#feeling completely blindsided rn.

[glamourscat]

Hi! Idk if you’re writing rn but if ever possible, can I get an angst request for Rin? One where he still might have feelings for Shiemi and decides to break it up with his current s/o? And s/o decides to leave now that they proposed a better position within the Order but not in the Japanese Branch? Ultimately leaving Rin, along with a promise ring or piece of jewelry he gave them back when they were together? If not, you can happily skip this request and I hope to see more of your works!

EPHEMERAL | RIN OKUMURA X READER

angst | 1640 words | thank you for this request, man I love writing angsty works 😈 I hope this was what you were looking for! | sorry for any grammar errors I wrote this just now at 2am lmao

You knew that look. Too well, as a matter of fact. It was the same look he once (or so you thought) had given you.

Rin’s blue eyes were always warm. Always welcoming. Always… homey. Yet, when his eyes followed Shiemi’s figure, the way her hair moved in the wind, the way she spoke animatedly about something she loved, or the way she subconsciously reached for him when in danger, you knew.

It wasn’t just curiosity, no. It was never just curiosity with Rin. You two had been friends for years now, since high school. Barely 18, after the long-lasting battle against Satan (which had dragged on far too long), you had officially been working as exorcists for a year now. The same amount of time you and Rin had been dating.

At first, it almost seemed like a joke. Rin? Rin Okumura, who from day one had made it very clear he had a fat crush on Shiemi, asked you out? It had to be a joke.

And yet, you went on that date. And another after that. And another one. Until kisses became familiar. Until sleeping in the same bed wasn’t awkward anymore. Until having him all over you was something you both wanted, if not needed. And yet, something still bugged you.

You pride yourself on being able to read people. On knowing what they would say and how they would act even before they did it. And perhaps, you had always been aware of what Rin was thinking. You just didn’t want to believe that after a whole year of being together, three years of friendship, he could throw it all away so easily because he wasn’t truly in love with you. Because he had never stopped being in love with Shiemi.

So when he came to you that afternoon, it shouldn’t have blindsided you. But it still did.

“I think we should break up,” he said, with such casualness. As if he were announcing he was going out for a walk. As if he hadn’t held you the whole night before.

“Rin… what—?” You couldn’t even form words. What could you even say? What was there to say?

“Just— it doesn’t feel right. I’m sorry, I— just, I still wanna be friends, okay? I’ll see you around,” he said, with those damned eyes that, even now, as he completely tore your heart out, were looking at you with nothing but softness. With nothing but care. If not a bit of pity.

And with that, he left.

Leaving you alone in the middle of your dorm room, staring off into space, incredulous at what had just happened. You couldn’t quite understand how someone who had said, “I love you. You’re the light of my life,” just one day earlier could now leave you so easily. And worst of all, be sucking off Shiemi’s face mere hours after breaking things off with you.

You weren’t sure what hurt more. His betrayal or her’s. Or maybe, the way the others didn’t even bat an eye. As if they had been waiting for this. As if they had almost expected it to happen.

“I mean, what did you expect? That guy’s an idiot, and he’s been crushing on Shiemi for years now,” Izumo had said nonchalantly, keeping her eyes on her manga without even acknowledging your presence.

“That’s Okumura for ya,” Bon had simply said as he excused himself, going back to help Lightning.

Shima had just laughed and Miwa had given you a sorrowful look, but at the end of the day, it seemed they all believed the same thing and you were the odd one out.

And so as days passed and you naturally started to distance yourself from them, you noticed how they… almost didn’t care. Maybe they truly didn’t. They walked in a group, all so fitting. The perfect number. Bon and Izumo. Miwa putting up with Shima. And Rin with Shiemi. You didn’t fit in the equation and that was painfully obvious.

So that same night, three weeks after everything went down, when Angel approached you with an offer for a better position in one of the foreign exorcist branches, you didn’t have to think twice about your answer.

Despite the subtle melancholy settling in your chest, your hands began packing your essentials. A ring you thought you had lost tumbled out of your jacket’s inner pocket. The same ring Rin had given you after your first date as an official couple. A “promise.” Or so he had said. A promise of his eternal love. His care. His heart. The thin silver band felt cold in your palm. Light and meaningless, just like Rin’s words from that day.

By the time you finished packing, it was late at night. Late enough to hear the cicadas buzzing outside your window, accompanied by the warm breeze of the summer night. One last look, one last thought, and you left the room without looking back. Your shoes echoed in the empty, silent corridor. Almost ironic, in a way. While everyone was outside celebrating the Gion Matsuri, you were here. Alone. Empty. Just like these hallways.

You reached what you had been looking for, Rin’s dorm. You stepped inside quietly, not lingering for too long. One gentle pet to the sleeping cat on his bed and then you left the ring alongside a letter on his desk. It should have felt liberating. But instead, it felt like nothing.

That feeling of emptiness, maybe even discomfort, you get when you finish the last chapter of a very bad book. That’s how it felt. And so, you turned back as your feet carried you out once more, without looking back.

When Rin woke up that morning his head throbbed to the point he almost saw double. He felt like shit. He smelled like shit. But most of all he felt suffocated. Like there was a presence so heavy in the room that almost knocked the breathing out of his lungs. He quietly and carefully separated his limbs from the sleeping blonde at his side, leaving a soft kiss to her forehead before placing a loosely wrapped robe around his naked body. 

On his way to the bathroom something sparkly on his desk caught his attention. He didn’t recognise the ring immediately, but he did recognise the handwriting on the letter. And so, he picked up both the letter and the ring, heading to the bathroom, closing the door behind him carefully. 

Dear Rin,

I don’t know how to start this, and I don’t think I ever will. What do you even say to someone who once promised you forever, only to take it back like it meant nothing? What do you say to someone who looked at you with love one day and at someone else the next?

I think I always knew. The way you looked at her, the way you spoke about her, the way your heart was never fully in it when you were with me. I told myself I was imagining things. That I was insecure. That I was just being paranoid. But the truth is, I was just ignoring what was right in front of me. I refuse to do that anymore.

I won’t pretend I didn’t love you, I did. With everything I had. And maybe that’s why this hurts so much. Because I wasn’t just losing a boyfriend, I was losing the person I thought was my home. But homes don’t make you feel like an afterthought. They don’t make you feel like second best.

So I’m leaving. Not just you, not just this place, but everything that ever tied me to you. By the time you read this I’ll already be gone. Italy. The right hand to the Paladin, if you can believe it. I’m not angry. I’m not even sad anymore. I just feel… empty. Like I wasted so much love on someone who never really wanted it. But that’s okay. I’ll find someone who does.

And you will have her. The one you always wanted. I hope it was worth it.

Goodbye Rin.

P.S. – You can keep the ring. It was never really mine to begin with, was it?

Rin read the letter again. Then again. A second, a third, a fourth time. The words blurred together as he tried to blink the tears away.

He hadn’t expected this. But, what had he expected? 

His fingers tightened around the letter, knuckles white. The ring sat in his other hand and for a moment he just stared at it.

Something inside him twisted painfully. His first instinct was to move, to do something, anything. His feet moved before he could truly think. Urging him outside the bathroom and towards the front door of his room. His hand was already reaching for the handle as if he could stop this. As if he could still find you. But the second his fingers brushed against the cold metal he froze.

You were already gone. You made that clear enough in your words. His grip on the doorknob loosened, his shoulders slumping. His breath felt tight in his chest, but he didn’t know why.

This was what he had wanted, wasn’t it?

Shiemi was still sleeping peacefully in his bed, curled up where he had left her, her golden hair spilling across the sheets like something out of a dream. He had made his choice.

And yet…

He looked back down at the letter, at the neat, steady handwriting, the way it didn’t waver, not even once. The words weren’t angry. They weren’t desperate. They weren’t even sad.

They were final.

Rin swallowed hard. For the first time, he wondered if he had made a mistake.

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[rosiesdisneydrama]

I'll be honest, I don't know anything about borrowers or borrower aus, but your borrower Stan au is excellent. I especially love the version where Fiddleford is the one to find Stan. When does Fidds figure out Stan is Ford's twin? Is it instant, or does it slowly get revealed?

I'm personally a big fan of dramatic irony and (funny) miscommunication, so I'm just imagining Fidds not realizing they're related (and Stan avoiding mentioning any family, especially not his twin) so when Ford shows up, absolutely ecstatic at being able to study this new anomaly, everyone is caught completely off guard.

Thank you! I’m kinda glad so many people like the idea behind this little lark! (Even if I don’t plan on writing it out myself. I’m already juggling 2 other gf aus rn.) It’s nice to know that I’m not the only one who thinks they would be fun to read/mess around with.

Fidds definitely suspects that something is connecting Stan and Ford at the start just because the resemblance is too strong to be just from chance. I mean, they’re twins and the odds of some random stranger on the streets looking just like your roommate from college are pretty low in the first place. So he’s pretty sure the two are related in some way.

I’m also of the opinion that Fidds does know that Ford has two brothers and not just one.

Like, Ford and Stan spent the entirety of their childhoods and almost all of their teenage years together. I feel like there’s no way he could have completely omitted Stan’s existence from his roommate while cramming as many credits as possible into his college schedule. He may not have told Fidds that they were twins, but I don’t think he can have fully pretended that Stan never existed in the first place.

He may have been vague about the things from their childhood/teenage years but he didn’t try to wipe Stan from his own history.

Fidds might suspect that Stan is Ford’s missing brother but he would also believe they could be cousins instead. Until he gets some form of confirmation about it.

The most he’d probably be able to pry out of Stan before Ford shows up is that he was homeless/a drifter and that he (probably) didn’t think his family would have cared much about him maybe being missing. (Which makes Fidd’s heart go out to the poor guy because ouch man. That’s gotta sting…) Except for his Ma. She might file the missing person's report if Pa didn’t try to stop her.

And Stan wouldn’t suspect that the “Stanford” that Fidds was talking about might be his brother because, after all, the name isn’t that unusual. There are probably plenty of guys named Stanford out there. Just like there are plenty of guys named Stanley!

It’s not until his dorky brother practically breaks down the door in his excitement that he realizes he should have asked more questions about the anomaly guy.

And Ford is just blindsided.

[ikkesola]

I’m having a lot of thoughts right now about the new episode and none of them are positive.

Firstly, I’ve made it known on my page that I’m a multi-shipper. I like both buddie and bucktommy but given the way this breakup was written I’m not feeling hopeful. It feels like a very bitter ending that made absolutely no sense whatsoever. It was always an option that they’d break up and I knew that going into it because unfortunately this is just how it goes but that breakup felt like the biggest disservice, like a slap in the face because it just came off as completely biphobic (the post ep interviews just made this 10 times worse) and ooc. It’s also the fact that Lou Ferrigno Jr had to put up with all that nonsense for no fucking reason. I as a tevan shipper am devastated but I also feel for Lou because he seemed to really love the role and was completely blindsided by this fucking crap. I could talk for days about how fucking shit Oliver’s interview was but I don’t feel like it so I’ll just say from the bottom of my heart absolutely fuck that biphobic rhetoric.

Secondly, as a buddie shipper, that end scene doesn’t feel like the win that it feels like for other buddie shippers for multiple reasons. 1. Neither are ready for any kind of relationship and idk if that scene will end with them sleeping together but let’s just say it does, that would also feel like a massive slap in the face because they would’ve had the chance to make such a beautiful storyline between Buck and Eddie but this one would be so cheap and flat. 2. Oliver’s interview where he says ‘let Buck fuck’. If they do in fact ‘let Buck fuck’ once it would be a slap in the face for shippers because honestly what would’ve been the fucking point?

Thirdly and finally before I stop ranting, the reactions to this have just shown me even further that people don’t care as long as Buck and Eddie are together. They don’t care that it would be fucking crap way for buddie to be canon. I guess as long as there’s two hot men kissing on the tv screen nobody gives a fuck about authenticity or representation :/

So many thoughts and feelings rn but I will say that as a multi-shipper I feel no fucking hope about any of my favourite ships right now lmao.

[ktarotttt]

can you please read seunghan energy and how he feeling about everything going on rn ??? im just so worried about him and his career bc sm till now didn’t announce anything about his solo

all allegedly, not based on facts, for entertainment purposes only.

✦ why was seunghan really removed from RIIZE? was it just the dating scandal or was there more to it?

pulled: six of wands reversed, eight of pentacles reversed, six of pentacles, the empress, seven of swords reversed, ten of wands, ten of pentacles reversed + judgment reversed

overall energy: the emperor

okay so. this reading makes it very clear that the decision to kick him out wasn’t emotional—it was a business move from someone high up (the emperor). like this wasn’t the group voting him out, it was a top-down decision. and from their point of view, it was about image, investment, and control.

the six of wands reversed shows a fall from grace. he was probably one of the most praised members pre-debut or right after debut (aka the it-boy), but whatever happened—dating scandal or more—shook that image completely. the eight of pentacles reversed next to it shows them feeling like their investment in him wasn’t going to pay off anymore. they were grooming him for something long-term, and now they feel like it was a waste. the seven of swords reversed is really key here because it shows truths coming out, deception being revealed, or the mask slipping. whether or not he actually did something wrong, they felt blindsided or like he wasn’t honest about something.

the empress might represent the girl in the photos or even some other feminine figure involved that we don’t know about—somebody whose presence mattered in this decision. not saying “she’s to blame,” just saying her energy played a role. and with the ten of wands, it feels like SM just decided this was too messy to carry. too much risk. too much baggage.

judgment reversed is the public backlash, the harsh criticism, the bad headlines—especially from Korean fans. like from their perspective, the world (judgment) was no longer rooting for him. and the ten of pentacles reversed? straight up says: “we don’t see this working long-term anymore.” it’s like, “we thought you were going to be our golden ticket, but now… maybe not.”

so no, it probably wasn’t just the dating. there’s something else they felt he was hiding—or that they just found out too late. that energy of “i can defend you when i know what’s going on, but when i’m finding out with the public… i can’t help you” is all over this spread.

✦ how is seunghan feeling emotionally right now, after everything?

pulled: two of pentacles, six of cups reversed, king of pentacles, the fool, nine of pentacles, page of wands

overall energy: queen of wands

right now, he’s mentally juggling two timelines: the one that already passed, and the one he’s trying to walk into. like, on one hand, the six of cups reversed says he’s still stuck in the past. stuck in that moment, still processing the pain, the regret, the confusion. and with the two of pentacles, it’s like he’s trying to balance that with everything else—his debut plans, public expectations, healing, all of it.

but at the same time… he’s inspired. that’s the wild part. the fool and page of wands show that despite everything, he’s actually excited. like, he knows he has what it takes. he hasn’t given up on his dream. he’s hurt, but he’s not hopeless. the nine of pentacles shows he feels very capable on his own—this man knows he’s talented, and deep down, he probably always knew he could do this without a group.

and the queen of wands overall energy? that aura is still there. he still has it. he’s walking into this next chapter like, “i know what i bring to the table.” even if part of him is looking over his shoulder at what could’ve been.

✦ does he miss being in the group, or is he honestly at peace with how it turned out?

pulled: strength + three of swords, emperor reversed, ten of wands reversed, the hanged man, six of wands, empress reversed, two of wands reversed

overall energy: the morning (custom card)

yes, he misses them. a lot. the three of swords shows that even if he doesn’t let it show, it hurt him deeply not being able to continue with the group. there’s a real sense of heartbreak and betrayal here, but paired with strength, it shows he’s the kind of person who suffers quietly. he handles things with grace, but that doesn’t mean he’s not bleeding inside.

emperor reversed and ten of wands reversed show someone who feels like they lost control and is now trying to just let go. like, he’s trying not to carry the weight of what happened anymore, but he hasn’t fully processed it yet. the hanged man is about pausing, reflecting, maybe seeing things from a new perspective. he’s not bitter, but he’s definitely still mourning.

six of wands says the spotlight is still important to him—he’s not giving up on being seen, on being loved. but with empress reversed and two of wands reversed, there’s a little energy of disconnection. like… “i don’t know if i even want what i used to want anymore.” his direction feels blurry, even if he’s still moving.

and then that custom card—the mourning—ties it all together. it’s about accepting loss. rising with the day, knowing that even if you’re not over it, you’re going to keep going. that’s exactly what he’s doing. still hurting, still healing, but moving anyway.

[goldensunset]

Hey Peach, I just got PLA!! I can't play for a couple days cause I didn't bring my switch home, so would you like to talk about your playthrough and your character in my stead?

HI ok first of HAPPY BIRTHDAY and i hope you have a GREAT day and i hope you have a GREAT time with this game. ik you've started already now. i won't spoil everything but knowing that you already know the major story beats i don't mind elaborating on them

oh man... pla... my experience was so unique because as you may know, it was my first ever pokemon game. it's basically a prequel to an existing older pokemon game so i had a wild ride being blindsided by literally everything that any veteran could have told you since the aughts. but then on the other hand that game? diamond/pearl/platinum? that was what we had as kids in our house. i had like barely any memories of the other few games we ever had before then but i had at least a few concrete memories especially of watching my sister play platinum. i was never convinced to want to play it myself back then (i almost considered getting pearl bc my brother had diamond but i never got around to it) unless you count begging my sister to let me do the underground digging minigame but otherwise i enjoyed watching her occasionally. so like. when i did play platinum myself in 2023 it was simultaneously a new game, a 'sequel' to pla, and a blast all the way back to my childhood. so i have SUCH weird and painful and good feelings toward sinnoh that i feel like no one else in this world understands. but that's not completely relevant rn. the reason i say this is only bc i am trying to explain how i didn't know anything about pokemon lore when first playing pla but also like when stuff happened i was like huh that seems vaguely familiar maybe? yeah

if you're ever curious about my first time playthrough i do still have my liveblog intact at #peach plays legends arceus (chronological desktop-only version here). i've been told it's very entertaining esp bc literally the ONLY thing i knew was that volo was in some form a twist villain but like i did not even know basic pokemon lore. i have fun backreading it myself sometimes. but go finish your own first of course! don't let me completely spoil the little details of your experience even though i am going to spoil the giant ones

for details about my character specifically... i haven't fully fleshed them out but like. as i said my first player i imagined as just really lost. i didn't customize her too much bc i like canon akari's design. she never got her own name but all i knew is i just imagined her as a very sweet person who got hurt so hard but has to quietly accept the weight of the world bc she has no choice but to work hard. but she loves her friends she's excited to explore hisui and do all this stuff

my second character is an oc named fortune. i never fully like made a proper lore post about this one but in contrast to the first i imagined her as 1. not being the same as the dppt protagonist and 2. having her full memories of her past in sinnoh (despite the fact that at that point i still hadn't played dppt yet lol). like i think i imagined her a bit older and more jaded. i chose the snappier dialogue options for her, i rebelled a bit more against the game in vain, etc. fortune especially feels grateful for volo bc she has a harder time bonding with the rest of hisui. when she gets kicked out of jubilife village she's seething but too exhausted and sorrowful to even let out all her rage. i imagined her as like not even wanting to cooperate with the village or the team after that point even after they welcome her back, like. she only goes back to get what she needs. she never really forgives anyone. she's much more willing to do wacky dangerous stuff with volo and even tries to cooperate with the likes of the miss fortune sisters (name pun acknowledged but not intended). but when he backstabs her? oh it's UGLY. absolute mess. when she meets arceus after all this? she's NOT happy. she's just alone for nothing

ANYWAY! so i'm going to focus on the player character in this massive ol' ramble and their unstable relationships with everyone else. bc that is truly the core theme of this game, i feel. that in your present situation, no matter what you do, even when you make friends, you are always in some sense going to be alone. and it's about trying to cope with it. bc yes i think this game is major league angsty

in terms of a unique experience as far as seeing through the eyes of the player character... the biggest question that canon doesn't really answer is: does the protag have amnesia? do they know where they're from? bc sometimes they seem clueless and sometimes they seem to know at least a few things about the modern pokemon world. and furthermore: is this protag the older version of the dppt protag or an entirely separate person?

different fans have interpreted these questions differently, and your own unique answer to it will influence the way you think and feel about the whole situation. my answer, initially, was 'this is a separate person with zero memories' because of my experience as a player. that is to say i had nothing to go off of as far as what the dppt player would have experienced or known bc i didn't know anything about dppt. now later on i believe in the theory that they're the same person, or at least that's the narrative concept i enjoy playing with in fanwork, whether it's canon or not

basically no matter what you do with it it's angsty. if you have no memories of who you are then you're absolutely terrified. you've got nothing at all. you're really glad to have a home in hisui but then it hurts even worse when people look down on you because you have no hope of anything else. how i felt during all this during my first playthrough was so so curious and excited but so so lost bc straight up i didn't know a thing. if you have some memories then you feel weird the whole time like you're grasping at straws. why do these people i know i've never met look so familiar...? have i visited these places before...? why am i getting such deja vu. if you have full memories then you are achingly homesick. no matter how much you bond with everyone the fact remains that you were ripped from your own life to save the world and/or entertain arceus. and you have noooo clue if you will ever be able to return home and nobody else around you even seems concerned about that they're just like welp! either work with us or go die i guess

and if you factor in the idea of being the dppt protagonist sent back in time then it's like. ok you worked so hard to stop team galactic even though you were literally ten years old and then you got to be the champion and live your dreams yayyy yippee!! just kidding. the prize for winning the pie eating contest is more pie. the prize for saving the world and proving to the gods of sinnoh how strong you are is the chance to save the world all over again. congrats on being arceus' chosen. someone has to be strong enough to stop volo, right? who better than the trainer who could best cyrus and giratina and cynthia. was it written into your fate from the start that you'd be sent back like this or did volo also change fate/the course of history at some point requiring arceus to yoink you like this

people distrust you from the start- you fell out of the sky!!! that's ominous!!! kamado in particular keeps reminding you of your outsider status and how it will be difficult for you to gain trust, even once you're fairly far into the story and have done SO much for everyone. laventon is nice to you from the start and he is a genuinely nice man but even then it's kinda like. it's because you're useful, because you're powerful, that he takes such a shining to you right away. again i think he really is well meaning but doesn't it hurt to know that you have to consistently work to earn your keep and prove yourself over and over again?

and that's what makes volo hit so, so hard for me. he is nice to you from the beginning. like i said he's far from the only person to care about you but it's the way he's actively excited by whatever is up with you. it's not just a 'oh that's wacky that you fell out of the sky but hey you're super strong if you help us we'll help you!' it's like 'whoooahhh cool let's figure that out!' it helps that he's not affiliated with the galaxy team or either clan i think. he's curious about you bc he can tell there's something special about you and he's not afraid of you in the slightest. isn't that reassuring? this guy is probably your best bet as far as getting answers to the mystery that is yourself. of course he comes off really weird and on way too strong lol but like. idk everyone has their weird quirks. he clearly wants whatever these plate things are but it really does not feel like he's using you bc neither of you know who you are or what you're truly here for yet it's just a happy coincidence you happen to keep finding what he's looking for

and building on that it is so so debatable what point in time he decided to turn on you was. he wanted what he wanted from the start but we don't know how you factored into that bc he was not counting on your presence at all. so it isn't clear whether his curious joy at your presence was genuine and then slowly started to go sour once he realized you were sent there to stop him, or if he was faking it all along. and like. maybe he was planning on resetting the world eventually the entire time but even then. lots of fans including myself enjoy the idea that he did genuinely enjoy your company but has such a hard time admitting to his own genuine emotions bc he has the worst self destructive tendencies of all time and threw away what could've been great. i've said this before but honestly i think he could have earnestly convinced the player to go along with more of his shenanigans if he had openly said it, based on a certain scene. he did NOT even need to turn on you like that. at some point it was like rage and pride and jealousy and a refusal to admit that maybe the world isn't so bad and maybe i'm playing with forces beyond my control but i'm in too deep now

anyway all that is to say. from the player's point of view. volo was there for them when no one else was and volo is the first character to namedrop arceus other than arceus itself and volo likes solving mysteries so of course you wanna stick with him! of course you wanna solve your problems and not just everyone else's! finally you can understand what you're really here for! he's really helpful and supportive and in such a terrifying unsupportive world it's so nice to have a real friend. so that betrayal is uh. not good. like being told he was scheming something all along and you were a tool in that is one thing. but specifically his crashout is so spectacular

one particular line sticks with me like nothing else: 'you outsider! were you spat out of the space-time rift just to get in my way?' that has to hit like a TRUCK. you've gone the whole game getting looked at weirdly for being a stranger to a variety of incredibly territorial people who would prefer to preserve their own old ways. you've been called 'outsider' enough times. you've been questioned on why and how you came to hisui. but like i said earlier volo has been so supportive of you the entire time in a way almost nobody else has ever been. only for him to then turn on you and hurl that same insult at you. he thought you were an outsider from the start. he's a member of the ancient celestica tribe, the people who truly belong here even more than the galaxy team, even more than the diamond or pearl clans, and far more than you. and you have the blessing of arceus and he doesn't for some reason. so he reveals what he really thought of you all this time and reminds you that you'll always be an unworthy stranger here. Man. even worse he also goes with the very likely assumption that you were summoned here specifically to deal with him. like arceus did acknowledge him but only indirectly and you're the collateral damage

back to stuff about the player specifically. another thing i absolutely love playing with in fan works is the idea of dehumanization- both the 'good' side and the bad side

you get hailed for being way, way, way stronger than anyone else in hisui. and the possible in-universe reasons for this are great. it could be it's bc you're a chosen one that you're great at catching and battling pokemon and you're so knowledgable- you have arceus' blessing. or more likely you could've been chosen because of that- again, factoring in the idea that you were the dppt protag, you've proven yourself already. or! it could simply be because you come from a time period where kids as young as preschool are allowed to catch and train pokemon. it's just culturally normal in modern day sinnoh. so you aren't actually particularly strong or anything, but relative to everyone else a few hundred years in the past, in a time period where people are terrified to even approach the tiniest of baby pokemon? you sure seem strong and confident. when you think about it irl how many people have a good throwing arm naturally? how many people are athletic enough to do even the simplest of evasive maneuvers when attacked by a wild cat? it's easy for you because you're playing a video game because you've been practicing this stuff since you could read bc that's just what people do for fun in your world

so all that is to say you're constantly earning the love and admiration of npcs. woowwww yay you're so smart and cool yippee! getting put on a pedestal even though you are just some kid who shouldn't be here. and despite your heroism it's really hard to shake off the feeling that you're still getting looked at weirdly, esp from people like kamado. what normal human could go toe-to-toe in the arena against a noble pokemon hopped up on God Power? well we're glad you're on our side at least, you freak of nature (positive?). keep doing tasks for us

at some point your strength stops making you more trustworthy and starts making you less trustworthy. you outright get accused of being a monster- it's your fault what happened to the sky, it's your fault the world is ending, surely it must be because why else would you have arrived the same night that everything started happening? and what human could possibly have done all this? it must be a huge scheme to earn their trust by causing problems and then solving them to pretend to be a hero! you're far above everyone else in terms of power and that can be interpreted for better or for worse. people around you that you've helped multiple times are now doubting you again and not even protesting when you get kicked out. it feels so superstitious. like your existence is a bad luck omen

later on you save the day and i don't remember exactly where or when- it might've happened twice- but there's a line that goes something like 'maybe this [player] is also a sort of divine being sent to help us!' like ohhhhh ok that is. actually not what you want to hear you just want to be a human but it's too late. you're Arceus' Chosen One. that godly aura surrounds you now. you will always be stronger than everyone else for better or for worse and even if they believe you when you say you're not there to hurt them, you'll always, always be Weird. mystical divine outsider. you're like 15. this tied in with the things volo says about you really hurts!

BUT! in spite of all this you know what i also truly feel about the game? that it loves you. there are games i love and then there are games i think love me. even though i said a huge part of it is feeling like you're alone i think the way you don't fit in with the other humans is balanced out by how well you fit in among pokemon, from the tiniest creatures to the gods themselves. and just in general when i'm out in the wild (even when i'm under attack) it feels like i belong there. it's so much easier to earn the respect of pokemon in this game than that of humans. there's a scene after you've been exiled where a shinx- normally a hostile species- comes up to you when you're all alone like it's trying to comfort you. just.

man idk. the feeling i get is that you'll always have a home out there in the wild, somewhat ironically considering how everyone else is afraid of the wild and the constant threat looming over your head is that you'll be kicked out to your death. but you prove your capability. but like it's so sad. finding more welcome out in the forest, at the edge of the sea, in the depths of snowy mountains in the middle of the night, than in a settlement of humans. i straight up love people who play with these ideas like. the wild loves you. the demigods and gods love you. like i also love the scene with mesprit where it asks you to share your emotions like. ouh. and arceus of course, however you feel about it, loves you too. that will never change. it messes me up

in conclusion this is not organized as well as it could be but i am insane. yay yippee!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[overly-verbose]

UPDATE: NO LONGER 'SHADOWBANNED' WOO YES

(Apparently the blog was wrongly flagged for spam, but Staff fixed it so woo yea)

My (new, everything until now doesn't seem to) stuff will actually appear in the carefully curated tags, and reblogs, and stuff just woo yeah I'm no longer invisible

(Also I can answer comments normally instead of in the tags woo yeah again!!)

Also I just realised I have no link from here to my fic's Main Series proper lol

Full title: "SIkuna's guide to not fucking up perfectly good children (look at them, they could get anxiety!)"

Ao3 whole series summary:

(alternative title: "SIkuna's guide to catching a cyclops cat by the throat in the KFC parking lot at 3am")

'Holy shit someone needs to hug those kids. Some adults too, to be honest', once thinks a fan of Jujutsu Kaisen, the definitely and absolutely only fictional franchise

Then, he abruptly finds himself at the beginning of the story as Sukuna, mister Basically The Devil, of all things

Completely blindsided by the weird cards given, he tries his best to prevent some things from affecting the characters-turned-people he already cared about even before they turned real

To better or worse results.

.

(It's an ongoing (there's still a LOT to go through lol) fix-it fic for the Canon Series so I feel like I'm contributing a little bit to the prevention of Lobotomy Kaisen getting even worse rn lmao)

I'm gonna leave the old Pinned Post for archival purposes/context of what's up with the tag-answers though

[Old pinned post under the cut]

I made up a way to answer comments here

(though it's annoyingly limited and inefficient and doesn't give notifications)

whilst I can't do it normally

(hey Tumblr staff I've been waiting on that email back for like three months now! :D)

- IN THE TAGS!

yeah it's kinda oof but modern (hellsite shadowban for no reason) problems require modern (hellsite shadowban for no reason) solutions!

*perishes*

[lgbtqmanga]

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[lazulisocinfodump]

what would dis sonny have to do to REALLY get under FC's skin in a similar fashion to how she gets under his?

Infodump incoming. Sorry Voy, you know the risks of asking me anything about my OC's XD

Anyways, to answer your question? Hmmmm. Apart from even insinuating he'd so much as contact Aria? Or, ignoring her and refusing to play ball?

It’s kinda difficult to say because at this point FC does not respect diss!Sonny’s opinions, so there is little he could say to her that would actually bother her. Plus shes very confident in herself as a person, compared to Sonny’s more fragile ego (which is something she finds kinda pathetic about him and its one of the reasons she picks on him). The only things she respects about him is his intelligence and potential, and she’s truthfully really frustrated and annoyed by how (in her eyes) he has squandered both.

I think honestly the only thing that would really genuinely tick her off to the point where she starts actually threatening him is if he managed to succeed in killing someone. She currently does not believe he is capable of doing so (oh she knows he wants to, he just can’t rn). That and if he so much as hints he knows about Aria's existence.

I do remember that alt!FC (Goblin) got pretty mad when Shrimp zip-bombed their PC. But that was less about the pc being wreaked and more being blindsided in a way that wounded her pride (along with knowing Sec was in danger). But the thing is, with Dis-Sonny… if he did something like that (as long as Sec was not involved) I think she'd be weirdly delighted? Mad sure, but in a strange way she'd feel giddily validated that she got him to show her what he can actually do. She wants to fight him.

Really, thats the thing. Sonny is already under her skin. He already makes her really mad. She just shows it differently than Sonny does. In fact, Imma link to what I think was Arlee at her angriest, which was when she was in abandonware: https://www.tumblr.com/indigitalembrace/753038057961406464/heeeeeeeyyyyyyyyy-shrimpy-3-what-the-heck-is?source=share

The highly playful yet personal disrespectful tone of her trolling and insults towards Sonny is her manifestation of anger and annoyance. Like, if she wasn’t mad, she would have stopped poking the bear by now and moved on to investigating other mysterious of the various dissonance characters/ chat members out of curiosity. Maybe returned every now and then for lols or info scouting but thats it.

Sonny makes FC mad because she can see what he could have been. Man could have saved the world but he chooses to try and enslave it. And He talks so big, but Sam has been running rings around him. Sam is way cooler than him. He does not have the right to such a stupidly large ego.

And his ego is so fragile, too. Like he did all these horrible things to people and he couldn’t even do that right. Like she doesn’t want him to hurt anyone but she also is so, so, so annoyed that he is all talk (in her eyes). Like if hes gonna be evil he could at least be awesome about it. And good or evil he could be so, so awesome. But instead he’s a pathetic dime a dozen angry man on the internet. She sees his potential and she is so mad he wastes it.

And, truthfully, she hates how much he reminds her of the worst parts of herself. But she at least eventually, finally accepted her reality slap to the face. Sonny has been digitized by his own creations and become almost powerless and he still doesn’t learn!? That’s so dumb! And at least even before her Big Screw Up, she still valued people’s lives. Sonny clearly does not.

(and it just feels so good, to know someone is worse than you have ever been, to feel like you can judge them, to feel higher up by being able to look down on another. To point and say ‘look! I’m not the worst, I’m better than someone! I’m not complete trash because here is someone like me but clearly worse!)

Also FC finds Sonny’s over the top angry reactions so, so funny. She’s a troll at heart.

[what-i-call-men]

coming here just to scream into my void bc this is the one place i feel comfortable saying this.

Watched DDBA tonight, had an amazing time, loved it, talked about it with a friend for around two hours. got cozy in bed, sitting done for phone time to unwind when i get What? a notification from snapchat that my ex (broke up with me a week and a half ago. we were dating for three years) has made a new snapchat account.

the same guy who for the last three months of our relationship was talking about how he didn't want to redownload or have an account. i was the only person he talked to along with his military gc he never interacted w, so when he got a new phone and it logged him out he didn't bother resetting the password... even tho i asked and offered to help so we could send pictures to each other like we usually did (routine at this point)

This might be me over thinking but like... why lie to me about that? he'd said he'd only thought about breaking up for like a week before it happened. but this was months ago.

i don't know if yall have had this kind of grief before. i don't even know what stage i'm at rn bc i thought i was ok then he got a new snapchat and liked some of the stuff i sent him on ig before we broke up.

i didn't block him because we didn't end on bad terms or anything... i don't know if i should maybe just bite the bullet and unfollow him but... i really don't know if i have the guts. like i'm not angry or anything at him for the break up but am i letting him get to me too much? i mean we were dating for almost 3 years and the break up was a week and a half ago and it completely blindsided me.

[sukirichi]

me thinks tsumu didn’t actually get her drunk so she’d sleep with him. i think his blabber mouth let out the fact that the royal family is completely fucked and mentioned the affair - probably to get brownie points with the model or because he’s mad at rin for being likely to be king or something. and getting her drunk was supposed to be a safety net to ensure she doesn’t remember any of their conversations regarding that topic. she wakes up and feels blindsided that he’d try to do something so gross, she lets the info out? IDK i feel like something corrupt happened between the two that didn’t involve sexual relations…. maybe she was the one to take that photo and tsumu getting her drunk was his way of trying to erase it, like she’s drunk he takes her phone deletes pic - problem solved! i just feel like the amount of times he apologised SPECIFICALLY to sunarin… it’s just way too suspicious.

onto the man himself. y’know how i was talking about my nendoroid? imma cover his ears when i say this; if he’s genuinely so arrogant to think that sticking to his dogshit fuckass plan is the only option (because he doesn’t wanna damage his pride even more and admit he’s wrong) im gonna deck this man myself. sleeping with itinerary ON YN’S BED??? OHHHH BITCH YOU HAVE ME SO FUCKED UP RN. her only safe haven and it’s been tainted by that man whore and his woman crush wednesday…. i cannot WAIT for yn to fuck up iriler cuz she got on my last nerve like i genuinely didn’t think that was possible but damn. she deserves just as much heat as rin cuz atp do you not have ANY fucking sympathy for another woman?? you need to get some mediocre loveless dick wet so bad, you’ll do it on someone else’s bed in their locked safe space??

i have some theories but with the ending of the chapter i just need to take a few more laps, whew im like malding so hard rn. TAKING OFF THE FUCKING RING? LIKE THE AUDACITY OF THAT FIVE HEAD. it’s such a slap in the face because despite everything that happened - yn was STILL thinking of suna and how to help him and then the betrayal of them doing it in her room, AND HE JUST TAKES HIS RING OFF AND LEAVES??? IRIS HAS STOLEN EVERYTHINGGG, that line where yn was trying to reassure herself like “it was your ring on his finger.” and then cutting to that ring being left on the bed side table … suki you got me so fucked up i feel like i could run a mile rn.

there IS a way for their relationship to be redeemed tbf, idk how many readers would agree with it but i feel like the redemption would be something a little like how it was in the hamilton musical, like we just finished the reynold’s pamphlet track. i think with the redemption their relationship is definitely not going to be warm and it’s going to be a lot less loving (not loveless but yn isn’t going to give her love easily to him).

me personally, i’m just hoping if ushi becomes king he allows divorces so yn can get out of that relo and so can kiyoomi, they both deserved each other and i don’t think they could ever ignore each other for too long, especially not after that entire trip where they built their connection with each other.

i’m done rambling now, i’m sorry if my ask got a bit incoherent, this chapter had me fucked up more than any other one JUST because of the ring, like my heart actually broke when i read that. anyways im so sorry for the long ask 😭 enjoyyy

- shhh anon

shhh anon!! ah i’m always so happy to hear about your theories pls don’t think i am bothered by the long asks 🥹 for tsumu hmMMM lowkey shivering in my boots because i think you’re reading my mind and seeing all the secrets of dtd… hmm… can’t confirm anything as of now but i agree with you! he would definitely pull that just to get brownie points and get laid + getting her drunk was vv intentional on his part… i’m so sorry, he’s so horrible in dtd!! but you’re right, tsumu is one suspicious guy aafghsjkla

yes pls cover nendoroid suna’s ears!! canon suna does NOT have to hear any slander, and i’m so sorry to our pookie bear that i gave him such awful roles in this story... fr like out of all places, why on the reader’s bed?! the castle is HUGE he could’ve chosen anywhere but that (although we’ll see why he brought iris to reader’s bed in ch13 muehehhe.) AND THE NICKNAMES FOR IRIS IM CRYING IRILER?? ITINERARY? HELP 😭

OMG YES THANK YOU FOR NOTICING!! like reader’s monologue was like “that’s my ring he’s wearing even after all that happened” because that was like, her only source of comfort and reassurance that in SOME WAY, he’s still hers yknow? but then HE TAKES IT OFF AGAHJSK. but yes yes i see where you’re getting at – the redemption arc is not going to be warm at all. actually, tiny spoilers ahead, i’m not even sure i can call it a redemption arc (won’t give context hehe, you guys will see for yourselves.) but i cannot wait to see how things will change if ever ushi becomes king. he’s a very traditional guy too, so we’re not even sure if he would legalize divorce. he’s a stickler to the rules, and as much as he wants the best for his brothers, his main priority is to sticking to what the kingdom wants – so that’s a downside if he becomes king. kiyoomi though like pls i’m so in love with him, i want him to be endgame so bad!! they do deserve each other, and their chemistry + bond is just so natural for me. i think they would be happiest with one another ngl 🥹

and please don’t apologize for the long asks bb!! i actually get so happy whenever i see that people take the time to share me their thoughts, it means the world to me 🥺💫🌷

[poguestarkey]

theo nott and TTPD: the anthology

i have no content or writing ideas so here's TTPD: the anthology songs that make me think of theo and IF i were to make a baby fic off them what it would be about

if any stand out particularly and u want me to write feel free to request :)

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fortnight (ft. posty) - 2 week whirlwind situationship w coworker!theo at the ministry shortly after the BoH (i actually kind of want to write this but unfortunately i do not have the time rn)

the tortured poets department - this is so theo coded in general but the typewriter line gives ravenclaw!reader who is the only one theo opens up to (who else decodes you?) but theo self sabotages (per use). second verse is sooo late night in the astronomy tower

so long, london - post grad!reader and post grad!theo, nasty breakup maybe 2 years after leaving hogwarts? after being together since like fourth year (very much hs sweetheart vibes, only have ever been w that person type beat) and then reader leaves london to go teach at ilvermorny or something.

fresh out the slammer - theo being reader's longtime hookup bud during hogwarts and then reader getting out of a long term relationship with some icky man like cormac and their first call (owl?) being theo (he's happily obliging)

guilty as sin? - i actually don't even know this song is just so sexy and so theo!!! like maybe enemies to lovers, mutual pining, reader realizing they're in love w/ h0rny for theo? but has "hated" him for so long they feel guilty about it (am i allowed to cry? about not being with him bc they have "no reason" to feel that way)

loml - gonna be mean but this is theo having a longterm partner throughout hogwarts and having all the convos about marriage and kids and then completely dropping them out of the blue following graduation and never speaking again (sorry)

the smallest man who ever lived - (this is easily my fave song and probably my favorite taylor song ever!) theo and reader having a secret relationship from 4th-5th year, going public right before summer prior to 6th year, and then theo breaking up w reader during the events of HBP (probably in like october so only a monthish into the year) (reader is unaware) and reader feeling completely betrayed (this bridge is SO SUPERIOR) and blindsided (cuz it wasn't sexy once it wasn't forbidden)(lowk might write this one eventually too)

the black dog - the black dog = the three broomsticks hiiiii need i explain more?

imgonnagetyouback - classic teenage angst after a breakup, do u wanna fuck him or fight him? let's find out. this would definitely end in hateful breakup sex. probably in an empty classroom.

chloe or sam or sophia or marcus - i think unrequited love or mutual pining that was never acted on (maybe best friends?) growing apart and reader watching theo spiral knowing that part of their heart will always be attached to him

how did it end? - theo and reader being well known and engaged, calling off the engagement, and both of them only ever hearing "how did it end?" it's like in the title y'all

i look in people's windows - reader is always looking for theo in everything, even years after he left them. yeah it's depressing

peter - outside of the obvious, theo and reader breaking up at graduation, theo promising he would grow up and find himself then come find reader, goes off and lives his own life, never sees them again

the bolter - theo and reader both being avoidant attachment style and always finding each other. that's all!

thx for coming homies

[thebladeblaster]

So umm…somehow I ended up making a VERY bizarre crossover between gen 1-5 and Vanguard

It started off as the random thought of what if Link Joker was in Pokémon and things spiraled out of control after that.

For those not in the know Link Joker is essentially like the Evil Dead but rated E. Basically, it’s like a supernatural infection where if you loses to a reverse fighter in a battle then you become reversed. If a reverse fighter loses then they are freed. It’s like some sort of contract whenever you fight a reverse fighter. You’re staking your soul and freedom to save someone from it. The entity behind this is known as the Void which is putting its essence in people and taking them over. They retain their intelligence (for instance reverse fighters are smart enough to hide that they’re reversed) and parts of their personality. However, their personality is warped. Much like Vanguard when you lose your deck or in this case Pokémon team gets reversed too. They don’t really know this at first though and have to find this out 😅.

As for how reverse Pokémon would function I kinda imagine them like a combination of some sort of evil regional variants and shadow Pokémon.

The reverse units themselves would be UBs along with the Void itself.

So, takes place 3 years after DPPT & HGSS it starts with Olympia having an ominous premonition about Link Joker’s arrival. In preparation she tries to gather the Lake Trio to use against the threat. However, she ends up getting blindsided by Chaos Breaker Dragon. Link Joker literally was able to take over a guy who had a book that could tell him about any possible future so precognition won’t save her.

So, she is defeated and taken over then becomes Link Joker agent much like Takuto. The agent seems to be like the Void’s representative kinda (Vanguard doesn’t explain things well okay). Anyway, if the agent loses then the everyone is freed. Nice, right 🙂? However…whoever beats the agent has the seed of Link Joker enter them which will eventually resurrect Link Joker and make them the new agent. So…not good.

With the protags Lucas was actually the office assistant and Dawn was the protagonist of DPPT. Also Dawn’s in the 1800s rn which honestly is a blessing in disguise considering what’s going to happen 😅. Lucas misses his friend and feels like kinda a fraud. Like his friends saved the world and he’s just like an office assistant. After Dawn went missing he’s been trying to get stronger to pick up the slack and keep Sinnoh safe. He’s been working with Looker off and on and finally got around to getting all eight gym badges.

Ethan is currently in Sinnoh training to get stronger after actually losing to Red. At this point the dude seriously has like 32 gym badges. He’s completed the Hoenn league to train and is on Sinnoh now. He ends up befriending the depressed Lucas and helps him gain some more confidence in himself and helps him get better at battling. Of course he’s having some of his own confidence issues that he won’t share after losing to Red. He has basically forcibly adopted Lucas. He needs it honestly. His dad is Professor Sycamore who is lite too stupid to live as himself without divine intervention. After getting Cynthiaed Lucas and Ethan are having a talk. Then, suddenly Red appears leaving Ethan stunned. He can tell that something is different about him, he has a strange creature with him and he’s acting bizarrely animated. Ethan ends up losing and getting reversed which leaves Lucas sadder, confused, and alone. Cynthia and the Elite Four appear and help Lucas get away.

Brandon has just kinda chilled out and is focused on becoming a rescue worker, he hasn’t actually battled in 6 years. Yes, he’s pulled a Gohan but unlike Gohan he gets it through his skull that he needs to keep training after this happens. He’s still in Hoenn and has absolutely no idea what is about to happen. If he didn’t have trust issues before then he’s going to gain them😅. Brendan is heading home one day as he just starts to notice that something is off but everything seems normal enough. He just thinks he’s being paranoid. He finds his dad being an asshole and is challenged to a battle but his dad is always an ass so he doesn’t notice 🤣. Like my brother in Arceus he put is son in the back on the moving truck with the luggage. You cannot convince me that he’s a good father.

However, he slowly starts to realize he’s in a horror movie. This culminates in him having to battle everyone in Little Root town and having the most desperate battle of his life against reversed May. So, this gives him the wake up call he needed to get back in the game. He becomes determined to find whoever caused this, starts training again, and searches around Hoenn for them. Steven ends up arriving soon after to tell Brandon what’s going on. Essentially the reverse was originally isolated to Sinnoh with it being kept secret to prevent a worldwide panic. However, it seemed one reverse fighter slipped through Hoenn’s defenses.

One important detail to mention is that he released Rayquaza after the game mostly because Rayquaza is a being that performs an important function in protecting to ozone layer and he felt that it wasn’t right to keep Rayquaza for that reason. He gets Rayquaza back later though while Rayquaza and Zygarde are hunting down Link Joker units. I thought that Zygarde should actually do its job so it is😅.

Hilbert is on the other side of the world chilling at Blueberry Academy in the Terrarium and he couldn’t be happier. He has literally no idea that any of this is happening. This is an after he’s beaten N and Ghetsis but hasn’t beaten the Elite Four yet or set out to find N. He appears way later after Alder lets it slip that something weird is happening over in Japan.

Cliff notes version:

Here’s their teams:

Note: Ethan and Hilbert do have Lugia and Zekrom. These are just the versions of their teams without them AKA their casual not saving the world teams. Like let’s be real do you think they’re going to use a Pokémon that could destroy a continent or the world on a normie? This isn’t following game scaling it’s following lore scaling. That’s like using a hydrogen bomb against a coughing baby. That would just be cruel😅. Latios is weaker so Brendan can get away with it. Also I have my own unique idea for the legendaries that make them more god-like and a bit more balanced at the same time but that’s a discussion for another post.

I will talk about the girls in part 2 because I don’t have enough image space left in this post.

[withgreatpowercomesmyfuckingdick]

quick rant, any of you feel free to ignore because I promise this isn’t about any of you lovelies-

so don’t get me wrong, i love advice and feedback…but don’t give it unsolicited. critique that blindsides me completely kills my vibe and im criticism sensitive in the first place with the gifted burn out LMAO

this IS directed btw, not at any of you, but like…my fanfics are for me. i write to unwind and i do it for fun and i enjoy it and i will publish what i enjoy. i would LOVE to take advice when I ASK for it, and trust me, if I’ve broken some law of story progression or I structured a chapter a little off, then no one knows better than i do.

i am my own worst critic. shit, I used to edit for a living. Let me reiterate: I used to edit both creative and factual works. For a living. if you notice something so did I, and guess what? I decided I didn’t care. Cause I’m doing this for fun and I am trying to keep it fun for myself. If you have the urge to critique then maybe do it on a website that isn’t AO3 cause im sure plenty of authors on here feel the same

so yes. if you would like to point out that the flashback for chapter 16 was long and did not contribute much to the story progression, trust me, I was aware as I wrote the chapter, and I decided I didn’t care because I was having fun writing and I was getting to write more often than I have in a long time. The story will move at the pace I decide and maybe it wasn’t a good story decision but I’m having fun and that’s what matters most to me rn. This is my fun little side hobby. Respectfully, I don’t want to hear that shit

[sorcerous-caress]

I think Larian should put in some sort of tag to make it clear you're lying or being manipulative in that scene because otherwise I do think it just comes off as very muddled (and a little unfair to people who wanted to play it that way and instead were blindsided by being told they're lying and broken up with)

The reason I read it as manipulation is because that's what Mizora does, and she's using magic to manipulate your physical body so it would make sense if she'd influence your mind as well. She clearly didn't have good intentions and even if you the player have complete control Tav the character I still feel could easily have been read as being manipulated into it with minimal RPing necessary. And just in general I feel like a lot of people would want to play the scene that way

And with Astarion I just don't see the acting when you do that dialogue tree vs other ways to play that scene, like it rather seems like the act drops but that could just be Neil’s acting conflicting with what was actually written

Basically I just feel like cheating and manipulation are both ways to read that scene that make complete sense and it's a little disappointing that the game doesn't make it more obvious that it's not

(also I really hope this doesn't come across as arguing I genuinely think this is an interesting discussion even if I don't agree with your perspective)

Oh no! I am absolutely enjoying this discussion, anon. I love talking about my thoughts and hearing your different ones. I never thought of it as arguing in the slightest, I was actually looking forward to your next reply every time I answered <3 million smooches to you anon I'm having so much fun rn.

And about the dialogue tag thing, I absolutely agree. A lot of people mentioned it too in the game feedback. Even ingame I picked a lot of options that I thought were innocent or meant as a joke only to be met with the fact they meant something completely different and had to reload.

It needs to be clearer when you're lying to someone, flirting with them, being serious, or joking. Remember the hoards of people who tirggeted Gale's romance accidentally by just being nice to him?

Especially about lies, a lot of times I'm confused about the options available because I'm not sure if Tav is making shit up, or if i missed out on a major detail.

And maybe it's subjective.. Someone could argue that you genuinely did believe that Mizora manipulated you because she does leave a mark on you that you never agreed to at the end. I don't see it that way but it's up to interpretation.

I was someone who fell for Astarion's acting during Act 1. All that nice talk and coaxing? His honeyed words to get you to sleep with him? I genuinely took them to heart and believed them. I was like oh he already told me about Cazador so he trusts me and definitely isn't manipulating me ehe!

Throughout all of my first playthrough, I avoided all spoilers and discussions about bg3. I was genuinely eating up all of Astarion's flattery and dialogue. When he confessed to giving me sex in exchange for protection during act 2 i was extremely confused because when did that ever happen?

He seemed very eager in all the sex and flirting scenes?? I didn't get it at all at the time and didn't realise how good of an actor he is.

The only time when I genuinely saw Astarion for who he is ,is when he admits to the fact you would've been one of his victims in the cage in another life at Cazador's palace. Even when surrounded by his mistakes, he deflects any attempt of you to put the guilt on him.

I actually left the game for a week straight. I felt both disgusted with myself for also seeing him as a sex object, i am no better than these people in the cages. Yet also disgusted with him for manipulating both my character and irl me for so long. That's why i feel weird to write nsfw about him even now, I feel weird when I see sexy fanart of him. Astarion is genuinely one of the most complex characters I have ever seen, and I can't simply reduce him to a victim or a sexy vampire. His writing team and voice actor work is phenomenal.

I did the cheating on him with Mizora, too, just out of curiosity and reloaded myself after. I felt very assured when he said he didn't mind and didn't blame me, that sleeping with a devil is a chance you don't simply miss. I trusted his words because I didn't know better.

Only after when I finished the game, saw more posts about him that go in depth about his character and the many many ways he manipulates you in to ensure his own safety, did I actually see him fully as a whole person.

That's why I'm doubtful of even his sympathy during the manipulated Mizora option, the delivery doesn't show a hint of lying in the slighest I agree. But also for me none of his other canonly manipulative lines show any hint of lying for me.

Remember the orgy in Sharess Caress? Where he is all enthusiastic after the Cazador is dealt with, but during it he completely zones out? Doesn't the fact he tells you to "let him join next time" after the Mizora event ring any similar alarms?

I think in the most generous cases possible, he isn't aware he is manipulating you. He is just saying what he thinks would please you. It clearly would make you happy to have the drow threesome even while he himself was sex replused since act 2 and until act 3. Like how it would make you happy for him to not make a big deal out of the cheating.

But it's interesting that you can see honesty in his responses. If anything, it shows that you're piecing together the slivers of truth he lets slip out during his acts because even he himself can still make mistakes and reveal the truth amidst a lie.

There is also another theory!

Astarion doesn't care about sexual cheating, only romantic cheating.

During the Halsin poly dialogue, he gets really happy when you reassure him that he is the one you love. The one your heart lies with. Then tells you to go fuck Halsin as much as you want.

So in this scenario the fact Mizora is a devil matters a lot because Astarion says it himself, devils do not fall in love.

Maybe that's why he was all giddy and smiles, knowing fully it's just sex, something he barely puts value on anymore since he has been freed of i, and doesn't mind you sleeping with devils.

At the end of the day, yeah, like you said, cheating and manipulation are two valid ways to read into the conversation. It did feel rushed a bit, we didn't even get to actually fuck Mizora Goddammit! If i wanted freaky weird magic sex I would've fucked the local wizard instead!

Mizora's intentions are just to make your lover jealous, she admits she just wanted to stir the pot and saw you as a target.

[madraleen]

Naruto Shippuden - Season 8 Ultimately unjust gripes and getting a little deep: A Commentary

-hi naruto, hi bb, imma need you to mc the shit out of this plot, 'cause rn this is the sasuke show <3

-itachi smiling when naruto tells him he sees sasuke like a brother hits different now, he was just happy for his little brother :'(((

-"sasuke is still naive. he can easily be dyed in any color." itachi, the man that you are. this is an itachi-fangirling space now, we stan

-itachi shared his power with naruto bc he knows naruto will protect sasuke from death (and also will protect the leaf). bless this man, we stan this man, the ultimate buffer

-sasuke wants to go to the leaf as though he didn't just get destroyed by ONE MAN, even if a tails one. where does he get this confidence

-oh sasuke wants to kill the ENTIRE VILLAGE. that's unfair, bb boy.

-this anime is so good at exploring grief. tearing up. also interesting how naruto cries silently while sasuke bawled his eyes out. you'd expect the opposite. it’s like grief transcends them.

-tsunade is amazingly written, imo. a strong but still vulnerable woman, perfectly flawed, depicted in a beautiful way.

-i feel like i'm getting an even deeper appreciation for jp vas than i already had (and i already had heaps of it) just by watching “naruto” through its years. how the vas carried when the animation was on the older side, how they deliver as the animation evolves and the characters grow older and change, they're just. so good.

-AHAHAHAAHA EIGHT-TAILS WASN'T REAL?? ooh no

-ah, sasuke. that's too soon for him to be losing his eyesight. this hurts. does he have itachi's eyes stored somewhere i wonder

-with pain attacking leaf, someone tell sasuke that there'll be no leaf left to destroy anyway, ahaha, ha, ha... *cries* this is painful.

-no! what? danzou killed the frog? what??

-as much as i hate the attack on leaf, it's a treat seeing everyone work together

-wait. are you serious? kakashi died? 'cause i'm legit crying here, did he die??? NOT YET! ARE YOU SERIOUS? ...that said, i wish we'd stayed a little more with him. we moved on too fast.

-danzou what are you saying, i hate you

-back to kakashi, i’m not done-it’s odd that he just popped up, fought a bit and then just died. no soft “just before this he’d been reading his book/chatting with a friend” or sth, no dying around people that he had a deep connection with, no profound realization, nothing. i don’t wike it. everyone else got much more time death-wise :(. i’m in double grief, both over his death and bc i didn’t find the execution satisfying enough.

-unrelated, but at least all this catastrophe is pain’s doing and not sasuke’s attack, ‘cause the latter would have been devastating. at least now there won’t BE much for sasuke to destroy, i guess? i’ve been thinking about sasuke and i’ve come to the conclusion -subject to change as events unfold- that his great weakness is that he’s deeply emotional while also deeply incapable of handling emotions. he cannot juggle multiple big emotions that might clash with each other, so he picks one and becomes blindsided to everything else, and becomes an easy target by the likes of orochimaru and madara. in contrast to naruto, who is also very emotional, but he’s so open with his emotions and open to experiencing them and releasing them that they don’t have as merciless a hold over him-he’s okay with reassessing them, re-contextualizing, mixing and matching, combining and discarding. 

-konohamaru and clone doing the rasengan :")))

-GUY-SENSEI, we lost kakashi, guy-sensei :"((((((((

-shizune, huh? out to destroy tsunade-sama's psyche, are we

-pain completely decimated the village!!!

-naruto looks good with the red robe

-hold up, naruto can feel EVERYONE'S CHAKRAS? and you just say that out loud so casually

-naruto bb is AMAZING in this fight :') his brain :')

-HINATA! GO GIRL GO! (be careful though)

-EEEEE, HINATA TOLD NARUTO SHE LOVES HIM!!

-the fourth and naruto THE FOURTH AND NARUTO, I'M CRYING

-my man the fourth be writing "terms and conditions" as he was sealing the fox ahaha, i love him. he's iconic

-HE TOLD NARUTO THAT HE IS HIS SON! OMG!

-yeah, i'll believe the fourth over madara. i'll believe that madara did indeed lie to sasuke and did indeed summon nine-tails

-NOOO, DON'T GO, FOURTH :"(((((( damn fading chakra. okay, who can tame the fox now? the uchihas, yamato-ish and some day naruto, right?

-naruto's va is phenomenal :') junko takeuchi, respect.

-good, i was waiting for the nagato et al flashback

-danzo again

-yahiko studied in the 'how to traumatize your closest friend' school, i see i see

-one of the more beautiful things in “naruto” is that it makes it very clear that adults are fumbling in the dark just as much as the younger characters, just in different ways. they don't have answers, or correct answers, or surefire answers

-EVERYBODY LIVES, ROSE! JUST THIS ONCE, EVERYBODY LIVES! KAKASHI-SENSEIIIIII :"))))))) thank you, mr nagato sir :')

-kakashi catching naruto as he falls, i cry. kakashi-death rant retracted, i'm so sorry for doubting you, dear anime

-naruto nestling against kakashi’s shoulder with that squeezed cheek and his smile, he looks so happy, i cry

-the leaf cheering for naruto :")))))))

-sakura punching naruto and then holding him close and thanking him, yes, that’s my girl

-naruto, lil bb :")))))))) aaaaahhhh, what a ride :') a peaceful moment, after so long :’) let’s have a couple of those before shit goes down again, yeah?

-i like this theme of ‘people want to believe.’ that people want to believe in peace and in understanding, that they’re desperate for them, but they get too jaded/hurt/bitter/scared to do so, and yet deep down most of them truly want a reason to believe. i like the capacity for change, even when they seem to be beyond the point of no return. also big fan of the “i hate you because you hurt me and i can’t forgive you, but i understand where you’re coming from and maybe i would have done the same if i had been in your position, but that doesn’t negate the fact that i hate you, but the fact that i hate you doesn’t mean i’m gonna act on it, because i want to stop the cycle of hate,” of the fact that all of these feelings can coexist, the fact that you can feel what you feel and still not give in to destructive actions driven by it. bringing peace through violence, forging alliances founded on subjugation and hate - it’s tragic, it’s been done all through history, it can’t be erased, but is there another way? there must be, and naruto is committed to finding one even if he doesn’t have immediate answers. i like what you’re saying, anime. 

[skybristle]

i know literally nothing about rain world but i refuse to unfollow you BECAUSE of how amazing you are and how silly you are and just UGH i wish i could word things properly rn but its like 2 am hbsdjhfbdjsf

HSDLFDSLKJFDSL awww thank you!!!!!!! i feel so bad for my cr followers like rain world completely fucking blindsided me. especially since it was like right after gc came out like i was kinda like. damn this mid asf. Bye and the hyperfix died