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Not a comic but. Have some sketches and a silly little illustration style doodle that I speedran based on one of the sketches
I've been writing up scripts for comics and like. I do like a few of them but idk that I'm gonna have the time to commit to like. Actually making them into actual comics. So instead I decided to sit down and scribble out some doodles of QPR Au Narilamb cuz I had some free time and used it to sketch (ya know instead of like. Taking a real actual break lmfao)
Most of these sketches are based on ideas I have for the Au? For instance, three of the comics I've written but may never draw have Narinder exhibiting Peak Cat Behaviors by sitting on Lambert's desk while they're working (when I say working I mean. Doodling. Because they are struggling to make actual progress on whatever they're supposed to be working on, yk) so I've decided. That's just. Part of Narinder's characterization in this Au now?? He just likes to interrupt Lambert specifically by sitting and waiting on their desk for them to pay attention to him. Idk I just think it's funny. Anyways. I have a handful of other thoughts about Lambert and Narinder individually in the QPR Au that also landed on this page, but those are gonna be a future-me-explains-later kinda vibe.
That said. Enjoy these silly little doodles of my silly QPR Au and may at least one good thing happen for all of y'all today :D
#cotl#cult of the lamb#cult of the lamb fanart#cotl fanart#cotl lamb#cotl narinder#cotl narilamb#narilamb#cotl au#cult of the lamb au#the yet untitled qpr narilamb au#fuck it thats the tag now. i guess i gotta go add it to my other comics at some point........ not right now tho
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Send me a â đĽ â for an unpopular opinion. Bonus points if you include a topic. ( IE. shipping, roleplaying, ect. )
Okay. I struggled to come up with some topics to talk about for a while plus just issues through the entirety of this week. BUT I FIGURED IT OUT.
đĽ - PROMOS. tbh, promo's main use were to help roleplayers find other roleplayers, to spread the word about your blog and find more partners and people to make friends and broaden your experiences with learning about new and exciting fandoms. Now I just find them tedious, and annoying to make. if you aren't a popular blog the odds of your promo being reblogged and spread around is so minimal. it also just feels like clout chasing at this point. and yeah nothing wrong with reblogging your promo and having your friends hype you up, but then ppl wonder why they think the rpc is so alienating? cuz someone else will reblog their promo's expecting the same thing and they don't get it and then they feel left out. but if its just so you can get some nice thrown at you, it just feels like more clutter for my dash especially if I'm already following you. now if you're a NEW blog. if you just joined a fandom, and you want some exposure, I'm down for that because that is what a promo is supposed to be for.
đĽ - Personals. I actually like personals. sometimes personals care more about what I post than my own followers. i get ppl being upset if they reblog their threads, but liking your posts? and maybe reblogging a headcanon or something but idk i guess for me that stuff just doesn't bother me. I love when people reblog my headcanon and they agree. or they add onto it, with their own thoughts. or they tell me how much they love it. makes me feel seen. makes me feel cool. i just think people forget that tumblr is NOT a roleplay site. yes, we found a use to tailor it to our hobby, that doesn't mean everyone who comes across our blogs know that. they arent apart of our community, what makes you think they have to abide our guidelines for it? tbh, roleplayers have just gotten entitled to thinking that tumblr is supposed to bow to our whim. we share a space with non roleplayers. to demand, and just expect ppl are just going to see your rules and read them and respect it rght away?? come on ya'll. we know to look for rules cuz its what we've been doing for years, but you can't expect that from strangers who are likely mobile bound just seeing something you wrote in the tags. its gonna happen. i just dont like the mannerisms some people have with them. you dont gotta be rude about it. if its really bothering you just block them and be done. problem solved. going out of your way to make posts about how annoying they are is just unnecessary.
đĽ - duplicates. this is one is gonna get me fired but oh well. Ya'll we have GOT to love ourselves better. because it is plain and simple insecurity for why people feel they cant talk or write with duplicates. i know it does deeper in some cases, like your current partner leaving you for the shinny new roleplayer of the same muse you write. believe me I've been there. but fuck those people. when are we gonna stop letting others dictate how we feel about ourselves? i hate seeing shit when a new roleplayer pops up with the same muse and suddenly you get the vaguing posts about 'suddenly feeling very doubtful of my portrayal' like its not obvious you are threatened. and in this fandom??? we're i follow like 30 different alastors?? lucifers?? Angels"?? all different, all got something to add and share. i got news for you but your portrayal isnt the only ONE. its not the end all be all. and yes I talk to my ego all the time, cuz there are some muses i write where i'm like I AM THE GOD FATHER OF THIS MUSE. but thats me and my own pride, doesnt mean anyone else who writes this muse is less than me. or i'm suddenly less than them. and there are portrayals i dont fuck with. i simply just do not look their way. but theres always muses i love roleplaying with duplicates cuz its FUN. also being able to talk to people who love this muse as much as you?? learn to stop looking at everything like its a competition and things will not be as stressful. its what makes this hobby unfun when you let those insecurities eat you up. im not saying its not valid, and im not saying you cant be upset, but what does it really do for you? what would happen if you just went and talked to them? imagine it goes well? you make a new friend. dont deny yourself opening a door just because you are scared of what 'might' be behind it. and its something I am learning and teaching myself. our issue is we all wanna be see, and heard. we all wanna be the absolute best. we wanna have the best portrayal like this sort of acknowledgement does anything. cuz while I know ppl love my own portrayals, still doesn't change the fact that i got issues and i cry myself to sleep still. the 'love' i get on here, ain't a fix. and if you think seeking validation on tumblr dot com is gonna fix you? its not. the attention and love we seek on here is just a placeholder, its us using this as a distraction from actually fixing our problems, and turn i still see how so many of us are unhappy. let it go.
#âwe have another callerâ . // answered asks#xbalayage#i love tumblr but i also hate so much about it#:D
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OMG NO THATS SO FAIR KDFGNDFG i didnt expect to watch the movies outside fo amanda (since thats the reason i got into the franchise in the first place) but after i did decide to watch the ones aside from 2, 3, and 10, i found out that hoffman annoyed the fuck out of me too dgkndfg SO YIPPEE YAY YAY FOR THATđ¤đ¤ idk how i got through the rest of the movies..... esp considering how hoffman focused they are............ but i managed, despite feeling rage spread all throughout my body every time he was on screen
BUT ANYWAY . thats totally understandable, abt perez i mean, esp if you Refuse to watch the later movies. BUT YEAH RIGHT????? AMANDAS SUCH A GOOD CHOICE REGARDLESS OF POTENTIAL LOL so glad you understand... ANDOHHHHH HER WORKING W/ THEM.... THATD BE SO EPIC AND CUTE I LOVE THAT SO MUCH??? what type of relationship do you think theyd have? a sort fo like ??? fatherly one to her? or older brothers? or just like .... an uncle or smth dfkgndfg IDK IDK THT THOUGHT IS SO SWEET . I DEF GOTTA DRAW SMTH FOR THEM TOGETHER
WUH LUH WUH.... youre so right abt that though LOL but im extremeeeely biased as you should know by now. glad you like lynnmanda y ou are so <3 get why soneone wouldnt like it, but half tjhe time ppl are just being hypocritical LOL BUT I APPRECIATE YOU LIKING THEM AS WELL YIPPPEE i get the appeal of other popular pairings as well but i just refuse it sometimes if you know what i mean. i end up just getting annoyed and stuff
fair enough! i absolutely see how and why sing and tapp stole your heart đ they r very cool and their story deserved more than one movie (but thats how most things go in saw i guess unfortunately) BUT YEAH. YIPPEE AMANDA ENJOYER and i just loooove thinking abt john as character despite not being incredibly fond of him in most other aspects. as a villain hes just so incredible. BUT HYEAAH this franchise is def good at making good characters ... esp ones that just Stick w/ you. which is ironic siknce most of the time they jsut DIE but . SORRY FOR GOING BERSERK BUT AHH I LOVE TALKING ABT STUFF LIKKE THIS HEHE valentina is so good, recently yhoiught abt her and just. maaaaan. so tragic and sad. AND ZEP TOO. I TOTALLY DISREGARDED HIS POTENTIAL. AND JUST ???? THE WAY THAT THOSE WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE ROOTING AGAINST (ZEP IN SAW 1'S CASE) WERE ALSO PLACED INTO THAT SITUATION AGAINST THEIR WILL? PLACED INTO A GAME BY JOHN? AND IF THEY /DONT/ FOLLOW ORDERS THEY TOO WILL SUFFER A SHITTY FATE? its just suuuch a great concept and stuff . makes you feel bad for the ppl who originally seem 100% evil and antagonistic
AND OHH OKAY OKAY... seeing your tags ill prob add you on discord if thats cool w/ you :D AND SORRY FOR RESPONDING W/ MY OWN BLOCK OF TEXT LOL thank yo for chatting w/ me! rly appreciate it!
random ask BUT do you ship Perez with anyone in particular? I don't see alot of fan content of her so I am interested in hearing ur thoughts!!
NOT A RANDOM ASK AT ALL !!!! ill be honest w/ you im usually not toooo huge on pairings and ships and stuff so . idk what the hell they put int the saw characters to have me so invested dkdnsdfdg
BUT TO ANSWER YOUR QUESTION!!!!! not really tbh! however my eyes have totally been opened to the potential of amanda / perez due to a mutual and a few others.... and even just. apprentice perez (esp afgter strahm is killed) is just SOOO interesting and epic...
and youre so right abt the fan works.... she SOOO deserves more (accidentally wrote me instead of more at first and ??!??!?!! yeah<3) stuff even outside of strahm (despite loving their dynamic and relationship) . i def will have to provide at some point 𫡠AND I PROMISE YOU THAT
what about you ? đ do you ship perez w/ anyone in particular? have any other fave characters / pairings youd like to talk about? bc i am sooo willing to listen!!!! hmu whenever!
#rbs#text#mine#my thoughts#saw#[COUNTER ATTACKS YOUR WALL OF TEXT W/ MY OWN]#I LOOVE WALLS OF TEXT \#LIKE SO SMCUH
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guess fucking what? my inbox is so fucking full right now i'm unloading all of this shit in one post.
For the 11th gotham memes: gothamites react to bruce being jacked in a tiktok he made with kids, like super yoked, ripped as hell
fucking hilarious thanks. i think i did it in one meme post, but i genuinely don't remember which one
i dunno which of the batfam would do this but one time i was sleeping over at a friends house and ended up on the floor bc the bed was so very small and i just stayed there because the rug was soft
that's a drunk jason move i don't know what to tell you
tim and jason are "i listen to pop punk" solidarity. whenever jason highjacks the batmobile theyll go on long ass car rides blaring mcr and paramore and then never talk about it again
as they should!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tim: no jason it's my turn using the aux cord i gotta put on my jams jason: don't you dare put on weird shit tim: don't worry, you're gonna love this *plays fearless (taylor's version)
hear me out hear me out, red hood stans đ¤ nightwing stans t h i g h s
holy shit yes.
SNL au: Bruce breaks character when pretending to superman and says something like "I'm not superman! You've seen his gps!! It's from 2001!!!" @sabeanybabe
superman flies past the snl building the next day just to say 'actually it's from 2005, i'm not a heathen'
does your back hurt from carrying the batfam fandom
it hurts more from the exotic rock collection i keep in my backpack, but thanks for the concern.
I love your posts by why would you always leave the best parts in the tags?
as a treat for the people that check the tags ;) (and also because i'm committed to the short post aesthetic)
somehow your playlist was everything i never knew i needed. i mean it. this is my new favorite playlist.
and don't you dare get a new favourite playlist!
babe ur stoner tim playlist is exactly too perfect, earth is literally blessed by ur existence
babe thanks so much! i love my stoner tim playlist because it's just my usual playlist but people think it's an artistic choice that i put taylor swift and britney spears in there, when it's just what i unironically like listening to
JANDKSKDK BILLY RAY CYRUS ON THE STONER TIM PLAYLIST I LOVE IT IT
again it's not even an ironic choice, i know every single word and i genuinely like the song
The last chapter of Fundamentals of Casework has me crying at work. Thanks I love it @dudelookitsalesbian
oh babe, i'm sorry, but also, not sorry i love chapter 4 so much it's my lovechild with the 'mental illness' tag
soooo....stumbled on your tumblr by some stroke of fate??? read your DC fanfic first. which is PHENOMENAL btw. then found all the batmemes; the funniest thing EVER bc everyone forgets about regular old gothamites. kept scrolling and your blog pops up as recommended. clicked on the ao3 for shits and giggles and waddaya know?!?!? it's YOU!!! you're LEGEND!!!! ever seen that meme? it's a video of a cat that got into a baseball field and the two announcers get really invested in his escape attempt and start giving a play by play of the cat instead of the game. memeable moment: "GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!"
i seriously think about this ask every single day and it's so fucking funny to me that i've never seen the meme you're referencing, but i still find myself going 'GREAT stuff from the Cat!!!' whenever i see something funny. but wow i'm glad you liked this steaming pile of garbage
Fav dc character overall? And fav batfamily character?
don't ask me to pick between the loves of my life, but i can tell you i've cried about every single batfamily member and also wally west (my beloved)
What's your opinion on fans having a problem with batfam being "too big"? And some even claim that batfam is just "Bruce Alfred Dick Damian" and the rest of them are just "friends and allies" (source: reddit) Personally, I like batfam because of this reason but idk
stupid. a family can never be too big. i'm not that big a fan of like huge batfam stuff with everybody from every single universe, because as much as it's funny for bruce to have like 30 kids, it just feels a little too OOC for me.
This is the best tag I've seen involving the batfam, thanks for thinking of it
This is canon now @nctxrejects
lmao yeah i think at that point alfred has had to sit through like at least a dozen coming out talks and just has a pride flag collection in the attic that he pulls out whenever a kid comes out
idk why batfam hits different as compared to any other superhero family
bc it's found family and usually the other superhero families are almost all genetically related in one way or another
I don't know if you watch the umbrella academy but I saw your last post about batcest and saw the similarities. But the thing is (although I think it's weird) in TUA, they addressed it by saying "they were raised as weapons, not siblings" or something along those lines, which is simply not the case with batfam.
yeah i watched tua but i also thought it was ridiculous and they still treated each other as siblings so i didn't like the luthor/allison thing, and am glad they stopped doing that shit bc it fucking sucked.
Hot take: Batcest shippers are the same people who believe adopted siblings are not actual siblings
smoking hot take: batcest shippers are the people who watch 'my sister got stuck in the washing machine' porn
Duke was adopted by Bruce?
not technically no, but do i, tumblr user batarangsoundsdumb, look like i care?
True story but I had to change my freaking name because it used to be "Damien" and most people would go "OH LIKE DAMIAN WAYNE" like please I'm just tryna live
true story, but i don't actually think of damian when i hear the name damian, literally the first thing that pops up is damian darkh like bruh what?
apparently dc comics company supported comic stores by giving out new titles and stuff during the beginning of the pandemic to help them run and I just think that's wholesome
ah yeah that's so fucking cool, still don't like dc, the company, because this world is a capitalist hellhole and we're all owned by warner brothers or disney with no in between.
ayo looking at tumblr head canons and finding out bruce is actually a terrible father is a punch in the gut
lmao yes, in like 50% of comics bruce is a terrible father and it gives me whiplash
oooh I just saw the jason todd vs winter soldier post and the real question is: batman vs iron man
while iron man has like hundreds of cases of armor, batman could throw out an emp and have the guy dropping out of the sky in 2 seconds.
dickfast = fastdick = quickdick = quickie
magnum hot take
hey bata(?) just thought I'd let you know I have copied the obnoxious emoji and Billy Ray post for use on simping men going forth
thank you đđˇ (@spacebarsidecar)
why would you do that to your followers???? i get why i did it, but why would you???
what is scarecrow made the nightwing funko pop himself, like those diy-ers that paint over other ones
oh god no, horrible take, horrible take, that's a disgusting thought oh no
I see your HC that Bruce and Oliver fucked and raise you this: Dick and Roy ALSO fucked
yes they did and it was a horrible moment for jason to find out dick has fucked both of his best friends
"at this rate bruce adds like 1 child to his family every decade or so" Duke is introduced in 2013, Damian as Damian, not as an unnamed child, in 2006. And he is already 14 years old, Robins rarely remain Robins after 16 đŹ It looks like a new Robin and Batkid will appear in a couple of years
i mean i can't wait? but somebody will probably die first tho, we're due for another major character death. my money's on either cass or duke this time.
BRO you're so right all of your Bruce's ex headcanons are amazing but they aren't ships, that's kinda wild. Like I don't want any peeks into how their relationship was I just want to see everyone make fun of them
lmao YES it's just i love bruce being a slut, like good for him.
I am in love with your posts your honour thank you
omg thanks are we like,, gonna kiss now?
The justice league needs to have a meeting to discuss how many of their members/partners have slept with bruce. Because through a combination of cannon & fannon (if DC wasnât homophobic) we have AT LEAST: 1) clark 2) lois 3) oliver 4) dinah 5) john
Thats not counting villains or random civilians @dudelookitsalesbian
yes yes yes, they'll have a yearly meeting about how many of their collective exes could be out for revenge and batman's list just keeps getting longer.
tim was like "i'm drake now" and everyone was like ahh so your fursona is a dragon and tim was like pffffft no. ducks.
and what about it?
when steph's fighting livewire and she zaps her with lighting and nothing happens and then they both just. stand there awkwardly for a second and talk. yeah i couldn't stop laughing at that batgirl steph is the BEST
oh yeah that was fucking hilarious and i think it would be so cool and sexy of dc to give steph a little comic series,,, as a treat
Hi I absolutely adore all of yours "Bruce and Oliver very badly pretending they didn't fuck each other" memes
lmao i do too
I need you to know that âBruce Wayne had frosted tipsâ is one of my favorite Bruce takes of all time itâs so galaxy brained. youâre right and you should say it
he also painted his hair blonde once when he was travelling and in conclusion, this is why he's being blackmailed by the gotham gazette.
you know my thing about gordon being branded as the only good cop in gotham is its a load of shit like arguably he's a good person and not working to screw people over or anything but the fact that he also works w. batman makes him a shit cop. like yea batman is better than the mob but its still illegal its still an abuse of power he just not making bank
babe, all cops are bad cops. (but yeah youre absolutely right, working with vigilantes makes you a shit cop, but also working against vigilantes just makes you an asshole cop yanno?)
ruh roh i think iâm about to add âso not yeehawâ every time i donât like something
that's a very good vocabulary upgrade
somehow i feel like steph already knew. like babs obviously knew but i feel like bruce got high/drunk in front of steph and started telling his boarding school stories and steph was just like âoh you fucked up iâm never gonna forget thisâ
steph and bruce have weird uncle/rebellious niece dynamic and they just hang out sometimes and bruce will be like 'i once broke my arm when i tripped over a hedge when i was drunk so oliver drove me to the hospital on an electric scooter' and steph will just have to sit there with that knowledge in her head.
Hello I just wanted to tell you you are So right in all your steph opinions bc she is, in fact amazing and I think that's very sexy of you. Ps. Your Bruce/Oliver fic is hilarious
babe, thank you so much and yes steph is amazing and i love her and she deserves the world and she's the best member of the batfam hands down. also thanks
In Supersons we see a couple of kids that are implied to be Damian and Jon's children and the boy has laser eyes and can fly, so I asume he's not adopted. The girl, who calls Bruce grandpa, can also fly, btw. So it's canon (probably by accident) that Jon can have kids and he must have married one of Bruce's kids. (I'm hoping for Damian, mostly because any other of his children would be waaaaaaaaaaaaay too old.) @artemisa97
lmao that was probably an accident seeing as jon is a 17 year old superhero in the year 3000 (by the jonas brothers)
You know, I'm a die hard fan of your memes, but I gotta say one thing: if Gothamites actually took gas mask everywhere with them, then the Scarecrow would just be a weird dude in a weird costume, and not a villain oh so scary. DC really should just takes notes from you.
bold of you to assume there's no gothamite anti-maskers
How does it feel being the funniest person on this app?
horrible, next question.
I can't listen to Green Day or Billy Joel without thinking of your post about how Bruce got arrested at a Billy Joel concert @nightwings-kid
yeah that's your mistake, i on the other hand can't enjoy billy joel without thinking about the glee rendition of 'uptown girl'
I've FINALLY been watching the Batman animated series and I gotta say, after watching "the gray ghost" I am CONVINCED that Batman is a closeted super hero geek who was 100% freaking out the first time he met Superman and is just REALLY good at hiding it.
superman: so what do you do in your free time? batman, thinking about the superman fanfiction he's writing on the batcomputer: i have no free time
bruce and oliver be like boyfriends to co-workers 401k (do the justice leagues get 401ks??? not that bruce and ollie would need them, but-)
lmao yes just 400 thousand words of bruce realising 'oh dip oliver is such a fucking dumbass' (also i don't know what a 401 k is but i assume they don't?)
Gothamites would totally boo superman as he saves Gotham while batman is out. @meenje
he's like 'okay think about that next time you want to be saved from an alien octopus'
I just took long break from dc comics and I come back to see ric grayson ??
i think it's very cool and sexy of dc to see dick and just think 'you know what? let's just give him a traumatic brain injury' and then didn't develop his character in any real way
SPEAKING OF RIC GRAYSON, gothamites making confused memes out of ric grayson is much needed
'dick grayson is my taxi driver? can anyone explain what the fuck happened he looks like an italian plumber?'
i hate to say it but batfam are def "marvel characters" in that sense they are characters who are human but become superheroes unlike most dc characters who are gods trying to be human maybe this is why I like batfam
fair enough
#this is only like half of it#but at least you can get like a few answers#yanno fuck it#bataranswers#ask#asks#anon
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Keeping Up A-fear-ance's Thoughts
I finished writing this shortly after 3 am after watching the new episode like three times because I simply had too much energy about it and I have so many thoughts because I simply live for clawthornes and also I tried to break it up with more photos this time sorry not sorry if it's a lot ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ
YOUNG EDA!! let me just say I am quite a fan of opening with a flashback like we've done here and the last episode
"we have never seen a curse like this before" Lilith you had shit luck picking out curses huh
"cut it out if we have to" goddamn Gwen let'a calm the fuck down a bit.
anyways we've only really seen young Eda as a wild and confident and happy little child so I appreciate seeing this side of her with the anxiety and fear she's feeling here. I love seeing what the curse stuff was like for her as a kid
Gwen: I raised a perfectly fine kid
Me: no you didn't look at her she's got anxiety
I'm guessing this is their backyard or just some woods behind their house?? wonder if the portal was placed there by another elder family member.
lmao I can't even begin to imagine what small Eda experiencing the human realm was like for the first time
Gwens giving me "I can't accept that my child is disabled/chronically ill/etc." here. yâknow the kinda parent that'll put their kid through hell over something they probably will find a way to learn to live with (which Eda did do)
ok that's it I humbly request to know the story behind the fang now (also the noise she made when she put it in was freaking cute)
new dress! new boots! new dress! new boots!
..yikes that fridge is empty
"calm down the curse acts stronger when you're stressed" Eda do you know who you're talking to here
confirmation losing limbs is in fact a side effect of the curse!! (y'know since Eda originally said it just happens when you get older)
please I love these sisters they're so sweet and make me wanna go đĽş
"suddenly curious about my past" "always. always curious" Luz says exactly what we all think
witchlet?? sweet flea?? she's got pet names for them 𼺠(although idk how much I'd like to be referred to as any kind of flea sorry Lilith)
ok Gwen is very much not close to what I expected and I'm kinda grateful for that
she's more like super caring but still managed to royally fuck up which was my original head canon for clawthorne parents so uh that's cool. but literally, look at their body language, Eda's pissed, Lilith's sad and making herself small. she's clearly messed up with her parenting on both of them along the way.
"who knows what they put in those nasty concoctions?" mama clawthorne would be a fucking anti-vaxxer wouldn't she
ok I side with Eda here more than Luz and Lilith. just because Luz misses her mother, or Lilith hasnât seen their mom in so long doesnât mean Eda has to feel all grateful for the presence of Gwen, especially if the woman has caused her a lot of trouble over the years
I feel like the fact that its actually both Lilith and Gwendolyn have spent their whole lives dedicated to trying to find a cure could probably have held some kind of weight on Eda at some point. Even though she shouldn't feel guilty or responsible for that, I still feel like it's gotta suck knowing these people have spent so much time on something you know is likely never gonna happen, all for you.
Lilith đ her mother really just didn't pay attention to her all these years
hey if this guy does some next level healing magic then why isn't he more well-known, huh? whyâd it take so long to come across him?? Gwen do you know what the fuck you're doing cause I think you don't
Lilith just because you're depressed about your mom doesn't mean you have to bring king down too đ
SUPER irrelevant but is anyone else just bothered by the way Lilith is holding her spoon?? that doesn't seem like a comfortable way to hold a spoon. also is she left handed??
"knife season came early" EDA WHAT DOES THAT MEAN. is this a boiling isles things or is this a itâs common for people to throw knives at you thing
also I want to be surprised Eda fell for the apple blood signs but I am not đÂ
Luz please trust you're gut on this one and not mama clawthorne
ok now I need to know why the fridge was empty but they had 18 cartons of ice cream this is why you guys don't have food you're wasting it all on ice cream.
wow never thought I'd see the day hooty became the voice of reason
also, night market ice cream?? are they implying this ice cream is like, edibles of some sort?? Lilith does seem kinda high here ngl. idk man but at least she wants to stand up for herself so good for her.
PLEASE kings just offering her ice cream while she transforms
"first in a series" Gwen honey oh no. you've been duped. I think we can see where Lilith got her naĂŻvetĂŠ from huh.
Also, nice snatch Luz đ
anyways love how this show is basically making fun of moms who refuse to give their kids proper medical treatment or listen to medical professionals here
EXCUSE ME why do we know Gwen's palisman's name before we know Lilith's?????
"I am a mother who'll do anything for her daughter" you're mom who's suffocating obsession with one daughter has left the other neglected and is currently causing her to turn into a full on beast ya dummy
Eda DOES have a right to be upset. it sucks that her own valid emotions that she should get to feel will cause her while body to betray her.
PLEASE IâM SO GLAD LILITHâS BEAST DESIGN LOOKS LIKE HER AND IS NOT THE THING FROM THE TRAILER THAT IS ACTUALLY IN EDA"S HEAD WHEN SHEâS TRANSFORMED
but also why is she SO massive?? also anyone concerned that this is her first transformation and the light glyph trick wouldn't even work??
Gwen look at what you've done, you've fostered feelings of inferiority in one daughter causing her to feel the need for sibling rivalry that the pure instincts of the raven beast cannot suppress no matter how much their sisterly relationship had improved.
HOW COULD YOUR OTHER DAUGHTER ALSO BEING CURSED BE A PART OF THE PROCESS GWEN??
"after Eda was cursed, I joined the beast keeping coven" woah woah WOAH. you're telling me you only joined because of trying to help Eda. that covens existed, before Eda got cursed, and you very much weren't a part of one. combine that with "some words for belos" she has and do I smell wild witch theory still plausible???
anyways at least mama clawthorne is getting some sense into her head here
Morton c'mon help a girl out, that's some dang good art too what the heck dude
ok fine mama clawthorne to the rescue
no pls not raven beast Lilith crying im crying now
Gwen: I raised a fine and self-sufficient child
Me: no you didn't look at her. she's got, SO MUCH.
GODDAMN THATS SOME POWER. ngl this only adds fuel to the fire in my head that there was some kinda reasoning these sisters were torn apart, that someone felt they'd be too powerful together (and they were probably right)
"I heard you but I couldn't stop myself, I couldn't do anything" may be just because she's not used to the curse but again part of me is concerned that because she couldn't pull herself out of it even a little bit like Eda did that there's something wrong there. but she also could've been stressed beyond reasonably calming herself down too.
ok but this is sweet
NOOO im so sad Lilith's leaving :( I literally cried ok
"you lived here?" fine OKAY king that was hilarious even if im sad about this
"reconnect with dad" excuse me where the fuck has this man been in the middle of all of this. curse shit is going DOWN and he's just chilling at home.
I am curious about people's thoughts regarding the whole Lilith regression thing and the fact that she's literally going to be living with her parents again. I feel like it could help nurture that inner child she's been reverting back to and help her out a LOT. but I could also be concerned about it feeding into the regression and making it worse?? idk and this show probably ain't getting that actually deep into psych anyways
"some day my hair is gonna be big enough to do that too" Luz I cannot wait for the day. also mood, I wish I could do that too.
alright who's holding the fucking pen for hooty we need a volunteer RIGHT NOW so we can remain in contact with Lulu
NOT THE ONLY HUMAN? my bets on the real azura rip never mind she said he
Titanâs Blood?? interesting. If the blood of the titan is around I wonder what that means regarding the titans existence, and how long its been since the titan fell.
AHH BABY LUZ PHOTO
ALSO WHO THE FUCK IS THAT?? They're really gonna spring that on us like this??? Camila's gotta notice somethings wrong right??? Unless any differences she just chalks up to the camp?? oh god :(
well, anyways lumity shippers come get yo juice next weekend
anyways im gonna need to add a NOT canon compliant tag on that one Gwendolyn fic I wrote because it definitely do not comply anymore
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do u !!! have any character theme songs for the troop boys? Like any songs you think really fits them (and why u think it fits)?
THATS A GREAT QUESTION!!
Before I get into it Im going to plug this collaborative Troop Playlist on Spotify, feel free to add onto it!! Continuing with my picks
I think a lot of the songs I associate with The Troop in general are just because I happened to listen to them around the same time I got into the book in the first place (So they could only be tangentially related BUT only if you squint hard) Example: Drunk by The Living Tombstone, cant really tie it into the story but in my mind its linked Some better, more fitting songs under the cut (Side note its LONGGG IM SORRY... Also its all YouTube links because some of these arent on Spotify :'^()
Disclaimer -Like 95% of my choices arent really a "These lyrics match up exactly 1 to 1" but more of an overall "the vibe/general idea its trying to capture lines up" type thing. If that makes sense.
Its Alright by Jack Stauber: Kind of self explanatory, I think its a perfect song for these guys. From "It's alright, I'm here, Everything's alright, Feels weird but calm, I wanna hear It's alright" to the whole sound of it- its all great. Equal parts distressing and sad with an almost eerie calmness to it. Despite it all theyre gonna be alright, right?
The Second Little Piggy by Worthikids: Another one that I think is sort of self explanatory- at least with the chorus. "If my brain turns to mush, If the shit hits the fan, Will you be my friend?" Kind of the falling apart of everything, specifically their relationships, in light of the incident.
Poor George by James Supercave: Another case of "listened to at the same time I read the book" BUT I was actually making a Troop PMV script with that song. I never finished it but maybe Ill revisit it... just for you
Cold Summer by Le Matos ft Computer Magic: I dont even think this takes place in the summer but the VIBES and also it came from Summer of 84, which is another good piece of murder boy media.
Treehouse by Alex G ft Emily Yacina: This is a Eef and Max type of song because they are bffs and thats final. Basic song because Im not creative, but I think its a nice heart to heart theyd have (with Eef doing the talking)
Fifteen Minuets by Nick Krol: On the flipside heres a song that goes with Eef and Maxs friendship fracturing, once again more from Eefs side than Maxs. THE GIRLS ARE FIGHTINGGG
As far as songs for the boys as individuals hmmm thats a good one that I havent thought about as much...
MAX + The Ghosts by The Real Tuesday Weld: That survivors guilt... lyrics arent like a perfect match but I think it gets that sort of hollow feeling across. Hes haunted man... + Final Girl by Electric Youth: Ok its a little funny because har har Final Girl Trope but I mean HE IS ONE. ANd dont look at me its a nice song- "Others were gone, and you kept going on, You know they never really noticed, you were always different, One by one, They're all done, And you're the last one standing" + Going Grazy by Lonesome Wyatt and the Holy Spooks: HONESTLY this could go for all the characters but Im tagging it onto Max because hes the one who has to deal with the aftermath of losing everyone (sorry survivors guilt Max again </3) "Everyone's saying my mind is unsound, 'Cause I always see you when you aren't around" "They're gonna wrap me in a jacket of white, And lock me away in a room without light" is what cements it as a Max song for me
EEF + The Existential Threat by Sparks: Once again starting sad, I link this one specifically to his paranoia about the worms- especially with lines like "Can't they see the existential threat is on its way". Kind of exasperated no one else can see the danger (he thinks) hes in. + Wrecking Ball by Mother Mother: I know I know its basic but I cant help it!!! Eef anger issues arc we are shaking hands me too + Haunted by Laura Les: Eef struggles with people seeing him as "just like his father" and I think we can get some good angst out of this track if we keep that in mind. Especially the back half of the song with lyrics like "Do you think I'm frightening?" and "Mirrors shatter when I'm passing, broken glass and crashing" since he is just a reflection of his dad (to others at least). Also song good.
KENT + Goodbye Mr A by The Hoosiers: Mfw the disillusionment with authority sets in. I think the vibe fits when he had that little epiphany about how adults are fucked- not perfect but it gets the idea across me thinks. + I'm Gonna Win by Rob Cantor: Ties into his need to "win" aka be the best at everything, be in charge, all that jazz! Hell do whatever it takes to be successful, even if it hurts. That was a little emo + Toba the Tura by Forgive Durden ft Chris Conley: Not to be emo again but "They say you're gifted, well I just see a scared kid. They must have flipped it, your skills are latent. O, you snuffed the glow. Replaced it with coals. Threw away the throne... This mess that you've made, it's a six-foot grave. It's a home for your lonesome bones that remain. We'll disappear, but you'll stay here to rot" AND SO ON AND SO FOURTH representing his fall after it was revealed he was sick. He was referred to as "the uncrowned king" and was on top of the world but then POOF that all crumbled and it was made out that he basically deserved what happened to him. It would be fun to make a pmv of him with this song (Simplifying my thoughts a bit because Ive already written a LOT)
NEWT + I Earn My Life by Lemon Demon: Ok a little Kentcore but Im actually having a hard time coming up with songs for Newton so here we are, they can share. Newt existential crisis moment time I guess + Know How by The Crane Wives: POV Newt struggles with going through with the plans he makes to keep everyone safe (stopping Max from touching Kent, going back into the cabin, etc) "I am not brave, I am not brave, I keep my focus on what is safe, Youâ
drewâ
a line, madeâ
up your mind, And now I'm strugglingâ
to realize" And also maybe struggling with his place in the group and as a person in general- all that living through his cousin thing. "I gotta wrap my head around, What my heart is telling me, I've been trying to drown it out, Just because I know what I am, I am supposed to do now, Doesn't mean I know, Doesn't mean I know how" + On The Outside by Oingo Boingo: Idk man. Hes on the outside lookin in!! Loner nerd!! Its ok though, we still love him
SHEL + Bad Blood by Creature Feature: The lyrics speak for themselves: "I can guarantee I will do evil things, The only way that you can stop me now, Is if you put me in the ground, Somewhere I'll never be found" + Frontier Psychologist by The Avalanches: Hinges on the fact that the principal or whoever was like "Your sons a freak" and Shels mom was like "HES PERFECTLY FINE" while Shelley was like dismembering an animal or something + Johnny by American Murder Song: The songs good but theres this ONE LYRIC that sucks so the link provided is an edited version and also a lovely Warriors oc video I think you should all enjoy and support <3 Anyway Shel would be Johnny I could see this song being a scene in the book. Field trip to Shels house and they find his murder garden
If anyone wants more for Im not opposed to making another post :^)
#SORRY THIS TOOK A BIT#I had to use my brainpower and I am very easily distracted#max kirkwood#ephraim elliot#kent jenks#newton thornton#shelley longpre#the troop#the troop nick cutter
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OTP Game
Pick your top 10 OTPs without reading the questions
1. Kirishima Eijirou x Katsuki Bakugou
2. Sasori x Deidara
3. Erwin Smith x Levi
4. Jean Kirschtein x Marco Bodt
5. Nagisa Kaworu x Shinji Ikari
6. Cloud Strife x Sephiroth
7. Steve Rogers x Tony Stark
8. Peter Parker x Wade Wilson
9. Kaminari Denki x Sero Hanta
10. Emperor Mateus x Kuja (lmao I had to add this crackship, Iâve started to like it so much ahaha)
1. Do you remember the episode/scene/chapter that you first started shipping 6? - Honestly I canât remember when I started to ship Sefikura because the first time I saw them was in Advent Children movie, followed by Kingdom Hearts until I finally started to be interested in Final Fantasy. Somewhere between their eternal fighting haha.
2. Have you ever read a fanfic about 2? - Iâm reading one atm hahaa!! But yeah, Sasodei was my 1st ship ever and I did read some fics about them back in 2008-2009.Â
3. Has a picture of 4 ever been your screen saver/profile picture/tumblr screen saver? - Oh yeah they definitely have.Â
4. If 7 were to suddenly break up today, what would your reaction be? - Wasnât that the plot of Captain America: Civil War? No? Pfffft!! But honestly watching CA: Civil War was pain since I donât want to take neither of their sides or see them fighting against each other but ugh.Â
5. Why is 1 so important? - I love everything about their relationship. They complete each other and itâs just so amazing that Kirishima is Bakugouâs first true friend. A person he really acknowledges as his friend and trusts him. And I donât even need to talk about that one moment we all know... *cough* take my hand *cough*Â
But also!! Kirishima is able to grow as a person with Bakugouâs help too. Itâs not one-sided with only Bakugou improving his character. They both are good influence to each other.
6. Is 9 a funny ship or a serious ship? - I think to me, theyâre more of a funny ship because the memes and shit, two damn goofballs at your service. But thereâs a hint of seriousness and I really like to read serious Kamisero fics as well. Though sometimes it feels like theyâre more harder to find :/
7. Out of all the ships listed, which ship has the most chemistry? - Ugh I think thereâs at least couple ships that have so much chemistry but I gotta say Eruri. I mean, Isayama did hint stuff about Erwin and Levi having deeper relationship than just friends but beside that, their chemistry is so fucking great. I guess it has something do with Leviâs Ackerbond to Erwin as well, Levi has dedicated his entire life to help Erwin reach his goals. And Erwin respects him, I feel like at the beginning he was the only one who held some kind of respect toward him and saw all the potential in Levi, even when he was just a thug in underground city.
8. Out of all your ships listed, which ship has the strongest bond? - Eruri again. And again, one of the reasons is probably Ackerbond. But their bond is so damn strong and Levi trusts Erwin with his whole life. And we all know how selective Levi can be with people.
9. How many times have your read/watched 10âs fandom? - Well itâs a crack ship so I guess I have to break it down into three different fandoms. FFII where Emperor is from, not that much. Iâve played the remastered version of it with my PSP but never finished it. I should play it some day.Â
FFIX where Kuja is from, I finished the game last month and loved it. It made me love and understand Kujaâs character a lot more and heâs now my top 1 favorite Final Fantasy Villain.
Dissidia Final Fantasy is probably âthe fandomâ where I ship this, as itâs an actual game where they both are. I used to play Dissidia back in middle school so much, like my first Dissidia 012 saving on my PSP is from 2011... And I recently played it again and finished the story mode. Still the best 1vs1 game ever, and Iâm not even fan of those types of games.
10. Which ship has lasted the longest? - Sasodei probably. I started shipping them when I was 12 and even when I fell out of Naruto and stuff, theyâve always hold a special place in my heart. Even now as Iâm getting back to the old fandom, reading and seeing pics of them gives me that same sweet feeling I felt toward this ship decade ago. I donât even care what people say about them (Iâve heard some peepz call it abusive??? I kinda see what theyâre trying to imply but then again wtf people???) because honestly, idgaf. Itâs a ship that is precious to me from my past, itâs the roots of my weeb and shipping life.
Another long ship is both Eruri and Jeanmarco, I started shipping them back in 2014 and still ship them!Â
11. How many times, if ever, has 6 broken up? - They never were together in the beginning since Sephiroth is Cloudâs arch-nemesis đ Itâs hard to even describe their relationship because thereâs nothing sane in it. Thatâs why I also ship Zack x Cloud, it makes sense and balances the hate stuff what is happening in Sefikura pfft.
12. If the world was suddenly thrust into a zombie apocalypse, which ship would make it out alive, 2 or 8? - LMAO I love how both of these ships have one who is immortal. Or ââimmortalââ. Wade would have no problem with the virus since his healing factor is good and I bet zombies wouldnât even care about Sasori since heâs a puppet.Â
But I think they both would actually make it out alive. Peter is freaking Spiderman, he has everything what will help him survive (his spidey sense, being able to crawl on the walls/ceiling etc). Deidara would just explode everything into pieces.Â
13. Did 7 ever have to hide their relationship for any reason? - I donât think theyâd have a reason to hide it, but also I feel like theyâd prefer to keep it behind the walls of their home.Â
14. Is 4 still together? -Â đ Marco has been dead like forever. Iâm still salty about his death after all these long years.
15. Is 10 canon? - Definitely not since theyâre from different games pffft! Oh the joy of crack ship. But you know, in original Dissidia Kujaâs encounter intro for Mateus is âYou think you can dominate me?â đ and honestly Kuja, thatâs not something you should say to Palamecia
16. If all 10 ships were put into a coupleâs Hunger Games, which couple would win? - I honestly feel like Cloud and Sephiroth would win it. Sephiroth alone is a fella you donât want to fight against because he WILL kill you without a hesitation. And since Cloud has Jenova cells in him as well, heâs not just an ordinary guy with a sword. If he can keep up with Sephirothâs shit, being literally stabbed like a kebab in AC, Iâm sure he can keep up with others as well.
17. Has anybody ever tried to sabotage 5âs ship? - Well Kaworu is literally one of the enemy in the series but he abandoned his mission and let Shinji kill him. He also truly loved Shinji, thatâs what I like to think. He didnât just play with his feelings.
18. Which ship would you defend to the death and beyond? - Probably the top 5 since theyâre mostly my serious-serious ships. The rest 6-10 are one way or another either for fun or something else. Sefikura is good source for arch-nemesis stuff and hate-sex etc (tho Iâve read sweet and great fluff about them too), Stony is just there with superfamily au, Spideypool is great and theyâre both goofballs, Kamisero is more fun than serious stuff and Emperor/Kuja is just a random crack ship I happened to stumble upon suddenly out of nowhere.Â
19. Do you spend hours a day going through 3âs tumblr page? - I used to but since I havenât been active in snk fandom in a year, Iâve been digging other ships from Tumblr instead. I guess one of the reasons is that Eruri fandom kinda just... idk never felt so welcoming as some other fandoms? AoT fandom in general has been so fucking toxic through the years.Â
20. If an evil witch descended from the sky and told you that you had to pick one of the ten ships to break up forever or else sheâd break them all forever, which ship would you sink? - Probably Emperor/Kuja because theyâre just a crack ship and donât even have a lot of content... even tho thereâs this one fic what I absolutely love about them aaaaa. But yeah probably that or Cloud/Sephiroth because I can always ship Cloud with Zack ;D
My tags @repesso @thats-so-hambone @cybergutzz
#personal#ship stuff#hey don't judge me in a weird way Emperor Mateus/Kuja makes perfectly sense and is so goooooooood#or it's just because there's this one author who's made fics of them and they're so damn good#there's so many ships but I couldn't think of all of them so I chose these#I probably could have chosen some better ship for 10 as Matty and Kuja is just big crack ship#like Nivanfield for example but I didn't think about it until I had finished this so nevermind maybe next time
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Wow people like that anon are why we need to be more educated about manipulation via self-destruction. We all need to understand and know that if we constantly, repeatedly "make" someone feel bad enough to consider harmful actions just through TINY contradictions it might just not be us and we don't have to put up with all the stress, discomfort, depression, etc. that comes from it. And sometimes it's really obvious when it's manipulation, it's not NEVER an option.
exactly bro. iâm gonna do something real fun and talk about my abuser, who did this for years! under the cut
so im just gonna come right out and say it so i dont gotta give him an epithet every time, but his name was dibby/dib. he goes by a different name now i think but from what ive heard it seems like ppl r familiar with him by that name as well. w/e for his privacy i guess ill just leave his current name out of it. anyway i knew and was friends with/dated dib for about 7 years before we cut each other out.
ANYWAY dib had/has legitimate mental health problems, yes, but he also chose to use those problems as excuses for his manipulative and abusive behavior. dib had bipolar and would experience dramatic mood swings. unfortunate but normal and okay! if you experience mood swings and suddenly feel overwhelmed by sadness or anger, you probably know that, if you recognize this as a disorder, you should let the people around you know, tell them how youâre feeling, and do what you can to manage the situation. dib would instead say âoh no i feel a mood swing coming. :( quick, distract me!â which, again is a clumsy but fair way to handle that, EXCEPT when it inevitably failed to cheer him up, he would blame us for failing, call us bad friends, insist we didnât care about him, and isolate to only talking with his favorite person (for a while that was me).Â
when dib got upset he would blow up, block me for days or weeks, and then later when he calmed down and felt lonely heâd add me back with some half-apology and assume everything was fine again. hereâs a list i kept of things that upset him and had this result! it was called âthings not to doâ
tell dib when [his gf] is streaming
fail to tell dib when [his gf] is streaming
ask dib if itâs okay to do things
talk to him when heâs feeling antisocial
offer critique when it isnât asked for
ask dib not to do something
talk to him in the tags (when not friends)
spam things he doesnât like/isnât involved in ((the relevant examples are bug blogs, bunnies, and the pbs kids show arthur. not because they trigger him, just because he doesnât like them))
talk about/mention people that are my friends that he doesnât like
offer solutions when he just needs confirmation
make it about you
yeah. keep in mind every one of those bullet points corresponds to at least one time he either faked his own death or blew up and blocked me for a week.
the bigger problem though was his suicide ideation. dib had a pretty shit life and pretty shit mental health and unfortunately was legitimately depressed and suicidal. he needed help but, living in america, really couldnt afford it most of the time. this is okay. if you or someone you know is unable to get medical health for depression or suicide ideation you know how hard it is to live with. sometimes thereâs not a lot you can do and that person will Just Be Depressed an just Want To Die and theres not a lot you can do to help, even if you try your best. that of course, is not the problem with dib.Â
the problem was repeatedly, starting i think when i criticized him for pushing everyone away by insisting no one cares about him and not putting any effort towards others, would make some vague allusion to feeling suicidal and abruptly log off and stop answering messages. this can be an okay way to deal with yourself if youâre upset BUT. THE NEXT DAY, after i frantically thought he was going to Attempt and repeatedly messaged him to try to deter him, check on him, ask if he was okay (he really just went to sleep, which again is fine), he decided to PRETEND TO BE DEAD. he told his gf and maybe one other person he was alive but threatened them to stay quiet and pretend he was dead or he WOULD commit. so his gf at the time had to play along and all of us then-kids were freaking out that our friend had died, only for him to decide later that heâd had his fun and he could now announce âno i just logged off for a little bit :)â
he did this. many times. make some allusion to wanting to attempt then abruptly stop answering messages, knowing what people would assume. (this was one of the pieces of testimony i did not include verbatim in that rk post: i was told rk would do very similar things; part of why i thought the post was necessary. ive lived through the other side of that and i dont want ANYONE else to). i think two separate times that he did this, i was sent home from school early because i was crying so hard (my best friend let me think i was responsible for his death. he did this on purpose. he did this repeatedly. thats fucked up)
one time he posted a supposedly queued suicide note post! and all my friends were terrified heâd died! so i remember someone anonymously messaged kylee henke asking for advice, and i (who at the time he was mad at and had already blocked) got fed up with it (again because heâd done this so many times and i knew by now that there was no point in getting upset, he was just doing it for sympathy or attention or w/e) and messaged his mom on facebook asking her to check on him. he was fine, just like. crying in his room. also sidenote he got BIG MAD that someone told his mom and was posting when he was found out liek WHO TOLD >:( n i was like :)). bc bro if ur really abt to attempt i have an Obligation to get someone irl to check on you and protect you. but obviously you werent since this was like the 20th fucking time youve done this đ
he was a huge pizza shit for other reasons too but the main relevant one was that he would use his mental illness as an excuse for his deplorable behavior and blame others for things literally no one can reasonably do anythign about and then constantly and i DO MEAN CONSTANTLYÂ use his own life and suicide ideation as a trump card.
anyway if you know someone who repeatedly threatens suicide or pretends to commit suicide by purposefully alluding to it before ghosting you, or posting a suicide note meant to blame others, you need to get out of there right now. that is not okay and you should not be dealing with that. ive taken years to get used to the idea that if i criticize my friends, they wonât kill themselves
#you didnt ask for this but i wanted to vent lol#anyway if you know who this is... steer clear#he was still engaging in this behavior at 21#he is the same age as me#nonart#suicide ment#abuse ment#ask to tag#also i wrote this out of order so it might be. incomprehensible#Anonymous
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You deserve better
Summary: Reader is in love with Dean but when he tells her she should give another man a chance she does. Little does Dean know what kind of man she calls her boyfriend.
Pairing: Reader x OMC Patrick, Dean x Reader?, Sam
Warnings: language, injured reader, abusive relationship (physical/emotional), angst, violence, blood, attempted rape (nothing graphic), angry/protective Dean, fluff
 âDean, can we talk about something?â You ask shyly.
âSure, come in.â
Sitting next to Dean on the bed you try to calm your nerves down.
âThereâs this nice guy, he asked me out, but before I say yes I need to be sure about something. I wonât get mad or be disappointed, just be honest,â you whisper.
âAlright, promised Sweetheart.â
âI love you Dean and I guess you donât feel the same, itâs okay, really. I just need to know if thereâs a chance you do feel the sameâŚif not I will say yes to the date.â
Casting your look down you hope he will say what you want to hear.
âIâm sorryâŚI really like you, Y/N butâŚâ
Before he can end the sentence you nod and raise your hand. âItâs okay, as I said just wanted to be sure. Just forget I ever asked. I call Patrick to go on a date with him.â
âI bet heâs the right guy. Heâs the one for you,â Dean says. Nodding you decide to give Patrick a chance, to take the chance to move on and get over DeanâŚ
 Two months laterâŚ
âOuch,â you whine when Dean knocks you on the shoulder.
âSorry. Are you hurt?â He asks worriedly.
âYeah, the vamp. Itâs okay Dean, I need a shower. Iâm meeting Patrick later.â
After you left the library Dean wonders. Lately, you're always injured and you're wearing long clothes all the time. Suspicious Dean enters Samâs room.
âDid Y/N get hurt by the vamp you were hunting with her?â
âNo, she was in the car, helping the latest victim. I killed both vamps alone. Why?â Sam asks raising his eyebrow.
âLately sheâs always injured and not due to hunts or training. Two days ago she was fine and now sheâs hurt again,â Dean whispers so you canât hear it.
âWait, she was with her boyfriendâŚdo you think heâs hurting her?â Sam asks worriedly.
âIâve got no clueâŚletâs ask her.â
âBut wouldnât Y/N strike back? I mean she can even kick our asses,â Sam says thoughtfully.
âThatâs the reason Iâm so worried. If heâs hurting herâŚWhy doesnât she defends herself?â
âOkay, now Iâm worried too. Letâs talk to her.â
Sitting in the library your hands are shaking. You forgot to call Patrick. He will get mad again. Taking a deep breath you try to calm your nerves down.
âHey, can we ask you something?â Dean starts.
âSure.â
âPatrickâŚis he a good guy?â
âYeahâŚwhy do you ask?â
âYou are injured a lot, lately. Is he hurting you? We are just worried, Y/N,â Sam adds.
âPatrick is nice! He would never hurt me! You said heâs the right guy for me â remember! I wonât discuss this any longer. I gotta go, Patrick is waiting for me.â
Storming out of the library you try to hide the fear. Patrick will get mad again and the Winchesters are already suspicious.
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âYou forgot to call me again, whore! Did you fuck someone else? I told you what happens when you disobey again!â Patrick yells.
Slapping your face he stares angrily down at you. Ramming his fist into your stomach he causes you to stumble and fall to the ground.
Grabbing your hair harshly he drags you toward the bedroom.
"Patrick, let go of me. I want to go home," you sob.
"No, no. I'm going to show you who you belong to. You are my whore and no one else's!"
Ripping your top apart he pushes you on the bed. Hovering over you he pins your hands above your head.
âYou are mine and Iâm going to teach you to never disobey me. Do you think anyone else would want to fuck you? With all the scars?â
"Let go of me, I don't want you to touch me!"Â
Slapping your face with his free hand Patrick causes a cut at your lip. Right before he can hit you again his door bursts open.
Storming out of the bedroom Patrick stops dead in his tracks. Two huge and obviously pissed guys with guns are standing in his living room.
âI will ask you this only once. Where is Y/N?â Dean yells.
âSheâsâŚbedroom,â Patrick stammers.
âGet her, Iâll keep an eye on this nice guy,â Sam says.
Entering the bedroom Deanâs stomach drops. Your whole body is full of bruises and your face is black and blue. Your top is torn and you lie there, sobbing, curled into a ball.
Stripping his jacket off Dean covers your body. Picking you up he carefully carries you out of the apartment while Sam follows him.
âKeep an eye on her for me, I forgot something in the apartment,â Dean says while you sob into Samâs chest.
âShhh, âŚwe will drive you home. You're safe, it's me Sammy."
Re-entering the apartment Dean storms toward Patrick. Slamming his fist into your boyfriends face he canât stop himself. Hitting the face of your attacker over and over again Dean yells and curses.
"You will lose her number; you never contact Y/N again. If you ever get close to her or just think about her I will come back and finish what I started."
âShe likes it. The worthless slut likes to be dominated,â Patrick grunts.
A kick into his balls is Deanâs answer. Towering over the whining guy he aims a gun to his head.
âOne word about her leaving you lips again and I end you right here and now. She doesnât like to be hit and she for sure doesnât like to be raped! You will pack your stuff and leave Lebanon or I swear my brother and I come back and kill you.â Dean yells now.
âDean? Donât, please letâs just leave,â you plea.
âNo, he hurt you! Heâs going to pay for it.â
âLetâs just go homeâŚplease, bring me home.â
Sobbing you press a tissue to your bleeding lip. Seeing your hurt form Dean stuffs the gun back into his waistband.
âLeave the town and donât come back or Iâll kill you,â Dean warns one last time.
Picking you up in bridal style he carries you out of the apartment. Sniffing you rest your head against his shoulder.
âWhy didnât you tell me? Why did you let him hurt you? Did heâŚtry toâŚbefore?â
âNoâŚI neverâŚI wanted to wait a bit longer until I have sex with him. He thought I have sex with you as I forgot to call him. I told him that someone like you would be never interested ⌠he said I deserve what he does to meâŚeverytime he hit me he said I deserve it,â you whisper.
âYou deserve none of that. Heâs a sick bastard! Why didnât you kick his ass?â
âBack then you said heâs the right oneâŚI just thoughtâŚI didnât want to break up with him as I was afraid you would think itâs because of you.â
âWait, you stayed with that asshole as you thought I would get it wrong if you break up with him?â
âI didnât want to destroy our friendship. I regretted telling you how I feelâŚshouldâve never said a thing. I deserve someone like PatrickâŚâ
Placing you carefully onto the backseat Dean crawls in next to you. Moving you onto his lap he holds you tight.
âSammy, you have to drive,â Dean says.
âIâm fine, you can drive,â you whisper.
âNo, youâre not. You donât deserve someone like Patrick. You deserve someone who loves and adores you. Someone how would die for you. You deserve better.â
Sniffing you rest your head against Dean's shoulder. Holding you even tighter he starts humming your favorite AC/DC song.
Laughing you squeeze his hand. âThank you, both for coming. I shouldâve said something.â
âYou deserve better,â Sam says.
"I don't know Sam. In a life like ours, you barely find someone to trust. I just tried to find someone I can lean on after a rough hunt or talk to when I feel lonely. Maybe I just wanted someone to hold me tight when I need it," you whisper.
âYou can always talk to Sam and me. You can lean on my shoulder,â Dean says softly.
âThatâs not the same and you know it. I want what Bobby had with his wife or Jody with her husband. I want someone who loves me, not just as a friend.â
Swallowing hard Dean realizes itâs his entire fault you let that asshole hurt you. If he wouldâve been man enough to tell you the truth then Patrick wouldâve never been able to hurt you.
âY/N? I need to tell you something. When you asked me if I feel the same I lied. My intention was to keep you safe. Iâm dangerous. I wanted to keep you safe, protect you. I love you too. I just thought you deserve better, you deserve the best,â Dean whispers in your ear.
âNo one is better than you, Dean. You are right, I deserve the best, and you are the best, Dean.â
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#SPN#spn fanfic#dean winchester#sam winchester#dean x reader#angst#dean winchester one shots#violence#abusive relationship#fluff#comforting
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Donde Estas Corazon Ch. 4
Sam Winchester x Plus Size Reader
Summary: Youâve known the Winchesters for a while and now that youâre helping them with a case, some unresolved feelings and secrets come to the surface.
Warnings: Angsty-ish
Word Count: 1,195
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Sam storms back into his room startling Dean. Deans on his feet with his gun in his hand before he realizes that the âintruderâ is his own brother and that heâs upset. âDude whats wrong?â
âI did something really bad. Iâve ruined everything between us. She trusted me and Iâm no better than him.â Sam is pacing up and down the room talking to himself, repeating the same thing over and over again.
âSam⌠Sammy! Whatâs wrong?â Dean yells stopping Sam in his tracks. âWhat happened? What did you do?â
âI kissed Y/Nââ
âThats great man!â
âNo! Dean, I kissed Y/N and she freaked out. I went over to her room to make sure that she was okay and then she told me about what happened with Dominic. One thing led to another and we were on the bed and I must have brought up a bad memory because she pushed me off and ran out of the room.â
âItâs 3 am where is she now?â
âDean I donât know! She left and she didnât take anything. She trusted me and now everything is ruined. How is she ever going to trust me again? I canât believe I found a way to mess this up.â
âSam, do you know where Y/N went? Did you see the way that she went? We need to find her first and make sure that sheâs safe and then we can deal with what happened between the both of you. Okay?â Sam had started pacing again and stops, picks up his jacket and heads out to the car.
Y/N had ended up at a diner. Sheâs not stupid enough to stay outside given that there is a Dragon that wants virgins for who knows. âYou look troubled, loveâ the waitress refilling your coffee.
âYou have no ideaâŚâ
âYou and that boy need to have a conversation. You wouldnât be feeling like this if it wasnât real for both of you.â
âHow did you know it was about a boy?â Y/N asks looking at the waitress with suspicion.
âNo girl as pretty as you tries to get an answer out of a cup of coffee if it isnât about a boy. Plus pancakes with peanut butter fill the cracks of the heart.â You chuckle and thank the waitress.
â
Sam and Dean had been driving around for our and had still not been able to find you. âWhat if the Dragon got her? What are we going to do then?â
âNo , Sam we are going to find Y/N. We just have to think, where would she be. Sheâs smart enough to not be out right now, given the dragon and her situation. So where would you run off too when you just ruined one of the best relationships that you have ever had?â A lightbulb went off in Deans head and he started speeding towards the diner that he had gone to, to pick up waffles.
âThat was uncalled for and where are we going?â
âI have a good idea of where Y/N can be. Do you remember the diner that we passed by when we got here? Its within walking distance of the motel and she always wants pancakes when sheâs upsetâŚâ Dean pulls into the parking lot of the diner. âCan I ask you something?â
âSure?â
âThis thing between you and Y/N, do you mean it?â
âYeah, Iâm not like projecting or anything. Weâve been through a lot recently and sheâs been there for most of it. I just donât want her to think sheâs a replacement for Jess or anything. This is real for me and I want her to feel the same way or if she doesnât I donât want her to be embarrassed or feel pressured in any way.â
âDo you want to see if sheâs in there or should I go alone?â
Sam clears his throat and scrunches his face, âI donât really think that she wants to see me. You can go alone I guess, Iâll stay in the car.â Dean nods and gives him a pat on the shoulder. He canât see you through the windows, but he has a good feeling about you being in there.
You hear the bell above the door and barely have time to think before Dean makes eye contact with you. You purposefully chose the table furthest from the door in the effort to not be found, but clearly Dean knew what he was doing. âY/N.â
âDean,â you sigh, âI really donât want to talk about what happened.â
âY/N, I know you donât want to and we donât have to. I just want to make sure that youâre okay. Sam told me a little about what happened in the room and I donât want to make any assumptions, but are you sure youâre okay and that everything that happened between you and Dominic is okay?â
âIâm fine⌠Dominic took a lot of time to get over, but nothing happened. It was mostly feeling like I wasnât enough to be with him, because I wouldnât give him this one thing. I donât even know why I am so attached to this socially constructed thing that doesnât add or take away from my life, but I am.â
âYou know Sam is torn up about what happened between you two. He thinks heâs ruined it.â
âOh my god! I should have known that he would blame this on himself. Itâs me⌠itâs always been me. Iâm the problem. I canât commit fully to another human being. The whole time I dated Dominic it almost felt like playing, but with Sam it feels too real. Like he could be it for me and I donât want it to end, I donât think Iâd be able to come back from that.â
âSammy may be my brother, but I would kick his ass if he managed to ruin your life, you know that right?â
âYeah, but you know he would never be able to do that right?â
âYeah, that kid is head over ass in love with you.â
You laugh and roll your eyes, âYeah. Right.â
âYou gotta give him. chance. He really cares about you and I know you really care about him.â
âThis has never happened beforeâŚâ
âWhat someone liking you?â
âIâm not the ideal Dean. You know that right? Ive always been too loud or taken up too much space. Never been someones dream girl. Iâm too curvy, too short, too much and that fucks you up. You can pick off any man off the street and theyâll never describe someone that looks like me.â Your eyes are tearing up now, âThere has been a handful of people that actually made me believe that it was real and it wasnât. It was a phase or a joke or they never meant it from the beginning. I canât let this be real, because if it is Iâll be venerable and I donât think Iâm ready for that.â
âI canât speak for you or Sammy, but I think you too need to talk about it. Heâs actually in the car right now.â
âFuck.â
Fic Tags: @francezka10
Thank you all for sticking with me through the turbulent going back to school and losing motivation phase of my life. This was was a lil angsty and hit a little close to home for me. I had to add Dean because heâs the unsung hero of getting people in check and isnât he so pretty? As always feedback makes the world go round! Also if you wanna be tagged in the fic let me know!Â
#its one in the afternoon#i am so proud of myself#im gonna ride this wave and start the next chapter#or post the dean fic#who knows#let me know what you think#sam winchester x reader#sam winchester x plus size reader#sam winchester fic#donde estas corazon#kat writes
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Episode 15 Replies
All SoS reply posts have spoiler caveats on them, but here it applies more than ever. Proceed with caution.
@sevenleafsimblr replied to your photoset âNo, itâs nothing to do withââ ⌠âN-no - no. Itâs just a weird...â
HMMMM...
foreboooooooooooooooooode
@tosimornottosim replied to your photoset âPercy: âHello? Anyoneâ?â Â Cornelia: âHello yourself, Percy. What are...â
eyeballs at both of them
@jackssims replied to your photoset âPercy:Â âLook, letâs say Lyra hits the final two. Or the killer, letâs...â
A good speech from Felicity but that content is making me a little sus đ (granted my suspicion has drifted to her, so...)
IMO a good MMBC makes a Sim sufficiently suspicious, and a great MMBC makes every eligible party sufficiently suspicious. Iâm aiming to make a great MMBC today. Well, all days.
(Also specifically to Jack: I wonât confirm or deny, but I will say itâs not like sheâs not telling the truth. Trans people do know more how to survive than most...)
sevenleafsimblr replied to your photoset ââsaid anything yet.ââŹÂ Felicity:à ââŹĹ-w- what was that? Listen.ââŹÂĂ ...â
:O
Sheâs still Ronâs Delanoâs sister!
@cafesimming reblogged your photoset and added:
i have the purest daughter #what an absolute sweetheart
tosimornottosim replied to the same:Â
thats so pure...........
Not to put too fine a point on it, but I love Lavandar so, so, so, so so so much. I love all three of- I loved all four of them, but to see the enthusiasm you have for Lavandar makes my heart warm
tosimornottosim replied to your photoset âLorelei: âM-morning, Kira. Hi, Toby.â Toby: âHey. So, another last...â
I thought Toby said 'baby' instead of 'today' for a second I was like WOAH SLOW THE ROLL
I bet now you wish he hadnât slowed the roll huh
cafesimming replied to your photoset âKira: âOkay, if Iâm guessing right here, weâve got enough time that I...â
đ !!
sevenleafsimblr replied to your photoset âLavandar: âAre you sure? You look distracted. Everything definitely...â
đ this is pure
With all the tension between Percy and Kira since that incident in Episodes 5 through 7, I figured the latter could use some more bonding to cheer her up!
cafesimming replied to the same:
broke: intracontestant fighting woke: intracontestant friendship
Thereâs a time and a place for both; it just depends on what potential you can spot and what happens in game organically!
cafesimming replied to your photoset âLavandar: âRight, okay, okay, okay. How much do you know about snakes...â
it makes me very happy that "lavandar infodumps about lizards" is a tag
Itâs mostly to contrast how worried she is that Lorelei doesnât care about what sheâs saying at all at the first, and how sheâs more sure that she does later on. believe it or not I do try and include character growth every now and again
cafesimming reblogged your photoset and added:
đđ #baby
everyone is crying all over the place today and we havenât even got to the real heart-hurt yet
cafesimming replied to your photoset âSTOP IT!â *THUD* ⌠*thud* ââŚâ *shallow breath* âNn⌠nn.â
DID LETHE JUST FUCKING KILL SOMEONE EITH ONE OF LOR'S INSTRUMDNTS DUDE YOU CANT /DO THAT/
Lorelei will never be able to play that brand of guitar again
cafesimming replied to your photoset âLorelei: âI guess- I guess itâs your turn now, Lavandar?â ...â
*lets out held breath* ohthankgod
Tenderhooks
tosimornottosim replied to your photoset âKira: âItâs funny, yâknow. When you put it like that. âWeâre...â
toby is fucking dead
Process of Elimination Strikes Again, in more ways than one
cafesimming replied to the same:
oh i am Not looking forward to this fallout. this isnt gonna be pretty on anyone
it wasnât
sevenleafsimblr replied to your photoset âËFound Toby.ââŹâ˘â
FUCK i mean i knew this was coming and i CALLED it that the lorelei contestant murder was gonna be this round but STILL FUCK
I mean To Be Fair you were warned it could be the case, as the end credits explain
tosimornottosim replied to the same:
FECK ARSE
jackssims replied to the same:
Oh FUCK
And it's too late, for me now Will not learn never know how Voided colours bleeding out My monochrome
tosimornottosim replied to your photoset âVictim: Toby Hale Cause of death: Blunt Force Trauma...â
FYCK FEOWGHWREIUGWRGTW
cafesimming replied to the same:
shiiiiit
@bountifulberries replied to the same:
Iâm SO sad
And my thoughts are falling out Brain is splattered on the ground Hanging five feet in the air I figured out There's no way out
tosimornottosim replied to your photoset âToby?!â  ââoh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuckââ âHeâs⌠heâs...â
i'm so sorry lor
jackssims replied to the same:
This is. Upsetting
cafesimming replied to the same:
i want to help her. i wish i could help her
her heart is breaking so much. so so much
tosimornottosim replied to your photoset âÂŚ Toby:à ââŹĹââŹÂŚnââŹÂŚĂ˘âŹÂ ââŹÂŚ Toby:à ââŹĹWhââŹÂŚ L- Lorelei? Lorelei, got- g-ttaââŹÂŚ...â
how dare you
What I think Vid is referring to is this insightful bit I clarified on Discord:Â
ALSO SO okay okay: okay: one of toby's lines in the latest post "w-why can't I see?" that line keeps flopping back and forth between two different interpretations for me the first that it's part of my HC that ghosts see things differently to how mortal Sims do - which admittedly is something I haven't incorporated in some time the second? that lethe hit him so hard that he's become blind BELIEVE ME I DO NOT WANT THIS I DONT KNOW WHY IT KEEPS TELLING ME THATÂ
tosimornottosim replied to your photoset âToby: âOh.â OĘ? Toby: ââŚitâs my time, isnât it?â Iá´ ÉŞs. Sá´á´
ĘĘ,...â
AUGTRHTBERHTER
HE LOVES HER SO MUCH VIDCUND
sevenleafsimblr replied to your photoset âÂŚ Lorelei: *almost a whisper*à ââŹĹIââŹÂŚ d-didnââŹâ˘t want you to go either,...â
đ˘đ
No More the Het Shit to Hit people with
jackssims replied to your photoset âPercy: ââŚt-this is my fault.â Lilith: âPe- Per - Percy?â  Percy: âI, I...â
Lyra?
Lyra... Lyra! Lyra~
cafesimming replied to the same:
someone pls get my daughter out of the pool of blood
things you donât want to hear at a police station
jackssims replied to your photoset âLorelei: âLyra. Got- gotta call - â *wipes eyes* â- gotta call Lyra.â ...â
Oh, okay. I dunno why I thought Lyra was just going to waltz into the BC house, but I did. Calling her makes a lot more sense
Lyra: *kangaroo kicks down the door with her leg, falls flat on her ass* LOR HOLY FUCK
jackssims replied to your photoset âÂŚ Percy:à ââŹĹSo? W-whatââŹâ˘s it say?ââŹÂ ââŹÂŚ Percy:à ââŹĹLorelei? What doesââŹâââŹÂ...â
Poor Lorelei đ
you sympathized even when you Did Not Know the extent
cafesimming replied to your photoset âLavandar: ââŚKira? ⌠Kira.â Kira: âYeah?â Lavandar: âWhereâs Lorelei...â
heck
watch your fucking language
sevenleafsimblr replied to the same:
đ°
poor Clover
tosimornottosim replied to your photoset âLyra: âHow did you find out?!â Percy: âI- I canât, I-â  Lyra:...â
W W H A T
sevenleafsimblr replied to your photoset âLyra: âHow did you find out?!â Percy: âI- I canât, I-â  Lyra:...â
đ°đ°đ°đ°đ°đ°đ°
At one point Kaspar liked up to this point then stopped cold and I was like âoh shit I killed them. reveal game too strongâ
tosimornottosim replied to your photoset âthis wasnât supposed to happen. none of tthis was supposed to HAPPEN....â
M e l o d y???????? M E L O D Y????????????????????????????????
M e l o d y
Jack said elsewhere:Â
In all honesty my head is reeling from all of this I'm just very đ and đ¤ rnÂ
đ I can see, but whatâs đ¤ represent? Speculation?
Lissa said elsewhere:Â
You've done some Good Shit Kara Get some good rest, you've more than earned it
Nope! Now Iâm not queueing and any image I add wonât interfere with it, Iâm gonna go double hard and double time on the installment subsequent. And hopefully itâll be revealing enough to really make Lavandar sit up! ...from the pool of blood.Â
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the lovely @isaacvolker tagged me in this thing, thanks mate, so imma just do it
RULES: Tag 9 people you would like to know better
1. REALATIONSHIP STATES: very comitted to playing app games and watching tv shows all day, safely hidded away from other people
2. FAVORITE COLOuR: looove me a deep dark red, black too is nice
3. LIPSTICK OR CHAPSTICK: lipstick, not that i wear any...
4. LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO: according to deezer Gaston from the new beauty and the beast movie
5. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED: proooobably happy death day? i believe is what its called with my sister?
6. TOP 3 FAVORITE SHOWS: uuuuuhhhh eeerrr no, lets say the three ones ive watched lately that i quite enjoyed: Dark (2017), The Exorcist, uuhhh Bobs Burgers, i guess, there ya go
7. TOP 3 BANDS/ARTISTS: bleergh, panic at the disco, idk theres a lot of stuff i listen to but i havent listened to all or even most of their stuff so idk, adam lambert i guess for 2013 me aaannd... i want to say halsey or halestorm but i only know one of their albums each so uRgh i dont like being put on the spot to pick favourites >:c
8. BOOKS IM CURRENTLY READING: volker kutscher's gereon rath series, about a police officer in rhe years before WWII, its really interesting and also slightly fucking terrifying
9.SOMETHING I DID TODAY THAT IM PROUD OF: (im adding this one bc there should be nine questions too right) i drove my dad around with the car today and no one died or had an accident, also i managed to clean the bathroom although i really wantes a naps
fine i guess ill tag a bunch of people now, dont feel obligated to do this blabla, no peer pressure, feel free to add loads of your own questions too while youre at it, love you all @pins-in-the-map @empire-of-dirt @beautius im already running out of names off the top of my head.. @mrbronzeskull @releasethefreaks @ragingteenagemutiny right u guys exist hyyyy @doublepantsdoubledown its coming back to me now @rayndropsfalling @uggfightme ayyy thats gotta be nine now right, also @mads i have no idea what ur url is now im v sorry
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Ten facts about me
Tagged by @wakari-bakari
LOL IM SORRY IâM SO LATE
Warning- this post is really long.
BUT IT WAS IN MY DRAFTSÂ
so here we go nice and quick (my blog does have an unupdated about me if you want that -.-)
1. Like kpop for four years (but didnât really stan i only listened and watched the variety shows of like 2ne1 f(x) ukiss and shinee)
2. More into kindie and krock and kballad but thats fine lmaoo :P Recently liking r and b and hip hop
3. Looks- blonde tall russian idiot
4. Sport- ballroom dancer (like all russians)
5. Learning korean cause i have family that goes there all the time and i wanna join at some point (its realllly pretty there)))) (not just for kpop) (but low key for kpop also)
6. Have a cat that I love very much (phillip, white fat scottish fold)
7. Made this blog last year ( because @shin-dingdong-woo)
8. go to a nerdy highschool and I love it. Couldnât be more thankful that I applied
9. Have no idea what i want to do with my life. In kindergarden when the teacher asked us what we wanted to be I said policeman. xD
10. my bias list is really messed up but since its a big part of me here you go (its fucking long so i made this post continue lol)
Youâll quickly notice that itâs mostly boy groups- its not that I dislike girl groups, its just that when I was first getting into Kpop it was four Armys who told me a. we canât have the same bias and b. stanning girl groups is disgusting (even tho i still loved 2ne1 and f(x)) In the end I didnât have a bias in bts and I didnât even look for more girl groups. Thats when I took a year from kpop. -.- then I came back and look at the black hole I fell into.Â
(in the end the bias became yoongi and i began to like girl groups theres a happy ending)
Of boy groups I stan (not in order)
B1a4. (Gongchan my life)
BTS (its fading but i high key know too much about them to not âlikeâ them anymore but I guess it got to the point where I heard every song so many times that itâs âoverplayedâ to me when in reality thats entirely my fault (except I dislike the army) (yoongi)
Pentagon (hui)
Ikon (donât have a bias theyâre all idiots I love them, but prob Jay (formerly known as Jinhwan))
Seventeen (meanie. I stan the ship Iâm sorry)
Vixx (Ravi? Leo? Who knows)
Should I actually make this list Iâm scared....
Got7
JBJ- i low key dont stan I like to workout to fantasy tho
NCT in generalÂ
SF9
Victon
Astro
Winner- and then my bias left
Monsta x
Btob
Block B
(NCT 127 is tech supposed to add a member each comeback 127 is the longitude of korea and yada yada dream is the team of younger members but they high key look older than 127 so idk do they move out into 127??)
IM- nope not a rock/ballad group they just debuted with a ballad lmao (as said on the unit
vav (all of them lol)
Exo (my baekhyun phase never ended)
Shinee (onew jonghyun....)
Wanna one (ong cause omg)
ONF (hyojin since Predebut)
Teen top (weâll it was joe until he left...))
Ah whatever it's all popular groups anyway
I should make a section of "men groups"
Lmao
ZE:A- hyungsik omggg
Tvxq
suju (no bias lol
sechskies
im too lazy to continue this list
bands /ballad
Day6
The rose
The east light
N flying
IZ- pronounced âeyes"
honeyst
Marmello
Dreamcatchers current concept
Royal pirates
8LOOP
CNBlue
vromance (mamamoo brothergroup ballad group)
Solo female artists
Cl (she's solo now đ)
Minzy
Sunmi
Heize
Lee Jin ah (antenna)
Kwon jin ah (antenna)
Suhyun
Lee hi
BoA
iu
Hyuna
Ailee
Cha Yoongi
Jessie
Suran
Hyolyn
Yezi my bitxh
Chungha
Male
Jujg seunghwan (antenna)
Sam Kim (antenna)
seungkwan (the pd101 one)
G dragon
Bobby
10cm (hes technically solo now)
Taemin (I mean his recent album a+)
Henry suju
Jonghyun suju
Dean
Zico
Rain
Se7en
Henry
Duos
Troublemaker
Akmu
10cm (rip)- technically Indie group
DIA subunit
LOONA subunit
jj project
2NB
Peppertones
Davichi (minki my love)
bolbbalgan4
MXM
Co-ed (including duos)
kard
akmu
Troublemaker
Antenna angels
Indie/ballad (these idiots deserve their own list)
All antenna entertainment artists
10cm
2am
Yg solo ballad artists from kpop star
2NB
Hip hop
Epik high
3Racha (from stray kids)
Agustd
ONE (FROM ICONIC 1PUNCH)
Fanxy Child (and all of them individually lmao)
Female groups
2ne1 (rip) bias CL
Mamamoo BIAS SOLAR
Oh my girl- JIHO
blackpink- JISOO
F(x)- luna
Exid- SOLJI (GET BETTER)
Weki Meki- kinda -.-
Enjoy AOA Redvelvet Pristin Twice and others but never really got into them.
I mean I literally listen to everyone these are just top six@_@
MY SHIPS AREN'T SAILING
look it's wrong to ship coed cause they're like brother and sister but imma be a bitch and say jiwoo and jseph
Jimin and everyone
Probably jimkook
Moonsun
Hwheein
Gongchan and sandeul come on
Jisoo and jinyoung OK I know wild
Leo and Cats
No more I gotta stop
I do appreciate bromance tho
My greatest memories
2ne1- first group
B1a4- first stan and ult
Shinees married to the music- first music video
Heize- first solo artist
Taemin move- first dance learned
Blackpink AIIYL FIRST girl group dance learned
Bts- first album purchased
Peekaboo red velvet- first dance posted online
I knew it sonamoo- quickest dance learned
Kdramas:
Too many.
sorry.
recently dont have time so i just watch ros.
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92 Questions
@useless--mind thanks for tagging me bud!! i love doing these even if no one gives a shit
Last:
1. Drink: milk
2. Phone call: with my grandpa
3. Text message:Â âđđđâ
4. Song you listened to: ultra bra - kaunis ja ylpeeÂ
5. Time I cried: cant remember the last time i properly cried (its not even a rare occurrence just doesnt pop into my mind wtf) but my eyes got wet like two hours ago bc my sister sent me silly pics with her baby and was just extraordinarily sweet love her :(
Have You:
 6. Dated someone twice: no
7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nope
8. Been cheated on: nah
9. Lost someone special: yeah
10. Been depressed: yes
11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: unfortunately................
List Three Favorite Colors:
12. violet
13. baby blue
14. orange mayb
In The Last Year Have You:
15. Made new friends: ive got closer with a few people so kinda?Â
16. Fallen out of love: wtf is this love ya keep talkin bout
17. Laughed until you cried: yes
18. Found out someone was talking about you: hahaha yeahÂ
19. Met someone who changed you: nah
20. Found out who your friends are: in a way? ive not been thinking about this profoundly at all but the way ive perceived some people has strengthened for better and worse which led into new relationship dynamics
21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: not on the lipsÂ
General:
22. How many Facebook friends do you know in real life: vast majority
23. Do you want to change your name: noo im used to it but at the same time it sometimes hits me that its ACTUALLY my name (its not even anything special i just have confusing thoughts) so it does keep me on my toes and wont get bored of itÂ
24. What did you do for your last birthday: I CANT REMEMBER lmao ok i dont think we celebrated it on my actual birthday at all bc it wasnt practical that way but i had my sisters over the day before
25. What time did you wake up: 7am cause i hate myseldf
26. What were you doing last night at midnight: drinking water at my friends so id sober up bc im a fucking idiot pls slap me thrice dont hate meÂ
27. Name something you canât wait for: get used to the new school i go to in two days (yea i havent even started yet but i can feel the bricks im shitting for the next month or so)
28. When was the last time you saw your mom: an hour ago?
29. What is the one thing you wish you could change in your life: i wanna be able to enjoy living my life properly and take more risks without worrying all the time Â
30. What are you listening to right now: partners in crime part three by the internet
31. Have you talked to a person named Tom: no?
32. Most visited website(s): twitter tumblr youtube how generic
Lost Questions:
33. Mole(s): i have three moles (on my temple, under eye, above eyebrow) that form a triangle i was so ecstatic when i discovered this like two years ago
34. Marks: what kind of?? i mean i have stretch marks one from vaccination but thats it i think
35. Childhood dream: either a fashion designer or a housewife lmao
36. Hair color: mYsTiC vIoLeT according to the hair dye idk its hard to describe a dark mix of brown n purple (and red?)
37. Do you have a crush on someone: no
38. What do you like about yourself: that im quite tolerant and considerate of others, how self-aware i am cause thats the only thing that will keep me sane, i can be funny and not take things that seriously but still have extensive opinions and  thoughts on everything
39. Piercings: both ears x2
40. Blood type: a(+ i think)Â
41. Nicknames: vertsi or however you wanna twist it its fine i love it
42. Relationship Status: singley
43. Zodiac Sign: taurus
44. Pronouns: she/her
45. Favorite TV shows: oitnb, lie to me, htgawm, skins, drag race, the get down, black mirror
46. Tattoos: none
47. Right or Left hand: right
48. Surgery: none
49. Hair Dyed A Different Color: ye different variations of brown and purple
50. Vacation: last one was to budapest about three years ago
51. Pair Of Trainers: i stole a pair from my mum idk theyre black and pink or some shit
More Generals:
52. Eating: last time? a croissantÂ
53. Drinking: nothing rnÂ
54. Iâm about to: finish this and then go to sleep
55. Waiting for: a pleasant surpriseÂ
56. Want: a proper social life
57. Get married: idk i loved my sisters wedding but i wouldnt consider marriage a necessity from a romantic point of view. if i ever get married its probably for the legal stuff and the ceremony will be low-budget and simpleÂ
58. Career: probably gonna do something with psychology or languages
Which Is Better:
59. Hugs or Kisses: hugs ?whats a kiss?
60. Lips or eyes: eyes
61. Short or tall: idc!!! ok im kind of intimidated by tall people i feel like they could crush me in a heartbeat but maybe that adds into my excitement Â
62. Older or younger: older for now at least
63. Nice arms or nice stomach: great the two body parts that barely hold any meaning to me good choiceÂ
64. Sensitive or loud: im personally both (ok we gotta debate on the loud part with some people) but i think i value someone that is more likely to understand my own sensitivity so i guess sensitive it is
65. Hook up or relationship: relationship
66. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker sounds disgusting but i guess that since they would push my hesitant ass to do some stretching out of my comfort zone
Have You Ever:
67. Kissed a stranger: no
68. Had hard liquor: yes
69. Lost glasses/contact lenses: no
70. Turned someone down: kind ofÂ
71. Sex on first date: no
72. Broken someoneâs heart: naah
73. Had my heart broken: nope
74. Been arrested: no
75. Cried when someone died: yes
76. Fallen For a Friend: fgjhjh kinda... got over it fast tho cause it was impossible
Do You Believe In:
77. Yourself: No I Do Not Exist We Are Collectively Hallucinating MeÂ
78. Miracles: not really
79. Love at first sight: i believe you can sense if a person is compatible with you BUT ITS NOT LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT YOU ARE JUST A PERCEPTIVE PERSONÂ
80. Santa Clause: obvs my Dad
81. Kiss on the first date: i dont think it has anything to do with belief if it feels right at that moment then do itÂ
82. Angels: um? havent you seen the axe commercial :/Â
83. Aliens: yes!!
Other Random Things:
84. Current Best Friendâs name: mira
85. Eye color: blue and grey or some shit
86. Favorite Movie: black swan
87. Hold an object dear to you: my phone love being a #relatable millennialÂ
88. Favorite Ice Cream Flavour: vanilla or lemon
89. Least favorite thing: when my clothes fall under my bed and then im too scared to dig them outÂ
90. Name one thing you could change about the world: no social injustice
91. Current Song stuck in your head: i know by fiona apple
92. Favorite Childhood show: powerpuff girls? idk i liked most of the shows from my childhood
jesus christ sorry this is a hot mess made by  someone who tries to function at 2am using their second language @nuddy-pants do this xx
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about me tag
tagged by: @moonbeamthoughts
rules: answer all of the questions, then add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions!
coke or pepsi: neither
disney or dreamworks:Â DISNEY
coffee or tea: tea
books or movies: i really canât choose tbh
windows or mac: windows but ive never had a mac so..
dc or marvel: MARVEL IS MY SHIT
xbox or playstation:Â hmmm idk
dragon age or mass effect:Â i dont know what these are lol
night owl or early riser: night owl. waking up is a struggle
cards or chess:Â cards i guess
chocolate or vanilla:Â chocolate
vans or converse: converse
lavellan, trevelyan, cadash, or adaar:Â wat
fluff or angst:Â im not really sure what this means but i was very angsty in my early teens
beach or forest: i gotta go with the beach. but forest is nice!
dogs or cats:Â kinda biased cause i only have a dog
clear skies or rain:Â it depends...i like it when its sunny but also raining. does that make sense :S
cooking or eating out:Â homemade food is best food
spicy food or mild food: imma spicy bitch
halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas: halloween
would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot? im used to a little too hot
if you could have a superpower, what would it be? fuck?? uhh telekinesis
animation or live action: both
paragon or renegade:Â wat part 2
baths or showers: showers
team cap or team ironman:Â ughgugh i understand what cap is going for but im going to have to say ironman
fantasy or sci-fi:Â both. cant choose
do you have three or four favorite quotes? if so, what are they? nah sorry
youtube or netflix:Â bothhhh
harry potter or percy jackson:Â harry potter is life
when do you feel accomplished? when i can say i truly tried my best on something and it makes me feel happy
star wars or star trek:Â im a total star wars hoe
paperbacks or hardcovers:Â hardcoversÂ
horror or rom-com:Â watch a horror movie with me so i know its real <3
would you rather live in a world without literature or music? damn thats really hard. literature is so important to humanity imo but music is what personally keeps ME sane
pastel colors or dark colors:Â dark. finding one shirt is a stuggle
tv shows or movies:Â movies are really special to meÂ
city or countryside: city
if any other zodiac sign could describe you, what would it be? i dont know how to answer this lol
if you could only listen to one album for the rest of your life, what would it be? WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME. im going to break the rules and name more than one. Death of a Bachelor, Lewis Del Mar, Tell Me Iâm Pretty, Melophobia, Paranoid
cinema or theater? cinema
if you could be any fictional characterâs best friend, who would it be? i would need more time to think about this lmao
smiling or smirking: smiling
are you an âall or nothingâ type, or are you more consistent? it really depends on the situation
playlists or your whole library on shuffle? shuffle
traveling or staying home? i like the idea of traveling but i dont get the chance toÂ
what languages are you fluent in? english, spanish, and sortaaaa frenchÂ
How old are you? im 18
what are you doing right now? PROCASTINATING lmao            wow this was really long!!! you guys dont have to do this but i tag @thewoodwindwaker @the-vowelless @mikehlyll @bloobguy @sei-joh @tardigradeoftheforest @capnmangoes
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92 truths tag game
rules: once you have been tagged you are supposed to write 92 truths about yourself. at the end, choose 25 people to tag!
was tagged by @ccleopatrraa thank u! I tag @lenvluthor @anankinskywalker @delzinrowe @hosgmeade @wjnterbuckyÂ
LAST⌠[1] drink: ice tea green [2] phone call: my boss [3] text message: alessia @anankinskywalker [4] song you listened to: i gotta feeling by the black eyed peas (the radio is on okay) [5] time you cried: last night at a tv ad
HAVE YOU EVER⌠[6] dated someone twice: nope [7] been cheated on: nope [8] kissed someone and regretted it: nope [9] lost someone special: yes [10] been depressed: yes [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: once
LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS: [12] pastel blue [13] pastel lilac [14] pastel pink
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU⌠[15] made new friends: yep [16] fallen out of love: nope [17] laughed until you cried: yes [18] found out someone was talking about you: no [19] met someone who changed you: no [20] found out who your true friends are: (think this is kinda bullshit but) i suppose so [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: ive never kissed anyone period lmao
GENERAL⌠[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all, I donât add random ppl [23] do you have any pets: a dog and shes the purest thing [24] do you want to change your name: i would like to but i never know to what id change it [25] what did you do for your last birthday: i worked from 8-6 cause i got no social life [26] what time did you wake up: 9 am [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping [28] name something you cannot wait for: to go to alessias house this summer [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: about 30 mins ago [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wanna live by myself tbh [31] what are you listening to right now: the radio [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes so many lol [33] something that is getting on your nerves: the amount of annoying love songs on said radio [34] most visited website: tumblr probably but pinterest is a close second [35] elementary: i finished elementary school if thats the question but i also watch the show [36] high school: graduated last year [37] college: currently in first year, studying english [38] hair colour: strawberry blonde-ish, idk its some weird mix of my own colour and a red dye that never washed out [39] long or short hair: long but i feel like its reached its limit [40] do you have a crush on someone: nope [41] what do you like about yourself? idk
[42] piercings: ears and cartilage
[43]blood type: A [44] nickname: lou (which i go by here bc marlou is meh to pronounce) [45] relationship status: aro as fuck [46] zodiac sign: sagittarius [48] fav tv show: haven, teen wolf [49] tattoos: not yet but i wanna get a few [50] right or left handed: right
FIRST⌠[51] surgery: when i was 9 months old on my palate [52] piercing: ears [53] best friend: marleen who iâm still friends with [54] sport: used to like badminton [55] vacation: norway [56] pair of trainers: i dont remember
RIGHT NOW⌠[57] eating: nothing (but im hungry) [58] drinking: ice tea green [59] iâm about to: play more sims [60] listening to: the radio (didnt i already answer this) [61] waiting for: dinner [62] want: pasta or sushi [63] get married: never [64] career: translating books
WHICH IS BETTERâŚ
[65] hugs or kisses: hugs but platonic [66] lips or eyes: eyes [67] shorter or taller: shorter [68] older or younger: dont care [69] romantic or spontaneous: neither [70] nice arms or nice stomach: dont care [71] sensitive or loud: sensitive [72] hook up or relationship: neither [73] troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant
HAVE YOU EVER⌠[74] kissed a stranger? nope [75] drank hard liquor? probably at a party but i dont remember lol [76] lost glasses/contact lenses? once got my contact knocked out which resulted in a black eye and a lost contact [77] turned someone down: twice in the last 2 months and before that once [78] sex on first date? no sex period [79] broken someoneâs heart? twice [80] had your own heart broken? once [81] been arrested? nope [82] cried when someone died? iâm horrible at funerals even if i didnt know the person very well, its just sad that theyre gone [83] fallen for a friend: no yikes
DO YOU BELIEVE IN⌠[84] yourself? sometimes [85] miracles? never experienced one but i guess so [86] love at first sight? nope [87] santa claus? no [88] kiss on the first date? not for me [89] angels? idk
OTHER⌠[90] current best friendâs name: alessia [91] eye colour: brown [92] favourite movie: me before you
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