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that-one-anxious-mango · 2 years ago

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Summary : What happens when all the secrets start to tumble out and the truth about many things starts to unravel...including people.

Contents: BIG OLE JUICY ANGST. I mean this is what some of you all wanted. But caution this installment includes the following: DRAMA! Allusions to and discussions of abortion. Arguing between friends. Accusations. Tension. Allusions to rough childhood upbringing. Hospital setting. Cursing. Protective/Anger Austin!

Please read with caution.

A/N: Hello Beautiful Humans! I hope you're all well. Here it is. The Second installment. I hope you enjoy it. Just a reminder next installment (3) will be the finale. Thanks so much for the love and reading!

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Taglist: @wacoshuffle, @purejasmine

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“ And do you remember what it was like when you stepped into the studio for the first time to work with Baz and the crew? What that moment was like when you realized what you were about to fully do? " The interviewer asked Austin.

Austin nodded offering a somber smile as he tried to grasp his words, " Of course. Yeah..it was..ummm..."

He'd been asked this question before probably fifty thousand times and usually answered it with ease, but today the thoughts weren't coming together.

Instead his mind was somewhere else, his mind was with you.

All night long last night Austin had tossed and turned thinking about not having you in his arms, and the look of hurt replaying in his brain over and over. He wanted nothing more than to get up and go down the hall to your bedroom to scoop you up and love on you until you let him fix all your problems.

But knew he couldn't because he needed the boundary.

He needed you to know he was serious.

For the rest of the interview he politely muddled through it while giving his best efforts and little attention.

Once they wrapped he thanked the interviewer and staff before making his way off the soundstage.

As he approached his awaiting team, Austin couldn't help but notice the grave looks on their faces they were doing their best to try and hide.

Kate, his publicist looked extremely antsy and nervous, while James, his agent stood beside her with a monotone expression holding Austin's cellphone.

" What's going on? " He asked looking between them. " Aus. You need to take this." His agent stuck his hand out with the phone.

Immediately Austin could feel his heart sink to the floor and anguish walk over him.

" Is everything alright? " He asked hoping to God nothing serious had occurred. " Who is this? "

" Can't say. Just take the phone." The man beckoned.

Skeptically accepting the device, he pressed it to his ear and took a deep breath before speaking, " Hello? "

As soon as he heard the voice on the other end his scrunched in uneasiness, " Grace? Whoa--Hey! What's the matter? "He tried listening to your sister go on a mile a minute until he stopped her dead in her tracks when she revealed your whereabouts.

" SHE WHAT? "

———-

Upon arrival to the hospital you'd been admitted to the OB fifth floor and Alana had made the rounds calling everyone she could think important to call, which included Alex, Phoebe, Beatrice, and your co-worker, Tia, who she knew you were good friends with.

She left the family calling to Grace whom she'd talked to on the ambulance ride.

Phoebe then called your uncle in Texas, uncle in London, and grandmother who was traveling in her retirement.

But amongst those calls Alana made, still Austin's name wasn't included. When Grace asked if Austin had been called Alana told her that in the ' heat of the moment ' she'd forgotten.

Grace then volunteered to do it leaving Alana's hands clean.

After they all were informed Phoebe was the first to show with her kid sister, Sprite, in tow who was visiting for the week on a school break.

Soon after followed Alex who came in looking distraught as she had just fought her way through bounds of LA traffic to get there as fast as she could have from set.

And Beatrice also came in with her husband, Santiago, as they both apologized for the wait citing how they would have been there sooner but had to frantically find a sitter to take their youngest who was out of school.

Avery had also called Alana and let her know that she'd been caught in afternoon traffic on the freeway and would get there as soon as possible.

All together asking a thousand and one questions, they hadn't been the least bit calm until one of the nurses had come over to assure the group that while you were stable, none of them would be allowed to see you until the doctor okayed it.

Calling Grace back when a nurse questioned who was the physical next of kin, it was revealed that she had already been in contact with the hospital staff and the person who was granted power of physical next of kin, was Phoebe.

Eagerly waiting to get a update they all sat praying and hoping for your well being until the doctor would come to notify them with a update.

Fifteen minutes later...

They could hear him before they seen him, Austin had practically came barreling into the open area of the fifth floor OBGYN sector with members of his team behind him.

He looked completely disheveled with his shirt wrinkled, suit jacket half off, hair moussed like he'd been running his fingers through it every five seconds, and his face were wide and extremely alert as they zipped from place to place in panic.

He went first to the nurses' station to try and gather information, although everything he said came out fast and jumbled.

But while he still looked around in a fearful daze, he then spotted the group nearby and by passed the check in nurse at the desk, to charge toward them and immediately go into question.

" What the hell happened? How is she? Where is she? I-is she okay? " Austin moved to try and walk down the hall toward the rooms determined to search each one until he found you, but was stopped gently by Phoebe's hand.

" Aus wait. It's the room three doors down, but we can't go in there right now. The doctor just went in and they're running some tests. We don't know much because they wouldn't tell us really but what we do know is she is stable so they say." She looking at him empathetically.

Austin just shook his head not understanding, " What do you mean ' so they say ' ? And why wasn't I called AS SOON as this happened? Who was all there with her? " She just collapsed? " He threw out looking around at the group.

Before anyone could answer him, their heads whirled around at the sound of the room door opening and closing.

Seconds later they could see a nurse exit followed by a doctor who began walking over to the group, " Is this the family of Y/N L/N? " She asked when she stood in-front of them.

A multitude of keen yeses could be heard, " Wonderful, now if there anyone here that is next of kin, or a supp-"

" She's my wife." Austin cut her off. Nodding the doctor was about to continue but heard a voice speak.

" He's the fiancée. And Phoebe is technically the appointed next of kin as we've been made aware." Alana could be heard correcting from the back.

All turning to look at her, some in disbelief and others in distain, still the doctor continued, " Well I can say she is still stable. But I can only go into detail with whoever is appointed next of kin and I also can only allow this person in the room for visitation right now." She informed.

" Austin should see her first." Phoebe spoke up, " He's her fiancée and her family, so I consent to him going in the room but once you're done all I ask is for you to come update us as well. We're her family too. " She decided giving the go head.

Turning his gaze to Phoebe who nodded in encouragement, Austin in return mouthed a 'thank you' and then brought his attention back to the doctor.

" Hi I'm Dr. Mackenzie Floyd, I'm the head of the OBYGN department here at Emory Moss. " The doctor informed reaching out to shake hands with Austin who in return offered his extremely clammy and shaking hand.

" I'm Austin. The husband." Austin introduced himself while making sure to put a extra emphasis on his last words so Alana could hear.

" Nice to meet you. I'm sure you're eager for an update on your wife and would like to see her, so why don't you follow me. " Floyd motioned.

The two them set off to your room leaving behind the group who'd begun to chatter.

When inside, as soon as he saw you lying there, all the air in his lungs seemed to leave all at once and his hands began to feel ice cold against themselves.

You looked like you were sleeping.

Finally relaxed and not so uptight and tired like you'd been.

And while he was glad you were resting, he still couldn't shake the aching need to want to see your eyes pour into his.

" So just give it to me, doc. How's she doing? " Austin asked still not taking his eyes off you.

With a sigh Dr. Floyd began, " Well Mr. Butler it seems that your wife's collapse was the result of a significant drop in her blood sugar and pressure. When she came in her vitals showed that she was a tad bit under nourished for our liking so we've put her on a standard saline trip as well as fluids. Her weight is also lower than the standard at this stage so that's something else we'd like to work on. We suspect she hasn't been eating or hydrating the way she should. " She revealed.

" Overall she also seems to be quite tired. Has she been sleeping at night at all?" Dr. Floyd asked.

Austin thought back to the late nights in your office you'd been pulling and the tossing and turning he could feel come from you during the night.

" As of recently, not much. Usually she is a stickler about her sleep and tries to get a strict nine hours a night. But that hasn't been the case as of late." Austin confirmed. Dr. Floyd, " I understand. That's not unusual though at this stage. Many women experience some form of insomnia early on and it can be an adjustment. But just to be safe we'll give you guys some options of what you can do at home to combat this." She finished taking down some notes.

Austin nodded still not fully understanding what she was getting at.

This stage? Early on?

Still he was trying to wait until he felt she was finished to ask questions.

" But on a happier note, we've a extensive amount of tests and the baby's vitals are strong. Placenta looks healthy. There's thankfully no signs of trauma or malnourishment. They seem to be hitting all their markers right on schedule." Dr. Floyd informed knocking the wind out of Austin.

Hold on.

Baby? What BABY?

Grace on the phone nor anyone else hadn't mentioned anything about a baby. So what was truly going on here.

" I'm sorry Dr. Floyd. " Austin put his hand over his duly aching head as he tried to process the information that had just so casually been given to him, " Forgive me, but did you say a b-baby? As in my wife is pregnant? "

Dr. Floyd cautiously motioned for a nurse via the window to step into the room to check on Austin who'd gone a bit stiff as a board.

She carefully went on, " Why yes, Mr. Butler. Your wife is in fact nine weeks pregnant. My apologies I thought you knew. One of the friends disclosed the information to EMTs in the ambulance on the way here."

At the sound of her last sentence like a switch had been hit, Austin's head snapped up and he became all too alert now with a twisted expression of fury and chariness being displayed.

It was like he could feel his entire body be stricken tense as he forced himself to ask, " Do you by chance know which one of them that would be? "

—- When Austin entered the new private waiting room the group had been moved to, they had all been too quick to jump up and toward him to form an unintentional circle around the man.

As he looked around at his fiancée's friends he was doing his best to keep his composure.

Never had he ever had any real problems with these people, he knew how much your friends meant to you so ever since they'd all been introduced he'd done his best to at least get to know them all and be cordial. Go to parties, be polite at hangouts, bite his tongue on occasion.

And sure him and Alana had had a couple of tiffs here and there, but nothing the two hadn't been able to uncomfortably fake a laugh about and keep their distance after.

So that's why it was mind boggling to him that after hearing from the doctor herself that Alana knew about your pregnancy this whole time, it was shocking that she'd stooped so low to make the decisions she'd had of keeping it a secret and icing him out.

Breaking Austin's thought process Alex was the first to speak up, " Well..how is she? Is she okay? Lord knows we've been praying." The look she carried was one of pure concern, like her face wouldn't physically be able to rest until she heard the news.

Looking around he could see that her sentiments were shared as everyone also looked on anxiously wanting to hear, " She's okay." Austin spoke followed by a harmony of sighs and deep breaths released , " Doctor said that she'll be on bed rest for the next couple days since they want her to replenish her energy with sleep and meals. She was dehydrated and tired. Thank god she didn't get to hit her head. I'll have to just watch her closely is all at home, but she'll be okay." He explained taking in the relieved facial expressions of everyone, everyone but Alana who instead held a hard look to herself while the two participated in a unsanctioned staring contest.

Austin knew he should have taken the high road and privately addressed the woman, and any other time he truly would have.

Ya' know, acted like the gentlemen his parents raised him to be.

But alas something dark and petty took over him when he seen the look on Alana's face. Anger and resentment pooled through his being. These feelings prompted his next choice, " And as for the baby.." Austin purposefully dragged out.

As if everyone had suddenly been cast in a stop motion picture, all movement ceased and heads all snapped in his direction at a eerily slow pace. Faces of shock and confusion were everywhere.

Beatrice's knees seemed to buck underneath her and Santiago with the help of Phoebe ushered the startled woman into a seat. While Alex looked on rapidly blinking like she'd been punked.

Alex's voice rose above the silence, " Austin. What do you mean as for the baby. Are you trying to tell us that, Y/N. I-is pregnant? "

He ran a hand across his mouth as he could feel himself getting upset, " She indeed is. She's about nine weeks along. Baby is healthy though, thank god." He confirmed, voice still hard. "

In shock Beatrice shook her head not being able to wrap her mind around what was occurring as everyone did the same, " No. no. no. That can't be, right. Austin that can't be right. I mean we would know. She would have told us. Are you sure?" She tried reasoning looking all around the room.

Austin nodded. From their reactions he knew that Alex, Phoebe, and Beatrice couldn't have know. As a actor he also recognized their reactions were too raw. And if Bea didn't know Santiago surely didn't, plus Sprite was only a kid who didn't even live here which knocked her off the board of thought about who knew.

" Well, Bea. That's the same thing I thought until the words came out the doctor's mouth herself. Only thing is she didn't find out from any of the tests. She said that one of Y/N's friends informed the paramedics that she was pregnant in the ambulance." He revealed.

Puzzlement spread across the room on every face but one.

Immediately Phoebe who'd been quiet while trying to process spoke up, " Well that can't be true because none of us knew." She looked around the room at all of her friends hoping that not a soul had kept something like this to themselves. " Right, ya'll? "

" No it is true." He started, " Isn't it Alana." Austin spoke turning his attention to the woman who'd been quiet the entire encounter. To him she'd always had this holier than most attitude about her, but right now she wouldn't get that right with him.

And it rang true, as she held a look of complete casualness to her face. " You were one that told the EMTs that Y/N was pregnant aren't you? I mean it couldn't have been Avery because before I came in here I ran into her. She didn't know anything and she wasn't in the ambulance. In fact she was shocked. Even though she tried to follow the ambulance she got caught in traffic on the way here. After we spoke I told her she could go home and I'd keep her updated. "He revealed.

All eyes were on Alana now, six pairs keen on her.

But still she wasn't going to let anyone see her sweat. Instead she just keep her cool. " I was." She simply stated.

" Lana you knew? " Beatrice's eyes bucked thinking about how a few days ago she'd sat through a whole dinner with Alana and she hadn't said a word. " And you didn't think to say anything?"

" Yes, Beatrice I knew. I was there when she took the test." She stated matter of factly.

A bitter chuckle emerged from Austin, " Of course you were. Isn't that rich." He continued laughing and clapping to himself, taking a seat while everyone looked on in bewilderment.

" Alana when the fuck was this? " Alex questioned flabbergasted and needing to know how long had this been going on. How long had they all been kept in the dark.

Groaning she started, " About three weeks ago when I came to drop off the final details for the Pace book-tour to her/ She'd opened the door and looked like she'd been crying. I mean a downright mess. " She recalled.

" After practically prying it out of her she confessed to me that she'd been upstairs in the bathroom trying to build the nerve to take some pregnancy tests. Said she hadn't been feeling well and that Aunt Flo had been MIA. After she calmed down I offered to stay with her while she took them and the whole time we waited all she did was worry and cry about how scared she was about the whole thing and how this hadn't been in the plans yet." She explained.

Austin recognized the day she was talking about. He'd been out reading some material for Masters of Air and when he'd gotten home that night you'd already been in bed asleep, and weirdly enough it was also the night that you stop letting him hold you.

" After all the tests came back brightly positive I could barely get her to stop panicking. It was horrible. It took about a hour before she partially stopped. She made me promise on my life I wouldn't tell anyone. She felt like she didn't wanna ' inconvenience those around her ' is what she said. From there she worried about what she should do, and I let her know that she had a number of different possibilities to explore. The end." She concluded folding her arms against her chest.

" So that's it. You just agreed with it and encouraged her to go through it all alone." Phoebe scoffed, " Knowing that I- we would have all wanted to be there for her." She corrected herself quickly knowing her emotions were ab out to get the best of her.

" It was her choice, Phoebe. And she wasn't alone. I helped and talked to her often enough. All she ever did was worry about the type of mother she would be and how she was going to raise a child at this point in her life. I did all I could to console her." Alana challenged.

" And how much of it was actually comfort and encouragement rather than added confusion." Alex icily shot out.

" Hey! I encouraged her to do what was best for her. I encouraged her to explore all her options without the interference from others ." Alana seethed.

" Wait? What do you mean encouraged her to explore all her options? What options? " Austin questioned standing up from his seat. His face was stone cold. " What does that mean? "

Again all eyes shifted to Alana.

Still unwavering Alana repeated, " Like I said. I encouraged her to explore all her options. She needed to know that her life didn't have to change if she didn't want it to. Especially if it's not something she really wanted it. I mean why should she have to put a possible end to her career and fall behind in life for something she wasn't a hundred percent sure she wanted. At one point she asked my opinion and I told what I thought would be best. " She shrugged still maintaining her eye contact with Austin.

" Which was? " Alex beckoned her on. " What did you say? "

It was no secret that Alana had no desire to have children whatsoever. In fact the only children she truly tolerated was her friends.

Her most famous line was, " I detest anything that crawls. Bugs, most animals, and most of all, children. Wastes of time and resources."

She believed parenthood was obsolete task.

Tearily looking to the ceiling in distress Beatrice said, " Alana you don't mean you had her consider..." She brought her eyes to search Alana's face for her to dispel what she thought may be true.

But still Alana remained silent. And the silence was almost deafening.

" Alana...look me in my face and tell me you didn't try and tell her that having an abortion was her real best option...say you didn't do that without getting her the proper mental help she needed to make a decision like that.. say it isn't true." Phoebe interrogated with the rest of the weighing silence of the room.

Locking eyes with a teary eyed Phoebe, Alana figured with her being Y/N's best friend and all. She was the only one she felt needed a explanation.

" Yeah I did. It's her body so she should have taken in to account all her choices across the board. Plus she wasn't sure she wanted to be mother. Why go through nine months of uncertainty. Why take such a huge gamble." She confirmed.

At the confession the whole room feel into a chorus of reactions.

Santiago comforted a now crying Beatrice. Phoebe took her leave of absence since she could feel herself getting to a point of unreasonable anger. And Austin had begun slowly pacing the corner of the room while doing his best to piece together what he just heard.

" Oh my god." Alex whispered moving across to the other side of the room. " Oh my god. " She spoke louder. " OH MY GOD." She yelled before turning to Alana. " HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO HER. HOW COULD YOU PROJECT YOUR OWN SHIT ON HER LIKE. THAT." She yelled.

Face twisting in offence she returned the energy, " IT'S HER BODY AND IT'S HER CHOICE." Alana shouted.

" OF FUCKING COURSE IT IS. IT'LL ALWAYS BE HER CHOICE. BUT SHE ALSO WASN'T OBVIOUSLY IN THE RIGHT STATE OF MIND TO TRY AND BE MAKING DECSISIONS LIKE THAT WITHOUT SOME FORM OF HELP OR GUIDANCE. GUIDANCE YOUR BIAS ASS WASN'T GIVING HER! WHY WOULDN'T YOU TELL US SO WE COULD HAVE HELPED?" Alex questioned.

" I WAS GUIDING HER." ALANA screamed, " GUIDING HER TO SEE HER FULL POTENTIAL! YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN HOW TORE UP SHE WAS. HOW SCARED AND MEEK SHE LOOKED. SHE DIDN'T WANNA TELL ANYONE ELSE. WHAT WAS I SUPPOSE TO DO. IT WAS A SECRET."

" YEAH BUT YOU OUT OF ALL OF US SHOULD VERY WELL KNOW HOW SOMETIMES IN A FRIENDSHIP, THE WELL BEING OF THE OTHER PERSON TRUMPS KEEPING A FUCKING SECERT. AND HOW DO YOU KNOW THIS BABY ISN'T HER DREAM! " Alex shot back.

" I KNOW THAT BEING JUNIOR EDITOR IS ONE OF HER DREAMS. AND TODAY SHE TALKED ABOUT THROWING IT ALL AWAY ON A UNSURE GAMBLE IN LIFE. I ENCOURAGED HER TO DO RIGHT BY HERSELF ABOVE ALL ELSE."

" No what you encouraged her to do was not only keep us her family in the dark but more importantly her fiancée because of whatever reason you gave." Beatrice spoke up amongst the yelling. As a mother she felt a certain cord struck inside her at Alana's comments, " And what the fuck would you know about motherhood. Yeah it may be a unsure gamble, but it's the biggest win I've ever gotten out of life. But you wouldn't ever consider seeing it that way because your obsession with wanting to be successful enough to prove people wrong in your life has projected on to others. And i-t's toxic." She finished honestly.

At this Alana felt some of her wind be taken from her. Never had she heard Beatrice speak to someone this way, let alone her. So it not only took her by surprise but to her dismay, it stung.

" I agree. " Spoke Alex calmer now, " I mean did you even stop and consider her life with Austin in all of this?

Holding back tears of her own to look at Austin who remained silent she shifted her gaze back to Alex, " Who gives a fuck about that. ITS HER LIFE. HERS. Everything isn't always about him. And that's exactly why I advised her not to say anything to him until she made a solid fucking decision so he couldn't influence her as always."

Alex and everyone else watched in horror as Austin's head immediately snapped into Alana's direction, but before anyone could intervene his voice carried, " You. " He seethed, " Had ABSOLUTELY no fucking right to try and decide what my wife should and shouldn't be telling me. NO RIGHT! " He expressed pointing a accusatory finger. The tone in his voice made Beatrice and Alex both flinch.

They had never seen Austin the slightest bit upset really, let alone livid. So this was a whole new side of him to see.

But he couldn't help it. Where the fuck did she get off on saying something like that to the love of his life.

Alana's neck curled around to look at Austin shooting him a glance that could out anyone six feet under, " She's not fucking your wife. And she surely isn't your child or someone whose life you can dictate! She has dreams and goals! A-and values! But she's about to throw all of that away! FOR YOU! " She hissed taking strides closer to Austin. " Just because you spent the better part of your last decade long relationship constantly wishing that you'd been with a more housewife material girl. Doesn't mean that you can turn my friend into your little housewife to clean, cook, and shoot all your babies out whenever you so please." Alana raged.

Beatrice swallowed the sizably growing lump in her throat before cautiously motioning Sprite to and grab a security guard and Santiago to go stand in-between the two. Because she could tell this was not about to go well! She was actually surprised no one had been called already.

She knew Austin could contain himself, it was Alana she was cautious about.

Alex shared the same sentiments as Beatrice, especially because she could practically feel the heat radiating from Austin but still she knew better than to intervene.

Austin's voice became eerily low, " That woman has been my wife since the moment I slipped that damn ring on her finger. To hell with the legality of it!" He paused, " I support, love, and encourage Y/N in everything that she wants to do with every fiber of my being! EVERY-FUCKING THING! So for you to stand here in some self righteous ass pride and accuse me of trying to turn her into some type of " housewife " is fucking ridiculous. Especially when your so called advice damned near almost killed her!"

Santiago tried his best to diffuse, " Hey guys c'mon I think that's enoug-" but his efforts fell silent on their ears.

" But aren't you though. " A sharp laugh escaped Alana, " The Y/N I knew wouldn't have even considered giving up the opportunity to be Junior editor. There's no way. Not after all the work she's put in. So the only fathomable reason there remotely is has to do with YOU! You and your needs and your wants for someone to hold your hand and support you!"

Throwing his head back in anguish as he tried to control himself he went to look at her again with eyes that practically radiated distain, " You know what, Alana. What the fuck is your problem? I mean really what the fuck is the issue because as quiet as its kept you never really liked me in the first fucking place. Which that's fine. I didn't care as long as Y/N was happy, I could tolerate your little slick comments and glares whenever I was around or even brush aside that fact that you once tried to advise her to break up with me in the beginning of our relationship when we were having problems because I know friends always try to do right by each..I guess. " Austin explained.

" But today...I'm not doing this anymore. I need to know what the fuck is your issue! Can you not stand to see her happy that bad? Are you that fucking miserable in your own life that you need someone to wallow with you. Because I'll be damned if I let it be her. " He finished.

Stunned at his outburst the room remained silent expect for Alana who was fuming as tears raced down her face, " Wanna know what my problem is Austin! Like I haven't said it a thousand and one fucking times already! My problem is that you're a distraction and your holding her back from her potential! The success that would truly make her happy! That girl has the opportunity to be excellent and excel in a field not too many people like us get to be in. But she's about to throw it all the way to be some pathetic dull little stay at home housewife without a life for you!"

As soon as the last part left her mouth Alana was filled with instant regret.

Immediately all eyes surged to Beatrice who was in fact a stay at home mother and wife, but was not dull or pathetic in any way.

She had tears in her eyes and a look of hurt on her face that couldn't be described by any words, " So is that what you think of me, Lana? Huh? That I'm dull and that I don't have a life? Pathetic? " Beatrice questioned through rolling tears.

" Baby..." Santiago immediately reached for his wife.

Alana wasn't able to get a word out to Beatrice as Santiago ushered the poor woman out of the room as she had begun to sob.

Leaving Alex alone in the room with the two where everything had been spilled, she spoke freely, " Shame on you for saying that." She said with venom behind her words looking to Alana. Before turning to Austin, " And you need to step outside and gather yourself." She pointed.

Before either of them could form a rebuttal one of the hospital security guards had finally come to intervene and diffuse the situation, " Alright folks I get this is a very tense time and subject for everyone but if we could, why don't we just take it down some notches and go our separate ways to cool off for a bit.

Looking around at everyone Austin felt his chest heaving in anger and confusion. Deciding Alex was right and he was best to leave, he exited going to find a place to talk to someone who he knew could help him see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Leaning against the outside of the building the sound of the dialing tone rang in Austin's ear until he was graced with a voice, " Hello."

" Ash. It's me...you got a minute? "

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After having a conversation with his sister who'd come and sat with her baby brother for what seemed like hours. All Austin did after she and everyone else had left was sit and just look at you.

The love of his life and one of the only things that truly mattered to him.

He'd been in love before sure, but for the life of him he couldn't understand how he could love someone so much the way he did you. Because looking at you laid up in a hospital bedlike this was physically making him ill.

He couldn't have imagined what he'd had done if something had been seriously wrong or worse. And he didn't want to either...because the sheer thought was almost too much to bear.

His ponders were interrupted when he heard a faint knock come onto the door-seal.

Looking he could see Phoebe in the doorway with a apologetic smile, " Hey."

" Hey. Phoebe." He responded offering what he could of a content face.

" You got a minute? "

" Of course. Yeah let's do it."

Looking to you once more Austin got up moving to follow her to the hallway.

Once they were both outside Phoebe went to speak but Austin stopped her.

" Please don't." He sighed, "Don't apologize because it isn't your fault. You couldn't have known either." He stated.

At his declaration Phoebe turned to look away at the feeling of dampness hitting her eyelids, she hated crying infront of people, " I'm her best-friend, Austin. I should have seen. I should have noticed. I mean I knew something was off but I just thought it was the normal seasonal depression we all go through. And weren't wasn't exactly around each other as much since we were both busy..but still how did I miss this. Did I let this fall to the back burner? She' s my little sister." She questioned herself.

And it was true. The relationship you and Phoebe had went way beyond the bounds of friendship...you shared a sisterhood.

Nodding Austin understood her frustration, " How could you miss this, huh? I guess maybe the same her fiancée who wakes up and goes to sleep with her almost every night did, Phoebe. It happened. Don't know how her little crafty ass did it it..but she did." " He said letting the realization set in.

Smirking Phoebe laughed, " I'm just dumb founded that she was able to keep up this charade from us all for almost a month..a whole month. Sneaky little...OUU." Phoebe hit her hands together, they both laughed.

" Well not everyone it seems." Austin sighed referring to Alana and his blowout.

She nodded, " Yeah about that." She looked to him, " I'm super sorry you had to go through that. I can't imagine what all of this had to be like. Finding this all out at once and then having her say those things to you..it wasn't right. And I know I can't apologize for her but still...I'm sorry she acted that way." She says really giving him her most genuine empathy. " And I talked to Grace. She didn't know Y/N was pregnant either. Alana didn't even say anything to Grace about it, she had to find out through the phone convo with the nurse. She's pissed."

" She has every right to be. And you're right you can't apologize for her. But Phoebe be honest with me. " He shakily started, " Do all of you feel that way. Like I'm keeping her from her goals or I'm not good for her? " He asked knowing that if he got the dreaded answer he was prepared to do the unthinkable..and set you free if he was holding you back.

Without the slightest hesitation she went, " Absolutely not. No. Never. " She responded shaking her head, " If that were the case we wouldn't have even let you take our bestie out in the first place, trust me." Phoebe alerted. " If anything we feel the opposite. We see that you make her the happiest we've EVER seen her and she adores you just as much as you adore her. You're both disgustingly cute I admit and that's great because we support you two." She set the record straight.

Feeling a brick taken off what he felt like was the weight of the world on his shoulders, Austin nodded, " Thank you for that...but do you think she feels the same way about the baby...happy? " He asked.

Since you weren't awake and he couldn't ask you himself. Austin felt his need to prepare himself for what could happen..what decision you could make. He needed to know how to support you.

With Phoebe being your best-friend of so long he knew that this was as close of a look into your mind as she was going to get right now.

Acknowledging the look of desperation and fear on his face Phoebe started, " Truthfully after what Alana may have said I don't know." She spoke, " But before that what I can say is that whenever we joked around about the two of you having little curly haired chunkers tumbling around she always was so giddy about it. Smiling from ear to ear and shit." She informed making the embers of hope in Austin warm.

" But the one time we had a serious convo about right before the engagement she seemed open and fond of the idea..but in the same breath nervous and scared. And you know why I'm sure." She referenced to your abnormal upbringing.

" I do." He nodded taking in what she said.

Sighing Phoebe grabbed his shoulder, " I don't know. Honest. But not matter what just stick with her. She needs you..alot more than she may let on." Phoebe said.

Smiling small he responded, " Always. Because I need her too..a hell of a lot more than I let on."

#austin butler x black reader #austin butler imagine #austin butler #daysofourlove #angst #themangowrites #austin butler x reader #austin butler fanfic #austin butler fic

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spyridonya · 4 months ago

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OMG I AM SO CURIOUS!!!

Kadee:

Greed 10, Wrath 5, Lust 4

Zo:

Wrath 1, Envy 1 😳, Lust 5 🤭

seven deadly sins headcanon

thank you for sending this, teddy! all of this is is safe for innocent new wotr players!

Kadira

Greed 10) Would your muse steal anything?

As a child, this was less to do with morals and she knowing that she stuck out like a sore thumb. It would be incredibly hard to get anything when you're bright red and everyone around you is not. As she grows older, there's a moral complexity to how she views stealing. There are a lot of desperate people out there and she herself isn't above in stealing something if it will help the Crusade and the person she steals from has the resources to survive. She's also forgiving for that with others. She's not not keen on people who steal for fun - which is honestly a rarity. Even organizational crime is based on the concept that the government will not protect or provide for it's weakest links.

Wrath 5) What, if anything, provokes your muse to violence

I don't want to go into too many spoilers, but those who worship Shelyn attempt to avoid violence and try to defend. For the most part, Kadira follows this and if asked for another chance, she will not resort to violence.

However, there are times when dealing with demons and cultists that Kadira is moved to fury, notably so towards the end of the game when it comes to those she cares about.

Lust 4) What sex-related words turn your muse on? what words make them cringe?

Kadira doesn't have words that will turn her on quickly in an independent context. 'Play' registers as nothing until she hears the tone of it and the voice quality. Most sensual words, conventional dirty words like 'cock, pussy', and praise melts Kadira into a puddle of goo and encourages her to do or endure so much.

However, there are so many words that will make her cringe and turn her drier than the Gobi. Moist, regardless fo tone, will make her cringe during a sexual context. Most childish terms used in a attempt to be serious-sexy is a turn off for her. Childish terms in means of being playful/funny and sexy has a lot more leeway.

Zophus

Wrath 1) does your muse like to get revenge on those they feel have wronged them?

The demon that destroyed his home and killed his mother in an arson fire is still unknown to Zophus. He's looked, he's looked so hard. That was the reason why he became a Planeswalker for the Harmounium, he wanted to get the knowledge and possibly find the demon who ruined everything. He hasn't found them yet, and he doesn't know how to truly get his revenge.

Envy 1) does your muse get jealous easily, or does it take a lot for them to feel it?

While he doesn't get jealous over titles or material things, Zophus quietly suffers his jealousy in regars to romance. It's not the only reason why he doesn't try to get into long term relationships, but is a factor of some importance. The best way he deals with this, notably in a polyam situation, is putting himself in the 'Secondary' mentality.

Lust 5) does your muse masturbate? if so, how often, and how do they get themselves off? if not, why not?

He masturbates, though the habit is dictated to his environment. He didn't masturbate often when he was in the Barracks in Sigil, because it was communal living. When the urge got him, Zophus had to find a secret place to relieve himself and had little pleasure out of it. While traveling, Zophus engages with masturbation far more often from several times to daily, because he doesn't have to hide it and he can be as sensual to himself as he wants. During his time on the road with the tadpole, he rarely masturbated due to stress and slightly fearing people would read his mind.

#headcanon: kadira #headcanon: zophus #zophus #character: knight commander kadira #answered ask

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casspurrjoybell-33 · 10 months ago

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Wreckless - Getting settled

*Warning Adult Content*

Emmett

The chicken is cooked well and still juicy and even if it weren't, the amount of salad dressing that Finnegan dumped on his salad would have hidden it.

I tell myself that he's still getting all the nutrients and fiber from the salad which is what really matters.

I'm definitely going to need to buy more dressing.

Something has been floating around in the back of my head all through dinner and I finally realize what it is.

"I think Andy has an extra desk. I'll have him send over a picture and you can decide if it'll work for you or not."

"I can just buy one and get it delivered," he says as if it's not a concern.

I will never get used to him having so much money.

Furniture is expensive.

"Or we can save some trees and cash and have it here tonight and get you settled."

I'm already texting Andy.

"Do either of you have a steamer? My suits are probably a rumbled mess by now."

"Is that like an iron?"

Steamers are yummy but that's definitely not what he's talking about.

"Yes and that question means you don't have one. No worries, Amazon will save us."

That I'm going to let him handle because I don't even know exactly what one is.

Andy comes through with the picture and I show my phone to Finnegan.

"Actually that will work great and I love that it has drawers."

A few more texts and it's set.

"I was going to borrow your fancy SUV and go pick it up but Andy's brother is over and offered to help load it so Andy's going to drop it off here which gives us a few minutes to get your office cleaned up."

"Not what I was hoping to do tonight, Emmett but thank you. Just tell me what to do."

"Patience, darling, patience."

The first thing he needs to do is put on some pants.

He doesn't seem happy about that but soon he's presentable.

It doesn't take us long to get ready, the room is mostly empty because it's ferret-proofed.

I keep the whole upstairs pretty sparse, actually.

I get the top half of the bookshelf cleared off and Finn vacuums while I empty out the closet except for the highest shelf.

I didn't realize how much shit I have.

Still, there's plenty of room for the desk and he decides to put it right under the back windows.

He runs extension cords and dusts while I wait for Andy.

He's right on time and ten minutes later the desk is up and in place.

He's even brought over a wheeled chair although it's definitely seen better days.

Finnegan tugs on my sleeve and whispers

"Should I tip him? Pay him?"

"No, darling, this is what friends do."

"My friends have never loaned me furniture," he replies and I believe him.

He's probably never used anything second-hand before but that's also a bit sad.

Maybe his friends just loan him planes, I don't know.

"Nice seeing you again Finnegan," Andy says as he heads out the door.

He really is a good guy.

"You too, Andy and thank you."

As soon as the door closes, Finnegan is taking back off his jeans.

"I can unpack tomorrow, really."

"No, tonight."

"But why?" he whines.

Fine? He wants to know?

I walk up behind him and press my chest against his back.

"Because once we start making up for the past month, Finnegan. You're going to be in no shape to bend, lift or even think. I'm going to take very, very good care of you so you need to have everything ready for Monday. Do you understand?"

"Yes Sir. I'm going to need more hangers. Pants hangers too and a tie organizer. And a chair. I don't think I can sit in that one for more than an hour without my ass being sore in bad ways. And a steamer."

"I'll go get you some hangers and look for a steamer and chair. You'll have to order whatever I can't find at Walmart."

"You don't have to..."

He's being impossible.

"Finnegan? Let me do what I want."

His eyes cloud over and he's cute as hell.

"Yes, Sir."

"Get as much done as you can while I'm gone."

Against all odds... I get everything he's asked for and then some.

I get a little desk lamp and small trashcan for him.

I grab some curtains for the windows.

I never bothered before because I have mini-blinds but he might prefer curtains since his desk faces that way.

I get him a notepad and some pens because it just seems like something he should have and might not have brought with him.

Good enough for today.

When I get home he has one suitcase almost emptied and his laptop is set up on the desk.

He's sitting in the chair and turns, handing me a check.

"What's that for?"

"It's what I would have paid for my apartment this week. If it's not enough just let me know. How much do I owe you for all this?" he asks, smiling as he pulls out the lamp.

"So thoughtful."

I take the check and glance down.

"No, not happening."

"Emmett."

He's serious... Just saying my name like that says a whole paragraph.

"It's my room allowance and you are providing me room and board, plus laundry and shopping and all kinds of things."

He heads into the bathroom, then plugs the steamer in and starts hanging up his suits.

"It's too much."

"No it's not. I'll give you another one next weekend. Look, I want to pay my way while I'm here, it's the least I can do."

"This isn't paying your way, this is most of my mortgage."

That seems to surprise him.

"You got a good deal but it's irrelevant. It's what I would have spent. Just take it, Emmett. Take it and buy me toys and cute undies and gel pens. Put my chair together for me and take the fee out of that. I don't care how you work it out in your own head but I'd really like you to accept it."

It's not that I can't use it but not every week, no.

"This check is for the whole month. That's as much as I'm willing to take."

He turns and stares me down.

"Twice a month."

"What? That's your idea of compromising? Bartering like we're in a Mexican market?"

"If the shoe fits. Twice a month. That's my final offer."

He steps up to me and gives me a kiss on the cheek.

"I don't like worrying about you, either. I don't want to mentally keep track of how much the presents and yummy dinners cost. I don't want to feel bad about using a ton of electricity. I'm just not going to have much brain space to deal with it and it would make things a lot easier on me if I could just pay you enough that I know the little incidentals will be covered."

Incidentals? This is more than some people's paychecks.

"I don't like the idea of being paid to take care of you."

"I pay Megan to take care of me. True story, my dad always says that every man needs a good woman in his life. When I came out to him I told him that I was just going to have to find a good secretary instead and he joked and said that at least he didn't have to worry about me getting her pregnant. Look, I'm not paying you to care, Emmett and I'm not paying you for sex."

'That's true, I suppose.'

"Okay."

"You say I'll get used to your cock and if I can do that, I think you can get used to this. Now, steamer time."

How can he just SAY that? But, he may be right.

He's also a little scary waving that steamer around so gleefully.

I make my escape and head into the hallway to put his chair together.

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awellboiledicicle · 2 years ago

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Timos Mother, very solemn: You might not like your husband at first, and that’s alright! You’ll grow to like him eventually. And you should have a few months before he asks to sleep with you-- though he is a god, so it might be sooner. Just remember it’s your duty as his wife, and only has to last as long as he does. Then once it’s over, take a nice long bath and focus on your weaving.

Timo, nodding very gravely: Right Timo’s brain: don’t think about climbing him like a tree until after the wedding, don’t think about climbing him like a tree until after the wedding don’t think ab

Timo’s mother: Good, now-- lets try to find a suitable veil. My daughter, marrying a god! He’ll keep you comfortable and safe. But.. so very far away...

Timo: Mother, he’s.. he’s wonderful. You have nothing to worry about. I’ll be the happiest and most cared for woman in any realm.

Timo’s mother: Oh, by the gods i pray so. Now, before i cry, come-- we have to find something that will be well enough for a gathering of the gods. Oh, if only we hadn’t given the latest weaving to Aphrodite!

Timo: Mother, it shall be fine. Anything i’ve made won’t rival the garments of the gods, they won’t expect it to.

Timo’s mother: Still, what kind of mother would i be? Sending my daughter off to her husband’s house unprepared. Maybe this blue..

Nyx: It is important you respect your new wife, my child. She will likely be downhearted at giving up the surface, even if she loves you truly. You must give her the space to come to terms. Mortals expect a year of courting after the wedding, though she may not be able to mark time here for longer. Help her acclimate, but do not make yourself over-present. I will ensure she feels welcome, as a mother should. We do not separate the people here in the same way, but she may wish for separate chambers for a time. Do not take this against her.

Hypnos, nodding very seriously: Of course, mom-- er, mother. I’m sure glad i have your help. I’ll take every detail into consideration! I don’t really think adding a new set of chambers will be necessary, though-- you know how long i work these days or nights! She’ll have all the space she needs! Hypnos’ brain: don’t say you picked out a pillow just for her already, don’t say you imagined her hair splayed across it already don’t think about her curled up in your bed, focus focus focus fo--

Nyx, nodding: True enough. Come, let us see to preparing the feast for her arrival. Hera’s presence brings the others upon Olympus, and we must be ready to make a good impression. In truth, the only problem i forsee would be Zeus-- though i doubt he would soil his brother’s hospitality, or Hera’s well mood with trouble making. Regardless, we must plan the seating so as to keep you from interacting too much... I am proud to be planning this with you, my son. You have grown so much, as of late.

Hypnos: I-- Love you too, mother!

Nyx: [shakes her head slightly] There is also the matter of your clothes. Queen Persephone and I have woven you a garment... though you must treat it well. It would not do for your wife to come, only for you to have spilled something on yourself.

Hypnos: Ha! I guess not! Thank you so much! [pause] Really, though, mother. Thank you. I know you’re... Well, *I’m* still not like how Thanatos is, or Charon in terms of being.. on my own? I want you to know this means a lot. It’s a lot easier now, but i know i’m still learning. And with Timo, i’ll be learning even more! I just.. You’re going to love her, mother. I hope i do everything right, here.

Nyx, smiling softly: You shall be fine, my child.

#kicking my feet and wiggling #timo au

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fairycosmos · 2 years ago

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calypso-finale · 2 years ago

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Forty One. Part 2

Robyn side eyed me already “don’t bother, like please don’t. I really honestly do not care; I will stand by what I said Chris. She isn’t going, she isn’t leaving this house to go and stay with Rylee, the very girl that has her own shit going on. I don’t know what that girl got going on, but I am not sending her there” she pointed, she means these words, I believe her too “I get it” I just said “she is a child still, stop being pushover. I get we need to back off, we need to let her grow. I agree on that but Chris she is not going London. Her sisters have their own life, stop it. We aren’t agreeing to it, I agree Chris. I agree that we do need to back off, we need to let her grow and we need to treat her like the person she wants to be, she isn’t the baby. Emi is the baby” licking my lips “but I am not sending her there, Rylee is going through her own shit, Ti is got her own life too. I need them two to find themselves then just be thinking about Imani, don’t get me wrong, I know that they both would have her over there but me myself, I do not want to burden them, she is our issue so Chris. No” Robyn knows I can be a pushover “we will give her space, let her grow. I get it, we do baby her a lot, we kind of bundle her up with Raihan and Junior when really she is no on their level. I accept that and I get it, and what I said about Rylee, I will have to apologise, I get what I said was wrong, I accept that very much but she is not going to London, I cannot let her do this” I guess that is me being shut down “I just got to accept that Imani is growing, I don’t know why but I feel I can’t, maybe it’s because she just seems so innocent, I want to protect her always” Robyn grinned “she doesn’t want that anymore Chris, we need to accept that, please. I get why she wants to go and grow, but no. I will speak to her and do it myself, you can just not say a word” I am glad she is actually, I will not be able to word it how she has, I thin Imani will be happy with that.

I am hurt and somewhat disappointed in Oakley because I didn’t think he would do me like that, I am taking on what Diji said. I need a break and a fresh start; I can’t go on like this. My life is a little bit of a mess, I feel it right now. The only thing that is constant is my son, I can rely on him to be there, I know the only person in my life that won’t do me wrong is my son. He’s keeping me sane currently, he’s keeping me from not losing my mind right now. Oakley still hasn’t bothered to message or call me about Aziel either, he’s being the let-down he said he wouldn’t be but what can I say. He’s been out, I saw him on his own social media. His new girl looks nice, she looks pretty anyways but he’s not bothered, and I went through a moment where I thought now look, I got a son from a guy that is a bastard, but my son is everything, I know he’s the constant in my life, I know he wouldn’t let me down. I’ve been keeping myself quiet, my friends can’t go away just yet because of work commitments but I have my own work, I need to finish off this course that I’ve never done at all, I’m useless but determined to finish it “Aziel, what are you doing? You’re too quiet for mommy” I said, he’s being too quiet. Hearing him yelping out as he ran around the kitchen counter “thank you, keep being noisy please” looking over at him “you going to come and sit next to me, oh look. Auntie Ti is calling me, come here baby” answering the FaceTime “come here” Aziel dropped his toy “say his name” I said to Ti, smiling at Aziel “Aziel!!! My little chipmunk” Aziel straight ran over “here, Auntie has called to entertain you” I am glad she called, Aziel can talk to her “I called for him anyways” Ti spat, I grinned going back to my work, I am wanting to get it done and then I can cook dinner for us.

Ti is actually spending the most time with him over on FaceTime “don’t you think London traffic is horrendous” I pulled a face “indeed” I just agreed “anyways, you can open the door for me” looking at Aziel “what!?” I spat, he has my phone on the floor “I have work in London, and also I know my sister needs me. Please open the door” I got up, well I shot up from the seat and made my way to the door “I am outside, I’ll put the phone down” I can’t believe that she is here, that is so sweet. Opening the door and there stood Ti “sister bitch” hugging her “sister bitch, girl fuck you” we both hugged each other so tight “I really knew I needed to come back, I needed to see my sister. And also mother saying what she said to Imani, just don’t speak to her I guess. Seeing as she feels that type of way” I groaned out, how can I forget what Imani told me “I am happy you’re here Ti, you don’t understand. Like ok, I mean I have my friends, but I wanted family, I didn’t say anything, but you came” moving back from the hug “come in!” I spat “my little chipmunk!” Ti ran inside, looking behind me and Aziel is stood with the biggest smile on his face. Let me drag in Ti suitcase, it looks like she is staying here for a while because this is heavy. Placing her case in the corner “are you here for a while? I hope you didn’t drop everything for me?” I said “mhmm not really, just that I know I can do my thing here, it’s not a bad thing right” she said, I am so happy she is here, I didn’t expect her to come actually even after what I told her, I didn’t think she was planning on coming down “also I missed my chipmunk” she keeps calling my son chipmunk because of those goofy ass teeth he has in the front, he looks like a chipmunk actually.

Smiling at my sister “done?” I said to her “yeah, literally unpacked like I am moving in. I thought it is best to get this shit out of the way” she sat down “better then doing it later, this verifies that you will be here for a while, I don’t mind it. I need company and also Aziel does get sick of seeing just my face too, anyways. I guess mom and dad told you how moody I have been?” Ti just smiled, I know they have, I know what my own family is like, I know they have been bitching “well dad did mention that Rylee is off, ever since Emi came” I pulled a face “who the hell is Emi?” who is this person “the baby, our sister is called Emi-Fenty” letting out an oh “I was so confused, when was this” Ti laughed “the group chat you ignore but they have noticed how off you have been, they have been complaining a little, I said look we all going through things, I just told them to leave you alone, they need to give you space, mom and dad can be too much so yeah, and besides. You’re going through heartbreak too, I think clearly your ex is trying to hurt you because you hurt him, but what he did was a dick ass move but Rylee, we need to cancel men. Since I have cancelled men out of my life I have been better then ever” she got a point, I need to leave men alone “they are shit aren’t they” I mumbled “mhmm they are literally not shit at all” I huffed out.

Looking at the screen and then at Ti “who is it?” She asked, I didn’t say a word and just stared at her “who!?” She spat “who you think?” She gasped “no way, as if he come again for round two? He’s so cheeky, tell him to go. That is so rude of him” Oakley pressed the buzzer again, I’ll just go to the door. I won’t let him in “I’ll stand at the door, be back” he’s such a dick, I won’t let him come in. I let him come in before but not again, that won’t happen. I take what I did was wrong, but I won’t let him treat me like shit, even though I won’t want to see him he won’t stop pressing the buzzer. Dragging open the door “stop” I said “it’s late, I have neighbours” he just stared at me “no” I placed my hand on his chest “you not coming here unless you come to see Aziel” he laughed “shut up” he swatted my hand away and barged his way through “Oakley, seriously, fuck you. Get the fuck out, I don’t want you here. I won’t have you treat me like this” banging the door shut, following behind him “I am going to the bedroom” looking at Ti, she is looking at me, but Oakley didn’t speak to her or anything “actually no, the way you came to see my sister. And you here again, she asked you to go so go” she pointed “I want to speak to her, alone” I shook my head “no, I want you to go, fuck that. You actually have the nerve to come here” he turned to me “tell her to go” is he serious “no! You don’t have no fucking right to say what I can do, now you get the fuck out!” I spat “I said I want to speak to you, stop acting dense. You acting stupid, you’re moving mad like you do” I pulled “oh fuck you, you fucked me. You made a song about me, and you want me to be happy!” I pointed at myself, he is just staring at me and that made my blood boil, I pushed his chest “you called me a hoe and left me! Get out” I don’t want to know, Oakley caught my arms “let me speak to you, you the one that fucked on me” the grip on my wrists “I wasn’t with you!” I barked “shut up, Ti just go” he pushed me back “I won’t be long” looking at Ti “just go and he can leave once he speaks” Ti looked between us both, just keep y’all hands to yourselves too” he is unbelievable.

Him coming here is actually disgusting “I can’t believe you got the nerve to come back, fuck you Oakley. I am not having this, nope” I shook my head “you hurt me by doing that, I woke up and you went. You ignored me like a piece of shit, you said you love me but what you did was a dick move” I pointed “bit like you then, your dad tell you that you shouldn’t put your hands on a guy. What about me yeah, you say you love me but fucked a guy you barely knew, ok I get it that we wasn’t together but still, really? Everything I said in that song was the truth, you mad because it’s true” putting a finger up at him “I was going to come and see you anyways, just things happen, things came up so I came now, not to actually have sex with you but to talk” I laughed “I don’t want to talk to you really, you wasn’t busy, you was busy walking out of the club with other females behind you, I am nobodies idiot” Oakley stuffed his hands in his pocket just staring at me “that night I came here, I was outside the apartment for a while, you can ask the security. I walked it here from Central that night, I walked out of the home of the girl I was seeing, she said she would be back out. I walked out, I came here, I was outside for so long. Then I came here with no intention or plan, just to see you. When you opened the door it was never for sex, but it ended up being sex because I has no reason to be here, I just wanted to see you but you fucked another man, and you can say yeah we wasn’t together but you didn’t give it a moment so to me, you didn’t care about me. Then in that moment, when we was having sex, it seeped my mind you know. Then you erm, you fell asleep straight away on me and it just went into my mind that you know, that happened. I got out of the bed and left, I was going to come to you, but I didn’t, it just hurt me. I was hurt because I do love you, the chick I fucked in Spain wasn’t right, and then she wanted it again I left, then come to you” I swallowed hard “that is the honest truth” he mumbled.

Oakley is stood there awkwardly now, I don’t know what to say “you don’t understand Oakley, but Brian wasn’t a boyfriend, he wasn’t anything to me actually. I fucked up by sleeping with him, I admit that, I messed up. I did it judging what you may have done, I assumed you was going to cheat on me, and I apologise. I am sorry I wasn’t there for you for your friend either, I wasn’t there for you” he put his head down, I have upset him “Brian was a contracted relationship because we looked good, that was it, he got paid and I got paid” Oakley’ head shot up “what?” he said in shock “he wasn’t anything but that, I shouldn’t have done it. But my mom said that it would be easy fame, it would be easy money or whatever” Oakley frowned “your mom, the very person that would strive for us to not be together. I was never going to cheat on you, that never even passed my mind. But wow, you sold yourself short for what? It wasn’t even worth it, man” Oakley is disappointed in me “I know” I mumbled “that is a lot to take in but I wanted to apologise to you” he said and went silent “I just think mistakes were made but just know that I do love you, I am going anyways. I think it’s wild you sold yourself short like that and your mom was behind it, she isn’t a good example. You do have your own brain Rylee, you don’t listen to her, you know that already but yeah, I am going, I never came here for sex like that” my lower lips quivering, he just wants to leave and of course I am not going to stop him. I am stupid to even listen to my mom “sorry again” he added, flicking my tear away. When I looked up, he was gone, I am glad we cleared the air but the disappointment of telling the truth, it hurts because I did sell myself short.

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Y/n: I wish I knew what other people really thought of me, Don’t you?

Ace: I guess so.

Ace (internally): I love you, I love you, I’m in love with you so much it’s killing me.

“…So what are we?” “Friends who find each other extremely fuckable?” “Can you take me seriously for once—”

“Hey. Hey. Oh my God, why are you crying? Are you okay? Did I— did I do something wrong?” “No, it’s just— it’s just you’re always so gentle and caring with me and it makes me— it makes me feel like I don’t deserve you. No one’s ever treated me like you have.”

“Is it just me or are you and [name] really touchy-feely with each other these days?” “Huh? Of course not! We’re just really comfortable around each other, that’s all.”

“Stop trying to eye fuck me across the room, people are starting to think something’s up.” “Well, let them think that for all I care. At least they know to keep their hands off of you.” “…Excuse me?”

“Look, the more we do this, the more I realise that I don’t want to just fool around with you. I want to— I want to hold your hand and kiss you and appreciate you in every way possible and to just… To just be with you. Do you…” Character A trails off, their voice quieting. “Do you get it?”

"One." "Excuse me?" "Two." "If you think you can just-" "three. When I get to five, love, your time is up." Her eyes widened as he said, "four." And she ran. "Five." He whispered, grinning.

“Stop stealing my hoodies! They aren’t cheap, you thief!” “But they’re comfortable and they smell like you and I can hold onto them when I start to miss you being next to me.” “I’m— how can you say that with a straight face?”

“I want to make you feel the way you make me feel,” Character A whispers, sending shivers skittering down Character B’s spine.

“You’ve been staying over a lot these days, even though it wasn’t something you used to do. What changed?” “I don’t know, I just like waking up to your face.”

“You’re staring at me like that again.” “Like what?” “Like you’re… Never mind.”

“How am I supposed to not read into things if you keep treating me like this?”

“…You promised me you wouldn’t fall in love with me so why did you…” “I can’t help what I feel. I’m sorry.”

“I shouldn’t have agreed to this.” “What? What the hell is that supposed to mean?” “Because you’re making it so hard for me to not fall in love with you.”

“I need you.” “Oh God, don’t say that, you know I can’t say no to you when you’re like this.”

“You know it’s fine if you’re a little rough with me, right?” “But I don’t want to hurt you…” “It’s fine, I can take it. I want it rough. Please?”

“You never used to hold my hand in public like this.” “I guess I just like being close to you? In whatever physical way possible.”

There was a moment in my life where I said No but meant Yes and I will never forgive myself for that.

He bared his sharpened teeth at her, leaning in. “I’ve been called a lot of things, but tame has never been one of them. Care to find out why?”

For you, a thousand times over

We never really know anyone, do we?

“It’s not… Ok, maybe it is what it looks like.”

“hi. wanna bake cookies?” “with you? always.”

“i think i love you too much. is that possible? i feel like i should slow down.”

“i love you so dearly.”

“Oh, you’re cold! Do you want my hoodie?”

“Sorry for staring. I just can’t stop looking at you.”

“I feel like you wouldn’t be opposed to me kissing you. Am I correct?”

“You’re making me crazy and I’m not mad about it.”

“I don’t flirt a lot, so if you could give me some feedback, I would appreciate that.”

“You’re always so flirty.” “Just with you.”

“Still unsure if I should kiss you or kill you.”

“This is actually really romantic.” “I hoped it was.”

“You have planned all of this? Just for me?” “Of course.”

“I’m so happy that you said yes.”

“This was really fun. I would love to see you again.”

“You’re incredible. I can’t believe you actually said yes to dating me.”

“i think you could talk about just about anything and breathe life into it. i think you are everything.”

“thank you for always reminding me of my worth.” “you don’t need to thank me. i wake up grateful to God that i’m blessed enough to remind a goddess of her beauty the way the moon’s darkness exists only to remind you of the warmth of the sun.” “… sigh. i am so happy i’m dating a poet.”

“you’re my favorite person. did you know that?”

“anything you say automatically becomes music. how do you do that?”

“oh God, i’m so in love with you.”

“i knit you something.” “take it, take my heart, right now.”

“can you make me sandwiches the way you do? with the diagonal cuts and all.” “you just want food.” “you ever think maybe i just love you and want YOUR food?”

“i want nothing more than for you to just be happy.”

"Will you let me kiss you?”

“All those fireworks and you’re only looking at me?”

“Will it be bad, if we just missed the countdown?”

“The new year will be ours.”

“I’m definitely not drunk enough for this.”

“We should go back. I can already hear the countdown.”

“I can’t wait to kiss you at midnight.” “Why wait?”

“My horoscope told me I would meet the love of my life next year.” “Then let’s meet up again after midnight.”

“What is that?” “It’s a reindeer. At least that’s what the packaging said the cookie cutter was supposed to be.” “It’s definitely not that.”

“There are rumors about us.” “I know. I spread them.

“I would destroy the world for you.” “No need to be so dramatic about it.”

“Have you ever broken a bone?” “One of my own or someone elses?”

“You’re not exactly the type of person I could see running across a field of flowers. It would more likely be a battle field.”

“Don’t you trust me?” “I trust you with my life. I’m not so sure I trust you with yours.”

“Sorry, I think my brain stopped working for a second when you said you loved me.”

“Why is it always us, who has to play a couple?” “Maybe they sense our unresolved sexual tension and want to help out.”

“Please, accept this gift as a token of my love.” “That’s a knife. And it has blood on it.”

List of responses after they kiss

“Why’d you do that?” “Because you wouldn’t shut up.”“Can we do that again?”

“Why’d you stop?” “Because you weren’t responding.”

“I should have done this so much earlier…”

“Quick, kiss me again, they’re coming back—”

“What the hell just happened?”

“Why did you…” “I’m trying to remind you of what happened last night.”

“Let me teach you what a real kiss is.”

“What was that for?!”

“That was my first kiss and I can’t believe it was with you.”

“Your face is so red. Are you okay?”

“That’s so unfair!” “What’s unfair?” “You can’t just do that without warning me!”

“You do this often?”

“You’re going to make me come back for more.”

“You uh… You taste amazing.”

“Were you trying to devour me whole or something?”

“We need to do that again.”

“I didn’t know how much I wanted this until now.”

Death dialogue prompts

“it’s okay”

“please, we can try it again. i will find other doctors, medicines,…”

“no, please let me go”

“i want you to find love again. you have to find love again.” “i can’t-”

“[name] please, do it for me. i want you to be happy when i am gone”

“i will never be able to love anyone the way i loved you”

“i made a promise. i will stay with you. even if i burn in this building, because not even death can tear me apart from you”

“fuck [name], i ask you to hold on. don’t you dare fall asleep like this [name] don’t you dare give up on us”

“i know i was doomed to die young the moment i was born, could you really blame me for that?”

“i hope that one day when you will finally be happy, that i will be forgiven by you.”

“don’t say those words because you are only saying it to comfort me. i am dying, but i don’t want to suffer anymore, not when you are pretending that you have loved a monster like me”

“i thought we would have more time”

“thank you for existing because i can now die knowing that i have known love”

miscellaneous romantic dialogue

“what happened to forever, [name]? what happened to our vows?”

“every time i see you, i thank the gods that you exist.”

“if i have to go down on my knees and beg for a second chance, i will do it. i would rather lose my pride than you.”

“i will always be here if you ever return, despite everything that happened.”

“i would rather be hurt by you than not have you at all.”

“ask me to stay.” “will you?” “yes.”

“you possess my every thought, day and night. i can’t imagine a world without you anymore.”

“don’t ask me to forget last night. in my heart laid a map of your body.”

“one day, i will forgive myself for not being able to save you.”

“after the goodbyes, my biggest wish is to remain in your heart with warmth and tenderness.”

“have i not suffered enough? has my sacrifice been insufficient to entertain you?”

“you took everything from me, yet i have succeeded in hating you.”

"out of everything it could have been, we have written nothing but a tragedy."

"i would defy the gods themselves to get to you, even if i have to pay it with my life."

"i love you and i don't understand you, and that lack of understanding makes me want to hate you for every decision you've made, but i can't help but love you anyway."

"i don't care if today is beautiful or ugly. i wake up and i see you, so even if the sky had crashed down on me i would not care. my eyes are in love with you, [name]"

"i will love you until all the stars in the universe explode. it seems ridiculous but it's true."

"the truth is, i would tear this world apart if you ask me to, whether i am the hero in this story or not."

"few will remember us as we were, they would only know us as opposing forces in this war."

"let's end this, my love. this life of pain has been enough for us both. let me kill you, please."

"you sometimes love me, not always, not as much as i ever did."

"maybe in another life, we would be able to forgive each other."

"many years from now, they will wonder why the hero had followed the villain in the afterlife. let them."

"it was you and me against the world. now it's the world and me against you."

"die for me then. your sacrifice would still be pointless because i will follow wherever you go."

"i will forever love you, dead or alive. i swear it."

"i would let your touch ruin me. i will not see you differently."

"they said that i was mad, [name], and for once i think they are right. falling with the one person who will destroy me is madness, but i love you, and that's enough for me."

"as long as i live, i will love you. as long as my soul exists somewhere in this universe, it will be yours."

"i would choose to be ruined again in a million different lives if i got to fall in love with you in each one of them."

"if the gods are determined to part us in this lifetime, so be it. my heart would forever be yours, together or not."

"i destroyed myself by continuing to hold on to this ruinous love, but when i see you, i know it was worth it."

"i am supposed to walk away for our own good, but i am too selfish to let you go."

"it doesn't matter if the pain gets too much, as long as you are okay, it's enough for me."

"lift your eyes and look at me. look in my eyes and tell me it's that easy for you to let go."

"destroy me if it pleases you. i truly don't give a damn if it's you doing it."

"you will ruin me?? so what?? i was ruined the moment i laid my eyes on you."

"if you were weak for loving me, then you would have to hate me for being too strong."

"we were never meant to be in the eyes of the gods, but i would risk it all to relive us."

"i would do it over again if it meant getting to hold you in my arms like this."

"what did you just say?“

“why would you say something like that?”

“what the hell, dude…”

“are you okay? no, that wasn’t right…”

“do you want me to say something?”

“say one more thing to them, and i swear to god-”

“alright. back off.”

“that’s enough.”

“are you kidding me?”

“say that again? i don’t think i heard you the first time.”

“don’t even think about going there..”

“okay, that’s it. we’re leaving. come on…”

“come here, we need to talk.”

“yes, i’m being serious! that was way out of line.”

“what’s wrong with you?!”

“woah…okay, stop.”

“go in the car, i’ll be with you in about five minutes.”

“do you know him? yeah, that’s what i thought…”

“why are you still going?”

“watch it. seriously.”

“that wasn’t funny.”

“is it always like this?” “…” “oh hell no.”

“ok well this stops now..”

“do you see her laughing? okay, then. stop.”

“don’t ever say anything like that again.”

otp prompts: first kiss"I've never done this before. I hope that's not an issue."

"I simply cannot believe that I waited this long to kiss you."

"Your lips are so soft."

"You don't taste anything like what I had imagined.""Was it worse?""No!" X smiles. "So, so much better."

"Can I really do this? Are you sure?"

"You know there's no going back from this, don't you?"

"We should really never do this again unless you want me to be completely head over heels for you."

"I think this is as close to heaven as I'll ever get."

Exes to Lovers Dialogue Prompts

“I’m sorry for how it ended.” “I’m sorry that it ended at all.”

“Do you still have place for me in your life?”

“Three years was not enough to get over you.”

“I couldn’t stop loving you, even if I tried. And I did try for some time. But it didn’t work.”

“Seeing you again brought everything back.”

“It was a mistake to just go away. We should’ve fought more for what we wanted.” “We are doing it now.”

“Do you have any idea how much I wished to take it back? To just go to your house and apologize?” “I would have waited for you. I did wait for you. Even if it took some time, you are here now.”

“I shouldn’t have ever let you go away. I need you by my side.”

“The fight we had was so stupid and breaking up was irrational.”

“We work much better as a team.”

“People called me crazy for letting you get away. And they were right.”

‘unrequited love but turns out!! it’s actually requited’ prompts

“What, did you think I kissed you all these times because I was doing it for the shits and giggles?” “…Let’s be real, you did have a lot of fun shoving your tongue down my throat in public.”

“Oh my God, why are you crying? Does me liking you disgust you that much?” “No, you dumbass, it’s because you like me back but I spent all of this time thinking you’d never like me that way!”

“Look, we can pretend I never confessed if it means you’ll stay—” “What?! No! You can’t just take back your confession! That’s such a coward move and I’ll not allow that! Especially when I feel the same way towards you.”

“I’ll get over you. I promise. These feelings, they’re— they’re only temporary, I swear. I—I’ll get over you. Just please don’t leave me—” “Did you ever think, that maybe, I don’t want you getting over me? What if I don’t want these feelings to be only temporary? That maybe I… Like you, too?”

“I didn’t mean to fall for you.” “And neither did I.” “…Fucking pardon?”

“So according to _____, you’re in love with me, too?” “Oh, that fucking bast— wait, did you just say too?”

“You need to stop kissing me like you mean it; I’m going to read into things wrong and end up breaking my own heart.” “That’s because I do mean it every single time. You’ve just been too dense to realise.”

“Why are you apologising for liking me back?” “Because I don’t want to ruin— wait a second. Pause and rewind, what did you just say?”

“You don’t have to like me back, you know? I just wanted to let you know how I felt, that’s all.”

“Well, too bad! Because these feelings are mutual, and now you can’t get rid of me.”

“Why are you lying to me? You can tell me the truth, it’s okay. I’m strong enough for the truth, I swear.” “What? I’m not lying to you! You’d think you’d pick up on the signs that I’ve been in love with you, for fucking forever, but apparently someone’s too obtuse to realise that!”

“you said you wanted to talk?" “yeah…it can wait, though. enjoy your date.”

“how do i look? do you think i overdressed for a [event]?” “no, you look perfect.”

“you’ve been staring at me for like thirty seconds, what are you thinking about?”

“i’m so glad we moved in together.”

“no, you can stay. i don’t mind.”

“please don’t leave yet.”

“i know i haven’t been the easiest person to work with these days, but keep in mind that i do appreciate your patience with me…”

[talking to a friend] “we live together! do you know how much i’ll mess things up if they don’t feel the same?”

“you looked pretty lonely in there, how about a sleepover in my room tonight?”

“you’ve been talking about this for months so i figured that maybe if i got it for you, you’d shut up.” “i love you.”

“i hate changing these stupid batteries, i can never reach the smoke alarm.” “get down, then, i’ll do it.”

“did you get me flowers?” “it was for decoration.” “..in my room?”

“do you want to go on a walk with me?” “yeah, i’d love to..”

“i don’t think i’ve ever felt the way i do with you with anyone else.” “what does that mean?” “what do you think it means?”

“i need to tell you something. and i need you to not hate me when i do.”

“happy new year.” “should we kiss?” “what?” “what?”

"And you approve of this sort of behavior?"

"Encourage it, even."

List of height difference prompts

“Look at you. So small and cute, huh?” “Shut the hell up.”

Character B wrapping their arm around Character A’s shoulders whenever possible; ruffling their hair with their hand and grinning when Character A grumbles at them for it.

“I could fit you in my luggage.”

“You’re like an arm rest.”

“So I’m going to have to bend my knees just a little bit for you to hear me properly?”

“You have five centimeters over me but you’re acting all high and mighty about it. Grow the hell up.” “Well, clearly I’ve grown a lot better than you.” “I will end you”

Character B purposefully making things out of reach for Character A. “Can you get that for me?” “Can I what?” “Can you please get that for me?”

“Need my shoulders to see up there?” “Piss off.”

“Maybe milk will still save that height of yours.” “Oh my God—”

“If I’m a late bloomer then you’re a really late bloomer. You’re probably never going to bloom at all; you’ve reached your maximum capacity.” “I’ll give you exactly five seconds to take that back.”

“I could lift you up off the floor while kissing you.” “Excu— what are you doing?! Put me down!”

“You’re threatening but like, in a very adorable way.”

“I’ve been breaking my back trying to kiss you.” “I’m not that fucking short.”

Character B helping Character A get something they need but then holding it out of reach from them, a grin on their face when Character A starts getting frustrated. “Give that to me, you stupid giant!”

“If you want to experience the world up here, you can always give me a call.” “I’ll kick you in the back of your knees and make you kneel in front of me.”

“I can hear you thinking from here.” “About what you said... earlier.” “You mean when we thought we were about to die? I remember.”

“Do you have any actual skills? Besides pyromania?” “You mean my highly specialized magic discipline that I developed over my entire lifetime?” “Pyromania, yeah.”

“Where are you going with that!? That weapon is only meant to be wielded by the Chosen Hero!” “Don’t you get it? There is no Chosen Hero. The Elders are never going to send someone to break the curse because they don’t want it broken.”

“Where have you been all night?” “I needed time to think so I went for a walk and then got.... very lost. Who designed this city?” “It sort of designed itself.”

“I’m so happy you’re safe. Also, you’re grounded.” “What?! But I defeated the Dark Lord!” “You also broke curfew to put yourself in mortal peril. Grounded.”

“I can’t believe she kidnapped my cat.” “As if people didn’t hate her enough.” “My cat. To blackmail me. I have three children. She chose my cat.” “To be fair, your cat doesn’t have armed bodyguards.”

“Where are you going? We’re not done!” “To eat a fucking baby, since I’m obviously such a fucking villain.” “Oh, shut up, no one called you that.”

“How do you two know each other?” “We’re best friends. Somehow.” “Our moms took the same yoga class when they were pregnant. So this friendship wasn’t a choice.”

“What’s wrong? Trouble in paradise?”

“Paradise is lost and the devil has ripped my fucking heart out.”

“How’d you take the bullets out of his gun without him knowing?”

“I didn’t.”

“What do you mean you didn’t?”

“His gun was loaded. I just took random bullets out of my pocket to psych him out.”

“...Woah.”

“Hey, wait. I haven’t seen much of you lately. I thought we could hang out.”

“Oh, um, sorry. I’m really busy. Some other time.”

“When did your abilities first manifest?”

“I was low on money one year, so I decided to hand-make my nieces’ Christmas presents. I sewed them cute little rag dolls and other stuffed animals as a set.”

“Uh-huh. And when did it become apparent you weren’t making ordinary toys?”

“One of the dolls got up and handed me a pen I thought I lost.”

“We need to cut down on expenses. What can we live without?”

“X, probably.”

“Where’s all your weapons?”

“That’s what I’ve been trying to tell you! I got rid of them all. I’m a pacifist now.”

“You’re a what.”

“Look, I’ve inflicted a lot of pain on the world, and I don’t think the way to redeem myself for that is to inflict even more pain.”

“Oh, yes it fucking is! Here, just take my gun. You fuck this up and I’ll fuck you up.”

“Do you realize how fucking stupid that was?”

“The several broken bones gave me an idea, yeah.”

roommates to lovers dialogue (but they’re scared to confess)