#fashion identity crisis

[memberofthejazzclub]

I need a really good outfit for an event I’m doing and I just realized it’s NEXT WEEKEND. I literally do not have the time to shop stores or my closet or the Pinterest board in my mind and give myself a feminist pep talk about how it’s okay I’m still in my COVID weight era. Honestly I love fashion so much and I used to wear and make many cute outfits lovingly DIYed and thrifted cause I had skills once upon a time and I went to fashion college for a time but I do not feel cute lately and I’ve been purging my closet but not updating it and now I’m stressed out I have to speak to an audience on a microphone while standing next to some super young fashionable literary stars and I have to look like a boring professor unless I go to the mall tomorrow and spend some ridiculous amount of money cause if I can’t be 25 again aka the year of my peak femme club outfit I felt like Violet from Bound then at least I can upgrade my academic bling and make up and keep my outfit simple but definitely not basic. I am not a flashy person but I need to practice shimmering for days like these.

[farmerbebop]

Sometimes I think my blog must be the most confusing thing ever for someone who isn't a McGoohan fan. So I would like to clarify things a little bit. You are looking at the man who directed that Columbo episode about respecting your local belly dancers, supporting your local hot dog sellers and defying your government's secret service. He was also the villain in said episode and my job is to put him in some fashion photoshoots with my lousy photoshopping once in a while.

[discordiansamba]

For the identity crisis AU, do you think their fashion sense changes any?

Oooooh, good question.

Well first off. Hunk's definitely wouldn't. This is because Hunk and Keith have exactly the same fashion sense. Seriously. Look at their outfits side by side. Cropped vests/jackets? Fingerless gloves? Boots? Belts with pouches? Literally the exact same fashion sense.

Lance probably wouldn't change much, but I think he'd develop more of a sense for comfort while still trying not to look like a slob. There's some part of him that wants to start wearing shorts, but he is not listening to that part of him. That's the devil talking. He would not look good in shorts, and he knows this. Stop trying to make him wear shorts, part of him that's Pidge.

Pidge gets a cropped jacket. She sees one at the market and she can't resist. It's got deep pockets- what more could a girl want? The fingerless gloves come after. Also when was anyone going to tell her how convenient having a belt with pouches was? She resists the urge to buy a headband, but it's there. She's not going to say that's the devil talking. That would be a rude thing to say about her friend.

Keith buys a non-cropped jacket and stops wearing the fingerless gloves. God himself could not force him to stop wearing his dad's old belt, though. Everyone's watching him like a hawk to see if he'll cut off the mullet but he just stops cutting his hair instead, which turns out to grow weirdly fast. He gets Allura to teach him how to braid it, which is a very weird bonding experience for her. She'll take it?

[acaesic]

why do i like dallon weekes so much. how did i get to this point in my life

[thechaoticdruid]

AHHH. I don't know why I'm having such a mental headache.

(Personal life stuff undercut.)

Today was the day I began to finally have an identity crisis. Okay so most of my life I've identified as female. Just a tomboy because I liked a lot of stuff that's labeled more "traditionally masculine." Violent TV shows and video games, etc. And well most of the time I didn't think too much about gender really. Not unless someone told me I couldn't do something because I was a girl.

So mostly I've just identified as a tomboy, a gender nonconforming woman. But as trans and NB people got more mainstream I learned new terms.

So basically I'm pretty comfortable as a woman, but every once and a while I feel like I'm something else whether it's a boy or just me without a label. It doesn't happen too often but it always makes me feel odd.

Like She/Her pronouns are probably staying for me no matter what I don't think I could get used to being called anything else but for a while I've wondered about identifying as a demigirl. And idk today it's been going back and forth in my brain from tomboy to demigirl to the point I'm getting a headache. Like am I really a demigirl or do I just feel pressured to add a label because of all the fandoms I've been in are heavily LGBT populated and I feel like I need to fit in. I also get freaked out by pretty drastic changes to my life so there's also that. And I only really like men so what's my sexuality then if I'm a demigirl?

Idk usually whenever this has come up in my brain the past few years I usually just be like I'm just a tomboy and then everything goes back to normal, but today it's just causing me distress for some reason.

[affluent-havoc]

[principiumindividuationis777]

[hislittleraincloud]

Do you even like Jenna Ortega? All your posts seem to say otherwise when you go straight to insulting her. “Oh look the gremlin finally posted, let’s see if she has any empathy”. That’s me when you post because all you seem to post is shit which is meant to come out of your ass, not your mouth.

All because a lot of her fans already have the photos (which is proper stalkish behaviour), doesn’t mean she can’t post it herself. She’s literally promoting the brand she works with. Are you just mad because she isn’t spreading awareness about certain stuff happening around the world? One post about a situation can still make an impact, especially when you have a lot of followers. And we all know she rarely uses her phone now.

But hey, you’re probably going to repost this and insult me because that’s your goto response for everything, isn’t it? 💀

1. I get that question ever so often and the answer has stayed the same.

2. I can't keep repeating myself.

3. Are you just mad because she isn’t spreading awareness about certain stuff happening around the world? One post about a situation can still make an impact, especially when you have a lot of followers. And we all know she rarely uses her phone now.

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Also every so often I'll get the bitter poster who rants at me but then suddenly states the point that I've been making as if I disagree with it (which is the opposite of the Anons who write all of this shit that's reasonable but then out of the blue types something so weird and out of pocket). Where in the pink part (lol pink parts) do we disagree?

And how about we stop playing cutesy and just say it instead of "certain stuff happening around the world": the shit happening to our fucking people, the consequences of lackadaisical attitude towards voting — at least 41 million who came of age to vote for the first time — in favor of submerging yourself in the fantasy world that is disconnected from humanity just as much as it entertains it.

We're supposed to be eating the rich, not sucking up to those who advertise high end brands for the wealthy that normal people up here on the ground aren't wearing every day (save for the cologne/perfume, maybe carrying Dior accessories if you got the money). This is the kind of shit you're crying about

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Now...how the fuck do you expect to be seen or taken seriously as a Latina actor who is socially aware when you post your fashion 🗑️ and the only fucking humanitarian crisis that you seem to care about doesn't involve your own goddamn people in your own goddamn country currently being raided, detained, and round up/shipped off to be fucking deported? There has been fucking crickets since before the election about anything, and that last minute Day Of voting thing she posted was too little too late. If she'd really cared about Gaza then she would've stressed the importance of voting for Harris, or just voting in general. Y'all Zoomers had ZERO positive role models for getting out the Latino vote, while the Millennial (at least) Dems had America Ferrera, who BTW has been using her platform all along for her politics that emphasize issues that affect women and the Latino community.

Ah wait, Zoomers had Chappell Roan pushing the "both sides suck" cuntery, which I'm sure influenced a lot of them not to vote — a lot of them like Aliyah, who just pulled the "both sides were the same" crap recently. That's a completely ignorant comment/stance to take, and yanno, honestly it sounds like the kind of excuse that a parent who voted for Trump would tell their charitably understanding child so as not to look and/or feel like the bad guy that they are for deliberately voting for a racist asshole who said he wanted to deport all the (brown) migrants and immigrants and rip away birthright citizenship.

I'm not saying anything definitively because I don't know how he voted, but a Mexican cop near the border who refuses to learn Spanish seems like the type of Latino who might be a Trump supporter (a ton of cops who voted for him are now pissed off because he did what he said he was going to do, which was pardon the violent insurrectionists who attacked and maimed Capitol Police). And we know that if the Gremlin voted, she didn't vote for Trump given her history of hating him (unless she went full moron like Snoop did)...which is why Aliyah said that everyone in her family pretty much "did their own thing"; if she were proud of her family's vote she wouldn't be so cagey, but it's embarrassing to know/admit that anyone in the family voted for the fucking diapered racist from Hell. But again, this is all just one speculative scenario. Maybe she just simply stated it that way so no hate from either side comes at them, and that's fine since the platforms surrounding Jenna are so small that they're really not influencers like she could be. Aliyah's verified account has 1.9M followers who overlap w the one she uses most often for her Lives; not even a fraction of some of the more popular (actual) influencers on there. But I digress... ETA: WHILE I was writing this some cuntfaced anon tried to start something with her in her Live about not saying anything about what's going on with the ICE raids. I don't think she keeps up with politics that well, considering the above. What'd I say about leaving her alone? Yeah, it ticks me off that she blurted that out but...

...it's a failure of both parenting and schooling if the importance of voting isn't taught by age 18, the importance of educating yourself about the world around you (which, in this age, does include listening or reading what influencers, entertainment/Hollywood based or not, have to say), and the importance of staying curious about the world around you. There's a mountain of shit that I don't know, that you don't know, that no one yet knows, but within that curiosity should also lie a healthy dose of skepticism, which leads to questions, research, and answers if there are any or can be approximated.

If y'all Zoomers who didn't vote or who ended up shitting yourselves and voting for Stein and her transphobic running mate had just done more goddamn reading and developed a real sense of patterns and just...regular common sense, we might not be in this second term of WORSE Hell than what began in 2017. How could both sides be the fucking same when we voted Joe and Kamala in because Trump was doing such a goddamn terrible job the first time around?

I realize y'all were permanently scarred at the age of 10 when One Direction broke up, but that's also when Donnie dipshit was stealing the election the first time w/the Russians, and I know you saw your moms, older sisters, aunts, grandmothers, and friends' moms crying about it. The parties and candidates were not the same then either, but the fucktarded celebrities who commented on it said the same shit about Hillary and Trump: That they were the same shitty choice. South Park had a whole episode where Hillary was a turd sandwich and DJT was a giant douche (with Parker saying in interviews that he would probably vote for 3rd Party candidate Johnson, i.e. essentially shitting his vote away and helping Trump like the Steiners did). This really is not a new tactic by leftists or other 3rd Party pushers, nor is it a new tactic of dissuasion or persuasion period. "Those choices are the same awful choices, choose this instead." Unfortunately in the American political context, this only serves to aid minority conservative interests, much like how they're able to force the conservative agenda even when they don't win the popular vote (2016).

For that bunch of bullshit, andr3wsky at TikTok is my spirit animal

Ortega is at the age where she could be making a real impact; she built a huge platform of followers with all of her idiotic teenage TikToks/other vids that were just plain obnoxious. Now that she's whittled it down to just Instagram, she knows that all of her fans are watching THAT for her to post something and when she finally does, it's that.

Five minutes out of her day is too much time to think about posting anything else, because she's just slivin' her best life without a care in the world except where her next 💰 will come from (shill some more of those utter garbage white person's version of Taki's that have God awful NNSes in them...srsly why the fuck do the Hot Honey Mustard Dinamita Sticks need sucralose in them when they already have honey, brown sugar, molasses, and corn syrup solids...

...and not only shill the White Version of Takis for the Superbowl, but do it with an OLTL actress ("Dina") who was fired over her objection to a gay storyline in her show.) Shill, shill, shill, work, work, work, be one of those privileged few who actually got to work during the writer's and actor's strikes because solidarity doesn't exist in this world. Who cares that writers and actors were all on the picket line, filming a B-movie comedy horror a la Cocaine Bear was more important to keep on schedule.

Why do I have a feeling you'd fucking continue to stan her no matter what, even if she worked with Woody Allen.

I comment on the garishness of it all, and I comment about her role or place in giving us the circuses while the fucking world burns; and I comment on it because I'm goddamn mad that y'all little shits didn't bother to use the resources that you have to motivate each other and the world to fucking vote. This was the vote of a lifetime, to prevent us from sliding into the fascism of Project 2025 (all of it will affect everyone...and I mean everyone in the world, FFS). But no, now I have to worry about being homeless again because the fat orange cunt brought Musk along with him so they could all cut what helps all Americans (SNAP, Medicaid, and they want to get rid of Medicare and Social Security; can they, is a question since theyre just Blitzkrieging their way through the government at the moment). I depend on these programs to survive. I count on being fucking secure in my home in order to fucking write for everyone and make them perverts happy. If the fucking orange criminal does his illegal shit and I have no safety net, I'll be fucking homeless and without any medications (I take four medications regularly and have other meds for flare ups). Thank God I at least live in California where Gavin's tried to Trump proof us from him, but still. This shit is worrisome, and its importance for me AND FOR OTHERS WORSE OFF THAN ME (like the parents who have to take care of their severely disabled kid/s), so you'll have to forgive my ire about goddamn fashion shows and the out of touch bitches (alllllllll of them) who attend these obscene displays of wealth while everyone in this country is either starving or scared out of their fucking wits. It should be Met Gala 2.0 but your fucking hardons for Ortega seem to suck the air out of your brains.

So you can take your little celebrity stanning/worship/idealization and shove it up your ass. Y'all will use any goddamn excuse for her, won't you, even when she won't even talk about the beloved wlwlwlwlw pairing you keep wanting to force on her show. (Sorry, on Miles & Alfred's show.) Keep swimming in the delusions while she swims in her own little glam world apart from the issues that could affect her own damn family (and probably are, considering the funding he's tryna halt for patients and hospitals to ✨make sure they're compliant with his anti-DEI policies✨).

We're all in goddamn deep shit out here, so enjoy the fucking circuses while we fight over $10 loaves of bread.

Do I even like her, you ask? You can fucking like someone and still be pissed at them/their behavior. You don't have to lick their ass about every single thing they do. You can like what they put out but still be discomforted by their disconnection. I gather that's how some people feel about me (no, I know that's how some of you feel about me since I get the damn anons saying so) and all of that is normal. We don't live in a perfect world, so we try to create our own utopian fantasies around an ideal that we can escape to; however there comes a time when there's too much escapism and not enough grounding, and that's when people get careless and authoritarians slip back into power. The ex that I lived with for ten years used to have "if you're not angry, you're not paying attention" in her byline for her LiveJournal handle. It was the only thing she was ever right about, and if I had the chance to sit Ortega's ass down, it would be a looooooong conversation about identity and responsibility (i.e. if you're going to constantly open your trap about your Latina identity/crying about the lack of role models, then you better goddamn show yourself useful to the Latinos who are at the top of the sufffering tower at the moment with Shitler). Disney Princesses are not role models, they're part of the circus.

Anyway, TLDR;

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[evildemonclan]

we’ve made a funny realisation about who i am as alter, it looks like I’m yet another partial reincarnation/recycling of an old host; specifically *the* old host

not completely but I do notice he’s in me in some fashion; it’s in fitting with my source for this to have happened to me as well… sigh

[morethananhour]

how to wear pants androgynous-ly to a wedding when uve got these stupid ass feminine hips 🙄

[riftwalker-limbro]

well apparently angst is in the air today and it bit me too so

i've always examined vince vs jay from his own perspective but what do pule and verica even think.

edit post-writing this: oh this is a hot pile of half-formatted brain vomit. click the read more at your own risk. my goal was to get my thoughts straight, and i did, and now this is a mess and i'm not fucking fixing it

pule did his grieving while he was still human, i think. he never did expect to see jay again, but once he remembers the worst period of his fucking life while sitting next to the two (well, 1.9) people who notable weren't there for it, it's... well, a shock is putting it lightly, i imagine. they know his name, they have the right vibes that, despite the fact he'd never felt them as human like he could now as a warframe with transference, just fit - mostly. not all of it is correct, but enough is, and the second he manages to ask if it's jay, he gets swiftly but gently corrected, that, well, yes, but also it's vince now.

once he finds out Why it's vince now, pule struggles hard with being confronted with the walking, breathing truth of accidentally getting his best friend actually killed for a while still. part of the grieving process gets reset entirely, and as friend fashion show has pointed out so excellently, it does do pule a lot of good to hang out a lot with others (bruiser, notably) that he doesn't have a painful shared past with. the threads he dropped with jay are easy to pick back up with vince, though: sharing old jokes and making new ones referencing stuff only they know, ways of thinking that are still almost identical after years of close friendship, etc. they grew together for a significant formative period of their lives, and that still affects just how suited to be each other's friend they are.

verica has a more complex headspace around this. she actively searched for him, knowing that he hadn't died but instead had become a warframe, even though he stopped pinging on the orokin radars even before she got apprehended and warframe'd herself. there's such a huge chance that he's dead, but dammit, if anyone can do the impossible, it should be the mathematician who'd managed to put a pencil into a pocket dimension between solid reality & the poisonous void. and she's... partially right.

when she wakes up on kelth's orbiter, she's going to think the idiot before her is jay. he'd done it, he'd managed to come back from the dead, and found her scattered clues. and, well, we know it isn't really jay anymore. he doesn't even confess the whole thing, at first - he just says, well, i go by vince now. and she rolls with it completely because why wouldn't she. it's only when the cracks start to show, both in his behaviour and in one certain scene between the three of them that i'm sure i'll die two and a half times while writing before i'll get it just right, that she actually realises that Nope, Not Jay. Not Like That Anymore.

she struggles with even just accepting it in her head, at first - he's so much like jay, pinging Correct in so many little ways, but he's Not, calling him by that name hurts him, and thinking of him as jay is wrong for the person vince is now. she goes through the period of grief she hadn't allowed herself even before everything.

and now, all three of them are in the same space, grieving the shit that happened to them, that one of them had to die, but at least they now have each other again. for reasons mentioned before, bonds with vince are built up extremely fast, and they quickly get to the same level of friendship they were at with jay. they go beyond, even - vince needs them more than jay did, even if he might not want to phrase it like that to not force them into anything, but they respond to it in kind. one of the consequences of the way warframes are fundamentally changed, made more rigid and less flexible, from humans in my lore makes it so that they will seek out familiarity at ridiculous costs. removing the memories from fresh frames was a fix for that by the orokin, but you can't just make something Rigid/Inflexible, apply a Change, and expect it to not eventually pop back into its original shape like memory foam.

pule & verica is also an interesting initial dynamic, i think. pule feels guilty for, well, everything - he's still under the impression that he'd gotten ghosted for life, and the fact that the warframe he'd been glaring at from the corner of his eyes, the one that had looked way too much like the recently-vanished artist octavia to be anything like a respectful tribute, had actually been her all along and he hadn't even bothered to look into it- he does struggle with it. of her own part, verica's shocked to see him at all, didn't realise that he'd whole ass up and volunteer for the program if she also disappeared, didn't realise that sitting down and letting herself grieve with him had also been an option. i imagine she does also initially carry some guilt over this, though she gets over hers significantly faster than pule does, both because it's just Less Significant Levels of Guilt & because she's just way more prone to Alright Oops Let's Move On than he is (hi. musician who's been in public about it here. making mistakes & moving on like nothing happened is a Necessary & Learned Skill. show must go on & all that)

i think pule would initially expect her to be hostile towards him, after he gets over the shock of "holy shit you're a warframe too? holy shit you're That Warframe? i was never ghosted on purpose??". but 1. even if she did have the right to get hostile, which she knows she doesn't, it wouldn't do anything, and 2. buddy friend we're still here after everything why would i be mad about getting this second chance at life. i've already lost my other friends and family and everything from that life, just let me hang on to you and this other idiot with all the strength left in me.

anyway, that's how the three of them become inseparable on an almost-physical level. a true triad. they get a shared bedroom and sleep together in a pile and everything. you'll find out

[fightwing]

"pacific blue is absolutely your color!" / @webheadedhero

" that's what I said!!!! " he's pacing, he knows he's pacing but peter is listening and dick is glad SOMEONE is finally the voice of reason tonight. dick spins on his most recent lap, pivoting on his heel with the memory of a headline he'd long since forgotten. " you don't think the suit looks 'diet batma.n', do you? "

[salemthegoldfish]

@_@

[lunasilvis]

Carhartt recently released a line of t-shirts with cowboy/horse prints ...and someone needs to chain me to a pole right now

[principiumindividuationis777]

[whiskeysorrows]

the implications of the show possibly making armand muslim are devastating. marius renames arun 'amadeo' meaning 'lover or beloved of god' which was ALREADY gross in the books since it places him as this godlike figure armand had to worship. and then later on, with the cult in rome and santino, he was forced into worshipping satan which caused a whole crisis for him even when book armand was christian. but if show armand is muslim everything gets a whole lot worse. in islam the biggest most unforgivable sin (if you don't repent) is shirk, or idol worship. by fashioning himself as armand's god, marius not only removed armand's cultural identity from him, he has tainted his faith which is arguably one of the only things armand could've held onto. marius essentially damns armand in one of the most irreversible ways possible by grooming him the way he did with religion as a weapon. and it gets even worse with the cult since armand is not only forced to commit shirk but to reject allah, one of the last ties he has to his cultural identity, completely. armand therefore becomes a metaphor and an example of what colonialism inflicts upon the colonised