#feeling much better and calmer !!!

[ao3screenshotss]

sometimes commenting feels like watching the outro of an anime i need to do it to get my feelings in order and let them all out and process everything that happened before i feel emotionally stable enough to bookmark it

[cxpperhead]

Belated munday post but the little one is settling in nicely! He's taken to watching me when he thinks I'm not looking at him, horrible camera quality as the angle is wonky but the tank looks better/is more sizable than it appears from the side!

Unfortunately I forgot that flash was enabled and he slipped back into his cool hide after. Sorry for startling you, sweetheart. 😔

[frecklystars]

I might actually open my inbox for the first time in [undetermined specific amount of months] there’s over 500 unread asks in there ;-; I’m rly touched so many people have been reaching out to me even when I haven’t been here

[linguenuvolose]

I love him and he loves me and we love each other and it’s all so beautiful!!

[birdmenmanga]

no but like the euro brady therapist playthrough is literally insane you can see this white guy literally unlearning his own biases towards asians and people of color in real time and honestly it's kinda like... more than ever, the inability to admit you were wrong instead of doubling down, and really to listen to what people have to say feels like a skill issue

like what I'm personally most impressed by is that I heard his initial take on Kim's heritage, and he was saying things like "ohhh look at you don't you feel bothered by the fact you're so distanced from your own culture" and things like that, but then afterwards in the "I was wrong about kim kitsuragi" video he actually went and articulated what kim was actually trying to say, and what other commenters had been explaining as well-- that is, his frustration that people of revachol constantly try to fit him inside their own preconceptions of Seolites and how they never truly see him as one of their own. Like I think if doubling down is the worst reaction, one level better would be to apologize, but this guy really went and internalized WHY he was wrong, to the point that he could verbalize how people actually thought about the situation before explicitly apologizing for it. and you can tell it was immensely difficult for him to do that and that he's a bit nervous throughout the video but he really did do that self-reflection and I think that's more than what a lot of people can say about themselves

[cripplecryptid]

I no longer feel like/fear I might kill myself on accident in a couple months bc i might have a weak moment. I don't know when this ended, but it apparently did. I don't constantly tell myself I just need to survive this week, this day, it'll all be fine as long as I survive today. I guess at the end it was true, because I feel fine now

[meownotgood]

spiritually wrapping you in soft blankets and dropping a bowl of soup in your hands. your blog is one i go to when im stressed and i want you to experience some relief too, hopefully soon. hang in there, wishing you the best <33

🥹 I appreciate you... I'm very glad my blog can be a kind space for you, it makes me feel very glad to hear......... 🫂💞

[3-carnivore-goats]

since i began to talk i couldnt make friends for the life of me. i was told i was too intense. okay then, it takes me years and it literally killed my will to live, but i dial it down.

still can't make connections. "you look uniterested, open up some more".

it's okay, it took me my entire developing years to craft that personality, but it's okay, i can learn to be more of an extrovert, if it's worth it.

it doesnt get better. huh. "well of course, have you ever considered you look desperate?"

oh fuck you im so tired of trying. nothing works im just not built for this. im so fucking tired. really. no human connection is worth this bullshit. im so worn out by mirroring other people's behavior i dont even know who i am god im so tired

[thesandisfalling]

my official take on the moon/qibli/winter love triangle is that winterwatcher is a much grander, epic romance, and moonbli is a much more level, sweet-and-simple romance, but ultimately i think it was a better decision to have the latter be the canon romance in a series primarily marketed towards children and teens than fall into the "bad boy" romance trope, and instead romanticize the earnest, genuine, sweet relationship

obviously there's way more nuance to this involving internalized/unconscious bias, and winter doesn't even REALLY fit into the "bad boy" archetype, but purely based on genre conventions, the gruff, rude, brooding, tortured hero VERY often falls into that category, and at the ages of 7-14 most of us were very LIKELY to be romanticizing that archetype, which again is very often treated as interchangeable with the "abusive bad boy" trope, and while i might have a few gripes with the writing of moonbli and i ENJOY winterwatcher a whole lot, i DO appreciate the more gentle, "safe" romance being treated as the ideal, rather than the tense and angst-filled nature of the alternative

[knxfesck]

I'm gonna be real rn and say that if you're autistic and identify heavily with your "strong sense of justice" but refuse to acknowledge that the sense of justice in question is based on your probably limited worldview, you do not have a good sense of justice. Your understanding of justice is not innately in tune with the world. This comment was made on a (neurodivergent!!) black woman's post about how racists who hate juneteenth can die.

[acarrcreations]

I will say, one thing I miss having Twitter for is it was a lot easier to make connections with people and make friends compared to here.

[mirmidones]

a friend of mine has never attended a funeral, not even for family, she says she thinks it would be too much to bear and her mom always told her she didn't have to go if she didn't want to. my uncle also does this he didn't take his children to our grandma's funeral nor to our uncle's, "because it's too heavy". of course there isn't a "right" way to deal with death and i shouldn't judge but i do judge. idk. i think of how humans have been having funerary rituals for 300 000 years... before we were homo sapiens we were burying our dead... how can it be something to avoid?

[southernvampire]

uterus has been yeeterused

[malikson]

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[heartshattering]

Four good nights in a row, much to my surprise. I've been doing my best to hang in there. Hopefully I'm able to keep this streak up and keep doing alright

[rexscanonwife]

The horrors persist, but then so does the love 🫶