#forever living in a tumblr 2011 world

[talysalankil]

Fabula Nova Crystallis: The Mythology

I was trying to dig this video up to show a friend and it occurred to me that holy shit, it's become almost impossible to find this video that Square Enix only showed once at a conference in January 2011, and we're lacking in a proper English translation for it.

So I'm going to put it here for archival purposes and hope tumblr doesn't take it down, along with a translated transcript. I'll be working off Lissar's and FFWorld's translations of the video, using the canon names for the various entities (yes I know "soul" is technically a mistranslation of 心 heart but it is the canon one so hush).

Since I had extra time on my hands, I also put it up on Vimeo with subtitles on. I can provide the srt file (the syncing isn't super tight but since there's a lot of blank space around each line I decided to leave each subtitle for longer than necessary), if anyone's willing to work on translations, you can DM me.

The full transcript is under the cut:

Fabula Nova Crystallis, the new tale of the crystal

Once upon a time, the god Bhunivelze ruled the world. Bhunivelze defeated his mother, the goddess Mwynn, and took control of the world for himself. Mwynn disappeared into the unseen realm.

Bhunivelze was troubled: the world he now ruled over was destined to die. He believed this was a curse laid on the world by his mother Mwynn. He knew he had to destroy her to lift the curse. To do this, he set out to search for the door to the unseen realm where his mother waited. Using his will alone, he created the first fal’Cie.

First, he created the fal’Cie Pulse. The Focus he gave him was to clear out the world, and search for the door to Mwynn.

Next, he created the fal’Cie Etro. But it was a mistake. Unknowingly, he created her exactly in the image of Mwynn. Bhunivelze feared her, and gave Etro no power of her own.

Instead, he created the fal’Cie Lindzei. The Focus he gave him was to protect Bhunivelze from all who might seek to destroy him. Bhunivelze gave Lindzei one special duty. To wake him once the time came. Then he turned to crystal, and fell into an endless sleep.

Pulse wished to expand the world, so he created many fal’Cie and l’Cie.

Lindzei wished to protect the world, so he created many fal’Cie and l’Cie.

But Etro was powerless, and could make nothing of her own. Lonely, she thought of her mother, who she so resembled. Etro tore her own body apart, letting her blood flow to the earth, and disappeared from the visible world. From that blood, torn from her body, sprang humankind. Creatures that were born only to die.

The destruction of the visible world was no curse, only fate. The world was divided into two halves, the visible and the invisible. If the balance between these two were destroyed, the world itself would be destroyed.

The goddess Mwynn could do nothing to stop this fate. She was being swallowed into the chaos of the unseen realm. Just before her last moment, Etro came to her side. Mwynn told Etro that she must protect the balance of the world, before slipping into the chaos forever. But Etro was ignorant of the meaning behind Mwynn’s words.

Etro was lonely, but she felt affection for those humans who live only to die. As they died, she smiled, and gave them chaos. The chaos Etro gave them, the humans named “souls”. Their hearts would become their power, but the humans did not yet know this.

Soon, they called Pulse the all powerful ruler. Lindzei they named their protector, and Etro they named their goddess of death. The humans lived on the world, hold chaos inside their hearts. Because they held chaos so close, the world once again was in balance.

And Bhunivelze still sleeps in crystal stasis. Until the end of days, awaiting the right time.

[idle-brit]

10 Fandoms, 10 characters, 10 tags

Thank you @baepsrae for tagging me!! ♡( ◡‿◡ )

This is everyone's preemptive warning to skip past if you don't want to read a long and rambling post, I'm about to go wild lol. I'll also include the 5 people (not 10 oops) I'm tagging here at the top so they don't have to scroll; I'm interested to hear your answers but obviously there's no pressure to do it (･ω･)b

@koscheiy, @breitzbachbea, @runmild, @toffeeanddragons, and @yatzuaka!

1. Loki (Marvel)

My poor little meow meow. My silly rabbit. My sweet darling babygirl. Picking 9 other characters was honestly hard because there's few I truly consider a favourite like Loki. Between his 2011-2013 appearances in the MCU, the comics, and the pre-Thor high-fantasy-novel-esque fics on AO3, the ideal version of this character lives in my head rent free, and has done since 2012. I picked this gif from The Avengers because it was the moment that made me want to see the film again just for his scenes, and it remains the only film I've seen in cinemas twice. He's quite literally the reason I got Tumblr, for The Avengers fanart, and my very first post was some (bad) fanart of my own haha. While the rest of this list is in no particular order, Loki is absolutely my number one, for all time, always. I could talk about him forever.

2. Evy Carnahan (The Mummy)

I had to choose the scene I got my blog title from. While Loki might be my favourite character, The Mummy is my favourite film. I think I saw it at the exact right time of life when I was a kid in my Ancient Egypt phase, but also far younger than the recommended viewing age the film suggests lol. Ever since then I've rewatched this and the sequel (yes, sequel, singular. I said what I said) more times than I can count and further developed my interest in actual Egyptology. Evy is intelligent and an academic, kindhearted, a little bit clumsy, but uses her knowledge and quick thinking to be an absolute badass and save the day multiple times. I've always wanted to be at least half as cool as her and also marry Rick O'Connell.

3. L (Death Note)

Everyone here is lucky that I got Tumblr after the height of my weeb phase that started in 2008. Death Note was the first manga I ever read and I expected to enjoy it and move on, but as soon as I got to the Lind. L. Taylor event in volume 2 my young mind was blown and I was obsessed. One scene of L outsmarting Light kept me reading manga, got me into anime, introduced me to fanart, was the first fanart I ever drew, introduced me to fanfiction, and years later I would take Japanese classes at uni. L is an amazing example of a morally grey character, wanting justice to prevail but perhaps not for the right reasons, and no matter what it takes to get there.

4. Leon S. Kennedy (Resident Evil 4 Remake)

Okay I'll admit Leon is the first babygirl on the list who is mainly here for aesthetic reasons. I had a passing knowledge of the Resident Evil franchise but never took an interest because military-gun-shooting-series are boring as hell... Until RE4R came out last year and I saw this scene in a playthrough. Where do I sign up for him to do this to my neck. Then I learned Leon's backstory and actually appreciated his character too. He hates and distrusts the US government, he was blackmailed into service for them at 21, he's haunted by being used as their weapon, and he's the most cringe fail man who thinks he's suave when he says "Nighty night, knights" as he's killing sentient suits of armour. I need him.

5. Astarion Ancunín (Baldur's Gate 3)

Ah, a non-human in a high fantasy world, using knife skills and sharp wit to protect himself from a deeply traumatic past, but still good at heart and willing to open up to those who appreciate him for who he is, rather than living up to someone else's standards. Now where have I seen a similar character type before... When the game came out it shouldn't have been a surprise who my favourite would be lol. The whole cast does an amazing job, but the real draw of Astarion is the phenomenal work put in by Neil Newborn to really bring this character to life, and I don't think Astarion would be the same without him.

6. Kagome Higurashi (Inuyasha)

Inuyasha is one of my all time favourite anime/manga. It's got time travel, a historic setting, magic, action and adventure, and romance between a human girl and a supernatural being who's down bad. Basically all of the tropes I adore and still look for in new favourite series haha. And Kagome has been That Bitch from the start; arriving in a village that fears a half dog-demon, freeing him from his imprisonment to help her, and then ordering him to sit when he pisses her off, knowing he's wearing a magic necklace that forces him to obey. No one is doing it like her.

7. Elizabeth Bennet (Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen)

Yes this is a basic bitch pick, I'm well aware. But no matter if it's the book by Jane Austen, the 1995 BBC production, or the 2005 film by Joe Wright, I love this story so much! There's just something so romantic about it that no modern romance book can capture, and that's not without my trying to find one (just follow my trail of 1 star ratings on Goodreads). Elizabeth and Mr Darcy just read as complete and real characters, and I love how much Elizabeth cares for her family, refusing Darcy's first proposal in part because he insulted them and tried to separate Jane from Mr Bingley.

8. Lin Sukai (The Drowning Empire Trilogy by Andrea Stewart)

Now we're getting into the realm of books without adaptations so I cant use gifs anymore, and I honestly couldn't find any fanart of Lin either. Which is a crime! My girl is out here being extremely intelligent and driven (and badass in some of the later scenes), using her familial magic as daughter of the Emperor to try and dismantle his tyranny despite craving his approval, and trying her best to gain allies even though she was raised within the walls of the palace and is slightly out of touch, and she doesn't have a fandom here on Tumblr? And that's only in book one of the trilogy!

9. FitzChivalry Farseer (The Realm of the Elderlings by Robin Hobb)

I haven't even finished The Realm of the Elderlings yet (16 thick ass books, nay, tomes) but I already know this is my favourite fantasy series of all time, and Robin Hobb is beyond doubt a master of her craft. One of her main talents is writing the ultimate poor little meow meow because good lord, Fitz just cannot catch a break no matter what he does or who he's trying to benefit. The pacing of these books can be quite slow but I promise it's always worth the emotionally devastating pay off. (It's also a tough call between Fitz and The Fool on who my favourite Hobb character is!)

10. Sancia Grado (The Founders Trilogy by Robert Jackson Bennett)

The final one is also my most recent addition to this list, seeing as I'm only just starting book two after finishing Foundryside late last year. While that shows how much I loved Sancia after just one book of her, I also hope the rest of the trilogy delivers! So often books will state characters are masters of their craft and just expect readers to take their word for it, but Sancia gets to show off her skills multiple times on page, so you get the impression she really exists and belongs in this world rather than just being a set piece for it. Not only that, she defies the usual lone-wolf-asshole stereotype that's so common in these gritty fantasy books, and it's heartwarming to see the found family she's gathered by the end of the story compared to where she began.

So uh, thank you all for coming to my TED talk about all my blorbos, see you later!

(￣▽￣)ノ

[street-corner-felines]

On the streets I saw people turn into meth zombies within 3 fucking weeks, homeboy was a normal cat just trying to hang on like the rest of us, his time ran out at the shelter, you get 3 months and at first that feels like it's gonna last forever then they kick ya out, then you gotta try to figure out how to get off the streets again, not sleep on sidewalks, it's stressful and some folk can't handle it, I know it was stressful for me, sidewalks were shitty, uncomfortable, and the hard users you were chilling with were depressing, unless you were looking to use your drug of choice, they just made ya sad, mad, or just completely sucked the life and energy out of you.

This cat couldn't take it so to deal with no being able to sleep he'd start taking meth (Side as they call it in my hood, like up for coke, down for heroin, side to side for meth, like a d-pad on a controller.) just so he didn't have to worry about sleep, after a few days he started taking it more and more, then he started not shaving, not bathing, sleeping on sidewalks, hanging with the other hard users.

Within 5 weeks or so homie was on Fentynal, making up stories about having cancer, I thought to deal with the other's judging him but I think it was to lie to himself, a lot of the junkies out here who aren't honest with themselves come up with some sob story to deal with the feeling weak, the feeling like a loser, or whatever.

I spent a year being homeless, and I noticed a lot of people who like down, heroin, fentynal and other opioids tend to be dealing with some harsh trauma, serious PTSD, serious childhood trauma, or compound trauma, and they use the opioids to pass out, spend hours to days dope-leaning, if you've seen The Wire or it's prequel The Corner, it's very accurate to life on the streets as a drug addict, they tend to be haunted by some form of heavy duty trauma, and tend to use down or heroin/fent to pass out, it's fight, or flight, or "freeze" and heroin tends to be a form of "freeze" where they don't wanna deal with the world, their problems, the day to day boredom and depressing reality of the streets, the death, the humiliation, the random injustices, so they use to freeze, to hide, and it's surprisingly fast how quick you see people fall apart.

I grew to be grateful of my Moms, my Pops, my family growing up and trying to teach me what was what before I lost em, before I was left alone in this world, and I grew to realize they were right, I was too arrogant and stupid to think I knew what life was like, and got a huge dose of reality, and learned how lucky I was and how lucky I am. People always wondered why I was so "chill" and didn't seem to let life bother me and start picking up a bubble pipe, or a needle, or cooking up some meth or down and start using, it's because of art, creativity, movies and film gave my mind a place to rest, I managed to get a natural high from my investment in the arts.

From getting 2.5million views on youtube, to a million reblogs and likes on tumblr, to my writing for short films going to Cannes film festival 10 years ago, I haven't "made" it yet but on my old blogs and my old posts, I remember seeing how my old videos, and my old posts, stuff and gifs I filmed myself getting people wondering "What movie is this form" and not realizing I made and filmed it myself. And back in 2011 my Pumped Up Kicks video going viral and people thinking it was the real music video, fucking youtubed deleted/blocked it at 2.5 million views but man, I still got my sights on directing, just life and loss got in the way.

But it's given me days and triumphs to look back on, and be proud of who I am, self-esteem and self-love is an underrated thing. Even with my trauma, I've had coping mechanisms that aren't self-destructive and will end up killing me, not in the way I see people, dying in slo-mo, going into withdrawals from lack of their drug of choice, no family, no love, no future. I get tired and angry of living around the depressing, uninspiring broken hearted street corner felines, but I know deep down they're dealing with shit I could never even imagine or want to, and I'm glad I don't have to deal with demons or the ruin their lives have turned into.

But what answer, what solution is there to pain? To loneliness? To trauma? What is there to the mind and all the demons that haunt the human soul, the heart? The memories that continue to force these poor fuckers to relive and relive and relive, killing them over and over and over. Time is a flat circle, it's true, and as long as you can remember, each day you'll relive that moment that broke you, that turned you into who you are today, over and over.

Be glad, and be grateful, take inventory. Cause you'll hate to learn the hard way, and in 3 fucking weeks, you could be sucking your soul out through a glass bubble pipe or plunging your own demise through a needle 12ML plunger. You'll be okay, it'll be okay, just gotta remember some people can never look back on that good day some of us have, on that good memory, on that fucking day where you were on top of the world, where you were the fucking man, I forget and get ungrateful, not realizing how fucking lucky I am, and realizing that some people never have that one day, that one memory to relive to realize their worth.

Your memories are who you are, and some of us got nothing but gold for memories, while some of us got nothing but pain and rot.

[fictionz]

New Fiction 2023 - October

Another October in the can! And now I wish I could snooze through the real horror that is the holiday season. Maybe I'll stay in October forever... forever... forever...

Here's the long version (since Tumblr blocks too many links in one post).

The TL;DR:

Short Stories

"Snatched from the Brink" by Mary E. Penn (1878)

"The Canal" by Everil Worrell (1927)

"The Lost Performance of the High Priestess of the Temple of Horror" by Carmen Maria Machado (2020)

"The Time Remaining" by Attila Veres & trans. Luca Karafiáth (2019)

"CUE: Change" by Chesya Burke (2011)

"Last Call for the Sons of Shock" by David J. Schow (1994)

"The Real Right Thing" by Henry James (1899)

"The Haunted House" by M.A. Bird (1865)

"The Island of Regrets" by Elizabeth Walter (1965)

"The Stolen Body" by H.G. Wells (1903)

"The White Priest" by Hélène Gingold (1893)

"The Man Who Went Too Far" by E.F. Benson (1912)

"Mater Tenebrarum" by Pilar Pedraza & trans. James D. Jenkins (2000)

"Menopause" by Flore Hazoumé & trans. James D. Jenkins (1994)

"Señor Ligotti" by Bernardo Esquinca & trans. James D. Jenkins (2020)

"Shambleau" by C.L. Moore (1933)

"The Pit and the Pendulum" by Edgar Allan Poe (1850)

"The Village Spectre" by Gianna G. Maniego (2002)

"The Fog Horn" by Ray Bradbury (1951)

"The Lady of the House of Love" by Angela Carter (1979)

"The Woman's Ghost Story" by Algernon Blackwood (1907)

"Black Bargain" by Robert Bloch (1942)

"Vastarien" by Thomas Ligotti (1987)

"The Doll" by Daphne du Maurier (1937)

"The Transferred Ghost" by Frank Stockton (1882)

"The Shadowy Third" by Ellen Glasgow (1923)

"The Daemon Lover" by Shirley Jackson (1949)

"The Interval" by Vincent O'Sullivan (1918)

"The Phantom Cyclist" by Ruth Ainsworth (1971)

"Couching at the Door" by D.K. Broster (1942)

"Bloodchild" by Octavia Butler (1984)

Audio

Tales from the Crypt Presents: Dead Easy by A.L. Katz & Gil Adler, performed by Sean Astin, Jake Busey, Tia Carrere, Brett Cullen, John Kassir (1995, 2022)

Comics

"Birds of a Feather" by Stephanie Phillips, Maan House, Giorgio Spalleta, Justin Birch, Chris Sanchez (2021)

"The Origin of Vampirella" by Budd Lewis & Jose Gonzalez (1981)

"Do You Know... the Beast-Man?" by Richard Howell, Colleen Doran, Kevin Cunningham (1992)

"Good Ol' Fashioned Vanilla" by W. Maxwell Prince, Chris O’Halloran, Martín Morazzo, Good Old Neon (2018)

"For Better or Worse?" by Richard Corben (2016)

"Werewolf!" by Frank Frazetta (1964)

"Chickadee!" by Aya Rothwell (2016)

"The Evil Dead" (Part 1, Part 2, Part 3) by Richard Floyd-Walker (1986-1987)

"Famine's Shadow" by Rachel Deering & Christine Larsen (2014)

"A Pretty Place" by Emily Carroll (2023)

"The Thing from the Sea" by Wally Wood & Joe Orlando (1951)

"The Living Ghost" by Frank Belknap Long & Fred Guardineer (1948)

"Essence of Life" by Gail Simone, Tula Lotay, Jared K. Fletcher (2013)

"Hag of the Blood Basket!" by Al Hewetson & Sean Todd (1971)

"The Fisherman" by Franco, Tressina Bowling, Wes Abbott, Sara Richard (2022)

"Dental Plan" by Joy San (2019)

"Frankenstein y el Hombre Lobo" by Unknown (1946)

"Man's World" by Keith Giffen, Mary Sangiovanni, Bilquis Evely, Mat Lopes, Taylor Esposito (2017)

"Shadow of Death" by William M. Gaines, Al Feldstein, Graham Ingels (1953)

"Smoke and Cedar" by Abby Howard & Alina Pete (2016)

"I Have No Mouth, and I Must Scream" by Harlan Ellison & John Byrne (1994-1995)

"A Dog and His Boy" by Evan Dorkin, Sarah Dyer, Jill Thompson, Jason Arthur (2006)

"The Horror Beneath" by Leah Moore, John Reppion, Timothy Green II, Michelle Madsen, Nate Piekos (2006)

"Shadows on the Tomb" by Joe Certa (1952)

"The Muck Monster" by Bernie Wrightson (1975)

"The Duel of the Monsters" by Archie Goodwin & Angelo Torres (1966)

"The Willowdale Handcar or The Return of the Black Doll" by Edward Gorey (1962)

"Inside You" by Valerie D'Orazio & David James Cole (2014)

"Soylent Teen" by Jordan Morris, Liana Kangas, Ellie Wright, Jack Morelli (2023)

"The Gris-Gris" by Jim Keegan & Ruth Keegan (2004)

"Fair Ground" by Jo Duffy, Mike Manley, Jackson Guice, James Fry, Kevin Cunningham (1992)

Video Games

Haunted House dev. Atari (1982)

Castlevania dev. Konami (1987)

Clock Tower dev. Human Entertainment (1995)

D dev. Warp (1995)

Friday the 13th dev. Atlus (1989)

Silent Hill 3 dev. Konami (2003)

Five Nights at Freddy’s dev. Scott Cawthon (2014)

Movies

It Lives Inside dir. Bishal Dutta (2023)

The Company of Wolves dir. Neil Jordan (1984)

Freddy’s Dead: The Final Nightmare dir. Rachel Talalay (1991)

Honeymoon dir. Leigh Janiak (2014)

Organ dir. Kei Fujiwara (1996)

The Bride of Frankenstein dir. James Whale (1935)

The Royal Hotel dir. Kitty Green (2023)

House of 1000 Corpses dir. Rob Zombie (2003)

The Nun II dir. Michael Chaves (2023)

The Godsend dir. Gabrielle Beaumont (1980)

Hatching dir. Hanna Bergholm (2022)

The Velvet Vampire dir. Stephanie Rothman (1971)

Friday the 13th: The Final Chapter dir. Joseph Zito (1984)

A Haunting in Venice dir. Kenneth Branagh (2023)

Piggy dir. Carlota Pereda (2022)

A Night to Dismember (The Lost Version) dir. Doris Wishman (1979)

The Blob dir. Irvin Yeaworth (1958)

Embrace of the Vampire dir. Anne Goursaud (1995)

Onyx the Fortuitous and the Talisman of Souls dir. Andrew Bowser (2023)

Exposed to Danger dir. Yang Chia-yun (Karen Yang) (1982)

Saw X dir. Kevin Greutert (2023)

The Birds dir. Alfred Hitchcock (1963)

Slumber Party Massacre II dir. Deborah Brock (1987)

Scooby-Doo on Zombie Island dir. Jim Stenstrum (1998)

The Being dir. Jackie Kong (1983)

Kuso dir. Steve (2017)

Visible Secret dir. Ann Hui (2001)

The Exorcist: Believer dir. David Gordon Green (2023)

The Love Witch dir. Anna Biller (2016)

Bones dir. Ernest R. Dickerson (2001)

Bedevil dir. Tracey Moffatt (1993)

Television

Regular Show - "Terror Tales of the Park" I-VI (2011-2016)

The Simpsons - "Treehouse of Horror Presents: Not It" (2022)

Tales from the Cryptkeeper - Seasons 2 & 3 (1994 & 1999)

[fashionbooksmilano]

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Carine Roitfeld, Edited by Olivier Zahm and Alex Wiederin, Contributions by Cathy Horyn

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[daphinteresting]

Blog Officially Closed. :(

Hi, DaphInteresting here.

I have come on here to announce that I have decided to close my tumblr art blog here indefinitely. :(

From this post onward, I will not be posting any more art or any posts on this blog. I have a few reasons of why I’ve decided to make this decision and if you’re interested to know them, please read onward from here.

Firstly, with being a self-employed worker, I’m very busy on a daily basis and the most difficult thing I find about sharing my artwork online is having to run so many SNS accounts like I do. So, to reduce my stress level and to keep myself from facing a complete burn-out (which can be a very nasty thing to occur, I would know already) I feel like I have to limit the amount of accounts I am running here. Unfortunately, within having this account on hiatus, I thought over it and saw that tumblr would be the one I would have to let go. I have had a tumblr account since 2011. A very long time. I remember it just like it was yesterday when I first opened this blog. This very blog holds a special place in my heart since it is one I have had up for such a long time. I had good times here and so very much appreciate the support I got on my art that I had posted here. This blog will always and forever be cherished in my heart, even with me having to close it now.

Secondly, tumblr was once a good blogging site in it’s time but as you all should know it’s faced some problems in it’s time as well. These problems still go on to this very day. The porn blogs... This has been a ever-growing problem with tumblr. At one point, tumblr said they were going to fix the problem by getting rid of these type of accounts but yet to have done so. If anything I see more porn blogs following me and interacting on my posts than ever before, even sending me weird, inappropriate videos, and messages often. It’s horrible, and I’ve pretty much grown tired of it at this point. It seems tumblr isn’t going to fix this problem since this has been going on for a while now, or maybe they can’t since there is just so many of these accounts that they are unable to get rid of all of them. Either way, enough is enough. Tumblr has no doubt gone downhill because of this problem

Many users had already left because of this, making the site feel a bit empty, overall. I won’t fully leave tumblr as I still have two non-art blogs that I use here from time to time, just to blog on as I enjoy blogging. It's rather a therapeutic thing to do for me. But still, I will not make it a priority of posting my artwork on this site anymore. Out of all my blogs I have, this one gets followed by porn blogs the most. It’s super unfortunate since this is my second most popular blog that I own. I worked hard on it to get the many amount of followers that I have. It really sucks at knowing that some of those followers are probably spam and porn accounts. But whatever.

Thirdly and lastly, I’ve noticed something which is also a huge problem with using social media to promote your artwork on in general is there is so many art thieves out there. It’s just getting worst by the day where there are ones who come to steal my artwork and repost it without my permission. No credit given either. They even come to sell my art without my permission and make a profit out of it. Terrible. Terrible. Terrible. I had already recognized that this would be the danger you’d have to face when posting up your artwork through social media. That it’s likely to get stolen but it just so darn sad and pathetic that we live in a world with people who won’t do the right thing. All I want to do when I post MY artwork is show it to people who will respect it and appreciate it, not come to take fame and fortune from it. I work too hard on all of my illustrations and 'I' myself like to get recognized for it. ME. I could go on a long lecture about this but this obviously isn’t the place and time for it. Bottom line, I think the more I reduce the social media accounts I post up my artwork at, the less it can become stolen where it gets into so many people’s hands to do whatever they want with it. These thieves are desperate too as they will come to even take your art with even watermarks being all over it. As I said, it’s very sad and pathetic. But it’s also a sad reality that we have to live with too. Stealing is clearly a problem even outside the internet, where people often get robbed these days wherever they are at at any time of day. Totally and utterly out of control in general.

So yeah, there you go. My reasons for closing down my beloved DaphInteresting art blog here. I like to think the reasons I gave here are understanding. To be honest, I feel like tumblr won’t be the only social media account I close down either. In the future, there will likely be more until the point I’m probably only using one or two social medias to promote my artwork at. I see it as being the less the better. Just have to narrow down my options. :P

Overall, with the ‘toxicity’ put to the side, of course, I still like to thank all the genuine supporters of my work here as tumblr isn’t clearly just filled with porn blogs and porn users. You ones are very cherished by me and I appreciate you all so very much. If you are a genuine follower of my work here and would like to keep updated on it, you can follow me on the social medias that I run with my art at now. This is currently the only social medias I’m posting up my artwork at until another announcement is made that I come to close another one again. Look through the ‘keep reading’ below to access them. Furthermore, if you want you can even follow me on them. I have put all my art and posts here on private so only this post will come to show when you visit this account. I decided to not leave up any of my art and posts because really there would be no point to do so and plus it could help to reduce the stealing of my art while at it. 

Again, thank you to all the supporters! Out of 430 followers, if you are not a porn or bot blog out of that and came to follow me because you genuinely liked my artwork and wanted to keep up with it, again you are very appreciated. I would love to have your continued support on my other accounts if you’re interested to continue to see and follow me throughout my art journey. ❤

With that said, I bid farewell to this long-lived account. 😢

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[mrsmarymorstan]

Don't why the fans especially the manga readers are hyping about tooru breaking the curse when she didn't even do shit. she just went on that silly adventure and be an annoying crybaby whenever she learns something new about the curse. it was actually akito who broke the curse so i can't understand what you are all hyping tohru on.

Ah yes, I to remember the days when I’d be deliberately antagonistic just for fun and beat on female characters for showing emotions and caring about people. Or indeed, resent characters for having entirely realistic reactions to the cosmic horror and terror that surrounds them. Then I turned 16 and HER WE ARE ten years later and I get to see it from a whole new perspective! What fun. 

In your misguided attempt to cause drama by shitting on people having a good time by being excited about upcoming character moments, much like Dr Flemming’s unwashed petri dish, you have hit upon something that benefits further discussion and interest. 

That point being, was it TOHRU who broke the curse, or was it Akito? 

The answer, I believe, is both. SPOILERS FOR ANIME ONLIES TONY YOU ARE WARNED DO NOT @ ME AGAIN IF YOU MESS UP. 

When Tohru sets out to break the curse and stop the love of her life from being locked up in a cold dark room for the rest of his existence, she finds out that the curse is firstly, a bond of blood sworn by the spririts of the past and not something that can be physically manifested, and secondly, that the curse has already begun to break RE: Kureno. 

Now, there’s a LOT of theories about why Kureno’s curse broke and if it truly was some random event or if there was a trigger. I think it’s a combination of the two. It’s noted by the maids and by (I think) Shigure that this is the first time in a long time that the entire Juunishi are present. There is also a sizeable age gap betwee Hiro and Kureno, that would about match up between Hiro being an infant when Kureno’s curse broke. Ergo, I propose that his curse broke soon after their first New Year’s together as a complete banquet with no spaces missing. Save that of the cat, of course, but more on him later. 

Kureno is the rooster, and I believe that in legend the Rooster was seen as the closest to God because he could deliver messages between heaven and earth. Therefore it makes sense that the first to leave God alone, is God’s messenger. “We have had our final Banquet, it’s time to end the cycle.” 

Of course Akito/God does not have a positive reaction to this, and the loss of one Juunishi inspires a great sense of loneliness and fear within Akito similar to that which lead to the creation of the bond in the first place. We do not see God being willing to make any attempt to work on achieving the Cat’s wish of finally being able to form friendships beyond the Zodiac and forming bonds with the humans he was so afraid of before. 

And THAT is the crux of the matter. Tohru came into the Sohma’s lives and began to break the curse simply by forming close bonds with them all, and letting them into her life and react to the world around them. Hana and Uo are both friends with Kyo and Yuki, actively choosing to spend time together. We also see that in Kyo attending the same school as Yuki, it opens up that same school to Haru and Momiji where they too can form bonds outside of the Sohma influence. It’s a school THEY chose, not the single sex one Akito picked out. Equally this means we have to give some credit to Yuki for making the brave choice of defying his parents and Akito’s wishes by attending a mixed school, and Shigure (who continues to be the mastermind here) for goading Akito into allowing Kyo to also attend that school and not simply pay off the private school he was MEANT to attend and have them let him back in. 

It’s also no real surprise that the two other Juunishi whose curses break before the final scene are Momiji and Hiro. Hiro is shown to be forming bonds outside of the Zodiac too. Not only has he matured enough that he is able to understand things from Tohru’s perspective now and has a relatively positive relationship with her, he ALSO becomes a Big Brother with a little sister he adores. Again, it shouldn’t come as a surprise that his curse breaks whilst he is in the same room as her. The Sheep has formed a meaningful relationship outside of the Zodaic, so it is time for the Sheep Spirit to return to its original realm. We then have Momiji, who is absolutely desperately in love with Tohru and is also equally desperate to be allowed to have a relationship with his OWN sister. Momiji’s curse breaks only after he has gone through puberty though and reaches adulthood. It’s when he starts to truly understand the path that is laid before him, and where he stands in it. He WANTS a relationship with Tohru, but he can also recognise that she is in love with Kyo and that makes it all the more painful. He knows that as he ages he is only going to be made to feel more distant from his sister, and that hurts too. HOWEVER, Momiji doesn’t ever stop LONGING for meaningful relationships and a world beyond the life of the Zodiac. He recognises that he does not have anything really tying him to the Sohma anymore, and so his curse breaks. The rabbit spirit has no need to be part of the banquet, and so heads home.   

Now, as you can see, whilst Tohru is a key trigger in the breaking of the curse, she’s still not the one to actively do it, right? 

Well, wrong. Sort of. 

Take note that when we’re told the ACTUAL story of the Original Banquet , we find that the Cat was the first friend God ever made, and was also the first to die. It was the death of the cat that triggered God into creating the eternal bond that would always bring them together, and it was the cat’s terror and dismay at being forced into such a bond that caused them to disown him. The cat has, all along, simply wanted God to make friends. The first who had the curse take effect upon them, was the one who rejectd it the most and as such was then shunned forever more. The cat wanted God to make bonds outside of the Zodiac, and in turn the cat was forever banned form making those bonds. Even though we’ve been show the Cat was granted some realtionships in the form of Kazuma’s Grandmother; it is a relationship made out of pitty rather than love and understanding. 

Tohru though? Torhu is the God Damned (excuse the pun) Year of the Cat Fanclub PRESIDENT. Nobody loves and respects the OG Cat Spirit in the way she does. She emphasied with the Cat’s plight in the legend her mother told her, feeling sorry for them being tricked like that and being forced to miss out on being part of the legend. She wanted the cat to join the group! She cradled the cat’s body in much the same way God in his final moments, as instead this time Tohru brings him back into the light and forms a stronger and longer lasting relationship with the cat spirit through love and empathy.

And later on, in that same mountainside, it is TOHRU who is the one who reaches out her hand to god and asks to become friends. It is the act of God forming friends with mortal humans that triggers Akito/God to finally release everyone from their curse. That’s why it happens when it does, when Akito knows that Tohru is safely out of hospital, that she has still welcomed Akito into her life... and that if Akito is going to take those terrifying steps into forming relationships that can end in rejection, she’s going to have to do it on her own two feet. 

THAT is how Tohru breaks the curse. THAT is what is important here and what is so FUCKING HARD ROCK about Tohru Honda. We see her willing to stand up to GOD in order to break the curse, but she stands before God as an EQUAL. Tohru WILL break the curse. She WILL fight for her soulmate. She WILL make you be friends with her and address your deep seated issues of self hate and abandonment (not that she has those issues herself ahahahha no I’m just your average happy go lucky teenager with two dead parents who lives in a tent I’M FINE) 

Of course, it turns out that everything Shigure and Kazuma told her about breaking the curse was true: That she didn’t have to do anything other than to continue to be herself. HOWEVER, in order to BE herself she needed to try and have a “silly adventure” where she tested her metal and learnt to speak up for herself. Why are we excited? Because we’re going to see Tohru finally find the confidence to speak out against others without harm! We see her get into a fight with Rin about it. We see her refusing to back down against Kagura. We see her standing on her own two feet and saying “No. No I don’t want that. I REFUSE to give in and to leave well alone!” 

All before, Tohru has been so scared to speak up for herself because of her debilitating abandonment issues (and please let’s not make fun of people’s mental health issues, okay? I haven’t been having a weekly therapy session for nearly two years now just because for the fun of it) but now she’s got to the point where she feels comfortable and secure enough to show an uglier side to herself that people might reject. She is able to be mean, and shout, and fucking break into someone’s house in order to get what she wants! How can a TRUE fruits basket fan NOT be excitd for that level of character development? 

And to end it, please, for the LOVE OF GOD it is 2020. I am 26 years old. I have been on tumblr since 2011. Do not send me hate about female fictional characters and expect me to roll over. My username is “Mrs Mary Morstan”. Mary. Morstan. The most hated female character in all of BBC Sherlock. Do not even try to fucking test me, you Petri Dish. 

[attheexactlyrighttimeandplace]

I was tagged by the coolest tumblrina @wvnjo to answer this ask game. Each time your personal tags show up on my dash, i think about how much someone as full of energy and ambition like you deserves to reach her life goals. I can't be more than a groupie who is cheering for you from the side, but i'm doing it with all my heart. 💗

Name: Imane

Sign: Lion sun, Taurus moon, Capricorn rising,

Height: 1,58m

Time: 18:45

Birthday: july 27th

Favourite bands/artists (the ones i always returned to in difficult times): Ali Farka Touré, Toumani Diabaté, Fayruz, Umm Kulthum, Cesaria Evora, Médine,  Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan and so many more

Last movie: US by Jordan Peele

Last show: Severance (an instant favourite: series that mix sci-fi/political concept+ philosophical/metaphysical questions about the nature of identity+ impossible love stories will always have a special place in my heart)

When I created this blog: I think in 2011 but it's not my first blog on Tumblr

What I post: What my mood dictates me. I see my blog as kind of stream of consciouness created to calm and to relax. I reblog quasi exclusively (since i have no talent) all sort of arts (photography of nature, architecture, paintings, poetry, music, gifs of films) and sometimes current news about the world (Palestine), but in a specific order because my brain needs a visual/aesthetic connection to what i reblog and more importantly an invented (by me) narrative continuity between the posts. That's why i don't reblog immediately what i like or bookmark. I search/create in my mind the stories that gives sense to me to the flow of the pics/gifs i pick.

Last thing I googled: Algeria

Other blogs: Fandom blogs. It's pure nostalgia for my childhood favourite tv shows.

Do I get asks: Very rarely. That's why i rarely post personal thoughts. I think most of my followers prefer this blog to speak for itself, without additional thoughts...

Following: I don't get this one. Am i is supposed to say how many people i follow or who i follow?

Average hours of sleep: usually 6-8h. I can't have less: i'm too old to endure sleepless nights anymore.

Instruments: None

What I’m wearing: A cute blue dress i received as a gift from my mother who just came back from her holidays in Algeria.

Dream job: Quoting my muse @wvnjo "I don’t dream of labour". I studied law and worked in the field for years because i have a strong sense of justice. I loved to defend people but lost a lot of my illusions, so i quit. These days, i daydream of some activity, (not necessarily a job, volunteering would be very okay), with children: helping in a children library (i love to share books and stories with children) or teaching some after classes lessons to children of primary schools.

Nationality: algerian the only one that matters in my heart and forever. I have been born, raised and lived my entire life en France. I have the french citizenship but i don't feel i belong here. If my health condition was better, i would pobrably try to leave France.

Favourite songs (currently, it changes all the time): Sun May Shine by Tamino, all because my favourite music librarian @wvnjo rebloggged it and got me hooked. it's so melancholic and so soft at the same time, i think i will never be not haunted by Tamino's voice (and the notes of arab influence in his music certainly helped a lot).

Last book I read: The Willow Tree by Hubert Selby Jr. A very powerful modern story on revenge, grief and forgiveness about a young black american boy whose life is shattered when his hispanic girlfriend and him are attacked by a street gang enraged by the fact they are a racially mixed couple. I loved how the author used such a musical and poetic language to tell a a seemingly hopeless and dark tale, until grace comes from an unexpected place and enlightens again life.

3 fictional universes: Middle Earth. Battlestar Galactica. All poems and plays related to the House of Atreus: The Illiad, The Odyssey and The Oresteia.

Tagging all my mutuals and everyone who feel inspired by this ask game.

[nako-doodles]

30 Questions Tag

tagged by @jiminslight @jihopes & @jinbestboy 🥺🥺 thank you darlings 💖✨

name/nickname: shirley

star sign: scorpio

height: 5’7

birthday: oct 26th

favorite band: as of this moment: my ankle band (and i guess epik high, bts, dreamcatcher, day6, one ok rock, shinee, wondergirls)

time: 11pm

favorite solo artist: lee hi, sohyang, suran, sunmi

song stuck in your head: ngl still hung up on jin's avengers moment. gonna be dangling there like his chokers for the rest of forever. catch me replaying his prechorus vocal run from now to the end of forever.

last movie you watched: the babies demanded that i play happy feet today for our last class before summer

free space! *dances around like a fool* love you 💖💖

last show: asobi asobase aka the funniest most chaotic anime about 3 girls trying out-do each other in games

when i created this blog: 2018 methinks but ive had tumblr on and off since....2011?

what i post: the occasional pixel art i guess?

last thing i googled: when did turkey move its capital to ankara? bc i was teaching istanbul and the bosphorus to the kids and they asked. its 1923 for those of you wondering. after the fall of the ottoman empire.

other blogs: no idea how yall do it w that multi blog nonsense

do i get asks? im a teacher. fielding asks is basically my job.

why i chose my url? been space cowboying since 2019 but bass boosted now w ptd jin

following: 323 (back again w my palindromes)

followers: ive had a couple toddlers follow me around the school does that count?

average hours of sleep: doing my darnest to get at least 8 bc im old and need the zzzs to have the stamina to follow children around all day

lucky number: 11

instruments: mad white board marker compass wielder. i guess i also know the piano and flute.

what am i wearing? white puffy sleeved embroidered croptop, black grid high-waisted lounge pants, baby pink sneakers

dream job: get paid to do absolutely nothing fuck capitalism

favorite food: all manner of warm hearty soupy things....nabe, hotpot, soup dumplings, noodles, curry, stew.....

tea or coffee: depends on what im eating tbh

nationality: *sigh* american

favorite song: according to my itunes: epik high's here comes the regrets ft. lee hi and day6's i would

last book i read: the last book i finished (and cried over) was paul kalanithi's when breath becomes air and one more read through of the phonebooth in mr. hirota's garden for the kids (yes its a picture book but its still one of the most incredible books ive ever read). i just started reading laura van den berg's i hold a wolf by the ears (so far reading very much like having a conversation with a upper middle class white suburb millennial) and frances cha's if i had your face (a woke youtube video analysis on east asian modern society). if someone has books to rec me pls hmu. im struggling.

top three fictional universes i would like to live in: a world where i dont have to wear a mask in 40 some degree weather many thanks 💖💖

tagging: @cafejoon @stargazingjin @taemaknae @mintagust @loverjimin @jung-koook @taee @taejinnies @tae-bebe & anyone who wants to ✨

[exercuted]

I was tagged by @h0neydripper in a lil thing which I thought was pretty neato so I’ll give it a go

20 questions + 20 people to tag

Name: Mark

Pronouns: he/him

Zodiac: assuming you mean my Sun, which is Virgo

Height: I stand at a PROUD 5’6” 😌

Time: 7 pm PACIFIC

Birthday: August 25th

Nationality: I have an American passport if that’s what you’re asking

Favorite bands/musical groups: Queen, Gym Class Heroes, Pentagon, DREAMCATCHER, BTS, Mastodon, Wu-Tang Clan, Blue Scholars, Outkast, Tigers Jaw, Electric Wizard are some that pop into my head

Favorite solo artists: SZA, Kendrick Lamar, Carpenter Brut, Tyler the Creator, Childish Gambino, Frank Sinatra, Anthony Green, Bruno Mars, Anderson Paak, Chelsea Wolfe to name a few I have very varied music tastes

Last tv show I binged: currently binging JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure Stardust Crusaders

When I created blog: this blog is fairly new, maybe fall of 2020 but I’ve been on tumblr since 2011

Last thing I googled: “Philadelphia Eagles” because I wanted to see who we drafted. Yes, I am fan of the Birds, fly eagles fly forever

Other blogs: just my old flagged blog but I had two blogs before that, a smut writing blog, and an old magic: the gathering card art blog

What does your URL mean: I’m American but I will never ever forget my roots to the islands. “Datu” is an old word we used for our rulers. Not kings, not emperors, but rajahs and datus. Datu Lapu Lapu, the first hero of my country, killed Ferdinand Magellan and staved off Spanish rule for a few more precious years and its him and the other leaders of my ancestors that I callback to with my URL.

How many followers: on this blog? 383

How many I follow: 286 I believe

Average hours of sleep: lmao anywhere from 3 hours to 7 maybe 8 hours on a good night.

Lucky number: 25

Instruments: I played the drums

Currently wearing: shorts and a tank top. California is getting hot

Dream trip: I wanna go to Scandinavia

Favorite food: mangoes

Favorite song: sunflower by post Malone & swae Lee

Top 3 fictional universes to live in: POKÉMON, a romantic Miyazaki studio ghibli universe, and avatar the last airbender. I would have said wizardimg world but it’s been too soiled and besmirched by the TERF who started it all.

Tagging: @spaciousvoid / @azurepixie / @constant-heartburn / @rainbowtaffie / @sub-scorpio / @asseaterextraordinaire / @peachyasspvssy / @wilder-flowers / @dealunaearsenium / @grimgxrl / @yesiamreallyanangel / @bbygirl-in-lace / @monikalewinskyy / @michipichi / @robynforever / @vanessawhite / @sah-ruh / @alt-heidi / @strawberrybabyfox / @tessellatedbones

[squarecarousel]

Challenge 144: 10 Years, Looking Forward: A-Frame Studio Life Buckle up-- this is a long one! Wow, ten years. It’s hard to believe a whole decade has passed since Square Carousel began, and since I graduated college. In some ways, it feels like another lifetime, and in others, it feels vastly shorter than the decade before that, from ages 12 to 22. Time is fascinating that way. College was such an incredibly impactful time period, but just a measly 4 years-- I could have done college 2.5 more times back-to-back in the years since I graduated, but somehow those four, from 2007-2011 were monumental.  It’s hard to believe I’ll be in a post-college world without Square Carousel, since the group has been a constant in my life these last ten years. I’m really proud that we made it this far and are able to choose to end the journey, rather than it fizzling out or dying from lack of interest. Sometimes it felt like that might happen, but other times it felt like we were blooming. There have been many ups and downs over the course of this journey. And damn, it was a lot of hard to work to keep running, but I am so grateful for the learning experience. I know so much more about leadership now than I ever would have before-- the delicate balance of having rules to keep the group running (deadlines, participation requirements, our dreaded “strike system”) and keeping up morale (knowing when to forgive slip-ups, keeping challenges sufficiently entertaining and well...challenging, making sure the group feels like it’s a community). Elizabeth and I were reluctant leaders, just naturally having to take those roles as other original members of the group left and were replaced by folks who needed guidance. We definitely didn’t seek it out, but we knew that if the group were to stay alive, we had to put some structure into the system. Pretty early on we made our rules and guidelines, extended the challenges to 3 weeks from just 2, and worked on our visual image online. Our awesome logo was made by former member Casey Crisenbery, and we switched from Wordpress to Tumblr, purchasing a URL, and Casey using special code for custom organization on the site. Sketch critiques were now a halfway point through our 3 weeks-long challenge, which helped a lot with the community aspect and engagement. We started doing interviews for each member, reaching out to other illustration groups, blogs and submission sites and had our work featured on a few of them. Some of us even got jobs from the connections made through Square Carousel!  There was a bad stretch several years ago when I wasn’t sure we’d make it through, with toxic behavior and a few folks petitioning for removing deadlines and structure, making everything optional. One thing I can tell you with certainty after ten years of working with artists is that 95% of us require deadlines to do anything, and incentives/obligations for meeting those deadlines, or it just isn’t going to happen! Elizabeth and I, along with a few other solid members, were able to keep the structure we’d worked hard to create, but the toxic culture had already killed group morale and we lost a lot of members simultaneously. That was a sad and scary time for Square Carousel, but I didn’t want to go out on a sour note. So the small group of us picked the pieces back up again, did a little refocus on our goals as a collective and created an “Admin” so Elizabeth and I didn’t have to carry the entire burden alone. I am forever grateful to Sayada and Jordan for stepping up into these roles to help us get the train back on track. Sayada especially picked up a lot of responsibilities that a newer member shouldn’t have to worry about, and was a total rockstar for Square Carousel. I wish we’d had her with us for the whole ride. I’m so happy that we’ve had a few really great years with some really loyal and talented artists to round out the experience at Year Ten.  There is nobody I’m more thankful for than my Good Cop, Elizabeth, though. She was so reliable, always able to provide balance in our leadership roles, and such a wonderful shoulder to cry on when things got too stressful. Elizabeth, thank you for this journey and for being my SC Wife all these years! It’s so funny because of all the original members, you were one of the only ones I hadn’t really known from SCAD classes, yet you’re the SCAD Illustration friend I have remained most connected to most consistently. Nothing bonds you quite like running an illustration collective does! It also cracks me up that in all these years, we hadn’t ever facetimed or talked on the phone until a few months ago--I didn’t even know your mannerisms or voice, but knew you so well anyway. My greatest internet friend! I love you dearly and it truly won’t feel right, the absence of our weekly SC conversations. Thank you for all of the memories! As just a member and artist, this group has helped me grow so much professionally. It was my client when I didn’t have clients. It was my motivation to paint when I didn’t feel creative. It was my source of portfolio-worthy work, but also my safe place to experiment and fail when I was trying something new. The girl who started as a Square Carousel member freshly graduated in 2011 was working part-time at Urban Outfitters, had basically no money, and no clue how to promote herself. The “studio” was a corner of the bedroom and nobody took her seriously. But a stubborn dedication and the security, purpose and structure of Square Carousel helped the slow change from that lost girl to a full-time freelancing woman. Now, in 2021, I have been doing freelance illustration fully for six years, through contract jobs, editorial, publishing, advertising, commission and local work, as well as selling prints and products online, in local shops and events. I am not making the big bucks, certainly, and I still have goals I’m working towards, but damn, if that isn’t a glow-up, I don’t know what is. Thank you for helping me achieve my impossible dream, Square Carousel, and always being a place with the right amount of advice, support and critique. Ten years, 34 artist interviews, 38 artists, and 144 challenges. I’m the only member to have completed every single one. 144 illustrations through the years. Some were game-changers for my style and my portfolio. Some were total stinkers and I hope you don’t go looking for them. But all were an important step in my career.   So, in ten more years? I’ll be 42 years old, which is very weird because I have never imagined myself that old before... it’s hard to honestly say what that would look like, especially considering the world we are currently living in and how the last 4/5 years have proven that anything (awful) can happen. Jordan and I have a goal to move to Colorado in the next 4 or 5 years, and I’d love to have a little A-Frame in the mountains with a loft studio, shown in my illustration here. Texas has become extremely problematic, especially after the winter storm in February of this year, and will be impacted greatly by climate change, both environmentally and economically. Right now, Austin is still booming, but at some point the lack of foresight in this state’s government is going to screw over the residents and it will be one of the places from which climate refugees run. Is that tomorrow? No, obviously not. But I want to already be settled someplace more stable, having grown some roots, before other folks start to roll in. But, to be able to do that, I need to rely less on my local jobs and connections and be able to have an “anywhere career.” So right now I am focusing on expanding in that way, particularly with book cover illustration and design. I’ve been doing a lot of portfolio work and self-publishing jobs, and hope to get an agent that can shop my work to big-time publishers sometime in the next year or two. Let’s say I succeed at all of those things in five years-- we’re in our Colorado A-Frame, I’m illustrating book covers (and I’ve also convinced my parents to come with me, and maybe a couple friends!). The next five years after that? I don’t know... hopefully a lot of adventures. Hopefully a lot of cool jobs, but also a lot of work/life balance. Right now, I don’t want kids, so the A-Frame will be filled with cats. Maybe we’ll have an old camper van for regular road trips around the western National Parks. I’d love for my work to reflect those passions-- more jobs with outdoor brands, parks, organizations. More book covers for stuff I’d personally love to read and keep on my overflowing shelf. That’s the vague goal for me in ten years, but I don’t want to plan any further than that, because life just also needs to happen the way it’s going to happen. There are parts of my current life I planned for in 2011... and there are parts I never, ever would have guessed. I hope there’s some fun surprises in 2031, too. Thanks for the decade, Square Carousel. Joining illustration collectives will always be the first bit of advice I give fresh graduates. Caitlin

[dillydedalus]

march reading

kinda forgot about this i guess. anyway feat. uh, magical ships, dubious mental health institutions (plural) & a parisian building with 99 rooms. 

the forever sea, joshua phillip johnson (forever sea #1) i firmly believe that more fantasy lit should be set on ships bc ships are inherently a sexy setting & you could have pirates which are extremely sexy. this has ships (and pirates) and also a sea made of grass? a magical plant sea on which ships sail via magical fires, so conceptually i’m very into it all. the plot is fine, but the protagonist kindred has a very bad case of Main Character Syndrome so prepare for mild annoyance throughout. also while i generally enjoy book magic vs wild magic i wish more works would treat them as two ends of a spectrum rather than ~book magic bad and boring, wild magic cool and *~natural*~. but overall i think this series has potential. 3/5

jagannath: stories, karin tidbeck ([partially?] translated from swedish by the author) really cool collection of sff stories by tidbeck, many of which veer into mild horror and some of which are influenced by swedish folklore and especially swedish fey stories. i enjoyed most of these a lot, especially the existential call centre horror story, the ‘god won’t let me die’ one, and a taxonomy of a cryptid that goes a little off the rails. 4/5

annette, ein heldinnenepos, anne weber a novel in verse about anne beaumanoir, a real person who was a résistance member during world war 2 and later supported the algerian national liberation front, for which she was sentenced to 10 years in prison (she escaped to tunisia and later algeria). she’s clearly a very impressive and interesting person & i conceptually enjoyed the idea of writing a modern hero(ine)’s epic, but i feel like the language could have been a bit more stylized to match the form. 3/5

salvage the bones, jesmyn ward (audio) bleak but ultimately hopeful novel about a black family in the days before and during hurricane katrina, although the focus is on the family dynamics, the 14-year-old narrator discovering that she is pregnant, and the kids trying to keep the puppies their dog china just had alive and well. enjoyed this, altho i did it a bit of a disservice but listening to it a lot of short chunks. 3.5/5

regeneration, pat barker (regeneration trilogy #1) set mostly at a military hospital for soldiers with shell shock during world war 1, this novel explores the existential horror of war, psychological treatment (& the horrible absurdity of treating traumatised men just enough so that you can send them straight back to Trauma Town), and the meeting between siegfried sassoon & wilfred owen. i find i don’t really have much to say about it, but it is very, very good. 4/5

how to pronounce knife, souvankham thammavongsa a short story collection mainly about refugees and migrants from laos to canada, many focusing on parent-child relationships and being forced to work in low-paid jobs, often ones that are damaging to their health. the stories are very well-observed and emotionally nuanced and detailed, but with 14 mostly very short stories, the collection as a whole felt a bit samey, which i guess is something i often experience with short story collections. 3/5

faces in the water, janet frame horrifying semi-autobiographical novel about a young woman stuck in new zealand’s mental health system, moving to different hospitals but mostly from ward to (more depressing) ward in the 40s/50s. while there is a shift in attitudes during her stay that sometimes makes the wards more tolerable, mostly the patients are neglected, abused, and the threat of electric shock therapy and lobotomy always hangs over them. 3/5

the upstairs house, julia fine fuck why did i read so many books about mental health conditions this month??? this is another entry in my casual ‘motherhood as horror’ reading project, in which a new mother develops post-partum psychosis & imagines the modernist children’s book writer she’s writing her dissertation on and her poet sometimes-lover haunting her and her child (margaret wise brown & michael strange, who are real people i was utterly unaware of). this does pretty good on the maternal horror front, but i wasn’t entirely sold on the literary haunting. 2/5

1000 serpentinen angst, olivia wenzel a very interesting novel about a woman struggling with grief over her brother’s suicide, an anxiety disorder, the (non)state of a (non)relationship and discrimination/marginalisation based on her identity as a black, east-german, bi woman (while also being, as she notes, financially privileged). much of the novel is written in a dialogue between the narrator and an unnamed (& probably internal) interlocutor, which was p effective for a novel more focused on introspection than much of a plot. 3/5

atlas: the archaeology of an imaginary city, dung kai-cheung (tr. from chinese by the author, anders hansson, bonnie mcdougall) fictitious theory about a slightly-left-of-reality version of hong kong and how maps (re)construct the city, very heavy on the postmodern poststructuralist postcolonial (and some other posts, i’m sure). in many ways my jam. unfortunately my favourite parts of this were the author’s preface and the first part (fictitious theory of mapping alternate hong kong); the rest felt very repetitive and not particularly interesting, altho i’m sure i was also just missing a lot of cultural context. 2.5/5

under the net, iris murdoch .........i liked the other two murdochs i’ve read (the sea, the sea & a severed head) quite a lot so either i was not in the mood for her very peculiar style of constructing novels and characters or, this being her first novel, she just wasn’t in full command of that peculiar style yet but man this was a slooooooooog. don’t stretch out your modern picaresque with an incredibly annoying narrator over more than 300 pages iris!!!! 2/5 bc this probably has some merit & i just wasn’t into it

the impossible revolution: making sense of the syrian tragedy, yassin al-haj saleh (tr. from arabic by i. rida mahmoud) collection of articles and essays saleh (a syrian intellectual & activist who spent 16 years in a syrian prison) wrote from 2011 to 2015, analysing the reasons for, potential and development of the revolution, as well as some background sociological discussion on the assads’ regime. very interesting, very dense, very depressing. wouldn’t necessarily recommend it as a first read on the topic tho. 3/5

angels in america: millenium approaches & perestroika, tony kushner the page to tumblr darling quote ratio in this is insane (”just mangled guts pretending” and so on) and also it just really slaps on every level. also managed to get me from 0 to crying several times. brilliant work of theatre, would love to see it staged (or filmed). 4/5

life: a user’s manual, georges perec (german tr. by eugen helmlé) 99 chapters, each corresponding with a single room in a parisian apartment block; some chapters are basically ‘here’s the room, here’s a long list of objects in the room, that’s it bye :)’, some are short insights into the lives of the people living there, some (the best, mostly) are long, absolutely wild tales that are sometimes only tangentially connected to the room in question. why are the french like this. 61/99 rooms 

sisters in hate: american women on the front lines of white nationalism, seyward darby (audio) nonfiction about women’s role in white nationalist hate movements, mainly based on the stories of three women who are or have been involved with various contemporary american alt-right/racist/neonazi hate groups, while also looking at general social trends and the history of white women’s role in white supremacy. interesting and engaging if you’re interested in this kind of thing. if you’re both politically aware and internet poisoned, it’s probably not much that is completely new to you but still worth reading. 3/5

starting in april i will be Gainfully Employed (ugh) & thus probably not read as much or read even more bc i have no energy for anything else 

[elenatria]

From a facebook post. Tagged by @itisa-profoundbond-sarandom​, thank you!

Pick 10 ships without reading the questions.

1. Valoris (Chernobyl)

2. Pacho (Chernobyl)

3. Toptumov (Chernobyl)

4. Kay/Marc (Freier Fall)

5.  Johnny/Gheorghe (God’s own country)

6. Thorki (Thor)

7. Hiddlesworth

8. Jarllan

9. Taikris

10. Stucky (Captain America)

1. Do you remember the episode/scene/chapter that you first started shipping 6?

When I watched THIS deleted scene.

2.  Have you ever read a FanFiction about 2?

I did when my friend gifted her Pacho fic to me. ^^

3. Has a picture of 4 ever been your screen saver/profile picture/tumblr?

Oh my FUCKING god how did you know.

4. If 7 were to suddenly break-up today, what would your reaction be?

In our collective headcanon, Hiddlesworth have already broken up. Also, we have a pandemic so a reunion would be close to impossible. But “Love and Thunder” hasn’t started filming yet, has it??

5. Why is 1 so important?

Because it’s been a year and I’m still drawing Valoris. It’s been a year but “Chernobyl” is still getting awards. It’s been a year and the story they told is more relevant than ever. It’s been a year. But NEXT year we’ll be visiting that meaningful bench.

6. Is 9 a funny ship or a serious ship?

Oh god Taikris is the FUNNIEST ship ever. There’s power play and there are huge insecurities and white lies and one being more attached to the other for no reason and well, Taika is Taika and Chris is Chris, how could they NOT be funny together?

7. Out of all of the ships listed, which ship has the most chemistry?

The most chemistry? That’s impossible to answer, all of them have “the most chemistry”.

8. Out of all of your ships listed, which ship has the strongest bond?

Well, I can tell which one DOESN’T have the strongest bond, and that’s Taikris because one of them doesn’t see the relationship seriously.

9. How many times have you read/watched 8’s fandom?

Jarllan is a relatively new ship, with not too much content to feed on. BUT the rare times when these boys indulge us, it’s heaven on earth.

10. Which ship has lasted the longest?

Thorki because it’s been around since 2011 and I’ve been shipping them non-stop since 2013.

11. How many times, if ever, has 2 broken up?

In my fic? Pacho have broken up once but that’s only because I haven’t written the whole thing yet. They had to break up, their time in Chernobyl was up.

12. If the world was suddenly thrust into a zombie apocalypse, which ship would make it out alive, 2 or 8?

Pacho, obviously. These boys have guns and know how to shoot a moving target. Also they've grown relentless and they have each other’s back.

13. Did 5 ever have to hide their relationship for any reason?

Not really, they lived in a farm away from prying eyes and Johnny’s family was accepting of his relationship with  Gheorghe.

14. Is 4 still together?

FUCK ME. NO. 

Did you have to ask that question? Kay/Marc is an open wound, we’re still waiting for the goddamn sequel.

15. Is 3 canon?

Toptumov? No... But who cares??

16. If all 10 ships were put into a couple’s Hunger Games, which couple would win?

Thorki because they’re gods obviously.

17. Has anybody ever tried to sabotage 10’s ship?

The Russo brothers. Because they gave Captain America a lame-ass happy ending nobody wanted. And it didn’t include Bucky.

18. Which ship would you defend to the death and beyond?

Valoris. It gives me chills to remember how persistently we had to defend that ship back when Chernobyl was a thing. Thank god it is not a thing anymore. The hate was incredible.

19. Do you spend hours a day going through 1’s tumblr page?

I don’t go to the tags, not for Valoris, not for Chernobyl, not for anything. But I do try to reblog anything Valoris/Chernobyl I’m tagged in and I try to make content for it.

20. If an evil witch descended from the sky and told you that you had to pick one of the ten ships to break up forever or else she´d break them all forever, which ship would you sink?

Taikris of course lmao. Because neither of them would give two shits, they’d move on, and I’d be happy to see Chris go back to Tom.

Tags: @drunkardonjunkyard @boisinberryjamarama​ @valerafan2 

[night-is-a-feeling]

top 5 (or 10) fondest memories here on tumblr dot com 🤔

omg ak! this is so cute 🥺

1. i had a blog for a few years and then i found the 1D and larry fandom back in 2011. as much as we all joke about it being life ruining, which ahdhshjs accurate. finding this place saved my life, and helped me come to terms with my sexuality. so i’m so grateful for that.

2. met and fell in love with a girl on here from across the world, i travelled to her and spent 3 months living with her. although the relationship wasn’t forever, i only have fond and positive memories of it. and i wouldn’t be who i am today without that experience.

3. i ran an aesthetic blog for ages, and it really helped me find my love for fashion! running that blog never gave me the same adrenaline rush as being in a fandom, but it was soft, peaceful and helped me find my passions.

4. rejoining the fandom almost a year ago now. i left between 2016-2020, i just got very overwhelmed with working and schooling, and the hiatus had begun. so it was a good time to cut myself out for a bit. but rejoining has been so wonderful, i forgot how beautiful the sense of community is. and this time around i’ve met many incredible people, who i call my friends, my loves, beautiful souls. and this is somewhat new, before i was very shy and rarely spoke to people. but allowing this human connection to be so strong has made this experience all the more rewarding. so thank you all 🥰

5. i’m gonna make this one a clump thing. but every time we’ve all come together and created a campaign for something. obviously the no control project!! but the first one i experienced in my return to the fandom was charting walls (the album) back in sept/oct? i don’t remember the exact date. but that was such an incredibly powerful thing. and being involved in these pushes is so FUN.

ask me my top 5 or top 10 anything

[sunbellylou]

ask for writers !!

thank you @tomlinvelvetfics​ for tagging me! and thank you @soldouthaz for making this tag!

1. describe how you first started writing and when you first posted: i’ve been writing for years now, i started with het (ew!) 1d fics in portuguese back in 2011, it was actually those little imagines we used to write, don’t know if anyone remembers hehe. i posted them on a facebook page i was part of and i remember the first thingy i wrote was something with niall, but i really don’t remember any details (but was probably bad as heck since i was 11).

my first larry fic i probably wrote around 2012 when i found out the gay fanfics world haha, i don’t remember what it was or anything tbh, in my head i always wrote and posted gay fanfic.

my first fanfic in english was a little one shot (like 400 words honestly), it was a translation of a previous work i wrote portuguese. i posted it a year and a half ago and it’s called playground love (please don’t look).

2. which of your characters do you typically resonate most closely with? do you base any characters off of yourself?:  i usually write from harry’s pov because i love love l o v e describing louis and how angelic he is, so usually i tend to see louis as this ethereal ish character, cause it’s usually about harry falling in love with him. so whether i like it or no, i tend to be closer to harry’s characters in my fics, i always like to put a bit of myself on him and make the character real, you know?

3. where do you often find inspiration?: honestly? anything! i’ve written fics inspired by tumblr posts, tweets, pictures, songs, movies, things that happened in my real life, books. i literally wrote a pwp because i couldn’t stop thinking about leather pants (go read my robin hood au).

4. has quarantine helped or hindered your writing process?: in the beginning it was really helping me, i’d stay up till 4am everyday just writing like crazy, but then i got into the worst writer’s block and didn’t write shit for months. (and of course right when i started getting new ideas, i started working so i have no free time).

5. do you listen to music/noise while you write or do you prefer silence? always listen to music, all the time. i can’t do anything without music. mostly because my brain is a mess and music helps me concentrate. i usually go for some chill songs, some indie pop and stuff.

6. what is your biggest writing pet peeve in your writing or in general?: oh my god, when i’m writing and two or more paragraphs start with the same word, one after the other. it drives me crazy!!!! and sometimes i spend hours looking for ways to word differently the sentences, just so i don’t have two paragraphs starting with “the”.

also when my paragraphs are two (or one) lines long, i can’t! it has to have three or more lines.

7. describe your ideal writing setup: at the dining table, in the middle of the night, with some soft music playing in the background and some popcorn with me!

8. favorite time of day to write?: well, just said it hehe i like writing at night.

9. favorite genre to write + one you’d like to try writing in the future?: woah, that’s tough because i literally write any genres! i really love writing fantasy and horror stuff, but i feel like it’s not really well accepted in the fandom? (spec horror). and when people like it, they only read from bigger authors so i usually keep myself from writing those. aaand tbh i probably already wrote most of fic genres out there, so there isn’t much left to try.

10. do you struggle with writer’s block? how do you typically overcome it?  i’m writer’s block bitch and i do not know how to overcome her

11. what is the easiest part of your writing process and the most difficult? outlining tbh, i usually don’t (and it comes back to kick me in the ass). i always have too many ideas at the same time and can’t stick to one, so outlining and finding the right plot is really hard.

12. how do you come up with original characters? (if applicable): lately i haven’t really had the chance to come up with ocs, but when i wrote original books (not fanfics and stuff), i usually started with the gender and one outstanding personality trait and went from there.

13. what is your favorite and least favorite word?  i love the words ethereal and breeze, omg you’ll find them A LOT on my fics. and my least favorite word is growl.

14. what is one thing about your writing that you’re really proud of and one thing you hope to continue working at?: i think i describe the vibez in the scene really well, it’s my favorite thing to do. and i need to work more on building my sentences, because theyre always supermessy.

15. what work of yours has your favorite ‘verse/world building? how did you come up with it?:  definitely the fic i’m working on right now! i’m putting so much work on the world building since it’s a fantasy fic, so i’m planning every little detail about it. i hope other people like it too when they read it !!

16. what font and size do you write in? single spaced or double?: comic sans, 12pt, single spaced. don’t come at me.

17. what is a typo(s) you find yourself making consistently?: because english isn’t my first language, i always change like ‘th’ for ‘d’ (because it has a similar sound in portuguese), so catch me typing ‘de’ instead of ‘the’ or ‘dey’ instead of ‘they’.

18. (if applicable) do you separate fic writing from fandom?: i didn’t understand the question so i’m pretending i never read it hehe

19. what emotion is your favorite to write? which is the most difficult?: my favorite to write is probably,,, love/adoration, like harry looking at louis like he’s the whole world and thinking about how amazing he is? i love it.

and the most difficult is probably anger, i find it really hard to write like fights and stuff like that because usually i make the characters sound more sad than angry.

20. what is one thing you hope readers always take away from your works?: i never thought about that but,,, i hope they start finding joy in small things that happen in their day. that’s something i use a lot in my fics and i think it’s very important to bring it to real life. like enjoy that late night tea, showering in the morning, spending a summer day in the house, cleaning, etc.

21. what is the best and worst writing advice you’ve ever received?: i think the best advice is one i got from someone i no longer talk to, they told me this when i first started writing in english and it is to stop trying to write fancy or like native english speakers, because it’s much better to write simple sentences that i’m confident about than write sentences with words i barely know how to use.

and the worst advice is TO OUTLINE! i know i should maybe i dont know but leave me alone, i hate outlining bye

22. which one of your works would you most want to see turned into a film/television show?:  ok so,,, it’s a book i wrote like three years ago with original characters. it’s called great evil and i wrote it in portuguese. it’s full of violence and acid humor, about a very evil and sarcastic demon and an angry hunter. (one day i’ll translate that book and turn it into a larry fic)

23. do you write scenes chronologically or out of order?: chronologically. always

24. how do you handle criticism?: really bad. please be careful with what words you use. i’m already really hard on myself when it comes to my writing, so sometimes someone says something and (it might be dramatic but) i feel my world crumbling and i want to stop writing right away.

25. what is the advice you would give to someone who is looking to start writing?:  just,,, do it. there’s no right or wrong way to do it. there’s no such thing as too much or too little, bad or good plots. every idea is a good idea. write it for yourself, write something you like. go ahead and just do it. there’s always someone out there who will enjoy your work, no matter what.

26. what kind of feedback on your work always makes your day?: any comments make my day tbh, if you comment on my fic i’ll be forever grateful and will be smiling like a fool the whole day. honestly, even a “omg i loved it” comment can make my day.

27. which fic ‘verse of your own would you most like to exist in? which fic’s characters would you most like to befriend?: the one i’m writing 100%, please i want to live in a fantasy world. i wanna live in the water kingdom and have faerie louis as my king please.

and i’d like to befriend louis from my fic kiss me in your chevrolet, he’s a sweetheart and i must protecc.

28. what do you always enjoy getting asks about/wish people would ask about more?: anything! i rarely get asks so anything is good hehe

29. what has writing added to your life? how has it changed you?: it’s such a big part of my life, i spent all my teenage years writing and it really is what built my personality. it helped me being more creative with all aspects of my life and take life lightly, enjoy little things and moments. 

30. why do you write?: i just love having ideas and putting out there, playing with words and finding new ways to describe daily things.

boost yourself + tags!

1a. share the last sentence you wrote:

The path through the dense forest, covered in slippery rocks and burning trees is already difficult enough, but it becomes ten times worse when you’re being pestered by small, demonic creatures. 

2a. describe the wip you’re most excited about:

i’m honestly only working on one fic right now and i’m super duper excited about it

3a. share the piece of dialogue from one of your works you’re most proud of:

"I mean, I still don't plan on watching Star Wars, so…" 

The boy groans playfully, throwing his head back and Louis' eyes are suddenly really interested in the column of the guy's throat. 

"Americans really have no culture." He shoulders Louis slightly, warmth spreading through Louis' dainty shoulder and making him trip to the side lightly. With a faux outraged scoff, Louis waves a dismissing hand. 

“What do British people know about culture? All you do is drink tea and talk about the weather all day,” Louis teases with a mischievous gleam in his eyes. “Also, Star Wars is American, just so you know.” He rolled his eyes playfully, feeling surprisingly comfortable in his presence.

Skater Boy sighs comically, shaking his head, his wavy locks falling gracefully on the sides of his face and Louis can’t stop thinking about how soft his hair must be. 

“You got me there.”

not posted but i kinda like it (i’m not really good with dialogues, so it was really hard to find one lmao)

4a. share the best first and last lines from your work(s): I will do only those that are already published:

best first lines are from a halloween fic i never finished: 

Louis’ blue eyes snap open. His heart pounds fast inside his rib cage, making something as easy as breathing almost impossible. Sweat drenches his body and he feels like drowning. He feels too awake and wary as his breathing calms down, as well as his grips on the sheets under him loosen.

best last lines are from my 2019 BLFF there’s more than one place to call home: 

Their life was utter chaos, and they were definitely complete opposites, and sometimes Harry wished Louis would just shut the hell up, but at the same time, Harry wouldn’t change a single thing about his life, because he had Louis, and that was all that mattered to him. 

5a. link the last fic you read: it was the devil's in the details by @raspberryoatss​

6a. link the last work you published: you could take a lick (but it’s too cold to bite me)

7a. link to your ao3 (if applicable): cinnamons

8a. someone that inspires you: louis hehe 

9a. a comfort fic/work that you’ve been grateful for this year: tbh i don’t read a lot of fics, but there’s this work a friend of mine wrote. it was in portuguese and she ended up deleting it but it’s amazing.

10a. other writers that you’d like to tag! @bottomlwt @raspberryoatss 

[kyunie]

about me tag!!

tagged by @burnitupmp3​ fank yew <3

name/nickname: alessandra / alex / aleks

gender: female

pronouns: she/her

age: 21

birthday: january 11th

star sign: capricorn

height: 5′3

time: 8:42 AM

favorite bands: monsta x, nct, day6, seventeen, exo, brockhampton, etc etc

favorite solo artists: wonho, baekhyun, kai, taemin, dean

song stuck in my head: take off - wayv

last movie: the call 

last show: mtopia, nct world 2.0, the queen’s gambit, strangers from hell

when i created my blog: this was my old personal blog in 2011 then i switched from my other tumblr kpop tumblr to this one hhhh

last song you listened to: betcha - baekhyun

last book you read: the wind-up bird chronicle - haruki murakami

last thing i googled: animal crossing villager tier list (lmfao)

other blogs: my personal that i don’t rly use but it’s @ssolitudes​

do i get asks: sometimes ? i’m bad at answering them tho hhh

why i chose my url: it’s so cute :( and it’s kyun’s nickname :( & matty was giving it away before she deactivated & i’m forever grateful to her for giving it to me <3

following: 161

followers: 2,459

average hours of sleep: hmm like 7-8?? idk lmao

lucky number(s): 11 & 17

instruments: piano & guitar

what im wearing: a t-shirt from my university and some shorts lmao 

dream trip: the way i was supposed to travel all over asia after i graduate but covid kinda ruined that </3 tho i wanna go back to japan and sk again

favorite food: literally anything. i will inhale most things but especially rice

favourite animal: dogs, cats

favourite ice cream flavour: strawberry, cookies & cream, ube 

nationality: i guess american now that i got my citizenship??? lulz

favorite song: as of rn... probably gasoline by mx 

top three fictional universes i’d like to live in: hell idk cowboy bebop would be kinda cool ubduahsduahsd or like legend of korra?? 

dream job: research professor !! 

tagging: @joosgf @wonhos-champurrado @joohuns @leejooheons @kyunsies i literally have no idea who’s done this and who hasn’t so if u see this and u wanna do it pls feel free ! <3