#fuck okay. NOW i'm going to bed
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do you guys ever just remember that life in the world to come is literally just some random ass guy and his goth best friend telling you their fucked up vision of the apocalypse.
#and yet i've still made a fuck ton of fanart over this#charlie stfu#shitpost#okay i'm going to bed now night guys x#life in the world to come#litwtc#chris dunne#will wood
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pros of being mostly immune to online impulse purchases: I can save my money and use it on more necessary things, like rent and groceries
cons of being mostly immune to online impulse purchases: I don't get to have The Thing
#sobbing crying etc etc. I'm okay just dumb#ordered a custom thing but the colors ended up looking different from how I thought they would. 0 dead 1 dying of Stupid About It (me)#it's still very cool in its own right and it was Expensive for us. it was just me fucking up and choosing the wrong color...#and there's no real way to request a different version without just. buying a new one basically#but the site is still having a sale and it's chewing at me so bad right now. but it's not something I can afford to impulse buy#and even if somebody did just plop a big donation/order a big commission etc etc right now I still couldn't justify it#because there are other things I should take care of first#instead of replacing something that's not technically broken. it's literally just not the color I thought it would be but aaaUUUUUUUGHHHH.#I'm just mad and sad and tired and stressed and should go to bed and stop thinking about it. it's fine. it's literally fine.#just kicking myself for it and about a billion other tiny stupid things right now.#storm speaking
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there needs to be fandom spaces exclusively for people 30 and over like for real 99.99% of the reason i simply do not enjoy any fandom is because of the fucking kids. sure lets have a mutual space to hang out sometimes but for FUCKS SAKE i would like to hang around and socialize with grown ass adults who aren't living in a delusional parasocial brainworm infested reality some of the time, too.
much love to the Youths out there but sometimes yall are fucking insufferable and flat out stupid and suck the joy out of every aspect of everything ever. and that's not particularly anyone of yalls faults thats just being young and dumb. we were all insufferable and stupid at some point. (and like, let's not kid ourselves some of the adults are even worse lmaoooo but not so frequently) but it's amplified x100000000000 with the terminal onlineness and social media. and frankly, i'm sure the kids would probably like to get the fuck away from us old farts just as much sometimes.
absolutely kills me that we just don't have kids only and adults only spaces anymore like we did Back In The Day.
#moki talks#knitting club but for fandom i need it#just a bunch of old nerds chilling and chatting#where do all of the geriatric trekkies congregate i wanna be where they are#fuck me. an old folks home for fandom is literally what i'm wishing for right now#do you know how relaxing that sounds#also. the kids SHOULD be allowed to be insufferable and stupid thats like fundamental to being a kid#but i am also of the belief we should have our own fucking spaces#so that when they are Like That i can just be like. okay cool i'm gonna hang out with the grannies now bye#or if we're being too crotchety and jaded and boomery the kids can just peace out and go do their thing#sighhhhh#i should go to bed now
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Update 3: drove the asshole home bc I was so sure he was fr gonna die if he drove himself lmao. Poor dude looked so miserable, like bro was either holding back while we were working or he got worse the second he was able to relax, bc there wasn't a single moment of silence the whole drive back, dude was just curled up in the passenger’s seat shivering and being so fucking symptomatic. Like he was doing that thing where you basically cough all of the air out of your lungs then doing that rattly little inhale and then repeating, like it was Not Good 😬 0/10, hated being there to experience that in person, I was horrified, I want all of that to stay in audio recordings where it can't hurt me lmao. And he wasn’t sneezing a ton, but when he did, he stifled them until I told him to quit it bc the last thing he needs is a fucking ear infection on top of whatever the hell is already wrong with him, and even when he stopped, he was so congested that they sounded kinda stifled anyway 😭 like it's all objectively hot and I would've loved it had I just read it and not experienced it first hand, but unfortunately I'm a massive germaphobe and had to sit three feet away from this guy all damn day. So I bleached the hell out of my car and scrubbed myself down in the shower three times and I still don't feel like anything is clean enough, but I'm tired so it's gonna have to do for now lmao
#this is kinda snz kink ain't it?#whatever idc i feel so gross and I'm tired lmao#i might shower again before i go to bed idk lmao#OH ALSO important to note#he was stifling with his fingers so he was getting that shit all over his hands i was like IN MY CAR????? fucking horrific#again it's objectively hot but not when it's in front of me 😭#i hope y'all are enjoyjng this at least bc I'm not lmao i was trying not to pass away the whole day#like i feel so bad bc i consider my partner a friend so obviously i care about him and wanna help#but at the same time i literally can't train my disgust reaction out of me#I'm fucking weird when it comes to who I'm more okay with being around when they might be sick#like if he wasn't my usual partner or if he was just some random coworker i wouldn't have given him a ride#like i did it scared but i still did it lmao#anyway#i told him to text me tomorrow so i know he's not dead and to call if he needs anything#so we'll see what comes of that#and i will be passing away if he gets me sick so stay tuned for that#knock on wood i haven't been sick since i was 13 and I'm almost 22 now#and last time i was sick i had strep and bronchitis at the same time so that wasn't good#but other than that it's just been allergy flare ups#so other than the vaccine reactions i genuinely don't remember what it's like to actually be sick#so let's hope i just manage to avoid it 😭
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no one is allowed to tell louis “GIRL GET UP 🗣️” ever again. no one is getting up after this
#girl because why do i KNOW his fleetwood mac fuckass swedish pop hairbun elton john feathers charli neon is ACTUAL venus fly trap pussy#HE'S LIKE ABUSE INTERPOLATION CENTRAL. HE'S WHERE ALL THE ABUSE TRAINS COME IN TO GO TO BED#HES THE THOMAS TANK ENGINE AND ITS RUNNING ON GASLIGHT I KNOW THIS WE ALL KNOW THIS#and then he cries on tv in an interview blooper not even sound on. and I'm like can someone check if he's okay? 🥺🔙 im scared he ok???#nobody is getting up. this isn't a love story or a horror story this is about the dangers of the white and french. get them off screen NOW#frantz tried to tell you and you didn't listen#the things he's doing to my perception are narratively diegetic but I thought I was better than this. i thought I'D escape the lamp#I'm so sorry miss Louis de Pointe du Lac de Winters I was not familiar with your mans game....#inner child family systems therapy won't help you leave mrs louis. we need to kill him#v#PV#fucking hell. fucked#iwtv
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I was having a super nice weekend, the best of august and one of the best of my entire summer and this fucking creepy unknown number started texting me all sort of crazy shits about how he's thinking about me, how he wants to be there for me and write to me all day everyday, how when he come back to (the city where I currently live) he's gonna "tell me about his new life and the choices he made"....
Just to make it extra fun he has my actual name and knows a few things about me that make me believe that it's not someone texting a random phone number but someone who actually knows me at least a bit.I'm not entirely sure yet but I think it might be one of my neighbor and if it's the case...Well, I don't know what my next move is gonna be but it doesn't exactly fill me with inner peace and joy
#i hate men i hate men i hate men#but yeah i'm like 85% sure it's this one neighbor#this entire situation freaks me out and angers me so much i can't even explain it#like i wish i could just post the message so y'all would get how creepy the whole thing is but it's all in french#but trust me it's extremely fucking creepy#i actually told the person that he was being creepy and he was like 'don't be scared i'm a good person!'#oh okay#could have fooled me#i just wanted a chill little evening where i could relax and go to bed early and now god knows if I'll even fall asleep#once again...#i hate men and i'm allowed
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This is soo real and canon like Blizzard Entertainment or whatever told me this to cover up their shitty stuff
#overwatch#d.va#hana song#d.va overwatch#brigitte#brigitte lindholm#brigitte overwatch#kiriko#kiriko kamori#kiriko overwatch#stupidflux being a stupid fuck#is this anything#idk this just came to me#like d.va and brigitte this and d.va and kiriko that#JUST. ALL THREE. BOOM POLYCULE#just a buncha gay girls#okay sorry i'm going to bed now
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frostbitten
(alt versions under the cut)
different color scheme:
full pages of both:
anyway haha. who's feeling normal about this scene. me probably
#baby's first digital comic and it fucking. good god my spine hurts so bad#not even remotely my first comic but I'm outta practice and also. stupid#anyway thinking about this scene thinking about kiryu's deep frostbitten black fingertips all bloody and horrible#YAKUZA 5 REALLY PUT ME THROUGH IT WITH THIS ENDING OKAY#and I'm kinda shocked I've never seen fanart of it before because it's one of my favorite main story scenes#trying new things. ow. but it's neat anyway ig#alright tag time you know the drill#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#yakuza#kiryu kazuma#sawamura haruka#ykz#like a dragon#yakuza 5#yakuza 5 spoilers#haruka sawamura#kazuma kiryu#didn't turn out how i originally planned so i might go back and do a more faithful standalone piece. but im going to bed now :p#ALSO DON'T MENTION THE FUCKING. LAMP POST DISTANCE FROM KIRYU OKAY. I KNOW#I ONLY NOTICED IT WHILE MAKING THE POST AND THIS SHIT TOOK ME LIKE TEN HOURS IM NOT FIXING IT NOW. SOBBING WAILING#graurfghhgh y5 saying dream this dream that just to kill me by bringing it back at the end. hell#but like with a different use of the word's meaning. i literally eat that shit up HOOUUGGHHH#me: yeah i made the panels all stiff and boxy and boring because he's stiff from freezing to death and it's an impersonal unengaging style#(<- ignoring the other reason: something more dynamic would've probably been harder to map dialogue to and it was already a dense spread)#anyway. got a dip pen yesterday and wayy too many nibs so im thinking about doing a happier kiryu + haruka piece with that. go crazy#real ones can see how this developed from the gifset of this scene to the wtf his hands are ourple post. it's been fermenting#happy with the reblogs so far bc it's all like HEY HEY HEY. OUCH. OWIEEEE and this is good (ik bc i also say owwie ouch when smth is sad)#skrunkart
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Smoking Room
A MacGyver 2016 Fic in reference to The Collective (2023)
Strike Team Delta is tasked with taking down a trafficking ring from the inside out. They find an unlikely ally with the same goal, only without any resources or gear other than a Swiss Army Knife.
#me putting on my clown makeup trying to write military lingo 🤡#also i PROMISE i'm going to bed now#pinkie promise 🫡#in which vi actually writes#macgyver#macgyver 2016#angus macgyver#jack dalton#The Collective#okay gn sweet dreams i love you all so much#please be kind to yourself#drink some water#eat some food#if you see yourself in the mirror go ''ooh i'm sexy as FUCK''#treat yourself to a baguette#idk man. whatever floats your love yourself boat#do it#okay good night for real now i love you <3
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ugghhh wintertime sucks!! I'm sad and tired and sad all the time.. I need a nap.. and f/o cuddles.. and another nap..
#ash rambles 💚#negative#part of it is definitely the weather#it's so dark and dreary and i never wanna leave my bed#but also just. my mood akdjajs I'm kinda down in the dumps today#im recovering from being sick which always fucks me up#and i just cant shake this feeling of anxiety..? and i feel kinda a lot like my f/os wouldnt like me or would fall out of love or never see#me as more than a friend and other stuff like that#i.. actually got broken up with yesterday irl!#it wasnt messy. he said that this isnt what he wanted and it was fine and we're back to being pals. i wasnt sad at all in the moment and#i dont think i am now..? it's weird. we were laughing like always literal minutes after having the chat. when we got together we said that#if things domt work out we wanna keep being friends. and we're doing just that. honestly i saw it coming and idek if i LOVE him anymore#what even does love feel like..? regardless I'm not upset or sad at my breakup since i saw it coming and I'm honestly happy he just. Talked#to me about it. we communicated and then three minutes later went back to talking about x.enoblade LMAAOO it was fun!#but it is ridiculous for me to expect to feel NOTHING at no longer being in a relationship. i cant just feel nothing. i dont feel sad per s#just... in my thoughts i guess? I don't think the feeling of my f/os not liking me stems from me being dumped though. i think thats just me#being me sjdjaksj I'm very insecure a lot of the time. i dont think being dumped helpd very much though LMAAAOO#I'm doing okay i promise. and I'll be alright. theres just both a lot and nothing going on at the same time and i feel... idk what i feel.#i hope my f/os love me 😭 i hope that a lot#and honestly i know this community is ass and I'm more than happy in my own corner with my couple of followers but. ngl I've really felt as#though I'm not valued here and all that junk as of late. yeah just.. i think everything is happening at the same time and I'm tired and#i feel like I'm a confused kiddo who doesnt know anything anymore BAHAHAHA#holy shit it just sounds like i need a shower and a nap huh- I'll be alright I'm just. dealing with stuff akdjsks but i also hate to always#bring the mood down like this! i always try my best to be haha silly and all that shit. I'm just gonna try to daydream about f/o cuddles#(and try to convince myself they dont hate me ofc)#oh and. i know i mentioned this but. i hate the weather. so much. I'm sad all the time. November is actually my least favorite month too 😭#I've gotta study a lot today and I'll try to sneak in some k.urohyou and hopefully start watching monster too but yeah i apolgize if#I'm acting off these days ajdjajs I'm very stuck in my own mind these days. not exactly the most fun place to be 😭#delete later#i mean akdjajs i literally started crying the other day because my friend said that my husband (k.yohei) loves me ajdkahdb come on ash..
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group holidays are always fine in theory until people begin to grate on you on day 2
#namely my roommate#i just want to do things alone or not at his instruction !!!!#like i didn't want to go to bed now and i can hear the others fucking around outside#but he said goodnight all and shut the door so i guess we're going to bed#but we're not going to bed are we bc he's doing his full belly laugh every 30 seconds#hnnggghhhg#this is just a little vent but i'm so tired#and the two of us are never apart!!!#i love him but only in small doses#and i was not asked if i wanted to room with him. it just. got decided.#and i get why. it makes sense for a variety of reasons#but he's just driving me a little crazy#okay that's more of a vent than i thought it would be. i'm going to go for a walk tomorrow by myself i think
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i finally played through the galar chapter of the villain arc in pokémas and it was pretty alright, it at least made me feel kinda vindicated about my stance on rose being a redeemable villain. i will say that i think the chapter would've been stronger if (01) bede was present & played a core role in the plot and (02) oleana switched sides to help rose see that he can't save the future if he keeps going down the same path & tries to do it alone.
#honestly i'm kinda surprised that oleana didn't defect from rose's side bc i feel like it was building towards that?#ya know w/ her immediate distrust of giovanni and the expression she makes when leon points out the issues w/ rose's methods#i feel like her leaving his side would've made things more interesting and impactful#like when even your ride or die peaces out on you you know you've fucked up and need to rethink things#i also feel like it'd reinforce the idea that rose also cares for oleana a lil better too#as for bede i just think they deserve some proper closure when it comes to their relationship w/ rose#gotta clarify that just bc i think rose is redeemable doesn't mean i excuse all of his actions#he's definitely someone who uses others to further his goals and ends up hurting a lot of ppl bc of his methods#but i also feel like he does has the capacity to atone for the shitty things he's done and do right by the ppl he's hurt ya know?#okay i really need to go to bed now especially if i wanna get up at 9#pokemon#pokemas#mj.txt
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ok. well. we have to live.
#if you're trans you have to live. ok?#and. and we aren't exempt from this.#and. fuck.#it might not be okay for a long while but it'll be okay some day. it *has* to be#it has to be okay. it has to be.#pk;m volition🟣#urge surfing is a bitch but we. can do this#we're okay. i won't let anything hurt us again.#ok? going back to bed.#new vow. I'll keep us safe from ourself if it kills me. which it *won't*.#you can ignore this. our innerworld is a bit shot right now so this is how I'm communicating to the others.#we're safe and fine they're just scared. but I'll keeo us ssfe. we have to live and we *will*
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I'm feeling alright today. finally put away about 2-3 months of clean laundry - it just kept piling up. it took three days (I got frustrated very quickly so I did sorting, then more sorting the next day, and putting everything away today) but it's done and I'm so happy! the floor in my room is visible now. I vacuumed! it feels nice.
I think tomorrow I'll put on new bedsheets (I have changed them once since we moved in. we moved in in April.), that'll be even better.
also, I looked up the number for the local child protective services office yesterday....
because I was once again woken up by the assholes in the apartment above us screaming at each other. except I'm fairly sure this time at least one of them screamed at their toddler too. and the toddler started crying - it sounded like they were saying ow... (I've heard this kid cry so many times and this sounded different)
i was still half asleep and I have a hard time telling if things actually happened then, so I can't be 100% sure that's what I heard, but the next time it sounds like that I will try to call someone (like, the yelling definitely happened, my husband heard it too - but I'm not completely sure what it was exactly. oh except the guy called his partner a stupid whore. that's how loud they were yelling....)
#it scares me so fucking much or I'd just do it. even if they're 'just' yelling at each other - that's still not okay? I don't know if anyone#would do anything about it but it feels very bad and wrong to me.#but if they're now starting (?) to yell at their very young child and possibly hurting them? I don't care how scared I am I need to do#something#so I will try#anyway. that went in an unexpected direction. just meant to say yay I did a thing! and then I remembered that#it's very upsetting and I wish they would just stop. obviously for the kids sake but. I know it's selfish but it's the only thing that isn't#good about living here and I just need them to get their shit together and shut the fuck up#I can't keep waking up to that and lying in bed shaking because it scares me so much. yelling is just. a very very bad thing and clearly I#can't handle it.#anyway that's enough for today I'm going to bed now#personal#cw child abuse
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me and my fucked up relationship with work, feeling guilty that things are going to shit while i'm not there and feeling anxious that i'm gonna get some sort of blame for it in the morning
#fuck!!!!!!!!!!!#i'm also up past my bedtime which is pathetically like 9:30 but i don't wanna go to bed#again feeling robbed of those precious free time hours#just gonna drag my ass back there tomorrow and not do half of the things i SHOULD be doing cause i gotta cover for someone or#some fire pops up that i gotta fight#or i just...can't do it#i'm not gonna lie i truly thought i was in a better place regarding my depression and anxiety but#i'm now realizing maybe i've been faking it#or fooling myself to think everything's okay when it's really not#blindly high under influences to mask the true flutterings of my heart or sinking of my stomach or trembling of my skin#again just. fuck me man
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See, I think the thing about deranged, toxic relationships in fiction, is that everyone involved has to actively choose to walk into or keep coming back to this relationship. That's the interesting part for me. What would make someone, against every single ounce of reason, decide that being in a relationship like that is genuinely worth it for them? Why would someone willingly put themselves in that situation? What has to be going on in their psyche? What do they get (or think they get) out of it?
If the toxicity is one-sided or one party is completely railroaded into the relationship at every turn until they finally cave, or there's some outside force trapping both of them in the relationship and they don't actually want to be there, that's not particular interesting to me, personally.
(Obviously, other people can disagree with this; people have a wide variety of opinions and ways they engage with fiction, which is good, actually. I'm simply talking about my own thoughts.)
#also. and I had a conversation about this a while ago with a friend: the versions of this I gravitate toward tend to be ones that...aren't#well-loved by fandom. there are some examples of Complex Toxic Dynamics that ARE praised and popular and end up as examples of#Love Stories Of All Time. but those are...even if it wasn't necessarily INTENTIONAL. those relationships become palatable in some way#to the wider audience. and. I think you all know by now: I am not interested in being palatable#(obviously there are some exceptions to this: like people really like The Fucked-Up Soulmates from one of the movies of all time di revenge#*do. I'm on mobile & I'm lazy I'm not retyping all that)#(and dr/master has a fair amount of love--even if I wouldn't say it's The™ ship of the fandom at large)#but I think...idk. there are some examples of this where it seems like the creators are trying SO hard to make the toxic romance somehow#palatable or relatable to the audience. or like...done in a way to try and make the audience actively root for it.#and again part of the appeal TO ME. is that the people are allowed to be deranged in ways that AREN'T accepted or (how many times can#I use this word) palatable. or 'likable'. the appeal is that they're on the fringes of society and usually that includes 'within#the fandom/audience of the media they're from'#(I think...also. I just see so many toxic '''conventionally attractive''' white men irl. I'm a lot more likely to enjoy a dynamic if it#involves at least one character who isn't that demographic)#okay I need to go to BED#GOOD NIGHT
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