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Hello lovely,
I saw your post that your requests are open, so I will give it a try =)
Imagine Bucky and reader are best friends but they have a huge argument and now they don't talk to each other for days. She's feeling really bad, missing him. He is her most important person and now without interacting with him for days, she's feeling lost and lonely and heartbroken. Maybe she has not a super power and is only a normal human, helping the Avengers with IT or something. Due to the argument with her best friend and not talking to Bucky (Bucky ignores her completely) she begins to feel it not only mental but also physically. She can't eat probably and at the end falls deathly sick.... With a fluffy happy ending and a worried and protective Bucky
Please. That would be nice.
Take care honey
oh my goodnessâ my heart đâ€ïž the angst is gonna hurt, but iâm such a sucker for it. i had so much fun writing this one, thank you for requesting and i hope you like itđ„°
Love Hurts
⥠Pairing: Beefy!Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader
⥠Summary: You and Bucky get into a heated argument, things are said and done and now he wonât speak to you. You donât think you can handle him ignoring your existence.
⥠Warnings: language, mentions of buckyâs trauma, heavy angst, malnourishment, depression, anxiety/panic attacks, minor injuries, hospitalization, suicidal ideation, self hate, literally hurt just writing this
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MINORS DO NOT INTERACT | MATURE CONTENT 18+
Your nails bit into your palm, denting the fleshâ threatening to pierce the delicate skin. It was all to hold yourself back, distract you from the words that wanted to burst out.
It was becoming a sickening routine, Bucky was reckless and had yet another near death experience on his recent mission. The anxiety and the nerves stopping your body from functioningâ the dreaded wait for his jet to arrive back at the compound. You shouldnât have to be used of receiving the call that he had yet again made a reckless moveâ but you were starting to discover a pattern.
It did nothing to ease the panic that swirled in your chest every time he left for missions. Youâd sob, throwing up everything you had eaten that dayâ unable to stomach anything with the idea that Bucky was on a mission. You never found your anxiety to be so severeâ but when Bucky was even mentioned about going on a mission⊠it spiked.
Thatâs where you found yourself in his room, watching him pace the spaceâ avoiding your frustrated stare. You werenât angry at him per sayâ you were angry that he didnât value his life.
âSeriously (Y/n)â you get so worked up over nothing. Iâm here and aliveâ isnât that enough?â He exclaimed, throwing his hands up in frustration.
You pressed your nails tighter to your palm, yet the pain couldnât stop your thundering thoughts.
âYouâre here and alive now, until you do some stupid shit like this again and are dead!â You hissed, trying to keep your voice low but you didnât know how much longer you could control yourself.
He glared at you, squinting his eyes in anger and then rolling his eyes.
âOh for fucks sakeâ can you stop fucking babying me? I can handle myself!â He raised his voice, his metal arm whirring.
âIâm not babying youâ Iâm just scared youâre gonna get yourself killed. Do you care about your life at all?â You asked him aggressively, your voice raising just a tad.
He took a long pause, staring at you with his face void of emotionâ only annoyance.
âNot really.â He admitted.
You were taken back, although you had these conversations with him a time or twenty. It was an ongoing process to get him to slowly love himselfâ his past as The Winter Soldier torturing his soul. He was so convinced he wasnât deserving of anything, not even a roof over his head. It was a struggle to help him, but you werenât going to give up on him.
âYou realize if anything ever happened to you Iââ Your voice broke, needing a breath, âBuck I wouldnât know what to do with myself.â
You thought you saw his eyes flash with guilt, but before you could linger on the look for too longâ his face was hardening again.
âThat doesnât sound like my problem.â He mumbled out, making your eyes widen.
You were extremely taken back from those words, your chest aching painfullyâ him not knowing what effect those words had on you.
âAre you fucking serious?â You asked him, your face morphing into a hurt expression, mixed with anger. âCan you just do your job without trying to kill yourself?â
His face grew red with rage and he was stomping up towards youâ his face inches from yours.
âI am doing my jobâ very well in fact. Unlike you who just fucking sits here doing nothing!â He defended himself, his breath hitting your face in warm pants.
âDoing nothing? Buckâ why are you like this?â You puffed your chest, not backing down from his towering form.
But your words seemed to have hit a nerve, as he shrunk back slightly, narrowing his gaze at you.
âLike what?â
You furrowed your brows, slowing your racing heart from the shoutingâ you werenât sure you had said anything bad. Did you?
âWhat?â You squeaked out, nervous now.
âYou said, why am I like this⊠like what?â He pushed, stepping closer to you now, his face still red with anger but you could see the hurt in his eyes.
You swallowed and wondered how to convince him you didnât mean anything bad by what you said. But you were almost positive it would be an impossible task to get Bucky to listen.
âBuck, I didnât mean anythinââ
âWhatâ you think Iâm not capable of doing my job? You think Iâm still the monster hydra made me?â He spat, his chest rising and falling quicker.
âNo, no Buck listenââ
That was definitely not what you meant, you could tell he was spiraling and you were still confused as to why. You would never make him think that.
âAfter 70 fucking years I finally have a job that I likeâ that I enjoy doingâ I fucking help people! Iâm finally doing some good and now youâre telling me Iâm not capable of doing it?â He boomed, his chest puffing into yours and your stumbled back slightly. âYou think Iâm only capable of being a monster? Huh? Is that what you fucking think?â
You were growing scared now, the look in his eyes wild with something and you didnât like how close he was to youâ you knew heâd never hurt you but your fear overwhelmed your senses.
âFridayâ call Steve and Sam in here now!â You shouted into the room, and Buckyâs eyes squinted painfullyâ his metal arm whirring again.
Bucky only saw one thingâ you didnât reassure him that he was thinking irrationally. You didnât correct him that he wasnât the monster. Instead you called for help, that you were clearly scaredâ because you thought he was a monster.
He was at a loss for words and just stared at you, almost through youâ as his breathing was only getting heavier at the sight of your fearful eyes.
Not even minutes later, Steve and Sam were busting through the door, taking in the scene and separated you and Bucky.
âHeyâ whatâs going on?â Steve asked in between the two of you. âBuck, whatâs wrong man?â
You couldnât seem to find the words and just stood speechless as wellâ the fight startling you. This was one of the worst ones, and it was also one that still left you confused. You cursed yourself for not being careful enough with your wordsâ but it was almost impossible to get through to him when he was on the brink of having an episode.
Sam walked closer to you, his facing morphing into concern as he took in your shocked expression.
â(Y/n)? You okay? Did he hurt you?â Sam whispered, keeping his words only between you two.
You slowly shook your head but still didnât respond verbally.
âOkay, okay thatâs good. You wanna go get a drink from downstairs? Why donât we take a breather okay?â Sam suggested softly, big brother mode kicking in at the sight of your frazzled state.
Without another word, you left the room with Samâ missing the devastated look from Bucky.
Steve waited until the door shut, then his attention was back on Bucky.
âBuck, you gotta talk to me manâ what happened?â He asked softly, watching his friend slowly relax, but it wasnât from being in a relaxing moodâ his body and mind were just exhausted from the argument.
âI fucked everything up. Thatâs what happened.â He mumbled, turning away from Steve to sit on the edge of his bed.
Steve followed behind but stood in front of him, shaking his headâ ready to argue.
âYou didnât mess anything up, arguments happen. You guys will work it out. I know how much you mean to each other.â Steve pointed out, watching Buckyâs face unchanging.
âYou didnât see the way she looked at meâ sheâs scared of me Iââ He shuttered, his breath shaky as he remembered your look, âI fucking scared her.â
Steveâs chest ached, the state of his friend breaking his heart. He knew Bucky meant no harm, and he almost for a fact knew that you knew that too. But Bucky for sure didnât believe that himself.
âI didnât see what you saw, but I can guarantee you that sheâs not afraid of you. This is (Y/n) we are talking about. You are her world Buck.â Steve tried to convince him.
Bucky shook his head, running his flesh hand through his hair.
âI think I just need to stay away from her for awhile.â Bucky came up with instead.
Steve immediately started shaking his head, knowing that was the last thing he needed.
âBucky Iââ
âPlease Steve⊠I just need some space.â Bucky pleaded, his body sagging in exhaustion.
Steve couldnât find it in himself to argue with him anymore about this. Maybe he did need some time to himself, to cool down and gather his thoughts. Also Steve wasnât going to force him to anything ever. After the years his pal went throughâ he would never make him do anything. He had enough things decided for him, and Steve wasnât about to stoop to hydraâs level.
Meanwhile down in the kitchen, Sam was getting you a glass of waterâ standing across from your seated form at the island. He slid the cup across, sending a worried glance at you.
â(Y/n)?â Sam snapped his fingers getting your attention.
You were shaken from your state of staring, but even snapped out of the tranceâ the anxieties still swirled within you.
âYeah sorry⊠Iâm here.â You whispered, grabbing the glass and taking a tiny sip.
Sam gave you a quizzical expression, watching you start to slip back into a mindless stareâ so he spoke up.
âYou wanna tell me what happened?â He asked, genuinely curious what had went down.
He knewâ hell everyone knew you and Bucky were extremely close. Best of friends, always there for one anotherâ dancing on the line of strictly friends to lovers. Truthfully, Sam found it completely obnoxious and just wanted you two together already.
âI donât really know⊠I think I said the wrong thingâ I didnât mean to make him upset.â You confessed, keeping your eyes on the countertop, not risking a glance to Sam.
âHey, donât beat yourself upâ mistakes happen. Iâm sure heâll forgive you.â Sam told you.
You shook your head, gripping the cup tighter.
âGod I hope so⊠I donât know what Iâd do without him.â You whispered pathetically, tears welling in your eyes.
Sam reached out to rub your arm comfortingly, trying to relax you so you didnât start crying. He hated to see you cryâ made his heart hurt.
âItâs been a long day for everyone, why donât you go head upstairs and get some sleep. Iâm sure things will have blown over by tomorrow.â He suggested and you finally met his gaze, smiling weakly and nodding.
Without saying goodbye, you stood up and headed to your room. Taking Samâs words and playing them on repeat in your head.
Tomorrow is another day, tomorrow would be better.
God had you hoped that was the caseâ it only was the beginning on the torment.
You had slept in longer than usual, but overall felt refreshed. The first thing that came to mind when fully waking up was Bucky. Immediately you headed downstairs to find himâ needing to talk with himâ apologize.
Making it down to the kitchen, you let out a breath you didn't know you were holding in at the sight of him sitting at the islandâ sipping at his coffee. You furrowed your brows, thinking he'd be done with his coffee by now, since you had slept in. Your chest ached with guilt with the possibility that he didn't sleep well.
You took a deep breath before making yourself known, although you were sure be could sense you in the roomâ considering he was a super soldier.
"Morning Buck." You announced, walking around the island so you could face him.
He kept his gaze down at his coffee, finding the cup more interesting than you.
Okay, thatâs fair. You thought, you most probably deserved that reaction.
âYou sleep okay?â You asked again, picking at the skin on your nails nervously.
Againâ he didnât even lift his head. In fact, he wasnât even acknowledging you. You waited several minutes for a response, the silence becoming thick with tension and you couldnât stand it.
âBucky?â You tried, and this time he lifted his head.
Your heart twinged in your chest at his bloodshot eyes, clear evidence that he hadnât gotten good sleep. You hated yourself for causing him the stress, especially knowing he was just starting to actually get hours of sleep. It was huge progress compared to his nights either screaming awake or just staring at the walls. But now you had to go and ruin all that progress. You felt sick to your stomachâ disgusted with yourself.
âIâm really sorry about last night⊠I didnât like how ugly it got and Iâm sorry if I said something to upset youâ you know Iâd never intentionally hurt you.â You told him, picking more aggressively at your nails, causing to nail beds to bleed.
You swallowed nervously when he didnât answer right away, instead staring at you with⊠what was that? Disgust? You didnât know, but you hated the look altogether.
âBucky, please say something.â You pleaded.
Bucky lowered his gaze to his coffee again, taking a minute before he stood up and looked your way.
âI just need some space.â He told you quietly.
You were relived to have him finally talk to you, but to hear him suggest space between you twoâ you could almost feel the knife digging into your chest. You tried to keep a neutral expression but otherwise felt your bottom lip quiver.
Without giving you time to respond, Bucky was walking out of the roomâ leaving you standing there speechless, lungs begging for air. You didnât want your mind to go immediately to that thought, but you couldnât ignore it eitherâ he hated you.
âHey babe, I need you to help me out in the lab todââ Tony came busting into the room, but immediately shut up once he saw your broken expression. âHoney, whatâs wrong? You alright?â
You nodded your head, lying to him and yourself and started waving him off with the fakest smile.
âYeahâ yeah Iâm good. Just need to uhâ need to get some things done.â You told him, your eyes darting all around the room, the familiar feeling of panic seeping into your being.
Tony gave you a âreally?â look and stepped closer to you.
â(Y/n) Iâm not blindâ I can see youâre upset. Talk to mââ
âSeriously Tonyâ Iâm fine! Just leave it alone!â You told him a little too aggressively.
His face was taken back and you felt guilty immediately, cursing yourself for hurting everyone.
Why are you such a fucking issue? Your mind screamed at you.
You didnât waste another second and sped walked out of the room, needing to calm yourself down before you ran into any one else. You were spiraling and you needed to just relaxâ take a deep breath. Maybe you just needed one more day and things would be back to normal.
Yeah⊠just one more day.
You had hoped that was the case as well⊠but as alwaysâ things only got worse.
Bucky refused to talk to you or even look at you. Heâd given you the cold shoulder for almost two weeks now. He would get up and leave the second you entered the room. He couldnât stand you it seemed.
You couldnât keep hiding your hurt. At first, you had done a good job at hiding how you were really feeling. Saving the sobbing and attacks for when you were alone in your room. As the days lingered on, you found yourself weak and drainedâ you didnât have enough energy to put up a charade anymore.
The whole team were sending you worried looks, and attempted to talk with you. But the second theyâd tryâ youâd bolt. The subject was too sensitive, too raw. You didnât want to talk to anyone but Buckyâ and he hated you.
You had missed so many meals, forgetting to eat with your mental struggles throughout the days. You had been getting no more than two hours of sleep. You were so stressed, so stuck in your own mind that you couldnât function. Even when you had managed to remember to eat, your stomach would knot up to the point that you were throwing everything up. You were gaunt, basically a real life zombie. You needed helpâ but you needed Bucky more.
You were laying in bed staring unknowingly into space, it had been hard to focus with no food or sleep in your systemâ so you had only managed to lay here. Even that was exhausting, no matter how much you laid aroundâ your mind wouldnât stop the assault. Your anxiety had never been this bad, you were a prisoner to it.
Knocking at your door had you jumping, your heart racingâ and for a moment you forgot where you were.
Youâre in the compound⊠yeah thatâs right.
You slowed your breathing and swung your legs sluggishly over the edge of the bed to answer it. You werenât prepared for the sudden dizzy spell, your vision spotting with black and white specks. You tried to blink it off, but suddenly you were toppling to the ground.
You fell to the floor with a loud thump, luckily landing on your front, your hands somehow catching most of your fallâ you could already feel the throbbing in your palms.
You didnât hear the persistent knocking, or the door open. You didnât even hear the voice speaking from the doorway. It was when a hand landed on your shoulder that you were gasping, forgetting your surroundings once again.
Your eyes met Steveâs and you swore your heart was about to beat out of your chest.
â(Y/n) are you alright?â He asked you, hovering his hands over youâ not sure what you had hurt.
You furrowed your brows, looking him over.
âSteve what are⊠what are you doing here?â You asked genuinely confused.
You watched Steveâs eyes widen and he swallowed nervouslyâ his expression growing more concerned.
â(Y/n) itâs okay⊠Iâve got you.â Steve hushed, and he was pulling you into his chest, hugging you protectively.
You were still confused but then you tasted one of your stray tears, and you immediately came to your senses. You were crying in Steveâs arms⊠but why? You were having gaps of time missing from you, this wasnât the first time this had happenedâ you just didnât seem to care.
âSteve⊠my head hurts.â You slurred into his chest, sagging against him.
You were grateful that he was here, you desperately needed someone around. You were just hoping that someone wouldâve been Bucky.
âOkay, letâs get you to Helen. Sheâs gonna take care of you, okay?â Steve asked you, and you could only give a weak nod.
He knew there was no way you were walking there, so he hoisted you up into his arms, and cradled your head as he started to the med bay.
You just stared blankly at his chest, not really caring if Steve were to throw you off the roof of the building. You just didnât care.
Steve had gotten you down to her, and she checked you out. Alerting Steve that you were extremely malnourished, dehydratedâ an insomniac. She kept listing off all the things Steve was afraid to hear. The whole time he was sure you didnât hear a thing, although you were in the roomâ you were just checked out.
Helen eventually left, and Steve took his opportunity to speak with you. He pulled up a chair next to the hospital bed and grabbed your hand.
â(Y/n), whatâs going on? You can talk to meâ you canât keep doing this to yourself. Please⊠just talk to me.â Steve whispered, pleading with you that you would stop torturing yourself.
âHe hates me.â You mumbled.
Steveâs eyes widened and he frowned, knowing what you meant. He knew he let this go on for too long.
â(Y/n) he doesnât hate you. He just needed time to himself, so he coââ
âI didnât mean to hurt his feelings, I donât even know what I said to hurt him but Iââ You rushed out, the heart monitor beeping frantically, âIâm a horrible person, I didnât mean toâ I didnât mean to!â
You wheezed out, clutching your chest as you couldnât catch your breath. Your cheeks glistened with a steady stream of tears, your wheezing only growing by the second.
âOkay, okay (Y/n)â I need you to slow your breathing. Youâre okay, he doesnât hate you. Just take deep breaths okayâ even if you canât just try. Iâm here.â He tried to coach you, but this wasnât his thing.
Now he was starting to get mad at his friend, Bucky shouldnât of let this go on for this long.
You followed his chest rising and falling, staring at him as he tried to calm you down. Your breaths were heavy and painful sounding. Steve was about to say something but stopped himself when he saw your eyes look behind him.
He turned and saw Bucky standing in the doorwayâ his face paled. Truthfully, he looked like he was going to be sick.
â(Y/n)?â He whispered, his heart breaking at your state.
He had ran into Helen in the kitchen and was informed of your conditionâ he didnât believe it and had to see for himself. He was shocked to find you like this.
Your tears only edged on from his appearance and you shook your head in shame.
âIâm sorry Bucky! Whatever I did, Iâm sorry!â You sobbed and Bucky ran to the bed, kneeling down and taking your hands into his.
âDoll itâs okay, youâre okay. Iâm hereâ Iâm here. Iâm not gonna leave you⊠Iâm sorry.â He rushed out, shushing your cries, watching you slow your breathing at his words. âThere we go, just keep breathing with me. Iâm here, youâre okay.â
He kept repeating himself, making sure you knew he wasnât going anywhere.
Steve knew you were in good hands and slowly snuck out of the roomâ knowing you two needed to talk.
Bucky tucked a stray piece of hair behind your ear, letting his fingers trail down your cheek to your jaw. You couldnât help the way your face leaned into his touch, it felt like it had been forever since the last one.
Your breathing had slowed down, and now you just stared up at himâ eyes glossy with more tears. You felt so many emotions. You felt relived, but also angry and hurt. Above allâ you needed to know what you did to upset him. The guilt still ate away at your heart, and even just the memory of the argument had your chest aching.
âWhat did I do?â You whispered, making his eyes shoot up to yours, concern painting his face.
âYou didnât do anything.â He told you, and you furrowed your brows.
You were still anxiousâ he hadnât answered your question. Even more soâ if you didnât do anything then why did he ignore you?
âThen why?â
âWhy what (Y/n)?â He dared to ask, and you scoffedâ ripping your hands out of his.
The anger was approaching.
âWhy did you shut me out?â You wondered, and he only let his eyes cast down to the bedâ making you angrier. âYou ignored me for two weeks! Two fucking weeks you just acted as if I didnât exist! Do you know how much that fucking hurts?â
You were breathing heavy again, but this time it wasnât from panicâ it was the full force of all your anger bursting out.
He lifted his eyes to you, and you saw how broken he looked. How your state had affected him.
âI could never do that to you Buckâ I would never do that to you! Youâre my everything! I donât trust anyone as much as I trust you!â You raised your voice, while he stayed silent. âIf I didnât do anything then why would youâ whyââ
You broke out into a sob, covering your face with your hands. You felt good getting all the built up anger outâ but now you felt extremely guilty. The pitiful face of Bucky staring at you, causing your heart to hurt all over again. It didnât matter what happened, you always ended up hurting others.
â(Y/n) Iâm so sorry Iâ god I fucked up. I didnât ever mean to hurt you, please know that. Youâre my other half, and no one has ever been there for me like you have.â He spoke through a tight throat, swelling with emotion.
You uncovered your face and just stared at him a little longer, still incredibly hurt from his actionsâ but you knew you couldnât stay mad at him. You so badly wanted to forgive and forgetâ and just wrap him in your arms like you both needed.
âItâs hard to explain whatâs wrong with me to someone when I donât even understand whatâs wrong with meâ I just know Iâm fucked up. Iâm broken beyond repair.â His voice broke, his own eyes welling with tears.
You didnât have it in you to keep up an angry facade, and so you reached out and took his hand in yours. His face almost immediately lit up, his breathing slowing at your touch.
âTry me.â You whispered, watching Bucky take a deep breath before he spoke again.
âThe night of our fightâŠâ He started, and you swallowed in having to remember that night. âI had never seen you look at me like that.â
You stayed silent, afraid to open your mouth and have a sob escape. You could feel it bubbling upâ the memory playing back through your mind.
âYou looked at me like you were scared. You looked at me like I was a monster.â He confessed and it all made sense to you now.
It wasnât about what you said, it was your reaction that disturbed him to no ends. Even if you couldnât control your reaction in the momentâ you still felt guilty for causing him pain of remembering the hydra days.
âOh BuckâŠâ You whimpered, trying to pull him closeâ but he pulled away before he could reach your embrace.
âNoâ you donât get to be nice to me after what I did. I promised I would never hurt you and I didâ youâre in here because of me! I donât deserve your forgiveness!â He raised his voice, and you werenât scared of himâ just concerned.
âI wasnât scared of you Bucky, you just caught me off guard. Things were heatedâ Iâm not afraid of you and I most definitely donât think youâre a monster.â You tried to convince him.
âI really hope youâre not lying because if you were afraid of me⊠god I donât know what Iâd do. If you never wanted to see me againâ thatâs fine. Whatever you want, but I canât live knowing youâre afraid of me.â He whimpered out.
âI wouldnât lie to you.â
He nodded his head, knowing damn well youâd never lie. That was one thing he loved about youâ you were so honest. Keeping it real with him, even if he didnât wanna hear it. He could count on you for the truth.
âI still donât deserve your forgiveness.â He argued.
âWell too bad, Iâm forgiving you anyway.â You finally told him and he felt his chest expand.
Like he could finally breath.
âWhy?â He wondered.
You knew it was the line you two had been dancing on foreverâ but you knew if there was ever a time to say it. It was now.
âBecause I love you.â You admitted quietly.
His eyes widened just slightly, and his breath stuttered. He had always had a feeling what you two had was more than friends, he just never spoke up about it. Of course he loves you tooâ god he loves you so much. Thatâs why the thought of you being scared of him was enough to pull him away. He couldnât bear being around you if you were frightened by him. He couldnât live with himself. More importantly he now discovered, he really couldnât live without you.
âI love you so much.â He confessed back as your tears leaked down your cheeks.
You pulled his arm, and he let you pull him to the bedâ close enough where you could cup both his cheeks.
âDonât ever do that to me again, please. I need you Buckyâ life is not livable without you.â You cried, kissing his forehead to which he leaned into your lips.
âNever againâ I promise.â
This time, he wouldnât break it.
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The Alchemy | Part One
NFL Bucky x reader au
Word Count: 2.8k
Warnings: Angst, fluff,
A/N: I only have one more chapter of Invisible to post so ima get this new series out there. I plan to alternate with this one and Say Don Go! Also im Canadian, ive never watched football in my life before Taylor Swift & Travis Kelce so bare with me, Im a hockey girl đđ€Ł
ALSO WOW another ts inspired fic what are the odds lmaoooo
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The stadium buzzed with energy, every seat packed with fans decked out in the teamâs deep blue and silver. Flags waved, chants echoed, and the floodlights bathed the field in an electric glow. The scoreboard flashed 20-24. Fourth quarter. Six seconds left on the clock.
Bucky Barnes stood on the field, his cleats dug into the turf as his breath came in steady bursts. His number 17 jersey clung to him, streaked with sweat and dirt, but his focus was absolute. Across from him, defenders crouched low, their eyes locked on him. Everyone in the stadium knew where the ball was going. The golden boy, the clutch player, the one who could pull miracles out of thin air.
At the line of scrimmage, Steve Rogersânumber 18, the quarterbackâbarked out commands, his voice cutting through the noise like a blade. âGreen 18! Green 18! Set!â His hand hovered under center, waiting for the snap.
Next to Steve, Sam Wilsonânumber 78, the running backâgrinned as he looked to his left. âHope youâre ready to make me look good, Barnes,â Sam called to Bucky, his voice tinged with a mix of adrenaline and humor.
Bucky smirked, glancing over his shoulder. âAlways am, Wilson. Try to keep up.â
The ball snapped.
Time slowed, the roar of the stadium dimming to a dull hum in Buckyâs ears. He exploded off the line of scrimmage, his legs pumping as he darted past the first defender. His route was a perfectly calculated arc, his sharp cut leaving his opponent scrambling in his wake.
Steve dropped back, his eyes scanning the field, calm and composed as chaos erupted around him. The offensive line was holdingâbarely. Sam sprinted out to the right, dragging a defender with him and creating just enough space for Bucky to hit his mark.
âBuck!â Steveâs shout was clear, even over the thunder of the crowd. The ball left his hands in a perfect spiral, arcing high into the night.
Bucky didnât slow. He kept his eyes on the ball as it sailed through the air, his body moving on instinct. A defender lunged at him, but he sidestepped, his cleats digging into the turf and propelling him forward. Another defender was closing in, but he wasnât fast enough.
Bucky leaped, his arms stretching to meet it. For a split second, the stadium seemed to hold its breath. His fingertips brushed the leather, and then the ball was in his hands, secured against his chest as he crashed to the ground in the end zone.
The buzzer sounded.
The crowd erupted into a deafening roar, the stands a blur of jumping fans and waving flags. Bucky pushed himself to his feet, the ball still clutched tightly in his hands. His teammates swarmed him, slapping his back and tugging at his jersey.
âHell of a catch, Buck!â Steve shouted, pulling Bucky into a quick hug, his grin as wide as the field.
âCouldnât have done it without that throw,â Bucky replied, though his grin didnât quite reach his eyes.
Sam jogged over, shaking his head in mock disbelief. âMan, youâre gonna make the rest of us look bad if you keep pulling off plays like that.â
âJust doing my job,â Bucky quipped, though his voice carried a hint of weariness.
The cameras swarmed, capturing every second of the celebration. Bucky turned, tossing the ball to an equipment manager as he ran a hand through his damp hair. He offered a practiced smile to the crowd, raising his hand in a quick wave. The adrenaline still pounded through his veins, but underneath it all, he feltâŠempty. Moments like this used to mean everything. Now, they were just another show.
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You stood just behind the sidelines, your camera in hand as you captured the final seconds of the game. The stadiumâs energy was almost overwhelming, but you kept your focus, snapping shot after shot as the ball spiraled through the air. The lens followed Bucky, capturing the moment his fingertips grazed the ball and the exact second he pulled it to his chest.
Your thumb hovered over the record button as he hit the ground in the end zone, the buzzer blaring through the stadium. The noise was deafening, but you barely noticed, too focused on capturing the raw emotion of the momentâhis teammates rushing to him, the grin splitting Steveâs face, Sam throwing his hands in the air as he jogged over.
Through the lens, you could see every detail: the streaks of dirt on Buckyâs jersey, the intensity in his eyes, the way he stood a little apart from the celebration even as he was surrounded by his team. You lowered the camera for a moment, watching as he turned to wave at the crowd, that effortless smile on his face.
There was something surreal about seeing him like this, so different yet so familiar, especially after all these years. The golden boy of the NFL, the star of every highlight reel, and yetâŠstill Bucky. You just wondered what he would think if he knew you were tasked with covering his team for the duration of the season.
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The press room buzzed with energy as reporters jostled for position, shoving microphones and cameras toward the front. Bucky sat at the table, effortlessly commanding the room. His jersey clung to him, still damp with sweat, and his dark hair fell messily across his forehead. He leaned forward, resting his forearms on the table, his easy smile lighting up the space.
âBucky, talk us through that final play!â one reporter called out.
Bucky smirked, shaking his head. âItâs not just me. That was all teamwork. The guys up front gave me the space, and Stevie threw a perfect pass, I just had to do my part.â
âJust your part?â another reporter pressed. âThat was your second game-winning catch this season and it just started! Youâre making it look easy out there.â
âWell,â Bucky replied, flashing a quick grin, âitâs never easy, iâve just got a great team behind me. We work hard for moments like that.â
More questions came, volleying back and forth. He answered them all with polished charm, his practiced media persona never faltering. But as the questions wore on, his gaze started to wander, skimming over the sea of faces and microphones. Thatâs when he saw you, his blue eyes did a double take before confusion and shock swam through them.
You were standing off to the side, not pushing to the front like the others. You werenât yelling over the noise or angling for the best shot. You were justâŠthere. Scribbling something into your notebook, head ducked slightly as if you wanted to disappear into the crowd.
Bucky froze for a fraction of a second, the polished grin faltering for the briefest moment before he caught himself. His heart stuttered in his chest, a wave of recognition crashing over him. He blinked, his brain scrambling to catch up. No way. It couldnât be.
You were trying to stay out of the fray while still capturing the scene. Your notebook was a familiar weight in your hands, its pages filling with shorthand notes that youâd polish later. It was your way of staying groundedâyour way of not staring too long at him.
The boy youâd grown up with. The boy who used to challenge you to races down your block, who teased you mercilessly, who knew all your secrets. Seeing him now, years later, as the NFLâs star receiver, felt surreal. Heâd become everything the world expected him to be. And yet, in some strange way, he was still the same.
You ducked your head lower, scribbling furiously to avoid the wave of memories threatening to crash over you. Focus. Professional. Objective. That was your mantra when youâd taken this assignment. You hadnât even known it would be his team until you arrived. Now, all you wanted was to finish your notes and leave to compose yourself fully before he could notice you.
Buckyâs gaze lingered on you, his heart pounding in a way that had nothing to do with the game heâd just played. He said your name softly, testing it on his lips. It felt foreign and familiar all at once. You didnât reactâtoo far away, too focused on your notes.
âHey, Bucky!â another reporter called out. âWhatâs your mindset going into the rest of the season?â
He barely heard the question. His focus was entirely on you now, watching as you slipped your notebook into your bag and adjusted the strap over your shoulder. You were leaving.
âUh, sorry,â he mumbled to the reporter, not bothering to look at them. âI need toâŠâ He trailed off, standing abruptly.
The room went silent for a moment, the reporters exchanging confused glances. âBucky, are youâ?â
âYeah, uh, excuse me,â he muttered, already moving. He left the table, ignoring the murmurs that followed as the cameras swung to track his movements.
His heart stuttered.
âY/N?â he murmured, his voice barely audible over the din. He blinked, half-convinced his mind was playing tricks on him. He tried again, louder this time. âY/N?â
You didnât look up.
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The late summer air clung to your skin, thick and still, like it was trying to hold you in this moment forever. The roof beneath you was rough and familiar, each crack in the shingles a memory. Nights like this always felt infiniteâjust you and Bucky under the stars, talking about everything and nothing. But tonight, that comforting rhythm was broken.
You sat side by side, the glow of the streetlights catching in Buckyâs messy hair. He leaned back on his elbows, that cocky grin you knew so well plastered across his face. âSo,â he said, breaking the silence, âyou wanna go to prom with me next year? You know, as friends or whatever.â
You couldnât help the laugh that escaped, but it sounded hollow even to you. âPromâs not for another year, Bucky. Donât tell me youâre turning into a planner now.â
âWhat can I say?â He shrugged, the grin widening, his confidence practically radiating. âI like to lock down the good ones early.â
You rolled your eyes and gave him a light shove, but your hand lingered on his arm for just a second longer than it should have. He felt it. He always felt it.
âAlright,â he said, his grin fading as he sat up straighter, his piercing blue eyes narrowing in concern. âWhatâs going on? Youâve been weird all night.â
Your fingers twisted together in your lap, your gaze dropping to the shingles. The words felt too heavy to say, but they burned in your chest. You couldnât keep them in any longer.
âIâm moving.â
The silence that followed was suffocating. It stretched between you like the whole world had opened up, and all you could do was stare into the void. When you finally looked at him, his expression was blank, unreadable. That cocky smile youâd always known so wellâit was just gone.
âYouâre lying,â he said, his voice low, almost like a challenge.
You shook your head, your throat tightening. âI wish I was.â
His brows furrowed, the disbelief quickly turning into something sharper. âWhy?â he asked, leaning closer. âYou donât have to go. Youâre almost eighteenâjust stay.â
âBuckyââ
âNo, listen to me,â he cut you off, his words coming fast now, his tone filled with something you rarely heard from him: fear. âYou could stay here. My ma wouldnât care. Hell, sheâd love it. You could move into the basement. You practically live at my house anyway. No one would even notice. You donât have to go.â
The desperation in his voice broke something in you. You had known it would hurt, but seeing him like thisâBucky, who was always so strong, so steadyâwas unbearable.
âI canât stay,â you said softly, the words barely more than a whisper. âI donât have a choice.â
âWhy not?â His voice cracked as he sat up fully, his hands curling into fists against the roof. âAm I not enough for you to stay?â He knew he was being selfish but he was so blind sided he couldn't help it.
The question hit you like a punch to the chest. Your breath caught, and you had to blink hard to keep your vision from blurring. âFuck, Bucky,â you whispered. âOf course, youâre enough. Youâre my best friend. Youâre everything. But my momâŠâ Your voice broke, and you had to take a deep breath before continuing. âSheâs finally leaving him. Bucky, weâre finally getting out.â
His jaw clenched, and his chest rose and fell unevenly as he processed your words. His hands gripped the edge of the roof like it was the only thing keeping him from falling apart. âYour momâŠâ he started, his voice trailing off. Of course, he was happy for her. He knew what it had taken for her to finally leave that asshole. Heâd seen the bruises you never talked about, the way your voice would falter when you mentioned home. Of course, he understood.
But that didnât make it hurt any less. She was taking you away from him, and he couldnât stand it. "What about school? We have one more year left."
"They have schools everywhere Buck..." Your voice was soft and quiet.
For a long moment, neither of you said anything. The night stretched on, heavy and endless. You thought he might fight you on it again, throw out another plan, another reason for you to stay. But instead, he let out a bitter laugh, shaking his head.
âWell,â he said, his voice sharp and hollow, âI guess this is it then.â
âBucky, donât do this,â you pleaded, the words rushing out before you could stop them. âPlease.â
He stood up slowly, brushing off his hands like he was trying to shake off the weight of your words. His expression was unreadable now, his eyes cold and distant in a way youâd never seen before.
âIt was nice while it lasted,â he said, his voice clipped and emotionless. He paused at the edge of the roof, looking back at you one last time. âHey, take care of yourself, alright?â
And then he climbed down the ladder, disappearing into the shadows below.
You didnât call after himâyou couldnât. You just sat there on the roof, staring at the place where heâd been, your heart breaking under the weight of his absence. For the first time, the stars felt impossibly far away.
That was the last time you ever talked to Bucky Barnes.
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You were halfway down the hallway, your footsteps echoing softly in the empty space, when you heard him.
âY/N!â
You froze, halfway down the hallway. The voice was unmistakable nowâstronger, sharper, but undeniably his. Slowly, you turned, and there he was, jogging toward you with an expression you couldnât quite decipher. His broad shoulders filled the space, but it was his eyesâwide and almost boyishâthat sent your heart racing.
âIs this really you?â he asked, stopping just a few feet away. His chest rose and fell as if heâd just run the length of the field. His gaze swept over you, disbelief and something like relief flickering across his face.
You laughed nervously, a sound that came out more like a breathless exhale. âI didnât think youâd recognize me.â
Buckyâs lips parted in a huff of incredulous laughter. âAre you kidding? I could find you in any room.â
The words hung in the air, heavy with meaning. Before you could respond, he closed the distance, wrapping you in a hug so tight it stole the breath from your lungs. For a moment, the world fell awayâthe noise, the cameras, the years. It was just Bucky, holding you like he was afraid youâd disappear. It was like you were kids again, sitting on rooftops and talking about everything under the stars. Holding you in a way where you finally felt safe like nothing or no one could hurt you because you knew these armâs wouldnât.
âHoly shit,â he muttered into your hair. He pulled back just enough to look at you, his hands still on your shoulders. âI havenât seen you in years. What are you doing here? Not that Iâm not happy to see youâIâm justâŠwow.â
You smiled, your heart pounding in your chest. âIâm here to cover the team for the season.â You held up your press badge, a sheepish grin tugging at your lips. âDidnât realize Iâd be covering you.â
Bucky barked a laugh, shaking his head in disbelief. âFate, huh? Guess it wasnât done with us yet.â
You both stood there for a moment, the hallway around you seeming to blur. His thumb brushed against your arm absently, like he was reassuring himself you were real. Finally, he stepped back, a grin tugging at the corners of his mouth.
âIâve got about a thousand questions,â he said, tilting his head. âBut I guess weâve got the whole season to catch up, right?â
âRight,â you replied, the warmth in his eyes making it impossible to think straight. âThe whole season.â
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Youâre Perfect.
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Pairing: Bucky Barnes x fem!Reader x Steve Rogers
Summary: Bucky feels down about his scars so Y/n and Steve cheer him up.
Word count: 642
Warnings: Â sad Bucky (major warning!!) fluff. insecurities. violence to someone who deserves it. super short.
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You both knew something was wrong the moment Bucky stepped into the apartment, at first you both thought it was because he had been on a mission but normally he would be sweeping you up in his arms the moment he laid eyes on you, taking you over to Steve to share a kiss with your boyfriend, but today he came in quietly and headed straight to the bedroom and locked the door behind him. Steve gave you a questioning look which had you shaking your head, heart aching at not knowing what was wrong with your boyfriend.
âBuck? Baby whatâs wrong?â you asked leaning against the bedroom door.
âN-Nothing, Iâm fine dollâ
âNo youâre not, Buck can you let us in please?â
âI-Is Stevie with you?â
âOf course Iâm hereâ your boyfriend says from next to you, holding your hand.
You and Steve stood patiently waiting for Bucky to make his mind up, not long after the door locks clicked. Waiting until you heard the brunet sit back on your shared bed before opening the door. There he sat at the edge of the bed looking smaller then you had ever seen him, slowly bouncing his leg up and down, gazing down at his hand in such disgust.
Sitting on either side of him once again waiting patiently for him to talk first, knowing that it was better for him and that way he wouldnât shut down completely and act like everything was fine. âDo-do you two think its disgusting?â
âWhat are you talking about Buck?â Steve asks.
âMy arm an-and the scars?â
âAbsolutely not! Who said that about you?â you replied instantly, not once in the three years you three finally stopped tip toeing around the bush and confessed your feelings did you think that about him. Well even way before that, you always admired his arm, always thought his scars were beautiful.
âIt doesnât matterâ
âYes it does, whoever has said something Buck we need to knowâ the blond says before you could reply.
âJulie⊠you know the agent?â
âBucky, your arm is incredible and yours scars are beautiful, no one and I mean no one is as strong as you to have gone through all that you have and still see the beauty that life has to offer.â
âB-but she said I was a monster and sheâs rightâ
âStop that, donât ever think that about yourself. Youâre not a monster Bucky. Youâre a beautiful person, inside and out, youâve made amends with those who were affected by him, and youâre an amazing boyfriend and friend.â
âYou have the most infectious laugh out of everyone I know, youâre kind and thoughtful, you put everyone elseâs needs before your own. You give and give and never asked for anything in return, Bucky Barnes you are not a monster.â You take over from Steve. Bucky sits there and nods.
ââm not a monsterâ
âSay it againâ
âIâm not a monsterâ
âNow say Y/n is the bestâ
âDoll⊠donât make him lieâ
âWow, rude.â
Bucky chuckles at your pout, pressing his lips to your forehead, looking you in the eyes as he repeats. âY/n is the bestâ
âNow, hereâs the plan Buck youâre going to go and shower whilst Steve cleans up and Iâm going to go and get us some food from the takeaway down the street, and then weâre all going to watch movies in bed, yeah?â
âSounds like a plan dollâ
Before you went to get the food, you made a quick detour. Getting in home Bucky and Steve were cuddled up together in bed, a film already loaded up on the TV.
âI love you both so muchâ Bucky mumbled as his eyes started to flutter close.
Two days later Bucky saw Julie sporting a huge black eye and a busted lip. Curtsey of his loving girlfriend.
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Hi I was wondering if you'd be able to maybe write fluff about Bucky and his dog tags? Like he leaves them at your place after a movie night in hopes you wear them and you did and he gets all proud and happy that you openly are his but subtly? Thank you love your writing!
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Bucky x Y/N
Warnings: None, just fluff.
Movie nights with Bucky Barnes had become a comfortable routine. It wasnât something youâd planned, not exactly. The first time, heâd just shown up at your apartment, an old VHS copy of Casablanca in hand, and mumbled something about how you âneeded to be properly educated.â
One movie turned into two, then three, and before you knew it, Friday nights were permanently reserved for the two of youâhim stretched out on your couch, a bowl of popcorn balanced precariously on his chest, and you curled up beside him, legs tangled together like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Last night had been no different. Heâd fallen asleep before the end credits rolled, his weight warm and solid against your side. Youâd thought about waking him, but the sight of himâpeaceful, unguardedâwas too rare to disturb. Instead, youâd thrown a blanket over him and let him sleep while you quietly cleaned up. It wasnât until morning, after heâd mumbled his goodbyes and disappeared out the door, that you noticed what heâd left behind.
His dog tags.
You found them resting on your coffee table, the thin silver chain catching the light. Your fingers ghosted over the cool metal as you picked them up, the engraved letters sharp and familiar. James Buchanan Barnes.
You werenât sure if heâd left them by accident or on purpose, but the thought of him wanting you to have them sent warmth pooling in your chest. They were his, but they felt like him, like some quiet claim heâd placed on you without needing to say a word.
A smile tugged at your lips as you slipped them over your head. The weight of them was steady, grounding. It was different from wearing a necklace, less decorative, more meaningful. Intimate. The kind of thing youâd have to be willing to explain if someone asked. The kind of thing that meant something.
Bucky showed up later that evening, knocking on your door like he always didâtwo short raps, a pause, then another. You pulled the door open to find him standing there, hands tucked into his jacket pockets, eyes flickering over you like he was cataloging every detail. It took him a second to notice, but when he did, his breath hitched.
His dog tags, resting against your collarbone, nestled into the valley between your breasts like they belonged there.
His lips parted slightly, as if he wanted to say something but couldnât quite find the words. Instead, he stepped closer, fingers brushing the metal where it lay against your skin.
âYouâre wearinâ âem,â he said, voice softer than usual, almost awed.
You swallowed, suddenly hyperaware of how close he was. âYeah.â
A slow grin crept onto his face, something warm and proud flickering behind his eyes. âLook good on you, doll.â
Heat crept up your neck, but you didnât look away. âGuess that means theyâre mine now.â
Bucky huffed out a breath, something caught between a laugh and a sigh. His thumb traced over the engraving, barely there. âGuess it does.â
The moment stretched between you, thick with something unspoken. The dog tags were subtle, not an obvious declaration, but Bucky had never needed words to make himself clear. He was looking at you like you were the best thing heâd ever seen, and it hit you thenâthis was his way of showing you were his. Not in a possessive way, but in a quiet, steady kind of love that didnât need to be shouted to be real.
Bucky ducked his head, pressing a kiss to your forehead, then another to your cheek. When he pulled back, his grin was still there, softer now, but just as proud.
âKeep âem safe for me, yeah?â
You smiled, fingers curling around the cool metal. âAlways.â
His eyes lingered on you for a moment before he stepped inside, shutting the door behind him. He shrugged off his jacket and tossed it onto the couch, his usual spot already claimed as he made himself comfortable. You followed, perching on the arm of the sofa as he reached for you, his hand wrapping around your wrist before tugging you down beside him.
âYou really like âem, huh?â he murmured, fingers brushing over the chain again, as if reassuring himself they were still there.
You nodded. âI do. Feels⊠right.â
Bucky exhaled, something deep and satisfied in the way his chest rose and fell. âYeah, it does.â
A comfortable silence settled between you, the weight of his hand against yours, the warmth of his body close beside you. Then, with a chuckle, he nudged your shoulder. âSo, whatâre we watchinâ tonight?â
You smirked, reaching for the remote. âHope youâre ready, Barnes. Itâs a rom-com kind of night.â
He groaned, but the way he settled in, arm draped over your shoulders, told you he didnât really mind. Not if it meant spending the night with you, dog tags and all.
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Heyy, I love doing fluffy little fics like this! I hope you enjoyed it â€ïž
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Losing you
Bucky & avenger!reader
WC: 1,185
Summary: a near death experience puts things in perspective.
Warnings: near death experience (not detailed tho), mentions of injury and blood. Language!
I wrote a thing!! Itâs been months since Iâve been inspired/ had time to write. Hereâs a little angsty fluff.
Gif not mine.
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Since you joined the team youâve gotten along with everyone. Missions are successful at least 90 percent of the time.
For the last nine months youâve been partnering up with Bucky. Heâs damn good at his job and you get along just fine, at least when youâre on the field.
Off the field is an entirely different story.
Itâs not so much that you donât get along, itâs just you donât hang out outside of work. The only time you âhang outâ is during training.
You wouldnât consider him a friendâ at least not like Sam is. Bucky is merely your teammate, your partner.
Normally Bucky is cool, calm and collected until the day you get hurt in the field.
âStar, come in.â Bucky speaks through the comms but is only met with silence so he tries again. âAgent Star, come in!â
Star is the code name Sam gave you when you joined his crusade as Captain America. He liked to joke around about his Stars and Stripes and the Sentinel of Liberty, respectively you, Joaquin and Bucky.
Bucky turns back to the last checkpoint and his body goes rigid as he takes in the scene before him. There you are laying on a puddle of bloodâyours, he realizes.
He doesnât take the time to over analyze what went down, all he cares about right now is getting you to safety.
âââââ
Itâs scary to put so much on someone. To let them be your everything, he hadnât realized that was what had happened. To him you were just his partner.
Until he almost lost you.
Thatâs when he realized whatâs really at stake here. Not only your life, but his happiness.
âââââ
Three days, thatâs how long it takes for you to wake up.
âOw. That hurt.â You groan and hear Sam chuckle, when you bat your eyes open you see Bucky storming out of the room.
âThatâs not funny, Star.â Sam says. âYou scared us. How come you didnât call for backup?â
âHow long was I out?â
âThree days. And yes, he was here the whole time, barely got him to eat and shower.â
âWhereâs Stripes?â You deflect and ask about Joaquin.
âCoffee run.â Sam stares towards the doorway and sighs. âBuck was the one that found you.â
âHmm. I think he might be mad at meâ you know for almost dying.â
âHeâs entitled to that, youâre his partner after all.â
âââââ
Bucky never comes back to the med bay. In fact you donât see him for weeks, until youâve been given the all clear to go back out on the field.
You approach him silently at the gym while heâs pummeling a punching bag. Three bags already discarded after he ripped them open.
âHey Liberty!â
âDonât call me that. You know I fucking hate it.â
âAre you still mad at me?â
âWho said I was?â He turns around and youâre not ready for that tender look he gives you. A mixture of guilt that you almost died on his watch and something else you canât pinpoint and it almost makes you think that he might actually care.
As scary as it was, almost dying put so much in perspective for you. First thingâs first, before you passed out on the field your very last thought was Buckyâs smile. That was strangeâŠyes, heâs your partner but you were about to die and your last thought was of him not begging for help just one last smile of Buckyâs.
Secondly, it felt so off and hurtful seeing him walk out as soon as you woke up. You didnât know why it hurt but the fact that it did meant that you wanted him there when you woke up. Or at least you expected him to be there, he is your partner after all.
You almost lost everything.
You almost lost him.
Itâs infuriating how he managed to become something more than just your partner without you even realizing it. Though all your anger dissipates with the look he gives you. None of it matters when heâs looking at you and touching you so delicately.
Bucky traces a finger ever so delicately over the still fading bruise on your cheek bone.
You hadnât realized heâd been standing so close to you. Or why the disheveled look heâs got going on looks so good on him. Has he ever looked better? Yes, but today he looks kinda hot and vulnerable, in a way that you just wanna comfort him, run your hands through his hair, cuddle the shit out of him.
Out of nowhere you grab his face and kiss himâ on the lips!
âYou canât blame me for that. I almost died.â
You murmured against his lips. And to your surprise he doesnât pull back, instead he deepens the kiss.
âShut up, I'm still mad at you.â He mumbles against your lips.
âHa!â You pull back just enough to slap a hand on his chest. âI knew it! You are mad at me!â
Bucky pulls you right back to his arms and rests his forehead on yours. âIâm justâŠI canât lose anyone else. Do you understand?â
You nod.
âIâm not mad at you, Iâm mad at myself. You got hurt out there, I shouldâveââ
You pull back to look him in the eyes, âJames Buchanan Barnes it is not your fault I got hurt. I shouldâve called for backup, itâs not your responsibility to keep me safe.â
âYes it is. Youâre my partner.â
âYou say that like it means something else. What are you really trying to say, Sarge?â
As if the kiss you two shared hadnât made it clear this certainly would.
âStar, you are everything to me.â
And your anger makes an appearance again, you pull away from him. âIâm finding that a little hard to believe, cause since I woke up all youâve done is avoid me.â
âIâm justâ seeing you there in a puddle of blood it fucked me up.â
âWaking up and seeing my partner walking out on me fucked me up. You were the last thing on my mind before I passed out. I was trying to call forâ I was going to call for you when I blacked out. Then I wake up and see you walk out the door and never come back.â
This isnât how Bucky pictured this moment. It shouldâve gone like in the movies. You both admit your feelings, kiss and voila: happy ending. Not you angry at him, with unshed tears in your eyes.
âIâm sorry Iâm an idiot that canât handle his own feelings. But I love you. I need you to know that. I love you.â He squeezes your hands.
âThatâs the thing Bubba, I love you too. So donât you dare walk out on me ever again.â
You pull him in for a hug and you climb on him like a koala, arms around his shoulders and legs around his torso. He tells you he loves you again and assures you that heâs not going anywhere without you. âWell then, take me to my room. You owe me three weeks worth of cuddles.â
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i cant read your mind | chapter eight
Summary: Flashback to Wakanda.
Warnings: MCU Spoilers. Major The Falcon and The Winter Soldier Spoilers. Smut. Fluffy Smut. A hint of Angst at the end. Sergeant kink.
Word Count: 927
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A/N: Onto episode 4 now, most likely gonna be 3 parts for this one. I've had the idea of this chapter in my head forever and was so excited to finally write it. But, I am also excited to go back to annoyed Bucky next chapter when John's back in the picture.
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Wakanda. Six Years Ago.
The Wakandan sun had set hours ago, around the same time Bucky left to meet with Ayo for another session. You stood by the window of his hut, staring out into the evening waiting for his return. Ayo had contacted you when they had finished for the night, explaining to you that he was free. Finally free from the brainwashing that had haunted him for so long. You immediately left the room that the Wakandans had prepared for you and made your way to Buckyâs hut.Â
As Bucky approached the hut, he saw you waiting for him. He entered without a word, closing the space between you in a few quick strides. He cupped your face, kissing you deeply, passionately. It was filled with a mix of relief, gratitude, a raw desire.Â
You responded immediately, your arms wrapping around his neck, trying to pull him closer. Your bodies pressed together as Bucky's hand dropped from your face, roaming your back.Â
Bucky broke the kiss for less than a second, his lips finding your body again as he trailed down your neck. His breath was hot against your skin, as your fingers tangled in his hair. A soft moan escaped your lips as he placed a soft kiss against a sensitive spot below your ear. His hand found its way to the gem of your shift, lifting it effortlessly over your head and tossing it aside before finding your lips with his again.Â
Undressing each other in haste, your clothes were discarded carelessly onto the hut floor. His eyes filled with hunger as his gaze met yours for a moment, taking in the image of you standing bare before him.Â
His voice was husky as he murmured, âYouâre amazing, Baby Girl,âÂ
You smiled, sliding your hand up and down his chest, tracing the lines of his muscles and the scars on his shoulder. âAnd, youâre finally free, Sergeant,â you replied, your voice breathless with anticipation.Â
Without another word, he lifted you and carried you to the makeshift bed. Laying you down, his eyes danced over your body, taking in every inch of you. His lips captured yours in a hungry kiss and he positioned himself above you. You arched into his touch as his hand explored your body, your nails digging into him.Â
Your kisses grew more desperate as his fingers found their way to your inner thigh, teasing his way up to your entrance with gentle strokes. The stokes continued as he reached it. You moaned into his mouth, hips moving in rhythm with his touch.Â
Unable to wait any longer, he positioned himself where his fingers previously were, his gaze stayed locked with yours. And, with a single thrust, he buried himself deep inside you. You gasped at the sensation.Â
Once he began to move, his hips rocked against yours in a slow steady rhythm. Your back arched off the bed as the pleasure consumed you. His name fell from your lips, driving him to push harder.Â
Each movement was deliberate, every touch ignited the desire and longing for one another that neither of your minds let you admit. His thrusts were measured, driving deeper into your core. A chorus of moans and sighs from both your lips filled the hut.Â
The sensation of him filling you caused you to wrap your legs around his waist as a wave of pleasure coursed through you.Â
The tension within you grew, the pleasure building, it was almost unbearable. You were teetering on the edge, Buckyâs movement grew more urgent as your mumbled begs strained from your voice. âPlease, Sergeant, please.âÂ
âPlease what, baby?â his voice whispered against your ear, his lips finding your neck again.Â
âPlease can I finish, Sergeant?â you pleaded, your voice thick with need and desperation.Â
You felt his lips curl into a smirk against your skin, and he continued with his steady, hard thrusts. Each one pushed you closer and closer. He knew exactly what you needed, he could feel the tension within you reaching its breaking point.Â
âLet go for me,â he murmured as his grip on your hips tightened. âLet me feel you come apart, baby.âÂ
His permission pushed you over the edge, and with a ragged cry, you shattered beneath him. Wave after wave of pleasure rushed through you as he continued his rhythm.Â
He buried his face in the crook of your neck, his teeth bored into your skin as his high followed closely behind yours. His body began to tremble with the aftershock of his climax.Â
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Bucky collapsed beside you, and then for a long while, neither of you spoke. The air was thick with the scent of sweat and sex and the only sound was your ragged breaths.Â
A realization washed over you like a wave crashing. For the first time, he had been gentle and tender. It was filled with emotion and connection. Something that was a stark contrast to the aggressive, rough encounters that would normally leave your body looking like you just came back from an intense mission.Â
The weight became too much to bear, you began to gather your clothes from the floor. The simple act of dressing provided you with a sense of normalcy.Â
You felt his intense gaze watching you silently.
âI⊠I think I should go,â you murmured, unable to turn to face him.Â
Without a word from him, you slipped out of the hut, leaving behind the warmth and intimacy. Instead, enveloping yourself with cool night air as tears stung at the corners of your eyes.Â
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Healing Hearts
Summary: your typical enemies to lovers plot, except itâs only one-sided⊠and Y/n's Bucky's physical therapist/nurse.
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Fem!Nurse!Reader
Warning(s): brooding Bucky, mentions of physical therapy, other than that nothing else I can think of...
Bucky Barnes had always been a solitary man. He preferred to keep to himself and avoid unnecessary interactions with others. So when he woke up in a hospital room, with a perky nurse named Y/n assigned to him, he knew that he was in for a long and frustrating recovery.
From the moment Y/n walked into his room, she was like a ray of sunshine. She was constantly talking, asking him how he was feeling, and offering him unsolicited advice on how to speed up his recovery. Bucky found her incessant chatter annoying and intrusive, and he made it clear that he wanted her to leave him alone.
"You don't have to talk so much, you know," Bucky grumbled as Y/n tried to engage him in conversation.
She smiled brightly. "I'm just trying to keep you company, Mr. Barnes. I know it can be lonely in here."
Bucky rolled his eyes. "I don't need company. I need to heal and get out of this hellhole."
Her smile faltered, and she looked hurt. But Bucky couldn't bring himself to care. He had more important things to worry about than hurting the feelings of a chatty nurse.
As the days went on, Bucky found himself becoming more and more irritated with Y/n. She was always there, hovering over him, and he couldn't escape her constant attention. He started to resent her presence, even though he knew that she was just doing her job.
One day, as she was helping him with his physical therapy exercises, she accidentally brushed against his metal arm. Bucky winced, and she immediately pulled back.
"I'm so sorry, Mr. Barnes. Did that hurt?" she asked, her voice full of concern.
Bucky gritted his teeth. "Yeah, it hurt. What did you expect, with that clumsy move?"
Y/n looked at him with hurt in her eyes. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm just trying to help you get better."
Bucky glared at her. "You're not helping. You're just getting in the way."
She sighed. "I know you don't like me very much, Mr. Barnes. But I'm just trying to do my job. I want to make sure you're getting the best possible care."
Bucky scoffed. "Yeah, right. You just want to make yourself feel better. You think that if you can fix me, you'll be some kind of hero."
Y/n looked hurt and shocked by his words. "That's not true, Mr. Barnes. I don't help people to make people think I'm the hero; that I'm some sort of saviour for humanity. All I want to do is help people, that's all."
Bucky shook his head. "Save it for someone who cares. I never needed or wanted your help."
As the days went on, Bucky's attitude towards Y/n didn't improve. But despite his constant complaints and snarky remarks, she never gave up on him. She was always there, by his side, offering him words of encouragement and support.
One day, as she was helping him with his physical therapy, Bucky felt a twinge of pain in his leg. He winced, and she immediately stopped what she was doing.
"Are you okay, Mr. Barnes?" she asked, her voice full of concern.
Bucky looked up at her, and for the first time, he saw her in a different light. He saw the kindness in her eyes, the determination in her voice, and the genuine care in her actions. He realised that he had been wrong about her all along. She wasn't annoying, she was kind and caring.
Bucky felt a strange feeling in his chest as he looked at her. He couldn't believe that he had been so blind to her kindness before. She had been nothing but patient and supportive towards him, even when he had been rude and ungrateful.
"I'm fine," he muttered, feeling embarrassed by his outburst. "Sorry for snapping at you."
She smiled warmly at him. "It's okay, Mr. Barnes. I understand that you're in pain, and it can be frustrating."
Bucky nodded, feeling grateful for her understanding. "I guess I've just been a bit of a jerk to you, haven't I?"
She shrugged. "It's okay. I know that you didn't mean it."
Bucky sighed, feeling a weight lifted off his shoulders. "Thanks for being patient with me, Y/n. I really appreciate it."
Y/n grinned at him. "Of course, Mr. Barnes. That's what I'm here for."
From that day on, Bucky's attitude towards her began to change. He found himself looking forward to her visits, and he even started to engage in conversations with her. They talked about everything from the latest movies to popular music trends, and Bucky found himself enjoying her company more and more.
One day, as she was helping him with his physical therapy, Bucky realised that he didn't want her to leave. He wanted her to stay with him, to keep talking to him, to keep being there for him.
"Y/n," he said suddenly, as she was packing up her supplies. "Do you want to grab a coffee or something after your shift ends?"
She looked surprised, but she smiled. "Sure, Mr. Barnes. I'd love that."
"Call me Bucky, doll."
Bucky grinned, feeling a strange warmth in his chest. He couldn't believe that he was actually looking forward to spending time with the woman he had once despised. But as he looked at her, he realised that she was more than just a nurse to him. She was a friend, a confidante, and maybe even something more.
As they walked out of the hospital together, Bucky felt a strange feeling of hope. Maybe, just maybe, he had finally found someone who could help him heal his damaged heart.
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Day 17 ~ Breakfast In Bed
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How Spin the Bottle leads to breakfast in bed and confessed feelings.
âDo you guys want to play spin the bottle?â Tony asks wearing a mischievous grin. You all look at each other before looking at Tony again. âSeriously Mr Stark are we in high school.â You tease the man with a grin knowing he loves these sort of games. âI donât see why we canât.â Bucky says with a small smile as he shrugs his shoulders in the mood for some high school games.
All you can do is sigh because you would love the opportunity to kiss him, but what if he doesnât feel the same. What if your brother says anything because it is his best friend? The thought of your brother not liking you together has been eating you up from inside for a while. But you know what, you are not going to screw up your only chance of kissing the man you had a crush on.
Now this caused Tony to smirk because he knows now you are going to give in, it was his plan after all to get you and Bucky to confess your feelings towards each other. âAlright letâs do this.â You say and James smiles at you with a shy grin. You take your place on the couch that formed a circle full of friends when the party started to die down a bit. Tony places a beer bottle in the middle of the group causing them all to groan but they gave in nonetheless because they know Tony will not give up. âOkay guys.â Tony claps his hands together. âWho wants to go first?" he grins at his colleagues and friends.
âSince Bucky agreed first why doesnât he go first.â Steve grins as he is in on Tonyâs plan. He really wants his best friend and sister to finally get together after years of pining. As Steve looks at James he smiles and nods towards the bottle. âOkay guys how this is going to work is if the bottle lands on you, you are going to go into that closet and do whatever you want for seven minutes.â Tony explains. âEverything is on the tableâ he smirked looking around the room.
Bucky sighs and moves forward to spin the brown bottle and your breath stops as the bottle starts slowing till it stops completely in front of you. âY/N.â Natasha call you out of your daze. âHuh?â you look at the ginger and you catch the grin she sends to Steve. âCool, cool. Ok Tin Man and Ms America itâs your turn.â Tony smirks as you and Bucky blush. Getting on your knees to stand up he follows you towards the closet. And your teams cheers all around you.
âOkay love birds when this door closes do whatever you want. You have seven minutes.â Tony said closing the door behind you and Bucky. âIâm so glad I get to do this with you.â James smiles at you âIâve been waiting forever to kiss you so if you donât feel the same please stop me now otherwise I will not be able to help myself.â You blush at the look on his face. âPlease kiss me.â You pleaded and he pulls you into a kiss.
âThis day couldnât possibly get any more perfect.â you think and before you could think further he pulls away from the kiss. You smile at him and he chuckles. âPlease kiss me again.â You whispered against his lips and he happily obliged. He leans forward closing the gap between your faces as he presses his lips, softly, against yours. You really love the feeling of his lips against yours.
As you guys sink towards the floor he places his hands on your hips to pull you onto his lap. You lift your hands to his cheeks rubbing softly as he moves your lips together. He bites your bottom lip as pulls away again to take a breather keeping his forehead against yours. He smiles at you in a shaky voice you begin talking. âThat was better than I ever could have imagined it." He nodded pulling you in for a slow kiss before his tongue could enter your mouth the door opens.
âTimes up love birds.â You hear your brother laugh as Bucky groans as he pulls away from you. âGuys.â Steve starts with a big grin. âIf you wanna date go ahead. I would be happy if you guys are happy.â He smirks. âBut just know if you hurt my little sister I will do nothing because she can look after herself.â He finishes as he see the look on your face knowing you are going to say something to him about looking after yourself.
âOkay guys if you will excuse us we are going to bed.â You say with a grin and the group cheered. âFinally.â They cheered again. As you blushed pulling him towards your room. âDonât do anything I wouldnât do.â Tony called after you guys and you giggle before answering. âThat is not a whole lot Tones.â He grins before yelling exactly as you and James leave the living room.
When Buckyâs eyes opened the morning he knows he is not getting back to sleep. It was only 7 in the morning so he decided to make breakfast for his newly made girlfriend. The only issue is you look so cute cuddled into him he canât get up just yet. It took about five minutes to get out but you wouldnât let him go. So after he got everything made he went upstairs to wake you up.
âGood morning beautiful.â Bucky greeted with a small smile. âI brought you breakfast.â He said pointing at the tray of food on you bedside table. âGood morning handsome.â You greeted with a tired smile stretching as you sit up. âSo last night wasnât a very good dream.â He smiled at you. âNo sweetheart.â He said pulling you into a side hug. âGood because I would be very upset if it was.â âNow what did you say about breakfast.â You giggle when you smell French toast, as he pulls you into a good morning kiss you could not help but sigh in content. âI just wanted to say. I really do love you Y/N. I have since we were teens even though it has been a while I really am glad I get to call you my girlfriend.â He said smiling down at you. âI love you too Buck.â You smile up at the man you have loved since you were teens. âI am also really glad I get to call you my boyfriend.â
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Sneak peeks for Sacrifices - Part 4! I couldn't decide on just one, so you are getting like 4, lol:
- Vincent literally follows his dad around now as he performs his sorcerer's duties.
- Sexy time with Stephen in his favorite position as discussed in part 3 đ
- Bucky will be having a bigger part in the next couple parts.
- Bucky has developed a tendency of interrupting your naughty time with Stephen more often then your actual 5 year old. Stephen hates it.
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I don't know if you usually take requests, but could you please write a drabble about Bucky taking care of the reader during her period? Period cramps are killing me and I just want some cuddles đ„ș
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Cuddles
⥠Pairing: tfatws!Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader
⥠Summary: Bucky helps comfort you when you are having bad period cramps.
⥠Warnings: SUPER FLUFFY, light angst, period cramps, blood (duhhh), light self hate
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* i know this is mickey, but letâs pretend itâs post tfatws!bucky *
You had showered after a long day, doing your usual routineâ taking your time to really treat yourself after a tough week.
Immediately after sinking into bed, the sheets feeling so good against your freshly shaven legsâ it took no time at all for you to slip into a much needed slumber. You didnât know you could sleep so soundly, so well. Most nights consisted of rolling and waking up occasionally in sweats. Tonight was the first, as you slept through the entire night, waking only the next morning.
You were excited to start off your Saturday after a good nights rest, except when you went to get upâ you noticed you were still exhausted. It was then you could feel your back ache, all your limbs heavier than usual. You furrowed your brows in confusion, thinking perhaps you had gotten too much sleep. But as you swung your legs over the edge of the bed, you suddenly felt something wet in between your thighs.
Glancing down, ripping the cover offâ everything dawned on you at the sight of red smearing the inside of your thighs, your underwear ruined.
Fucking periods.
You knew getting that good of sleep was too good to be true. You could feel the tears working their way up, your nose burning with frustration. You had just cleaned and changed all your sheets, taken a shower. Now everything, including you were dirty againâ like you had never done any of the cleaning to begin with.
You knew it was just your emotions running wild, so you willed your tears to stay away. Sucking in a deep breath, you walked to the bathroom sluggishly. You made it your mission to grab a pill before the cramps startedâ you had learned your lesson. Although you were starting your period, you were not going to let this ruin your weekend. You were going to have a nice relaxing weekend. Not letting the beauties of being a woman ruin your day.
If only you had kept that attitude up for the entire day. The cramps had come as you expected, but this time the pill did nothing to relieve the pain. The heating pad worked only for a few minutes before the pain came crashing in waves, your body attempting to curl in on itself from the discomfort.
You swore a ghost was digging a knife in your uterus, and right nowâ youâd appreciate if the ghost just ripped out your uterus completely.
You had holed yourself up in your room, only making it downstairs for breakfast before you were running back to your bathroom to empty the contents of your stomach back out. This was definitely one of the worst periods youâd had in awhile, and you just wanted to slip into a coma until it was over.
Knocking sounded from your door, and you rolled over still clutching your stomach. You looked a mess, you felt like a disaster. Periods always made you feel gross.
âYeah?â You asked out loud, and you couldnât hide the discomfort from your tone.
â(Y/n)? You okay?â Bucky asked through the door.
Your eyes widened at his voice, wondering what he was doing here.
You and Bucky had been dating for awhile now, and things had been great. You still managed to get flustered by practically anything he didâ and he loved every second of your flustered state. There was one thing that was brought up thoughâ and that was periods.
âUhâ yeah Iâm fine! Just tired!â You shouted, nervous that he could sense your lie. He definitely could.
Itâs not that you thought heâd judge you for being a woman and having a period. But you were shy to show him that vulnerable side of you. Both you and him had shown the soft sides of each otherâ clinging to each other when you needed each others comfort. But there was something extra vulnerable about thisâ and you couldnât ignore the embarrassment you felt when you even thought of it. You didnât want him to find you gross, or annoying as you whined.
Okay⊠I guess you were a little nervous that heâd judge you.
âDoll whatâs going on? Can I come in?â He asked, his voice growing more concerned.
You pulled the cover over your legs, giving the room one last once overâ it didnât look terrible. You just wished you could have a minute or two to tidy up. You knew Bucky very well though, and heâd break the door down if you waited one more second.
âOf course, come in!â You announced finally, taking a deep breath, hoping a cramp didnât hit you while he visited.
The door opened and Bucky peeled his head in first, after making eye contact with youâ he sent a warm smile before heading all the way in, shitting the door behind him. He quickly made his way to the bed where he plopped down, looking over you concerned.
âBaby whatâs going on? I feel like I havenât seen you much today. You sure youâre just tired? You arenât getting sick are you?â He rambled on, and your heart swelled at his concern.
âBuckâ Iâm fine really. Just didnât sleep too good last night.â You completely lied, last night was the best sleep you had ever had. Too bad it leaked into today though.
He furrowed his brows and looked at you like he was about to figure you outâ see right through you and pick out the lies. You wouldnât be surprised if the serum gave him those abilities.
âYou know you can tell me anything, right?â He asked softly, scooting closer so he could slip his hand underneath the covers to land on your bare thigh.
It was meant to be a comforting gesture, but you feared youâd get blood on him. You knew that was a silly thoughtâ but you were paranoid.
He noticed you tense up from his touch and immediately he removed his hand, his face growing more concerned.
âBaby, what is it?â He pried, trying to look you over againâ needing to know what the cause of your discomfort was.
You sighed and gave in, shoulders sagging in defeat. You didnât want him to worry, and seeing his frantic eyes search you for a woundâ you realized you were making this bigger than it needed to be. You just couldnât ignore the embarrassment you felt.
âItâs just uh⊠Iâm⊠Iâm on my period Buck.â You mumbled, lowering your eyes to the bed.
His concerned expression melted away, his heart falling back into a regular rhythm. He knew he was prehistoricâ but he knew what a period was. He just didnât know why you wanted to hide it from him.
âOh.â He finally said, âDollâ you can tell me things like that.â
âI know Buck but⊠itâs embarrassing and gross. I can usually deal with it and nobody ever noticesâ you know because itâs a normal thing.â You told him, playing with the edge of the comforter. âThis one has just been pretty bad and⊠I justâ I donât know.â
You trailed off, avoiding his gaze. Bucky reached his hand over and tucked some stray hairs behind your ear. Tracing his fingers down your jaw to raise your chin upâ that way he could look into your eyes.
âYouâre not gross, okay? Iâm sorry youâre in pain babyâ I wish I could take it all away. Itâs not fair you have to deal with this all the time.â He told you gently, and you leaned into his touch.
âItâs not usually this bad but⊠I donât know, I guess itâs just a bad one this time around.â You assumed.
Before you could say anything else, you doubled over as the pain came backâ stabbing into your uterus. You clutched your lower abdomenâ hoping it would help relieve the pain. Buckyâs eyes widened at your whine.
âWhat can I do to help?â He rushed out, hands hovering over you.
If it were any other time, youâd find his protective, mama bear mode adorable. But for nowâ you were too busy being in pain.
âJust stay with me please? I donât wanna lay here alone.â You admitted, your words coming out in whimpers.
Bucky wasted no time in kicking his shoes off, shimming his jacket off before he crawled back into the bed, sneaking under the covers. He leaned back against the headboard, pulling you on top of him.
âDonât even have to ask doll, Iâm staying right here. You comfortable?â He asked.
You reached down and raised your shirt just above your belly button, before you lifted his shirt the same. He furrowed his brows, wondering what you were doing. You laid down completely again, letting your skin smush against his, and because he was a super soldier and was always hotâ his warm stomach felt amazing against your lower abdomen. Like a personal heating pad.
âAhh⊠that feels good. Youâre so warm.â You sighed, ticking your face into the crook of his neck.
He chuckled and smiled into your hair, wrapping his arms protectively around you.
âI love you baby.â He whispered to you, already feeling your breathing even outâ falling asleep on him.
Your uterus calmed for now, the warm sensation soothing your pain. You could only wait until the next wave of pain cameâ but you knew youâd be okay with Bucky holding you.
âLove you too Buck.â You mumbled sleepily against his neck, your breath warming his skin.
He hated that you were in pain, wishing that he could take it all awayâ but heâd give you as many Bucky cuddles as you needed until you were sick of him.
Truthfully, youâd never get sick of Bucky cuddles.
A/N: short but sweet đ„°
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Never Enough | B.Barnes
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Warnings: Angst, fluff, comfort idk
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The mission had been textbook so far, each Avenger playing their part with precision and skill. You moved through the chaos with a focused intensity, your grey-hued powers crackling around your hands as you deflected incoming attacks and shielded your teammates. The battlefield was a blur of noise and movement, but you were in the zone, you always were every action calculated to protect those around you, no one would ever get hurt because of you again.
Sam was high in the sky, engaged in an aerial battle with a group of enemy drones, when you spotted something he didnât, a sniper, hidden on a distant rooftop, aimed directly at him âSam!â You yelled through the comms, when all you heard was static you muttered to yourself âshit shit shitâ
Your heart skipped a beat as you saw the glint of the scope, without a second thought, you threw herself into action, your powers surging as you manipulated the grey energy to redirect the bullet.
The energy crackled and hissed as it wrapped around the speeding projectile, altering its course just enough to avoid a fatal shot, but in the process, you lost control for a split second, and the bullet grazed your ear, tearing through flesh before embedding harmlessly in a nearby wall.
You stumbled slightly from the impact, your hand instinctively reaching up to the side of your head, when you pulled it away, your fingers were slick with blood. The warm liquid began to trickle down your face, but you pushed the pain aside, focusing on the relief that Sam was still in the sky, unharmed.
The mission wrapped up quickly after that, the team neutralising the last of their enemies. As they regrouped, Buckyâs sharp eyes zeroed in on you, and his stomach dropped when he saw the blood staining the side of your face.
âDoll?!â he called out, rushing over to you. His heart pounded in his chest as he reached out, his fingers trembling slightly as he tilted your chin to get a better look at the wound âYouâre bleeding.â
You winced slightly at his touch but managed a small, reassuring smile âItâs just a graze, Bucky, Iâm fineâ
âFine?â he repeated, his voice tinged with panic âYouâre bleeding all over the placeâ his hands touching you all over, eyes racking your body to make sure it was the only one.
You gently pulled his hand away from you, giving him a firm look, still holding his hand in yours squeezing it âItâs fine, really. Samâs okay, and thatâs what mattersâ
As if on cue, Sam landed beside them, his wings retracting as he touched down. He noticed the blood immediately, his eyes widening in shock. âY/N, what the hell happened?â
You waved it off as if it were nothing, because it was nothing âJust a little sniper action, I saw the shot coming your way and redirected it, no big dealâ You shrugged
Samâs expression softened, and he placed a hand on her shoulder âThank you, I didnât even see it coming⊠you saved my lifeâ
You could feel his eyes peering into the side of your head, as if he was trying to see into your head and what you were actually thinking and what you were actually feeling. Before Bucky could protest further, the rest of the team gathered around, assessing the situation.
Natasha gave Y/N a once-over, her eyes lingering on the blood before nodding approvingly âNice work out there.â
âYeah, way to keep Sam in one piece,â Clint added with a grin.
You smiled, though the adrenaline was starting to wear off, and the pain was becoming harder to ignore. Bucky noticed the way your smile faltered, but before he could press you to get checked out, Tonyâs voice came over the comms, the ones that were finally working.
âAlright, team, letâs pack it up and head back to the Compound. Dinnerâs on me tonight.â
You breathed a quiet sigh of relief as they headed to the jet. You knew Bucky was worried, but you couldnât let him fuss over you right now. The wound was minor, and all that mattered was that all of you were heading home, all of them, your familyâŠ. alive.
The flight back to the Compound was uneventful, the team settling into a comfortable silence as they let the exhaustion of the mission sink in. You sat beside Bucky, leaning your head against the cool window, ignoring the throbbing on the side of your head. You could feel Buckyâs concerned gaze on you, but you kept her eyes closed, pretending to be asleep to avoid another confrontation.
When they landed, the team made their way to the common area, still buzzing with post-mission energy. Tony had ordered dinner, and they all gathered around the large table, digging into the food that was quickly delivered. The atmosphere was light, everyone enjoying the rare moment of relaxation.
As they ate, Tony cleared his throat, drawing the groupâs attention âBefore we all dig into dessert, Iâve got something to say.â
The room quieted as everyone looked at him expectantly.
âI was going over the mission logs today,â Tony continued, a playful smirk on his face. âAnd it turns out that our very own Y/N here has officially been on more missions than anyone else on the team this year.â
You blinked in surprise, your fork pausing mid-air. The rest of the team looked at you with varying degrees of shock and admiration.
âWait, seriously?â Bruce asked, his eyebrows shooting up.
âY/N joined after most of us,â Natasha added, her tone impressed.
Buckyâs eyes narrowed slightly, a mix of pride and concern flickering in his gaze. He knew how driven you were, but hearing that you had been on the most missionsâdespite the risks you tookâmade his heart clench. It made someone chun inside of him, he felt uneasy and nauseous. He knew you had baggage, dark shadows lurking behind you, almost everyone on the team did but this felt different.
You shifted uncomfortably under the attention, forcing a smile as you shrugged, trying to brush off the unwanted attention âJust trying to keep up with the rest of you.â
Tony raised his glass in a mock toast. âWell, hereâs to Y/Nâthe MVP of the team. Just try not to hog all the action next year.â
Everyone chuckled, raising their glasses in her honour. You smiled, but your mind was elsewhere, replaying the events of the day and the worried look in Buckyâs eyes.
As the night wore on, you found yourself standing on the balcony, the cool night air brushing against your skin. You needed a moment alone to process everythingâthe wound, the mission, and the weight of Tonyâs announcement.
As the night wore on, you found yourself standing on the balcony, the cool night air brushing against your skin. You needed a moment alone to process everything-the wound, the mission, and the weight of Tony's announcement.
But you weren't alone for long. Bucky found you, as he always did, quietly joining you, his presence a comforting warmth in the darkness.
"Sweetheart," he began, his voice low as he reached for you, brushing the hair off your face. His fingers lingered near the now bandaged wound. "You've got to stop doing this to yourself."
You didn't turn to face him, your gaze fixed on the stars above. "I'm fine, Buck... really."
He stepped closer, his hand gently resting on your arm, his grip firm but tender, trying to keep his frustration in check. "I'm not just talking about today, you're pushing yourself too hardâŠyou're getting hurt too often. I know this seems minor to you, but... you're everything to me, doll, I can't-" He cut himself off, swallowing hard.
You finally turned to look at him, your eyes meeting his, the weight of his words settling in your chest. "I have to, Bucky. I can't stop, not when there's so much at stakeâ
He sighed, his expression tight with frustration, pain clouding his usually soft gaze."You don't have to do it all alone, we're a team. You've got us-you've got meâŠyou always have meâ
For a moment, you just stood there, the unspoken tension between you heavy in the air. You wanted to argue, to tell him that you needed to keep going, to keep saving lives. But the concern in his eyes, the desperation in his voice, made it harder to deny that maybe, just maybe, you were running yourself into the ground.
"I know you're trying to help," you said softly, your voice trembling as you searched for the right words. "But I don't know how to stop... I don't know how to just... be."
Bucky's face softened, and he pulled you closer, his arms
wrapping around you as if he could shield you from everything. "You don't have to have it all figured out right now. We'll take it slow, okay? You don't have to do thisâ
But even as you stood there in his embrace, a part of you resisted. You couldn't shake the feeling that slowing down, letting go, meant giving up some part of yourself. And that terrified you.
You pulled away from him, your heart pounding in your chest as a sudden wave of frustration surged inside you. "You don't get it, Bucky," you said, your voice rising despite your best efforts to keep it steady. "If I stop-if I take a break-then what am I even here for? All I have is the next mission, the next chance to save someone else."
Bucky's brow furrowed, his hands hovering near you, unsure whether to reach for you again. "That's not trueâŠyou're here because you matter, because we matter. You're not just some weapon to be used over and overâ
You shook your head, stepping back as the anger and pain you'd been suppressing for so long started to spill over. "I can't just stop, okay? You don't understand what it's like, knowing that no matter what I do, it'll never be enough to erase what happened." He had his own demons, you knew that, he knew that. You knew he knew what it felt like, that no matter how much good you did, you could never erase the past.
"What are you talking about?" Bucky asked, his voice quiet, pleading "Enough for what?"
"My family," you snapped, the words tearing out of you like a wound being ripped open. "I killed them, Bucky. I was supposed to protect them, and I didn't. I couldn't." Your voice broke, and you took in a shaky breath, tears burning in your eyes. "No matter how many lives I save, it won't bring them back. It won't make up for what I did."
The silence that followed was deafening. Bucky stared at you, his expression stricken, as if he could feel the weight of your pain pressing down on him too. His voice, when he spoke, was raw and filled with emotion. "You were a kid... You couldn't control it. How could you blame yourself for that?"
"Because who else is there to blame?" you cried, your voice cracking with the intensity of your grief. "I'm the one who's supposed to have control. I'm the one with these powers, and I couldn't â didn't save themâŠ.and now, I have to keep going because if I don't... if I stop..."
"If you stop, what?" Bucky's voice was sharp now, his own frustration bubbling to the surface. "You think you'll suddenly fall apart? You think it'll undo everything you've done, everything you've fought for?"
You wiped at your eyes angrily, turning away from him. "MaybeâŠ.Maybe I deserve to fall apart. Maybe I should."
"Stop," he said, stepping forward, his voice firm, a thread of anger creeping into it. "You're punishing yourself, and it's not helping anyone, least of all you."
You spun back around, the heat of your emotions pushing you beyond the point of caring. "And what if I am? What if this is the only way I know how to keep going?"
Bucky's face hardened, the pain in his eyes replaced with something colder, something distant. "You're going to kill yourself if you keep this up and I can't stand by and watch you do that!â
"Then don't!" you yelled, your chest heaving as the words tumbled out before you could stop them. "If it's so hard for you, then just leave, Bucky! I'm used to being alone."
His silence was like a slap in the face. For a moment, you thought he might actually walk away, that you had finally pushed him too far.
But when he spoke, his voice was quiet, devastated. "You really think l'd leave you? After everything?"
You swallowed hard, the weight of your own words sinking in, but the anger and the pain wouldn't let you stop. "Maybe you shouldâŠmaybe it would be easier for both of us."
Bucky stared at you for a long moment, his jaw clenched tight, his eyes shining with hurt. "If that's what you want."
You felt the sting of your own words twisting in your chest, regret pooling in your stomach. But it was too late now. The damage was done, you couldn't take it back.
Without another word, Bucky turned and walked away, his footsteps heavy and deliberate, each one echoing like a hammer in your chest.
And when the door finally closed behind him, the quiet that followed was suffocating. The stars above you blurred as the tears finally fell, but this time, there was no one there to hold you together.
You were alone. Just like you always feared you would be.
After the door closed behind him, you stood frozen, your breath caught in your throat. The silence was heavy, thick with the weight of words you couldnât take back. The pain in Buckyâs eyes haunted you, replaying in your mind like a broken record.
You leaned against the balcony railing, gripping it so tightly your knuckles turned white. The cold wind stung against the cut on your ear, but the physical pain was a dull ache compared to the emotional wreckage inside of you.
âI did it again,â you whispered to yourself, your voice shaky, broken. âI pushed him away.â
You thought back to the mission, to the moment youâd saved Sam without thinking of yourself. That was who you were, wasnât it? Someone who always threw themselves in harmâs way, someone who believed their life was a bargaining chip to protect others. But with BuckyâŠit was different. He didnât need saving. He needed you to let him in, and you couldnât.
The stars blurred as more tears filled your eyes. All you could see was the look of betrayal on Buckyâs face as he turned to leave.
Maybe you were too far gone. Maybe the weight of your past, of your guilt, was too much for anyone to carry, even Bucky. Heâd seen the worst of you, and now, maybe heâd finally had enough.
You choked back a sob, the hollow emptiness in your chest growing, threatening to swallow you whole. Your breath came in ragged gasps as you fought to hold yourself together, but it was no use. The cracks were already showing.
And in the quiet of the night, with nothing but the stars and your own racing thoughts, you wondered if youâd pushed the one person who could understand you too far. If youâd finally driven him away for good.
The door didnât open again.
You were alone. Truly, completely alone. And the worst part was, it felt like you deserved it. Because you did.
You stayed there, staring at the night sky as if the stars could offer answers, but all they did was remind you of how small and insignificant everything felt. The wind howled through the silence, and your body shookâwhether from the cold or from the emotions tearing you apart, you werenât sure.
Suddenly, the door creaked open again, and for a moment, your heart leapt, thinking Bucky had come back. But when you heard the familiar sound of soft footsteps, you realised it was someone else.
âYou okay?â Natashaâs voice was quiet, cautious.
You didnât turn around, wiping at your eyes quickly to hide the tears âYeah⊠just needed some air.â
Natasha came to stand beside you, leaning her elbows on the railing, her sharp eyes scanning your face even though you refused to meet them. âYou know, youâre a terrible liarâ
You huffed a humourless laugh, the sound bitter in your throat. âGuess I amâ
Natasha sighed softly, leaning in closer. âI heard what happened⊠between you and Bucky, i didn't mean to eavesdrop â
You swallowed hard, your chest tightening at the mention of his name âYeah, well, itâs my fault. I pushed him away, thatâs what I do.â
Natasha tilted her head, her gaze softer than usual. âYou think pushing people away makes you stronger, but itâs only making you more vulnerableâ
You stared at the ground, your voice barely above a whisper. âWhat if Iâm too broken to fix? What if I ruin everything I touch?â
Natasha straightened, her expression turning serious. âYouâre not broken, Y/N. Youâre hurting but thereâs a difference.â
You shook your head, your fingers tightening around the railing âYou didnât see the look on his face when I practically told him to leaveâŠ.and he did.â
Natasha crossed her arms, her voice sharp but not unkind. âBuckyâs not the type to give up easily, especially when it comes to you, he loves you so muchâŠHeâll come back, but you have to let him in. You canât keep shutting him out, or one day⊠he might not come backâ
You finally looked at her, your eyes brimming with unshed tears âWhat if itâs too late?â
Natasha shook her head. âItâs not too late..not unless you let it beâ
You bit your lip, fighting the urge to break down again. âI donât know how to stop, Nat. I donât know how to stop blaming myself.â
Natasha placed a hand on your arm, her grip firm, grounding you. âYou have to forgive yourself, you werenât responsible for what happened to your family and youâre not responsible for everything that goes wrong in the world, Youâve done more than enough.â
You felt the weight of her words, but they seemed so far away from what you felt in your chest. âI donât know if I can.â
Natashaâs eyes softened again. âThen let us help you, let Bucky help you..thatâs what he wants and its what you needâ
You looked away, your voice small and fragile. âIâm afraid Iâll lose him, Iâm afraid Iâll lose all of you.â
Natasha squeezed your arm gently. âYou wonât, but if you keep pushing us away, youâre only going to lose yourselfâ
For a long moment, you stood in silence, her words sinking in. The night air felt a little colder, but her presence grounded you, reminded you that you werenât aloneâeven if it felt that way.
Finally, you nodded, barely a whisper escaping your lips. âI donât know how to fix this, Nat.â
Natasha gave you a small, reassuring smile. âYou donât have to fix everything, Y/N. Sometimes, you just have to let people be there for youâ
You stood there for a moment longer, Natashaâs words hanging in the air like a lifeline. She was right. You didnât have to fix everything alone, and Buckyâhe wouldnât give up on you that easily.
Taking a deep breath, you turned to her. âThanks, Nat⊠I think I need to talk to himâ
Natasha gave you a knowing smile, her eyes softening. âGoâŠHeâs probably waiting for you.â
You nodded, your heart pounding in your chest as you made your way inside. The hallways of the Compound were quiet, the hum of the place barely a whisper against the tension knotting in your stomach. You werenât sure where he had gone, but you knew Buckyâhe would seek solitude, someplace quiet to think.
Heading toward the common area, you peeked around the corners until you found him sitting on the couch, his back turned to you. His posture was tense, shoulders hunched forward as he stared blankly at the wall. The sight of him like thatâsilent and stillâmade your chest ache. You hated seeing him hurt, especially when it was your words that had caused it.
You took a tentative step forward, clearing your throat softly. âBucky?â
His shoulders tensed at the sound of your voice, but he didnât turn around. For a moment, you feared he might stay silent, that you had pushed him too far. But then, he sighed, his voice low and filled with emotion âWhat do you want, Y/N?â
Your heart clenched, and you took a deep breath before stepping closer. âI⊠I just wanted to apologise for what I said earlierâ
Buckyâs head tilted slightly, but he still didnât turn around âYou told me to leave, so I did.â
You winced at the pain in his voice, the weight of your own words crashing over you again âI didnât mean it, BuckâŠI was just⊠scared. Of losing you, of everythingâ
There was a long pause, the silence stretching between you like a chasm you were desperate to cross. Finally, Bucky spoke, his voice quiet but laced with vulnerability. âI know youâre scared, but so am I.â
You blinked in surprise, stepping even closer now, your hand reaching out hesitant to touch his shoulder âYouâre scared?â
He finally turned to face you, his blue eyes soft and filled with a raw emotion that made your breath hitch. âOf course I am, every time I see you throw yourself into danger like that, Iâm terrified Iâm going to lose you. You keep pushing yourself too hard, Y/N, and itâs killing me. You mean everything to me.â
Your heart swelled at his words, the intensity of his gaze making it impossible to look away. âBucky⊠Iâm sorry. I didnât realise how much I was hurting you.â
He stood up then, towering over you but not in an intimidating way. His presence was warm, comforting, and despite everything, you felt safe with him. He reached out slowly, brushing his fingers against your cheek as if testing the waters âI just want you to be okay, dollâŠthatâs all Iâve ever wanted, youâre all i ever wantâ
You leaned into his touch, your eyes searching his, the sincerity of his words making your heart ache. âI donât want to push you away. I just⊠Iâve been running for so long, I didnât know how to stop.â
Buckyâs thumb gently traced along your cheek, his touch soft and reassuring âThen stop running, sweetheart. Let me be there for youâ
Tears pricked the corners of your eyes as you reached up to place your hand over his. âI donât want to be alone, not anymore.â
Buckyâs face softened, and he pulled you into a gentle embrace, his arms wrapping around you like a protective shield. You buried your face in his chest, breathing in his familiar scent, the steady beat of his heart grounding you.
âYouâll never be alone,â he murmured into your hair, pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head. âNot as long as Iâm hereâ
You squeezed him tighter, feeling the weight of your fears slowly melt away in his embrace. For the first time in a long time, you felt like you didnât have to carry everything on your own.
âThank you,â you whispered, your voice muffled against his chest.
He pulled back just enough to tilt your chin up, his eyes filled with so much warmth it made your heart flutter. âAnytime, doll. Youâre stuck with me now.â
You couldnât help the soft laugh that escaped you, the tension between you both easing as his lips curled into a playful smile. âGood, I think I like being stuck with you.â
Bucky chuckled, leaning down to press a kiss to your forehead, then your nose, and finally, your lips. It was soft and gentle, like he was afraid of breaking the moment, but it sent warmth flooding through your body.
When he pulled back, his forehead rested against yours, his voice a soft whisper. âI love you, Y/N.â
Your heart soared at his words, and you smiled up at him, finally allowing yourself to let go of all the fear and doubt. âI love you too, BuckyâŠ. More than youâll ever know.â
Buckyâs eyes shone with affection, and he kissed you again, this time deeper, more passionate. The world around you faded away, and for the first time in a long time, everything felt right.
In his arms, you werenât broken, you werenât alone. You were whole. And that was more than enough.
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um. how did this have all the thoughts in my heart. like i knew what you were leading towards because this so accurately reflected my feelings about romance too. you took our convo and made it something so beautiful, lyn! đđ€ this is perfect and so comforting and literally the epitome of rom-communism. things may appear bleak, dates may be bad, we may start to doubt ourselves; but that's just us going through the dark forest. fairy tales do not start, nor do they end in the dark forest â€ïžđ„čđđŒ
at the end of the day
summary: after another failed date, you run into bucky barnes on the way home and the two of you get caught in the rain
warnings: fluff, dancing in the rain, talks about love, romcom vibes i hope, pining bucky
wc: 1.7k
a/n: inspired by the talk @jadedvibes and i had a while ago heheh. men suck sometimes but we gotta put our trust in rom-communism and that everything will work out at the end :)
How many horrible dates will you go on to realize that you're never going to have your happy ending?Â
The thought plagued you as you walked down the street. You were going to give up on love completely this time, you promised yourself.
You were deep in thought when a soft voice interrupted your pitiful reverie.Â
âOh?â you said, eyes widening in surprise. âBucky, what are you doing here?â
A light chuckle filled the air between the two of you before he spoke. âI live in this neighbourhood, doll.âÂ
You mentally smacked yourself on the forehead. âOh, right. I forgot.âÂ
His mouth curved into an amused grin before he took a good look at you. âWhat are you doing here?â he asked, but he had a feeling he already knew the answer.Â
You looked down at your outfit, one so different from the usual attire you have on at the Tower. âIsnât it kinda obvious?â you teased, though your voiceâs laced with defeat. âI was on a date.âÂ
He hummed, âAnd howâd it go?âÂ
âLetâs just say there isnât going to be a second one,â you answered, finishing off with a sigh.
Bucky winced. âMâsorry it didnât go well.â
âYou donât have to be sorry,â you said, âIt⊠it happens a lot, Iâm used to it.âÂ
His brow creased in confusion. âUsed to what?â
Did you really have to lay out your shitty love life in front of Bucky Barnes?Â
You twiddled your thumb nervously. âGoing on bad dates,â you stated, âNever finding anything meaningful from them. Always going home with the feeling of disappointment. You know, the usual.âÂ
Bucky frowned. He never realized you had problems with the whole⊠dating thing. At least you didnât look like it whenever he saw you around the Tower. You were a joy to be aroundâalways surrounded by people. How could you possibly have problems with dating? Half the department was already in love with you. (Not that Bucky was keeping records on names or anything. Maybe a little.) If you had problems with love, then what about someone like him?Â
Now that you voiced your problem out loud, you felt a bit better. Itâs not that you couldnât find someoneâthereâs plenty of someones out thereâbut none of them made you feel special or seen. That spark you were always looking for seemed to be nonexistent.
Maybe the problem was that you were too picky, your standard was too highâtoo unrealistic.
Or maybe you were the thing you feared the most.
âSometimes, I feel like thereâs something wrong with me,â you confessed. âNo, there must be something wrong with me. Maybe the stuff you see in movies does happen, just not to me because no one wants to put in that effort with me. Maybe, Iâm unlovable.â
You never thought you would be confessing all this to him.Â
Bucky took a minute to digest your words before speaking again. âHey,â he said softly. âDonât you dare blame yourself. Thereâs nothing wrong with you.â
Looking into his eyes, you wondered if he truly meant it, or if heâs just being kind like he always was. And as if he could read your mind, âI mean it,â he added, reassuring you.Â
âThen whyâŠâÂ
âThese people you go on dates with,â he jumped in, âThey donât even realize how lucky they are. Youâre amazing,â he said, a gentle smile spreading across his face, âAnd if they donât see that or donât make you feel like youâre on top of the world, then I guess they werenât that great to begin with. They donât deserve someone as wonderful as you.âÂ
You were speechless. Bucky and you werenât strangers but calling him a friend seemed a bit too⊠intimate. You donât even have his number for Christâs sake. The two of you were just two people who worked in the same building and saw each other frequently and talked here and there. But why did his words mean more to you than any pep-talk your friends gave you?Â
âI-lââ you stuttered, âI donât know what to say. Iâm honoured that you think so highly of me.â
If you only knew what Bucky thought of you. He doesnât really know when it happened, this growing feeling inside of him, but seeing you had become his favourite part of the job. He always tried to spark up small talk (much to everyoneâs surprise) but the both of you were busy, always getting whisked away mid-conversation.
Today was the first time he saw you outside of work, in his neighbourhood nonetheless. Perhaps this was his chanceâfinally some alone time with you. He felt like there were a million things to say, but of course, it came out wrong, as it always does. âI always think about you.â When you raised an eyebrow at him, he corrected himself, âI-I mean I always think highly of you,â he corrected, a tinge of pink evident on his cheek.Â
A small chuckle escaped from you, and you had to look down bashfully, trying your best to hide your flusteredness. I always think about you.
You wondered why you never paid more attention to the Avenger who always had business in your department.Â
âThatâs really sweet of you to say. If Iâm being honest, I was genuinely ready to give up on love tonight,â you said with a small laugh.
Bucky swallowed. âLooââ Before he could finish his sentence, something wet landed on top of his forehead. Then another one. And another one. It had started to rain. He could have sworn that wasnât the predicted forecast tonight.
The two of you looked up, letting the steady gentle rain hit the surfaces of your skin. It was probably a good idea to find shelter, maybe stand underneath a roof for the time being until the unexpected summer rain went away.
But the two of you just stood there, completely still, looking ridiculous to onlookers. And then you bursted into a fit of laughter. âSorry, itâs just⊠I always imagined what it would be like to be stuck in a storm.âÂ
He grinned. âAnd how is it?â he yelled through the pitter-patter.Â
âHmm. Not as romantic as I thought itâll be,â you noted amusingly.
Bucky met your eyes for a moment, then swallowed a breath. âDance with me?â he asked, extending a hand towards you.Â
You raised a brow, heart skipping a beat at his words. You would be lying if you said the hopeless romantic in you never imagined yourself in this position multiple times. You just never thought it would be with Bucky Barnes.
Taking his hand, he led you with small slow steps.Â
âYou mustâve done this a lot back in your days,â you teased playfully.
Connecting his eyes with yours, he confessed, âThis is the first time Iâve danced with someone in the rain.â
Bringing you in and out, and then lifting your arm to twirl you around while the water rippled beneath your feet, it felt like you were suddenly transported elsewhere. Like a movie you had seen on screen that had you swooning. Or a novel you had read late into the night with a gigantic smile on your face. You almost expected some low jazz to start playing soon. But even if it didnât, it wouldâve been fine, because you had the soft glow of moonlight peeking out from behind the clouds, the summer rain, and Bucky with you. It was already enough to set the scene.Â
He looked particularly boyish tonight with his hair sticking to his forehead. You had the urge to sweep the strands away.
You let out a small yelp when Bucky dipped you down before pulling you back up so you were pressed into his chest. You were glad the sound of raindrops masked your beating heart.Â
He was a bit rusty, he knew that. It has been over seventy-years since he danced with someone. He couldnât believe how you would think no one wanted to put in the effort with you. He would dance with you in the rain all the time if thatâs what you wanted. Would probably do anything you asked of him, if he was being honest.
Youâre not a very good dancer, you had to admit. But Bucky was leading you through the whole thing, even smiling down at you when you accidentally stepped on his foot.Â
You wondered how many people this beautiful and charming being of a man had swept off their feet before. Hopefully, he still had space in his heart for you. Because you were completely wooed.
As the rain slowed down and sky started to clear ever so slightly, you realized that the spark you were always complaining about not feelingâit was here, in this very moment, ignited from the touches between the two of you. It was there the moment you took his hand. Giving him another sneaky glance, your eyes lit up like a thousand stars.
Maybe the right person was in front of you all along.Â
Bucky doesnât know how long the two of you stood there in the aftermath, looking into each other's eyes. Itâs the brightest thing in the city, he thought.
Moments later, you removed yourself from him. âWell, the rain stopped.âÂ
âIt certainly did,â he said, sounding faintly amused.Â
âI guess I should get going,â you said, though you were still lingering around.
Bucky, who was soaked to the bones, asked, âShould I take you home?â
You shook your head. âIâm okay. My place is only a few stations from here. Thank you for offering though.â Maybe next time.
Before you completely escaped from his vision, he shouted your name, causing you to pause in your steps and look over your shoulder. âI hope youâre not giving up on love.â
You bit the inside of your cheek, trying to fight back a smile.
How could you?
Bucky Barnes gave you a million reasons to believe in love again.Â
#đ€đ#this was so perfectly fluffy and comforting bless you#i feel hopeful again đđ#bucky barnes x you#bucky barnes x reader#bucky barnes x y/n#bucky barnes fic#bucky barnes fluff#jade reads đ
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a halloween trick and a halloween treat
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pairing: cat shifter!bucky barnes x female reader
summary: you wake shortly after midnight on halloween, thinking it must've been your rescue cat disturbing you. but when you discover a naked, sleeping stranger in your bed, you're in for a much bigger surprise.
warnings: 18+ content (minors dni!!!), monsterfucking, shifter dynamics (mating, purring, a nonhuman cock), sorta fated mates, smut, piv sex, unprotected sex, creampie, nipple sucking, fingering (f receiving), oral sex (f receiving), multiple orgasms, dry humping, light bdsm dynamics, lots of check-ins, biting, dirty talk, alpha kink, praise kink, pet names (koshechka [russian for kitty]), aftercare, very fluffy happy ending
word count: 12.9k
a/n: i had the idea for this fic so many weeks ago i don't even remember what inspired it, but i thought it might be a fun halloween fic! i struggled a bit with this fic, especially the magic and justifying bucky's decisions, so i hope it all makes sense!! suspension of disbelief is your friend with this one đ
anyway i hope y'all enjoy!! âĄ
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Something wasâŠoff.Â
It was the middle of the night, the waxing moon shining brightly through the curtains of your bedroom, an October chill in the air, and youâd been woken by⊠something. A sound, maybe?Â
It wasnât uncommon for your rescue cat to wake you up in the middle of the night by knocking something over or playing with one of the many toys youâd gotten him. Sometimes, heâd even wake you up when he gently padded onto your bed in the middle of the night to snuggle into your body over the covers.
You smiled sleepily at the memory of having been woken up plenty of times in that manner since youâd found the Russian Blue trapped in a bucket behind your apartment building the previous November. Youâd named the cat Bucky, which you could admit wasnât the most creative idea youâd ever had, but it fit the mischievous feline.Â
At the very least, you certainly understood how heâd gotten himself trapped in that bucket, since heâd gotten himself stuck in any number of places around your apartment in the year since youâd brought him home, yowling for help until you rescued him.Â
In fact, you sometimes thought he got himself stuck on purpose for the sole reason of getting your attentionâand the soothing snuggles you offered him afterward, cooing soft words about how he was your precious, handsome man in his soft little ears.Â
But that October evening, almost a year after youâd brought the cat home from the vet with a clean bill of health, you strained your ears to listen to the dark stillness of your apartment. You couldnât hear the telltale padding of Buckyâs paws, or feel his warm body curled up next to yours.Â
Something still feltâŠdifferent. Off.
Thinking about it more, you thought you felt a weight on the other side of your queen-sized bed. When you shifted, and the covers caught on something, as if they were being weighed down by something, you thought you mustâve been woken by Bucky jumping onto the bed and curling up to sleep.
Your eyes were still closed and you were snuggled deep beneath your blankets, but you pushed an arm free, reaching across your bed, your fingers seeking the soft fur of your cat. But when you searched the spot just below the other pillow you kept on your bedâin the hopes that youâd one day have a partner to share your bed withâyou didnât feel Bucky.
You felt bare skin. Warm, bare skin. Warm bare skin covering a broad, muscled back.Â
Pulling your hand back with a hiss, you wrenched your eyes open and found that it wasnât your rescue cat in bed with youâit was a man. A man with his broad back turned to you, his soft brown hair messy on the other pillow and his spine curved like he was curled into himself.Â
And when your eyes trailed down the length of his back, you realized with a gasp that this stranger was naked. In your bed. In the middle of the night.Â
What the actual fuck!?Â
You sucked in a sharp inhale, your lungs filling as your body prepared to let loose the shrillest scream you could manage, because what the fuck!?Â
The man mustâve been woken by your gasps or your movement, because before you could make another sound, his head rolled over on the pillow and he blinked at you.
His eyesâŠ
For a moment, they seemed to shine yellow in the moonlightâso much like Buckyâs when you were snuggling in bed before falling asleep. It stole the breath from your lungs, and your scream died in your throat.Â
As you watched, the manâs eyes shifted into a calm, piercing blue, and you had the odd feeling you recognized them. It almost looked like they were the same shade as your Russian Blueâs, even if they looked so different, so human.
The manâs eyes flickered with confusion and his soft lips pulled down into a frown. He reached a hand out to you, as if wanting to comfort you, but jerked to a sudden stop, his gaze falling on his own hand and staring at it as if it wasnât his own.Â
He looked almost as disturbed as you felt finding a strange man sleeping naked in your bed.
The moment heâd looked away from you, youâd filled your lungs with more air, preparing to finally scream for help, and the manâs gaze flicked back to you. Just before you could scream, the man moved swiftly, rolling over and throwing his body on top of yours.Â
His strong arms caged you in beneath the blankets and his broad, warm chest pressed down on yours, keeping you pinned but not crushing you. The manâs hand cupped the back of your head and pressed your face into the curve at the base of his neck, effectively muffling your scream into his smooth skin.Â
It all happened so fast, you didnât have a chance to feel scared, and a second later, a purring sound filled your ears. Vibrations seemed to come from the man on top of you, making your entire body hum pleasantly from the sensation traveling through the blankets that were trapped between your bodies.Â
It was remarkably comfortingâŠand oddly familiar in a way you couldnât place. It made you feelâŠsafe.Â
So safe that your body, which had been tensed with fear, slowly relaxed. All your muscles loosened until you were a melted puddle of pleasant tingles. A dazed smile teased the corners of your lips and you nuzzled the manâs shoulder, breathing in the scent of his skin. He smelled like something wild, like the night and the moon.Â
The purring tapered off, and without the sensation of the vibrations reverberating through your body, you tesned again. It came back to you that you were pinned beneath the blankets of your bed by a strange, naked man, whoâd somehow broken into your apartment in the middle of the night.Â
You began to thrash beneath the cage of the manâs broad chest, kicking your legs and flailing your arms to try to dislodge him, but he was a solid weight on top of you.Â
In fact, if he wasnât a strange, naked man, heâd make a pretty good weighted blanket. But as it was, fear was making your pulse pump hard in your veinsâthat is, until you heard his voice. His first words.
âItâs me,â he rumbled, his words barely discernible above the purring that started again from his chest. His voice was deep, rough, gravelly, like he hadnât used it in a long while. âItâs Buckyâyour Bucky.â
The breath stalled in your lungs and all thoughts of screaming died a quick death. You blinked past the manâs shoulder, staring up at your ceiling, trying to process what heâd said. How could this man be your cat, Bucky?
The orange glow of the streetlight was filtering through your curtains, joining the bluish hue of the moon, casting your room in dark, multihued shadows. It was late Octoberâit was Halloween, if you remembered correctly, since it mustâve been after midnight.
It was the time for spooky things, and you were probably more inclined than most to believe in the fantastical, but you couldnât seem to wrap your still sleepy mind around the fact that there was a strange, naked man in your bed and he claimed to be your pet cat. That justâŠit couldnât be real. Right?
The man kept purring, and the longer you thought about it, the more peculiar it seemed. Men didnât purr like that. Like a cat trying to soothe a frightened kitten. But thatâs exactly what he was doingâand you were the frightened kitten in this scenario, which didnât bother you as much as you wouldâve thought. Because the purring did feel and sound very niceâŠ
But still, he couldnât be Bucky. That would mean he was somehow able to shift between human and cat form, and you didnât care how many romantasy novels you read about shifters falling in love with humans, they couldnât be real. They just couldnât.Â
Even as you thought that, and told yourself you knew what was real and what was fantasy, the fact that the man was also your pet cat was the only thing that made sense. It was the only explanation for why his purr sounded so much like Buckyâs, why his eyes had looked so much like Buckyâs, why his warm, wild scent reminded you so much of Bucky.Â
âB-Bucky?â you whispered into his shoulder, your voice shaky and uncertain. You were so quiet, you didnât know if heâd heard you. But his purring softened, and he pushed up enough that he could hover above you. You saw his face properly for the first time.
AndâŠoh. What a handsome face it was.
Two piercing blue eyes framed a straight nose, leading down to a pair of perfectly soft-looking lips. His jaw was broad and sharp, softened slightly by the thick, dark scruff that was almost long enough to be a beard. In the moonlight, you could see patches of silver streaking through the dark brown of his scruff, and you ached to rake your nails through it.
Instead, you flicked your gaze to his brown hair, which was longish and falling into his face in the most charming way. But even as you wondered how itâd feel to run your fingers through the manâs soft hair, your eyes wandered back down to his eyes, which were staring at you warily. He was watching you closely for your reaction, but you were too stunned by his handsomeness to do more than stare back.Â
âAre you going to scream again?â he asked gruffly, his voice still raspy from sleep or disuse, you couldnât be sure.Â
You took a moment to think about his question, really think about it. If you were honest with yourself, you were starting to believe the man was, somehow, who he saidâBucky, your pet cat transformed into a human. It was hard not to consider it, especially when you were staring up into his eyes that looked so much like Buckyâs that it gave you an eerie sense of dĂ©jĂ vu.
But the rational side of your mind reminded you that he could still be a lunatic pervert with eyes that just happened to look like Buckyâs. He couldâve been stalking you long enough to know your petâs name, and could be trying to lure you into a false sense of security toâŠmurder you or something.Â
 So you narrowed your gaze on him.
âMaybe,â you finally answered. âDepends on whether you can prove you are who you say you are.â
He nodded like he wasnât surprised by your answer and looked away, his eyes trailing over your room. There was something about the way he looked at your pile of not-clean-but-not dirty clothes and the mess on top of your dresser that made you think he knew the landscape of your bedroom almost as well as you did.Â
Which was, decidedly, not like a stalker pervert whoâd never been in your room before.Â
âFirst,â he started in that deliciously gruff voice of his. âCan you tell me if itâs Halloween?â
You huffed a sound that was halfway between surprise and frustration. You didnât understand why he was delaying. You wanted him to either make you believe he was Bucky, or convince you he wasnât so that you could get on with screaming and calling the cops. Feeling him laying on top of you was beginning to feel far too comforting for your liking.
âYeah,â you answered, after a moment of thinking about the days. âI mean yes, it definitely is.â
The man looked a little crestfallen at your answer, his lips pulling down into a frown. You were so preoccupied with the way his soft mouth looked perfectly kissable amidst all the rough scruff on his jaw that you almost missed his muttered words.Â
âI mustâve lost track of the days,â he said to himself, shaking his head with disappointment etched all across his handsome face.Â
The urge to comfort him, to wrap your arms around his shoulders and pull him close so you could bury your face in his chest and inhale his comforting, wild scent was strong, and it made you restless. You were frustrated with yourself, with the way you were waiting quietly for this strange man to get his bearings when you shouldâve been demanding answers.
Unable to stop your frustration from boiling over, you wriggled beneath him impatiently, trying to buck him off. But you didnât move his bulky form even a bit. And there was absolutely no part of you that found that attractive, that liked that he could pin you down and hold you beneath him with his sheer weight and strength.Â
The purring emanating from the manâs chest picked up again, his body pressing you deeper into your soft mattress. He shifted a little, and if you werenât mistaken, you felt something twitch against your belly, something that had you glaring up into his stupid handsome face.
âTell me who you are and what youâre doing in my bed right now,â you hissed through snapping teeth, hoping you came across fiercer than you feltâwhich was like a spitting kitten for all the strength you had in comparison to the larger man.Â
A slow, tempting smile spread across the manâs face, his purring stuttering like he was holding in a laugh. Despite yourself, you had to work to hold onto your anger, which wanted to abandon you in light of the strangerâs charmingly appealing grin.
âYouâre adorable when you try to be threatening,â he cooed, still grinning at you. He was so close that his scent enveloped you, and his purr still vibrated softly through your body. It was all you could do not to relax and give in to the strange manâs charms.Â
Then, to your great surprise, he ducked down and nuzzled your cheek with his own, his scratchy scruff roughing over your soft skin in an affectionate gesture.
It was so achingly familiar, it made your heart squeeze in your chest.Â
It was so much like how Bucky would rub his sweet little face against your cheek and the underside of your chin when he was cuddling with you. Youâd seen plenty of TikTok videos about how clingy male cats could be with their female owners, and that was exactly how Bucky acted. He was so affectionate, always rubbing himself against you and staring up at you like you were his whole worldâŠ
A surprised puff of air escaped your lungs, along with a shocked little whimper. The man mustâve heard you, because his purring picked up and he shifted so his mouth was right next to your ear.
âIâm sorry I scared you,â he murmured, his voice gentle and genuinely remorseful. âWill you let me explainâplease?â
It was the manâs final word, the strain in his hoarse voice, as if he was begging for his life, that did you in. With a disgruntled sigh, more at yourself than anything else, you said, âFine.â
The man lifted his head and stared down at you, his piercing blue eyes raking over your faceâand a soft affection that had your heart thumping harder in your chest. There was uncertainty in the gentle twist of his mouth and, as you watched, he took a deep, steadying breath, as if preparing himself to jump off a cliff.Â
âIâm a shifter,â he said bluntly, his gaze watching you sharply. When you only blinked up at him, he went on. âI can turn into a gray catâa Russian Blue, to be specific. Sound familiar?â
A smirk flirted around the edges of the manâs mouth as he raised his brows, as if prompting you to see the connection between what he said he was and your pet cat. However, you refused to be charmed by him, so you pressed your lips into a firm line and narrowed your eyes at him, telling him wordlessly that you still didnât quite believe him.Â
He huffed an amused laugh and went on.
âHalloween is the one day of the year I canât stay in my cat form,â he explained patiently, his expression open and honest. âItâs something about the thinness of the veil on this day, it forces all shifters to walk the earth in our human forms.â
There was a beat of silence as you processed the manâs explanation. He really did look so earnest, and you couldnât ignore all the similarities youâd already noticed between him and Bucky. The purring, the nuzzling, the eyesâŠ
âSo youâre my cat?â you asked dubiously, your eyes still narrowed up at him, mouth pursed in a skeptical frown. âBucky?âÂ
The man nodded, hope transforming his face. But then he paused, tilting his head to the side as if considering your words more closely.Â
âWell, yesâbut my name isnât Bucky.â
Your frown deepened. Embarrassed heat bloomed in your cheeks at the realization that youâd not only named the handsome Russian Blue youâd rescued from a bucket so unoriginally, but that heâd been a shifter who had a name of his own.Â
âWhat is it?â you squeaked, trying to tamp down on your humiliation.Â
âJames Barnes,â he said, as he studied your expression. Something about the way a playful grin was spreading across his face told you that you werenât successful in hiding your embarrassment from him. âBut I like Bucky, too,â he said, ducking his head down to murmur in your ear, âBecause itâs what you call me.â
You tried to ignore the way your heart flipped in your chest at the implication of his words, but a pleased warmth was flooding through your body and making you melt beneath his comfortably heavy weight. It took all your self-control not to purr right back at the strange manâJames, or Bucky, or whoever he was. You still werenât sure if you believed him.
âKind of convenient that you canât shift right now and prove youâre telling the truth,â you pointed out, trying to get the conversation back on track and get the undeniable proof you needed. You were surprised to find you wanted James to prove he was really Bucky. It would beâŠnice.Â
At your words, the man sighed, leaning up so you could see his face while he carded his fingers through his hair in a sign of frustration. You couldnât help the little stab of jealousy as you watched, wishing it was your fingers sifting through his soft strands. Maybe pulling a little bit, tugging him down to kiss youâŠ
You shoved the thought away and focused on him as he began to speak.
âI know,â he huffed, a displeased frown on his face as he stared off to the side. Shaking his head to clear away whatever he was thinking about, his gaze refocused on you. âI had a plan.â
âA plan?â you echoed, unsure what he meant by that.Â
âI was going to slip out before you woke up,â he explained, rubbing the back of his neck as a sheepish smile curved his mouth. âAnd then bump into you when you go get your coffeeâlike you do every morning.â
âOk, stalker,â you mumbled to yourself, a little disturbed by how well the man knew your routine. A ripple of fear passed through you, but it dissipated when James huffed a self-effacing laugh.Â
âI know how that sounds,â he said, looking down at you, his blue eyes glittering with affection and his mouth curving into a fond smile. âBut it was hard not to notice you going out every morning and coming back smelling like coffee and sunshine and happiness,â he said. âThatâs why I wanted to meet youâreally meet youâthere, somewhere that made you smile.â
James shifted his arm, his hand cupping your face gently and his thumb brushing over the corner of your mouth, his eyes staring at that spot, like he was picturing your smile. It was hard not to melt at the poetry of his words and the soft way he was looking at you, but you soldiered on with your interrogation of the strange man.
âWhat were you going to do after we met?â you asked, your voice more breathless than you wouldâve liked, but you couldnât help it. Not when James was looking at you so intensely.Â
âI was going to buy your coffee for you, strike up a conversation,â he said, his voice faraway, almost dreamy as he kept staring at your mouth. âDo things the right way.â
At that, your brow furrowed and your lips tipped down in a confused frown. That seemed to snap the man out of whatever daze heâd been in, his eyes flicking back to yours.Â
âDo what the right way?â you asked.Â
âYou knowâŠâ he said, regarding you like he was trying to figure out if you were being deliberately obtuse or if you really didnât understand. He mustâve decided you really didnât know what he was talking about, because he went on. âDating you, wooing you, telling you about what I am after you know meâthe real me.âÂ
Your heart did that annoying little flip again, but you couldnât help it, not when a man as handsome as James was talking about wooing you. Still, you werenât going to let him off the hook just because the manâwho may or may not be your pet cat (but probably was)âhad a romantic side to him.
âYeah that sounds like a better plan than letting me wake up to you sleeping naked in my bed,â you said dryly, raising an eyebrow at him.Â
âI know,â he huffed, pulling his hand away from your cheek and scrubbing it down his face as he groaned in frustration. âIt wasnât supposed to be like this, you were supposed to trust me. I had a plan.â His final words were bitten out through clenched teeth, and you could practically feel his annoyance radiating off him.Â
âMmm,â you hummed in acknowledgement, wanting to comfort him but not allowing yourself to give in to the urge. Not when you still had so many questions. âSo if today is the only day when you canât change shift at will, why have you been living as my pet for almost a year?â
For the first time in your conversation, Buckyâs face shuttered and his expression turned guarded. His eyes darted away from you and he rubbed a hand over his scruff, the soft, scratchy sound filling your quiet room.Â
For a moment, you desperately wanted to rub your cheek against his scruff, to nuzzle him the way he had you, but you squashed the idea as soon as it flitted through your mind as you waited for him to answer your question.
Buckyâs gaze drifted back to yours, and the walls heâd put up moments before seemed to come down just as fast as he stared into your eyes.
âA pretty girl took me in and fed me and kept me warm,â he rumbled, his voice low and deliciously gruff as he raked his eyes over your face. âShe let me sleep in her bed, and curl up with her. She let me comfort her when she was sad, and smiled just for me when she was happy.â
The way Bucky was looking at you, his gaze filled with so much naked affection, stole the breath from your lungs. You didnât know when you started calling him Bucky in your mind, but you realized you truly believed that he was who he said he was. He was your cat, transformed into a human.
âWhat was I supposed to do,â he went on, a small smile curving the corner of his mouth. âShift right in front of her, and scare the fuck out of her, then ask her out?â He laughed quietly, shaking his head ruefully in answer to his own question. âI wanted to do things right.â Cupping your face gently, he stared deep into your eyes. âBesides, I liked being yours.â
Happiness burst like fireworks in your heart. âYouâŠâ you trailed off, needing to swallow past your dry throat and your thumping heart before continuing. âYou liked being mine?â you asked, needing to hear him say it again for some reason you couldnât understand. It seemed too unreal that he could like being your cat more than he liked being able to live his life as a free man. Or shifter.
Buckyâs eyes slowly swept over your face, taking in your parted lips and your hopeful gaze. He seemed to be able to read you like a book, and you found you didnât mind that so much, not when Buckyâs mouth was gently curving into a smile that was deeply pleased with what he saw in your expression.Â
âI liked being yours,â he repeated for you, his voice a low rumble that sent shivers through your body, settling deep in your core and making a warmth bloom that had everything to do with the man in your bed. âAnd I wanted you to want to be mineâto like being mine, too.â
He watched you for a long, silent moment. You couldnât be sure, but you thought he was holding his breath, waiting for your reaction, though you were still too stunned to give him one. When he realized this, he spoke again.
âPlease tell me I havenât ruined things.â
The hushed desperation in his tone was your undoing.
Your arms pushed against the cocoon of blankets you were trapped in, and Bucky lifted himself up higher to let you pull free. He was watching you warily, like he was half expecting you to use your arms to push him off you.Â
Instead, you lifted your hands and cupped his face, tugging on him gently until he lowered himself back down on top of you. His weight felt more familiar and comforting than it had any right, and you had to force your request from your lips.Â
âTell me something only youâd know, Bucky,â you whispered, your own thinly veiled desperation in your words. You already knew in your heart that he was Buckyâyour Buckyâbut you needed something more definitive to quell the fear and doubts in your mind. âPlease.âÂ
He stared at you for a moment, something like hope and excitement swirling in his piercing blue gaze. When he spoke, his voice was gruff, full of emotion.Â
âWhen you think Iâm sleeping, you whisper secrets in my ear,â Bucky said, his eyes briefly trailing down to your mouth like he couldnât help himself. But his gaze flicked back quickly to yours before continuing on. âYou told me how annoying your coworker isâAgatha, right? And how you wish your boss appreciated you more.â
You were silent and still beneath Bucky, shock rolling through you and leaving you stunned. Bucky was right, you did have a habit of talking to your cat, whispering in his ear when he was curled up in your arms or on top of your chest, telling him all the things you didnât say to anyone else.Â
It was slowly dawning on you that the man really, truly was Bucky. But he seemed to take your silence as uncertainty, and so he went on.Â
âYou told me how you get sad and lonely sometimes,â Bucky rumbled, his arms shifting so he could cup your face in his big hands, his thumbs brushing gently across your cheeks. âYou told me how you wished someone would hold you the way you held me.âÂ
Slowly, he lowered himself down on top of you, as if still waiting for you to push him away. Instead, your arms wound around his bare back, your fingers pressing into his skin and clinging to him while he nuzzled his scruffy cheek against yours. You returned the gesture, nuzzling him back.
âYou told me how much you want to fall in love,â he murmured in your ear, his breath warm against your skin, making you shiver. âAnd how afraid you are of getting your heart broken.âÂ
Lifting himself up to look at you, you could see the pain and desire churning in his eyes, and you could hear it in the way his voice cracked on his last word. It all seemed to finally loosen your tongue.
âBucky,â you whispered in a thick voice, tears threatening to fall with the sheer amount of emotion flowing through you. There was shock, of course, but also so much wonder and happiness. âIt really is you,â you said, marveling up at the man above you, lifting your hands to trace the lines of his handsome face.
His eyes closed, like he was savoring your touch, and a purr kicked to life in his chest while a small smile curved the edges of his mouth. It was a mouth you were suddenly aching to kiss. And you couldnât, for the life of you, come up with a reason why you shouldnât.Â
Just as tentative as heâd been, you leaned into Bucky, your hands tilting his face down to yours while you raked your nails lightly through the scruffy hair on his cheeks and jaw. You brushed your lips against his, so softly it could barely be considered a kiss.
You felt the big man above you stiffen with surprise, his eyes flying open to stare into yours with a question clear in his blue depths.
In answer, you leaned in again, pressing your mouth infinitesimally more firmly against his, and flicked your tongue out to swipe at his plump lower lip.Â
He tasted like the night, dark and alluring, and you could already tell that you would quickly grow addicted to it, licking along the seam of his lips, searching for more.
Bucky groaned, the sound deep and masculine, sending delicious shivers down your spine as he dug his arms beneath your body and held you crushed to him. He captured your mouth before you could retreat again, kissing you until you were breathless. He kissed you like heâd been starving for you and since heâs gotten a taste, heâd be damned if he let you go.
It was intoxicating to feel the way he wanted you as much as you wanted him, and you gave yourself into it, kissing Bucky back as hard as he was kissing you. Your fingers sank into Buckyâs soft brown hair, clinging to him with the same desperate devotion with which he held you.Â
Of their own accord, your legs spread beneath your blankets, allowing Buckyâs hips to settle into the cradle of your thighs. Even through the layers between your bodies, you could feel the hot, hard length of his arousal pressing into the juncture of your legs so tantalizingly, you moaned into his mouth.Â
âFuck,â Bucky growled, breaking free from your lips to press kisses along your jaw. His breathing was harsh in your ear, like he couldnât catch his breath. âDâyou know how long Iâve wanted to kiss you, koshechka?â He sucked on a spot just beneath your ear, dragging another mewling moan from your lips before answering his own question. âSince the day you brought me home. Iâve wanted to kiss you since that first day.â
âBucky,â you chastised on an uncontrollable giggle as he nuzzled his scruffy jaw into the crook of your neck, inhaling deeply like he was breathing in the scent of your skin. He groaned, making you shiver with pleasure. Still, the words burst out of you, âThatâs creepy!â Your tone was meant to be admonishing, but your voice was too breathless to have much heat.Â
âThe smell of you and the taste of your skin are burned into my mind,â Bucky murmured before dragging the flat of his tongue up the curve of your neck, wringing a low, throaty moan from your lips. âBut I wanted to know if your mouth would be sweeter.â He captured your lips for another kiss, his mouth moving against yours in a way that made your head spin.
âIs it?â you asked when he pulled away, giving you a brief reprieve from his drugging kisses. Buckyâs eyes looked as hazy as you felt, and he seemed to not understand your questions. âSweeter, I mean.â
A slow, seductive smile spread across Buckyâs face, and even cast in the shadows of your room, you could see plainly how handsome he wasâso much so, your breath caught in your lungs.
âOh koshechka, your mouth is the sweetest thing Iâve ever tasted,â he murmured before diving down for another kiss.
Between your thighs, you could feel Buckyâs cock throbbing and twitchingâand it was so hot, you could feel the heat of him through your blankets.Â
A slight sheen of sweat was gathering in the creases of your thighs and behind your knees, your own center pulsing with a desperate ache to be closer to Bucky, to be pressed against his warm, bare skin. Your legs kicked restlessly at your blankets, trying to push them out of the way without letting go of your hold on Bucky, whose body was pinning yours to the bed.
Bucky chuckled against your mouth and lifted up enough to help you push the blankets off your bodyâlaughing harder at your disgruntled whineâbefore settling back down on top of you. Your legs spread to make room for his narrow hips between your thighs, his hard cock pressing against the thin fabric of your panties.Â
Without the blankets in the way, you could feel something strange about Buckyâs cock. There wereâŠbumps on it? A pattern of bumps circling the shaft, which grew thicker toward the head.Â
Your brows lowered in a frown of confusion and you tilted your hips, rubbing your clothed cunt against the length of him, groaning in pleasure when the bumps dragged deliciously against your clit.Â
But you were distracted from further exploration by Buckyâs voice.
âDo you want to know what I looked forward to most about dating you, koshechka?â Bucky asked against your lips, nipping and licking the breath from your lungs while he picked up your rhythm, grinding his cock against your slit through the meager fabric of your panties.Â
âWh-what?â you asked in a trembling voice, your hips rocking up against Bucky, your ankles looping around the backs of his thighs for more leverage to grind against his cock.Â
âI couldnât wait for the first time youâd let me stay over,â he murmured, dragging his mouth along your jaw and playfully biting the lobe of your ear, drawing a gasp from your lips. âIâd give you my shirt to sleep in, instead of one of these little nightshirts you like,â he said, his fingers curling into the fabric and rucking it up around your hips, spreading your legs wider and giving him more access for his rolling hips.
âWhatâs wrong with my nightshirts?â you asked on a needy whimper. You pouted as you tipped your head down to look at him while he was busy placing wet, open-mouthed kisses to your collarbones through the thin cotton of your shirt.Â
Bucky flicked his eyes up to yours and growled, âThey donât smell enough like me.â His hands slipped beneath your nightshirt, his warm palms skimming over your bare skin and making you shiver. He wrapped his fingers around your ribs, thumbs brushing over the lower curves of your breasts, just teasing your nipples while he stared up at you, watching the way you gasped for him.
It took you a long moment to process his words, and when you did, all you could manage was to whine his name, âBucky.â The thought of smelling like him did something to your heart and your insides, melting them to the point that you squirmed from the heat flooding your body.Â
As you watched, a slow smirk spread across his face. He lowered his mouth to one of your tits and flicked his tongue across your pebbled nipple through your shirt.Â
âYou should always smell like me,â he muttered into the soft curve of your breast, almost like he was talking to himself, before he latched onto your nipple and sucked the tight peak into his mouth.
Warm, wet heat surged through your body as Bucky suckled on you in long, deep pulls that tugged on a line connected directly to your clit, which was throbbing with need against his still gently rutting cock. His precum was slowly leaking onto your lower belly, making a mess of your panties, but they were ruined by your own arousal anyway.
Between Buckyâs cock and his mouth, your body was a mess of pleasure and wetness, your panties growing increasingly drenched the more he rocked against you, bullying your clit and torturing your nipples. His head shifted, moving to the other, before giving your other breast just as much attention and making your mind spin.
It took you long, long minutes before you could form a coherent thought, your mind catching on something Bucky had said. What tumbled from your lips was the inelegant question: âDo you even own a shirt?â
Bucky paused, like your question surprised him, and a second later he was laughing into the valley between your tits, his forehead pressed to the top of your sternum as his warm breath ghosted against you through your shirt.
âKoshechka,â he rumbled, still laughing as he raised his head to meet your curious gaze. His eyes were sparkling with humor and affection in the moonlight. âI have a whole apartment across town.â
âThen why did you stay with me?â you asked. Your brow furrowed in confusion at that revelation, even as curiosity began winding through your mind. What did his apartment look like? Was it cozy or sparse? Did he have plants or a massive flatscreen? Did he have a pet cat of his own?Â
And who was taking care of his apartment while heâd been living with you? Or did he sneak out while you were at work to go hang out at his home?
Buckyâs voice reeled you back into the moment.Â
âI told you, koshechka,â Bucky murmured, leaning up to press a kiss to your swollen lips.Â
It was soft and sweet and you didnât want him to stop, but you were too curious about his answer to protest when he pulled away to look at you again.Â
âA pretty girl took me in and kept me,â he rumbled, his voice low and delicious, his mouth curved into a mischievous smile that you desperately wanted to lick. âShe let me cuddle her and nuzzle her cheeks and sleep in her bed, why would I leave?â He chuckled, shaking his head as he stared at you. âBeing your pet was better than being my own man.â
Buckyâs words sank deep into your heart, tears of something like joy springing to your eyes, and you cupped his face to pull him in for another kiss. With no words, only your mouth, you told him how much his statement meant to you.Â
He liked being with you more than he liked being free. How could you ever be expected to let go of a man who said such things to you? You didnât know if you could, even considering the strangeness of your meeting.
Your kiss grew heated and your thoughts melted away, your body writhing beneath Buckyâs as you tried to press closer, despite there being little space left between your bodies already. A whine worked its way up your throat and Bucky swallowed the sound, his mouth curving against yours in a smile before he eased back.Â
âMay I?â he asked, nodding down to your nightshirt, which he was slowly pushing up further. It took you a moment to realize he was asking your permission to take it off, but when you did, you nodded. However, he didnât move, only gave you a more intense look. âUse your words, koshechka.âÂ
âYes, pleaseâŠâ you said, trailing off as a thought occurred to you. âDo you still want me to call you Bucky?â you asked, tilting your head on your pillow and staring up at the man whoâd told you his name was James.Â
You watched Buckyâs smile spread across his face and he ducked down, kissing you quickly, like he couldnât help himself. He trailed kisses along your jaw and down the column of your throat while he pushed your nightshirt up slowly, teasingly.
âYou can call me anything you want, koshechka.â
You considered his words distractedly while he tugged your shirt off, both of you pausing while Bucky admired your body. You had the urge to cover yourself, but held back, more than a little stunned by the sheer amount of heat and desire in Buckyâs gaze. A pleasant warmth prickled beneath your skin everywhere he looked, and it made you want to reach for him, so you did, tugging on his shoulders to pull him closer.
Obligingly, Bucky settled back down on top of you, his mouth working against your collarbones before trailing down to your tits. His big hands worked your soft flesh, kneading you firmly enough to make you gasp and writhe, while his mouth moved between kissing, licking and nipping your skin, teasing your nipples with purposeful flicks of his tongue.Â
Despite how perfectly Bucky was working your body, your mind was still caught on what heâd said about calling him anything you wanted.
âWhat about daddy-cat?â you asked, your voice breathless as you held in a moan. It was the most ridiculous nickname you could think of, and you were curious to see how Bucky responded. He only huffed out a muffled laugh, suckling on your nipple and dragging the moan from your lungs that youâd been holding in.
âIf you want,â he murmured against your skin, shrugging a shoulder and not even looking up from your tits.
âOkay,â you said, dragging out the word, your thoughts scattering when he moved to your other breast and sucked deeply on your nipple. Wetness flooded between your thighs and you whimpered pathetically.Â
Suddenly, a word came to mind, one youâd seen in some fantasy novels youâd read, and it appealed to you in a way you couldnât put into wordsâespecially not with Buckyâs mouth on your tits. But it felt right, and it tumbled easily from your lips.
âAlpha.â The word was half gasp, half plea, and filled entirely with your need for Bucky.
Bucky went still, his body going rigid even as his cock twitched between your thighs. Then, his purr kicked to life in his chest, louder than youâd heard it yet.
The vibrations that had teased you through your blankets were so much more intense when your skin was pressed against Buckyâs, and you let out a soft, gentle moan. Your body relaxed instantly, melting beneath Buckyâs broad form while he dug his arms beneath your back and held you close to his chest.Â
âI like that,â he rumbled through his purring, kissing up your chest and neck until his mouth found yours. âCall me that, koshechka.â
âYes, alpha,â you said on a sweet sigh that Bucky swallowed down with a filthy groan, sounding like he was tasting something delicious.
âFuck, koshechka, youâre making my cock so fucking hard,â he growled against your mouth, his words sliding over your tongue and making you shiver with need.
Buckyâs fingers circled your wrist and he dragged your hand down between your bodies slowlyâslowly enough, and his grip loose enough, you knew you couldâve pulled away if youâd wanted.Â
But you didnât want to. You knew what he was doing, and you wanted to feel him, wanted to feel what you did to him.Â
And you wanted to explore the strange shape of his cock.
âFeel what you do to me, koshechka,â Bucky growled, placing your palm on his cock and you sucked in a sharp breath of surprise at the feeling of it.
Your fingers circled the base of his cock and ran up the length, feeling the way it swelled and grew bigger as you neared the head. It was so thick, you wondered how he would fit inside you, but your body responded to that thought by growing wetter, and you knew you were eager to try to make it fit.
You stroked Buckyâs cock up and down the shaft, feeling the pattern of bumps circling it. They were more complex than youâd thought, more like barbs that caught slightly on your fingers and palm, though not in a painful way. Just in a way that made you shiver and wonder wildly what they would feel like inside you, dragging against your inner walls and stimulating you in a way youâd never felt beforeâŠ
Suddenly, you were desperate to feel Bucky slide inside you.
âAlpha, please,â you begged on a whine, a need rising up in you that you couldnât even begin to control. You shifted your grip on Buckyâs cock, pressing him into your panty-covered slit and grinding against him, writhing your hips beneath his large body. âPlease fuck meâI need you inside me, alpha, please.â
âOh fuck,â Bucky grunted, his hips jerking and fucking against your slick panties, his precum leaking from the tip of his cock and making even more of a mess of you. âAre you sure? I really did want to take you out on a date, do things the normal wayâŠâ
His frantic words trailed off on a moan when you pressed his cock deeper between your folds, until he was sliding between your puffy pussy lips.Â
Even through your panties, you could feel the barbs on his cock rubbing against your clit and you let out a needy moan. The fingers of your other hand threaded through his soft brown hair and you pulled him close, until your lips brushed against the shell of his ear.
âYouâre a cat shifter whoâs been watching me sleep while pretending to be nothing more than my pet for almost a year,â you whispered, and even though you knew youâd have to deal with Buckyâs lie at some point, you werenât ready yet.Â
You wanted him, you wanted his cock buried inside you, so you nipped playfully at his earlobe to lighten the mood. Of course, you also thoroughly enjoyed the way his hips rutted between your thighs reflexively, making you giggle softly before you continued on.Â
âI think we bypassed normal right around the time I brought you home and you decided to stay,â you murmured, a hint of humor in your tone. âWe can play out your Halloween coffee shop meet-cute later, but for now, I need you to fuck me, alpha.â
A rumbling growl ricocheted in Buckyâs chest, teasing your skin where you were pressed together. Your nipples hardened further into tight, achy peaks and your pussy gushed between your thighs, reacting to the desire in Buckyâs growl.Â
âI will take you out later,â he said firmly, âBut Iâll always give you what you want, and if you want to be fuckedâIâll fuck you good, koshechka.â Bucky pushed up until he was hovering above you, flashing you a charmingly rakish grin. Then his hands were shoving your panties down over your ass and thighs, moving to pull them off you entirely.Â
When that was done, Bucky sat back on his haunches and stared at you, laid bare beneath him, your skin swathed in the silvery light of the moonlight and the warm glow of the streetlight outside your window. His piercing blue eyes raked over every inch of bared skin, appreciating you for long, long moments.Â
âFuck, youâre so pretty, koshechka,â Bucky murmured distractedly, his hands sliding up your legs and pushing your thighs wide. He stared down at your sopping wet pussy with reverence etched in every line of his face. âEven your pussy is prettyâI just need a little taste.â His last comment was mumbled, like he was talking to himself, just before he ducked down between your legs.
The flat of Buckyâs tongue licked up the full length of your slit, digging into the top until he found your clit. His hot mouth against your cunt had you whining and whimpering, your fingers digging into his soft hair and holding on for dear life. He buried his face into your folds, his tongue licking deep into you and making you moan loudly while he ate you out.
âFucking hell, koshechka, even your cunt is sweet,â Bucky groaned when he finally came up for air, pressing filthy wet kisses to your quivering thighs. You were close to the edge of your release already, but as much as you wanted to come, you wanted something else more.
âAlpha,â you begged in a whining tone, squirming against Buckyâs big hands that were pinning you to the bed. âFeel so empty.â
Bucky lapped teasingly at your clit, and you could feel his smile against your heated skin. He worked your body until you were writhing harder, squirming harder against his hands to rock into his mouth and grind down on his tongue. Still, it wasnât enough and you whined louder in a wordless plea.
âCâmon, koshechka, come on my tongue and then Iâll fill you up with my cock,â Bucky murmured into your swollen folds, his command half-muffled against your slick pussy.Â
Your head thrashed side to side on your pillow and you whimpered, âAlpha,â as you tried to hold on, tried to last until his cock was inside you. But Bucky was determined to feel you come on his mouth.
When he slipped two of his fingers into your drenched hole and stroked a spot deep inside you, the electric shot of pleasure was too much. Your fingers curled so tightly in Buckyâs hair, a distant part of your mind worried youâd yank some of it from his head.Â
But you couldnât think about thatânot when he was pushing you over the edge and pleasure was crashing through you in an earth-shattering orgasm.
A silent scream caught in your throat as your whole body went rigid, ecstasy pulsing through your limbs while Bucky kept fucking you with his fingers and sucking on your clit. It was nearly overwhelming, how good his mouth and fingers felt, and you let yourself sink into the waves of pleasure as they washed over you.
You were still twitching with the remnants of your release when Bucky crawled up your body, his mouth kissing your belly and your ribs, pausing to flick his tongue over each of your nipples, then the hollow of your throat. Finally, his lips found yours and he kissed you passionately, making you moan as you tasted yourself on his tongue.Â
âCan you taste how sweet you are, koshechka?â he murmured against your mouth while he rubbed the length of your cock through your slick folds. The barbs were catching on your clit, making your hips twitch as you dragged in desperate gasps of air. âSweet as a Halloween treat.âÂ
Bucky pressed another kiss to your lips even as you huffed a little laugh.
âI see how it is,â you muttered, a little bitterness seeping into your tone. âYou play a trick on me and you still get a treat?â You didnât quite know where the words came from, but it seemed you werenât doing so well at putting off dealing with the fact that Bucky had hidden his true self from you for almost a year.Â
It was annoying that the betrayal you felt was raising its ugly head before youâd even gotten to feel his cock inside you, but you supposed it had something to do with the deeply satisfied feeling of coming on his tongue. Still, you were embarrassed enough by your blurted, bitter question that you turned your head to the side, trying to hide in your pillow.
Bucky hovered above you, and you could see the serious expression on his face out of the corner of your eye. He gently grabbed your chin and turned you back to look at him, holding your gaze with his own.
âIâm sorry for lying to you for so long, koshechka,â he said, his tone entirely genuine. You could even see remorse simmering in his blue eyes. âI was selfish, and afraid you wouldnât like me as much like this.â He gestured at himself, indicating his human form.Â
That made you huff a laugh and roll your eyes a little before catching Buckyâs gaze again. âHow could I not like you like this?â you asked, cupping his handsome face in your hands. Your nails raked lightly through his scruff, and he closed his eyes as a soft purr started in his chest. âBut Iâm going to need time to forgive you for lying.â
Buckyâs mouth pulled into a bittersweet smile and he nodded his head, his eyes opening again.
âI understand,â he murmured, turning his head to press a kiss into your palm. âIâll earn your trust back, I promise,â he vowed, staring deep into your eyes, as if willing you to believe him.Â
Your lips curved in a small smile and you tipped your head up, pulling him in for a brief kiss. It was little more than a brushing of lips, but you felt the determination in the rigid line of Buckyâs shoulders. You ghosted your lips along Buckyâs jaw, sucking playfully at his skin as you tried to lighten the mood.Â
âI still need you to fuck me, alpha,â you purred in Buckyâs ear, your thighs spreading wider beneath his hips, his cock pressing deeper between your still soaking folds.
âFuck, fuck,â he groaned, his hips moving on instinct until the tip of his cock was pressed to your tight hole. But he stopped himself from pushing inside, instead pausing to ask you, âAre you sure, koshechka?âÂ
Your heart thumped harder in your chest at Buckyâs question, but you knew what you wanted. âYes, alphaâplease.âÂ
Your final word was a broken plea, and it seemed Bucky didnât need to be begged again. He pushed forward, sinking slowly into your tight, warm pussy with a tortured groan. The head pushed inside you, then the thick bulge of his cock, and every additional inch felt like a revelation.Â
âYou feel so fucking good, koshechka,â he rumbled, his low, gravelly voice sinking into your skin and making you shiver. âFeel so fucking perfect.â
You didnât have the breath to respond, but you shared his sentiment. The thick bulge of his cock stretched your tight hole to its limit, and you sighed in pleasure when he was finally buried deep. It was a little odd, the feeling of his inhuman cock inside you, but it felt perfect, too.Â
For a moment, Bucky paused while he was fully impaled in your cunt. His arms curled around your body, and yours wound around his shoulders. You clung to each other, your chests rising and falling together as your hearts beat in tandem beneath your ribs.Â
âTalk to me, koshechka, are you ok?â Bucky asked softly, his face pressed into the crook of your neck. He nuzzled into you, his scruffy face tickling your skin while a soft purr kicked to life in his chest.
Your body relaxed beneath Buckyâs large form and you nodded, trying to catch your breath a little before answering.Â
âYes, alpha, âm ok,â you mumbled in throaty voice, your fingers stroking idly through Buckyâs hair at the back of his head. His purr grew stronger, vibrating through you and your inner walls clenched around Buckyâs stiff length, pleasure pulsing through you at the wild, unusual sensation of his cock inside you. âSo full.â
âMm, your tight cunt feels good around my cock,â Bucky murmured in agreement, kissing up your neck until he could brush his lips against your sweaty temple. His scruffy jaw tickled your cheek and you squirmed lazily, a grin spreading across your face. âFeels like you were made for meâfuck, you were made for me, werenât you koshechka?â
âMhmm,â you hummed languidly, rocking your hips experimentally and feeling the slight drag of Buckyâs cock inside you, the barbs making your breath catch as delicious pleasure jolted through your body. Distractedly, you asked, âDo shifters mate?â
Bucky tensed above you, and your mind sharpened, focusing on his reaction and the way he was hiding his face in the pillow beside your head.
âJames Bucky Barnes,â you growled in warning. Heâd lied to you for almost a year, hiding his human identity from you while pretending to be nothing more than your pet, and youâd be damned if you let him keep lying to you. And you knew he was hiding something from you, his reaction to your question made that perfectly clear.
âYes, we can scent our compatible mate,â he admitted on a gusting exhale, his voice muffled in the pillow.
You licked your lips as you processed that revelation. Unbidden, all the times that night that Bucky had told you how sweet you tasted, how deeply heâd breathed in your scentâand how good his wild scent smelled to youâcame to mind. It seemed only natural that your next question was, âAnd, am IâŠ?âÂ
âYes,â he said quickly, cutting you off before you could even finish your question. âYouâre mine. Iâm yours.âÂ
His words were slightly less muffled by his face buried in the pillow, and you were suddenly frustrated by the fact that you couldnât see him. You pushed against his shoulder and twisted your hips until he obliged your wordless request and rolled onto his back, taking you with him.
Your knees dug into the soft mattress on either side of Buckyâs hips and you pushed yourself up with your hands planted firmly on his hard chest. Buckyâs piercing eyes were looking up at you warily, his hands settling lightly on your hips, like he wasnât sure if he was allowed to touch you anymore.
âHow long have you known?â you asked on a whisper, watching him carefully.
âSince you found me in the bucket,â he confessed with a sheepish wince. âI scented it immediately, especially since I was in my cat form.â
Reflexively, your nails dug into Buckyâs skin as frustration surged through you. âWere you ever going to tell me?â you asked in a harsher tone.Â
âI had a plan,â Bucky said, but his tone was apologetic, like he knew it wasnât a good enough answer.Â
For a long moment, you stared down at the man between your thighs. Your mate, apparently.Â
Despite how much you knew you should be, you couldnât find it in yourself to be angry that heâd held back this particular aspect of his shifter identity. Even knowing it, you didnât feel like you truly understood what it meant to be Buckyâs mate.Â
And if you were being honest with yourself, after everything heâd told you that night, you were a little tired of the revelations.Â
It probably wouldâve been better if things had gone according to Buckyâs plan. Youâd have met him in your favorite coffee shop and slowly gotten to know himâthe real himâand heâd have opened up to you when you were both ready. If things had gone that way, you wouldâve been able to learn about him being a shifter and your mate at an easier pace.
Instead, youâd been thrust into all this shifter stuff, and Bucky had tried his best to not overwhelm you too much. You couldnât fault him for that. In fact, you appreciated it. The night had been a lot, and you suddenly knew exactly what you needed from him.
Heaving a heavy sigh, you lay down on Buckyâs chest so your head rested on his shoulder.Â
âCan you purr for me, alpha?â you asked in a small voice, craving the comfort of the rumbling sensation.
Buckyâs purr kicked to life an instant later, giving you exactly what you asked for. You let yourself sink into the comfort and pleasure his purring offered, allowing yourself to relax. His cock was still buried deep inside you, and even that felt goodâit felt right.
âWhat else do you need, koshechka?â Bucky asked softly, concern in his tone. His hand stroked tentatively up and down your spine and you smiled into his chest, melting further into his chest. âTell me, and Iâll do everything in my power to give it to you.â
âI think I want to follow the plan,â you said, realizing it was what you wanted only as you said the words. âI want to try things your way, the ânormalâ way.â You said those final words a little wryly, but your tone was otherwise genuine. Turning your face up so you could catch Buckyâs eye, you let a little smirk flirt around the corner of your mouth. âAfter you fuck me.â
Buckyâs eyes heated as they dropped to your mouth, but his hands still felt uncertain on your hips. âAre you sure, koshechka?â His big hand cupped your face, his thumb stroking over your cheek and your eyes fluttered closed at the comfort of the gesture. âIâd understand if you never wanted to see me again.â
At that, your eyes flew open and you glared at Bucky. âThat is the last thing I want,â you spit out fiercely, surprised at how strongly you reacted to the idea of never seeing Bucky again. You took a moment, closing your eyes to gather yourself and opened them again to fix Bucky with a firm stare. âTonight has been a lot, but I want to come on your cock, and then I wanna take the time to get to know you, to see how things go, to do things the normal way.â
A smirk curled the corner of Buckyâs mouth. âI thought we bypassed normal a year ago,â he commented, echoing your earlier words.Â
It seemed like the most natural thing in the world to lean up and kiss the smirk off Buckyâs face, so thatâs exactly what you did.Â
He groaned into your kiss, his hands tightening on your hips and urging you to rock against him. You broke away from the kiss, unable to bite back the filthy groan that tumbled from your lips at the sensation of his cock shifting inside you.
You could feel the gentle drag of every barb on his cock, the dulled points clinging to your inner channel and making you moan loudly. Your body moved on its own, lifting up Buckyâs cock, needing to feel more of that sensation. Once only the head remained inside your warmth, you shoved yourself down, wringing a delighted screech from your lips while Bucky groaned ferociously.Â
âFuck, koshechka,â Bucky grunted, his big hands kneading your ass while you lifted up again and slammed back down. âUse meâuse me for your pleasure.â His voice was breathless, and as you stared down at him, you watched his face contort with pleasure.Â
You lifted up, planting your hands on his pecs and set a slow, hard pace, lifting yourself up slowly before slamming down hard on his cock, grinding into the base before doing it all over again.Â
Before long, you were both panting and sweating, and your whines grew louder as your body begged more.
Bucky seemed to know exactly when youâd reached your limit of having control, and he wrapped his hands more tightly around your waist, holding you above him while he took over, drilling into your cunt from below.Â
The bulge of his length and the barbs were unlike anything youâd ever felt before, and it was only a few breathless moments before you were teetering on the edge of your second release.
âCan I come, alpha?â you gasped on a whimpering whine. Your fingernails were digging into the plush padding on his stomach, pressing hard enough to feel the firm muscle beneath, delighting when his abs twitched at the same time as his cock inside you.
A purr began in Buckyâs chest and he caught your eye, a slow smile spreading across his face.
âDoes my sweet koshechka want my permission to come?â he purred, staring at you with lazy, half-lidded eyes while he pounded up into you. âDo you need your alphaâs command to come on my cock?âÂ
âYes, alpha, pleaseâplease command me to come,â you whimpered, your whole body trembling with your need for release. But you found you truly needed him to say it, to tell you to come, before you could do so. You didnât know if that was a shifter thing, a mate thing or a you and Bucky thing, but in that moment, you couldnât bring yourself to care.
Bucky fucked you harder, thrusting up so hard that your tits were bouncing with the force. A growl tore through his chest, and you felt his pleasure in the sound, knowing instinctively that he was pleased with the sight of you bouncing on his cock.Â
âCome, koshechkaâcome all over your alphaâs fat cock,â he snarled, just before wrapping a hand around the back of your neck and dragging you down to his chest. His mouth found the curve of your neck, where your throat met your shoulder, and he bit down, his teeth sinking deep into your skin.Â
You came with a yowling scream, the slight sting of pain from Buckyâs blunt teeth mixing with the blistering pleasure of his cock until you were swept away in a torrent of ecstasy. You shattered apart on his cock, your pussy pulsing and gripping him hard, dragging him over the edge after you.
Bucky came with a groan that was half-muffled against your shoulder, his cock twitching inside you as he spilled his hot seed deep in your belly. His moan morphed into a stuttering purr as he fucked you through the aftershocks of both your releases, until you collapsed on top of him with a satisfied exhale.
One of Buckyâs hands smoothed up and down your spine comfortingly while the other was still wrapped around the back of your neck. He finally pulled away from your shoulder, his tongue lapping at the deep indents heâd left in your skin.Â
Strangely, some part of you was disappointed that his teeth hadnât broken skin. But the feeling of his tongue on the mark heâd left, his cock still throbbing in your pussy, and his hand stroking you softly were all too good to focus on that twinge of disappointment. You pushed it aside and promised yourself youâd ask Bucky about it later.Â
Exhaustion was tugging at the edges of your consciousness and you could feel yourself slipping back to sleep. It didnât help that Bucky dragged the blankets back over your cooling bodies, wrapping you up in a warmth that felt like it sank deep into your bones and curled closely around your heart.Â
âRest, koshechka,â Bucky urged, pressing a kiss to your temple. âIâll see you at your coffee shop laterâIâll be the one wearing clothes.â
You wouldâve laughed, but you were already falling back to sleep.
On the morning of Halloween, you woke with a pleasant tingling between your thighs, and an excessive amount of wetness trickling from your slit. You got up and cleaned yourself up, not too surprised that your Russian Blue didnât make an appearance as you got ready for the day.Â
Your nighttime escapades felt too real for you to even begin to try to convince yourself it was a dream, though you did find yourself missing the soft pitter-patter of your petâs feet padding across your apartment. You paused in the middle of your living room, feeling a little bit of loneliness creep in as you listened and heard no sign of life in your home.
Shaking your head, you reminded yourself that you werenât going to be lonely without Bucky the catâbecause Bucky the man was waiting for you.Â
With that thought in your head, you nearly skipped down the street to your regular coffee shop.Â
It was a cute little storefront nestled in between a hair salon and a plant store. The employees had put up decorations for Halloween, including a string of paper bats and little pumpkins in the windows. Inside, there were even more fall decorations, and the scent of coffee was cut with cinnamon and nutmeg.
You scanned the tables, but didnât see Bucky, so you got in line to order. A moment later, you felt a presence behind you and you somehow knew it was him, even before his scent washed over you and his hand settled gently against your lower back as he came to stand beside you.Â
âGood morning, koshechka,â he murmured, ducking to press a kiss to your cheek.Â
You gave him a quick once-over, seeing that he cleaned up nice in the light of day, wearing a soft sweater, dark jeans and a warm-looking leather jacket. His breath smelled minty like heâd brushed his teeth, and his skin felt clean and fresh, as if heâd showered. But heâd kept the scruff on his face, and you couldnât help but be glad for it as it tickled your cheek, a smile curving your lips.Â
âGood morning, Bucky,â you said, staring up at him, a little surprised at how easy it seemed to be to fall into step beside him as the line moved forward.
Still, you couldnât seem to drag your eyes away from his face. He truly was the most handsome man youâd ever seen, and you let your eyes roam greedily over the planes of his face that were so much easier to see in the daylight. You didnât think youâd ever get tired of looking at Buckyâs face.
âCan I buy you a coffee?â Bucky asked, dragging you from your thoughts. His hand was moving soothingly in a small circle on your lower back, and you could feel the warmth of him even through your jacket.
âYes, please,â you said sweetly.Â
When it was your turn to order, you got a hot latte, while Bucky got a chai. He helped you out of your coat and pulled out a chair for you at one of the small tables, then retrieved your latte from the counter before he settled into the seat across from you.Â
The barista had drawn a ghost with the foam on top of your drink and you smiled down at it, wrapping your cold fingers around the warm cup as you considered where to start.
âSo,â you began, lifting your eyes to Buckyâtaking in the soft sweater that stretched across his broad shoulders, his jacket draped over the back of his chair, before catching his eye. A smirk curved your lips. âTell me about yourself.â
A slow, answering smile curled the edges of Buckyâs mouth and he leaned forward, planting his arms on the table in a mirror of your posture. When he spoke, his voice was low, a delicious gruffness to it that tingled all the way through you, down to the tips of your toes.
âWell, Iâve had a bit of an unusual life,â he began, catching your eye and holding your gaze with his own sparkling blues. âI served in the army with my best friend, came back, didnât really know what to do with myselfâuntil I met a pretty girl who took me in and showed me what itâs like to be loved.â
Your heart thumped excitedly in your chest at Buckyâs final word even as your breath lodged in your throat. âOh really?â you asked softly, swallowing thickly before you continued. âThat sounds like an interesting story.âÂ
âMm, Iâll say,â Bucky said, his eyes roving hungrily over your face. After a beat of silence, he seemed to have a thought, leaning in further and dropping his voice lower. âCan I tell you something?â
âAnything,â you said on an exhale, mesmerized by the affection swirling in Buckyâs eyes and the way his mouth curved at the edges when he smiled.
âIâm excited to show her what itâs like to be loved by me,â Bucky murmured.Â
His words had the same effect as his purr, making you melt as you smiled across the table at him. âIâm excited for that, too,â you admitted softly.Â
Buckyâs smile widened, and your eyes dropped to his mouth. You wanted to kiss him so badly in that moment, but you also wanted to stick to his plan to take things slow.
Taking a deep breath, you sat back from the table, giving yourself some space away from the intoxicatingly wild scent of Bucky and lifted your cup to your mouth. You hummed in delight at the taste of the drink, closing your eyes as you savored the rich flavor.Â
A choked sound came from across the table and you opened your eyes to see heat simmering in Buckyâs eyes.Â
âAre you trying to torture me, koshechka?â he asked in a low rumble.Â
You snickered and hid a smirk behind your cup before taking another sip and setting it down on the table. Tossing your head, you looked up at Bucky from under your lashes.Â
âItâs the least you deserve for the little Halloween trick you played on me,â you teased. You slid your tongue along your lower lip, licking up the last bit of your coffee, smirking when Bucky groaned quietly.Â
âIf I behave, dâyou think Iâll get a little Halloween treat?â Bucky asked, waggling his brows so suggestively, you tipped your head back with a laugh.Â
âWeâll see,â you said with what you hoped was an enigmatic smile.Â
Leaning across the table, Bucky ran his thumb over the corner of your mouth and when he pulled away, you saw a little bit of foam on his finger. He popped it into his mouth, making your eyes narrow on the way his tongue flicked against the pad of his thumb, your core tightening as you remembered the things that tongue had done to you the night before.
âIâll take whatever you want to give, koshechka,â Bucky murmured, his tone thick with emotion and desire, and you knew he was talking about more than just your body. His piercing eyes pinned you with an intense stare, and you held his gaze determinedly.Â
The tension eased when Bucky looked away, his hand reaching across the table, palm up, waiting patiently for you. After a brief moment of hesitation, you slid your fingers into his palm, and your hands folded together. Warmth spread through your body and curled up deep in your heart as Bucky caught your eye again, both of you smiling at each other.
For the next hour, you sat at that little table in your favorite coffee shop with Bucky, getting to know him and learning more about his life. You discovered he had a best friend named Steve Rogers whoâd been watching his apartment for the last year while heâd been living with you. He was the friend Bucky had served in the army with and he told you plenty of stories from their childhood.Â
At the end of your date, Bucky gave you his phone number, and texted you before youâd even gotten home to plan another outing. All day, you couldnât wipe the smile off your face, and you couldnât help your thoughts from wandering back to your Russian Blue shifter.Â
Bucky had given you a Halloween trick and a Halloween treat, and he was giving you the space you needed to wrap your head around everything. Still, you couldnât wait to see him again, to continue getting to know him, and to learn everything there was to know about him and what he was.
Over the months that followed Halloween, you and Bucky went on plenty of dates, taking things slow. But it wasnât too long before you dragged him back to your apartment, needing to feel him againâall of him. Like heâd wanted, you slept in his shirt that night, and he purred happily, telling you how much it meant to him for you to smell like him.Â
That night, you fell asleep curled up in Buckyâs arms the way heâd slept for so many nights when youâd thought he was only a cat. And it was the first night of many that you slept in your bed together with Bucky in his human form.
Eventually, Bucky officially moved in, and you learned what it meant to be mated to a shifter, though Bucky didnât give you your mating bite until youâd been dating for a few years. Heâd said he wanted to do things the normal way, and apparently that was normal for shifters, even though you were practically begging him to mate you by the time he obliged.
Although your relationship with Bucky began in a very strange way, you took the time together to truly get to know each other. He showed remorse for hiding from you for so long and worked to gain your trust. By the time the two of you were mated, you knew he was the one for you.Â
James Bucky Barnes was the one you wouldâve chosen even if you hadnât woken up to him sleeping naked in your bed on that fateful Halloween night.
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Pick Me
Bucky x readerÂ
The new recruit has her eyes set of a certain set of super soldiers. Especially your super soldier.Â
warnings: jealously, Angsty bangsty, but also so fluffy fluffy and smutty, clueless Bucky, he really means no harm, go easy on him.
A/n - editing to add: when I first started writing this I loved the concept and wrote a large chunk but then I left it for months cause I struggled to actually finish writing it. This wasnât even the original ending I had planned but I just wanted to finish it so yes Bucky shouldâve done way more, pretend there was a time jump where he does a better job with earning forgiveness đ„Č
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âEveryone, meet Nicole, our newest recruit for the field agent training programâ Tony walked into the common room where you were sprawled out on the couch with Nat, Sam and Wanda while a young woman walking confidently behind him. âSheâs going to be staying with us for a couple of months to train before she goes onto the the fieldâ Tony turned back to her, bringing her to his side.Â
âIâm sure you know everyone but let me introduce you to them anyway. This is the very Natasha, Wanda, Sam and y/nâÂ
âHey Nicoleâ You gave her a warm smile, happy to welcome her while everyone else also got up to greet her. âNice to meet youâÂ
âOh, ew, just call me Nic! I donât really go by Nicoleâ She scrunched her face at the sound of her full name, her eyes scanning the room, clearly looking for someone. âDonât suppose the very Captain America and Sergeant Barnes are here?âÂ
The hopeful uptick in her voice made it clear thatâs who sheâd been searching for. Right on cue, the two super soldiers walked into the living room on their way to the kitchen after a morning run.Â
âSpeak of the devils and I do mean devilsâ Tony snorted beckoning the men to meet the new recruit. âRogers, Barnes, this is Nicole, preferably NicâÂ
âHello handsomeâ She gave Bucky a bashful smile before turning to Steve and batting her lashes, âand handsomeâÂ
âNice to meet youâ Steve reddened at the way she gripped onto his hand before slinking over to the brunette, purposely sticking out her left hand so heâd shake with his metal one. âAnd you SergeantâÂ
Bucky gave her a smile and quick shake, excusing himself to get some water while Steve quickly trailed behind him. Tony went on to take her to her room which was on the same floor as yours, all the other spare rooms occupied by a few others who had already started training. Nicole returned to the living room moments later with sweats and a hoodie, her hair tied up, plopping down onto the sofa beside Sam.Â
âHey, were doing a girls night, movies, junk food, wine, you wanna join us?â Nat offered with a smile hoping to make the new recruit feel more welcome even though a part of her was wary.Â
âItâs a lot of fun, I was just about to get some snacks for tonight, let me know what you likeâ You add with a smile, only to be met with a scoff.
âMmm, hard pass on that, wine isnât really my thing, thanks thoughâ She gave the group a tight lipped smile before turning back to the two super soldiers who had also joined at some point, scrolling through phones they finally knew how to use.Â
âWhat are you boys up to tonightâ She threw them a smile while laying back on the couch and kicking her feet up, letting her hoodie ride up in the process.Â
âBucky and I were actually just going get in a work out, nothing much tonightâ He said with a smile, not noticing the way Nicoleâs eyes lit up.Â
âOh wow I actually havenât been by the gym yet but I guess itâll be where I spend most of my time for the programâÂ
âYou could join us if youâd like, we can show you aroundâ Bucky offered, also missing the smirk that crossed her face, only seeing her bounce right up with an enthusiastic nod.Â
âReally? That would be great, Iâd really appreciate it!âÂ
âOf course, anytime. Weâre just about to head down soonâ Bucky stretched as he got up, along with Steve, waiting for her to change before heading down. She got up and went off to her room while you picked at the skin on your fingers. You felt a pang of something at the pit of your stomach at Buckyâs offer but you knew he was just trying to make the girl feel like she was part of the team. He knew more about feeling left out than anyone else; of course heâd never want anyone else to feel the same way.Â
Still.
Something was off.
You shook off the inkling of insecurity you felt, not wanting to over think his intentions. You and Bucky were not official yet but everyone knew there was tension and a clear unspoken dynamic between you both. It was just a matter of time. Unless he had his sights on the new girl...
No.
He wouldnât do that.Â
Right?
*****
âSheâs getting really comfortable around those twoâ Nat cocked an eyebrow watching Nicole have a field day sparring with the two men, throwing herself onto Bucky in particular, giggling when heâd help correct her stance or catch her before she slipped. Every since she joined them at the gym, she made a point to only work out when they were both there, finding excuses when anyone else would offer to help her train.Â
âI guess they are really experienced, so it makes sense...â Your voice trailed off, trying to reason why she was practically glued to their side, again ignoring the uneasiness you felt when Bucky picked her up with ease and set her back on her feet.Â
âUh-huh, weâre all experiencedâ Nat rolled her eyes, plastering on a fake smile when the three finished up on the sparring mat, making their way over to the both you. âYou three have a good workout?âÂ
Steve blinked, noting the iciness In Natâs voice though Nicole seemed unbothered.Â
âTheyâre great, canât beat having the two best soldiers train meâ She drawled out, giving them a wink. Bucky couldnât help the blush that spread to his cheeks, not used to being praised and you couldnât help the jealously that started to gnaw at you again.Â
No.
Relax.Â
âAnytime, Nicâ He shrugged while Nat retched internally, deciding to cut through that conversation before it went further.Â
âYou know, if you come by in the afternoons, Agent Hill hosts a great self-defense workshop for women, great way for you to do some networking as wellâ Nat gauged the way Nicoleâs nose scrunched, shaking her head.Â
âWomenâs workshop, soundâs like a drama fest waiting to happen, honestly most of my friends are guys, makes life easier, thanks thoughâ her eyes didnât leave the brunette, placing herself perfectly between both soldiers. âBesides, Iâm pretty good with self-defense already, that's why I got these two helping me with a little extraâÂ
âAnyway! Y/n and I were talking about the event Stark is hosting later night. Youâre both coming, right?â Nat looked at the two men before her, purposely avoiding the Nicole but it didnât seem to matter.Â
âAre you coming as well?â Bucky asked her, her eyes lighting up again, quickly recomposing herself after. âYou could meet a few of the other agents too, get to know some more peopleâÂ
âUh sure, I could come by for a bitâ She shrugged, coming off as indifferent while shaking with excitement on the inside. âThanks, SargeâÂ
You sucked in a breath at the name she kept calling him, always dropping a suggestive tone in her voice. Or maybe you were over thinking it. It was perfectly plausible she was just being nice to the person who was making an effort to make her feel welcomed. Maybe she had bad experiences in other places that made her wary of women, hence why she only stuck to all the guys on the team. You tried to wrack you brain for answers that would make you feel a little better but came up short.Â
But you didnât want to be petty.Â
You were more mature than this.Â
âWe have plenty of dresses if you want to come by and get ready togetherâ You offered again, mustering a smile, making a final attempt to befriend the new recruit but she didnât even look your way, fully focused on the brunette.Â
âUh- not really the dresses and heels type. Iâm more of a sneakers girl to be honestâ She tossed her pony tail over her shoulder, missing the way Natâs eyes nearly rolled out of her head while you nodded, watching her sway her hips as she walked off. âIâll drag myself over if Iâm feeling itâÂ
âOh-okay, then weâll just see you there!â You called after her while Nat dragged you off, uninterested in your constant attempts to be friendly.Â
âCâmon, lets get you ready. Iâm going to make you look so hot, Barnes ends up on his kneesâ The red head smirked while you squeaked, feeling your face heat up. âWeâre putting you in that red dress, the one that makes his pants feel too tight, donât think I didnât catch him adjusting himself the last time you wore itâ
âNat!â You hissed, hoping he didnât hear, the both of you in a fit of giggles as you made your way to your room. âOh my godâ you hid your face while she dug through your closet, pulling out the tiny dress that hugged your body perfectly, the red color making you stand out in the best way possible.Â
âGo shower while I get all the make up out, Iâm tired of miss pick me trying to get a buy one get one free deal with those twoâÂ
You snorted, hopping into the shower, letting the hot water destress your muscles, feeling a little more hopeful with the dress choice you were going with. Nat didnât waste any time; as soon as you were out, your hair was styled, make up done and heels strapped. You knew you looked good when both Sam and Tony did a double take, letting their eyes shamelessly linger on you with low whistles.Â
âYâknow if youâre done playing games with terminator, Iâd be happy to take his placeâ Tony wiggled his eyebrows while you giggled, taking a seat on the plush couch of the lounge where everyone else sat.Â
âWhat are you ladies drinkingâ Steve came over with a tray of drinks from the bar, already well aware of what each person liked to typically order.Â
âIâm good with a beerâ Nicole shrugged, rolling her eyes when you took the pink drink from the tray, âUgh, I donât know how you drink those, theyâre so sweet, do you even taste anything at that point?â
You shrugged, quietly taking a sip of the raspberry lemonade while she gulped her beer, signaling for another after slamming her bottle down.Â
âYou guys took forever to get ready, this is why I canât deal with makeup and dresses nâshitâ she snorted, directing her comment mostly at you, âThatâs a pretty bright color, I thought tonight was supposed to be lowkey?âÂ
âWell I think you ladies look beautifulâ Thor boomed, not catching the snark in Nicole's voice, his smile wide and voice completely sincere. âEspecially you, Lady y/nâÂ
âThank you Thunderâ You smiled, though the giddiness you felt initially had taken a second hit for the night. He beamed, setting down a bottle of Asgardian mead, searching for the two soldiers. Â
âAlright, where are the two that need thisâ He looked around for Steve and Bucky, since they couldnât get drunk off of regular alcohol. Bucky strode in clearly dressed to kill, in all black from head to toe. Steve joined his side, their faces lit up like it was Christmas day seeing the crystal decanter in the Godâs hands. Buckyâs eyes flicked back to you, his breath hitching in his throat, seeing you in his favorite dress.Â
âFuck sweets, you look-Â
âCâmon Sarge, how about a little competitionâ Nicole nudged Bucky, cutting off the trance he had on you, her shoulder pressing into his, biting her lip and eyeing the alcohol, âLetâs see how many shots we can doâÂ
âThis might be a lot to handle dollâ Bucky chuckled while you froze hearing what he called her. Her eyes lit up again, quickly glancing over to you, her eye brow quirking before leaning into him more.Â
Since when did he call anyone else doll.Â
You felt your stomach sink, taking another long sip of your drink instead, but nothing distracted you from the banter that was taking place before you.Â
âUgh, finee, Iâll stick to regular vodka, câmon Buckyyy, lets gooo!â She practically clung off him waiting for him to pour shots, inches away from crawling into his lap as he grabbed the bottles. You couldnât tell if the flush from his cheeks was from the alcohol or the constant giggles Nicole made whenever he spoke but either way, you didnât want to watch any longer.Â
âWhere are you goingâ Nat grabbed your arm as you got up to leave, though you didnât need to say anything for her to understand. Her green eyes glared at the tipsy solders who were now busy with a game of pool, surrounded by the rest of the team, Nicole practically crawling up Buckyâs legs each time it was his turn. âFor fucks sake-
âTheyâre just having fun, donât worry about itâ You stopped Nat before she stormed over, shaking your head. As much as you wanted to red head to have her way with any of the three at this point, you couldn't be bothered. You were not about to fight for Buckyâs attention; if he wanted to give it to you, he would...
Right?Â
You thought things would go back to normal at some point. But it didnât. Nicole made a point of training twice a day, anything to get her hands on the brunette. Anything to feel the cool metal of his hand on her. In fact sheâd taken up most of Buckyâs time outside of just training, always finding ways to tag along with Steve as well, all while avoiding the rest of the team.
*****
âWhat's wrong sweetsâ Bucky could tell something was on your mind while he stroked your back, his body still warm from the way he took you apart at least 3 times before filling you up till you were dripping and soaking his sheets. He had finally gotten an afternoon off, tossing you over his shoulder when he found you in the kitchen, not letting you get a word in as he shut the door behind him. You wanted to argue back that he couldnât just have access to you any time he felt like according to his convenience, but as soon as his soft lips were on you, you melted, turning into a moaning mess seconds later.Â
âI feel like I havenât seen you in agesâ You shrugged, toying with the corner of Buckyâs blanket, starting to feel more like you were just a body to warm his bed than someone he actually wanted to be with. âWe havenât really hung out recentlyâÂ
You had let yourself relax into his hold only for him to curse under his breath a second later after he noticed the time. He shifted you off him, making his way over to the closet to pull over his jeans and Henley before scrambling around for his wallet and keys.Â
âBucky, what are you-
âSorry doll, I forgot I promised to take Nicole to the corner diner, showing her around a little bit cause sheâll be staying for a few extra weeksâ
Fantastic.
âYou spend a lot of time with herâ You didnât want to come off as jealous, keeping your voice even, though you were close to tearing someone's head off. Bucky didnât seem to notice, humming in agreement while sitting at the edge of the bed to pull on his socks. Â
âYeah, sheâs fun!â Bucky said casually, which only made the weight in your stomach feel heavier. âShe almost beat Steve in MarioKart, just when he thought he was unstoppableâ
âHmâ You didnât bother saying anything else while Bucky threw on his jacket, patting down himself to be sure he didnât miss anything. He caught the way your face had fallen, his cool metal fingers slipping under your chin to tilt your face up.Â
âHow about we hang out after? Around 7, weâll watch a movie together, okay? Iâll grab dinner for us. Promise dollâ He kissed your forehead before jogging off, closing the door behind him.
You were ready by 6, too excited to wait till 7, having showered and changed into something comfy, laying out Buckyâs favorite snacks and adding a few more soft pillows to the bed. You knew it was still early so you didnât mind lounging around for a bit, anxiously checking the time as it neared closer and closer to when he was supposed to show up.Â
An hour later, it was 7.Â
Then 7:30.Â
And then 8.
By 9, you had left everything as is, blinking back the hot tears that wanted to spill, retreating back to your own room, not wanting to see him at all, even if he did have a good excuse for not showing up, which was highly unlikely. You shut the door, throwing on an oversized t-shirt and crawling into bed, burying yourself under the covers, no longer bothering to hold back the tears that began to soak your pillow.Â
****
Bucky cocked his head curiously, seeing his bedroom door left ajar, wondering why it was open when he definitely closed it before leaving. As soon as he stepped in, his heart dropped to his stomach seeing the pillows that were propped up against the headboard, his favorite snacks piled on the fluffy blanket, your fuzzy bunny slippers left behind beside his bed.Â
He cursed under his breath when he realized the time, remembering his promise to you, running straight to your room, only to find it closed with the lights turned off. He tried knocking only to be met with silence, carefully turning the handle and letting himself inside.Â
âDoll?â He felt his heart break further seeing the small lump under a mountain of blankets, curled up into a ball âOh, dollâ He strode over, sitting at the edge of your bed, careful not to wake you if you were asleep, his hand gently tucking a strand of hair from your face.Â
âWhatâ Your voice cracked, hoping heâd think its from sleep and not the fact that you had been crying.Â
âIâm so sorry sweets, we lost track of time, we went out to grab food and then Sam suggested we check out that new arcade just down the streetâÂ
We were supposed to do that you thought to yourself, swallowing down the lump in your throat, refusing to let your emotions get the better of you.Â
âAnd then Steve and Sam had to leave half way cause they had a mission early in the morning. Nicole wanted ice cream so we went by Carlaâs before coming back-
âYou took her to Carla's?â You cut Bucky off, your heart breaking further. That particular ice-cream shop always felt like something special you shared with Bucky, the place he took you to when neither of you could sleep. It was the place you shared your first kiss with him, the place where he said he felt something between the two of you. Itâs not like you owned the store but it felt like the final straw, your resolve finally breaking.Â
âYeah, I-
âJust go Buckyâ There wasnât a hint of iciness in your voice; just disappointment and defeat, both far worse than you being angry. Bucky froze, pulling your blanket away from you, only for you to push his hand away, burying yourself further into the sheets.Â
âDoll?â
âDonât call me thatâ It was the indifference in your voice that left him hurt and confused, mouth opening and closing, âPlease leaveâÂ
âSweets, I can make it up to you, I promise-âÂ
âItâs fine Jamesâ You shrugged, pulling the sheets higher up, not willing to speak anymore, knowing youâd burst into tears again if you did. Bucky reluctantly decided to let you sleep, figuring youâd hear him out the next day but no.
How wrong he was.Â
You avoided him in the morning.Â
And the day after that.Â
Nearly a week had gone by and you didnât spare him a second glance, always finding an excuse to evade him whenever he trailed behind you. It didnât help that Nicole attempted to stay glued to his side, not giving him chance to get you alone.Â
*****
âWhatâs with youâ Sam watched Bucky slump down onto the sofa, where everyone else lounged around, his face sullen from a lack of sleep, grumpiness amplified because why were you avoiding him so much?Â
âY/n isnât talking to meâ He shrugged, while Nat glared at him.Â
âI wonder whyâ the red head mumbled, rolling her eyes at his confusion.Â
âWhen was the last time you guys spokeâ Steve inquired, equally concerned about why you were ignoring his best friend. Bucky was the last person to share stories about his love life but at this point he was desperate. He recalled the events of the last time he spoke to you, promising a movie night, going out with Nicole, taking her for ice cream, running late, apologizing to you afterwards, where did he go wrong?Â
âI didnât mean to forget-Â
âBucky!â Nat slapped him upside the head while he yelped, looking at her with puppy eyes.Â
âWhat did I do?â
âBarnes, you absolute doorknob, you took her to all the spots you take y/n to, youâve been spending all your time making little miss Iâm one of the guys feel comfortable, youâve made y/n seem invisible and youâre wondering why sheâs not talking to you?â Bucky blinked while Nat continued, her annoyance only growing when she saw a message from Nicole pop up on Buckyâs phone.Â
âYou treat Nicole like your girlfriend. Imagine some new guy joins us, makes a point of eye fucking y/n the entire time, finding ways to constantly flirt with her and touch her, youâd be fine with it? Imagine he avoids hanging out with the guys but makes all the time in the world to chase after anything with breasts. On top of that, how would you feel if y/n went out of her way to make said guy feel more welcomed when he clearly just wants to get into her pants. Youâd be fine with it?!â
Bucky shook his head, though still not fully understanding because Nicole was just a friend, not someone heâd even be into. Plus, its not like she was into him like that, right?Â
âBut Nicole doesnât want to-â Bucky started, shutting his mouth when Nat nearly hissed, staring at him while he did the mental math, âNicole wants to get into my pants?â Bucky looked at Nat wide eyes, ducking the cushion she was about to whack at his face, all the pieces finally clicking together. He groaned, running a hand over his face, realization hitting him like a ton of bricks. Just as Sam and Steve were about to hum in agreement with Nat, she glared at them, their eyes growing wide.
âAnd youâ Nat turned to glare at Steve, his shoulders slumping when he realized he wasnât in the clear. He squeaked when Nat pulled his ear, giving it a squeeze, âWhat were you thinking. You didnât once think it was weird she only trained with you two? Havenât any of you noticed Nicole doesnât hang out with any of us, Just you?â Nat waved her hand at the men that sat before her, their dumb stuck faces only adding to her annoyance. âIdiotsâÂ
As much as Bucky wanted to hit his head onto a brick wall, he didnât have time to waste, immediately springing up from the couch to look for you. He checked everywhere he could but you were nowhere to be found. He was so desperate, he found himself shuffling outside of Tonyâs lab, hoping FRIDAY would give him your location.Â
âYouâre asking for a lot Barnes, y/n might add my name to the hit list if I tell you where she isâÂ
âPleaseâ Bucky was ready to beg on his knees while the billionaire huffed, watching the former assassin look like a lovesick puppy. He cocked an eyebrow, noting the glassiness of Buckyâs eyes on his desperate face, nodding before calling for FRIDAY to look for you. âAlso, I need another favor...âÂ
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âY/n, babygirlâ Heâd never felt such relief before, seeing you make your way to your room, coming back from your hiding spot from the roof, the scowl on your face clearly showing you werenât trying to talk to anyone one your way over.Â
âOh, Iâm babygirl now? Has doll now been reserved for Nicoleâ You couldnât hold back the sneer in your voice, walking away faster, ignoring his calls.Â
âBaby, please!â
No.Â
âBaby, wait!â Bucky chased after you, not willing to let another day go by without you knowing exactly how he felt. He managed to get hold of your hand, gently tugging you towards his chest and spinning you till your back was against the wall, his chest nearly pressed to you. âPlease, I-I need to talk to you, tell you how I feelâÂ
âThereâs nothing to talk aboutâ
âYes there isâ His voice was earnest, baby blues searching your downcast eyes, his finger tilting your chin up to look at him, âThereâs so much to talk about, I adore youâÂ
âDo you also adore Nic?â You scoffed, while Buckyâs cheeks warmed with embarrassment, the pink spreading up to his ears.
âThereâs no Nic or Nicole, theres just a y/n, my y/n, only you dollâ You rolled your eyes at his response, trying to move away but Bucky wasnât having any of it, keeping you pressed against him, âIâm sorry darling, I didnât realize what she was doing or get her intentions. I thought she just wanted to get to know the team betterâ
âWowâ you huffed under your breath, wishing you had the space to flick the super soldiers forehead.Â
âI know, Iâm an idiot, and Iâm an even bigger idiot for not making it clear Iâm so utterly and desperately in love with youâ Bucky bit his lip as soon as the words left his mouth, heâd said everything under the sun except those words before. But they were true and heâd kept it inside long enough. âI love you, I love you, fuck, I love youâ
You squeaked in surprise when he scooped you up in his arms, tossing you over his shoulder, walking over to his bedroom, smiling when he felt your small fists hitting his back, your butt wiggling to be put back down.Â
âBarnes, put me down, you canât just say you love me and then carry me away like a complete ogre!â He set you down, kicking the door shut behind him before wrapping his arms around you tightly again, falling more in love with your irritated pouty face.Â
âI love you sweet girl. God, Iâm so in love with youâ
âYouâre an absolute idiotâ
âAn idiot who is in loveâÂ
âYouâre so cheesyâ You willed yourself not to smile, ignoring the butterflies that fluttered at his words and love struck eyes. âyouâre still a dickâ
âI know. Mâsorry angel, I didnât realize what I was doing, I never wanted to hurt you. I shouldâve known something was up when all she wanted to do was train 24/7 but I guess I misunderstood her intentions cause I didnât see her as anything else. Iâve only ever had eyes for you baby, you have my heart. You always willâÂ
âWhere is she right now anyway?â You melted into his chest, closing your eyes at the feeling of his lips pressing a kiss to the top of your head. âIsnât she supposed to be leaving soon?â Bucky didnât respond, his hands starting to wander your body instead, slipping up your shirt, rubbing soft circles on your hips. Without warning, he picked you up again, tossing you on the bed and pouncing on you, peppering your face with kisses.Â
âBucky what are you doingâ You giggled feeling his beard tickle your skin as he started to trail kisses down your neck.Â
âI may have requested Tony to have her stay an extra nightâ Your face twisted in confusion at his words but the devious look on his face made your tummy flutter.Â
âAnd he happily agreed because...â
âBecause...?â
âI want her to hear how good I can make the girl I picked feelâ Bucky smirked as he crawled off you, stripping his clothes off before tearing yours off immeitedly after. âMânot gonna waste another second, gotta let the whole compound know who my best girl isâÂ
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âOH G-GOD J-JAMES FUUCCCKKKâÂ
âThatâs it pretty princess, thatâs it, cum on my dick baby, my good girl, fuck youâre so good to me, look at that, God youâre soaked babyâ
âJesus Christâ Nicole huffed, no longer able to ignore the moans coming from Buckyâs room while the rest of the team pretended to be none the wiser, your loud love making carrying all the way down the hall. Bucky happily disabled the sound proofing in his room before pushing his cock in as deep as it would go, railing you into the mattress.Â
âBaby you look so pretty when youâre all stretched out like this, câmon you can take more, spread those legs for me baby, open up, câmon, lemme inâÂ
âHNG PleasepleasepleaseJamesâÂ
âSo perfect when you beg, cockâs all yours mama, mâall yours, go on and use me, thatâs it, ride this dick, you own meâÂ
âBucky, gonna-c-cum, gonna-cum!â
âCum for me princess, God I love youâÂ
âYou want a snack?â
âNick?â
âUh-Nicole?â
âHuh?â Nicole whipped her head around to where Steve was innocently holding out the bowl of popcorn, while Sam stood up to grab more snacks before the movie started. She stared at everyone surrounding her acting as if they couldnât hear the way you were screaming your vocal chords raw, the super soldier moaning louder than you, âN-no, Iâm fineâ
Tony cocked an eyebrow at the way her jaw clenched, mindlessly scrolling through her phone while Buckyâs thrusts punctuated with each word.Â
âYâfeel so. Damn. Good. baby, could spent my whole life like this making love to youâÂ
âFuck, I love you JamesâÂ
âUgh- theyâre so loudâ Nicole rolled her eyes again in hopes that someone would feel the same but all she got were blank stares back.Â
âI mean, terminator is practically in love with herâ Tony shrugged while the others nodded in agreement.
âTheyâre cute. Itâs about time they made it official, donât you think?â Nat asked sweetly staring directly at her while Steve tried to chime in as well, his cheeks burning hot pink between the sounds of skin slapping and moaning.Â
âThey sound so happy togetherâ he stuttered out while Sam snorted, choking from laughter.Â
âOh God, oh god, fuck-Jamie-JAMIEâÂ
âYup, real happyâ
âI-I think Iâm actually gonna call it at early night, stay at the recruiting center tonight insteadâ Nicole headed straight to the main doors without looking back, the rest of the team giving each other satisfied smirks.Â
Bucky collapsed beside you, panting, his short locks clinging to his forehead, a thin sheet of sweat covering his body. He truthfully stopped caring about what Nicole could or couldn't hear half way through, meaning every single word he said as he took you apart over and over again. You giggled at his shy smile when he pulled you into his chest, pulling the sheets over you both, kissing your forehead.Â
âI love you pretty girl. I love you so muchâÂ
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The Calm After the Storm
Summary: After a grueling mission, Bucky and Y/n find solace and strength in each other's love.
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Avenger!Fem!Reader
Warning(s): fluffy fluff, mentions of a tough mission, lovey dovey things, Bucky Barnes ('cause he's just a warning himself), lemme know if I missed anything
The sun began to set, casting a golden hue over the tranquil lake as Bucky and Y/n sat side by side on a weathered wooden dock. The air was filled with a gentle breeze, carrying the scent of fresh pine trees and wildflowers. It was a moment of respite after a tumultuous mission, and the both of them relished in the tranquility that surrounded them.
Bucky turned his head to steal a glance at her. The fading light illuminated her face, highlighting the subtle freckles that dusted her cheeks and the soft curve of her lips. The remnants of worry and exhaustion were etched on her features, but they were slowly fading away, replaced by a sense of calm. Bucky couldn't help but smile at the sight.
"You okay?" Bucky asked, his voice gentle yet filled with genuine concern.
She turned to face him, their eyes meeting. She offered a small smile in return, her fingers tracing circles on the dock's worn wood. "Yeah, I'm alright. Just glad we made it back in one piece."
Bucky's metal arm brushed against her own, a silent show of solidarity. "You were amazing out there, you know. I don't know what I would've done without you by my side."
A blush crept onto her cheeks as she averted her gaze, the praise making her heart flutter. "You weren't so bad yourself, Sergeant Barnes. As always, you kicked some serious butt."
Bucky chuckled, the sound melodic and warm. "Guess we make a pretty good team, huh?"
The two fell into a comfortable silence, their shoulders touching as they watched the sun dip below the horizon. The vibrant colours of dusk reflected on the water, casting an ethereal glow that seemed to mirror the connection between Bucky and Y/n. They had been through countless battles together, their shared experiences forging an unbreakable bond.
Her fingers intertwined with Bucky's, their hands fitting together perfectly like the missing pieces of a puzzle. Bucky's touch sent a wave of reassurance and comfort through her, erasing any lingering traces of fear. It was a silent understanding, a language spoken between them without words.
"You know," she began softly, her voice laced with vulnerability, "I don't think I could've come this far without you. You've been my anchor, James."
Bucky squeezed her hand gently, his voice filled with unwavering sincerity. "And you've been mine, Y/n. You've shown me that there's still goodness left in this world, even after everything I've done."
Their gazes met once more, the depth of their feelings mirrored in their eyes. Time seemed to stand still as they leaned in, their lips brushing against each other's in a tender kiss. It was a silent promise, a shared understanding of the love and support they found in one another.
As they pulled apart, Bucky rested his forehead against hers, their breaths mingling. "We'll always have each other's backs, no matter what comes our way. I'll protect you, Y/n. Always."
A tear slipped down Ella's cheek, but it held no sadness. It was a tear of gratitude, of immense love for the man before her. "And I'll stand by your side, Bucky. Through thick and thin."
In that moment, as the sun disappeared beyond the horizon, Bucky and Y/n found solace in each other's arms. The echoes of their past faded away, replaced by the promise of a brighter future. Together, they would face whatever challenges lay ahead, drawing strength from their unwavering love and unbreakable bond.
As the stars twinkled in the night sky, the lake embraced their shared silence, forever holding their secret love story beneath its gentle ripples.
A/N ahhh, I just love those two with a passion!
I would also like to apologise for not updating any stories in a while...I've been focusing on my Uni work (shocking, I know); and I've finally just found out where I'm being placed for my teaching practical đł
New chapters of all my series (both normal and mini) should be coming out soon :)
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Thanks for reading đ glad you enjoyed it.
Now I wanna write a follow up to this đ«Łđ€
Cuddles & Cocoa
For Kathieâs @pellucid-constellations writing challenge. #loveletterswritingchallenge
Chubby!College!Bucky & F!Reader
WC: 5.7 ish
Warnings: Hurt comfort, loss, grief, depression, overall sadness, therapy.
A/N: Happy Valentine's enjoy the most self indulgent piece I've ever written. It got a bit out of hand. What can I say, I was inspired.
Prompts were: "I take it youâre here cause you read my letter." & "I'm sitting here, with this stupid pen in my hand, and damn I can't believe you have me writing right now."
Part 2 ⥠because I have no self control.
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"So, you're back early. How'd it go with Sweets? Isn't she great?" Steve asks as Bucky walks through the door of their shared apartment.
Steve tried to set up Bucky with you. Bucky was fresh out of a failed relationship.
"She's nice." Bucky says with a grimace already expecting Steve's reaction.
"Hmm, so when are you going out with her?"
"I'm not...I didn't ask her out."
"WHY NOT? She's perfect for you. She's sweet and nice, and smart which is a step up for your usual type."
"I can tell from just two hours of knowing her. That girl gives off wifey and best friends vibes, that shit is rare. She's not rebound material, she's the type of girl you bring home to meet your ma."
"Hey, Buck." Your sweet voice brings him out of his thoughts about you. "Mind if I join you?"
It's way past midnight and Bucky had tossed and turned in bed for the past two hours, he eventually gave up and decided to sit by the fireplace in the living room. He'd rented out this cabin to enjoy one last holiday break with his friends in their last year of school. It'd be their last hoorah before fully going off into adulthood.
"Not at all." Bucky smiles and pats the space beside him for you to join him. "Couldn't sleep?" he asks when you curl up in between his legs and lay against his chest, turning your face towards the fireplace.
"Nope. Nat and Lillian were making out and doing some heavy petting, they think they're quiet but they're really not."
Bucky chuckles and brings the blanket higher up on your body until it rests at your shoulders along with his big arms. You tilt your head to the side and a shiny piece of metal catches your eye. "Oh hey, what's this?" You bring it closer for inspection. James Barnes
"They were Grandpa's dog tags."
Bucky had a hard time dealing with his grandpa's passing earlier that year. His grandfather James had been sick for a long time, his illness had taken its natural course and earlier this year passed away in his sleep. At least it was peaceful, but that doesn't make it hurt any less to Bucky.
"What about you, why are you still up?" you gently squeeze his bicep.
"I don't know. Couldn't get comfortable enough I guess." he sighs.
"How about cuddles and cocoa?"
Cuddles and cocoa were your thing. It was a totally normal occurrence between the two of you.
It all started when you got ghosted by your date in your sophmore year. Bucky came to the rescue and met you at the cafe you were supposed to have a date but got stood up instead. He got you hot cocoa and cuddled up with you in the reading nook by the back of the cafe. A couple of weeks later, when Bucky failed a calculus test you showed up to his and Steve's apartment with hot cocoa and your old notes from when you took the class. You drank the cocoa, cuddled and then tutored him. He aced his next test. Ever since whenever either of you had a bad day you'd treat each other to hot cocoa and cuddles.
You were truly the best of friends, always in tune with each other's needs.
Bucky smiled and bopped your nose. "Yeah, cuddles might help."
"You stay right here, I'll be right back." You get up and tuck the blanket around him, dropping a quick kiss on his forehead before dashing to the kitchen to prepare the hot cocoa.
It hurts to see him still hurting like this. He's put himself on the back burner for so long.
After his grandpa passed Bucky stopped going to the gym, stopped going out with the guys and started over eating, missing classes. It was starting to become a problem, Sam and Steve didn't know how to talk to him without it sounding like an intervention or like they were judging him. So Steve asked you to do something, when you showed up with a loaded cardboard cup holder from your favorite cafe and a box of pastries he protested.
"No,Sweets, come on. I just got him to stop eating pancakes for dinner. We're trying to help him here--"
You cut him off. "Steven, just let me do my thing. He doesn't need to be told what he can or cannot do, what he can or cannot eat, or when he can or cannot eat. What Bucky needs is comfort. Now, get the door for me, please."
Steve knocked on Bucky's door before opening it and announcing your presence. Bucky just grunted in acknowledgement, you stepped into his dark room. Dirty laundry laid on the floor, old stale food on his bedside table, you took note of everything around you, cluing you into his state of mind.
You remind yourself that you are not there to judge but to help.
"Bucky."
"I can't believe Steve called you in."
You move to open the curtains and Bucky winces when the sunlight burns his eyes. You get a good look at him, pale face, dark circles around his eyes, a hint of a shadow where a beard used to be-- apparently Steve got him to shave at some point. Bucky wore sweatpants and a big sweater, it was all he wore since he started gaining weight. His hair had gotten longer and began curling at the base of his neck, a side effect of not going out- not even to get a haircut. Objectively speaking Bucky looked bad,of course he was still handsome, but the guy laying in bed was merely a shell of your best friend.
"Get up. Shower, wash your hair," You instruct. "And be quick, I don't want our hot cocoa to get cold."
At the mention of cocoa Bucky perked up and disappeared into the bathroom. While he showered you decided to clean up around his room, picked up his clothes and threw them in the hamper. You took out the trash, tidied up his desk, and even changed the sheets of his bed. Steve was impressed when you asked him for clean sheets.
When Bucky came out of the shower in a clean set of sweats, you noticed he'd shaved which you didn't ask him to. He did that all on his own. You smiled at him and patted the spot next to you on his bed. "C'mere. It's cuddles and cocoa time."
Bucky takes the cup of cocoa and the box of pastries.
That's another thing that's developed. Bucky is so quiet now, the total opposite of him. You're used to him being loud, the life of the party, the glue that keeps the friend group together. He's so withdrawn and monosilabic it's very sad to see him this way. There's really only so much you can do for him, which is being here. That's why Steve called you.
"How are you, Buck? Like really."
"I'm okay."
"JamieâŠ" You go in for a hug but he pulls back from your touch. That hurts.
"Please, don't call me that." He begs quietly on the brink of tears.
You want to take it back but it's too late. "Jame-Bucky, please, I just want to help you. Just tell me how."
He whispers 'shut the blinds' so quietly you almost miss it.
It's all he says, he's already met you halfway and now it's your turn. He showered like you asked so you shut the blinds like he asked. The room goes back to darkness and Bucky exhales loudly. You go back to the bed in the dark and immediately Bucky takes a hold of your hand. You don't say anything, neither does him. For a while you sit there holding his hand and drinking cocoa, you pass him the box of pastries and he takes an apple turnover, it's not his favorite but he can't tell the pastries apart in the dark.
"Buck, Steve told me you haven't been going to class."
"Yep."
"Why not? Do you want to drop your classes? It's okay if you do."
"No, I just don't feel like being around people."
"Well, why don't you switch to online courses?"
"I can do that?"
"Yep! I can set up an appointment with the counselor if you'd like."
Bucky stays silent for a minute pondering about it. "Would you go with me? I don't wanna back outâŠif you go then I can't not show up. I could never let you down."
"Aww that's sweet, Bucky. Of course I'll go with you, I just have one condition."
"I guess that's fair. What is it?"
"Cuddles?"
"Okay."
Bucky has gone through an emotional rollercoaster since his grandpa died. After the funeral Bucky retreated into himself, which you expected since he was depressed. When Steve started to worry alarms went off in your head, you got closer to Bucky just to be sure that he knew he wasn't alone, that he could count on his friends for support.
When your own father died you had no one to turn to, no one understood your pain. But for Bucky it is different, you understand his pain and thankfully he lets you be there for him.
You were there to help him cope, whether it was with cuddles and cocoa or just sitting with him in his dark bedroom holding his hand.
Eventually the cuddles and cocoa turned into cuddles and cocoa and talk.
With a belly full of warmth, and his arms full of you Bucky feels talkative and once he starts, he can't shut up. "...it's pathetic. It's almost been a year, everyone has moved on but me. Now I'm almost done with school, no future job lined up after graduation, fat, single and miserable."
"Uh-huh. Right. Pity party for one." You jab his ribs with your elbow.
You're both lounging on the pillow fort Bucky made while you prepared the cocoa. You are wrapped up with Bucky in between some thick blankets, your arms bound around his torso and one of his arms around your shoulders while the other trails up and down your spine.
"I'm not having a pity party, I'm being a realist."
"Well if we're being realistic, you still have months until graduation, plenty of time for you to line up a job. Second, you're not fat, there's just more of you to love." You move your hands to squish his cheeks in that adorable way that makes his lips pout. "Third, you're single and miserable by choice, I know a lot of girls who would love to date you."
"I don't want a lot of girls, just one in particular."
"That's good, Buck. See? You are moving on, setting goals for yourself. What's that thing your therapist says?"
"Celebrate the small victories." Bucky mumbles.
So you remind him that he has made progress. Bucky goes to therapy now, which has helped him out a lot. He no longer avoids his friends, or his family. He also switched back from online classes to in person for the fall semester, and then he planned this whole holiday getaway. He's very different from the sloppy, sad guy from months ago.
So what if he doesn't have his future figured out? It's no big deal.
"Grief is not a one size fits all type of situation. Not everyone has their futures figured out."
"You say that because you have that sweet job at Stark Industries lined up." Bucky trails his fingertips up your spine stopping at the side of your neck to tickle you.
"No, I say that because the future is uncertain, there are no guarantees. Like what does it matter that I have a job lined up, who says I'll even like the job?" In return for the tickling you wet your pinky finger and bring it up to his ear.
"Ew! Okay! Okay!" He swats your hands away. "I see your point."
You laugh and lay your head on his chest and hug him tightly. Bucky kisses your cheek, "Good night, Sweets."
"Good night, Bucky."
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"MERRY CHRISTMAS!!"
You startle awake with the sound of your friends shouting. Bucky's arms are still around you and his legs are tangled with yours, his chest vibrating with laughter.
It's a holiday miracle!
You get to witness Bucky laughing, really laughing like he used to. His eyes are closed, mouth wide with his pearly white teeth showing, his nose doing that signature scrunch along with the crinkle around his eyes. You feel your eyes start to water, vision becomes blurry, you're so happy to see him back. Bucky, your Bucky is smiling like he used to, so carefree and genuine.
Merry Christmas indeed.
You smile and quickly wipe the tears from your eyes before anyone notices you, and get up and wish your friends a Merry Christmas then go get ready for the day.
Immediately after you leave for the bathroom, Steve and Sam ambush Bucky asking if he'd finally confessed his love for you.
"Not this again. Drop it." Bucky's friends really know how to damper his mood.
"You wait around any longer and you're gonna lose her, Buck." Steve warns.
"I'm telling you she's not interested." Bucky replies.
"Yeah, right cause she's been single for two years. Two years, Buck. Not a single date in two years. That's not suspicious at all." Sam argues. "Do you know what that's like? Don't answer that, it was rhetorical. You know cause you've been single since you met her!"
Bucky chose to ignore Sam's point, afraid he might be right.
Since the moment he met you, Bucky recognized exactly the kind of girl you are. And as he's gotten to know you and become your friend, he's realized you are his dream girl. You are all he's ever wanted and more. It's been too long, he knows he missed his shot with you. You two are too good of friends to actually be more. Yes, he has wanted you all this time and now he's afraid that you only see him as a friend.
But...then again...
Facts are facts though, and Sam does have a point. What are the odds you've both been single all this time? Could it be that you feel the same way about him as he does about you?
Or were you just projecting your daddy issues onto him? Did you just want to 'fix' him?
Bucky has a lot of questions and a lot to think about. He wonders what his therapist would tell him. He knows Dr. Raynor would point out that you might be projecting but that wouldn't be a bad thing, it would just mean that Bucky means as much to you as your father.
Bucky had a lot to dissect through.
Bucky remembers that summer night in his room when the two of you were cuddling. You thought he was asleep when you couldnât hold your tears any longer.
Bucky was disappearing right in front of your eyes. Reflecting on how it felt to lose your father and how he withered away to nothing in front of you.
Bucky may not be dying but it feels like he is.
Bucky felt you shaky breaths, heard your whimpers and sniffles. âSweets. Are you-- What's going on?â He turns you over to face him, a soft caressing hand on your cheek.
You canât look at him. It hurts so much. The Bucky you knew was fading away and you couldnât do anything about it. His eyes didn't hold that sparkle anymore. âJamie. Jamie, come back to me.â
Bucky dry swallows, he's never seen you like this. You're an emotional person but he's never seen you this affected. "I'm right here. What are you talking about? Did you have a nightmare or something?"
"No. This is the nightmare." Your sobs make you hiccup, Bucky hugs you to his chest. He holds you tightly until you calm down a bit.
"Sweets, you're scaring me."
You bury your face into his neck and hold on to him for dear life. âIâm gonna tell you something, but please donât hate me for it.â
âYou can tell me anything.â
âYou need help, Bucky. Real help, thereâs only so much I can do. Cuddles and Cocoa is not enough.â You choke on a sob, but continue on. âI donât want you to keep fading away.â
âIâm not going anywhere." Oh, it dawns on him that your tears are for him, because of him. "I have an appointment with a therapist next week.â
The relief that washes over you is unexplainable. You know itâs not a quick fix but itâs a start. Itâs hope and thatâs all you need.
âIâm sorry itâs taken me this long to figure things out. Iâm not going anywhere. I promise."
"I know. Can I go with you?"
"That'd be great. I'm actually terrified..."
"Of what?" you ask, still sniffling, gently running your fingers through his hair.
"That I'll never feel whole again." A tear slips from his eyes, his voice cracks.
Bucky's words shatter your heart into a million pieces. You know that feeling, you understand it well. It takes you a while to find your words so in the meantime you hold him.
"From my experience, in our lives we give pieces of our hearts to those we love. So when we lose them it feels just like you said, like we'll never be whole again. But I choose to see it this way: in your case, your grandpa moved on to another journey, to another life or whatever you want to believe in-- the point is he took pieces of love with him. Your grandpa took a bit of love from you, your grandma, your whole family."
"When I lost my dad...Bucky, I too felt like that. It took me a fucking long time to realize that the hole in my heart, the bit he took, it wasn't empty or incomplete. It's still there, it's a bit of his heart now in its place. My dad took a piece of my heart with him and left me a piece of his instead. So I can tell you, from experience, that I know it sucks and I hate that there's no way to fix it. That this feeling will sit with you until you deal with it. And sadly, that fucking line that time heals all wounds, I hate to say it but it's true."
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1 Week later // New Years //
You and Bucky were drinking the last bottle of champagne and eating the remaining grapes. It was 2 am and everyone had already either passed out or gone to bed.
Naturally you and Bucky settled in by the fire pit on the deck at the back of the cabin. It wasn't that cold outside so you could sit comfortably by the fire with a blanket and be fine.
You two get to talking about your expectations for this year, both academically and personally. Bucky admits he's excited to graduate but nervous about his little sister Rebecca who will be graduating high school and then going to you guys' school in the fall. "I wanted to look out for her, bust her balls too."
"You can if you stay in the city."
"I think I might."
"This might sound corny or stupid, or both, but I think this is gonna be great year." You take his hand and entwine your fingers, never looking at him just staring off at the flames of the fire pit.
"It's not stupid or corny, I know what you mean." He squeezes your hand and you look up at him. He smiles down at you. "Beginnings...they're special." You hum in agreement and Bucky continues. "And speaking of special, I wanted to thank you. This year, well past year was by far my worst one, but looking back at it...it had it's nice moments too." With the way his eyes bore at you, you know he's actually referring to you. "I want to start off the year on a positive note, set the tone, you know."
"Thank you for letting me be there for you. This will be your year Bucky Barnes. You fucking deserve to be happy."
Bucky smiles at you. He smiles at you a little too long. You start to imagine the way he leans into you.
Your heart leaps to your throat as he gets close. His warm lips press to your forehead. The prickly sensation of his beard against your skin makes you giggle. "Your beard tickles."
He leans back and runs a hand down his chin. "Been thinking it might be time to shave it off."
"No!" You protest. "You can't shave it off. It completes your look."
"It completes my look?" he asked amused.
"Yeah, the big burly, long haired, bearded look. It's really sexy in a lumberjack kinda way."
Bucky had noticed you had never complimented him on his looks, not even before he gained 30 pounds. So the fact that you were complimenting him when he was at his 'worst' did wonders for his self esteem, in fact his face was burning red. "Thanks? I guess."
That night Bucky got an answer to one of his many questions regarding you: Did he even have a shot with you? Yes.
After finishing the bottle of champagne you head inside, he follows you, unsurprised when you head straight for his room. You're already in sweatpants and a sweater he recognizes as his. It was a gift from Rebecca, it read 'It's okay if you don't like me. Not everyone has good taste.'. It didn't fit anymore. He gave it to you when you stayed over at his apartment after getting locked out of yours. He didn't ask for it back but he also didn't think you'd keep it.
You settled in the left side of the bed, taking your time fluffing your pillow. Once you settled in, Bucky slipped into bed beside you. Before turning off the bedside table lamp, he turned to check on you. "You good? Comfy?"
With the comforter up to your neck you nodded your head. "Yep. Good night, Buck."
Bucky turned off the lamp and got comfortable on the bed. He felt you roll over on your side to face him and smiled when you pressed your face to his shoulder. He extended his arm and pulled you to his chest. "Good night, Sweets."
Bucky could barely keep his eyes closed, every single ruffle of the bed set him off. You turned your back to him, and he thought he might finally get some sleep, but then you grunted. "Cuddlebug, you're so far away." You reached a hand blindly to grab him and pull him to you.
Bucky grabs your hand and your fingers find their place in between his. He pulls you back to the center of the bed, molding his body to yours. "You keep rolling off, sweetheart." He murmurs at the back of your neck before pressing his lips there.
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A couple of days later you all head back to the city and settle back into your daily routines, back to school. The semester starts off with a bang and a lot of work. Weeks pass by so fast you barely have time to meet up with Bucky. Heâs been pretty busy too, but he always makes time to text you and check in on you.
And even though he texts and calls, you miss him.
You feel off, like something is missing. When you go to bed and toss and turn you realize that what you're missing is Bucky. You miss sleeping with him, just being around him brightens up your day.
And then it happens. Your old lab partner Peter Parker asks you out on a date. It feels weird being asked out on a date. Your immediate response was to say no, but before you can answer he tells you to think about it and let him know. No pressure.
Just then you see a smiling Bucky approaching with to-go cups that you're sure are hot cocoa. Your reaction is a pure knee-jerk, it happens without conscious thought, you squeal with delight. âBucky!!â
Peter Parker, still standing before you, gives a tiny wave with his hand, âSee you around, Y/N.â
âBye, Pete.â
Hours later, Peter texts you. Peter: I'm sorry about today. I didnât know you were spoken for. My bad đ„Ž
You stare at the text for like an hour. Thatâs how Nat finds you, sitting in the living room staring at your phone.
âY/n? Youâve got thinky face.â
You give her your phone instead of explaining. Nat takes a seat and takes your phone.
âI donât get it.â
âPeter asked me out and I didnât know what to say, then Bucky showed up and now he thinks Iâm not interested. He thinks Bucky is my boyfriend.â
âUnderstandable.â Nat sighs and fails to muffle her laughs.
âWhy on earth would he think that?â
âJesus, I thought you were in denial but you really don't see it.â
âNat, what the hell are you talking about?â
âSweetie, come on." She gives you her signature smirk, "When Bucky is around you act like no one else exists. Donât even get me started on the way you look at each other and your grossly cute cuddles and cocoa thing. You two act like a couple.â
âWe do?"
"Yes! I cannot believe this...I'm gonna try something. I will ask you a series of questions, and you will answer rapid fire. Okay?"
"Okay but what does that have to do with anything?"
"Just answer the questions, trust the process. Okay, here we go. How long have you known Bucky?"
"Almost three years."
Nat keeps asking questions, varying topics, it's hard to find a pattern or what kind of information she's trying to pull out of you. About three minutes in she asks, "Do you want to date Peter?"
"No." You kind of already knew that.
She shits topics again to food and colors, and up and down. Then she asks, "You're in love with Bucky, aren't you?"
"Yes."
You gasp and Nat laughs so hard she tears up. "Don't say I never did anything for you."
You sit there and ponder what to do with this piece of information. Should you tell Bucky how you feel? Would that weird him out? Or would he feel the same way? It's safe to say you don't sleep well that night.
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Three days later, Natasha comes home with the mail. She got a care package from home, full of goodies and Russian candies, pictures and letters from her family. Her sister sent her a vest she saw and thought Natasha would love it, it had a lot of pockets. "Oh, hey, here." She hands you an envelope, "almost forgot. You got a letter."
You take the envelope in your hands to examine, your eyes nearly pop out when you read the name of the sender.
James B. Barnes
You tear open the envelope and take out two handwritten papers.
My dearest, Y/N
Did you know people still write letters?
I just got one from my grandma. She sent me some pictures of my grandpa and Steveâs. Iâll share them with you someday soon.
The other day I was on the phone with my grandma and I was telling her about you. She really wants to meet you. Something she said got me thinking. 'All the what-ifs, you're missing out on what is.'
She meant for me to live in the moment and in the spirit of that, thatâs why Iâm sitting here, with this stupid pen in my hand, and damn I canât believe you have me writing right now.
Here's a wild thought: Maybe we're missing out on the what-if...
Iâll start at the beginning. It'll hopefully make sense by the end of this letter.
From the moment I met you, I knew exactly the kind of woman you are. And in case you didn't already know that was Steve's poor attempt at setting us up, there was no pressing matter he had to tend to that day. When I got home he was waiting for me, already asking if I had asked you out on a date.
I'd just gotten out of a relationship and was not looking forward to getting my heart broken yet again. But then I met you...and that's it. I was sold.
I know you're probably confused at this point. What is this idiot saying?
I WANT TO DATE YOU!! is what I'm saying.
You might think then why didn't this idiot ask me out if we were being set up by Steve?
I didn't want you to be my rebound girl...which is stupid now that I think about it, cause I've been single since I met you⊠for almost three years I've avoided dating altogether because after only two hours of knowing you, I couldn't picture myself on a date with another girl that wasn't you.
So I figured I'd take my time to get to know you instead of just jumping to the deep end. You are so special and wonderful. There aren't enough words in the English language that can fully describe you.
You are incredible.
You are perfect.
I could not have even dreamt you up.
I'm so happy I got to know you and become your friend. Being your friend has brought my life a whole new perspective, you have shown me kindness, love and compassion. Everyday you continue to blow me away, you are honestly the strongest person I know. I admire you so much. I am thankful to have you in my life.
Youâve been everything Iâve needed, a friend, a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold, but youâre also all Iâve ever wanted.
Iâm taking a risk here writing you this letterâ and no pressure, I cannot stress this enough. I would love to take you out on a date. We have an awesome friendship and I would understand and respect if thatâs all you want this to be.
I thought since Valentineâs Day is a holiday based on love and friendship (and weâve already got that part down) itâd be a good day to test out the waters.
Iâd love to have more with you.
I donât want to have any regrets, especially when it comes to you.
So if youâd grant me the honorânay, the privilege to take you out on a date,
again no pressure if you donât. Meet me at the cafe this Valentineâs at 7pm.
Your Cuddlebug,
James
P.S. I really mean no pressure.
Between you and the therapy I've become a sap! You have no idea how long this letter originally was...but I'll tell you it was giving Rachel's letter to Ross a run for its money. Ha! Another reference I get to make because of you introducing me to that show.
I will stop writing now. :)
You are speechless.
This is the absolute last thing you expected. A handwritten letter from Bucky asking you out on a date.
Thereâs no doubt you want him too.
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Bucky Barnes does not get to be the only one to get cheesy and romantic over Valentineâs Day. You write down a response to hand deliver when you meet him at the cafe.
Natasha helped you out picking out a dress and getting ready for your date.
Walking into the cafe you realize that for the first time you're actually nervous about meeting up with Bucky, which is stupid because you already know that he wants to date you. You two have nothing to be nervous about. You've basically been on tons of dates already. The girl working the cash register notices you waiting, looking around, looking for someone. "Excuse me, are you Y/N?"
"Yep, that'd be me. I'm meeting someone here."
"Eeep! You're blue eyes' hot date!" She smiles and sighs, "He's waiting for you at the reading nook."
The reading nook! The very same were you shared your first cuddles and cocoa.
You turn around and go back to the counter and ask the girl for two hot cocoas.
You walk back to the reading nook with one hot chocolate in each hand, your clutch tucked beneath your arm. You almost drop everything when Bucky comes into view.
There he is. Bucky in a navy blue suit, black dress shirt. You do a double take because, yes he did, Bucky shaved his beard. Yet he still looks as handsome as ever, if anything it makes his eyes pop even more. And the smile that takes over his face when he sees you is absolut magic, it makes you want to melt.
"I take it youâre here cause you read my letter." Bucky says as you place the cups of cocoa on the table, along with your clutch.
"I did." You hug him. "I brought my reply." When you pull away from the hug you look up at him and smile, he smiles back. You can't hold on any longer, you pull his face down and quickly press your lips to his. It was a quick peck that lasted about a second but it left Bucky dizzy.
Bucky arranged for food to be brought to your table, a couple of Montecristos and other goodies like bonbons, macarons and those apples turnovers you love. As soon as you get to talking the nerves wear off and it feels like any other time youâve hung out with Bucky. The only difference is that he holds your hand and tells you how beautiful you look. You live for that adorable way he looks at you while dropping kisses to the back of your hand.
By the end of the night he confesses he wished he wouldâve asked you out sooner.
He walks you back to your apartment and you invite him in, he seems surprised. "Oh, did you seriously think we'd have our first date and not have cuddles? It's us, cuddles are our thing."
"I like the sound of that."
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