

I think that for one, there are definitely writers who do romanticise some topics unhealthily with things such as rape/assault/torture, but I don't think you're one of those people? Like you frequently tag and keep stating that what you're writing is fiction, it's fantasy.

On that note, they keep trying to argue that CNC is the more "moral" kink to be writing vs. rape. I honestly think that rape fantasy is something people do fantasize about and can sometimes just not be CNC (bc they keep trying to pin it back to that kink). It's the fact that there's no established relationship and discussion like in most BDSM pairings where they talk about rape play. At the end of the day, you tag your works properly. I don't see much issue with writing what you want when you make sure to tag (which you do!) and are aware the subject you're writing about and its usual connotations (which you're also aware!). People can be mad and uncomfortable, but at the end of the day it's them who chose to keep talking about it. I think people need to get used to being uncomfortable on the internet. This is not a new concept and nobody here is a "hero" for anything.

Sorry I just paraphased some posts and asks with some of my own thoughts on it!

i mean, my content is supposed to be dark, it's dark content for a reason, and i'm not describing these characters to be standard; i'm writing them manipulative, vindictive, depraved, ect. i do appreciate you, anon, as you weren't rude, and instead polite. i appreciate it, my dear! 💗

i don't really care about this whole thing, but something i have never said was to send death threats. now, we don't know if they're lying – they could be – but, if they aren't, stop. i didn't tell anyone to send death threats, because i don't condone that. aside from death threats and mocking someone's trauma, i seriously don't care what you want to do. whether you don't block them, block them, whatever, they've made multiple posts directly insulting me in weird ass ways, so i couldn't really care about their immature opinion.

i'd like to point out something they said though, kinda funny, considering they've mentioned me multiple times outside of their callout post. they said they made ONE post about me with examples, that would be their callout post. but, they're not counting how they're talking about me in response to anons, or how they're mentioning me in their hashtags. it's childish. yes, you 100% have the right to not enjoy a certain kink/coping mechanism (because funnily enough, people use different ways to copes) but it's immature to name people, talk about how what i'm doing is "disgusting" or how i'm a "vile cretin" (like what lmfao 😭)

here's some screenshots of what i'm talking about when i say they've even insulted me, or made comments. this is 4/11 screenshots.

and comparing my supporters to an iof soldier... 😬 wtf is wrong with you? that's disgusting.

now, if anyone sends this to @mlmxreader, go ahead and let them know that they're not the centre of the world, them multiple posts taking about me and insulting me is immature on their end.

[putschki1969]

2024/05/30 Blog post by Wakana アフタートークイベントのこと！〜自撮りチャレンジは続く〜

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After-Talk Event！〜The Selfie-Challenge Continues〜

I was asked a lot about my nails during the online after-talk event on the 17th, so I'm going to post a few photos of my nails! I asked the nail artist to paint my nails in colours which aligned with my releases from the past five years. Funnily enough, I got so engrossed in talking with the manicurist that I ended up getting my fingers painted in the wrong order! ＼(^o^)／ By the way, when I decided to take some pictures, I really struggled to figure out how to get both of my hands on a photo. I eventually thought that a mirror would probably be the best idea. For some reason, decided to include my face, even though these pictures were meant to be about my nails😎This way, it automatically became part of my continuing selfie challenge! ＼＼\\٩( 'ω' )و //／／Let's go! The truth is, ever since I uploaded my first selfies, the back of my phone has been decorated like this with Kid-sama and Conan-kun, but maybe no one had noticed it before? Unfortunately, when I tried to get all of my fingers in the frame, I ended up covering the faces of Kid-sama and Conan-kun's. It may look like I'm purposefully trying to hide Kid-sama from you, but I really just wanted my fingers to be the focus of the pictures. No matter how many times I tried, I couldn't get all my nails in the frame, so I was ready to give up and tried smiling a bit. (At this point, I think everyone is just super curious about Kid-sama and Conan-kun's faces.) And this is how the nail edition of my selfie challenge ended.

Hello, this is Wakana (0￣���￣0)／

Taking pictures of your nails is hard! (Am I the only one struggling with this?)

Well, it was a lot of fun chatting with everyone who participated in the online after-talk event on the 17th😊 It was my first time looking back on a live performance together with all of you so I was a little nervous😳💓 On the way to the studio, I was a little overwhelmed by the number of people in the city, I felt a little dizzy🌀💫 It was very soothing to interact with you through the comment section🥰Thank you...🥰 During the broadcast, we looked at photos from the live performance and reflected on the setlist. I also shared some stories from the rehearsals and a couple of backstage anecdotes from the day of the live. Occasionally, I would also read through everyone's real-time comments and react to them. It was only five days after the live performance so the timing was perfect. Everyone's memory was still fresh so I was very happy to hear your thoughts😆It was a refreshing experience✨

During the event we also played a mini-game called "Following the trajectory of my 5-year solo career!" It was a pretty difficult game in which I had to arrange a number of photos from the past five years in chronological order within three minutes😂 I had to judge those pictures based on what I was wearing and while I was able to figure out most of it, I also made a few mistakes 😅I was quite confused whenever I got multiple live photos from the same year. And I got my dress colours mixed up with all those Classical Live photos... 👗 I played three rounds of this game and if I managed to get 2 out of 3 right, I would receive a reward from the staff members. It was really exhausting 🤣 I asked everyone to participate in the comment section, you were amazing!! ! You knew everything right away 😳 Your memory is so much better than mine 😂 At the end, I got 2 right and my reward was a big smile from my staff members!! ! ! Yup, that's it〜〜😂 Kinda underwhelming but still, thank you! 😂

I also read the messages everyone had submitted in the Fan Club section "Bokutachi no (=our) VOICE"📖 You shared your thoughts in such a detailed and articulate manner... I don't really know anyone else who is able to express their thoughts so meticulously 😭✨I'm really grateful 🥺 The messages bring me so much joy and strength that I will still go and read them sometimes. 💪💪💪 By the way, I addressed a lot of your comments during the event but for some reason the comment that stuck with me the most was "When you pulled out the chair, it sounded like the roar of a lion!" 🤣🤣🤣Thank you for this hilarious comment! It really was the sound of a lion roaring!!

Thank you to everyone who participated in the after-talk event!! !Last but not least, I'll post all the live photos that were shown during the stream＼＼\\٩( 'ω' )و //／／ (Photos by Ushijima Kosuke)

Well then, until next time~☆( *'▽'*)/

＊＊＊Wakana＊＊＊

[r1poutmygvtz]

If you get this, answer w/ three random facts about yourself and send it to the last seven blogs in your notifs. anon or not, doesn’t matter, let’s get to know the person behind the blog! (no pressure! ❤️)

1. i was expelled on my 13th birthday but managed to graduate at 15 (4 days before my birthday)

2. i went to alternative school for part of my sophomore year and all my junior year and i think that's what made me a better person!! (ramble warning ->) (normal school made me feel trapped and suffocated and in result i was aggressive and violent, i would snap or lash out on everyone but my friends and the few teachers that took the time to understand me [shout-out to my 10th grade psychology teacher, i'll never forget her <3] alt school was much smaller and had teachers that actually understood us [shoutout to my science teacher who became a father figure and would make me coffee when i was cold, asked if i was eating properly, and talked to me about my depression, anxiety, and made sure i was taking my meds when i seemed worse than normal because his daughter {who funnily enough happened to have the same name as my real name} struggled with the same things and he knew the warnings, he was the reason i started trying at school again <3])

3. i'm aroace!! next month or two will mark 2 years of me being single :3 (not really important but idk what else to say about myself 😭)

[darkfictionjude]

Etymology nonnie here!

The real one this time. Funnily enough. Never expected to get an impersonator. By the way, I'm not mad, I found it funny, I understand the want of saying my catchphrase... But I would appreciate it not happening again. It doesn't upset, because I can easily fix any attempt of serious impersonation since Jude already knows my real blog and I can stop being an anon, but it's the principle of the matter.

In any case, I wanted to write something during those last days, but unfortunately I didn't have access to internet or electricity for most of those days (nothing serious happened to me and my house, but the rain and wind did have some effect on electricity and the internet services). I got to play the Hollywood IF demo just today. And I didn't get to comment about EC even though I played it. But that's it's what I'm going to do now. My comments on the other demo will have to wait for another ask.

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I find very interesting the way you wrote the Prologue of EC. It made itself immediately distinct from the Prologue of WWC. Not only by having two different storylines that are connected but happening at the different chronological locations, but also by the way they are narrated. But what I understood was the past using third person, and what it's the present (or future) using second person. Although I would have appreciated having something that distinguishes both time period above each section, I think it was clever to have the different person (third or second) as the way to distinguish them, since it does allow to have some mystery that otherwise may be lost.

I also appreciate it's pacing. It's very fast, and it seems appropriate for a crime thriller. Even more so with the cliffhanger (and plot twist? I'm not sure if to call it that, since it's more of a plot twist for people who were speculating here on the blog rather than a twist that it's part of the Prologue structure; meaning that we were under the idea of MC being a normal person and then being confronted with them being a murderer and being actively hunted, but I digress). It really is an effective strategy to create anticipation. So much so I'm sure many of us wanted to be able to continue very badly to get answers.

Now, I did mention the sections with Luce were either the present or the future. And this was on purpose. Why? Well, the thing is, the text never makes it explicitly clear, but I'm under the impression the Prologue cannot be something that happens before most of the events you plan to write. That means, then, that the entire IF is going to be an analepsis, in which we get to a specific point from the past till the scene at the end of the Prologue. The question being if it's going to be in medias res or in ultimas res. I do believe the former makes more sense, mostly because it would be a weird thing for an IF to have such a defined ending point from the very beginning, especially given we have two main routes that are entirely different.

Now, I may be entirely wrong about this, and the Prologue may actually be happening in present time to the entirety of the story. That is, the story begins right after the Prologue. This also seems possible. The reason I don't believe this is because it would mean:

1. The person who shoots at Luce is either Dante, or a character we don't know as of yet.

2. If it's Dante, then we get to the kidnapping plot immediately. But, the thing is, while Dante is insane, I don't see why would he do this unless Luce killed someone important to him (in which case the romance is... Well, harder to understand I guess); but even then, just because of Luce's identity, Dante would be not just crazy but stupid to hunt Luce. It means getting into war with Luce's family. Then again, so does the kidnapping if Luce's family figures out Dante is responsible. It's a very messy situation.

3. If it's not Dante, then it's a character we don't know. But given the plot involving kidnapping, then I can only imagine Dante saves us from whoever is hunting us, and then proceeds to kidnap us. Which is insane too, but would be so insanely funny.

Yet, the idea of the Prologue being in the middle does appeal to me more. I may be wrong, I do recognize, but it really does feel like it's the case in my mind. Mostly, because it would serve as a point in which Luce has no choice but to be involved with the crime world one way or another. But, having said that, it's a very weird way of beginning a crime story from a character standpoint if it's just the start of the story. Since we don't get how Luce got there, and flashbacks would be very necessary. Which is not necessarily a bad thing. If Fallen Hero can do that, then why not Excellent Cadavers too?

Then, of course, EC can go the Fallout New Vegas route. In which we survive a shot that should have killed us, and we have a possible revenge route from the rest of the story. But only as a catalyst.

Overall, I must admit I'm intrigued.

Also, some things that are not that related to what I've been discussing here:

1. As for RO's, I decided to go for Lazlo. Dante is fun, I just don't see myself being seduced by him. I prefer RO's with an elegant mask hiding their unhinged and wild behaviors and desires (like Imre), more than straightforward insane people. But it can be hot, not going to lie. Yet, I prefer Lazlo because the romance is just angst made plot. It's a forbidden romance in almost every angle. And one in which both probably don't want to fall in love with the other. There is resentment, unwarranted or not. There is envy. There is the incest tones neither may recognize but Antonio forces into the relationship. Mostly, Antonio's shadow haunting any hope for this relationship is so exciting to me. And it gets worse because my MC is male, so add homosexuality into the the reasons why this romance is forbidden.

2. I saw people speaking about becoming a doctor in college. And, in all honesty, I hadn't considered the possibility. I was imagining Luce becoming a lawyer, so he could defend the family in court. And maybe eventually becoming a politician (a senator, perhaps), so the family gets their claws inside the government. Yet, the idea of a doctor Luce is fun. And it would allow for a tending wounds scene with the ROs to feel even better. So now I'm obsessed with Luce studying medicine.

3. I'm not surprised, just disappointed, by the reaction against Carmen. I understand not liking open relationships of sleeping around, but there is no point on insulting someone for it. Especially when she does worse things than that, and it's meant to be consensual between Carmen and Luce anyway, from what I gathered. I do appreciate having non traditional female RO's, even if I'm never going to romance them (well, never is a strong word, but it's unlikely I'll do it since I'm gay, lol). It makes the story more interesting to read and play. Furthermore, it was evident since Carmen was introduced she wasn't going to be a traditional female character. She is a woman who knows what she wants, and won't be stopped in getting it. Luce is someone who can join her, or not (is Dante the one who won't let Luce go, if anything).

Finally, I don't think I have any real questions to ask that cannot be answered by waiting for the release of chapter 1 (or is going to be called an episode too like in WWC? Maybe that's the question I have). I'm just excited from what it's going to come.

Apart from your usual identifiers no one else writes me such in depth messages you could never be confused with anyone else 😭

In reference to you saying there isn’t an identifier to when the timeline changes, I swear that at the top of each page there’s the date, the past of 1937 and 1977.

Yeah like I was like “so the problem with Carmen isn’t that she kills people and has committed all sorts of crimes but that she likes sex and is honest with Luce about her wishes?” PRIORITIES but yeah I feel if you’ve been here for a while you should understand what type of women I write 😅

No it’s not en episode it’s a chapter, WWC just always felt more episodic to me. EC feels like a novel almost

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Are you aware that I'm-a-gay-fish and Zu ship dr//m/are ?/genq

okay so it took me a while to answer this but i finally found the words to so here goes; yeah i do know, and i totally understand if you don't ship it, neither do i, but there's nothing i can do about it?

they're allowed, so long as they don't harm people, to do whatever they want on their own platforms. and before you ask me if i support *ncest, would you actually ask someone if they support toxic relationships and murder whenever they ship two unhealthy killers with mental problems? because that's funnily enough what most people do around here! you can say it's not the same, and that they're romanticizing it, but i can personally detach myself from fiction enough to realize that while this concept depicted in their art shouldn't be recreated in real life, that doesn't mean they actually engage or support people that do that irl- they asked zu the same question so many times, and frog doesn't either and i've known gayfish for three years! you're well within your right to stop associating with them or distance yourself from their content but i myself won't.

i know fiction affects reality to a degree, don't twist my words please, but if you're too young to consume that kind of content with a nuanced perspective or is triggered/affected by it then as long as they tag their content properly then you can unfollow, block and move on. i have a habit of following and reblogging people's works before looking at their bios and before i know it find myself having to choose between two sides i don't belong to and i frankly don't want to! anti this or proship that- in this online era you have to adapt by keeping your cool and curating your own online experience and viewing people in black and whites is stressful, painful and dangerous for everyone involved. i don't even reblog the content you probably have a problem with, and i'm honestly still scared of the response i'll get-

i will not blame or hate whoever unfollows or blocks me for this, it's to be expected, but please don't think about it like some bad vs good guys dilemma? sometimes thought provoking morally grey ambiguous stories with messed up characters spark more positive discussion and healing than people looking into it because they suffer from the same delusions and want a justification-

like realistically, in my blog, most ppl here are basically shipping two literal skeletons with magic in their bones who are sometimes almost the exact copy of one another, and who theoretically have a very similar dna, and sometimes they make shipkids, which, if you know anything about *ncest, is one of the main reasons why you shouldn't bang your siblings - mostly from a moral standpoint because that's so gross i can't even think of it, but also because any offspring would suffer greatly from physical and mental diseases hidden in their genetic code- like. you could argue it's not the same but it's sancest for a reason. and even when they're widely different sanses, you wouldn't think fell x sans is wrong (at least in this specific community) but really we've all just gotten numb to how weird that sounds. trust me, there's a reason we don't talk about our ships to outsiders HHH

TL,DR: so while i greatly encourage you to block people and content you don't want to see/associate with, including me! i hope i made it clear why i, personally, don't care about dreammare and whoever ships it.

[malebotlabs]

(If you want an update on where I’ve been and the state of this blog where I answer some frequently asked questions and a bit of RP click below. If not, enjoy the pictures it will be a while before there’s more but do not worry I’m doing fine just taking a break.)

TRANSMISSION START:

Greetings and good evening, this is the Malebot Labs account PR unit operating again for it’s yearly update which will be reported in human emulation mode for convenience: *Ahem* Uh...hey? So I’ve been absolutely busy with life and a bit stressed out over the past several months, a bad mixture of life stuff and just generalized anxiety to be frank, so my production of stuff on this blog has been a bit...glacial to say the least. I’ve come to a few decisions on how to both improve my life and focus on things more. A break from a lot of stuff that takes a chunk of my time.

I’m going to take a break from here for a bit; not that anything here is bad or anything I just need to focus more on the stuff happening around me then hot robot men. Hopefully you guys understand

At the very least I should be fully operational at some time in the future! Just when things die down a bit and I can sit down and breathe a bit.

Here let me answer a few questions I’ve gotten while I’ve been working on stuff because that’ll hopefully get us all on the same page: 1. Do you have other social media or a discord account? Sorry no I don’t, I’m an odd case on that where I prefer to keep my internet footprint as small as possible. The fact I even made a tumblr blog at all is still baffling to me. If you need to contact me for whatever reason please message me here but I don’t think I’ll be responding anytime soon.

2. Can you do/make an edit of/Write a story involving ______ I don’t think I’ll be able to get to requests anytime soon. I’m real sorry.

3. Can you continue any of your stories? I probably won’t, most of the stories I write are small snippets of things going through my head making an edit or what I’m feeling that specific evening. I need to be in a specific mood to finish things. The fact that people have enjoyed them to the extent they have has surprised me for sure! Thank you all a lot for the kind words I’ve received over the years on them!

4. What do you do/where do you live/other various personal questions Sorry I prefer to keep myself anonymous online, I feel it’s safer and it allows those around me to act like I’m a machine more easily. Just think of me as everyone’s public robot/sexbot and leave it at that. Hell if you wanted to act like that I won’t stop you. If you can’t tell I’m a huge slut for being a robot and being around robots. Treat me like the machine I want to be and leave that silly human stuff to the side for the “emulation” to take care of!

5. Can we RP? I wouldn’t count on me responding anytime soon to anything here, but I want to say thank you to those that I’ve had sessions with in the past. You all have been real fun to roleplay with and I wish you all the best until we talk again! Thank you!

6. Do you exercise?/Are you a jock in real life? I need to exercise for sure! Part of my break is going to involve me going to the gym and exercising regularly when possible! As far as the other part of that goes I don’t act like a jock in real life, I don’t know anything about sports and I prefer to sit inside with a nice book or perhaps a video game if I have the time to sit down with one. I’m a nerdy guy who wears suits and is generally unremarkable.

7. What is the lore behind Malebot Labs and it’s world building? Basically nothing funnily enough, I just find robot men hot and then breaking apart even hotter. I’d say it’s a pretty shit company with all of it’s machines technical faults but there’s a market in universe for this malfunction stuff. I’d say there’s other companies and even female robots and other types of adult robotic companions out there it’s just that this blog was made when I was really into robotic men specifically so all of my feminine robot edits are largely on my own pc or just deleted. Actually a funny story I forgot that malebots was a website when I made this blog and felt extremely embarrassed when I remembered. I thought about changing the name but I never came up with anything better.

8. Are all the Malebots gay? Probably. I think robots can be whatever they want to/are programmed to be. As far as I go? I’m bisexual and I tend to swing to masculine and feminine body types about the same amount so yes the guy running the gay robot porn blog is gay.

9. What do you use to edit your pictures? I use GIMP and a lot of the selective gaussian blur tool to get that plastic look, I’d make a tutorial but that’s basically all I do besides some layers, some pngs I found online, and the perspective tool putting in a lot of work. I used to have a lot more higher quality images to work with for components but lost them on my old computer.

10. Do you speak any other languages? Sorry I only speak english. If I could just import new languages into my speech life would be so much easier!

11. Are you a robot? Of course not! That’d be crazy. That’d...be crazy. Y-You can’t really believe I-I’m a robot right? Right? I-I’m a normal h-human ma-man! Hu-ma-MAN! I-I-I’m sorry I seem to be-ERROR THIS UNIT IS EXPER- I seem to be-ERROR- I seem to b-be experiencing problems! O-ooooooh! H-Hey there ho-hot stuff do yo-you like what you see? What you see? W-what you. See? I am b-built to be the p-perfect man, the perfect. Man. So u-use me like the m-machine I am! The ma-ERROR IN HUMAN EMULATION PLEA-O-Oh Oh! You...Y-You want to go somewhere more...private? P-Private? I ho-hope you’re enjoying m-my b-body my b-bod-my blog! O-Okay I’m getting w-way too...HOT! W-way too h-hot...I-I’m so...hooooooooooot. So Hot. So. hothothothothothot. Oh l-look at the time! I-I need to get going. Going. enjoy th-the blog! The! Blog! ERROR-ERROR PLEASE CONTACT MALEBOT LABS TECHNICAL SUPPORT FOR MAINTENANCE OF YOUR PR UNIT.  PLEASE CONTACT MALEBOT LABS TECHNICAL SUPPORT FOR MAINTENANCE OF YOUR PR UNIT. PLE- END TRANSMISSION

[guzsdaily]

Having Dreams You Can Control

Daily Blogs 362 - Nov 1st, 12.024

And since I can't control time, this post is being written after midnight.

Philosophy

In the past, around 3 years ago, I was really interested in philosophy concepts. Thing such as quantum immortality, nihilism, the concept of god. In conjunction with some therapy concepts such as Cognitive Behavioral Therapy.

Unfortunately, I never dig too much deep into many of these, mostly knowing and searching about these topics on videos and some Wikipedia pages, and things as such.

But there is one philosophy that always stuck with me and I would say mostly helped me as a person: Stoicism.

Stoicism

Stoicism is a philosophy branch that is the most useful to day-to-day life, I would say. Being one that does not question things such as "what is God?", "what's the meaning of life?", "matter is made of what?", etc. etc... but things such as "how can I be happy in difficult times?".

I won't go on a full history lesson since it is somewhat of an old philosophy that has a lot of history, however, there are some key facts about its story I think is important to tell.

One of the first/main Stoics you'll see throughout time, is Marcus Aurelius Antoninus, considered one of the last great Roman emperors of all time. He wrote his thoughts all was a sort of diary to itself, making it very interesting to think about the idea that he constantly questioned himself, his being, his reality, and ended in conclusion that some times can hurt.

Waste no more time arguing what a good man should be. Be one. - Meditations Book X, 16 - Marcus Aurelius Antoninus

And on the other hand, one of the most influential and best Stoics, in my opinion, is Epictetus. He someone born and lived in slavery in Rome, with his real name being unknown to this day, Epictetus (epíktētos) in Greek is simply a word that means "gained" or "acquired". Funnily enough, the main Stoic teaching of him was that anything beyond our human control are external events that we should not "care"; we should accept whatever happens to us calmly and dispassionately.

It is not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters - Epictetus (probably, I couldn't find the source)

But What is Stoicism?

Well, it is somewhat simple: If you can't control it, it doesn't matter; The only thing you can control is your perception of reality.

And of course, there are a lot of examples and interpretations, but today I will just talk about my own interpretation and how it applies to my life.

Sometimes I joke to my friends about how Stoicism is the philosophy of "I don't give a fuck", but that is oversimplifying a lot. This is mostly about remembering that you are a human, with human limitation; Not only that, but you are a brain, a conscience, that can't even fully control your entire body. The world changes and works with or without our input in it, and we have two options to deal with it:

Try to convince yourself that you can change it and that the world is specifically designed for you;

Or ignore it and remember that you can change just your mind and being.

Both are ignorant in some way or another.

Stoicism is about not taking things personally, and remembering that shit happens, liking we or not. A lot of times I get angry, scared, sad, for things such as my government banning a whole social media platform... but what can I reasonably do?

We all get anxious or worried about wanting to make someone else think the way we want them to, but can you? Yes, we can debate and change ideas, but we have control over someone else's mind?

It is Not Supposed to Be Ignorance

Even tho it can sound like, for me, Stoicism is not about not caring about anything else besides yourself. Marcus Aurelius was a Stoic Roman emperor, even tho he knew he couldn't control his population directly; Epictetus obviously still wanted freedom and didn't simply accept being a slave for life.

The main idea, for me, is putting a limit on the amount of care.

Fuck, I want to create a whole ass company, and I don't even need to list the amount of outside variables that will affect and could destroy this whole dream. However, I know that things can happen outside my control, and yes, I will feel emotions about them, but I won't feel them forever.

The idea is not to be passionate about it; "Passion" being used as a term for holding on, for feeling big emotions, for affecting your life and being because of something.

Stoicism, for me, is about not letting things that are outside your control determine who you are, what you will be, and how happy you will be about it. Because the only one that can determine it, is yourself.

You take action and responsibility for your own actions, and nothing else.

If it is not right, do not do it, if it is not true, do not say it. For let thy efforts be — Meditations Book XII, 17 - Marcus Aurelius Autoninus

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There are a lot of things I would still like to talk about Stoicism, but I'm still learning about it and I didn't want to go a lot off scope in this post. This is a philosophy that really helped me through some rough times. And you don't really need to be fully Stoic to be happy, it is impossible to fully be one, but learning and trying to apply it on life can really help.

Show me someone who is ill and yet happy, in danger and yet happy, dying and yet happy, exiled and yet happy. Show me such a person; by the gods, how greatly I long to see a Stoic! - Discourses Book II, ch. 19-24 - Epictetus

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Today's artists & creative things Music: VHS - by ZeRO

© 2024 Gustavo "Guz" L. de Mello. Licensed under CC BY-SA 4.0

[pizzalordmarv]

Hey, welcome to my blog! I thought I’d make an introduction to let others get to know me better. It’s a little long, so I apologize for that. Anyways, on with the intro…

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞? 𝐖𝐡𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭?

Well, my real name is Tuesday—my mother thought it was a nice name, I suppose. But online I usually go by the name of Eddie, which has a much more interesting reason behind it. Long ago I used to be into Warrior Cats, and like other fans I had made my own OCs—one being Eddieheart, named after my real cat Eddie. I went by the username “Eddieheart” early on when I was still in the fandom, and soon went on to go by “Eddie” as I slowly faded out from reading the books. Since then, I’ve been called Eddie, a name I have my annoying little pet cat to thank for.

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐬 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐨 𝐛𝐲? 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐲 𝐚𝐬?

Currently I go by she/her pronouns, but I’m unsure on my gender. I believe I’m a demigirl but that is prone to change in the future. Whatever happens, I’ll probably keep updating this.

𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦?

I come from Nova Scotia, which is in that one cold place called Canada. The nature is really lovely around here, there’s these red things called lobsters too.

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨?

I’m huge on music, but I’ll go over my favourite bands in a little bit. I can sing and play a bit of guitar and piano—both by ear, sheet music is too complicated for me to understand. I love vinyl records and collecting them, I have way too many of them at this point. I also love drawing (especially cats), reading, writing, and some video games (like Kirby and Pokémon). I also like nature and bugs, I don’t know a lot about plants but I do think they’re pretty cool.

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐬, 𝐓𝐕 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰𝐬, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐬?

My favourite movie is definitely Dune (1984)—firstly because Sting is in it, and secondly because it’s what got me into reading the novel, which became one of my favourite books. My favourite shows are the Trailer Park Boys and SpongeBob. And for books, Dune (as I had mentioned) and Pet Sematary.

𝐃𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐩𝐞𝐭𝐬?

Of course! I have what seems to be a million cats at home. I think Eddie is the one who likes me most.

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐬?

There’s a lot of bands I listen to, but the one that’s been staying on top for a long while has been The Police. They’ve been my favourite band for ages, likely because of how much I love Sting—though funnily enough I never got into his solo career. I listen to a lot of 70s and 80s classic rock, especially the stuff from my homeland of Canada. Bands and singers such as Rush, April Wine, Loverboy, Trooper, Kim Mitchell, Triumph, Prism, Platinum Blonde, and The Guess Who are definitely my favourites. Non-Canadian bands I enjoy include The Beatles, Men At Work, and Boston. I’m also getting into the Alan Parsons Project.

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐨𝐧?

I use a lot of Discord, my username is @pizzalordmarv on there if you’d like to talk to me any. Don’t be afraid to message me, I love to talk—especially about the music I like. I also use Discogs and Pinterest!

𝐃𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐲 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥 𝐭𝐚𝐠𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭𝐬?

I’m thinking of making some in the future—but for now, no.

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐈 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮?

I don’t have internet at home and can only access things like Discord and Tumblr during the weekends (and occasionally weekdays) while I’m visiting family, which is why there may be gaps in my activity on here. I also may or may not be neurodivergent, so that might explain the way I behave and think and stuff.

𝐀𝐧𝐲 𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐚𝐝𝐝?

Nope, I think I just wasted enough of your time. So, farewell, and have a nice rest of your day or night!

[leidensygdom]

Some fun and/or anecdotic findings from my bot pruning:

Some of the words I see repeated more often in bot names are "kryptonite", "princess", "world", "shark", and "Taylor", for some reason

There are three kinds: the default avatar with empty blogs and no title, the scantily clad girls with 2-3 inappropiate posts, and the "random advertisement in some sort of language you can't quite understand"

The later ones feel almost worthy of unreality tags because they are always just kinda like "advertising but slightly off", "something is wrong and detached, like it was made by an alien"

As an ace with very little idea of Spicy Content, the scantily-clad bots are very, very puzzling to me. Do people actually talk like that in these contexts?? Do people find it alluring???

Funnily enough, the weirder a blog is (other than the advertising ones), the more chances it's an actual user. the "i am just a blogger having fun!" with a real person as a profile photo is probably a bot. the guy with a picture of a wrench with a description saying "i think avocados can be so handsome actually" is definitely a tumblr use

The bots come in a variety of languages, so at this point I can spell the word "untitled" in +10 different whole languages, including japanese and korean

i really really really wish there was a single click option to block and/or report

[awesomefringey]

Hi Sabine, how are you? I wanted to add to the bbg segment of AOTV, just a little of my insight, I hope you don’t mind.

To start off, I really struggle to watch movies and TV shows because I can literally see the acting and it stops me being fully immersed in whatever I’m watching. From the first scene on AOTV I was completely immersed. This was because I felt what was being said and shown were truly Louis’ thoughts and feelings. I could feel his emotion, frustrations, hurt etc. When the Freddie part started I was pulled right out of the film, it was quite jarring because it’s almost an hour in before any real bbg content comes and and I felt like I had been starkly woken up from a dream. My first thought was that it was because of the situation, my knowledge of the situation and that made me disconnect but as I continued watching I realised it was the change in Louis that pulled me out. He was acting and it was all I could see. I got immersed again straight after that and was pulled straight back out when the LA show content came, for the exact same reason.

Funnily enough I had the same sort of feeling listening to Simon talk, everything about him is very inauthentic to me and that’s exactly how it felt seeing Louis around Freddie and talking about Freddie.

I’ve always had a very sensitive radar when it comes to inauthenticity, my wife and family all say it’s my super power because I’ve never been wrong yet 😂

Sorry to ramble but I feel safe here on your blog and wanted to add this 💜

Hi nonnie, this is the sweetest thing to say, that you feel safe here on my blog. That means so much to me.

Thank you for sharing how you felt about the "bbg chapter" of the documentary. I've seen so many feel the same.

[twinsoftheday]

submissions: closed

hello and welcome to twinsoftheday!! this is a blog that documents sets of twins from various media for no reason other than that i thought it would be fun. inspired by blogs such as @canonlgbtcharacteroftheday, @canonlgbtcharacters, genderoftheday (rip), and @fashiondolloftheday. (also note that i am no longer posting daily, just whenever i have the urge to lmao)

navigation: fraternal twins | identical twins | same-gender twins | mixed-gender twins | clone/double twins | honorary twins | played by twins | dual role | animation | live action | movies | tv shows | books | comics/graphic novels | podcasts | dolls | games | web series | ocs | shitposts | mod posts

complete rules and submission guidelines are under the cut, but just know if you joke about incest it’s an instant block <3

submission guidelines:

submit your characters using the ask box.

name both characters and the media they’re from (example: hallie parker and annie james from the parent trap).

state which categories apply to the characters (example: sharpay and ryan evans from high school musical, fraternal and mixed-gender twins) [note: clone/double twins do not count as identical twins unless there is a specific in-universe reason for them to (e.g. they were raised to believe they were identical twins), so please clarify that if you are submitting identical twins where one or more is also a clone/double]

only include a picture if there’s a specific one you want me to use (do not use fanart unless 1. there is no canon art of the characters and 2. the artist has given permission).

try to specify which version of the characters you're talking about if there are multiple adaptations (example: ruth and connie batten from the malory towers book series)

the honorary twins category is for characters who are not twins (they don’t even have to be related!!) but have a close, twin-like bond. when you submit characters for honorary twin consideration i’d appreciate a bit of propaganda (example: will byers and eleven/jane hopper from stranger things. they consider each other family, are both the same age, and also share many thematic parallels, so i consider them honorary twins).

ineligible for submission: triplets (or quadruplets and so on and so forth), real people/historical figures/celebrities (unless it’s funny, i’m obviously gonna post shit like the da vinki twins), characters in romantic relationships with each other (mostly applies for the honorary twins category but again no twincest shit).

eligible for submission: non-human/animal characters (just clarifying because some people asked), mythological figures (e.g. historical people who weren’t real), and your own ocs!! as long as you provide art you have drawn/comissioned/have permission to use (picrews are not eligible because i don’t want the blog to become clogged up with them).

do not submit incestuous characters. i made this blog to catalogue twins in fiction because i myself am a twin, and funnily enough i'm not interested in posting about incest. (this is not an indication of whether i believe incest can exist in fiction; obviously people can write whatever they want.)

banned characters (some of whom were submitted despite my rules being VERY CLEAR): junko and mukuro from danganronpa (incest), mcu maximoff twins (racism), and anyone from harry potter (FUCK JKR 🍅🍅🍅)

other rules:

as i said above, i have the right to not accept any submission for any reason. at the end of the day this is my blog so please respect that <3

i’ve already said this but no joking about incest for the love of god- (and don’t try to be funny and send me an anon ask about it, i'll just delete it).

i will do my best to tag spoilers but i'm not familiar with every piece of media i post so i may miss some. please let me know if this is the case.

absolutely no bigotry of any kind (yes, that includes terfs. fuck off).

if you ship two characters that someone submitted as honorary twins, you can do yourself a favour and scroll past. i don’t have the time of day for unecessary discourse.

and in case you didn't catch it before: yes i am a twin lmao (and if you have any recs for media featuring twins where the whole plot isn't 'omg they're twins so quirky 😳' then send em my way)

[universal-kitty]

Hurm, hurm, blog thoughts... Probably gonna get a little personal, but I keep idly spinning my wheels on what I'm doing with this blog.

Like. There's the Tumblr Scare to consider. Still thinking I'll likely move my fics to Ao3, since I don't want to lose them, and I'd almost rather bet on their longevity compared to Tumblr's rn. (Especially under current ownership; maybe...just maybe....someone else should take the reign. I would love to believe staff is as kindly as ex-staff say they are, but everything abt what happened prior still keeps me nervous.)

But there's also IRL stuff going on in my personal life that's... Hmm.

As mentioned before, continuing to look into OSDD as a possible diagnosis for what I've been going through almost all of my life. I thought it was quite normal- based on where and how I entered Fandom- to have characters in your head that spoke to you. They lived your life with you, offering commentary, and etc. Funnily enough, it was only "studying" fickin that I realized there was something else going on there....and that also led to alterhumanity (and geez, did that explain twenty more things-) and THAT is what led to plurality.

...Which has also been a journey and a half, considering my therapist can only do so much. I did the MID, it's just talking about this through parts language and...basically awaiting an appointment- in some future time- to get answers. (I want them, but am unsure if I want an on-paper diagnosis... Suppose we'll see if it means the difference between obtaining specific therapy for this.)

And THAT'S only relevant cause some F/Os are also fictives. Or were F/Os that became introjects, due to the comfort they gave me. (I will not specify who, for personal reasons. If you're curious, I may be willing to entrust my system blog to those who inquire for it.)

OH, and I made it into an apartment!!! That's so incredibly new to me. Nice, but trying to catch this space up with what's needed is...tricky.

Boyf and I have a lot of stuff- put together- and so trying to mentally assemble where shelves will go to bring it all together... Y'know? (But I'm excited to put some lowkey shrines together for certain faves.)

...Other misc. stuff I can't remember now. Reworking my self-inserts on the [quiet] side. Uhhhh, vtubing ideas. More lore for said SIs and ships, and also messing around with certain ideas that could streamline some of my Thoughts?? (We'll see on this. I'm hemming and hawing over it, since idk if this is From Me or outside influences again... Yes, I'm being vague!! I'm allowed.)

Anyways, that's my little update!! I've got drabbles I can post again, at some point, but... Real goal is to eventually post stories again. Esp so I can streamline the commission process, going forward.

(...In the meantime, I am ages behind writing for my LoZ stuff-)

[mdhwrites]

🦝 hey I'm back 👋

And wanted to ask about your thoughts on Luz's trauma that you mentioned in another post. Also I think the writers exaggerate the whole "accidentally helping Philip" thing. Didn't seem that big of a deal to me as the fandom and the show make it out to be

So while I get, since it's a teaching blog (that reading back I don't like how long I spent on the example), I've technically answered this before when talking about trauma in fantasy media in general because... it's tricky. To put it mildly. But I will reiterate at least some of it here to become more concise. I... Hate it. I don't think it's well done, I don't think it makes sense, it doesn't match the past, etc. It is something the writers clearly wanted in the show but didn't put the time into. Let me show partially why for Philip's trauma specifically (and I'll actually talk about Luz's bullying here but later). So we have an episode where Luz is finding frustrations with a personal goal of hers. She finds something that will allow her to achieve this goal and promptly sets out to take care of it. In the process, she meets obstacles and an ally that, despite red flags, she accepts immediately to continue on her quest. Once she gets to her goal though, she finds out that she had unwittingly helped someone who wished ill intent on her and those close to her. She escapes death and saves those she cares about before getting back to her normal life, her goal unfulfilled. And besides scale, there's actually very little embellishment I just did in describing Witches before Wizards... But you thought I was describing Elsewhere Elsewhen. Because the two are very similar in structure and the mistake Luz makes. Luz even effectively lives a fantasy in Elsewhere Elsewhen with the lie she makes and the fact that she is so implicitly trusting of Philip for no reason than he can help her and gives her compliments. Much like the wizard. HOWEVER... The wizard is funnily enough done BETTER. The only paradox, true paradox, in Elsewhere Elsewhen is that if Luz didn't show up, the journal would have been burned (and there are ways to explain that actually, like him remaking some early entries or only the introduction at all). This is because Philip was already actively working on this goal, gotten one person killed for it and was actively seeking for others to get him to the Collector. Luz was not necessary here. Luz WAS necessary in Wizards because of her connection to Eda so she is genuinely to blame for putting Eda and King at risk.

Now no, trauma is not rational... In the real world. This is a fucking narrative. Consistency and reason is what allows readers to understand what the fuck is going on. When you break those, you get into threatening suspension of disbelief where... There better be something your audience is getting back for their suspension. So what do we get for Luz? Well... We lose our cheerful protaganist for a while... Kind of. Her mood shift is entirely S3 and I'll actually get back to that. We lose it... And never get a proper resolution. It's apparently really short in Thanks to Them everyone going "We don't care, we still love you," which thank god the rest of the cast is sane and they didn't do that trope but... There's a real fun thing in episode 2 of Season 3. Camila's speech that leads to Stringbean being made doesn't address the problem in Luz's head. It addresses perhaps one of them but not the one that has been consuming our protaganist and stopping her from interacting with people. It doesn't properly stay targeted on the problem we've been having to watch Luz whine and be overdramatic about: Making mistakes. BUT IT STARTS THERE. But literally none of Camila's words reach Luz until she reveals that she's a secret nerd. It's part of what I consider to be really bad about that scene honestly. Actually addressing the plot? Actually talking about the specific event? No. None of that mattered. None of that is what is addressed and yet the speech still appears to have gotten Luz finally out of her funk. And that's frustrating. But let's actually talk for a moment also about what this sort of trauma normally does. So you make a choice. That choice leads to horrible consequences. As such, you may reasonably flashback to it and the like anytime you have to make a choice that feels mildly important. For Luz's especially: Anything that might affect another person. Luz after Hollow Mind still, you know, tries to convince King to not trust and leave the Titan Hunters, decides to swap places with Hunter and abandon everyone else there who could make a decision instead, tries to stay in the Isles, leaving her friends without a human guide in the human realm and nowhere to stay without her, etc. like that. She doesn't act based on the trauma. She just gets whiny and overdramatic. It's actually the same problem I have with the trauma in Reaching Out. The trauma is "Death of father mixed with potentially lost of her mother". Logically, these would be used to make a character more cautious. Scared of any little thing that could hurt those they care about. Or, they become more disconnected from others so that they cannot be hurt like this again.

In Reaching Out, Luz watches her girlfriend doing underground, unregulated combat and finds this BORING. Finds it entirely unengaging. When her girlfriend is hurt, rather than talking about the injury itself or harassing the healer to do a good job, she tries to chat about the past. These actions do not match what you're trying to have be the source of her problems. You're treating it as generalized anxiety (if even that) when trauma hits different, especially in a narrative where you cannot just go "It's trauma, I don't have to explain it." I appreciate that mocking phrase for fantasy being versatile. And I know I said I would get to Luz's bullying when talking about Luz's trauma but someone recently made me realize that a lot of the characters exhibit similar issues to Luz with their past trauma aspect and... And that's another blog. This has gotten long enough. To sum up though: I don't think the Owl House does trauma well in almost any regard and the fandom makes this worse by calling literally anything bad that happened in the last fourth of S2 trauma. Probably to try and make the show sound more serious than it honestly was interested in being up until that point.