#fuck you terry

[you-show-me-love]

Tattoos are often symbolic, but I somehow missed the symbolism of these ones until now. I just now realized that Terry Milkovich has a tattoo above his heart that is hate speech, while Mickey Milkovich got a tattoo above his heart in a pronouncement of love.

Terry got to his son's knuckles early and made it the first thing people saw. Fuck u-up that's what Mickey Milkovich will do, that's what any Milkovich will do, but Terry couldn't get to his core, couldn't put hate there, because Ian Gallagher got there and didn't let go.

I also think it's interesting how after Terry died, we found out about his past with a woman he loved. He had done everything he could to be with her and ultimately killed for her, and she rejected him, leading him to a life of hate and anger. He just gave up on this woman and being with her. (He killed her father, so it's a bit hard to come back from, but still)

Mickey did everything to be with Ian, came out for him, took care of him, and attempted to kill Sammi for what she did to Ian, but he still got broken up with. He could easily have gone the path of his father, of hating Ian, hating everyone, but instead he carved Ian's name into him and asked him to lie, for him, because 8 years was a long time. His thoughts of them together kept him going in prison until he could escape, and when he did he found Ian again. And even then Mickey didn't hate him for not being able to cross the boarder because the love in his heart was stronger than any hate or bitterness, to the point he didn't hesitate to turn himself in to be with Ian once again.

I mean, how fucking beautiful is that? Mickey became the most loving person by being loved. He's not his father, and he'll never be his father, because he never gave up on love like Terry did. At his core Mickey is love.

[rayrayor]

Thank you @wehangout and @galladrabbles for this weeks prompt Descending, by Sleep token

SA trigger warning

So come on and save me now.

And you wonder what I believe.

That was it; he could see the terror in the battered face staring at him as the hooker stripped. He could not look away but cluched the cushion. Mickey's eyes were pleading conflicting messages: make this stop and stay there; stay alive.

His hand hit steel; thank the fuck for random Milkovich guns. This was not going to happen, not to Mickey.

Ian took the shot. 

The sentence, one year in juvie. Manslaughter. Duress . Trauma

Visitation

"Red, put your damn hand on the glass; gonna wait for you."

[depressedstressedlemonzest]

Galladrabbles

@galladrabbles for @edmercer's prompt "Revel in Your Time by Gunship"

The first thing I thought of for the lyrics was angst.

Trigger warning, it's a Cascading Failure drabble.

You said let's revel in our time

The door opens unexpectedly, terrified, Mickey tries to explain, defend, distract.

Then the chaos spreads the room

Shouting, hitting, blood, pain.

There's a monster, a gun, and nothing in between

Mickey jumps on the monster’s back, saying clearly to Ian,

I would kill to be with you

Thrown to the couch, Bloodied, bruised, broken, .

They lock in eye to eye as he rips them apart.

An act, a charade, now It’s over with her, a shuddering breath, an aching chest.

Want to help, want to stay

“We will make it through, won’t we?”

[saulgoodmansbiggestfan]

Terry said my attachment to this man is unhealthy and i need to work on finding something else to do. But i don't want to

[p4nishers]

[thru tears] yah the fifth elephant was nicq

[bogdreamz]

korvo lost and farting 0 stars for you my boy

[leoreadss]

Michael FUCKING Sheen has public playlists on Spotify.

The last two songs!!!!! Added 2 days ago!

[inezrable]

I hope that when gaiman dies discworld death and sandman death both tell him that they're disappointed in him

[rayrayor]

Trying to get all WIPs complete for new year . Not complete still a WIP but at least a new chapter

Aftermath , healing and new information. Mickey takes it in stride and processes the best he can with his prison support . Also Ian slides in a happy love side note to Mickey .

Countdown to Gallavich reunion starting now .

Triggers, death, murder and abuse

Happy art though to soothe the angst by @darthvaders-wife

[0m3n-0f-d3ath]

Terry and Korvo

[wrinkly-fucking-qtip]

You know what fucks with me? The amount of times we see Mickey tear up. He wasn't even a recurring character the first three-ish seasons I can sort of count 4 times in that period.

Him teary eyed when (for unrelated reasons) Ian runs up to his door.

Him teary eyed when he regrets killing Frank after careful consideration (cough cough Ian).

Him teary eyed and almost crying as he punches and kicks Ian to the floor.

Him wretching in sobs when Ian leaves.

That's not even counting the rest of the times he cries or tears up through S4, S5, S7 and so on. All culminating in a full blown sob when Terry died (which I'll forever be salty they tried to pass it as a comedy with the stupid background music and comedic undertones.). It fucks me up cause it's just vulnerable ol' Mick, tired of putting up that survival front because his emotions got the best of him. This boy is so full of care, brought up in such a horrible house.

I can't imagine the amount of times Terry has chastised him for crying, whatever reason this small child had. Him hearing all of the stupid claims of what crying boys are, pussies. But Mickey is unable to hold back tears, no matter how chastised he's been. He has to cry.

Anyone else would probably be so emotionally stunted (not saying he isn't) that they just cannot even water their eyes. He cried in front of Mandy, in front of Fiona, a choked back voice among Lip. He is sensitive. And it just breaks my soul how such a poor excuse of a father could break down a kid like this, every Milkovich sibling.

And him just being somewhat "opposite" to Ian in that regard makes me want to cry even more.

They're each other's support system.

[plantdad-dante]

Book #169 - Monstrous Regiment by Terry Pratchett

(THERE ARE LESBIANS IN MY DISCWORLD)

The first note I took came about two pages in, and it read: "oh I'm gonna have Feelings about this huh".

And uhhhh yes. Yes I did. I did have Feelings. Yay. Fuck.

Externally I'm fine. Internally I am a blabbering mess? Because like-  There are lesbians in my Discworld. There's a trans man in my Discworld. This is a book from 2003 and it is so gentle and blunt and beautiful about gender and hardship and war and abuse, while simultaniously not pulling a single punch about these things, either, and like. what the fuck (asked in very squeaky, wet-with-tears voice).

This one goes dark, holy fuck. The whole things about Wazzer retreating so far into herself and then looking up from that abyss into the face of the Duchess? I will be haunted by this passage for the rest of my life. The way the school girls' trauma is taken so seriously, when tone/genre-wise you'd expect it to be more implied than explicit (Lofty's pyromania would have been so easy to treat as a joke and laugh off, and yet. and yet. this fucking series, istg). The way everything about the war is acknowledged as bad and traumatizing, but not a single person gets dehumanized by the narrative, or the narrator. War is bad. People are still people.

Jesus fucking Christ, I love this book so much.

On a lighter note, the realisation that Vimes would be lurking in this plot's background was a welcome one. Also seeing Otto and William again. I did miss Sacharissa... until I realized that she needed to be absent for the journalism plot to work. She would have clocked the girls immediately, and the press needed to be dumb, so I get why she wasn't here.

[tries and fails to not be emotional about the "you can join as a man if you want" thing for three paragraphs]

I hope Seargent Jackrum is happy with his family. And I hope Polly's plan pays off. I hope she can find and establish the way to fight war by other means.

I just love them all so much, how the fuck-

[ratislatis]

she was the last thing he saw

[p4nishers]

tiffany in i shall wear midnight makes me so fucking sad. like. she's the witch of the entire chalk. she rarely laughs. she calls people NOT EVEN 3 years younger than her 'kids'. she deals with things not even grown man could stomach. she comforts her own father multiple times when he tries comforting her bc she feels BAD for him. she constantly keeps herself in check around EVERYONE. she hates herself for oversleeping or sleeping at all bc she could've DONE things in that time people NEED her. she takes away people's pain every day. she witnesses a murder and its not the first time and she buries the baby and saves the abusive father bc she doesn't want her people's conscience to be tainted with his murder. she plants flowers (WHICH SHE BUYS WITH HER OWN HARD EARNED MONEY) on the grave of an old woman who died bc people said she was a wicked old witch and turned her out of her own house so they wont EVER forget. she has to do it all alone and she wishes she hadn't. she finds in herself sympathy for EVERYONE, no matter how bad they treated her or others. when they lock her in the dungeon her biggest concern is other people . she opened a school bc she wanted ppl to find out who they are like she did. she's not even 16.

[ode-to-fury]

When you’re reading a discworld novel and three months later the pun makes sense

[imsaunteringvaguelydownwards]

been forced to start welcome to night vale. I am side eyeing my bestie. This is officially weirder than the Magnus archives