#forgot how much i loved merthur

[karistiltskin]

i’ve honestly never seen a duo quite like merlin and arthur they’re just so extremely special and it doesn’t even matter if you view them as platonic, romantic, both, neither, who cares!! either way you can’t deny they’re soulmates. that bond is canonically unbreakable.

[lesbicosmos]

bbc merlin liveblog - s1 ep1: the dragons call

god the nostalgia of the first sequence of merlin walking to camelot <33

poor merlin honestly, my guy went to camelot to try and better learn his magic and the first thing he sees is the king executing a sorcerer...rip

OMG I FORGOT EVE MYLES WAS IN THIS EP I LOVE HER (i met her at comic con last year. she called me darling and i died. there's video evidence on youtube.)

MORGANA!!

a lot of this is just gonna be me simping for morgana im sorry im in love with her it's a problem

idk why but the "you're not supposed to be here til wednesday!!" "it is...wednesday." "oh." interaction kills me every time

arthurs such a twat in episode 1 lmao

god why are merlin and arthurs first interactions so incredibly gay

merlin getting thrown in the dungeons in episode 1 honestly just foreshadows the entire rest of his character, the guy is so smart and powerful but also SO dumb

just wanted to add - the costumes in this show are SO GOOD

still love that they asked JOHN HURT if he wanted to voice an annoying somewhat evil dragon in this, at that point, tiny fantasy show, and he was just like 'fuck it yea why not'

gwen and merlins friendship especially in the early seasons is everything to me

"what are you gonna do, get your daddy's men to protect you?" "i could take you apart with one blow" "i could take you apart with less than that." then merlin takes his jacket off?? and they weren't supposed to be gay??? i don't believe it

gaius's resting 🤨 face is so funny

merlin: greatest clumsiest sorcerer ever to walk the earth

'hmm strange eerie voice from the cave below the castle seems to be calling my name...you know what? ill go follow it' because logic

funky 2008 cgi dragon is funky

morgana thinking merlin's gwen and him panicking is one of the funniest scenes of this ep

also. morgana.

morgana in that red dress awoke my lesbianism. literally, she was my gay awakening. she's so gorgeous my brain cannot cope

the arthur having a think for morgana plotline, w h y ? i mean i know why, they dont know they're siblings and the legends themselves were pretty...incestuous...but WHY 😭😭

"she looks great, doesn't she? :D" supportive gf <3

magic cobwebs™

uther logic: you saved my son's life. as a reward, you can do literally everything for him forever. ur his servant now.

[thebasementgirl]

Okay, I need to re-watch this show

in a land of myth, and a time of magic...

[rainyobservationperson]

I had a merthur fic idea that it's keeping me awake at night and I just had to write it down (METHUR PROMPT)

OK, so hear me out. What if merlin after having lived 1500+ years has forgot Camelot?

Like not the idea of Camelot, he knows what happened and knows it's true, but like the specifics are blurry. He suddenly can't remember how did the castle looked, or what was the name of the cook, things that, to him made all of the experience, personal. But it gets worse, he can't remember the face of his mother, or Gaius's voice, he can't remember Arthur, so he panics.

He has had SO MUCH TIME, and so he has studied a lot about his magic, most of it through trial and error and personal experimentation, because most of the magics in the world have already vanished, so he tries to create a new spell, to make himself remember, fearing that he won't recognize Arthur when he came back.

This new spell is meant to help him remember, relive if you will, the memories that he lost. He pours every bit of knowledge into this project, practicing with very advance Alzheimer patients (because of course Merlin is a doctor, and a chemist, and a profesor... he has had time alright) and he makes a lot of progress. He spends years into this, but the progress is too little, he can make an Alzheimer patient remember up to 10 years in the best of the cases, but he has lived thousands, 10 years was virtually nothing.

Frustrated, and honestly more than a little drunk, and sad, he decides to wing it, he shouts the spell sobbing and uses all of the magic that he can, begs the gods to listen and he also threatens them for good mesure and then he passes out.

Basically he time travels, but he DOES NOT KNOW THAT. He thinks the spells work so fantastically he is having a really fucking amazing lucid dream of sorts, he doesn't remember the specifics so he can't know that he is not exactly following his original steps.

So we have a homesick Merlin running around Camelot, way to happy just to be there and maybe a bit high on magic (because of course in the past there's so much more magic than he's grown used to with the years).

Obviously shenanigans ensue, a 21 century mind in a medieval setting, a wizard that is used to using his powers regularly because nobody believed in magic anyways, a doctor with modern techniques, a slightly shortsighted profesor who is use to wearing reading glasses, a lovesick idiot who forgot the face of his first and most true love... He does something (I am yet to figure that part out) and make a big change in the course of the events and finally finds out that he timetraveled and that he is probably fucking up history for good, and tries to fix it maybe.

That's basically the basis of the idea, I think there a lot of possibilities this could go and I really love it. I wanted to write it here so if anybody wanted to write something with this idea or expand on it it could be fun

English is not my first language so im sorry if I made a mistake. Pls let me know what you think about it. I might expand this with more head canons later.

[leatafandom]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Spread the self-love ❤️

Hiii thank you so much for the ask! This is a fun one to think about.

Deadpool Distractions: The K-word - It's been forever but this is still my favorite of mine. I really love how it turned out.

Taste of Cherry: This is one that quickly broke my top five. It was a lot of musing and thinking of the why of the cross-over between my two sabriel universes and I just really enjoyed the contrast and the story building for both worlds that it played into.

It Obviously Wasn't a Book: I reread this one often. I just really am proud and enjoy reading it. I love the body movements in it and Gabriel is just so fun. The range from silly to pissy to serious and back again is just fun.

Frozen Caves and Warming Confessions: I forgot how much I enjoyed this Merthur tale. I haven't read it in a while, but I just enjoy the emotions and the dialogue.

Foolishness: While looking through stuff, I realized I adore this story. It just hurts so good. Plus without that request, I wouldn't have found The Mandela Catalogue which is horridly amazing.

Thank you so much for sending this! It was really fun to look through my stuff and think about these stories again. Though I was tempted to put unposted work cause ugh some of these I really think are gonna be new favorites.

Can I make this a tag? Cause I'm gonna xD No pressure tags: @idabbleincrazy @heavenssexiestangel @samanddean76 @hobbyistauthor @ladylilithprime

[malinaa]

2023 WRITING REVIEW

tagged: no one i just wanted to do this and i forgot about it soz </3 tagging : board of directors i'd tag u here but this is mostly fic-based so sorree... anyway if u have already done this my b.... i wld like to see ur post tho @evcndiaz | @brimay | @usignedupforthis | @seek--rest | @posallys | @dustorangeheartssnowman | @adhd-merlin | @queerofthedagger

number of stories posted to ao3: 34 ±1 bc i updated a fic from a while back <3

word counted posted for last year: 90k... a feat (i wrote more but it was ofic so add like maybe 10k to that)

fandoms i wrote for: alex stern series, merlin, house md, pjo, spidey, hunger games, doctor who, & the grisha trilogy

pairings: merthur / arwen / mergwenthur / mergana, darlingstern, hilson, percabeth, petermj, everlark, tenrose, malina

stories with the most KUDOS: jealousy, jealousy (house md) with 522 <3 BOOKMARKS: except my life (merlin) with 137 <3 COMMENT THREADS: rip current (pjo) with 38 <3 *technically the answer to all of these is tested with torment but that's a fic i updated so i don't reallyyyyyy count it

work i'm most proud of (and why): thread of gold (arwen, bbc merlin) because i don't exactly post 2nd person fic and tbh most people HATEEEEE 2nd person fic AND i got people to enjoy it. HA!

work i'm least proud of (and why): coffee drinker (gen fic, bbc merlin) because it was just a promptfic and i didn't even really feel like posting it but i wrote it so i might as well yk?

share or describe a favorite review you received: any review that quotes a line but this one from judas kiss (arwen, bbc merlin)...

THIS. IS. WONDERFUL ❤️❤️❤️ *creates bookmark with gusto* I LOVE that you dug into what it might have been like for Gwen while she was under that enchantment! It was so creative to have her past memories blurring with glimpses of the present during the enchantment. I *felt* her disorientation, and it *hurt*. I felt so bad for Gwen all over again! 😭😭😭 That aspect of this story could have been a fantastic standalone one-shot in its own right, but noooo, you raised the bar and KEPT GOING and made it even better!!! I love that you showed Gwen and Merlin staying friends after Gwen becomes queen, and I love how she confides in him and how he immediately drops everything to go look for the offending piece of jewelry. The bit about Arthur’s incredulity at Merlin’s method of testing the enchantment was a great dash of humor, and I love that you fleshed out the concept of the enchantment to be something the others could experience so that they could truly *know* that Gwen had been innocent. And don’t even get me started on how much I love Arthur’s “Forgive me.” I love how he doesn’t think twice about humbling himself in front of everyone because his focus is solely on Gwen, consumed by the urgency of doing the right, honorable, and loving thing in that moment. You write Arthur and Gwen’s relationship so beautifully. 💕 Well done; I hate you (/affectionate) for all these feels. 🥰🫂👏

a time when writing was really, really hard: august through october... idek why i was literally in agony not writing

a scene or character you wrote that surprised you: writing jj in spider-man: homewrecker because i've NEVER written him before (in my memory) and i was like. Hello .

a favorite excerpt of your writing: cannae lie i have a few favs so... killing is a love language (mergana, bbc merlin) Heartbreak snakes up his throat, constricting him at the sight of her. Morgana’s beauty is incontestable even like this, but her hatred wore her down to her bones. Gone were the full cheeks and rosy lips, the perfectly combed hair, the wardrobe that would put princesses to shame. Now, her face is sunken in, her hair a curled storm, her dress is merely black rags at this point. thread of gold (arwen, bbc merlin) Your father’s presence is larger than life. Larger than love. It looms. It casts shadows long enough to hide every hope and dream you’ve ever had for yourself. the boy and the girl (malina, the grisha trilogy) Memory fractures into shards. Real or not real? There’s Mal in the meadow. Mal buried beneath the hanging tree. Mal cold in her palms. There’s a sky darker than night. Her hands bloodied. A knife lodged in his heart. Her knife. His blood. Her fault. She killed him. She loves him. Her fault. Rest her head on his still chest. Her fault. No heartbeat. Her fault. No warmth. Cold light spilling from her palms. She killed him. The Saint’s only true worshipper martyred.

how did you grow as a writer last year: my hopes from last year was that i finally finish a multichap fic.... 😭 does a short 3-shot count. besides that i wrote more consistently and i'm finally Used to my writing style. i think.

how do you hope to grow this year: hell if i know if i could write something longer than 20k that'd be great 😭😭😭😭

who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer, beta, cheerleader, etc.): the board.... @rosesau / @bipercabeth / @stellwood fnh...... i'd tag katie but she absconded from tumblr smh. anyway hi freaks n geeks

anything from your real life show up in your writing last year: oh i don't even know. nothing ig

any new wisdom you can share with other writers: bro idek the more i write the more writing becomes fundamentally so hard to talk about ... sorreeee

any projects you're looking to starting (or finishing) this year: IF I DON'T FUCKING MAKE PROGRESS ON MY PLAY I WILL BASH MY HEAD INTO A WALL. THIS CAN'T KEEP HAPPENING. ATLAS AND VIVIAN YOU WILL BE WRITTEN ON THE PAGE INSHALLAH

[so-long-soldier28]

I won't try to annoy you anymore (no promises lmao) but thoughts on a royalty au where Kai is a king?

I TOTALLY MADE NOTES ON THIS AND FORGOT TO ANSWER I'M SO SORRY GJFSNFKSL Okay, but I promise, you don't annoy me AT ALL, I'm just slow! Especially on workdays; I get nothing done on those days. But yes, Kai is a king, I have some notes.

ookay, kai as a king would be a cocky lil bastard.

his ego would be way up, and he probably wouldn't be the fairest.

for a long time, he was the prince, and waited (rather impatiently) for his dad to die so he could take over.

parents were really serious about how their kingdom was ruled & they wanted to keep things that way. both were cold & emotionally distant, and his father was even more so after his mother's demise.

when kai becomes king, he doesn't change much at first, but makes a few changes just to piss the man off. over time though, especially after his dad's death, he changes things more to fit his liking.

kai would definitely have a servant, & would probably be pretty cruel to them at first, but with time, learns to enjoy their help & company.

maybe it's a mutual thing, where the servant kinda hates him, too.

but with so much time spent alone with him, he starts to see a more human side (kai starts to reveal a more human side) and they become frenemies / friends (like a merthur [merlin bbc] situation kinda, but with more hate at first).

since kai's childhood was filled with so much coldness and not much warmth, he doesn't really understand how to treat people well. on top of that, monarchies and leaderships, historically, prove that people with too much power tend to abuse that power.

it takes him a long time to learn to treat his servant as a person, not as a thing or a tool. however, when they do finally get on good terms, and even become friends, he allows the servant to better him in many ways, like in his treatment of others.

around the castle, he'd be a huge flirt.

he was a huge flirt as the prince, but it only worsens when he becomes king. the same girls he'd tease as prince, he'd tease as king, but now with even more of an attitude.

he also flirts with new girls around the castle.

others (elders, dad's servants / friends, etc.) & elder women / women he's not flirting with constantly tell him to grow up, but he has plenty of back talk prepared for every person who tells him such.

girls, however, are one big subject his servant makes a point to address. where the elders fail, he thrives, being the only person kai actually listens to. over time, he comes to objectify them less and put more focus into acquainting himself with them.

partly to find a wife, as he's supposed to do.

definitely has a temper

tends to start wars over menial things, but will hesitate going to battle over something big.

priorities aren't exactly in place.

things that are important to him aren't always the greater battle, and he has a hard time realizing what battles are expected of him to fight.

doesn't like to be told what to do. doesn't like advice, and especially doesn't like guidance from people that remind him of his father / worked alongside his father.

will more likely take the opinion of his Favorite Girl into consideration faster than he will of any of the men.

ends up marrying said Favorite Girl in a couple years & she falls pregnant rather quickly.

uncertain about children, but knows he needs an heir and his wife is really excited, so he starts to feed off that.

when the baby is born, he's suddenly, extremely protective of it.

it's a boy, like he's supposed to produce as his first heir.

elders then tell him he doesn't need any more kids because he produced an heir. (they're worried about his initial disdain for kids, plus they preferred his father's leadership much more over kai's, and don't believe the kingdom / castle needs any more mini-kais).

but he and his wife go on to have four more, all girls. neither planned for a big family, but he can't stay off her 🫣 and she loves having kids.

these are all my notes on this for now! at first i wasn't sure i'd have a lot, but the more i wrote, the more i came to love the idea. definitely need to add king AUs to my prompts list!

also, i switched back and forth between past and present tense while making my notes. (i have no idea why, or how.) but i hope i caught them all, if not, i'm sorry!

[ambriel-angstwitch]

Wonderland through the lens of Merthur

Flashing lights and we Took a wrong turn and we Fell down a rabbit hole

Light is usually associated with goodness but when it’s flashing it can be blinding. Merlin became so caught up in his love for Arthur that he forgot about bringing magic back to Camelot. He made the wrong decisions in an attempt save Arthur and things got worse from there

You held on tight to me 'Cause nothing's as it seems And spinning out of control

Merlin was Arthur’s rock when Morgana betrayed him Merlin was there. When Gwen cheated on him Merlin was there. When making decisions Arthur turns to and holds tight to Merlin. When he doesn’t know who to trust and everything is falling apart he still has Merlin.

Didn't they tell us don't rush into things? Didn't you flash your green eyes at me? Haven't you heard what becomes of curious minds?

Ok so neither of them have green eyes but consider green eyes not literally but green as in go like a stoplight. While anyone around them would tell them that a relationship between the two of them would be a bad idea they both go ahead with it anyways. But the saying is curiosity killed the cat. Uther would be furious if he found out and Merlin could be dead if Arthur found out about his magic.

Didn't it all seem new and exciting? I felt your arms twisting around me I should have slept with one eye open at night

So the the word twisting is interesting because it invokes the imagery of being trapped so while the love is wonderful and exciting in some ways it’s also constricting. It keeps Merlin trapped in a kingdom that hates all he is, saving a king who would have him killed for it just because Uther’s death would cause him pain. Merlin needs to be on guard because of what he is.

We found wonderland You and I got lost in it And we pretended it could last forever We found wonderland You and I got lost in it And life was never worse but never better

Wonderland symbolizes how magical and exciting the relationship feels. But it can’t last forever. Merlin was a wonderful experience for Arthur, someone who saw him as a person not caring about his title. But Arthur was everything to Merlin, he was his purpose and made him happy but he also brought him so much pain, Merlin had to kill for him he had to risk his life for him, he watched the people he loved die after he met Arthur.

So we went on our way Too in love to think straight All alone or so it seemed But there were strangers watching And whispers turned to talking And talking turned to screams

People noticed how much Arthur and Merlin cared for eachother and they used it against them. Like Morgana and Agravaine targeting Merlin to use against Arthur even though they didn’t know about his magic.

I reached for you but you were gone. I knew I had to go back home

The first line is Merlin and the second line is Arthur when it comes to the finale. Merlin tried to save Arthur and he tried to hold him close but Arthur was already doomed. Arthur knew he wasn’t going to make it though that’s why he just asked for Merlin to hold him. He wanted their last moments to be love rather than anguish. He knew he had to go.

You searched the world for something else to make you feel like what we had And in the end in wonderland we both went mad

Merlin is left alone in the world just waiting for Arthur to come back, or at the very least something to give him purpose, someone to make him alive like Arthur did. In the end they both lost everything they were looking for. In the end their entire worldviews were shattered, Merlin wasn’t exactly who Arthur thought he was, Magic couldn’t be evil like he thought because Merlin was magic and Merlin lost his world.

[agena87]

I got tagged by the super duper awesome @igotsnothing . Thank you, dearie, MWAAAH! 💛

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3 ships: So difficult to only choose 3, so I'll choose 3 from my fandoms (canon or not), 3 from simblr, and 3 of my own. OK? OK:

Fandoms

• destiel: even if I live to be 130 (as one of my primary school teachers said each "girl" in the class will be), I'll still be obsessed with them (I'm a Dean lover, I want him happy with his angel for eternity, OK?);

• the Doctor/Master;

• merthur

Simblr

• mattodore by, well, @mattodore : I can't get enough of them (esp. Theo);

• arturion by @lost-souls-story (I'm also kinda obsessed with Elias/Alex and Felix/Tao, but arturion will always be my favs);

• Julian/Lawrence (but I'm also getting quickly involved with Gideon/Sasha) by the one and only @igotsnothing , seriously, HOW do you keep me interesting in vampires when I don't even like them in the first place? I'm a werewolf person, ffs! 😆

Mine:

• any version of Wolfie/Mal, either as their OG selves, their genderswapped versions, or any mix of them;

• Max/Lucas;

• Maxwell/Casey from my Sacrélège universe (characters that I need to try and remake, after losing my CC)

Last song: Come Sail Away by Styx (my 3rd favourite song of all time, after Simple Man by Lynyrd Skynyrd (absolute favourite) and Nothing Else Matters by Metallica)

Last film: Still Encanto, so have my last drama instead: Strong Girl Nam-soon (I have only watched the first 7 episodes yet). I don't know why I waited this long to start it, knowing how much I love Strong Girl Bong-soon (I watched that one many times), which it's a spin-off.

Currently reading: Still nothing...

Currently craving: broccoli *nom nom nom*

Fave color: still red (and yellow, and electric blue, oh! olive green too, I forgot that one the last time I was asked).

Relationship status: Rela-what? LOL, I'm a proud aro-ace person, I don't need one of those

Last Thing Googled: "fashion week ss24". I'm not into fashion AT ALL (I'm the least fashion-aware person you could imagine) for a little project I have (we'll see if it ever see the light of day, though).

Current obsession: WILLA (Landgraab-)MÜNCH!

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Now to tagging... Um... 🤔Let's see:

@pralinesims @theosconfessions @void-imp @ezra-trait @mourirmoths @tricoufamily @saruin @mattodore @cassandragoth26 @unusualsims and whoever feels like it (as for the persons tagged, feel free to ignore, as always)

[two-sides-samecoin]

I also forgot to mention in that ask about the ships that this isn't a case of the fandom ignoring the canonical romantic interest in favor of making it gay - Steve and Eddie have no canonical love interests. (I know that Chrissy is supposed to be Eddie's but I did not see that at all. Also Chrissy is dead. And technically Steve has Nancy in season 4 but she's canonically still in a relationship and we do not like cheating in this household.) And like it bugs me so much when people say obviously these two people belong together, or have to interact in this way and you're wrong if you think otherwise and it bugs me so much. (An example of this for me is Merthur. I just can't get behind the ship because of Merlin is Arthur's servant and I saw them as brothers in the show rather than romantically interested in each other. But I don't mind other people shipping it right until, they tell me I have to ship it )

Okay lol so I will answer this ask last for tonight and then get to the other two major asks tomorrow - I'm just getting really tired and my brain isn't working that well lol. YES THIS!!! Like it isn't the case with that which I may have brought up about that trope in fandoms in my answer and idk how well I worded it. But anyway yeah steve and eddie are in no way a romantic pair in season 4 (and same I really don't see how chrissy is supposed to be Eddie's because I also just genuinely like how eddie was just trying to do a nice thing for chrissy - honestly i see them as a more "they could have been friends" had chrissy not died but yeah. also yes about that point of we do not like cheating in this household) OH MY GOD YOU LOVE THE SHOW MERLIN?!! i feel like i definitely knew this but also yay i love that but also agreed about the merthur points. ngl i never really shipped them - but anyway you're so right about them having other romantic relationships and i also see them as brothers and how merlin is arthur's servant. but like you said i also don't mind people shipping it until they tell me i have to ship it - honestly the way people have act so entitled with telling others what to ship just leaves a bad taste in my mouth and makes me not want to personally ship it

[its-hyperfixation]

gorgeous merthur, 2/? : 5x08 the hollow queen

this gifset is brought to you by: my urge to shower @bellamyblakru with endless love. congratulations on finishing the last day of classes of your undergrad (you legend). i’m so proud of u, my beloved.

[ninjago1direction]

Me to all my imaginary friends

[hufflepuff221b]

Merlin - So, come on. Just for the sake of argument. If you had to, Arthur or Lancelot.

Gwen - But I don't have to and I never will.

Merlin - Oh, you are no fun, Gwen

Merlin - It would definitely be Arthur for me.

Gwen - ?

Merlin - I mean yeah Lancelot is dreamy but Arthur has those eyes..

Gwen - Merlin I don't think....

Merlin - That soft hair and those muscles....

That's not how this scene went?

[emrysofealdor]

dare I say... “what would i do” from falsettos is very merthur

[ladyofthelake]

My Merthur story I wrote a loooong time ago detailing Merlin’s grief and Arthur rising again because would it have killed them to show a shot of Arthurs hand rising from the lake gaah

[artemis-pendragon]

Fem!Arthur Pendragon cosplay  ❤️⚔️🐲👑💋