#frustating

[queersouthasian]

IDC fucking bunch of kids are in the BL fandom literally would be looking at the sex scenes and be like "what about plot??" BITCH horniness is the plot, just two men fucking the life out off each other and if you call THAT porn then you should probably leave the genre not even fucking kidding

[silkieluv]

I seriously hate it when people start to villainize characters (let’s say, Kai) just to make more (let’s say, Jay) angst

Like no Rodrick, Kai didn’t beat Jay up for flirting with Nya. You know why? Because by that time Jay was better than Kai (Jay got more training since it was just the start and he joined 2nd, not 4th), and then Kai and Jay spend like every hour of the day together whether it’s training, eating or just chilling.

Yes, Kai will always be Nya's #1, but to the point he would beat Jay up?? Are you demented??

No, Jane, Nya wasn’t abusive towards Jay and forced him into a relationship. That in your sick head so you could have a reason for their breakup so you could ship Jay and Cole! (No hate to Bruise. Bruise supremacy)

NO, ALEX, OKAY? SKYLOR ISNT HOMOPHOBIC AND HER AND KAI DIDNT BREAK UP BECAUSE SHE FOUND OUT KAI ALSO LIKES BOYS.

NO, DENNIS, JAY KAI AND COLE WOULD NEVER BULLY ZANE TO HURT HIM THEN LAUGH AT HIM

SHUT UP, KIM. ED AND EDNA ARE BEAUITFUL PARENTS AND YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF TRYING TO TURN THEM EVIL JUST FOR MORE JAY ANGST.

Shame 🫵🏻.

[thelostpartofme]

"Manchmal ist es die eigene Angst vor Enttäuschung, die uns dazu bringt, uns mit weniger zufrieden zu geben, als wir verdienen."

[confuseuniverse]

Reno Sweeney save me from this world

[vickytaa]

𝐅𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. 𝐌.𝐒.

summery: After a great game, y/n is not happy with her participation

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My team was happily celebrating winning the match, while I was thinking about what I needed to improve for the next one. I haven't been good enough, I made several mistakes that definitely won't happen in the next one.

I need to train more to improve, I must not drop any balls. Maybe watching the video of my match will help me see where I went wrong.

I played badly. I need to train more, maybe I'll sign up for another training session, surely another coach can tell me what I'm doing wrong. Or als-

"Hey," Matt's sweet voice interrupted my post-match thoughts. He walked over and wrapped his arm around my shoulders. I quickly looked up, meeting his worried look.

He knew that I took the sport very seriously, but he never supported me in going to train more hours and refused to take me to training sessions that were "Too much" according to him.

I let out the breath I had been unconsciously holding. "Can we go home?" I asked, my eyes filling with tears. I didn't know why I felt like crying so badly, nor did I know why I felt like I had played so badly.

But it's true, I played badly.

Matt slowly nodded, not even asking why I hadn't celebrated with my teammates, or how I felt after the game, like he always does. But I think I know why he doesn't, it's because he already knows the answer.

I'm never satisfied with how I play, there are times when I come home crying, torturing myself all day about how I played badly while everyone told me I was the player of the match. But it wasn't enough, it never is.

That's why I always try to find ways to improve, watching my games and counting my mistakes in my notebook:

- 1 serving error, I got to 8/10 touches, I was blocked 3 times, I have to run faster, open up to attack faster, I need to train more.

We left quickly, people who passed me congratulated me for the great game we had, but nothing filled the emptiness I felt inside. Matt noticed it, he knew what was going on inside my mind. Well, maybe only a part of what goes on inside it.

When we got to the car, we got in but Matt wouldn't start the car. He knew this had to stop, what was happening to me was a very serious problem.

"Y/n" Matt said, his tone normal, covering the great concern behind it. I turned my head, just enough to look him in the eyes, and that's when I saw it. The concern, the fear.

The tears that had formed earlier were now rolling down my face. The silence filled the car with noise. Our gazes did not move away, as if they were communicating with each other.

Matt shook his head slightly, inviting me to sit on his lap. I had never given myself to him easily. Whenever I cried after a game I always found a way to cry alone, immersed in my own thoughts.

But this time it was different, there was nowhere to run, and there was no reason to. I slowly unbuckled the seat belt and curled up on his lap, my head resting on his chest, feeling his heartbeat.

It was all very intimate, the moment, the closeness, the love. I had never felt strong enough to let myself be so vulnerable in front of someone, but I couldn't with Matt. He was my safe place, where I recharged my energy to carry on with my day to day life.

He hugged me tightly, as if he was trying to gather the broken glass. The tears kept falling without stopping. Even though there was not a single word, he understood me, I understood myself.

"You shouldn't torture yourself like this. Please, Y/n, it kills me to see you like this every day" Matt confessed. I always knew that he had a bitter taste in his mouth whenever I came home crying from a training session or a game, but hearing it from him?

Pain flooded my chest, knowing how the mental damage I was doing to myself was affecting those I loved the most.

This had to stop, it wasn't good for me and even less for those who care about me. I must stop beating myself up for mistakes that aren't that big of a deal.

"I'm sorry," I said, my voice cracking. And I really did. My sobs were the only thing that could be heard at that moment, the sound of them ripping through Matt's soul. Seeing me this broken, this vulnerable, killed him.

He quickly gave me a small kiss on my forehead, and then hugged me even tighter, as if he didn't want me to ever leave. "It's okay, baby." He said, his words hanging in the air as I tried to hold them in and believe them.

It wasn't okay, not at all, but in that moment, I felt like everything was going to be okay. We were going to get through this together and we weren't going to let my frustration win.

"Thank you," I said, my voice low, almost like a sigh, but just enough for him to hear. "I love you," Matt said as he rested his chin on my head, trying to hold me as close as possible.

"I love you more," I said. My sobs slowly calmed down, the air became lighter and the voices in my head quieter.

𝐕 -

[redclown19]

dddddoddle dump.

[tokkigwii]

Happy birthday dr xeno🥰

World domination talk over the sunset

[afriblaq]

Don't be yourself, be like me

[crows-of-buckets]

Arcane warrior being a specialization in dao is so funny considering the mage origin. Guy who has never stepped foot outside a tower left to join the wardens and is now regularly decapitating men. 10/10 no notes

[promptfiction]

kid!gojo is so insulted that toji is the only one who is capable of escaping from his six eyes that he starts to follow toji around like a homeless puppy, trying to be sly about it.

Toji finds it funny that the gojo kid is fucking hopeless, so he starts to provoke the kid because if that little shit is going to be the Strongest he better be stronger than him.

[thelostpartofme]

"Es ist schwer etwas anderes zu erwarten, wenn man sich selbst immer wieder sagt, dass man nicht mehr verdient."

[ruinxl0ve]

...The way i predicted the fact that any artists who draw/headcanon Mr. Crawling as a muscular guy just to get dogpiled by a bunch of "hE aIn'T thAt bUfF" or shit is quite (unfortunately) expected. Especially on Tiktok of course, a hellscape where people COMPLAIN about ANYTHING an artist does

[hermanoga]

writing all these shits on Tumblr and imagine at the end cxs just dies and lu guang is crying, what a disillusionment. I should focus on my studies.

those were good days when I didn't know how to tag and reblogged without any thoughts or comments. I feel the lyrics of Overthink right now!

everything is wrong, why did I start watching link click, I want my sanity back.

The fact that I started watching link click knowing that cxs will die, but I thought the story was finished with two seasons and Yingdu was just a silly detective extra in London where they become gay detectives and solve cases together and have some fun maybe? If I knew Yingdu was this and there were more seasons to come, I would touch link click four years later when the fandom is tamed, it's well saturated, we know the full story and not into the guessing game. the bane of my life is that link click is a full artistic gourmet meal and I cherish the genius of Haoling and art style of those studios. I wish Lu Guang or Cheng Xiaoshi - any one of them was a girl, canon heterosexual story and I wouldn't bother if they live or die. I wish Haoling never made link click, I hope I never watched it, I hope I never existed

oh it's so funny how the first thought that comes to us when we are frustrated is how to change the past. Not how to forge our future with better vision and motivation. Lol, Lu Guang...both you and me need to accept that whatever happens we have to accept the truth.

I hope Lu Guang moves on.

I hope I move on from link click.

The only thing I know is that I am crying right now and I don't want this feeling.

I am never touching another donghua/anime/any text or media which is not completed yet ever. Bro I thought Link Click was a silly BL. I didn't come for the pain, I came for shits and giggles maybe with a bit of angst, but then the queercoding started feeling very prominent and now I wish Link Click was not queer, why am I feeling this queer tug. I know I am not normal but it's too much? even for a freak like me? I don't want it.

why did I bring myself to this.

[greeneyessmize]

It is going to bother me until the end of my days if I don't find out what they cut that Eloise was supposed to say to Colin after Pen ran after Debling.

This is from one of the rehearsal videos for that final ball. This is literally gonna kill my brain. Just tell us! XD

[charlesleclerrc]

there's three vídeos of charlos post qualy and in all of them they're yapping nonstop to each other 😂

[usakkhae]

WHY PEOPLE DON'T TALK MORE ABOUT THE BRAZILLIAN POLYCULE

THE GREAT BRAZILIAN POLYCULE

THE OG RELATIONSHIP INVOLVING THE BRAZILLIANS

THE MOST QUEERPLATONIC RELATIONSHIP THAT EVER QUEERPLATONICED

WHY