#fashion identity crisis

[memberofthejazzclub]

I need a really good outfit for an event I’m doing and I just realized it’s NEXT WEEKEND. I literally do not have the time to shop stores or my closet or the Pinterest board in my mind and give myself a feminist pep talk about how it’s okay I’m still in my COVID weight era. Honestly I love fashion so much and I used to wear and make many cute outfits lovingly DIYed and thrifted cause I had skills once upon a time and I went to fashion college for a time but I do not feel cute lately and I’ve been purging my closet but not updating it and now I’m stressed out I have to speak to an audience on a microphone while standing next to some super young fashionable literary stars and I have to look like a boring professor unless I go to the mall tomorrow and spend some ridiculous amount of money cause if I can’t be 25 again aka the year of my peak femme club outfit I felt like Violet from Bound then at least I can upgrade my academic bling and make up and keep my outfit simple but definitely not basic. I am not a flashy person but I need to practice shimmering for days like these.

[farmerbebop]

Sometimes I think my blog must be the most confusing thing ever for someone who isn't a McGoohan fan. So I would like to clarify things a little bit. You are looking at the man who directed that Columbo episode about respecting your local belly dancers, supporting your local hot dog sellers and defying your government's secret service. He was also the villain in said episode and my job is to put him in some fashion photoshoots with my lousy photoshopping once in a while.

[discordiansamba]

For the identity crisis AU, do you think their fashion sense changes any?

Oooooh, good question.

Well first off. Hunk's definitely wouldn't. This is because Hunk and Keith have exactly the same fashion sense. Seriously. Look at their outfits side by side. Cropped vests/jackets? Fingerless gloves? Boots? Belts with pouches? Literally the exact same fashion sense.

Lance probably wouldn't change much, but I think he'd develop more of a sense for comfort while still trying not to look like a slob. There's some part of him that wants to start wearing shorts, but he is not listening to that part of him. That's the devil talking. He would not look good in shorts, and he knows this. Stop trying to make him wear shorts, part of him that's Pidge.

Pidge gets a cropped jacket. She sees one at the market and she can't resist. It's got deep pockets- what more could a girl want? The fingerless gloves come after. Also when was anyone going to tell her how convenient having a belt with pouches was? She resists the urge to buy a headband, but it's there. She's not going to say that's the devil talking. That would be a rude thing to say about her friend.

Keith buys a non-cropped jacket and stops wearing the fingerless gloves. God himself could not force him to stop wearing his dad's old belt, though. Everyone's watching him like a hawk to see if he'll cut off the mullet but he just stops cutting his hair instead, which turns out to grow weirdly fast. He gets Allura to teach him how to braid it, which is a very weird bonding experience for her. She'll take it?

[acaesic]

why do i like dallon weekes so much. how did i get to this point in my life

[thechaoticdruid]

AHHH. I don't know why I'm having such a mental headache.

(Personal life stuff undercut.)

Today was the day I began to finally have an identity crisis. Okay so most of my life I've identified as female. Just a tomboy because I liked a lot of stuff that's labeled more "traditionally masculine." Violent TV shows and video games, etc. And well most of the time I didn't think too much about gender really. Not unless someone told me I couldn't do something because I was a girl.

So mostly I've just identified as a tomboy, a gender nonconforming woman. But as trans and NB people got more mainstream I learned new terms.

So basically I'm pretty comfortable as a woman, but every once and a while I feel like I'm something else whether it's a boy or just me without a label. It doesn't happen too often but it always makes me feel odd.

Like She/Her pronouns are probably staying for me no matter what I don't think I could get used to being called anything else but for a while I've wondered about identifying as a demigirl. And idk today it's been going back and forth in my brain from tomboy to demigirl to the point I'm getting a headache. Like am I really a demigirl or do I just feel pressured to add a label because of all the fandoms I've been in are heavily LGBT populated and I feel like I need to fit in. I also get freaked out by pretty drastic changes to my life so there's also that. And I only really like men so what's my sexuality then if I'm a demigirl?

Idk usually whenever this has come up in my brain the past few years I usually just be like I'm just a tomboy and then everything goes back to normal, but today it's just causing me distress for some reason.

[affluent-havoc]

[principiumindividuationis777]

[evildemonclan]

we’ve made a funny realisation about who i am as alter, it looks like I’m yet another partial reincarnation/recycling of an old host; specifically *the* old host

not completely but I do notice he’s in me in some fashion; it’s in fitting with my source for this to have happened to me as well… sigh

[morethananhour]

how to wear pants androgynous-ly to a wedding when uve got these stupid ass feminine hips 🙄

[riftwalker-limbro]

well apparently angst is in the air today and it bit me too so

i've always examined vince vs jay from his own perspective but what do pule and verica even think.

edit post-writing this: oh this is a hot pile of half-formatted brain vomit. click the read more at your own risk. my goal was to get my thoughts straight, and i did, and now this is a mess and i'm not fucking fixing it

pule did his grieving while he was still human, i think. he never did expect to see jay again, but once he remembers the worst period of his fucking life while sitting next to the two (well, 1.9) people who notable weren't there for it, it's... well, a shock is putting it lightly, i imagine. they know his name, they have the right vibes that, despite the fact he'd never felt them as human like he could now as a warframe with transference, just fit - mostly. not all of it is correct, but enough is, and the second he manages to ask if it's jay, he gets swiftly but gently corrected, that, well, yes, but also it's vince now.

once he finds out Why it's vince now, pule struggles hard with being confronted with the walking, breathing truth of accidentally getting his best friend actually killed for a while still. part of the grieving process gets reset entirely, and as friend fashion show has pointed out so excellently, it does do pule a lot of good to hang out a lot with others (bruiser, notably) that he doesn't have a painful shared past with. the threads he dropped with jay are easy to pick back up with vince, though: sharing old jokes and making new ones referencing stuff only they know, ways of thinking that are still almost identical after years of close friendship, etc. they grew together for a significant formative period of their lives, and that still affects just how suited to be each other's friend they are.

verica has a more complex headspace around this. she actively searched for him, knowing that he hadn't died but instead had become a warframe, even though he stopped pinging on the orokin radars even before she got apprehended and warframe'd herself. there's such a huge chance that he's dead, but dammit, if anyone can do the impossible, it should be the mathematician who'd managed to put a pencil into a pocket dimension between solid reality & the poisonous void. and she's... partially right.

when she wakes up on kelth's orbiter, she's going to think the idiot before her is jay. he'd done it, he'd managed to come back from the dead, and found her scattered clues. and, well, we know it isn't really jay anymore. he doesn't even confess the whole thing, at first - he just says, well, i go by vince now. and she rolls with it completely because why wouldn't she. it's only when the cracks start to show, both in his behaviour and in one certain scene between the three of them that i'm sure i'll die two and a half times while writing before i'll get it just right, that she actually realises that Nope, Not Jay. Not Like That Anymore.

she struggles with even just accepting it in her head, at first - he's so much like jay, pinging Correct in so many little ways, but he's Not, calling him by that name hurts him, and thinking of him as jay is wrong for the person vince is now. she goes through the period of grief she hadn't allowed herself even before everything.

and now, all three of them are in the same space, grieving the shit that happened to them, that one of them had to die, but at least they now have each other again. for reasons mentioned before, bonds with vince are built up extremely fast, and they quickly get to the same level of friendship they were at with jay. they go beyond, even - vince needs them more than jay did, even if he might not want to phrase it like that to not force them into anything, but they respond to it in kind. one of the consequences of the way warframes are fundamentally changed, made more rigid and less flexible, from humans in my lore makes it so that they will seek out familiarity at ridiculous costs. removing the memories from fresh frames was a fix for that by the orokin, but you can't just make something Rigid/Inflexible, apply a Change, and expect it to not eventually pop back into its original shape like memory foam.

pule & verica is also an interesting initial dynamic, i think. pule feels guilty for, well, everything - he's still under the impression that he'd gotten ghosted for life, and the fact that the warframe he'd been glaring at from the corner of his eyes, the one that had looked way too much like the recently-vanished artist octavia to be anything like a respectful tribute, had actually been her all along and he hadn't even bothered to look into it- he does struggle with it. of her own part, verica's shocked to see him at all, didn't realise that he'd whole ass up and volunteer for the program if she also disappeared, didn't realise that sitting down and letting herself grieve with him had also been an option. i imagine she does also initially carry some guilt over this, though she gets over hers significantly faster than pule does, both because it's just Less Significant Levels of Guilt & because she's just way more prone to Alright Oops Let's Move On than he is (hi. musician who's been in public about it here. making mistakes & moving on like nothing happened is a Necessary & Learned Skill. show must go on & all that)

i think pule would initially expect her to be hostile towards him, after he gets over the shock of "holy shit you're a warframe too? holy shit you're That Warframe? i was never ghosted on purpose??". but 1. even if she did have the right to get hostile, which she knows she doesn't, it wouldn't do anything, and 2. buddy friend we're still here after everything why would i be mad about getting this second chance at life. i've already lost my other friends and family and everything from that life, just let me hang on to you and this other idiot with all the strength left in me.

anyway, that's how the three of them become inseparable on an almost-physical level. a true triad. they get a shared bedroom and sleep together in a pile and everything. you'll find out

[crystal-clear-crystalline]

Series 4 really treated us right cause series 5 isn't hitting as it should be

[fightwing]

"pacific blue is absolutely your color!" / @webheadedhero

" that's what I said!!!! " he's pacing, he knows he's pacing but peter is listening and dick is glad SOMEONE is finally the voice of reason tonight. dick spins on his most recent lap, pivoting on his heel with the memory of a headline he'd long since forgotten. " you don't think the suit looks 'diet batma.n', do you? "

[salemthegoldfish]

@_@

[lunasilvis]

Carhartt recently released a line of t-shirts with cowboy/horse prints ...and someone needs to chain me to a pole right now

[ask-the-rag-dolly]

umm a comic concept that i'm not sure if i'll ever get into

midway through an adventure , ragatha and zooble gets trapped in a fashion contest to where they get heavily criticized by both the judge and the audience . i sure do hope the chronic people pleaser and horrible identity crisis take this well

[principiumindividuationis777]