#forced heartbeat

[ceruleanbeats]

Listening to my heart and recording an ecg. Come listen 🫀

[daniclaytcn]

if buddie were to be trapped somewhere, eddie dying and buck strong enough to get himself out but not strong enough to also save eddie, do you think he would leave him behind? do you think he would leave eddie behind to die all by himself, just so one of them gets back home to chris? and do you think this is (partially) what eddie wanted to achieve with the will?

god, i don't think buck could ever bring himself to do that. i think if eddie knew that only one of them could get out, he would beg buck to leave him there, but buck would fight against it, because how could he leave eddie? how could he go on living if he had to leave eddie here to die? yes, he would survive for christopher's sake. but he wouldn't live. how dare eddie not give him the easy way out? how dare eddie force him to keep going without him there by his side?

(i do think what eddie wanted to achieve with his will, aside from the obvious—making sure christopher would be taken care of—was also ensuring that buck and chris would have each other. so they could be each other's lifeline. i think the way he told buck about this in the first place—as a manner of telling him that he's not expendable and that there are people who would love and miss him if he were gone—makes this pretty clear.)

[aho-dapa]

Just some rambles on The Stranger, and like, by no means am I saying I'm correct about my interpretation, I'm just exploring a different idea

*also, a personal note about death, grief, and parental abuse

Reading the Stranger rn and it's soooooo painfully idk obvious?? Or at least relatable that Meursault is autistic

Like, the book is from his pov but I honestly think his "lack" of emotion comes from his own nebulous understanding of them

He feels content while never saying it but acting it out, and he focuses on moments as if he's been struck by them but can't plainly state why

Tbh, idk, but being sentimental about it, Meursault (and how it's interpreted within him being an absurd character) kills for no reason.

Except there was, aside from the excuses of the knife or Meursault's mood. Its the sun. The sun that supposedly represents the meaninglessness of life and death as something inevitable but

Idk, I'd say to some extent, the sun is ambivalent to meaning, but that doesn't mean it doesn't help life grow or just as equally destroy it either

Rather, it's something that can't be moved by sentiment in this worldview and by extension, Meursault is blinded by the sun

Also just from a personal indulgence, I would say that Meursault's mother is the sun, and so is he too by some extent.

I've heard that people say the dog is his mother, but I also wonder if the dog is Meursault as well

"Why does Salamano treat his dog that way?"

And like, idk I think a lot of Meursault’s limited portrayal of emotion as he himself narrates it makes sense to me with the idea of it all connecting back to his mother

They are inseparable, the same, and they both meet their end

From the perspective of someone with not a great mother, this premise is relatable and maddening, it doesn't make sense, and like to be frank because I've been dancing around it because I feel like I'm projecting but,

With parental abuse and love, there is a sense of both chains and disattachment that honestly terrified me because it came from a place of 'this is how society expects you grieve' and I didn't, not in the way that's viewed as "acceptable" or "normal" either

Also, as someone who lost someone years ago, I didn't grieve by crying or being distraught for months because of it, I grieved by remembering and letting go

As a kid, I understood that my quiet was not what was expected, and kissing the cold forehead of someone I loved after they've died, I've resolved myself to never go to a funeral ever again

In some way, if Meursault’s mother was abusive, from the perspective of a child, these actions are absurd and don't make sense until kids try to either make a reason themselves or they are told

But also. Just coming from an autistic perspective, Meursault doing or not doing certain things at his mother’s funeral is categorized as him not caring for his mother (or at least enough) and like????? His actions have no relation really to his emotions

Idk, I just think I've read a lot of takes that Meursault is completely emotionless and that's like??? Idk, I don't agree at all

Also, I think Meursault's ambiguous relationships and nebulous emotions are the point tbh

(Which allows for literal interpretations like mine)

[evanostic]

can you guys reblog and put in the tags your episode rankings from best to least favorite i think that would be fun

[hes-sunshine-im-midnight-rain]

so far I'm in chapter 3 in WHB and this dude making me feel some type of way...

[gravitasmalfunction]

Cute dates ideas for him: serenade your beloved with your zither while wearing your nicest clothes, and your hair cascading sensually down your strong but elegant back

Cute date ideas for her: bribe the assassins into revealing their employer and assassinating the employer the same way they tried to assassinate your beloved. Also, get his zither repaired :(

[dairyfreenugget]

(Going insane boinkinh one AU in my head)

Hey hey hey

May I interest you in

(Slowly slides my FaaF AU towards you but void just Disappears without a trace one day before the accolade)

Teehee

[oh-meow-swirls]

it's kind of weird to me that they didn't bother releasing sushi and tempura internationally at all but at the same time i'm kinda glad they didn't cuz like. yo-kai watch was financially failing in the west by the time 3 released. i feel like if they had released sushi and tempura the franchise would've completely tanked before we got sukiyaki which would've sucked. honestly if anything i feel like it's more surprising that we got all three versions of 2 instead of them just releasing psychic specters but tbf i think yo-kai watch was doing well in the west when 2 released. 2 is just inexplicably what killed the franchise despite being a masterpiece-

[microwaving-tesilid-argente]

the thing about my genderbend AU being canon divergent is that a number of canon events get cut out altogether, and tesilette getting their rings is one of them.

but also that's not going to stop me from wanting to put the scrunklies in that scene anyway, so,

[ameliafuckinjones]

To be quite honest, I do not care for the c@rdverse or the FACE family trope. Why? Because it insists upon itself

[ceruleanbeats]

A very nice view 👀

[kaseysheart]

This may have impacted my heart rate. Fastest ride ever

FerrariLand,PortAventura World

[arklayraven]

Jokes aside about that moment of Solomon and MC from the latest lesson...I gotta be honest I hated how we were forced to pick a way to comfort him through physical touches only. Than just say "It'll be okay" or whatever.

I'm not surprised by this, since devs/writers are so determined from the beginning to force MC into a relationship with him. But still annoyed by it all...

[quietwingsinthesky]

Castiel seeing how terrified Dean is when he threatens to throw him back into Hell and getting extremely horny about it: Oh. I could make him do anything.

[wildsaltair]

I need to make it very clear that THIS is where I belong on this cold dreary rainy morning