#fuck i'm too far gone

[be-a-cute-scientist]

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[nellasbookplanet]

I know that after Downfall the perspective of 'the gods are a FAMILY' has permeated fandom on both sides of the kill-all-gods argument, but frankly that isn't all they are and acting as if it's suddenly their only motivation flattens both them as characters and the narrative they (and bells hells) are in.

The Wildmother and The Raven Queen didn't 'let' Lolth get away with nabbing Opal and killing Cyrus because she’s their sister. Come on man, we've already seen that the primes are plenty capable of opposing and fighting their siblings on the side of mortals (is the calamity a joke to you??). I'm not saying the primes aren’t capable of picking the lives of their betrayer siblings over mortals (downfall showed as much) but that's not what the situation with Opal and Lolth was about in the slightest.

They let Lolth 'get away with it' not because she’s family, but because this is the very rare instance of them not only having the same goal, but of them actively fighting for their lives. As far as we know that has only happened once before on Exandria, and that time they also entered a truce to defend themselves. The vast majority of the time, the primes picking their siblings over mortals won’t happen because mortals can’t actually threaten the gods (normally), making the 'they're family argument' a moot point. The primes won’t necessarily agree with Lolth's methods, but they won’t go throwing away both hers and their own champions in a meaningless struggle when they need all their strength to stop the fucking apocalypse.

[dukeofthomas]

jason thinks he should be dead (sometimes he thinks he IS dead), he's just what crawled out of jason todd's grave but he IS jason todd why cant you see that im still the same person. but im not who i used to be and you have to accept i'm different now but i'm still the same bc i'm still your son and your brother and your friend but i'm not 15 anymore (but i am i never grew up i'm still stuck in that warehouse watching the seconds count down the joker is still laughing and i'm still in pain and broken and bloody and beaten and the warehouse is everything and i'm 15 i'm 15 i'm 15) i'm an adult now i'm not a sweet lil daddy's kid anymore i've grown up (i haven't. do you remember when i played with legoes? when we went to football matches togetehr? when you drove me to school and called me chum and smiled at me gently and put your hand around my shoulder and squeezed? i loved you.) when you look at me all you see is who i used to be, you don't see ME, you just see who i used to be and i can never measure up to that, i can never be as good or kind or gentle or loving as the ghost of me that lives in your brain, but when i look in the mirror my eyes are dead like a fish's and my corpse is still in the ground and i'm not breathing because my insides are decayed and gone but i'm still standing here like a zombie, like a bad dream, like a fraction of who i used to be because i'm dead and i'm 15 and i never grew up but i'm somehow still an adult and how dare you not see me for who i am because i'm still the same but i'm still different but aren't i your son? am i at least still your son? you took me in and you loved me and you cared for me and you were my father my god my everything? i'm still your son. i'm still your son. i'm still your son.

Do you love me? Can you prove you love me? Can you prove i meant anything and can you prove my death was real?

(I love you. Please say it back.)

[alaiis]

The far right scored 40% in France for the European elections. We're the second country with the most seats. And many other countries have the far right leading too. This is a catastrophe.

Because of tonight's results, President Macron decided to dissolve French Parliament. We're called to vote again in 21 days. The left is scattered and all parties have suffered an incredible defeat today. The only result of these new elections will be to give majority to the far right in the French Parliament too. We'll have a neo-capitalist president governing with a far right prime minister.

I don't know why he chose to dissolve. Like the entirety of the left, I hate Macron. He's been conducting the cruelest class warfare and the bourgeoisie received several victories thanks to him. But I still prefer his majority to a far right majority. He called himself the shield against the far right. It was already hypocrisy and I've been saying for a long time his policies were just giving power to the fascists. Now he's literally doing it.

[deerest-deer]

it's 3 am and i'm over here going absolutely insane over assad getting nervous while answering questions about the looks™ between armand and daniel in dubai

and some of those looks are actually love and some of them are "what's for lunch?" - assad about the looks™ <3

[outlying-hyppocrate]

well. did you fucking miss me.

[punkrogue]

some fucking idiot: when we say "magneto was right" we're saying he's right about society and shit not supporting his terrorist actions

me: don't lump in with your cowardly ass i'm in full throated support of his terrorism. sentinels, purifiers, the mardies etc are all real and exist and want mutants dead and literally no one gives a single shit. they'd rather pass the mutant registration act and make "scaly lives matter" jokes on twitter then help stop the genocide of mutants. it's a good thing actually he's blowing shit up and he should do more of it actually.

[akuma-tenshi]

i was thinking about how teenagers often look like grown-ass adults in fiction (and are often played by adults in live-action work) and i realised ithaqua kinda has the opposite issue. at least imo.

look at this baby-faced motherfucker. look at him. i don't know how much time passes between this and his whole going insane thing but i know it's not much considering the fact that he's seen later looking pretty much exactly the same shortly before becoming a hunter.

he looks slightly older but still very young in this shot. it may be just the angle or his expression but he still does look like a teenager.

and he looks slightly older here too, which again i believe is the expression because again—

HE LOOKS LIKE A FUCKING BABY IN THE NEXT SHOT

like. a deeply haunted and traumatised baby but a baby nonetheless. by "baby" i mean "mid to late teens" because that's very much a baby when compared to the rest of the cast (plus i'm just calling him a baby bc it's funny). the point of this is that he looks very young when seen without his mask.

even in his concept art, he looks young. he's tall and lanky as hell, sure, but he still has a serious case of babyface.

LOOK AT HIM!!! when he's not doing that face on the far left of the close-up, he looks like a teenager. he looks Baby. and you're telling me he's a grown adult?? i think it's the size of his eyes plus the small smile and the wavy hair, but just in general he looks very young imo.

this isn't a dig at people who headcanon / portray him as older!! i know canonically he's a young adult (i'd imagine early to mid twenties?? that's where i always imagine "young adult" falling) and i'm very much in the minority here lmao. but i will always see this fucked up lil mama's boy as no older than nineteen tbh

sorry i love talking about him so much i've been writing him lately and he's so much fun once you get into his troubled little head

[seokmattchuus]

Matthew could totally make it as a motherfucker who just reads books on streams

[crystalkitty1220]

Man I wonder where the leader of the fear realm could've gone, it's alMOST LIKE NEVIN HAS AN

[lycanroc-aro]

I've been thinking a bit recently and a few things that came around at the same time that ace discourse was at full swing (at least on my dash) was things like arophobia and also transphobia, but specifically about trans men (transandrophobia?)

my dash was at the time just filled to the brim with people defending asexuality but shitting on aromantics, acting as if we are monsters, but it was also filled with a bunch of hate towards transmascs, especially how we just wanted to escape misogyny by joining the "enemy", how we were traitors.

That was also when I was introduced to asexuality and aromanticism, which had awful effects on me, I started thinking that I must be ace, I wasn't an unfeeling monster after all. Just for me to slowly realise that I was perhaps aro-spec, and then full on aro, it took even longer to realise I wasn't even ace.

But that's not even getting started on the fact that all that shitting on transmascs happened when I was questioning my gender, which I'm very certain is what made me take so long to accept that I'm in fact transmasc, most likely even a trans man. I was so worried that I was actually just thinking that I might be trans just to escape misogyny, that I was a traitor, that I couldn't actually be a feminist if I was part of the enemy.

I still have no clue why ace discourse and a bunch of te/rf and rad/fem stuff just suddenly bombarded my dash, or I mean, I know who put them there (irl friends 💔), but I don't know why they suddenly started reblogging so much about it. I over all think they were still defending trans men (I came out to one of those friends about questioning being trans) but the te/rf and rad/fem rhetoric that was being argued against still affected me and made it harder for me to realise I was actually trans.

Nowadays I'm trying to be out and proud, to combat the insecurities the discourse instilled in me, and its working somewhat

[erdasmcnonsense]

Okay I know it's not guaranteed by any means, and it's common enough for reds to survive a good while after turning red, but wouldn't it be funny if Martyn were to also be the first out of the game in Secret Life? The canary curse broken by the previous winner because the Watchers are just that done with Martyn's shit by now or whatever

[whyamiherewhosummonedme]

people are talking shit but ngl the streamlining stuff is actually so damn nice. It is SO NICE. Yeah yeah skill issue, making it so that Delirium is an upgrade to Blood Weapon and allowing for three part combos to be on one button is just so nice. I can't count the number of times I've fucked up a rotation by hitting the wrong button by accident, and making DRK's burst feel less frantic is honestly great in my opinion. If I want a frantic tank job I play GNB. DRK should feel heavy and powerful and I think this is great

[maeamian]

tbqh it's weird as hell to me that there's this given understanding about fictional aliens that they'd be surprised or confused by adaptability, but like, as far as we know and understand that is a fundamental quality of life itself not life on earth. In order to become a spacefaring species any spacefaring alien would've had to survive whatever space threw at them for billions of years as well as whatever their planet in specific threw at them, even the 'good' planet we know about is pretty fucking hostile to life. It's just implausible to me that like, among all the possible sapient species we'd be unique or interesting for the level to which we have the ability to adapt to situations, something that any biological creature of any origin would also need to survive long enough as a species to figure out how space works.

[nostalgia-tblr]

oh u like lokius do u? decline it in all six cases then.

[rotisseries]

i treat botw and totk like the sims so OBVIOUSLY I wanna do the dream home tarrey town quest, but this majorly conflicts with my emotional investment in the hateno house