#for that. i guess

[lautity]

they are so intertwined.....no one will ever understand them. not even each other. ESPECIALLY not each other......worst luck Ever to fall in love with a girl who is your direct opposite but also the exact same person......and you can never truly love her the way you want or think she deserves but also it is irrelevant what you think because she looks at you like you're her whole world and You Are. and she is yours. and even if you know it is slowly killing you both she will always be there. even when she's not. the absence of something is also its presence. and one night she's sitting on your windowsill smoking and looking out at the streets and you teasingly say "you know that'll kill you" and she looks back at you and says "so will this, though. so will you" but there's no trace of anger or any indication that she wants it any other way.

i didn't say their name but you thought about them didn't you

they sicken me. the thing killing you is also the only thing keeping you alive in a sort of twisted mutual parasitism. i keep thinking about how they feed into each other's worst traits...... steph is an endless void to be filled with attention and lex is kind of drunk on the feeling of being needed + in control. i need them both dead

okay i got extremely off topic just talking about why they're even together. sorry

lex cant stand most people, because most people are painfully stupid. initially, lex likes her because she's cynical. she isn't an idiot, she doesn't sugar-coat shit, she's anti-authority to a fault. lex was basically born an anarchist, obviously she thinks its hot based when the mayor's daughter commits crimes.

steph thinks they're cool. they live in the grunge-punk scene she's always yearned for (from the comfort of her 4-bedroom home). they play music and smoke weed and don't care what anyone thinks. steph cares too much, all the time, so this is quite impressive.

and getting attention from lex is like drawing blood from a stone. it's so rare and so valuable and steph is very quickly hooked on it. half-smiles and smirks and shotgun kisses and their approval after a smooth shoplifting run. it makes her feel special.

i think steph's. consistency? devotion? is a big appeal for lex. she's just there, all the time, she's down to go anywhere or do anything lex wants, just to be around her. nobody has ever been there for her. and steph doesn't leave when things get hard, despite her background. lex appreciates the commitment, even if she thinks it's stupid. she doesn't know what she's done to deserve it. a Lot of people have failed them. like. basically everyone they've ever met. but they know steph is unconditionally reliable*. maybe lex even feels a little safe around her. maybe. i think this trust persists after they break up (and get back together, and break up, ad nauseam), because steph is truly incapable of moving on from anyone, ever. steph won't let her die. steph will bail her out, steph will protect her, steph will find her next hit, steph will drag her out of hell over and over. the love of a dog for her master is notorious, even in the agony of death. * unconditionally reliable... for lex. your mileage may vary.

i Do think they have to sort of confront how toxic this is, after a major fight. probably a physical fight. probably a physical fight that awakens some feelings about violence. conveniently, they have found a fantastic outlet for all this frustration lex has. it sates steph's desire to be useful and to constantly be giving (because it doesn't feel like love if she isn't tearing herself to pieces). the worse lex treats her, the clingier she gets. it's fascinating.

sigh. sorry. i am actually insane about the levels of fucked up they could achieve though. intentionally triggering your partner.... steph has been known to goad lex to anger (because it's hot). lex may have once or twice accidentally-on-purpose caused steph to split, just. to see. things they're both aware of but not discussing. an open secret. because neither of them really mind. even though it hurts

[goldensunset]

[unpeeled-human]

special defense

does this count as anything ???is this art

[robyn-i-guess]

liking someone platonically is so embarrassing like. yeah i admire you. yeah i think about you all the time. yeah i look forward to every time i see you even if it's only for a minute. yeah it's all platonic and yeah i couldn't explain this because it'd sound romantic. fucking hell

[puppyeared]

filipina miku!! my mom helped me with her outfit ^_^

[thisisalovestry]

file -> phrases that are going to shift something in me forever

[knockknockwhosthereartistism]

I was inspired

[daisyofwaterdeep]

had a dream I went to a hozier concert and mr. hozier stopped singing and pointed to me in the crowd and asked me to go get him some extra crispy tofu and a blueberry shake for after the show and then the crowd passed his debit card to me and when I got it I could see his real legal name was Horace Bob-omb

[cabalt]

Getting a bit sick of all the "ooh I'm so glad Laios has a soft body!" "Laios is built like an average guy" style posts. Because he doesn't and isn't.

Laios is built like a fucking professional wrestler. He isn't like, super chiseled or anything but he does not have an "average" body, he his built like someone who does a LOT of physical effort and training.

[bookwyrminspiration]

I can behave normally around books

[chechula]

Birthday gift for my dear friend who loves vampires♥ . The whole thing was made in three days, I had too much fun drawing it! I created the cover drawing in the car on the way to the birthday party. So I had no time to scan it :D Well, if you enjoy reading it let me know and I will try to post more (I am making comics for my friend regularly, I am just too ashamed to translate and upload these silly things online x_x ) _____________________________________ Patreon Commissions

[kenapiece-main]

Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

[goldensunset]

you! tumblr user!

[badasserywomen]

Congrats to caitvi

[podcastwizard]

you know that post that's like "if thinking naruto would be proud of you for brushing your teeth gets you to brush your teeth go for it" well today i texted my friends and asked them to pretend to be wizards sending me on a grand quest to eat lunch and buy hand soap and it worked so well i put a load of laundry in and did the dishes too so. i don't know what the lesson is here but maybe give that a try