#fic was gonna be called ‘my life as a teenage fusion’

[habken]

part of me feels a bit guilty about sharing the fusion au stuff cause it’s not really just my idea, it was an au I built up with my friend :’) we were gonna write a fic and everything, but obviously that never happened lol

We had so much plotted out for it though and I’m trying to find our old 2020 messages 😭

[fencesandfrogs]

20 questions for fic writers

tagged by @yee-hawlw

1. how many works do you have on ao3?

208!

2. what's your total ao3 wordcount?

524,331

3. what fandoms do you write for?

top five would be warriors, moon knight, star trek, overwatch, and homestuck. i haven't posted anything for overwatch or homestuck in AGES tho, and i've got a good number of fic plans for fandoms i've never posted for. i just like to be complicated like that ig.

4. what are your top five fics by kudos?

burned off the tapestry; drarry. written in high school.

ashes; squirrelflight/ashfur. in dear deserving of an update. i'll get there. eventually.

if i ever get the nerve to say hello; k/s accidentally secret relationship where uhura thinks she's dating spock.

better left unsaid; po3 slight-crack about everyone knowing the three aren't biologically squirrelflight's.

a cool summer night (and this sweet breeze); some hollywillow/kestreljay nonsense. can't believe this one is in my top 5. i don't even ship kestreljay. i don't even LIKE kestreljay. it's only in this fic because the premise required it.

5. do you respond to comments? why or why not?

i try, but not very often. honestly sometimes i forget, sometimes i'm busy, sometimes it's just too much. basically all my fics have moderated comments because i have had Issues with commentors in the past, but. i collect the comments in my inbox and love them very mcuh.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

oof, tough question. i'm gonna go with "anything at all," which uh. ends with a mother finding her teenage daughter dead by drug overdose. i don't think it's my best work, i wrote it when i was like 15, but it's probably the worst ending.

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

oh shit i have to go thru all my fics again? damn. this is easier and harder than the previous one. i like to write happy endings! i prefer it! but i limited myself to only fics with happy endings, not, like. fluff pieces that are all happy. and with that, i'm gonna go with "i see the moonlight steal across your sheets." yes, it is the daddy kink tigerdove one, but it has a very happy ending with very little bittersweet.

runners up include: "a firefly is forever (you know my answer)", "a tree called life," and "it's mere assignment."

8. do you get hate on fic?

rarely. in my inbox is more common. i moderate comments for a reason tho LOL.

i think people on ao3 are much less likely to have problems with me because things are always tagged and warned for. you can't really go into a fic from me and not know what you're getting into.

9. do you write smut?

yes, but i haven't finished anything to publish. which is funny. because i write a lot of smut. [i do have one explicit fic, but. it's not smut.]

10. do you write crossovers?

my first ever fic (written and posted when i was ten) was a crossover. other than that...i write fusions, sometimes. i have a warriors & night circus crossover which is a proper crossover but doesn't really engage with the world as a crossover, if that makes sense. they're not really my thing tho.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i remember? i think i've had to address people over copied paragraphs, but i don't think i remember the details of that. it could've been me noticing someone else's work being copied.

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

yes! and it was very kind of the person who did so.

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

...it's complicated.

i'm working on a co-written fic rn tho.

14. what's your all-time favorite ship?

character named james who goes by something else X guy who is constantly getting into situations.

(not really a joke, three of my favorite tags on ao3 fit this description. house/wilson, k/s, steve/bucky.)

15. what's a WIP you want to finish but probably won't?

ohf, i'll admit it here ig. i have a shrewsquirrel piece, "waiting for me in some unholy sunlight," that i really adore. but uh the ending. it ends in a bittersweet way, and uh. well. the ending i had planned ended up more-or-less happening irl. so. i can't. i just can't.

16. what are your writing strengths?

tenacity. lol. uh, i think i'm good at description when i let myself get into it. and i think i'm good at like. the structural elements of writing.

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

actually fucking finishing things. and. i've gotten a lot better at it, but i still struggle to keep a balance between narration and dialogue. sometimes it feels like there are pages between two sentences in a conversation.

18. thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in a fic?

goddamn this is something i've done. i think i've mentioned most of the fics involving this here also. okay. so. i'm going to answer with what i do, because there's not, like, one right solution to this. what i prefer to do is keep everything in english, and use dialogue tags to specify what language is being spoken. however, if it's a single word, or a specific phrase, i might keep it in the original language, for flavor/"it's a concept that doesn't translate well."

i have written a fic with sentences in spanish, and i took a long time to make hover translations work, except it doesn't have accents because to this day i can't figure out how to make it work. sobbing and crying etc.

i don't think i would do that with a language i didn't know. in that case, the character being latina was important to how i wanted to angle the story, so it made sense. i'm not sure if i'd do that in a different situation?

basically i play things very by ear. if i was writing a physical book with pages, i would use footnotes fairly heavily, but it's not the same on ao3. you have to lose your place to check a footnote. like, even if it's linked back to the spot (which, y'know, i would do, now that i know how to make footnotes), it jars you a bit.

19. first fandom you wrote for?

i'll give you half the cross over, MLP:FIM

20. favorite fic you've written?

that would be telling ;3

tagging @kudossi, @creed-of-cats, and @secondyearpigeon, with no pressure. anyone else who wants to is welcome <3

[thisweekingundamwing]

This Week in Gundam Wing June 28 - 4 July 2020

Here’s this week’s roundup!

Remember to give your content creators some love! And join in on the events at the bottom!

~Mod Hel PS. So, I’m really bad at checking my email... I really need to get better at it. Some of these (which I’m sure will be new to a lot of you) are from long before this last week... whoops.

Fanfiction/Snippets/AU Ideas:

@bobo-is-tha-bomb​

Five dates with Mister Handsome https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622383229580771328/five-dates-with-mister-handsome

1xReader (gender unspecified)

reader-insert, second person POV, fluff, romance

He was sinfully good looking and he had agreed to five dates with an idiotic drunk who claimed one single kiss was worth five dates. You couldn’t help but wonder why.

@coffeetailor​

Emergence (Ch. 11) https://archiveofourown.org/works/13322880/chapters/60710743

Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy

Duo Maxwell, Heero Yuy, Quatre Raberba Winner, Trowa Barton, Chang Wufei, Sally Po

Crossovers & Fandom Fusions, borrowers fusion but don't call them borrowers, disturbing themes like people trafficking from the bad guys, Size Difference, Will probably be a series, alternate canon events, Macro/Micro

When the war ended, things went a little strange. First, Duo vanished after never having let them see him in person. Then, years later, a tiny race of people are discovered. And that's just the start of things.

Fun Curses with Catboys https://archiveofourown.org/works/25047898

Chang Wufei/Duo Maxwell

Chang Wufei, Duo Maxwell

magic transformation, Size Difference, catboy, Anal Sex, Post-Canon, Magic, wufei's a wizard, thar be porn

When Wufei leaves the Preventers, Duo goes snooping and finds out some things about his favorite (crush) loner. Like his hobbies in gardening, rare book collecting, and… magic? Probably shouldn’t have touched that, Duo. Good thing it’s a fun curse, and there’s a sexy wizard around to help out.

@chronicwhimsy​

Strangers (Ch. 6) https://archiveofourown.org/works/24357013/chapters/60473569

Chang Wufei/Duo Maxwell, Background Quatre x Relena, Background Heero x Trowa - Character

OC - Oliver McGann

Long Lost Twins, this was meant to be hijinks but then I got reminded these boys have Issues, Pining, Duo is a stressed-out jerk who needs a holiday, Post-EW, Frozen Teardrop can do one, sex in later chapters because this is me who are we kidding

If you said the word "brother" to Duo Maxwell, he'd think of the other pilots.

If you said, "no, your long-lost brother" to Duo Maxwell, he'd think of Solo and be very confused.

If you said, "no, your twin brother you were separated from at birth, and he's now working with the Preventers as a lawyer" to Duo Maxwell, he would go and punch his doppelganger.

Duo Maxwell isn't good at dealing with things, but unfortunately this particular thing isn't going to go away that easily.

@destinysblackrose​

It Takes a Legend... https://archiveofourown.org/works/25012021

Relena Peacecraft/Heero Yuy, Relena Peacecraft & Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell/Hilde Schbeiker

Heero Yuy, Relena Peacecraft, Trowa Barton, Duo Maxwell, Duo Maxwell Jr., Hilde Schbeiker, Chang Wufei

Angst, Fluff, Domestic Fluff, Slice of Life, Duo's going to have his ribs broken, Gundam Wing children, #fatherhood, Fatherhood, Father's Day, Crass Humor, teenaged boy humor

“Listen, I can’t possibly imagine what it’s like to be you. You never had a childhood. And you never had a father—” 

“No,” Heero shook his head. “I didn’t. I trained to fight, to kill from…as far back as I can remember.” The visible side of his mouth, from Aidan’s vantage point, turned down.  

“It’s why,” he paused and picked up a wrench from the open drawer. “It’s why sometimes...I’m, I’m at a total loss…” He dropped the hand holding the wrench to his side. Aidan could see his knuckles change color where he throttled the metal implement.  

“Your mom is so much, better at these things… At being there for you.”

@doctormegalomania​

Introspective https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622202012283584512/introspective

Implied 1x2, implied 3x4, implied past 2xH, past 1xR

self-exploration of gender identity and sexuality, reference to past sexual situations (non-explicit), candid conversations

Heero gives some thought to his sexuality.

Your Body’s Poetry (Ch. 20) https://archiveofourown.org/works/20438891/chapters/60737623

Duo Maxwell/Heero Yuy, Trowa Barton/Quatre Raberba Winner, Chang Wufei/Original Female Character(s), Relena Peacecraft & Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell/Original Male Character(s)

Characters: Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell, Trowa Barton, Quatre Raberba Winner, Chang Wufei, Sally Po, Relena Peacecraft, Lucrezia Noin, Zechs Merquise, Hilde Schbeiker

Past Relationship(s), Slice of Life, Post-Break Up, Slow Burn, Developing Relationship, Implied/Referenced Domestic Violence

Long after the wars, long after peace is established the Gundam Pilots discover one immovable fact: Relationships are hard work.

@duointherain​

Beneath: All Those Sounds https://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/622765434690781184/beneath-all-those-sounds-11

Notes: The boys are 35. They are married and they live in Seattle. Heero is a physician and a research scientist. Duo is a stay at home dad and a best selling novelist. They have twins who are spending the holiday with their grandmother Maureen and their godmothers, Rey and Precious. 

It didn’t take much. Neither of them said anything. The fireworks exploded outside their house, somewhere down by the water, far enough away that it was just a soft little press against the windows, against their souls.

Left on Read https://duointherain.tumblr.com/post/622787629087440896/fic-left-on-read-1

Duo Maxwell had decided, several years before, that he didn’t much like Preventers. At the time, he hadn’t know what he did like either. The therapist that Quatre had talked him into seeing had told him this was normal. Trauma would leave a person with little self, especially if the trauma had happened early and consistently. He had said quiet loudly, that day that he had plenty of self, everyone thought so! He was loud and brash and brave and drank too much, and had more lovers than she’d probably had in her whole boring life

@lemontrash​

The Morning Brightens https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622390770875465728/the-morning-brightens

4x5

established relationship, coming out fic, fluff

After a night of not sleeping on it, Wufei discusses something important with Quatre.

@lifeaftermeteor​

Pride https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622300166716833793/pride

1x2

pride parade, slice of life, fluff, asexual duo

Duo has only recently come to terms with his asexuality. It took him a long time to understand it, and even longer to embrace it as inherently part of himself. To celebrate, Heero takes him out onto the streets for New York City’s Pride.

@relenaforpresident​

Just Love: Queerness in Gundam Wing https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622292634598293504/just-love-queerness-in-gundam-wing

No ships but reference to both 1xR and 1x2

non-fiction, personal essay, self-reflection, gender, queerness, fandom

A personal essay on how the Gundam Wing series and fandom community helped me change my personal beliefs on love and gender.

@simulacraryn​

Donguri https://archiveofourown.org/works/24733540

General Audiences

Choose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Heero Yuy, Odin Lowe

A short piece about Odin Lowe and his young protégé. This is an excerpt from a longer (discontinued) 2009 fic I once posted on ff.net ("Kaifuku"), but it can be read as a standalone piece.

Heero’s Inheritance https://archiveofourown.org/works/24658531

General Audiences

Heero Yuy, Odin Lowe

Illustrations, Headcanon

Just a short headcanon about Heero's past. Illustrated work.

TheManwell

A Season for Vengeance (Ch. 10) https://archiveofourown.org/works/22508074/chapters/53785717

Explicit

Trowa Barton/Duo Maxwell, Solo/Heero Yuy

Trowa Barton, Duo Maxwell, Catherine Bloom, Cathy's son (OC), Cathy's husband (OC), Heero Yuy, Zechs Merquise, Quinze (Gundam Wing), Solo (Gundam Wing), Nichol (Gundam Wing), Lucrezia Noin

dude in distress, Trowa for MVP, things that go boom, Backstory things, modern day AU, Sequel, alternating pov, Trowa POV, Duo POV

It's been over a year since Duo and Trowa escaped the pain and betrayal and danger of their pasts, went off the grid and started building a new life together. But when Duo's birthday comes and goes without a single obnoxious message from his older brother, they know something is wrong. It's time to break cover and check in. The only problem is that Duo's brother works for a powerful government agency, so making that call will put Duo and Trowa on their radar...

Fanart/Crafts/Photo Manips:

@antarespromise​

https://antarespromise.tumblr.com/post/622394387634257921

Quatre Raberba Winner, fanart

@bettertasting​

https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622198278449168385/title-proud-artist-cindy-bettertasting

Gboys Pride Banner, @wingqueero​, fanart

@bobo-is-tha-bomb​

https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622296415384764416/title-in-the-name-of-justice-and-love-artist

Pride Leo “In the name of Justice and Love”, @wingqueero​, gunpla

@coffeetailor​

https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622303966073683968/title-special-delivery-artist-coffee

Duo/WuFei, @wingqueero​, fanart

@daddywarbats​

https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622213395485229056/title-just-gals-being-pals-or-not-artist

Hilde/Relena, @wingqueero​, fanart

@deathscythehell​

https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622209566153818112/artist-tami-deathscythehell-description-one

Duo/Quatre (best dads), @wingqueero​, fanart (comic)

@deejayers​

https://deejayers.tumblr.com/post/622482172907077632/and-wing-is-complete-talk-about-a-monster-this

Wing, gunpla

@gundayum​

https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622439861179351040/hi-all-gundayum-here-im-gonna-try-and-not-make

Important Thank You, and some partied out WuFei, @wingqueero​, fanart

@gwfrozentears​

https://gwfrozentears.tumblr.com/post/622495742005772288/por-siempre-mi-pareja-favorita

Heero & Relena

https://gwfrozentears.tumblr.com/post/622493743305621504/he-comenzado-a-dibujar-nuevamente-inspirada-en-el

Heero

https://gwfrozentears.tumblr.com/post/622494840371970048

Heero

https://gwfrozentears.tumblr.com/post/622499630050066432

Heero

https://gwfrozentears.tumblr.com/post/622548456296300544

Heero

https://gwfrozentears.tumblr.com/post/622507185094721536

Heero/Relena

@lokineko​

https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622205797731123200/title-quiet-happiness-artist-lokineko

Trowa/Heero, @wingqueero​, fanart

lotopauanka

https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622288883271467008/title-just-married-artist-lotopauanka-social

Heero/Duo, @wingqueero, fanart

@oekakimemo​

https://oekakimemo.tumblr.com/post/622350648656134144/20200630-traditional-painting

Relena Darlian/Peacecraft, fanart

@page-of-wands11​

https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622379476560609280/title-colourful-kiss-artist-page-of-wands

Heero/Duo, @wingqueero, fanart

@seitou​

https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622394541550534656/title-pride-walk-artist-seitou-seitou-social

Pride Walk, @wingqueero, fanart

@tatakaumono​

https://tatakaumono.tumblr.com/post/621743027371819008/happy-24-day-pride-dont-tag-as

Quatre/Duo, fanart

@theboringbluecrayon​

https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/post/622387009366982656/title-family-pride-wip-artist-blue

Trowa/Quatre & Family, @wingqueero, fanart

Photosets/Gifsets/Screenshots/Manga Pages:

@bobo-is-tha-bomb​

https://bobo-is-tha-bomb.tumblr.com/post/622708372721025024/never-though-they-would-come-in-but-here-they

GW OST CDs, photo

https://bobo-is-tha-bomb.tumblr.com/post/622456639940919296/always-nice-when-the-mail-man-stops-by

gw artbooks, and other merch, photo

@cuteciboulette​

https://cuteciboulette.tumblr.com/post/622269950937186304/another-extract-from-the-cover-of-the

Heero/Duo, doujinshi “Toki no suna” by Sango Show cover

Fandom Discourse:

@2pcb has created a wonderful discord for gw artists who would like monthly prompts to get those creative juices flowing! DM them if you’d like to join!

@hanryuu would like to know whether anyone has translated the Blind Target drama cds. If you have any information on that we would be grateful!

Quotes:

@incorrectgundamwingquotes​

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/622379465062924288/duo-why-do-bigfoot-hunters-try-to-lure-him-with-a

Duo, Trowa, & WuFei

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/622560690151047168/wufei-we-can-talk-about-normality-until-the-cows

WuFei, Heero, Trowa, & Duo

https://incorrectgundamwingquotes.tumblr.com/post/622470062887075840/heero-run-thisdoesntbothermeexe-brain-file

Heero

Calendar Events:

@gwcocktailfriday​

Cocktail Fridays!

Post responses on Friday, during Happy Hour between 3 & 5 pm in your own timezone.

Here’s the prompt for Friday, July 10th! https://gwcocktailfriday.tumblr.com/post/622719166375493632/raspberry-mango-sangria-yield-1-pitcher-prep

In need of FALL/AUTUMN prompts!

@gwoc-october​

GW OC October 2020!

Help pick out prompts!

https://gwoc-october.tumblr.com/post/621130082429337600/hello-gundam-wing-folks-thats-right-gw-oc

@seasons-of-gundamwing

Voting Results: https://seasons-of-gundamwing.tumblr.com/post/622566396369485824/looks-like-well-be-doing-a-hilde-week-thanks-to

Summer of Hilde!

In need of prompts! https://seasons-of-gundamwing.tumblr.com/post/622567839387271168/summer-of-hilde-prompt-call

@wingqueero

Gundam Wing Pride Party 2020

Come check out all the amazing works! https://wingqueero.tumblr.com/

[ifsomeoneasksiwasnothere]

✨Masterlist ✨

Characters I make headcanons of and details about the matchups!

—Normal Headcanons:

Candy Pop (1) (2)

Jason the toymaker

The X (1) (2)

Clockwork

Ben Drowned (1) (2) 

Ticci Toby (1) (2) (3) (4) (5)

Slenderman

Splendorman

Trenderman

Offenderman (1) (2) (3) (4)

The Puppeteer (1) (2) (3) (4) (5)

Dr. Smiley (1) (2) (3) (4)

Bloody Painter (1) (2) (3)

KageKao (1) (2) (3) (4) (5)

Jane Arkensaw

Jane Richardson

Judge Angels

Zachary Gibson (1) (2)

The Roadwalker

Sally Williams (1) (2)

Nina the Killer (1) (2)

Laughing Jack (1) 

Photography

Liu Hodek

—Special Events' Headcanons:

Pride month special!

Valentine's Day special!

Bloody Painter’s Birthday!

Christmas special!

Quarantine kicking everyone’s ass.

—Angst Headcanons:

Emra

Toby finds out that his mother is Slenderman's daughter.

Candy Pop’s relation to his sexuality.

Jason the toymaker relation to his sexuality.

Candy Pop knowing that Jason hates him or finds him annoying.

What does Jason the toymaker or Laughing Jack thinks of Sally since they hate children?

Judge Angels discovering that her father was an Incubus and therefore she’s a cambion (half demon).

Judge Angels meeting her Incubus father.

Ticci Toby’s, Zachary Gibson’s, Jason’s, The rake’s, and Judge Angels’ conflicts when it comes to sex.

Eyeless Jack being able to smell blood and ends up finding out that his beloved is hurt but doesn’t want help.

Toby and Hoodie as dads.

Proxies finding out someone has been stalking/harassing their lover.

Aphasia as one of the symptoms of Slenderman’s sickness and how it affects his proxies.

Laughing Jack mental health and how he deals with loneliness.

Offenderman dealing with someone flirting with him without being under his spell.

Toby reencountering an old friend he had before Slenderman abducted him and finding out they were looking for him since he went missing.

—The ideal person to deal with___:

The X

Jason the toymaker

Candy Pop

The Puppeteer

Clockwork

—Fluff Headcanons:

How would Dr.Smiley react to his lover calling him handsome and that they love him?  

What would Dr. Smiley's reaction to his lover drawing him?

Offenderman with his lover.

(General fluff) Slenderman

Slenderman with an autistic lover.

Slenderman with a partner that likes to play with his tentacles.

Slenderman with an autistic lover.

Offenderman and Laughing Jack with an autistic lover.

Jason the toymaker with his beloved.

Candy Pop with an autistic lover.

Jason the toymaker with an obsessive partner.

Candy Pop with his lover.

Jason the toymaker when he finds someone who also makes toys.

Kagekao teaching Japanese to his partner.

Masky/Tim taking care of his lover with migraines.

Jason the toymaker taking care of his lover with migraines.

The X speaking in Russian to his beloved.

Puppeteer with his partner/Bloody Painter with his partner.

Bloody Painter + Puppeteer + their lover.

What traits does Dr. Smiley look in a partner?

Emra with her lover.

Masky with a partner with Sensory processing disorder.

Hoodie with his lover.

Slender brothers as kids.

Ben drowned with a partner with social anxiety.

(General fluff) Clockwork.

(General fluff) Jane Arkensaw.

Liu Hodek with his lover.

Werewolf Masky with his beloved one.

Jason the toymaker as a (substitute) teacher.

Candy Pop as a teacher.

Jason with a depressed and insecure lover.

Candy Pop’s lover trying to get his mallet.

Judge Angels with a mom partner.

Brian/Hoodie with a sick lover.

Offenderman with a sweet and goofy lover.

Sally and Eyeless Jack having a sibling relationship.

Offenderman being awkward about falling in love instead of lust.

Offenderman with a lover that has intense emotions.

Judge Angels being a cupid during Valentine’s Day!

Jason with a lover that has anger issues.

Alex and Jay during a thunderstorm.

Dr. Smiley general fluff.

Bloody Painter with a male lover.

Bloody Painter with a blind lover.

Liu Hodek x Judge Angels

Offenderman comforting his sad lover.

Candy Pop with a lover that's often really cheery but will snap and become aggressive when mad.

Ben Drowned with a lover who loves seeing him play videogames and helps him with trivia/problems.

Offenderman x Kagekao

Kagekao with a lover who has never watched anime before.

Offenderman with an affection-starved lover.

Masky and Hoodie being Toby’s adoptive parents.

Dimitri (The X) dealing with a sensory overload partner.

Offenderman with a lover who doesn’t drink alcohol.

Puppeteer’s puppet collection.

Offenderman x Kagekao. 

—SFW & NSFW Headcanons:

Jeff Hodek and Ben Drowned with a kinky goth s/o.

Eyeless Jack

Masky

Slenderman x Jeff Hodek

Offenderman x Kagekao

—Lime Headcanons:

Dr. Smiley's reaction to knowing his lover has Daddy and Kitten play kink.

The X and his tentacle kink.

Shiro x The X.

Spicy The X's headcanons.

Which of the slender brothers were the first one to lose their virginity?

Would Slenderman have a mouth?

—NSFW Headcanons:

Ben Drowned

Skully/Jay

Dr. Smiley

Laughing Jack (1) (2)

Clockwork

Jane Arkensaw

Jeff with a submissive lover.

The Rake

Candy Pop with a shy lover.

The Puppeteer

Slenderman

Puppeteer and Slenderman as a couple.

Hoodie x Ticci Toby

Bloody Painter x Tim

Slender brothers’ favorite kinks.

— Answering some specific questions from my Headcanon’s:

Why does Dr. Smiley like Science Fiction?

Why does Dr. Smiley hate teens?

Why does Puppeteer hate teens?

Would Bloody Painter and Clockwork get along because of their passion for art?

Does Slenderman have a mouth?

What do other demons think of Kagekao?

Which powers(’sickness’) each Slenderbro has?

—Creepypasta Fusions headcanons!

Liu Hodek + The Puppeteer

Candy Pop + Jason the toymaker

Clockwork + Photography

Dr. Smiley + Eyeless Jack

Ticci Toby + Ben Drowned

Offenderman + Laughing Jack

Emra Amelia + The Puppeteer

—A to Z - NSFW Headcanons:

The X

Ben Drowned

Eyeless Jack 

Dr. Smiley

Ticci Toby 

Slenderman

Splendorman

Trenderman

Offenderman

Jeff Hodek

Laughing Jack

Bloody Painter

Jason the toymaker

Kagekao

Jane Arkensaw

— Zoomorphic AU:

Jason the toymaker as a half-cat 

Jason half cat sketches

—School AU:

Characters and their position list

— Revolutionary Cyberpunk AU:

Soon ~

—Some stuff I wrote:

Porcelain Walls (Candy Pop/Jason the toymaker One-Shot Fic)

Drunk Talk (Offenderman/Bartender!Reader One-Shot Fic)

—Headcanons with them all:

What emotion do they think is the strongest?

What book genre do like (most) to read?

What would their spirit animal be?

What are their favorite and least favorite food?

According to them, why do they kill?

Which of them are ticklish?

Which of them have dirty thoughts?

Which of them are more affectionate towards their lover?

Which of them flirts more towards their friend or partner?

Would they kill for love?

Which of them are more disgusted with life?

What do they do in their free time?

How much do they sleep?

Their strangest kinks.

They taking care of their sick lover.

Their favorites songs and bands/artists.

How do they ask/sign that they want to have sex with their lover?

What do they find about kids?

What do they find about teenagers?

Which of them would use acrylic nails?

Who are they in a classroom?

What do they think of people who wear a lot of piercings and tattoos?

What can make them cry?

What would they appreciate someone doing for them if they were sick?

Which of them are meme lords?

Which of them snores, heavy breathes or just looks dead when they sleep?

Do they prefer dogs, cats, or both?

Their nationality.

Which of them likes most to cuddle with their lover when going to sleep.

Their Harry Potter houses.

Their favorite season.

Which pastas like to paint their nails.

Which of them prefer foreplay rather than penetration during sex.

Creeps on a plane.

Do they cosplay? Or are they interested in it?

Which of them are most protective of their loved ones.

Creepypasta characters as Greek gods.

—Their reaction to:

Accidentally walking into someone taking a shower.

Their partner using kitty underwear when they are going to get laid.

Their lover having to study hard to a test.

Seeing their lover having a panic attack or being depressed.

Seeing anybody in a panic crisis.

Seeing a girl wearing a bikini.

Their best friend talking to a stranger.

Seeing a kid being bullied.

Kids fighting.

Walking into someone masturbating in the middle of the living room.

Seeing a stranger caressing their lover.

Someone else liking their “crush”.

Their partner’s TPM.

Their lover (who is from a different country) speaking their native language when tired/angry.

Finding their beloved’s dead body.

Finding their beloved’s dead body (but it was a prank.)

Their partner calling them “daddy/mommy” for the first time.

Their lover saying they love them for the first time.

Having a partner who is a Spirit/Ghost.

Their beloved who had their cat that ran away.

Knowing their best friend was hanging out with their best friend’s lover.

Knowing their lover would have to go through delicate surgery.

Their friends asking if they can sleep in their room because they had a nightmare.

Having sex for the first time.

Their lover getting scared during a thunderstorm.

Their partner feeling insecure about themselves from time to time and has alexithymia.  

Someone setting a firework off in the house.

Liu showing up with a teacup-sized kitten saying that he’s gonna keep them.

Proxys finding out someone has been stalking/harassing their lover. 

Their lover feeling cold.

Having a partner that wants to go into the military.

Finding out someone they thought was neutral, or even hated them, was actually looking out for them.

Discovering that Toby and Hoodie do drag secretly.

Seeing their s/o sad, tired, and done with everything.

(In a school) seeing a new student in their classroom.

Their lover being sad, tired, and done with everything.

A lover that smokes (cigarettes).

Waking up with changed sex.

A partner who is learning to speak another language.

[wheredidhiseyebrowsgo]

Do you have any serial killer fics where its not anyone in the pack?

Found you some!  -Emmy

Chasing Darkness by Val_Brown 

(12,910 I Not Rated I Complete)  *sterek, rape/noncon elements, detective!derek, psychic!stiles

There’s a serial killer out there and it’s up to Detective Derek Hale and the Beacon Hills police department – with some help from the FBI – to stop them before one of their own is killed. Their only leads lie in the visions of two psychics, Lydia Martin and Stiles Stilinski.

The Full Moon Killer by thecheekydragon 

(20,014 I Teen I Complete) *sterek, Criminal Minds fusion, fbi!stiles, fbi!derek

The team gets called to Dr. Stiles Stilinski’s hometown of Beacon Hills to investigate a serial killer residents have dubbed ‘The Full Moon Killer’.  A Teen Wolf/Criminal Minds Fusion.

Ssshh! (Or the Voice in My Head Will Have to Shout) by mirrorkill 

(20,288 I Explicit I Complete)  *sterek, deputy!derek, polish!stiles

Things in Beacon Hills are always weird, but Deputy Derek Hale is pretty damn sure he’s getting the brunt of this week’s insanity. There’s a serial killer in town getting their kicks by posing people weirdly and maybe the local coven is to blame. His mom’s setting up his sister with his new boss’s cute son. There’s some guy talking in his head. Oh, and his heat kicks in, four months too early. Also: he’s pretty sure cell phones are the worst thing on the planet.

This is Derek Hale’s terrible, horrible, no good, very bad week. All he wants is to enjoy his new apartment in peace. But you can’t always get what you want. And if he tries real hard, will the voice in his head help him get what he needs?

Easement by TriscuitsandSoup 

(26,353 I General I Complete)  *steter, doctor!peter, patient!stiles, doctor/patient

 It wasn’t where Peter wanted to end up after finishing his medical training; he would have much preferred an emergency room or even a maternity ward, instead of a pain clinic. His most frequent patients were teenagers with hangovers, women too shy to admit they were cramping, and perhaps the strangest of all – pain drain addicts, the people who’d gotten so used to have every minor ache and pain leeched from their bones that they mistook merely being alive as a great discomfort.

Stiles is in pain, he goes to Peters office for relief.

Untamed Potential by creationofclay 

(36, 786 I Mature I Complete)  *sterek, past stackson, professor!derek, student!stiles, college au, fbi au

It’s Stiles second year at UCLA and he still can’t decide what to major in, he prefers to concentrate on his hot new professor Derek, that Derek also gets involved as a consultant for the FBI when the ‘Virgin Killer’ strikes again, doesn’t make his life any easier. Not that he should concentrate on Derek when the ‘Virgin Killer’ shows his obvious fixation on Stiles.

Derek is happy that uni starts again, teaching gives his life a certain structure he missed over the summer, and no he won’t admit that he might have felt lonely. The newest case he is consulting on seems interesting enough until he realizes that one of his most brilliant students is involved, and he has to face the fact that spending time with Stiles is more dangerous than hunting down a killer could ever be.

I’ll Cross this Country on a Frequency by illusemywords 

(53,541 I Mature I Complete)  *sterek, stiles/theo, hacker!stiles, human au

“Stiles, I need you to run a license plate for me.”

“Whatever you need, babe.”

“Don’t call me babe.”

“Stop being such a sourwolf, just tell me the numbers.”

or

The one where there’s a serial killer on the loose, Stiles Stilinski has a stalker and Derek Hale doesn’t know how to express his emotions.

This is Gonna Take Me Down by CharWright5 

(123,386 I Explicit I Complete)  *sterek, deputy!derek, werewolves are known, werewolf discrimination, alive Hale family

Deputy Derek Hale had gone into December believing his biggest issue would be ignoring that giant holiday at the end of it. But with only days left before Christmas, he’s now dealing with a meddling sister, a vigilante group killing Supernatural creatures, finding out his partner isn’t quite human, and his ex showing up outta nowhere after disappearing three years ago without an explanation. Happy freaking holidays indeed.

[maychorian]

Weekly Voltron Fic Recs #52

Happy Thanksgiving! Here are thirty fics. I’m so close to being caught up that I can almost taste it.

This is also marks the 600th post on @maychorianrecs​. Hidey ho! 

And I still have like twenty-seven old fic rec lists I haven’t copied there yet.

Rules: You can find past weekly rec lists here, and non-list recs in my general fic rec tag. Also follow @maychorianrecs for individually tagged posts, the easier to search and reblog. This is stuff I like, and I have a huge bias toward Lance, hurt/comfort, and general fluff, in that order. Gen unless otherwise noted. Please comment on the fics if you read and enjoy them!

Fogged Breath by BluePlanetTrash Words: 2,118 Author’s Summary: Ever since he was little Lance suffered from asthma. He didn’t think that it would be much of a problem in space. Fate had other plans for him, however. My Comments: Great little hurt!Lance fic with an exceptionally protective team. Hits the spot.

oh, the end of infinity by MissSugarPlum Words: 9,896 Author’s Summary: Matt can’t sleep. It’s not like this is a new occurrence. Sleep has been evading him for years now, and he can’t even remember what a proper restful night feels like. He sometimes thinks of when he was still at the Garrison, how he used to think he knew what stress was, how he used to bemoan the pressure from instructors, the rigorous training, the way he could only ever seem to get no more than six hours of sleep a night, and he yearns for the simplicity of back then. Past-Matt didn’t know how good he had it. -x- [Matt adjusts to being in the Castle of Lions.] My Comments: I really enjoyed this exploration of Matt getting used the castle and the team, especially the development of his relationship Lance. It starts out adversarial but gets much less so. Great scenes with Pidge, too. Possibly romantic Klance in the background, but can also be read as gen.

Congratulations by TheWonderTwins Words: 2,433 Author’s Summary: A mission doesn’t quite go to plan and Pidge is taken prisoner. Not everyone takes it as well as Pidge does. My Comments: Ahhh, Pidge. What a badass. This was exciting and fun to read.

Local Color by TheWonderTwins Words: 2,361 Author’s Summary: “Could this be more cliche?” Pidge muttered quietly. Keith smirked briefly. “We could get into a barfight.”“ Please resist the urge to punch people.” Pidge requested. My Comments: I frankly impressed that these two avoided getting into a barfight. Fun little scene with the two of them dealing with some aggression from locals quite well, actually.

What She Sees by HapaxLegomenon Words: 2,263 Author’s Summary: Matt’s safe, now, and Pidge is delighted to have her brother back. But Matt’s different, and she notices. Set during the end of “The Machinations of Perception.” My Comments: Little missing scene from a previously recced fic. Since that fic was entirely in Matt’s POV, it was nice to get a scene from Pidge’s perspective, here. These poor kids. Things are hard, but I’m glad they have each other now.

Easy Target by SunshineAndRainbows Words: 1,832 Author’s Summary: Every move was deliberate, every action filled with intent. He had meant to land his ship, he meant to stand from his cockpit, and so, he meant to walk slowly, deliberately to meet his hopeful allies. He had certainly meant to say something clever and suitably dignified in greeting.He hadn’t meant to collapse the moment his feet hit solid ground. My Comments: How to make me feel sympathetic to Lotor: Whump him good.

Go Go Paladins of Voltron by hufflepirate Words: 2,662 Author’s Summary: Shiro gave up everything, including his spot at the Garrison, to look after his dying mother. Now his mother is gone and he’s alone — until he meets four teenagers with attitude, a set of mysterious keys, and maybe, just maybe a purpose. Written for platonicvldweek 3, for the prompt Alternate Reality/Free, so it’s not QUITE a Power Rangers Fusion AU, but it is the meet cute from Power Rangers (2017), but with Voltron. We’re calling it an alternate reality, not an alternate universe, because they’re gonna end up in space doing their space thing, just… a little differently. (Marked complete because I like the ending ok as it is and don’t have time to write this as a multichapter fic right now.) My Comments: I haven’t seen the new Power Rangers movie, but you don’t need to enjoy this fun, fluffy little getting-together fic.

Bad to Worse by bookwormgir1LH Words: 1,794 Author’s Summary: Lance, Keith, Hunk and Pidge go on a hiking trip. Things start to wrong from the offset, but it soon gets even worse… My Comments: Fun modern AU about an absolutely disastrous attempt at having a good time. Poor kids, but everything turns out okay. Lance’s POV is fun to read, too, even as things go very wrong.

All Hallow’s Eve by this_book_has_been_loved Words: 2,921 Author’s Summary: In which the Paladins discover that Keith’s birthday is only a week before Halloween My Comments: Aw, poor Keith. Everyone’s heart is in the right place, but things are hard, sometimes.

What Could Have Been by Crowoxy Words: 5,222 Author’s Summary: Lotor is only a few decaphoebs (years) younger than Allura and it was just easier for him to leave Daibaazal for Altea. A what-if scenario where if Lotor grew up on Altea, what changed and what stayed the same?Day 7 of the Platonic VLD Week - Free/ Alternate Universe My Comments: I felt bad for Lotor being so obviously neglected by his parents, but it was really nice to see him growing with Allura and Coran and Alfor as his family instead. Cool AU. I would read more of this concept, and I’m not even a huge fan of Lotor. I could see, with the right upbringing, his charisma and intelligence being used for good ends instead of his own ambition.

Snowtron by Eastofthemoon Words: 2,648 Author’s Summary: It had all started with five words. Five words that changed the entire course of the day. Five words Allura never imagined she would hear any paladins say while piloting their lions. “GIANT ROBOT LION SNOWBALL FIGHT!” My Comments: Holy fish balls, this is ADORABLE. I love Allura getting dragged into Earthling shenanigans, and the ending scene with Lotor and crew was icing on the cake. The snowy, snowy cake.

A Gremlin In Glasses Swoops In To Save The Day by Kabber, this_book_has_been_loved Words: 2,752 Author’s Summary: First installment in a Percy Jackson AU for Voltron. In which Lance and Hunk discover that they may not be entirely human My Comments: Really fun action scene for an AU that is just FULL of possibilities. I especially adore Pidge swooping in to save Hunk and Lance. Exciting and intriguing read.

The Opposite of Sorrow by nightwalker for HumanTrampoline Words: 6,165 Author’s Summary: Shiro takes a hit from a druid spell that causes its victims to just quietly give up and die. Fortunately he’s got six good reasons to keep fighting. My Comments: The spell Shiro gets hit with is basically weaponized depression, and it’s pretty terrifying. But the solution is hugs and cuddling and bonding time, and I am all kinds of down for that kind of cure. Extremely sweet and heartwarming fic, and Keith’s POV is wonderful.

let the fog burn let my wick fray by imperiality Words: 4,501 Author’s Summary: Little bonfires are little things Keith and Pidge do. He can’t look away from the flames, Pidge can’t seem to get what he’s after. But then she wants to spice it up on a Halloween night. This purple fog is oppressive. My Comments: Interesting and different way to study Keith and emotionally hurt him at the same time. It’s a good thing his team came after him.

Grateful for the Years to Come by Ms_Marchy Words: 4,001 Author’s Summary: Five years after saying goodbye to her son, Maria McClain gets the greatest gift of being reunited with her son. Everyone knows Lance worries over how much he missed in his family’s lives. No one ever thinks about what Maria was missing about her son’s life. She didn’t even know herself until one day two giant mechanical lions land near her house. The Space War is finally over. Everyone can go home. My Comments: This was heartbreaking and heartwarming in equal measure. It’s sad to see just how much years of war scarred Lance, but it’s also wonderful to see him at home and loved with his family again, and his mother’s perspective is lovely and warm. Ambiguous Klance.

And My Nightmares Will Have Nightmares Every Night by ardett Words: 9,096 Author’s Summary: Restart program? A series of alternate paths in the Dream, Seam series. My Comments: Really cool and unique way of showing a bunch of ways this story could have gone really, really wrong. Or, well, wrong from a certain perspective. I adore this, though it hurts me, like a lot. Warning for major character death, though it doesn’t really stick.

With These Hands by A_Zap Words: 1,486 Author’s Summary: Despite all the trouble they’d been through, Hunk figured everything had turned out all right. After all, he and Lance had managed to return to the castle! Then Hunk sees the bruises and knows that things are not as good as he thought. My Comments: Great missing scene that we were totally robbed of in canon. I love these sweet summer boys and their relationship so much. Surprisingly more hurt!Hunk than hurt!Lance, actually, but I love both flavors.

She’s Looking A Little Green by spitfire00 Words: 3,936 Author’s Summary: Katie Holt was born to pilot the Green Lion, and her father knows it- Even if he doesn’t realize it. My Comments: Great, great Sam POV, and a wonderful Holt reunion in here too. Really cool look at the paladins and their fateful uniqueness.

Bruising Waters by TheStoryVerse Words: 17,743 Author’s Summary: Never tell a Soul. Never Let Yourself Be Seen. His mother’s words had been pounded into Lance’s head from birth; a warning to prepare him and keep his family safe. He’s managed to hide from the Garrison and even in space. But, much to Lance’s chagrin, the universe has other plans. When Lance contracts an alien virus while out on a diplomatic mission that starts attacking his Mer form, Lance figures it’s just a “space cold”. He brushes off the others’ worry and tries to continue as normal. But the pain is getting worse with each passing day, and he hasn’t had a moment’s peace alone to change forms and see what could be causing it. When everything finally hits the fan, the team quickly finds that Lance is in much worse condition than they had assumed. Lance is not only dying, but he’s changing right in front of their eyes.So much Hurt and Whump in the first chapter. So much good Bonding and Comfort in the next two. Let’s do this y'all! (Sorry, Lance) My Comments: This is some PRIMO hurt!Lance, lemme tell ya. A unique form of whump, and holy crow is is brutal. It gets kinda gross too, just to warn you. But the bonding and comfort and in the second two chapters more than makes up for it. Maybe a touch over the top at times, but darned if I didn’t enjoy every moment. Totally satisfying and highly recommended to hurt!Lance afficionados. You know who you are.

Wide Awake by taylor_tut Words: 1,373 Author’s Summary: From an anon request on my tumblr: Lance catches a bug that keeps him awake. When he’s not allowed to train during the day with everyone else, he tries to do it alone at night. It goes about as well as you’d think. My Comments: Aw, poor Lance. Great little sickfic with an unusual premise.

With Hands Tied Backwards by GibbousLunation Words: 6,684 Author’s Summary: Lance had this problem, just sometimes, where his brain got all floaty and his hands started feeling like maybe he’d forgotten to put them on properly in the morning. Like they were backwards and inverted and everything else was upside down too. Lance’s eyes slide out of focus staring at twinkling stars thousands of miles away, he lines his knuckles up in neat little rows, and he thinks too much about too many things. Team Voltron is falling apart in little ways, and building itself up taller ten times over. It started as a joke, “You know what would suck?“ It was easier to pretend they weren’t just kids fighting a war they’d never asked for, probably. "Angry edgy Not-Slav giving you CPR with his beak.” My Comments: Poignant and emotional exploration of Lance dealing with trauma-induced dissociation, and the kind of messed up games kids in war play to distract themselves from the threat of death while still acknowledging that it’s there. Klance that starts out ambiguous and then gets much less ambiguous, but could possibly still be read as gen. The point is survival, not romance.

Immunity by RiRiMania1335 Words: 2,165 Author’s Summary: Keith hardly ever gets sick. But if he does, it hits him like a truck. My Comments: Aw, poor Keith. He gets sick so rarely that he truly and sincerely believes that he’s dying, haha. Fortunately the others are there are to reassure him and take care of him.

Bonds by this_book_has_been_loved Words: 1,470 Author’s Summary: At first, it was subtle enough that none of them realized it. The bond with their Lions—that was obvious. Lance had felt it pretty much as soon as he laid eyes on the Blue Lion, and the rest of them had all had similar experiences. It was the bond with each other that was harder to pick up on. My Comments: I really like how this fic explores the concept of a psychic bond into the current canon, with all of the changes and disruptions and how that affects everyone.

Platonic VLD Week 3 - Oneshot Collection by hufflepirate Words: 10,865 Author’s Summary: WARNING: HEREIN BE S4 SPOILERS Day 1: Sleep/Nightmare - Pidge never wanted to share a room with Matt, but now that they have nightmares sharing’s not so bad. Day 2: Inside/Outside - Set mid-4.1 - Kolivan comforts Keith after the decoy ship blows up. Day 3: Tricks/Treats - Matt plays a trick on Team Voltron (a t-Rick) Day 4: Supernatural/Horror - Keith has an uncanny encounter with some Altean soldiers Day 5: Change/Growth - Hunk helps Allura learn more about piloting her lion [S3] Day 6: Distance/Proximity - Tag to 3.4 - After Allura returns, Coran hovers a little too close (Day 7: Alternate reality/Free is separate and the next fic in my platonicvldweek series.) My Comments: I love everything this author does, and this collection of little fics is like a kaleidoscope of Good Stuff. My favorites are probably day 2 and day 4, but they are all good and worth reading.

Old Soldier and Spy by Crowoxy Words: 1,874 Author’s Summary: Kolivan is the old spy who watches all of these young children grow into this war that’s been happening for ten thousand years. Day 5 of the Platonic VLD Week: Growth My Comments: I love this view of Kolivan as a wise, compassionate mentor for young soldiers, and his perspective on both Keith and Lotor is lovely and kind.

The Fear Of Falling Apart by this_book_has_been_loved Words: 3,211 Author’s Summary: Lance has feelings of inadequacy My Comments: This is so cute, and exactly how I want the relationship between Pidge, Matt, and Lance to develop in canon. I want them all to be wonderful siblings and appreciate each other and have fun playing video games. Pidge has two big brothers and it’s wonderful.

King of Wishful Thinking by BossToaster (ChaoticReactions) Words: 7,126 Author’s Summary: From Tumblr: Send me an AU and I’ll give you 5 Headcanons 1) The Galra attack Earth after the Pals leave in the Blue Lion 2) Pidge conspires to get Shiro a dog, and he ends up opening up a version of the Old Dogs Senior Sanctuary. Oops.  3) Scooby Doo AU (yes really) 4) Shiro’s relationship with his wings (Wing AU) My Comments: Each of these concepts fully deserves a full-fledged, 50k novel-length opus, but these small glimpses into the different worlds provided are immensely worth reading on their own, intriguing and heartwarming and horrifying by turns. My favorite is probably the Old Dogs Sanctuary AU, but they are all good.

Where Light and Dark Meet by squirenonny for Pechat Words: 34,168 Author’s Summary: The Fallen One arises: A captive star yearning for the heavens from which it was stolen… So begins the Prophecy of the Fallen Star, which speaks of the one who will save the kingdom from Haggar’s curse. Lance, Keith, and their friends are summoned to get in touch with Allura, the deposed princess of Altea, who is widely believed to be the Fallen Star from the prophecy. But things aren’t going to be quite so simple. Lance was cursed to become a cat at night; Keith spends his days as a crow. They both have a role to play in the coming battle, and they’re going to have to learn to trust each other–but how can they when they only ever meet in the fleeting moments at twilight when they both are human? My Comments: Klance and implied future Kallurance. I ADORE squirenonny’s fics, especially her fantasy AUs. Such amazing worldbuilding, great descriptions and and plotting and characterization. This one has some really nice hurt!Lance and protective Hunk and Pidge, too, which I always appreciate. I’m very pleased that this is apparently going to be a series, so I’ll get to read more in this world eventually. Just a great, great read, highly addictive, couldn’t stop once I started. I love it when that happens.

Blast Zone by bubblebucky Words: 4,729 Author’s Summary: In the middle of a mission, a bomb going off leaves Lance unable to hear. Still, while he’s deaf, the rest of his team are the ones that won’t listen. My Comments: This hits all of my buttons SO HARD. It gave me that good ache in my chest, you know the one. The other characters may be sliiiightly OOC in order to really hammer the hurt in on Lance, but it didn’t ping my “back away immediately” sense the way woobification usually does. Instead it felt understandable for a high-stress situation and I accepted it. The almost too-severe pain heightened the emotions for me and made the ending all the more satisfying. I REALLY love this. I’ve already read it several times, especially the ending, and it’s definitely in my Favorite Fics folder.

Home and a Half by sarehptar Words: 84,407 (7/?) Author’s Summary: They make a mistake that follows them home. (Or: Keith becomes an unwitting caretaker to three Galra children, who teach him a great deal about how to take care of himself.) My Comments: I am reading fewer WIPs these days because there are so many completed fics I still haven’t gotten to but want to, but this was recced to me so it moved to the top of my priority list, and I’m so glad I gave it a shot. This is far from a fluffy baby acquistion fic, with a lot of moral questions and deep consideration of mature themes, which makes the fic more bittersweet and heartwrenching than cute, though there are plenty of cute moments, too. It’s incredibly well-written and interesting, and the latest chapters have really brought some fun worldbuilding and adventure elements. I was afraid it was abandoned, but the author assures me it is not, and I’m really looking forward to continuing to follow this story to completion.

Previously Recced Fics That Updated:

Shadows of Stars (84674 words) Why it sucks to be a snake in space(52445 words) As Color Fades Away (211491 words) Shifting Sands (38605 words) - now complete

[abeautifulblog]

you are honestly my favorite fanfiction author of all time, and it feels sort of back-handed in a weird inexplicable way to have "fanfiction" preface that... in my very humble opinion, if was to list my favorite (no preface) authors of all time, you'd definitely be in my top three; beaten only by Mitch Albom and Scott F. Fitzgerald for me, and youre steadfast one of the main authors I re/read for inspiration when i write... who are the authors that inspire you most??

O wow! That is – some high praise indeed, I am deeply honored. :) It’s gratifying to hear that this fic is resonating with you, because it is the most personal piece of fiction I’ve ever written. (Honestly, I’d be happy not to write anything this personal ever again.)

As for the authors who have influenced me (strap in)…

One of the most influential writers when I was a teenager was Anne Rice and her vampire series, though I think it was less about the vampire thing and more about the raging homoeroticism (I joke that Anne Rice made me gay) and the intense, almost claustrophobic emotional intensity of those books. I’ve actually written about her influence on my writing here. (I don’t update that blog anymore, I don’t even know how to approve/respond to comments anymore, but it’s got a pretty extensive archive for people who like hearing me talk about media.)

It’s interesting because just recently (like, last week) I reread a few of her earlier books – Queen of the Damned, The Vampire Lestat, and I’m about halfway through Tale of the Body Thief – and was reminded that yes, she was in fact really good before she went off the rails. (After Tale of the Body Thief, the rest of the series is nigh-unreadable.) She writes lonely people really well – the struggle of endlessly trying to achieve intimacy and failing. When I’m on my game and writing powerful emotional content, I feel like my style owes a lot to the way she does descriptions, which is… kind of hard to describe, but it’s like… emotive language in unexpected combinations? Pairing descriptions of the landscape with adjectives that tie in to the character’s emotional state, or abstract nouns with adjectives that describe a physical sensation. I don’t know, I don’t have any specific examples I can give, but I’ll catch myself writing sometimes and go “ooh that’s good” followed by “haha, you’re pulling an Anne Rice.”

Besides Anne Rice, most of what I read is sci-fi/fantasy; I tend to have very little use for realistic/literary fiction. (Which is why it’s kind of funny that I’m 70k and counting into a suburban love story.) I like SFF, and I like it gay, and for many years it was my quest to find and read every book in the intersection of that particular Venn diagram – the fruits of my quest are here, The Gay Fiction Booklist That Doesn’t Suck. Anything with a throbbing “top pick” icon next to it is, well, exactly that, but I’m not sure whether I’d call them an influence, because I was already in my twenties by the time I read them, so my literary style was kind of settled by then.

(Although when I need to read something to ~get me in the mood~ for writing, Karin Lowachee, Jacqueline Carey, and Sarah Monette are excellent choices for top-notch prose and top-notch emotional engagement.)

Someone who’s not on that list is a relatively obscure manga writer named Miyamoto Kano, who I really wish I could rec to a wider audience, but her work is mostly inaccessible if you don’t read Japanese. Her stories have been a very strong influence on the way I write romance, namely that in the real world, sex doesn’t actually resolve anything (except sexual tension, I guess), and it is not where you should be investing your narrative tension. I’m much more a fan of letting characters jump into bed with each other before they’ve finished working out their shit, and not making the resolution of the drama hinge on them having sex.

(…Which, again, funny – because we’re 70k into A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood and they still haven’t shagged, which means I’m writing exactly what I say I don’t write.)

I’m also a huge fan of Miyamoto’s brand of off-beat realism, that you’ll get these moments of comic absurdity popping up even at the most dire moments because that’s what life is. The universe has no respect for your personal crisis, and you get weird/funny/distracting shit popping up when you’re just trying to have a good cry, or a good solid screaming match. To reiterate my favorite George Bernard Shaw quote: “Life doesn’t cease to be funny when people die, any more than it ceases to be serious when people laugh.” Miyamoto gets that, so beautifully.

And I’m probably forgetting something, but those are the strongest fiction influences I can think of. I read a lot of nonfiction too in order to understand people better on both an individual and a societal level – my top picks would be Influence (Cialdini), Whipping Girl (Serrano), Made to Stick (Heath), On Killing (Grossman), Stigma (Goffman), Collapse (Diamond). (With a much longer list of specialty books for specific subjects.)

For learning how to write emotional involvement, I am a serious nerd for narratology and I recommend Dorrit Cohn’s Transparent Minds. It’s not a book on how to write, it’s one that documents the different methods for conveying a character’s consciousness to a reader. I read it for my thesis, but it wound up being an epiphany, because it explained exactly why some books achieve so much more emotional engagement than others.

And lastly, because it would be ungenerous not to give a shout-out to the very excellent fanfics that are no doubt feeding into my own writing in some way, here’s a sampling of some lesser-known favorites:

Ain’t No Grave (Can Keep My Body Down) - Steve/Bucky, with a very different take on Bucky than what you usually see. I guess maybe this one isn’t so unknown anymore, but I FOUND IT BEFORE IT WAS POPULAR.

Odi et Amo - Eagle of the Ninth, aka, that movie set in Roman Britain where Channing Tatum and Jamie Bell were being hella gay at each other. This fic is a Dead Poets Society fusion, beautifully atmospheric, makes you wish you knew more about poetry.

Love Is All You Need To Destroy Your Enemies - Dresden Files/Welcome to Night Vale crossover. So good that I don’t even begrudge it having dethroned my own Dresden fic from being top-in-fandom.

World Ain’t Ready - Les Miz high school AU. You don’t need to know anything about Les Miz to enjoy this; I didn’t! :D

In His Image - Supernatural, Dean/Castiel. There are a number of fics that are reworkings of season 5, but this one is brilliant. Like when you’re all of a page into the first chapter of a fic and you can feel a smile starting to spread across your face because, oh, oh, this writer is GONNA BE GOOD.

If You Liked The Book, You’ll Hate The Movie - X-Men: First Class, another high school AU because why not. I have a weakness for weird, dysfunctional people being weird and dysfunctional.

…And that does not even scratch the surface of the fics I’ve read and enjoyed, but yeah.

I should stop now. Thank you for reading this far.

[im-still-writing-out-of-time]

The Fallen

This was @runaway-surgeons winner’s choice fic. (They chose to get a sneak peak into my WIPs and choose one for me to finish). This is part two of The Guardian, which will be put under ‘The Angel’.

You should probably read The Guardian first, but this could possibly be read as a stand alone. Without further ado, The Fallen.

Masterlist

For thirteen years, Eliza had watched over her family- her son, her husband. She had been allowed entrance to heaven, only to say she wanted to be able to watch over her family. She had been there every time Philip had woken up with nightmarish memories, every time he had peed in the bed. She had watched Alexander get up and wash the sheets, bathe Philip, completely take over her maternal role.

She had kept them safe. Of course, Philip got in fights as he grew older- those weren't her business to stop. He was strong willed, just like his father. He was sixteen now. He grew up into a handsome young man, brown curls that danced over his shoulders, green eyes that twinkled when he flirted with girls- another thing Eliza would stay away from. She needn't interfere with his love life in death any more than she would have in life.

While Philip was charming his female classmates, Eliza would watch over Alexander. Alexander, who was always so tired. Alexander, who worked constantly. Alexander, who had not taken another woman in his bed, not even once in those past thirteen years. She wanted to tell him it was alright, that she would understand, but he seemed more happy single. It gave him more time to work. Work himself into the ground, Eliza mused.

He had aged beautifully. His dark hair had started to gray around the temples, but rather than looking old, he looked elegant. He kept his long hair as she had always loved it. He was in his mid-forties- he was aging too fast. Had her death done that, or was that just how he was destined to age? Often times he would sit at his desk and write, but on occasion, he would stare at his picture of her on his desk, and talk to her. She was always listening.

She listened to the stories that he told, though she knew them anyway. She had watched them in real time. She loved to sit with him and listen to his storytelling. He always had a way with words. It's part of the reason she fell in love with him in the first place.

Philip had fallen in love with both written word and music, a beautiful fusion between both her and Alexander. She watched as he stepped in his car and drove away from the school. He was always a careful driver, a side effect of the accident that had killed her. He had been diagnosed with PTSD as a young child and, even now, he sometimes suffered from panic attacks that would make him pull over until he calmed down.

He checked all of his mirrors, the lights on his dashboard, made sure the music was on low, and swiveled his head to look for anyone surrounding his car, almost obsessively. He pulled his seat belt across his chest and pulled on it, tightening it until it wouldn't move. He pressed play on his phone and turned on his radio, breathing along with the meditation loop playing. He had to focus on his breathing while he was driving. He was terrified of dying in a car accident just like his mother.

Eliza always say with him in the car while he was driving. He would talk to her as if he knew she was sitting there. He would talk about his day, his dreams, his worries and life aspirations. He always talked about making her proud. And he did.

Philip pulled out of the school parking lot carefully onto the road. Eliza was amazed at how comfortable he looked behind the wheel. This was the first time she had ever seen him like this. He kept his speed at the speed limit as he headed home. As he got closer, the traffic cleared considerably, and he was even more comfortable. He pulled over and changed his meditation loop on his phone to music- music that he sang along with.

He was just as good at music as she had hoped he would be. It was her passion, and she was glad Alexander had signed him up for lessons when he was little. They had paid off. His voice was gorgeous, clear, and he knew how to control it. He was the most comfortable Eliza had ever seen him, and the results were beautiful. His eyes sparkled as he sang, a slight smile on his face, and his thumbs tapped the beat out against the steering wheel as he drove. He had grown into a beautiful young man, and Eliza could see it now more than ever.

Eliza knew something bad was going to happen before she could see it. She could feel the impending doom before anything was actually happening.

Philip was driving to Albany by himself, an unplanned trip to spend some time with his grandparents. He was especially close to his grandma, who would let him help her bake. He was leaving the city just as the sun was starting to disappear behind buildings. He opened his window, shutting off the air conditioning, and allowed the wind to push his messy curls back.

He smiled as he hummed, the radio picking up a station he didn't normally listen to, but the songs were good. Eliza was with him, of course, as she always was. She sat uncomfortably in her seat- could guardian angels feel discomfort? They must, because she felt a hollow churning in her stomach.

He was driving down the road, humming along to the radio. Eliza saw it before he did. The truck was careening towards the car swerving back and forth across the road. Eliza knew that face.

That was the face of the man that killed her.

Eliza left the car faster than she had ever moved before and tried to stop the truck from moving. Unsuccessfully. She gathered as much power as she could and grabbed the man’s steering wheel and yanked it as hard as she could to the side.

She felt the truck jerk sideways just in time for Philip to look up and fully comprehend what was going on. His eyes grew wide, his hazel pupils surrounded by white. His hands grabbed the wheel and turned it to the side, but not fast enough.

The drunkard’s truck hit the back of Pip’s car and sent him into a tail spin. Eliza moved to her son’s car once more as the stranger’s truck smashed into a guardrail, followed by a lamppost. His truck caught on fire, a blazing inferno, as Philip continued to spin down the road, his eyes clenched tight, hands gripping the wheel so tight, his knuckles turned white.  

“Mommy!” He sobbed. “Mommy save me!”

Eliza saw the scared teenager morph into that scared little boy right before her eyes. The crying from the back seat that haunted her as she slowly stopped breathing. Those same scared screams of “mommy” that filled the air as she died, now filled the air in her baby’s own car.

She hoped that man died a painful death. He had hurt her baby too many times to get away with it. She should be bitter that his actions were what killed her, what cut her life short, but she was more than livid that this man was able to walk and terrorize her little boy once more.

The small car stopped spinning, the driver side colliding with a lamppost, and Philip's shuddering breaths filled the car as the side airbags deployed. His chest was heaving and his eyes were bloodshot, blood dripping from his forehead, tears trailing down his cheeks as he sobbed. His hands shook as he reached for his phone in the center console.

“9-1-1, what's you're emergency?”

“Um, my name is Philip Hamilton. I was just-” His breaths started coming faster and faster until he was hyperventilating. “Car. Accident.”

“Philip, I need you to breathe for me, okay? Breathe with me. In, and out.”

His sobs grew louder as he inhaled with the operator. “I want my mommy,” he whispered between sobs.

“I know Philip. You're gonna be okay. I have a police officer and an EMT heading to where your cell phone is pinging, but can you give me a description of where you are?”

“Um,” he breathed shakily, turning his rear view mirror. “The other car hit a guardrail, and then a lamppost. It's on fire now.” A small pause. “Can I call my daddy?”

“Philip, I'm gonna need you to stay on the phone until you can see emergency personnel, okay? Can you do that?”

“Okay,” he said. He was silent as he waited, save for the soft sobs and shuddering breaths. “I see their lights. I hear the sirens.”

“Okay Philip. If you're sure it's them, you can call your father.”

“Thank you,” he sobbed, hanging up. His hands were still shaking as he pressed dial.

Alexander answered on the first ring, for once. “Hey, Pip. What's going on?”

“Daddy!” He cried. “I was in an accident. I- I want mommy.”

“Pip, are you okay?”

“I-I-”

“Philip,” Alexander crooned. “Please calm down. Please breathe. Okay?”

“I think I'm okay,” he whispered. “The EMT is walking to the car. I'll call you when I can. I love you, Daddy.”

“I love you too, Pip.”

The first responder moved to the passenger side window and knocked on it. Philip’s hand fumbled with the button before finally rolling it all the way down. “What’s your name?”

“Philip Hamilton.”

The man, decked in firefighting gear, smiled softly at him, a determined look on his face. “We're going to get you out as soon as we can, okay Philip?” Philip nodded his head before leaning back against his headrest, his eyes drooping. “Philip, bud, I'm gonna need you to stay awake for me okay? What hurts?”

“My leg is killing me- I think it's broken. Um,” he whimpered. “My head hurts, and my chest feels really tight. It's really hard to breathe.”

“Okay, Philip. I'm gonna get you out of there. Can you move?”

“Maybe?” He said, reaching for his seat belt. The seat belt zipped away from his body and he shifted his weight in his seat, crying out in pain as he shifted his leg. “I think my leg is broken,” he sobbed, pulling himself over the center console. He collapsed in the passenger seat after grabbing his phone, too weak and exhausted from the adrenaline crash, and the firefighter pulled him from the car, cradling him in his arms.

“We're gonna get you to the hospital, Philip. Is there someone we can call to meet you there?”

“My dad,” he said, handing the firefighter the phone. The firefighter stripped his gear and tossed it to the floor before grabbing the phone from Philip's shaking hands. The paramedics in the ambulance worked on him while the firefighter’s soothing voice droned on in his ear.

“Okay, Philip. You're dad’s gonna meet us at the hospital.”

“Did the other man die?” The man’s head nodded solemnly. “Good,” Philip spat. “I hope he rots in hell.”

“Philip-”

“He was drunk, wasn't he?”

“Yeah.”

Philip set his head back down on the stretcher and closed his eyes. “I saw his face. I know him. He's the same man who killed my mom thirteen years ago. He was a drunk driver back then too and he almost killed both of us. My mom took the brunt of the impact. I was only three at the time.” He grabbed the firefighter’s hand for comfort. “I watched my mommy die,” he whimpered. “And I thought I was gonna die too.”

“Sounds like your mom was watching out for you, Philip.”

“I know she was,” he said, smiling at the thought. “I could feel her there.”

The rest of the ride was quiet, the paramedics trying to set his leg back in place, the only sound coming from the dispatcher radio in the cab. Philip was right, Eliza had been watching out for him, but at what cost? She sat by his head in the ambulance, stroking his hair; those long flowing curls she had refused to cut, even when he was a baby.

She was tired, so very, very exhausted. She hadn't felt this drained of energy since she had been alive. For thirteen years, she had kept her energy levels high, but now, she felt ready to drop. She felt the need to go back to heaven, to sleep, or rest, or what ever angels do when they feel this tired.

She kissed Philip on the forehead as they pulled him from the ambulance and she wandered, wondering how to get where she needed to go. Before she knew it, she was no longer wandering around the streets of New York, but instead in a room of stark white- a soft, comforting white.

“What am I doing here?” She asked the man who appeared in front of her. “Why am I suddenly so tired?”

“Elizabeth, as you were told when you first died, no human has ever become an angel after death- you were our first. You were allowed to stay on earth as an angel to keep watch over your family- your young Philip and dearest Alexander. However, you were given rules that you must not interfere with human matters. Explain to me why you interfered today.”

Eliza stepped forward, the angel in front of her standing his ground. She was only a newborn angel; he had been guiding souls for millennia, she couldn't scare him. “That was my baby down there. I couldn't just let him die!” She said between clenched teeth.

“But you were ordered not to interfere with matters, Elizabeth! And yet, today you caused the death of a man, a sinner who could have been saved upon death.”

“A sinner who deserved nothing more than the hottest pit in hell,” she spat, causing the angel to gasp.

“Elizabeth you must not speak like that. All sinners are saved by Christ, should they so want to be saved!”

“That man killed me. And he was about to kill my son. Do what you want with me, but I refuse to sit idly by and watch the ones I love be ruined by a man who didn't deserve to live in the first place.”

“Elizabeth, it causes my being great pain, but you are no longer allowed to be an angel. You will be cast away from those of us who understand and follow the rules of the angels. You will be stripped of your wings, and you will return to earth. From there, you are out of my hands and you must decide whether you wish to become a fallen angel who spends eternity in Hell alongside Satan himself, or a mortal soul who walks alongside Jesus. I hope, dear Elizabeth, that this time you make the right decision.”

She stood and stared at the being in front of her. He was glowing, his bright wings fixed on either side of his spine. He was much taller than herself and his face was a mixture between being stern and solemn. How it must hurt his being to cast his own angel away from guiding souls. She smiled at him as her wings dissolved away from her body. “I'll make the right choice for me.”

Eliza had always loved watching over her family under the guise of being an angel. It had been calming, peaceful. She had watched Philip grow up, and yet, she didn't realize how much growing he still needed to do until he had cried out for her. Even now, laying in a hospital bed, Alexander by his side, he looked more like a child than a sixteen year old boy.

She took post at his bedside, her hand resting on Alexander's shoulder, the other hand dancing its fingers through Philip's curls one more time. “I love you so much baby boy,” she whispered. Alexander looked calm, for once, as he held Philip’s hand. They were talking, something that didn't happen often enough, and Philip looked joyfully animated.

They were talking about literature; like father, like son.

Eliza smiled, knowing they'd be okay without her watching over them 24/7. She would miss all the time she spent watching Philip grow, and watching Alexander work, or just sit at his desk and talk to her. She stepped away from Philip and moved to Alexander, her hand resting against his cheek. By the look in his eyes, she was sure he could feel her. “I love you Alexander. Please don't work yourself into your grave. You need to stay alive; for me, for Philip. You're brilliant, and a wonderful father. I know how much you doubt yourself, and I'm telling you not to. You're such a good father Alexander. I wish I could have been by your side in life, rather than watching from death.”

Her lips pressed against his, and his eyes fluttered shut, imagining her there in front of him. They opened just as gently as they had closed, and he stared at Philip. He was the perfect mixture of himself and Eliza. It broke his heart that Eliza hadn't seen her little boy grow up. But she had.

“Philip, my sweet Philip,” she started, moving to grab his free hand. “I'm so proud of who you've become. You're such a beautiful young man. Find a girl that's good for you, that you know I'd be proud of. Listen to your father, but get him to slow down his working. Make him spend time with you. Make sure you both know how much I love you. I'm gonna make sure I check in on you, and you'd better be the same sweet boy I know and love.” She pressed her forehead to Philip’s and he suddenly stopped talking. “Stay safe, baby.”

And she was gone.

“Dad?”

“What Pip?”

“Did you feel that too?”  

Alexander smiled. “I always told you your mama was watching, Pip.”

“Yeah,” Philip said, tears in his eyes. “I guess she was.”

[seladorie]

here’s a teaser for a FFXV/Stardew Valley fusion fic I’ve been working on because... literally no one can stop me. Also I genuinely think there’s aspects of both worlds that go together very well, like the fact that you can have a farm that has monsters at night, the fact that there’s a war going on in SDV against their country and an empire (which has a name but thta’s the positive side to writing fanfic i can rewrite things to make them work for what I want to do), and also just things like. the monster ‘Zu’ and ‘Zuzu City’. I love these things.

anyway here’s my lil teaser for this. 

Cid.

The girl shows up at Hammerhead a few times before Cid notices her. She’s quiet and despite the bright colors she’s wearing, easily slips on through the corner of his eyes.

It ain’t unusual for a hunter to be a bit off. Most of them are, in some way or another. Dave’s the most miserable son of a bitch Cid has ever met, and he’s spent a lot of time with Reggie as a teenager.

But Cindy likes her. His girl likes her, but doesn’t know her name. When Cid asked Cindy for her name the first time, his girl said, “Sure, her name is—” and stopped. Then she said, “Well, damn, I’ve just been calling her Hunter, but I don’t know what she’s actually called.”

Takka says that she never eats anything at the diner, just shows up for bounties and to claim them when she’s finished. Always works alone, and though she never eats anything at the diner, she orders food for other people. A lot of people in Hammerhead like her. Hell, even Takka likes her, because she gifts him with quality ingredients. Cid saw some of the peppers she brought him, they were huge.

Everyone likes her, but no one knows her name or where she’s from.

And she freaks Cid the hell out.

…

The nearby roadblock explodes, and Cid watches the fire on the horizon with the rest of the town. He thinks he’s probably the only one not surprised when the hunter shows up, smelling of smoke and ash.

Her eyes are disconcertingly bright, but Cid sits with her while Cindy fixes up her motorcycle. Wordlessly, he offers her a cigarette.

She hesitates, which is odd—most hunters smoke the damn things. Most hunters don’t think they’re gonna live long enough for the smoke to hurt them. But then she takes the cig, lets him light her up, and they sit companionably for a minute.

“So everyone here calls you Hunter, huh?”

She breathes out some smoke. “It’s as good a name as any.”

“So you do got a real name?”

She shrugs. “Hunter’s fine. Everyone’s calling me that.”

Well, fine. Hunters are a weird bunch. Maybe she don’t want to remember her life before she got into the hunting business. People don’t hunt for fun, after all. “How’d you manage blowing up the base?”

“With bombs.”

Smart ass. Cid grins. She’s less unsettling when she’s talking, and at least that was a direct answer. “Must have been a lot of bombs. Where’d you get them?”

“I made them.”

“Just you, on your own? You know there’s an HQ for hunters, right? They send people out in pairs, at least, for safety. And if you want to blow up niffs so badly, Insomnia’s always accepting people. Hell, at this point, they’d probably advance you in the ranks for dealing a blow like that.”

She breathes in a drag, the end of it lighting up in the fading daylight. When she speaks next, smoke curls out of her mouth and nose. “Military life doesn’t appeal to me.”

Well, Cid would be a straight up hypocrite if he tries to convince her otherwise on that point. “Well, here. Take my number and if you bite off more than you can chew with the Niffs, I know some people.”

She takes his card, and Cid relaxes. Hunter might be weird, but she’s just another hunter who doesn’t quite understand self-preservation. He can handle that.

…

Hunter vanishes for a couple of weeks, but returns with a pack of Altissian cigarettes that Cid hasn’t tasted since he was travelling with Reggie. They taste of nostalgia, warmth, and bitterness, and he thanks the girl with a clap to the shoulder.

Cid realizes later that he forgot to ask how she even got them in the first place. They haven’t been made since before Cindy was born.