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This is the only thing I'm going to say about the election until it's over:
Anyone who did not vote for Harris or who attempted to dissuade people from voting for Harris, you are indirectly responsible for whatever shit Donald Trump does if he gets elected. That blood is primarily on his hands, yes. But it is also on yours. I hope you can live with that because I sure as hell wouldn't be able to.
#'but gaza' trump wants TO OBLITERATE THEM. HE LITERALLY WANTS THERE TO BE NOTHING LEFT OF GAZA AT ALL. WHY DO YOU THINK#I DON'T WANT HIM IN POWER?????#yeah I said I wouldn't election post I lied sorry.#I know most of you don't actually care what happens to american citizens because we're all Violent Hypocrites who should kill ourselves#and somehow every single civilian is responsible for the actions of a military and government that comparatively few of us are actually par#of but FUCKING HELL. You don't care about THE PEOPLE OF GAZA??? Because that's what you're telling me if you're in favor of#doing anything OTHER than the most likely path to get trump out of politics. which is voting for the candidate DIRECTLY OPPOSING HIM.#the thing about america being an empire that needs to die. is that before it dies. it is still affecting the rest of the world.#I can't make you care about me and my loved ones. but I am IMPLORING you to have some fucking compassion for all the people#who are going to be DEEPLY negatively affected elsewhere if trump gets into power.#THEIR HARM. THEIR DEATHS. ARE ON /YOU/ IF YOU DID ANYTHING TO FACILITATE TRUMP'S VICTORY IF THAT'S WHAT HAPPENS.#I don't believe most of you actually have any amount of the sympathy and compassion for others you claim to have.#I don't think any of the causes you throw yourself behind are actually meaningful to you. I don't think any of this is based on a#genuine desire to build a better world. I think you just want your Internet friends to think you are a Good Person.#if I see anyone. ANYONE. acting like a trump presidency is what we 'deserve'. or that it's necessary to 'teach [xyz] a lesson'#I am NEVER speaking to you again I don't care how long I've known you.#us politics#I am a disabled queer woman. almost everybody I love is also disabled and queer. you think we're acceptable collateral damage fine.#but don't cry that I'm being a bitch if I say that that makes me not trust you and not want to have anything to do with you.
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mouse after getting cheese
The mouse after he got his cheese in the form of a plaque to celebrate the success of Too Sweet!!!!
#PLEASE IM GONNA START CRYING IF I THINK LONG ENOUGH ABOUT HOW SWEET HE LOOKS IN THIS PICTURE AND HOW HE SHOULD SMILE WITH TEETH MORE#i am down bad. HORRENDOUSLY.#you honor i love him!!!!#dawg i love me a smile. everybody says eyes are the prettiest physical feature but smiles does me IN#fuck me UP with a smile bro#UUGGHH HE LOOKS SO HAPPY LOOK AT HIM#Tonee's asks#allgaeswelcome#hozier#andrew hozier byrne#unreal unearth tour#too sweet#unreal unearth: unheard
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the cards said i'm the hanged man and my ideal lover is the hermit (both upright)
you know who is represented with the hermit card? hahaha. HAHAHA. HAHAHAHAHAAHA
#i love tarot cards#roubrainrot#rouwontshutupaboutalfons#i make everything about him#i love him too much#i love alfons and i make it everybody's problem#i'm crying and laughing at 3:46 am#help me#fucking bastard#i love him
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Still so soft about Izzy trying his best to comfort Stede but not knowing what to say so he turns to physical touch, that is so autism of him to do (yes im projecting, this is my blog, fuck you)
#I have done it at least 4 times#Twice with my little brother when my mother was being a bitch to him and made him cry#Once with a classmate#And i even once did the exact thing izzy does#Like what the fuck am i supposed to say#I don't know what they need to hear!!?#But everybody at home provided touch when i was upset#I hated it myself#But i thought since they do it it probably means something to them#And it seems to work??#izzy hands#ofmd s2#ofmd s2 spoilers#stede bonnet
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#i literally feel VIOLENTLY ill at the fact the hospital handled my mum’s passing so badly that her funeral is exactly ONE MONTH after it#i’ll forever be furious and angry and hurt and traumatised by the way they handled it#like A MONTH#it should not be happening this long after#and it’s her birthday on sunday so maybe i’m just feeling ten times worse because of that#but it’s not fair#it’s never gonna be fair#why the FUCK did she get taken from me like this#and then having to be the only one who knew about her funeral plans bc she only told me#and then everybody including my dad tells me how strong i am#IM NOT STRONG!!?!!?!??!?#i’m a girl who needs her mama. i’m just a girl who is so lost and confused and needs her mama#i literally want 2 die#tw death#i turned my tv off and immediately started crying bc i felt like the worst person in the world#did i not love her enough#should i have been better to get#*her#idk i just want her to know i adored her#and i need to hear her voice and get a hug#one of the last things she said to me was ‘i love you more’ well i love you most so how about that#tw grief#i am never getting over losing her#please . feel free to let me rant i just feel like i can’t talk to my dad or family bc like idk .#i always talked to my mum about my emotions and well! that can’t happen anymore lmfao 😭#i just need a place to vent the HELL out of my feelings bc i am not going back to therapy
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Guys do not fucking lie to me is Agatha All Along a good show or does it only have lesbians
#I gave up on mcu ages ago#I refused to sit through s2 pf Loki after realising the first 3 episodes were utter shit#'it has a great finale-' I don't give a shit I refuse to watch a bad show because the last episode may be worth it#I haven't watched a marvel product in so long#I am happy without them. I am living a good life without them.#should I trust marvel one more time?#Because I swear to God if the show sucks ass and its only redeeming quality are lesbians I am goinb to have a mental breakdown#and cry#so be honest with me. I beg of you.#do not look into your heart- use your brain#is it a show that's actually enjoyable to watch and won't make me burst capillaries because of plot holes#inconsistency no real motivation behind the characters' actions bad writing bad dialogues or a deus ex machina#that randomly saves the day at the end of it all#I am begging you to tell me the truth#think it like that: I'm like someone who hasn't smoked weed in years#out of their own volition and they're fine they're good#but then they arr at a party and everybody's smoking this stuff and they say it's the shit. It's the real shit.#so then you go you break your vow to yourself and you decide to try it. And it fucking sucks. Worst joint ever. Makes me wanna puke and cry.#do not let me smoke the worst joint ever. tell me the truth. please.#agatha all along#agatha harkness
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Save me Joker out save me
#save me joker out#todays tumblr post was brought to you by:#1) getting to yap about joker out to my friends sister#2) going to sleep at 2 am (i was at my friends and she kept me away by playing eurovision songs)#it started with cha cha cha#and then i got them to play carpe diem#so no sleep ofc#and finally#3) having spent far too much time talking to people over the past two days#rambles#joker out#i lied#4) everybody’s waiting#that song never fucking fails to make me cry#which sucks#because i really like it#but i can’t listen to it without feeling distraught#when i get you bojan#when i get you
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I can’t wait for the day I drift away
#trans man#i hate being alive#transgender#i hate you#why am i like this#fuck you#fuck this#i fucking love this game#i love them#fuck everybody#i want to cry#I want to die#agoraphobia#agoraphobic#pills#bw#why not#why do i do this to myself#why why why#screaming#social anxiety#anxious
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i just came across ai covers on youtube and people are requesting songs in the comments instead of getting enraged and i am further losing hope in humanity and turning to misanthropy
#meins#for a minute i got really excited about henning may singing take me to church :(#i hate people#have you no appreciation for or understanding of art? clearly not.#why would you want to listen to an ai generated song? even if it sounds like your favourite singer it's not them#it has no feelings to meaning to intention. it is empty and soulless#reading the booklet for sinéad o'connor's album of traditional irish and folk songs gave me so much appreciation for her#she wrote a little bit about each song. why she chose it or what it means to her.#it has added so much to my enjoyment of those songs and i think of it whenver i listen to it#they were chosen with intention with love with a deep appreciation for the music and lyrics and there is a story behind it all#it is art and love and human#i see aboslutely no appeal in ai generated 'music' or 'art'#and i hate that i fell for it for a minute#i was sceptical because i had never heard of henning may covering hozier and since it wasn't just 20-60 sec i am certain#i would have heard about it by now#and something was just a little bit... unsatisfying? something was missing which does apply to a lot of cover songs#(i could go on hour long rants about why people fuck up danny boy (and sinéad o'connor does it best (because she actually takes her time)#or trash madonna's version of don't cry for me argentina (again a song ruined for by everybody else but sinéad - once she has sung somethin#i have a hard time enjoying it by anybody else. the parting glass is an exception. hozier's version is phenomenal))#but! henning may not giving it his all for a cover? unlikely. very unlikely.#anyway this concludes my tuesday night rant. rather here in the tags than some poor person's inbox.#or i would have kept fuming by myself for another hour or two
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#EVERYBODY CHILL THE FUCK OUT NOAH KAHAN IS COMING TO AUS#I AM NOT CALM#FUCKING YEAR MADE#SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP#noah kahan#stick season
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I would never have thought that playing Disney: Dreamlight Valley would make me ship Merlin and Ursula but here we are they're definitely a divorced couple you cannot change my mind
#psa i did not buy the game fuck disney#my nama bought the game forever ago and i had to do some finagally bullshit to play it because disney is fucking stupid with their weird#cloud save id thing whatever it was a whole thing of figuring out how to play on my acc on my switch w/out buying the game#the answer was just to transfer “primary console” control to her acc on my switch - now we can play it at the same time#the bad news is she bought literally every dlc EXCEPT FUCKING OSWALD. LIKE IM NOT GONNA ASK HER TO BUY IT BECAUSE AGAIN /FUCK DISNEY/#BUT IM SOBBING CRYING ROLLING ON THE FLOOR MY GUY THATS MY LITTLE GUY PLEASE GOD PLEASE MY LITTLE GUY I WANT HIM PLEASE GOD SOBBING#talk talks#disney dreamlight valley#dreamlight valley#ursula#im not tagging merlin because all the suggested tags i dont recognize ans i fear its like a character in an underground tv show#also mother gothel is like exactly like my mom and i hate it i completely forgot that i related to tangled too much#overly sheltered kid with a narcissistic hoverparent mom? noo totally not. my life FUCK#but i caught myself going “oh shes not so bad shes fine to live in the valley shes just bad to her kid :]” and then had whiplash#that is probably why everybody except me likes my mom isnt it. god i hate charismatic narcissists#not gonna get into it if anyone with npd follows me thats fine its just that my mom refuses to go to therapy or improve her actions at all#its like entirely a personal issue your a person too whatever whatever its 2 am#i am aware pds are stimatized especially npd but i think living with an emotionally abusive narcissist for 10+ years is enough to justify a#/bit/ of a negative bias. i dont want to encourage treating narccissists like shit but i do think people need to be held accountable
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no offence but you spent your life making music i thought the songs would never end now it's so quiet all i wanna do is play again with you my friend you fell asleep humming music the sun came up you stayed at rest now here i am all i have left is one request ONE MORE SONG JUST ONE MORE GIVE US AN ENCORE DON'T GO AWAY WE STILL HAVE MUSIC TO PLAY HEY I SAID ONE MORE SONG JUST ONE MORE ALL THAT I LONG FOR GIVE ME A SIGN IT'S NOT TOO LATE IT'S NOT TOO LATE-
#please i need everybody to watch vivo right now like i promise you it's just. so. good.#ugh#how do you not understand#like#all i have to do is sing louder than my fear???#I NEED YOU HERE????#FOR ONE MORE SONG JUST ONE MORE-#screaming crying sliding down a wall#time to be strong for the journey ahead sing through the doubt sing through the dread#with a scream and a shout break through the fear like the sun through the clouds#LIKE YOU'RE STILL HERE#NO CRYING ALLOWED#ILL TRY TO GET OUT ILL TRY TO BE STRONG YES IM MOVING ON#ITS TIME FOR ONE MORE SONG#guys GUYS#this is#AAAAAAAAAAGHHHHH#go watch vivo or jail i'm being serious rn#(sometimes i go back to this soundtrack just to remind myself how fucking good it actually is)#(and i am always screaming)#(cause it's just that good)#(i promise you it's just that good)#talking shit for the hell of it*
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hello! i do have a few chapters of seeing double lined up, but i'm gon take a few days off just so i can pull myself together!! i'm okay, i'm just dealing w a lot of guilt and going back and forth with myself but i'll be fine in a few!!
thank you for all the support so far for seeing double and on my other work!! it means a lot to me to see people enjoy my stories <3!! i'll see yall in a few
#i really want to please everybody but i am unable to do that#i want my parents to have everything in the world#and i want to show up for my friends#and i want to be able to repay all the kindness and love my siblings gave me#but i cant#and it fucking sucks#i'm just ranting atp#i'm so sorry it's the 4th night in a row i'm crying#i even cried walking home i was at the traffic light like 🥲😪🚦#anyway#cashma's seeing double#miyako's yap time
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It is so fucking dire. My dream. Of Summer Sharena. Over. Sniped. By my most hated banner of all fucking time. I have so many problems. This is going to be torture. Crafted for me, specifically. She is undeniably adorable. A duo w Veronica is undeniably adorable. This is like a Saw trap to me. I'm dying in a fucking Saw trap right now.
#dude.......... i have so much emotional baggage i am not even gonna pretend i don't.#this is psychological horror to me. this is torture to me. and the worst part is is. she's adorable. and i love her.#LIKE..... that really is the worst fucking part. well no actually the worst part is that it came to this in the first place.#i'm gonna throw up. i'm gonna die. i'm gonna lock myself in the bathroom. i'm gonna cry.#literally this is my 9/11. i'm not kidding#literally like what can i say without saying way too fucking much. i was severely traumatized by my upbringing#andnthe expectations communicated to me directly/indirectly and the rest i just filled in the blanks and took it upon myself?#that everyone thinks i'm insane bc they never said that? even though like. that was clearly communicated to me. somehow.#knowing i'll never be that? i'll never be what anyone wanted? knowing that nobody wants me? refusing to be wanted?#bro.#everybody get divorced right fucking now. for mw#for me.
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Imagine you are a conservative catholic and you had your silly slutty phase when you were younger, but now you're ready to settle down and start your "holier than thou" era of life where you're cruel and judgemental to everybody else, never a kind word to say, despite the fact that you yourself are a sadistic person who never grew past being a bully in high school and decided to go into nursing where you'd find more vulnerable people to abuse. You have an older sister who's more or less the exact same, but you're slightly dumber.
Imagine your younger sister, a genuinely kind person, marries a man that you despise. Not for any of the valid reasons to criticise him, but because he's both a protestant and an outspoken person who will call you out when you say something objectively wrong. He does not blindly go along with everything you say like your own husband, and so you hate him.
Imagine you hate this man so much that as your sister is dying you and your other sister steal most of his property from her house and try to tamper with your dying sister's will to essentially steal their children. Not because you care for them and want to look after them, purely to spite the husband. Imagine you scowl at him throughout the funeral, not caring that his daughter is right beside him watching her mother be buried.
Imagine when you don't get custody of the children you convince him to let you, your sister, and your mother take the children a few days a week, ostensibly to keep them close to their mother's family, but really to abuse them in multiple ways including heavy psychological abuse - again, just to spite this one man.
Imagine these kids grown into teens and stop talking to you one by one as they realise how fucked up the situation is. Imagine the eldest one hasn't spoken to you in ten years.
Imagine around the same time these kids stop talking you, you realise you've spent all this time neglecting your own children, one of whom has fallen into heavy drug use and gotten another teen pregnant.
Imagine the baby's mother ODs and your own child is struggling so much with addiction care of the baby falls to you.
Imagine your own brother hangs himself because he suffered greatly from the death of his own wife and felt completely detached from everyone else. He couldn't possibly talk to you. He didn't trust you. But at the funeral you pretend you were best friends. From the other side of the hall your dead sister's children look at you with disgust. Your dead brother's children ignore you completely.
Imagine your child that gave you a grandchild comes out as transgender, but you don't accept that so you act as though they've died instead.
Imagine ten years after your sister's children stopped speaking to you, you realise your family has gotten a lot smaller and your mother may be dying, so you try to reach out to them. No apology, no acknowledgement of the time passed, no thought that maybe since they are all now adults between 22 - 30 they'll have a better understanding of what they were put through and why they're still struggling to recover from it years later, just a casual reach out as though you're old friends who haven't been able to catch up in a while. You don't even use your own social media profile, you borrow your daughter's. You invite them to your grandson's communion ceremony at the church they all still have trauma from because that was also part of the abuse that YOU and your family made them endure.
Are you struggling to imagine someone so cruel and stupid? I would too, if she weren't my own aunt.
#tw suicide#tw child abuse#personal#long post#tw OD#this is a very condensed version of everything#the details are just too much#but I had to vent this out because I am so very angry#I broke down crying last night out of sheer rage#like how dare she? after everything? how fucking dare she speak to me as though we're friends#hey everybody welcome to Auntie Anna's Tragic Backstory Extravaganza#making vent posts because the other option is breaking furniture#K in the unlikely event this post makes its way to you somehow I hope you get hit by a truck & your grandson winds up somewhere much better
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discovered miah_pie on t*ktok (<- i don’t have one btw i just stumbled upon her bc someone i follow on ig talked abt her) and her videos make me want to cry so bad. 24 year old dependent moment
#purrs#i went to a clothing store today to try to get new work shoes and pants bc the one pair i have of each literally have holes in them and are#falling the fuck apart on my body and it was a HORRIBLE experience largely bc i think everybody in town was out shopping for back to school#so it was super crowded and there were lots of screaming kids and it was extremely stressful + my dad got into a mini car accident while i w#was in the store (he was / is completely fine thankfully but the car is not which is so awesome 😍😍😍😍😍) and i was just so stressed and#overstimulated but also like… nothing fits me bc im so short lol. but anyway it was so horrible i was on the verge of starting to cry in the#store and then i came home empty handed and my mom got super pissed at me for… needing to go to the store / being the reason we were out lol#and then finding miah pie and her videos are all about making trips to the store SO much fun and buying little treats and saying yessir and#OHHHHHH MYYYYY and just finding the joy in smth that can be so stressful and unpleasant… it makes me want to cry happy and sad tears at the#same time like i want that soooo bad and i can’t do it fully yet but i want it. need it. fuck my stupid baka life#anyways im gonna start saying the stuff she says just to make myself feel better even when im not at a store. yessir! OHHHHHH MYYYYYY.#acquired. don’t mind if i diddly dooooo!#also btw i am not a dependent except for the ways i am a dependent. hope that helps 🫶🏻#the problem is really that i don’t have a car or a license and also that my mom throws a fit every time i need / want to get driving#practice bc it’s never a good time so. lol 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍 me doing drivers ed this summer was a fucking joke i forget literally everything i#learned and have only been behind the wheel 3 times and none of them have actually counted bc im just developing basic motor skills#(literally). fmlllll im never getting out of here who am i kidding 🤪#delete later
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