#for my losses and failings
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girl with fangs and split tongue and heterochromia please save me
#aye to live is to wish for the unobtainable#and obtain the rum in its stead#for my losses and failings#pathetic heart's wailings#let the liquor and ice quiet my head#a friend of mine recently said it would be an interesting experiment to see what happens to someone who stays a virgin for a long time#and while i do understand what he meant and i know he meant no harm#i dont want to be an experiment yknow i just want to be loved in a way i havent yet#ignore that im aware thats some incel bitch shit#idfk im tired and sober#bad combination
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Im going to hell
#totally average kid#my art#Genloss#generation loss#genloss au#generation loss au#generation loss fanart#genloss fanart#htfasj#htfasj au#how to fail at ship jumping au#J!Hetch#J!Founder#Janine Deere#Shit post#death route#Yes this is htfasj look at hetch’s hair + outfit#But it can be used as genloss by itself
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in another life i found you sooner
#my art#messmer the impaler#anihita europa#tarnished oc#elden ring#sote#indulgent au where teenage messmer finds half-braindead teenage ani after she lost her dad and was still recovering alone#a failed saint of the caro clan. and the last of the caro clan. an animal of many shaman meats.#to experience “loss” again was something new she had to develop#and it dented her tender and frail heart very deeply#like sinking a fingernail through the skin of a peach#as a result now when she loves people it happens all at once and it never ever goes away#which is why even though rennala technically betrayed her she still stuck around to be nanny to the carian children#she lacked the ability to deny rennala that request. because once the love is there anihita can't get rid of it#this is a dangerous weakness. this devotion#maybe if messmer had met her while she was healing it wouldnt be this bad. or they wouldve fed into each other's complexes. who knows
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Reframing whenever someone decides to leave you out of something or walks out of your life or just all around neglects your presence not as your loss but as theirs…. like that could have been so much more fun w me in it but I wasn’t and that will forever be your loss
#It might sound arrogant conceited etc but I used to deal w a lot of attachment anxiety bc id be like#That person is so cool. They’re so exciting. They know how to liven something up. I’m missing out on their energy#But now I think ab how they’re missing out on mine too and how they’re at the risk of losing me w every half assed action they take#Loss is never just one way if you know you bring value to something. I legit felt that yesterday for the first time in my life#Ruminating and clinging to ppl less has truly come at the behest of knowing I’m someone worth keeping around#And if you decide not to that’s a failing on your end and I don’t have to overcompensate by proving my worth to you
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my mind has gone FERAL for GG's glorious future. BUT, I must know... What convinced Lae'zel to try an extra serving of calamari?! did Emps have to plane shift to save GG and just *Destroy* a bunch of enemies or something??
Oh man, That question brought out the big muse-a-lot hammer. But for like. Different answers. The Bad News: I have NO idea! Absolute zilch what specific moment would make Lae'zel go "Open-Minded-flayer Take #2". Maybe it's not even an exact moment. Maybe it's more like a very long and arduous slow-burning process. A very enemies to rivals to mutual allies to friends-who-won't-admit-they're-friends to I'll-think-about-it to count-me-in. A very 3-4 character developing campaign arc. The Good news: I know what starts them down that path.
Oh the shenanigans. Oh the things that can exist in the Far Realms where time doesn't exist and endless AUs do.
So what if Greygold accidentally meets their evil ending self and gets in an unfortunate predicament where Babe and Squid bud have no choice but to...Partner up to rescue them?
More shenanigans below:
Stakes are set. Maybe Greygold escapes, but can't return home without Grey following and is in hiding. Maybe they're bait and traps are set. Maybe they're dead (temporarily???). Maybe they're both having an intense therapy debate about redemption arcs until they're rescuers arrive. Greygold Mind Games Go.
The long story explanation: Greygold had never invested more into the marketing strategist business mindset than to turn their favorite romance novel, Tusk Love, (comic inside joke) into a pop culture hit. Emps lost a bet that they could succeed and now is following through with their not-so-innocent deal to use Greyg's trusted "adventurer" as their official public disguise.
Since the romance novel Tusk Love is now a popular theater play, Emps' public disguise keeps getting mistaken for that " one pretty tusked fellow on the bestseller novel (which recently updated their book cover with an anonymously commissioned illustration which looks suspiciously identical)" and never fails to receive an abundance of compliments. Emps has reserved the right to remain silent about the whole matter, but is pretty sure Greygold pulled a 'get praised, squiddiot' prank.
Lae'zel is gonna catch up on a lot of Squid Bud facts on this trip. Much to Squid Bud's dismay.
The irony is if Emps asked Minsc for help first, this adventure would have been solved within a day tops.
#bg3#bg3 spoilers#baldur's gate 3#Bg3 au#or bg3 throwing wild magic idea darts; very hit and miss; grain of salt sillies ( I had fun with the thought at least)#Greygold#squidgold#lae'zel#Bg3 the emperor#Bg3 emperor#emperor x greygold x lae'zel#I worry those two might enable each other's no mercy murder spree involving anything endangering Greyg's life#But something something this is probably a metaphor for would you be able to love the worst of me? Would you kill them or save them?#Evil Greyg definitely did not meet that charisma save with Lae'zel#Like what if reload doesn't destroy the world where you failed your check#; you the player just move to different world with more satisfying outcomes. but the failed check world continues on. schemes.#sometimes it's a game over. sometimes they find you in the far realms to remedy their losses. one way or another.#Anyway Greyg finds out they have bad coping mechanisms when losing their loved ones.#“I'll get you my pretty; and your pina colada too”
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@how-to-fail-at-ship-jumping-au
this is how it happened right
(i’m currently working on a drawing for an ask but i just had to make this real quick-)
#my art#how to fail at ship jumping au#htfasj au#htfasj#how to fail at ship jumping#gen loss#generation loss ranboo#generation loss au#genloss#generation loss#generation loss hetch#genloss hetch
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I'm once again thinking about the missed opportunities to have Klaus and Kol bond more. Part of Klaus' whole motivation as a vampire is to get his werewolf part back and to finally be stronger than Mikael (sort of, I'm simplifying) both of which can be obtained by breaking his curse. But Kol? Kol is the only other original that can relate to having a fundamental part of themself ripped away from them. Klaus might not have known he was a werewolf until he killed, but he likely still had a connection he couldn't explain, as evident by him going to watch the wolves transform. And something he'd never been able to explain was now gone. He might only be able to realise the connection afterwards through its absence.
Kol though. Kol had grown up with magic, a connection to nature and the world around him in a way the rest of his siblings supposedly didn't have. And then he gets turned. And not only has his baby brother died, his father has just murdered him and the rest of his siblings after forcing them to drink human blood, which he'll later learn. Now, not only does he have to deal with the grief of Henrik's death and also his own but also the loss of his magic. A loss that's likely only worsened by Kol being a self-proclaimed child prodigy.
Kol is pretty much the only one who could understand what Klaus is going through with the binding of his wolf. We know Kol searched for ways to get his magic back/carry on practicing magic in the same way that Klaus was looking for ways to break his curse. While Klaus likely could still feel his wolf there despite being bound, Kol has no access to his magic anymore. I just think they should've been able to bond or connect over their shared loss of an intrinsic aspect of their selves at the hands of their parents
#TVD#The Mikaelsons#Kol Mikaelson#Klaus Mikaelson#briefly back on my the originals shouldve gotten to be a family goddammit and as someone from a big family im personally offended bs#i did right a lil snippet about them bonding over this that i havent posted yet for the joml verse but still think its an unexplored concep#need more witch!kol acknowledgement honestly. just need more content of my boy#anyway. klaus having a fascination with the moon and kol telling him about celestial events and how it affects his magic when theyre boys#klaus losing that connection to the moon feeling lost & extra tempermental feeling his wolf claw at its binds and vowing to break his curse#kol determined to get his magic back at any cost relating to that devasting loss and promising to help him find a loophole for his curse#kol who becomes extra reckless and determined when he learns that theres a way to break klaus' curse so maybe he can get his magic back too#that knowledge and recklessness combined with his loss of magic driving him to become the volatile vampire that we see#that leads to him being daggered repeatedly but that first time breaks something in that bond between him & klaus that never fully recovers#it makes him bitter and resentful only fueling his reckless behaviour particularly when there seems to be no leads on reclaiming his magic#that he becomes distant from his siblings in the process especially with finn still daggered but that distance only cements the idea#to his siblings that hes a danger and cant be trusted that he needs to be daggered if theyre to stay safe from mikael#the loss of his magic leading to his spiral as a vampire and him being ostracised by his family > actual tvdu kol canon#klaus being trapped in a room staring at the corpse of his little brother knowing he never repaired that relationship with him#and now he never can so he refuses to look away as penance and a reminder of his failings to his little brother#*edit: one of the reblogs on this post is the author of big bad wolf and honestly she does an amazing job at portraying the mikaelsons#as actual siblings if you havent read it its one of my favourites for characterisations but we need more 😭 i want it to be the norm
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long-ish rambling about farewell shinsengumi and joui war gintoki and hijikata parallels under the cut
there's a direct parallel that's acknowledged in canon about ginhiji's situations in the joui war and the farewell shinsengumi arcs but their situations have key differences
gintoki talks abt the impossible "choice" he was given - neither "choice" being in any way favorable. and ultimately by "choosing" he says he lost both his precious things - his friend and his sensei
the main thing that is different is the trust & support that sogo has for hijikata and his leadership. despite all the bad blood between them - he still cares for, or at the very least, respects hijikata enough to wait for him to make the call on what to do. sogo could have easily rebelled against the bakufu without hijikata but it's a matter of principle and a matter of trust
and idk man there's something to be said about hijikata & okito not falling into the gintaka trap despite the circumstances easily calling for it ... mainly because of their reciprocated trust in each other + mutual love for their taishou
and i (admittedly) have not watched further and can't speak/dissect takasugi as readily, it's still very interesting to think that ultimately he loved shoyo more than he loved gintoki. whereas gintoki, despite everything, loved shoyo's teachings & his friends more. this isn't to throw stones at either character but merely the tragedy of their relationship..
#again like listen.#with the situation as it was i dont think even if takasugi was fine with gintoki's decision they wldnt have been able to save shoyo#but i feel the degradation of their relationship post that awful situation was mainly because of their conflicting views on how to handle i#vs shinsengumi or rather mainly sogo & hiji deciding to trust in each other#so like even if they come out of this with wounds or losses - their relationship wld be able to survive it i feel#which is ultimately my point like im not talking abt sogo & hiji trusted each other so they can save kondo#and takasugi and gintoki failed and therefore- like it's not a moral failing on their parts#but like merely the differences in their bonds with each other#anyway yeah. idk it's like very fresh on my mind and i wanted to put this out there#ginhiji#<- only in like . spirit . lol#gintaka#hijikata toushirou#okita sougo#takasugi shinsuke#sakata gintoki#gintama#magic's gintama
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So I found this ask blog for a genloss au and I am hooked so I had to make a silly little edit of it , it is very rushed and it is harder to make an edit of a comic than you might think (I hope no body stole my idea)
The ask blog is @how-to-fail-at-ship-jumping-au
#genloss ranboo#genloss#generation loss#genloss hetch#how to fail at ship jumping au#how to fail at shop jumping au hetch#edit#my edit
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well this was objectively the funniest ending to the night and i'm genuinely laughing my ass off at the absurdity
#avs lb#pens lb#oilers lb#leafs lb#canucks lb#HOW DID LITERALLY ALL OF YOU LOSE WHAT THE FUCK LMAO#WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY TEAMSSSSSSSS#and the fact that they all lost in the most weirdly dramatic way too like???#the avs lost by failing to be the comeback kings and mikko had a wasted hatty (justice for my man rn btw wtf)#the pens lost with incredible precision (honestly predictable) and the oilers lost THE SAME WAY??? (not predictable at all?? wake up? win?)#and the leafs lost by barely anything but in a way that they also managed to not score at all#then the canucks blew a 4-1 lead only to come back and force a 5-5 ot and lose#long pause and sigh#genuinely how. like. i'm at a loss for words this was wild guess it's time for everyone to go 81-1!!! 😭
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Chapter 83 - Loss
#boku no hero academia#deku#izuku midoriya#bnha#my hero academia#the loss. the grief. the fear. the defeat. the genuine fucking tragedy in his face#the raw emotion#the scream that probably threw out his voice#the terror#there's so much to this panel#the blur effect on it to really drive home how hard he's screaming in pure genuine anguish#he failed. he couldn't save someone.#and that someone is... the person he genuinely cares about the most (besides y'know his mom)#that's his friend. that's his best fucking friend they grew up together.#imagine. imagine seeing the person you grew up with being taken away by villains.#you don't know what they're going to do to him#for all he knows they're going to KILL him. they don't know why they took katsuki yet.#for all he knows? they could be about to make katsuki into a nomu.#you just know all the possibilities are playing through his head so fast right now and all he can do right now is just... scream#it's the uncertainty. he doesn't know if he's ever going to see katsuki again.#and... he's sixteen.#he's a kid#he's a kid and he just watched his oldest friend. the person who he knows best and who knows him best.#get taken away from him by genuine actual murderers.#sure. they fight a lot. and they butt heads. and they don't really get along perfectly well at this point in their lives.#but the years before (and the years after)? they're friends who care about each other. and they still care about each other now.#even if katsuki doesn't want to admit that we know it's true from all the other shit he does#and now izuku is there. thinking that there's a chance that the last time he ever would see katsuki again was right then in that moment.#and you just have to sit back... and go... fuck. man. he's a child.#i genuinely almost hit tag limit on this post sorry guys KJDHJKH
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Valencia 2013: Marc Marquez is asked about his best victory that year as well as about Valentino Rossi's season
#brr brr#rosquez#//#4693#big element of marc's 2015 head loss is that my man did not expect he'd be losing to valentino over the course of a full season#'we can say that he's fighting' bud thought vale had a terminal case of being washed#him and everyone else!! and it's kinda a different dynamic right like it's lovely to have your idol paying attention to you but!!#he's not the main competition and you're beating him 9/10 times. flattering and fun and he's super nice about it too <3#but then you get to 2015 and vale's drawing back because he's in Title Fight Mode and marc's suddenly having his own ego crisis#which is how you get him massively failing the cool girl test in assen. one thing to be learning from your idol#it's quite another for him to teach you a lesson#idol tag
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Now my computer gets sad without me, it's scary!
It's turnin' off everything I believe in 'cause it knows it's easy
This is not what you think it is!
This is not what you- this is not what you-
This is not what you think it is.
It's worse
'Cause I'm another unperson!
@how-to-fail-at-ship-jumping-au
#totally average kid#my art#how to fail at ship jumping au#htfajs#htfasj!hetch#htfasj au#generation loss hetch#generation loss au#generation loss fanart#generation loss#artists on tumblr
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#dissociation poll#amnesia poll#memory loss#osdd#did#trauma#it's okay to vote even if you don't have dissociation or trauma#so we have some healthy references in there too#i also feel confused about my memories because if I think back I can't remember almost anything#but#if something reminds me or I force myself to think of something from the past I will get a flashbacks#but then the flashback is just a detail and fails to paint an actual image of the event#so i will remember the 1% of something with no context#is there a name of that
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I’m sorry you’ve had to deal with so much Iranian hate and drama <:[
oh anon. hate to break it to you (a lot of people make this mistake) but iran and iraq are two entirely separate nations.
and also i think reducing it to the words "hate and drama" kind of doesn't cover it, anon.
#i think if people were. just a little bit more informed. then maybe people would see that the people from this region are humans actually.#so anon. please. like... look at a map and do some reading maybe. if you care just a little.#i'm sorry anon but i'm a little bit at a loss for words over this message. like it rendered me speechless for a little.#but it's so common in my life that i've been called iranian and i constantly have to correct people on it. c'mon man.#i mean i have SO many iranian friends even though iraq and iran you know. aren't exactly bedfellows. politically.#but those politics don't really follow me. like in my day to day. iraqis and iranians in the uk of this generation. are again.#pretty divorced.#but it's kind of really frustrating that people Without Fail make this mistake over and over.#it's like how people just refer to “africa” as a whole. instead of recognising there are seperate nations there and.#it's not just a homogenous “other”#please. there are humans there. it's not just “foreign”.#i don't know if you're american anon but i see it a lot that anything outside of america is just “foreign”#and i mean#even as a brit. americans are constantly surprised i'm british because they forget anything exists outside of america.#i think it would be so so so so sexy of you anon to take a look at the globe tonight. give it a spin.#look at the world. it's so full and so beautiful and there are So Many Nations.#i'm going to look at my globe tonight too. i have a really cool old one. it spins so good.#and i'm going to pick some countries i don't know a lot about and do some reading about them. for funsies.
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In bed laying awake staring up at the ceiling because my family played rummy this afternoon and my little cousin really wanted to team up with me but we had dog shit luck and lost every single round
#my cousin (getting increasingly disappointed): we'll win next round for sure#me (on our fifth loss staring daggers at every other adult at the table): for sure i promise#(we didn't)#on the one hand i guess good on her parents for not letting her win because she was an outstanding loser#better than some adults#on the other hand... shes four christ let her win once#i was also getting increasingly distressed bc my attempts to get her to either play by herself or team up with someone else weren't working#she was dead set on being in my team#im sorry im the cringe fail cousin baby :(
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