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lovelyteng · 1 year ago

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Misc: When I Became as Join Fandoms

September 15 is the 7th Anniversary of My DeviantArt Account and Art Life on Social Media! But it’s late for now…

When I join fandom at TV, video games, and series. As a story of truth.

Active Fandoms Mixels - Before I created an account on DeviantArt, I watched Log Loss in March 2015, then I watched more episodes on YouTube. I looked at drawings made by the person who created Sharkitty and deactivated the account after canceling the show on DeviantArt, then I looked at the drawings which were amazing looking horror and spooky as I liked it while I chose for my favorite character is Dribbal. I became a fan of Mixels when I created my account on DeviantArt when I was 13 already.

Luigi's Mansion Series - On November 2019, I looks the arts as the person who has an accounts on DeviantArt and Tumblr as possibly former fan of Mixels when I looked drawings before I created an account, also I looks fanfiction of series with headcanon as I officially love that as before and during at my birthday as my favorite characters are Dr. Potter, Steward, and Morty. I became a fan of Luigi's Mansion Series while I watched videos on YouTube for the whole story mode and made my fanfiction of that.

Cuphead Series - After I looked arts of Bendy Series on DeviantArt and Tumblr, I looks comics on DeviantArt in Late November/Early December 2018 which story of two of characters with heartwarming relationship like a parent and child on game as headcanon which started favorite to two characters are Dr. Kahl and his Robot and fan comic story become my favorite as it is called Dr. Kahl's Journal. I became a fan of the Cuphead Series while I had the idea of headcanon and looked at drawings on DeviantArt.

Bendy Series - I listened and watched Build My Machine by Will/DAGames at Late February/Early March 2017, I listened to the voices of employees of JDS even Will who voiced Grant Cohen which he's my favorite along with Edgar and Wally Frank. I became a fan of the Bendy Series while I listened to fan songs by Bendy Fans and audio logs on YouTube.

Balan Wonderworld - I noticed a drawing on DeviantArt in April 2021 as it was made by a person as I already know and became my favorite when after I watched it on YouTube, name is Cal Suresh. I listened soundtracks of game are amazing which I become love of a music. I became a fan of Balan Wonderworld while I listened to songs to draw and write.

No Straight Roads - I'm officially surprised to look at many art for the 1st anniversary of the game on Twitter. Eventually in November 2021, I looked at arts and stories on Tumblr from one of my social media friends, then I watched videos about NSR voice actors hanging out and playing games. During livestream, the fans draw characters doing same for their voice actors which I officially liked that especially Zul (Neon J and 1010 Voice Actor) doing Moose God and going insane anytime as quickly caught to Christmas Edition to Neon J and 1010 made a reindeer soldiers, it made me highly excited to them as became favorite. I became a fan of No Straight Roads while I listened to songs and videos as I drew and wrote about Neon J and 1010, and looked at the drawings.

Brawl Stars - Downloaded it during Season 11: Biodome to try it but uninstalled it in one week as I had all of the Rare Brawlers and almost Super Rare Brawlers. In December 2022, I reinstalled it for the anniversary of the game to free Gray and free skin to Shelly while one of my social media friends told me about Brawl Stars which drained my boredom to happiness while I watched videos by official Brawl Stars on YouTube as my favorite is Mortis, the most played of the game. I became a fan of Brawl Stars while I watched videos about Season 3 as lore, listened to the songs, and looked at drawings on Twitter as I started to get an idea and I started playing the game everyday.

Welcome Home - I quickly noticed the arts on Twitter at Late March 2023/Early April 2023 which made me to get idea as my favorite is Howdy Pillar, I looks at Frank and Eddie in love as it officially by the creator, then I looks some art of Frank and Eddie love to Howdy as start poly love relationship by some fans as it became my favorite ship. I became a fan of Welcome Home while I looked at art for my favorite character and ship and looked at the website.

Inactive Fandoms My Singing Monsters Series - I watched Tribal Island Trailer in January 2016 as I downloaded it as I became a fan of My Singing Monsters Series, then I've many ideas about monsters after creating my account. But November 2020, I got bored and ran out of ideas, I started to be inactive as I never used to when I’ve got to focus on old fandoms as I enjoy My Singing Monsters Series as I listen to the songs.

Object Shows - I watched BFDI and Inanimate Insanity when I was a child as I became a fan of Object Shows in January 2018 to draw my characters as my own show. But January 2021, I started to be inactive as I never used to when I’m back to Mixels to make the story and characters as I enjoy Object Shows.

Just Shapes and Beats - I watched it on YouTube in June 2018 as I listened to the songs from past years to look level in the game, then I became a fan of Just Shapes and Beats in July 2019 to draw characters based on songs and levels as bosses. But October 2020, I started to be inactive as I never used to when I ran out of an idea and focused on Mixels as reactive as I enjoy Just Shapes and Beats.

Cookie Run Series - I watched it on YouTube and then downloaded while I looked at drawings at DeviantArt and Tumblr in February 2021 as I was playing it 2021 to Early 2023 which made me grow bored as I ran out of ideas for other fandoms. But March 2023, I’m already bored of it as a big problem with my phone, I uninstalled it for large memories and started to be inactive as I never used to when I finally escaped from boredom as I played Brawl Stars and focused on writing fanfiction as I enjoy Cookie Run.

Occasion Fandoms Team Fortress 2 (July 2014) Gravity Falls (July 2015) Total Drama Series (August 2018) Rainbow Friends (Mid August 2022) Alphabet Lore/Number Lore (Early September 2022) Cult of the Lamb (Mid September 2022) Garten of Banban (March 2023)

Formerly Fandoms Numberblocks (August 2019 - September 2022) Unikitty (February 2018 - January 2019)

#no straight roads #balan wonderworld #welcome home #brawl stars #bendy and ink machine #bendy #cuphead #luigi's mansion 3 #fandom #story

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circa-specturgia · 2 years ago

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Birthday cake, Milky Way, train, and love letter for the ask game

—@italiangothicwriteblr

Thank you for the ask! ✨

I’m gonna answer it for two characters if that’s alright, namely Cas and Mask if that’s alright! I’ve been trying to develop the two of them in my head a bit more recently, so this is a good opportunity! ✨

🎂 Birthday Cake - When is their birthday? Do they like celebrating it?

Neither of the two know when their birthday is, exactly, both having been created artificially, but both have chosen dates for their birthdays that they felt meant something to them. I can’t decide on exact days as I don’t know if my setting will have its own calendar and timescale and all, but Cas’ would be in the Winter, and Mask’s in the Summer.

Cas chose the date he fell to Istra, and met Ciro. He decided that whether or not he had a life prior to this one, this was the day that would be as good as any to serve as a date of birth, with how it was the start of a new point in his life. It was mostly chosen by his friends who pointed out that it’d been a year since he’d first come to Istra, which he accepted as a good date.

Mask on the other hand chose the day that they met Cas. That day they felt a shift, due to their energies coming into contact with one another, sparking the start of their evolution into their own person rather than a mindless doll. That, according to them, felt like their “birth day” when asked about if they had one.

🌌 Milky Way - What was the inspiration behind your OC? What was the first thing you decided about them?

Cas : it’s hard to remember inspirations as he’s just such a mess at this point of inspirations and things I’ve removed, I’ve had him since 2018 or so… As for first thing, his name, I think? I was trying to think of a name I could use for a character for the writing project I wanted to start which has since then become Circa Specturgia, and Caspian hopped to mind.

Mask : Similarly to Cas, I can’t recall exactly what the first ones were. I do know that I began with a desire to write an enemies-to-lovers relationship, and so I began coming up with ideas for a character to act as an antagonist for the main group. Both Cas and Mask are characters who I came how with a looooong time ago so sorry if I don’t really remember their original concepts 😅

🚊Train - What is their answer to the trolley problem?

Cas : He chooses to save a loved one over the 5 other people without a seconds hesitation. It’s not even a question, if he sees his friends and 5 people he doesn’t know, he’s saving his loved ones immediately. Whether or not he feels guilt for it later is something my I’m still thinking on though as I’m playing around with him…

Mask : They find it difficult to really get what the problem with it is. And try and figure out if they can kill everyone. But with the version of the single person track holding Cas or someone else they’d grown to like or appreciate, they’d also pick the other five people. Unlike Cas though it’s less about loyalty and more about not really valuing human life. As they grow and come to understand it more, they’d see it as more of a dilemma, but would likely still chose to save those they care about.

💌 Love Letter - Do they like love letters? What kind of messages do they leave for their partner?

The two of them have a very particular love language. While they don’t have the time or lifestyle to write one another love letters, Mask began to leave marks for Cas, at one point, in order to communicate, leave behind messages. Eventually this evolved once they’d gotten closer.

Mask, initially, is very much of the “Please Do Not Observe Me” mindset. They don’t like being seen or watched and prefer to hide in shadows, exist as a sort of ghost. Their name is literal, as they’d wear a mask, eventually toning it down to face wrappings, like a blindfold and a face mask, then eye wrappings, eventually being comfortable enough to remove them, for Cas, and sometimes for others, though they’d till prefer to wear those even then. They enjoy hiding out in shadows, even once they’d grown more accustomed to people, as it feels more natural.

As a result, Mask likes to communicate through little signals and signs, tugging on Cas’ shirt or sleeves, or manifesting voices only Cas can hear, when he wants Cas’ attention. Asking for affection, however, can be more physical, in the form of inhabiting the shadows on Cas’ skin and caressing his body, choosing how to do so depending on what sort of intimacy they crave.

The two of theirs habit of leaving messages from before they grew close remains, however, leaving subtler little hints now across places they spend time in if needed. Ie, Mask planting some wispy shadows on a table they know Cas will pass when leaving a room, to sign that they want some time together!

Thanks for the chance to develop these two some more!!! ✨

#writeblr #writers on tumblr #writing community #writing #answering asks #emoji ask game #ask game #wip.circa specturgia #circa specturgia

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theunsuspectedmundane · 7 months ago

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Thoughts #18 Ex

After six years I came into my partner's life. But before me, there was another woman in his life. They dated for years. I am never so sure of the exact years because I never really cared. All I know is they broke up around January 2017 (?) after she ruined my bf's family event. She was drunk af and was all over the place, embarrassing him and his whole family in front of other people. But after they broke up their conversation continued but not so constant.

She never really got over him. I mean who would after years of dating and realizing she took him for granted, she could've been living the best life. She cheated on him multiple times, slept with different men, would sneak behind his back and get drunk frequently while other men would touch her and do stuff to her in which I know she gives consent cuz she probably likes it too. She was honestly a major mess (a slut to be specific), all this while they were dating. I don't know what's going on between the course of their relationship but all I can say is that she's disgusting. She took advantage of my partner when he was young. They had a three-year age gap. he was 16 while she was 19 when they started dating. Disgusting, right? She manipulated him into thinking that whatever happens even if she cheated and hurt him, she still loves him and that is what love is. This ex is a groomer. And that makes me sick in the stomach.

Anyways, why did I even blog them to begin with? Well because I accidentally read their previous convos on IG and FB. Their convos on IG were 3 years ago, 2021. They were still flirting after two years of breaking up. She even invited him to hangout while she was pretty much committed to someone already and I'm guessing was already with child. That was cheating. And he tolerated, maybe because he somehow loved her still during those times or he was just bored.

Facebook conversations was not that constant but all throughout 2018-2022 there were conversations from her different accounts (some of which are alter accounts, I know exactly what she was doing, and he too). Convos consists mostly of them trying to send nudes cuz obviously both of them bored; her trying to ask him out to take her to places; reminiscing of their past, but he was obviously just in it because he was horny, most of the topics of the past were just their sex adventures at home and some cheap motel in which are just disgusting to be honest. Her last message was a happy birthday and on July of last year she sent a picture of what I assume is an old photo of a cake he bought for her. On the cake wrote "Love, (insert my partner's name here)". She even added "thank you bes". Why would she do that? To play games? To try and manipulate him? As I have noticed, she started reaching out again after finding out he has already achieved his dream, which is to be a seafarer. She even asked him if he could buy her chocolates or anything. Like, pathetic right? But what would we expect, that's what my bf told me, she was a natural flirt and a notorious cheater. Would do anything to feel validated by boys she flirts with. I mean the more guys who is into her validates her ego, I guess. Honestly, she is not that pretty to begin with so that explains a lot.

Last year, she eventually found out I was dating her ex. Added me on facebook just a few days after we officially announced it. A few hours after I confirmed her request, she posted series of photos of herself. I mean no big deal, right? However, I knew she was stalking. I guess she got insecure. I'm not assuming or being delulu or what, but she hasn't posted any pictures of herself for the past few months. I check her out too of course. I just wanted to know who hurt my partner so much that it traumatized him.

Anyways, months passed. Every 'myday' I post on FB she was always there viewing it. Not one missed. I knew she was probably casually scrolling through 'mydays' however, not one missed? Even my own selfies is being viewed. So what else could that mean. I don't care but I found myself checking it as well every time I post something HAHA.

Long came February. Valentines. My partner and I celebrated that day intimately. No fancy restaurant but full of the love languages we crave for: acts of service, gifts, physical touch, and quality time. Of course I posted that. She viewed it. But the next day, as I noticed, we were no longer friends on facebook. I admit, I unfollowed her like a month before valentines because she's no use being on my timeline, I don't wanna unfriend her anyways but out of sight, out of mind, right?

After reading their previous convos on different platforms, it explains a lot really. Why she was like that. She is still into him, no matter what she says. I just knew it. She's already married and with a kid. However during those times, she was still reaching out to her ex, ranting and reminiscing what could've been between them. Pathetic but, again, I can't blame her. I used to be like that with one of an ex of mine too.

He blocked her already on all his active social media accounts and she had blocked me on facebook as well. I am not sure with twitter tho. But at the back of my mind, what would she do if she noticed she's unblocked? Would she reach out and still try? I really want to unblock her so bad just to see. But I mean what for? To ruin our peace? My partner and I are so happy with what we have now. But I was devoured with what ifs, lately, because I am bored af lol.

I am not threatened, why would I? Not being too airheaded or what, but I know I am prettier and more decent than her. A lot of ways better than her as how others saw it. We're all moving forward, I just wanted to rant what I found out here. That's all. Thanks for reading.

#thoughts

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psychedelicmadness666 · 1 year ago

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The Long Lost Love of a Friend from School (Part 1)

I liked this girl at school. It was January 2, 2018, the first day we met. It was English class and she was annoying at first. I'll admit but she grew on me. I liked her after me and her started talking. We were desk partners at the time. When we would get bored in class, she would start to draw on my notebook and I still have them to this day. Although sadly, I no longer want to associate with her and her games anymore. It was a good memento of the good times with her. I remember she would always make me feel safe and secure. It was pure natural blissful euphoria being around her. I would love to make her smile by saying the most stupidest shit ever. I was working at McDonalds and she was working at Taco Bell. I remember her birthday and kept it as my password for my iPhone. She would remember mine too as we both had close birthdays. I was 4 days older than her. I thought she was very beautiful and the most gorgeous eyes I have ever seen, it was green. I loved her long hair and her bubbly personality. She was very extroverted and had a lot of friends. And then there was me, the most isolated, shy, but outgoing when you get to really know me. She laughed at my dumb edgy jokes. She would always yell my name when she would see me and get me a big hug :) I miss that and I even tear up thinking about it sometimes. She meant everything to me. Me and her would always walk home together and talk about our lives. I remember her telling about her friends and family. I even remember at one point holding her hand at one point. It was a brief second though. I even threw up in front of her and she was ok with it :D hahaha. It was pretty funny. I was walking with her and I had a lot of soda to drink. One day, I was thinking about giving her chocolates and flowers for Valentines Day but the sad part was she wasn't there in class. I was devastated and heartbroken. I wanted to make her happy. And until this day I still am heartbroken from that. I still think about her and what would have happen if she was there. My mental health started to decline. I started to get delusional and got more anxiety. I thought I was ugly and deserved nothing. My "friends" bullied me for being a pussy and not asking her out and kept forcing me to ask her out. They wouldn't fuck off. I hate them so much for that. We were still desk buddies when the others traded seats. The teacher even enjoyed as being together. We hang out a couple of times and had a Snapchat streak. There would be times where I would be upset with her because she basically told me to go away because she was frustrated with something. I was sad, went home, and cried. She later then apologized. I accepted her apology. I remember bringing her a chicken and she was scared of it haha. I loved her cute little scream. I hang out with her again the following week and it was midnight and we were playing fucking Mario Kart 8. I should have been honest with my feelings with her from then and there. After that day, we hang out. We started to drift apart. My anxiety spiked like fucking hell. I was terrified of speaking to her and as because I thought I was a piece of shit retard that deserved to die. I was going through sexual trauma at my job. Some woman in her 30s was molesting me multiple times. She would grope me and try to tickle me when I didn't want to be touched. I hate that FUCKING feeling and hate that woman for it and I hope she burns in Hell. So, I would get nervous to all high Hell talking to her to the point where I would want to vomit. I avoided her at all costs, only to make things worse. It was basically my fault. I hate myself for it and since then I hate myself for it now. I think about suicide every day because of it. The emotions were so strong. I started to abuse drugs just so I can forget about her. LSD, weed, alcohol, Adderall, etc. It just broke my heart that I couldn't take to her anymore because of my anxiety towards her. I thought she hated me and no matter what she says about me, I still feel like a loser to her and that I have no value meaning to her.

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avocado-frog · 1 year ago

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Dahlia. 10

sorry about the spam posting i'm trying to get caught up. curses to everyone who voted "update dahlia" on the make me write tag

I keep posting these and forgetting the link lmao -Ao3 link

-It's the Leo backstory chapter!!

-I spent a whole goddamn hour trying to make sure this lined up with the timeline

Segment one- 7/29/2008 -The twins are five, the triplets are about three months old -Using Leo's full name felt like I was writing an entirely different character -My confession is that this chapter was written back in May, and I didn't learn to play go fish until two weeks ago when a six-year-old beat me four times (she was cheating) -It's edited to make it less obvious that I didn't know how to play go fish when I was writing it. I thought it was like solitaire?? As if a game for little kids would be like solitaire ever at all?? -Olivia>>

Segment two- 4/2/2009 -Twins are six now -They just got stolen -"She could count on one hand the amount of times she'd even seen her aunt, and that was impressive, because she could count really high up." Baby Leo <3 she can count to like 80

Segment three- 4/5/2009 -Logan and Lily!!! Love them -Logan's probably around 13, Lily's 5 -The way I forgot Logan had a sister -The way I also forgot that Lily's full name is Lilith

Segment four- 4/10/2009 -OH THANK GOD it was physically paining me to write Leonie -(chewing on drywall) they gave each other nicknames and they kept those nicknames even though Leo forgot everything else and-

Segment five- 5/14/2011 -The twins are eight now -Logan, Jasmine, and Lily all left and if the twins hadn't forgotten then they'd have grown up thinking that they were dead anyways :(

Segment six- 5/30/2011 -Leo was out for like two weeks -Emily (derogatory) -Oh No

Segment seven- 9/29/2011 -The twins are color-coded red and green -THEY'RE BOTH AFRAID OF LOUD NOISES AND THEY DONT REMEMBER WHY GEGEGRGRGGR -Autistic Leo real -So it's canon that their magic develops after a big stress and Leo's was after one day at school and honestly-

Segment eight- 10/23/2011 -Their ninth birthday!! -Kai debut the littlest guy ever -He's like. eight i think

Segment nine- 10/17/2013 -It says age ten but it's a week before they're eleven -Leo got into a fight for attention -emily for the love of god pay attention to your hostage she's about to develop a personality disorder -Marcy's brief cameo <3

Segment ten- 11/19/2014 -The twins are twelve -The twins are no longer friends also -Leo almost gets arrested -"That was what she wanted, wasn't it?" NO -How obvious is it that i don't know card games

Segment eleven- 6/17/2016 -The twins are thirteen -Girl you GOT him!! he's fucking dead!! that was unnecessary!!! -ASPD Leo is real

Segment twelve- 10/31/2018 -They're sixteen -Forget-me-not canon

Segment thirteen- 1/14/2019 -Leo's dynamic with the kids >>> -"Snowmen, I'm familiar with the concept." -Leo says "hold your horses" -ELLIOT!! Alive and well!! He demands apple cider -Sam wants to be like his sister :((

Segment fourteen- 3/20/2019 -I'M SORRY!! -Leo's beef with Jaxon sort of explained -Leo's just trying to find someone to blame

Segment fifteen- 4/20/2019 -The fight :( -Leo leaves

Segment sixteen- 5/11/2019 -Ryan's nightmare but Leo is too Leo to know what to do about it -"Silently, she cursed the weather for doing this to him."

Segment seventeen- 10/23/2019 -Coincidentally the seventeenth segment is the twin's seventeenth birthday -Hope you're excited for the Cass backstory chapter when I parallel the shit out of this

Segment eighteen- 6/14/2020 -They're still only seventeen -Anyways: the present -Dylan and Ryan are basically possessed by Elliot right now so that's cool -Leo has to deal with it tho -There was a deleted segment where Leo used to play softball to explain the baseball bat she uses, but I don't know shit about softball and didn't want to try. Anyways, Leo played softball in 7th grade -Leo finally calls the others, does not mention the part about the kids being possessed

#writing #isaac says things related to his writing again #original work #writeblr #original characters #wip: dahlia #oc: leo

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ineedacalicocat · 2 years ago

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I totally agree with you. The way they always continuously trying for years to prove that jk is gay is seriously insane. He said his ideal type is iu. His 2019 scandal was there too. The way he was back hugging that tattoo girl...when his boyfriend jimin was on his own vacation with his friends out of the country... enjoying his time playing games with girls in a club..and jimin even went on this trip when jk's birthday was also coming at that time...yes he came Back to celebrate with him but it's a great brother and a great friend behaviour not at all a couply one...bcs your partner never wants to leave you alone on your special day at all to begin with if it's not for any important work...which clearly was not the case. What kind of a relationship was this??? I don't think any couple would be okay with this kind of things. But if you say this to these shippers...they come up with "oh you don't know about the space in a relationship, you don't know how a relationship works" okay then maybe i really don't. But m not okay with my boyfriend going on a trip and playing games and drinking with strangers in a club like that...leaving me alone when my birthday was just days away.. And m also not okay with me being huggy huggy with someone else when my boyfriend was out of the country. This shows how they're not a couple that time too... at least for me. It's always jimin who shows open care towards jk. Jk barely initiates any physical touch with jimin...it's always jimin first. He sometimes ignores jimin like jm doesn't even exist.

yeah actually the old jikookers at the end of or middle of 2018 started saying this and many of them left the fandom at that time some of them stopped shipping them in 2019 but because of the content from bighit some of that forgot about these things and contuniued shipping again. Jikookers dont talk about this cause deep down they also know that they are not boyfriends or anything of sort. Jungkook even that time in 2019 would draw thing that girl drew. He drew a moon with starts it was literally what that girl drew. She also wore jungkooks tshirt and got red roses from him. She would post it. But now you cant even find her insta. When that thing happened. That drama with armies literally treating her just because she is jungkkooks girlfriend. Like really??? i dont get this pls they want them to be gay so bad they want them to fuck their own member so bad like this is fetish to me what the actual fuck??? I mean korean fans or some int fans doent want them to have girlfriends okay they are also problem but shippers are a different cause lite what the actual fuck? He literally wrote my time after that when you hear that song you can actually feel things. I even felt sad. In 2019 I actually at some point stopped shipping but didnt say what i actual thought because fandom and shippers lost it. They lost heir minds. You cant even talk about some stuff here. They go defense mode. For the first time jungkook sang something with feelings. Usually i dont like his voice i mean he is teh ost stable but he lacks emotions contrast to the jimin. Where jimin usually sings with his heart like you can feel everything. But jungkook? meh? Im not talkin about his vocal range or technic. He is maybe better on that part. But he just sings very breathy sometimes and there is nothing to add more. he just sings you know what i mean? You dont get any butterflies. But some songs he sings sometimes with emotions but its rare.

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ryuuka-balaen · 1 year ago

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bwah

I know I said I'd post abt this after 10h but uh.been real tiredddd

also I was planning to go and take ~glamour shots~ of all the armies I've got to like show off the models but. uh. tiredd,, girlsleepy,,,

anyway! gonna try my best to talk abt them as much as I can and explain why I've got all of em

so I was introduced to Warhammer by my oldest brother around 10 years ago, when he'd seen his half-brother (who I'm not related to and don't know) playing a game with a friend of his. He's thought it looked cool as hell, and so convinced his friend+roommate to split a starter box (Attack on Black Reach) with him, and my less old older brother and I joined in with each buying an army starter box. I've never liked the "good guys humans" options in games and was an enjoyer of Big Monster, so Tyranids were the obvious faction choice for me. I bought the Tyranid Battleforce Box, my brother bought the T'au Battleforce Box, and my eldest brother took the blueberries Ultramarines from the starter, leaving the Orks to his friend.

I absolutely adored my new bugs, and had a blast building and painting my new collection consisting of 3 Warriors, 5 Genestealers, 10 Termagants, 10 Hormagants, and 3 Ripper Swarms.

My brothers, unfortunately, quickly realized that this whole 'building and painting models' thing wasn't as exciting as they thought that playing toy soldiers would be, and gave up before finishing theirs. So we never actually got to play a game.

My brother gave away his blueberries to his half-brother, the Orks I don't know because I never talked to that guy, and my other brother gave his T'au to me, so I gained a Crisis Battlesuit, 3 Stealth Battlesuits, a Devilfish Transport Tank, a Cadre Fireblade, 10 Firewarriors, and 10 Kroot Carnivores to my funny little model collection. Sadly without anyone to actually use them with I had no motivation to paint the new minis, and aside from a couple I still haven't got around to giving my T'au some colour.

A few years later, in my first year of high school I met a few Guys, just real Dudes Bros even, who played warhammer and was invited to join them one weekend for some Basement Wargaming

I was super excited about the idea, and went and bought a couple new Tyranid models to use then. It was a bit of a rush to get them built and painted within just a couple days, but that added a Carnifex and a Hive Tyrant to my bugs box

Those guys were kinda jerks :(

so I didn't talk to them further, and went back to not having anyone to game with

More years pass with my beloved guys not getting touched, and in 2018?ish. I dug them up and went in to a Friendly Local Game Store with my bugs to ask for a demo game. the store employee agreed but seemed,, Unimpressed. with the request, so I got it over with quickly, bought a couple items (Tyranid Ravener x3 box, T'au Pathfinder x10 box), and left. That was discouraging but I still wanted to try, so I visited another FLGS, just to look this time, and was introduced to the game Hordes which seemed interesting. I bought a starter pack of models for it in hopes of getting to play A Wargame, but still have never gotten to use them.

this is the only photo I can be bothered rn to find of them how they were at this point, before I've started repainting them

For my birthday last year, my dad gifted me a 3d printer, and though I didn't use it for much for a long while I did test printing a squad of Necron Warriors, because my fianceé at the time had said she liked necrons in the context of Warhammer video games such as dawn of war and I guess I was trying to make them as like, an intersection of our interests or something, but she didn't care and it doesn't really matter anymore anyway.

Aside from that I gave up on getting to use my models for a time, until following some Unfortunate Events last September-January I decided I should make an effort to stop spending 100% of my free time on virtual games and with online friends, so I invited one of my few meatspace friends to take me to a new (and much closer) game store that hosts bimonthly Warhammer game nights. We brought my T'au for me to use and Tyranids for my friend to use, and hoped for a decent time. The two people that were there did accommodate us with a small scale beginner kind of game each, but one of them was sortof irritable and snappy about the fact that we had invited ourselves (supposedly this was a members-only event of a private discord server? despite being posted publicly and inviting new players on the store's Facebook page.) and about that we had outdated rulebooks, because I suppose they thought we should've spent $80 each just to try the game. The other person present didn't talk without yelling and was a little inconsiderate of personal space, so I think it's understandable that we chose not to go back.

Later, after my hip surgery in February, I spent the time I had loafing around immobile at home to start making some models with that printer I mentioned.

The first that I printed was my Grey Knights!

I had a lot of fun being able to choose proxy models that fit an aesthetic I liked, and printed proxies for a Brother-Captain, a Nemesis DreadKnight, a Paladin Squad, a Strike Squad, and a Razorback Transport Tank.

I didn't print more Tyranids or T'au because I wanted more variety in the models I had - the friend I'd visited the game store with was willing to play more but didn't have any models so I'd need to be able to supply enough options that we weren't just playing eachother with the same two armies every time. The reason I chose to print Grey Knights was purely aesthetic - I hadn't read anything of their Lore, but I've forever been a Known Enjoyer of Knights so it wasn't much of a choice.

After that, and still during my three months of Surgery Loafing Time, my friend who worked at value village acquired a secondhand Recruit Edition warhammer starter box free of charge from their workplace and gave it to me. From that I got my Necrons, and unfortunately some of james workedshoppe's dearly beloved bland boring blueberries (Ultramarines).

over the last few months I've played a few matches with the one friend I have who will, including one today! And convinced my eldest brother to give the game another try and have played one game with him, in which he fielded some Imperial Guard models that he picked up cheap and already assembled/painted secondhand. I also offloaded those blueberries I didn't want on him because he's one of those people that likes playing Generic Human Faction.

Also, in that time, I've made my favourite of the models I have! my gorgeous beloved beautiful babies my Imperial Knights!

(oops those four makes the picture cap for posting from mobile)

sadly I haven't taken a Proper and Well Lit Glamour Shot of all five of them together yet but I'm super proud of them :)

finally, the last and most recent models I've gotten were the Tyranid half of the newest Value Box Set called Leviathan - financially I probably shouldn't've bought them, but they were being offered for $110, when to buy each of the kits included would've cost around $530, and there were new models included that can't be bought separately yet so I think it was a pretty good deal, and I've been having a really fun time painting them! (at least in the very little free time I'm able to find for myself right now around 20hrs/week college work and 35hrs/week dayjob work).

also I've Been Posting about a large bug I've been working on printing (a Hierodule Bio-Titan, which costs $250 individually to buy a kit), but sadly I still haven't finished building that model because I'm trying to magnetize it and that's been... challenging.

All Together, over the last decade I've accumulated 97 Tyranid models, ~30 T'au models (the kroot carnivores went missing at some point while in storage), 28 Necron models, 13 Grey Knights models, and 5 Imperial Knights models. it's been really lovely and makes me super happy that I've been able to indulge in this hobby recently, I love it a lot :)

(@catgirl-niko tag so you see the actual response to your ask)

if I have the energy for it at a later date, it might be fun to try to talk/write as much as I can about all the lore things I know about the guys I've got (especially since I've sorta made custom/ociguess? lore for my Knights), but after a six hour game today(battlereport post to come) of learning a lot of new rules, slamming out an college assignment in an hour (still handed in 15min late 😔 ), and now spending two and a half hours writing all this, my little kitty brain is right fried and I'm needs some sleepies

it's not exactly what was being asked, but I hope this is fun to read :)

I'd love to know your favorite 40k army that you've had.. I see all your cute little 'nids and they're fantastic, but do you have other army's too?

Kay so I'm just got up & headed to work rn so I can't give a Full Answer to that yet but wanted to answer this so u know that u've been Seen and Appreciated

anyway the short answer is that I've got 5 faction armies, and the bugs are my 4th favourite of them! the others, in order of which I like best, are Imperial Knights, Grey Knights, T'au, and Necrons

#nyask #warhammer40k #hobbying

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accio-victuuri · 2 years ago

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CPN : Yibo’s 3 fears ( under the bxg lens ) 🔬

I wanted to wait a bit for the whole micro movie to be out for more clues or probably a more in depth explanation from yibo or the dancers about the concept of “fear”. but I realized it won’t change the background stories I will talk about or the cpn along with it. So in the recent SDC episode, a trailer of yibo’s movie was shown and he explained that they decided their theme will be some things that people may fear. He said it in a way that implies it’s common for people to fear these 3 things, but if you look closely, these are stuff he talked about before.

disclaimer: for turtles only. if you’re not into cpn then move along. don’t roll your eyes too hard, this post is not for you.

Let’s start with the 3 things that he fears :

These are things a lot of people may add to their list of fears, it’s a combination of superficial and existential ones. I also want to mention that it’s cool how he seems to be trying to get comfortable with getting to know his fears. He singled out being afraid of the dark and said he wants people to see a different side of him. One that is not afraid of the dark.

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DARKNESS.

This is one well known fact that every Yibo fan knows and it’s not like he hides it. He keeps the lights on when he sleeps, or keeps the door open so that light from outside can come in. The latest example I can think of is the TTXS episode where they went inside dark rooms and he clearly did not want to be there.

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starts at 13:05, everyone’s favorite interview where GG proceeds to clown him and scare him even more about his setup when he’s at a hotel. In interviews, sometimes we really can’t tell if they are telling the truth. Like GG acting like he doesn’t know Web can’t sleep with the lights off. Dude, you lived together. You spent time together, so close, in a hotel that has a transparent door divider. How could you not know? Or maybe since he was close by at the time, WYB felt comfortable enough to not keep it on.

Let’s expand more into this fear by adding things associated with it which is horror movies/ghosts as well as insects. things that commonly come out in the dark.

I want to talk about this particularly in the angle of WYB facing this fear as long as he is with GG. Back in 2018, when they watched Haunted Asylum as a group. Who do you think suggested a horror film as a form of bonding experience? My vote would be GG. because he loves that type of films. Plus as the person with the lead role, he was a natural leader so I see him suggesting it as a group activity. WYB would naturally say yes because his Zhan-ge asked, it will be fine because GG is there. Years later, we see that Horror podcast on XMLY. I know the CPN is GG was using his account and I think that is still true. However a part of me thinks WYB could have tried to listen to it too since GG likes it. It’s also a way to challenge himself to face his fear ( of the dark and all the things that come with it ). It is a common CPN that they try watch similar things when they are apart. Even play games together. A couple activity.

Another one is GG chasing him with a bug on his 21st birthday. It may be horrifying, but that memory can also be sweet. There is a bug/insect that he fears, but GG was actually trying to play with him. GG’s attention was on him that whole night and they even went running/jogging early the next day. It’s like when his fear is mixed in with a memory of GG, it’s not so scary anymore.

Yibo saying that he wants to show a side of himself that is not afraid of the dark is a clue for me of growth. I’d like to think that the boys make each other stronger. A better version of themselves. It’s as if, I have to be strong because I have someone I want to protect. That is what I’ve always loved about them. They became “more” after meeting each other.

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LONELINESS.

Twinkling, twinkling, glistering, just like your body

Even hidden among many lonely stars, I still found you

Up in the sky shining, reflecting my loneliness

Remind me, I'm a lonely star too

As soon as Yibo said Loneliness my mind immediately went to how GG changed the lyrics of his favorite song from “i’m no longer a lonely star” to “I’m deeply in love with a lonely star.” back in 2019. It was such a sweet gesture, interpret it how you want but a popular CPN is that it’s a reference to Yibo. I’ve already talked about GG seeing Yibo as his star and how that symbolism keeps on appearing between them. I’m thinking of 2018-2019 GG who sees WYB as a lonely star. A shining and bright star for everyone to see and admire, but he is alone. Such is true for alot of celebrities and I feel like GG had that same view on WYB. However in his point of view, he is willing to stay by his side. to accompany this lonely star— because in a way, he is lonely too.

They found each other in a time of their lives that their career was slowly gaining momentum and the loneliness was lingering. Even if I didn’t turn BXG or what, I would still be happy that these two found each other. With how shady their industry is, it’s rare to find people you can truly be friends with. It’s what they found with each other in the beginning, a good and solid foundation of friendship. companionship.

Add to that this song ZZ performed in Our Song and Yibo being called Mr. Lonely in DDU.

The most recent is the conversation Yibo had with Huang Xuan in Summer Surf Shop in 2020.

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Starts at 1:05:50 of this video.

WYB: Actually, I don’t like to be alone very much.

HX: I think actors are very lonely. I don’t know if you feel this way. Although in a crew there are hundreds of people when your return to your room you are alone.

WYB : Yes. I also have this kind of feeling.

HX: Then you, i don’t feel so comfortable right now. So it’s not very comfortable to be —

WYB : detained in one place.

I’m pretty sure he still gets his bout of loneliness. Especially when he has to be shut in and filming, unable to go home. This is why I get so happy when we have CPN that GG visits him on set. Whether that’s SDC, LOF or even One & Only. I think GG knows that too and this is another effort they make to be together. I remember when GG was asked what he will do to let someone know he likes them — his answer was he will show up constantly beside that person. He can’t do that constantly now as he did back when they were filming and promoting CQL but i wanna believe that he takes the opportunity to visit Yibo when he can. No matter how busy he is, he will make time. Rumors/CPN of them talking to each other all the time by phone & video calls eases the loneliness too on Yibo’s part.

Just looking at back at what Yibo said before in DDU, how sometimes he wants to write down his feelings. In a way, when he is tired, sort of complain that he is tired and send it to his circle of friends— but he doesn’t because no one cares. He feels like it’s childish to do it. To now, he has someone he can talk to. Someone he can complain to and can understand. Someone who has the wisdom to advise him and knows what to say.

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THE PASSAGE OF TIME.

Who isn’t afraid of time running out? not doing the things you wanna do, and then before you know it, time’s up. I think this applies to Bobo’s career, that’s why he does not stop accepting projects. same thing with GG. It’s because their time as top celebrities is not permanent. Also with how fickle the CCP is when it comes to it’s treatment of celebrities.

However when I heard Bobo mention it, what I thought about is another fear of his which is forgetting. Which is closely related to the passing of time. When you grow older.

“I feel that a close one who accompanied you all your life till you’re old and in the end forgot all about you, it might feel like the end of the world.”

I have already discussed both their views on time & the CPN over here so i won’t repeat it.

My only wish is for them to be together as long as time will allow. 🤍

-END.

#Youtube #yizhan #bjyx #all of this is cpn #there is no science here folks im just clowning like i always do

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thetourguidebarbie · 2 years ago

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HAPPY LATE BIRTHDAY FROM 2018 WHEN I WROTE THIS!!!! I hope you had an amazing day and got to do something fun despite 100k's illness.

Idk if i'll ever finish this, and im so sorry for that, but my intentions were good so here's the best scene in your original caroline fic

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He finds her a year later in the New World, berating a conquistador for his cheek and noticeably undaggered.

“Caroline, I-” he doesn’t get a chance to finish.

“You! Do you wish to warn your brother, or should I? Because while I’m thankful for my free transocean berth, the accommodations were less than what I’ve become accustomed to, thank you very much.”

He smiles, dimples cutting at the unexpectedness of her response, but his face softens as the questions remain. “How are you awake?”

“From being stabbed by the extreme lethargy dagger? It took me half the ocean trip to gather enough strength to even grasp the hilt.” She eyes him then, motioning for him to follow her as she heads up a small footpath that cuts up from the village, heading deeper into the mountains.

He follows dumbly, still shocked by her untouched appearance. He had expected to have to dig up a grave, to rescue her from the clutches of a village shaman, but no. She’s here, blonde waves fluttering in the mountain air, bright yellow skirt swishing with embroidery, chattering about what she plans on doing to his brother for revenge. He shakes his head, unable to keep the grin off his face.

“He seems particularly concerned about decorum, so I was trying to think of how to embarass him utterly before I stabbed him with his own dagger,” she’s saying brightly, lips quirking as she catches his eyes on her. “What do you think?”

“I think Elijah should run, if he’s smart.”

Caroline gives a sharp nod in agreement as they crest one of the foothills, the valley dropping beneath them in, framed by the mountains that jaggedly rise to the east. The air is warm, but Klaus sees the snow that crests the highest peaks, taller than any he’s seen. He wants to paint them. And her.

The yellow of her skirt swirls again as she turns, pops of blue and turquoise embroidery dancing along the edge, and he follows her into a low-ceilinged stone building. A native girl’s eyes almost pop out of her head at the sight of Klaus, and he wonders again at how easily Caroline has made her way in this strange new world.

“She is not for eating,” Caroline says to him, catching his stare. “That’s Taki, she’s my number one fan.”

Klaus’ brows raise in question, the grin that started when he found her still playing at his lips.

“I saved her from one of those colonizing Spanish assholes. What is it with men thinking they can just come and conquer everything?” She sighs then, rolling her eyes at Klaus. “Sometimes humans are just as bad as you.”

He holds his hand to his chest in mock affront. “Well clearly I need to up my game, then,” he says and the bright sound of her answering laughter shifts something in his heart. It’s still thundering with unfamiliar feeling when Caroline jumps up and grabs his hand, pulling him out of the door and to a low stone bench that sits towards the edge of the path they hiked up on. The air is thick with the smell of blossoms here, and Caroline points at the low line of bushes that sit near the cliff’s edge, resplendent with blooms. Tiny wings dart about, their pulses furious drumbeats echoing in the mountain air. One of them pauses in front of them and Klaus watches Caroline smile with delight. The hummingbird hovers in front of them as if considering them, and so Klaus considers it back, while its tiny heart patters.

“What a thing,” Klaus says and pauses, and Caroline looks up at him, eyes luminous with the moment. “What a thing to have to work that hard everyday just to stay alive. To be constantly on the verge of death. And how satisfying everyday must be that it survives.”

She nods, her eyes closing briefly as if pained, and he knows she gets it. The world falls away.

THANK YOU ITS BEAUTIFUL I LOVE IT

I Y E A R N FOR THE REST YOU DONT UNDERSTAND

THYERE SO IN LOVE THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH MY HEART IT HURTS BUT IN A GOOD WAY AND I ADORE THIS SO MUCH

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#garglyswoof #klaroline #klaroline drabbles #klaroline drabble #ask #answer #!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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camelliagwerm · 2 years ago

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About to get sentimental on main for a moment bc it’s WotR’s first birthday/anniversary

I remember when I picked it up on release, I just wanted to give a new RPG a try in the hope that I’d get a game where I had a variety to choose from and both choices and relationships felt meaningful. This is now officially my favourite game that I’ve played - and that’s saying something because God of War 2018 was a tough cookie to knock off the top spot - and hands down the best RPG I’ve ever played.

It gave me Valerius and Camellia, who quite frankly might be my favourite couple ever, The OTP even, and I love that I had to work my ass off across multiple chapters to get her best ending - it made it feel that much more rewarding to me in a way that other video game romances don’t.

I think most importantly, Wrath has done three things for me: it has been my comfort game in a period of time where I’ve needed to adjust to living with a chronic condition and everything that comes with it. It’s given me back that spark for writing that I have been so desperately lacking ever since I graduated, and the most important of them all, WotR has allowed me to meet some absolutely wonderful people who I might not have stumbled across otherwise.

I’m just so so happy this game exists in my life, and I cannot wait to dive back into the game at the end of the month with the release of the Enhanced Edtion - with Valerius and finally, a Demon run that I’ve been wanting to do for months at this point.

And if you haven’t played it yet. Do so.

#harper.txt

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najatheangel · 4 years ago

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𝐌𝐲 𝐁𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐞

pairing: Lee donghyuck x reader (ft. nct members)

genre: fluff, angst, comedy and spice.

inspired song: Bestie by Lloyd.

summary: donghyuck’s and his s/o memories as best friends leading up to becoming lovers. (btw this one’s a little longer than the ones i usually write so beware loves.)

Haechan’s POV: June, 24th, 2018. “Today’s the day where I finally tell her how I feel. After 7 years of my friendship, growing up together and holding back my feelings for so long, Today is the day where things change. I’m tired of being stuck in the friend zone this is my one and only chance before she moves away. Now or Never Hyuck...”

“She's a bad one not a fast one. Every time we get together we have fun”

Growing up, me and y/n always were always bound to be apart of each other’s lives. We’ve grew up in the same neighborhood, our parents met each other in school, our friends are dating each other and we even go to the same school together. Sounds very corny right? It’s true though.

Our thing was always playing horror games together every night after we finish doing homework together. She was always the procrastinator so I had to give her some motivation. Not only that, we always play around the swing sets in the park that’s right in front of our houses to talk about anything and everything that was going on in our life’s.

This one time she got so drunk after Mark’s birthday party and was trying to swing so high and flew off the swing set thinking she was super man. Heh, she can be such a idiot at times. She may be one of the goofiest, bubbly and sweetest people I know. She can also be caring, overprotective and keep me calm whenever I’m always acting crazy.

I don’t remember what exact moment I feel in love with you, but I do remember feeling like as time went by, my love for you stared to grow much stronger. Everyone around us was starting to suspect how we felt about it each other especially my mom she adored you so much and loved the idea of us being together.

She would always ask “Where’s your girlfriend y/n?” Or “Aren’t you supposed to be with your girlfriend right now?” Ah girlfriend, I love the sound of that. Anyways I was grossed out at the idea at first because I only saw you as my sister once before and not to mention I was immature.

Once we’ve started getting much older I've tried dating other girls but none of them just didn’t compare to you. I’ve tried to joke around with them, they wouldn’t take me seriously. When I try to ask them out on dates, they would ditch me for someone else. When I try to be affectionate, they reject and always want to stay friends. I normally had luck keeping girls around, but only for a short amount of time. It seemed like every week I had a new girlfriend.

I knew y/n was always frustrated at me trying to tell me there’s other fish in the sea, but hell I want to my little mermaid and that’s y/n-ie. I even teased her about it, but she didn’t seem to take a hint.

“You know y/n... we should honestly just date. We would be the next Hyuna and Edawn in the school. They would have nothing on us.” I even nudged her on the shoulder to get her smiling.

“Hmm? Are you insane that would be too weird. We’re like brother and sister.” I could tell she was flustered, but she wasn’t exactly to thrilled with the idea. “Plus you know how I feel about Mark already. I’ve got to really wow him at this game tonight.” Oh yeah I forgot to mention she had a crush on my other best friend Mark Lee at the time.

“I know she should just be my friend Yet I'm hoping, I'm hoping that maybe it will lead In love happy end.”

It would work my nerves every time she would talk about him and always would ask advice on what to do, but I was very hopeful and believed I still had to chance to win her heart. I gush to everyone including the boys everyday about how madly in love I was with y/n without even realizing.

I would tell everyone, well except her of course. Johnny almost told my secret to everyone at Jaehyun’s house party when we were all playing strip uno. It was shut down real quickly because Doyoung gave him a long hard talk after awhile.

That night was also the worst for me because that was the same days the homecoming game where you confessed your feelings to Mark and became officially a couple. In my mind I wanted to be happy for the two of you as I watched you two kissed each other in front of everyone.

After that day, I avoided you for a while and couldn’t accept the fact that I couldn’t have you at that very moment. I couldn’t spend more time with you, hold you, kiss you, brag to everyone how much I loved you.

Although I was torn and felt defeated when you started dating Mark, I still felt a tiny bit of hope that someday I would still have a chance to make you mine and have our happy ending.

Y/N POV: June 24th, 2018. The day that I say farewell to my best friend Lee Donghyuck before going leaving to go to Harvard. I can’t believe this day has finally come we haven’t had the chance to hang out throughout our entire senior year so I want to make this count. I also want to tell him how I’ve felt about him. Let’s see where do I even start....

“We were children when we met. Just playing house and drinking sodas at the corner store.”

I remember having a hard time making friends my family moves from city to city because of my dad career as a entrepreneur for multiple companies and my mom working as a travel nurse. I was bullied for my struggling with my weight and for being an outcast which caused a lot of depression for me.

One day I remember running away from these girls in my school because they were trying to throwing apples at me. It was they’re way of trying to help me “eat healthy.” Jokes on them I was the top runner in the track team hehe.

Anyways, I lost them for a good second until I was trapped surrounded by them at the market by my house. I almost felt at lost against the 4 girls, until this crazy guy Lee Donghyuck comes out of no where scaring them away with his Freddy Kruger mask threatening them to leave me alone or he’ll haunt them in their sleep.

I felt bad for laughing, but it was one of the most nicest thing anyone has ever done for me ever since I’ve moved to Korea. He randomly introduces himself to me and offers me to play with him for an exchange of saving my life from those bullies.

“Hey my name is Donghyuck. Those girls always find their next target to pick on, but no worries princess I’m here to protect you. Let me introduce you to my other friends.”

He reached his hand on to me and ever since I was always dragged on to his crazy adventures.

“Like a brother from another. Didn't notice all the other girls they wanted more.”

Donghyuck was pretty popular when it came to having lots of guy friends and dating even when we were kids. In 5th grade on Valentine’s I remembered his desk being flooded with chocolates and anonymous love letters stuffed in backpack.

The idea didn’t bother me at first because I saw Hyuck as my older protective brother. I even slid some letters in my self saying “Happy Valentine’s Day loser. Enjoy those kits kats!” We tend to tease each other a lot, but that’s how we showed our love to each other.

People in our class including the boys Jaemin, Chenle and Yang Yang were encouraging us to date, but we just never seemed thrilled with the idea.

“Awhh c’mon you guys would be so cute together. You guys have kissed once before anyways it’s a sign.” I remember the boys would always poke fun at us, but we both would scream.

“Ew no way! Plus that kiss didn’t count it was for a school play.”

Yet every time a guy would try to ask me out, Donghyuck would scare them away because he claims that I’m still too young to date. Smh, yeah I should’ve known that it was actually because you were jealous.

“But now look at the glow up. You're the finest thing I ever seen, but you never been more than a friend to me.”

As much as I hate to admit it, but god sometimes Donghyuck can be hot...sexy...hell good looking when he wants to be. It doesn’t help that he’s teasing me about it either.

There was this one time when we were playing Mario Karts in his room and it was on a hot summer day at the time. This guy had the nerve to take his shirt off in front of me with sweat dripping on his abs, hair slightly messy to the side, and leans back with his grey sweat pants on.

GREY SWEATS!! Like cmon. I could barely concentrate on the game after awhile admiring how painly handsome. I felt very guilty because I was still dating Mark at the time, but my mind was going 2 different directions.

“Hey y/n if your hot you can take your shirt off too. I thought my mom had the mechanic fixed the ac by now so sorry about that.” There he goes sticking his tongue out like that again. Does he have no shame.

“Umm, Hyuck I just remembered I have a test on Friday to study for. Tootles!” I knew if I would’ve stayed in his room much longer I would’ve either passed out or sink deep into his tempting body leaning against mine. It was not only the heat in the room that was driving me crazy, but my beating heart that was burning my chest.

Before I tried to leave he shut the door and pushed me against the wall staring deep into my eyes. “You know princess, we don’t have a math test Friday right? I’m in the same class as you.”

This man uggh, next he proceeds to make me look at him in the eye by lifting my chin up. “D-did I say math test, silly me. I meant biology test.” After laughing awkwardly for a while I realized he wasn’t laughing with me like he usually does. It was like the vibe changed in a matter of 5 sec.

“Listen y/n...I know your dating Mark and all, but would it be wrong to just let me hold you one last time.” Yeah it would be awful, especially when your still technically half naked in front of me.

I’ve never even gotten close to kissing Mark before, yet my friend of 6 years is going to do it. So I had to run out of there before things got worse. “I-I can’t do that Hyuck. You know that wouldn’t be right. Now if you’ll excuse me.”

“I'm thinking that one day you'll be mine. And I don't wanna lose you.”

I ran home as fast as I can hyperventilating before I let myself caught any feelings. The truth was for awhile I only wanted to date Mark to try to forget about Hyuck, but after that night I’ve started to realize that I can’t escape my feelings that I have for him it’s impossible.

I love him more than anyone in this world. The thought of that saying had me laughing and crying that night.

June 26th, the day Donghyuck will have one last chance to confess his feelings before his princess y/n leaves off to go to school. Y/N and Donghyuck both run out of each other’s house and decided to meet up at the swing set after 6 years.

They both sit down sighing looking up at the orange sunset sky that’s shinning throughout the area. The two of them slowly swing looking down at the ground waiting for the other person to speak up first.

“So...I bet you probably heard the news already huh? I’ve finally got accept to Harvard. So tomorrow I’ll be going back to my hometown to begin my semester in fall.” Donghyuck responds back by saying.

“I know, I heard from my mom. She nearly cried. You know it would’ve been nice to hear from you. I haven’t seen you since last week.” Y/n finally looks up at him with tears falling down her face.

“Hyuck I’ve been going through so much this past week. I’ve broken up with Mark, my brother was stuck in the hospital and I almost had to repeat senior year if I didn’t pass that state test. So I’m sorry I didn’t contact you lately.”

Hyuck quickly stands up and hugs y/n gently by stroking her hair. “It would’ve been nice to hear your voice. I miss you and I love you.”

They both freeze up at the words he just said “Y-you what now?” Hyuck gulps at first, but then he snaps out of it ready to pour his heart out.”

“LISTEN PRINCESS I LOVE YOU OKAY?? Not just as a friend either. This whole year I never got to hang out with you and I don't know how to pretend, I hate falling in love with my best friend. That night you left my room I almost gave up on us, but I knew I had to tell you before you walk out of my life. Talk about bad timing right?”

Y/N starts giggling wiping her tears for a split second but then smiles by saying.

“I love you too Donghyuck. I have for a long time actually I just didn’t want to ruin my one and only specially friendship I had with you. I was even thinking that trying to move on by dating someone else would work, but it didn’t. Without you in my life, I am blue as the sky.”

The two of you of crack up laughing again at your embarrassing thoughts of each other, but immediately stop trying to think of what should happen next.

“We’re truly some idiots. Now we only have a few hours left of being a couple before you leave. So what happens next y/n?”

Y/n sits on Hyuck’s lap hugging him tightly and leans into his face by saying. “No worries we’ll figure this out once I move. For right now let’s just enjoy our last few hours together as a couple.”

Hyuck wraps arms around y/n waist and feels his heart skipping a beat once she starts kissing him softly in his ear. “Princess you know I’m very ticklish right there.” Ignoring his comments y/n proceeds to kiss his ear again, but then starts trailing down to his neck.

“My B-E-S-T, a true friend to me. Give me love and energy, that is what you send to me”

“Mmm keep calling me princess and I promise you I won’t be able to hold back.” He wiggles his eyebrows at your bold response and smirks by saying...

“Well what’s stoping you? We can do it right here right now on these swing sets.” He starts sliding your hands in your thighs while finally kissing you on your lips.

All that built up passion and emotion was easily displayed as you were kissing him. Not to mention the fact that he’s sliding his hand in your jeans which is making it hard for you to keep your voice down.

“Ahh keep it down y/n...Do you want the neighbors to hear you?” He teases you more by moving your hand in his jeans. “Do it for me too.”

“Lee Donghyuck, are you crazy?? Why don’t we just do this in your room. We will get caught for sure.” He pouts for a second and says

“Yes I’m crazy for you. You already know this though. How about this, we can finish this in my room and we can just tell my mom we stayed up playing games again all night long. Deal?”

“Deal!” You give him one last peck on the lips and grab him by running into his house like there’s no tomorrow. “Slow down princess!” The two of you slammed the door in his room and for the whole night you never dared to leave his side for a split second.

“It's what you do to me.”

The morning after ended up becoming very emotional for the both of you, because this is the last the you’ll be seeing each other face to face until the both of you are done with school. While he’s off becoming a singer, you’ll be on your way becoming a lawyer.

Out of all the places you could possibly move away from again your home next to Donghyuck and his family was the hardest to leave from. You made so many memories here and would cherish it for the rest of your life.

Before heading the road you give your best friend and now boyfriend one last hug and kiss on the forehead before putting your last luggage in the trunk and hitting the road to start your journey.

Although your both moving on to different paths of life career wise, you both will always have your history together and promised to reunite as a couple again when the time is right.

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Relationship with NCT Dream

➣ MARK ☾ mari

½ of the best friend crew

honestly at the beginning, mark and aria weren’t very close, having only really seen each other in passing or with johnny

but after being dropped into training together the two quickly became fast friends, and now they’re borderline inseparable

you thought you knew pain? watch aria’s reaction to mark’s graduation from dream :)

mark’s the reason why aria felt confident enough to pitch some of her lyric ideas to the team, after staying up until 4am to help her make some edits so she was as confident as possible

kinda just, rests his head on her shoulder? and wraps his arms around her waist when he’s tired

mari being confused in foreigner: ???

aria said once in a vlive that she finds mark really comforting to be around - when she feels stressed or worried about something she’ll go to mark’s room and just sit on his bed for a while

aria is so close with his parents - “ahh, how’s my favourite child” “i’m doing great mom.” “no not you, how’s aria?” “wh-hu-MOM?”

you’d swear sometimes mark is younger than her, considering the pout he puts on and how much he whines when they’re not on the same team together for promotions

mark big protecc boi but also little small cuddly boi

they’re so soft for each other ( ╥ω╥ )

in one of the fancams for mark’s solo stage during superm, someone zoomed into aria singing along with him in the wings and dancing to herself with the Proudest Smile™

he’s! so! proud! of! her! constantly! she could be walking and he’d be like “omg get it”

when aria refuses to get up and make herself food (this happens way too often, she just gets into the groove of her work and doesn’t want to move) mark gets her to by threatening to do it himself

consistently caught by czennies just standing behind her and holding her hand in crowded areas - airports, waiting rooms, etc.

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

mark and aria were standing off to one side as the mc explained the rules of the game they were about to be playing. mark looked totally confused, and elbowed aria in her side before looking down and mouthing “what?” to her. aria opened her mouth, before closing it and looking down at the ground, muttering to herself, “결합… 結合….. le chéile…. le… le.. oh oh - combined! we have to put them together, markie.”and thus, a new confusion meme was born

➣ RENJUN ☾ renjaria

renjun and aria room together while she’s promoting with dream

they were so awkward around each other at the beginning :(

only really spoke in passing, or when they had to

it was renjun that broke the ice at first, asking if she wanted to go shopping for the dorm together

now it’s their thing

“no aria, we can’t get more ice-cream we’re all supposed to be on diets.” “but ｡ﾟ･ (>﹏<) ･ﾟ｡ please”

he’s lowkey soft for her but he’d rather throw himself off the roof then tell her that

piano pals

he started teaching her how to properly play once he found her messing around on a keyboard in the studio one day

they actually argue quite a bit

not about big things, but about smaller things that push each other over the edge because of stress

the first time he yelled at her, aria spent the night in hyuck’s room

hyuck yelled at renjun for making her cry

now they’re probably the best pairing for talking through their emotions instead of blowing up on each other

they’re both quite opinionated people, and they’ve learnt to navigate that well so fights don’t happen as often

does that stop renjun from teasing aria an within an inch of her life? absolutely not

“i’ll kill you” “can you, reach?” “LISTEN HERE-”

he acts like he’s 10ft tall, excuse you sir you are barely 5′6″

renjun was her mandarin teacher for a while, but then kun kindly told her that her “introduction” was actually calling herself an idiot

aria has a bad problem with saesangs go away bitches and renjun is iconic for going off on them for her because she doesn’t like to make a big deal out of it all

he gets so angry on her behalf

that was actually a topic of one of their biggest arguments smh

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

aria was leaning on a pile of books to prop herself up as she leant forwards to try and hang a string of lights on her bedroom wall. renjun walked in, and immediately came to her aid, speaking with a teasing tone. “need a hand?”

aria, without ceremony just elbowed him in the stomach and used his then folded up figure to push herself up higher. “yes, thank you!”

she got hate for that one, but it was all in good fun and renjun was laughing after it

➣ JENO ☾ nori

aria is his princess and everyone else can fight him

like they’re both doyoung’s children, but if it comes down to it he will lay down his life for her

and not even in a romantic way, just a “you’re too precious i have to protect you” kind of way

czennies thought he was in love with her for the entirety of nct 2018 promotions

this boy was hanging off of her at any given second, and there was an edited video of jeno “glaring” at lucas’ back when the taller boy walked away after hugging aria

it was faked, stan twt needs to chill out

he drags her to the gym

he’s basically her big brother? but they’re the same age - its a weird dynamic but they make it work

they’re so LOUD together

not chaotic, but he makes her laugh so hard

vlive 191030: “nono-ah makes my cheeks hurt so i can’t spend too long around him. my sides hurt too ~ ♡(｡- ω -)”

any and all fanfictions written about the two are definitely either coffee shop, university or library AUs

this man walks like a bodyguard around her - boy got the arm over the shoulder, tucked her head into him, covering her face, its a whole ordeal

dispatch released some pictures of aria one day and accidentally blurred out jeno’s face because they thought he was her bodyguard

is so. so mindful of how long aria spends in the training rooms

like, yes everyone else expects her home before midnight (long story)

but jeno actively makes sure to ask people what time she left the dorm at, and texts her to remind her to take water breaks and to come home at a good time so she can sleep

these two are the creators of so many iconic vlives - they have a bad habit of going live at 1 or 2 in the morning, just doing random things

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

“hi hi! so, nono and i- jeno stop it, stop it! - nono and i are walking down to the park to go feed the birds - yes we’re going to feed the bird- no! we are not going to feed the ducks, bread can kill the ducks! why did you bring brea-”

jeno pulled the camera from aria’s hands. “ari and i,” he looked at her purposefully, “are going back to the dorms because someone forgot to bring the bird seed, and apparently we can’t give bread to ducks anymore.”

*sounds of aria intermittently hitting and scolding jeno ensue*

➣ DONGHYUCK ☾ arichan

the other half of the best friend crew

absolute heathens to be around when they are together

donghyuck is the person aria is closest to, and someone she’d call her best friend (only when she was sure he wouldn’t hear her)

she calls him “the demon child i can’t get rid of” but will, and has definitely pouted when he ignored her for too long

generally aria is a pretty soft spoken person, but not with hyuck around - he brings out all her chaos energy (please pray for the patience of dotae)

the pair have a little tradition of kissing the back of each others’ hands before going on stage for good luck. they can’t even remember how it started, but now its an unnegotiable pre-show ritual

he’s so clingy with her absolutely everywhere its painfully adorable (ಥ﹏ಥ)

interviews? hyuck has a hand on her knee, or if she’s wearing a skirt he’s tucked his hand in between their chairs so she can hold it discreetly. in the dorms? full body tackle onto the couch, where he proceeds to lay on top of her completely.

because of hyuck’s nickname being the sun, and aria always being around him, czennies gave her the nickname “moon” to go with him

fans thought that aria was older than hyuck for a good year and a half before she released her birthday on a vlive, because she’s normally the one tasked with reigning his chaotic energy in during promotions (that is, if she hasn’t already joined him)

but off-camera, aria is absolutely hyuck’s baby there is no disputing that. aria’s sad?he’s there with ice-cream and a blanket and a baseball bat.

the winnie the pooh character that is on aria’s bed was a gift from hyuck for her 17th birthday, after she made him watch seven episodes of the show on netflix with her one night

yes he complained, but he slapped her hand away when she went to change it to something else

a twitter thread of a czennie comparing their horoscopes together went viral when people realized that it was quite plausible that the pair were each others (platonic) soulmates

after an incident involving blueberries, donghyuck took it upon himself to check the ingredients of every. single. food item in their dorm to make sure it was ok for her to eat

hyuck clowns her for her irish accent, and aria curses him out in japanese

tldr: they cute or whatever

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

donghyuck was doing a vlive in his bedroom, sitting and talking to czennies when aria opened the door to his room quietly. she didn’t say anything, just waved slightly with almost closed eyes before she crawled underneath his covers and tucked her plushie underneath her chin. hyuck didn’t even blink at it - so it must have been a regular occurrence.

➣ JAEMIN ☾ nari

jaemin highkey flusters her

not in a oo you’re so cute, cute boy make nerves go eeee

but he’ll wink at her and teasingly compliment her and now she looks like a firetruck this isn’t fair

he absolutely takes advantage of this where ever possible

“riri, can i have some?” “no, i just made these you should have helped me (-_-)” “riri~ but you looked so cute making them i didn’t want to interrupt you~” *aria.exe has stopped responding*

but when aria isn’t trying to get her cheeks to stop being red, they’re really cute together

you’d swear aria is older, by how much jaemin whines for her attention

the mighty battles between jaemin and hyuck

hyuck’s just biding his time for the rooftop fight

kinda panics around her when she’s crying, but is always the first to offer up a hug

has a period tracker on his phone but no one knows about it

he doesn’t like to coddle her because they’re so close in age, but that doesn’t stop him from getting protective in certain situations *cough cough the fansign cough cough*

jaemin and aria cuddling when they’re drunk? more likely than you’d think

he definitely professed his undying love for her at one point while being drunk, and chenle caught it on video

“noona we’re playing that at your wedding”

designated blanket/pillow hunter at award shows, and if he can’t find one then he usually just gives her his jacket

the amount of coffee these two consume should be illegal

aria prefers to call him nana and he prefers to call her riri in the dorms, so when either of them get called by their first name by the other it means A: they’re on a schedule, or B: someone’s about to die

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

nct dream on idol room were trying out jaemin’s death-in-a-cup (his coffee) and as the cup got passed around, aria grew more and more concerned with each face the members made. “jaemin if i die from this-”

he only smiled at her while passing over the cup. aria held it up to look at the black liquid skeptically, before sighing in resignation and bringing the cup to her lips to take a sip.

and then another.

“wait this is good i like this”

➣ CHENLE ☾ leri

hide yo kids and hide yo wives because leri is entering the chat

*cue aria and chenle wearing 2000s rapper clothes with backwards baseball caps*

these two are so chaotically calm

its like the energy cancels out or something

aria with hyuck is just so loud and obnoxious, and the same with chenle with jisung

so when you put those two together it just turns into le positive vibes

you ever meditated to those 132 hertz sounds? thats them in a sound

aria will hold him like a baby kitten she’s expecting to try wriggle out of her grip at any moment and its comical because he’s a good head taller than her

aria definitely has a knack for making her groupmates’ parents fall in love with her

every two weeks or so she goes for dinner in chenle’s house upon his mother’s request

they have a mutual understanding of the mental toll it takes to be around the rest of the dreamies constantly

chenle and aria sitting peacefully, watching a cdrama:

the dreamies, throttling each other: AAAAAAAAAAA

will never admit it but he misses her the most when she goes away to promote

he thinks of her as a big sister and the dorms feel empty without her there

aggressive proud hugs

so aggressive, he legit tackles her

he had to tone it down after knocking her over once backstage and she narrowly missed clocking herself on a nearby soundboard

“YAH ZHONG CHENLE YOU HAVE TO BE CAREFUL!”

he always gets a little bit anxious when they eat things outside of the dorms because he’s never seen her have an allergic reaction before and he’d like to keep it that way (`皿´＃)

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

chenle was particularly restless that day, constantly shuffling about in his seat to the point where renjun forcefully tossed an arm over his shoulders to hold him still while the vlive was still playing.

not one to be defeated, chenle then turned to press his lips to renjun’s cheek playfully, laughing when the older boy turned away in disgust. he turned to do the same to aria, coming closer to her cheek before aria turned her head to face his.

“AAA-” “EW CHENLE WHY”

➣ JISUNG ☾ jiri

oh god oh god oh god

if aria could take this boy and wrap him in a blanket and keep him in her pocket she would - no questions asked

jisung knows she loves him the most out of dream sorry markhyuck and takes advantage of it every second

she used to coddle him a lot when he was smaller, but now that he’s older aria tries to rein it in as much as possible

that doesn’t mean it goes away completely though

“noona can you cook for me?” “of course jisungie! what do you want?”

*jeno gobsmacked in the background* “you just told me you were too tired to cook tonight”

aria: big baby, must protect

jisung: tiny noona, must protect

jaemin and aria are really the only people jisung is ok with seeing him be super emotional - and he flip flops between the two depending on the reason why he’s emotional

self-esteem, feeling poopy side of it all? straight into aria’s bed, letting her roll him onto his side so she can tuck his head into her shoulder and covers the two of them with her duvet the way she used to do when he was shorter

this boy cannot curse around her unless he wants to get his ass Beat

dancing bros

they go so hard in their NCT Dance duet videos

he keeps band-aids in his bag for her in exchange for her keeping an extra bottle of water in hers because jisung always forgets his own

jisung rests his elbow on her head a lot

but only briefly because the last time he stayed there for too long she stamped on his foot

tldr: aria is jisung’s emotional support gnome

FAN FAVOURITE MOMENT.

jisung and aria were doing the chicken leg battle (this one) to fight for first dibs on the rooms they were going to be sharing for the next week or so. just before they were about to start, mark started laughing and pointing at how high jisung’s leg came up on aria’s, with aria’s knee barely hitting jisung’s mid-thigh

“this is an unfair advantage! this is cheating!”

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Kylian Mbappé is Born to Run

The France forward grew up in the suburbs of Paris, steeped in the culture of football. At 22, the World Cup-winner is already a global superstar, and only now entering his prime. Will Euro 2020 be the moment when he overtakes Messi and Ronaldo to become recognised as the best player on the planet?

Kylian Mbappé was 18 when he walked into the changing room of the French national team. “It’s very difficult,” he recalls, “because great players don’t want to give you their place. That’s what makes them great players. They especially don’t want to give you their place if you arrive with the label of ‘Future Great Player’.” Within a year, Mbappé and France had won the World Cup in Moscow.

Three years on, we are talking in a room of his mansion in the leafy, old-money streets of Neuilly, just outside Paris. It isn’t even his home; he bought it to house his foundation, which offers after-school activities to rich and poor children alike. In conversation, Mbappé resembles a veteran TV presenter more than a young footballer. He makes short speeches in complete sentences, as precise in his footing as he is on the field. He sits as straight-backed as he runs. His expressive face keeps breaking into smiles: he likes talking, and is almost unburdened by the usual footballer’s fear of saying the wrong thing.

His burly father Wilfried sits beside us, but only once during the interview will he feel impelled to intervene. Meeting Mbappé, you come to understand how he hit football seemingly already fully formed. At 22, he has achieved more than most great players ever do. Can he take one more step and become the world’s best footballer?

His story starts 10 miles and a universe away from where we’re sitting today. His hometown, Bondy, is a multicultural suburb just northeast of Paris that looks as if someone plonked a Soviet town on top of an ancient French village. The old church is surrounded by fast-food joints and fading 1960s’ apartment blocks, one of them now adorned with a giant mural of Mbappé.

His parents grew up in Bondy: Wilfried, of Cameroonian origin, and Mbappé’s mother Fayza, of Algerian descent. Mixed marriages are common in the Parisian suburbs, the banlieues, but the couple did have to defy some local disapproval.

If a wannabe footballer had to choose the ideal place on earth to grow up, it might have been the Mbappé home in Bondy. Mbappé’s father and uncle were both football coaches, and Fayza, who ran after-school activities, played handball in the French first division. His parents had adopted an older boy, Jirès Kembo Ekoko, who went on to make a long career as a journeyman professional footballer. “I didn’t bring a new passion into the family,” Mbappé says with understatement.

He grew up practically inside the local football club, AS Bondy. “In the Parisian suburbs there are football fields everywhere,” he enthuses. “People here live for football. I was born with the sports ground facing my window.” It’s no wonder, he adds, that Paris’s suburbs are perhaps the deepest talent pool in global football, producing players such as Paul Pogba, Blaise Matuidi, N’Golo Kanté and Riyad Mahrez.

As a non-white kid from the suburbs, did Mbappé always feel accepted as French before he became a French icon? “I’ve always felt French. I don’t renounce my origins, because they are part of who I am, but I’ve made my whole life in France, and never at any moment was I made to feel I wasn’t at home here.” In the banlieues, he says, “We have a love of France because France has given to us and we try to give back to it.”

Mbappé’s parents made him take school seriously, and he was also a not-very-talented flautist at Bondy’s conservatory, but football came first. At AS Bondy, he says, “My father was my coach for 10 years. He helped construct the style of player I wanted to become. But I never felt the pressure of, ‘You have to become a footballer.’ Above all, it was a passion.”

Tagging along with his dad and uncle on their coaching jobs, the child acquired an unusual gift: he became a footballer who thinks like a coach. “Very young, I was always in the changing rooms, listening to the tactical talks and the different points of view, because football is made up of different viewpoints. I learned to have this tolerance, and I think it helped me, because being a coach is putting yourself in somebody else’s place. I think I have the gift of doing that. It helps in football, because if you’re a player, generally you think about yourself, about your own career. I can see, for instance, when something in a game is frustrating a team-mate. I can put him at ease.”

When you’re in the World Cup final, you’re convinced you’re going to win. You walk onto the field, the trophy is there, and you tell yourself it is impossible the other team will take it

Mbappé turned out to be that perfect sporting combination: a natural who is coachable. “He assimilates advice quickly. You ask him something once, and the second time he does it,” Antonio Riccardi, his former youth coach at AS Bondy, told me. Even as a child, Mbappé was an efficient footballer: decisive, never just decorative.

By adolescence, he was being courted by the big European clubs, which all keep close tabs on the Paris region. He visited Chelsea, and celebrated his 14th birthday at Real Madrid, which cannily found him the perfect babysitter: the club’s then assistant coach Zinedine Zidane, the greatest French footballer. When Zidane offered Mbappé a lift in his fabulous car, the overawed child offered to take his shoes off first.

The Mbappés sifted the countless offers and chose Monaco, where the route to the first team looked shortest. Mbappé arrived there, he says, “with my [footballing] baggage well filled.”

Kids in performance-sports families learn that they never arrive. Each step up is just another learning opportunity. In Monaco’s first team, the teenaged Mbappé encountered the veteran Colombian striker Radamel Falcao, freshly returned from unhappy loan spells with Manchester United and Chelsea.

“He was a star,” says Mbappé, “but he had a desire to transmit. He was like a teacher to me. He’s someone who always wants to score, but he left me the space to express myself. He’s very cool in front of goal, calm in his game, and he transmitted this serenity that I didn’t have, because I was young, excited and wanted to go at 2,000 kilometres an hour.”

The kid who didn’t yet have a driving licence scored 15 league goals in his first professional season to help Monaco win the French title in 2017. He added six more in the Champions League knockout rounds. He also passed his baccalauréat, France’s equivalent of A-levels.

Mbappé marvelled at the tension on the faces of other professionals, because he didn’t feel it himself. Everything came easily to him, without great sacrifice, he has said. When I ask about stress in a profession of hypercompetitive men, he shrugs: “Daily life is easy.”

His vertical ascent didn’t surprise him; it just happened a bit quicker than he’d expected. But others were stunned. Here was something new: an 18-year-old complete forward. Built like an Olympic sprinter, Mbappé ran upright, looking around him. He could dribble, cross and shoot. He was more advanced than Lionel Messi and Cristiano Ronaldo had been at 18.

How does he describe his style? “The modern attacker who can play anywhere,” he replies. He explains that forwards used to be specialists: “There’d be a number nine, or number 11, or number seven.” Mbappé, though, is the all-in-one. “I think my CV can speak for me. I’ve played alone up front, I’ve played on the left and the right. In all humility, I don’t think it’s given to everyone to change position like that every year and keep a certain standard of performance at the highest level. That didn’t fall from heaven. If I speak of the baggage given me in my teens, it’s all there.”

In one regard he has always been unequalled: the counterattack at speed. He says, “I’ve managed to work on my weak points but above all to perfect my strong points, because I was always told that it’s through your strong points that you’ll exist.”

In March 2017, Mbappé became the youngest player in 62 years to debut for France. Five months later, his hometown club Paris Saint-Germain agreed to sign him for a fee of £166m. He drew on his childhood experiences to navigate two alpha-male changing-rooms. At PSG, his good English and Spanish helped him deal with foreign team-mates. With Les Bleus, France’s assistant coach Guy Stéphan told Mbappé’s biographer Arnaud Hermant: “He knows the codes of the changing room. At table or in the bus, he doesn’t just sit somewhere randomly. For a youngster, he isn’t timid or introverted. He expresses himself.”

By summer 2018, picked for the World Cup in Russia, Mbappé was comfortable enough to claim the blue number 10 shirt — previously worn by Zidane and Michel Platini — and to say in public that he was gunning for the trophy.

“I went to play the matches calmly like I always have. I didn’t want to change just because it was the World Cup,” he says. “We were lucky to have a young squad. We were totally carefree, just a band of mates.”

Hang on, surely a football team isn’t really a band of mates? “No,” he acknowledges. “Just like the baker doesn’t get on with all bakers. You don’t have to eat with your team-mates every evening to win.”

In the World Cup round of 16, his two goals and a 37kmph gallop through Argentina’s defence made his global name. The night before the final against Croatia, he admits, “I was a bit stressed. I didn’t manage to sleep much. But the nearer the match came, the less stressed I was.” Before kick-off he was joking in the changing room. Stéphan recalls: “He experienced the final as if it were a PSG-Dijon game.”

Mbappé says, “When you’re in the World Cup final, you’re convinced that you’re going to win. Even the Croats were convinced they were going to win. You walk onto the field and the trophy is there, between the two teams, and you tell yourself it’s impossible that the other team will take it. That’s why there’s such disappointment afterwards if you don’t win.”

Half of Bondy gathered in front of a giant screen to cheer on the commune’s own “Kylian national”. Scoring in France’s 4–2 victory, he seemed to have reached his career apogee aged 19. He didn’t see it like that. Interviewed the night of the final, he described winning the World Cup as “already good” but only a start.

The next day, as the Bleus’ bus edged along a packed, ecstatic Champs-Élysées, writes Hermant, the ice-cold kid mused to the French Football Federation’s president Noël Le Graët: “Was all this really necessary?”

Mbappé explains now: “For me, it wasn’t an outcome, a finality. I don’t think of that trophy now at all. I don’t look at pictures of the World Cup before going to sleep. Honestly, it’s people on the street who come up and say, ‘You’re world champion, merci, merci.’”

He understood that his early triumph had upset football’s all-important hierarchies. Returning to PSG, he immediately reassured Paris’s Brazilian star Neymar: “I’m not going to walk on your flowerbeds. I’ll be a candidate for the Ballon d’Or [the award for world’s best footballer] this year because you won’t be, but I promise I don’t want to take your place.”

Soon after, he took the World Cup trophy to Bondy, where thousands came out to greet him. “It was a way to say, ‘Thank you.’ I’ve never forgotten which soup I have eaten. So it was important for me to return there after my first World Cup and first international title.” (Note that word, “first”.)

France’s coach, Didier Deschamps, recalls falling into “physical and moral apathy” the season after he lifted the World Cup as a player in 1998. Did Mbappé experience a hangover? He grins: “I finished as best player in the league, highest scorer, best young player, I was chosen in the team of the season, and we won the league.”

Winning the World Cup made Mbappé a national hero. Does he consider himself a star? “I think so. If your face is everywhere in the city, everywhere in the world, that’s for sure. Being a star is a status, but it doesn’t make me a better person than others.”

He lives like a luxury prisoner, who cannot leave home without being mobbed. “It takes an organisation just to go out,” he says. He has joked that when his future children ask him about his youthful adventures, he won’t have any.

“A fan gives you enormous love,” says Mbappé carefully, “but sometimes maybe an excess of love, and he might not respect your intimacy. We give our lives to the people, because we give them pleasure every three days, and we give them our time. It’s impossible to hope for a normal life, but just a little respect for one’s private life isn’t too much to ask for, I think.”

As a young man of non-white origins, he has a particular vulnerability with the French public, one-third of whom voted for the far-right candidate Marine Le Pen in the run-off of the presidential elections in 2017. Even so, he has begun to speak out against police violence.

“I took time to start talking about it, because I wasn’t ready,” he admits. “I had a lot of things to digest: my change of status, my new life. But I have always opposed all types of violence.”

When I note that French police violence is disproportionately directed against people of non-white origins from suburbs like Bondy, his father stirs from his silence: “We’re not answering that. You’re orienting it as if the violence were only against people from the banlieues, which is false.”

In high-level football, nobody will make a place for you. Ego, self-love, isn’t just the caprice of stars. It’s also the will to give the best of yourself

French fans like their stars humble. Mbappé has explained “the French mentality” to Neymar, who favours a bling-bling, poker-playing party lifestyle. Mbappé says, “In Brazil, they are more festive, in France more serious. Here it’s not considered good to display your passions. People will think he’s neglecting PSG because he plays poker. I think he has begun to understand that. At first it was hard for him because he experienced it as an affront. When he arrived, they put his face on the Eiffel Tower, and six months later they’re asking him why he’s playing poker. In France, people know what you have but they don’t want to see it. They just want to see you playing football, smiling.”

But Mbappé believes humility isn’t enough. He thinks great footballers need big egos. “In high-level football, nobody will make a place for you or tell you that you’re capable of things. It’s up to you to persuade yourself that you are. Ego, self-love, isn’t just a caprice of stars. It’s also the will to surpass yourself, to give the best of yourself.” Every time he walks onto the field, he says, he tells himself, “I’m the best.”

In truth, he knows he isn’t the best — Messi and Ronaldo are better. “It’s not only me who knows that,” he laughs. “Everyone knows it. If you tell yourself that you’ll do better than them, it’s beyond ego or determination — it’s lack of awareness. Those players are incomparable. They have broken all laws of statistics. They have had 10 extraordinary years, 15.”

Still, he admits: “You do always compare yourself with the best in your sport, just as the baker compares himself with the best bakers around him. Who makes the best croissant, the best pain au chocolat? I watch matches of other great players to see what they’re doing. ‘I know how to do this, but can the other guy do it too?’ I think other players watch me, too. I think that pushes players to raise their game, just as Messi was good for Ronaldo and Ronaldo was good for Messi.”

Does Mbappé compare himself with the other great forward of his generation, Borussia Dortmund’s Norwegian Erling Braut Haaland? Mbappé’s reply sounds a touch patronising: “It’s his second year, we’re getting to know him. It’s the start for him. I’m happy for him, for what he’s doing.”

The more you become an important person, the more duties you have. I’m no longer the little kid. I’m Kylian Mbappé

In this elite individual competition, the top spot may be coming free. Messi (34 this month) and Ronaldo (36) are “nearer the end than the beginning”, acknowledges Mbappé. In February, his hat-trick helped PSG thrash Messi’s Barcelona 1–4 at the Camp Nou. “The best match of my career,” Mbappé says, “because it was complete. I helped my team both offensively and defensively, and I succeeded in the creation and finishing of my moves, in one-against-ones. I won 90 per cent of my duels, if that stat is correct. All match, I never had a moment when I felt extinguished.” He then scored two at Bayern Munich, before PSG fell to Manchester City.

Some opposing teams now rearrange their entire tactical systems to combat the Mbappé counterattack. “There are quite a few anti-Kylian plans every match,” he says. “It means I’ve been recognised as a great player. It requires you to have multiple strings to your bow. I like that, because I adore challenges.”

Surely he’s now too big a player for the French league? He umms and aws: “France isn’t the best championship in the world, but it’s my responsibility, as a flagship player, to help the league grow.” Yet he may well leave this summer, to Real Madrid or England. The decision, perhaps the biggest he’ll face in his career, will be made inside his family. Almost uniquely for a star footballer, Mbappé doesn’t have an agent, just lawyers.

At 22, he considers himself an experienced footballer. He says he and Neymar “are now the two natural leaders” of PSG. When he kicks off the delayed Euro 2020 with France in June, it will be with more responsibility than at the World Cup. “The more you become an important personality, the more duties you have. I’m no longer the little kid. I’m Kylian Mbappé.”

Kylian Mbappé’s prime may have already arrived. Fast strikers usually peak between 20 and 24. A Euro and a World Cup within 18 months, while France’s generation of 2018 remains almost intact, may be his best chance to make football history. What are his career ambitions? That smile again: “To win everything.” (Esquire Magazine)

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