#for the 2nd chapter i only wrote it in 3rd person tho

[helianthus21]

AO3 and tumblr are being a pain for me today but anyway, here's the link to Nothing Matters, third person POV version + a small follow-up chapter:3

[podraje]

It's my 26th birthday today 🥹 bye, bye nice paycheck, hello paying taxes 😔

Since my birthday used to be a very depressing day for me ever since I turned 20, and it's not any more (the growth, hello?), I want to make a post summarizing the 25th year of my life.

Positive things that happened in my 25th year of life:

I got a stable job. A nice one. Close to what I studied in Uni, so I might say, that I'm almost working in my profession. But most importantly the workplace is nice, the people are very human, the paycheck is (or at least was, gonna see if I get equalization [?]) pretty good.

Reffering to getting that job - I've learnt so much this year! Also, I had the opportunity to travel to some places I've never been to before. Very nice.

I've read 26 (or 27?) books since last November. That's a nice upgrade, since I used to only read, like 10 books a year.

I didn't give up on writing, even tho I had a very hard time this year. I figured out some stuff around structure. I totally scrapped the 3rd chapter, since I won't be doing this person pov (and for the longest time I thought I would). I re-wrote the entire 1st and 2nd chapter.

I got excited about my story again! Or I think I did.

I got my boyfriend to go on a trip with me! Juhu. (He very much likes to spend time at home, and I really want to see stuff around the world. Don't get me wrong, I love being cozy at home, and I'm not some sort of big traveler, but there are some places that I want to see, and some experiences that I want to have. Also, until the end of last year, we both were struggling with jobs = with money, and weren't able to do much of traveling or doing cool things. So the thing I'm most proud of this year, is that we both got decent jobs, with normal contracts of employment! 💚He recently had his 1st year anniversary. I have yet to get to that point, as for today I have been working at my job for 9 months).

What I want to do / accomplish in my 26th year of life:

• I want to buy a car 🚗 and have more summer trips (or any, tbh) around the area.

- By next November, I want to be at least close to finishing up my first draft (God help me, cause I cannot see this insecure, lazy and full of imposter syndrome ass, doing it without some divine help).

- I wanna keep my job 👍🏻(no really, we are having a tough time [or at least I am] and I'm constantly anxious and scared. I don't want to get fired. My anxiety is so high, last time I felt this bad and stressed was 2021. We are planning an event rn, and I've never done it before and things are not going as smoothly, as I thought they would. So I'm pissing myself. After the event is done, it'll be alright again).

• Travel to one of the places from my list with my bf. We really didn't get a chance to travel together in those years we've been together. I think it's time (granted we both are in stable financial situation).

• Read some more. And read books that make me feel smarter.

And I think that's it.

[thedarkmistress16]

Favorite fic you've written? What would you recommend someone first reads of your work for the best first impression?

good q! ...Do I have to choose one? lol

I think my favorite is a very old, dark aph idea I had that I still think about sometimes, and I mean that in a way where I can clearly visualize what I was going for at the time today, as if the idea was always living in my brain without realizing it. I think I'm attached to how I set the tone in the way I wrote the description of events and just the concept of the character dynamic in general. I never finished it and it was never published, but I feel like if I sit myself down, I can complete it and improve upon the elements I was trying to go for, since I remember exactly how I want to write the progression of events after reading through what I have.

I would have to recommend one of my fanfictions since that's basically the majority of my writing still, even ones unposted XD. I would actually recc. my YouTuber one-shot series, specifically for fans of the channels mentioned, because despite the older and shoddy writing style, I still find it to be an enjoyable read for a 2015 fan (like a piece of history). Plus, I've been told I write their personalities accurately/in a believable way so there's that. 👍

And if that recc. was too old or not part of your YouTube watch experience, then I would suggest reading any one of my yan!rpf headcanons, as crazy as that sounds. It's one of the more recently-posted writing projects that entails a lot of my writing habits into digestible bullet points for a, what I've gathered, a niche idea for an AU:

injecting some comedy (plays on words relating to the actor's body of works) which implies some research on the subject for inspiration

exhaustive details on how the character would react to the darling's potential actions (choice inclusivity for the reader's theoretical, multiple routes)

how becoming a yandere would affect their personalities and actions (to murder or threaten? composure or rage?)

outlining a general plot from point A to B (start of obsession to relationship developments to "snapping" and eventual kidnapping to their ideal outcomes)

and how I write in the 3rd limited and omni/2nd POV.

And on top of that, for those who've read more than one hc, you can compare how different the characters as yans are from each other in levels of intensity, their moral lines (some don't kill and others are forceful), and how they are best subdued by their darling. And I think for a good first impression of what I tend to write, as dark shit is my jam and this formatting/length is more my style than a long, chaptered fic (I am trying to branch out into it, tho).

Actually! Since we're on the subject of ✨moi's writing,✨ may I kindly suggest this one aph fic I planned on extending from the silly idea I had sitting there years ago only to completely write an entirely different plotline from the ground up and add in a bunch of unnecessary details? 👀

[adhdvane]

i have so much angel halo fodder to farm but its magna fes so now is the best time to do it anyways i’m gunna try and 5* eahta today/tomorrow/at least before 25th is a reasonable goal. i need to max 11 more silver relics so 11 lazuline vessels for that + it takes 745990 exp (approximately ~25 lazuline vessels) to go from lv 1 to 150 (but I might be able to do it in less with journey drop boosts when using them since it seems to say that journey drop boosts and such only have no effect on the exp gain when putting weapons into the reserve and not the act of using the vessel on a item and vessels are also special considering unlike other exp upgrader items they can have a chance of grand success and its double jour drops right now so might as well) then other than that all i need are 6 more silver centrums, 4 of which i can get from just hosting the raid twice today (if i somehow get blessed i can get all six if i can get them to drop from the share chest both times) (otherwise getting 8 more heavenly horns from just joining raids to get 10 to trade for the other 2 centrums will be easy) (i have the two peacemaker stars for the two hosts) (i then proceeded to ramble too long so the rest is under the cut. ii keep writing shit out tat’s too long and then just deleting everything and never posing my rambling anymore but like fuck it at this point im keeping this)

and that’s it, i already did the awakening step on all 10 katanas yesterday which was the most painful step bc need 500 white dragon scales will always be the worst step in my opinions, which is why i spent yesterday getting to like 438 yesterday using the campaign exclusive quest (bc the drop rate for scales on that quest is surprisingly amazing considering the low ap cost even after you’ve done it 30 times) (but i ended up quitting 438 and then proceeded to buy the remaining 62 with cerulean stone bc i have a bunch still and tbh the only thing worth spending cerulean stones on are white dragon scales or shit like translucent silk, broken teacup, coverging rays, etc bc the drop rate for those is stupid, and i guess technically i’m going to need those 50 jumbo best bones when i get to the 5* part of death, but i still have more than enough stones if i wanted to buy all 50 of those drops and i’ll defiantly be getting even more after the roulette starts so i’m not even concerned, bc yeah i got the sunlight stone now for death but i’m still pretty damn far from deal w/death, though maybe not as far as i think if i just remember to host my go and primarch raids for a couple days, wow yeah actually im stupidly closer than i thought bc im only 12 celus fragments from all 30 i need, the only annoying issue in the last step is going to be taking the time to farm the 10 primeval horns bc sometimes they don’t drop when you join proto hl, i know its guaranteed from share i’m just always weary about hosting that raid since it is 18-man elixir limited and i can’t solo it, and have had a time in the past were i was only joined by people leaching and it sucks when only you and like 1 other person contribute. so i always feel better join one bc i can make a decent contribution (and even like sort of mvp race or usually more vice mvp race for like 2nd or 3rd) (okay one time i joined a proto baha hl raid that was between like 70~60% bc it was on earth and 8 ppl already, and upon joining discovered like most of them had jumped ship, and the log was dead and was like well fuck, but started raiding anyways, and trying to send back up requests anyways, ended up getting some momentum, painfully got it always through to 50% dark by my self (kind of annoyed i took my light grid with my spheric harp bc i thought it was going to be an instance were it would get to 50% super fast so the off element wouldn’t matter and not that everyone but host had retreated) and then like around ~45% another person finally joined and me and this one other person destroyed the rest of the boss in like a minute, that was one of like 4 or 5 times i’ve mvp’d proto baha hl upon joining. tbh i kinda wish i knew what the host was doing, like if they were sitting there watching, was afk, or had like left the raid page to do other things. like if they were just hoping someone would come in and beat it for them, or had sorta given up but didnt want to fully end the raid just incase, look okay i just felt fucking good thinking i helped out a lower rank player get through a hl raid that they were abandoned on by several other players who appeared to have either not being strong enough, or joined saw the damage and jumped ship bc it looked like it was going to fail. though if i remember correctly the time limit was pretty far gone so that’s probably also why no one was joining, i was just a dumb fuck who didn’t look at the time before i joined, then realized, and then just fucking felt bad and was like well fuck it lets see how far i can go by myself bc clearly everyone else is dead and i don’t have anything to lose and im not stoping anyone else from potentially saving this bc there’s still like 7 slots open that anyone can join at any time...) anyways the last thing i wanted to say was i remember i was like a little peeved when they announced everyone who finished chapter 4.5 in the demon slayer collab would get kengo for free bc FARMING FOR KENGO AROUND THE TIME IT CAME OUT HURT BC I HADN’T BEEN HL FOR VERY LONG SO IT TOOK A LOT OF EFFORT, esp like bc extra II class suck worse than row iv bc you have to make the ccw element change for every goddamn class. but i was glad they compensated us with materials and i was mostly just glad for the extra silver centrums and steel brick (even tho i just realized i have fucking 50 steel bricks where the fuck did those come from like i don’t remember having so many), but i remember thinking to myself like oh wow thank 40 samurai distinctions, thats so useful, wow, what am i going to do make another murakumo and unsigned kaneshige?? i think im good. guess those will sit there forever... and then a couple days ago when i started thinking about finishing eahta up since i literally finished farming the demon slayer event the day after the second half was unlocked (when u can just auto extreme+ with ur fire team u don’t have to do shit, i got all the items i wanted and after than even played to get the 200 battle trophy for the heck of it. i only wanted the tickets, ring, dama crystals, steel, summon unlock mats just ‘cause those spellbooks, skill jewels, the fire urns bc i know they’re farmable but they’re annoying and i am low on fire urns, and then i was like i guess the summon since it’s a 1 copy only thing and can’t be reduced even though i’ll literally never use it bc i have gabriel and gabriel has a sub aura, i guess maybe it could be potentially useful for prometheus solo’ing because of the 1 turn debuff resistance, but the times i did solo prometheus i never had problems running out of veils or clears and tbh garnet carbuncle has a shorter cooldown and again i’ve got lily and gabriel already (and 5* lucifer now) so like i’d much rather have my four summon slots for that be gabe, moon ssr, luci, garnet carbuncle. (heck i don’t even take extra damage cuts for the wilnas trial vane, lily, gabriel, and 5* feower’s gravity and delaying the everloving shit out of wilnas is enough for me, though i’ve never done the raid so maybe it would be helpful there.) anyways then i just spend the rest of the event drops on half elixers, and back to what i was saying i was thinking about finishing eahta and looking at all the mats i need and then remember oh yeah i need 30 class distinctions don’t i? which ones do i need for eahta??? oH THAT��S RIGHT. SAMURAI DISTINCTIONS. so that fuckin worked out perfect (not that i don’t have the pendents to just buy them anyways). anyways im going to shut up now and probably never re-read any of this ramble i wrote ever again bc adhd brain be like no read only write

[nightwhite13]

oh i've not gotten my attunement yet, but yours sounds cool! it looks like you've played way more stories than I have, so i appreciate your advice! one other question, please: would you say becca is your fave female RO? Not played the freshman yet. i'm trying to find a series where there's more balance of the guys with the gals--or at least a fem option that is given a decent amount of scenes, so it holds my attention better, lol. thanks for ur help and time. i wish u well.

okay, sorry it took me this long cause i need to answers this on my laptop. And there is time when I was jobless so the only thing that keeping me going is choices, like no kiddin the first thing i did when i woke up is to play the game

you’ll get your attunement on 2nd chapter, and the explanation about the attunement on 3rd chapter and honestly i felt so attack because it was true.

If you want a balance LIs, i recommended two books, Perfect Match and The Heist: Monaco.

Technically Perfect Match have 2;2 ration on both genders of the LIs, and the main Li, Hayden Young is gender-costume, and another character is kinda gray, meaning in a sense he is a LI but at the same time, he’s not. That’s all i can say

While in THM you can have more female LIs than the male. There are 2 default female Lis and 1 male LI. By default it means they will show up in the story no matter what.  1 for both male and female LIs are optional, meaning you can pick one of them as part of your team. And the other 2 both for male and female, im not so sure if you can romance them.

ALSO MY FAVE RO??? ANON THAT IS A HARD QUESTION!!! No, I’m joking, although I love Becca so much, but my perfect wife is none other than Hayden Young from Perfect Match. even tho you didnt ask me, but im just gonna tell you my others fave Lis, lol sorry i just want to gush over my wives

Hayden Young are hands down the best LI ever written in this app, hell even if you didn’t romance them, they are still one of the best character ever written. I want to personally thank whoever wrote Hayden Young. Also my faceclaim for white Hayden Young is mackenzie davis, so everytime I read her part I was more in love with her because of Mackenzie’s voice, like damn son

And the most amazing thing about Hayden, they have their own personalities which you can get by answering the questions at the beginning. And if i remember correctly, there’s like 16 types of Hayden. Mine is Artistic. And man, I really, really, really in love with this idiot charmer

Becca is my number 2, I was shocked as well because the freshman series was a big mess. word of advice, if you want to play this series, just begin from book 2, seriously, you’re not missing anything if you didn’t play book one. you wanna know the story? watch it on youtubebecause this book is one of the earliest book, so ho boi, the male LIs are fucking annoying and they keep forcing us with them. seriously, book 1 is soooo not worth it. My fave were the sophomore book, i mean yah that books are garbage but at least WE CAN HAVE A SECRET RELATIONSHIP WITH OUR ENEMY OF THREE BOOKS THAT IS NONE OTHER THIS QUEEN BITCH

I love her so much because we can see her character growth and i feel so proud of her progress and how she made MC so happy and everything in between

Next is the vampire queen Miss Kamilah Sayeed from Bloodbound. Man, I can’t believe I had a vampire phase at this age, lol. It was a shame because she didnt gets much screentime so we don’t know much about her while shes one of the most interesting characters in choices universe. I love her deadpan jokes so much. like pls miss sayeed, suck me dry

next is miss parsons from desire and decorum. like pls pb i just want to marry her or enjoy our life as a forever roommate or whatever it is. i am so soft for her

and the last is Jen from American’s Most Eligible: Season 10 and All Stars. At this point, i dont give a damn about the reality show anymore and i just want to smooch jen in every chance i get

Lol, im so sorry i took time to answer this and basically just gushing about my faves. hope this helps anon