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given that i've ran this blog for as many years now i think i should get much credit for this being what, only the third dick joke i've ever made here hdfkhkj
anyways. there's this point in the story where vash and wolfwood have to go their separate ways for a while, but neither of them are dealing with it particularly well
(image id below the cut since it's a longer one)
[image ID: a rough, doodley 5 panel digital comic of vash and meryl from trigun, but from my leaden skies au where they've both been lightly redesigned to fit into the setting of monster hunter. vash is a wyverian with long pointed ears, wearing a red coat with gold trim and buttons. meryl is a human wearing a beret as seen on other guild girls, but her all-white outfit is a practical two-piece blouse and shorts set. the whole comic is comprised of warm colors, orange and yellow and dark purple
panel 1: vash sitting in the foreground at a brown desk covered in candles and books, with a book opened in front of him that he flips through with a bored expression and his cheek resting against his hand. he appears to be in a library, lit by candles on dark grey chandeliers hung from the ceiling. meryl is in the background stretching up to reach a book high on a shelf, and beside her is a table which is also covered in candles and several tall stacks of books
panel 2: a closeup of vash's face as his eyes widen and his ears prick up. something in the book has apparently caught his attention
panel 3: a closeup of the page vash was looking at, an illustrated info sheet about the flying wyvern, khezu. a candle in the table brightly illuminates the colored page
panel 4: meryl has come around by vash's shoulders with a stack of books held in her arms. she quirks a brow as she looks over vash's shoulder at the book. vash has a neutral, hard to read look on his face, but his ears are still up and his eyes are still shiny and wide as he seems to consider the page for a while
panel 5: a yellow word bubble comes from vash, who huffs a long sigh and says, "maybe i should call him...". his head has tipped to the side as he rubs his neck and frowns, blushing a little with his ears drooping. meryl physically recoils from him and her face scrunches up in disgust, saying, "eww" and, "there's something wrong with you"
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#trigun#trigun anime#trigun fanart#vash#vash the stampede#meryl stryfe#vashwood#leaden skies au#monster hunter#monster hunter fanart#monster hunter crossover#crossover#on a serious note i REALLY love putting vash in a role that emphasizes how he's a smart dude with a frankly astonishing depth of knowledge#of his specific specialties. like that aspect of him gets its moments to shine in canon but like#he is Literally just a little scientist man in leaden skies and it's very fun to work with :3#anyways i've been wanting to do this forever and lately i've been badly needing to practice new things again so it was a fun excuse lol#ALSO: for girlies in the know here. is ANYONE ELSE burdened with the knowledge of khezu's concept art#like goddd girl they really said okay we want this thing to look phallic as fuck but this is a little Too Much. tone it down 10 percent dhf#but only 10 percent. mostly they just took away the. head shape. ffsdfdssdfs
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FOR A BEAT OF HEART, THE BREATH IS SHOT. AND WITHIN A BREATH, THE HEART IS CAUGHT. THE PIPES ARE BURSTING, UNDER GREAT STRESS, BOLTS TORN ASUNDER, MAKING A MESS. A FINAL COUGH, A FINAL RETCH, A GOREY SLOUGH, CLAIMED BY WRETCH.
#cw gore#jrwi riptide#jrwi riptide spoilers#chip jrwi#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#I LLOOOVE POETRYYY I LOVE MAKING WORDS RHYME IN STRANGE WAYS AND DESCRIBING VISCERA AND VIOLENCE OR WAHTEVER. YKNOW WHAT ELSE I LOVE#CHHHIIIIIIIBBOOOOO MY BEAUTIFUL MAAANN WWHAT. WHAT HAPPENED. OH MY GOD. IVE BEEN SAYING FOREVER. I NEEED CHIP TO GET SCARIER.#HE HAS THE POTENTIAL! I KNOW HE DOES! HAUNTED BOY WITH THE HAUNTED EYES WHAT TRAUMAS HAVE YOU SEEN? AND WERE THEY YOUR FAULT? THINK ABOUT I#EVERY FAMILY HAS CRUMBLED AROUND HIM. HIS BIRTH FAMILY CRUMBLED BEFORE HE KNEW IT. HIS SECOND FAMILY DROWNED. THIRD BURNED TO THE GROUND#AND SHALL THIS NEXT FAMILY JOIN THEM? CHIIIIP YOU UNFORTUNATE BOY YOU HAVE WITNESSED SO MUCH CALAMITY#YOU ARE CALAMITY BOYYY AHAHAHAHA DONT YOU SEEE!! ZOMBIFIED AND DEAD. TRUELY MORE HAUNTED THAN EVER BEFORE. THIS WILL BE FUN#THE FIRE HURTS WHEN IT BURNS TOO LONG. BUT NOW YOUR NERVES ARE DEAD AND YOUR MIND IS FREE. BURN THIS CORPSE AS YOU WISH TO GET WHAT YOU WAN#CHIP IS NOT THE FIRE HE IS THE MATCH. I LOVE THAT IDEA SO MUCH IM SO PROUD OF IT. OHHH AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE CORRUPTION#bizly mentioned that chip wants to be a good captain. in his most corrupted state however. he would be the BEST captain..#thAT DOESNT MEAn hes gonna just suddenly be all controlling. the BEST captain keeps his crew safe. keeps them together. keeps them alive.#and chip is doing just that! he doesnt need to stop being a good captain just bc of the corruption! he just needs to be the BEST CAPTAIN#AND THATS SUBJECTIVE BABY!! im so excited to see where chips zombie arc goes. neeeed him to get scarier and just a little more fucked up.#neEED HIM TO PERFORM ABHORANT ACTIONS THAT HAVE JAY N GILL GOING ' dude woah what the fuck...'#RIGHT I SHOULD TALK ABT MY ART TOO. this one took TOO LONGGGstarted out witha sketch how did it end up like this...#the heart and the blood KILLED ME. LOOK AT MY RENDERING LIKE HWAAATT#better not see any more mistakes after i post this.... i cant fight withit anymore....STILL RLY PROUD THO..#I WAnted to make it visually LOOK like the grossest vomiting sound possible#i want it to make your throat feel uncomfortable. am i achieving that? i hope i am. thats tubes dude!!! like cmahn!
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In the mountains, all he could think of was reaching the Wall and finding the three-eyed crow, but now that they were here he was filled with fears.
#am i cooking am i cooking#thenorthsource#valyrianscrolls#bran stark#brynden rivers#bloodraven#lyanna stark#rhaegar targaryen#lyanna and the starklings#magic in asoiaf#prophecies of asoiaf#the song of ice and fire#ndn starks#rani graphics#lawyering for bran#took me forever to think of a quote omg.#obviously the tags are implying my ‘rhaegar told lyanna about aegon’s dream/whatever the book equivalent is’ theory#but just like a general ‘starkling who feels alienated from society runs away to a magical targaryen for help. it goes sideways.’ way#i hope the quote makes sense. i was trying to get across the ‘longing for this dude to have a fairy tale way of fixing my problems’#into ‘oh fuck so fairy tales kind of suck and are terrifying’
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surpirate asked:
gamzee + clown church + "and then i remember that there are children inside." - "to throw a wrench in the blood machine: five (season appropriate) metaphors for voting" by kyle tran myrhe
#Homestuck#Gamzee Makara#Kurloz Makara#The Grand Highblood#Caliborn (Homestuck)#Calliope (Homestuck)#Lord English#POUNDS FIST#GOOD PROMPT MY DUDE GOOD PROMPT!!!!#it took forever but mostly because like.............. Fuck Yeah
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I unironically love getting hate mail/hate comments, because it tells me my presence/art made people feel a strong enough emotion that they were moved to tell me. And it's pathetic that they did so cuz I'm literally just Some Guy.
#cringe moment for them to be honest#you're so offended by me and i will literally never meet you or think about you after this interaction#and you will be forever incensed#sucks dude#also i always laugh at it#because You took time out of YOU'RE day to do that#and I barely glanced at it#if that#fucking rip my guy#text post
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layer by layer
#eye contact //#process#i'm enjoying this drawing wayyyy too much it's so fun#my best friend pete white who makes me good at art#but fuck his hair in this drawing tbh it looks good now but it took me forever#special thanks to the animators of this episode for making him weirdly buff in this one scene#canon skinnier-than-bowie dude
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I’d say the only downside of adapting the sandman universe into live action is the creators having to work around censorship. 24/7 fucked me up the first time around but now that I’ve read the comics that shit’s tame in live action. same with the cereal con
I swear to god every page of the cereal convention I had to sit back and go
#I don’t typically watch horror movies because I hate jumpscares#but I LOVE psychological horror that’s what fucks me up the most#so idk if this is me not being well versed in all of horror#but regardless that shit changed my psyche forever#I took a horror literature class in high school and I told my teacher dude we gotta go over some of sandman#and he was like haha maybe let’s not!!#so. do with that what you will#I can sit here with a flabbergasted expression all I want don’t let it fool you I love having to face the horrors of humanity#the sandman#my posts
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dogma didn't want to do a portrait but tup and kix made him… and there's only so many flashes he can take before it looks like war.
#this took forever ... hopefully that won't be a recurring thing...#fuck#anyway. MUCH self-doubt and frustration aside.#this is from my No Order 66 AU!!#the massiff is Exo and she's here bc Dogma got reconditioned after Umbara#it didn't stick but... well. reconstructing your brain to nothing will have effects even if you DO remember who you are.#her tasks are DPT and interruption and fetching help when needed#for dissociation/meltdowns/ptsd flashbacks/etc#and also crowd control (give him space sometimes!) and finding Dogma if he wanders off while dissociated#and a few other small things that that follow the same principals#(she can do a bit of retrieval--not really her thing but she was trained a bit in it)#(Dogma keeps wanting to have someone teach her to help w/ tup's seizures but rightfully everyone tells him no.#Tup will get his own service animal if he needs one. and he denies one for now.#dude you had a chip erode part of ur brain and then had experimental surgery that fucked u up but okay. fine. have it ur way!)#anyway she has her longer spikes filed down for safety during DPT. it's completely safe--like cutting fingernails!#OKAY yeah thats it. hopefully some day i'll WRITE this au. xoxo mwuah#saleucami au#clone trooper dogma#dogma#clone trooper tup#tup#clone troopers#exo the service massiff#massiff#star wars: the clone wars#the clone wars#star wars#my art#mimse art
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#finally ended the relationship that took all my health and happiness from me :)#many lessons learned#unfortunate that I am so nosey as to know about the constant lies but I would probably still be trapped otherwise#like actually insane that the person i trusted most in the world can speak about me like that#but i know it’s really nothing to do with me it just sucks#couldnt lie FOR me so outed me as a sex worker but 100% fine with lying ABOUT me behind my back#if you are reading this and are confused thats even worse btw#i thought it would be difficult but you have made it very very easy#i am thankful for that much#x#8 years of my life wasted i wish we never met#all the signs were there the first time and i still came back and hung around like an idiot#i feel a need to try to warn ykw but i dont think he will listen / i will just make him paranoid. so#i still wanted to cohabit but obviously this is impossible if you cannot be honest with yourself#but sure leave me with nothing except resentment and resign yourself to misery. cool dude#i stood by your side when it got hard for you & when it got hard for me you abandoned me. fuck you forever never speak to me again#i’m ngl this relationship has made me so averse to labelling myself as a femme because this butch acts like a man#it was so hard to keep that to myself for the entire relationship but i can say it now#(breathes a giant sigh of relief)#there’s just soooo much…#always an excuse#its so tiring its so old. my main feeling around all of this is just a bottomless fucking pit of disappointment#like how is ur response to me saying its over that you have shitty partner disorder lmfao#ughhh sorry i treated you like absolute shit for 6+ years i had no choice because i suck#please be serious. actually dont its easier to leave when you live in genuine fucking delusion#BYEEEEE
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sorry if I wasn’t clear, but we did have stage directors and such, but we didn’t have that many people in crew as a whole because the new director is a bitch (literally the only word I could possible use to describe her.) Anyways, the guy Im talking about is basically just the opposite of what I read. His first reaction after the show was to run off the stage and up to the light booth just to hug me, pick me up and spin me around a bunch. LIKE????? I THINK ABOUT THAT DAILY Also he’s helping me a bunch because there’s this one creepy guy who keeps flirting with me and being all touchy, but school won’t do anything about him. But he agreed to walk me to all my classes, even though he doesn’t have most of his classes even near mine and he’s defending me from the creep. But also idk in general.
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wtf the duality of tech lives: yours vs mine GOOD FOR YOU IM VERY HAPPY FOR YOU
But technical directors that dont know what they're doing SUCKKKKK
#💜.answers#🌺.anon!!!#back when i was a senior i had a tech teacher and he fucking sucked#hang on let me get on my computer for this#i lied im gonna write here bc i took forever to answer#dude so for this carriage we had to make it was so unstable that he said only 120 pounds was allowed on the carriage#AND THE LEAD HAD TO RIDE IN IT ACROSS THE STAGE. IT WAS SCARY#he put a screw like. perpendicular to where it was actually supposed to go. so the screw was tightened literally nowhere.#the stairs were uneven as all hell and they were SCARY to walk on#for the trees we needed in the forest scene ??? they were supposed to fly out. guess what he did. yep. he drilled them to the floor#so during the ballroom scene THERE WERE TREES RIGHT THERE. JUST. THERE.#once my mentor bought gels for the lights. this guy cut up the gels to make 'stained glass'#THEY WERE FOR OUR LIGHTS.
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some sorta dog motif idk
#art#digital art#artists on tumblr#blood#self portrait#since thats all i seem to be doing#digital illustration#illustration#dog motifs etc#dude i dont even know what to tag this im so tired#wanted a new pfp to celebrate the new url#hello to anyone who followed me for tf2 art btw im fucking sorry#also cop car by mitski fucking rules#this took 7 hours i think im gonna sleep forever now#(it definitely shouldn't have)
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today's therapy session was really enlightening which is obviously good but it was enlightening in kind of a freaky degree because i just figured out that something i have been doing for like the entirety of my life isn't actually a common thing and is probably representative of something not working right in my unconscious? dude i thought i was on top of my psychological shit but then it turns out something i wrote off as being emotionally inconvenient but presumably regular actually might be worth its own series of sessions like. what the fuck man.
#literally nobody told me that having intensive... fuck i dunno how even to describe it#it's like being told i Think Wrong. not like literally but something i took for granted as part of just how i think passively#actually is like... indicative of something really weird. that me and my therapist are now trying to figure out#apparently might be OCD-like which would be one hell of a realization but like. dude. i never thought it was abnormal?#like i mean part of me must have known sobbing my eyes out for two hours every day over something not really real was an issue#and then like. Lord i dunno how to even describe it. whatever#it's just so weird. i didn't think this was like a big deal.#and now it's like. waves hands emphatically do you know what i mean#just weird finding out that after four years there's still more shit i've never even talked about mentally#makes me wonder when i'll ever pump the brakes on therapy seems like i'll need it forever
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me when i play the class that medics uber and i get. ubered
#yesterday i had the very important job of taking out a heavy+medic pair raiding our spawn and today i got sent to destroy an engie's nest#(by that i mean a teleporter. dispenser and lvl 3 sentry+the engie that built it and a pyro that was i guess just tagging along) (i'm sorry#to them but you don't say no to your medic)#with the first one it wasn't perfect but i DID kill them both and i also destroyed the nest so 💪💪💪#STILL. a fucking scary experience to suddenly see my screen light up and i have to stop fucking around#the medic today actually i guess took it upon themself to lead our team to victory (we did win yay) because they found me and told me via#voice commands that a sentry is ahead and to GOOO!!! GO THEM ZHEM!!!#AND it's also so funny honestly. i get so protective of our medics. we stumbled upon a demoknight in our sewers i mean me and the medic#that sent me to that nest and ofc you take out the medic first but i still go like NO!!! NO!!! LEAVE DOCTOR ALONE!!!!! SHOO!#it's not like that guy was harmless too. no. they took out the ubersaw and started hacking#also unrelated but one guy was like scout in our intel can anyone take care of that. and i usually hang out near spawn so i'm like lol sure#maybe i'll get him. i. exploded him point blank and the guy congratulated me :3 yaaayyy#<that was also probably like. the most organized. communicated match i've played so far and the dude was just generally nice from what#i read when i glanced at the chat. peace and love forever#JESUS. seriously sorry about the diary entires in the tags but i um. i just get excited at the beauty of gaming ok?
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😍💗My Bizkit Boys💗😍
#with special appearance from the cutest doggo the one and only Bizkit the bulldog#but fr these dudes have my whole fucking heart#listening to their music is an instant mood booster when i'm feeling sad#always appreciated that they never took themselves too seriously. They provide me with a reminder that life can be fun and silly#Live. Laugh. Limp Bizkit.#forever and always#Limp Bizkit#nu-metal#John Otto#Wes Borland#Fred Durst#Sam Rivers#DJ Lethal#down the rabbit hole
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something that makes me feel guilty is the fact that seeing that persons face rn literally makes me angry. they walked into class and i nearly winced. and in all fairness they were quite kind to me. outside of the several kind of odd red flags. girl whatever. to be quite frank i am a horny bastard and vocal proud etc but few people interest me enough to actually want to hang out with and get to know And i have deep seated intimacy issues so it's like. we really dont have a shot unless the circumstances r exactly right on a full moon perfect thursday of a month etc like. well and tbh i probably would have fucked around with this person but i dont... care... about some big relationship w them.. and i know i could be a relationship girl like eventually i have it in me to have a muse that's what im built for i think idc but not rn... rn i need to hang out with my friends and do my film stuff and have people that maybe wanna make out sometimes is that so much to ask for. for a lesbian at a bar to want to make out perhaps. ** for there to be lesbians at the bars to potentially make out with.
#and i am quite lonely yes thank u for asking. yeah someday id love to get to know someone again in the context of falling in love#what about it. so what now. i dont think im meant for our understanding of romantic love but boy do i crave it#why am i having this moment rn. well ok consider im on my period all i could think about this morning was [redacted] and both parties#of my dyke drama were back in class today. and the one gay person that i think has a crush on me but we dont see each other super often#so im just. guessing based on the way awkward lesbians communicate. idk#and i feel really just mean but i quite literally dont have it in me to pretend to be nice to this person anymore#i wasnt like. some villain for realizing we were acting really coupley and being like oh shit because i didnt want to hurt them#. and trying to communicate and put some distance between us when i thought they were probably in too deep. it's unfortch it took me a sec#but jesus christ yk i cant walk around and feel awkward about it forever. and im frustrated by the fact that we're just acting so odd#but again frankly i think it's largely bc they have an unhealthy relationship with dating. THROWING HORIZONTAL PUNCHES HERE.#OK. STONES FROM A GLASS HOUSE. IM AWARE. REAL RECOGNIZES REAL.#and YET. despite my past insanity. ive been kind. i can understand disappointment and a little awkwardness#but jesus would you rather i pretend to be in love with you for months and then really break your heart.#this is where i get mean and make a joke like well hey if we couldve had weird really mediocre sad angry dyke sex abt it#that would have been cool with me. but alas. we're here instead and it's fucking with my friendships too#and like we were kind of ok friends too. what now. its just u me and this brick wall u built between us bitch#now was EYE not answering texts for a minute. we dont need to get into it.#because the thing IS if i dont play things exactly right. and im not good at that without prior planning. i will accidentally say or do#something that i know. again. from being insane myself. would be just enough for them to hold onto hope#and im not trying to do that to them you know. i was trying to help with the detachment. shitty as it may be. i dont fucking know dude#this post is going to make me look kind of. well. whatever u guys have seen me at my worst. mostly. and post#ok one last thing sorry if this makes me sound like i have a giant ego. like wow heres this person who really liked me and im just shitting#all over them. not what im meaning to do but whatever
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if u ever consider putting ur redbull in an empty water bottle. it's a trick, don't fall for it. the redbull gets angry :(
#i just found out the hard way when i went to take a little drink#i barley touched the top and it flew off so fucking fast dude#sounded like a bomb went off#little air smoke pouring out#the cap literally hit the ceiling#it took forever to find it lmao#gave me the big spook
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