#fuck it this goes on the main blog

[ayellowbirds]

"a pleasure to have in class" etc etc

"gifted child to adult burnout pipeline" whatever

the fuck do I always seem to be the only bitch in my friend/social group who was held back twice

gimme the positivity for girls like me: brainbad shortbus trannies with LDs and shit grades whose teachers constantly said would never get anywhere if I kept acting like this and I made my way into adulthood the same way I made it through school, clawing and biting and scaring the people in my way.

[spade-snax]

Vanittlebug, the vanilla extract bugsnak I made in celebration in Tumblr's new vanilla extract polls obsession - if people like them I may make up more stuff for them, but currently my brain isn't exactly in Bugsnax Mode so I have 0 ideas on what their catching method and stuff would be

[bunnyboyzyon]

I GOT THAT DAMN KEYCHAIN

[lucienne-thee-librarian]

Just to minimize my chances of being genuinely misunderstood OR deliberately misinterpreted, and crucified for something I don't think, How Dare You Say We Piss on the Poor website etc...I'm gonna say this right up top. I absolutely understand why people don't like Thessaly as a character, if anyone does completely unironically stan her as some kind of feminist hero who Did Nothing Wrong uwu, I personally see it as a bit of a red flag. I don't like terfs real or fictional. In a vacuum, I could even completely sympathize and agree with the people who want her cut.

HOWEVER.

It's really something to me to see people clamoring for her to be cut, because she carries and expressed an ugly indefensible prejudice (transphobia) in words towards (1) person. Meanwhile Hob fucking Gadling enacted one of the most violent forms of antiblack racism I can even think of against thousands no, millions of people, the ripple effects of which still affect billions more today. Just a little light idk, profiting off the fucking slave trade and had to be told by someone else that it was bad...and he's a fan favorite.

People are saying Thessally being Dream's love interest reflects badly on him or is somehow endorsement by the narrative (?!?!?!?!?!? Didn't she (SPOILER ALERT AS IF IT MATTERS BY NOW) help participate in his extended assisted suicide? She's not painted as a great person to me just another character what are y'all SMOKING whatever fine. It's fine this is fine.) But shipping Dream with Mr. Former Slaver is not only not verboten or frowned on widely in the fandom but its THEE most popular pairing by far. So...why the difference?

Like where are the same fans who are saying Thessaly shouldn't just be more clearly shown to be wrong, she shouldn't even be in the show at all when it comes to Hobert's crimes??? Yes, transphobia is indefensible. Isn't racism?

And I hear the cries of "it's fiction!!!" Already rallying (if anyone who needs to hear this even sees it lol) to which I say:

HORSESHIT. I KNOW you don't, deep down, really agree because if you did, why get upset about Thessaly being included??? Why does what she said to one person matter if it's Just Fiction You Guyze. Fictional characters are allowed to do bad things and fiction isn't reality sweaty....except when you only apply that standard to fictional racists you like and simp for, but fictional transphobes you don't are SO HARMFUL they shouldn't even be portrayed in fiction.

Like. Give me a big fat BREAK. This looks like bullshit, no? I'm sorry, but I'd love for someone to try and give any other explanation besides one personally offended you or hit home for you, and the other doesn't.

And if that bothers you or you feel like it says something negative about you...idk what you want me to say??? You can't control how other people perceive you and that's how people outside this majority-of-the-fandom bubble see it. You don't need to respond, I just wish and genuinely hope this gives you a moment to think about why fans who ARE bothered by both (and not just paying lip service to being bothered by the one but railing against the other) are so frustrated with people saying everyone is welcome but in practice only bending over backwards for the comfort and emotions of themselves, and people they can easily relate to.

You don't have to like Thessaly (I don't. I find her an interesting antagonist, I don't stan her. And frankly imo likability is not. the point of her character) but you'll pardon me for feeling more than a bit cynical and side eying people's motivations for what seems a...pretty obvious double standard, on what fictional crimes related to real world issues matter to y'all, and which clearly don't. Either actually bring the same energy to the table for fictional people who committed atrocities, even if against a group you're not part of and thus don't feel the need to empathize with, or just carry on, but accept that you don't have the SLIGHTEST room to talk about cutting characters who do immoral things. And you also need to accept that you look like a hypocrite when you do.

[perenlop]

havent seen this take in a while thankfully but it popped up in my head and i wanna post this anyways. i think everyone who talks about how siffrin “got off too easy” at the end of isat and his friends should have abandoned him should go read warrior cats if they want an example of a character using their trauma as their god-given jailbreak card to treat their family and peers (a good amount of whom who were completely innocent) like dogshit, and who faces zero consequences from the narrative for it (and in fact bends over to blame their peers). like read all the shit jayfeather does while the narrative sobs over how tragic but awesome and quirky he is and then look me in the eye and tell me siffrin’s ending was poorly written.

[k2-truther]

pov Utahn Miku feeds you Funeral Potatoes

(fyi, artist wasn't raised/isn't LDS but *IS* an slc native. Trust that I've tasted her golden ambrosia many a time.)

[sarrai]

Saw some takes on how Dante and Vergil don't love each other at all and I'm just. Baffled how someone can get into the series and come away thinking that they actually hate each other.

[flowercrowngods]

i don't know how to be merely acquaintances when we used to be friends. or i think we used to be. i don't know how to yearn for a simple hello when you've been heaping your affection on me months ago, and i don't know how to talk to you when you won't say anything. when suddenly it's all about me. you know i have nothing to say, you know my brain is void of everything but horribleness and i cannot tell you about my day because i don't even know about my day. i cannot tell you about my day when i know you won't listen, when i know you'll apply your philosophy to my world and don't believe me when i say that everything is terrible. i don't know how to be the person you seem to think i am, or the person you want in your life. i don't know if you want anyone else in your life now that you're in love and sappy, found another recipient for your affections, leaving me empty and wounded and yearning.

you said you missed me. said it many times, while i was gone. now i'm back, have been back, and i wonder how you missed me, why you missed me, when you won't talk to me. i think you mistook missing for worrying. i think you mistook caring for a feeling of obligation. i think you like missing me more than talking to me.

and i think i can't breathe with how much that hurts

[angelsdean]

welp. Not to be dramatic but. i am so depressed to hear this news abt tumblr. spent the day mostly offline and come back to see everyone talking abt alternative platforms and I just ?? this has been thee only social media I’ve pretty much used since age 14. And it’s pathetic but. I’m gonna feel so fucking lost if one day I wake up and it’s not here anymore.

[dunmertwink]

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[repurposedmeatlocker]

The Ed Edd n Eddy "purgatory theory" is so boring and stupid. And yet millennials who haven't watched the show since they were 9 will still stand by and defend it with their life. How about instead of inventing some edgy backstory for your childhood shows, you watch it and interpret what is actually there?

[wilburs-hibana]

silent overservation

[mossiestpiglet]

this is the second time that this class and this specific assignment has made me meltdown why the fuck is this class taught like this

[puppys-rhythm-heaven]

i am being so fucking autistic about a video game i've only played an hour and a half of and have absorbed like 99% of my information about through osmosis from my bestie(s. it's complicated) and fanfiction. catastrophic levels of autism. i can't stress this in words i don't think y'all understand. or care honestly sdflkjfdskdfsjsfdkj-

[drifloonz]

one day ill be annoying ab my selfship again . although i enjoy that ppl enjoy my writing most of this is entirely self indulgent, projection, and for me . being so real .

[baejax-the-great]

i thought you had two blogs [this one and one for art] but then i saw another blog. is it like a blog franchise?

So when I joined tumblr in the year 2011, I didn't know what fandom was. My only blog was onionjuggler, and I used it mainly to follow college and high school friends. Despite reading all of Homestuck, I remained fully unaware of fandom until 2017 when I played Mass Effect and became obsessed with a video game.

In order to not annoy the hell out of my real life friends by reblogging a thousand pictures of Shepard, I made a fandom blog. I still didn't understand fandom or even that the actual purposes of tags on tumblr was for finding fellow fans or whatever, but I was having a good time.

In the space from 2011 to 2024, all but around six of my RL friends have left tumblr, and those six probably go online like once a week. Meanwhile, my fandom habits picked up, and I made a bunch of online friends. This has had the unfortunate effect of my "main" blog being followed by like 6 people (ilu all tho), and my fandom blog having far more people I'm regularly in contact with through this site and people who follow me for whatever reason of their own.

Unfortunately, tumblr doesn't let you switch main blog vs side blog, which mean my follows, asks, and (until a couple months ago) replies all come from onionjuggler. This has confused people for seven years now. The only way to fix it is to delete the original main blog which will promote Baejax to main, and I'm unwilling to nuke onionjuggler because it is my old friends home for aging millennials.

My third blog is actually attached to a completely separate account because I realized my relationship with getting notes on my art made me feel pretty terrible, and I wanted to make it so i can't check that sort of thing on my phone AND so I couldn't compare the notes my reblogged art was getting to the art I personally made. It helped a lot. I highly recommend this for anyone having similar feelings.

Is it a franchise? Probably not. Is it a mess? Yeah. For a while I tried to keep "juggler" in the fandom blog title to make it more obvious, but people started calling me 'Jugs' and for obvious reasons I couldn't let that continue.