#feeling mentally unwell rn

[poppin-fandoms]

ok but I am such a “Heroes by David Bowie is gonna play in season 5 when Will and Mike kiss” truther

I’m also a “Smalltown Boy in gonna be played at some point in season 5 in regard to Mike Queerler” truther. Or maybe he’ll get vecnad or something?

Like maybe we all think Will is gonna get vecnad but it’s actually Mike…or maybe both idk BUT THEYRE NOT GONNA DIE OK

Anyways, songs in Stranger Things have always been super significant and I look forward to hearing more

But Heroes just feels like a Byler song, like they’re gonna kiss during the lyrics that played in season one after Mike hugged his mom

[guessilllive]

wangxian w.i.p based on that one tiktok trend :P

[autisticlancemcclain]

i know it’s a stupid thing to whine about and i’m sorry but the low engagement in my fics lately is super bumming me out, plus the wildfires means there’s no sunlight rn and that uh. is generally bad. for my brain. so i’m going to take a break for a bit?? for at least tonight. i need to sort my shit out and do some writing practice to figure out what i’m doing wrong. FRF is definitely still on and queued for tomorrow, and i haven’t decided about wip wednesday yet (not even sure if i’m continuing that bc so far that’s been a flop) so i’ll let y’all know :) be safe and stay healthy everyone i’ll be back soon

[daz4i]

nikolai's entire existence as a character is hitting all my weak spots and meeting all my standards i swear. he even has white hair guys. do you understand what he's doing to me. i don't think you can. even i can't comprehend some of the emotions he makes me feel. help

[mossflower]

okay not dropping out 👍

[doxiedreg]

Update on my mental health

It's a lil better I think as I am able to enjoy things at times but I also am more anxious, more easily over stimulated, more easily frustrated at both situations and myself, I don't think I like myself in general at the moment? and I just feel unsafe/like I am on high alert. Like I am not in danger but it feels like I am because my anxiety just is dialed up a lot so any noise from the hallway or other apartments makes me feel threatened and it fucking sucks

Taking care of myself is also still very hard

Its 5 pm and I still haven't eaten lunch because idk what to eat and honestly don't really feel like eating even though my body clearly desires and needs it

I just feel like I want to crawl back into bed and hide under the covers, my senses just are so high strung, it makes me freeze up

It really sucks..hopefully tomorrow the people who work here can help me (they aren't here in the weekend)

I was hoping to return to making and posting art soon but now I don't know..

So stand by I guess..

Don't worry though I won't harm myself in any way (except not eating but that's more because my appetite is just gone rn and not because I'm consciously trying to harm myself), I just seem to be going through it still..

So yeah that's my update..

[tierra-paldeana]

// my stomach issues have been a weird cycle of waking up, immediately feel like my stomach is gonna explode, throwing up, feeling sleepy and tired, and then feeling mostly normal after 3-4 pm??? i just. i don't understand wtf this is anymore. and i never throw up food, it's all bubbly saliva or something. and it gives me a kind of anxiety that makes me feel super hopeless and stuff but right after it's over i feel normal??? i just don't get it. i had spent a few days not going through it but it's come back full force for no reason

[megkuna]

feeling the kind of neurotic that only comes from being cooped up inside during winter this long. should i make it worse by reading bataille

[piplupod]

hate waking up scared for no apparent reason. girl what do u mean im scared of going to my old lady yarn group !!!!!

[scumfuckus]

christmastime means switching my weed for alcohol which means uncontrollable moodswings and my family growing to resent me 💀

[kkujo]

and everything has consistently sucked since we got back from that trip.. not a week after that i got covid and was really sick the beginning of august was truly the last time i felt properly happy. word

[im-smart-i-swear]

Does Jiro has ghost like abilities (possession, ability to levitate things, etc etc) or does she just live in Shiro's head?

when i created this au, i thought the best option would be for her to be unable to interact with the physical world in any way(including possesion), beacuse i really wanted to lean into her isolation and how it affects her....... and while thats something i still want to emphasise here, lately ive been toying with the idea of jiro being able to impact the physical world somehow(though it still being fairly limited). i think letting her have some control could have a lot of potential! buuuut i also have no idea what abilities i want her to have lol

For now i think im not gonna give her any telekinetic abilities, bc i feel like it would be giving her too much power......... if she could throw shit, shed go APESHIT with it. it would made things too easy for her. i'm sorry babygirl but i'm NOT giving you the possibilty to throw knives and other sharp objects, i dont trust you to not kill someone:/

i really like the idea of her being able to temporarily posses her old body in certain circumstances tho- maybe when shiros uncouncious?? or like when hes is very tired or heavily injured she can kind of 'squeeze through' and take control back for a few minutes???? idk. i think this could be a very cool ability to give her- it cant be frequently used but can also be very helpful, and also theres so much potential for ✨shenanigans✨here>:) oh god i could put these fuckers in so many Situations with this..........

uhhh. so basically i think all of her influence on the physical world are through shiro. shes here bc of her connection to her old body, and thus its the only way for her to interact with anyone besides him- and shes NOT HAPPY about this(neither is shiro).

[otlwoozi]

maybe ill draw valentines art! hopefully

[thatiwouldbe]

rewatching a glee ep for the gleesource event and santana is SO cute... loml always

[berryberrytaeberry]

I used to draw

[silenceoflink]

Ever just want to wail like your dearest has been killed in front of you? Like you just learned your brother won't make it back from the war? Like you found out you're the last person in your friend group to still be alive? Do you ever want to do that?