#eye of the universe appearance
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
A lovely view.
#outer wilds#outer wilds spoilers#brittle hollow#black hole#eye of the universe appearance#art#artists on tumblr#digital painting
921 notes
·
View notes
Text
Finally, after some missions through time, Dan has managed to be approved as "Officially Reformed", and only with some supervision from Clockwork and Danny, will he be free to return to live in the human world.
So with the help of Clockwor, Tecnus and Tuker, an identity was created for him as a Young Adult, who after a few years of traveling around the world, returns to the United States to begin his University studies.
Dante Jackson Nightingale is a Young Adult recently enrolled in Gotham University to study Business and Finance with some elective classes in Engineering, being the place chosen for the high educational level as well as the level of ecto of the city… but the Phantom of the future has other hidden intentions.
During his 10 years of rampant destruction, Dan had a period of "calm", the reason, the strange relationship he developed with Batman, a relationship that was about to bring the angry spirit back to sanity by focusing his obsession on something else…
But it all ended when a surviving and better-funded group of GIW caught Red Hood to experiment on him, so the Batfam immediately went looking for him, and at first the rescue everything went according to plan, but it was until the end where everything went off the rails with the appearance of the Joker… it was never known how it all ended with the explosion of the bat, but it ended up costing the lives of the Bat and the Clown, and some permanent damage to some of the Batkids.
The death of the Knight of Gotham City ended up reviving and fanning the flames of anger and destruction within Dan, which would cause a destruction greater than anything known before.
So, in this new reality, Dan plans to continue with his original intentions with the bat, this time proving that he was a worthy partner for the Dark Knight.
#batman#danny phantom#dp x batman#dp x dc#bruce wayne#dan phantom#clockwork#Dan ended up falling in love with Batman#Because of their romance he put his attacks aside#Dan wanted to conquer Batman#Batman said no because you are the age of my youngest children#Dan did not give up and discovers his identity#Dan trained his form to look bigger than Bruce#Dan is just as tall and big as Bane#Dan prepared his identity to be older than Dick#Dan is much older than Bruce now#He has extra years from missions in time#but Dan appears to be between 20 and 30#Bruce does not know what to do with this young college boy who flirts with him#The Batkids do not know what to think of this boy who flirts with his father#Those who are at the university keep an eye on him#Dan is clearly a Meta#Dan has Ghostly traces in his human form
183 notes
·
View notes
Text
In which Ford struggles so badly to relate to other people that he wonders if he’s really human at all. The more isolated he becomes, the harder it is to reconcile with his own humanity.
#my art#gravity falls#Stanford pines#ford pines#bill cipher#comic#eye strain#TIME TO DUMP EVERY ONE OF THE 27483949 THOUGHTS IVE HAD INTO THE TAGS BABY#OK!! SO!!!!#I feel like Ford would wonder why he and Stan (being identical twins) aren’t. yk. identical. shouldn’t Stan have polydactyly too?#as a kid he would dream about secretly being nonhuman and being whisked away to a fantastical world full of people like him#finally free of new jersey‚ finally somewhere he belongs#a lot of this disconnect from humanity came from utterly failing at social interactions while others (including stan) navigated them easily#the feeling waned after Stan was kicked out and he didn't have that direct comparison but it never left#then out in the wilderness of gravity falls‚ his isolation and immersion in Weirdness dragged it back up to the forefront#he deserves to have a breakdown over questioning his own nature. as a treat <3#color symbolism time bc I have a problem and use it at every available moment!!! blue and yellow get more vivid#the further from humanity the subject is#bill is entirely made w pure rgb blue and yellow (+ approximately 2674835 textures/layers/blending modes. I reached 150+ layers. help)#I like the idea that he would appear to ford like pure math considering hes a geometrical motherfucker and how the rest of the mindscape wa#I tried to mostly use trigonometry and related stuff for the Math Greebling. as well as fractals i love you forever fractals#MORE SYMBOLISM:#the grid-ish diamond pattern in all of the mindscape bgs (and elsewhere) is a penrose diagram of spacetime#which shows other universes on the other sides of black holes#SOMEONE ASK ME ABOUT MY EUCLYDIA HEADCANON LATER. IVE DUMPED ENOUGH DUMB HCS IN THESE TAGS ALREADY#BUT I THINK ITS VERY FUN#anyways. fuckt up guys n their egos influencing how they view humanity. bill tells ford hes as human as they come bc he was so easily foole#ford cant reconcile with his humanity bc of a failure to perform in one area#and then the immense guilt and shame over what hes done <3#I have So many ford characterization thoughts. no man nor god can stop me
167 notes
·
View notes
Text
One of the most irritating headcanons that keeps popping up; "Severus hated having Ginny Weasley in his class because she looked like Lily."
Other than the fact that there is nothing to suggest Severus has some pavlovian response to every red head in existence, if this is your headcanon, your bigger concern should be that Harry married Ginny.
#I keep seeing that headcanon and it annoys the hell out of me#He's unsettled by Harry's appearance because Harry is described as a transported malfunction perfect copy of his parents#His fathers face and his mothers exact eyes#Other than having a shade of red hair it's never suggested that she looks like Lily#This is Harry Potter not Oedipus#severus snape#ginny weasley#harry potter universe
133 notes
·
View notes
Text
oc-tober day 4 complete with iorek, one of my more under-appreciated ocs... underappreciated by me, of course 😭
iorek (pronounced yore-eck) is a iotere (pronounced yo-tare-ay). iotere are a serpent-like folk that live in vast cave systems on a planet with low gravity. their bony masks are the only truly hard parts of their body, and they can squeeze through any space they can fit their heads into. their diet largely consists of shellfish that live in underground aquifers.
iorek lives with my characters romsir, areson, xalei, and eno, but beyond that i haven't developed much of his character... i know he's quiet, stoic, and serves as a paternal figure due to his advanced age. but other than that he's got nothing 😵💫 go grandpa! i guess 😭
#digital art#sketch#ocs#oc:iorek#oc:areson#oc:romsir#oc:eno#bweirdoctober#i made iorek in high school so i have no excuse for him being this underdeveloped its kinda embarassing#i have more lore for his species than him as a character so. ig ill put that in the tags#iotere have a diminishing population due to prejudices in the greater universe. theyve been treated rather poorly for a long time#their societies are matriarchal in nature and are sort of similar to bees#iorek is like analogous to a drone but hes unique in that hes lived a lot longer than expected after being kicked out of his maternal nest#also in regards to physical appearance iorek is chubby. he lives on a planet with much high gravity now and its harder for him to get aroun#so hes gotten kinda sedentary and gained a bit of weight. homeworld iotere are a bit slimmer#also hes soft to the touch. like velvet. iotere are covered in a fine down all over their bodies#also they dont have true eyelids. theyve been underground long enough to lose those#they have something like a transparent nictitating membrane to keep the eye moist and clean since they havent lost vision yet#but iorek struggles to see in full sunlight and operates best in low to no-light environments#what im trying to say is you'd lose a staring contest with him bc you cant tell when he 'blinks' and he would cheat with a straight face
22 notes
·
View notes
Text
schools been kicking my ass and it hasn’t even gotten to the juicy parts yet. Anyways have a horrible stinky man that I despise, I’ll probably change his design by next week tho.
#batman#dc comics#fanart#dc#batman fanart#digital arwork#joker#joker fanart#is it fanart if I hate him?#dc fanart#my art#the joker#His appearance will change#I kinda wanna draw all the villains#dc universe#bruce wayne#art#He has an eye tattoo#Why?#cause i said so
63 notes
·
View notes
Text
Hakeem Freeman! Heartthrob to the stars! [Patreon | Commissions]
#beas ocs#eyes & the observer#they need their own tag...I'll think of one eventually#Hakeem#Pearl & Olaan (guest appearances)#When designing him my goal was to make that 'heart of gold playboy hotshot' archetype but in a way I'd actually find attractive#and the way he achieves that is through loving & caring about people/places/the universe deeply & without restraint#bea art tag#comix#oc art#star filled oyster#scifi oc
32 notes
·
View notes
Text
What if… Suiren in Vaatu’s colours 😳👀
#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#avatar suiren au#original character#sotrl suiren#Kat once said. and I quote – ‘Suiren would look really good with Vaatu’s colours. you can’t argue because I’m right’#so here I am. not arguing and instead giving the people what they want#because SHE DOES look good in Vaatu’s colours#don’t get me wrong I love her in her usual blue. but the red & black just does something to my brain#lmao I’m picturing her fusing with Vaatu and getting like a magical girl transformation 😂😂😂#okay not really but. if Vaatu could fuse with Unalaq to become… whatever the fuck that thing that sometimes appears in my nightmares was#then he could definitely dye her dress a different colour if he wanted to. okay? okay#and he’d zap her fire nation bracelet into a water tribe one bc it’s important to balance the colour scheme 😤#(for the record this wouldn’t actually happen in universe I’m just messing around)#this AU is just way too fun to play around with. yes I will make my already badass OC into an overpowered Mary Sue who replaces the mc#what are you gonna do about it?#I can’t stop drawing stuff for it#focusing literally only on the fun silly goofy parts because there’s enough heavy stuff in other verses AND irl already#maybe I just want family shenanigans mixed in with a rewrite of LoK’s shitty politics? have you ever thought about that?#is that such a crime?#and most of all. this makes me happy and I like to indulge in it. and enjoying creating is already so rare for me#so as long as this AU keeps being enjoyable for me I’m gonna keep at it no matter what anyone says#avatar suiren is my little self indulgent concept that I came up with when I was 13 and waited far too long to do something with#so now I’m making up for all those years#sue me :)#(is it just me or have I been saying ‘sue me’ way too much recently. idk. my mom’s a lawyer* that porbably has something to do with it)#(*has a law degree but never once used it. why the fuck would she get one when she already has an accountant’s degree? hell if I know)#anyway random side ramble about my mom’s life story aside#what colour do you think a balanced avatar’s eyes would turn when they go into the avatar state?
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
Infinite list of favourite lyrics: 226/?
The Magnetic Fields - Andrew in Drag (2012)
"A pity she does not exist,
A shame he's not a fag;
The only girl I ever loved
Was Andrew in drag.
There is no hope of love for me,
From here on I'll go stag -
The only girl I'll ever love
Is Andrew in drag.
[...]
I've always been a ladies' man
And I don't have to brag
But I become a momma's boy
For Andrew in drag.
I'd sign away my trust fund
I would even sell the Jag
If I could spend my misspent youth
With Andrew in drag..."
#favourite lyrics#the magnetic fields#andrew in drag#2012#stephin merritt#love at the bottom of the sea#i won't pretend to be some great fan of The Magnetic Fields‚ or even to know very much about them at all; this is really the#only song of theirs that's floated across my radar‚ but the second it did it stuck firm as a favourite#recounting the surely universal (no?) experience of seeing a friend in a new and confusing context which blows open your ideas about#sex and sexuality‚ Merritt's deadpan delivery mixed with the pop lite synth design of the song give it a very specifically 80s feel but#the wry lyrics feel a little more up to date. it's actually quite a sweet song‚ underneath it all; our narrator doesn't seem to be beating#himself up particularly about these new feelings‚ just bemoaning the helplessness of the situation. likewise there's something quite#charming about the way the lyrics don't specify really anything about Andrew's appearance (besides being in drag): there's no focus on the#physical‚ but simply the expression of a yearning desire (albeit somewhat crudely expressed). I've always particularly liked how vividly#Merritt sketches in his narrator‚ his life and experiences in just a few lines (after all‚ this is a brief song and about 40% of the lines#are just the title repeated). it's in the details of the trust fund and the jag‚ as well as the specific turn of phrase (the slur‚ the#non quoted lines about wagging tails) which so perfectly recall an image of a certain type of well to do American frat boy#and all the eye rolling coarseness and selfishness that implies‚ but subverted a little in this one sincere expression of newly#found and unrequited queer attraction
6 notes
·
View notes
Note
talk about one of your OCs!!!
I genuinely tried to think of anyone other than Aiden but failed real hard (which scares me a bit at this point ggkfkfk)
Anyway
* throws RANDOM AIDEN LORE at you*
I want to talk about their shit constitution which happens because of their powers, or the absence of it to be more exact.
Back to some worldbuilding. I did say they are a witch, it means in their lineage they share blood with a magical being, and each families have a special ability linked to that being. Witches is like its own subspecies of halfbloods- they appear almost entirely human with the only exception being their 'odd colored' eyes.
Aiden's family are mind witches, their special ability is hypnosis. Its a powerful ability and Aiden was REALLY good at it without even realising, to a point it caused reoccuring incidents and weird rumors. So their parents, who wanted to lay low (witches arent very welcomed in the Light Kingdom), decided to leave and find a way to lock Aiden's power, better safe than sorry. Since then Aiden has a tattoo on their back, close to where the heart would be. (Its also how their eyes turned orange instead of purple.)
The thing is that it made Aiden's past hypnosis null. And they used to hypnotize themself A LOT. So lots of physical problems started to appear, all the times they pushed their body past its limits, all the sicknesses they seemed to not catch, plus their body losing a flow of energy it used to be swimming in. Their health got TERRIBLE. It took them a while to get better enough to come back to Old Corona.
It also made them grow a bit distant from their parents (who are genuinely very good people) because they were too over protective. Lil Aiden simply saw that their pain caused pain to their parents and that when they werent feeling well they couldnt do much except resting in bed so they decided to ALWAYS be fine no matter what. It results in them putting aside any 'wrong feeling' and the start of them focusing on others well being rather than their own. Which globally makes their own health even worse, eventually resulting in them losing some limbs and being in pain 24/7 because they cannot ask for help ever-
Cue the want to become a physician rising. It makes them able to take care of themself on their own if needs be, but more importantly they get to be busy worrying about others rather than themself.
#which might be why I am so fascinated by their dynamic with Hugo#its the guy who appears always fine for others' sake vs the guy who appears always fine for his own mental health#and they catch on it and lowkey use it to their advantage and AURGH THEY MAKE ME INSANE#I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT AIDEN AND MY WORLDBUILDING AROUND VAT 7K I MIGHT EXPLODE#nuru and yong are also witches because they have weird eye colors but their kingdom is a bit more open about it#I try to explain the existance of magic in the tang led universe AND the lack of it at certain points#i developed this whole other dimension lowkey linked to where zhan ti ri was locked in#and their quest becomes more than just finding the eternal library but when they realise it there is no going back anyway#ITS A MESS. MY BRAIN IS A MESS. THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE STUPID FAN STUFF BUT HERE I AM#meanwhile my original stories are saddly dying in a corner#sorry I went crazy there-#eryanswers#eryanwrites#zachdanielswhisky#Vat7k aiden
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Ok another silly lil game. If you could insert one person (or group of people) - real or fictional, current or historical, human or not - into the mbs universe. who would it be. Mine is Weird Al Yankovic
#I think he would fit right in with the adults#his role in the mbs universe is that he's just There#he appears and breaks into song at opportune moments#especially when characters are alone having an introspective moment#no one bats an eye at this#or even seems to notice he's there#except for Mr. Benedict.#he's just like [mid-breakdown] [Weird Al materializes] Oh back again are we! Hello there :) [breakdown reprises now with Song]#Curtain also can perceive Weird Al.#he goes ballistic.#constantly tormented by this singing jester man#the mysterious benedict society
21 notes
·
View notes
Photo
Throwing my hat into the ring with a Pizza Tower OC. His name is Stinky and he’s a roach who simply wants a bite to eat. Unfortunately for him, not a lot of restaurants want pests in their establishment.
#my art#pizza tower oc#pizza tower#yeah i'll put it in the main tags. after all why not.#he's not a serious oc with lore or anything btw he's just a funny guy. figured it'd fit the pt universe#there are some things that are serious lore OR have dark implications but also. there is a sentient pizza guy.#and also i want you all to know that i'm obsessed with his soulful eyes in the bottom right of 1st image.#ALSO ALSO: dw it's only like the 1st time he goes to pep's place that he gets squished#other times it's just like. whatever the equivalent of bug in a cup would be for a larger bug.#he goes by cartoon physics like everything else so if he's squished he is just Fine in the next appearance.
44 notes
·
View notes
Text
at about an hour in, mistborn appears to be a competently written and exciting but thematically basic and occasionally pretentious action fantasy series. I couldn't be more satisfied, this is exactly what scratches the itch. I don't think I'll have much more commentary on it.
#it's not really trying to be....politically/morally high-minded like I think a lot of modern fantasy writers are#as in 'oh we can't kill them we'll be just as bad!' nope those are slavers and overseers and um we are going to murder them#and we're justified! we are scammers and thieves also#the magic powers are kind of cool too but appear to be racially linked so...ehh...#also the treatment of SA and sex work is. predictable for a series written by a man w a male lead#but I didn't expect much better#like EYE think the morality of the characters is excellent but there's no moral or political lens to the actions in universe#YET. the one guy appears to be a rebel. but the rest are just doing it to survive.#but he's right and he doesn't have to justify himself. he's just right#cor.txt
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
haruka and takane are literally said to be experimented on but we never know what exactly happens to them and rly they didnt Have to get experimented on to get to where they end up on, just killed. but also its so much more fun to imagine they do get experimented on. my hc is since their red eyes case is kinda unique the experimenting bit also plays a part in the way saeru cheats the system to get 2 snakes out in 1 day. cuz technically ONE snake should be out by killing two people. for 2 snakes to get out you’d need 4 people!!
also something i never got is HOW is ayano able to open the daze by herself and keep one snake when it’s supposed to be when 2 people die. all 3 of their cases are a little ridiculous or i just personally dont get it. i take pride in understanding kagepro but ayano’s thing is something i never quite got lol. HOW DO ALL 3 GET A SNAKE IF THEY DIE ALONE(?) i thought maybe the daze opens for ayano bc haruka and takane’s deaths already opened it that day?? we dont rly know if ayano dies before or after haruka and takane after all. erm. 1 million thoughts in tags like always
#IDC. takane has scars on her scalp from saeru messing with her brain for shit like her spirit to be able to leave for opening eyes#LIKE... HAVING A SPIRIT IS CANON IN THE KAGEPRO UNIVERSE WE DONT TALK ABT THIS ENOUGH#and haruka already has scars from normal surgeries he's had in his life#but when he gets his body back there's SO MANY NEW ONES and he has no idea if it's from konoha's misadventures or whatever the fuck saeru#did to him and takane#i know awakening can like. regenerate the body#but maybe for a body like azami's it works flawlessly but for a human body like haruka's it leaves a lot of sequels#and thats why when he gets his body back and he's not rly able to properly use or rather control awakening#his appearance gets stuck like midway between konoha and himself#HARUKA STILL POSSESSES AWAKENING IN STR HE JUST CANT CONTROL IT#it focuses entirely on his health all by itself#he has wounds from shit like konoha taking bullet wounds from saeru#hehe#the dan asking haruka and takane how the hell did saeru manage to get 2 snakes out with them#and them being like UR ASKING US?? HOW THE FUCK WOULD WE KNOW WE WERE LITERALLY PASSED AWAYED#ur always in that damn autopsy table tumblr post.#sorry. experimenting in a lab is such an interesting plot point and the fact its so confusing and really kinda makes no sense to use the#word experimenting its rather that saeru kills them. WHAT DO U NEED THE FUCKING LAB FOR#saeru getting influenced by kenjirou's freak science interests. it's like i just want to get this over with but man this human's brain has#interesting concepts. lets play around with it a little.#idk. i think mixing the experimenting bit with the How The Hell Did U Get 2 Snakes Out is interesting#like saeru rly using it to cheat the system. IDK. its clearing it just be knowing shit#with human knowledge from kenjirou's brain and its snake knowledge of snake things whatever that is. yeah. total sense#my aunt texting me while im writing this. she's asking me if im busy#YES IM BUSY IM WRITING A KAGEPRO POST#kagevinnie#is this kagexplain or kagenalysis or headcanons. what tag do i use. man i dont fucking know. kagepro is such a joke#kagenalysis
32 notes
·
View notes
Text
"because all he'll see is me" is a line that's absolutely killing me
#idc if its platonic or romantic or qpr or a scret fourth thing#the raw emotion behind that#the attachment#the not even death can tear us apart#the even when all else fails and when i cannot trust myself and i know that you'll be there#you might be there with hatred and disgust and a wish to hurt but you're at least there#the we will fight each other because there is no other way but none of us will die because if one does the other will follow#the when the universe has fallen and i cry myself to sleep because of all you've done it is still your face that appears in my dreams#the i don't know if it brings me pain or comfort but your soul will always be there#the time might heal all wounds but it doesn't make you forget#it doesn't make you forget the pain and it especially doesn't make you forget the joy#the no matter how many times i close my eyes and tries to drive the memories away i can still feel your voice inside my head#the i will spend my days chasing after you and fighting you because at least it will give me a chance to see your eyes#the no matter how much i hate you seeing your face will still bring me to my knees#the your hand will bring me both my downfall and my rebirth#obikin#anakin skywalker#obi wan kenobi spoilers#obi one kenobi episode 6#obi wan kenobi#darth vader#vaderwan#anakin x obi wan#obi wan x anakin
26 notes
·
View notes
Note
When you started drawing? And how? Your works are so detailed and you feel the perspective so Q_Q Your drawing of old hunter from DLC is incredibly cool, I am looking respectfully
Oh- You mean this ( x ) one? Haha, yeah, it was an art commission, so I tried to give it the best I could... Though maybe using something I was paid for as a chance to practice perspective was a little irresponcible :') But the customer was happy, and this is what matters!
To be honest, I've been drawing for as long as I can remember...? I have quite the regrets about having basically none of my drawings from childhood survive, because it's been a LOT. But I've been going over the top with details, colors and settings since the age of like, 4-5 I think? I recall the caretakers at kindergarden REALLY loving my drawing of underwater, because I killed it with variety of fish and seaweed, despite having no references or knowledge! Also, fun fact - the very first art criticism of my life from me was towards a girl that colored every woman in her coloring book as blonde with blue eyes! I criticized her saying that there were other colors for people and that it was boring to be so samey dsfjjdshfsd Had to apologize, but.. yeah, it was the ultimate "I've always been this way" moment if I've seen one. :')
I used to visit classes to practice my drawing in elementary school, though! But it was mostly environment and animals, when I was more interested in drawing people at that time! The period from 8 to 12 years was the one where I kept creating OCs obsessively, and stories for them, and I've had like 6 comics I've been drawing and coloring at the same time (mostly comedy + fantasy)! I think what really inspired me to start creating the comics and characters that were mostly young girls with elemental powers was the Russian comic, Rainbow Knights x) (Журнал "Юла", припоминаешь? хд) I was obsessed with it, and I was obsessed with excuse to use more colors, effects and nature/elemental aesthetic. And yes, it was all trdaitional! I love using crayons, markers, pens and pencils for coloring. My clumsy hands were never good for paintbrushes... I moved more onto digital around the age of 14. It was when I've found a summer job, and earned enough money to buy a tablet! So.. I started prioritize digital art since then! But it had the form of me first drawing something on the paper, and then scanning and fixing/lining/coloring it on the computer for a LONG time! Well, it was taking some time to get used to, as well, so I also had some drawings I did with my mouse and vector tool in PS or SAI, like this:
It is one of the only few remaining "ancient" ones, since most of them got lost forever on the old hard drive! ...I still HAVE this hard drive, I just have no idea how to extract anything from it.. It is kinda broken :U But if I get my hands on very old doodles trapped there, I will share!
^ I believe this was the first doodle that I did 100% on the computer AND with the tablet! Without mouse, without first drawing traditonally and then digitally, but just on the computer, from start to finish! But it was still hard to do, so I kept with the use of paper and pencil for some more while. Like- I hoped I'd find some old drawings for this ask, but all I found were traditional versions of some of my drawings!
You could tell that using traditional paper + pencil were beneficial for anatomy and proportions. And that I used to be better at that, VERY much better. And that it was sorta... easier to 'get lost' in the process? It was a simpler life when not only I was far less depressed and broken, not only I had more spare time in schoo/uni years, but also just... I did not feel burnt out. Or guilty over the fact of not finishing new drawing "fast enough" (and thus, looking like a loser). I also had less things online to drain my spare time, less distractions... I kinda miss that time, really...
All in all, I've never learned to draw PROPERLY. I was self-taught but not studying too hard, mostly I was just analysing art of artists I loved to improve my own, and asking advice from good artists to fix this or that! Hence, my skill used to be better! Year 2015-16 was my most productive year artistically! I've been drawing a bunch of (then) popular cartoon stuff, as well as TONS of fanart for Rick and Morty RP community, and all the things were sooooo bright, colorful and full of energy...
And now meet the man that sorta ended my art career :^) I've picked interest in Mark (Endlish localisation called him Marx and I hate it lol), and that pulled me into the rest of K1rby. Except I could not actually play anything (besides 64 Crystal Shards that I emulated), so I compensated with letsplays and anime. And Super Paper Mario was a side obsession. xD But.... yeah, since MARK, dark ages for my art started. No, no, my art was good! Awesome, even! I kept people begging me to "please draw K1rby again" for years since fandom shifting! Words like, 'no one ever cared about this universe and characters the same way you do'... But! Drawing 'creatures' for 2-3 years completely destroyed my prior (already loose) knowledge of human anatomy and proportions, and I am still struggling to recover that former skill! :')
Finally, year later, around February/March 2021, I've gotten pulled into Bloodb0rne! Badly. And thanks to Mic0lash. Huh, it is always some madman, isn't it? xD But I felt very self-consious about my art... I felt like serious, detailed, dark and beautiful atmosphere of BB deserved better than my "overly cutesy" and "tone-deaf" art.... annnnd if this sounds like something I'd never say, but rather as an unfair criticism from some antsy reddit-ish asshole? It is because it is EXACTLY what it was! :')
But in either case, the Doll was the first time I've used paper and pencil again in many years. I felt so... alive? I recall the feeling I could only describe as 'blood returned in my veins' but spiritual, you know? It felt like so much fun! To remember how to draw traditonally, to break out of my 'round cutesy' comfort zone- heck, I even downloaded brushes for my SAI for the first time in my life, just to color the characters better! Learned new coloring style, too: usually my coloring was very rigid and relying on very concrete colors for shadow and base.. but from this point on, I prioritized more 'chaotic' approach, as I felt it was more appropriate!
....and so, now we are here. x)
You could tell that some of the things I am just used to persisted, and that colorful, "childish" energy is still slipping through the cracks. Soulsb0rne games are ideal for how my mind works... but perhaps not for how my soul works. There is just something in me that craves that sillyness, overly colorful designs and settings, and maybe ER is closer to that aesthetic? Yeah, had I not been criticized on my art harshly upon joining BB, maybe my art would've been way more cute and 'free'! I always loved drawing many details, but something about the route I've taken about drawing made it very heavy. My brain short-circuits at the AMOUNT of the details I keep in mind, yet I can't rest unless I got it "at least 90% correct", even when it is a darn shitpost ;-; I will figure out what went wrong compared with the way I used to draw humans..... someday.
Thank you for asking, though! Ha! Honorable mention: tons of shitposty comics and doodles I kept drawing in classes, both school and uni! x)
#ask replies#personal#doodles#memories#creativity#visual art#damn that was a neede retrospection... even if a bit sad one#I've also have insentive to think that the reason my art got 'distorted' is my eye condition and..... something with my brain#hoooo boy#like you know those 'before and after' drawing comparison from the same person when their mental illness progressed?#basically I have insentive to think it is something drastic like this especially with how I seem to be intellectually regressing#...about everything but 'mysteries of the universe' and spirituality#I really AM going to turn into a spider huh?! okay when and how kos did something to me? fdsjhhfdsds#but yeah basically? I've been 'this way' since childhood#i always took art assignments over the top#not mentioned in the post because yes sad stuff is for the tags but teachers at school abused this skill lol#they kept forcing me to draw large canvases for holidays and events without any compensation for my wasted time -_-#god I hate teachers in government-funded schools!#still thank you for the ask!#i am not accustomed to so much interest to my weird ass self so sorry if I appear like I am taking it for granted..#i'll respond in kind! .....eventually ;-;
9 notes
·
View notes