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One thing that's really striking to me on my reread of David Copperfield is how Dora is arguably the most consciously humorous character in the book. David Copperfield is full of humor, generally. Most characters have at least some comic element to them, but Dora is very aware of her own, as much as she is her shortcomings. Dora is imaginative, creative, whimsical, and purposefully playful. The idea that people read this as vain frivolity is absurd to me.
#dora spenlow#diana rereads david copperfield#me forever and always the number one dora spenlow defender#i really do relate to her character in a lot of ways#she IS a silly thing so what??? she's funny! she's enjoying herself!#this isn't some sort of function of her lacking awareness of others. if anything it's an extension of it#she's always trying to be pleasant to the people around her and she uses humor as a distraction#for when she starts to feel insecure.#she is acutely aware of when she is disappointing people.#i also love that she's just a creative and impractical sort of soul. very very true bestie#i am exactly in your boat girl i will also be painting flowers and playing the guitar rather than housekeeping#she is not incapable of understanding other people's needs tho#idk im not being as eloquent in this as i thought i would be but i just really feel defensive about her#people do not understand her and i will never make enough posts about that subject in my life
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I went to a local yarn store for the first time, and while I was there, somebody was talking about getting a beginner's knitting kit, and she inquired about when lessons were, and when she was told that they'd be happy to sit down with her and teach her, she was so delighted. She talked about how excited she was and how much she wanted to learn to knit, and it just... it made me fall in love with humanity. It was this pure, unadulterated happiness coming from somebody and it was so genuine and kind, and I couldn't help but smile.
I guess all of this is to say... every moment, there are tiny little joys like this all over the world, and it makes this life worth living. I hope you witness and feel joy this simple, this pure.
#positivity#and she was older too! it made me really happy because it just reminds me that there is no such thing as 'too old'#you will never be too old to learn something - to feel that level of happiness and excitement#if i think about this too hard i'm going to start crying#and the yarn store has this really hip name and all the patrons there were older women and i thought that was cute and funny#i felt so odd being the only young person there though but i know that's just my own insecurity and not how they'd feel#i find older people absolutely LOVE when young people share their interests. i think old people get... used to feeling out of touch...#...and almost... neglected in a way by younger adults. it's hard to describe but i sense some loneliness in some old people y'know?#and when i share their interests... maybe it's like they feel young again - seen by somebody else?#that's my assumption anyway. but i like being around old people - they can absolutely be kind and gentle and i appreciate it
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myy biggest criticism of camila and one im shocked no one else talks about AT ALL is the fact she watches luz put the gift her DEAD FATHER GAVE HER into the trash after giving her the 'reality talk' and says NOTHING? doesn't even flinch? she instead SMILES and rewards her for going along with it.
like????? why is no one talking about this? it LITERALLY sets up the entire series?
#camila says NOTHING does NOTHING and feels NOTHING#even if luz wasnt whimsical anymore camila shouldve said 'hey keep that as a keepsake' or realized 'oh heyy im making her so insecure#that she's literally throwing awayy her most prized possession and the thing my husband gave her'#toh#i know theyy kinda retconned her in se 3 so people didnt hate her#butttttt#i do think criticism of her is more than justified#and dont even get me started on the manipulation she displays when luz goes through the mirror#when i saw that scene i was like 'oh damn ok tight luz wouldve been completely justified if she HAD run awayy intentionally'#and hot take even in se 3 i dont really forgive her bc once again (running theme for myy toh posting this morning) everything feels forced.
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She heard me doing things so she came up to the side of her baby bin and blelelelele'd at me until I noticed her. She greets me every morning where we spend the first hour of every day together, her just resting in my hand and me holding her, often gently petting her head and tiny scales. If there is a heaven, that first hour we spend together is it.
She is getting a larger enclosure for her birthday in a month and a half. :D Hopefully I can get it done in time, as I haven't sculpted a custom enclosure before and will be trying some new artistic critiques. I do have experience sculpting though. My biggest worry is the paints and sealing them properly! Art I can do- but food safe art that will be in a moist bioactive enclosure is new for me.
#From her enclosure camera#hognose#hognose snake#snake#pets#She is getting a bigger enclosure soon it is preordered and we need to wait#She greets me like this every morning#She ate yesterday and should be in a food coma!#You can even see her lump#So I gave her pets and told her I love her#From inside her enclosure the photo of her being held is from yesterday#She really enjoys pets#Especially after a big meal#I need to get a video of her asking for pets#She will pet herself with her chin#And when I stop sometimes she will pet herself with her chin asking for more!#And then I will pet her and she will relax looking like she is in heaven#Those posts saying “snakes cannot enjoy being pet and will only learn to tolerate it” are absolute BS outdated information#from people who are insecure that they are less valid as humans if animals are capable of feeling love and asking for affection#My snake will LITERALLY ASK TO BE PET#And she will pet me too!#I think she saw me petting her#Thought “This feels nice. Is this what we do for each other?”#And when we are snuggling she'll wiggle over to my arm or shoulder and start petting me. She doesn't pet me in any other places.#It is a lot of effort as she has no hands and has to use her chin#moving her whole upper body#So she'll only pet me maybe 20-10 times and take a rest#Does anyone else's snake pet them?#It is unusual but I think maybe she learned it from copying me and it makes her happy ^_^#What a wonderful world we live in where snakes enjoy being pet
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with all these gaston crackships/rarepairs that are coming out lately it would be so fucking funny if he had a flig with all the main characters (ambar, nina, simon... hell luna too if you want) and they all know it except matteo
#mf would feel so betrayed once he finds out#and not because he's jealous or anything - or maybe yes (they kinda have a vibe between them if you get what i mean)#mainly because his best friend didn't tell him#gaston would 100% use “you didn't ask” with a shit-eating grin while shrugging his shoulder#he would have the time of his life making fun of matteo reaction lol#and matteo would also lowkey be insecure (understandable because gaston was probably a better boyfriend for all those people [real])#[from here on i'm gonna yap but like... YAP - get ready]#type of flings/situationships/whatever i think he had:#LUNA/GASTON : [barely a fling/ a kinda relationship (?)] - them just trying it out for the hell of it#they had a lot of fun and it strengthened their friendship#they never talk about it unless they're sure that they're by themselves#gaston sometimes reminiscences about it in front of others(to make luna panic/embarass)but in such a vague enough way that they don't get i#it always comes off as them play-fighting#it either happened before he and nina got together (which is what i'm running with for this post) or they did it after she left#because they were the closest to her and were the only people that could understand what it meant to lose nina#(luna also dated her in the past by this point)#GASTON/NINA: [literally canon and one of the main ships] so i don't have to explain it i guess#GASTON/SIMON: [was a “they were all in their feelings” during those moments - kind of deal]#that scene i reposted the other day is a good way to pinpoint when they started to actually eye eachothers /put a start to what they had#it ended two or three months later - don't know who put an end to it between them#but it wasn't a problem because they both had something else they wanted to focus on more - they're extremely chill about this#GASTON/AMBAR: [kinda the same - got to know eachother when they were kids and became extremely close (even tho it took A BIT since#even if gaston came from a good family ambar was still as standoffish as now (and also a bit shy even if she wouldn't admit it)]#gaston was the one that did the first step#at that point ambar actually never stopped to think about dating in general but especially him#but the idea of losing him as a friend for something so stupid as a relationship terrified her#he reassured her that whatever happened nothing between them would've changed#which was real but also not really#they ended up breaking up a year and a half later and became a bit awkward around eachothers for a bit (mostly because of ambar)#they're still cordial with eachothers
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#i was an ugly kid (I struggled with cystic acne since i was 7). the other kids would call me a witch.#i took a drug to get it under control (and i still get acne in my late 20s...)#one of the weirdest experiences when my skin got better was that people didn't recognize me (superman effect is real)#this girl who was my friend started talking mad shit about me (the ugly kid); not knowing it was ME (she didn't know me back then).#i didn't tell her because i felt like shit about it#i am considered pretty but my face is very scarred around the temples and forehead. my first boyfriend made me feel like shit about it#he freaked out. he also tried to coerce me but i didn't care enough for him.#i think it's why i like monsters so much. i felt like one in my early life. and it's whiplash that people want to like me now.#i used to be very insecure about my scars. but my brother told me i looked like the boy from little monsters (the 80s movie)#it's a monster hiding under a child's stretched skin#and i liked that. feeling like an actual monster made me own it and feel better about it. lmao#and i also started liking that i have a witchy face#this was brought to you by a poll that made me think of my experiences with pretty privilege and ugliness#vent
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Nathaniel not being romanceable in Awakening means nothing to me (or to my Cousland for that matter). It doesn't mean he isn't romanceable at all. Awakening is just the beginning. It's the mutual pinning, the slow burn, the i met my childhood friend and now they are my enemy? They are learning. Learning to live with the tragedy of their families and their intertwined fate. Also learning about each other after such a long time spent apart. And they are casually ending darkspawn after darkspawn while doing so. Shamelessly ogling each other despite the gore. Honorable nobles to unhinged Wardens saving the world from the Blight. Childhood friends to brief enemies to unapologetically flirting colleagues. They will get together, but the narrative will end before they do.
#always thinking about him#also feeling feelings for my cousland nonstop#my gameplay with alistair was intense and i hc that is why the slow burn hit harder with nathaniel#i love unhardened alistair angst with him calling the relationship off telling cousland she can't even give him an heir#and immediately putting a baby in morrigan that night#she stayed a bestie regardless my little clown 😚✌️#kind of wanna start a series of adventures of my cousland#when i have free time next month#kinda feeling unsure and insecure to actually go for it#dragon age#dragon age awakening#nathaniel howe#cousland#nathaniel x warden#my da oc#murmurmur#me own#ignoring canon as i see fit bc i can ✨
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I never use this blog because the eddsworld fandom is genuinely the only fandom I've been completely fucking miserable trying to engage with. It's full of trans people and yet the community is SO hostile towards non-afab or non masc aligned in some way trans people. I've had people blatantly refused to respect my pronouns after saying they would. I've been misgendered in a server full of trans people where literally no one else was misgendered because there were pronoun roles. In that same server, while I was uplifting trans people making jokes about being proud of their bodies, they made fun of me for not having breasts. I've had multiple people debate my boundaries like it's a topic of discussion because I asked not to be called dude, a GENDERED TERM. I've had people gang up on me to the point of tears because I dared to describe my experiences being raised with an unconventional relationship to gender. I've been accused of holding grudges and being aggressive for even daring to speak up when I'm tired of being treated this way
And these events don't refer to a bunch of random assholes, they refer to people well known in the fandom. People I've seen on multiple servers. People whose names you say and it gets recognized
The eddsworld fandom has a HUGE transmisogyny problem and it needs to be discussed. The way I constantly feel unsafe when in a fandom surrounded by trans people is completely unacceptable
#I'm not a trans woman for the record. I'm genderless. but all of the transphobia ive experienced from the ew fandom#is directed from a hatred of trans women/people that dont have THEIR body or express themselves the same way THEY do#like the pronouns i asked to be called and were specifically told that people would start using them is she/her#and then they refused!#and this INCLUDES a friend of mine!#whose excuse was literally that it just didn't feel important#so yeah i dont use she/her pronouns now because i was already scared to and felt extremely vulnerable trying to do so#and every single trans person i asked to use those pronouns for me refused to. and it affirmed my fears and insecurities#and of course none of it is taken seriously when i bring it up!!!#im extremely against 'afab vs amab' bullshit but when a fandom has a huge problem of targeting a specific demographic of trans people#it needs to be addressed#also yes the slur in the url is reclaimed and no im not the original user with this url. i saw it on an old post and thought it was good#so i saved it. i dont even use this blog#eddsworld#transmisogyny#i have experienced transphobia in other fandoms and outside of them obviously#but mostly by cis people#or perhaps binary trans people that dont respect nonbinary people#and that's all been general transphobia#ONLY in the eddsworld fandom has it been targeted
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OKAY NOT DONE TALKING ABOUT THE LITTLE GARDEN ARC
ESPECIALLY THE NARRATIVE PARALLELS BETWEEN ZORO AND SANJI AND DORRY AND BROGGY??? THE FACT THAT THOSE PARALLELS PARTICULARLY IMPLY THAT THEY HAVE A SPECIAL BOND THAT WILL LAST LITERALLY FOREVER???
THE VISUAL WHERE THE AUDIENCE REALIZES THAT THE MOUNTAIN RANGES WERE SKULLS?? PAIRED WITH THEM LYING IN THE SAME POSITION AS ZORO AND SANJI'S TWO DINOSAURS LEFT BEHIND ON THE BEACH?
average tumblr user notices single instance of symbolism, more at 11.
but usopp getting more moments of bravery!!! WE STAN HIS ARC!!!!! I LOVE HIM!!!
zoro getting to laugh and tease people this arc was beautiful, i love that stupid cunty bitch
sanji getting his part of the arc done through cunty trespassing, lying through his teeth, and beating up animals? FANTASTIC THANK YOU FOR MY LIFE (specifically thank you for that twisting move he did with his heels around the vultures head. how does it feel to live MY. D R E A M)
LUFFY WAS SO SHAPED. I WOULD KILL FOR HIM. HE'S SO FERAL.
and calling it now, nami is absolutely going to get malaria girl is the QUEEN of "it's nothing [2 episodes later it is in fact a resonant Something with excruciating plot relevance and emotional stakes attached to it"
almost simped for crocodile but miss all sunday was Right There MA'AM. MA'AM. RESPECTFULLY AND ASEXUALLY, TILL THE BED FUCKING BREAKS--
also he has a giant gold pet which i don't fuck with. also his rings remind me of redd white from ace attorney who is Unfuckable as he is a murderer of a mentor figure (other forms of murder have not detered me from simping in the past. in fact it is typically a point in a character's favor)
also oh my god tumblr makes so much more sense now that i am attempting to use it while high, my fluency rate and understanding of how every person on this platform is distressingly and hilariously comfortable assuming their experience is universal
okay but the still of the giant's weapon shards thrown over their head in victory? makes me insane, will never be over it cannot fucking handle it will be crying forever and ever
#oli oscillates#one piece#one piece little garden#however one thing i will say also is i read a zosan fic wherein sanji asked zoro when zoro knew he loved him#and zoro answered 'little garden' which after seeing this arc i sense that that is BULLSHIT#i feel like that's probably when he started FALLING#as there is DEFINITELY a shift in how zoro talks to him in that reuniting scene. like the vibe of that was different#but zoro would not. realize that yet??? i genuinely don't think#like#like they have only been a consistent crew for arlong loguetown and the laboon arc?? (not counting apis as she's anime filler#and i skipped it)#i think this is when zoro would start QUESTIONING why he cares so much about who wins between him and sanji.#why he's so desperate to be relevant to him. why he has to give as good as he gets#and i think sanji respectfully#IS NOT THERE YET. his character from what i understand at this point in the show is.#well the POINT of his delivery is that he has three faces. how he treats women how he treats men. and how he treats someone he fights#(the last of which is implied to be the “truest” version of him--the iron core that makes him worthwhile as a Good Guy Deep Down tm)#and consequently a member of the strawhats)#i would love to see how future arcs handle the interaction of those three dynamics or a more unified sense of self for sanji#because much as i am down bad nasty for him there's this profound like. i almost want to say insecurity in him that makes him feel--#very wet cat traumatized. he gives me “unloved as an early child and therefore has a fucked up sense of self or love as concepts” vibes#it wouldn't surprise me if he didn't fall until much later than zoro#anyways#mutuals forgive me for holding you hostage in the tags accidentally i have had the goofy silly
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☎️🎲 🤼♂️ ✈️🚪 ➡️ 🫀🎮⌛️
The Promise by When In Rome
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#byler#stranger things#bizarre love triangle playlist#mike wheeler#mike's pov#this song has so much going on i don't even know where to start#'when you need a friend don't look to a stranger. you know in the end i'll always be there'#feels very reminiscent of mike's insecurity at the end of s3 about will finding another party aka new friends aka a new best friend#angela might not have been who mike thought she was but that insecurity that will moved on from the party (mike) is still present#mostly because mike still doesn't know about will's true life in lenora (probably too scared to find out will is happier outside of hawkins#and so he wants to make clear to will that he's always going to be there#'and when you're in doubt. and when you're in danger. take a look all around. and i'll be there'#pretty self explanatory.#'when your day is through. and so is your temper. you know what to do. i'm gonna always be there'#even if will breaks down (s3/s4) and tells mike everything that he's feeling and it backfires#mike is always going to try to make it right (minus s3 blatantly... for angsty endgame reasons...)#'i'm sorry but i'm just thinking of the right words to say. i know they don't sound the way i planned them to be'#mike may not be the best with words in the moment#but that doesn't mean what he's feeling and thinking is foreign to him#he's constantly battling his feelings and how to communicate them. like that's the whole problem in and of itself#sometimes (usually) when mike's put on the spot he lashes out and then he has to overcorrect it#but will is really the one that mike makes the effort right after wronging him to promise they will get through it together#he might not be able to fully realize (accept) the implications of that right now...#but what the promise is telling us is is that no matter what they go through#mike will always see will in his future at the end of all of this#the ending of s3 was the promise hidden in the subtext of their friendship and s4 continues that#'i promise you. i promise you i will'#'we will. we will.'#4x04#gif
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Kairi's unresponsiveness during the final battle in KH3 is so infuriating and so many of the excuses people make for it are utter crap to me... I don't think it should slide, but at least I can concede that she may have done nothing when Terranort attacked her because of her past with him, but not fighting back at all when Xemnas grabbed her? Bruh... literally all they did was say "we have Got to shove this girl in the fridge no matter what". Lea went through the same training as her and got his ass handed to him as well, but at least he had multiple things to fall back on when that failed (reuniting with Roxas and Xion, his whole deal with Isa). Kairi didn't even have that...........
#remember belle's reaction to xaldin in kh2... it's not even a matter of being too pure hearted or some other bs#they just needed her to be a helpless doll#and. like i said at least the terranort thing is excusable but everything else...#also. say whatever you want i will never Not think that it's a disgrace that it's always only girls who are put in the#''ohh i am and feel weak and insecure i'm not ready enough for this'' situation. talk to the wall#ESPECIALLY because. again. they literally went out of their way to make her as unresponsive as possible for Man Pain#so hers isn't even a matter of a simple subplot about overcoming insecurities or something... we are literally doing mysoginy 101...#and another thing. you expect me to believe that she couldn't shake off xemnas or even Try to when she was just fine fighting goatnort? 🫠🫠#''because sora was with her in that case <3'' i will kill you i Will. how could that be any good...#especially in light of what happens in MoM......#mytext#sorry. literally a plot crafted to infuriate me specifically...#when some of her stans are like ''why don't people care more about her. it must be because of SHIPS''......#because of ships stocazzo girl if i think about her for more than two seconds my veins start to pop because of how pissed i get#video games#kingdom hearts
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also the depth the interiority that idle rambly monologue of the dr's holds, the fact that his offhand thoughts just coalesce into this wonderfully stark image (the tardis, revered, the tardis, reviled, the tardis, the center of a city and then all alone again at the edge of a sea)
#dw spoilers#and god that devastated FACE he makes after he finally opens up to 'donna' only to realize it's not her! and how it evidently jars him#enough back into his old ways of Repression even when he really REALLY wants to properly talk about it with donna at the end#him testing the waters to see if she'll even know what he's talking about before clamping it back down!#god he's so much more open than ten that you can SEE it hurts him to -- in that one shaken moment -- not feel fully able to confide in her#a LOT of really interesting characterization beats in this ep for both the dr and donna! how different donna feels too as we've already#started noticing in the previous episode; where now she feels a sense of belonging and worth at home and is insistent on treasuring it#yet at the same time the not-donna gnawing at her old insecurities and even the dr -- the real dr! -- playing into them even inadvertently#(that she's replaceable. that she thinks she's stupid. that this lack of confidence and self worth is so characteristic of her it warrants#'that's very donna. that's _so_ donna!' even if it's mellowed out partially by 'SOMETIMES she thinks she's brilliant'. that she's not quite#allowed to be different from the donna of a 15 years ago having grown in her sense of worth? or at least. that the dr didn't recognize#her for long enough that he almost accidentally replaced her with a parrot of a copy.)#SORRY LOTS OF CHARACTER THOTS ON THIS 1#doctor who#donna noble#ten point two#i spy an original post
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god I know this is like The Wrong Stance on AI. I know its not about whether the art is Real and Human or If It Has A Soul and how a lot of the arguments against it are the same bullshit arguments people made against digital art like I Know. I Knowwww. but god, I'm really sorry, not to post like one of those annoying poetry bloggers I cant stand (yall are valid, live your truth, theres nothing wrong with what you post I'm just a petty bitch who hates poetry. unless I dont hate it.)
But theres just something about the way AI art will almost certainly never be able to mimic the exact way my pencil leaves an indentation in the paper, the way some of the lines I can never fully erase cause I pressed too hard, theyll have to at least train them to draw with a physical pencil first, and sure, they could train it to draw with a pencil and even erase the exact same piece I drew, line for line, on a piece of paper with a robot arm powered by AI, but they can't replicate. idk. the lineage of lefty bitches in my family, and the way I grew up going through school with my entire left arm silver with graphite, from doodling on my schoolwork. not yet anyway. but I guess I do live for the day we make the ai sentient enough that we can traumatize it by giving it homework after kneecapping its executive functions so it copes by drawing a big tiddy lobster monster. sure
#toy txt post#reblogs OFF i dont trust yall to be normal with this one i do NOT want it getting notes#i posted part of this before in a chat to a friend but im feeling it again. so#i havent drawn my big tiddy lobster bitch in awhile i should draw her again#also yea SORRY im sure this is The Wrong Feeling To Have About AI but also sometimes im a little grateful that i dont think my style is#smth a lot of the ppl coding ai to make art find to be worth trying to replicate except maybe as like a fake progress shot on a piece#which is smth i used to be really insecure about. how unfinished all my art looks bc it isnt to the point i cant fucking watch#like speedpaints and shit bc i just start feeling stupidly insecure about all the points in the video where I Would Have Stopped and been#like. im not touching it anymore i dont want to ruin it#and ive been insecure about my inability to really do digital art with like a stylus and shit like the way i do it with a pencil#and i know that is just me needing to Practice it but being too frustrated by it#anyway i know its just a Tool and its Fine and the problem is the art theft and the labor problems of it but liiiiiiike#i just.#im sure there will be unique things and usages of ai as a tool and i genuinely hope that ppl can figure out a way to make one that isnr#isnt* just full of stolen content bc theres unique fuckin shit about like digital art programs u can write stupid poetry that you hate#about it. or stupid poetry that i hate. cos im the poetry hater. listen. i cant stress this enough: its fine. youre fine. keep posting your#poetry and reblogging shit that speaks to you. im just a Bitch okay Ignore Me#i should go draw bokrae like. eating a computer about this#the real reason for that graphics card shortage was bokrae ate them all when she was in the mood for a crunchy snack
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Of course she feels that way about him ... he's her partner!
#I finally decided to make Sherry and Heathcliff in the Sims and they've been making me feel so warm and fuzzy ... I love them#they're so darn cute together--I only just started their household a couple hours ago and they've decided they're soulmates#also Heathcliff has the Jealous trait ... he gets insecure when he doesn't see Sherry for a long time ...#meanwhile I gave Sherry the Loyal trait because that's just how she is--she'd never abandon him#I probably won't post about this too much so I don't think I'll have a specific tag for it ... but I am imagining this happens in the--#--universe where Sherry retires to a beach house (like her counterpart) and Heathcliff just ... goes with her#so I'll be designing a little retirement home for them ...#otp: the adventure of wuthering heights ⛈️🔍#r: remind my heart to beat 💢#si: to a great mind‚ nothing is little 🤎#scattered pages
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i think maybe it's not such a good thing that i've just totally shut myself off from the idea of dating at all because i thought it wasn't my thing. like maybe i should just be trying
#it would be one thing if i was older but i'm literally 22. like i'm a baby. idk#i still have no desire to date or be in a relationship or hook up or anything but i think the day i realized this i just#completely decided i was never gonna try and. it just hasn't been on my mind in a while#and the only reason it is now is bc i met up with a friend i haven't seen in a while and was explaining this whole thing to her#and she was like i know you're saying it isn't what you want but you don't sound content. you sound like you're sad#like i think it's different from when i was younger where i was really insecure and pressuring myself because i felt like#it was what i was supposed to do and i was missing out on time or whatever. i don't feel like that anymore#but i also feel like to make it easier for myself i just decided if i didn't wanna be with anyone i shouldn't even entertain the idea#and i mean i still have no idea if i'm aroace or not but i don't think that should stop me from trying to have fun with dating altogether#i wish i had some semblance of an idea of what i wanted bc this would all be so much easier BUT i think the big thing making it harder#has always been the pressure to do things a certain way. and i don't really feel that anymore so yeah i think i might start trying. maybe.#shut up hanna
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im very sorry for this. but im thinking abt how he mirrors madi as well
#like. in 3.06(? i think) when he talks abt ''i cannot look weak i cannot feel weak i cannot be weak not in front of the men not ever''#and like. with a fuller understanding of him as a guy We can read that as symptoms disorder#but madi mainly recognizes her own experiences as a young leader and goes ''i get that. i can help you with that.''#like she does see his vulnerability as well but i dont think she quite recognizes how dire the underlying insecurity is#so she talks abt the crown being a burden and it Is real it Is helpful there Is genuine self-recognition through the other here. but still.#but then hes talking about flint and then theyre underway to nassau for revolution stuff#and so he can latch onto how she saw him (how she saw herself in him) and shes willing to let his past lie (like she lets her mothers)#and so then when he starts wavering in that role#once he starts asking her if he as he is without the war (flints war. her war.) would be enough for her.#. he already knows he wouldnt.#well. Anyway#bs
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