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In this heartwarming episode of No 309, we dive deep into the emotional journey of love, commitment, and the unbreakable bond of family. This story captures the essence of a young man who, despite life's challenges, finds himself deeply in love and immensely grateful for the continuous support he receives from those closest to him. His partner stands by his side with unwavering dedication, and his family’s love provides him with the strength he needs to pursue happiness and face life’s ups and downs. 👉 Subscribe to my channel to stay tuned:     As we unravel his story, we witness the true meaning of unconditional love, where trust and loyalty transcend any hardship. Through beautiful, heartfelt moments and touching dialogues, this episode highlights the importance of having a support system that lifts you up, keeps you grounded, and empowers you to become the best version of yourself. The themes of this episode resonate with viewers who understand the profound impact that love and family support can have on a person’s life. It’s a reminder that no matter where life takes us, the presence of loved ones makes every challenge manageable and every success more meaningful. Join us on No 309 as we explore these universal themes of love, trust, and the powerful influence of family. Whether you’re a fan of romantic dramas or simply in need of a heartwarming story, this episode promises to leave you feeling uplifted and inspired by the beauty of true connection. 🍁𝗔𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗧𝘂𝗿𝗸𝗙𝗹𝗶𝘅 𝗢𝗳𝗳𝗶𝗰𝗶𝗮𝗹🍁 Immerse yourself in the captivating world of Turkish entertainment with TurkFlix Official, your one-stop destination for enthralling Turkish series and movies! We bring the magic of Turkish storytelling to your screen, all meticulously presented with English subtitles for your viewing pleasure. Dive into heart-wrenching dramas, laugh-out-loud comedies, and pulse-pounding thrillers, all boasting rich cultural experiences and unforgettable characters. Subscribe to TurkFlix Official and unlock a treasure trove of Turkish entertainment, waiting to be discovered!
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Unconditional Love and Family Support | No 309 | TurkFlix Official
In this heartwarming episode of No 309, we dive deep into the emotional journey of love, commitment, and the unbreakable bond of family. This story captures the essence of a young man who, despite life's challenges, finds himself deeply in love and immensely grateful for the continuous support he receives from those closest to him. His partner stands by his side with unwavering dedication, and his family’s love provides him with the strength he needs to pursue happiness and face life’s ups and downs. 👉 Subscribe to my channel to stay tuned:    / @turk-flix  
As we unravel his story, we witness the true meaning of unconditional love, where trust and loyalty transcend any hardship. Through beautiful, heartfelt moments and touching dialogues, this episode highlights the importance of having a support system that lifts you up, keeps you grounded, and empowers you to become the best version of yourself.
The themes of this episode resonate with viewers who understand the profound impact that love and family support can have on a person’s life. It’s a reminder that no matter where life takes us, the presence of loved ones makes every challenge manageable and every success more meaningful.
Join us on No 309 as we explore these universal themes of love, trust, and the powerful influence of family. Whether you’re a fan of romantic dramas or simply in need of a heartwarming story, this episode promises to leave you feeling uplifted and inspired by the beauty of true connection.
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stxphxn-strange · 4 years ago
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human error/i don’t expect perfection
a/n: i started writing this, before 9am and my day was already not going to plan. my solution as always is to write hurt/comfort for my college au, so here we are. ily and i’m sending y’all well wishes♡
Stephen was hit with overwhelming relief when he finally got home, the clock singing her melodic chimes to announce the changing of the hour. It was 2 in the goddamn morning, and Stephen was just so sad and exhausted. He almost felt like a chain was tugging at his head and heart, leading him towards self loathing no matter how much he tried to resist. Stephen’s entire night consisted of trying to put on a smile, trying not to berate himself in front of others because he made a mistake. That was the problem. Stephen made a mistake, a really small error during a simulated surgery that he and Christine were using to study. It was a mistake so small and so easily corrected, but Stephen wanted to be perfect. The sheer presence of the mistake was unacceptable to him and his insatiable need to be flawless. 
Some of his classmates thought Stephen was an arrogant and haughty kissass who would trample anyone in his quest to prove that he was better, smarter, and more innovative than his peers. That wasn’t true, but Stephen let them think that. It was simpler than explaining that he’d internalized every bit of criticism he’d ever received and that he was just trying to be good enough for himself. It was easier than telling people that he felt the need to prove his worth to his mother in the hope that she might accept and understand him better. That was none of their fucking business. They could think Stephen worked himself to exhaustion so he could flex about what a hard worker he was, he didn’t care. 
He just wanted to be good enough. 
But first, he wanted to sleep. 
Stephen took his water bottle out of the fridge and made a steaming mug of tea, holding fire and ice as he headed towards his bedroom. He was hoping to find Anthony asleep and relaxed in bed, a sight that could always make Stephen smile. He wanted to take a hot shower and curl up in bed next to his boyfriend, and he wanted a lazy morning after a restful night. There were no classes tomorrow, which meant they could maybe catch up on sleep, or just spend time lounging around together with no pressure from the outside world. 
But Anthony wasn’t in bed. He was pacing around in the bathroom, brushing his teeth restlessly. He’d had a shit day and was still clearly quite upset, his eyes red and puffy from crying in the shower. After harshly washing his face in an unsuccessful attempt to hide the fact that he was crying, Anthony sighed deeply. 
Stephen, eager to get ready for bed, softly knocked on the door. “Hey, I’m home.” 
“Oh hi, I’ll be out of your way in a minute,” Anthony replied. He pulled the door open and walked across the room to pick up a towel that had fallen. Scowling at it, he hung it back up where it belonged. 
“You okay?” Stephen asked, leaning against the wall. 
“I’ve been better,” Anthony said. “You?” 
“About the same,” Stephen replied. 
These kinds of greeting conversations were much shorter when they were tired or upset. There was an understanding that they weren’t upset with each other, but down about something. 
Anthony reached out to silently ask for a hug, relaxing a little bit in Stephen’s arms. “Today wasn’t good.” 
Stephen hummed and drew him close. “It really wasn’t.” 
Anthony yawned, exhausted and swaying in Stephen’s safe embrace. He felt like he was going to fall, both from physical and mental exhaustion, but trusted Stephen to catch him every time. 
Sure enough, he did. Stephen hugged Anthony tighter and kissed the top of his head, holding him close to his heart. 
“Go to sleep, Ant,” he murmured. “I’ll be there in a minute.” 
“Okay,” Anthony replied. He yawned again, begrudgingly letting go of Stephen and stumbling into bed. 
He wanted to sleep and had every intention of doing so, but then he started thinking about his day. Not by choice, because Anthony could happily forget today if his mind would only let him. He replayed every conversation, memory, and action that caused him to feel as hollow and worthless as he did right now, not realizing that he was shaking as he tried not to cry. Stephen’s tiredness disappeared when he stepped out of the bathroom and was affronted with the sight of Anthony sobbing into a throw pillow. He crossed the room in long strides, laying beside his partner and hugging him close.
“What’s wrong?” Stephen asked, tracing circles on Anthony’s back.
Anthony just sighed. “It doesn’t matter.”
“Of course it does,” Stephen replied. “Even if it’s the smallest thing in the world, if something is important to you then I’m going to listen. I’ll want to listen.”
“I’ll tell you later... can we just stay like this for a bit?” Anthony asked. His tone was so soft and passive, indicating that he’d trip over himself to redact the request if needed. He hated asking for things, always feeling imposing and undeserving of the time and attention he received.
But Stephen was already shifting into a better cuddling position, pulling Anthony into a strong hug and giving him gentle, loving kisses. Stephen was grateful for these moments where Anthony allowed himself to be vulnerable, grateful for any chance to show him the love he deserved.
They were both instinctively caring and fiercely loyal to the people they were close to, but awful at taking moments to show themselves the same kind of love and care. They both felt like they hadn’t earned love, like they couldn’t exist without owing something to someone. There weren’t enough ways to show supportive people how appreciated they are in the same way that nothing would ever be powerful enough for the couple to prove their worth to any naysayers. Stephen generally didn’t listen to criticism, he didn’t care what most people thought of him. A select few, his mother for example, could make him feel like shit 13 seconds into a conversation and leave him rattled. Sometimes when Stephen failed, he heard her voice and the negative things she’d told him. He usually dealt with these thoughts by thinking about encouraging memories or things Anthony told him, which helped to recenter him. That strategy didn’t work all the time, but enough to help Stephen get through the day.
Anthony was extremely sensitive to criticism, but great at hiding his emotions. He’d had to from a young age, Howard Stark being himself, so it wasn’t easy to tell when something upset him unless you knew what to look for. Sometimes he built a barrier to keep his emotions to the side, throwing one feeling on top of another until the foundation broke and emotions overwhelmed him. Today was one of those days, where something he thought was insignificant was the hump that broke the camel’s back. He wasn’t good at letting himself be upset and had a hard time surrendering to his emotions right now. Even as Stephen reassured him that it was okay, that he was safe, it was still hard for Anthony to let himself talk about what was wrong. That often led to nights like these, with the weary couple holding themselves and each other together with the threads of love and understanding and years of knowing each other.
Despite exhausting himself from crying, Anthony could still see that Stephen was upset. “You okay?” He whispered, caressing Stephen’s cheek with his hand.
“Just frustrated. The practice Christine and I were doing didn’t go according to plan,” Stephen replied. “It was so close to perfect, but I fucked up one little thing.”
“Did you try your best?”
“Yes, but—”
“Did you fix the mistake?”
“As fast as I could, yeah.”
“And I assume you wrote everything down in that absurdly neat way you take notes?”
Stephen rolled his eyes. “Absurd is a bit of an extreme descriptor, don’t you think?”
“Hmm... no,” Anthony mumbled. “It’s absurd but shows how careful and dedicated you are to doing well. You have an immensely strong work ethic, you always do as much as you can, and you try as hard as you can. We’re still learning, we’re still in school. It’s okay to mess up, and it’s okay for you to mess up.”
Stephen nodded, his eyes fluttering shut as Anthony continued to caress his cheek. “You need to take your own advice, my love. You don’t have to hold yourself to impossibly high standards either.”
They tended to say the same thing in different words, ranging from delicate and sweet to extremely blunt.
Anthony smiled sadly, leaning in for a kiss. “I love you.”
“I love you too,” Stephen murmured against his lips. “Do you want to talk about what’s bothering you?”
Stephen always phrased his questions carefully. His intentions were always clear, showing that he was inviting Anthony to talk with him rather than insisting and forcing him into a vulnerable state. Too many people had done that to both of them.
There was no consequence if Anthony didn’t want to talk, and tonight he didn’t.
“In the morning?” He suggested, still a bit too timid to directly say no.
Stephen nodded. “In the morning.”
“I still just want to be close to you, in your arms,” Anthony whispered.
Stephen smiled and gave him a feather light kiss. “Stay as long as you like, I’m always here for you.”
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themonotonysyndrome · 4 years ago
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I know you have plans for the winter break already but what if in that time nothing bad happens and the boys invited the girls to their homelands?
Sayaka’s invited by Deuce to go meet his mother as his closest friends (both totally obvious that everyone sees it as guy invites his girlfriend to his mom for the first time). It’d be so wholesome, with Deuce’mom lightly teases them but very grateful that her son managed to befriend a good girl like Sayaka. And since they’re in the Rose Country, they can go meet Ace and the others!
Kyoko probably goes with Ruggie. He’s self-conscious about his poor neighborhood but after all the time they spent together, relating to each other’s hardships they are more comfortable with one another. She’d get along well with everyone there, especially the kids even if she acts grumpy and denies that she cares about them. The sight of everyone in the poor but close-knited community leaves her with a bittersweet feeling as she remembers her family. But hearing Ruggie’s grandma says that if she doesn’t mind she’s welcome to visit them anytime aling with the neighbor kids cheerfully chirping that they want to see nee-chan again warms her heart
(Oohh what if she decides to stay??)
Homura goes with Kalim and Jamil to the Country of Hot Sands, meeting both of them families. She can’t help but feel uncomfortable with how many ppl there are, and she keeps her guard up even more knowing that Kalim’s life could be targeted at any time. Still, witnessing Kalim being a big brother to his siblings (it’s clear that they love him a lot, even if their own mothers want him out of the picture) and how Jamil’s family being more reserved yet clearly shows that they deeply care for him is heartwarming. She’s grateful that they treat her as a precious friend of their sons. For once in her life, she’s able to understand what family love is like. (Kalim’s dad secretly welcomes the idea of having Homura as Kalim’s wife)
Even though Mami is closer to Vil and Rook, I see her going to Epel’s village, partly because we know very little about Vil’s family and nothing about Rook’s. Although she and him are the only teens around, Mami enjoys the peaceful atmosphere and how caring the people there are. Plus watching him freely being himself and being obviously happy around his family brings a smile to her face. It reminds her of her own parents and for a moment she has a solemn expression before snapping out of it to join in the fun with everyone. Even if her duty as Magical Girl will keep her to find a way back, she’s going to cherish all the memories and all the friends she made here in Twisted Wonderland
Madoka would be so out of place in the Valley of Thorns. She’s most likely be the only human there and will be faced with many looks, but Lilia and the others will be by her side no matter what. And even though it’s nerve wrecking to be so far away from her friends the experience of visiting the Diasomnia’s homeland soon fills her with wonder. Once she shows her magic everyone slowly starts to be more welcoming to her.
Let’s give these girls more happiness! I love the idea that the boys bring the girls that sorted into their dorm to their homelands & meet their families! Let’s do this. 
Sayaka would feel a little awkward at first. I mean, a guy has never invited her to meet his family and homeland before! (Kyousuke doesn’t count here). It’ll be funny that both her and Sayaka doesn’t think too much about the invitation, just good friends, right? Everyone else will be like, “Ah, young love! One day these oblivious idiots will realise it, no worries!” Deuce’s mom would definitely be delighted over Sayaka and adores her! She believes that she’s a good girl and friend to her son and if those two combined? She hopes they can continue to support one another. After hanging out with Deuce’s mom and helping out around the house because Sayaka would insist it, they would go out to hang out with Ace and the rest of the Heartslabyul gang too! Cater would probably drop by at the Rose Kingdom too. Sayaka would want to keep close to Riddle in case his mother did anything to him. And for that lady’s sake? Riddle is gonna be a lot more outspoken and independent from his mother lest Sayaka decides to ‘save’ her too. 
Ruggie had sheepishly and hesitantly offer Kyouko if she would like to come home with him during the Winter Break. Kyouko, at first, doesn’t understand why he’s so self-conscious about it until he brought her to the slums and poor neighbourhood. He worries if it’ll put her off, but to his immense relief and pleasant surprise, Kyouko feels at ease. Right at home, in fact. He would internally chastise himself, he remembers that Kyouko used to live on the streets back where she comes from after the death of her family. You bet this girl gets along well everyone in Ruggie’s home. Despite the environment, Kyouko would quietly yet fiercely thanked him for bringing her to meet his grandma and the close-knitted community he lives with. For now, it’s alright to bask in this warm feeling of having a family again. And you know what? These two would also happily accept Leona offers to meet with him in his palace. He’d grumbled about their noisy presence but compared to dealing with the judgemental servants and annoying family members, Leona enjoys having them with him. Kyouko wonders if Jack would like to hang out with them too. 
(wouldn’t it be nice if Kyouko, Mami and even Sayaka will be hesitant to go back to Mitakihara City? They found love, family and acceptance in Twisted Wonderland with these boys. Madoka would be torn about at this point, Lilia has become her second Dad in all but blood and name. And Homura? This is perfect for her; so bittersweet. She would rather have the other girls live her while she goes back to Mitakihara City. Let her deal with Kyuubey & Walpurgisnacht. She’ll gladly face the nightmares if it means Madoka and everyone else can live happily. PS: I was listening to Jungkook’s Still With You so kudos for making myself sad).
At first, Homura is very reluctant to be separated from Madoka. It took not only Madoka & Lilia’s constant assurance that she’ll be safe and sound but also Malleus in a staring competition with Homura that ended with, “Do you look down on my power and capabilities to keep the Fairy safe?” Cue Sebek spluttering and shrieking in the background, being restrained by an exasperated Silver, at how Homura is underestimating his young master. In the end, she takes up on Kalim’s invitation to the Land of Hot Sands. She’s gotten used to the weather, clothes and culture practice in Scarabia, so adapting to the Land of Hot Sands is not a problem for her. But yes, she definitely feels uncomfortable with how large the Al-Asim family is! Her guards are constantly up despite the warm welcome she receives; she makes sure to be polite though, after all, she is a guest in their home?? Manor?? Palace?? Yeah. She’s cautious and friendly to his Dad, his mother and the other wives but a bit more relax towards Kalim’s siblings. Even the older ones. I feel that she’s patient to their questions and invitations to play. Homura also takes the time to visit Jamil and his reserved family. She never bothered by status before so like Sayaka, she would offer her help around their house too. All in all, I think both families would thank her for looking out for their sons. It’ll be funny if the night before they went back to NRC, Kalim’s dad pull him aside, telling him he approves if he wants to make Homura his wife. We don’t know if Homura even has a family in the anime so it’s a nice to experience what being in a family feels like. (Let’s just hope neither family ever discover the extent she would do to bring back a dead Kalim, yes?). 
Oh! Oh! I think that’s a good idea! Having Epel inviting Mami to the Village of Harvest. Mami portrays herself as a high-class, sort of noble lady with her fancy teas, ladylike-behaviour and expensive looking apartment, but you know? She’s more than happy to help him around the farm! The serene and quiet atmosphere is a breath of fresh air to her. She’s charming the old ladies and gentlemen left and right with her beautiful smiles and sweet demeanour! Mami would giggle and keep it herself that it’s nice to see Epel slip back to his country accent and let loose without having to worry about Vil breathing down his neck. His family are so welcoming of her that she’s super touched and thanked Epel for bringing her to his home. I want Vil to often call Mami to ask if Epel is treating her right and that would lead him asking her to pass the phone to him and poor Epel complaining that even back home, he can’t run away from Vil! What is this nightmare!? Rook would just one day randomly appear without warning, scaring Mami and Epel. 
If Madoka stands out in Diasomnia, she will definitely look out of place in Malleus’ castle and the Valley of Thorns! The only human around dark Faes, bright pink against black, a sweet thing among reserved and secretive society. I think Malleus’ castle would only be filled with those who he truly trust so she can roam around without worry, though whispers and gossips will sure travel across the land that their Prince finally brought a friend home! And a human, too! Cue of the castle staffs, guards and etc wondering about Madoka. She’ll ease into the scrutiny with Lilia and Silver besides her. As for Malleus? He’s just super excited to show her around, have sleepovers and etc. So precious! 
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victoriachatnoir · 7 years ago
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179 Days
It’s day 179. 
It’s been 179 days since I’ve talked to my Taurus everyday. He holds the gold to my olympic stand. Everyday we talk I feel for him more and more. My emotions grow as our connection grows stronger. 
I’m learning so much about patience right now. I never felt that being patient would actually have it’s virtues, I learned that it does. Andy Warhol once said, “The idea of waiting for something makes it more exciting.” This man was a genius, nothing could be any more true. 
The distances does not murder me, it does not kill me, it does not make me sad. Before, the distance would have caused a problem, but somehow the Taurus managed to keep me feeling secure in my place with him. He puts me on a pedestal reminding me I am his lovely princess, but he doesn’t coddle me, he doesn’t force me to depend on him, and I believe this is why I feel more and more attracted to him. 
The sexual tension grows. Everyday I want him to ravage me. I wake up day dreaming about morning sex with him. I squirm in my chair at work when ever he crosses my mind as I imagine him entering me. Everyday before bed, I close my eyes and consider his touch, how he would feel on top of me, and it’s invigorating. 
The emotional aspect, I fall for him harder everyday. The fact he tells me that the smartest thing he has ever did was talk to me, makes me become aware of my self worth. He doesn’t belittle me, he doesn’t try to make himself bigger than me, he sees me equally, and eye to eye I feel he understands that this partnership earns my submission. 
I am mentally stimulated. He exercises my mind, my humor, my everything. Everyday we talk beyond just sexual connotations, and build a solid friendship of enjoyment in our conversations. I absolutely love when we become analytical. We touch on social aspects of our changing world. We speak upon the politics of work, education, and government. We consistently understand the game that we have to play called life, and that alone makes me know he understands me. Best of all, he gets it. How I talk, how I phrase my words, how I decide to string my sentences together. I don’t always have to go into long explanations and that alone makes me understand his mind is on the same level as mine. 
Today marks 179 days. With my OCD it’s clear that I obsess over the fact we have talked for this many days in a row, in so long. He has become a part of my life even when he is over a thousand miles away. Nothing about him makes me feel suffocated. He never hinders me. 
I have never been collared. 
It’s true. I have never found a dom that I could fully submit to. I have never found a connection with someone that I could fully trust my mind, my body and my soul; allowing them to take over as I release my responsibilities. 
I know when we are together, in person, a fire will start. The sleeping artist deep inside of me, hidden in the darkest caves of the abyss, will wake up. When I finally feel his breath on my lips I will feel a spark that pulsated through my veins. I believe this.
Even though, on some days it agonizes me that he doesn’t move as fast as I can, I completely understand why. Me, I leap, I take the jump before I fully look at the distance between the cliff and the other side. It’s a bad habit that I have always had. Yet him, he analyzes it. He waits for the wind to to be at the perfect angle and speed. He marks where to start running, when to jump and where to land. He evaluates every single part of the edge. Until we both take this jump and never are given the chance to look back, he grabs me and holds me to stay. I may not understand completely now. He may not share his feelings , or know how to express in words, but he tries to let me know in little ways, in his own ways. 
I’ve committed myself today on 3 things. 
1) I will never resent the time I spent being patient. I have grown a lot and I have experienced a type of deeply caring emotions given to me by someone I would love to spend the rest of my life with. This alone is amazing. This alone is something not everyone gets the chance to do. I am immensely grateful for being given the opportunity to even be able to wake up knowing there is someone out there rooting for me, believing in me, and cares for me in ways I thought didn’t exist. 
2) I will never lie to him. So far, I have been open and honest and it has made my life so much better. I can tell him everything and anything. I never want to let go of being able to do this. I promise to never lie to him, and this promise isn’t to him but to me. He listens and is understanding, and even if he doesn’t agree he allows me to be me. This type of compromise only comes from selfless people, and I know I have compromised myself so many times to only be used. Yet, he never has ill intentions, he respects me. I will never lie to him, I never have and I never will.
3) I will find a way to wrap my arms around him and to hold him close even for a single hour. I don’t care if it takes years, I don’t care if I have to put in all the work. I truly believe a single hour with him is enough time for me to live the rest of my life understanding the feeling of true happiness. I’m not saying I need someone to be happy. I can be happy, but I want to feel his heart beating and hear it. I want to do this to make myself feel a type of happiness that I never felt before. The sense of belonging, the sense of having someone who you can be naked with, physically, emotionally and mentally. If I was told I had only one day to live, I would die happy to just hug him for even 5 seconds. It may seem silly, mushy or gushy that I feel for him this way. Yet, after all the people I had turn on me, that hurt and betrayed me, I have never felt safer than the minutes I speak to him on the phone. 
If you’re reading this Taurus, I’m sorry I’m not brave enough to tell you this myself. I still feel that I am too intense, that I can be TOO much. I also know you are working on your future, and I do not want you to feel any type of guilt that you choose to push yourself where you are and continue the path you chose despite the fact I am far away. I never want to hinder you, and hopefully one day i will be brave enough to tell you how I feel, the deeper feelings that I have. And with this also today I give you 3 promises:
1) I will never ask you to change for me. You will change for you, for your growth and your goals. What ever you choose I will support it, because I do not want you to stop your life for me. Life is precious and so is our time living it. 50 years from now I don’t want you resenting your choices because I came into your life. 50 years from now I want you to look back and think to yourself, “Man, it was one hell of a ride, here is to another year.” 
2) I will not let my family persuade me that you are not good enough. My family is from a superficial society and they measure success based on beauty, money, and your history. It is a horrible way of measuring success and I will never hold that measurement to you. I will defend you and I am fully prepared for any backlash they give me. You have done more for me than any of them have in the short 179 days. That alone is worth more to me than any inheritance I could possible receive from them. 
3) I will always respect you and I will always be patient. Patience is hard for me, however I learned so much about the values of patience because of you that my life has become better. I am accomplishing my goals little by little and learning that I am capable of anything. I am slowly breaking out of my shell as I wait for the right time to move forward in my life. Though I would love to see you tomorrow morning, I know that the possibility is that I will have to wait. I believe its worth waiting, and I won’t desert you due to my impatience. Therefore, please keep yourself a priority as  we are still young and building the foundations of our future. I will stop trying to jump off the ledge, and I’ll do my best to move at your pace. 
This weekend I’m moving to a new place. I’m excited. It’s going to be a fresh start for me. Yet, I couldn’t have created the courage to do this if it wasn’t for the support I got from Taurus. He has been valuable in my journey of getting my mind back in the right place. 
I thank you. 
I thank you for dealing with my complaints.
I thank you for listening to my worries and irrational feelings. 
I thank you for telling me you’re proud of me when I accomplish even a little part of my goals. 
And finally, I thank you for being so humble. I hope we grow. I hope you collar me. I hope we spend a lifetime together. That is my hope today, and I hope it stays my hope for tomorrow. 
XOXO
Victoria Chatnoir
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