#for some reason that's really getting to me rn

[itadooori]

quick ali doodle

[kurgy]

hi, im sorry for remaking this post i need to for several reasons at this point, and its a little longer than usual, sorry. but with the social security cuts/mass firings, payment schedules becoming inconsistent right before my eyes, and my tax rebate is still in limbo, im really really not doing well financially, and my additional income options have greatly dwindled, and i genuinely just dont know what else to do anymore, im at a loss

once i finish my remaining comms, i regrettably cannot take on more due to serious health complications. i have always had some health problems and developed a kind of chronic gi issue in my teens that manifested as frequent stomach and abdomen pain/discomfort, acid reflux, stomach ulcers, some other gi issues, and a near constant feeling of intense nausea, which 90% the time forces me onto my bathroom floor for a while, close enough to make it to the toilet when i need to hurl again, which i do on/off every day for at least and hour, multiple times. after a decade of this, it has wrecked my digestive system and practically ruined my teeth, and most recently i suffered what i thought was a flare up that has now lasted well over week, and has since become my new normal, which is seriously fucking me up and impeding my ability to just live so much worse than it ever has before.

my ability to work, do chores, leave my apartment, draw or write or read for leisure, move furniture i was supposed to move weeks ago, or do any patreon work has come to a screeching halt. and every time now i have tried to just draw through it i start to feel seriously disoriented and sick, its not even a lack of focus, its sort of like brain fog. to the point my sight is just blurs and blobs and im confused and have to try and force myself to refocus only to see all the absolute nonsense random lines i was aimlessly makin on the canvas and then running to the batbroom nauseous as hell again.

so im just...overall very worried about finances rn as grocery prices get worse and the federal government that controls my paychecks is gutted with now noticeable effects. i weirdly havent gotten my paycheck yet, and my next $48 bill comes out in a few days. genuinely have no idea what is happening with my check. but i honestly am scared. severe health problems, elon musk trying to end social security payments, upcoming bills, either being bedridden in agony or slumped against the bathroom wall in agony, both keeping me from working, and then my check skipping pay day and no word yet on my rebate, im just really freaked out on how to pull this togther to pay bills, cover rent, and get my dogs food on top of renewing my support letters (not cheap) knowing so little

i dont know, any help would mean the world to me rn, i feel like the world is falling apart. id like to pay my last bill for the month, and i deeply, seriously appreciate any and all help as a disabled person in poverty

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[cressidagrey]

(This is so long I’m so sorry) I was the pls don’t explode anon but OH MY GOD THE NEW CHAPTER ????? BELLE WITH HER BOMBSHELL DROP AND A HALF ????? THEYLL ALWAYS COME BACK HELLO ?????? MAX “my wife wants to see her horse” VERSTAPPEN ?????? Oh im ill rn w love for them my god. I hope that whole family is sick to fucking death rn I’m so serious.

The only one I have mild sympathy for is Arthur just because like, I can understand from a younger sibling perspective like the guilt of knowing you should’ve said something but at the same time being just as young as them or younger. I however am gonna box pascal because WHY ARE YOU LYINGGGGGG LIKE YOU COULDNT EVEN TRY TO MAKE IT LESS OBVIOUS ??? I hate her so bad.

And the way Charles reacted in the restaurant ?? Holy shit dude get OVER YOURSELF 😭😭😭 Like fawkkkkk the whole point is it’s not about the damn horse it’s the fact you couldn’t even be assed to learn about your sister, like all of you failed her because you literally just assumed it didn’t matter anymore and she’d move beyond it, like no all you did was make her feel like her wants, dreams, and aspirations were useless and minuscule no wonder she didn’t care anymore. You took her one true love away, made it about yourself, then basically spit in her face since you just didn’t care. Like they literally stripped her bare of what made her, her. Especially to lose something that’s your entire world at such a young age is devastating and something that was living, breathing, tangible ? That’s so tragic, like I get loosing racing sucks but something that’s alive ? That loves you ? I can’t even imagine the guilt she felt over it even though it’s not her fault because she probably assumed that Blanche felt like she was abandoned by somebody who loved her and that’s just awful.

God I want to bomb their house, like the wrongful assumptions about her character ??? It just feels like they’re finding any reason to berate her and pick apart her choices because then to them it gives them some type of morale standing and ground they can have since they had the rug pulled under them. This whole chapter reminds me of the one song “you’re just thinking it’s a small thing that happened, the world ended when it happened to me” because genuinely her whole world shattered when she lost that horse and her entire family either didn’t care or want to know. Like it feels like they’re have this deep need to be this picture perfect family but that’s not how they’re supposed to be and since belle can’t be that ideal perfect sister and daughter they just started to shape her to be the mold they wanted and not who she really is.

I have soooooooo many thoughts but I love max down badddddddd rn like defend ur wife fuck yeah !!! I literally love how you write your scenes out and how you show belles grief, like genuinely. The fact that she’s at a place where she can share something she held so much anguish over is so nice to see and I love watching her work through everything on her own terms, like I don’t think we ever fully get over our grief, we just learn to hold it differently over time and I’m glad she’s finding her footing in that. Healing isn’t linear like I had said and grief loves to find us in the street on a sunny day but I’m glad she’s figuring it out. Seriously I love your writing though i want to it, it literally swung a bat into my ribs and made a home there in its wake, I love u pls never explode 💘💘💘💐💐💐

THIS. MESSAGE. 🥹 First: never apologize for sending long thoughts — this was beautiful and you captured Belle’s whole arc so perfectly it gave me chills. Seriously, you put so much heart into this that I’m honored you trust me with your emotions like this.

You're so spot-on:

It was never just about the horse. It was about how little her dreams mattered to the people who should have protected them most.

Arthur does deserve a sliver of sympathy — he was young too — but Pascale? Oh no. Full boxing match energy.

Charles can't stand realizing he hurt her so deeply because it would mean he has to actually change — and that’s harder than pretending she's the one being difficult.

You understood it perfectly: Belle’s family didn’t just ignore her. They rewrote her into a version that was easier for them to live with. And that devastation — of being forgotten while you’re still right there — it leaves scars that don't just fade away.

Also... Max being her safe place? "My wife wants to see her horse" MAX VERSTAPPEN?? You get it. 🥹

And you said this so perfectly:

We never fully get over our grief, we just learn to hold it differently over time.

I’m tucking that into my soul forever, thank you. 💛

[tamtaco]

With the spring salutations update now being out I would like to talk about a theory I’ve had for a bit! (Okay it’s not really a theory, more like something I’ve noticed)

Genuinely I don’t think people have noticed this, or just not bothered to say anything but like, from the 3 updates we’ve gotten Sally has always been the ‘indirect’ reason for someone to have what I believe is a breakdown

In Eddies case it’s more noticeable, Sally is the one that tells Eddie that “they” thought that he should have a day off, and is also gets him to go to the home-warming party with her. And it’s at the home-warming party that Eddie has his panic attack

“Oh my dear Poppy! I’ve been so ignorant to her needs!I must do something to rectify my mistake!So that she knows that we are all mindful of her fearful disposition! But… What if she hears the play from her barn? Or worse-What if she sees it?”

In Poppys case, Sally is the one that mentions how horrible it would be for Poppy if she sees the play she’s hosting after finding out that poppy is scared of leaving her house. Which leads them to cover up Poppys window (door?)

In Julie’s case it’s harder to notice, but it’s still there. In the storybook “spring salutations” the narrator sounds just like Sally without her sass and use of “big words”

In the book as we all know, Julie wakes up early because of the narrator repeating Julie’s name louder and louder. And In cause is the reason to why the entire book happened.

In the video recording we got of Julie, we see that she is trying her best to make this black flower bloom, and with some quick searching on the internet the fandom found out that it’s most likely a black tulip. The black tulip is a tulip that only grows in the winter. Julie was not supposed to even see that flower because she was supposed to wake up in spring, but because she was woken up earlier, she saw the flower and tried to make it bloom. And because it blooms in winter, a time were she is supposed to be hibernating, the flower didnt bloom and when that happens Julie starts to freak out.

Let’s look over that again okay? Julie freaks out because she couldn’t get the flower that blooms in winter, to bloom in spring, because she was woken up earlier by the narrator, the narrator that sounds just like Sally.

(I’m going to be so fr right but this doesn’t feel that far fetched, like just go and quickly check it out rn and tell me that’s not Sally talking like how a normal person would)

But my question is why? Why is Sally so often the reason for things to happen? Does she even know what she’s doing? I mean, we know she’s a performer so maybe she’s aware of us and wants to put on a show for us? Is she under Home’s control or is she doing this just because she can? Because this is the best entertainment for an extraterrestrial being that might have lived for thousands of years? I have no idea, but I felt the need to share my findings.

[furiousflowerdestiny]

Hey, why are you so filled with hate and annoyance at everything? Genuine question

I decided to take a look at your blog, thinking maybe this is a one time thing but no, you're whole blog is filled with complaints.

Is it a rage bait thing? Or something. I hope so cause it can not be healthy to be angry at everything all the time.

Fandom is supposed to be a fun thing but you don't seem to be enjoying it here. Do you need to talk or rant about something? Let off some steam?

I'm not trying to sound like rude or anything I'm like genuinely worried but of course you can just ignore me. I'm still a little hyped up on my emotions rn sorry

will you genuinely accept the answer i give you or will you dig your heels in and refuse to see that batfam fans are actively making it impossible for fans of other dc characters to enjoy their time here and make friends?

i came into the dc fandom admittedly from non-comic sources, panda redd on tiktok! it was a lot of fun and i also do still enjoy his videos from time to time. i also read wayne family adventures and those were fun too but then i decided to read the actual comics and i started noticing something

panda redd was a liar and wayne family adventures gutted the entire batfam into something that was totally unrecognizable. i also started to notice how batfam fandom just behaves in general and it really left a bad taste in my mouth because i found i really liked other characters!

like the fandom likes to portray the batfam as more intelligent than everyone else in dc, that they have total power of everyone, batman is a fascist that hates metas and somehow can kick people out of gotham, they all can destroy all other characters easily, they all have 'backup plans' and everyone else in dc is just a support character with no personality other than to make the bats look better somehow

green lanterns for some reason in particular compared to the bats are just people there to be annoying and to get punched. supers are only relevant if they are a love interest, and they are so stupid they can't solve mysteries when clark is an investigative reporter and kon is a genius. amazons can't do anything at all and need a bat to teach them how to 'behave like humans' when diana is a diplomat. speedsters are just hyper adhd poster children who also are too stupid to solve anything on their own and can't tell the difference between robins when every single one of them is very very smart, like barry who is a scientist

and it is everywhere

you cannot escape it

it's not a 'don't like don't read' sort of thing because it is unavoidable

imagine seeing your favorite character's tag constantly filled with posts that say they suck, and if you say 'hey wait!' you're suddenly called a 'mean gatekeeper who hates fun!'

you cannot talk reason to people perpetuating this because 'it's just a JOKE' but some people actually legitimately believe these things

i had someone tell me to my face that wonder woman cannot handle a serial killer and batman needs to help her and it was not a joke they genuinely believed this. they believed wonder woman could not handle a regular serial killer with no powers

i have had people tell me that jason todd can just shoot bart allen at his top speed and beat him

it's not just a joke anymore when people are using these tropes and ideas to put down other characters to make bats look better

why do you need to do this? are the bats not cool enough on their own? you don't need to perpetuate this fandom trend to enjoy bats. you don't need to dumb-down characters and you don't need to make batman a fascist unironically as a 'joke'

im not filled with hate and annoyance at everything, just 'fans' making the fandom space hostile to every other family than the bats

sure if you love bats none of this is a problem bc they aren't getting mocked all the time and everyone loves it

how can i possibly argue against this when so many people find nothing wrong with it because the batfam fandom is so huge it makes all other fans so small comparatively?

it is like fighting people using ai and i am so tired of defending the truth, it's not that great

[starkid-smosh]

I really don't get all the hate for Damien that I'm seeing, I honestly thought most people loved him? He's always been one of my favorites of the cast, especially since I personally related to him cuz Im also autistic. But yeah, I always thought he was a fan favorite. It's wild to me anybody would think the rest of the cast hates him or anythin like that, it's very clear to me that they don't??

No literally like I always thought Damien was a fan favorite too so I was so surprised to see so many people hating on him on twitter. Damien is also one of my favorite cast members just because he's funny and talented and provides something different to dynamics at smosh. A lot of people at smosh give more loud chaotic energy and playful bullying (which I love don't get me wrong like Angela is ALSO one of my favorite cast members), but Damien provides more nerdy energy and witty comments and supportiveness (the other smosh members are supportive too but ykwim lol) that just gives something unique to the videos sometimes. I always enjoy videos with him in them and I like how they sometimes give us a different vibe. Like I love the super chaotic gas leak energy videos, but if we got that every day, it would be too much yk? I like the variety in vibes. That's also why I like Arasha and Trevor because they provide different vibes than some of the more chaotic members like Angela and Chanse. That's a little side tangent but yeah! I love Damien! I thought we all loved Damien. Of all the cast members, I was surprised someone as nice as Damien would get SO much hate. I mean I don't think any of the main cast members rn deserve any hate but still lol

And it seems so obvious to me that all of the cast loves him too, so idk why people think the rest of the cast hates him or something. Like obviously Shayne, but also Angela, Tommy, Amanda, Ian, Keith, Arasha, Chanse, Courtney etc. all seem to really like him too. Like I know Shaymien is an obvious duo and I talk about Damangela a lot, but Damanda is also an iconic duo (I mean Team Rocket hello!!) and him and Tommy are a great duo too (never forget Hooey and Beef Beef lol). If smosh really wanted they probably could make him and Angela or Tommy or Amanda an iconic duo there, but they just aren't trying to push it like they are with Shaymanda or Changela or anything so people just *think* he doesn't have any "good duos" there. Hell, him and Arasha have had some good moments in the recent games videos they've been in, and then in that Party Animals videos, him and Chanse had so many good moments that there were a couple people here shipping them for a few days too lmaoo. Also those couple "Damien and Ian trying and ranking every item at a fast food place" videos from like 5 years ago made me realize how good of a duo they are too.

All that to say that Damien clearly gets along well with a lot of cast members and they all really like him. For some reason, some people just think that if dynamics aren't shoved in your face all the time and extremely obvious, then they don't exist and he's secretly hated by everyone. Idk I just think he's neat and I feel like other people also think he's neat

[s4pphic-sh3nan1gans]

why do I feel so off lately and why is a fuck ton of dysphoria hitting me out of nowhere ajshsjshs I don't even know what it is but I just feel so awful and don't even recognise myself, I just want to tear my skin off cos everything feels wrong :(

[puppppppppy]

eos pt. 1

[oldbutchdanielcraig]

[beastking-golion]

Saw a fic about vastaya Viktor and if you ask me he’s definitely a bird (or salamander if you wanna super angstify him- cough cough Rio cough).

[ilovebeatingmywife]

i need to get out of my house more or i might go insane

[greyedian]

MAN I'm seriously so sad about season 2. Bc I wish act 2 had the same emotional impact on me as it appears to have on so many others. But rn I'm just somewhere between unable to care and actively annoyed by some of those writing decisions. Seriously the more I think about it the less I like it.

[puppppppppy]

AND I MET THE CHANGE GOD TOO. OKAY. COOL OKAY

[jackass-jones]

Come back home when you have some sense

You can throw your life away just not at my expense

You’re not the son I raised

[telesodalite]

Been thinking about idw1's outliers lately, and how sort of wild the whole concept is from a worldbuilding standpoint, and it struck me that most confirmed outlier abilities tend to be really useful, or flashy, or powerfully dangerous, and few to none tend to be like, really boring, or totally impractical, or even entirely useless? Which, doesn't really make sense when considering the fact that outlier abilities are seemingly random.

Surely not everyone who's born an outlier gets something useful?

And I don't mean like, "good" useful, but any sort of useful, even if that means you can kill people with your voice, or give a power boost by exploding yourself, those are still "useful".

But surely there had to be some with abilities that were totally impractical, or nonbeneficial, or at the very least just insignificant or purely aesthetic and pointless?

[ao3screenshotss]

does anyone have some fanart that they really love? im looking for new backgrounds and i always find that fanart is much prettier for backgrounds than the ones that i find when i look online for backgrounds